#cant eat my comfort food

[cayennecrush]

evangeline makes an offer... 👀

#my ocs #jackie #evangeline #wlw #comic #long post #i want to try and continue this.... i want to draw..... the Bite... #i want them to get all..... messy 🥴 #i love vampires......... #oh some vampire lore: they can eat but the amount they eat directly translates to how much blood they gotta drink to compensate #basically makes their body process 'food' it cant get nutrients from so more energy (consumed blood) is diverted to digestion #and that triggers a thirst response that gets harder to ignore the more you eat #jackie loves snacking and eating comfort food bc it makes her feel normal tho... she cant give it up completely #good thing she has a witch gf that effortlessly regenerates 😏

[straawberries]

hi happy halloween im out of food again

please commission me or donate

ive pretty much given up on being able to afford moving out so just being able to afford to live until i get kicked out would be nice

c*sh*pp (does this actually need to be censored?) is delilahswagga, p*yp*l is @delilahkill

not asking for a lot here even a few people donating a few dolalrs or getting 2 dollar commissions would help me a lot

#working on a new comm sheet ill reblog with it later #not eating regularly is like the biggest thing that makes my depression worse and it fucking sucks #thanks god for making the biggest thing that makes me happy the one thing i cant get regularly #meow #i hate e begging i feel like such a fucking loser right now. god #gotta love that autism!!!!!!!!!! #my dad keeps intentionally buying shit he knows i cant fucking eat without meltdowns #just because he thinks 'more food in pantry for longer = better' regardless of means #ive started just throwing away the fucking disgusting cans of soup in the hopes that he'll go to the store and buy something else #but every time he goes to the store he just buys me like #a bag of chips #and everything else is for him #if i touch the fucking meat he'll kill me and he buys like several hundred dollars of meat every month for his stupid smoker #he has bought 4 smokers in the last year but cant fucking stomach the thought of giving me some money for groceries #like expensive smokers #i know hes fucking lying when he says hes too poor to get me the shit that im actually able to comfortably eat at the cost of a few dollars #wow i am ranting hard in these tags. sorry #saved for later #<- so i can reblog this later if i need to

[bunnihearted]

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#soo blah blah need to vent again abt my health issue situation 💀 #yuh so like im so sick nd tired of whats going on. nd not being able to just eat whatever i feel like whenever #it's emotionall draining tbh. im always thinking abt what i could maybe try nd im always like ohh gotta make sure the portion is small etc #it's annoying me sm bc i can def feel the effects of me not getting the right nd enough nutrients nd vitamins etc etc #i get dizzy nd my vision is hazy sometimes. nd im like forgetful bc the other the when i walked home i kept getting lost nd had to walk back #nd forth several times nd i was like ?!?!? what?! i've lived here for 25yrs nd now i just cannot for the life of me rmbr the way #also i am so weak in my body. like carrying even a small amound or books nd groceries nd walking for 30min makes me exhausted #my legs are actually shaking when i get back home nd every step feels like im walking in cement #plus i just wanna be able to go to the gym nd build muscle. but if i dont get enough protein in me i cant build muscles T-T #what else... yeah also i do miss food bc of comfort. like my coffee + chcolate everyday makes me genuinely happy lmao #but i just want the food situation to be normal bc even w veggies im like oh no that is too gas building that is too hard to digest etc etc #it's mentally gruelling to not know how tf to get all the important nutrients!! i def have several deficiences lmao :(( #im so over it. but theres nothing i can do. i wish i could just not think abt it 24/7 tho #also. im the thinnest i've ever been BUT. i am constantly bloated so i look fkn pregnant. so i cant even enjoy looking the skinnier

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

So yeah avoiding my phone didn't work and also meant I sat on the kitchen floor staring into space for about 3 hours before Alfie woke up but hey at least I didn't break anything

Them being around is helping a little but they're also struggling and it fuckin sucks bc I know we're both just. Rotating money stress in our minds

#like. i went out earlier to get bread #just bread bc we cant afford anything else #got just enough in the bank to cover the work thing but since management stjll hasnt gotten back to me on HOW to pay it its like #our electricity is already in debt lol it has a thing where you can go £10 into debt before it switches off #and it usually wont switch off over weekends #presumably bc all but 1 places nearby thst we can top it up at are shut on weekends but anyway #so we're like. okay. it MIGHT last today and if it does thst SHOULD mean itll last till monday. #but then itll be at least a tenner in debt #then we only have to last till thursday but its. do we keep this money thats for The Thing that is once again unclear on how urgent it is #or do we spend it on the Soon To Be Immdiately Urgent thing #and thats not even CONSIDERING food lmao we. i got 2 loaves of bread so we can at least survive on toast for a few days #we got 3 maybe 4 meals worth of stuff still in the kitchen #like...at this point i dont even care if i have to go a few days without eating at all to make it to thursday but its. #its so fucked up those are the terms im thinking in #and this isnt asking for more donations i really cannot take that today im at the fuckin bottom of my barrel #and already feel hopeless and useless and an active drain to everything around me #but its. like. how. why. why is it still like this. why is it looking extremely unlikely its ever gonna change. #whats the point if its all for a few scattered handful hours of actual peace and comfort never mind happiness #tldr yes i am once again suicidal but small s #like in the sense of i would feel immense relief if a truck came at me on my way to work tomorrow and would not step out of the way but #dont have it in me to actually consciously act upon

[spacecrows]

hello fellow 'oh this food isn't supposed to be spicy/tingly/numbing?!?' people!!!

#somehow it never occured to me to stop eating fresh pineapple or celery??????? #(edit: i was informed pineapple is supposed to do that! i'm sorry for doubting you my tingly friend!! unproblematic fave) #i was just happily snacking on some celery #welcoming my old friend the comforting tongue numbness #and suddenly. i was like wait. is this bad????????? #i think its probably fine right???? #dont want to look this up though #so tumblr poll it is #if this poll doesnt reach the tingly mouth community i will take it as a sign to keep eating my celery #i think #also this is really just about mild allergies okay!! im so so sorry to all of you who have severe allergies :( that sucks #but i just assume you guys are not eating the bad foods???? #(i cant have too many tomatoes or oranges otherwise i get bad rashes and i do avoid those #wouldnt count them as a weird mild allergy although its not super severe either #i guess the cut off is really the 'oh i've been eating this all my life i DIDNT KNOW!!!!!!' realization???) #anyways. uhhhhh #poll

[extremelygaymorallygrey]

Being in a relationship sucks when your body/weight keeps changing.

I know that 7 kg to or from is not the biggest difference to others, but explaining that it will go back and forth every few months like this for years to come, to a partner that found you attractive at one end of the scale (when you met) just sucks. Especially the weeks when i feel disgusting because of my weight and do not want to be ✨perceived✨

#and dont get me started on family members noticing my changing weight #“you should eat more so you dont look sick” #“those pants are getting a bit tight huh?” #I already feel disgusting at this event because I cant wear any of my favourite outfits that are too small at the moment #and my go to comfort fits are not comfy anymore because I know whats under them #i was THIS close to cancel and stay in my bed #but I showed up #and you side eye my choice in food? #I hate it here #I know its all comming from a place of concern #especially from my older family members that have known me my whole life #but even joking comments like #“you sure you can/should eat all that?” #or #idk #It just makes me wanna curl up and die tbh #body dysmorphia #body dysphoria #weight loss #weight #relationship #relationships #dating #medicine #sorry for the rant #rant post #rant #personal rant

[moomoorare]

I'm so mentally drained dude I feel like a dry plant BURNED by sunlight

#fell asleep two hours tonight and im still tired #for my mental weelbeing im gonna actually go out to buy something good to eat some comfort foods or something ifk #*idk #and the stretch will maybe help its also sunny it cant hurt #i need all the comfort i can get #my head hurts so much too #i will try to take a nap after im back #i have a complicated relationship with food #i love food. and im not really picky. except. i eat only for the flavour #i need something to be flavorful otherwise if its bland my body will outright reject it #cannot physically bring myself to eat bland foods #and its not even like they have to be seasoned #i love eating fruit and veggies with no additions or salt jusy saright up carrots tomatos and cabbage #but also. for pasta for example. or meat. or anything really . #idk. #anyway i just need food. #because goddamn. ive been having one mesl per day too with how bad my sleeping schedule has been #rare rambling

[calico-kiwi]

it kills me that i’m not allowed to have rice right now like that’s just so sad. what am i supposed to do, eat my sinigang without rice? stupid wisdom teeth surgery >:|

#kiwi shares their thoughts #ITS JUST NOT TYE SAME #CANT HAVE THE CHICKEN OR ANY OF THE VEGGIES EITHER #LIKE FML #IM SO HUNGRY AND MY SUSTENANCE OPTIONS (that i feel comfortable with) ARE JUST SO FUCKING BORING #IM GONNA CRY #I MISS FOOD #I MISS IT SO MUCH #HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SURVIVE WITHOUT MY SNACKS #i can actually see myself losing muscle mass #which is not good because i’m already not the meatiest of persons #like it’s not fun over here but i’m a scaredy cat #which means i probably won’t be comfortable eating normal food for like another week #i’m so sad

[inbabylontheywept]

is a big hunk of bread, two pieces of cheese, a hotdog, and a sliced up cucumber a depression meal or just, you know, supper. peasantcore. etc.

#hard to tell sometimes #i like my bread tho #i feel like sometimes a good uncooked cold dinner is just nice #hm #but this is also what i eat whenever i get depressed #and i cant tell if its me sinking into my sadness or if this is a comfort food #like frozen dino nuggies are not a comfort food for me #i loathe them but they sustain me through periods of darkness #this is like... pleasant #i think #its also a cucumber with a hotdog and a piece of bread and some cheese #and i take little bites of the cucumer and the cheese and the hotdog and the bread all at once in my mouth #and i like seeing if the order affects how good it tastes #(so far the winning combo is bread then cheese then cucumber then hotdog)

[nomaishuttle]

sry its just like rly incredibly annoying how much ppl will like. IDK. yes ik a lot of autistic and adhd ppl who do love music. and sometimes it is bc of their neurodivergence yk. music can be grounding its familiar its reliable and comfortable. i think its fine to say Autistic/ADHD ppl often find comfort in music. but its stupid as fuck to say Therefore enjoying music makes you autistic/adhd.

#like that cant be the only diagnostic criteria... im not at all anti self dx but i am anti just hearing abt something doing 0 research and #being like yep thats so me. yk. #likeee. i have a LOT of issues on the psych industry trust me. i also think in a lot of cases its dangerous to be diagnosed. and in most #cases self dxing even uninformed self dxing isnt harmful its just like. idk. it can be harmful when you use it to spread misinfo #even unknowingly. IDK.... like. i enjoy eating the same foods over and over bc they are safe and reliable. expecting these foods #and then getting something different than what i was expecting is incredibly upsetting. that is bc of my autism but if that was the ONLY #autistic trait i had i wouldnt say i was autistic i would just say that i find comfort in my foods being reliable and i dislike change. #and i think a lot of ppl just feel this need to put a label on every single thing abt them down to like. the way they walk. #like do i do the classic autistic Walking on the balls of my feet yes its true i do do that. but again i wouldnt say i was autistic just bc #of that... sometimes its just a quirk you have. sometimes you just have things you do and you dont need a label to put on them to explain #that thing... its more just like. if you do have that dx or whatever you can look at that thing and be like oh this might be bc of that dx. #and you can kind of bond over that with other ppl. IDKK its complicated and im rambling #again idt its like super harmful to self dx even uninformed its just like. i wish sometimes people would just be like . chill abt labels #its the same thing with sexualities and gender like. sometimes you dont need a hyperspecific word to describe your entire identity sometime #you can just be a person. yk. like i love being bisexual i love the bisexual label and im proud of being bi. i dont feel the need #to look into the specific ratio of who im attracted to or when im attracted to them or whatever to make a more specific label. IDK THO #idk. basically i just think instead of trying to group everybody into these tiny Ultra specific groups of ppl you relate to i think you #should just be like. Oh everybodys a person even if they dont experience everything the exact way i do. idk whatever

[artemisbarnowl]

Spent literal years figuring out how to manage. Putting in the work to learn to look after myself, knowing how to help and what to do when I was struggling. Not thinking about if it was possible for it to all disappear. And then I, on purpose, made it disappear.

#i need a break #that costs little money and provides comfort and safety and isnt hovering around the edge of expectations and calculating considering #the other options are sit alone in my pig sty of a house i cant clean (i can barely eat proper food who knows if i can shop for more) #alone #for a week or two and see what that does #or spend a thousand dollars to sit somewhere else for a week and see what THAT does #starting to realise the true depths of how...disabled i am by how i think of people

[lycanthian]

uniquely annoying aspect of the thanksgiving holidays reliance and association with food is when you have extremely bad issues abt food that ur working thru but its going slowly and you cant eat most of the food offered and u try to be polite abt it but everyone thinks ur fucking rude for making your own food that you brought even though its not taking anyone elses time energy or money but yours

#i hope this makes any sort of sense #i wish i could be someone that could eat all kinds of food bc so much sounds good to me #but trying anything outside my extremely small comfort zone makes me literally nauseous and not in a good way #thanksgiving always makes me feel Bad about something that it really feels like i cant control no matter how hard i want to and try to #esp when it comes to other ppl because then it feels like youre making other people mad for doing smth that feels like shouldnt affect them #idk. im trying to branch out more but its rlly hard. next year i might do a thing like trying to expose myself to one new thing a week #or smth #if anyone has any advice abt this id love to hear it but it feels liek s rlly specific personal problem LOL #lycan howls

[celibate-batjokes-mpreg-yaoi-911]

ive been suffering gastrointestinally

#its my new meds i think but it was better at home bc i could suffer on the toilet in peace. fsr away from people #and i also ate more #now the toilet is literally just next to our room and the toilet is right next to my roommates bed just 1 wall between them #She would hear EVERYTHING #im sorry for being tmi but i cannot even comfortably let out..gas. in the mf toilet #i habe to be very very silent all the time and its driving me crazy #im like sweating there tryjng to push the shit out and i can make no sounds!!!!!! #i cant even use my full strength like this. #ans its been bothering me so so so so much.... #and ofc this mf is a humanities major and has no damn classes and doesnt go anywhere #ANYWHERE #i HAVE NO ALONE TIME TO COPE WITH MY CONSTIPATION #im . im genuinely feeling so hopeless. i should eat more food maybe to get the stuff inside moving or get an energy drink but then i #spend money on food and i hate spending money on food #it genuinely makes me sick that i have to waste money on food. in this economy

[beetrootsoupdragon]

ever since my mum has found out abt my self harm my life has just been hurtling downhill and i dont know how to distract myself and actually feel happy again.

#just everything is going so badly #i find it kind of funny that as soon as my mum tries to help everything goes terribly #also i found out a bunch of stuff that shes been lying to me about that #if she had told me the truth to begin with #would have solved 75% of my problems #but instead shes just actively making things worse #and like my comfort shows dont make me happy #cant eat my comfort food #cant leave the house bcs i have no energy for anything anymore #cant talk to my friends bcs they all hate me #cant do any of my hobbies bcs im terrible at all of them #what else am i meant to do #tw self harm #to delete

[camptw1nk]

mental health is not so hot but i have had my silly little cry and now i am going to eat some mashed potato and some butter chicken and start s2 of lone star

#i was gonna just sleep but i am. i cant #so i will go through the Horror of cooking food so i can eat and watch my new comfort show #idk what it is but every character is a comfort character i am latching on to every little person we see

[thornsnvultures]

whoever's sick idea it was to make a macaroni salad that tastes like sweet pickle relish, I'm calling the cops. this is unacceptable. don't get me wrong, I love pickles, but this is a goddamn crime.

#im never eating store bought again #cant trust these mfers #tw food #i hate that one of my comfort foods is so hard to get right