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i know deep down, that i'll do it again

can i truly feel guilt without a hint of regret? is it guilt if i look back at the actions with fondness? surely one cannot exist without the other, and yet i find that brazenly within myself. palms that should’ve been held and gently kissed instead lie stained with blood that no amount of scrubbing could ever lift, my skin will be torn asunder and that dark red will remain and yet i savor the paradoxical warmth it provides. hollow and shaken, just barely akin to a carcass, he feels the skin as it slides out of place making the job that much harder, his face turned inside out - twisted from the blade but also from shame. i accepted things unfolded as they should’ve, i just wish it could’ve been me in his stead.

#literally edit of the year i am staring for 1023 years #the snow!!!!!!!!! #blood cw

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very tame bunny dominance battle under the couch

#they're like groom me groom me!! #selfish little bunnies

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if i don't get a render done for sam's birthday it's pokemon's fault

#i got pokemon moon for the 3ds like. i think around the time it came out?? #but i never really got fully into it it was just a little too repetitive for me i think #and i wasn't super into learning like types and counters and whatnot #but i'm a pokemon go player now lmao so i know a little! not a lot but a little! #and i think my broken little brain likes the disgustingly wholesome grind that is pokemon now #the friendship between the player character and hop is so cute it reminds me of #me and my friend from when i was like 8-12 #also shoutout to the duos of grown adults challenging a singular child to a pokemon battle

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messy new character page wip

michael's render is clearly not updated lmao

#aiden sam and kell nowhere to be seen #who needs to hear about the main characters!!!

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he's considering the hottest way to kill tristan<3

#thinking about this loser again. true brain rot

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grumpy emo cowboy for @buttertrait's chestnut ridge save!

#eye emoji

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i wonder how many hours of my life i've spent on finding poses for my little sims renders

#i think it's about like. a million hours?? yeah that sounds about right

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one of my bunnies get so excited about the very idea of her little digging box that she can't even start digging because she gets interrupted by happy jumps<3

#she's so cute

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desperately searching for food

#one of them got so excited she bit the bandaid on my finger lmao #like she'd never bite my acrual finger but i guess if it's not human skin. it's food

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March 1st is Disability day of Mourning/Remembrance. Today we remember all the disabled people who have died as the result of negligent or intentional homicide by caregivers and family. Disabled lives are worth living and protecting.

anti-filicide toolkit | list of disability charities/orgs

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haunted bunny

#just a little baby bunny

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i made this post and now the fact that i don't have a clear enough concept to actually make something is stressing me out!!!

oh the urge to make a story post for sam's birthday...

#i really want to make something but i only have until wednesday next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i only need some cute little dialogue but i have nothing #sam birthday story post but it's just aiden doing stupid things and sam threatening divorce

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Hire me as your family photographer 🫶🏽💌

#adorable. i am sobbing on the ground

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how does anyone have the patience to do edits and stuff in game like what do you do if you spend hours editing a whole image and then you decide that the sims' outfit doesn't match the vibe. do you redo the whole thing do you just deal with it

#blender has destroyed my life but it's still better than doing things in game honestly #i could not deal with the limitations in game #and the fact that you'd have to make every object and pose and everything compatible with ts4 #EXIT THE GAME TO FIX THINGS no #i don't have the foresight to do things in game i think like i can't plan an edit out and do preparations #i have to go back and forth a million times #sometimes. very rarely. i nail a render on the first try #but most of the time i go back and rerender sections of it like eyes and arm positions and stuff like that

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oh the urge to make a story post for sam's birthday...

#a story post like the studying post. not one for the actual story. because rhat would just be depressing

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no more bunny pics. only horsie pics

#going to my sibling's stable every week is the only thing i look forward to nowadays lmao #the last little guy is my favorite. most charming horse i've ever met #he's just so utterly adorable

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aiden and sam cooking together despite sam being like professional chef level good at cooking and aiden being frequently burning pasta level bad at cooking<3

#aiden accidentally slicing his hand open and getting third degree burns from using the oven