#am I becoming delusional?

[murobrown]

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#it's that time of the month when I just want to sell my uterus on black market with human organs #the week leading up to my period is far more worse than the actual period #it made me gain 2 kg and I can't stop freaking out about it...i know i lose them every month but my brain won't leave me alone #it's making me want to starve myself or just work out until i collapse #tmi sorry...how is your Friday evening? #I'm bored and I'm deciding between going to bed before 11 pm or let my brain torture me a little bit more #I don't even think I'm excited about the weekend anymore because it means I'll have to eat again #you just eat and work out and eat and work out and try not think about the calories because we're not doing thay anymore #but deep down my brain still knows the numbers and won't let me go over 900 calories #i perfected my body but destroyed my head even more #i shouldn't say thay but maybe it's worth it #feeling happy in my own skin is the best feeling in the world #and I know I'm shallow because of that but for the first time in my life i like my body #i actually like all parts of my body #and knowing that i did it with all that hard work feels even better #but on the other hand now I'm just too scared I'm going to lose it all if I eat a cookie after lunch #i think I'm too deep into this #is it bad that I like the feeling of bones under my skin? #am I becoming delusional? #that's what a menstrual cycle does to a emotionally unstable woman #it makes me feel angry that out of four weeks in a month i get like max two weeks when I feel good and normal #all of that for nothing #anyway maybe it's time to stop myself..

[chilinandeppresing]

Mk is a Yaoguai

I came across some interesting information while I was researching another theory. The concept of a being not quite demon, human or celestial demon in Chinese mythology called a Yaoguai. The number of similarities MK shares with them is uncanny.

First of all, how Mk being refered to as the Harbringer of Chaos connects to him being a Yao:Within Chinese mytholgy, Yāo have a tendency to be "blamed for sudden outbreaks of confused and erratic action, or transgressive behaviour" with there literally being a Chinese saying saying that goes"when affairs go awry, there must have been a yāo (acting)" ("事出反必有妖") Quite like how Mk seems to cause a lot of chaos around himself, without even meaning to and feeling a lot of guilt for it. ie- Lady Bone Demon, Demon Bull King, Spider Queen, Azule Lion, and maybe even Macaque gaining power due to his (direct or indirect) actions. As well as other unfortunate things that have happened around him, like Mei's Samadi Fire getting activated and Wukong getting trapped in the scroll.

Secondly, tying in the concept of him being a Yaoguai to his creation: Mk was born from a rock, a clay rock made by someone unknown to us but presumed to be the goddess Nuwa. And guess where most Yao originate from? From unsentient natural items- "yāo refers to natural objects (animals, plants, or rocks) which have acquired sentience (lit. spiritual awareness)," That spiritual awareness might’ve been gifted knowingly or unknowingly by Nuwa.

Yao also only appear in human or near-human forms, and that is after all MK's original form that we see him in the show with. But they also share an "essential nature with an animal or plant." and that is there actual true form. Which since MK was carved into a monkey by Nuwa, it natural that that is the the animal he would share an "essential nature" with and would explain why he has a monkey form.

Mk also tends to have very atypical powers, which also aligns with the concept of him being a Yao since they tend to be born with unsual powers and with the ability to cultivate immortality. This explains why he was able to be immortal when we first met him, how he got that "invincibility" in the first place is still up for debate. I also wonder if this goes the other way where Yao can be born with immortality and cultivate others' powers... because that would explain how Mk is very easily able to adapt to others' powers. I'm not sure, though, since I've only done surface level research on this.

If that cultivation of powers is not possible then he may be unknowingly utilizing another common power of the Yao, shapeshifting to very accurately "mimic"(I'm not sure if that's the right word for it) others powers. Such as Wukong's, Macaque's and possibly LBD's.

Just some other cool tidbits about Yaoguai:

Yaoguai (妖怪) are distinct creatures from ghosts (鬼, pinyin: gui) and demons (魔, pinyin: mo). Ghosts are the spirits of the deceased, whereas demons are often described as fallen immortals and gods.(Mk is neither of those I think)

Sun Wukong uses this term often to insult his (demonic) adversaries(Huh that'd be ironic wouldn't it. To seemingly hate Yaoguai in JTTW, and then end up with one as his succesor.)

In Taoist folklore, yaoguai come from "an imbalance in the Tao" and "any combination of [atypical] powers, including mind control, shapeshifting and the ability to create illusions.(well our boy sure does have an atypical set of powers but if you all want to add on to this I would love to know if you've noticed some instances of these powers happening because I can see how Mk could be using shapeshifting powers but mind control and illusions? I'm not sure if there is any instance of him using those.)

#lego monkie kid #monkie kid #lmk #lmk mk #lmk season 5 #lmk sun wukong #lmk macaque #lmk qi xiaotian #lmk theory #lmk season 5 theory #i think this might be revealed in season 5 #i need more info for this theory #ive connected the dots #you havent connected shit #IVE CONNECTED THE DOTS ISTG #im not crazy am i #i fear my theories are becoming more and more delusional as i wait for season 5

[prudentseer]

I am delusional

Joel: Boat boys? Boat boys are gone guys

Also Joel: Etho's first MCC? YES. I can't wait to absolutely destroy washed up Etho at MCC. Like he's so washed, I'm saying this right now I'm team Gem on this. Etho's washed...he's gonna get-I'm going to kill him everytime I see him, I'm targeting him. I'm just kidding, but he did break my trust in the last life series after we had such a nice time together as Boat Boys and...he just...it wasn't the same.

HE'S STILL NOT OVER IT, HE STILL MISSES ETHO. NO ONE CAN TAKE THIS AWAY FROM ME, BOAT BOYS ISN'T GONE TILL I SAY THEY'RE GONE.

(sobbing noises)

#smalletho #boat boys #i love them your honor #they're so divorced #they deserve to kill each other #murder is a love language #because i said so #i miss them so bad #you have no idea #i have become to delusional for them #i am so desperate for any interaction between these two #i don't care if it's 10 seconds #anything please i beg

[ibenology]

almost 8 years ago, 15 year old me sat crying on the floor of my bedroom after getting my heart broken and utterly destroyed by the blatant queerbaiting from BBC Sherlock, and I am truly trying to not make that happen again. I won’t hope for anything

#happy loki eve #I am building up my walls!!! #not trusting anything!!! #at this point I have to convince myself sylki is happening #so anything else becomes great #loki series #lokius #iben speaks #iben is trying not to be delusional!!!

[rystiel]

just watched the clone high s3 finale if joanfucius breaks up i'm ending it all

#...or if they get blown up. i guess #the little montage of joanfucius moments man stop </3 #bro's willing to go die for her while she's willing to die for someone else lmfaooooo c'mon #here's how joanabe can still lose <3 #gonna chalk her thing with abe up to being remnants of her crush in s1 but she'll choose confucius (i'm being delusional) #she was gonna finish that sentence by saying “i love... being your friend and that's it” for sure hahahah #i refuse to lose my sillyloserboy x indiegothgirl ship #(joanabe is not sillyloserboy x indiegothgirl they're just loserboy x indiegothgirl btw) #on the bright side... kahlopatra is winning #they are so getting back together i can feel it #kahlopatra and joanfucius are legit the only canon ships in the show that i've actually become invested in don't fail me bro #(who am i kidding. this is clone high. they're gonna fail me) #since jfk and harriet are a thing i guess that means no abefk so. let's bring back tophabe. bam. problem solved. everyone's got someone #clone high #joanfucius #clone high confucius #clone high joan

[cottoncandysprite]

Everyone on wwdits twt heard nandor say "you will all forget" in the new promo and turned to me like when the teacher says the next project will be an art project and the entire class looks at the Art Kid

#seeing my nandermo delusion become Common Fanon is so funny honestly #don't think i forgot when everyone called it delusional tho. you hated me bc i spoke the truth #(i am absolutely still delusional but at least i have a reason for it now) #wwdits #nandermo #wwdits season 5 #ramblies

[wasabijean]

who r they looking at. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

#osmosis jones #leah estrogen #ozzyleahdrix #my art #fanart #SOMEONE SHOOT ME #sorry #im delusional over these three... the person i will become.. my fault yall #also i tried clip studio w/ my tablet again after like 4 months umm #tried a different coloring style???? #also if you notice my art style changing every drawing #no you dont #lol #(i am adhdtistic) #clip studio paint #im gonna blend jones into a fine powder and blow the ashes into the city air #okay will be back l8r byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

[milesworld96]

HERES HOW HOOKHAUSEN CAN WIN AND RISE BACK FROM THE DEAD:

THE FIRST PIECE OF EVIDENCE

DANHAUSEN HAD CLAIMED THAT THERE MAY BE A RETURN OF HOOKHAUSEN AT SOME POINT IN THE FUTURE. SO WE CAN ASSURE THAT THEY WILL MAKE A DEFINITE RETURN, (AND HOPEFULLY ITS SOONER THAN I WOULD ASSUME BC I CANT MANAGE LIKE THIS ANYMORE.)

ANYWAYS, BASED OFF OF THIS AND DANHAUSEN CONFIRMING THAT THERE WILL MOST LIKELY BE A RETURN. I WOULD LIKE TO ASSUME THAT DANAHAUSEN WOULD SHOW UP AS A SORT OF BACKUP FOR HOOK IN CASE JUNGLE BOY EVER AMBUSHES HIM. THIS WAS IT CAN SET A FUED BETWEEN THEM, AND I AM SURE OF THIS BASED OFF OF AN INTERACTION DANHAUSEN AND JB HAD ON TWITTER.COM

BASE OFF OF THIS, I SEE THIS AS AN OPENING FOR DANHAUSEN TO COME BACK AND SAVE HOOK FROM JB. DANHAUSEN REACHING OUT TO HOOK ONCE MORE AFTER FORBIDDEN DOOR GIVES A STRONG FEELING THAT THEY WILL BE BROUGHT BACK TOGETHER AAT SOME POINT. WHETHER IT BE A VERY SLOW BURN OR IN THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS, THEY WILL REUNITE. SND THEY WILL GO AFTER JB.

DANHAUSEN WOULD BE IN HOOKS CORNER AS HE DEALS HIS ISSUES WITH JB. AND HE WILL COME OUT VICTORIOUS!!!

ALSO‼️‼️‼️ I WOULD LIKE TO ADD THAT THIS MAY NOT BE THE SAME SILLY LOVERBOYS FROM THEIR FIRST TAGTEAM. AS DANHAUSEN HAS BEEN SENDING CRYPTIC MESSAGES ON BOTH HIS TWITTER AND INSTAGRAM

AS SHOWN HERE

WE ARE, OR AT LEAST I HOPE WE ARE GETTING EVILHAUSEN (I LOVE EVILHAUSEN SO FCUKING MUCH AAAAAA)

BUT SAFE TO SAY, I WOULD LIKE TO PERCEIVE THESE MESSAGES SAYING THAT HE IS COMING BACK AS HIS OFFICIALLY ONCE MORE. MEANING THAT WE WILL BE GETTING A BADASS VERSION OF HOOKHAUSEN☺️☺️☺️ AND I AM HERE FOR IT, THEY MAY STILL BE THE SAME SILLIES BUT DANHAUSEN WILL HOPEFULLY BE MORE OF A BRUTE AND WILL HAVE MORE ACTION RATHER THAN IT JUST BEING HOOK. (IF THAT MAKES SENSE)

BUT I REALLY JUST HOPE THAT HOOKHAUSEN COMES BACK BECAUSE I HAVE GOTTEN TO THE POINT WHERE IT BECAME AN OBSESSION. THEY ARE ALL I HAVE NOW THAT RKBRO IS OVER, AND IS MOST LIKELY NEVER COMING BACK. SO HOOKHAUSEN IS ALL I HAVE TO KEEP ME FROM GOING OFF THE DEEPEND SO I NEED THEM BACK. THESE SILLIES ARE WHAT MAKES MY DAY😫😫😭😭😭😭

Am I delusional for this

#aew #all elite wrestling #send hook #hook aew #hook #hook nation rise #love that danhausen #danhausen #EVILHAUSEN #hookhausen #i am becoming delusional #I AM BEGGING YOU TK GIVE ME HOOKHAUSEN BACK #I ALREADY GOT RKBRO TAKEN FROM ME SO DONT TAKE HOOKHAUSEN AWAY AGAIN AFTER ITS SO CLOSE TO COMING BACK

[nicholasluvbot]

i was just reading my diary entries from august and realized that i was never delusional

#like it was not all in my head #the things i thought were hapoening were actually happening #i am in the friend group i wanted to be in #i am talking to the guy ive been crazy for since the beginning #and all my friend crushes are actually my friends now #like its so crazy #the august me would not believe this #this is your sign to be as delusional as you want cause its going to come true soon #im going to keep fantasizing about my boyfriend nicho till he actually becomes my boyfriend #now yall are directly gonna see me and nicho being exposed by dispatch 😋🤭 #giggles in delulu #i might actually be insane #— ira rambles ⋆

[pepperpixel]

*Twitching facedown on the floor, frothing and foaming at the mouth.*: Ghghghghgh…. Autoheart…. Songs…. So fitting…. For Simon, Betty, Magic Man…. Their sad sad polycule (A/N: their polycule I made up in my mind)….. oh my god. oh my god……

#fOOLISHLY WRONG! Simon singing to betty…. but not rlly… in his head. like. what Simon would think about everything Betty’s done…. gRGG #foolishly wrong is a song btw. #‘lent’ is also bad end petrigrof… like Betty lives but they break up… #I have several diff versions of these guys in my head… 1 where everything is honky dory wish fulfillment #1 where betty lives but like…. petrigrof truly becomes toxic… #have thoughts for betty and magic man… pre betty becoming golb.. #have thoughts for magic man and Simon… post bettys sacrifice…. #I have autoheart songs for that specific scenario too! #’factories’ and ‘Santa fe’. factories is Simon singing and Santa Fe is magic man. #sorry. I reveal I think these 3 should be horrifically and tragically entangled w one another.. romantically. platonically. ANYTHING #finding solace and understanding in one another… #I proceeded to be pelted w tomatoes and booed out of the adventure time fandom #I am probably just delusional I can admit this… I still… am obsessed. sorry lol #pepper words #like I think of these 3 together and I am instantly gnawing on the bars of my enclosure gHg- #lent I actually think is kinda good for all of them…. #god ok NOW I’m gonna go do real life shit… like eat lunch… and research scanners…. #*proceed. not proceeded. sorry… typings hard #Simon x magic man is COMPLETELY FABRICATED IN MY HEAD. I can admit that.. like those 2 I am just delusional #I just think! it’d be neat if they started hanging out after Betty brings back simon…. #I also do rlly like wish fulfillment happy times w these 3… right now I’m listing to autoheart songs tho.. #so uh… yeah. currently thinking about my fucked up sad ideas for them ghgh- #*listening #I also have thoughts about Betty actually getting proper therapy and help and support and giving up on her quest to save simon #or at least. maybe not giving up completely but… not being so tunnel vision obsessed w it… #and her and magic man being platonic life partners… #ok… anyway. bye. now I’m gonna go eat lunch. now that I’ve divulged w u all my stupid fucking adventure time thoughts ghghg- #actually kind of embarrassed talking about Betty x Simon x magic man but gGHGH- #I’m probably gonna draw art for them eventually might as well rip this bandaid off now lol #adventure time

[avoidling]

I have seen a lot of ppl despairing the way Ahsoka seems to be characterized in the new show (nothing like the snarky teenager she was in the clone wars) but the thing about Ahsoka is that the trademark Disney-female-protag-stone-cold-stoicism COULD ACTUALLY WORK ***IF THEY DID IT RIGHT*** (Now they won’t, obviously, but I will explain)

During her Padawan-ship, everybody and their master compares her to Anakin. How she’s become so much like him, in her manner, her brashness, her caution-to-the-wild attitude, how emotional (/attached) she is, etc. And at the time she’s all about this because she looks up to him so much, even though the Jedi warn that these things can lead to darkness.

And Anakin does fall to the darkness (due to some extenuating circumstances + untreated mental illness, but Ahsoka doesn’t know that.) Those characteristics are no longer the endearing quirks of her maverick older brother—from her perspective, they are the seeds of darkness that her future self told her about on Mortis so long ago.

So when she finds out how far Anakin has fallen, it would be natural for this to change her perspective on herself too. She wanted to be just like him as a little kid—now she wants to be as far from him as possible. So she essentially decides that she needs to shut down those parts of herself that are most like him—the spunk, the impulsiveness, the wearing of her emotions on her sleeve—in an attempt to distance herself from him. To reassure herself that she is not, despite what everyone said, like him, and therefore will not *become* him.

From this perspective, her subdued, jaded air from the Mando and Ahsoka series are perfectly in character. It is the kind, selfless, Jedi thing to do, if you believe that your personality type / way of being is at fault for such a catastrophe.

Is this what I think Dave Felony is trying to do? Absolutely not!! I am not confident that Star Wars is capable of any sort of emotional subtlety. But this cold untouchable stoicism of hers being a mask, a trauma response to finding out that your childhood idol has ruined the galaxy, makes perfect sense—Ahsoka feels like her own true nature, the one we saw in the Clone Wars, is too dangerous to continue existing.

She is terrified of herself, because she is terrified of what Anakin became.

#star wars #ahsoka trailer #ahsoka show #ahsoka tano #anakin skywalker #darth vader #the clone wars #i don’t know if this makes sense #but if I were trying to decide who Ahsoka would be in the wake of Anakin’s betrayal #she would be exactly how she seems to be portrayed in this show #it would be awesome to see Star Wars deal with the depth of trauma that makes you feel like you cannot continue existing as yourself #bc it’s bad and deep and hard to heal #and this is a franchise that deals so heavily in questions of fate and what it means to choose who you are and will become #unfortunately they will not! I’m not that delusional #but I am a little delusional #so I love Star Wars

[foolishnpd]

getting called out for my behavior is the worst. criticism is just an instant mood drop like no other

#lilyroaring #npd #actually narcissistic #cluster b vent #rejection sensitive dysphoria #narcissistic personality disorder #un-fucking-fortunately #i am not delusional enough to just ignore it #as much as i want to think it's all wrong and i'm above it and i'm perfect and FUCK THAT i don't have to care!!!! #the rational part of me knows it's right #and i would be the bigger person if i just accepted it humbly #and didn't become a giant piss baby about it #i can be Normal about criticism i prommy #(i wanna die) #worst part is when the criticism is fully true and i can't ignore it on the premise of not being a real issue 💀 #like damn i actually gotta fix this shit #can i just kill myself and/or everyone else instead about it

[mazojo]

There’s no better feeling of determination than consuming any sort of media and guessing what the follow up line to a conversation will be

#yall don’t understand the SEROTONIN that fills me every time I feel like the mastermind fr #me watching Sherlock and guessing he was gonna say “’you miss it’ in regards to John and the war #only for him to say it a beat after the way I had to pause the episode because my mind is SO massive #I am so smart (literally guessed a generic line on a show) this happens on the daily (only like 2 times) they should hire me (delusional) #anyway chile I started Sherlock might become obsessed ! #Sherlock #bbc sherlock #random

[mynonclicheblog]

Besides the general incredulousness, I have no other reaction than to laugh my ass off when people say things like 'st*ddie makes way more sense than stancy' LIKREOKWRFLFAEIGSKFSD I CAN'T EVEN TYPE IT WITH A STRAIGHT FACE LMAO HOW DO THEY DO IT

one is a lovers-to-exes-to-rekindled flames narration with a storyline linked to the show's themes of trauma exploration, and the other is two dudes who spoke to each other a handful of times

#stancy #does anyone else find this as actually hilarious as i do fiwejfjrgsdf #like i am stifling my cackles rn #father forgive me for i have become someone who throws shade on the internet... but at least i stay in my tag #and. again. people should ship what they want. but it's the being delusional about it for me

[ibenology]

now we all thought Loki’s “it’s harder to stay” was only about him BUT WHAT IF IT’S ABOUT MOBIUS LEAVING HIS TIMELINE AS WELL

#i am becoming quite delusional #like I know they will never happen #and still I have hope #loki #loki series #loki spoilers #lokius #loki x mobius #mobius m mobius

[hyuckmov]

JING please do something i am begging

…... haechan i am not your strongest soldier

#does he want me to become even more delusional than i already am? because he really doesn’t have to try so hard…. #he’s so sick…. it’s not even afternoon yet….. #thinking about fiancé haechan so hard rn 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 #I MIGHT JUST DO SOMETHING 😭😭😭😭 #asks #atzclip #and also why is he so fucking hot what was he doing looking like that