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aimportantdragoncollector · 1 year

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Hazel BUT i have my dad's eyes and with time his became slightly green and the same will probably happen to me.

Yes.

Depends on what's changed but Im open to that discussion

Tracking devices? Yes. Cameras? Not all the time and the child must be aware of them and be explained the reasons why.

Yes, more time to write books with moral bankrupt MC and criticisms about out society.

I'm open to adoption. Aditional bio kids? I'm having at max 2 bio kids but I don't exactly have a limit when it comes to adi«opted kids (must be below 7).

I'm a great cook. I know mostly western gastronomy but I'd absolutely love to learn more about oriental dishes. Im also a great baker.

I prefer to finish them but that's bc I need to know the ending to be able to rewrite a version I like in my fanfic.

While ties are attractive I prefer men with them. But button-up shirts without ties? That's the most attractive shit ever.

Demon King obviously, DK has motivations and a more compelling story.

no.

Absolutely!

I loooove his quirk and which to study it. The rest? Meh. He's too loud and I don't trust anyone that smiles so much. He obviously is hiding something.

Attractive but I prefer curly and messy hair. White is preferable

B

2

B

B but is that didn't result A

D, Im their parent not their friends and I must do what's best for them e

A B and C are al perfect and I cant choose.

C

Hot

C

I look great in black

B

I get his cause. Why shouldn't he be allowed to have other people's quirks when he can use them so much better? Not to mention how attractive he is. I find him interesting and smart and I'd love to have debated with him about morality and the best ways to dispose of a body. Not to mention I think his relationships with other people are goals.

I wont send this as an anon bc Im not ashamed of my love for him. <3 Hope he considers me.

Like you, All for One’s eyes changed color after he started using his quirk. He’s optimistic that might mean you have a powerful ability, so you have immediately grabbed his interest.

However, you did miss the point on the cameras question—if the child knows there are cameras, then they are too easy to remove. All for One learned that the hard way with his brother.

It’s great that you’re open to adopting a large brood because All for One has kidnapped many children over the years. Kurogiri and Dr. Garaki are threatening to strike if he unloads more cute white-haired orphans on them. He tried to give one to Gigantomachia, but there was a tragedy where Machia did not look before he stepped.

Baking skills are a strong plus. All for One likes maximum sugar.

All for One will concede the need to finish stories in the service of writing fanfiction with better endings. By the way, he’s sending you a link to his Archive of Our Own page with 200+ Demon King wins fanfictions. Lengthy and flattering comments on his stories will greatly aid your courtship. He has also enclosed (1) picture of himself with a button-up shirt and no tie.

Your commitment to trash-talking All Might has put you ahead of the competition! Your AFO simping was even more appreciated. Most of all, you impressed All for One with your willingness to de-anon. For that boldness, he’s giving you a chance. He’ll pick you up for your first date on Monday. No need to tell him where you live, he already knows.

AFO simps, he’s still taking answers to the questionnaire. Hurry up before he has the exclusivity talk with an (un)lucky simp. Please be careful @bookwalmartav because he may attempt to steal your quirk regardless of how well the date goes. I take no responsibility for my creation if this ends with you getting vaulted.

#AFO simps

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swampwart · 6 months

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its only been two hours!

if i dont bog myself down with work, i think of you

i cannot escape you, oh i really really dont want to

i wish that dream was real i wish it was fucking real

i cant forgot how you kissed me

i wish you kissed me

i love your lips, i miss when you'd stare at mine wheneber we spoke

i want you back and im so deeply ashamed about this

this is not what i thought it would be

breaking up was suppose to get rid of all these feelings

but now.i feel all of them, just without having you

i cannot have you in my heart like this

i cannot keep ranting to you in brain about jow horrible my emotional life is and how badly i just want to reach over, hold me, rub my spine again and tell me its all going to be okay with such raw confidence it was like god told you or something

ive never dreamed about anyone before, not even him

but you have entered my escape so vividly and in such detail i cannot ignore it

it tricks me into thinking its real life

like you were actually upset i ever made a joke about taking another man's name and you wrapped your arms around me when i told you w out prompt i was only jokinh

in my dream that didnt reassure you either

you asked me "are you crushing on anyone else right now?" and i giggled and said "noo" w a knowing eye and you got nervous and looked to the side and forced out a laugh "noo thats not okay, we need to find you someone" then you took me by the wrist and had me speak to a guy

all i could do was watch you while you laughed at everything he said, and i think i was just happy i was with you

(he didnt even have a face, yet i could see the peak of your cheekbone that causes the depression beneath your eye)

later on i went home w a beautiful girl, tough and thick in every aspect, in a sick way i cannot deny het beauty

she was into me, i think we wanted this to go somewhere,, her friend had set us up and were hung out alone in rug covered room with a mirror and magical beads,, and she spoke with a tough sarcasm that ive gotten used to over the years, i dont think i looked at her long

then you came in, light in your weight and smiling lile ive never seen. Im use to this i think, but something hurt inside so far down and so unimportantly, i just focused on that you were happy. And you began to recount to me the tome you had, laughing the whole time, and i asked you "are you drunk" and in your beautiful, biteless irony you said "nooo maybe judt a little champagne" and we laugjed anf i was so happy to be wuth you, giggling in out own language rven thoigh i hear you speak this way with everyone. In dream and now, shamefully for my own comfort, i will believe it is special when you do it with me

and you held my hand and played with my fingers while you pattered on, and swinging your head this way and that, and in a moments confusion we forgot who we were and you kissed me.

That moment convinced me this dream was real. Your lips left a session on mine that felt so real. I know i felt pressure, i know i did. At that moment,i was convinced it was because we really did kiss. Now i know itd because our last kiss, whenbeer that was, has not left my lips this whole time. That kiss we had, whenvef that was, has traveled through time and told me we are still in embrace.

i was left in a daze after that, and i heard you gasp and laugh and say "oh i forgot!" and take hold of my second hand. But i stared off, with a dopey smile growing all over my face. Thid whole dream I've felt so tired, my eyebags leading the way. But that kiss sparked rhe rest of my physical existence, and golden light rippled along my skin, into my brain, and swayed its way across my eyes. I heard angels singing, the muses, everything that comes witj a golden kiss. I was so happy. And i agreed with you and said "dont worry about it,"

latter on, the girl saw us and was less than impressed. You were layed across your back (your hair was parted in the most stunning way) and playing with my fingers. My exhaustion was back, but it did not matter to me when i was with you. And she asked what my boyfriend was doing here, and i told her "its complicated" while focused entirely on you playing with my hands.

And she told me she doesnt do cheaters, and i told her dont worry about it. I said before you walked into the room i had a boyfriend, so she assumed it was you. I told her "this isnt him," and it confused her more. She sat down and began to do her make up and in a distance, maybe even hurt, but still open manner. And i turned my attention away for a while, sadly my back to you, and i asked her if she knew what polyamory is. And she adjusted in her seat, squinting her eyes as she tried to think, then we spoke at the same time, it isn't / is it, "what the mormans do." I told her that was paligamy and involed religion and stuff we didn't jave here. She nodded along, confused, partly wanting to understand and partly wanting to leave, and i was fine with that.

Then i think someone walked in for you. I think it was him. And then you were gone. You where gone snd i think my dreamself felt there was no point to remember the dream anymore. Now ive woken up, sad, confused, happy, and feeling so stupid.

i cant decide if i want all of this to be real or not. I do, hell i want you so bad, its such a deep seeded need in me, i dont know what to do. But what the hell am i doing. what the hell am i doing. I have a boyfriend, but shit i think its getting rocky. Im makinh mistakes, he is too. And im so scared. And i just want comfort. Like a child i just want to be held and told itsnall going to be okay. And everytime i think about it, im always telling you. Im always telling you.

i miss you so much, i miss you more than anything

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katzgutz777 · 2 years

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okay its 4am here and i guess what better time to express how chronically online i am through homestuck gender, sexuality and mental stuff headcanons of mine *smile*

okay im gonna start off with the beta kids and trolls of course, probably will not go into the alpha trolls as i do not really know a lot or care a lot about them

one disclaimer, i dont see most of this shit as canon and this doesnt mean i dont believe or even dislike other headcanons, i love seeing all different headcanons and really use and see everyones headcanons of everything, so this isnt saying my headcanons are the ONLY way i see and interpret these characters its just how i see them without an outside influence so dont come after me like omg hes gay and trans.. IDGAF!!! HE IS GAY AND TRANS !!!!!! IDC IF I SAID HES CISHET AND YOU THINK HES GAY AND TRANS.. ME TOO i think everything, these are just my like, personal thoughts about the characters, i genuinely like and use all headcanons though

John: um i am a john/june coexistence believer so i will be going over both. I think john is defo straight okay like idk dont ask i wont be explaining like he just feels cishet to me dont get me wrong I love LOVE johndave but you cant look at john fucking egbert and tell me he is gay im sorry, and june is defo a transbian, thats all shes just a girly who likes girls. as for mental stuff both of them, I see personally having autism DEFINITELY and slight adhd

Dave: oh my god BI DAVE IS REAL. dave is one million percent bi no gender lean,but was ashamed of it for a while because he was scared to be gay cause he grew up thinking gay was something wrong, but eventually came to terms with it. i can see dave as cis or transmasc really they both fit very well to me. dave has to me, obv depression, but i think like a panic disorder because of his brother, some stuff brings him back, and while i feel the bro dave stuff wasnt as severe as the fandom makes it out to be, it still was pretty fucked up, and dave is still just as fucked up over it, a lot of the time its more self worth stuff wondering why his brother was such a dick to him blahblahbalh whatever you get what im saying, i also feel as if like, not a mental disorder thing but he tries to get attention from everyone he can because of the attention his childhood lacked and he is really scared and insecure anyways take all this as you will

Rose: ok rose augh bi rose is real,,, BUT she is SO SO SO female leaning, like shes like i like girls butttttttt there are a few men i will ... look at and want for. I think shes nonbinary demigirl, she/they but doesnt mind whichever set of pronouns you use. i think she has like pretty bad depression and struggles a lot with derealization and things in that area. i can also see her definitely having some form of autism

Jade: okay jade i see as cis and bi with no lean, i have no further explanation, while i see her as having bpd it presents itself way differently than usually associated with the stereotype for someone with bpd. this coming from being alone her whole life and feeling abandoned by everyone around her, because she might feel like shes the only one who puts effort into caring and is still left alone in the end maybe im projecting lalal youll never know ! i see her also having severe severe depression but tries to suppress it to make sure no one worries, she also has really bad add and some slight form of autism.

OK now onto beta trolls (warning a lot of these r gonna be bi headcanons oppsy)

Aradia: okay.... im not sure how to go about this one since i am aradia lol but uhh ill just go ahead and describe how i see myself i suppose? so I am cis girl she/her, bi with a pretty heavy female lean, ok if anyone wants I will go further in depth with this one but i have bpd and hpd which are both very similar but have some distinct differences xD anyways I also have some form of autism and have add, i struggle really really badly with depression along with derealization and depersonalization, this is all, umm as a little added thing I subscribe to catholicism but am kind of shitty at practicing it, but i still do hold some of their beliefs to myself

Tavros: transmasc absolutely cant fight me on this one, um also bi with a male lean, I think he struggles with an anxiety/panic disorder, and has autism + depression.. he also has dependent personality disorder REAL bad.. umm dont have a lot to say on this one LMAO

Sollux: sigh everyones gonna kill me sollux can be cis to me......... if I want, but I also like trans headcanons of him? so idrk how i see him lel, hes definitely bi with a female lean. um he has bipolar.. canon so thats one, but I can also see him having aspd noo ren dont make him evil having aspd doesnt make you evil these are my headcanons so they will make sense to me differently than they will to you haha and he has depression

Karkat: transmasc karkat real ooouhhh scary ghost noise also bi with male lean, he so obviously has a panic disorder and ptsd, I also think he struggles with depression real, and like lol.. anger issues ok thats all i have to sat for him too ah oopsie a lot of these are gonna be depression but thats a given cause.. really who isnt depressed anymore?

Nepeta: BRAH okay listen nepeta isnt like.. not cis but she isnt not nonbinary!!!?!!?!?! like to describe it shes like nonbinary with she/her prns like shes just this little girl that breaks gender norms all day if u feel me? shes bi with a slight female lean but no real preference i think she defo has autism and adhd, but also struggles really bad with depression from how lonely she is

Kanaya: lesbian 100000000000% does not like men LOL um honestly she/her cis, she has depression and bpd shh shh everyone who is mad for my bpd diagnoses close your eyes, ok this is all

Terezi: cis girl and bi with a male lean, i think she has depression really bad and dependent personality disorder but it only starts showing outwardly later within the comic after all the stuff .... with her goes down

Vriska: transfemme bi with no lean, ok ahh this is not really a lot to unpack but it is? idk vriska though her personality seems like the posterboy for fucking bpd and people might say that gives people with bpd a bad reputation to be associated with her, as someone with medically diagnosed bpd i just dont agree, if the shoe fits... its probably for a reason, anyways vriska has the absolute most convincing and fitting title of bpd of any character within homestuck, but she also fits within depression in my opinion, but thats really a result of her bpd and stuff with her lusus driving people away anyways i can also see her having npd

Equius: brah gonna be honest equius straight but bicurious and transmasc, wants to be strong because of his rage stuff but also because hes insecure about not being cis and wants to be as “manly” as possible, nepeta always tries to convince him he doesnt have to be strong to be a man but hes so insecure it doesnt matter what she says. I think he personally struggles HORRIBLY with gender dysphoria and what trans person doesnt? but him especially, it makes him badly depressed and he wont admit it, I also think he is autistic

Gamzee: brah another cis male bi sigh he has a female lean but only a little. I think he struggles with drug induced psychosis, he started abusing substances when he was younger because he was depressed but it ended up frying his brain and making his body and mind dependent on the drugs and giving him awful psychosis issues

Eridan: cis male bi with no lean whatsoever he just wants someone to fucking love him, i think he struggles with bpd, hpd and npd along with depression ok thats all

Feferi: cis female bi large male lean, but still also likes girls a lot?? idk just kinda loves everything and everyone, has adhd really bad and autism, not depressed but sometimes has derealization episodes and doesnt know how to tell anyone and keeps them to herself

Jane: cishet, bicurious but is too ashamed to admit it because of how she was raised, i think she struggles with anger issues and some slight depression, but thats about it

Dirk: cis gay gay gay gay gay as fuck oh my god anyways i know i said cis but i can also see trans dirk real so idk, i think he has gasp! bpd, he also very much has awwwful depression

Roxy: cis bi female, male lean, deals with really really bad depression but keeps it to herself ah obviously has substance abuse issues that are to deal with the depression

Jake: cis bi male lean, on the aromantic spectrum sigh idk lel this is just what i think, he also has mega autism and also very depressed

ok these r all please dont hate me after this 💀

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temporaryfascination · 4 months

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ok this is more tame for this blog considering, well, yeah

but i just keep thinking about like, yeah ive been having sexual feelings as a human for like a decade or so now or whatever, but it was never really about the people, mostly just parts of them and it didnt matter who it was, and it was especially never about real people

but then it was like sometime in the last few years a switch was flipped and now its about people (as well as parts, of course lol). fictional and real people, funnily. like a character will do something really cool and strong and awesome and ill be like. oh i need to fuck them. or a real human person will be pretty or sexy or funny and ill be like. i need to fuck them

and its so weird to me because. i was never like this before. i really wasnt. i dont know what changed? and on one hand its kinda awesome but on the other i feel so weird about it, like im being a weirdo for. being attracted to people like anyone else is lol

i just think about that sometimes. i dont know why it happened, i guess its a relief? but idk. i dont want to say i feel ashamed about it cause i know i shouldnt, i almost feel like im stepping somewhere i shouldnt but im not. i just got so used to shoving myself in a box that other people made for me, and im doing my best to tear myself out of it, but its so strangely difficult.

i just got so used to being seen as the weirdo (weirdo as in 'that kid is absolutely neurodivergent but no one is going to tell them that') kid in the back of the class that i told myself i was that without telling myself i was that and well. no one finds that kid attractive so surely they cant be just as sexual if not more than the attractive people! idk its so dumb.

i know im getting serious on my blog thats literally about my silly little fetishes but its not exactly a main blog topic, plus no one really goes here anyway

#i wish i was better at talking

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taeyungie · 7 months

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em, well.. he called me today. the irony of it all is apparently when i was talking w/ that 1 guy after my ex years ago, i only told him cus he asked me out & i apparently said he didnt need to know that stuff and i dont remember ever saying that but he said he was hurt/caught off guard & therefore never shared any of his personal relations with me. i think i blacked those yrs out. i went thru a very bad & messy breakup and wanted a distraction, i don't remember him ever asking me out then but he said he remembered very well. i feel so fucking stupid. this basically all happened bc of me. and u were right, he said he /always/ had those feelings even after my ex but i felt they weren't there... so i never attempted anything until i built up our relationship again which is how it is now. but, the real kicker is.. i told him that i didnt want to be put in a position where if he was serious about me, that he'd talk to other ppl, but he said im basically asking for commitment and he cant give that to me unless i show that i'm willing to let him come see me or vice versa (which i just need more time for), until then, he's not going to tell me if he's messing with anyone but he said if things do get serious with someone, then he'll let me know to not lead me on. thats not what i wanted to hear. basically he's open to whatever happens with whoever, even if he cares deeply about me, but he cant promise to not talk to other ppl and i know its selfish, i just wanted him to wait for me, esp after all this time with trying and failing with wrong timings. the way he said "IF i get into a relationship, i'll tell u" gets me cause i'll only know if he makes it official, he said thats how its gonna be. and i honestly feel like i'll end up pushing him away cus the reality of that being possible hurts too much. he said he'll just have to accept it then. but even after talking i still feel as lost. i feel sad, ashamed i said those things i truly don't remember. but now i'm confused with my feelings. i know this is going to change everything. i can already feel myself wanting to pull away emotionally & put the guard i barely let down back up 😣

i am sorry sunshine :( but i'm really happy that you guys had the talk, you need to stay in contact with him no matter what, the silence can be the worst thing to do right now, so please try your best not to become closed off. the fact that you're both so hurt by this situation is so visible, my heart is breaking. although i really do understand both of you, and he is clear about what he expects and it's in your hands to decide what to do with it 🥺 you know... you have to understand that he is just trying to be happy too, just like we all do. it doesn't mean he only cares about himself, he was there for you through the bad times and he did wait for you, honey, but the thing happened years ago and he might be just tired of waiting, he just wants to find happiness and love too... i'm pretty sure he's probably just as hurt and confused by this situation as you are, but he cares about you and he wants to be with you, but maybe he cannot handle long-distance relationship, maybe he is tired of waiting, maybe there are other reasons he doesn't want to share because it's hurting him too much at this point, yeah? he probably started closing up on you because of that as well, that's why he stated his feelings in such harsh way. he probably doesn't mean to hurt you at all, he is just trying to protect himself.

so please, don't get me wrong, i may not be giving you the best advice or making you feel better which i'm really sorry for :( but i want to stay objective because the situation is tough, and help you understand how to deal with it, to look at your situation in a different light. I'm trying to guess what can be the issue and what you guys are going through, nothing I say is 100% right because I don't know the exact details and I will never know how exactly each of you is feeling. but what i know for sure is that one can stay strong for long enough, sweetheart :(

i understand that you might have blocked out the memories because of traumatic past and that is completely valid and I'm really sorry for what you went through, you deserve the best of love and care :( it's something he should be understanding about especially that he asked you out when you were still in pain, you probably weren't ready for something serious and i will allow myself to guess the guy you talked with was not considered as something you were serious about, right? you probably hoped for it, looked for it, but deep inside you probably might've been looking for a distraction, something to make you feel better, right? and since he was your best friend it was a different situation, although he probably chose to ask in a bad moment, he shouldn't blame you entirely for that and now act like it's all your fault, but i also understand why he was caught off guard and hurt by that, he was angry and jealous, he wanted to be with you and realizing you didn't choose him was probably very painful, although now he might feel like you realized you have feelings for him because you have no other options, and he wants you a strong and secure feeling from you to feel safe in it, but please don't get upset with my words, let me tell you something first, love.

Let me tell you a story, I myself also went through a similar thing and i also had to deny my best friend a long time ago, because of other reasons but one of the main ones was long distance, i never loved him but i cared for him that's another difference because your friend actually HAS feelings for you, but i know how my friend has felt when i kept explaining him why we can't be together, it made me feel terrible. yet, his feelings for me didn't lessen apparently, and to this day, sometimes, he still implies that his crush on me never went away. but in the meantime he was in many other relationships, serious ones and purely physical ones, while also not telling me much, i probably don't know about a lot but it's his life and not my business - my point is that, he also tried to be happy even while still actively hoping i would give him a chance, because he cares for me more than he does for the people he dated (but again in my story it didn't affect me because i never loved him that way). now picture yourself in our situation, he actually does love you but you guys can't be together right now because of some reasons, and he probably isn't feeling confident about your feelings for him because of the past events, which is why he asks you for "100% yes" or "100% no" right now. unless you give him an answer he waited for for a long time, he has the right to try and look for happiness elsewhere and not involve you in it, he might not be comfortable with sharing that he is having flings with others with someone he actually loves, simply because he doesn't want to hurt you, but it's just natural that he is looking for distractions, he is not looking for someone to replace you but he's also clearly not sure of your feelings for him, do you know what i mean now? he doesn't want the past to repeat, when he already waited for a long time, maybe tried to move on even. i know you don't want him to treat you like a 2nd choice and what i just said might look exactly like he's doing it but i personally don't see it that way, that REALLY is not the case, in my opinion it's the opposite and you are clearly his 1st choice, from what i deducted he also just told you that, but since you were/are out of reach he is trying to find other ways, even if it hurts him that they're not you.

don't close your heart up on him, honey. i know you're anxious and in pain, just try to understand his position, alright? you're both hurting a lot but you care for each other deeply and misunderstanding is not something that should be an obstacle, so please, the only way out of it is to talk to each other and be honest. maybe you could consider making some sacrifices to defeat things that stay in your way of saying "yes" , if relationship with him is something you truly want?

#I'm really sorry if anything i said wasn't right or hurt you or if i don't understand something properly. i really want the best outcome :(#thank you so much for trusting me enough to talk about it and to ask for advice. i really hope my way of thinking doesn't hurt you more #anonymous #answered #long post

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iwannabeastarstarrockmann · 9 months

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i dont fucking know if my thoughts are my own or if ive just been so emotionally and verbally abused each day that im starting to internalize someone elses idea of me. idk what to think lately. im so fucking depressed and anxious and sad like every single day, it hurtsso much, and it fucking sucks that there are people in my life who just view me as a sad sack of shit with no aspirations or value. i never get more than a day to get better from anything before someone in my life is pressuring me to get off my ass and do something productive. dont you know tht there is something seriously wrong with me. idk why i cant do things, i just cant. i wan to be so productive and social, i just cant bring myself to do it right now. i feel so trapped and overwhelmed. do you realize how exhausting it is to wake up everyday with a mind attacking itself, with a body that aches, with a hope that this will be your last day of suffering, with no sense of what it is you need in order for the suffering to stop. i want to scream but i have no energy to. i want to die one minute and then hope to save my own life the next, contradicting every word or thought with an action that is not my own. theres days where my health anxiety is practically non existant and then something will happen, it could be something so nonsensical and somehow ill get triggered or worried and there i go absolutely obsessed with some strange pain or weird tension, or god forbid i actually get infected with something. thats all i could focus on 24/7 until i find some way to make it better, but the worry from the thing that im feeling and wondering about my health, this shit brain decides its so stressful and scary that i should just starve myself, cause if i were skinny, these prooblems wouldnt feel so big, or maybe id be able to go to the doctor if im 2 sizes smaller. that doesnt make any sense. i know it doesnt so why do i do what i do. and then theres the cutting that i feel i have to do or else i wont learn from my mistakes but if i cut myself whenever i impulsively feel like it, then that makes my immune system too weak to fight off whatever i think i have this week so im trying to recover from that as its only making everything more complicated, but its all i can think about, especially in this self loathing state im in now. im such an idiot, im just a sick fuck who cant stop thinking to herself that maybe im faking all this and im actually okay. i think its all my fault for being this way, i dont remember what started all these unhealthy coping mechanisms but it has to have started with a thought right? i feel so ashamed for being this way, it was stupid of me to ever adopt such habits restriction makes me more confident but the constant exercise makes me too weak to go anywhere to show that confidence, and great! now i actually am sick, and my immune system is shit, and my emotional state and self hatred is making it worse, and im too overwhelmed to see anyone in my life who thinks they love me, because i dont want them to see me like this. they wouldnt believe me if i tried to explain that im struggling and need help. ive tried. they dont listen. they dont realize whats important. i know i put em through hell, im selfish, im self centered and dramatic and lazy and gross and undeserving of any love they think they have for me. i dont trust it. dont tell me you love me, you barely know me, the real me, the one i keep locked behind a closed door each night, to contemplate what im going to do about this shit life ive curated for myself. im so tired, im so fucking tired all of the time. i dont know how to keep going. i dont know how to do anything for that matter. im not even going to revise this shit post, im too tired, i just need to announce somewhere, somehow, that im so fucking lost that i dont even know if my thoughts are my own, or what it means to be a person. everyday with this bullshit, now im getting into existential dread territory, im just so sick of my own shit! im sick of myself. why cant i function like everyone else???

i want it to be over, i wish my problems could just be solved without any external help. i just want to wake up tomorrow and for everything to just be okay. i want to feel okay again. i dont need anything fancy, please let me wake up tomorrow with hope of brighter days. its so hard to see the beauty in my life when im being suffocated and pinned down by something invisible. i dont have the capacity to love or care for anyone or anything, and no one can see that i just need a break?? how can you not see me? no one can see, ill show them and they still wont see! they refuse, simply because, they cannot see inside my head and dont care enough to want to. they think they do. i tried to tell them time and time again but i think its just that when i am feeling okay, they dont like the choices i make. when im okay, i make sure i make the most of that time by prioritizing my own happiness over everyone elses, and that really pisses people off! to the point where they want to tear me down and take that light away from me. i didnt ask to be here, now, with all this pressure on my shoulders to be more than what i am. im simply existing. i can feel it. tomorrows gonna be so shit. i can always sense the storm before it comes, i wish i could prevent it, or ease my pain in some way. these substances are nice in the moment but eventually the buzz will wear off and ill just be me again, with nothing to offer. i dont have anything to offer. life is too hard, i gave up so long ago and didnt even realize that is what was happening at the time. i just go through it day by day without fully processing that ill have to wake up the next day. i wish my life was a dream i could wake up from. my brain isnt working right. i dont recognize myself. i hate how alone we all are. every sensation, thought, visual, sound, and taste. you are completely isolated from everyone around you.

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expfcultragreen · 1 year

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Anyone want to play good skin/bad skin with me?

Yeah i didnt think so, that game fucking sucks and i was over this whole scene of making you figure it out yourself years ago, like from the jump. Im usually very supportive of doing research but all im going to find out about these guys is a) theyre nazis or b) they adopt the posture of nazis for reasons that are only relevant within the hardcore scene, with a total sense of callousness or adversariality regarding everyone who despises the aestheticization of fascist reactionaryism in and of itself. Like, the hautiness of it, if theyre pulling option b. The self-absorbed, myopically racist and phobic hautiness of it.

I have spent nearly 10 years carefully studying my plausibly crypto hardcoreboy friend, who i met because he lived in a vegan feminist house (mostly terfs it turned out, tho) i went to a party at

And its inconclusive what the fuck he meant in his 20s by all the casual racism and the swastika on his album cover, because that stuff actually all had plausible denials loaded--ALL of it, almost suspiciously so like its a game called youre just paranoid--and because he is fanatically liberal in his personal life (altho of course, he hates the liberal party and neoliberalism in general...which tells me he's either fash or hardleft, its a horseshoe thing with hating justin trudeau and the global capitalism agenda),,,, as far as he will share with me privately or the internet publicly. Ive been to a number of parties where he invited virtually all the guests and he conspicuously tried for diveristy, although his inner circle was all lame white people. (So is mine at the moment but thats because im too ashamed of my psychosis to have kept in touch with any of my other friends; its just really hard for people being around a white person who wont shut up about nazis when thats all you hear from everyone who wont hang out with white people, it gets awkward because you cant really say much because it could be a trap like theyre an undercover cop or something.) Sometimes his grapevine delivers him a highkey crypto conspiracy theory and then he wants to get takes on it because it "somehow" seems implausible or dubiously verified. When his neighbors annoy him he plays his tyler the creator vinyl real loud. He bought tickets for pet shop boys and new order when they played toronto. I am constantly scanning every interaction for tells, to this day; its like the green flag/red flag bateman meme but the tabulations are reversed.

I only have room in my life for ONE hardcore bro puzzlebox, sorry to all the oi bands and skinheads bobbling around like jackasses but i will never see you live and you will never get my money

Just one, sure, but how'd you pick?

Fluke. I didnt know who he was until after i had already asked him out (we got along at the party we met at so i asked him out, i never met someone else who knew that kinks song waterloo sunset, before), and then i had a stake in figuring out how much of a nazi he was because he knew i was nonbinary/queer and hooked up with me anyway instead of trying to kill me or debate me. Then after i was like "yknow what fuck it, i hate this game, youre a nazi" he flew across canada several times to check on me because he could tell i was going off the rails and isolating myself from people. He is the ONLY friend i have left who showed concern, most of them just got mad and stopped talking to me when i psychotically accused them of being abusers. My ex gf checked on me a lot during those years but she's not really my friend anymore (cant stand me now, too mundane)

I refuse to tell him my current address because i dont want him to know where i live because i am still paranoid that he has proud boy friends in bc who he can just call up and convince to burn my house down etc if i become too much of a liability or like if he finally does too many drugs and snaps and decides im causing progressivism as a whole by myself using magic

And the hardcore bros KNOW this is what people who truly hate nazis go through with them, and they dont give a fuck because they think theyre on a higher plane of enlightenment by virtue of a hyperfixation on a niche subculture's 40 year history of repeated infiltrations by nazis

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brokensoulblog1998 · 2 years

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insecurity is a motherf*****, as of late it has been getting the best of me and im not proud of it at all, ive struggled with that feeling for as long as i can remember, ive really never had anyone to openly share any of these types of feelings with so writing it all out feels really good. i wanna learn to love myself the way i love other people and heal myself where its needed so i can finally be happy and move on with my life. being in a long term relationship for the past two years ive been very toxic and lashing out and i feel so ashamed for putting my loved one through my raging mood swings becasue of past trauma or getting insecure over every little thing an picking fights so i can be right. i never noticed my toxic behavior how it affected my loved one and how it ultimuatly ruined my relationship my partner my self. and honsestly since i promised my self i would always be honest here with my self i think the real reaon i get so insecure is because ive given up on myself compelely, i stopped doing things for me i stopped taking care of myself and just started sittiing around crying and complaing about all the little things i needed to change but really never ever made that effort to change any of those things. i no longer wanna be that girl, im ready to actually put myself first and get out if this rut. i cant keep blaming him and freaking out because he like another girls picture or because he wants to stay in touch with his bestfriend thats a female like those things shouldnt make me insecure i cant expect his wjhole social life to stop just because hes with me. yes i hate that fact that for 30 seconds he looks at a pitcure of another girl and likes it but like he has reassured me so many times that im sure hes tired of doing, none of that crap matters hes a guy at that a younger guy and just because he likes or talks to another girl doesnt mean is intentions are to replace me or cheat on me cause if he wanted to do that he would have. its been two years since this ride to hell began and im ready to hop off. im ready to just let all off that go and just be together. i have to get ovet the fact theres always gonna be other girls and more pictures to like but as long as things are good at home between us and we dont let all that shit on the outside get in well be okay and i know he would never do anything to hurt me hes always been a blunt straight foward kind of guy i just worry sometimes because hes also the kind of guy to tell you what you wanna hear so youll drop it, and i hate that i think that one thing about him fucks with me constantly, but i need to learn hes not my prisoner hes my lover and if were ever gonna get out of this, if im ever gonna get out of this rut ive been stuck in i need to learn to let go and if i dont like something about myself its up to me to change it no my loved ones to tell me what i wanna hear just to comfort me. at one point in my life i knew how to embrace myself and be confident that girl is in me somewhere its just up to me to find her. i honestly dont know if anyone will ever come across this or read this or relate to this im just a girl trying to let go of all this crap i hold in and sharing here makes me feel like this will help me not do that so whoever is reading i hope you know you are not alone im lost to looking for that girl that was once happy and didnt let all her inseuriies destroy her

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ribscarvedlikebutterflies · 2 years

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matthew,

i’ll write these for the fuck of it because i know youre reading these. how i know? if you ask me, i’ll tell you. i’ll take the opportunity to just talk to you like this even though i dont want it to be this way because there’s so much i’ve been wanting to tell you. i can’t even begin. maybe i shouldnt do this at all, but i dont really give a fuck anymore.

im tired of the pushing and pulling. ive been tormented by my own self-doubt for months and im sick of it. i forgot who the fuck i was and i finally remembered not too long ago. i hate to say it, but you made me feel worthless. unlovable. disposable. and i know we both know those things arent true, but i felt it and i felt it deep and i couldnt understand it for awhile. i saw with my own eyes how you felt about me. and i still feel it now. what you showed me — your coldness, and dare i say cruelty — contradicted everything i felt deep inside of me. and i know i am never wrong. if only you knew how right i’ve been about so many things. i tried to forget so many times, tried to mend it so i wouldnt be tormented by this lack of closure, but you would not allow it, and so it persisted.

on the surface, everything looks like a losing game, but i know better. and ive been angry because i dont deserve any of this. it’s funny because i didnt feel heartbroken until i finally believed i didnt deserve this at all. this was weeks ago. i knew in my mind i didnt, but you know when you just dont realize until youre like, oh shit, actually this was fucked up. and i know you didnt realize just how fucked up it was until recently. i wasnt ashamed of how i felt about you, but i was ashamed of how strongly i believed it wasnt finished. that sense of inevitability has been haunting me since then, and i know better than to ignore my feelings.

so here are some things i wished i couldve told you to your face by now: i didnt even think to look at anyone else. i was already yours. im in love with you. i adore you.

yes, it’s that deep. i dont want to come off as too intense. i just want you to know that you didnt have to do anything to earn my love. i dont love you for what you could do for me, but just for who you are. that i cared and i still do. that i understand you have your reasons — at the same time, i wont justify them. you hurt me. bad. i didnt deserve it.

ive asked myself many times — is this really worth it? do i have to suffer everytime i love someone? cant i just forget?

but it wont stop… so im here… taking leap after leap, landing on my fucking face almost every time, but i keep going cause this shit is very very real and i’ll be damned if i dont let you know how i fucking feel about you. im not pussy !

what i want more than anything is to hug you. if i knew the last time we hugged would really be the last time, i wouldve ran back for a fourth and i wouldnt have let go. i can feel the pull in my chest now that i felt then. i want nothing more than to be in your arms.

have you ever loved someone and couldnt show them? it’s hard to find a place to put that love down. can it be done?

i pray for the day that im set free. i hope that day is soon. & no matter what, i only wish you the best.

love, zana

#for m.b.#⚔️

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queeninthnorth · 3 years

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I'm terrified I've fucked up college cause I really don't know how I'm gonna pull myself out of not submitting any work for anything all semester

#if i have to repeat everything ill have to wait a whole year to apply for teaching #and repeating six classes is so expensive #and i cant tell anyone about it cause im so ashamed #like they know i was depressed and didnt do anything for months but i dont think anyone realises how bad things are #sorry for the rant #personal i guess

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imdumbformakingthis · 3 years

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#ignore me #i just kind of want this out #but im too embarrassed to actually tell anyone #so #the disconnect and disgust i feel towards my body is causing me distress #and other people see me too and i look like this #im so ashamed and sad #i don't know why this hit me so hard tonight but i cant stop thinking about it

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doctorstrangeaskblog · 6 years

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I got a 40% today and I had scored 90% the other day so...wtf? Brain, decide what the hell you are what the fuck

#college rant #im so ashamed cause the teacher knows i got a 40%#i hate this #i hate myself for making myself suffer this much #i wanna cry but the day isnt over yet #and i cant nor shouldnt be rude to anyone #and i have to pretend to be happy at home or my parents will ask what happened and i dont wanna tell them about it #they would worry and think im a punk

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threepointseven · 2 years

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hello i looked into the mirror today and saw that i till have a tanline from the sunburn i got in September 2020 😔

and can i order scaracmouhhie with a vampire s/o 👼🏻

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Scaramouche & kazuha with a vampire s/o

Type-, HC’s 🌷

Flowers included!🌼= scaramouche x gn! Reader, kazuha x gn! Reader

🥀flower toxins!🥀- a bit suggestive if you squint, torture, blood, gouging out eyeballs, violence

Note🍀= AHHH HI 👩‍🦲 ANONN HAPPY NEW YEAR BTWWW I ADDED KAZUHA BECAUSE WHY NOT 😈😈 ALSO SAME?? I LITERALLY HAVE A TANLINE FROM A HELLO KITTY SWIMSUIT FROM WHEN I WAS 8

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💐Your bouquet has been delivered <3💐

Scaramouche

- he never knew you were a vampire at first, you never showed signs nor told him about it as you were ashamed of it. You would tell him eventually, you just kept lying to yourself.

- As your thirst for blood became more of a hassle to deal with you decided to sit him down and explain to him you were a vampire, it was extremely awkward. He sat there looking surprised which isnt common, and shyly accepted the fact youd be biting on his neck for blood every now and then

- The first time you bit him he stayed still, frozen. He didnt know what to feel when he felt the pain of your fangs and kept quiet as he could feel his blood lessening by the second.

- He eventually got used to it and got extremely smug about it whenever you insist on biting him, a smug is always painting his annoying little expression as he pokes on you for being so drunk on it

- In general he finds it fascinating, vampires are rare in tevyat and he was curious about life as a vampire. He begrudgingly asks you what being a vampire is like every time he wipes off the stray blood on his shoulder, acting annoyed (he just finds it really interesting-)

- After finding out vampires are 99% of the time hunted down, he became extra cautious, hiring fatui body guards to ensure your safety. If anyone even thinks about hunting you down simply cause your a vampire he’ll murder them and their bloodline.

- If the fatui body guards cant keep you safe god knows what he’ll do..

“S-sir they barely got h-hurt this is an overreact-“

The harbingers free hand pulls on the mans hair, pulling out strand by strand at the forceful pull.

“Barely? You think my lover almost being kidnapped is barely? Get ready your last words for your family you insolent fuck. Im not letting you die that easily.”

A knife coated with electro strikes at the mans eyes, gouging out every inch till the man could be heard all the way in sumeru.

“Tartaglia’s underlings, what infutile pigs. Stop screaming wont you? And eye for an eye after all…”

Kazuha

- kazuha never even knew vampires existed till one night he woke up to your panicking figure, shaking and biting your nails in the restroom.

“Dear..? Are you alright..?”

“Kazuha—?”

- it took one touch from him for you to apologize under your breathe before biting into his neck and letting your sharp teeth get the blood its needed for too long. You apologized profusely after, already predicting the words “we’re breaking up”, but nope.

- He actually didnt really mind! He was actually more worried than scared. Asked if you were hurt or were too thirsty.

- He’s always there to offer his blood, anytime you seem remotely thirsty hes immediately pulling your mouth onto his shoulder. Hes so supportive and worried about you and your urge for blood its disturbing yet adorable.

- Always makes sure the sun isnt touching you, he has so many umbrellas so that you dont turn into pure dust— youve also always been ashamed of being a vampire, your hated and dangerous, the feeling of regrets sinks in immediately after tasting kazuhas blood, he takes note of it all the time and peppers you with kisses ignoring the lingering pain and reassuring you that be doesnt mind it.

- He always asks questions about what vampires need to be cautious about, how theyre blood drinking works, stuff like that. He’s only ever heard of vampires from inazuman horror legends so he asked every question in the book really

- he starts writing haiku’s about vampires. Yes. It sounds cheesy but the moment he found out you were a vampire a pile of haiku’s describing vampires and you appeared on the dinner table

- he (subtly) brags about you to the crux all the time!! Telling them about how vampires are rare and your one, he’s always chatting about your kind, its like he knows more about them than you

- Hes not great at being possessive since it clashes with his morals abut if anyone tries to kill you he’ll kill them first

- I mean yeah hes sweet and all that but hes a samurai and he’ll beat up everyone who tries to hurt the one person that hasnt left him yet and doesnt plan to!

“Im sorry, kazuha..” “hm? For what?”

You wipe the stray blood off the edge of your mouth as your eyes brim with tears. “E-eh..? Dear why are you—?”

“ ‘m sorry kazu, im sorry i hurt you so much with my blood fixation and everything..-“ your boyfriends eyes widened and he slowly cupped your cheek and looked at your crying iris’s

“You know it doesn’t matter right..? That your a vampire, plus it doesnt hurt me at all. Dont let those foolish little thoughts my love.” The kiss planted on your forehead by the white haired samurai lets your tears dry as you lean into him, nuzzling into his neck while he pats your backs.

#genshin impact #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact x you #genshin imagines #genshin kazuha x reader #kazuha x you #kazuha x gender neutral reader #kazuha x y/n #kazuha x reader #kazuha x male reader #genshin scaramouche x reader #scaramouche x y/n #scaramouche x you #scaramouche x reader #genshin x reader #genshin x gender neutral reader #genshin x male reader

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quackisinnit · 3 years

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Karl, Wilbur, Quackity, and Sapnap with insecure plus-sized s/o

Hello! Can I request some Karl, Wilbur, Quackity and/or Sapnap x insecure plus-sized reader? (They/them), like just hcs if that works?

Notes: if you want more cubby/pus sized s/o content, check out @/cubbity !! they're a mcyt writer dedicated to writing chubby! reader fics. they also have an anime blog if i remember correctly:) also im kinda proud of this:D [divider: puppykei]

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Karl

oh ho ho

this man would HYPE you up if he ever got the chance

if you ever wore anything that you weren't so sure about/ kinda insecure about

he would shower you with compliments

"What do you mean? You look amazing!"

"I think this looks great Y/n!"

if anyone made fun of you cause of how you look

he would be like

"Thats not very nice >:( they look great, you just can't admit that"

he loves resting on your chest

not in a weird way obviously

just anytime you cuddle, he would always head for you chest

he just finds it comfy:D

if you have stretch marks

get ready to have them kissed

he just loves you so goddamn much

Wilbur

he wouldn't really care

he's just like

"Physical appearance does not matter to me"

so if you're ever insecure,

he's always there

"I think you look nice, don't let anyone tell you otherwise"

if someone is making fun of how you look

they have to get through wilbur first

which is gonna be hard

if you were in his stream

and someone in chat/donated that you were fat (in a derogatory way)

PROTECTIVE WILBUR MODE ON

he would just stare at it for a few seconds out of disbelief cause

'what??? my?? s/o?? is?? so?? attractive???'

but he'd act chill kinda about it

"please dont ever say that again, or else you'll get permantly banned."

if you ever cuddle, he just loves staring at you

you're just so attractive to him

its just too hard for him to not look at you

he likes to cup/hold your cheeks

its just so cute and chubby jshsjs

for stretch marks, he doesn't care

you can't control it and he still loves you

this man is in love<3

Quackity

this man is whipped for you

(is that the right word lol)

or entranced by you

he just loves every part of you

if you start saying things like

"i should lose some weight, i look ugly:("

he would reassure you that you're not ugly at all

"what?? you're perfect!"

like he'd always be there just to reassure you

like if your in a room and looking at yourself in a mirror

he'd just come out of nowhere to compliment you

someone is making fun of you on twitter?

he's there

he makes a serious tweet and everything

maybe even a video

"hey guys, don't make fun of my s/o. it isn't cool nor funny, you're just being an absolute dickhead."

and all the hate towards you would just

disappear

like it never existed

cause he's really intimidating when serious😭

when cuddling

he just loves your stomach and fingers

they're just so cute

he loves laying on your stomach and playing with your fingers

and if you have stretch marks, he loves tracing them

like he places his finger on them and treats them like a maze

(this is from a tiktok i saw a few months ago xjshsj)

Sapnap

he would be a mixture of everyone on this list KSBSJ

his compliments would be pretty creative

"they say disneyland is the happiest place on earth, well clearly they've never been with you"

or sumn like that KSHAJS

or sometimes just normal ones

"you look great:)"

you're getting made fun of?

they better get ready to square up

cause he's gonna fight 'em

"hey, don't say that shit."

"not cool dude😐"

he is a thigh man and you cannot tell me otherwise

he loves laying on them and grabbing them

in a none sexual way ofc

they're so pretty to him

like if he's laying on them

expect them to be kissed

also stretch marks?

loves them too!!

like wilbur, he says things like

"you cant control it. it's beautiful and never be ashamed of them"

like karl, he loves kissing them

he's just like "i can't stop looking at you, you're just to attractive"

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coff33jelly · 3 years

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Floch Forster x Reader Smut

summary: just floch fucking you dumb, thats it

you couldnt get enough of his fat cock stretching your little cunt with every harsh thrust he made. the obscene sounds of his balls hitting your skin and the crazy look in his eyes when he looked down at you while he fucked you dumb like that.

taking all of his frustrations out on you without mercy. hitting your sweet spot again and again, watching you squirm in pleasure and from overstimulation.

his fingers were doing wonders playing with your puffy clit, rubbing your bundle of nerves furiously like that was simply too much for you. you came again and again around his cock, but he never stopped until you were a pitiful quivering mess below him.

his grip on your wrists holding you down was gonna leave bruises for sure, but that was the least of your worries for now, as you cant even form a coherent thought, your eyes teary and vision blurry from how violent he was pounding into you.

anyone could hear what was going on if they were to pass by your room, but that only made it more arousing. you couldnt hold your moans even if you wanted, floch demanded to hear every little sound his throbbing member was causing you to make. if you would muffle them down, he would only slam his hips that much harder into you.

,, you like that little slut? is my cock all you can think about all day? now that im giving it to you, you ll take it like a good obedient girl for me ,,

,, you want your man to fuck you so hard everyone around could hear, huh? you re so nasty, asking me that every time you find yourself alone with me.. ,,

,, ..how about you open that pretty little mouth so i can spit in it sweetheart ,,

,, how much should i fuck you until you get enough hm? i think it would never be enough for you, you love my cock too much.. is it the only thing thats on your mind? do you love it that much? ,,

,, so fucking wet for me.. arent you ashamed of yourself? you re griping me so hard, do you want my cock to stay inside you that badly? such a greedy cunt.. ,,

,, can you answer me something? why were you eyeing my gun today so much? did another dumb slutty idea come in your head, hm? ..maybe you want me to fuck you with it.. mhm you would love the thrill of it, wouldnt you? are you too embarrassed to tell me? no.. such a whore like you can never be too embarrassed.. maybe i ll fuck you with my gun later if you continue to take me so well right now.. yeah.. i ll definitely do that.. ,,

at every dirty word that left his lips the only thing you could do was shamelessly nod while rolling your eyes to the back of your head, feeling another orgasm approaching. but he s not done yet.

he never lets you go that easily, but you cant get enough of it. never. floch forster has you wrapped around his finger, you know it. but you also know that no one can fuck your brains out as good as him after all.

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ghostlysenses · 3 years

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Angst Prompts

Im taking requests! heres a few quotes for inspo

just like that? you’re giving up?!

im the bad guy! i dont save the day

sorry that im such a disappointment

you cant be back?! WHY ARE YOU BACK?!

You never cared.. did you?

Go! and never come back

you were an investment

How dare you come back into my life after leaving me!

you weren’t there for me, so its my turn to no be there for you

Id take back our relationship in a heartbeat!

you win..

can’t you listen for one second

pick a god and pray to it

kill me and live with the memory, then tell the stars you won

its better this way

it was bound to end either way

its not a breakup, just a break

I dont want to die, not like this

you’re trembling...

this is all your fault!

you meant nothing to me

maybe you should stop trying to socialize everyone hate you anyways

I cant trust you anymore

I cant live like this anymore!

I dont know what to do

its all to much

My anxiety keeps me silent when i try to speak

I wish i was floating

waking up to an empty bed is hard sometimes

who do you think you are?!

look at what you caused!

do you care?! why dont you care?

I gave you all me!

i was there when they werent yet you still chose them over me?!

you have some nerve trying to tear me down

why would you try and play me for a fool?

why werent you who you swore that you would be

i shouldve never trusted you

I dont know why i love you!

you broke me...

you hit me...you hit me!

you changed, and its not for the better

Not like you ever tried to stay!

i tried, i failed, i tried again, i failed again. it keeps repeating and im tired of it!

im tired! im tired of all of it

how? how are you so good at pretending to be okay

I wish I never met you!

Go ahead! leave me!

your just like the rest of them

what is it about them?

why do you love them so much?!

you’ll never be like them

your image is more important than us?

your right it wasnt your fault but mine

was it fun? using me?

YOU HAVE NO POWER OVER ME!

YOU HAVE NO AUTHORITY OVE ME!

you only want power

they..they dont/doesnt love me anymore..

I dont love them anymore

I had a nightmare...i killed you...

i thought we were friends!

when? when did you stop loving me?

i hope your satisfied with yourself

why are you pushing people away?

your using me....your using me

so you didnt really love me?

was there something i couldve done or said to make you love me more?

Im so numb now..

I dont want to die!

fuck you! and fuck everything!

there is no us! there never was!

you thought this was real?!

do you love them?

do they make you happier than when you were with me?

are you ashamed of me?

if you cant live without me then die

why didnt you fight for us?

i said id die for you, i didnt mean it literally

who could ever love you?

is this a game to you?

Im not a toy you can play with!

why should I leave? you’re the one who ended the conversation/fight

I thought you were different

you got in my way

if you walk out of that door we are through

they left... and never came back

LOOK AT ME!

Am i not good enough for you?

i didnt realize i was such an inconvenience

Your my (daughter, child, son) no matter how big you grow youll always be my (duaghter, child,son)

i hope you’re happy now

i hope im not put in the same part of hell as you

its okay! im here!

you act like a child!

i cant love you.

i dont care

there more people in the world than just you!

i cried out for you and you didnt even come to save me

I heard you, i just didnt care.

We’re kids! we should be living our lives instead of trying to cheat death!

everyone leaves

do you wish that you never met me?

I wish you would understand

Could you please be there for me?

You can’t keep ignoring me

We used to be friends! what happened?

this will be the last time you lie to me

I hope you’re happy

I dont like you! nobody here does!

every time something goes well I momentarily forget how much I despise you

Did anyone ever tell you how pathetic you are? It’s incredible how low my standards are for you

Hand me the gun and I’ll kill ___ myself

We should probably stop talking forever

You broke her heart and came back for more, you bastard

I’m not coming home, don’t look for me

No one will keep your name alive. Once you’re gone, everything you once stood for disappears too

Don’t pretend you haven’t thought about your life without me

You think im an idiot, but I saw through you. You’re the idiot

What would I need you for when I have something better?

I hope you know I wouldve done ANYTHING for you

It was all i ever asked of you!

they arent my kid, theyre a failed clone (Parent hates, failed clone kid, failed clone kid was raised by them but neglected and def not loved, anything can happen, the kid can die in their arms and their last words be something angsty like “i loved you even if you didnt love me” or they get into an argument or something idk)

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