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teaandinanity · 3 months

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I'm gonna wind up learning CSS entirely against my will because my fucking 'send this shit to the shadow realm I don't want it' skin is NOT blocking a thing I need to kill

my kingdom for a native site blocklist that did not involve learning to code I am too stupid for this

#my first problem was that Firefox didn't wanna show me the tag I needed (the version with no special characters or spaces)#but I solved that with inspect #now I have what I thought I needed but it is not DOING what I need it to DO #so I have plainly done something wrong #although also when I hover over these fucking tags they're not displaying as linked to the parent tag that I blocked #they appear to be directing to themselves rather than the canonical tag they are syn'd to #which like #FUCKING WHYYYYYY #but that may be my actual problem #if I gotta individually block every version of 'OTP Negative' in existence I will do it #but I'm gonna bitch about it the entire fucking time GOD I hate these fuckheads #don't TAG the SHIP if you HATE IT fuck OFF fuck OFF fuck OFFFFFFF #and it's posted on anon so I can't even mute them #so I am just sitting here consumed with righteous rage and the desire to drop a complete stranger down a borehole in the Nevada desert #no I don't know if those exist there I just remember that was the suggested spot to stick all the OTHER radioactive waste

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nightwingsgirlfriend · 13 days

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM WINCHESTER!!!

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blueskittlesart · 23 days

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deeply refreshing to see someone critical of Swift who also like, genuinely likes her. Like i'm neutral to positive on her, but the online discourse has been absolutely rancid. flipping between "Taylor Swift has never done anything wrong ever and she's a fucking genius" and "Taylor Swift is the worst lyricist of all time and also a bad person" is exhausting, so thank you for like. nuance or something lmao

not to make it serious for a sec but i genuinely think that being able to like things that are bad is really important. like I think that it's an important skill to be able to look at something and see what you personally enjoy about it and then take a step back and acknowledge that objectively it's flawed. and to also be able to acknowledge that liking something isn't necessarily an identity or a moral stance. and i think that fandom space in general could really benefit from more people taking the time to learn how to do that. it's okay to like things that are bad

#people ask me sometimes why ill occasionally talk about something i like and then go 'but it's bad' and the answer is usually because it is #i love teen wolf. i love genshin impact. i love detective conan. and i fucking LOVE taylor swift. that doesnt mean theyre good #it just means i like them. and recognizing their flaws actually helps me better identify what i like about them!#it's like. in my mind bad > good is the x axis and i like it > i dont like it is the y axis yk. they're not mutually exclusive #tldr it's not that serious. we can all relax a little #irt taylor swift i do also think she has done some real harm to her fans in enabling them to deflect all criticism of her as misogyny #and i don't think it's fully the fault of these people who are parroting that response bc so much of her marketing has deliberately #reinforced this idea that to be a swiftie is to be a part of a sisterhood and that any attack on taylor is an attack on all of those women #who are in that in-group. when that's obviously not the case. but she's marketed herself as. for lack of a better term. 'girl music'#to the point where it makes her fans feel as though any criticism of the music or the woman responsible for it is an attack on their #personal experience of womanhood/girlhood/sisterhood/etc. and that's how you get all of thess bad-faith accusations of misogyny #i don't necessarily think this was her deliberate goal with her marketing tho because like. on first glance such a strong sense of communit #among fans sounds like a great thing. the friendship bracelets i got at the eras tour movie are really genuinely special to me.#but it does present a problem when your fans are unable to separate how they feel about the community and experience your music has fostere #from how they feel about you as a person. especially when you are a billionaire who absolutely CANNOT be above criticism in this economy #anyway. tldr i love taylor's music and i don't think swiftie hivemind is as deliberately malicious as it may seem #but it's obviously necessary to be able to take a step back and look objectively at what you're participating in.#anyway stream ttpd or don't idc <3 #taylor swift

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realbeefman · 8 months

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stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem!#its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome'#instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems!#anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now!#house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

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ruelpsen · 4 months

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Fuck it, I'm going to go out and say it: while I often enjoy being teased on here, a fair portion of what I receive irritates me as it's misguided at best and reeks deeply of unlearned, malicious fatphobia at its worst. Yes I want to be fatter but I'm not fat. I am a 140-lbs/63.5-kg twink despite all my efforts to gain weight. I'm not stick thin, sure, but I'm sure as hell not fat either. So why are some people insistent on calling me fat/huge/big? Are actual fat people too much for you (perhaps even in spite of you being a self-professed FA)? Is your idea of fatness grounded in equating 'not even that chubby' with 'fat' while not even being attracted to people who are actually fat? Do you solely find bloated skinny guys hot while still saying you like fat people? Or are you not attracted to fat people at all and here simply to take your fatphobia out on the people closest to your image of ideal thinness, who you'd be more openly attracted to if they lost 10-20 pounds, all while still scoffing at or ignoring the fat people at the heart of these communities?

Some of y'all really need to do better. Either own up to your love of people who are actually fat (which may entail adjusting your understanding of what fatness is), clean up your nomenclature, or don't be here. Yes unlearning biases like fatphobia takes time and effort, but your choices really are more or less that simple.

#i've seen a number of posts lately from actual fat feedees/gainers discussing how even in these circles they feel marginalized #and yeah they most certainly are #i may not be in that weight cohort myself but my own experiences further go to show that it is a real and noticeable problem #to the fat people here you are not alone and i'm sorry some people still insist on being shitty like this #your body is lovely and deserving of far better attention than the dickish/creepy shit they have to give anyway #i am open to more discussion on this if people want it btw #body politics

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batpersik-art · 1 year

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murder sisters

#clan gen #clangen #warrior cats #warriors #wc #wc oc #the art block is strong but the desire to draw my fav pixel cats is stronger #they are leader and deputy who may or may not have killed some guys to get these positions #(actually risingfrost is innocent but doesn't really mind her sister's murderous tendencies bc she'd an ambitious girl)#flystar doesn't trust anyone outside her family. she's been through hell and made it everyone's problem #honestly slay #my art

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spooksier · 1 year

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some sketches for a piece im doing for class :-) i <3 freaks

#art zone #body horror cw #suicide ment #not tagging this as tma bc there's no real piece in this its just some sketchies #but it is still tma #i think i may have convinced every person in my class to listen to magnus lmao #they had so many questions about the designs and what their problems were #good thing i love talking about em!#actual art coming soon i just gotta do it lmao #my prof loved just the faces so much that he wants me to redo the entire composition so its focused on their faces head in hands

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batfamhyperfixation · 2 months

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Dick came over to hang out with the family, he was taking Titus out for a walk and comes back in terrified and outta breath, having to explain what’s wrong: It was like something out of a horror film. It was nearly pitch black in the back yard with the sky dark blue and starless, barely lighting the ground, the grass was darker than the sky. I took him to his favorite tree, but he just stood there, he didn’t go to the bathroom, he just stared out like someone was there, stalking us. As I looked around, I felt queasy. I didn't know what was out there, but I knew it was for sure out there. I started walking back with him, and as we walked, I heard another person's footsteps, but I didn't dare look back. I just sprinted back in

Jason, in muddy shoes after purposely scaring the shit outta dick in the back yard: yeah crazy

#scaring your siblings brings a whole different kinda dopamine rush fr #as a sibling I can confirm #on another night dick may have investigated but he said not my monkeys not my circus and noped outta there #someone who actually lives there can deal with that problem #his only responsibility is to make it to the manor alive #dick grayson #jason todd #batfam #batkids #bat family #incorrect batfamily quotes

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vv-ispy · 21 days

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Also do you think Venti heard about Ei closing down the borders of Inazuma, thought about Decarabian and old Mondstadt, and went 'lol this is going to become a disaster'

#genshin impact #genshin talk #'this is going to be a disaster but not my region not my problem'#actually wait he may have been asleep during that #same sentiment though probably heard it and went 'huh good luck'#ei and deca are pretty similar in some ways. never leaves the house. thinks they're doing good #people are suffering under them and an uprising is brewing #hey if the traveller arrived in old mondstadt would they have been able to save decarabian

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endlesslytired · 10 months

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I feel like I'm going insane making these

#made 2 versions of the last one bc i feel like i ignore my guy caelus #i don't dislike him its just i can't find eng dub versions of him in videos i actually wanna watch and i play as stelle #i may make a side account as him one day #for research and separate banner catches to what i get on my main #free to play fighting against time and wifi only yealds so much #but that's the way i wanna fight it #minus the wifi problem #hsr kafka #hsr sushang #idk what this girl is called yet but like i call her livestreamer (derogatory) currently #hsr silver wolf #hsr stelle #hsr blade #hsr sampo #honkai star rail #honkai star rail memes #EDIT: SHE HAS A NAME NOW #hsr guinaifen

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here-for-a-good-time-hopefully · 4 months

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Anger management coach: What brings you to the class?

Andromeda: Because I got into a fight with my sister’s boyfriend

Coach: Tell me about this fight, what going on?

Andromeda: He’s a douche lord so I hit him

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feelingthedisaster · 11 days

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amanormativity's been hitting hard lately, anyone got some aro positivity? idk, a meme, happy life update, anything really, quick reminder you can live aro happily

#kinda my fault for watching a rom com #it was supposed to be hate watching but it was actually good #i may scroll the aro positivity tag for a while #aromantic #aro #arospec #aromantic spectrum #aromantic problems #aro positivity #aromanticism #aromance #aromantism #aro community #aro problems #aro rambles #aro spec #aro stuff #aro struggles #aro things

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comradekatara · 5 months

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the thing about the adult gaang movie is even if it’s somehow done really well, i don’t wanna see aang and katara as adults, that will actually make me really sad. whereas if sokka is the protagonist that’s fine because i already think everyone should heal and find fulfillment after the war except for sokka. i think sokka should get worse. i think sokka should continue collecting mental illnesses like they’re pokemans creatures. a qing dynasty court intrigue film with sokka navigating ba sing se politics (and iroh can feature as he dispenses occasional wisdom. but sokka is just like “call your son”), or a xai bau spy thriller (except tbh this one would work better as a novel), or even just. a mai and sokka roadtrip movie in the style of an early 2000s stoner comedy (this one would have no artistic merit but it’s also probably the best idea ive ever had). these are but a few examples of the many ideas i have for movies that put my favorite guy through hours of suffering without having to depict my other favorite guys as anything other than the precious babies i know and love.

#‘pokemans creatures’ is what i call them to piss my brother off so much #aang and katara are BABIES #do not ROB ME OF THAT #everyone in the world must age or die #but katara and aang!!!! are immortalized forever in babydom!!!!!!#why would you ruin that!!!!!!!#(okay im actually just going thru a separate crisis here wrt my brothers but don’t. we’re not talking about that okay)#also i think if you wanna make a movie that’s ‘darker’ and ‘for older audiences’ just make sokka the protagonist and boom problem solved #last time sokka got to be the protagonist he attempted suicide at the human rights abuses volcano #his mind is a dark dark place ok!#but also mai & sokka stoner comedy. is anyone writing this down? u should be writing this down #idk how to tag this #sokka #i guess?#postwargaang #also #bc obv these all happen in my complex tapestry of post war developments #gene yang could never #ask me about any one of these points for elaboration (PLEASE)

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grishaverse-chaos · 4 months

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hmmm something about dominik haunting the narrative in king of scars. everything nikolai does is at least a little bit for him. he learns about the life of average ravkan people by meeting dominik's family. he starts gaining influence in politics just so he can improve dominik's life. and then he promises dominik that he won't let ravka break him.

that promise fucking haunts him. it follows him wherever he goes. it's the driving force behind everything he does, every step he takes to heal the centuries-old wounds in ravka. it's what drives him to do better, be better.

dominik is always there, in the back of his mind: this country gets you in the end. always pushing him to do more, because he couldn't save dominik and so he has to save ravka (for dominik) (because he promised) (because he loved him)

#my spicy hot take is that nikolai's relationship with dominik actually affects the narrative of the duology more than -#- his relationship with zoya does #you could argue that *none* of the events of the duology would have happened without dominik's influence #and honestly zoyalai as a relationship doesn't really affect the narrative/plotline all that much #which is One of the problems i have with it being endgame #anyway yes i am writing an angsty nikolai backstory fic why do you ask?#it's mostly about how he reinvents himself at every minor inconvenience (but also how incredibly fucked up his childhood was)#and if i have the energy it might turn into a rewrite of the ending of rule of wolves #bc him giving up the throne just plays into that pattern of running away #so honestly i think it's not a great ending in terms of his arc and character development #this may just be a me thing idk but i just feel like he doesn't actually get that much development in the duology #bc there's this idea of him as being Perfect and Invulnerable and Not Affected By His Trauma #which. is not the case.#it's all very dear reader (taylor swift) imo #ANYWAY #mayhem.txt #mayhem grishaverse originals #nikolai lantsov #shadow and bone #king of scars #grishaverse

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bonefall · 6 months

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even though I've never read the books, i love how you handle the women in this series.

The utter lack of interest in the internal lives of women characters in WC kills me. If you don't read the series it's hard to put it into words, but it really does not value women on the same level as their male counterparts

I think the best example I can use is Turtle Tail. All of her choices, from going to live with Bumble, choosing a "cruel man" as a mate, and even her grief when Bumble dies, all only happen as accessories to Gray Wing's arc.

Living with Bumble was because Gray Wing was obsessing over a woman who didn't love him, neglecting Turtle who does

Choosing Tom the Wifebeater was also because Gray Wing didn't appreciate her enough

She accepts that her friend's murder was just an unfortunate accident and her emotions carried her away in the moment, because Gray Wing needs to be right that his brother is a good boy

In this way, Turtle Tail's emotions and motivations aren't allowed to really be about her. They're about how her romantic interest influences her. And then she's crushed by a car for his man pain after they've explored every other way her life could make him sad.

This does not happen with men. Even characters like Stemleaf and Larksong, whose primary narrative purpose is dying for their wife's pain, have functions outside of that. Stemleaf gives his life opposing the tyranny of the impostor in a rebellion, and Larksong has input on The Kin, SkyClan, and even serves as a source of comfort and support to a son who he's never met in contrast to the unreasonable mother.

There's just so much more respect and reverence to the toms in this series. You have to be in the POV of a molly to get depth, and even then, they nearly always (exceptions being mothwing and mistystar) include a major conflict over romance and/or parenthood

(And they usually get punished for their choices a lot harder than male counterparts. Directly contrast Crookedstar and Sparkpelt, who both distance themselves from their children out of grief, but only one has to deal with the lasting consequences of being a "bad parent")

Anyway, enough wistful analysis. It is MY kitchen and I get to choose the conflicts. It is my personal mission to write lots and lots of women persuing a higher education in STEM. Sadism, Torture, Evisceration, and Murder <3

#Allowing women to exhibit their natural behaviors such as being covered in blood and screaming in catharsis #Good penguin: Fern displayed exceptional spacial awareness by packing two bodies in one grave #Bad penguin: Maple bit my ass #I think its funny that Poppy actually did persue a higher education in STEM for BB #She just happened to persue it because midterms are a good excuse for running away from all your problems #Running away from my problems and deciding 'well shoot if im running may as well chase a doctorate'#Women in STEM as in gardening lmaoo. Stems. Gregor Mendel ass girlie cat #The women kill. But the women are also silly. That is very important. They must also be funnygirls.#Women in PETAL if you will. Pathetic Evil Tormented Awesome Loser.#Bone babble #Anyway all that to say thank u for the compliment I am not normal about this

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aeide-thea · 1 year

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as a result of having been a jerk* recently i'm thinking about this:

Exercising restraint is hard. Protecting other people from the full brunt of our frustration—which is almost always driven by underlying fear, insecurities, and anxiety—takes work. We want to give in to the urge to wallow, to do damage, to invite company into our misery. We also can feel closer to others when we expose them to our raw emotion, and if there’s one reliable truth about human psychology, it’s that we desire connection so much that we’ll take it in negative forms when we can’t get positive ones. But venting often doesn’t work to enhance intimacy; it can even isolate us further, whether we’re talking about getting a bad rep among our colleagues for being a negative Nancy, undermining our partner’s sense of trust and safety, or having people in our social circles associate us with stress. Venting isn’t good for us in other ways, too. When our thoughts center on how we’ve been hurt and victimized, we feel less empowered and more out of control. Fred Luskin, a forgiveness researcher at Stanford University, calls this a “grievance narrative.” In a 2006 study, Luskin and his colleagues discovered that replaying a grievance narrative both internally and externally causes our bodies to remain in a state of threat. Those who participated in a forgiveness training program felt less fired up and on edge (55th percentile for anger, compared with normal adults) than a control group (72nd percentile). Another study, which included 60 female participants, found that ruminating about ill will can significantly increase blood pressure. Scratch that bite now, and it only gets itchier later. None of this means you should repress your emotions, never grouse to your loved ones, or otherwise lean into what Whitney Goodman writes about in the book Toxic Positivity. In fact, studies on “social sharing” show that the productiveness of this type of venting depends on how it’s done. According to a 2019 paper, “When Chatting About Negative Experiences Helps—and When It Hurts,” recounting a negative experience takes you right back there emotionally and physiologically, just like the grievance narrative research shows. That leads to an increase in negativity. Friends who respond by comforting you provide a balm in the moment, according to a 2009 paper by Bernard Rimé of the Université catholique de Louvain, but that kind of support doesn’t help process the gripe or trauma. That’s why we’ll often find ourselves hanging up with one friend and calling another. As he put it, “No consistent empirical support was found for the common view that putting an emotional experience into words can resolve it.” We “equate emotional relief with emotional recovery,” but they’re not the same, he said, making that temporary blood pressure dip make a whole lot more sense. That said, the 2019 paper reported that chatting with friends can bring closure when they help you reconstrue an event, rather than just recount it. What does that look like? Asking why you think the other person acted that way, prodding to see whether there’s anything to be learned from it all, and just generally broadening your perspective to “the grand scheme of things.”

#* initially i was like 'dick' and then i was like 'but dicks are good actually!' same problem with 'ass.' critical language difficult.#anyway the writing style of this is Extremely Slate and you (like me) may find it irritating! but i do think the insight is valuable.#gotta get back to blogging my way *into* more charity with other people instead of out of it.#like if i'm complaining abt people being unsympathetic i'm still on a meta-level being unsympathetic myself.#useful reframings

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