James who loved Lily for so long it became as natural as breathing
James who even if his love for Lily was incomparable also falled for anyone telling him he have feelings for him
James who have so much love in him that he thought it was normal to fall for more than one person
James who cried often after his new love broke his heart because they refused to be second behind Lily letting him confused because it was not that, he just loved both there was no order
James who was at the astronomy tower one day and saw Regulus in the beautiful light of the night and realized he was probably the most beautiful person he ever saw
James who started to watch carefully his best friend's brother everyday realizing he was more than Sirius' brother, he was Regulus and he was absolutely incredible
James who felt for Regulus without even knowing when for real
James who started to be intoxicated by his love, dealing with two love so intense it make him struggle to breath but always rejected because they thought he was not serious
James who one day had break, crying all his love out at night when everyone was asleep
James who decided love was just not for him and he should stop hoping to be loved back like he love people
James who became a ghost of himself, refusing to go to dates with everyone and doing less and less pranks
James who one day see again Regulus at the astronomy tower at night and even if he promised himself to stay away he couldn't help but trying comfort the other boy until his tears stop and they both go away without a words after that
James who returned to the tower every night and who saw the Slytherin there most of it
James who always take the time to comfort Regulus even if that mean staying up all night because even if love is not for him and he can't ask for anything he still love the boy deeply, so deeply it make him feel like drowning when he see tears on his cheeks
James who never expected anything from Regulus and who almost cried when one day Regulus asked him why he was doing all that and what he wanted in return
James who tried to put distance again so Regulus would not feel forced to give him anything
James who almost fell in the stairs of surprise when one day he returned to the tower and Regulus asked him in tears why he stopped to be there for him, if he was not deserving his comfort anymore, what kind of shit was that? Regulus deserve the world, of course he deserves comfort!
James who saw the night pass and the comfort became love slowly, night after night
James who felt his heart explode when Regulus kissed him and cried of happiness
James who started to be alive again to everyone surprise and joy but he was not like before too, he was just like back to life
James who kissed Regulus one last time before the summer vacations and when he stepped back saw the wand in his hand
James who felt dizzy for days after the last night at Hogwarts before the vacation without remembering why
James who felt his heart scream and cry when he saw Regulus back in September without knowing why
James who get confused by his feelings and ended up crying in Lily's arms one night after a bad nightmare he couldn't remember
James who felt his love for Lily grow more when they became friends for real after that night but refused to let his feelings ruins everything
James who refused to kiss Lily because she was drunk and never expected her to come kiss him the next day, sober this time
James who started dating Lily but felt like something was missing anyway
James who one more drink a potion thinking it was his pumpkin juice and vaguely heard Remus speaking about the fact it's one making people remember what they want to remember the most
James who drowned in memories of loving night under the stars and cried all the water in his body when he wake up from the experience
James who explained everything to Lily thinking she would hate him but felt even more love for her when she understood and decided to help her to get Regulus out of his family's hands
James who saw Lily cornering Regulus and forcing him to at least speak with them while James could only watch because Regulus refused to even look at him
James who saw Lily and Reg becoming closer after every secret meeting and felt his heart beat like drums about it
James who asked Lily to punch him in the face when she told him she started to maybe live Reg too because it could only be a dream right?
James who loved so much the time he could spend with his flower and star every night when everyone was asleep and hoped for this to never stop
James who promised Regulus they will come get him during the summer vacations so he will can take all his things and not let Walburga burn it like for Sirius
James who prepared everything with Lily under the confused eyes of their friends about their sudden urge to take Sirius' brother away especially when he refused to come when Sirius left
James who felt his heart break when Regulus ended up by refusing to leave and showing his lovers the mark on his arm saying it was too late
James who refused to leave and got forced to when Walburga entered the room as Regulus pushed him in the fireplace and send him back
James who cried with Lily for weeks as they tried again and again to have contact with Regulus
James who hoped that at least at Hogwarts he would see him and maybe fix things again only to see his hope crushed when Regulus kissed Crouch and Rosier in front of him seeming to have heart eyes for them
James who graduated with Lily and left Hogwarts knowing he would probably never see their other love anymore
James who was peacefully cooking when he saw a stag patronus enter the kitchen and screamed to Lily that Regulus needed them
James who again cried when he understood it was too late and Regulus was not here anymore
James who promised he would never lose another of his love and will protect Lily with his life, dying for her would be an honorable death for him
James who ended up having an honorable death as he faced his supposed best friend with loving eyes
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