Derek Rants. They have to go back part 3. Derek needs to understand that correct verbage is very important, his (our) enemies rebrand words and use them to reprogram our thinking to accept their meaning of the rebranding. Don't let them do this. Illegal aliens are not Migrants they are invaders slipped into you home country against you will. News media will call them migrants until you submit and follow that lead. Shake the etch a sketch and take control of the frame of the conversation and take back your/our words. The people that submit to the language and branding of another people are conquered people. Take back the definitions of your language. And yes the illegal aliens need to go back.
word vomit | connor bedard
- based of kenzie Ziegler's song "word vomit
- takes place in the 2024-2025 season
- they/them pronouns!
- im extremely rusty, so pls be kind! haha
- hope you all enjoy xx
- also f the format omg
Word count: 3.3k
Warnings: none!
The thought of who I thought you were
It makes me sick
I'm feeling like I lost a limb
A piece of me is gone and I don't think I'll re-attach it
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phoenix had been blindsided. blindsided by it all. they did not understand, at all. the version of connor that they had apparently dreamt connor up to be was false, oh so very false. they'd never thought once that connor would or could do such a thing. especially with who his parents and sister were, his friends on the team who thought of him as a young brother and pulled him under his wing the second he got there. but all hockey players are the same, right? phoenix believed they'd never move on and heal from this, there was no way right? phoenix didn't know how they could move on as if nothing had happened, especially since connor didn't think twice or think to think of them.
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But nothing hurts like that shit
It's hard to wrap my head around
The fact that you've been making me look back
Playing the victim like it wasn't you who fucked up what we had
And lit the match like it was nothing
Left me feeling gutted
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since the moment they'd figured out about connor cheating, they could not help but look back at the two year relationship. was every moment a lie? was it all fake? was phoenix just a place holder until the real one came along? it hurt them beyond belief, to have to do all of that. how could this be? is this for real? were the two questions they played over and over in their mind, for the next few months afterward. phoenix was just confused about it all.
then connor, oh sweet innocent connor debued the perfect pictured esque girl to the world, and made everybody believe that the girl was his light at the end of the tunnel. that it was phoenix's fault that they were not together anymore and that it was phoenix's fault that connor had moved on with her. phoenix let their thoughts and feelings be heard with kevin korchinski's girlfriend taylor, who had been even more shocked to hear what connor had done. taylor couldn't believe that the connor that kevin gushed about, was completely different.
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"oh fuck you, connor! what the hell were you thinking?!" taylor screamed at connor as kevin tried to pull them to leave the dinner that connor threw for a few of the young guys. alex vlasic, frank nazar, phillip kurashev and nolan allen. not to mention their partners. "you're gonna act like an angel when you're far from it?!" she screamed, "and you! you're not much of a girl's girl as you claim to be!" she screamed at the girl that had been introduced to the group tonight for the first time. "you fucking pig, connor!" taylor screamed before kevin grabbed her hand and pulled her out of the luxury apartment. "fuck you kevin, why didn't you let me finish, huh!" she screamed at her boyfriend who only sighed in response. she was about to talk back towards the door as she saw red, but kevin only held her hand to keep her from going. "because if you do that, then ill have to answer to connor. and possibly harm our friendship, tay." he said pulling her into the elevator. "if it was any other circumstance, and us getting along was not apart of our job - i'd give him even more of my mind babe." kevin said as the elevator closed. "what?" she questioned, looking at her boyfriend. "when he told a few of us, oh i was seeing red, i heckled him so badly he had to leave the room. and then when he posted her, i gave him more of my mind as well." he said and taylor calmed down a bit. "come on, lets go see phoenix." he said pulling her out onto the 2nd floor and pulling her towards phoenix's and her roommates apartment.
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"he fucking ruined me." phoenix said as they nursed their spiked drink, before chuckling. "i should of known it was coming, fuck." they cried. taylor frowned while kevin looked at the ground, "he claims to be a victim but he's far from it." phoenix's roommate natalia said walking in and sitting next to phoenix on the couch. "god, i wish somebody could break him like a twig." natalia said grimly before chugging her drink. "he ran with it, without a second thought. no care in the world for me especially since our relationship wasn't as private as i had wanted. but what connor wants, he gets." phoenix sighed. taylor nodded understanding and knew how much she fought with connor and how much he 'flaunted' the relationship via social media. "he didn't care how much it broke me, not a second thought or look back to see how it affected me."
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phoenix had been finishing cleaning up the kitchen when connor had gone to take a shower. once they were done cleaning, they headed towards their room to get ready for the evening. connor's phone had been placed on his nightstand, and it was buzzing by the time phoenix had finished up the kitchen and headed towards the room. their eyebrows crinkled as they peered over to see who it was and if it might be urgent. the name popped up with a single '🌹' for the name. the call ended, and then they called once again. by that time, connor had missed 3 calls. phoenix swallowed harshly before picking it up, "hello?" they questioned. the person on the other line gasped, "who is this?" phoenix questioned.
connor opened up the ensemble washroom door, with just a towel on. his curls drenched and pressed against his forehead. he felt his body run cold.
"who. is. this." phoenix asked once more before the call ended. phoenix's mouth opened as they pressed their tonight to the roof of their mouth, biting their tongue essentially. trying to figure out the word they wanted to say first.
phoenix tore the phone away from her ear, before chucking it at him and was surprised that beneath the shock his reflexes were still sharp, as he caught it. "don't lie connor, don't you dare." they threatened with a snarl. connor swallowed his panic, once he saw the single rose on his notifications. he clenched his jaw for a tense moment, "she's a girl...I've been talking to." he said vaguely and phoenix let out a sob they'd been holding in. it was a jab to the heart. almost like a dagger. "I've done nothing wrong." phoenix began in a soft whisper, "why?" they followed up quickly trying to search connor's face. he shrugged.
that fucker, they thought.
"seriously? seriously." their fists clenched at their sides, and connor met their eye. "what do you want me to say, phe? want me to lie and say that i still love you, that you are it for me? it was a moment of stupidity? that i regret it all? that you didn't give me reasons to step out?" he deadpanned and phoenix's head tilted to the side, studying him. "I've given you everything. all of me. why this? what did i do to deserve this?" they rambled, beginning to run through everything over the past two years. nothing suspicious came up.
"phe-" they cut him off with one look, "you don't get to call me that, not anymore!" they screamed at him, knocking him dead in his tracks. they let a sob out before clasping their hand over their mouth. with a shake of their head, they turned away and began their descent out of the shared apartment. "phoenix!" connor called after them, and they abruptly stopped in front of the door - before turning around. "i never want you to speak to me ever again." they announced before opening the door and stepping into the hall, with a slam of the door. phoenix heard towards the stairwell and headed downstairs to the apartment they shared with their friend.
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Now my thoughts are pouring out
Wondering what you talked about
Late at night back at your house
Did you really think I wouldn't have found out?
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phoenix poured themself a tall glass of wine, now two months after they'd found out about connor cheating. they'd had enough of sitting nightly with the thoughts and feelings that ran wild and threatened her soul. they pulled their laptop onto their lap, as the sat against the floor-length windows that showed the skyline of chicago. their notes app opened, they began to write. anything and everything. they thought in particular back to that dreadful night, once they had already skimmed through their two year relationship. now they had remembered something, something that now seemed strange.
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phoenix sat across from alex vlasic's girlfriend, ella and taylor in the lake house. the three of them took the weekend before the season began and headed up to michigan, an hour and a half from chicago. phoenix finished her drink and stood up, announcing that they were getting another from the kitchen. they made their way from the all year round porch and heard whispers coming from their designation. their eyebrows furrowed before stepping into the kitchen and heading towards the fridge. kevin eyed his friend as alex looked towards phoenix. phoenix laughed, "yes alex?" they questioned opening up the seltzer and taking a few sips. alex shook his head before walking out of the kitchen. kevin continued to send daggers towards connor was who his so called 'best friend'. "i think taylor wanted to talk you bout something, kev." they said leaning on the counter. kevin pulled his gaze from connor and nodded at phoenix before slapping connor across the back of his scalp, and then left the room.
phoenix watched kevin walk out and then looked back at connor who was rubbing the scorned place.
"everything okay?" they questioned with slight humor locating their words. phoenix walked up and wrapped her arms around his neck, "yeah." connor breathed before kissing their forehead. "dumb bet on a golf game that's all, sunshine." he hummed and they nodded looking up at him. "come on, lets go upstairs." they teased quietly and pulling connors hands and he finally moved with them.
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What does she give you that I couldn't?
If you'd asked me, well I would've
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the first time phoenix saw the girl with connor in public, couldn't have happened soon enough they thought. taylor and phoenix were out with one another before taylor and kevin headed back up to canada for the offseason, and the two had gone to lunch before shopping for a bit and then see a movie together. the two of them had walked into lulu lemon for taylor to find a pair of sneakers, and phoenix felt their body run cold.
taylor walked back up behind her friend and then followed her eyesight, and froze with phoenix. "hey, we can-" taylor was cut off by the blonde in question, and phoenix moved away quickly behind a rack of clothes. "hey naiomi?" taylor said in slight surprise as she saw connor walking up behind her. "how have you been? you and kev excited to go back home for the summer?" they questioned and taylor gave her a tight lip smile and nodded softly. "you?" taylor questioned and naiomi smiled. "yes - super excited, especially since connor wants to show me vancouver, since I've never been before!" naiomi explained, and taylor nodded. "sounds fun! but if you'll excuse me, I have some more errands to run before i leave, but i wish you guys safe travels!" she said to the both of them before finding phoenix out of the corner of her eye. she headed over towards them and pulled them out of the store.
"im so so sorry about that." taylor apologized but phoenix waved her off, "you didn't know nor did i. its fine, i promise." they said with a slight smile before the two stood at the cross walk. "how about we head to the theater?" phoenix offered and taylor nodded.
yet, throughout the movie phoenix could not help but question what was wrong with them, or what they lacked for connor. even 3 months later, they were questioning everything. why weren't they good enough? was it because they weren't blonde? was it because they didn't fit that 'ideal' or stereotypical wag picture?
the movie ended too quickly for phoenix's liking, and soon enough they found themselves back at their apartment nursing a can of spiked lemonade. natalia came home and found her best friend quiet, too quiet. as soon as she found phoenix in their room, she knew something had happened- they hadn't been this silent for some time now. phoenix met natalia's eye, "i saw him..and her." they said as their voice cracked, which then opened the floodgates. "why wasn't i good enough, natalia? what didn't i have or give that wasn't enough?" they sobbed as natalia wrapped her arms around phoenix. "i i don't know, phe. but you are enough, just the way you are. the world loves you for who you are." natalia whispered, hoping it could bring some sort of comfort, but it didn't.
instead, they grew angry. hoping, connor would regret what he'd done. because they would have done whatever to have kept him.
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Now you call me screaming, laughing, screaming, crying
On the floor, you say you're dying
It's delusional, it's all on you for lying
Yeah, it's all on you for lying
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it was december of that following season when phoenix received a call. their eyebrows creased when they heard sobbing on the other line, and heavy breathing. "hello?" they questioned, hoping to grab the other person's attention. "phe?" they heard softly on the other line, and felt their heart stop. the simple and soft beloved nickname of his was followed by bouts of sobbing and heavy breathing. phoenix turned off the stove and sat down against the kitchen cabinet, trying to collect their own thoughts. "connor?" phoenix said his name for the first time in months. connor felt his breathing stop abruptly before it picked up once again.
"connor...are you ok?" they questioned softly and heard sniffles, before clearing their throat. "im sorry-" they began before letting out a cry, "im sorry for what i did, it was wrong of me and you never deserved any of that." connor rambled, "you were the best thing that had ever happened to me and threw that away and ill never forgive myself for doing that. and im sorry i never apologized phe, i really am, you have to believe me." connor finished and phoenix sighed. they had finally reached a point where connor's name never flashed before their mind nor thoughts, and he didn't mean anything to them anymore.
"you cant do this connor, you can't." they now began, before resting their eyes for a brief moment. they let a soft whimper, "you can't change what you did connor and im not obligated to believe you after all these months. when i fin-finally, stop thinking about you, you swoop in and try to suck me back. im not obligated to forgive you for something you lied about and kept doing for so long- i don't have to believe you, and i will not. for all i know you're calling me while still being with her, she should be the one receiving this phone call not me." phoenix stated before letting out a shakey breath.
"i dont know what im feeling phe, i don't i feel like my chest is on fire and i cant breathe and-" they cut him off, "connor - go find alex or somebody else. not me, it cant be me and never will be again con." they said with a slight pause, "it wasn't my fault connor, and this isn't my job." phoenix said before hanging up. they quickly texted alex, letting him know what was happening and alex said he'd go check on him.
phoenix's head fell back against the wood cabinet, and sighed. what had they'd done to deserve all of this? nothing.
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Hope it's weighing on your conscience
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march, 2026.
phoenix and taylor walked in with ella to a hawks game, after a year of begging them to come out with them. they knew that they had loved the game before connor and would love it, even afterwards. phoenix felt calm as they sat down in the stands, and took in the sights and sounds of the united center. they thought of all their memories pre connor and chuckled to themself, and smiled over the many many memories they had made with their family.
"can i just say the dark brown is hot." ella said inspecting their hair once more, making phoenix giggle. "no for real, its SO good." taylor said commenting, before fluffing their hair up. "it was either go blonde again orrrrr do this, and i absolutely love it." phoenix smiled at ella as taylor snapped a picture. "oh hey, did you wanna go out to eat with alex and kevin with us later?" ella questioned and phoenix nodded, "i'd love that." they smiled genuinely.
it was a few hours later, after a gritty win against the detroit red wings- they found themselves at one of their old stomping grounds when connor and them were together. the girls left on their own in an uber to get to the restaurant instead of waiting for the guys. they all sat down at a long table in the back and quickly ordered drinks. phoenix and the girls were in the middle of laughing when the boys started to show up. kevin hugged phoenix from behind before sitting down in between them and taylor. "so glad you could make it out nixie." kevin said smiling wide before phoenix responded with a grin.
"im always down for a night at boka." they grinned before sipping some more of their cocktail. "oh! i hopes it okay, i invited somebody." they said and taylor smiled widely before it turned into a grin. "who?" kevin questioned, looking between the two. phoenix went to go speak before they heard their name.
taylor clasped her hands together as kevin looked between phoenix and his girlfriend, before taylor stood up to greet the person. phoenix stood up and met the guy as he stepped closer. phoenix melted into his hug, which they'd come to adore these past few months at this point. "nicklas!" taylor said behind the two, and phoenix playfully rolled their eyes. "nick- but good to see you again taylor." he said giving her a side hug while still holding on phoenix's hand. "oh i know, i just like the name." taylor mused before heading back to the table. unbeknownst to phoenix, she whispered a "be nice" to the table, and then eyed the one and only connor bedard, who swallowed tensely.
"hi guys, this is nick my partner, nick this is everybody." phoenix said smiling softly nick said hello and a good game, and apologized if he was overstepping but alex butted in, "the more the merrier man, welcome." he said standing up to introduce himself. phoenix sat down next to kevin and to an empty chair to her right, for nick.
phoenix pulled some stray hair behind her ear, before meeting the eye of connor from the other end of the table. he gave her a small smile and slight nod, in acknowledgment. their brief moment was interrupted by kevin, "now now, tell us how you and miss nixie met." he grinned as nick threw an arm around the backside of their chair. phoenix hid her face in his shoulders and the group took in their reaction with a chorus laugh.
"yes lets, miss nixie." nick mused.
hope you enjoyed!! going to be posting more as my last semester finishes and i graduate with my undergrad, but until then it might be sporadic!
for people who don't use reddit i would like to inform you that r/projectsekai has turned into a community for my colorful stage feat mimi harrison for april fool's day
all the character and group names have changed, too. they're under the cut
virtual singer -> digital diva
hatsune miku -> mimi harrison, as in the author of the book "beat the budget"
kagamine rin -> riley kennedy, as in... i don't know who's most well known. many different people showed up...
kagamine len -> leon kennedy, as in the resident evil character i shit you not
megurine luka -> lucy mcdonald, as in... again, multiple results. i don't know.
meiko -> megan hughs, as in the sister of phillip hughes (the cricketer) but misspelled
kaito -> kayden foster, as in... well, google says it's a teenager charged with homicide but i don't know if that's what they meant...
leo/need -> wish upon a starlight
ichika hoshino -> isabella hill, as in the actress (apparently)
saki tenma -> stella taylor, as in the actress (again, apparently...)
honami mochizuki -> hailey marshall, as in a misspelling of the character hayley marshall from the vampire diaries
shiho hinomori -> sophia hunt, as in the soprano (apparently???)
more more jump -> jumping in blind
minori hanasato -> mia hayes, as in the author... or the sims 4 character. take your pick.
haruka kiritani -> hannah klein, as in the screenwriter
airi momoi -> ava miller, as in the actress
shizuku hinomori -> skyler hunt, as in the tiktoker
vivid bad squad -> shake the streets
kohane azusawa -> kira austin, as in a misspelling of the australian netball player kiera austin maybe?
an shiraishi -> anna shaw, as in... a leader of the women's suffrage movement in the united states?? 😭
akito shinonome -> alex sanders, as in the fucking PRIEST???? 💀 well alright then
toya aoyagi -> thomas abbot, as in . an irish scholar and educator? this is getting weird as fuck but sure. sure.
wonderlands x showtime -> the wonderland stage spectacular
tsukasa tenma -> troy taylor, as in- JESUS CHRIST THAT'S A LOT OF PEOPLE NAMED TROY TAYLOR. so it's either the record producer and singer l-songwriter, american coach and american football player, australian footballer, or cricketer. why the fuck are there so many people named troy taylor???!:???: 😭 i guess it fits that a lot of people had the "troy taylor stan" flair too
emu otori -> emily osborne, as in the film producer... or a misspelling of emily osborn, the marvel character.
nene kusanagi -> naomi keller, as in... i don't know. google won't tell me.
rui kamishiro -> rowan kline, as in.. again, google won't tell me, but it looks like he's a footballer or something?
nightcord at 25:00 -> on the down low-d
kanade yoisaki -> kenzie yates, as in.... google won't tell me again.
mafuyu asahina -> madelyn abrams, as in... GOOGLE PLEASE GIVE ME ANSWERS BEFORE I CRY
ena shinonome -> ellie sanders, as in the author
mizuki akiyama -> morgan ascroft, as in... apparently no one. damn.
random side things are "natalie" for the mmj story, who i'm guessing is nanamin? and sally stewarts (sakurako, i assume) who i assume is supposed to be the actress sally stewart
about me : i’m blk, i love music, my fave colors r dark green dark green and purple and pink, i LOVE editing, LOVE french fries, i’m a taurus, um yeah that’s basically all i could think of rn 😭
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my favorite music artist r : brent faiyaz, fiona apple, kendrick lamar, tyler the creator, lana del rey, drake, steve lacy, earl sweatshirt, frank ocean, billie eilish, faye webster, mitski, sza, nicki m, j cole, macdemarco, alex g, karrahboo, ariana grande and lil yachty
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my fave actors r : ariana greenblatt, zendaya, sydney sweeney, drew starky, alexa demie, taylor russel, victoria pedretti, jeremy allen white, jenna ortega, millie bobby brown, calebmclaughlin, and sadie sink
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fave shows + movies : the umbrella academy, shameless, stranger things, cobra kai, victorious, sam and cat, mako mermaids 🙏🏽, outer banks, level 16, do revenge, never have i ever, enola holmes, on my block, barbie, the barbie movie, you, and the hollow
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fave youtuber : triplets obv, coryxkenshin, sinjin drowning, daydrian harding, larray, nai, courtreezy, dorisxchi, kanal joesph and deb smikle :)
Gráinne Moss: Navigating Open Waters - Expert Advice from arguably Irelands most accomplished female open water swimmer. First Irish woman to swim Cook Strait (2001) Foveaux (2022), Lake Taupō (2021) and the Channel of Bones in Hawaii (2023).
Gráinne Moss is arguably Irelands most accomplished female open water swimmer.
At 16 she was the first female to represent Ireland in open water swimming at the World Championships.
At 17 she became the first Irish woman to swim the English Channel. She has continued to achieve many firsts including the first Irish woman to swim Cook Strait (2001) Foveaux (2022), Lake Taupō (2021) and the Channel of Bones in Hawaii (2023).
Gráinne holds three Triple Crowns of Open Water Swimming (awarded when a swimmer has completed three of the toughest swims in any nation) - including appropriately the Irish and New Zealand Triple Crowns given she was born in Ireland and moved to New Zealand in 1998.
Since 2022 Gráinne has teamed up with Kenzie's Gift to use her swims as an opportunity to raise vital funds for this important charity which cares for children and young people who have experienced serious loss and grief.
Her next adventure is in May this year when she will swim the famous straits of Gibraltar crossing from Africa to Spain.
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Show notes
Who is Gráinne
Being born in Ireland
Emigrating to New Zealand at the end of the 90s
Living in Wellington, New Zealand
Representing Ireland and the first Open Water Swimming Championships (1986)
Her early years and memories of water
Being spotted as talented at swimming at 6 years old
Wanting to better herself and try new things
Swimming for Bangor Swim Club
Making the transition to open water swimming
Meeting people from around the world who loved open water swimming
The pressure of swimming competitively and wanting to swim well
Getting married and having 4 children
Swimming through out the years
Getting back into big swims in 2021
Lessons learning from the big swims
Making an emotional commitment to the swim
Keeping motivated while waiting to compete the big swims
Having her family involved in the big swims
What the journey of a swim looks like
Swimming the Channel of Bones in Hawaii (43km)
Having anxiety and neves before the swim and feeling full of doubt
Taking medication for sea sickness
Swimming for charity - Kenzie’s Gift
Training and maintaining swim fitness
Working with a swim coach (Phillip Rush) and the importance of stretching
The importance of recovery
Handing changes in her body over the years
Being aware of her body
Not using a watch or GPS
Learning how to train smart
Nutrition while swimming and getting the fuel needed to complete the big swims
Homemade leek and potato swims for the cold swims
PURE Sports Nutrition
The importance of feeding fast
Digging deep and getting through the dark/tough moments
Taking it one stroke at a time
The next swim challenge in May
Swimming from Spain to Morocco - The Straits of Gibraltar
How to connect with Gráinne
Final words of advice for new swimmers and swimmers who want to take it to the next level
The power of finding your community
Social Media
Website: grainnemoss.com
Instagram: @swimirishkiwi
Charity: Kenzie’s Gift supports the mental health of tamariki (children) and mātātahi (young people) affected by serious illness or grief.
kenzi | a human teenager raised in a house full of ‘monsters’
harlow | a human teenager introduced to monster house when she meets kenzi
toby | a vampire teenager raised in monster house - dating kai
phillip | a vampire professor, lives in monster house, father to toby
kai | a trans witch who’s family runs the local witches coven - dating toby
matty | a five year old werewolf living in monster house - chews all the shoes
arya | an engineering student. also a werewolf hiding it from her roommates
callie | arya’s roommate. budding lawyer. half fae, half human - dating milo
milo | a dryad, has a hard time hiding his antlers. classics student. dating callie.
tagging @cogesque since i heard you were wanting some of these!
What do I do when I want to
Be as close as I can get to you?
I feel like a cruel girl
Saying both yes and no
I want you to want me
I need to trust you though
What do I do when I fall through
Fears so long and dark that I lose you?
I feel like a lost girl
Letting my torn heart show
If you're so far away, boy
How will you ever know?
Character(s) –> Madison Chasse, Jake Johnston, Kenzi Carmichael, Sam Phillips; with mentions of Mrs. Chasse, Mr. Chasse, Micah Chasse
Date –> December 5, 2014
Warning(s) –> TW: Miscarriage, TW: Stress, TW: Blood, TW: Controlling Parents
Notes –> During her freshman year at Harvard for Pre-Law, Madi was under an enormous amount of stress.
Half of the semester had already come, gone and waved a not so fond farewell to Madi as it did. There were still days she couldn’t believe -- pleasantly -- that this was her life, studying pre-law at Harvard of all places, with challenging debates held by her fellow students and a chance to further her education in a way she had only dreamed over prior to this. The freedom that campus held, those blissful hours spent away from home being an actual adult, were wonderful albeit stressful.
There were other days, though, where Madi couldn’t believe that this was her life, dodging a million questions from her overprotective parents about why she needed to stay after her last class for study sessions so frequently. Questions about who was in those groups, where they would be studying and thousands more than she did her best to answer in a manner so as not to draw suspicion. She was eighteen, yet she still felt like the six year old that hadn’t been allowed to even play in a neighbor’s yard without her mother watching from the porch. Her parents were overbearing to the worst degree even before college, but now that she was an adult she had hoped it would slow down.
The worst part of dodging their questions was that, in order to not arouse suspicion, she’d cut down on the time she’d been spending with her partner Jake. The distance she’d had to put between them so she could not arouse suspicion with her parents and focus on her studies led to him breaking off their relationship. Madi was hardly as heartbroken as she expected, instead throwing herself even further into her studies with a newfound weight lifted off of her shoulders by the sheer fact of having one less thing to dodge her parents about.
The semester had gone well from that point forward, aside from the constant nausea she’d begun to feel. Chalking it up to stress from worrying about finals, Madi had switched to a more basic diet of toast and applesauce to ease the symptoms and carried on about her days. Things were so busy that she didn’t even noticed she’d missed her period -- something that hadn’t happened since she’d started menstruation at age eleven.
On the morning of December 5th, 2014 Madi woke in an abnormal amount of pain. Sometime over the night the nausea she’d been dealing with had morphed into something far worse. It felt as though she was cramping, but more intense. It took all she had to drag herself out of bed - noting the puddle there - and into the private bathroom she had attached to her bedroom. The amount of blood coming from her worried her immensely and she knew she needed to go to the doctor. Unsure of what was happening to her and why, Madi told herself to try and go about her morning routine as fast as possible without arousing suspicion and skip her morning lecture to go to the urgent care near the school.
Luckily for Madi, it was her younger brother Micah’s school field trip and she’d gone into the kitchen to find a note informing her that they would be home by the time she got home from her day. A plate of breakfast had been left in the microwave for her, and Madi proceeded to bag it up and put it in her school bag to either eat or throw out later - away from the house, where they wouldn’t notice. Thanking whatever higher power there was for this chance to get out of the house unnoticed, she’d headed off earlier than normal and went straight to the clinic nearest to the school.
The rest of the day was a blur for Madi, most of it spent between the clinic and one of the libraries at the school. All three of her seminars for that day were missed, and she’d barely remembered to send an e-mail of apology to her professors, claiming she’d been sick and unable to attend. She was still trying to wrap her head around the news that the doctor had delivered her when she’d heard a voice call her name.
“Madi? There you are! You weren’t in class, we were worried. You okay?” The familiar, warm voice of Jake pulled her from her thoughts as her glassy gaze raised to meet not only him, but their friends Kenzi and Sam.
“I--” Madi attempted, but her throat closed tightly at the words her brain wanted to speak so badly.
“Hey, hey..” Jake rushed forward, wrapping his arms around her shaking form. “Whatever it is, it’s gonna be okay.”
“Yeah, we’ve got you.” Sam confirmed as he came up on her other side, wrapping an arm around her waist.
“No.” Madi sobbed, pressing her face into Jake’s shoulder as she let herself release all of the emotions she’d been holding in. He didn’t understand -- he couldn’t. And how could she tell him that he had lost out too? She couldn’t, not today at least...
Need some last minute Halloween blurb ideas? I got you boo. Tom x teacher!reader with Tom helping an overworked reader prepare and celebrate Halloween for her kids. Honestly I miss having my kids in class this year and i wish things were different
almost forgot to post his whoops. happy Halloween!! 👻 stay safe guys!
Candy | T. Holland
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You string the last line of lights against the ceiling, falling back on your heels with a sigh. You cursed yourself for doing this last minute, but it would be worth it. Your eyes wander over the room, it was slightly more festive then it was five minutes ago. Jack-o-lanterns were sat in the corner, spooky bat lights fell from the ceiling and candy was hidden all around, and yet, there was still more to be done.
“Hey,” Tom said, crossing his arms and leaning against the doorway. You let out a surprised yelp, turning to face him and his cocky grin.
“Scared already? I haven’t even put on my real costume yet, babe.”
You roll your eyes, leaning forward to place a kiss on his cheek. “Your either here to help me, or you can leave.”
Tom holds his hands up in surrender, “okay, take it away boss. What do you need?”
You smile, grabbing a giant bin of decorations from your desk, and placing it in Tom’s hands. He lets out a soft groan at the sudden weight, stumbling on his feet. “What’s in this thing?”
“Skeletons,” you shrug.
“Is that even legal?”
“Anything’s legal on Halloween.”
“I don’t think that’s how it wo-”
You place a finger to his lips, shushing him. “My classroom, my rules.”
Tom nods, and you step back turning toward the other side of the classroom. You’re well on your way to finishing the class when a plastic clack lands next to you. A plastic pumpkin displays itself on the counter and you turn to the only suspect in the room.
Tom smiles cheekily, tossing another small pumpkin in his hands.
“Tommy,” you warn, feeling around the counter for the pumpkin.
“baby,” He counters, wiggling his eyebrows.
“If you throw that pumpkin...”
“You’ll what?”
“Thomas-”
“Hi Ms. (L/N)!” A voice interrupts. You spin around to find one of your students, standing at the door, costume and all.
“Hi Phillip!” You greet, giving Tom a last glare before running up to Phillip in his Prince costume.
“Hi!” He chirps happily, dropping his backpack in his cubby before sitting at his desk. “Hi Mr. Tom!”
Tom smiles at the blonde boy, before turning back to face you, but you’re already at the door greeting the next few kids. Tom eventually comes to stand next to you, as all the kids flood in. A few princesses, pirates, superhero’s, animals and others.
“Ms. (L/N)! Ms. (L/N)!” Kenzie calls, “what are you and Mr. Tom supposed to be?!”
“Oooh, ooh! Can I guess?” Elvin asked.
“Sure buddy,” You said, letting Tom wrap an arm around your waist.
“Are you tinkerbell and Peter Pan?”
You clap your hands together, your fake wings knocking Tom in the face as he coughs at the glitter.
“Yes we are!” You grab a piece of candy from your bin, tossing it at the boy. He inspects it before sticking his tongue out and passing it to the girl next to him. The two of them are also wearing matching costumes as a ring leader and a lion. Your heart blossomed at the small action.
The class all whines, “do we get candy?”
You laugh, grabbing your Jack-o-lantern full of candy, “well, I’ve hid some around the room that you can eat during our movie...”
The kids all leap from their seats cheering, thank you’s falling from their lips as they being to chat with friends.
Tom turns to you, taking the moment of distraction to place a chaste kiss to your lips. “One day you’ll be Mrs. Holland.”
You chuckle, patting Tom’s chest, “oh I’m sure, lover boy. But right now we have a class full of students to attend too.”
who are some of your favorite pedro writers on here?
Buckle up, anon, because I have a LIST. This is NOT an exhaustive list, nor is it in any order. If I forgot someone PLEASE correct me and feel free to add. I am not intentionally leaving ANYONE out. PLEASS SUPPLEMENT, FRIENDS!
Again, in no particular order...
1. My bb Katryn aka @ithinkhesgaybutwesavedmufasa bonded over our mutual love and nerdy know-how of the one and only prince Oberyn (and the incomparable Ellaria Sand). Katryn's series, "Footprints in the Sand" is some of the most beautiful Oberyn on here. She also writes for Max Phillips and Frankie. She's a beautiful mind and a beautiful human.
2. The lovely, incomparable @qveenbvtch is one of the queenliest Javi queens on here. "Ring my Bell" and "Funtimes in Babylon" are dreamy, hot art with our favorite grumpy DEA boyfriend.
3. @forever-rogue my beautiful, brilliant, fellow law nerd Patricia. She writes INCREDIBLE dreamy Oberyn (and is a fellow Diego Luna lover). Generally, a paragon of taste.
4. @rzrcrst -- Kenzie writes Ezra with an ease that feels beautifully stifling-- you can never get enough and yet each piece is so fulfilling.
5. I have shouted this one out like three times by now but @mell-bell wrote a Mando classic: "Fight so Dirty."
6. The lovely Zelda @zeldasayer writes beautiful Javi and Whiskey, she also does brilliant headcanons.
7. @elylandon has a phenomenal Mando series "Lost and Found."
8. Maggie, @hopelikethesun writes the LEGENDARY Maybe Today, Maybe Forever Javi MASTERPIECE. SERIOUSLY A MUST-READ for Javi lovers. She also writes Ezra, Frankie and other Pedros.
9. @fleetwoodmactshirt her HC's are legend. Everything she touches turns to gold, everything she writes, a treasure.
10. @diindjariin has a BEAUTIFUL Mando series I've waxed poetic about three times now, "A Mandalorian Hello."
11. @californiakoenig writes BEAUTIFUL Javi (and also Poe Dameron for you Oscar Isaac lovers).
12. @longitud-de-onda writes some of the most beautiful, dreamy, angsty Javi.
13. @themandjalorian -- Everything she writes is incredible!
14. @maxlordd "A Gilded Lie" Maxwell Lord story is GOD TIER. Seriously, if this isn't what Wonder Woman 1984 is, I'll be upset. Patty Jenkins, HIRE HER!
15. My beautiful Ash @winters-buck is always up for Pedro character thoughts and has a BEAUTIFUL mind.
16. @no-droids Masterful. Mando.
God there are so many more and I cannot do EVERY person I love so much the justice they deserve, so please check them out for yourself. You won't regret it: @murdermewithbooks @hiscyarika @cosmicbug379 @dindjarindiaries @lannister-slings-and-arrows @waywardodysseys @absurdthirst @huliabitch @ithinkwehitametaphor @keeper0fthestars @thick-dick-daddy-mando @agentpike @fandom-imagines-stories @pajamasecrets
Listen, I am just a humble fan of the above beauties and their amazing work. Please check them out, ask them for their recommendations. They probably know ALOT more people than I do!