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By: Leor Sapir, Joseph Figliolia

Published: Nov 8, 2023

Fenway Community Health Center in Boston, the largest provider of transgender medicine in New England and one of the leading institutions of its kind in the United States, was named a defendant in a lawsuit filed last month. The plaintiff, a gay man who goes by the alias Shape Shifter, argues that by approving him for hormones and surgeries, Fenway Health subjected him to “gay conversion” practices, in violation of his civil rights. Carlan v. Fenway Community Health Center is the first lawsuit in the United States to argue that “gender-affirming care” can be a form of anti-gay discrimination.

The case underscores an important clinical reality: gender dysphoria has multiple developmental pathways, and many who experience it will turn out to be gay. Even the Endocrine Society concedes that many of the youth who outgrow their dysphoria by adolescence later identify as gay or bisexual. Decades of research confirm as much. Gender clinicians in the U.K. used to have a “dark joke . . . that there would be no gay people left at the rate [the Gender Identity Development Service] was going,” former BBC journalist Hannah Barnes reported. Rather than help young gay people to accept their bodies and their sexuality, what if “gender-affirming” clinicians are putting them on a pathway to irreversible harm?

Due partly to Shape’s lifelong difficulty in accepting himself as gay, his lawyers are not taking the usual approach to detransition litigation. Rather than state a straightforward claim of medical malpractice or fraud, they allege that Fenway Health has violated Section 1557 of the Affordable Care Act (ACA), which bans discrimination “on the basis of sex” in health care. In 2020, the Supreme Court ruled in Bostock v. Clayton County that “discrimination because of . . . sex” includes discrimination based on homosexuality. Citing this and other precedents, Shape’s lawyers argue that federal law affords distinct protections to gay men and lesbians—upon which clinics that operate with a transgender bias are trampling.

Shape grew up in a Muslim country in Eastern Europe that he describes in an interview as “very traditional” and “homophobic.” His parents disapproved of his effeminate demeanor and interests as a child. They wouldn’t let him play with dolls, and his mother, he says, made him do stretches so that he would grow taller and appear more masculine.

At 11, Shape had his first of several sexual encounters with older men. “I was definitely groomed,” he recounts. Shape proceeded to develop a pattern of risky sexual behavior, according to his legal complaint. He told his medical team at Fenway Health about his childhood sexual experiences, calling them “consensual.” The Fenway providers never challenged him on this interpretation, he alleges. They never suggested that he might have experienced sexual trauma or, say, explored how these events might have shaped his feelings of dissociation. (The irony is that Fenway Health describes its model of care as “trauma-informed.”)

As with the social environment they inhabited, Shape’s parents were “deeply homophobic,” he says. When Shape came out to his parents as gay at 15, they took him to a therapist, hoping that he would be “fixed.” But when he graduated high school at that same age, he moved to Bulgaria for college, and in 2007, at 17, he came to the United States for a summer program at the University of North Carolina. He later moved to Massachusetts to pursue an MBA at Clark University and immigrated to the U.S.

Though he had known about cross-dressers and transsexuals as a child (he had taken interest in Dana International, the famous Israeli transsexual who won the Eurovision Song Contest in 1998), it was only at Clark that he was introduced to the idea that some people are transgender. Other students began asking him about his pronouns and telling him about “gender identity.” After getting to know a “non-binary” person and a transgender woman, Shape started to make sense of his life retrospectively. As a boy going through puberty, he had developed larger-than-average breasts and was curvier than the other boys. It was hard for him to be accepted in the gay community, he told me, because gay men tend to value masculinity. His discomfort with social expectations about how men are supposed to look and behave, his sexual attraction to other men, his ongoing psychological and emotional distress: these were all signs, he learned from online forums, that he must have been “born in the wrong body.”

Shape quickly developed self-hatred and a strong desire to escape his body. When he started cross-dressing and presenting socially as a woman, things changed. It had been hard for him to win acceptance as an effeminate gay man, but he encountered far less hostility presenting as a woman. A subtle but important shift in his thinking took place.

“People wouldn’t take me seriously when I was a man who presented socially as a woman,” he says. “I had to actually be a woman.” Shape became immersed in online transgender culture, which told him that sex is a social construct, and that hormones and surgeries can actually turn him into a woman. As a result, Shape developed highly unrealistic expectations about what hormones and surgeries could do for him. An example noted in his legal filing: he stopped using condoms because he wanted to get pregnant.

Julie Thompson, a physician assistant and Medical Director of the Trans Health Program at Fenway Health, made no effort to perform differential diagnosis on Shape, his legal filing alleges. Shape told Thompson about his childhood sexual encounters, his troubled history of risky sexual activity, and his struggles with social and familial rejection on account of his homosexuality. Allegedly, she wrote these difficulties off as byproducts of society not accepting him as a “trans woman”—an approach known as “transgender minority stress.” Shape’s ongoing mental-health problems, it was determined, were due to “internalized transphobia.”

As Shape’s filing puts it, the Fenway clinic operated with a strong “transgender bias.” Every problem or counter-indication that came up was explained away as part of the stress that transgender people experience in an unwelcoming society. The clinicians at Fenway Health apparently assumed that sexual orientation and gender identity are two distinct and independent phenomena.

Shape was put on estrogen at age 23. According to his filing, he was not given “any explanation of the numerous potential adverse side effects of estrogen or its potentially unknown effects.” As Shape kept taking estrogen, he became even more emotional, depressed, and unstable. Notably, he did not dislike his male genitals—a fact that should have attracted more scrutiny from his clinicians—but seemed more distressed over his high sex drive and desire for intercourse with men. Though he says he frequently told his providers that he hoped “sex reassignment surgery” would reduce his sex drive, this statement did not cause them to reconsider whether estrogen was appropriate.

As the Fenway team allegedly saw it, Shape’s deterioration was evidence that he hadn’t gone far enough in his transition. They recommended that he attend First Event, a Boston-based conference held annually since 1980, where transgender people can meet one another, share ideas, interact with vendors, and find medical providers who will agree to perform procedures on them. Marci Bowers, the genital surgeon who is president of the World Professional Association for Transgender Health, has attended the conference in the past. According to Shape, the point of going to First Event was to find a surgeon who would operate on him.

He did just that, and in 2014, at 24, Shape underwent facial feminization surgery and breast implantation. Less than a year later, a surgeon surgically castrated him and conducted what’s euphemistically called “bottom surgery.” It didn’t work. As a result, Shape had to undergo several additional surgeries, the last one borrowing tissue from his colon. Still, the problems persisted.

It took Shape a few years to realize that he had made a terrible mistake. The problem he had been trying to solve all his life was not “internalized transphobia” but failure to accept himself as an effeminate gay man. His legal filing states that he had what the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders called, at the time he made contact with the clinic, “ego-dystonic homosexuality.” Because they failed to detect this and other mental-health problems, the Fenway team, argue Shape’s lawyers, “outrageously, knowingly, recklessly, and callously” led him to believe that he was really a heterosexual woman whose problems could be solved by de-sexing himself as male.

Shape was promised “gender euphoria.” Instead, he told me that he now sees himself as “mutilated.” His treatments have left him with “osteoporosis and scoliosis” as well as “mental fog,” according to his legal filing. Shape is now “faced with the impossible choice of improving his cognitive state and suffering the psychological and physical effect of phantom penis, or taking estrogen and suffering mental fog and fatigue, but no phantom penis and low libido.” He has also endured fistulas as a complication of his genital surgery and “suffers from sexual dysfunction and is unable to enjoy sexual relations.” He experiences dangerous inflammation. And not getting the mental health therapy he needed very likely caused Shape’s mental health to deteriorate throughout the several years that he was a patient at Fenway Health.

Shape now wants to have his breast implants removed. But insurance does not cover the procedure because it is not technically “gender affirming.” And since he cannot afford the hefty price tag, Shape has no choice but to live with the implants.

Understandably, criticism of gender medicine has focused largely on its use in minors. Its use in adults, however, is not without controversy. In the past, when clinicians spoke of adult transgender medicine, they were referring mainly to adult men who sought to change their bodies in their forties. Many had already spent years in marriage and were fathers of children.

That is no longer the case. Though data are limited, the main patient demographic in adult transgender clinics today appear to be 18-24-year-olds. In Finland, for example, adult referrals rose approximately 750 percent between 2010 and 2018, with 70 percent of referrals being 18-22-year-olds.

Humans reach full cognitive maturity around age 25, which means that there is often little to distinguish a 20-year-old from a 17-year-old in terms of impulse control, emotional self-regulation, and the ability to set long-term goals and prioritize them over present desires. Citing “irrefutable evidence” that being under 25 means having “diminished capacity to comprehend the risk and consequences of [one’s] actions,” the progressive decarceration and racial-justice advocacy group The Sentencing Project argues that the idea that people are adults once they reach age 18 “is flawed.”

Shortly after its founding in 1971, Fenway Community Health Center was repurposed to support the unique needs of gay and lesbian residents of Boston. According to Katie Batza, a historian of the clinic, the hippies and antiwar activists who founded Fenway Health “quickly solidified its reputation as an important gay medical institution.” During the 1980s, the clinic helped tackle the AIDS epidemic. That it now maltreats gay men like Shape by converting them into trans women reflects a tectonic shift within the institution’s culture.

American medicine has always found itself balancing two competing tendencies: the paternalism of care by experts on one hand, and the relativism of nonjudgmental customer service on the other. What has happened over the course of Fenway Health’s five decades of existence is a gradual loss of that equilibrium. Fenway has long defined its mission in terms of responsiveness to the stated needs and desires of community members: the volunteers who ran the clinic and offered its services free of charge, Batza writes, “focused on providing care and building community among Fenway residents, caring less if a volunteer met outside standards of professional qualification, which were often set by the state or medical profession, that the clinic critiqued.”

In the 1990s, the clinic set up a dedicated transgender unit. At first, “things moved slowly,” recounts Marcy Gelman, a nurse practitioner who served as Fenway Health’s first dedicated provider for transgender patients, in a document published by the institute about the history of its program. She is now its associate director of clinical research. “Patients didn’t get hormones right away. We wanted to get to know them, and required them to see a therapist for several months . . . we wanted to be careful.” This process felt too restrictive for some patients, and “a few got really angry.” Fenway Health says its “commitment to ensure patient safety . . . led to some conflicts with patients and community members.”

In the 2000s, Fenway Health adopted a new model of care for its transgender-identified patients, which it called the “informed consent model.” This came in response to patients complaining about “needless gatekeeping” and concerns that the clinic’s “customer service training specific to transgender patients lagged behind the development of its clinical care.” Using funding from the Blue Cross/Blue Shield Foundation, Fenway Health made a number of new hires and expanded its program. It drew inspiration from another community health clinic, the Mazzoni Center in Philadelphia, which was smaller than Fenway but served four times as many patients. “One key to [the Mazzoni Center’s] success,” the Fenway document explains, “was the elimination of any requirement for counseling before hormones were provided.” Ruben Hopwood, a physician who joined the Fenway team in 2005, developed this model for Fenway; soon thereafter, the institution’s three-month counseling requirement gave way to “a single hormone readiness assessment visit.”

In 2012, the World Professional Association for Transgender Health published the seventh version of its Standards of Care. In the chapter on hormone therapy, WPATH recommended eligibility criteria for estrogen or testosterone, including “persistent, and well-documented gender dysphoria” and having ongoing “medical or mental health concerns . . . reasonably well-controlled.” However, WPATH also noted a newly emerging “informed consent model” and cited Fenway Health as one of three clinics that developed and practiced it.

The difference between the models, WPATH explained, was that SOC-7 put “greater emphasis on the important role that mental health professionals can play in alleviating gender dysphoria and facilitating changes in gender role and psychosocial adjustment. This may include a comprehensive mental health assessment and psychotherapy, when indicated.” By contrast, Fenway Health’s model emphasizes “obtaining informed consent as the threshold for the initiation of hormone therapy in a multidisciplinary, harm-reduction environment. Less emphasis is placed on the provision of mental-health care until the patient requests it, unless significant mental health concerns are identified that would need to be addressed before hormone prescription.” Despite the obvious differences, WPATH insisted the two models were “consistent” with each other.

Currently, Fenway Health offers hormones on the informed-consent model. “Criteria for accessing hormone therapy,” it states, “are informed by the WPATH (World Professional Association for Transgender Health) guidelines.” In other words, Fenway Health defers to WPATH, which adopted its recommendations from Fenway Health.

Shape and his lawyers deny that Fenway’s informed consent process is “a safe and effective replacement for assessment, diagnosis, and treatment provided by an appropriately trained and licensed healthcare professional.” Fenway’s model, they argue, “relies heavily on patients’ self-diagnosis, which may be a result of confusion or a misunderstanding of medically defined terms.” It does not take into account a patient’s expectations from medical treatment, which, as in Shape’s case, can be highly unrealistic. It “does not inform patients about the risk of iatrogenic effects of affirmation.” Nor does it take into account a patient’s “medical decision-making capacity,” which may be impaired in the presence of “significant emotional distress” and “undue influence from persons in position of authority and trust.”

A key charge in Shape’s lawsuit is that Fenway Health is driven by “market expansion goals and political demands of transgender activists.” Approval for hormones and surgery, the clinic’s staff wrote in 2015, should be a “routine part of primary care service delivery, not a psychological or psychiatric condition in need of treatment.” A leading advocate for the no-gatekeeping model, which rests on the assumption that mismatch between one’s actual and perceived sex is a normal human variation and not a pathological condition, argues that adults and adolescents should be free to turn their bodies into “gendered art pieces.”

From Shape’s story, we can infer that Fenway Health, which could not be reached for comment, has yielded to a barely constrained medical consumerism. In 1997, the institute had eight transgender customers. By 2015, it had over 1,700. “The rapid and sustained growth of Fenway Health’s transgender health care, research, education, training, and advocacy,” the institute’s doctors proudly declare, “might be succinctly summarized by the mantra from the movie Field of Dreams: If you build it, they will come.”

If you haven't met Shape Shifter, see the following interviews:

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Literally "trans the gay away."

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torrancefavgirl · 3 months

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meet me, May💙🩵

May. she/her. 18. Egyptian. Ocean and car enthusiast. Future CEO. Shifter. Percy Jackson 2.0. Poseidon's fav daughter. Percy's girl.

Favorite color: blue.

Favorite Fandom : pjo, Smallville (currently).

Comfort character: percy jackson.

Godly parent: poseidon.

Hogwarts house: slytherin.

Fandoms I reblog/rant about: pjo, outer banks, teen wolf, devil's night, dc (jason todd), redacted audio, Smallville , Fast & furious

#May's obsessions #♡ desires

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canon-notcanon-warriorcats · 7 months

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"We need more female villains in warrior cats! Ya'll coulnd't handle mapleshade and she was a rather decent villain. Most of the time people just pick two sides: everyone but maple was wrong or everyone was right and maple was wrong. When, in fact, it's a much more deep and complex situation. More like everyone was an asshole expect for like, the kits, Myler and nettlepaw (there are more but like, i don't really remember). The thing with the book is that it is not black and white, most of the characters are morally grey with light or dark tendencies, but still in a grey area. Like, I can understand where Ravenwing is coming from, he's interpreting a sign from starclan and telling his clanmates about it. Oakstar and Frecklewish are deeply wounded due to being lied to about the kit's being Birchface's. However, does that justify the treatment towards Petalkit, Larchkit and Patchkit? Of fucking course not! It's not their fault who their father is. To Mapleshade? Understanble, to literal kids? Never. So much so, that I believe that if the kits got to stay in thunderclan, with Maple being the only one exiled, she would've not turned into revenge. After all, we all know that the thing she loved the most was her kits, and them being taken away from her forcefully, with her having little to no time to properly mourn their deaths, was what led her into the path of murdering those who wronged her *and* her kits. I feel it usually falls flat on the fandom that they were what mattered the most to her, and Appledusk's open denial about the kits was another trigger for her revenge. That and, let's be honest, Appledusk was one of the biggest assholes in the entire book, not only he was cheating on Reedshine with maple (who neither of the two were aware existed), he didn't give two shits about his kit's deaths. And one more thing, people used to shit so much on Reed, when she was right?? I know we are seeing Maple's pov and she sounds like an asshole but, she's not wrong, in the end Appledusk would always stay with her whilst maple was a fling. It sucks and it's bad but she isn't wrong. That sucks for maple but yeaah. As for Maple herself, a liar, a murderer, and a blame shifter. But also a mother, one that due to grief, rage and feeling betrayal over the death of her children, went down a path she would never be forgiven for. She definetly deserved her end, don't get me wrong, She is a very unreliable narrator too, but every narration of her has some truth to it. She's also stubborn and will get what she wants under all costs. But that's what makes her a good villain. I love her slow descent into quite literal madness over the grief and pain, how she feels that each of her kits live's should be paid back with more death and grief. I fucking adore this character ya'll don't understand. But yeah she's not a 100% Sauron evil character nor an "UWU baby girl wronged by the masses". She's a villain, she fucked things up, and she was a mother who loved her kids and her kids only. We will never get a villain like her again and we should be praising this book for how good it actually is. There won't be any other tragic villain stories like this. And if we do get another female villain, let's hope it's at least a decent character and not just a more worse attempt like sleekwhisker 2.0 Please correct me if my assesments are wrong but I'm having Mapleshade feelings and how everyone does her dirty with interpretations.

nah, mapleshade's story is really good and 3-dimensional (or as 3-dimensional as warrior cats has really gotten)

almost everyone in the story does something wrong, the situation is multiple people's faults, every single character (except those you listed) made mistakes, very tragic mistakes, but also very REALISTIC mistakes

mapleshade became a villain because of her society's rules, because of a merciless leader who decided to also punish toddlers for their parents' crimes (whether oakstar was like that throughout his life or if it was out of grief for his son) and because of her own bad choices

mapleshade is (or could have been) one of the most complicated and 3-dimensional villains the series has had because most other villains are "they were just born like that" or "they were bullied" or "daddy issues" i do wanna correct one thing though, i think the implication is that appledusk cheated on mapleshade with reedshine, not cheated on reedshine with mapleshade, since reedshine had been pregnant when mapleshade and her kits were exiled (unless appledusk and reedshine had been mates before he started seeing mapleshade and they just had kits later, i dunno), but that doesn't really matter in the end, appledusk cheated and was an asshole

i think the problem is that sometimes people just don't really... think critically about what they read, or don't have reading comprehension skills, as well as possibly they haven't read the book since they were a kid who did not have reading comprehension skills and they just still go off of what they remember thinking as a kid (part of why i wanna re-read through the series now as an adult to freshen my memory as well as to see how i feel about everything that happens in the series as an adult as opposed to how i felt and what i thought reading through the books as a kid) i also think it would've benefited to have seen mapleshade before she had gotten pregnant or before she had even become mates with appledusk, because we don't really get to see who she was BEFORE all of that tragedy, before she started lying to all her clanmates, we don't get a baseline of who she was before shit hit the fan

also i wanna mention that i do love sleekwhisker and raven as female villains because i DO like them literally just being evil for fun, like they just don't care they're just assholes

but i do want more complicated villains, i want complicated villains with 3-dimensional characters and backstories, and also i would love if we had a villain like that that was female and also the backstory didn't have anything to do with them being a mother

#warrior cats #long post #like female villains but their villainy has nothing to do with their gender #also maybe a villain who becomes a villain that has to do with them being a dad #no onestar does not count with that... probably

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sunshifts · 2 months

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I'd love to find more ADHD methods because I got really close to the void state using the Allunir 2.0 method, but I can't concentrate anymore with her ADHD subs for some reason. If any other shifter has their own ADHD methods it would be very helpful!

#shiftblr #desired reality #reality shifting #shifting community #shifting #shifting realities #shifting methods

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esteemed-hlam · 1 year

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Sims 4 CC - Gravity Rush Kat, Raven and Dusty Outfits

Teen-Elder, use as desired DOWNLOAD: http://simfileshare.net/folder/181945/

Kat Shifter 2.0 Outfit - Includes Hair / Scarf / Armbands / Bodysuit / Leg Coils / Boots Kat Jazz Singer Outfit - Includes hair and earrings only - A slitted red dress by casteru can be found here Raven Outfit - Includes Hair / Sleeves / Bodysuit / Boots / Chest Emblem Kat/Raven Skin Detail - This just evens out the complexions a bit to make the skin look closer to GR style Dusty - Requires Cats & Dogs DLC - Applied as an outfit for adult cats and a tail for kittens Original rips of GR models can be found here: https://www.deviantart.com/xxcrazypotatoxx/art/Gravity-Rush-2-Model-Pack-1-776060485

#sims 4 #sims 4 cc #gravity rush #gravity daze #kat gravity rush #raven gravity rush #dusty gravity rush

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mayarab · 7 months

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WIP List (Tag Game)

I was tagged by @the-grim-and-sanguine - You can see their post here!

RULES: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

OH LORD HERE WE GO

ORIGINAL

The Queen & the Demon

Just Another City

Chaos Magic Kaijus

Guardiãs de Primália

Better! Twilight aka Vampires in Rio

Warylk

Conto Avantesma

Continuação de Journey Home / A Caminho de Casa

Contos Andarilhos

D&D Romance

Fantasy Heist

Space Adventure

Aline

Obsessão

O Santuário de Liara

Reminisce

Queer Greek Myths + Fairytale Retellings

Melting Pot of Ideas

#SuperQueerWIP

Crônicas de Irhullan

Foi por Acaso

Swordswoman & her Wizard GF

Shape-shifter & Hunter

Demissexuais & Dinos + 2 Girls, Music, Books and Internet

Story Engine Anthology

The Golden Queen

A Garota e o Dragão

Alathea

Demon Soul

A/B/O but with actual wolf social structure

Chaotic God + Necromancy + Chaotic MC

Bruxas Latinas + Witches in Saquarema

Isekai Scout

The Untamed x Inuyasha

Portal Book

CdZ inpired Mess

Hunted Siblings

Kingdom Hearts x OUaT

Chosen One Academy

Daughter of the Chosen One

Magic People

Isekai Brazuka

Anna & Milla

Mage & Prince

Warylk AU (Makhy lives)

Warylk Coffe Shop AU (Gods Edition v1 - with powers)

Warylk Coffe Shop AU (Gods Edition v2 - no powers)

COMICS

Pimpim Café

Garotas Mágicas RPG

O Sonho de Nina

Ace of Cakes

To Be Human

I Heal Hearts

Escola Mágica + Criaturas Sobrenaturais

FANFIC

Inuyasha Mermaid AU

Year of the OTP 2023 InuKag

Bond

The Heart of the Miko

Memory Loss

Shikon Strike Force

Inuyasha dies and KagMirSan try to bring him back

Inuyasha HighSchool AU

Kagome MD

SessSan KindergartenGod

InuKagMirSan Polycule

Inuyasha x Pokémon

Prophetic Dreams

Inuyasha Beauty & the Beast

A hanyou birthed by a female Youkai

Inuyasha Retelling Sequel

Polyam Kag/San

ATLA: Twin Avatars

Inuyasha VTuber

Inuyasha sends a video masturbating to Kagome by mistake

Inuyasha + Sell Your Haunted House

Inuyasha + FFVII Remake

Inukag song fic - Give your heart a break - Demi Lovato

GAMES

Viking Punk

Whimsical Life

On the Shoulders of Giants

Avantesma

Esperanthya 5e Setting

Sparkles & Wonder

Azure Garden

Witch’s Workshop 2.0

Digital Deckbuilding Card Game

DnD Character Creator

Match 3 Mobile-style game SEM MONETIZAÇÃO AGRESSIVA

Runeterra Hack

NON-FICTION

Assexualidade e Esteriótipos

I'm just gonna tag a few people under the cut AND WHOEVER ELSE WANTS TO DO THIS THING BECAUSE THERE'S NO WAY I CAN TAG T HIS MANY OMG I HAD NEVER LISTED IT ALL OUT LIKE THIS HELP

tags: @artemis-devotee @anisaanisa @ruddcatha @razdazberry @atelierwriting @akiwitch @mauvelilywilliams @bia-sa @ninaescreve @autielivros @saphoblin

#tag game #my writing #writblr #writerblr #writeblr #writers of tumblr #brwriter #naiveheart #wip list #send help plz

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my-dr-is-a-big-meme · 1 year

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Ok shifters, listen up!

I’m sure the majority of you know who this is, but for those who don’t

CHECK OUT THIS PERSONS SUBS!!

I’ve gotten so damn close with the void 2.0 video. My symptoms were VERY much there and I even heard a voice. I’m pretty sure it was my s/o by the sound of pure frustration (he’s a stressed boi)

Go check them out and shift tonight!

#desired reality #reality shifting #shifting #shifting realities #shifting subliminal #shifting help

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demonangelgirl134 · 1 year

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Henry Jojo

This is my other Mojo Jojo and HIM fan child and Mona Jojo's (or Mo) little brother

Like Mo, Henry is pretty much HIM's "mini-me" because the majority of his personality comes from Him

He just likes to cause mischief in Townsville and torture the Powerpuff girls 2.0 like his father/mother HIM

(The reason why I refer to Him as Mona and Henry's father/mother is that he was the one who became pregnant with them because he's a shape-shifter and as a joke about his feminine nature)

You can learn about his sister here

#my ocs #powerpuff girls fanchild #fanchild #powerpuff girls #mojo jojo x him #mojo jojo #him powerpuff girls #ppg him #ppg next-generation au #henry jojo

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nephilim-problems · 6 months

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The mercenary pt 2

I'm sorry guys my life has been insanely crazy. Got married and divorced and married again lost my job and my house before moving back in with my parents all and all it's been crazy. So enjoy!

(Y/N) P.O.V

I sat in my torn clothes. I sat chained to a heater, blood coming from my nose and bruising on my cheeks. I had the guards make sure it looked real. They both gave me a weird look until I told them it was okay to hit me. Now one was standing guarding the entrance to my room and one was in the hall.

There was a rotting shifter corpse that looked just like me sitting beside me. I heard the hard footsteps against the tile floor down the hall. Hunters were never very quiet. I heard the demons scream and the bodies thud on the floor as the door opened.

Show time.

I winced against the sound and sent myself flying against the heating grate. I saw the two men come towards me and look at the shifter before looking at me.

“you’re okay, we're not going to hurt you,” Sam whispered, undoing my chained wrists.

“What were those things? They h-had black eyes and the-they killed my twin sister… She-she wouldn’t do what they wanted,” I fake sobbed as Sam pulled me up by my wrists.

“It’s okay, you’re safe now. Those were demons. Do you know why they kept you alive?” He asked, looking into my eyes.

I shook my head violently, “They said a guy named Asmodeus was coming to get me soon.”

The two exchanged looks before Sam tightened his hold on my wrist, “That’s not good.”

“W-W-what’s not good? Is he bad?” I stuttered out.

“Listen Sammy we don’t have all day. If Asmodeus wants her she should come with us,” Dean replied holding the demon blade.

“We'll keep you safe,” Sam squeezed my hand as I nodded.

They lead me from the building into their impala. I laid myself down in the backseat and drifted off to sleep.

When I woke up I was cuddled up in a bed with a blanket over me and I heard May yelling in my earbud. I groaned against the shouting and sat up.

“May i’m up, I’m up,” I growled rubbing my eyes and sitting up on the bed.

“Thank god. I thought you were dead,” She replied as I cracked my neck.

“Did you guys find the base?” I asked, looking around, checking for hidden mics and cameras.

“Not exactly, Miroku lost them right outside of Kansas, we’re trying to track you,” She replied.

“Keep me posted,” I replied, rising from the bed.

I made my way from my small room to the hallway. The walls were pure white with fluorescent lights making the walls almost blinding against the bulbs. I could smell bacon a little further down the hall. I followed where my nose was pointing me, it was in the direction of the kitchen.

Upon entering I saw Dean cooking in a skillet, Sam sitting down taking drinks of coffee and another young man sitting next to him with dirty blonde hair. I gulped down the lump in my throat as I felt the power radiating off of him. He was Lucifer 2.0 and he was an adult.

“Good morning!” The nephilim shouted standing up. “I’m Jack.”

“Hi Jack, I’m (Y/N),” I waved, making a worried expression.

“Come sit down (Y/N), eat some food,” Sam smiled and gestured to the seat across from him.

I mumbled a thank you before sitting across from him. These guys were being way too nice to me. Either they caught on to me or they were just beyond naive. Dean set a plate of bacon, eggs, and pancakes in front of me. I cocked my head at the sight before putting a strip of bacon in my mouth. I crunched on the wonderful piece of meat smiling. When I opened my eyes Jack was staring at me with a confused look on his face.

Our eyes met and both flashed a golden hue. I took in a breath freaking out slightly. Jack instantly shot up from his seat and looked down at me.

“You’re just like me!” He shouted, gaining the attention of Sam and Dean.

I shied my glance away from him as the two turned to look at me, “N-No Jack.”

“I saw it, your eyes just flashed like mine," He smiled making his way over to me.

I backed up slightly with all eyes on us, I wasn’t going to look in Jack’s eyes, I couldn’t afford to screw the mission up this much at this point. I could not take a nephilim and the Winchester brothers at the same time. That was just crazy talk.

“Jack leave her alone, she's had a long day,” Sam replied, taking a sip of coffee.

I gulped down the lump in my throat not looking up, Jack did let up though he smiled and placed his hand under my chin.

“She’s just like me, I-I can feel it,” He smiled, pulling my eyes up to meet his.

As soon as our eyes met they flashed a golden hue quickly. I grunted and shoved Jack off of me. Everyone was looking this time and I was completely blown. Maybe I could pull this off in my favor? Maybe they wouldn’t understand? I held my breath as Sam and Dean stared at us.

“That has to be why Asmodeus wants her,” Sam snapped standing next to Jack and I.

“(Y/N/N)! We found the bunker, it’s warded but we think we can get in,” May shouted in my ear.

I made a clicking nose to let her know I knew exactly what she was talking about when Dean opened his mouth.

“Another Nephilim? I guess if he couldn’t get Jack he had to find another one,” Dean shrugged and placed some Bacon in a pan.

I heard the faint rustling of wings behind me and I smiled into a large devilish smile. Jack gave me another confused look as I pressed my fingers to his head and watched him fall to the floor asleep.

“What the--” Sam moved to touch him and I threw him back against the wall.

All eyes were on me again as May walked up beside me.

“Took you long enough,” I smirked at May as she held her gun close to her chest.

“The building was warded, we had to use… unconventional ways to locate you,” She smiled pointing a gun to the Winchesters.

“Well go get them,” I smirked, leaning over to grab Jack.

May bolted forward when she was stopped by an invisible force and launched her gun out of her hands. She lifted the carpet slightly with her foot seeing the little circular beginning of a devil’s trap.

“A Devil’s trap really guys? That’s cheating,” She pouted and stomped her feet.

Sam and Dean exchanged glances before Dean gripped his angel blade and attempted to stab May, Miroku flew right beside him and grabbed his wrist before it made contact. He glared at Dean before throwing him towards Monty. Monty took a step out of the way letting Dean crash into a table. Sam darted at me with the demon blade succsessfully sinking it into my side. I just looked up at him and placed my hand around the handle.

“No you were right I am a nephilim; but I’m a mercenary too,” I smirked, pulling the blade out and letting it drop to the floor.

“And who are you working for again?” Sam rebutted, pulling an angel blade out and stabbing it forward.

I spun around missing the blade slightly ending up in his face, “I never told you who I worked for.”

Sam kicked my feet from under me and I crashed against the tile floor right next to the demon blade. I quickly spun around and scratched slightly on the devil’s trap allowing May to take a step out.

“Ugh thank you,” She snapped, launching herself at Sam.

Sam dodged her as she viciously kept trying to slam the knife into him. A few minutes later an angel came behind Monty and attempted to attack him but missed just by a hair as Monty stepped away. Miroku was by his side in seconds as the angel’s blade hit his.

“Castiel lives,” Miroku laughed, pulling his blade away and backing up. “You’re not part of the deal Castiel. If you walk away you can be spared.”

“Not a chance, Yaerius,” Castiel replied in a gruff tone of voice, launching at him.

I saw Monty freeze for a moment, I bolted up and stood in front of him as Dean came close to us. I used my powers to throw him off course. I looked over and noticed Jack starting to wake up. I cursed under my breath and spun around to meet Monty’s gaze, He stared off just behind me and I decided to think quickly.

I gripped his shoulders tightly and shook him, “Monty, Monty are you there!”

He shook his head slightly to my words, “We need to leave.”

Monty tightened his grip on my arm and looked at me as if we weren’t trying to kill the Winchesters, and steal a child, “The job isn’t done.”

“Fuck the job! Asmodeus is going to turn on us and soon, we can’t be here. Leave the boy and the brothers,” He growled, taking a hold of my arm.

I could tell by looking into his eyes that he was telling the truth. I nodded slightly in response to him. If Asmodeus was going to stab us in the back then there was no job to do; but on the other hand, Winchesters were always a good ally to have.

“Enough!” I screamed, sending the bunker shaking. “We need to leave Asmodeus played us.”

Everyone stood dead in their tracks, “If you make a move Winchesters we will kill you but the job is off, your lives are not at risk.”

“You just tried to kill us!” Dean snapped, wiping blood from his mouth and nose.

“And we can explain but for now we need to go,” I quickly turned on my heel to get caught by Castiel holding an angel blade to my neck.

“You’re not going anywhere,” He hissed in my ear.

“Aweh I don’t get to kill anyone anymore?” May pouted and took a spot next to Monty with Miroku in tow.

“Please let our friend go and we will leave you in peace,” Miroku put his hands up trying to calm him down.

“Answer some questions first,” Dean growled, keeping a gun trained on May. “Who are you working for?”

“We’re mercenaries, blades for hire. We take money from the highest paying bidder and do what they want…” I huffed with the blade placed to my throat. “Asmodeus offered us a really good deal in order to kill you and take the nephilim.”

“What was the deal?” Sam growled out.

“Demons leave us alone, stop hunting us, and three million dollars each,” May smiled, picking some dirt out from under her nails.

“Why are the demons after you?” Sam asked again.

May let out a creepy smile before revealing black eyes, “I’m an abomination.”

The three men let out a large gasp in unison.

“Can you see now why the deal is so good?” I huffed out as the blade got tighter around my neck.

“This is the closest to family we’ve ever gotten, we protect our own,” Miroku snapped as I watched his eyes glow a slight blue and his wings extend behind him.

“Miroku, calm down it’s okay,” I whispered softly as his eyes faded slightly.

“I promised Samandriel I would never let anyone hurt you.”

I paused for a moment as tears threatened to escape my eyes, “Castiel won’t hurt me.”

“You sound so sure having someone with a blade on their neck,” Monty growled holding an angel blade in his hand. “We need to leave now!”

“No one is going anywhere until we have answers alright?!” Dean growled shooting a bullet against the wall next to May.

Miroku grabbed her and shoved her behind his back, extending the angel blade out.

“Okay we got off on the wrong foot, release my neck and let us leave and I will tell you everything you want to know,” I snapped, pulling Castiel’s blade slightly from my neck.

Suddenly my veins started burning and I let out a shattering scream, waking Jack up.

“It’s too late he’s here,” Miroku whispered, bolting over to me and positioning me on his shoulders.

I let out another blood curdling scream as I felt my blood continue to boil in my very vein. There was only one person who could do this. I looked up to see long black robes standing next to Asmodeus who was in all white again.

“Thank you for leading me to the Winchesters, your services are no longer needed,” Asmodeus went to snap when my father gripped his hand.

“If you wish to live you will not hurt my daughter or her silly friends,” He hissed, stepping down the stairs towards me.

#sam winchester x reader #sam winchester x you #supernatural #supernatural fanfiction #writeblr #sam winchester fan fiction #sam winchester

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amalgamat1on · 7 months

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Haremlit Tier List

Peak: S+

- Celestine Chronicles

- Heretic Spellblade

Great: S (95 – 100) (4.5 – 5.0)

- T.A.P

- Demon’s Throne

- Tsun Tsun TzimTzum

- Neural Wraith

- Alpha World

Very Good: A (90 – 95) (4.0 – 4.5)

- The Lost Reavers

- Fight Town

- Haven

- Tournion

- Amnesty’s Adventures

- Immortal Supers

- Entangled Fates

- Ave Xia Rem Y

Good: B (80 – 90) (3.5 – 4.0)

- Shadow Rogue

- An Orc at College

- Binding Words

- The Aspect

- Herald of Shalia

- Meta Marshal Service

- Lightfoot

- Mastering Magic

- Emperor Forged

- Forsaken

- Avalar Explored

- I Don’t Want to be the Hero

- Dungeon Bound

- A Warm Place

- Princesses of the Ironbound

- Monstar Saga

- Lion’s Quest

- Top Tier Privateer

- Chimera King

- Wings of the Seraph

- Valens Legacy

Above Average: C (70 – 80) (3.0 – 3.5)

- Otherworld Academy

- Arand/Darren Verse

- Lost Fleet

- Saving Supervillains

- Mages Cultivation

- Amazon Star Academy

- Aether’s Revival

- My Cottage was Transferred to Another World

- Our Own Way (old version)

- Creature Girl Creation

- Star Justice

- Tamer: King of Dinosaurs

- Descend

- Survival of the Fittest

- Sect Wars

- Super Hero Academy

- Titan Mage

- Cultivating Chaos

- Summoner

- My Ninja Girl

- Raw

- Rise of the Weakest Summoner

- Minotaur Maze of Monster

- Forbidden Arcana

- Echo Online

- Paladin of the Sword

- Dungeonteer

- Succubus Summoner

Average: D (50 – 70) (2.5 – 3.0)

- Son of Fire

- Chronicles of Shattered Earth

- Like a Fine Wine

- Monster Girl Islands

- Dungeon Master

- Luck’s Voice

- Dungeon Delving for Loot and Levels

- Full Frontal Galaxy

- War God for Hire

- Savage Ascension

- Monster Empire

- Champion

- Four Laws

- Gryff the Griffin Rider

- The Escherian Core

Below Average: E (25 – 50) (2.0 -2.5)

- Branded

- Immortal Swordslinger

- Dark Lord’s Command

- Man Made God

- Kaos Trilogy

- Gem Knight

- Lust Witches

- Wyvern Academy

- Void Runner

- Shifter Girls

- Beyond Superpowered

- Phase Titan

- Bonded Spirits

- Outsider

Bad: F (0 – 25) (1.5 – 2.0)

- Becoming the Paladin

- The Horned Mage

- Succubus Lord

- Bone Lord

- Dungeon Cleaners Inc.

- Soul Gem Collector

- Gambit

DNF: G (N/A) (N/A – 1.0)

- Saxon Max

- Night Walker

- The John Blake Chronicles

- Rage King

- Ex-Superheroes

- Growth Hero

- Biopunk Revelation

Honorable Mentions:

- Raconteur

- Strength Unleashed

- Mud, Blood, and Magic

- Supplying Supers

- Mob Sorcery

- Wisher Beware

- Sex, Death, and Money

- Elemental Alpha

Honorable mentions don't get an official ranking due to only one book being completed in the series at the time.

#fantasy #fantasy books #litrpg #scifibooks #indie author #new adult #fantasy romance #haremlit

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tenacioususedcars · 1 year

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The New Ford Ranger’s Ranking In SA’s Bakkie Market

The new Ford Ranger is now in South African showrooms, with prices starting at R486,000 for the entry-level trim whereas the top-end model comes in at R953,500.

The Ford Ranger for sale is one of the most popular options for local bakkie buyers and is the manufacturer’s best-selling vehicle in this market.

Initially only available in double cab, TopAuto compared four specifications of the fresh-faced Ford to their biggest competitors at various price ranges to find out how the new generation stacks up against its old rivals.

Ranger specifications

The new Ford Ranger is offered in Base, XL, XLT, and Wildtrak trim levels in the domestic market, with three engines between these models.

The Base and XL are driven exclusively by a 2.0-litre, single-turbo diesel motor paired with a six-speed manual or automatic shifter.

The pricier XLT, on the other hand, is only offered in automatic and can be had with the same single-turbo plant paired with a six-speed gearbox, or a 2.0-litre bi-turbo option with a 10-speed box.

Similarly, the range-topping Wildtrak is also available with two power units comprising either the aforementioned bi-turbo or a new 3.0-litre, V6, both connected to a 10-speed auto transmission.

Each of these drivetrains is available in rear-wheel or all-wheel drive, with the 4×4 models being equipped with one of two systems – a part-time “shift-on-the-fly” or advanced “permanent” configuration.

While the 2.0-litre motors were available in the previous generation, the new ones have been given a bump in power. Alongside this, the bakkie gained a brutish V6 engine for the flagship Wildtrak to replace the bi-turbo unit of old.

As before, however, the Ranger still supports a maximum payload in excess of one tonne and a braked towing capacity of 3,500kg – but it now also boasts a wider footprint and far more aggressive approach and departure angles thanks to shorter body overhangs.

Looking for a quality used Ranger for sale instead? See what’s available…

Article shared from https://topauto.co.za/

#bakkie #Ford Ranger

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dracharenae · 9 months

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༺✹༻ NOT TO BE DRAMATIC 2.0 . . .

so i have had this thought for a long ass time and after looking through dragons on pinterest, i just had to voice this. fantasy / fairytale au where the targaryens are literal dragons as shape-shifters, driven to near extinction by their own selves, and rhaenys being one of the few left. a dragon with glittering amethyst scales, alone in the world, torn between the life of a human and the life of a dragon. or, ya know, maybe there is no extinction and dragons are just vibing in the world. maybe valyria is a dragon island where rhaenys is from.

either way . . . rhaenys being a literal dragon. need.

#༺✹༻ ooc.#༺✹༻ wish list.#༺✹༻ desires.

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merulanoir · 2 years

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today on dnd

i nuked my gf's character FOR THE SECOND TIME (last time a beholder vaporized her character and today a fiend dunked her into lava)

she's fine don't even worry

anyway here's the party because i care them so much-- grim (shifter, zealot barbarian/war cleric), siobhan (undead, hexblade warlock of the raven queen) and raze 2.0 (artificer and now a cleric of bahamut)

#my art tag #dnd #descent into avernus

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powerfulredheads · 2 years

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i am writing my first ever fic and it's Eris Vanserra×Female OC.

here's a breakdown of well how this fic came about. so like any other readers, you tend to switch up of how the stories goes because like you can. it's reading, it's your own imagination. you add different universe plot to another universe plot. Therefore, it started when i was thinking about tamlin finally getting his shit together when 3 mysterious girls fell into his life. like literally fell and landed in the spring court and tamlin happened to witness it.

NOW HERE COMES THE PLOT FROM ANOTHER FICTIONAL UNIVERSE. i was thinking like MCU black widows escaping the red room. so these 3 girls are faeries who were somehow kidnapped by (tbh i was thinking humans but uk being kidnapped by a kingdom in the continent sounds more uhm realistic? whatever i was in social studies and it just came about) some crazy dude who wanted well assassins they can control and stuff.

these 3 girls are:

Ivy

- she's a (NOW HERE COMES THE MADE UP IMAGINATION PART) shifter. (giving very much lysandra from TOG)

- she's from the spring court

- hazel brown hair, green(left) blue(right) eyes

- her powers are animal shape shifting

Zaria

- she's from the summer court

- periwinkle blue box braids hair, amber eyes and her left leg is metal (giving very much bucky barnes but legs edition)

- Her powers are (HERE COMES THE TAKING ANOTHER UNIVERSE PLOT FROM ANOTHER FICTIONAL BOOK) heartrender and healer.

Althea

- her mother's from the dawn court and her father's from the night court

- black hair, dark brown eyes and she got scars at her back.

- now i wanted to make her interesting and because I can AHAHAHAHA i gave her the powers of some of the MCU eternals namely sersi, thena, ajak, druig, kingo (BYE- I WANTED SOMEONE TO RIVAL FEYRE AND RHYSAND)

- also because like eternals powers are like what cosmic energy? and i saw a tumblr post that said eris was a dreamer but there were no stars in his world. SO LIKE SHE CAN BE HIS STAR OR WHATEVAAAA.

: and because i can they all 3 can winnow LMAOOOO

so these 3 girls were running away after burning down the red room. althea and zaria were heavily injured so that left Ivy to winnow them and the first place she thought of was the spring court. okay also they jumped out of the building so that's why when ivy winnowed they fell from the sky.

after reading all this, i must say my imagination runs wild and i should really start focusing in school and thinking about career stuff LOL.

anyways Ivy wanted to rebuild the spring court because she's bloody loyal and believes for the greater good and like #imaproudfaeofspringcourt kinda person AHAHAHAHAH.

now obv tamlin would do some interrogation on them and stuff and their all suspicious with one another. also zaria and althea have nowhere to go since their family and homes were killed when they were taken.

so these 3 girls and tamlin developed a weird kind of friendship. they started healing the spring court and also healing together #bffs. 6 MONTHS LATER CAME LUCIEN VANSERRA.

now here comes the sad part because I wasn't thinking about development of elucien. so basically he came to the spring court after a terrible fight with elain and she basically told him stuff that cut DEEP. so lucien had enough because he was getting hurt for 1yr plus of pining. he didn't break the bond. he also quit being the night court emissary. he told feyre that "he need some time". so he came to the spring court to check up with tamlin.

IMAGINE HIS SURPRISE WHEN HE SAW TAMLIN AND 3 GIRLS.

Lucien helps out with rebuilding the spring court along with them and ALL OF 5 OF THEM BECOME SOME FOUND FAMILY.

and and they became the people tamlin trusts so their like inner circle 2.0 walmart edition (im really degrading my own story).

Tamlin- High Lord (obv)

Lucien- Second in command

Ivy- Third in command

Zaria- General of the spring court armies

Alrhea- Spymaster

then times later theres a high lord meeting... (btw by then they know spring court has been getting better) and tamlin pulls up with 3 badass looking women and sexy firefox lucien.

and FINALLY how the fic came about is when theres like a ball with high lords and like other important people held at the dawn court. Althea was talking with Nesta Archeron when she sees Lucien drunk (from getting in another fight w elain) (IM SO SORRY ELUCIENS) and making his way to none other than his brother.

#eris vanserra #lucien vanserra #acotar #acosf #female oc #fan fic #my imagination runs wild

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