#eughhh i need sleep

[silverskye13]

The universe keeps thwarting me [nerfed by the common cold edition] but So Much (for) Stardust is a RnS Helsknight song.

#spazzcat barks #im delirious #but also i started drawing the two lines that make me EmotionalTM and had to stop because its 9pm and my brain is melting #anyway i keep imagining #'I used to be a real go getter' as Helsknight before he started looking like Wels #[taller muscular platinum white blonde hair annoying spotting of freckles constantly red eyes] #and then panning to 'I used to think it'd all get better' Helsknight with hair nearly auburn no freckles dull black-blue eyes #the only real thing setting him apart from his other half being the scars he chose to keep -- even those fading with time #so much for stardust... we thought we had it all....... #eughhh i need sleep #its just a good song okay #life is just a game maybe #im stuck in a lonely loop now baby #i need the sound of crowds now or i cant fall asleep at night #im losing my mind #i think ive been going through it.... ive been putting your name to it.... #[dilerious muttering continues]

[theclosetedskeleton]

Only the middle of the week and i want the weekend to be here NOW

#i hate how the days go by so quickly EXCEPT WHEN YOU NEED THE WEEKEND #like please i need a full 8+ hours of sleep and not have to cut my free time #not like i ever get enough sleep #i DONT but. i need it atp #i feel like going to sleep but i dont wanna deal with tmrw ☹️ not like anything bad/ stressful is occurring but #its so draining and so boring at the same time #whyyy does it have to take up all my day. i hate this #eughhh im getting tired #boo #closet rambles again on tumblr

[waloeders]

godzilla x kong today (hopefully 🤞)

#jupiter.speaks #> we havent booked so god knows if we'll get seats lmao #> also need to do a bit of last minute shopping before ireland trip #> i am however. eepy af. i want to b sleeping i did my active things yday eughhh

[lazorbeanz]

Sonamy Headcanons because I’m deprived and extremely delulu 🙃

🩷 Sonic has like- telepathic senses that tell him whenever Amy is in potential danger

“My Amy Senses are tingling..” 🤣

if you’ve watched Barbie Life in the Dreamhouse, you’ll get it lololol

💙 Sonamy road trips roles

Amy: driver, trip organiser, checklists checklist checklists, “DONT EAT THOSE THEY’RE FOR THE TRIP!!”, carpool karaoke *whips out her inner Ariana Grande*, “eughhh Sonic did you fart?!”

Sonic: passenger princess, DJ, snacc provider (and eater), sleeping beauty, “couldn’t we just use my speed to get there?”, argues with the GPS because he knows a faster route (one not requiring the road)

🩷 Sonic and Amy playing table tennis:

Amy: sonic, serve

Sonic: *💁‍♂️🕺*

Amy: no- serve the BALL xD

💙 Person: “are you two dating?”

Sonic and Amy: *while holding hands* “no”

🩷 Though he doesn’t admit it, Sonic also loves his quills massaged. Sometimes when Sonic and Amy are chilling under a tree together, and he ends up dozing off, Amy will rest his head on her lap and stroke her hand through his quills, resulting in a few faint purrs from the hedgehog, which she secretly gushes over about

💙 They could be arguing for 5 minutes straight and after be like:

“I LOVE YOUUUU!!” >:O

“I LOVE YOU TOOOOOO!!!!” >:O

🩷 Amy finds shopping twice as fun with Sonic because he will just sit her in the shopping cart, as they zip up and down the aisles whilst grabbing the items on the list…getting it all done in 2 minutes tops. They call it the Operation: S^2 (Speed Shopping)

💙 Sonic and Amy could already be years into marriage but will still do or say things that’ll make the other flustered, like the times when they were dating.

🩷 Amy knows that if Sonic is being really flirty with her, he usually wants something.

💙 If Sonic and Amy are both sick one day, they will tell off each other, insisting they should be at home resting.

It results in both of them at Amy’s house, snuggled up on the couch binging movies.

🩷 As much as Amy likes sharing the goss with rouge and the girls, there’s nothing like sharing it with her bf because he goes all “omg gurl no wayyy! 💅” or he starts spilling his own tea with her lmao “omg bestie you won’t believe who I saw the other day…”

💙 Sonic plans secret meet ups with Cream, who teaches him how to make her signature flower crowns…he hopes to master it so he can make Amy one, one day…

🩷 (this following hc was an idea from a comic I believe..don’t know who made it but if u do pls let me know for credit purposes ig kajsjwidj)

Amy knows how Sonic can sometimes struggle to speak his feelings and is often an action over words type of guy. So she came up with this thing that anytime Sonic wants to tell Amy he loves her, without verbally saying it, all he needs to do is squeeze her hand 3 times; I. Love. you.

💙 When Amy told Sonic she wanted to go dancing with him, she didn’t expect it to be just dance…anyways she had tons of fun!

🩷 If they have sleepovers, it’s a tradition that they wear matching onesies (guys comment what they should be hehe)

💙 Amy uses Sonic as the makeup tester. He ends up looking ready for the circus afterwards but he honestly doesn’t mind this because he gets tons of kissies when she’s trying out the lipsticks

🩷 Walks along the beach are nice and romantic until Sonic decides to be a lil shh and kick sand in Amy’s shoes *cue her dragging her naughty bf towards the ocean*

💙 Amy’s a sucker for old school romance; love letters, flowers, fancy dates…and Sonic knows this. (Well EVERYONE does actually…) So one day, despite how inexperienced he is in the whole romance department, sets aside time to work on writing a letter, buying flowers and arranging somewhere nice to take Amy out for her to fulfil her romance fantasies. She’ll even get to dress up for this occasion

🩷 Sonic helping out Amy in the kitchen be like:

“A-Amy…I burnt the water…”

“Sonic how TF did you BURN the water?!”

“I DONT KNO-”

💙 Amy is having a downer and is very clingy…so here is Sonic running his gf’s errands, with his gf clinging onto him. People will see this unusual phenomenon and he just gives them all the stare…nothing to see here! I mean it ain’t the first time he’s had to cart a pink hedgehog round the place

🩷 For the longest time, Amy has had a box sitting aside in her closet, containing a new special swim shirt, arm floaties, and a swimming kickboard, for when Sonic decides to finally learn how to swim. She can’t see the day any of the contents will be used but she could only hope.

💙 Sonic keeps an umbrella on standby for future “need to share an umbrella” emergencies

🩷 In the winter, they’re practically inseparable, using each other desperately to warm up. Because of this Tails had to design them jackets with instant heating, but they still end up back together even though they aren’t freezing anymore

#yep still normal about them guys mhm #I swear if someone draws out one of these hcs I might die #I love them so much ajsjwjaidjsjdh #sonic the hedgehog #sonic #sth #amy rose #sonamy #sonic x Amy #sonic and Amy #sonamy headcanons #sonamy brainrot

[chicago-geniza]

Covid is so much worse the second time and it never ends, I am Not Alive lol

Stefania absolutely positively ghost-co-wrote the screenplay for Dziesięciu z Pawiaka (1931) and I can cross-reference correspondence and close-read to stake this claim plausibly but need like, pay stubs and contract records from Sfinks archives for definitive proof. Thanks. If I can find those records I'm gonna email Małgorzata H., she's gonna plotz. I keep sleeping for 16+ hours and I can't breathe, this came to me in a dream that synthesized many primary sources just filed in my brain's rolodex. Can't think can't work can't sit upright without coughing my lungs out and feeling woozy. Eughhh

[bitterblackberry]

EUGHHH SIMS MAKING ME CRAZY

i made a sim who has their orientation stuff as follows:

interested in exploring romantically: no

romantic interests: none

woohoo interests: women

because i wanted to play an alloaro sim. BUT THEY CANT FLIRT ? AT ALL?? LIKE IT LITERALLY DOESNT LET YOU USE THE OPTION EUGHHHH. okay for one. my two sims here are SUPPOSED to be like life partners kinda deal and so i want to have access to options like “look deeply into eyes” “hold hands” and “embrace” but i just CANT do them shaking and slamming my head against my desk. i feel like EA never actually bothers to understand queer stuff they put in the game

1. those fuck ugly pride clothes

2. even though we’re allowed to put any clothes on any sim regardless of frame - EA still hasnt bothered to make anything actually *look good* on the opposite frame to what it was made for. like great my masculine frame sim can wear a skirt - but its going to clip weird and fit awkwardly

3. i have so many complaints about the binders and top scars oh my god. okay for one, your “female frame” sims HAVE to have tiddies - they can be small but they HAVE to have them. so this means no top scars on female frame sims but like? what about people who get surgery but don’t idk start t? like its so limiting. ALSO the binders suckass the texture is kind of ugly and theyre completely useless. they SHOULD be an accessory that your sim can wear under their clothes because when are you ever JUST wearing a binder?? like with regular undergarments i get it because people sleep in those - but with binders it makes no sense. they SHOULD actually compress your sims chest too like it literally does nothing. i was so excited to have a sim that like actually binds and like they have the binder on during most outfits but not for like sleep right idk itd just feel more like me in the game.

4. the pronoun update: its actually just grammatically incorrect. like the basic they/them preset option isnt implemented properly so the sentences will be wrong sometimes

5. i cant marry my sims without a romantic relationship um i dont want to do that let them have a wedding and be best friends and look deeply into each others eyes

kills EA

in trying to be “inclusive” they just keep making everything more and more binary so in the end they keep trying to force queer experiences into a system that was built from the ground up as allocisheteronormative. i know they wont do it but if they actually want queer sims in their game theyd need to rebuild CAS and the relationship system from the ground up. in this case the exclusion of queer people other than allocis gays at the launch of ts4 isnt a bandaid fix problem.

#ts4 #the sims 4 #sims #sims 4 #lgbt #queer #transgender #aromantic

[maulsoleum]

how are we feeling about my slightly updated pinned beloved :3 also how are you good morning. i like just woke up it’s 9:28 as we speak (dog crying noises)

I LOVE IT THE HEADER IMAGE HAD ME CACKLING BEFORE I WENT TO BED LMAO

also good morning (i’m an hour ahead of you wowie) i’ve been awake for like 4 hours and i hate it eughhh i am a dog who needs to sleep til 10 at LEAST

i am relatively good this morning!! my skull and jaw are rotting again (honestly my jaw is getting worrying it has not been like this in succession like ever) and i have to do bug related forensics activities but overall! pretty alright!

how are you!! (even though you just woke up, which, ough, far too early still imo)

#max’s doghouse #✉️ #will my beloved #everyone stfu all the mooties are awake this is a good day

[the25thviolence]

Nothing Story Part 4

***TRIGGER WARNING***

This story includes themes that reference suicide and self harm.  A more in depth explanation about the feelings of this subject will be included at the end of this part.  

It was beautiful.

....

Like passing clouds.

...

So warm.  This feeling.  So warm. 

“BREATHE!” shouted a Man.

Why does my chest hurt so much right now?

“We don’t know how long--” tried to explain the Maid.

“--I DON’T CARE!” shouted the Man.

1

2

3

Its all becoming cold again.

Like snow. 

“eughhh-” choked the girl.

Through blurred vision.  Either from lack of oxygen or the tears she forgot she cried.  Probably a mix of both.  

The man kneeled above her staring down wide eyed with red cheeks.  The Maid still checking for a pulse.

“When did it start snowing?” asked the girl meekly.  

“Snowing? It’s always been snowing.” replied the Man.

“I think she means the spots in her eyes right now, sir.” stated the Maid removing her hands from the girl. 

“Oh.” said the Man.

The Man got up without further words and left.  

“My throat hurts--” started to say the Girl as she reached at her neck and felt a bit of cloth where her throat should be. 

“Let me get that for you.” said the Maid as she began to untie the shreds of a bed sheet from around the Girls neck.  Revealing a dense red line across her throat. 

The Maid wrapped up the shreds of the bedsheet that weren’t still attached to the top of the bed and folded them gently in her arms.  She finished gathering the tools of this tirade and abruptly began to walk toward the door.  She stopped for a moment before leaving. 

“Dinner will still be served at 6pm.” said the Maid while turning around to leave. 

“Why?” asked the Girl while sitting on the ground, 

“Because its always served at 6pm.” answered the Maid.

“I mean-” started to ask the Girl before being cut off. 

“Geneva.” said the Maid cutting off the girl. 

“Oh.” quietly said the Girl. 

“indeed.” said the Maid as she left. 

The Girl sat on the ground for awhile.  Pondering her existence.  The whys and why nots.  Was this event a prelude, interlude, or postlude.  Was this a dream or a nightmare.  Nothing could be that simple.  If she was asleep it had to be something far more grander than sleep itself.  Maybe a coma.  Maybe she died just now and she was somewhere stuck in between the in between.  Too good for hell.  Too bad for heaven.  But not dead enough for the tragedy of purgatory.  A decision yet to be made by a greater power than herself. 

A question. 

Waiting for an answer. 

****

This is not part of the story.  This is the author trying to explain his feelings and give reasoning to his willingness to write a story with such sharp and dangerous tones as suicide and self harm.  I hope, I hope desperately that I can truly express myself right now. Its something I have experience with personally.  If just the thoughts and realizations of how easy it would be.  The fear of how capable I was always scared me away from that end.  But I’ve never stopped thinking about it.  Its a waking thought each day.  I guess it should be viewed as a nightmare.  But I always viewed it as an unreachable dream.  I don’t think you die when suicide happens.  I think we’ve died long before it actually happens.  All those days spent alive no matter how bad those days were, they were days spent fighting to stay alive.  I guess I picture it like the first day suicide appears in your head as an answer your already thrust off that cliff and for the rest of your life your falling.  Even in self harm your throwing your hands against the flat cliff wall trying to stay alive.  Desperately struggling around in the air as you fall.  Clawing at passing ledges trying to find a grip.  Trying to stop the fall.  People who want to die are trying so fucking hard to stay alive.  Even if it means not moving all day.  Cutting your arms till they bleed.  Walking yourself for hours till you collapse on the ground at 4am.  All this pain is like striking a match in the rain.  It can’t work but it doesn’t matter.  YOU NEED IT TO WORK OR YOU’LL DIE.  Even in struggle your trying to live.   And every day you survive is a victory.  One day you’ll find that tree branch sticking out and you’ll use every ounce of life you have left in you to catch that tree branch and save yourself.  

Depression is the struggle for life.  

Gravity weighs so heavily on us all.  Don’t be afraid to fight against it.  Wings weren’t made to shield you from the rain.  Your just a baby bird who fell from the nest too soon violently flapping its wings in desperation.  Catch it.  Don’t stop.  Keep trying to catch it.  Catch the wind and soar.  The sun misses you so.  The sky is waiting to embrace you. 

[smallboyonherbike]

someone come fucking slap me bc I've been nauseous as hell after eating the last two days and YET bc I have a gd emotional eating problem I'm sitting here like hmmm what's there to eat!! Like I'm literally still fairly nauseous yet all I want is a snack bc I'm a gd mess!!!!!!!

#food tw #eating tw #disordered eating tw #i guess #i mean i have Issues w food in that im either binging on absolute junk or eating nothing lmao #and my body is like hey dude let me make you nauseous so you stop eating junk #yet im like uhhhhh idc #eughhh i just need to sleep #megamazing

[neon-junkie]

i am humbly begging for any scrap of wrecker x reader that i can get omg i do not care if it’s fluff or smut it can be whatever you want there is just simply a criminally low amount of love for this man

this is very short, only 370 words, but i wanted to write some fluff for our big boy. (gender-neutral reader)

a few days ago, i reblogged a post about adults sleeping with stuffed toys. i still do, and a few anons came forward to admit that they also do! we know that Wrecker has his Lula, so here's a piece based on that ^_^

"Eughhh..."

With groggy vision, you peek your eyes open, instantly knowing where the disgruntled sound is coming from. By your side lies Wrecker, currently tossing and turning in his sleep. He soon sits upright, rubbing his eyes, clearing the gunk from his vision, before turning around and searching the bed.

"Are you alright?" you ask, sitting upright beside him.

"Can't find her..." Wrecker mumbles, sounding ready to collapse back into a deep slumber at any moment.

It only takes you a millisecond to realise who he's on about. "Oh, Lula," you sigh, and begin searching with him.

Wrecker knows that she hasn't gone far, but that doesn't stop him from grumbling and panting. He needs her - he needs his Lula - one of the few things that brings him peace and comfort.

"Here she is," you say as you gently pull her up from the side of the bed, pinned between the wall and the mattress.

Wrecker lets out a deep sigh of relief, and engulfs her into his grasp, ecstatic to be reunited at last! He places a gentle kiss on her forehead before expressing his gratitude. "Thank you, don't know what I'd do without her."

"I know, big guy," you say with a smile. Like Lula, a tender kiss is placed on your forehead, followed by Wrecker urging you to lie down, and snuggle up to him.

With Lula in one arm, you bundle up opposite her, sharing Wrecker; it's not like you two have to fight for his affection. Wrecker has more than enough love to warm an entire planet, but thankfully, he only needs to warm a few special people.

Resting your hand on his chest, you snuggle up to him more, and Wrecker welcomes you by tightening his grasp on your waist. A soft, "love you," can be heard, and you repeat Wrecker's words, sending your love right back at him.

Peeking one eye open, you rest your hand over Wrecker's, who is holding Lula by his side. "Love you too, Lula," you whisper.

Wrecker is beaming with joy, and with a sappy grin, he plants a tender kiss to your forehead. Finally, he's able to sleep, with his favourite companions in his arms.

#tbbwriting #wrecker x reader #gn!reader #fluff #the bad batch #tbb #wrecker #tbb wrecker #tbb wrecker x reader #gender neutral reader

[fanficshiddles]

Caught in his web, Chapter 45

I know it’s really short… 

-

Chloe bit her lip to contain her laughter as she held Bear on front of Loki’s face, he’d just rolled over in his sleep. But she knew he was starting to rouse.

She moved Bear a little bit closer and the puppy started licking Loki’s face.

Loki frowned and it took him a few moments to register what was happening and to wake up. When he opened his eyes, they flew wide and he rolled away in disgust while wiping his mouth. ���Eughhh! Chloe!’

She started laughing as she let go of Bear and he started climbing on Loki, making her laugh even more.

Loki managed to get hold of the excitable puppy and got him off his face. He cuddled Bear for a moment, then turned to Chloe who had sat down on the bed next to him, sitting up against the headboard.

‘You’re up early.’ Loki said, reaching over to squeeze her knee.

‘I heard Bear squeaking, he needed out to wee. I couldn’t get back to sleep after.’ She said before yawning, making Loki chuckle.

Bear made a fantastic leap off the bed and darted out the door. Chloe groaned and quickly slipped off the bed, but as she stood up, she swayed a little and had to sit down again.

Loki shot up and put his hand on her shoulder as he moved over towards her. ‘Are you alright, doll?’

‘Yeah… just feeling dizzy.’ Chloe said as she closed her eyes and put her hand over them.

‘Headache?’

‘Starting.’ Chloe confirmed.

Loki went into full care mode. He had her get back into bed, turned off the lights and made sure the curtains were properly closed to keep it as dark as possible. He fetched her some water and her tablets.

‘No need for fussing. I need to go and check on Bear.’

She attempted to sit up, but Loki put his hand on her chest and firmly pushed her back down. ‘He will be fine. I’ll sort him after I’ve sorted you. Get resting.’

‘What if he’s chewing the sofa.’ Chloe whined.

‘Then I’ll get a new sofa. Now stay.’ Loki growled, making her roll her eyes but then she started to see weird patterns and her headache started to worsen so she decided to do as she was told without anymore arguing.

Loki got her a cool wet cloth for her forehead, then once he was happy with her, he went to check on Bear. Who had decided to chew on her trainers by the front door.

‘Well, at least they’re easier to replace than the sofa.’ He scooped up the mischievous puppy and kissed him on top of the head before carrying him through to his pen.

-

Kenneth fiddled with his tie nervously as he awaited to be called in to see him. This was his last chance, his last hope. He only hoped it wouldn’t backfire on him, which it could well. And he knew it. But he had to try.

‘Mr Barnes will see you now.’ The receptionist said and motioned towards the office.

Kenneth took a deep breath and went into the office.

Ben’s eyes widened, surprised when he saw Kenneth enter. ‘What are you doing here?’ He asked, standing up from his chair.

‘I… I’ve come to ask about a favour… Well… I have money, I mean.’ He stumbled over his words, pulling his bag round and opening it, showing a lot of money inside.

Ben folded his arms over his chest. ‘I’m listening.’

Kenneth took a deep breath. ‘My daughter, Chloe. I need to get her back. But… Loki seems to get around it all the time. I just want her back, I don’t care how. I will be able to get more money, this is everything I have at the moment.’ He dumped the bag on Ben’s desk.

‘You do realise that I am in business with Laufeyson?’ Ben quirked an eyebrow up.

‘I know… That’s why I thought you’d be the man to ask. I am desperate, Sir. Please help me get my Chloe back.’ He pleaded.

Ben tapped his lower lip, in thought as he eyed up the bag full of money. Just from a quick glance he knew there must’ve been well over a hundred thousand pounds in there.

He looked back up at Kenneth. ‘Alright. I’ll help you.’

#Loki #Tom Hiddleston #fan fiction #caught in his web

[twentytworoses]

fujiii, "a whole lot of caffeine"—title-wise, extremely relatable 😂💓 and 12 too please 🥺👏 both have tomarry energy but i maybe wrong—because there are days when we just want a himbo tom 🌟

Hope you're having a great day Lim ❤️! Sadly there isn't a Himbo Tom for both fics xD

Warning: Dark Themes.

Don't leave bloods in the carpet is gruesomely dark, a lot of gore and very unpleasant things in general. It deals with a suicidal Harry Potter that has killed himself multiple times but finds out he can't die. Like if he cuts off a limb or stabs himself, he ultimately heals and the lose of limb will regenerate back.

Enter Tom Riddle, a serial killer and a cannibal— yup, you know the drill. Basically, he kidnaps Harry with the intention of eating him. But he soon realizes that Harry can't die and is intrigued by him. It's fucked up, really, especially Harry and Tom's relationship. Tom is a literal psychopath and has no qualms of hurting Harry, even cutting off his limb and storing it in the fridge for tomorrow's dinner.

As for Harry, he literally gives no fuck at this point. He's hurt himself so many times that Tom's infliction of pain to him doesn't do much damage than he already experienced. In the beginning, their relationship is the same as a butcher and a pig.

Sadly, this is just an idea, I haven't started writing it yet.

--

A Whole Lot of Caffeine is a College AU where Harry Potter gets kidnapped by a cult who worships a demon, Voldemort. The demon lord is fascinated by Harry and decids not to eat his soul.

Voldemort basically barges in Harry's life and annoys the living shit out of a very grumpy, sleep-deprived Harry.

This one-shot is half-way done, though it has been in my folder for so many months that its gonna need a lot of editing because I'm not very satisfied with it, my writing style has changed so much that reading this was kind of eughhh.

It's my main focus right now, so it might be the WIP I'll publish next!

#current wip #wip stuff #wip game #ask

[enabledarmy]

I'm kinda new to tumblr but since being here I've noticed a lot of love for British TV shows, especially BBC drama

The main ones I've seen mentioned are Sherlock, Merlin and Doctor Who and although those are great shows I wondered if there might be some others that non-natives (idk if that's the right phrase I'm tired) might not have heard about or had the opportunity to discover so here you go

List will be staggered because there's too much for one post so here's part 1

Dancing on the Edge (BBC, 2013)

I'd recommend for Merlin fans, because Angel Coulby and Anthony Head, and from what I remember Tom Hughes as Julian was quite Merlin-like or at least in a similar vein

It did have a crime/mystery element to it too so if you liked that about Sherlock give this a go

Anyway he was adorable

I watched it when it first came out because Angel Coulby and was disappointed with how much she is actually in it (forewarning- not much at all) but I enjoyed the story and the characters and the sets/costumes were great and now that I think about it I'm still kinda attatched to Julian what how did this happen it's been 7 years send help-

Chiwetel Ejiofor is very cool of course as Louis and his performance is generally great, as much as I love the more side characters like Julian, Carla and Stanley he really is what centres everything and makes it work I think

Also Carla bb you are amazing please stop doubting yourself ok someone hug her (and while you're at it give Wunmi Mosaku more roles why are you sleeping on her)

I remember the music being good too and there was one bit where they played in a bar (it's about Jazz btw) and it was really cool, can't remember why but will need to rewatch soon I think

I completely forgot Jenna Coleman was in this but I'm sure she was good so yeah there's that

Bonus: Matthew Goode (probably your new crush if you have a thing for British drama guys who look vaguely like Tom Hiddleston as quite a few people here seem to)

Atlantis (BBC, 2013)

Another 2013 drama but this one less of an intelligent serious historical drama vibe and more a magic, sword fighting and running around the woods in ineffective armour from weird CGI creatures vibe.

If that sounds like Merlin to you, well it did to us too when it first came out so everyone was kinda salty especially since it was the first 'big' drama to fill Merlin's primetime family spot which basically signalled it as a Merlin replacement trying to appeal to the same audience by doing a very similar thing but not as well

Like when the adverts came out people were like how dare you try to fill the Merlin-shaped hole in the schedule and also in my heart with this

Bring back Colin and Bradley you cowards

That said it wasn't a bad series at all, not amazing but mostly good, just not on the same level character and story wise as Merlin, in my opinion anyway

I mean I still watched every episode and was upset when it ended but c'mon it was just getting good

There are a couple of episodes I rewatch sort of regularly because they were pretty cool

If you liked Merlin I would recommend giving it a go, it has a kind of similar feel, magic, fun costumes and of course a lot of bromance. You don't have to think a lot when watching it (at least not until near the end I'm pretty sure) which can be nice when you just want to switch off and watch people run around in totally inappropriate sandals

Honestly it was good but I would have loved more focus on other characters, I didn't like Jason as much as I did Medusa or Medea (spinoff series please BBC they both deserved better)

Highlights:

Pythagoras. Just him. Doing Pythagoras stuff. Also won't spoil but his (slightly rushed) eventual romance was sweet and quite unusual at the time on a show like that (on BBC one at prime family viewing time) and I need to know more about that because we spent too much on Jason angst and not enough time on this small boi getting the love he deserves so if we could get some new fans in to do fanart or something that would be great I need closure

Ariadne's costumes, sass and eyebrows:

The force is strong with this one

I'm sure she was a great character but looking back I mainly remember her blue dresses and strong brows they just owned the scenes ok they should have been credited in the cast list

For real tho I hadn't seen Aiysha Hart in anything before but she was a strong lead

Amy Manson's Medea:

Seriously when she joined in season 2 things really kicked up a notch, hard to describe it but you'll see

I would watch a whole series about her

She's amazing

I only want good things for Medea

And Amy Manson

Medusa (played by Jemima Rooper) was also amazing and lovely and I found it quite a touching and different take on her story (to past me anyway). Again, I would have liked more focus and development on that instead of Jason's eughhh it's so hard to be a protagonist wait lemme punch a Minotaur in the face real quick but we can't have everything

Ok that was Pt.1

Will do a Pt.2 if anyone cares and also if I remember 😂

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Hakuoki: Edo Blossoms Part 11 - Kazama Chikage Route

I know that Kazama needs to care about her well-being since he can’t very well let her die from exhaustion when she’s with him, but it was nice to see him notice when she was tired and find a hut to rest for the night to take a proper break. It’s great that Chizuru is finally showing interest in her roots as a Demon! I’ve always wanted to know more but since most routes revolved around the Shinsengumi guys accepting her for who she is, demon or not, it was hard to learn more about them. It’s nice to see Kazama telling her more about their history, like how it was inevitable that they had to exile themselves in hiding because no matter how powerful they were, humans had the advantage in numbers, and that was something they couldn’t overpower. Lmao when Chizuru takes her bedding to the other side of the room because she doesn’t feel comfortable sleeping so close to Kazama under the same roof. Girl, if he wanted to attack you, you wouldn’t get much of a distance advantage when he’s so strong😆 It’s kinda cute how Kazama follows Demon tradition and won’t do anything until they’re married. I feel like one of the reasons why Kazama was insistent on this route to Edo that Amagiri told them to not go through since it could cause trouble (due to Kazama not continuing his alliance with the Satsuma, and Chizuru is unknown to them I guess) with their identities was because he knew that Chizuru was fatigued and he didn’t want her to have to push herself anymore on these gruelling mountains. Good that she calmed him down and said they should go another way just in case them trying to enter through here would alert Kodo.

Omggg it was so sweet when Kazama grabbed her hand and walked with her like that after she nearly fell off the cliff or something. So dangerous, but him ending up doing that is so worth it🥰🥰 I was right! He was trying to get through that checkpoint for her sake!🥰🥰🥰 He’s so sweet and considerate! It’s common and natural instinct for male Demons to guard the well-being and safety of their women since they lack stamina and strength compared to them, so I guess he’s been trained to take care of women properly!😆 That CG of him holding her hand just makes me squeal in happiness😊😊 It’s pretty saddening to see Chizuru think about all those past happy memories she had with Kodo back in the clinic, only for him to come and step all over them as the monster he truly has become/is. So glad Kazama appeared when Kodo started saying he wanted Chizuru to breed with his Furies eughhh. Lmao at Kazama reprimanding her for not laying low like he told her to, and instead running right to trouble haha. I’m happy that Kazama prioritised protecting her instead of killing Kodo😊 And also happy that he acknowledged her conviction towards going after Kodo and Kaoru since this isn’t just Kazama or the Demons’ problems, it’s also her responsibility since they’re her family. It’s nice to see that Chizuru is recovering some of her memories of her burning village and how Kaoru led her away and then Kodo saved them by escaping with them. Wonder why Kodo couldn’t take Kaoru along if he could take Chizuru though…but I guess Kaoru would have wanted the Nagumo clan to think he was Chizuru so they could run... Nice to see that she can empathise with their feelings even if she can’t agree with their actions.

Is it just me or did I never truly realise how much the shogunate betrayed the Shinsengumi? Shiranui coming and telling Chizuru that the shogunate was already discussing surrender terms with the Satsuma-Choshu and that they practically sacrificed the Shinsengumi to the Imperial nationalist party because they had a bone to pick with them due to the past battles made me so shocked and disgusted. How could they do such a thing? The Shinsengumi are fighting their hardest and so desperately because they believe in them and yet they treat them like this to the end, I just can’t help but cry at how unfair and heartless this all is. And the Shinsengumi will be up against the enhanced Furies alongside Kaoru, they won’t even have a nice swift death, they’ll be torn to shreds and even eaten! As much as I’d like for both Kodo and Kaoru to have happy endings since they had to suffer so much as the people who were abandoned and abused by both humans and Demons; with their mindset and with how much Kaoru’s life has just been filled with pain, I honestly do think that it’s impossible for them, or maybe mainly Kaoru to really find solace in anything. Kodo died very quickly but I guess Kaoru was able to escape to come back as the crazy he is for another day. I do feel terrible for them though, them wanting revenge is justified, it’s just that their revenge would kill so many people and create unimaginable damage to Japan and even this world if they allowed such monsters to rampage. It’s nice that Kazama at least now acknowledges that there are humans who aren’t driven by greed and power. Now that Kodo is gone, Chizuru wants to see what has become of the only true warriors left - the Shinsengumi, and I would like to as well…

Not a fan of Kazama’s Western clothes but he always looks hot anyway, so, sure this is good too🤣 Although I feel terrible that Harada is dead, when Shiranui said that he might be bad luck since people he fights alongside with (they had a temporary alliance fighting against Furies) usually end up dying after, I couldn’t help but think about how Shiranui must feel that way towards Takasugi as well… I honestly didn’t think Kaoru would really be dead even though Kazama said he inflicted a grave wound and that there was no way of him surviving. I really thought he’d be okay and come back and attack them again. I honestly also didn’t think Kazama would take her back to her burnt village and that she would see Kaoru’s dead body laying on a bed of flowers with a peaceful expression. It honestly makes it hard to not feel sad and terrible about how much pain he had to suffer his whole life, and that it was only in death that he felt some sort of peace… So, the humans that destroyed Chizuru’s village were the anti-shogunate alliance encompassing the Satsuma, Choshu and Tosa domain that requested the help of the Yukimura clan but were refused since they don’t dabble in human affairs, but then they took that refusal as a challenge to their authority and decided to get rid of them… How honestly petty of them…I think I can see in a better light why Kodo was so insistent on revenge, he was the only adult left of the Yukimura clan, that knew how the clan lived, how kind they were etc and yet they were destroyed by such humans, how could he not get revenge for all the people he cared for that died? Kaoru kept to his promise to Chizuru that he’d protect her because he’s the boy of the family, and so he pretended to be her and went to Nagumo, but in the end, that destroyed him, not only did the humans destroy his former life, the Demons also destroyed his current life and potential future. They all suffered so much because of these humans, how could they not get revenge? How could they possibly understand Chizuru’s perspective that they should care about all the humans they are killing when these humans never cared about theirs? In the end though, the human civilians they killed definitely didn’t deserve any of this, and they did need to be stopped regardless, but it’s just so painful to have to know more of their background and history because it makes me feel bad that I detested them so much in the other routes. Even though I felt like I could understand them to an extent, now I feel like I really knew nothing of the magnitude of their hatred. They had every reason to become the people they were, in a sense, it couldn’t be helped, I don’t think I would have been able to do any different. Especially when even until the end, even until their last breath, the Yukimura clan actually held on to their principles and chose not to fight against these humans that came to kill them! I’m so disgusted and devastated.

I’m glad Chizuru realised on her own how reckless she was for wanting to head to Aizu castle without knowing anything and only going there on the possibility that the Shinsengumi should be there. It was so difficult to hear the passing of the guys as usual, but it was nice to see that Kazama was impressed and shocked that despite the Aizu having surrendered already, Hijikata still remains on the battlefield fighting where he can until his last breath. I was also impressed with Chizuru asking Kazama to go with her to Ezo (where Hijikata is) to witness the end of the Shinsengumi, and to tell Hijikata of the passing of the other guys just in case he hadn’t heard yet, since they deserve to live on in people’s memories and to be told of their last stand. When Shiranui came and handed Chizuru Harada’s spear and told her he was one of the bravest and ferocious warriors he’d ever met, I couldn’t help but cry. Harada was so kind, so strong, so valiant and unrelenting, I hate imagining him being torn to shreds by the Furies when he had finally run out of strength, it just tears my heart apart thinking about it🥺🥺🥺 But I’m also really happy and touched that Shiranui acknowledged him so much. It was really sweet when Kazama encouraged her and acknowledged that even if she didn’t pick up a sword and fight in this war, she fought in her own way with Kodo and everyone, she definitely deserves to cry if she needs to, I’m sure anyone has the right to cry in such turbulent times tbh. And having missed the Shinsengumi every time she thought she had finally reached them, who wouldn’t feel depressed? They’re so close and yet so far…

Since it’s difficult for suspicious civilians like them to get a boat to Ezo where everything is taking place, they had no choice but to stay at Sendai for a while to figure out what they can do to get there, and lmao it seems like they’ve been here long enough that Chizuru and Kazama’s relationship is practically like a bickering wife and husband. She takes care of all the homely duties and controls how much sake he drinks and can tell when he’s in a bad mood, and can even compare his attitude to be like a cat hahahaha. It’s nice to see Chizuru more assertive. She also seems much more mature, although she’s anxious that she can’t reach the Shinsengumi and doesn’t know what’s going on, she also understands that Kazama and Amagiri are trying their best and she is grateful for that instead of letting how desperate she is overcome her. I’m glad Kazama encouraged her when she was about to fall into depression that she might never see the Shinsengumi, he’s right, as the one who knew all of them and yet is still alive to this day, it is her duty to witness whatever else is left in their journey and to remember the people that they were, so she can’t lose faith yet, especially since the Satsuma are allowing them to board their ship now! Btw, dang does Kazama’s route have so many CGs! I’m so happy but jealous since the others have so few compared to him! When he hugged her, my heart felt so warm! He’s worried that she won’t be able to take it seeing the Shinsengumi’s demise. I found it so sweet when Chizuru asked Kazama to be beside her as she watches over everything that will encompass. He is the only one she wants to watch over them with. He is the one she trusts the most and believes will be there for her. At least she was able to see Souma and witness him becoming the chief and surrendering on behalf of the Shinsengumi, their pride and convictions live on with him and I think it’s great that they were at least able to see that.

I was about to scream at Chizuru for asking Kazama what he was going to do now since she’s done with everything she wanted to do (since she couldn’t find Hijikata’s remains, but at least they were able to find out from a soldier that he died valiantly like the man that he was), I’m so thankful he told her and then kissed her haha. He ain’t leaving you forever, Chizuru! He’ll take care of his clan by moving them somewhere else outside of human sight (since they might get attacked) and she’ll stay in Ezo to come to terms with the memories of the Shinsengumi. It was so sweet when he told her that she can come find him when she’s ready, but if she doesn’t, he’ll come for her☺️☺️☺️ He’s so cuteee~ Lol, I guess it is better for Chizuru to stay still at Kodo’s clinic and have Kazama find her instead but loll, she was literally just waiting for him to come get her😆 It was great when he came and then said he had prepared everything and found a place for his clan to move and that he was only missing her from this plan. I swooned! Hahahah, Kazama you’re so smooth!🤣 Nice ending🥰 Bad ending seems pretty silly though, I feel like even if Chizuru said she’d go alone to look for the Shinsengumi, Kazama would at least follow her to keep her safe considering how much they had bonded this past year, like what a waste to spend all your time getting her here, and then letting her run off and die by herself! I have mixed feelings towards the unrequited love ending. I find it weird that Kazama would die by Hijikata’s sword even if he were to turn into a Fury and be crazed enough to be seeking death. Also, I felt like it was more of a bad ending for Hijikata lol, just because that, a Hijikata who would be at such despair and allow the Fury powers to consume him as he tries to kill whatever he can in revenge for Kondou and his comrades is just saddening. A Hijikata that has discarded all hopes and is not aiming to fight the Imperial soldiers until his last breath just sounds so terrible.

Anyway, overall, I really enjoyed Kazama’s route, I loved it! Ending could have been better since I would have enjoyed them actually getting together and being together for a bit but it was still good! I think the story was very well developed and had good pacing. I liked how they didn’t dwell on Kaoru and Kodo being the “villains” they had to deal with for the entire time and instead they chose to deal with their story with a swift end to it, but also adding to it through Kazama’s recalling of the Yukimura clan’s past. It gave me a much better impression and more fleshed out background for why Kodo and Kaoru were how they were and how they were forced to become so deranged and unrelenting towards using and killing humans to achieve their revenge. It made me feel for them on another level and I’m glad they did that. I also really loved how the last half was based around Chizuru and Kazama trying to reach the Shinsengumi and see their ending because it helped to show Kazama that there were humans with proper principles and convictions and that refused to bow down to greed or a comfortable life. Kazama has always looked down on humans and never believed them to be worth a mention, so I’m glad Chizuru’s existence guided him to people that could show him another side of humans and I liked the change in him. Best thing was that this route had a coherent story AND it had a good amount of romance as well! Kazama was the one who showed the most emotional and physical support for Chizuru, but I think her existence and words made him realise how interesting she and the Shinsengumi were as well, and that helped to open his eyes broader to the vast amount of humans in this world, so I really liked how they both supported each other and how they both came to enjoy each other’s company, it was really sweet and cute! Definitely the most well rounded route in the game!

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[cinanamon]

oh my gosh yes! that long description was something i did not expect but totally needed thank you so much for that,, i have to get both bottoms out which sucks... ive also never had any surgeries done ever which adds on to my anxiety. so basically i should just eat my painkillers, watch what i eat and ice my face a lot hmm.. the sleeping situation also stresses me out i dont like the thought of choking on my own blood eughhh... anyways thank you a lot for the information im sure itll help alot💞

its me the wisdom teeth anon again, the one who just sent a reply. sorry if my questions are annoying but i was curious about one more thing, the anesthesia and the method of having it done and if it hurt in any way. i heard that its mostly given thorough a needle on the hand i was wondering if you remember how it felt (if that was the method used) i feel like this part of the procedure freaks me out the most as im unnecessarily afraid of needles. your last response helped me alot tyty ily 💞

— you’re not annoying at all!!!! I’m always happy to help :) so I’ve actually never had surgery before either! I completely get feeling anxious Bc I was whining to my mom before I went in that I didn’t want to get knocked out 😂 but mine was administered through a needle in my arm/inner elbow; I don’t like needles either, so I turned my head away and my doctor talked to me the entire time to try and take my mind off it! Maybe you could ask for them to talk to you too? And lol I don’t like the thought of choking on blood either, so just stay in a sitting up position!! If you have any more questions I’d be glad to help, and I hope these were helpful responses! :)

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[blackvail22]

09 december 2020

2:42am - im extremely tired, but my mind wont stop racing. eughhh. i hope i can get to sleep soon.

1:13pm - ive been laying in my bed for about 4 hours now even though i know i have things i need to do. i just donttt want to get up, but i know i have to. i have to do everything before the sun goes down in 3 hours. i have to.

6:28pm - soo, i got everything done that i needed to. today wasn’t a bad day, i dont think. i hate how it takes me forever to find the motivation to get out of bed, though. i’m sure that i’ll get better.