#I wish I could do things differently

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A facial journey during the Jared Monologue at Denver Con 2021 [x]

Four more because I can only put 10 up there:

Bonus:

#dencon21 #sorry i had to this #and i wish i could do more #but 14 was already a lot lol #y'all his face is a RIDE through this #and the one where it looks like he's about to interject is when jared starts talking about his kids in that whole thing #ignore the smaller gifs in the text box that they're different sizes i'm not a professional #lol

[jeffysatur]

so what Are we all gonna do when one of them (money is on kinn) has their inevitable "what if we just stayed missing/ran away forever" moment in that forest huh

#kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #personally i will simply perish #what if they played the fantasy out a bit for the hell of it to make it Even More Painful #nd talked about gathering their brothers and taking them away too #going somewhere remote and beautiful by the coast so porsche can open up that beachside bar #just forgetting all the reasons they could never do it #all logic that says it would never work out even if they Did try #if just for a moment it wasnt a fantasy but a feasible possibility #not even in a romantic way either just two dudes unhappy with the cards life dealt them wishing they could be/do/live something different #feel free to bully me for this i deserve it #[dw voice] i wish i couldnt feel a damn thing

[cloud-ya]

... do not worry. I can't feel anything anyway

#just because your pain receptors are fucked up doesnt mean you can hurt yourself all the time 🥰 #— himeko probably #ok but vent art time #even though i had to wait those few minutes for laptop to turn on and its pretty late #i was so mad today i wish i could punch a wall with my first until it bleeds but im too scared #literally feeling like either killing someone or myself i hate this family #sorry im angry because you didnt consult things with me before doing them i guess #or that i cant communicate in any different way than getting angry easily because you never taught me any proper way of communication #i want them to suffer mentally the same way i have to. fuck my family #honkai impact #kiana kaslana #herrscher of the void #well no wonder i like characters with anger issues #tw blood

[synchlora]

[IDs: two drawings of smp earth wilbur and his dogs. One is very simplistic and messy, done in marker. The other is watercolor and much more stylized. He is facing the viewer, slinging a hammer over his shoulder with the other hand placed on his hip. One of his feet is stepped up onto a large tree stump where a shiba inu is sitting. By his other leg, a german shepherd and chihuahua are next to him. /end ID]

happy two year anniversary to the beginning of the transatlantic railroad and to my first wilbur soot stream :]]

[nov 27th, 2019] vs [nov 27th, 2021]

#smp earth #wilbur soot #very proud of this one :]] #almost didnt color it bc i was afraid id ruin it but man am i glad i did #god. the difference is so fucking insane to me #like. thats two years. and its so fucking insanely different #if youre afraid to start art just do it man #i was terrified when i started w people more seriously in 2019 #and after just two years its like. completely fucking different #like i have a style now man :']]] these r things i wish i could show my 17 y/o self cause godamn #it was discouraging back then #still is sometimes #but man im so much happier w my art now and wahhh #im being sappy </3 #anyway. have this :]]] #sketching shit #smpe tag

[saoirseunaronan]

all introverts who thought they’d be okay staying home because of corona but then found out you suddenly wanna go out cause it’s not your choice to stay home anymore and you want to make up for lost time but you can’t hit me up we gonna cry at 8

#yeah i wish i could do things differently now #we're all desperate bitches i mean #fame? i don't know her

[thisismespiraling]

i think probably the worst feeling in the world is not being missed

#feelings #this isn’t anything abt anyone specific this is just a rant of weird feelings xoxoxo #i know a lot of the specifics of feeling this way have to do with my own personal experiences w people even if the feeling in general isn’t #just a me thing? but god. it’s ? so ?? not it #meaning i have a lot of Feelings surrounding. not expecting anything of people (even if i Could/should) and esp not expecting anything of #anyone that wouldn’t/shouldn’t do the thing in question #so it’s not like i’m Expecting anyone to like. miss me or whatever??? #but there’s something so……….. idk …. abt being missed (and being told you’re missed) #not that it’s a good thing bc that’s a weird thing to say but there’s something so 🥺💞💖 abt someone telling you they missed you??? yknow #bc it’s almost like . you feel like you Add something when you’re there and when you’re not there people miss you and it Feels Different #when you’re not there??? #but when people don’t notice a difference or it feels very much to you like there’s no difference or they don’t feel or act differently #it’s kinda disheartening in a way? idrk how to explain these are just a bunch of feelings #and this is in no way some kind of . oh everyone should be unhealthily attached to me and miss me all the time and wanna be with me all the #time LMFAO no . i mean in a regular oh i missed you the other day kinda way in a oh i was wondering where you were kinda way? i think #or not a we were wondering more like . oh we knew you weren’t gonna br there it’s so good to see you know #very much i am aware this has to do with my self esteem being down the drain in many areas lol i know that. i just needed to verbalize this #this isn’t because i expect people to miss me bc like i said i would never expect something from someone bc that’s just not how i roll my #expectations of people are basically on the floor bc . issues . BUT what i am saying is that i kinda wish i was missed more #that makes no sense and sounds awful but ? i wish i felt like people missed me when i’m gone from like regular situations or whatever #this is vague on purpose bc it’s not something serious or something legit it’s just jumbled feelings but #anyway if you miss or missed someone . tell them lol i’m sure it’ll make me happy to know

[fanaticalthings]

Oh god I just realized that since we know that Clark is 19 in Dark Knights of Steel and that Bruce was definitely conceived after Clark, that means that Bruce could be 18 years old AT THE OLDEST.

And in this universe he still has the robins (Dick, Jason, Steph, Duke & Tim who'll show up later)...so this means Bruce is really close to their ages...and more like a slightly older brother to them instead of a father :/

Also Bruce might not even BE 18, we just know he's younger than Clark, so for all we know, Bruce could be a minor. It's literally possible that Dick in this world is the same age or even OLDER than Bruce (unlikely but still a possibility). His Robins could actually be the SAME AGE as him

I do not like this at all.

#cant believed i missed the '19 years later...' thing #goddamnit this means he could literally be the same age as the robins #the worst thought that came to me was that since hes similar in age to the robins he could literally date any of them #and i HATE that #i was gonna wish for a timeskip but it literally wouldnt make a difference since the robins already exist #and their age differences wouldnt change smh #i cant fathom a universe where bruce isnt a father figure to the robins #if i had to suffer knowing this then you do too #ig this explains why damian doesnt exist (yet) #i just wanted medieval batfam but NOT LIKE THIS #i wanted them to be a knight family where bruce is like their dark knight dad :( #dark knights of steel #batman #bruce wayne #dc comics #meta

[thefictionshelf]

the way i’m CONSTANTLY ping-ponging between i have some kind of mental health issue i need a lot of support for vs I’m lazy and i need to get my act together. it’s like. four times a fucking day any more i don’t fucking knowwwww

#the way it got rid of half of my tags. it's giving over-writer #i think i have adhd #but it's also like ... what if i've just deluded myself into thinking that bc it's become a lot more visible in the past year #as a result of that #and i'm in like online mental health advocacy spaces i have been pretty actively for about four years now #because i'm just trying to learn about different neurotypes and mental illnesses and all that so i can be a better ally n what not #so i caught the early sort of wave of adhd/asd (and eventually other neurodiversities) content from people who actually had it #and that stuff is like what first got me thinking about hey i might have that #but it's social media at the end of the day. like what if it's all bullshit #and i''ve looked at the DSM and the weiss test (a Canadian diagnostic tool 4 teens w/ adhd)\ #and i seem to fall in the range #but that's from not a mh professional and also my perception of my own symptoms #and there's this kind of thing #where like. i wish i have it in the sense that i'd love to not be at fault for fucking up so fucking bad #and i'd love for there to be established avenues to help me #rather than just kind of needing to better #which i don't rlly know how to do #so that could sway my own perception sub consciously #and i mean at the end of the day for me personally it's never going to be enough research for me to believe myself #like i need to talk to someone with a phd or whatever but it's like #what if that's not what's going on #and it's so fucking embarrassing to be one of those kids who thought they had adhd bc they spend to much time on the fucking internet #or maybe i would get dismissed when i actually did have it bc i'm in one of those underdiagonosed groups and bc im so unsure i wouldn't be #able to advocate for myself and that's just so much fucking stress #but also my dad psychiatrist says he probably has adhd #and it's inherited #no official tests or anything but he went into the er for a panic attack one day and i think in their following discussions she was like yea #that's probably caused by a mild case of adhd #and me in my dad have always been very similar

[ocdhuacheng]

I have genuinely never seen a worse artist than starember

#Like she’s a worse artist than those 11 year olds on deviantart who are just starting to draw #like at least those actual children put some care into their art like they’re having fun and learning #starember is just. It’s soulless it’s ugly it’s everything wrong with the danmei genre #.txt #like Tgcf could have been so cool as a comic but noooooo #abd like. Even the mdzs manhua is leagues better #like I know many ppl have issues with that art style and I have some too #but over all I do like it I think it’s cute and fun even if there are certain aspects of it that I wish were different #and I just can’t understand why people prefer the Tgcf manhua to the Mdzs one like. There’s no redeeming qualities to it. Genuinely #And this isn’t even touching all the shitty things outside of just bad art that starember does #die ❤️ #And the Mdzs style is actually suited for comics like with the Tgcf style it’s so overwhelming like there’s so much going on in each panel #Like my brain doesn’t know where to focus #and the color palette is ugly love abd light ❤️ #And the business/oversaturated nature of Tgcf manhua is ultimately pointless because it doesn’t serve to portray anything #it’s just complicated and hyper rendered for the sake of being complicated and hyper rendered #it’s just trying to be visually ��impressive” but the visuals don’t do anything for the story. They’re just like. .. There #And so in your face it actively distracts from the story

[thatwitchrevan]

My dad watching Matrix Resurrections: idk it was weird and different and didn't work for me :/

Me watching Matrix Resurrections: must a movie be good? Is it not enough that Trinity and Neo have heart eyes and Morpheus wears a very orange suit?

#griffin watches things #the matrix #the matrix resurrections #the difference between a lifelong fan and a brand new fan ig #i watched the original matrix w my dad about a week before i saw the new one #I can't even argue whether or not resurrections is a good continuation #it doesn't really matter to me #I've only seen the first and most recent film #and to me resurrections succeeded when it entertianed me and made me think about life in the same ways the matrix did #but he has seen these films dozens of times or more and put so much thought into them #so our perspectives are equally valid and important #the lifelong fan viewpoint is essential bc res is an anticpated sequel to a beloved film #it is meant to be a culmination of that love and legacy #but the new fan perspective is equally essential #because the new film is meant to take the matrix to a bran new audience #a young and modern one #and also there's the meta discussion of should this film even have been made #was lana even satisfied making it? would it have been better if she had not? or is it worth having #even if she didn't originally want to make it? #i do wish my dad liked the movie so we could enjoy it together #and so he could have a revival of one of his favorite franchises that makes him happy #but i think if everyone liked the new matrix it would be a different film and maybe not as interesting

[i-am-the-balancing-point]

I hope all your fridges and pantries are stocked ♡ may all your bills be paid on time ♡ may you have enough extra to treat yourself to something nice

#I love y’all #manifesting good things for each and every one of you #me every time I hear one of my beloved friends/mutuals is struggling: ง(•̀ д•́)ง #I wish we all lived in the same neighbourhood #I’d do a grocery run and stock your fridge for you coming over #then cook you a nice meal #sit you down on the couch and wrap you in like 50 different but equally cozy blankets #I’m so privileged #I’m safe and fed and the heating is working #I wish I could share those privileges with everyone #so like… manifesting it is #mentally making you soup #Gigi babbles

[frecklystars]

something purple

#vent art #self harm cw #just something scribbled between comms #i also rly rly rly. rly rly rly rly rly. rly. miss. starlight #i miss drawing him and i miss working on my AU and i miss all of my voice clips #my work schedule is killing me :( i was hoping i would have reduced my hours by now #i have so many things piling up on me but i dont know how to handle it #so i just sit here and i let it pile up until it crushes me and i still do nothing about it #it sucks and i wish i had a heart that wasn't so broken and bruised #i wish i could restart my life and make a better one where im very loved #i wish i was different #i wish everything was different #i cant sleep so ill just lay here and wait for the sun and my work alarm to go off

[foulserpent]

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#not the rare serious venting but i kinda wish i could go back 5 years and do a lot of things differently #hindsight being 20/20 and all theres a lot of choices i could have made to set myself up for a better life/better chances #its not like im suffering horribly but im just in a rut and its like. stable but just absolute stagnation #theres things i could do to get out but its no guarantee and its kind of a choice between #putting myself thru misery to move forward or stay in the same place but have it #be relatively stable and have comforts #the former is probably better but its also like life is short and the world sucks rn #theres time to figure things out i dont have to have things figured out in my 20s but like #also very real environmental dread makes it hard to be Really convinced of a far future

[searidings]

how long does it normally take you to finish a chapter would you say? this isn’t related to anything but it takes me forever so i was just wondering about other writers. have a nice day!

depends entirely on the story and the length of the chapter! on my multichap fics i generally post a chapter a week so it takes me about a week to write each one, though i have ideas/plans before that. one-shots i usually write in a couple days if they're less than 10k words, but i'm an all or nothing writer, i finish something in a few hyperfixated hours and then don't write anything for weeks!

#i wish i could do that 500 words a day thing but it's just not for me #nine hours of concentration and then nothing for months #but everyone's different and there's nothing wrong with that! #and also it varies between times in your life of course #during the height of lockdown i produced way more and way quicker #but now i have a new job it's much slower you know #just gotta be gentle with yourself and take it as it comes #no point forcing something that's supposed to be fun! that's what i tell myself anyway #hope you're having a wonderful day #asks #anonymous

[notsocharmingmagician]

The absolutely unholy amount of Super Paper Mario AUs that I have is getting out of fucking control. Pretty sure we’re over 30 or pretty damn close to it.

The real reason my memory is absolutely shit isn’t because of a legit memory issue, no, I think it might just be because I’ve filled up all the available space in my brain with 30+ different versions of Dimentio.

I’ve got enough versions of this fucking clown to make a whole damn circus.

#I even have a fucking cowboy au #once I finally make a list of all these maybe I’ll share #dimentio #super paper mario #im drowning in ideas help #literally all of my ideas are just different ways to make dimentio’s life hell #i have no shame #just kidding #i am very ashamed actually #dimentio spm #I would go absolutely wild if any of these AUs had any sort of presence outside my own head #but that would require me to actually write shit and getting that done on my own motivation is a fucking struggle #I wish I could just skip the whole doing it step and just have the thing spawn from my thoughts alone #slaps self; this bad boy can fit so many aus in it

[mushroom-winners-proof]

ansem and xemnas’ farewells in KH3 always interests me but a note that really itches my brain about them is how they parallel each other in that with ansem’s goodbye he talks about others betraying him/the cause while in xemnas’ goodbye he talks about betraying others/taking his allies for granted

#snap chats #last ask got me thinking hi can we tell #im always going to wish we got to see more of ansem and xemnas as just people and i cannot fix this #i dont know if this was an intentional thing but i like to think bout it nonetheless #not enough to really understand what it could mean from a character perspective though OOP #i do know that in both of them they at least victimize themselves #ansem talking bout how hes essentially stuck following MX and xemnas highlighting his loneliness and pain because he mistreated others #man i really dont know what to make of it. like AGAIN it interests me so much and i feel like im on the precipice of realizing something yet #god because dumb is hard sometimes its all fun and games until i actually try thinking #i think their goodbyes mirroring each other is at least nice from a perspective of They're A Part Of The Same Person #Yet Are Different Parts Of That Person you know: the same but different and i like that i think it's a nice detail ig #i unno ima stop thinking and just doodle goofy shit as per usual