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Canon Sirius through quotes

Part 4. How Sirius shows care towards people and animals.

Sirius has a trait that often seems like irresponsibility or excessive harshness.

Sirius really respects another person's free will and choice and even treats teenagers as adults with their own minds. It's a deeply rooted idea of respecting others as agents of free will.

That's why he has no pity for those who make mistakes, including himself. To him, any mistake is always a person's free choice. Sirius will never forgive Peter because, regardless of Peter's circumstances for betrayal, it ultimately was a CHOICE. He even refuses to forgive the Ministry (as if the Ministry cares, oh Sirius):

‘Don’t worry about Percy,’ said Sirius abruptly. ‘He’ll come round. It’s only a matter of time before Voldemort moves into the open; once he does, the whole Ministry’s going to be begging us to forgive them. And I’m not sure I’ll be accepting their apology,’ he added bitterly.

He tells this to Molly after she encounters a boggart. Contrary to popular belief, in this scene, he doesn't really comfort her after their argument. Lupin does most of the work. Sirius just adds this phrase. He's still angry at Molly for what she said, just acting more maturely and not escalating the conflict further. He's angry because he understands Molly said exactly what she meant. Molly is also angry at him, they generally love to get angry at each other because they don't really understand each other.

They were both speaking in carefully light, polite voices that told Harry quite plainly that neither had forgotten their disagreement of the night before.

He even considers Kreacher an agent of free will.

‘You’d be surprised what Kreacher can manage when he wants to, Hermione,’ said Sirius.

As they say - where there's a will, there's a way. When people say that Kreacher was lower in the hierarchy than Sirius (as any house-elf would be), Sirius himself did not see it that way, and it’s truly paradoxical. He argued with Kreacher, kicked him, engaged in verbal battles, though he could have just given direct orders. Kreacher's insults towards Sirius were similar in style to Walburga's (otherwise, where would Kreacher learn those insults?), and Sirius... Sirius, instead of direct orders, just yells back or kicks him. When Harry gives Kreacher a direct order to shut up, Kreacher obeys instantly. A house-elf must obey the direct orders of their master. But Sirius doesn't give direct orders. Because for him, Kreacher is also an agent of free will (and also some ‘‘member‘‘ of his beloved and hated family, as Sirius is much more attached to the Blacks than he would like to admit).

Because of his attitude towards equals, Sirius fights for Harry to get the information he needs. For Sirius, Harry is an adult, not a five-year-old child who needs to be looked after in the style of Molly. Molly deprives Harry of his agency, his choice, and his own opinion with her overprotection. We have to understand Molly; she really worries for all of them, as half her family is in the Order and can die. She doesn't want to lose Harry, so she tries to protect him in every way. Plus, they all have orders from Dumbledore. Isn't Molly right? Molly has her point, she works for the Order and thinks Sirius could harm with his too "independent" behaviour, and teach Harry this excessive independence. And what does independence from Dumbledore lead to? Molly knows well (and so does Sirius) – last time such "independence" from Dumbledore cost the Potters their lives. I don't want to judge Molly. She's a member of the newer incarnation of the Order of the Phoenix, and a good one at that. Sirius, however, is still mentally in the era of the Order's original incarnation (as is Lupin, though he is more conforming and softer), a time when the rules of engagement were harsher, with much more focus on the grim realities of war. The newer version of the Order operates with different tactics – emphasizing manipulation, cunning, and caution.

Molly and Sirius have different approaches. Molly is about caution. Sirius is about action.

Sirius treats Harry as a subject, not an object to be shielded from information.

Sirius knows where his area of responsibility is and what he can influence, and where he should not interfere:

‘Not just yet, Molly,’ said Sirius, pushing away his empty plate and turning to look at Harry. ‘You know, I’m surprised at you. I thought the first thing you’d do when you got here would be to start asking questions about Voldemort.’

‘I did!’ said Harry indignantly. ‘I asked Ron and Hermione but they said we’re not allowed in the Order, so –’

‘And they’re quite right,’ said Mrs Weasley. ‘You’re too young.’

‘Since when did someone have to be in the Order of the Phoenix to ask questions?’ asked Sirius. ‘Harry’s been trapped in that Muggle house for a month. He’s got the right to know what’s been happen—’

‘How come Harry gets his questions answered?’ said Fred angrily. ‘We’ve been trying to get stuff out of you for a month and you haven’t told us a single stinking thing!’ said George.

‘It’s not my fault you haven’t been told what the Order’s doing,’ said Sirius calmly, ‘that’s your parents’ decision. Harry, on the other hand –’

He doesn't tell the twins anything because it's not his responsibility. But Harry – that's his responsibility. And Sirius believes it's up to him to decide what Harry is allowed to know and what not (considering Dumbledore's instructions "I don’t intend to tell him more than he needs to know, Molly").

‘He’s not your son,’ said Sirius quietly.

‘He’s as good as,’ said Mrs Weasley fiercely. ‘Who else has he got?’

‘He’s got me!’

In the situation with Molly, you see two opposing views clash. Molly, with the archetype of a guardian, wants to shelter everyone with her care. Sirius, with the archetype of a rebel, respects Harry's wishes and wants to open up new knowledge and opportunities for him to fight.

‘He’s not a member of the Order of the Phoenix!’ said Mrs Weasley. ‘He’s only fifteen and –’

‘And he’s dealt with as much as most in the Order,’ said Sirius, ‘and more than some.’

‘No one’s denying what he’s done!’ said Mrs Weasley, her voice rising, her fists trembling on the arms of her chair. ‘But he’s still –’

‘He’s not a child!’ said Sirius impatiently.

Sirius probably stopped considering himself a child very early on. Maybe it came from his conservative family, where children were expected to grow up earlier, not walk around as "little children" until they were 18. They think about marriage, duty to the family, responsibility early on. Plus, wizards come of age earlier – at 17. So, for Sirius, 15 years old is not a child anymore.

That's why Sirius defends Harry's right "to know".

‘But as he was the one who saw Voldemort come back’ (again, there was a collective shudder around the table at the name) ‘he has more right than most to –’

Sirius really encourages taking action. His way of caring isn't about coddling. It's about giving knowledge, opportunities, resources, and supporting in the right direction. For Sirius, to live is to act; he can't be without action, doesn't understand life without it:

‘Personally, I’d have welcomed a Dementor attack. A deadly struggle for my soul would have broken the monotony nicely. You think you’ve had it bad, at least you’ve been able to get out and about, stretch your legs, get into a few fights ... I’ve been stuck inside for a month.’

Sirius can't not act and he doesn't understand how you could do otherwise. He knows Harry is the same because Harry is like his dad, meaning James was the same – always acting.

And he encourages this in Harry. But he always teaches to act with thought, not just charging in. In the 4th book, Sirius was telling Harry not to stick his neck out, but in the 5th, it's the opposite. Sirius has his own logic, which he shows here:

‘So, you want me to say I’m not going to take part in the Defence group?’ he muttered finally.

‘Me? Certainly not!’ said Sirius, looking surprised. ‘I think it’s an excellent idea!’

‘You do?’ said Harry, his heart lifting.

‘Of course I do!’ said Sirius. ‘D’you think your father and I would’ve lain down and taken orders from an old hag like Umbridge?’

‘But – last term all you did was tell me to be careful and not take risks –’

‘Last year, all the evidence was that someone inside Hogwarts was trying to kill you, Harry!’ said Sirius impatiently. ‘This year, we know there’s someone outside Hogwarts who’d like to kill us all, so I think learning to defend yourselves properly is a very good idea!’

‘And if we do get expelled?’ Hermione asked, a quizzical look on her face.

‘Well, better expelled and able to defend yourselves than sitting safely in school without a clue,’ said Sirius.

That's Sirius through and through. A true Gryffindor, who won't just sit around when there's danger afoot. You might argue that he shouldn't have encouraged Harry in this way. But what else was he to do? Hand Harry over to Umbridge? Of course not. He trusts Harry, believes in his potential. He treats Harry as an equal, not as a child, and that's why Harry feels so connected to Sirius – at last, someone sees him as mature enough, respects him as a free person. Throughout the series, Harry has been shielded from the truth, kept in the dark, yet Sirius shows him a different kind of respect – he sees Harry as someone who can act, in whom he places his trust and belief. Is Sirius right? When it comes to Harry – absolutely. As for the war, the Order, and following Dumbledore's orders – Molly would definitely disapprove.

He even passes Molly's words on to Ron. In his sarcastic manner, but still:

… anyway ... first of all, Ron – I’ve sworn to pass on a message from your mother.’

‘Oh yeah?’ said Ron, sounding apprehensive.

‘She says on no account whatsoever are you to take part in an illegal secret Defence Against the Dark Arts group. She says you’ll be expelled for sure and your future will be ruined. She says there will be plenty of time to learn how to defend yourself later and that you are too young to be worrying about that right now. She also’ (Sirius’s eyes turned to the other two) ‘advises Harry and Hermione not to proceed with the group, though she accepts that she has no authority over either of them and simply begs them to remember that she has their best interests at heart. She would have written all this to you, but if the owl had been intercepted you’d all have been in real trouble, and she can’t say it for herself because she’s on duty tonight.’

Again – a striking difference between what Molly understands by care and what Sirius understands by it.

Sirius lets Harry feel that he's believed in, respected, that his actions are encouraged. Sometimes Sirius criticises them, because as much as he encourages action, he believes all actions should be reasoned. Act according to logic, not thoughtlessly.

For instance, Sirius sternly reprimands him in the 4th book when Harry, in his opinion, does something foolish. And notice his communication style. Sirius is often blunt in conversation, in his way of talking, he doesn't sugarcoat. And Harry's okay with that. Sirius isn't one for mushiness.

Harry – what do you think you are playing at, walking off into the Forest with Viktor Krum? I want you to swear, by return owl, that you are not going to go walking with anyone else at night. There is somebody highly dangerous at Hogwarts. It is clear to me that they wanted to stop Crouch seeing Dumbledore and you were probably feet away from them in the dark. You could have been killed.

Your name didn’t get into the Goblet of Fire by accident. If someone’s trying to attack you, they’re on their last chance. Stay close to Ron and Hermione, do not leave Gryffindor Tower after hours, and arm yourself for the third task. Practise Stunning and Disarming. A few hexes wouldn’t go amiss either. There’s nothing you can do about Crouch. Keep your head down and look after yourself. I’m waiting for your letter giving me your word you won’t stray out of bounds again.

That's what care means to Sirius. Not forbidding him from knowing information. But actively helping him so Harry is ready to stand up to challenges.

Or like this:

‘Now, listen ...’ he looked particularly hard at Harry – ‘I don’t want you lot sneaking out of school to see me, all right? Just send notes to me here. I still want to hear about anything odd. But you’re not to go leaving Hogwarts without permission, it would be an ideal opportunity for someone to attack you.’

‘No one’s tried to attack me so far, except a dragon and a couple of Grindylows,’ Harry said.

But Sirius scowled at him. ‘I don’t care ... I’ll breathe freely again when this Tournament’s over, and that’s not until June. And don’t forget, if you’re talking about me among yourselves, call me Snuffles, OK?’

At the same time, he provides Harry with emotional support. Just without the mushiness. There's a sort of rough tenderness about it, making these signs of attention and love seem even more important and pleasant.

‘What’re you doing here, Sirius?’ he said.

‘Fulfilling my duty as godfather,’ said Sirius, gnawing on the chicken bone in a very dog-like way. ‘Don’t worry about me, I’m pretending to be a loveable stray.’

The post owls appeared, bringing Harry a good-luck card from Sirius. It was only a piece of parchment, folded over and bearing a muddy paw print on its front, but Harry appreciated it all the same.

He also provides Harry with real resources that can help him:

‘I want you to take this,’ he said quietly, thrusting a badly wrapped package roughly the size of a paperback book into Harry’s hands.

‘What is it?’ Harry asked.

‘A way of letting me know if Snape’s giving you a hard time. No, don’t open it in here!’ said Sirius, with a wary look at Mrs Weasley, who was trying to persuade the twins to wear hand-knitted mittens. ‘I doubt Molly would approve – but I want you to use it if you need me, all right?’

‘Sirius’s knife,’ he said. ‘Excuse me?’ ‘Christmas before last Sirius gave me a knife that’ll open any lock,’ said Harry. ‘So even if she’s bewitched the door so Alohomora won’t work, which I bet she has –’

Sirius isn't inclined to pity. He respects the choices of others. His care is expressed in this – he knows people's strengths and trusts them to do their job. He thinks Hagrid will be okay because Hagrid is tough. Why worry?

‘Listen, don’t go asking too many questions about Hagrid,’ said Sirius hastily, ‘it’ll just draw even more attention to the fact that he’s not back and I know Dumbledore doesn’t want that. Hagrid’s tough, he’ll be OK.’

And he respects the choice of the twins' father, though many find Sirius's words harsh:

‘We don’t care about the dumb Order!’ shouted Fred.

‘It’s our dad dying we’re talking about!’ yelled George.

‘Your father knew what he was getting into and he won’t thank you for messing things up for the Order!’ said Sirius, equally angry. ‘This is how it is – this is why you’re not in the Order – you don’t understand – there are things worth dying for!’

But it's not cruelty or indifference, it's respect for their father's choice, as an agent of free will.

Sirius even treats animals this way. Look how he got on with the cat. And yet he understands that animals are defenceless and need support. He doesn't expect danger from them and often finds comfort in their company.

‘This cat isn’t mad,’ said Black hoarsely. He reached out a bony hand and stroked Crookshanks’s fluffy head. ‘He’s the most intelligent of his kind I’ve ever met. He recognised Peter for what he was straight away. And when he met me, he knew I was no dog. It was a while before he trusted me. Finally, I managed to communicate to him what I was after, and he’s been helping me ...’

Kreacher injured Buckbeak the Hippogriff yesterday, and, at the moment when you made your appearance in the fire, Sirius was upstairs tending to him.’

Crookshanks, Hermione’s bandy-legged ginger cat, who wound himself once around Harry’s legs, purring, then jumped on to Sirius’s lap and curled up. Sirius scratched him absent-mindedly behind the ears as he turned, still grim-faced, to Harry.

Sirius, who had just entered the room carrying a bloodstained bag of what appeared to be dead rats. ‘I’ve just been feeding Buckbeak,’ he added, in reply to Harry’s enquiring look. ‘I keep him upstairs in my mother’s bedroom

Soon, however, he was moodier and surlier than before, talking less to everybody, even Harry, and spending increasing amounts of time shut up in his mother’s room with Buckbeak.

He became more and more prone to what Mrs Weasley called ‘fits of the sullens’, in which he would become taciturn and grumpy, often withdrawing to Buckbeak’s room for hours at a time.

Sirius befriended the cat, treated it as an intelligent being, and constantly cared for the hippogriff. Sirius is very closed off from people (after Azkaban, he only opens up to Harry and Remus), he builds a tough armour, but easily opens up to animals and easily cares for them in a nurturing manner – and they love him back.

In conclusion, Sirius respects the free choice of others. For him, pity towards another is demeaning. Sirius hates pity – neither for himself nor for others. To pity = to demean, to pity means to acknowledge the other as incapable and weak. And Sirius doesn't meddle in others' relationships, he well separates his zone of responsibility, and care for him is to give resources and information so the person can act. And he's good with animals, and to animals, he can show a different attitude – nurturing, because acknowledging animals as weaker doesn't demean them, because animals truly are weaker.

This character trait of Sirius isn't for moral judgement, just that's how he is, and it's important to understand that.

#sirius black #the marauders #sirius black meta #the marauders meta #hp meta #sirius and harry

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exhuastedpigeon · 2 months

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Buddie Hiatus Fic Rec - Month 8 Nov 16 - Dec 15

Previous lists under the cut at the bottom

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merle said mama tried, but the prison still won by oklahoma / @sunshinediaz Teen | 2.9k Eddie goes to (mall) jail.

do you love me? all you gotta do is say yes by fleetinghearts / @shitouttabuck Teen | 3.1k two boy best friends and an ex lover walk into a grocery store. everyone is on their normalest behaviour.

drawstrings by browney3dgirl6 / @hoodie-buck Mature | 3.7k Eddie helps Buck fix his drawstrings. How was he supposed to know it’d lead to him sitting in Bucks lap?

Here Comes the Jackpot Question In Advance by lamardeuse / @lamardeuse Teen | 4.1k Buck is determined to start the new year right.

5k-10k

I'm still standing in the same place where you left me standing by trysetmeonfire / @try-set-me-on-fire Teen | 8.3k Bobby deals with the ramifications of a misplaced confession

10k-20k

Don't Push Me So Far Away I Can't Reach You by giselleslash. / @gigi-gigi Mature | 12k the one where Buck thinks he and Eddie are just friends with benefits so he pushes Eddie to date other people because he’s an idiot.

give it to someone special by rainbow_nerds / @rainbow-nerdss Mature | 12.3k Buck and Eddie meet at the airport after their respective girlfriends live their Hallmark movie dreams and dump them right before Christmas.

into thirty separate parts by hammersmiths / @henswilsons Teen | 12.6k Taylor’s book comes out.

sang to the sea for feelings deep blue by Tizniz / @tizniz General audiences | 14k The 118 responds to a cruise ship emergency.

20k - 30k

say (don't) go by bccalling / @fiona-fififi Teen | 20.4k Eddie starts dropping hints he wants more kids. Buck assumes he means with Marisol. Buck spirals about it. Eddie does not mean with Marisol.

deck the halls (and your in-laws) by oklahoma / @sunshinediaz Mature | 29.6k Eddie and Buck, recently married and moved into their new house, have the (dis)pleasure of unexpectedly hosting their parents through the holiday season. It’s not what either of them want or need, but they can get through it because they’re in this together. Right?

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Facets of a Diamond by countrygirlsfun / @acountrygirlsfun Teen | 35.1k Southern California is where Buck has spent the most time since leaving Pennsylvania. Of all the places he’s lived and worked over the last few years, this place is where he decided to stay. It’s why he picked LAFD: to put down some roots. It’s warm, has the ocean, and it’s the opposite coast of his parents. So if he’s going to be here for a while, he thinks he’ll need to make an effort to let people in.

Sweet Nothing by LongConvolutedSimiles Teen | 37.8k Buck and Eddie go on dates, fall in love and get together. Yes in that order.

Maybe More Than I Should by Leslie_Knope Mature | 51.5k Eddie caught sight of the man leaning against the side of his desk and immediately wanted to retreat to the relative safety of the hallway, back in time when he lived happily not knowing that Mr. Buckley was apparently some kind of male model masquerading as a third-grade teacher.

it walks with my legs (to fall at your feet) by Underhung_Aura / @eddiebabygirldiaz Explicit | 61.8k a buddie summer sons au where buck and eddie get caught up in something bigger than themselves and awaken a power that haunts them for the rest of their lives; however, the unspoken truths and love between them haunts them more than any ghost ever could.

a blaze in the dark by woodchoc_magnum / @woodchoc-magnum Explicit | 117k Set post-Season 6, where Buck has inadvertently sacrificed his friendship with Eddie in order to focus on his new relationship with Natalia, and is shocked when Eddie comes out to the team and subsequently reveals that he is dating a guy.

All My Shattered Oaths by letmetellyouaboutmyfeels / @letmetellyouaboutmyfeels Explicit | 120k Eddie wants to stay away from his family’s legacy and give his son a normal life. Buck’s desperate to find a way to get over the love he lost. Fate has other plans for both of them.

Month 1 (May 15 - June 15) Month 2 (June 16 - July 15) Month 3 (July 16 - August 15) Month 4 (August 16 - September 15) Month 5 (September 16 - October 15) Month 6 (October 16 - November 15) Month 7 (November 16 - December 15)

#buddie #rec list #buddie rec list #911 #only a couple more lists to go #AND ONLY FOUR MORE SLEEPS UNTIL THE SEASON PREMIER

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karasucatt · 7 days

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HELLO! Big fan of your Lion Narinder. Any lion behaviour to expect from him? Love your artstyle. What species of Lamb is yours? How do you depict the Lamb, the way you play them, or your idea for fanart? Do you have any outfits reference for those two? Will Narinder ever grow out his mane again? How does the modern AU of them pan out? Does Narinder get released from his chains? What are their favourite weapons and curses? Does Narinder have any side effect from being chained? I got inspired to make one of my Narinders a lion because of you as well, after @bluecheems lion Narinder.

Have a good month come to you and eat your meals regularly.

YES YES THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO RANT WITH SO MANY QUESTIONS

Any lion behaviour to expect from him?

Once Nari starts getting comfy he will nuzzle the Lamb a lot more, both in greeting but also in an affectionate way. He also roars on occasion!! Mainly on missions or when the Lamb takes him on Crusades and they loose him lol. He’ll groom the Lamb as well, commenting about how dirty they get during crusades and that he could spend his time doing something more productive(The Lamb knows he’s just being difficult. Every time they return Naris waiting to clean them up before they show themselves fully to the cult)

What species of Lamb is yours? How do you depict the Lamb, the way you play them, or your idea for fanart?

The closest I can get to answering the first question is actually a goat! The way I draw my lamb is heavily inspired by the Dreamurr family(specifically Asriel) so really they’re more like a goat with fluffy hair lol. As for how I depict them, well I love me a good codependent relationship turned two assholes learning how to heal.

My lamb sees themselves as the faithful servant to TOWW at first so they don’t speak(unless it’s to Nojular to announce to the others or during sermons), keep their wool short, and focus only on crusades and keeping the cult stable. It’s once they defeat Kallamar that they start opening up. The crown speaking to them gave them a new boost of confidence(and a tad bit of inanity) so they began speaking more, directing the cult, and focusing on their relationship with their followers more then crusading. With the indoctrination of the cults brand new Therapist(No one asked Focalor to do it they just took up the job themselves), the Lamb was able to work through a lot of their issues.

Now with Nari in the cult, they’ve started their ascension into godhood. This takes a big toll on their mental state, causing more murder episodes and mood swings. Nari knows how bad the ascension process can fuck someone up so he’s helping where he can. The Lamb appreciates it a lot.

Will Narinder ever grow out his mane again?

Nari actually likes it short!! The Lamb asks him this same question all the time and Narinder always says he likes it short. Though he does grow out parts just so the Lamb can braid and decorate it.

How does the modern AU of them pan out? Does Narinder get released from his chains?

I have comics and things planned for the Modern AU so stay tuned for those!! I can say that Nari does get released from his chains by the Lamb on accident. Now he has to learn how to live among mortals and the Lamb is marching straight to their Professor to try and learn more about the formerly sealed god.

What are their favourite weapons and curses?

I generally don’t use curses actually!! I prefer things with high speed and high damage so my best answer is that I like Swords!(I despise guns and hammers they so slow for my lambs nimble ass)

Does Narinder have any side effect from being chained?

He has PTSD from the imprisoning battle and gets the phantom feeling of chains on his wrists from time to time. While he likes his alone time he’ll actually cling to the Lamb once he’s spent more time in the cult. He’s terrified of being alone even if he won’t admit it.

Thank you so so soooo much for this long ask I really wanted to info dump lol! I do have my own outfit designs for them and I’ll leave them below(the Lamb is based off of when they first save Leshy from purgatory. The more recent design you see is based off of when all four bishops have been saved. I’ll make a proper reference for it one day lol)

#cotl #cult of the lamb #cult of the lamb fanart #cotl lamb #cult of the lamb lamb #the lamb #cotl narinder #cult of the lamb narinder #Narinder #catt talks #catt answers #ask #art

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pinkslashersimp · 2 years

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fuck it, yandere jason

TW: Yandere behaviour (such as kidnapping, controlling behaviour, false imprisonment, stalking), murder, not proof read i’m very tired

if any of these apply to you please scroll and take care of yourself 🤍

Yandere!Jason Voorhees Headcanons💗🌷

Jason is a much more softer and caring yandere compared to the other slashers

He’ll give you much more freedom than they will once you’ve gained his trust, letting you roam the camp grounds and chill in any cabin of your choice

You do, of course, have to gain quite a lot of his trust first

Doesn’t matter if you’re a boy, girl, neither. If you look or act like his mom, you’re doomed.

When you unknowingly walk past him for the first time hes completely awestruck

Like, totally and completely pulled away from what he was doing so he can focus all his attention on you.

He stands there, weapon in hand, hiding behind a few close ranged trees staring straight at you, his chest heavily yet quickly rising and falling as he carefully observes you

It’ll take him a few days to actually kidnap you, he still has to lay out traps and map out exactly how he’s going to kill your friends and the other counsellors

In those days he spends most of his time stalking you, trying to figure out your daily schedule

he also just really likes looking at you

When the time finally comes, he watches you until you finally retreat to your room, so you’ll be far away enough to be unaware of your friends screams

And then he kills them all.

He makes sure to drag their corpses far away from the cabin youre in, he doesn’t want you being witness to the horrors he commits, nor does he want to risk scarring and potentially breaking you

especially not when hes gonna carry you all the way to his own cabin, he doesn’t want you to be extra terrified of him and fighting him twice as hard

Jason understands he isn’t like, the most approachable man in the world. He has horror stories after him, and he just murdered all your friends. He understands your fear, but it hurts him a lot and he would never want you to believe that he’d hurt you

He also doesn’t want to have to run after you, that could risk you running on bear traps or hurting yourself in some other way.

He comes up with a plan,

Jason wants to trick you, so he doesn’t scare you too much by just barging straight in. He knocks on the front door of your cabin, then silently makes his way to the back door and breaks in as quietly as he can whilst you’re trying to figure out why nobody was there when you answered.

He swiftly comes up behind you and lifts you up in his arms, carrying you as if you weigh absolutely nothing over his shoulder. ignoring your screams and punches against his back

He almost throws you into his makeshift bed, even though he meant to gently put you down.

The poor man doesn’t know his own strength

Then, using one hand, he grabs into your arm to secure you in place, and motions “ssshh!!” with the other

if u don’t shut up he sits you on his lap and covers your mouth until you do, being careful to leave your nostrils out and room to breathe. Occasionally petting your hair to try and calm you

when you’ve calmed down enough his grip on ur arm loosens and he uses his free hand to run his fingers through your hair and stare at you, intensely and silently.

also breathing heavily because hes nervous and because it’s like seeing his mother again

hes so taken aback that he has someone else he cares so strongly for

he doesn’t want you getting out until he’s cleared the corpses away, no way would he risk you running into that during an escape attempt when it took so long to calm you down

he leaves u tied up to the beds headrest so you can’t leave whilst hes clearing away his mess, ensuring the restraints aren’t too tight but are tight enough to keep you in place

IF you actually manage to get away you’d end up hurt, there are bear traps closely scattered all throughout the grounds that have been hidden well.

Not to mention you’d make a lot of noise, running on leaves and crying

Which means he finds you in less than a minute and lifts you up again

his grip is tighter, not because he’s angry with you, but because hes frustrated that you aren’t being as easy as he thought you would be

ties you up much tighter and works almost two times faster now because hes paranoid about you getting out again and getting yourself hurt

unties you when he gets back and sits in front of you, grabbing you when you try to get up or attack him, and placing you right back where you were

he doesn’t want you to be afraid so he gives you that little freedom at first

spends the first night sitting in front of you, trying to sign that hes a “friend” or “harmless”

after an hour he pats his stomach and makes a sign that suggests “hungry?”, when u say nothing he does it again but tilts his head

still nothing? well the fruit cereal bar he stole is in front of you just in case you change your mind:)

if he isn’t trying to communicate with you, he’s sat staring at you, breathing deeply and loudly

It’s very, very creepy

it’s an uncomfortable first night.

Jason wants you to adapt to life with him pretty quickly, so when you’re sleeping he gently ties both of your wrists together and ties that to the headrest, being careful not to wake you, before heading to your previous bedroom and gathering your belongings

clothing, books, rings, deodorant, posters, tapes, etc

he gathers them and brings them back to you, untying you and presenting them beside you in a neat little pile

please be grateful

please

for the first week he lets you sleep by yourself, he refuses to touch you without consent or make you uncomfortable

the only downside is he watches you the whole time to make sure you aren’t going to run away

Then, when you’re settled enough, he’ll sleep beside you

doesn’t spoon you until you’re asleep so he lays on his back completely still for the most part

likes to take you on walks

holding ur hand a little tighter than he probably should

roams with you until it gets dark, then he lifts you up bridal style and carries u home

He enjoys carrying you because he believes you’re safer in his arms, plus you won’t be injured by the bear traps

#slasher headcanons #slashers #yandere slashers #jason voorhees #jason voorhees headcanons #jason voorhees fic #yandere jason voorhees #jason voorhees x you #jason voorhees x reader #jason voorhees fanfic #yandere slasher headcanons #yandere slasher x reader #friday the thirteenth #friday the 13th #yandere jason voorhees headcanons #yandere slashers headcanons #friday the 13th headcanons

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gravity-barbie · 2 years

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Breaking up with The Sparrows HCs

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Masterlist

Umbrella version

Marcus Hargreeves

-Being with Marcus can feel so fulfilling when you have his attention, unfortunately you often feel like you’re an afterthought to him

-You try to respect his work but can easily get in arguments with him about it, where he dismisses your concerns because ‘he’s saving people’ and you snap and demean the sparrow academy as nothing more than a shallow brand

-Attacking the sparrow academy gets under his skin but he is good at keeping his cool, he’s most likely to fire back with passive aggressive condescension

-Later Marcus tries to make amends with unconvincing promises to try harder at a work-life balance but you can only hear that after so many fights before you stop believing him, so eventually you’re forced to draw a line, and call it quits

-He really struggles to process the break up, convinced he can still win you back with kind words or a grand gesture, and it takes a while for his denial to snap

-When the weight of the separation does sink in, he tries to carry on with business as usual but it’s pretty clear he’s off his game, he can’t focus and he’s doubting his life choices more than ever before

Ben Hargreeves

-Your relationship with Ben can feel like it’s on the rocks more often than not, even on your happiest days together he’s still very guarded and preoccupied with his ambitions, so part of you sees this coming

-Ben on the other hand is completely blindsided when you tell him you want to break up, your reasoning being that you struggle to connect with him and find his more sinister behaviour troubling even though it’s never directed at you

-He gets defensive upon hearing this, he feels wounded and desperate on the inside but he can’t own up to that and instead bitterly shuts you out

-After a couple of days where he’s too angry to acknowledge the loss and regret he feels, it finally catches up to him and he completely deflates, being uncharacteristically unproductive, just drinking and lounging around all day

-You get more than one drunk voicemail in this time where he’s being more vulnerable and loving than he ever was while you were dating him

-His sober self doesn’t muster the motivation (or perhaps humility) easily, but eventually he decides he needs to get you back, swallows his pride and bares his soul to you, he’ll actually be shocked and confused if that doesn’t work, but he won’t give up

Fei Hargreeves

-Fei is so open and loving with you that sometimes you forget how cold she can be, and it startles you every time you see glimpses of it when she interacts with certain siblings or really focuses on her sparrow responsibilities

-Her loyalty to the sparrows has always been an issue, but more in Fei’s mind than anywhere else, she feels like the person she needs to be at the academy and the person she needs to be with you are incompatible, and when that line blurs your relationship is kind of on thin ice

-Suffice to say she’s not entirely surprised when you start emotionally detaching from her the way she often does to you, she is however shell-shocked when you go a step further and break up with her

-She tries to stay calm and talk you out of this decision as practically as possible, however her frequent lack of feelings is one of the reasons you’re doing this so her tactic doesn’t really work out

-It surprisingly doesn’t take long for her emotions to set in though and she’s actually willing to flake out on some of her responsibilities while she’s grieving your relationship, which is for the best because whenever she tries to complete her usual tasks, she is not up to her usual level of competence

-She really examines the reasons you gave for breaking up with her, and if you two end up getting back together you will notice a change, if you don’t though she isn’t going to be very motivated to seek self-improvement and will only double down on her more serious and ruthless side

Alphonso Hargreeves

-Alphonso could easily imagine why someone would break up with him, he can be way too rude, he gets in fights with strangers a lot, and his ties to the sparrow academy creates all sorts of problems, but your relationship feels different, it feels indestructible

-But your relationship is only about as ‘indestructible’ as he is, the damage eventually adds up until you can’t handle it anymore

-He is incredibly immature when you break up with him, he jumps straight to being defensive, petty and argumentative, partially because he’d feel better if you two just fight, rather than being left alone with his emotions

-He doesn’t completely run away from his sadness, sure he tries to stay out and active so as to not drown in it, but Jayme has still suffered through hours of him venting

-As much as he resents you for the pain he’s in, he really misses your company so if you ever want to try being just friends, he’ll settle for a platonic relationship with you over no relationship with you

Sloane Hargreeves

-Breaking up with Sloane is not a decision you come to easily, in fact it’s one of the hardest things you’ll ever do, because you’re not doing it as a result of anything wrong with her or really anything she did, it’s her circumstances, the fact that she can’t untie herself from the sparrow academy

-Not that you could possibly be as upset as she is, this is near unbearable to her, any guilt you feel is quadrupled when you look into her teary, doe-eyes as she begs you for compromises

-Obviously she’s completely and utterly heartbroken, she just cries for a solid few hours, and even when she calms down she’s still alarmingly gloomy

-She can actually slip into a more bitter mindset occasionally, yes she loves and misses you, but she’s also so angry at you for throwing everything you had away and has some resentment she needs to work through

-Sloane has had a lot of practice sidelining her own feelings so she isn’t incapable of bouncing back and getting her work done while struggling with her sadness

-She does consider your motivation for breaking up with her, it weighs heavily on her since she already wanted to leave the academy, but without you she just feels even more trapped there

Jayme Hargreeves

-It’s not entirely surprising that you’d break up with Jayme, because no matter how much she actually loves you it’s hard to feel loved by someone as closed off as she is, on top of that you deal with so much of her carelessness and snark that your relationship inevitably ends up feeling more draining than fulfilling

-The cynic that she is, Jayme never got secure enough in your relationship to believe that you wouldn’t end up breaking up, so she’s not surprised and wears a pretty impressive mask of indifference

-But once you leave it doesn’t take long for her to drop the act, and she’s actually a lot more emotional about it than you would of expected, she’s tearing up, and punching walls

-She’s the type to force herself to get angry to distract herself from her hurt, she still loves you but she focuses on all the low points in your relationship in an attempts to stop

-But she doesn’t do an effective enough job to get to a point where she wouldn’t take you back in a heartbeat if you asked

#the umbrella academy #tua #marcus hargreeves x reader #sparrow ben x reader #sparrow!ben x reader #ben hargreeves x reader #fei hargreeves x reader #alphonso hargreeves x reader #sloane hargreeves x reader #jayme hargreeves x reader #tua x you #tua x reader #the umbrella academy preferences #the umbrella academy imagine #the sparrow academy

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mindful-of-ideas · 2 years

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“Y/N, it’s almost midnight, maybe you should just go to bed. I’ll wake you up early tomorrow so you can give him his gift if you want”, said James.

“But he said he would be here”, you answered tears in your eyes.

Not long ago, you decided to move in with your father. Your mom had a new boyfriend and things at home weren’t exactly going well. Screaming matches would often take a turn for the worse and you would get stuck in the crossfire. So, even if you barely knew you’re father, your mother made sure of that, you showed up on his doorstep one day, asking if you could stay with him for a while. And well… he wasn’t the one who opened the door, James Wilson did. You must have looked really desperate because he didn’t even question the fact that his best friend had a child he knew nothing of. Instead, he just let you come inside and spent the rest of the day making sure you were okay while waiting for your dad. Since then, you had grew closer to him. James that is. Your dad too, but there was something about James just being there most of the time that made you feel closer to him. You could be doing homework on the kitchen table and he would be reading over something in the living room, but just him being there made you feel at ease. He made you feel safe.

That was more than six months ago and you were now used to living with your dad and James. It wasn’t exactly ideal but it was better than living with your mother for sure. You learned a lot about your dad during those months. At first, he didn’t seem to really care about you. He did the bare minimum to make sure you were okay and that was it. James was doing the most to make you feel at home in their apartment. But as weeks went by, your dad seemed to relax and you got to make some memories with him. After all this time, you felt like you could finally trust him.

“He said he couldn’t wait to get back home to see what I got him”, you insisted, seeing James wasn’t answering.

You were sitting at the kitchen table, the cake you took all afternoon to bake sitting right in front of you with a carefully wrapped present by its side. James had just got up, clearly exasperated by House’s behaviour.

“I- Y/N, you’ve been living here for a while now but there’s still a part of your dad you haven’t seen yet. I’m sorry it has to happen like that…”

“But…”

“Listen. House, your dad…”, he took a deep breath before continuing, “he’s not the most reliable person ever. He tends to forget that others have feelings. He’ll be true to himself even if that means hurting others. Not because he doesn’t love you, just because he probably didn’t realize it would hurt you.”

You looked away from James.

“Look kid, I’m sure he cares about you, a lot, but…” he started coming closer to you and wrapping an arm around your shoulder, “but… there’s no but. I’m certain he loves you, just like I’m certain he hates his birthday. It’s not personal, believe me.”

He tried to pull you into a hug but you turned away from him.

“Can we just wait a little bit more?” you asked, after a long silence.

“Can we at least wait on the couch and watch some TV?” James asked in return.

“Sure”, you mumbled, getting up and making your way to the couch.

You slumped down on the couch crossing your arms while James sat by your side. You weren’t sad anymore, you were mad. Well not quite mad but more disappointed. After six months, you felt like you had opened up to your dad about a lot of things. Why did he stay so mysterious? If he could just talk to you sometimes, things would be easier. Like tonight. If he couldn’t make it or if he simply didn’t want to celebrate, why didn’t he just tell you? Why couldn’t he just tell you?

Ads came on the TV and interrupted your reflection. James had pulled a blanket over your knees. You realised how tired you were getting and, sitting up straighter, you pull your legs up on the couch. The show came back on but you couldn’t really focus. You slowly closed your eyes and fell on James’ shoulder. You felt his arm go around your shoulders, pulling up the blanket and you closer to him. You fell asleep.

An hour went by and James let you sleep on his shoulder until he himself got too tired and decided to go to bed. At that moment, the door opened.

“Hey!” said House loudly.

“Quiet down, Y/N is sleeping!” said James whispering.

“Hey!” House said more quietly.

“Where were you? We’ve been waiting all night. Y/N baked a cake and everything. They kept saying you promised you were going to be here. What happened?”

“Would you believe me if I said it was a work emergency?” asked House, cocking his head.

“You’re insufferable!”

“It was.. work related but I also didn’t want to come back. Not because of them”, he said pointing towards you with his cane, “but you know… birthdays… me… I’ll make it up to the kid tomorrow morning, it’ll be fine!”

James went and made himself a glass of water, drank it all and then headed towards his room.

“It’ll be fine, right?” asked House this time.

“I don’t know. They were pretty disappointed if you ask me. And they’re not me. Maybe I put up with your bad attitude but they shouldn’t have to. Y/N is your kid and they wanted to do something nice for you. For god’s sake! They even told you about it in advance! Just…”

“I’m not meant to do this! Be a dad! They deserve more than me”, said House quietly, cutting off Wilson.

“Y/N needs you. They want you. Just be yourself with them, stop pretending”, said James after a moment.

“They matter… they matter to me you know?”

“Then tell them. Goodnight House.”

Your dad made his way to the couch sitting down on the floor near your head. You were still fast asleep.

“I’m sorry Y/N. I should’ve called I guess. It was work stuff but that’s not an excuse. Truth is, I never liked celebrating my birthday, not in a long time at least. So I spent all day trying to come up with an excuse or find a reason to stay at work.”

He got back up on his feet.

“I’ll be your dad”, he said, moving away a strand of hair from your forehead. “I’ll try my best to be the best dad, starting with making it up to you tomorrow morning”, he said kissing your forehead.

You spent the night on the couch and woke up with the sun the next morning. You were about to go to your room to maybe get a few more hours of sleep when you noticed someone sitting at the kitchen table.

“Dad?” you asked in a groggy voice.

“Morning! Want a slice?” he said offering you some cake.

“What? What’s going on? It’s so early!”

“That’s his way of saying sorry about last night”, said James coming up from behind you. “But you could’ve waited at least another hour”, he added to your dad.

“Look”, your dad said coming up to you, “He’s right. I messed up last night and this is me trying to apologize. I should’ve texted or called you and I got no excuse, but can we try again this morning? We’ll just pretend it’s still my birthday. You matter to me, okay? I just want you to know that. You matter.”

Again, tears filled your eyes but this time, it wasn’t out of sadness. You ran over to your dad hugging him tightly.

“Mom never told me that, you know” you mumbled, your face in his chest.

“Well, I’ll say it again. You matter”, he said kissing the top of your head.

“You matter too, dad. Let’s have this birthday party now!” you said pulling away from him.

#mindful-of-ideas #imagine-13-fandoms #imagine #dr house imagine #gregory house imagine #house imagine #doctor house imagine #house md imagine #james wilson imagine #wilson imagine #gregory house #james wilson #hugh laurie #robert sean leonard #dr house #house md

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this is his name card thing! K.J really does not like his mom in this step. (im sorry opal ily) he’s also a very bossy and mean kid to everyone.. unless you happen to be living next door..

i made a step 2 name card thing, but maybe ill wait till the demo expansion comes out to share that. maybe ill change some things! who knowssss

for now (if you are interesteddd) down below are some things abt K.J!

he fights with his mom all the time. infront of friends, alone. literally any time. he seriously wants nothing to do with her.

is usually grounded. meaning no leaving the neighborhood, no friends over, all that. when he isn’t grounded he’s your stereotypical bad kid, always has to stay after school to clean something.

he invented shorts in freezing cold weather. autumn and tamarack thought it was pretty normal until it was the middle of december and he showed up to school in shorts and a t shirt, with his jacket stuffed in his bag. its less of a “im not cold” thing and more of an act of rebellion. his mom fights tooth and nail every morning.

^^ because of that he is always sick. he brushes it off until he is physically unable to move.

he wont wear any other colour but orange. it is his very favourite and he is very stern about how much of it is in his closet.

he has a little crush on qiu, and tries really hard to act cool infront of him. he gets all giddy when qiu takes note of something good he did.

he has a little crush on tamarack, and tries really hard to act cool infront of her. he gets all giddy when tamarack takes note of something good he did.

he has a little crush on both his neighbors, and tries really hard to act cool infront of them. he doesnt know how to handle how giddy he gets when they both take note of something good he did.

^^alot of his behaviour in class is to impress his crush. he’ll do literally anything to see that little smile on their face.

he is transgender. he and his mom are the only ones who know that, and he has no plans on ever telling anyone.

after tamarack asked if he was a girl, he would take extra long in the bathroom staring at the mirror wondering what he could’ve missed that she would be able to know.. she didnt! shes just a bit silly.

his favourite game ever is kirbys dream land. he plays it on his game boy every second he gets. before school, at school (at recess if he can hide it well), after school, in bed when he is supposed to be asleep. its all he can think about, and all he can talk about. everyone is a little tired of it, but he doesnt care about everyones feelings.

^^ ms. murray noticed this behaviour, and also the way k.j was acting out. he talked during lessons, he couldnt sit still, he was unable to focus. he even cried one time because he thought he was dumb. so ms. murray called his mom in to talk about getting him tested for adhd. and so she took him to the doctor, and to no ones suprise he was diagnosed.

^^ this gave him accommodations at school, and if you think he used them in a responsible way- you’d be so wrong. if he wanted to go for a walk, tamarack or qiu or even both are going with him. even if ms. murray is making him go for a walk because hes disrupting.

“im not going unless tamarack and qiu go with me.”

if you actually read it, thanks for being interested! its alot, but i reallly like making indepth characters :)

#our life #our life beginnings and always #our life now and forever #ol:nf #olnf qiu #olnf tamarack #olnf mc #olnf oc

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elpulse · 2 years

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First ever dream I had with Sun and Moon and it’s a goddamn nightmare. 😞 So I wrote this fic for Halloween based off it. Please heed the warnings before you read if this is something you aren’t comfortable with. I just like playing around with yandere characters in fiction.

This fic will include:

Sun/Moon x reader (gender-neutral)

Daycare attendant doesn’t have the virus

Yandere sun/moon

Possessive behaviour

Violence and gore

Angst with a happy ending

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You were here again today… Sun was so happy that today you were working with them in the daycare. Sure they would have to deal with the inconvenience of having to go down to parts and services after the daycare closes but they're okay with you working on them! They loved seeing you laugh and smile whenever you would hang out. You were so sweet and charming... You were in their thoughts constantly, he softly sighed as he looked at you doing work. How nice it would be if you liked them back just as strongly as Sun and Moon do-!

“Yeesh… What’s with that look? Stop being so creepy! How is it possible that even after the cosmetic upgrades you still look so unsettling.”

The animatronic snapped out of it to stare down at the person standing next to them. Of course… Daniel is always the one that was a complete jerk to Sun and Moon. Even though he was technically their ‘coworker’ as a daytime security guard. “Can’t stand that guy…” Moon hissed in their shared servers. Sun was inclined to agree, it makes him want to glitter glue his belongings and mess with him. Better yet, maybe he’ll try mixing the laxatives he found from the lost and found into his coffee and make them regret it. Make them have a bad day tomorrow morning.

He has no time for this… Sun schooled his expression from his newly-built faceplate and acted dumb. “Look? What look? I don’t really know what you're referring to. I’m so bored! There’s nothing to do here when you told me I have to sit here and wait!” The little pathetic human huffed as he shifted uncomfortably under Sun’s stare. Daniel strangely felt a chill down his back even though the sunny animatronic was acting innocent as per usual like he’s always have. “Ugh, whatever… I’m finally gonna leave now. Gonna clock out of my shift, hey make sure to fix this bot so he doesn’t cause any problems.”

You clicked your tongue in annoyance, not paying any regard to Daniel. “Ya ain’t my boss, you're always so quick to complain about everything. I’m only here for a checkup and hygiene, Sun and Moon are functioning perfectly. Just go already!” Daniel glared at you harshly before stomping out to leave through the large door with a slam. Good riddance. Sun smiled as he pulled his attention to focus back on you, hoping to initiate conversation but stopped in his tracks.

What the…

When did they get here…?

How did they not notice them coming in? They spent way too much time focusing on Daniel! You were currently occupied with talking to the head technician, some technical jargon they reckon. They don’t really know who they are, they make sure to avoid damages to themselves and prevent a visit to P and S and the fact they didn’t care about them. But now? Now they are, the head technician is getting in the way between the three of you. Sun and Moon felt their systems spark and heat up with rage as he looked at you and the other one.

“Everything is fine, it’s just business…Everything is fine, everything is fine, everything is fine…!” Sun and Moon chanted in their minds as they tried to calm down, they didn’t want to cause any trouble and upset you! But they were almost close to snapping as they saw that filthy thing touch you. It looks like you guys are friendly and respectful of each other, no doubt because you both work as technicians in parts and services. But is it just them, or do they kind of notice that you are leaning away from them. Like you are avoiding their hand that they have on your back as the human was hovering over you, maybe they were overthinking... But something doesn’t sit right.

Finally, you managed to end the chat and waved them off goodbye as they left. You sighed in relief as you looked at them with those beautiful eyes. “Hey Sunny… Sorry for the wait! Got held up there for a moment, they said there were some problems in Roxy’s Raceway that needed repairs after your check up. Gonna be pulling an all nighter for this one, can you lend me the nap area after?” Immediately their systems were put at ease at your presence, their fans fluttering at the news that you would be staying over. “Oh Sunshine~! I don’t mind! I know you have a lot of important things you need to do. You're the best mechanic I know!” Sun praised happily.

You chuckled at the compliment, gracing them a sweet smile. “Aww that means a lot to me. Now let’s get you checked up!”

It was night time… The pizzaplex closes its doors as all of the guests today had left. Leaving Moon in their room charging, awaiting for the time he’ll start doing his security rounds. They were currently counting the time as they impatiently waited. 1 second, 2 second, 3 seconds...

10,800 seconds. That would be approximately 180 minutes they had counted, which was 3 hours before the distraction was not working. You were currently away on the job at the raceway like you said you were, but it didn’t help the pain in his metaphorical heart at the thought. They missed you so much… And it was a habit for the two AIs to contemplate whether to pursue the feelings they had for you or not. “Isn’t it so unbearable Moon? There’s no way we can keep this a secret forever can we…?” Sun told their counterpart.

“I know… I’m well aware. But there’s no way they would like us back, Starshine has a happy life outside this place. We are nothing but tools for the business, we can never leave this place to be able to love them properly. There is no happy ending for us, or for them…” Moon cut in bitterly. Life is not fairytale, and they’ve been active and alive since their creation to know how cruel and unfair reality is. Moon sobbed quietly as their chest twisted in pain as they curled into themself.

“We can do nothing but dream… That’s all we have left…” Sun mourned. Moon nodded as he felt Sun’s presence push through their programming to seek each other’s comfort. He sighed as they laid down in their pillow pile as they decided to go into sleep mode to pass the time, setting an alarm to wake up later so they could be ready for their shift.

“Nighty night…”

It’s dark…

So dark…

Sun and Moon weren’t sure where they were, they only realized they were both here in the present in this blank space. It was not often that they would ‘dream’, surprisingly the two robots were capable of dreaming the same dream and experiencing it together. Moon and Sun stared at each other in silence, though they may be in a dream most of the time nothing really happens in this space besides interacting with each other. Sadly they don’t experience fun dreams like most humans do.

“Oof! wh-What the…?” Sun was caught off guard by something crashing into him, falling down on his bum as he struggled to lift himself up to see what’s on him. “...! S-Starshiiine…?” Moon gasped as he went to try and help his counterpart. A small figure laid on top of Sun’s chest, staring blankly at Sun’s face. Anyone would’ve freaked out if a complete stranger did this but on closer inspection… no, they recognize who they are. It was you, the resemblance was completely identical in all of your unique features. They both gazed at you in awe at your being, from head to toe. From your soft skin, to your eyes, and the comforting weight you have that they recognized. Sun sat up onto his knees as he timidly embraced your figure, taking in the lovely warmth you radiated as Moon joined in the group hug as they petted your head. They’re faces plastering large smiles as they heard a soft giggle from you at the affection.

Too bad that it didn’t last long, a large crackling sound reverberated in the entire ‘room’ they were in and startled the two. Streaks of bright colors shot out like lightning and cracked the walls like it shattered it, before it quickly disappeared. Moon alerted, stood up as they brought their arm out in front of you and Sun in an attempt to protect you both. Sun trembling in fear as he shielded you in his arms from whatever scary thing was out there.

There was something… there! Or some… Someone…? It was hard to make out anything, but there was a figure there in front of them. The body was screwy and laced with the colors of static they saw earlier, constantly shifting in shapes in distortion like a glitch. Sun and Moon shuddered and whimpered as they heard the figure talk, its voice garbled and crackled loudly with nonsense. Words displayed suddenly in front of them.

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“Hello! I’m a friend of their parents. I’m just here to pick them up.” A strange man popped up in front of them, their body glitching out with a creepy smile on their face. Sun cried as they clutched you close, “Nonononono!! We don’t know you!” He screamed, noticing how you hid your face in his chest. Moon had growled angrily in response, “Get AWAY FROM THEM!” He swiped at the figure with one of his claws, red glitching blood spurted out of the corpse as it evaporated. They heard a ding from somewhere signaling their success at their answer.

N̵e̶x̵t̸ ̴R̷o̸u̵n̶d̷

“H-How many do we have to do this!?” Sun exclaimed, seeing the next person form into existence. “I.. I don’t know Sunny! We need to win this somehow!!!” Moon replied as he bit his lip. “Hello daycare attendant… Can you help me?” Now a woman has formed, but still just as distorted and creepy as the last one with its glitched voice not helping it.

Moon fixed his posture so that he appeared more threatening, claws at the ready to slice them again. He was about to launch himself before-! “W-WAIT MOONIE!!!” The lunar animatronic froze in his tracks as he looked back at Sun in confusion, eyes clearly displaying their inner panic despite hiding it. Sun trembled as he stood up on his feet while they carried you in his arms. “Didn’t i-i-it say that they were those that were safe? I think we have to be very careful with this!”

Moon widened his eyes at the realization. The rules said that they have to help these people in order to pass as well. The two shuddered wondering what the consequences of what will happen if they fail either of the tasks they were given of this creepy game. They don’t want you to get hurt. They can’t afford to let you get hurt!

“H-How can I help Miss?” Sun asked the woman fearfully. The woman twitched and twisted their neck unnaturally in Sun’s direction. “Do you know where the nearest bathroom is? This pizzaplex is awfully big!” Sun walked closer to Moon’s side as he was highly unsettled by her, they can’t trust anyone here, only each other and their star.

Sunny pointed in a random direction in the dark void they were in, “Take, take a left from here! Keep going straight and go to the right at the next turn, you should find it.” They explained to the woman, a strained smile being displayed on his face. The woman stared at him more. Moon is panicking as he desperately tries to block her face from Sun and you with his arm.

‘Please! Please go away! Please be right!!!’

“Thank you! Sorry to disturb~!”

*Ding!*

N̵e̶x̵t̸ ̴R̷o̸u̵n̶d̷

Moon and Sun gasped in surprise at the nonexistent breath they both held that they didn’t realize they did while in suspense. “Oh my gosh…! Oh my gosh!!! I thought we would fail!” Moon sobbed. Although you’ve never spoken, it seems like you had noticed their distress as your arms reached out to caress both Sun and Moon’s arms in comfort. Making the emotional robots tear up more as they both hugged you in a sandwich. “T-That's right! Moon we made it this far already! It’s just like our training days to protect the kids! Remember how the workers reenacted those types of scenes and we were told we had to handle it?” Their counterpart chuckled listlessly, “...yeah, yeah! You're exactly right. This is easy now… We can do this! Together!”

And so the game continued, although Moon had said it was going to be easy it was easier said than done. Round after round Sun and Moon struggled to make it through to the end, making sure to protect you especially. Tensions were raised high as they were subjected to questioning and investigating the characters, with the dangerous risk of finding out who the bad guys were and identifying the safe ones.

But finally… They were in the last round and they can finally end this nightmare once and for all. The two breathed a sigh of relief, smiling at each other as they still kept their love safe and sound all this time. They made it this far, nothing will stop them now!

“Hey junior! I was just looking for you, we still have some tasks left we still need to do. I’ll explain more in detail, can you come with me?”

The animatronics froze up in fear. Why were they here? It was the head technician that had now appeared before them. And they look by far the worse of all the characters conjured with the corruption, a sinister smile directed at their beloved. Sun felt a mix of disgust and fear at the filthy thing, tightening his hold on you as he shielded you. “Don’t you come closer! Get lost!” Sun screamed. Moon agreed, no way in hell they are letting you go.

Moon was about to attack them again before he heard Sun stuttering, looking back to see you squirm out of Sun’s arms and moving past them both. “Sunshine?! SUNSHINE!?!? WHERE ARE YOU GOING!?!?!?” They were forced to see you walk forward emotionlessly as you met up with the horrible being, you’ve never reacted like this until now. They’re shocked.

The answer would be that they are safe… right? They knew you were on decent terms with the head technician, it's part of your job and they knew it. Please no… Of course you must trust them. They’re overthinking just like with everyone else… They don’t like them. But they’ll at least trust your judgment. Even if something in the back of their minds was bugging them about the creep.

Don’t leave!

… They let you go.

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A horrific smile was the last they saw of the thing before pain shot through their bodies. Their synchronized screaming blasting at full volume as their vision was assaulted by colors and sparks. The sensation of pain through their mechanical bodies was quite similar to a controlled shock as their punishment. Forced to suffer as they see your body laying next to them in a puddle of RED.

Moon screamed as he snapped his eyes open. Tossing his blanket aside as his processors tried to process what he was doing. The animatronic trembled, he sobbed as he curled into himself as he replayed the memories. “Oh thank god…!” Moon whimpered. It was just a nightmare. They were here, in their room. And they were safe, nothing happened to them and nothing happened to you. Taking some time to calm themselves down, Moon checked the time. Oh, it was almost an hour left before they started their patrols.

The lunar animatronic widened his eyes as he received a sudden notification indicating someone was in the daycare. Checking the cameras Moon and Sun gasped in delight as they saw that their favorite person was here. They’re here! Moon flipped onto his feet as they frantically got themselves looking presentable as much as possible in order to greet you.

“Sun? Moon?”

“I’m here! I’m here!”

Moon clumsily dropped down on his wire as he met up with you. They felt a spark course through their systems as you smiled and waved to them in greeting, “Hey, Nice to see ya Moon man. Hope I didn’t take too long to finish before coming here?” Moon shook his head quickly, “N-no! Not at all! Glad you are here now, you’re always welcome here anytime…” You laughed in response to his invitation, “Is that so? I’m flattered! I do believe you still have an hour left before your patrols? Do you want to do anything in the meantime?”

The lunar animatronic blushed as he fiddled with the bell on his hat shyly. His mind is racing and flooding his systems with several ideas. Oh what should they do? They could draw, chat with each other, or m-maybe cuddle! You did ask for permission if you can borrow the naptime corner. “Hey, hey, Moonie? Do you think it's a good time to give them our present?” Sun piped up in their link. Moon twitched in surprise, that actually wouldn’t be a bad idea! “Oh! Actually Sunny and I wanted to give you a gift! It's something we’ve been working on for a while…”

You looked at the animatronic in surprise, growing slightly pink in response. “R-really? For me?” Moon chuckled at the cute display you were showing them. The two AIs were proud that they got to see the soft and sweet you that no one else got to see, and it belongs to only them~! “Of course~! We both like you alot and we want to show our appreciation~. Let me just fetch it from our room, you stay here right where you are. It won’t take that long.” You smiled sweetly as you crossed your arms “Aww that's sweet… You didn’t have to do that for me! But… thanks.” Moon giggled as his faceplate spun around as they summoned the cable to lift them to the balcony.

You softly laughed as your heart fluttered inside your chest. Sun and Moon were so nice to be around. It made you feel warm and tingly at the thought that they actually made a gift for you because they actually liked you. You were so caught up in your thoughts that you didn’t notice the lingering presence that was slowly encroaching upon you.

Moon meanwhile was rummaging through their messy room before laying his hands on a small gift box. “Thank goodness… It's still here! Hope they like it…” Opening the lid of the gift box revealed a beautiful handmade bracelet. Made with decent quality jewelry beads in blues and yellows along with pretty sun and moon charms with stars attached to it. Reassured that it wasn’t damaged, Moon stood up to his feet with the box in hand. He froze as he heard a horrific scream. That voice… It was yours!?

You laid in a fetal position as you clutched tightly at your side, crying at the intense burning pain as your blood spilled on the playmats and soaked your clothing. You fearfully looked towards your assaulter. “Why are you always with them… Why can’t I be the one you think of in your thoughts!?” Standing before you with a blood soaked knife in their hand was the head technician, an insane look in their eyes as they peered down at your form. “Wh… What… the fuck… Are you talking about!?” You croaked weakly, your brain not comprehending the insane situation you were in. The head technician smiled insanely as they bent down and grabbed your face, “I was so nice to you! I treated you so well when you first started working here! We got along well didn’t we!? So why did you choose a heap of scrap metal instead of me!?!?”

Speechless, you were speechless at the complete absurdity of the bullshit your superior was spouting. You have only treated them with politeness and respect at the minimum because it was your job. You knew in the beginning that you didn’t get along with them and have avoided their touches because it was unprofessional. You felt sick, and getting light headed from the blood loss. But you were burning with rage on the inside, “That's it…? That's why you stabbed me??? I didn’t like you already… But now I fucking hate you!” You growled viciously, punching them hard in the face and catching them off guard. “Get away from me… you psycho!” You yelled, hissing in pain at your wound.

The creep glared at you and kicked harshly at your body, knocking you down with a cry as you gasped for air in your suffering. “If I can’t have you then no one else will! I’ll be the last person you see as I kill you! You belong to me!” The head technician exclaimed, raising their weapon up high as they laughed madly. You gasped in despair, shutting your eyes as you cried out in desperation as you feared for your life.

“SUN! MOON!!!-”

You felt the weight on your body disappear as you heard a strangled choke and a loud slam nearby, opening your eyes. You saw Moon pinning your attacker down by the throat in a frightening display.

“YOU…! YOU…! WE KNEW YOU WERE DANGEROUS! WE SHOULD’VE KILLED YOU WHEN YOU FIRST LAID HANDS ON STARSHINE!!!” The animatronic screamed, an unrestrained anger being shown on his face than the usual kind Moon you were used to. The head technician choked and desperately fought against Moon’s hands for air. A pathetic display compared to how they were with you earlier. Moon’s red eyes glared down at them as they swiftly snapped their neck mercilessly with a sickening crunch. The hands grabbing Moon’s arms limped down on the ground, lifeless and dead.

You laid there in a pool of your own blood, sweat covering your body and on the verge of passing out. You weakly whispered, “M…Moonie...” Hearing their name being called, Moon snapped his neck to you and quickly rushed over to you. Tears formed in his eyes as he collapsed on his knees as he held you, “Starshine…! Oh Starshine I’m so sorry! I should’ve never left you! It’s our fault!” The animatronic sobbed, their tears dropping down and splashed on your face. “...No… It's not… You saved me…” You comforted as you grabbed one of their hands and rubbed your cheek against their palm. “Nononono! Please don’t die! Don’t DIE! We love you too much! Stay with us!!!” Moon cried. He desperately pressed down on your wound trying to stop it, there was so much blood… “Moonie… Sunny… help me…” Those were the last words Sun and Moon heard as you lost consciousness.

“STARSHINE!?!?!?”

It took 2 weeks in the hospital as you recovered from the incident, apparently from what you heard when you woke up it was that it wasn’t something that you made up in your head when the head technician had attacked you and wound up dead. The night guards had come to the daycare after an emergency signal was made to notify them. It was Moon who had called them as he sat there holding your body while the head technician’s corpse was nearby. At first glance they had assumed that Moon was the one who had killed both of you as they believed in the rumors that Moon was dangerous to be around. It was a messy affair, but Moon had confirmed with the authorities that there was clear evidence that he was innocent and only did it as an act of defense after you were attacked with the use of the footage of the security cameras and the knife.

Fazbear Corporations had contacted you through email in apology for the incident and paying you a hefty sum of money. Most likely to try and convince you to shut up and not tell anyone about the incident, not to mention the sly remark that they were willing to let you ‘leave’ the job in case you couldn’t handle coming back. You weren’t stupid, and you’ll be damned if you couldn’t see Sun and Moon ever again. So you fought back, threatening the corporation that you will sue them and reveal the news of the attack as well as all the other suspicious activity they were doing sweeping past terrible incidents with the pizzaplex. But finally they relented and let you keep your job and allowed you to continue working. (As well as some good dough on the side, you don't regret squeezing some cash out of the lousy business)

You sighed as you nervously shifted on your feet. Here you were back in the pizzaplex standing by the daycare entrance. You were… afraid. You weren’t sure if you had heard the animatronic say they loved you or made it all up when you passed out. The daycare was currently closed, as it’s still in the midst of cleaning up the mess from the attempted murder. You hesitantly knocked on the door, “Sunny…? It’s me, I-I’m back now…”

No response was heard but eventually the door slowly as Sun’s face peeked through the gap. His blue eyes wavering and on the verge of tears, “Sun-Sunshine…? You’re really here…” You nodded quietly, “Yeah… I’m back. I didn’t want to leave you guys the way I did… So I’m here to stay, can I come in?” Sunny looked hesitant and almost afraid before nodding and opening the door to let you in.

“...Are you okay now Sunshine?” The solar animatronic asked. “Yeah. Thankfully they stitched me up at the hospital, nothing I can’t recover from. And thank you guys for rescuing me in time.” Sun trembled as he raised his hands up and wrapped you in a tight hug, sobbing into your shoulders heavily as he broke down. “So glad…! So glad you are okay! We missed you so much! We don’t know what we would do without you!” You returned the hug and clung tightly as you cried as well, the trauma hitting you hard in response.

Sun sniffed as he lifted his faceplate up to rest his forehead against yours. Making you stare directly in front of him, his eyes ridden with anxiety and fear. “Aren’t you scared? Of what we did in front of you…?” You widen your eyes at him. “What about killing them? I know you did that to protect me. A bit concerned but you know to be honest I would’ve wanted to hurt them so badly as revenge against them if they did come back alive. I’m not really as nice of a person.” You replied shamelessly. “...We still think you're nice.” Sun answered, wiping a stray tear from your eyes.

You blushed at the gesture, you reached out with your own hand as you stroked at Sun’s cheek in comfort. Admiring how their blue eyes twinkle and their rays spun around their head as you do this. Sun felt their fans kick on a faster setting, sighing as he felt your soft touch against their face and making them feel at ease. “Umm…! By the way, S-Sunshine… Moonie is reminding me that we still haven’t had the chance to give you the present!” You quirked your eyebrow in question, did they still remember that?

“Oh! I guess I haven’t seen it yet, are you sure?” You asked hesitantly. “Yes!Yes!Yes~! Here, c’mon and open it!” Sun replied excitedly, he opened his chest plate and pulled out a small gift box. You chuckled as you took it from him, gasping as you opened the box to see the contents. “G-Guys, it's beautiful! I love it!” You smiled as you took the bracelet and wore it on your wrist. You admired and showed it off to the animatronic as the beads glistened and the charms swayed on your arm. Sun whined happily and wore a derpy, adorable smile as his rays spun wildly. “So so so happy you like Sunshine! We’ve worked super duper hard for you!”

Your heart skipped a beat, even after all this time and you were still in love with them. And it was important that you get some answers.

“Sunny… Can I ask you guys something?”

Sun froze, their body tensing up at the noticeable shift in your tone. The animatronic gulped, “W-What’s up…?” You brought your arm up and fiddled with the bracelet, trying to formulate words to say. “...Back then what was the last thing you said to me before I passed out?” You asked hesitantly. You looked up at the animatronic as Sun stood still. An unsettling display from the bright robot, completely unresponsive. It was honestly scaring you, heart beginning to pound quickly at the stress.

The robot reached with his hand and scratched at his faceplate while he pulled hard at his rays with the other. Their expressions worsen as they freak out. Shit! This is bad! “Oh God Sun! Please stop! I’m sorry, y-you don’t have to answer!” You pleaded. Sunny took a shaky breath as he stopped his actions, detecting with his system at your quickened heart rate. “N-No, I’m sorry Sunshine. Sorry… so sorry…!” Sun sobbed, his eyes watering and tears started to spill out. He hesitantly grabbed your hand, caressing the bracelet with care.

“...Me and Moonie love you. That was what we said that day. We regretted that it was too late at the time. We truly thought you would be gone, it sort of spilled out.” Sun answered. He pressed your palm to his cheek, hiding half of his face in shame. “We’ve been in love with you for a long time… But we never pursued it. W-Why would we? I’m just a dumb, stupid moneymaking robot!” You stared in shock at his confession, “Sun…”

“It hurts you know? We can’t love you the same as humans can! Sunshine, you-! You have a wonderful life outside! While we are trapped here, we didn’t want to drag you down. And robots can’t date! Hehehe! … We always get jealous and hurt people who talk to you behind your back.” Sun stared at you painfully. No ounce of humor was heard as he laughed emptily.

“Now you saw us murder someone… Those rumors you heard of us are true. Well… maybe not that extreme. The point is, I’m a horrible person…”

Your chest hurts at Sun’s words. Feeling it twist and ripped apart as your heart breaks in two. Certainly it was a shock to see Sun and Moon act so violently, so used to seeing them being friendly and lovable. But strangely it made a whole lot of sense, it made sense that people who acted rude to you before now left you alone. Or how they acted so clingy with you when another person was talking to you and always seemed to act so passive-aggressive with everyone except you. But it made you understand from their point of view how frustrating it was being a robot. They were jealous at the fact other humans can so easily interact with you and they don’t. Now you knew that even though their actions were bad and they should’ve handled it better, you weren’t actually mad. In reality, you knew that they were just trying to protect you all this time, because you were the one to always talk to them about anything, trouble or not.

But that won’t change anything about how you feel about them. And you will be the one to take responsibility for all you guys had to go through and fix this. You pulled Sun’s head down and pulled him to your chest, hugging him tightly as you whispered into his audio receptor. “It’s okay… We’re gonna be okay… Thank you so much for protecting me all this time. It won’t change how I feel about you… I forgive you, and we will work together and get better. I promise you this.”

You leaned back and pressed a soft kiss to their forehead.

“I love you two as well! And you’ve been the ones I love and have been on my mind ever since I met you!”

Sun and Moon sobbed and cried in happiness, holding you close to each other as they exchanged more hugs and affection with you. They finally had you, and you had them. And nothing else will get in the way with that. It was truly a dream come true.

#fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf sb #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #fnaf security breach #moondrop x y/n #moon x y/n #moondrop x reader #moon x reader #sun x y/n #sundrop x y/n #sundrop x reader #sun x reader #moondrop #sundrop #my fic #my writing

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firebirdsdaughter · 2 years

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Sigh…

… The relationship between Nate and Eliot from Leverage is, despite being very strongly written and generally equally balanced out with the focus of the rest of the inter team relationships, one of the most underrated relationships on television. Eliot is almost exclusively viewed through the lens of his relationship with Hardison and Parker which, although definitely a massive factor and an extremely strong and interesting relationship, is often over-credited as the nigh exclusive reason behind his character development to the point he is occasionally portrayed as prioritising them above all else, or them being the only people who care about him/treat him as a person. While semi accurate, as a result his other relationships are often pushed by the wayside, with the one with Nate suffering the most due to a view of Nate that exacerbates his flaws and neglects the good parts of his character, especially in regards to his interactions with other characters. Nate is often viewed as an overly controlling, callous, alcoholic manipulator who uses Eliot as a weapon and is reckless and arrogant, but this is a gross misrepresentation of their relationship and its nuances. Eliot’s loyalty to Nate is integral to his loyalty to the rest of the team, as both the cause and the result, and the beginnings of it are well displayed at the start of the series, and it’s for this reason that it is the focus of the third episode, with the following episodes driving it home. The difference between Eliot’s loyalty to Nate and the rest of the people he’s worked for is that Eliot chooses to follow Nate’s orders rather than ever feeling under pressure or forced to; Eliot can openly argue with him without ever having to worry about assassins being sent after him later or something like that. Nate may huff and puff and talk shit—hell, he might give as good as he gets, but that’s all he’ll do, and when he’s not on a bent, he may even listen. It may not look it, but that’s a display of trust, the emotional honesty of arguing. The actual point is that Nate does not use him as a weapon—rather, he proves to Eliot that he can have a noble purpose again, something Eliot thought he’d never be able to have back, and gives him something good, pure, innocent, and beautiful to protect again. Nate is the first person Eliot has honestly chosen to follow in years, and his absolute loyalty to the former is apparent in a whole slew of different ways over the course of the series, from following even unexpected orders to standing up to Nate when he disagrees with something to being willing to kill for him (and knowing Nate would never truly ask that of him) to be willing to kill to keep him from killing to the seamless way he manages and corrals the team on jobs to working in concert with Sophie to manage Nate’s self destructive behaviour. Eliot is a lynchpin of the team, and his relationship with Nate is just as important to his development as his relationships with the rest of the team, and besides Sophie, he is Nate’s most trusted confidant. In this essay I will thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

#Leverage #I have Feelings #bc honestly I really care about Nate #and I think he gets a bad rep #and that man does have his flaws absolutely #listen I am tired and I have a headache #but I was cruising around and I have Opinions #like I said it's not that Hardison and Parker aren't a massive part of his development #they are his new thing to protect #but I disagree w/ the claim that they are the ones who exclusively help him get away from his past #and I strongly disagree w/ any idea that Nate uses him or treats him like a weapon #or that Eliot otherwise corralling the team is exclusively due to failure on Nate's part #like I said you see the seeds early on #bc I think Eliot sees them too #he is most often seen falling in at Nate or Sophie's shoulder #when he looks to Nate for confirmation before getting violent or when Nate pulls him back #Nate is the first person Eliot chooses to give his complete loyalty too #aside from when he decided to join the army #and it's real loyalty which you can tell bc it goes beyond following orders it's calling Nate out it's plotting w/ Sophie #Eliot is the lieutenant #I read this really good fic that described him as the left hand an it's completely accurate #I think I've made posts about how they're genuinely like a mob family #Nate and Sophie are the power couple she's not so much a second in command as the straight up queen #Eliot meanwhile is the loyal eldest son the enforcer the lieutenant #they all work in tandem to make things run smoothly it's not just picking up Nate's slack #it's covering the things Nate genuinely can't cover bc he's doing something else #you see it as early as the first ep w/ Eliot alerting him that Parker's off the book and following his orders to clear the zone #the Two Horse job goes on to give them a better sense of each other and from there it solidifies completely #Nate can do the things he does bc he trusts Eliot to be there to support #Eliot chooses to follow Nate's orders bc he trusts him not just to do good but also to listen when told he's wrong

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wheeler-things · 1 year

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Alright, this has been plaguing me for ages, so I'm making a post about it. Fair warning: this is going to be a long one.

Before getting into my own thoughts, I want to highlight this post by @dinitride-art (sorry for the unsolicited @, but also thank you for your post because it's what got me thinking about/noticing this in the first place), which talks about a lot of cool lighting stuff in Mike's s4 "I love you" monologue. One of those things is the very visible dark shadow over Mike's left eye, which OP suggests may hint that Henry is possessing or influencing Mike during this scene.

In my rewatch, I've been noticing that at various points, throughout the show, Mike has that same weird shadow show up.

As a result, I’ve developed a pet theory that Henry has been spying on/influencing Mike since s1e1. The obvious question for that is WHY would Henry target Mike in particular pre-s4, and I do have thoughts on that but they're wildly outside the scope of this post, so I won't be digging into them here. (This is just my personal favourite interpretation, though-- mostly I just think the fact that this lighting choice comes up pretty consistently/in pretty consistent contexts is interesting.)

While Mike is my main focus here, I did see that a few other characters do sometimes also have their left eye in shadows. In particular, I noticed it on Will, El, and Hopper.

Just for some context, what I'm interested in considering in this post is:

When does the eye shadow occur? What is the context in the scene before, during, and after its appearance?

Are there any connections, commonalities, or themes between the scenes/contexts in which it occurs?

Working under the hypothesis established in the link posted above that the shadow over Mike's left eye suggests that he is being influenced by Henry, what are the immediate and long term impacts of Mike's actions/interactions when he has the shadow over his eye/immediately after it disappears? Are these generally helpful or harmful to Henry and/or the UD's cause?

Season 1

First Instance:

The first time the shadow shows up is in s1e1, when Lucas, Dustin, and Will are leaving the Wheelers’ house after D&D.

First, Dustin, Mike, and Lucas have a conversation, during which Dustin and Lucas are critical of Nancy’s recent behaviour (saying that there’s “something wrong” with her and that she’s “turning into a real jerk”), but fair (Lucas specifically notes that it’s because she’s dating Steve, and Dustin is quick to bring up how she used to “be cool” in that she used to participate in their D&D campaigns). By contrast, Mike says that Nancy has “always been a jerk”, and dismissively responds to Dustin’s point about how she used to participate in their campaigns by saying that was “four years ago”.

Then, after this, as he steps forward and yells out “four years ago”, the shadow is really visible on his eye.

^ The first instance of the shadow

Following this, we get the “it was a seven” conversation, and I can’t stress enough how weird Mike is in this conversation. Will says “it was a seven”, and Mike takes a long moment to rip his eyes away from Dustin and Lucas biking away, and he says “huh?”, indicating that he didn’t hear or didn’t process what Will was saying. Will clarifies that he means in the game, and Mike’s expression becomes confused, so Will further clarifies that the Demogorgon “got” him. Mike’s expression does not clear at all. Then, presumably because Mike is just silently staring at Will, Will awkwardly says that he’ll see Mike tomorrow and bikes away. Mike continues to silently watch him leave.

This is weird behaviour for Mike. It’s weirdly quiet, it’s weirdly confused, and it’s weirdly unresponsive. I'm sure he was confused about why Will was being so honest about the failed roll, but it's still a little weird that he doesn't at least say goodbye (especially given that he says goodbye twice at the end of s1 just to make sure Will hears him).

Immediate Impact: Will heads home alone where he can be abducted.

Long Term Impact: As a result of Will leaving the Wheelers’ that night, all of the events of ST can begin. It's not explicitly stated in the show, but it's likely, knowing Mike's character, that he feels some guilt over Will to going home alone that night.

Second Instance

The next time Mike seems to have a shadow over his left eye is a little more brief, and a lot more subtle but it occurs when Hopper is questioning the Party about Will’s actions the night before.

Mike is shown in split face shadows, but the shadow over his eye grows, in particular, as Lucas and Dustin fight over whether or not it matters that the name "Mirkwood" came from The Hobbit. Mike is visibly annoyed/resigned at the start of this debate.

However, when Mike insists that the Party could help look for Will, all of a sudden the half face of shadows is gone. The darkest shadow on Mike's face is now centred over his left eye.

^ Second instance of the shadow

It remains clearly there throughout the scene (though the profile shots show it more at the corner of his eye/bridge of his nose whereas the 3/4 shots and straight on shots show it more clearly/fully).

Immediate Impact: Hopper insists that the boys not participate in the search for Will, which directly influences Karen’s refusal to allow any of the Wheelers to look for Will. Though this isn’t explicit, knowing more about Mike’s overarching issues, it’s very possible that Mike would feel useless and dismissed as a result of not being allowed to help/given a way to help. This also directly puts the seed into the Party’s minds/specifically into Mike’s mind that they can and should help look for Will, which comes to fruition later in the episode.

Long Term Impact: This scene puts Mike directly onto the path that leads to him meeting El, which heavily impacts the way that the show continues to play out. It also leads directly into the dinner scene which adds to the rift between Mike and the rest of his family, because he is forced to reconcile with the fact that they would all rather stay safe/do their own things than lift a finger to help find Will, causing Mike to feel more isolated in his own home.

Third Instance

The next time it comes up is in s1e2, when Mike is insisting that El needs to hide in his closet in order to keep his mom from finding her.

^ The third instance of the shadow (note that it darkens and lightens throughout this scene)

Mike makes this insistence despite knowing that El is uncomfortable being in enclosed spaces

Immediate Impact: El is not discovered by Karen (although Karen also never goes up to Mike's room, so that would have been true regardless), and El has a severe flashback.

Long Term Impact: This sets up the dynamic between El and the Party/extended monster hunting gang moving forward-- she pushes herself into uncomfortable, harmful, or dangerous situations out of perceived necessity without concern for her own well being (obviously this is a deeper issue/something that was first taught to her in the Lab, but this moment is the first time that someone outside the Lab is perpetuating that mindset for her). Also, this is when Mike teaches El what a promise is, which has a lasting impact on their relationship (he promises her in s1 that they'll go to the Snow Ball together, and that literally snowballs into him being cornered into professing his love in s4).

Possible Instance 1

The shadow may be present in s1e3 when Mike is tripped by Troy, starting from just after Troy and James first approach the Party and lasting until Dustin distracts Mike, but the shading is more subtle than in the previous instances.

^ First possible instance

Immediate Impact: Mike and El bond when he later tells her the truth about his bullies, when she asks about the injury to his chin. Additionally, this scene marks the first time Mike is pushed both explicitly towards El (Lucas heavily insinuates that Mike has a crush on her) and implicitly away from Will (Troy jokes about Will being killed by "some other queer").

Long Term Impact: As a result of the immediate impacts, Mike is set on the course that leads to his s4 monologue. This also leads directly to the quarry incident (Troy calls Will queer and trips Mike -> Troy calls Will gay/implicitly suggests Mike is also gay and Mike pushes Troy down -> Troy chases after Mike and demands that he jump from the quarry). This also wraps back around in s4, because Mike and El's relationship is later STRENGTHENED by their shared understanding of Mike's experiences in this scene, but by s4 their relationship has degraded to the point that they can no longer bond over these shared experiences.

Fourth Instance

It's there in s1e4 when Mike sees El in her wig and dress and says that she looks "Pretty. Pretty good."

^ Fourth instance of the shadow

Immediate Impact: Causes Lucas and Dustin more firmly believe that Mike has feelings for El. Likely causes Mike to start questioning/considering the romantic nature (or lack thereof) of his feelings for El.

Long Term Impact: Again, this leads into Mike and El's relationship, which by s4 is a whole host of issues. Regardless of whether you read Mike as honestly having a crush on El or not, at this point, this may also represent the first moment of Mike being aware of how his actions will be perceived through a heteronormative lens, given that he swiftly corrects from "pretty" to "pretty good" presumably to distance himself from the idea of having a crush on her.

Fifth Instance

In s1e5, it appears while Dustin reads out information on the Veil of Shadows. During this time, Mike is silent, mostly staring off into the middle distance (though he is responsive enough to look at Dustin and Lucas in key moments).

^ The fifth instance of the shadow

It starts right when Dustin starts explaining the Veil of Shadows, and is completely gone when Mike next speaks, saying "an alternate dimension".

Immediate Impact: The boys understand more about where Will is, leading directly to them deciding to look for a way into the alternate dimension.

Long Term Impact: This leads into the conflicts between Mike, Lucas, and El which last through the rest of the season, and which severely slow their progress on finding the Gate/finding Will. This also impacts all of their assumptions/understandings about the UD going forwards.

Possible Instance 2

In s1e6, the shadow may appear very subtly just before Mike jumps off the quarry cliff.

^ Second possible instance, so subtle that I'm not convinced it's really there, but included for the sake of completeness

Immediate Impact: Mike feels indebted to El for saving his life. Mike, Dustin, and El learn that Mike is literally willing to kill himself to protect a friend's teeth.

Long Term Impact: The first of many moments when Mike goes on to put himself in danger to protect a friend. The aftermath of this moment also represents the first moment when Mike assures El that she's NOT the monster BECAUSE she saved him (which later grows into her s4 monster/superhero complex). Additionally, who knows what impact being involved in this moment had on Mike and Dustin's mental/emotional health, but I'm sure it's nothing good.

Sixth Instance

In s1e7, the shadow appears when Mike considers answering Nancy's attempt to radio contact the Party.

^ The sixth instance

It disappears when Mike decides not to answer/bats Lucas' hand away and stops him from answering. Mike only decides to answer after Hopper also speaks.

Immediate Impact: Rather limited, as Mike picks up the walkie very quickly after.

Long Term Impact: This is speculative, but I believe this may influence the negative way in which the Mike/Nancy relationship develops moving forward (ie. they both now know that he would literally sooner trust Hopper over Nancy in a crisis).

Additional note: This is interestingly at odds with the next Party scene, when they are waiting for Hopper to show up to help them. In that scene, Dustin says that he believes they are, in fact, being set up for a trap. Lucas counters by asking that there's no reason for Hopper to set them up, though he acknowledges "Nancy, maybe". Mike's response to this is to make a betrayed expression and throw his hands up, despite that seeming to have been Mike's own logical process in the previous scene. This may indicate some level of inner conflict or inconsistency within Mike? It's odd (not odd that he doesn't like hearing Lucas insult his sister-- but, rather, that in the heat of the moment he seemed to AGREE with Lucas' assessment despite clearly considering it an unfair insult after the fact).

Season 2

Seventh Instance

It seems to be there in s2e2 when Mike seems like he might be seeing El in the mind void. Note that this is only true of the version of Mike that El sees in the void, as the irl version is shadowed differently.

^ The seventh instance

Immediate Impact: Mike more firmly believes that he is "going crazy", negatively impacting his mental health. El becomes more determined to leave the cabin and "give Mike a sign" that she's still around (as he requested).

Long Term Impact: Difficult to determine, except that the immediate impacts obviously influence the overall plot of s2.

Additional note: Following this moment, Mike decides (confusingly) to act like he didn't just see/perceive/at the very least hear El over the radio. This ties in with a larger pattern with Mike in s2, where he's constantly reaching out to El, but also ignores or doubts his perception of every moment when she reaches out/shows herself to him, to the extent that, when he speaks to Max about it, he heavily implies that El is dead. This runs counter to his s1 actions regarding Will, but it's also very confusing in the context of his s2 actions regarding constantly trying to contact El.

I can't explain it because, unfortunately, we don't actually get to see into his POV quite enough to determine exactly why he doesn't seem to trust himself about El when he knows she has superpowers, he didn't see her body, and he was entirely right the last time he desperately hoped someone was alive. What I will note, though, is that I think the "crazy together" scene gives some really interesting perspective on what Mike thinks is going on in his own mind. Because he specifically says that he keeps thinking he sees El, and he compares this to Will's "flashbacks".

This may explain why, in "crazy together", one of Mike's first questions is whether Will believes that the things he sees are "real" or "all in his head", as it's likely that Mike is struggling with that same question regarding his belief that he is, at least sometimes, seeing/hearing/sensing El. Unfortunately for Mike and for the audience, we don't actually get to find out the answer on Mike's end, because Mike doesn't have a clear picture of how often El was near him/reaching out to him compared to how often he thought he saw/sensed her, and the audience doesn't have a clear picture of exactly what Mike means when he says that he keeps thinking he sees her.

Odd Instance 1

In s2e3, while discussing the fact that Dart is from the UD, Mike's right eye is in shadow. This starts when Mike suggests (accurately, but surprisingly given that nobody else, not even the scientists trained in this/who are regularly looking at Will's brain scans have even considered it) that Will has True Sight. It only gets darker as the conversation continues.

^ First odd instance

Based on this scene, I am going to make a supposition: if the left eye being shadowed indicates Henry spying through/possessing/influencing Mike, then maybe the right eye indicates Mike (unknowingly) looking back through at Henry's mind? This might explain his sudden leap to believing that Will has True Sight (rather than the arguably more logical conclusion that Will simply remembered something like Dart from the UD).

Odd Instance 2

In s2e4, the shadow appears over Mike's right eye again when the Party (sans Will) are discussing Will's most recent "episode". Mike seems to firmly believe (accurately) that Will has True Sight, and that the shadow can harm Will, even though they have no apparent reason to assume so. This could just be Mike's hyper vigilance rearing its head, OR it could be another example of Mike knowing something about the UD that he can't explain/doesn't have any good reason to know.

^ The second odd instance

Odd Instance 3

In s2e5, the shadow is over Mike's right eye when he suggests that maybe Will can spy back.

^ The third odd instance in as many episodes

I will note that if Mike is spying back, then this season makes a lot of sense as the time for him to be doing so without being noticed, given that Will is being possessed by the Mind Flayer/Henry, so we can assume that Henry is distracted.

It's also really interesting that Will asks Mike, "what if [the Mind Flayer] figures out we're spying on him". Just... in this potential context, very interesting that Will says "we", as if they're both spying. Mike goes along with the "we" phrasing after Will uses it, as well.

Eighth Instance

I'll admit, I don't know quite what to make of this one but in s2e6, the shadow is very clearly over Mike's left eye when Will first wakes up and doesn't recognize Bob.

^ The slightly baffling eighth instance

Immediate Impact: Mike (in addition to Joyce, Bob, and Hopper) is worried for Will.

Long Term Impact: It's possible that Mike's concern for Will might keep him from realizing what the Mind Flayer is doing soon enough to stop the killings? Additionally, this sets into motion the end of the season possession arc.

Additional notes: I will point out that this occurs right after Bob brought up moving to Maine and Joyce indicated that she would not be opposed. In that context, it may not be the impacts of this scene which are important but, rather, the context before it? I'm not sure.

Ninth Instance

It again seems to be there in s2e7 when El, in the mind void, sees Mike desperately trying to warn everyone about the trap that the Mind Flayer laid for them. As with the previous time it was there in the mind void, I could not see it on Mike irl.

^ The ninth instance

Immediate Impact: On Mike's end, this is him failing to warn everyone. On El's end, this is what directly leads to her returning to Hawkins.

Long Term Impact: It is highly likely (though not outright stated in the show) that Mike goes on to blame himself for not realizing soon enough what was going on, impacting his ongoing mental health. Also, because El returns, she is able to close the Gate and protect her family (which is nominally bad for Henry, but I'll note that the Mind Flayer in s3 does seem to have an interest in her, so there may be some reason she, or at least her power, is desired back in Hawkins).

Odd Instance 4

This one occurs in s2e8, when Mike is suggesting that they could stop the Demodog army by stopping the Mind Flayer. Yet again, the right eye is shadowed when Mike is certain about something he probably shouldn't be, but Henry/the Mind Flayer very much would be.

^ The fourth odd instance

It disappears when the rest of the Party (plus Steve) start to catch up/when Mike slows down to explain the logic behind what he just said.

Tenth Instance

At the Snow Ball in s2e9, as Mike watches Will dance, the left shadow appears. It remains on his face as he pulls a disgusted-confused expression at Dustin's choice to ask other girls to dance.

^ The tenth instance

The impact for this one is difficult to judge, because it depends a LOT on how you interpret this moment. Was this Mike feeling jealous over Will? Did Mike recognize what those feelings were? How much did it consciously or unconsciously drive his actions in s3? However, I'll say that the general impact very likely has something to do with Mike's feelings for Will and possibly to do with his internalized homophobia, both of which impact the wedge the forms between them in s3 and s4.

To whatever extent Mike's feelings existed and were or weren't recognized by him at the Snow Ball, they certainly do play a significant role in his relationships with Will and El, and Mike's reactions to them do cause emotional complications for all three members of the love triangle.

Season 3

Eleventh Instance

It appears VERY strongly and suddenly in s3e1, when Dustin is discussing Suzie for the first time. It starts when Mike asks if Suzie is cute and gets stronger and stronger until it reaches its peak when Dustin says that Mike should "think Phoebe Cates, only hotter" (while Mike is making a disgusted expression).

^ The eleventh instance

Immediate Impact: Limited, because Mike is very much in the background of this scene/is not driving the action.

Long Term Impact: As many people have pointed out, Mike's expression of disgust at the idea of Phoebe Cates being hot may be indicative of his sexuality. If so, I'd argue that this scene (and the thoughts he might have as a result of it, especially if you believe, as I personally do, that the Snow Ball in s2 was his "oh no is it weird that I'm jealous over Will? Am I gay? I can't be gay-- no, no, I'm not gay look I'm dancing with El, I'm kissing El, I'm pretty sure I probably like El" moment, making s3 his questioning period until he knows for sure at the end of this season) does lead pretty directly into the rain fight. If "it's not my fault you don't like girls" is Mike projecting, then it's moments like this, when his friends so casually talk about their interest in women/girls in general, which would build that pressure inside him until it ultimately comes out at Will. Which... obviously, that fight sets up the dynamic between Mike and Will moving forward/drives a wedge between them that won't be fully gone until they hopefully have a real conversation and stop hiding things from one another in s5.

Twelfth Instance

It seems to be there in s3e2, when Mike is interested in buying the teddy bear charm for El.

^ The twelfth instance

Immediate Impact: Mike seems to lose hope for finding El an "I'm sorry" present after this moment (after this, the boys are shown looking at perfume and accidentally stumbling up to the lingerie shop, but Mike seems to be pretty over it with the perfume, and we don't really see them looking at anything more age/budget appropriate).

Long Term Impact: This whole sequence leads up to the fight between Mike and El this season. It certainly illustrates to the audience that Mike doesn't actually know El well enough to pick out a gift she would appreciate, so I think it's worth noting that, although it's not explicitly stated, it's at least possible that Mike may realize this too, and if he does, it's somewhat possible that this moment may, like the moment mentioned above, add pressure to his issues regarding liking girls or not.

Possible Instance 3

In s3e5, when Mike, Lucas, and Will are discussing the possibility of a plan to find Billy again and stop him, Mike keeps shooting down Lucas' suggestions. As he insists that they can't just settle for stopping Billy, but that they need to stop the Mind Flayer entirely, the shadow appears over his left eye, and it disappears after Will suggests that maybe El knows how to stop the Mind Flayer, even if the rest of them don't.

^ The third possible instance

Immediate Impact: This leads directly to El deciding to look for Billy again, and to her fighting the Mind Flayer, which we know is what the Mind Flayer/Henry wants, because we are explicitly told that it's hunting/interested in her.

Long Term Impact: Because of the immediate impact, this leads to Mike impulsively telling everyone but El that he loves her (which continues to be an issue the whole way through s4), and it leads to El overexerting herself and losing her powers for long enough that Henry can enact his s4 plan.

Additional note: This is right before the "conspiring" scene. Though the shadow is gone by that point, this is not the first time that the left eye shadow coincides with/precedes moments when Mike seems to make odd leaps in logic/to have odd or paranoid emotional responses. If it is an indication of Henry infiltrating his mind/spying through him/subtly messing with his perceptions or thoughts, then that pattern makes perfect sense.

Thirteenth Instance

It appears again in the aftermath of Mike saying that he loves El/when he refuses to tell her what he said when she directly asks.

^ Thirteenth instance

Immediate Impact: El (who we know from later on heard what Mike said) knows that he is lying again. Everybody who was in that room fully believes that Mike is in love with El (or at least that he has romantic feelings for her which her perceives as love, seeing as he's only thirteen). Based on Mike's upset expression, it's likely that he realizes the implications of what he just said, though there are many possible reasons why those implications might be upsetting to him, but regardless, whatever he's thinking is clearly negative.

Long Term Impact: //gestures wildly at all of the Mike/El conflict in s4. But, seriously, in the long term, this is the moment that first sets up Mike's confession to El at the end of s4.

Odd Instance 5

The shadow is back over Mike's right eye when he tries to warn El away from attempting to look into Billy's mind. He tries to tell her that it's a trap (it is), and when she says that she knows and doesn't care, he looks silently at her with a very concerned expression.

^ Odd instance 5

Following this, he tries to warn her that something bad could happen if she attempts to reach out to Billy, even though things were fine with her mother, because her mother didn't want to hurt El, but Billy does. This is all true, and it seems as though this was Henry's plan anyway (wait for El to come to Billy and then use that to find her). It's also interesting that as an audience, we sort of already know this is true, because reaching out to her mother was not the first time we saw El physically reaching for someone/something. In s1 we saw her reaching out for the Demogorgon, and touching it seemed to lead it right to her/the Lab.

It's not unreasonable that El doesn't seem to believe this will happen again, but it's very interesting that Mike, with a shadow over his right eye, realizes this. Despite presumably never having been told the specifics of that moment (we certainly don't see that discussion on screen if it's the case), and despite certainly not having been there to witness it. The Demogorgon is part of the hive mind, though. As is Henry. So we can assume that Henry knows of this possibility (and, based on the fact that this seems to be his plan, he may well be counting on it).

Season 4

Fourteenth Instance

In s4e1, the shadow seems to return to Mike's left eye during the conversation between himself, Dustin, and Lucas regarding Lucas' plan to gain popularity in an effort to protect both himself and the Party. It seems to show up right around the moment when Mike asks if Lucas has considered that Mike and Dustin might not want to be popular, and it grows darker when Lucas asks if that means they want to be "stuck with the nerds and freaks" for the rest of High School/when Dustin identifies himself and Mike as "nerds and freaks". It continues to persist as Lucas makes his case that he doesn't believe they have to be "nerds and freaks", and explains that he's worn out from having been bullied all his life.

^ The fourteenth instance

Immediate Impact: Obviously, this represents a wedge being driven between Mike and Lucas (also Dustin and Lucas, but Dustin and Lucas sort of get to work through that throughout s4, while Mike and Lucas don't get that opportunity). I do have an additional thought, though:

Note that my understanding of s4 includes a Mike who is aware that he is queer, and aware that he has feelings for Will, because this significantly impacts my reading of the potential impact of this scene, and this may not be relevant if you subscribe to a different idea.

In that context, Mike... probably knows that there isn't actually any safety in social climbing. If his secrets are found out by the wrong people (and Mike has no way to know who the right people are), then, to quote Robin, suddenly he's "the town pariah". At least at the bottom of the social food chain, nobody's interested enough in him to go looking for anything more obviously "wrong" with him than what they can see on the surface.

This is at odds with Lucas' experiences (and, Lucas isn't aware of Mike's concerns, so this issue 100% isn't on him, I'll hear no Lucas slander), because Lucas can't be "in the closet" about being black. But for Mike, the best thing he can do to protect himself is to fly under the radar.

This was a long way to go for me to say that I think the immediate impact of this scene is that this is a moment when Mike is confronted by the fact that the things that might make Lucas safer (and, because at least in s3 Mike seems to look up to Lucas/view Lucas as something of an aspirational "normal" guy, transitively the things that make "normal" guys safer) are not necessarily the same things which will make Mike safer.

Long Term Impact: This drives the conflict between Mike/Dustin and Lucas which continues through the season. It serves to isolate Lucas. If my interpretation of the immediate impacts is correct, it likely also plays a role in why Mike tries so desperately to seem "normal" once he gets to California (ESPECIALLY if he actively fears he will be "found out" if he lets himself act naturally around Will), a choice which obviously drastically impacts Mike, Will, and El's arcs this season.

Fifteenth Instance

I honestly don't know what to make of this one, but it's pretty clearly there during Eddie's campaign. It disappears around the time that the Hellfire Club are actively fighting Vecna.

^ Fifteenth instance

I don't think I can reasonably speculate on the impact of this one (because we are yet to see how Mike's appreciation of Eddie, whether you read it as a crush or as hero worship, will come to fruition in s5 following Eddie's death), so this may simply be tied to events that we do not have the context for yet. Though I do find it a little bit interesting that Mike's left eye is shadowed out during the scene where Eddie is bringing Vecna back into the game. I have some... concerns.

I mean... if the D&D Demogorgon from Mike's OG campaign actually foreshadows Henry and NOT the UD Demogorgon, then I think it's likely that Eddie's Vecna might actually foreshadow something other than Henry. I do have some actual thoughts about this, but it isn't going to be talked about here, because this post is long as hell already.

Possible Odd Instance 1

This one occurs in s4e2, starting just after Mike fails to hug Will and building as he speaks to Argyle. I consider it only "possible" because it's fairly faint, and is on the same side as his face is shaded.

^ Possible odd instance of the shadow on the right side

If this is an intentional example, I honestly don't know what to make of it. From what I've seen, it's the only time that doesn't fit the pattern of a right eye shadow when Mike is realizing something supernatural/UD-related, or even having an UD-related conversation. If it's meant to imply something, I honestly don't have any idea what.

Sixteenth Instance

At Rink-O-Mania in s4e2, the shadow appears over Mike's left eye when he's meeting Angela, and is especially dark when he says that he's "heard a lot about" her.

The shadow comes and goes throughout the Rink scenes (carrying over into s4e3), but is especially prominent during the "what about us" part of his fight with Will (and while waiting with Will and El to be picked up after the "skate attack").

^ Part of the sixteenth instance; intensity of the shadow when Mike and Will are fighting

Immediate Impact: Mike's cluelessness in this scene means that he does nothing to protect El/inadvertently reveals her lies to Angela, which leads directly to what happens next. Additionally, if the belief that Mike thought Will might have a crush on Angela/might have been painting for Angela is accurate, then this is also his jealousy over Will peaking (which, in turn, leads to his part in the upcoming argument with Will).

Long Term Impact: In terms of Mike/El, this scene leads directly into the "skate attack", which kicks off all of the conflict between Mike and El, which obviously culminates in the confession at the end of the season. Assuming the second half of my immediate impact assessment is also correct, then this moment ALSO kicks off the Mike/Will conflict, because it's what puts Mike in the mood to pick a fight with Will rather than just ignore him.

Possible Instance 5

In s4e8, it seems to show up briefly and SUPER subtly over Mike's left eye when Will first hands him the painting/as Mike begins to unroll it. It fades as soon as Mike unrolls the painting enough to see what it's of, and by the time he turns to face Will, the shadow is entirely gone. It may come back a little bit after Will says that El commissioned the painting, though less and less every time Will mentions her.

^ Another possible instance, this one very brief and VERY subtle

Immediate Impact: If this is meant to imply anything, most likely it's building off of the shadow over Mike's left eye when he was jealous about the painting previously. Given that it goes away during this scene, I'd hazard that this represents Mike's jealousy vanishing as he realizes the painting was for him (and possibly even begins to suspect the implications behind that, depending on how you interpret Mike's level of understanding in the van scene).

Long Term Impact: With the above being said, if the shadow vanishing in this scene does actually represent Mike's dark thoughts (at least regarding Will being interested in someone else/painting for someone else/uninterested in Mike) being alleviated, it still culminates in the confession scene when "reality" sets in for Mike. If this lighting is actually related to Henry's influence on Mike/Mike's association with the Mind Flayer, then it's worth noting that the only thing that could possibly hurt worse, for Mike, than knowing he's slowly losing Will/that he'll eventually lose Will because Mike wants "too much" from their relationship, is having a moment of thinking he has a chance with Will... only to have that hope shattered, which this moment sets up. There will almost certainly be further impacts from the painting/van scene in s5, but sadly we don't know what those will be, yet.

Seventeenth Instance

I won't get too deeply into it, since it's been thoroughly discussed in the post that I linked at the start of this whole thing, but in s4e9, Mike's left eye is shadowed quite intensely for most of the pizza dough freezer mind fight.

^ Example from the confession

Immediate Impact: Will's heartbroken, El seems to be annoyed and possibly actively held back from saving Max, and if Mike's continued glances over at Will suggest anything, he's probably not giving this confession to the person he wants to be giving it to (and/or he's struggling to reconcile what he thought was going on with Will speaking in code in the van with the fact that Will is now actively pushing him to confess to El).

Long Term Impact: It seems like this didn't improve Mike and El's communication or relationship, but besides that, the impact won't really be felt until s5.

Eighteenth Instance

The shadow is also visible over Mike's left eye when he steps out of the pizza van to meet up with his family back in Hawkins. It sticks around all through his hug with his mother, but dissipates the moment that she makes it clear that she's telling him off/hugging him because she was worried about him.

^ The eighteenth instance

I won't get too deeply into the impacts of this, because it's so close to the end of the season that we simply don't know. I'll note that it's probably concerning that it seems like Mike may have been surprised that his own mother was concerned when he dropped off the map/was unable to be contacted for almost a week while in another State, so that insecurity may be addressed in s5 (at least I hope so), but that's the most speculating I can do here.

Nineteenth Instance

This one has the potential to be upsetting, if the left eye shadow really does suggest Henry is influencing/looking through Mike, because it's also there in the final heart to heart that Mike and Will have, where Will reveals that Henry is still alive and that he can feel him now that he's back in Hawkins (also the only heart to heart this season where it shows up). It gets darker and darker throughout the scene.

^ Nineteenth instance, this screenshot being from the moment when Mike promises they'll kill Henry

Obviously the impacts of this scene are entirely yet to be seen in s5.

Additional note: I know I haven't been focused on the lighting on any characters except Mike in this post, but... during this same conversation, where Will is admitting to knowing impossible things/things he shouldn't about Henry via their continued mental connection, Will has a shadow over his right eye, which does match with the theme that seemed to be present in all but one of Mike's instances of having a shadow over his right eye.

Possible Odd Instance 2

In the very ending shot of s4, Mike's right eye appears to have a distinct shadow over it.

^ Possible shadow over Mike's right eye in the very last shot of s4

Again, surmising the actual impacts of this scene is impossible without s5 to give it context.

Additional notes: Will, El, and Hopper all also seem to have shadows over their right eyes in this ending shot as well, which is a little bit interesting, because those are the three characters I've also noticed sometimes having the same left eye shadow thing as I've been outlining for Mike in this post. I'll be honest, there's not a single chance I'm doing this for all those characters, but I do think it's a potentially interesting connection.

#mike wheeler #byler #<- it's not the main focus but it's there and also target demo #long post #my analysis #I swear in some of these he looks like he has a black eye #fun fact: this is also just a collage of pictures where Mike looks various shades of Miserable and Upset #obviously a lot of this is going to be up to interpretation #my interpretations are not the be all end all #I'm just interested by the fact that this shadow exists across multiple seasons

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➤ SQUALL LEONHART [ ; ] MISC. BEHAVIOUR HEADCANONS. * stuff quickly jotted down via old chatterings with @/myristicisms.

These are just a few miscellaneous headcanons — short / tiny ones that all kind of blend together into a bigger vague one. Namely Squall struggling with balancing emotions & his usual brand of logic when it comes to stressful situations involving people he cares deeply about.

He has a tendency to grow way more impulsive & illogical in those kind of situations, his emotions run quite high, something he’s far from used to handling. In this case, the idea was tossed in regarding his FF7 verse & @/myristicisms Zack, on how he’d react to finding him after his last stand where he survives / clings to life long enough for him to find him & it led into some overall angsty thoughts on my end because he doesn’t handle loss well in the slightest.

For a large majority of his life, no matter the verse, he’s had nothing but that cold protective barrier in place that’s kept him from getting too emotionally attached to others enough to connect. He is a distant man, firmly, stubbornly logical in a way to protect himself. Loss of any kind is usually instantly equated to abandonment & he has yet to work through that in a healthy way on top of dealing with the newness of learning to trust without suspicion. He knows death happens, it’s inevitable but emotions get in the way of that & twist his fears into something more self-sabotaging & horrible. So when he does grow close to someone & there is a very real threat of that same loss happening, he rushes into reckless protective shield mode with some tunnel vision until things calm down again enough for him to snap out of it.

This just mostly leads into his devotion issue once he gets close to someone. I’ve mentioned it in other posts in the past where once he cares for someone he can become overprotective & slightly paranoid. He has a habit of ‘floating’ or distantly clinging nearby when his nerves get the best of him in situations that spark at it. Usually this only crops up when there’s a mission involved or a lurking danger that hasn’t been dealt with. He snaps into a hyper-alert state where he tends to focus on small details over the bigger picture like he’s normally able to do, & it results in this weird, him standing like a ghost just nearby enough to act should something happen, while trying & failing to maintain his usual distant, collected façade. It’s a lot of barely stifled internal frustration because he knows how he’s acting is illogical, stupid even, but he still can’t help from feeling that urging sense of fear that if he fucks up, he’ll lose someone else again.

It doesn’t last long a lot of the times though, because usually, if attention is brought towards his behaviour, he panics & gets flighty, leaving & getting heavily avoidant. Or he rushes off to try fixing things with any solution that jumps to mind first. All in all this man is garbage with emotions & how to handle them, but he is extremely genuine in a lot of things he does once he’s bonded with someone.

For Zack, in that verse especially, he’s been stuck in nothing but the mindset of he’s just a weapon, the only thing that matters is the mission he’s assigned, & he’s resigned himself to just being an outsider or observer when it came to more normal interactions knowing he will rarely if ever get the chance to experience the same thing. At least until Zack came along & challenged that way of thinking. So yeah he’s going to react very strongly & lash out like a very noisy, angrily protective chihuahua. Zack is very capable of defending himself — Yes, strong as hell & greatly resilient — but that won’t do much to help Squall not act as he will, by trying to shove himself between any perceived threat / danger or cling close by just in case.

#╰┈➤ ┊❛ CASE STUDY. / CHARACTER ANALYSIS. ❜┊#╰┈➤ ┊❛ HEADCANONS. ❜┊#MUSE: [ SQUALL LEONHART. ]#➤ *𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐘 𝐕𝐈𝐈. ( SQUALL LEONHART ) turk verse #❝ When the words weigh heavy on the heart. Lost & led only by the stars. ❞ . [ MYRISTICISMS ]#Anyways he makes me sigh #I love him but urge to rattle is stronk sometimes

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hi baby i am losing my mind at home. and mybe im in the wrong. my mom got a new bf since maybe two months and the same day she told me about him, i met him, and that weekend he was there the whole time. and now, that was a month ago, he basically is here constantly. am i being a cunt for being annoyed by this? i love that shes happy, but her last husband was very toxic and made me feel very uncomfortable and unsafe so i am not at ease at all with a pretty much complete stranger in my house. i told her how i felt about it, and she blew up at me calling me egocentric and selfish and made me feel in general very very the odd one out, and like i was not allowed to feel that way. i asked her, after having a full blown panic attack in front of her, to try and keep in mind that when im at home (which is not much considering im in college and only here every few weeks for two days) to at least let me know if he’ll be here, and preferably just not. which she didnt, again, this weekend. i really dont know what to do. bc i really dont feel at home and like im wanted here and ignored and in general very anxious. the guy isnt bad or whatever, but its the same pattern from with her ex where her relationship became more important than me and this whole thing is so incredibly triggering. ig the answer is just a very simple ‘dont go home’ but i am so desperate for recognition and i just want to feel seen by her. i just dont know how to be fine with having a mom that doesnt want me. im really sorry this is so long. i hope youre doing okay <3

hi lovely - im sorry to hear this. it sounds so fucking frustrating and honestly i don't think your reaction is unreasonable at all! there is an appropriate way to introduce your kids to your boyfriend and this is definitely not it, especially if you've had a bad experience with her partners in the past. it is incredibly unfair and childish of her to blow up at you and to have him spend the whole weekend at your place the first weekend you guys met. like, no wonder you feel upset and overwhelmed by it all. it's not a great way to get to know each other, and her disregard for your feelings is awful.

it sounds like you've tried everything you can to set the right boundaries and to communicate clearly and respectfully what you're feeling with her, and of course if you want to you should keep trying to get through to her, but i think it's important to know when it's time to protect your own peace and focus on what is actually in your control. it's totally natural to crave feeling seen and recognised by her, like as much of a human need as eating or sleeping is, but if she's not able to give that you you don't need to internalise it as something that is your fault or something you deserve. it is entirely a reflection of her and her fucked up priorities if she refuses to listen and to amend her own behaviour. like it's obviously ok for her to date, and she doesn't need your permission, but she is not being respectful of your space at all, and that is the problem. i know accepting that is incredibly difficult, and it may take a long time to be able to say “hey, i deserve better than this and i will not beg for her validation, or for her to grow up and act like an adult about things,” but that really is the bottom line. if you still want to go home often, which is obviously completely understandable, maybe you could work on just setting your own boundaries within the house - staying in your room, only engaging with the dude/your mother to the extent that you feel comfortable with, even just straight up communicating to the guy that you're not really used to having him around and you're trying to take things at your own pace. if either of them get offended by that, honestly it's on them. they clearly haven't been considering your feelings so it's ok to just do what's right for yourself at this point. i'm really sorry you're in this position and i hope it gets better with time, that they begin to hear you out and give you room to breathe and process etc etc. i guess i just wanted to offer some genuine understanding, because you're not being ridiculous at all - i think your mam kind of is. also, if there's anyone you can talk to at school about this - like a mate or a college counsellor, i'd really recommend it. i know it might feel really weird and vulnerable to be open about it, but it's an issue you're dealing with and you deserve to feel supported. just processing it out loud and getting someone's outside perspective might be really cathartic and validating. i don't know, no pressure obviously - just smth to consider. sending a hug your way. x

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curekibouka-writing · 2 years

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Sun-Tinted Glasses (Twst one-shot fanfic)

Summary: “You are trusted. You are followed. You are to stand above, and to stand with others. And if anyone tells you that is naïveté, they are nothing but remiss.”

Character focus: Kalim al-Asim

Word count: 1194

*This fic is also on FF.net, Quotev and Ao3

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A/N: Even an angst writer can’t taint the pure cuteness of Kalim’s Union birthday personal story… 🥲 Have some fluff as a gift, everyone! Happy birthday Kalim!

**Spoilers for Kalim Union Birthday story and voice lines**

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“Oh hey, Silver! Glad you came!” Kalim jumps up from his seat as his friend approaches.

In a panicking movement, Carpet quickly pulls Kalim back down. The birthday boy is still splattered with cream and Carpet hasn’t finished helping him clean it yet.

Silver briefly scans the amount of work poor Carpet has to do, “I hope fa… Lilia-senpai didn’t go all out.”

“Oh no, it was super fun!”

“That’s good to hear,” Silver remarks in all sincerity as he gives Kalim his present, “It’s nothing special, but I hope you find a use for it.”

“I know I’d love it, thanks!!” Kalim gives a big grin as he sets the present next to him, saving the unwrapping for later (lest he annoys Carpet again). He gestures for Silver to find a seat near to him.

Silver complies, knowing that Kalim would love to chat while not being able to move around and check on every guest at his party. “So, I heard from Lilia-senpai that you would choose Sebek as a little brother.”

“Yeah! You know, Sebek is so straightforward and so serious. He’d let me know if I’m doing anything wrong. Ah, but I could’ve chosen you as a brother too, Silver! I know my younger siblings would love you too, see, my third little brother is……”

Kalim glances at Silver from time to time while he chatters on, and he takes notice of a small smile that sneaks onto Silver’s lips. He curiously states, “Silver? You look very happy.”

“Yes,” Silver nods promptly, “I don’t mean to digress but I’m just glad someone sees Sebek the way I see him. His usual behaviours don’t speak well for him after all.”

“Hmmm true. But he’s a good guy at heart!” Kalim asserts strongly, “When you’re sleeping in the courtyard, I always feel too bad to wake you up, and then we’d almost be late to class. But Sebek would shout and make you wide awake, like, every day! He wouldn’t do that if he doesn’t care.

“Some people would keep quiet about these things. And it’d pile up into a biiiiig mountain, and one day everything’s bound to tumble down. It’s a good thing that Sebek can tell you practically everything.” Kalim concludes, and it’s difficult to tell whether he is consciously shifting his tone to something heavier. Both Carpet and Silver pause, knowing what he implies.

Kalim continues, sighs mixing in with his words, “Like how you fall asleep every now and then, I always go off doing and saying reckless things every now and then. It just won’t do if I’m on my own without someone to knock me on the head.”

“I always think you’re an amazing person, Kalim,” Silver defends, “The way you can easily find other people’s good points and your own room for improvement is not something I’d claim I can do.”

“But Jamil always says I have to be more cautious, while for me, I just don’t believe there’s all that much to be worried about. He says I’m looking through rose-tinted glasses, as in—“

“Oh I wouldn’t call it that~”

An upside down face suddenly drops from the ceiling between the conversing boys. Kalim and Carpet jumps while Silver calmly addressing the intruder, “Lilia-senpai. Please, must you startle Kalim on his birthday?”

“My entrance earlier was far too ordinary for my taste, I must make up for it,” Lilia lands softly on the floor and bounces to pat Kalim on the head, “And he’ll be alright, he’s a resilient child, aren’t you, Kalim?”

“Aha, thanks!”

Lilia claims a seat for himself and continues, swinging a finger in circles in the air, clearly enjoying the topic, “Kalim is a smart and kind child. You are always looking at everyone very closely, aren’t you?”

To believe in someone. To put your life on the line.

To find something to believe in. To find an oasis in a desert.

There are people in this world who wouldn’t try. They’d say they’ve seen too much darkness. They’d go on a journey to flee this desert, to get away, and if they’re lucky enough then they may stumble upon some sort of salvation. Otherwise, they will always be trapped somewhere where they can make excuses for not trying to see, always repeating the same mistakes.

There are people in this world who find their own salvation. They’d try to look close enough, look deep enough. There’s always something they’d manage to find. One drop, one cup, one rainfall, enough to last one lifetime.

These people move forward.

These people grow.

“You see through sun-tinted glasses,” Lilia declares firmly yet gently, “It is quite a unique power you have there. People’s strengths, needs, desires, you’ve observed them well, and you use them in good ways. You are trusted. You are followed. You are to stand above, and to stand with others. And if anyone tells you that is naïveté, they are nothing but remiss. Perhaps they are the ones who haven’t looked close enough.”

Silver glances at his father, he recognises the sort of pride in his father’s complexion and voice. He, too, feels confident as he agrees, “Yes, Kalim. You are loved by your dorm mates, you are a great dorm leader. I’m sure you’ll be just as successful in the future as long as you keep this strength of yours.”

As Carpet also gives Kalim an assuring nudge, Kalim scratches his head bashfully and says, “T-Thanks, you all!” He once again jumps up as Carpet finishes cleaning the pie cream, “Alright! I’m gonna do what I can do now, I’m gonna go look around at my guests! Everyone needs to have a ton of fun at Kalim al-Asim’s birthday party!”

Silver discreetly looks at Lilia, and Lilia happily waves his son to go with his friend. Silver nods politely as he leaves his seat, while Lilia leans cozily on cushions as he watches his son go.

He lets out a breath in a hum. “Quite worrisome to watch over children like them, is it not?” He meant to wonder out loud to himself, but he doesn’t mind seeing the Carpet seem to give it some thought too.

Lilia is glad he tried. Once, one to two decades ago. How lucky he was to have found this much to believe in. To have found a child whose aurora-coloured eyes always look at him and the world he loves with sun-tinted glasses.

He is glad he tried. He is glad he found a life who depends on him, who became the salvation he needed.

After some thought, Carpet seems to share Lilia’s sentiment very strongly, to the extent that it is trying to act out how it worries for its partner with its entire body, from tassel to tassel.

“Kufufu. Well, it certainly doesn’t hurt for them to be a little cautious,” Lilia sighs lightly.

Night will fall. Beyond those sun-tinted glasses are traitors. Traitors who lost to fate. Traitors who don’t fight time.

He would change for the child he loves, if he could. But there are secrets and lies that are too late for him to take back.

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The End

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A/N: This fic is so unapologetically self-indulgent on soooo many levels that it has almost no point except making me very happy.

#twisted wonderland #kalim al asim #twst kalim #twst silver #silver #Lilia Vanrouge #magic carpet #twisted wonderland fanfiction #twst fanfic #twst fanfiction #disney twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland writing #twst writing #scarabia #scarabia fanfic #twisted wonderland scenarios #twst birthday

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