#but then the actual class comes around

[aquablues-archive]

im so annoyed oh my god

#so #yk how i said this stupid house was due today #and i slept for half an hour #to get as much done so i’d be able to finish in class #WELL #my other engineering teacher also thought it was due today #so he let all of us with these houses work on them during his class #and that was nice yk grateful for him #but then the actual class comes around #and i’m rushing to finish painting so i can label the features and write my little statement #and it’s so fucking ugly like looking at it makes me wanna cry #and 5 minutes before class ends #he says it’s the last day to work on it . IN CLASS . #and he won’t tell us when it’s actually due . #so we were all rushing for nothing #and it’s so shitty looking #like everyone said it looked good but ik what i wanted it to look like and that was not it #and ik it’s just one assignment but even tho i said i hated it i was v happy with how it came out and was so disappointed that i ruined it #and all morning i had some fuck ass loser telling me i didn’t have to do all that or i put in all that effort and it still looks like shit #LIKE DID I ASK ??? DID . I . ASK . #why does the amount of effort i put into MY WORK bother u . #get off my fucking dick #like it didn’t bother me that he said it looked shitty what pissed me off was him saying it over and over like he thought i gave a shit #abt what he had to say #like im exhausted and ur not funny like if ur gonna make fun of me at least be funny #god i can’t stand unfunny bitches im sorry #i can make it look better now but i’m annoyed i even have to #like it cld have just been done #i also had to buy more paint which was lame

[bixels]

The idea that uni protesters are "elitist ivy-league rich kids larping as revolutionaries" on Twitter and Reddit and even here is so fucking funny to me if you actually know anything about the student bodies at these unis. Take it from someone who's going to one of the biggest private unis in the US, 80% of the peers I know are either from the suburbs or an apartment somewhere in America, children of immigrants, or here on a student visa. I've heard about one-percenter students, but I've never met one in person. Like, don't get me wrong, the institution as a whole is still very privileged and white. I've talked with friends and classmates about feeling weird or dissonant being here and coming from such a different background. But in my art program, I see BIPOC, disabled, queer, lower-income students and faculty trying to deconstruct and tear that down and make space every day. So to take a cursory glance at a crowd of student protesters in coalitions that are led by BIPOC & 1st/2nd-gen immigrant students and HQ'd in ethnic housings and student organizations and say, "ah. children of the elite." Get real.

#also idk how to tell you this but even if it were true. wealthy children potentially sacrificing their educational careers to protest is #a good thing actually. idk how to tell you that caring about people from other nations is good #personal #“this war has nothing to do with most students cuz nobody's getting drafted” idk how to explain to you that we should be angry #that our tuitions of 10s of thousands of dollars that we pay every year for an education is being used to fund a genocidal campaign #also the implication that if you go to a uni institution you are automatically privileged by participation no matter your bg #i didn't /want/ to go to this school. i was supposed to go to a school with an art/animation program. but i realized my immigrant #parents have been working their whole lives to get me here. and turning the opportunity down would be a disservice to their sacrifice #this is getting into convos of “what 2nd gen kids owe their parents” which is different for everyone but. yeah #i just get pissed off at seeing people misrepresenting student bodies as “wealthy” and “privileged” and “elite” when it's such a blatant li #i remember a year ago a friend told me they can't fly home to hong kong for winter break because the plane tickets are too expensive #so they have to find temporary housing around the area #last quarter for a film doc class my film partner made a doc on a small group of marxist grad students from india discussing praxis #during a rally a few months ago in response to police presence the coalition invited palestinian students to speak about their experiences #and lead songs and read poems they wrote. these are STUDENTS. are they elitist too? #this is not to disregard my own personal privilege either. #this whole narrative's just to rationalize a lack of empathy to me. seeing a 19yo student get shot by a rubber bullet and your first #reaction is “HAW! HAW! bet richy rich didn't see THAT coming when she put on her terrorist hood!” #newsflash. these big uni campuses are HAUNTED by the violence of past protests and revolutions and police brutality. we know. #why do you think these coalitions have been making reinforced barricades at record speed

[wrenhavenriver]

overhearing the students i was helping in class today say "she's so sweet!" as they leave and then the professor coming up to ask me if i'm going into education because he thinks i'm really good at teaching

#part of my job is attending class days for the course i'm tutoring for even though i've already taken it #so students get used to having me around and i'm up-to-date on where exactly they are in the material and can make announcements and stuff #most days are just kind of whatever since i still have all my notes from doing this last semester for the same course #and it's not a very interactive style course so i don't get to talk to students a whole lot #but today was just sort of a free period for them to go over their study guides #and so the professor had me roam around and help people as needed #and it was really fun! #this semester students have been very reluctant to actually come to tutoring/review sessions outside of last minute exam prep ones #so it was nice to actually get to feel useful again #assorted work nonsense

[runawaymarbles]

at this point i am simply uninterested in any opinion on a hot-button political topic that treats human beings as a mass of meaningless hypotheticals

#this goes for all of them!!!!!! #some people may die and that is the cost of the economy going #those are real people! #pro life people who shrug off the number of complexities and ways their laws will ruin lives for a nebulous greater good they can't define #pro choice people who groupthink each other into forgetting that a lot of people do want to be pregnant and the loss of a baby is a tragedy #places that don't think accessibility laws should apply to them #people who unironically advocate for murdering billionaires #people who shrug off mass casualty events because they think one side or the other had it coming/is not sympathetic enough #idk I think everyone should spend some time around babies (most future members of some undesierable class or another) #and have a good long think about the work that goes into making a person and the amount of impact people have on the lives of others #and those who haven't or don't know someone who has gone through the loss of a child should really think.about what that is like. #sorry fam im' editing a stillborn shoot and i'm very tired of the internet actually #op

[somestorythoughts]

Eldritch Clone Troopers but Not All of Them

Like the Kaminoans didn't start whatever weird thing they did that resulted in Eldritch troopers (what were they trying to do? I don't know. The troopers don't know. That Kaminoans know and this was NOT it) until after they've got a few batches underway and it never really affects the oldest troopers.

So you've got the CT's who are all eldritch horrors masking as Jango Fett, the CC's may be normal or may also be eldritch, and the Alpha class troopers who are normal. (I have not read the comics, this is my understanding of the trooper age order from fics and those sound like the canon timeline may be odd so. Basically the older troopers are not eldritch and the many many younger ones are.)

This does absolutely nothing to change the fact that the Alpha class troopers and possibly the CC's have all decided that these scary feral CTs are their baby brothers. Absolutely nothing. It also does nothing to change the fact that all the eldritch troopers see them as their gruff older brothers who make them do extra laps when they mouth off to them and sneak them candy when they mouth off to the trainers, who make sure they're meeting all the requirements and teach them their own tricks for hiding inefficiencies, who'll scold them ten ways from sunday for messy armor but also help them through panic attacks.

Picture if you will Alpha-Seventeen lecturing Rex for something insane that somehow worked and then sending him off to do 10 laps around the hanger or something and Obi-Wan's staring because he just saw this short scowly guy who looks like Jango Fett lecture this 6-ft blond with three rows of teeth and a shadow as blue as his armor and then Seventeen turns to him and is like "What? He's a little shit."

I find this very funny.

#its like that idea i've seen floating around of Anakin as eldritch and obi-wan as the normal guy who's just gotta deal with it #except it's like a few hundred alpha and cc troopers vs their millions of feral eldritch baby brothers #they do not give a single shit #'what do you mean the vod'ika looks like something that crawled out of nightmares he is baby?' #every single one of them has bite marks from being bitten at some point by the feral babies who cannot keep their teeth to themselves #they are very surprised to find this is not a universal experience #oh there are species where that's normal but uh not the rest of it #these are THEIR feral nightmare little brothers and anyone who looks at them wrong can jump out an airlock #the thing about seventeen being shorter than rex comes from a headcanon I saw somewhere that they didn't mess with height till later batche #so the alpha class troopers were actually shorter than everyone else #i think that's funny #clone wars #clone troopers #eldritch clone troopers #captain rex #alpha-17 #star wars

[madhushala]

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#the more i stay around people the more i want to become like them out of spite #because i was so surprised these people are at least 24-26 years age some even did a minor bachelor's before coming here #some have completed post grad and then joined #like aren't you all too fucking old to act that immature #i grew so resentful of everyone how they keep on doing the worst low man shit and then victimize themselves #hypocrites full of shit they don't want to hear the truth #i know no one has the audacity to take a fight with me on here because they know im the youngest here #not because im the youngest but because im better #the girls frown upon me because i don't hear their low mindset humorless jokes and pointo out where they fall short #oh [my irl name] youre so stiff hamesha kami kyun nikalti rahti ho hamesha baat kaatne ki aadat hai learn to take a joke #mazaak hi to kar rahe hain kya yaar #ive cried so many times because i feel suffocated here and out of hate i want to act immature selfish hypocrite too so i do #i become self centered and look into my needs #but everyday bcg shows me how one stays firm in mindset even amidst surrounding of shit people #he points out to me all the time when i start acting like them he says why aren't you trying to rise above #i say ham bhi karte hai na unn chutiyon jaisa behave kyunki unhe unhi ki language mei samajh aata hai #achha ban kar honest banne se kuch nahi milta yaha #but he knows his stuff #he never does these things #however much i let evil thoughts take upon i get astounded everyday how he's practicing his rightful his honesty even tho no one's looking #it makes me want to cry #i hope he gets so ahead in life i hope he stands at the podium one day on a stage and deliver speeches where people actually can see him #like he sees the orator that come to attend our unis gatherings and says everytime kuch to baat hoti hai inn logon mei #i hope he achieves whatever he wants i hope he gets ahead of everyone all this fucking corruption #its not that he's done anything that im applauding he tries his best #and maybe teachers see that too all in class they're only looking at him and teaching they know #do you know how fucking hard it is not get corrupted in this uni and become one of those assholes that have done things unimaginable #im inspired everyday ill try my best to be like him #i do not just want to praise him i want to become someone he doesn't have to say fir tum bhi vahi karogi to kya farq reh jaayega #kuch bada nahi hota logon ki roz roz ki choti choti aadaton se pata chal jaata hai vo kaise hain

[salvadorbonaparte]

I just remembered how my friend’s dad told me with a serious face that my tribe is full of cannibals and that there were savages hiding in the woods we lived near. Like wtf. I didn’t know how to respond

Build a time machine, kill Christopher Columbus

#We read some of his stuff in my Monster Studies class #Because of the whole Unknown Cultures are Monstrous theme throughout history #And he's the one who spread the rumour that Caribbean native people are cannibals to justify enslaving them #And it spread to All American Indigenous People are Cannibals myths #And tbf cannibalism does exist in some cultures around the world like on Papua New Guinea #But it's ritual cannibalism #There's this hugely controversial and misunderstood film I like called Cannibal Holocaust #And it's about an anthropologist travelling to the amazon to find a missing documentary film crew #And he finds out they have been cannibalised but then he recovers their film material #And it turns out they tortured and killed the locals to portray them as bloodthirsty savages so they definitely had it coming and were #Actually killed in self defense #And yeah the film is not perfect but it really nails the colonial era myth making still influencing people today #Asks

[lecliss]

Sakura gets a second point for being the first to complete the tree climbing at being better at chakra control, but at the same time it just feels like she was made good at it so no extra training segment time would have to be put into her getting good at it and it can be all about Sauce and Nart. Idk that feels too pessimistic but also could totally be true.

#she takes on a very 'obsever' role. like kashi is the teacher watching over them. but sock is the watching and commenting from the same #perspective of nart and sauce and also the viewer unlike kashi. cuz he provides a lot of exposition and whatnot in his inner monolgues #and its like. of course the girl is just the observer who watches alongside us as the two main boys grow and develop #AND I DONT WANNA FUCKIN BE PESSIMISTIC ABOUT THIS BUT GOD ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!!! #but her whole character so far is 'i hate the class clown. im book smart. i diet and im in love' #and the way i see it is. 12yo girl TRYING to fit into the femininity she sees in the world around her so she forces herself to be like this #but she has inner sock who speaks what she really feels showing that she puts on quite a front and isnt really much like that at all #and you expect her to grow into wanting her to truly define herself. and she does with getting stronger and training under tsunade and #learning medical ninjutsu so she really finds a spot for herself. she does!!! but then she KEEPS hanging onto the love nonsense #and admittedly there are moments that push a very obvious trope of thinking she likes sauce cuz hes cool but finding out that the real 'gem' #is nart so i definitely understand where n@rus@kus are coming from #but then she just STICKS with sauce until its the worst ship possible and its an utter mess of 'ill never give up on him' #EVEB DESPITE HIM TRYING TO KILL HER!!! THEN THAT FUCKING WORKS OUT!?!?!? #AND TOO THIS DAY SAUCE STILL NEVER COMES OFF LIKE HE ACTUALLY LOVES HER #IM SORRY BUT ITS TRUE. SARD WE ARE GETTING YOU BETTER PARENTS. ON GOD!!!!! #so she just hangs on to this one little thing that she SHOULD have gotten development for to move on from BUT IT NEVER FUCKING HAPPENS #so its like half her development never fucking happens and thats why it #s such a fuckinf mess!!!!! #i fucking hate this show. i need to go back to watching mike's dino game vod. what am i doing here????? #i did this to myself btw. i didnt need to start yelling about that but thats just how it is with nart #start thinking about something good and then it reminds you of something related thats bad and now its like. yeah this shit sucks #remember when kishi said he regretted not making hina the heroine???? we could have lived in a better timeline. #but if i say that i will get assassinated #anyway. #sock count #personal

[thefirstpaleontologist]

okay so I’m thinking yknow like vampires. Vampires are undead so if they die then I don’t think they could leave a ghost. But werewolves? Werewolves are just people who got cursed furry style. They still have souls. If a werewolf died I think they could totally play by the usual ghost rules of violent deaths and unfinished business etc. so then I’m wondering, if a werewolf dies and leaves a ghost, is that ghost still a werewolf, or did dying break the curse? Cause like. Imagine. Youre a ghost but you still turn into a wolf every full moon. And your wolf sona is just out there acting an undead fool once a month. So anyway let me set the scene. Old house, next to some woods. The locals say some old loner died out there in mysterious circumstances. A couple moves in, they’re so optimistic. It’s so scenic. What a lovely private piece of land. Only… ah. It’s got a bit of a wolf problem. Oh well it’s the woods they expected some wildlife to come with that. But then,, hmm. The house might be haunted too? Yikes. Now this couple will soon discover that on the bright side, these two big issues are actually only one big issue. Unfortunately that one issue is a werewolf ghost.

#werewolves #ghost #and like I must emphasise that this is a comedy story #the couple are the working class pragmatic sort. not spiritual or superstitious in the least #they try out all the normal methods of dealing with pests and wolves and old creepy houses first #a local animal expert ranger guy gets called in because the couple is like we have a wolf problem please help and the ranger dude is like #welp you live where the wolves live so that’s on you tbh. but this is weird wolf behaviour so I’ll check it out #and then he comes up and he’s like I think the wolves around here on drugs actually #when the couples exausted their reasonable ideas they’re like :/ welp. time to call an exorcist #guess it’s time to call an exorcist #the ranger sticks around even after it turns out to not be real wolves cause he’s professionally interested in the fact it’s a werewolf #the nearest exorcist is like a day away so there’s various cuts to this priest or whatever driving to the middle of rural now where #and he’s keeps getting into mishaps along the road #like his car breaks down #he hits a deer and then holds a mini funeral and service for the deer #mayeb the deer turns into a ghost and follows him on his way to the werewolf ghost #thatd be something right #when he gets there he’s sprinkling the holy water and doing the chants #and it’s not working but they can tell something is up #they try to use a ouija board but it just keeps saying Awoooo #so then the couple and the exorcise call in one of those people who hold seances #and the werewolf is just like my fucking guy you don’t think I’ve been through this before? #i had people trying to exorcise me while I was alive man! #please picture the werewolf man saying that with a heavy New Yorker accent #oh but it’s important to note that this is not taking place in the US #I am picturing this being set in Italy. in like the Alps or something #I think it being set in Italy gives a certain catholic pizzazz to the ghost aspect #the alps have wolves I looked it up to double check #it wouldn’t have mattered to me if there weren’t wolves that would have just added to the comedy #but there are apparently 900 wolves in the Alps

[yappacadaver]

and it's like despite all the awful shit he's done and continues to do, like, i get it. he's employed like 24/7/365. he never got to live a life, despite spending a childhood clinging to the hope of having one someday. He knew companionship and love but lost it and can't ever get it back. His circumstances are so anomalous and gruesome that it completely isolates him from pretty much every other human being on the planet. he knows hell is real and he is basically guaranteed to go there if he can't break this demon curse thing.

like it doesn't make the kidnapping and spreading the curse around any better, but i do get it.

#like personally i don't blame him for the actual murders #and it's hard to blame him for hiring people without telling them because like lol. #anyone who's like 'oh he should just tell ppl about the demons' like what are you onnnnnn if you went to a job interview with a creepy old #guy and he started talking about demons and hauntings and shit you would think you're being pranked or that he's lost his damn mind #and fuck offffff with the 'ohhh not me im a quirky bean i'd love to take a job if the interview was like that' like sure. ok. maybe YOU wou #but what are the odds that milford in 1998 coming off the satanic panic has a thousand yous running around waiting to be hired #like i honestly dont have any suggestions for how he could have handled the hiring situation any better #now the actual JOB i have plenty of feedback #like yea he should be there to train your ass against the demons lol we got more hands-on guidance for the embalming (the non deadly part) #but like the whole 'raymond is evil cause he kills possessed ppl and hires people without telling them abt demons' #do you think that old man can run the whole mortuary by himself and also have time to teach classes #until he inevitably dies from either stress or the demons and is sent to hell (which he knows is real)? #it's my understanding that by having others around who can help him fight the demons he'll have the spare time to figure out how to #break out of the demon curse or break possession or literally any useful information that could treat the disease and not the symptoms #he is running out of time!!! he is only getting older and the demons are only getting more frequent and someday he won't be fit enough #to properly banish them!!! if you even care!!!!!!!!! #fucking tag essay lmao #mr delver i wont u...

[londonfoginacup]

The mythological symbol of a ladder extending from Earth to heaven appeared in a dream to Jacob, son of Isaac. The icon of a cosmic stairway on which angels move up and down between the earth below and Yahweh at the top is recorded in the Hebrew bible. Within the major world religions, the image of the sky ladder is little more than a vestige of a motif that played a far more prominent role in ancient cosmologies worldwide. You don't know your bible.

(Note: religion and theology talk ahead)

Ex… Excuse me??????? I wake up to THIS?? Anon what. WHAT.

“You don’t know your Bible” oh my god I have never felt so insulted. I don’t fall for anon bait usually but jfc you’ve found my weak spot. WHAT. Are you really trying to imply that my funny little Daylight/Late Night Talking fanart was in reference to JACOB’S LADDER?

(Screencapped like this to make it smaller)

What. Do you think I am unaware of the theological interpretations of Jacob’s Ladder? The ladder that Jacob saw in a dream/vision while fleeing from Esau? Are you trying to make me aware of the many interpretations of Jacob’s Ladder, anon, that perhaps it’s referring to the many exiles of the Jewish people (I lean toward that one), or that it signifies the bridge between Earth and heaven (as Jacob was likely on Mount Moriah at the time), or perhaps that it’s a representation of the personal struggle with sin over a lifetime, the way one ascends and falls? Is it a representation of the covenant between God and his people? Or even the Islamic interpretation, which I do not pretend to know nearly as much about, that the ladder represents the straight and narrow path? Or, as you refer to the Bible, I assume you are looking for the common Christian interpretation where this ladder is God bridging the gap to Man, unlike when Man tried to do the opposite with the Tower of Babel, now Jesus himself is the ladder, as he himself states in John 1:50-51?

Anon. ANON. You come to ME about religion? Would you perhaps like to see the photo I took MYSELF of the Jacob’s ladder that climbs the side of the cathedral in Bath? (Trick question you can’t because I’m at work and it’s on my home computer)

Well first of all I’ll have you know that the art I made was based off of this post “second mv now where he's coming from the sky...”. Like??? I was doing art based on the symbolism of Harry’s videos. Come on. If this was a ladder ascending to the heavens, Harry would be a HELL OF A LOT HIGHER UP. PLANES FLY HIGHER THAN THAT BOY. I assume that the vision is more of him creating a separation for himself, of coming down to interact with the world and ascending back to safety. Also, if anything, I would look at the art I made and deduce a sort of princess and the pea idea from it. A stranded princess sleeping atop an offered bed while people around watch to see if she really is the princess she says she is, waiting for her to fail at the tasks given her, an audience intent on hoping she will miss the pea under her heaven-high stack of mattresses, or hoping perhaps that she’ll just fall off the ladder.

Anon. NOTHING in this art was biblical allegory. And if it was? You would be able to tell! I am not subtle with my allegories!

Perhaps you would like to read my Christmas fic Unto You in which I wrote the story of the birth of Christ as an a/b/o fic set in Victorian England where Harry is Mother Mary. IS THAT SUBTLE ENOUGH FOR YOU?

Or, actually more subtle, my Big Bang fic Through a Mirror Dimly the title of which references 1 Corinthians 13:12 “For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.”‬ ‭(ESV‬‬ version), in which I use that verse in reference to the darkness that Louis in that fic is living in, as someone struggling with undiagnosed OCD and whose roommate is not able to see him for who he truly is until the truth is revealed.

“little more than a vestige of a motif that played a far more prominent role in ancient cosmologies worldwide” Your attempt at pretentiousness is lost when you are not fighting a real battle. Come to me when you want to have a real conversation about the apologetic implications of Phil 1:15-18 and using biblical types as trope in fic. Then we can talk.

#tw religion #tw theology #long post #if you want me to tag more tw let me know #AKSHKSHDHSHS ANON WHAT #how’s that intro to world religions class going #my almost 20 theology class credits are doing very well thank you #im mostly messing around in this post because I do not think anon was coming in any good faith lmao #(get it. good FAITH get it) #if anyone actually wants to have theological discussion I would be much more cordial and kind pls don’t take this as me being flippant #I mean. I am being flippant but I mean flippant about anyones religion #but anyway. come find me when you too have scribbled outlines for a/b/o fics on your prayer notes #and drawn Harry in the margins of your homiletics test

[aro-culture-is]

aro culture is wondering why some people have so much problem with being single that they start hating on every couple

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#Anonymous #aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod alexander #imho i find that those individuals tend to be thoroughly unpleasant to be around in the first place #typically due to acting entitled to a romo relationship #so my general vibe is that it comes with the territory of upper middle class bs #but honestly i also see it in ppl who are used to codependency and are struggling with the concept of not being in a codependent #relationship. they typically seem to feel that not being a relationship is a sign that absolutely no one will ever want them #and tbh i feel like that second group in particular is likely to come from abusive households #and struggles with the concept that ppl *can* be nice outside of obligations to you #so it's viewed to some degree that all ppl in relationships that don't include them = none of those ppl will care about them #nonetheless i am not a good person to help those individuals beyond pointing them at the concept of therapy #typically in the context of something else because i find codependent ppl typically believe (and i'd assume at some point were 'taught') #that anyone trying to inform you that codependency is harmful... is trying to force you to never interact with them #but that's my observations not necessarily science or anything

[absentmoon]

+ the romeo plotline is not as compelling as the order plotline. like they kinda went the "friend betraying friends" route again WITH death this time (which is a good choice i do think. personallyy) except the s1 plotline had more depth. you get to know the people before the dramatic twist and for me that had me thinking about the characters & changing my view of them. Also made seeing sorens books in the dlc more interesting .... like story wise

#daisy.txt #i know my ivorbias but it is more interesting to me #romeo is kind of giving. ok whiny villain with powers betrays his friends and becomes the joker. #i liked the petra plotline a lot actually l #im still hurt about the time where she literally made plans in front of me(/protag. me. You get it same thing) but didn't want me to come #AFTERRRRR BEING UPSET THAT we haven't hung out. to me that was a confusing direction for her plot #and also upset me. bc i like petra and that made me feel like she didn't want me around to hang out anymore #i think my emotions are confusing bc the #like the negative emotions of 'thats hurtful! and i cant even talk to her abt it' are mixing with 'im not sure shed do that after — #— explicitly telling me that she misses our adventures WHICH I AGREED WITH' #Ok. Class soon

[barbieaiden]

vince: i don't really understand the appeal of shar but i respect your--

shadowheart: you disgust me. how dare you worship selune. we are sworn enemies now. i hate you so much

#it's ok she'll come around #i want to romance her because i do think the selune shar thing is interesting i'm hoping there'll be a lot of dialogue related to it #in act 2 maybe #generally i think the game does this really well tbh you know #making race and class and even subclasses and deities and whatnot matter #tiefling and warlock were a little disappointing to me tbh but not necessarily bad #i did like that you can actually read astarion's scars when you're a tiefling though that's very fun #the warlock options that did exist were fun too i just wish there was more patron interaction i guess #paladin is a lot of fun so far though #drow even more so #paladin makes me a bit nervous though i am so going to accidentally break my oath

[eightw]

that “chromebooks are the reason kids can’t use computers” post is a little dumb. not a single school i’ve worked in had had chromebooks, not even the ones with 1-to-1 classrooms.

and i know to some this will sound like i’m an evil dictator but blocking websites and not allowing kids to download software is a necessary evil if you’re going to use laptops in class.

to blame it all on google is a little weird and conspiracy like imo.

#the problem is phones. it is. adults use phones rather than computers so kids do to #and no one teaches them bc they assume that being good at using a phone = being good at using a computer #ntm computer labs are going out of vogue especially in middle and elementary #and they’re being replaced with laptops that don’t work. bc the schools don’t have budget for better #so id hazard that computer use for anything but word processing has actually gone done #because it’s faster and better to have students use their phones in class for a lot of things #allowing kids to fuck around on computers as they grow up is absolutely one way to build computer literacy #but it doesn’t have a place in schools. computer labs and computer classes need to come back #but the won’t. because computers are expensive and schools are growing so fast without new ones being built they need every square inch

[mybreadsmybutters]

trying to write a simple personal story about how i struggled with math as a kid and it keeps circling back to how my dad was in jail at the time and at this point im so mad that i have to do this assignment in the first place that my entire class is just gonna have to cope with me reading out the Daddy Issues essay i DO NOT care anymore i will not sacrifice my grade for my dignity any longer i WILL NOT FAIL THIS FUCKING CLASS

#tried so hard not to write the daddy issues essay but well. at this point not my fault and its due in class tomorrow so! #i dont actually care that much if people know about that its just like. inherently deeply awkward. #because my relationship with my dad is kind of complicated and mostly marked by how i dont really feel much for him? #which makes people VERY uncomfortable because most people do. #i think i generally have fewer emotions than the people around me which i personally am at peace with #like not that i feel NOTHING or anything i just have never cared as much about anything the way the people around me seem to #so for me i always KNEW that my dad and i didn't have common interests and he didn't have a significant hand in raising me past age 5 #and i know HE loves and cares about me but i just. don't really care and haven't really ever cared. #so when i do talk about him it always REALLY freaks people out because i can never quite get the right tone for how i SHOULD feel about him #across and it really freaks people out that i dont feel anything towards him besides. sympathy i guess? #but the one part of my life he DID have an impact on was my math education bc that was one of his favorite things #so it's just. going to be very uncomfortable for everyone who has to listen to me being honest about it. which sucks! #i don't want to make people uncomfortable! but if it comes to the grade or being viewed as a real psycho tbh. The Grade is way more importa #anyways it was either this or writing about my sexuality and i am NOT coming out in THIS state