#don’t deserve to be able to.

[stunfiskz]

#txt #erm….. tonight is not good today was not good. #got even more confirmation that my friends hate me so that’s nice. #the only one i think still doesn’t hate me had no problem texting in the group chat i’m not fucking in with everyone but me while i was #right there. and telling me about it. so. #and i now know at least one of them hates me and thinks i hate them. but i don’t and i feel so bad because i know i’m horrible at talking. #i know. i know i’m a horrible person to try to talk to because i’m selfish and annoying and say the wrong things and i know. i didn’t mean #to make them feel uncomfortable but i can’t just be a fucking normal person #i really can’t stand this anymore i really can’t #i’d rather them all just stop talking to me and for me to be solidly alone instead of this horrible fucking standstill #i know. i know i’m a horrible person. i know they don’t love me and i know i don’t deserve for them to love me so why are they pretending #like they still do. #im just so tired of this i’m so tired of having to exist in this stupid fucking world where i know i’m awful and can’t do anything right an #don’t deserve to be able to. #and i feel so bad because the girl i’ve been helping in one of my classes is going to fail. and i feel like if i could just be better or h #have started helping her earlier or stood up for her to the teacher she wouldn’t. but instead i have to be horrible at comforting people #and have to try to comfort her while she’s sobbing because her parents aren’t going to let her drive #and i just feel so awful #im so awful my school is so awful i don’t want to fucking be here. #i cannot wait for the year to be over at least i can be alone in my room and not have to annoy anyone or hurt anyone #well i still probably will because that’s just how i fuckign am but. hopefully less . #anyways gonna rewatch some more glee i guess

[sivsii]

I sincerely hope every artist gets to have the experience of falling in love with their art someday. even if you have to fight for it. i think we all deserve to look at the result of our creativity all giddy and go holy shit, I loved making this! I love the lines I put down and the colors I used and the indulgences I’ve taken. I love seeing things I liked and taking it for my own, pushing and molding and playing. I can’t wait to do it again

#art stuff #maybe this is just me being all mushy or whatever but GOD #i used to hate my art so fucking much #i used to hate the act of creating so deeply that putting pen to paper knotted up my insides #and I don’t know HOW I grew through that but I did! i genuinely thought it was the end of such an important part of who I am #but it wasn’t! #and now for the last few years I’ve been consistently able to look at my art and feel proud of myself? like holy shit I made this! #i have such good taste! #and there have been times where I’ve hated the process or been dissatisfied with theresult ofc #art is fucking hard #art block and burnout is a bitch #but Ive still been able to look at the sum of my journey and just feel. satisfied. and accomplished #eager for growth but still proud of what I’ve made #idk #we all deserve that someday

[disableddyke]

disabled people don’t have places to sit/rest in public >> disability activists advocate for public seating >> on rare occasion it gets approved >> abled people take advantage and use up all the seating >> abled people refuse to give up seating for disabled people who advocated for it & need it most >> disabled people still have no place to rest and remain isolated from general public. rinse & repeat

#ableism #not sure if this universal but i definitely noticed it more at college #the available seating is scattered and minimal and where it is existent it gets hoarded by people who do not need it nearly as much #not saying abled people don’t deserve places to rest but like it’d be nice if there was some left for us

[crimson-nail]

ex-antagonists always seem to specialize in unconventional love languages — like violence, and threats of bodily harm

#trigun maximum #charlie’s art #livio the double fang #razlo the tri punisher of death #millions knives #they r so silly to me. they deserve. to be silly. #crazy murder freaks learning to be sweet to each other more at eight #lonely mfs who have never been able to be loved and love freely without conditions getting to just be Goofy with each other #i’m ill. i love them. #ignore the doting typo. i don’t care. i’ve posted it #knivio #razknives #klr

[raisedbythetv89]

I genuinely don’t understand how people can watch the body swap episode and enjoy seeing Faith inhabit Buffy’s body and WORSE objectifying (Faith)Buffy being like “omg she’s so hot she slayed so hard I love Buffy in black leather”

Not only is SMG’s FRIGHTENING thinness even more apparent in Faith’s traditional wardrobe showcasing just how much she is practically skin and bone due to her being under immense stress and being so overworked which always just tears at my heart in so many ways but we are witnessing the WORST violation of Buffy’s body and autonomy!!!! I’m genuinely just sick the entire episode.

Bad enough she almost gets Buffy killed and finally gets her wish of (temporarily) stealing Buffy’s life which she has wanted to do since her arrival in season 3 (only to STILL not understand Buffy’s perspective until she does it again in a far less invasive way in season 7 after Buffy allowed her back into her home and she still never properly apologizes she’s like hehe turns our your life is actually pretty miserable and I don’t want it because I can’t handle the stress and constant pressure you’re under…. Oops!🙃) but unlike when Willow takes Buffy’s free will and autonomy away (where she at least still retains all the memories after the fact of everything that happened so she doesn’t have to wonder and can process them when she’s ready) Buffy has ZERO CLUE what all Faith allows to happen to her body while she’s not in it. And Faith isn’t unaware or passive about the power she holds and the things she can do to Buffy’s body in the position she’s in - she literally tells Riley, BEGS HIM - to do all of the nastiest things he’s ever wanted to do “to this body” she WANTS Riley to do things to Buffy’s body Buffy herself WOULD. NOT. ALLOW. it is one of THE MOST insidious lines in the entire series to me because not only is that an absolutely stomach churning, bone-chilling thing to say but then after the fact when angel asks what Faith did to upset Buffy so much she’s like “I slept with her boyfriend” like UMMMM WHAT??? EXCUSE ME???? That is literally the absolute LEAST of your crimes bitch be so fucking for real. This horrific violation is minimized down to oh well Buffy is just insecure about sex and especially sex in comparison to Faith like GROSS GROSSSSSSS. The entire thing is SO DISGUSTING and misogynistic AND it is part of why I genuinely do not give A FUCK about the events of seeing red as far as my love of spuffy goes because while that was absolutely the most traumatizing to watch not only was it so completely out of left field and out of character that it just doesn’t make sense in the narrative and is so obviously joss whedon coming over the loud speaker and going “women who enjoy sex with men I don’t approve of should and always will be punished” but it is the ONLY time someone hurts her in this way and PROPERLY APOLOGIZES AND MAKES THE PROPER AMENDS!!!!

So until EVERY. SINGLE. violation of Buffy’s body is treated with the same level of outcry seeing red is by all the anti-spuffys I genuinely DO NOT CARE. I DONT CARE because I’m just so done with spuffy girlies having that thrown in our faces by the morality police who are listening to the tiny white male puritanical cop in their head.

ALSO the fact that Riley not only doesn’t think ANYTHING is off about Buffy (when Faith is doing an absolutely HORRIFIC JOB of acting like Buffy) so he not only sleeps with her BUT TELLS HER HE LOVES HER FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!??!?!?!? WHILE SHE IS LITERALLY PINNED BENEATH HIM?!?!?!?!? AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!! RILEY FINN I WILL KILL YOU IF IT IS THE LAST THING THAT I DO.

#hey siri how do I rescue spike buffy and tara from a gaslighting manipulative monster of a creator? #I legit haven’t been able to rewatch Buffy recently because so often it just makes me INSANELY ANGRY #RANT #whew really needed to get that off my chest actually lol #btvs meta #buffy summers we don’t deserve you #buffy the vampire slayer #anti riley finn #spuffy

[undertheredhood]

at some point, jason and stephanie have tricked the entire batfamily into believing that they’ve swapped bodies, like in the freaky friday movie.

#batman #jason todd #stephanie brown #red hood #spoiler #batgirl #they were able to trick cass for a short while too because they planned this prank months in advance #but she figured it out and helped them continue their shenanigans #it’s only until bruce frantically calls zatanna that they finally come clean #batfamily #batfam #batfamily shenanigans #jason todd is a menace #stephanie brown is a menace #if there’s one thing they both live for it’s stressing bruce out #are you even a batkid if you don’t give bruce wayne gray hairs? #bruce does deserve to be stressed out considering everything #stephanie brown & ​jason todd friendship

[butchysterics]

kind of annoying that ppl are still so heavily promoting the ~daily clicks~ for palestine, which means ostensibly tens or hundreds of thousands of ppl have been participating in that campaign daily…….. and the only documentation i’ve seen is ppl proudly announcing it raised a grand total of like $300 dollars of ad revenue over 3 months? numbers like that coming out should be discrediting not encouraging tbh. i don’t want to diminish the ‘little things’ and i guess everyone needs hope to keep going with other activism but that is such an insultingly infinitesimally small number when escaping gaza costs $10k+ a person and millions of dollars are being crowdfunded elsewhere. i just…. genuinely don’t think US americans should feel good patting themselves on the back for doing nothing

#i’m sorry if this is harsh but it’s very disappointing to see ppl continue to promote it as if it’s effective in any way shape or form #i’m not saying this from a preachy place i am poor and not able to do nearly enough to support gaza for my complicit role as an american #but honestly folks don’t need or deserve the false comfort of feeling like a savior for doing virtually Nothing #like donate $8 esims if you have limited resources but really want to help where you can #but there is zero tangible difference between clicking the ads and doing nothing at all. it’s a fantasy to believe otherwise ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #i’m sorry

[whateveryeah]

Not Daemyra related but…

this fandom keeps getting on my nerves so I decided to speak my truth

Elinda Massey ♡

Rhaenyra’s only friend I acknowledge.

#what alicent and what laena? #Elinda Massey is the real deal #I said what I said #house of the dragon #rhaenyra targaryen #elinda massey #rhaenyra deserves only the best and when I say that I mean to be surrounded with people like elinda #just one of many proofs how loved she was and you will never be able to take that away from her no matter how hard you try #spreading elinda massey agenda because fans of the other two are insufferable #p.s. don’t try girlfriends thing on me because I’ll just roll my eyes at nonsense

[ionlytalktodogs]

“You just don’t want to get better.”

I don’t want to do PT that makes my life a waking hell. I don’t want to cry myself to sleep with pain. I don’t want to have dangerous and risky surgery that has almost no chance of actually helping me. I don’t want to take medication that could make me seem able-bodied but would fucking destroy my fragile internal inner workings of hormones, the other medications I’m taking, familial allergies to certain medical substances, etc.

I want to use a wheelchair.

If that means I don’t want to get better, then yeah I don’t want to get better. Fuck being ‘healthy.’ I want to LIVE.

#I don’t care if I haven’t ‘tried everything’ yet #I don’t care #fuck you <3 #I deserve to be able to live. #I deserve to not be in pain. #I’m sorry my existence makes you uncomfortable but also I just don’t really care ngl #disabled #disability #mobility aid #wheelchair #wheelchair user #cripple punk #cripplepunk #chronic pain #physically disabled #ableism

[shima-draws]

What the FUCK Furina’s backstory is so fucking sad??? The absolute TORTURE she’s been through. Shit dude,

#Shima speaks #I’M SO UPSET. #THIS IS JUST RUKKHADEVATA ALL OVER AGAIN. GENSHIN STOMPING ON MY FEELINGS AND MAKING ARCHONS CRY #Why is it always the women. Stop doing this to our women. #Genshin Impact #Imagine putting on an act nonstop continuously for hundreds of years and not being able to tell anyone the truth #And dealing with the anxiety of your whole country dying out and it weighs on your shoulders and makes you so stressed #And you cry yourself to sleep every night bc you’re so tired you’re SO tired and it’s been centuries but you have to keep going. #You have to keep up the act you have to keep faking it you have to keep lying #You have to pretend everything is fine when it’s NOT and you don’t know what to do and you still can’t tell a single fucking SOUL #AGHHHH FURINA. MY SWEET GIRL. YOU DIDN’T DESERVE THIS #Genshin Impact spoilers #Furina #Focalors #I just wanna scoop her up into a big hug and tell her it’s okay 😭 Girl you don’t gotta act anymore you can finally FINALLY rest

[corbincarroll]

even if we do get hockey back in arizona i’m going to be upset about losing THIS team for the rest of my life

#the future is so bright and i don’t even know if i will be able to handle watching it #the group picture im sick #kells or crouser were supposed to be captain #cools and gunner are gonna be stars #doaner deserved so much better #the sad kids on the audience is genuinely the worst part of all this #i can’t do this #a

[paedenstigereye]

I mean, the thing is:

I love Hermie

But if he was to continue to get forgotten about, as well as all that was interesting about him (his character, his trauma, his dynamic with the pcs and other npcs) being brushed over or just never being expanded upon/ developed….

I think it’s best to let him go

I mean, sadly I don’t have their patron and can’t listen to teen talk, but if Anthony didn’t like the character, I think it was ok to let him die rather than mishandling it

#like Hermie deserved better #I want to learn about him and see him grow but if god is not interested in that forcing it will only make it worse #and I wouldn’t want that for Hermie nor for Anthony #I mean if Anthony is not having a good time with hermie I don’t think I will be able to enjoy what is being done with the character either #so maybe this is for the best #Hermies traumas and bonds will be for the people to elaborate upon! #I guess haha #anyways #still amazing episode #amazing podcast #amazing everything #although I’m kinda in tears #but it’s ok #dnd #dndads #hermie the unworthy #dndads hermie #anthony burch #dungeons and daddies #dndads season 2 #sorry for the little rant(? #i hope it made at least some sense

[connectedspace]

as fun as that was, and i would never stop doing fun gift art for the world

its disheartening, and hurts, to try and get engagement from people. to struggle to get asks for weeks. and i know im not the most active blogger, but as soon as i offer free art, i get swamped with asks. where is that beforehand? i dont know what to say entirely, it just makes me depressed. the fact that people are so quick to jump on my ask memes but wont talk to me or this blog otherwise. i dont know what to do

I don’t want to tell anyone that it’s bad to ask for it, or that it’s bad to receive it. Because that’s not what I’m trying to say. But it just sucks to get low engagement and people only interact with you to receive art, often without giving you anything in some way. It’s fine if it happens sometimes, but it’s exhausting when it’s repeated. It makes you feel like people only want you for free gifts that you put time and effort into but won’t give you the same effort

I guess I’d just like to encourage everyone to send regular asks to each other, even if it’s on anon. That’s all I’d want to see not even just for myself but mostly for others

#again I know I’m not super active or have the most posts #but I’ve had this blog for 3 years and have been in the community since 2018 #again it was really fun but considering that I barely get anything for my regular Mundays and have to make regular ask calls #I guess I’m not really asking for much #even if people giving each other stuff like equal attention is my ideal #but I suppose if this trend keeps continuing and I post less stuff like the drawing meme #you’ll know why #I have an ask answer ready to post tomorrow too #my life has just been crazy but Khaos has always had such a chill blog to update #im quite shy and I know I’m not very outgoing but I’ve been around for 5+ years and this just keeps happening #I’m not blaming anyone either or anything this isn’t targeted or whatever #but I’m just already dealing with stuff and I wanted to say something finally #I don’t like making posts like this but I guess I deserve to be able to for once #this is also not the first time it’s happened it happens with a lot of memes I post that are art related so yknow

[theecholegend]

Just relax

Synopsis: Time’s brain needs a break and Legend needs a nap

warnings: none

categories: fluff, lots of fluff

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Time sighed and turned over onto his side. His eyes opened slightly and fixated themselves on the empty beds beside him. His mind raced with thoughts of the chain's upcoming battle. 

The Links were currently residing in Saria town, a small settlement in Hyrule’s era. Hoards of monsters were spotted travelling straight for it days prior to their arrival. So the group made sure to pick up their pace and warn the villagers.

Time and Legend were up for most of the night discussing battle strategy. They had thought of a pretty good plan that seemed like it would work. But…The proclaimed “old man” of the group wasn’t so sure. They were lacking in the way of potions and skill. Yes, they had fought against many hoards of monsters before but the group was certainly not fighting the way they usually would.

The oldest Link rolled onto his back and groaned, sliding a hand down his face in frustration. He was worried something would go wrong. If they mess anything up then it could very well cost a life. 

“Crap…” Link mumbled and decided that no matter how hard he tried he wasn’t going to get the nap he had hoped for. But just before he could sit up, the door creaked open and in came Warriors- carrying Legend? What?

“Let me go Wars!” The Vet slapped his arms but the Captain just rolled his eyes and continued to make his way over to Time, who was more than a little confused. But the scene was a bit amusing.

“Hey, old man,” Warriors deadpanned and dropped his companion beside Time, causing the younger hero to yelp. “He could hardly keep his eyes open and practically fell over in his chair.”

Time raised a brow and shuffled a little to the side. He opened his mouth to ask what exactly he was supposed to do but Warriors had cut him off. “Sorry to interrupt your nap, but he needs sleep. Keep him here for me, ok?”

“Um…” was all the eldest could respond with before the sight of the Captain's royal blue scarf disappeared behind the now closed door. He turned his attention to Legend who was laying on his back and had draped an arm over his eyes.

“Don’t worry, I’m not planning on staying. I’ll get a coffee or something and I’ll be fine.” The Veterans voice was quiet and his words almost slurred. He definitely sounded tired.

Now, Time had two options: keep Legend here and cause the Vet to hate his guts or let him go and…hm, that wouldn’t do anyone much good. If Legend was dead tired then tonight's battle wouldn’t go over very well for him.

The younger Link sat up and sighed. He almost seemed hesitant to get up. That’s it. Time practically lunged forward and wrapped his arms tightly around Legends middle. “GAH!” The latter yelled as he was violently dragged down and pulled against the former's chest.

“What the- let me go Old man!” Legend tried prying Time’s arms off of him but his grip only tightened. “Are you trying to kill me or something?! Let me go!” He continued to squirm in the oldests grasp.

Time chuckled. “No can do. Capn’s orders.” He smirked and continued to laugh at the Veterans failed escape attempts. But after a minute of struggling and whining, Legend settled with a long and exaggerated sigh. 

Time smiled and loosened his grip slightly. “Feeling better?” He joked.

Legend crossed his arms and hmph’d. “I hate you.” 

“I love you too.”

A silence then fell over the room. Not uncomfortable, it was actually very comfortable. Time turned onto his side with Legend still in his arms. He shuffled a little before sighing contently as he felt the younger hero ease in his grasp. 

And surely enough, after mere minutes of Legend relaxing in his predecessor's arms, his breathing slowed and a few quiet snores followed suit. Time’s grin widened. He liked this. He liked having his brothers so close to him. That way he could always know where they are and protect them.

Maybe he was overreacting, maybe it was his “fatherly instincts” the others often joked about but he didn’t really care. Time felt no shame in wanting to protect his family. Because Legend, and the others, were most definitely a part of his family now. 

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note: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIME AND LEGEND!!!🎉 this isn’t very birthday related but that’s ok. I write for myself often but haven’t posted anything anywhere since 2020. I literally just came up with this idea while trying to get out of bed this morning. It’s short but I hope you liked it regardless!

#I also have a drawing in the works but I don’t know if that will be posted today #Probably not #But I’m happy I was able to have something for today! #it’s also my sister’s birthday today #So that’s obviously main priority #But my boy and father Time deserve my love too #linkeduniverse #lu legend #lu time #Lu fanfiction #Fluff #lu warriors #Woops #forgot to add a cut

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Thankfully I’m only getting the after effects on my dash, but I’ve come on here this morning to see Shannon hate.

I am not a Shannon fan by any means - what she did was wrong on so so many levels, but if you cannot understand the nuance of circumstance playing into someone’s behaviours then I suggest you stop watching the show. 911 is really good at giving people fleshed out and flawed characters.

Shannon was young and put into an difficult situation with clearly very little support. Having a child young is never easy, but to do that when you’re alone, while your husband is overseas in the military, while his parents are over bearing and judgemental is even harder. Then throw into that a diagnosis of CP and your mother - in a different state, being diagnosed with cancer that turns out to be terminal.

That’s horrific.

My own mother was diagnosed with and died of cancer when I was 18/19 and I was living 300 miles away and alone with zero support. It broke me and lead to me attempting suicide 3 times. I can’t imagine adding a child into that mix. I also don’t think I’d have abandoned a helpless child who needed me, but I can imagine how utterly stressed, depressed and alone she felt so I can completely understand how she would’ve felt pushed into the decisions she made.

We will never know what relationship she would’ve had with Chris when she returned because she didn’t get any chance to show us. But we can give her some slack and the benifit of the doubt - that she had the intention of staying in his life - that her request for divorce was her wanting to stay and be there for Christopher - that it was her recognising that her and Eddie were to broken to make anything work but that she could rebuild some form of relationship with Chris.

#if any of you try to come at me with hate then you will get blocked #I do not have the energy to deal with people who wilfully choose to only see the world in black and white or good and evil #if you think it’s that way then you don’t deserve 911 or to be able to see my blog #the world is full of grey and nuance and no one is all one thing #I’m a million miles from perfect and I think what Shannon did was wrong #but I can also appreciate she had little to know actual support #911 spoilers #911 on fox #911 fox #911onfox #Shannon diaz #tw suicide mention

[tongues--and--teeth]

Sooo… last cookie standing?

#I haven’t been able to draw recently #cut me some slack lmao #anyway I can totally see this ship #I don’t see it working out but I definitely see it #I can’t really see any ship with affogato working out #like as of now that man needs so much therapy it’s crazy #if he got help yeah sure but #rn? nah #which is why I like him so much lol #cream unicorn deserves someone who actually likes them #crk #teethart #cookie run fanart #cookie run kingdom #affogato cookie #crk affogato #cream unicorn cookie #cream unicorn crk #fanart #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #Well I’m sorry that things have been so hard for you but that doesn’t give you the right to be shitty to me. #I can’t be around someone who’s just fueled by bitterness and negativity #Well then what are you doing here? #What happened [Affogato]? #Same thing that always happens. You didn’t know me. Then you fell in love with me. Now you know me #you know it’s funny. When you look at someone through rose colored glasses all the red flags just look like flags #do you get the reference #anyway that’s cringe but idk it’s in my blog’s title or something.