#does anyone else feel the same way.

[dilfsuzanneyk]

am i just insane and paranoid or is it horrible that so many websites need you to sign up to use their stuff now? especially with so many websites asking for not just your email but phone number too?? some get even more personal than that?? i don't want to give that information to random websites just to use something, but for some reason this is just normal now and everyone treats it like an okay thing to do.

#like please am i genuinely just finding a problem with something small and meaningless or #does anyone else feel the same way. #my parents didn't get why i was so turned off by a website asking me to give my email real name phone number and postal code #like that is not a good thing right. that is not a normal thing. #and yet they told me that is?? “it's not that bad” they said?? #am i going insane??? #vex rambles

[princsstwilightsparkl]

saying "if aroace people can date, then can lesbians date men?" is absolutely aphobic narrative btw!

#sorry just have to say this lol #so tired of people generalizing all aroace people as romance averse #its absolutely erasure of the rest of the spectrum #the top tweet isnt so bad depending on who theyre talking about #if a character ACTUALLY is canonically romance/sex aversed then yea its weird to erase that #but if they're canonically AROACE and you go 'erm that character cannot date or have sex🤓☝️' ur being aphobic as fuck #the 'shown no attraction to anyone' part kind of throws me off there #i hate when people say 'well this character didnt have feelings for anyone in the one year time span of the show so theyre romance aversed- #and nobody can ship them or else i'll harass u and subtweet u!1!!' #like. a characters life may not involve sex or romance at all fucking times. that does not make them aroace. #ur headcanon- even if you think its based on a logical conclusion- is not reality #sometimes yall just be making shit tf up #complaining about 'fanon' as if ur not the one pretending ur hc is real and treating everyone else like theyre the bad ones #but if that tweet is just saying that IN ADDITION to theyre canon identity then yea. thats valid. #their* </3 #obviously the reply is fucking disgusting #i couldnt reply directly cuz my twitter is priv #people will say this kind of shit to ME- AN AROACE PERSON #u preach about aro/ace erasure but when an actual aroace walks in you tell them their way of being aroace is wrong #not everyone is the fucking same. #non-partnering aroaces deserve more rep but telling partnering aroaces that their way of being aroace is wrong is genuinely horrific #like actually fuck u #aromantic #asexual #aroace #arospec #meowing (yapping)

[the-npd-culture-is]

NPD culture is feeling depressed and empty because your FP won’t respond to any of your messages

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#yeah i feel this/srs #especially when talking to anyone else doesnt fill your needs the same way your fp does/gen #npd culture is #i think this must be bpd culture too though #i dont know lol. often those two overlap (especially as i very likely have both myself) #/gen #anon #ask #asks #q #npd #npd safe #actually narcissistic #narcissistic personality disorder #actually npd #narcissism #narcissistic #narcissist #actually cluster b #cluster b safe #cluster b #cluster b personality disorder

[httpiastri]

me: *has a bad week*

oscar: say no more, i know how to fix it

#i would crush them both in a card house contest lmao how are they do bad?? #so** #there’s something so sexy about men covering their their faces with their hands. so big and so…… what else could he do with those?...anyways #i find it so interesting how i still to this day look at his neck and get surprised by how good it looks #like seeing it for the first time all over again #he’s so prettyyyy it hurts me so bad #and at the same time heals me #when i look at him i feel like i’ve never been sad in life #except when he’s sad #his smile :((( #the way he looks at lando……. is anyone surprised? #@ lola !! the gif on the right !!! #looks SO much like my friend that i told you about #she does those exact expression whenever she does something she’s proud of like that lol #anywayssss i love oscar #and lando for that matter #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #oscar piastri #mclaren racing #osc hands osc neck osc arms

[sparkles-oflight]

yk something i've noticed?

kris is often written very differently in every fanfic. In some fanfics he's a shy little boy, in others he's always cranky, in others he's too much of a control freak, and so on.

I'm not trying to trash anyone, I often struggle to find the perfect balance of Kris' features when writing him too. I just find it fascinating that Kris is often the most polarized when people write him (and yet we write from his POV often). I know fanfics are not supposed to be realistic - that's kind of the point - but I it's weird going into a fanfic and trying to figure out at which version of Kris you are looking at while often I don't feel the need to think about that with the others...

(btw, this all happened because I'm having a writer's block atm and I had to read a bit to get inspo)

#does anyone have theories about this? #or does nobody else feel the same way? #and if i'm wrong - educate me then #i'm all ears #joker out #joker out fanfic #joker out kris #kris gustin #kris guštin

[plantaagomaajor]

Only Friends hierarchy of needs

(and then they need to end up together in the most mutually unhinged and codependent relationship possible a la HIStory 1: Obsessed)

#I think I like Nick so much that his delusions have started rubbing off on me fr #like I fully believe that Boston really was on the verge of falling in love with Nick in a truly possessive and unhinged way #and I too hope that BostonNick is endgame #and probably the worst of Nick's delusions that I've picked up is that Boston isn't awful and maybe his hotness really does cancel out #the fact that he's done some really problematic shit #most people have seen the HIStory series right? I feel like I was like the last one to watch them #remember history 1 obsession?? that was some good and also really insane stuff #that's the vibes that I want for BostonNick #like damn those two are so lucky that the other one is into that particular brand of crazy because if not holy shit #like Jiang Jing Teng pretending that he has memory loss to get close to Shao Yi Chen and then saying #that if he couldn't be with SYC then he would have killed him #and SYC was so into it because he felt the same way like wow these two are perfect for e/o and really shouldn't be with anyone else #b/c they're crazy fr #anyway #only friends the series #ofts

[capybaraonabicycle]

Anne: I want to be like you: Unmarried because I don't give a shit about romance.

Josephine: Anne, I'm a lesbian. And my wife just died.

#I don't think this is supposed to be funny but it really is #*Anne talking about kindred spirits proclaiming her undying love to Diana* Josephine: thank god she gets it #*Anne saying how she will ignore her romantic feelings for a boy because she is following in Josephine's footsteps* #Josephine: I have spoken too soon #Don't worry aunt Josephine: Anne will figure out she is bi sooner or later I am sure <3 #I have the theory that all of Anne's kindred spirits are simply fellow queer people #Aunt Josephine and her 'friend' Gertrude are clear and so is Diana #That teacher (that I haven't seen in the series yet but I am sure she'll show up) I expect will be another open and shut case #Matthew in the audio book was very aroace coded and now there's his lady friend in town #But honestly it does make sense that he would be nervous around her when he cares for her a great deal platonically but knows she is #expecting something else #anne of green gables #anne with an e #I am kinda watching the series and listening to the audio book at the same time #I have to say much as I like the series Marilla she will always be Whitney Avalon to me #I am not set on anyone else as much but Marilla is her that's just the way it is

[elgatoarcoiris]

Ive said this alot on my instagram but like i genuinely am so excited to see the kotlc book 10 cover , something about jasons artstyle is so !!!!! HKSJSNM

I know the day it gets revealed im going to do 2 seperate analysis one for theories and one for just art . Like rendering and composition

I also really wanna see whos gonna be on it and the color scheme !!!!

I could talk about the kotlc covers for hours oh my god

#theyre all my favorites #the one ive been thinking alot about lately is the everblaze one its so pretty !!! its like different from the rest in terms of posing and #perspective #my least favorite is stellarlune though and thats saying that i do like it #its just like the least one i like #what i didnt like is just the composition if felt a little plain and off compared to the rest #everything else is pretty #this is me analyzing the art #AUHSHSJN !!!!!!!! I want to know what book 10 s cover is gonna be #kotlc #anyways the whole point of this is theres no way im the only one this obsessed over the covers like i rarely see anyone talk about them #i also have a whole page on my notes app dedicated to what the book 10 cover could look like .. #not to mention i did draw a cover imagine for book 10 a few months ago #THIS ISNT NORMAL !! please does anyone else feel the same way

[floralovebot]

and yknow when i say that koryak should've lived and him and garth should've become besties i don't mean that they would have a perfectly healthy cute brother relationship. i mean they should've trauma bonded aldhg

garth and koryak are two very different people, who lived very different lives, and have very different opinions of arthur. if the two of them were forced to bond in any capacity, it would be messy and petty! koryak would continue to be upset that arthur wasn't there for him in his youth and jealous that he raised a kid who wasn't even his. and if koryak stuck around, we'd see more negative emotions from garth ie him being upset/jealous/worried that arthur now has another biological son. it wouldn't be rational from either side, and garth would definitely try his best to be nice, but both of them have reasons to not like or trust the other.

that being said, at the core of it, their emotions stem from the same issue. they both just want to be arthur's son. and while i do think it would take a lot of time, eventually they'd be forced to see the other's perspective and realize that the other is just as jealous as they are. koryak may have missed out on having a bio father in his life but... so did garth. garth worries that arthur doesn't see him as a true son but... so does koryak. yes, they've had very different upbringings, but they also have the same fears and worries regarding arthur. and personally, i think it would've been more interesting to see them reconcile and bond over that.

maybe koryak would be brave enough to ask garth what his childhood was like under arthur's care. maybe garth takes the time to ask about kako or his culture. maybe he even tells koryak the truth about what happened with jr. maybe koryak starts to get upset on garth's behalf that arthur raised him but didn't even see him as a son, and had the audacity to say it to his face while trying to kill him. maybe garth gets upset on koryak's behalf because arthur keeps pushing him aside and treating him like an untrustworthy stranger.

and yknow maybe they never become friends or talk to each other... but they still understand each other, they still yearn for what the other had, and they're increasingly more disappointed in how arthur treats his family. i think that would've been nice and more narratively satisfying than koryak dying.

#it gives arthur a chance to make proper amends #he really never did that with either of them #calling garth his son once does not make up for trying to kill him and then abandoning them imo #it also gives them a chance to actually deal with garth and koryak's issues and let them talk it out #when was the last time either of them were able to have a proper conversation about how much arthur hurt them... with anyone... #like who are they going to talk to?? garth's friends who always make fun of him?? koryak's tribe who hates him??? #bro please #who else would understand them if not the guy who feels exactly the same way... #and yes their relationship would still be messy and weird and they would get on each other's nerve all the time #but it would also be understanding and patient and forgiving #i think both of them deserve someone who truly understands and doesn't dismiss their feelings about what arthur did or didn't do #the only reason i'm glad koryak died is cause dc would definitely make him the jason of the aquafam and i cant handle that aldhg #garth of shayeris #koryak

[buckttommy]

I don't think 9-1-1 is in the business of killing off mains but I get the feeling something catastrophic is coming Buck's way and it's not going to be the car incident

#Time is a central theme that unites and binds Buck and Eddie but it is a theme that has been attributed to Eddie for the most part via #dialogue/context/circumstance/etc. #But last night Lev specifically mentions the concept of time in relation to happiness; not to Eddie this time but to Buck #in a way that simply cannot be mistrued or extrapolated or taken to mean or be associated with anyone else #Kind of makes me wonder about Buck's mental/emotional trajectory as well. Last season he clung to Taylor because he was afraid #of being left again. Understandable since he lost three key people in his life within a matter of months. #But they came back. And then Taylor was gone. And Buck's not clinging anymore but he's not happy either #so why the connection between Buck and Time? It's been so effectively established but why establish it at all? #Does he feel like Taylor was his last chance at the life he wanted? Wife. Kids. Happiness #(or at least some approximation of it) #That would put Lev's words into an even greater perspective: how he had this Thing that Buck actively desires and craves and it still #wasn't enough. #This thing that leaves Buck wondering 'if he had it all and it wasn't enough what will be enough?' #The question is: does he have the time to figure it out? #Because Buck might feel like *his* time js running out in the same way all human beings feel like there is never enough time #to heal the way they want to heal / achieve what they want to achieve / be who they want to be... #But Buck is a character trapped within a narrative he has no choice but to dance to #and that narrative is feeling so. Damning these days. #He feels like he doesn't have time but I'm willing to bet he has even less time than he thinks he has.

[oscill4te]

i genuinely love my mom so much but its also like you are the most confusing person ever

#i dnt wanna overshare cuz i always do that lol but mothers day is coming upp... uh. soon #so i guess im just thinking about her. i genuinely love her so much. as alwayz its hard tho #she is also the funniest woman in the world to me. most people would say shes a horrible person #shes just rough around the edges. idk #one time she pointed at a couple outside and wz like “those two are so ugly; its like they were made for each other!!” #is it bad that i find humor in her meanness? shes just like. so funny to me #her negativity makes me laugh i guess xD #and if shes nice to you she genuinely means it. I think i love my mom a lot bc i see a lot of myself in her #shes very “split up” like me her opinions change all the time and im like. me too!!! #yes she can be fake but i think she genuinely does “flip/switch” a lot the way i do #and i never met anyone else other than my mom who so openly did that yknow #she can love and hate you at the same time. she simutaneously will love animals and hate them. gay ppl. ect #she seems to idk. be really inconsistent and fragmented like me and only now do I see it #i love my mom. i cant help it even with everything thats happened its like how can i not love someone who held me in her jacket #as it snowed outside before school? i cling so hard to that memory #i will be seeing family 2 times this month but i feel quite at peace with it right now #in april i was not thrilled at all but today im feeling some peace

[walker-lister]

I just have to remind myself sometimes that no matter what anyone else says, the way a piece of media makes me feel and the positive impact it has had on my queer identity is valid, and that tearing myself apart thinking I have to defend it or questioning my own place within queer communities is not at all important when compared to the almost tangible sense of 'rightness' that piece of media helped me to feel about myself.

#just something i've been pondering the last few days #kind of like no matter how much people debate or i suppose theoretically deconstruct media featuring queer stories #the most important thing is how it makes a queer person feel #and I do think it is of course a good thing to ensure queer stories are executed with respect and authenticity #but there's this grey area in fandom spaces in which people may have found rep from a 'unreliable' source i suppose #or something which is queerbaiting- sherlock springs to mind for example yet if people have been able to explore and nurture their own #queerness through that media does that therefore mean their experience is invalid? i don't think so #and my worry is the more we focus on theory the less we focus on emotion and therefore the actual queer experience itself #and sure theory can inform the queer experience and ensure the media is a 'healthy' site of queer identity formation and identity aid #but at the same time scorning or being rude to those who have found certain media an aid is not the right approach to be taking #especially as queer experiences are so wide ranging that one person's idea of 'good' representation is someone's else's of 'bad' #and that unless a piece of media is clearly offensive in its portrayal of queer experience there has to be some benefit of doubt #I think we're still in a period of progression in media espc tv where queer creators are coming to the fore of their own stories #and we've got to 'live and let live' a little about where people are finding sights of queer validation and joy #and perhaps this a naive and simplistic way of thinking but i think queer people can either recognise when something isn't the best rep #but was helpful for them anyway and therefore in a way confer 'ownership' of the media to themselves in how they engage #or there is variety in queer experiences represented in media so that perhaps not everyone finds a 'site' of rep but that does not #therefore invalidate it or make it 'bad' representation #this is just my opinion and it'd be hypocritical for me to not now mention this is only formed from my own queer experience lol #so i'm not trying to tell anyone how to feel or anything just something i'm pondering

[dhmis-autism]

trying harder to pay attention to yellows dialogue so i can write him better and. literally. love that thing he does where he talks like hes in a sitcom

( “What do you think it means to have a job?” / ”Yeah, what an adventure. Yup,we really did have the laugh of our lives. But still, nice to be back at home,eh?”/ “Let’s go see this real family in action!” )

#like it feels like lines from an 80s sitcom or smth #it reminds me that hes the one whos the most equipped socially out of the group and that a lot of that comes from what SOUND like #rehearsed lines that are just echos from what he hears from someone else #like the best example of that is the job episode #where hes able to mesh in the best among other people because he just repeats jokes and phrases #same thing happens in the family episode lol #and its like thats all well and good for how he initially comes off to people but i think if anyone were to stick around him long enough #theyd get annoyed either with that or him #i think we really see that with how warren gets around his brain friends #theyre very polite at first then he quickly gets so frustrated he starts yelling at them #but i do like how he seems the most socially competent but its clearly like. in a very surface level way #as opposed to duck who actively pushes new people away with his abrasiveness and red who does it accidentally lol #my dhmis postings #ANYWAYS HES GOT VERY FAMILY TV SHOW LINES AND I LOVE IT

[jinstronaut]

this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh

#and i might do it again bc its just #a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc #which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow #it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag #people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just #so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what #like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao #and it never ever used to #but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly #or whatever the make believe rules are idk #this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus #bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community #and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit #bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were #i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year #but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad #once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care #ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control #i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile #and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be #a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion #so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao #why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things???? #i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just #ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand #so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time #but yeah anyways idk ! #be nice its so easy ! #tbd

[musical-chick-13]

Regarding the previous post, I think the way I approach trying to evaluate a piece of art is asking "Do I think the positive things I get out of it outweigh the parts of it that I don't like?" And when I call something a "guilty pleasure" song/show/book/piece of media/etc. it's really more in the sense of, "Given who I am as a person, the flaws I've found in this should be complete dealbreakers for me, but somehow they aren't, and it makes me feel like I'm having an identity crisis."

#like. I think something like...idk shiki or cxgf excels on multiple levels. I understand why I like them. given the things I look for in art #it makes sense that these shows would speak to me because they make the effort to showcase those things I look for. because the people #in charge of those works clearly valued the same kinds of things and cared about seriously exploring them. #but with something like. uh. ctrlz. that is NOT the case and I frequently found myself going 'why would anyone make this writing #decision?' but I still sat through all 3 seasons of it! I still really enjoyed it! those flaws SHOULD have made me give up according to #personal history but they never did. and I very very much genuinely question why. I have NO IDEA why I still care about this #silly convoluted teen drama show so much. but I do. I wrote SO MANY FUCKING POSTS ABOUT IT. #I really love wicked the musical. I've heard many people call it 'hokey' or 'cheesy' or 'objectively bad' but here's the thing! I DON'T #think it's bad!!! like literally at all!!!!!! and it does do some genuinely cool things in regard to the music and the way the characters #develop and what the show says about the nature of prejudice and human connection. is it like. idk Serious™ the way that something like #Parade is? no. but it doesn't have to be. it does what it sets out to do and it does it well and this is why the whole '''objective #evaluation''' thing doesn't actually mean anything. I value thoughtfully-constructed music and dynamic female characters #(which this musical has). I value stories that deal with the complex and messy feelings that come with being a human (which this musical #has). I value stories about 'other'ness and romantic subplots that aren't just built on 'This Girl Is Pretty' (which this musical has). #and I value professional displays of technical vocal ability because I know how fucking DIFFICULT that is (which this musical...if you cast #it well...has). #if you value something else in a musical then yeah you will probably think THIS one is '''objectively bad''' #if you don't see the point of musicals as an art form you will probably think wicked is '''objectively bad''' #do you see where the problem with categorizing analysis like this is??

[starredforlife]

i also personally don't think i deserve sympathy from people directly affected by my strange cocktail of neurosis i think i owe them an apology and explanation if they want to hear it, and for me to get better for myself. i think i can owe myself compassion and maybe a therapist who is understanding but i don't want people to feel obligated to empathize with my way of looking at the world bc put simply it's not healthy and it's far too damning . it's like i hadn't escaped the concept of sin that's been spun throughout me since day 0, i just created it again, with a new face, and decided to puppet god

#star's thoughts #im putting all of this out there not for pity and also fully knowing i have people following me #whose opinions i care a great deal about #im sorry youre following a mostly pictures and art centered blog thats burst into a diary all of a sudden #i want anyone else who is having a hard fucking time with ocd to maybe see this and feel slightly. seen. i dont know #its all personal #but at the same time #i know there have gotta be other people who have lived the way i live #smtimes being mentally ill makes you a bad friend or partner and that doesnt mean you dont deserve love n patience n space while struggling #but it does mean you gotta accept that you can be bad and do bad things #and youre not gonna die about it. youre just gonna have to deal with it. like a person who cares abt others #dl