#I don’t want to be whiny

[fandomsoda]

goddamnit I feel so lonely

#vent in tags #It feels like even my own goddamn friends can’t see me anymore. #I’ve not gotten a welcome back or anything in months #all the anons I’m familiar with have been silent.. #my own friends don’t say hi.. #been forever since I’ve had a proper normal-feeling ask in my inbox #the numbers are higher than ever so why do I feel more lonely than ever? #I don’t want to be whiny #I don’t want to beg for attention #but I also need attention to know that I’m still loved #I don’t know…

[millenianthemums]

parents of disabled kids will be like “we know our kid is disabled but we just won’t tell them about it. we don’t want them to think they’re less valuable than other kids. we don’t want them to feel limited by their disability, we want them to know they’re capable of anything.”

meanwhile those kids are growing up thinking “why is everything so much harder for me than it is for everyone else? there’s no reason i shouldn’t be able to just do this. i guess i’m just a failed, broken person.”

#text post #ableism #like if you don’t want to get your kid diagnosed with something then that’s one thing #but not KNOWING what’s wrong with them isn’t gonna make the problem just magically disappear #and just personally speaking. SO MANY things i do that i used to feel such deep shame about? #i now realize they were because i’m autistic #the meltdowns the social awkwardness etc #and i feel so much better to know i wasn’t just being whiny or difficult or weird for no reason #i feel like my whole life i’ve been gaslighted into not knowing what i really feel #because everyone always told me i was being ‘dramatic’ or ‘too sensitive’ and eventually i decided they must be right #so now i literally can’t tell what i’m feeling sometimes #because i dismiss my own feelings as stupid and wrong

[roanniom]

Finally saw the first two episodes of the new season of Fargo.

Gator is the fucking worst.

And I want to fucking destroy him.

#I want to fuck that whiny boy into a whimpering mess #I hate him - don’t get me wrong #but Joe Keery transcends shitty characters #gator tillman #fargo s5

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

so howd you like it what are your thoughts

Anon, I hope you don't mind it but I'm going to use this ask as an excuse to do my Full On Rambling post about my honest thoughts. I'll try to keep is as coherent as possible, but I can't actually guarantee it :')

Also putting it under a cut because some of it is going to sound negative (as I said, I want to exorcise any critiques I have so I can go back to Vibing asap) and I know many people (undestandibly!!) won't want to read that, and I don't want to burst anyone's happy bubble :) . And also because of s3 spoilers. Bear in mind that it's not a rant post, I still had tons of fun with the season. But since I'm going to be talking about the things I enjoyed forevermore and gonna try to keep all my 'didn't really like this :/'s contained in this post, it may come out sounding like I enjoyed it less than I truly did. Here we go, get ready for some Thoughts

-> Content

Okay, listen. This season was fun. I had a nice time watching the newest shenanigans. New characters (with one notable exception) were a joy to watch (yes, even the thing. We're in a toxic situationship) and I was greatly amused by their adventures; most of them kept me on the edge of my seat.

(ok, here's where the negativity begins. Please don't take me for someone who wanted everything to be done for Their Specific Standards or who thinks they know more than the professional and extremely skilled team that was behind the series. I'm just throwing around thoughts about how I feel, but in the end, the only thing that matters is that Luke Pearson and the team got to tell the story they wanted to. If that was achieved, I'm happy regardless)

However, I couldn't help but think that some of it felt... like it was "thrown" at us, in a way? To be fair, I think most of the negative points I'll discuss in this post are a consequence of this season being 6 epsidoes short of what the writers originally planned because, as I've mentioned before, I do think the show's writing is great and that the team puts their heart and soul into making this the best cartoon possible. Anyway, what I mean is that at times I thought the episodes seemed so worried with delivering all the information they could that a lot was left behind and some stuff didn't really tie together with the rest.

For example; I still cannot understand why aunt Astrid and Anders had to be these big surprises that had never been mentioned before if Hilda, the character who we see this world through, already knew about them? Don't misunderstand me, I am well aware that these nitpicks of mine are subjective and only my personal opinions that may very well simply be a consequence of not understanding what the writers were trying to achieve. I just feel like Johanna's family and Hilda's father are topics that have been discussed so at lenght in the fandom, precisely because they'd been so carefully skirted around in the previous seasons, that the reveal that nothing really dramatic had happened (between Johanna/Astrid and Johanna/Anders, at least) feels anticlimatic to me. It just feels (again, to me, personal opinion) that if this was going to be the case all along they could have mentioned these characters before, and it would have made the narrative make a little more sense.

(This is especially true to me in Anders' case. Bc it felt to me like they had been trying to highlight how irrelevant Hilda's dad was to the story in the first seasons by not bringing him up at all, by not even pointing out his abscence. But I can't really see the point in that if you're gonna bring out the man either way)

Ironically, at the same time I felt like some of the arcs were a tad overachieving, especially the Johanna's parents one. I just felt like it was Too Much Too Quickly, which once again is likely because of the season having been shortened. I feel like if they really wanted to do that arc, and that way, it would have been helpful to cut some other storylines so they could begin fleshing out this one earlier. They way it was done I just personally (can you tell I'm terrified of being taken as a hater?) felt like there was no time at all to get either used to the idea of Johanna being half faerie nor to get attatched to her parents. Like. I know the episode was the season's emotional peak, but it just didn't hit me the way I know it should.

Not sure if this was a me problem, but I felt like the audience wasn't given enough time to process what had even happened when they got stuck in the fairie island, nor to even consider that they'd truly be stuck there forever, much less to fully process the sacrifice Johanna was making when she left it with Hilda. I didn't get to get attached to Johanna's parents or to the dynamic they have with their daughter. I didn't suffer the way I wanted to when I saw them having to part ways, because I couldn't become invested in their bond when I was still trying to wrap my head around what their backstory even was and pay attention to the action heavy scenes that were to come.

What I'm gonna say here is way meaner than the people behind the show's writing deserve and I know, I can absolutely tell it isn't the case because you can see some of the foreshadowing once you have the benefit of hindsight, but it felt to me like some of Johanna's backstory was written for shock value alone. Which, considering the previous components of the season that I have already mentioned felt underwhelming, was even more jarring.

Another thing is that I feel like a lot was sacrificed in order to do these overachieving arcs. This maaay just be the side character lover and change hater in me, but I do feel like in order to present to us all these new concepts that would be necessary for the backstory to make sense, we were deprived of some elements in Hilda The Series that are arguably what the show does best. It felt like they all but scratched all of their previous stories, characters and components to switch them up for new ones. Pikablob has said it better than me, tbh.

However. I do feel like saying that none of the fears I had for the season came true. No character feels ooc, no one was left with an incomplete arc, and though I can't see how Anders contributes to the story, if he had to be there I feel like the way that was it done was the right one.

-> Pacing

Frenetic. Run for the hills kind of thing sometimes. Which, once again, I can't bring myself to believe was the writers' fault, not when they had other 6 episodes planned that they didn't get to do. I absolutely understand that they had to condense everything they wanted to show us into half the runtime. But it did become an issue (to me) when instead of the trademark Hilda Idyllic Tranquility I usually feel while watching (even plot and action heavy content like TMK), I felt like I was watching a completely different cartoon. Carmen Sandiego, or something like that (please note that I do also love Carmen Sandiego). Many times it just felt like there was no breathing space, which isn't necessarily bad when done well, but I hadn't gone into the season prepared for that.

It wasn't a problem that was all around present, though. I do want to point out that imo "The Giant Slayer", "The Laughing Merman", "Strange Frequencies" and even "The Forgotten Lake" still felt like Hilda to me. Which is where I realize what the main issue I had with the season was. That a lot of it just felt like a different show.

-> ~ vibes ~

I am bringing back the disclaimer that if the team told the story they wanted to, then good for them, I'm pleased as can be. I do enjoy that the series played with some different concepts. The musicality and colours in The Laughing Merman, for example, were absolutely delightful to me. Seriously, I want an entire Hilda musical now.

But some things I just couldn't help but feel were so disconnected from the previous feel of the show that it felt to me like they didn't belong. You can sum the rest of this post up by saying that season 3 would have been one of my favourite ever cartoons if it had been its own thing. But it's not, so I can't help but compare it and try to understand how all of the installments work when together.

The faeries, for example. I was so excited when I saw the trailer and knew it was going to be one of the plots, because I thought it was going to be another adventure of the day type of thing that would span over three episodes max. And listen, I've talked about how much I love Celtic folklore, and maybe this is just my consistency loving brain being annoying, but it felt a bit... clashing? that this season was based on tales and creatures and treaditions that weren't the scandinavian ones that inspired the rest of the series. It just felt like a major shift in tone that I don't really understand (once again, me problem, may very well be a skill issue on my part & I'm not saying they shouldn't have ventured so far just bc I didn't quite vibe with it). It just feels a bit off to me, knowing that Johanna's backstory was likely planned from the start, that there wasn't any celtic lore at all in previous seasons to make this sudden detachment from nordic folklore feel less out of the blue.

You know that joke that Disney movies like Aladdin and Raya take concepts from different cultures and smash them together like they're not completely different? I felt to some extent (bc OF COURSE Hilda is much better researched and has a lot better quality than that /gen) like they did that this season. But with white people. Which, fair, I can appreciate the irony.

Back to the topic of bold storylines, I understand what the Hilda team did with all the Johanna backstory. I understand that it's something that everyone wanted to see soo bad and they wanted it to be great (and it was). The thing I got stuck on is just that it ended up changing the vibe of the show to me. Whereas previous seasons feel like "slice of life in a magical place", I felt like this time I was watching a magic centered fantasy. Especially when they got into trying to explain the origin of magic and everything. Which is ironic, because I enjoyed the concept a lot and will explore it in the future, but it still felt like something that I wouldn't have expected Hilda the Series to tackle. Like there was a giant shift from folkloric to fantastic that isn't bad, but it is different and I hadn't been prepared for that lol.

God, I feel like I just wrote all of that and just to be A Bitch. I just wanted to get these thoughts out but I don't expect you guys to agree or anything. I genuinely liked watching this season, and I will continue to reiterate this in the future. And even if it doesn't beat s1 or s2 in my heart, I'm still grateful we got a final season at all, and everyone who was involved in it deserves all the praise <3

#me while writing this: dont say retcon dont say retcon #retcon is the word toxic 'fans' use when something doesnt go exactly the way they want and they can't interpret media DONT SAY RETCON #(<- friend just brought to my attention that I wasn’t clear on this - I don’t mean to say that retcons don’t exist #or that bad writing isn’t a problem!! I just mean I’ve seen so many discussions where the word was used badly #that now I can’t take it seriously nor use it anymore #) #I don't mean to say no one can critique the writing or that it's wrong to not enjoy what was done #I just don't trust myself to do it right KJSHDFKJHDS #& I don't want to soundl like a whiny and entitled jerk :( #kinda traumatized about it after that One ao3 commenter #hilda spoilers #hilda s3 spoilers #hilda critical #I cannot BELIEVE I just used that tag #should I tag for negativity?? I will just to be safe #negativity #hilda netflix #hilda season 3

[that-was-anticlimactic]

one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t

#and that you’re a terrible writer and that no one cares aaaaaaand imposter syndrome kicks in and you just feel like crap #bc all your friends have been wriying recejtky so why can’t you??? cause they’re bETTER THAN YOU #lol idk why my head is so bad today #the feelings of inferiority and emptiness and idk worthlessness are strong and i hate it but i can’t stop it #i just wanna write!!! and like what i write!!! #but i Can’t and i haven’t liked anything i’ve written in Months and ugh i hate not being able to d something i wanna do #oh and now i’m crying??? why the frick am i cRYING litetally why is typing this making me Worse #sorry guys needed to rant #the inadequacy was strong today #something something students keep telling me how much they dislike me or how i’m whiny for asking them to be respectful and like #i Know i shouldn’t compare myself to my friends but gosh it’s hard when they’re all like. so much better than me. #and i don’t have a lot of time to be on tumblr bc of work so i just feel like i’m watching everything from afar and it’s no one’s fault but #my brain’s like no one is Doing anything it’s just my brain being dumb and i can’t stand it and I want to stop feeling empty and like i’m #missing a part of myself and like the words i write don’t matter gOD why can’t i just feel happy with where i am and not care what the kids #who hate me say or realize that no one cares that i’m not on much like i��m still Here and trying to interact it’s not like everyone hates me #for being busy or for liking side characters more than the main characters and just— #sorry #that felt good actually #idk what came over me #imma just. imma shower. then maybe delete my tags #sorry if anyone got this far aT ALL grace is either asleep or trying to sleep so i don’t wanna bother them since they slept poorly last nigh #okay done now for real sorry delete tags later sorry if you saw this and how freaking messed up ky freaking brain is

[ozcarma]

Trying to watch 999 let’s plays is such hell to me - NO ONE PLAYS THE GAME RIGHT just shutupshutupshutupshutup and play the game!! Stop trying to make jokes!!!!

I’m too autistic for this, I cannot bear hearing let’s players doing their own voice acting when I adore the game’s VAs too much. Everyone always fucks up Santa’s and Lotus’s voices especially.

I understand the draw of Let’s Plays are largely the people playing them who have gained their own following, but as someone who just loves the game I don’t wanna hear ur stupid banter 💥💥💥 play the game and be intrigued but not TOO intrigued because give it a fuckin minute it’ll explain what’s going on 🙄‼️

#zero escape #999 #my opinion is that the let’s plays that are alright are half-blind play thrus where one person is knowledgeable about everything #and can keep the blind one on track and properly guide their curiousity #I also lose my MIND when people get stuck on the puzzles on this ridiculously easy game #(<- says the person who has played it numerous times and knows all the solutions by heart) #like you IDIOT just do THIS #(<- also the person who still has to look up the answer to the box puzzle behind door 6) #and don’t get me started on when the LPers hate Lotus #don’t get me wrong - disliking her especially when u get to the hospital room is Good and Correct as it’s what the writing is leading you to #but some LPers get so misogynistic about it I have to immediately tap out cuz its too much #also another reason why I don’t like when they don’t use the in-game voice acting #is cuz so many people play Junpei as Basic Anime Protag when Evan Smith’s voice acting gives him SO much character #and Junpei is my favorite >:( #I have many more gripes but that’s enough for now #I just want everyone to experience how great this game is but ONLY in the way I LIKE #I know I sound so whiny and entitled but please tell me someone else relates #the urge I get to just make a whole channel dedicated to 999 play thrus where I just play the game again and again with a different friend #would they all be identical to each other because I would be directing them all the same? #yes. but what greater autistic joy is that (for me) #I never thought the Joseph Anderson streams would be my favorite playthrus cuz I hated them too at first #but his dynamic with chat and consistent amusement and enjoyment of the game is very nice and soothing

[gently-decaying-flowers]

oh….

#char’s diary #i want love so bad it’s pathetic #i want love so bad i’m a whiny baby #i want love so bad yet i can’t keep a crush or a friend or anything to save my life #i want love and i don’t know why i can’t feel it #i know i know #i love my friends #AND I DO #i love them so much #but there’s something i crave about a romantic relationship #there just is #maybe that makes me selfish #idk #but it’s not like it’ll happen for me anytime soon anyway #no one even knows who i am #and if i were to be in a relationship i’d have to come out #everything is on hold #my whole life has been put on hold #just till i get out of this house #just till i get a job #just till i transition #will i ever stop waiting? #will i ever be free of the things holding me back? #will i always have a barrier #will i always be forced to wait #just until #will i ever be content? #is it too much to ask to just feel happy and comfortable

[heartbreakfeelsogood]

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#was literally trying to work on an expensive mistakes edit last night and was having trouble making it look the way i wanted it to #i wanted to do it justice because i love that song. it’s always one of my most listened to songs and the bridge means the most to me #i don’t want to say i’m sad they played mania but i’m admittedly selfishly sad i wasn’t there #i’ll wake up tomorrow and the world will go on and i’ll be okay. but i’m sad tonight #i feel like nobody really understands why i’m so sad too and i just feel lonely about it #hiding under a blanket trying so desperately to remind myself this is a good thing and it’s the healing tour and blah blah blah #telling myself fall out boy wouldn’t want me to be sad #but i’ve spiraled so much that i just wish i could disappear #on a related note i admire fall out boy so much for everything they’ve survived and how open they are about it #pete doesn’t lay under a blanket and think about dying anymore. i hope one day i can say the same. he gives me hope #sorry for the whiny dramatics. i will get over this but i’m letting myself be sad Tonight

[r0semultiverse]

A message to the recent & future transgender pick-mes.

If you’re a trans pick-me (no matter where you align with gender) there’s a special place in Hell just for you & I don’t even believe in Hell. Having trauma isn’t excusing your actions of going out of your way to hurt other people actively. It explains that it comes from a place of hurt potentially or you’re just turning into a rage-bait influencer because it makes you money. Either way you come after trans people who don’t do being trans exactly like you so they “aren’t really trans.” You get a taste of the right-wing rage-bait money pot & you wanna keep going because money & maybe some weird part of you thinks this will save you from transphobic attacks? Honey, we’re all just fags to them no matter how we look or act. Even if you’re a cis person not following the norm or unaware of the politics of it all, you’re still just a faggot to them who they will eventually want to snuff out. I’m saying this as a tranny fag just to be clear! You can’t be playing these exclusion games & thinking it’s going to make you powerful! Even Milo Yionnapolis or whatever that fucker’s name was got dropped by the Trump Administration! They do not like us & they never will like us! Democrat, republican, whatever it is; if it’s capitalist, it doesn’t like us! No matter how much you lick those boots, it’ll do you no good. You’re a faggot/tranny just like me & the rest of us, that’s how these suits see it & always will see it no matter how much you try to prove “I’m one of the good ones.” They aren’t going to save you, we’re all on the chopping block to them no matter what our politics are. These government folks don’t see any of us as “one of the good ones.” Get over yourself, grow the fuck up, and stand side-by-side with your transsexual siblings! All we have is each other, these cis people aren’t shit! 💜 Down with cis! 💜

#if you don’t know what a pick-me is read the post and or look it up #I’m not going to name names because I’m not a pick me bich with a big following #& unlike the money making influencers I don’t have the luxury of people demanding my account be brought back on other sites #hate that word ‘influencer’ but it serves the purpose of this topic in particular #this goes out to certain Kellys & Bucks & Kalvins & all the other sniveling whiny irrelevant pick-mes who play the I got mine so screw you #card & betray the very people who supported them & for being a traitor to their wider community of trans siblings #imagine wanting to be a bitter angry obnoxious influencer until you eventually pass away; that is honestly a skill issue #grow some compassion & learn to love the people & things around you; that’ll do you much better than a life of pointless performativity #I think we should bring back the phrase #down with cis #& I mean that genuinely #these self hating trans circles much like the people crusading after trans people will only eat themselves & each other alive #you’re better off supporting & sticking by your trans siblings; yes even the ones who you think do gender weird or have neopronouns #get over yourselves please; neopronouns aren’t even probably new tbh but this isn’t a history post #mine #op #trans #transgender #nonbinary #enby #tw slur #tw slurs #cw slurs #slurs tw #tw t slur #tw f slur #f slur #t slur #slurs cw

[crippled-peeper]

the same exact people who call their conditions “terminal” because they’ll have them “until they die” (even if it’s not the thing that kills them specifically) apparently cannot grasp the concept of your spine failing leading to an early mortality and have decided to Sound Off about how privileged I am in my inbox for not having something cool-sounding or “degenerative” (even though it is) or “rare” (even though I only know 1 other SCI haver I’ve met on here) or “scary” (I’ve died on the operating table more than once I have 2ft of metal in my bones) like truly you are the most misunderstood and least heard person at all times in every context. please use me as a proverbial doormat to launch essay-long rants off of. I am not a person I’m made of straw

#might make this unrebloggable I don’t want to deal with whiny people on here anymore #death #personal

[itspileofgoodthings]

I talk a lot about teaching and all the good parts of it and the powerful parts of it and it’s all true and also there is something so deeply messy and ugly and raw and painful about the real life exchange of it all and how much I just put myself on the line to communicate a truth and how little I get given back in any tangible or metaphysical way.

#wrong use of the word metaphysical but I can’t think of the right one so it will just have to do #if I had certainty that it was doing good then I would take any lack of recompense #but you don’t get certainty. that’s just part of the deal #you just get ingratitude and flatness and boredom and also the knowledge that you’re stupid if you expected any different! #yes yes all the good stuff i say is real #but this part of it is real too! I am really struggling with it at the moment #I wish there was a way to wrangle my expectations and get them in order #and just take what I get as par for the course #because it literally is #I also wish there was a way for me to be more professional in my actual profession #And I am not unprofessional #but I guess every time I’m going to want to put it all on the line even for the smallest chance of changing someone’s mind or heart #but like. Truly sometimes it’s just like—-but i don’t know that it’s wise or worth it to do it #Or if it’s doing any good at all #like truly I don’t mean it in a whiny way #Well a little bit lol #But I also just mean: who knows? Who can say for sure? Not me. #there’s not any guarantee. And also I’m sure some of the methods I use could use work. I’m sure in the grand scheme of things I don’t know #what I’m doing!! anyway I’m so so sad #and it has been a hard week! #it will pass. as will the feeling I’m sure #thanks for listening #teaching tag

[g4ll0wd4nc3r]

mad as hell at the bg3 community for ignoring erasing and excluding wyll from art and shit AND NOW theo solomon gets his time cut at mcm

#and i don’t want to condemn any one group of fan or another #but #astarion likers are so fucking annoying god bless #wyll is quite literally what they want astarion to be without being a whiny bitch #sighs whatever.

[oatmealmika]

NEVER a proshipper or toxic fan but

being an erehisu fan in 2023?!?!?!?

embarrassinggggg…… 👀

brother pls get off of reddit

for my final aot rewatch before the last episode, i just finished season two and, if most men in the fandom are erehisu stans, then it’s safe to say men really don’t understand romance because WTF IS YUMIHISU TO YALL?!?!?!?!?!??!

i get it, you have internalized homophobia ever since your seventh grade robotics teacher told you to “stop being so close with your boy best friend, it’s weird”, but DAMN.

fuck you mean “I will always be your ally”?!?!??? not to mention, “i will always wrap your scarf around you”??!?!?!?!? yes, i’m dragging eremika into this too, cuz HUH????

reddit is the number one public enemy in the state (on oatmealmika’s blog)

#attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #eremika #yumihisu #anti erehisu #fuck erehisu all my homies hate erehisu #not meant to be a logical post on why erehisu sucks so pls don’t treat it as one #cuz I KNOW some 30yo man will go on reddit and be all like “erm actually erehisu is perfect and eren doesn’t care about mikasa even—“… #“… tho he literally sacrificed the whole world for her and their friends while she also was the core of all eren’s memories” #all mad cuz of what some teen girl said on her tumblr page at 3am 😭 #need me an eren tho #not alpha male sigma fanon ending erehisu reddit eren #i mean whiny pathetic doubtful of himself friendly talkative passionate wants to protect his bbg instead of her protecting him eren #aka best eren #literally molding myself into mikasa to attract an eren like that 💀 #wasn’t very hard since i am similar to her to begin with in both looks and personality #so hmu if you want a mikasa to your eren 🤷‍♀️

[honeykaes]

Just a reminder I promise I’m not dead or procrastinating coms, settling my car has been exhausting and draining especially trying to put on a happy face working my full time job as well.

It was confirmed my car is completely total and I am having to buy a new car in the coming weeks adding to that stress.

When things have calm down I’ll get better and more comfortable but please don’t think I’m ignoring or procrastinating

#I don’t want to seem whiny and I’ve always been one to push through the pain #but it’s so hard to push through in this situation #I just want a hug bro #•🍯• syrupy—

[myloveforhergoeson]

big ask potentially, but mostly just a question for my tasw readers… do you all like the original chapters? (roxy’s letter chapter, her birthday chapter)

i’d like to write another one but generally they’re not as well received/read as the ones that stick to the tv show plot lines for whatever reason but i thought i’d be cute to write a chapter about the gang actually getting to minnesota after the storm passes and hanging out there until the new year

are we interested or should i just stick to the tv story

#thats all she wrote fic #no judgement of poll results im legitimately asking because i don’t want to waste my time #idk not to get whiny about it but it’s hard to put so much time and effort into a chapter #and then it doesn’t get read + people don’t understand what’s happening in later chapters #like soooo many people didn’t read roxy’s letter chapter and missed out on months worth of rames tension idk #tons of people skipped over ch23 to get to 24 bc it was called morning glory too like #hello? you literally missed the turning point of my story? because the title of a chapter was slightly suggestive? #tell me if i’m being harsh or dumb about this or whatever but my story is linear and has plot lines that carry from chapter to chapter #if i put something in a chapter no one reads what’s the point of writing it

[archduke-enver-gortash]

Hey- I sometimes see you on my dash and I see you express that patches are gonna make you have to change stuff about your fic. I don't know you and it's not my business, but I think it would be a shame if you did that. Stranger's opinion, but if you've been working on this before whatever hypothetical content was patched in, then it seems like your thing is like. Super canon valid because it's based in what was canon at the time a lot of the work was planned, right? Like, people write fic predicting the future of serial works all the time, and if Larian is going to fiddle like this, you deserve to give yourself the grace possessed by an ff.net writer going absolutely fucking ham predicting the end of Naruto. Cringe example but like. You know what I mean? Your thing is valid and fun and meaningful to you and even if it branches from canon in the future nothing ever can adhere perfectly anyway, that's just the nature of transformative works, that they transform. I mean this as super gently as possible, but I think you kinda got that BG3 fan thing where you're scared if Larian doesn't sign off on your fan work it's not valid and you have to trash it, and like. That's not a thought that's good for anyone. You deserve to treat yourself better than that. I know it's hard with niche works but you gotta murder the creator approval guy in your head with hammers and stuff. I will psychically murder that guy for you as best as I can too. Anyway wishing you the best and hope you can find a way to take the edge off the anxiety and stuff 💕💕💕

i super appreciate this!! but i don’t really need larian to sign off on my fan work (in fact i would hate my story becoming canon just as vehemently as i do this.), what i need is for my interpretation (key word here) to just. make sense within the lore/story/plot/canon presented, y’know? it has to plausible, believable. i don’t need larian’s or anyone’s stamp of approval (except my own of course) but i do want people to look at my work & be able to go ‘i see where your interpretation is coming from’ basically. which is obviously not possible if that ship were to become canon in some way. but again, i super appreciate the kind words anon, and those from everyone that are similar, but the kind of person i am cannot enjoy creating fanwork if it derives from canon that much. like enaza is genuinely my absolute limit—they were only created so i didn’t have to change zeke’s character to be more charismatic and all, their role in the grand scheme of things is still tiny but squashed into the plot in a way that every event in canon can still perfectly occur, and it still irks me a lot every day since i made them. even if it was at one point making sense and isn’t anymore, it’s the now that’s most important in the end. i’m sorry! that’s simply the kind of person i am.

#again. please don’t feel bad if you do want this/are excited for it. don’t let me whining take that happiness away p #please 💕 #you deserve to be happy about that! i am just a whiny baby lmao