#I don’t want to beg for attention

[fandomsoda]

goddamnit I feel so lonely

#vent in tags #It feels like even my own goddamn friends can’t see me anymore. #I’ve not gotten a welcome back or anything in months #all the anons I’m familiar with have been silent.. #my own friends don’t say hi.. #been forever since I’ve had a proper normal-feeling ask in my inbox #the numbers are higher than ever so why do I feel more lonely than ever? #I don’t want to be whiny #I don’t want to beg for attention #but I also need attention to know that I’m still loved #I don’t know…

[the-cookie-of-doom]

It’s super fun realizing no one is ever excited to see you the way you are to see them. That even if they’re nice and tolerate your presence, you’re no one’s best friend, if you’re even a friend at all.

#cookie speaks #not a new realization #I just get occasionally reminded #that no one misses me when I’m not around #I miss having a best friend #I miss knowing that someone looked forward to seeing me #except even then she had other better friends she wanted to see more #I’m steady and reliable #I let people treat me however they want as long as they give me a little bit of attention #I don’t excite anyone #I’m not included in plans unless I’m the one making them #no one ever asks me first #no one misses me no one likes me no one thinks of me #I’m lucky to be tolerated #even luckier to be included #sometimes #if they remember #if I ask #I don’t ask anymore #I’d rather be alone than have to beg for every second of companionship #but being alone fuckijg sucks when you’re surrounded by reminders of how loved everyone else is #not even my family wants me around #I’m abrasive and irritating better off far away from anyone else #so they won’t be bothered

[eleooooooo]

random memes I reblog getting more activity than the art I do is really helping the mental for sure encouraging me to keep going during one of the worst times of my life for sure for sure

#not a cry for help or beg for attention #I’m just so tired making shit and having it just flopping on twitter or here #idk what you guys even want to see from me #I don’t even know anymore #I feel like giving up #my physical health sucks right now #I’m in the process of dropping out from uni #next time I get pills from my therapist I’m taking them all =D

[junkosblunt]

Junko: "The most despair I have ever felt in my life was killing my sister."

Mukuro, in the afterlife: "JUNKO LOVES ME MORE! SUCK IT, YASUKE!"

no because i know mukuro’s weird ass was lowkey thrilled when junko murdered yasuke because it was one less person to steal junko’s attention away from her 💀

#😭😭😭 #like remember how excited she was to go back to junko’s room after everything was said and done and tried to make her laugh dndnxn #homegirl probably wanted izuru dead so bad lmfao #i have a whole thing about mukuro’s subconscious bitterness towards people who get junko’s attention and affection who aren’t her #because she believes that if anyone in the world deserves attention and affection from junko it’s her. like she’s earned it. #and in her mind she probably rationalizes that nobody else deserves junko’s affection because they don’t truly understand her #not the way mukuro does and she’s worked so hard to be someone junko loves and needs #it kills her to watch junko focus on other ppl when she’s right there practically begging to be acknowledged & shown love and appreciation #and it isn’t possessiveness. it’s bitterness. bitterness and hurt. #ofc most of this is festering beneath the surface in her subconscious more than it’s entering her stream of conscious thought #she wants to be the center of junko’s world like junko is the center of hers so badly it’s genuinely heartbreaking #but yes this a correct take lmao #mukuro ikusaba #junko enoshima #danganronpa #asked and answered

[moonfurthetemmie]

hey do you remember me saying something about a JMV writing project

Do you wanna see the silly little Koroit I made for it in Heroforge :3

It’s post-good ending

Oh, yeah; it’s got multiple endings. Just two. Either things go well or it goes down in flames!

But yeah wanna see Koroit :3

#hehehe #this is me attempting to gain attention before I post things #and also wanting to ramble about things first #I don’t think it’ll get THAT much traction because I’m Nobody (very very small blog) but that’s not the point #anyways someone please say yes. I beg #please #I can’t ramble too much without spoilers but I can talk a little!!!

[kierancaz]

Ok jus gonna rant bc I was watching jjk earlier and this is bugging me but does anyone feel like Nobara doesn’t get like the fights she deserves ???? Like she’s recommended to become a grade one sorcerer, she trains with Megumi and Itadori as well as Maki, and everyone’s always saying that’s she’s strong and she IS which is why I don’t get why she doesn’t really get solo fights that show that? I don’t remember that much from season one tbh so lmk if I’m missing something. I do remember her fight with that blonde broom riding girl which was great but like I feel like she should be stronger? Like she should have more martial arts prowess to show off since training with Maki and the others, like the boys are always flying around during their fights and stuff and like can we let her do that too pls. And like what really made me start thinking of this was her fight with that blond dude that Nanami came in and absolutely bodied. When she first encounters him she doesn’t get a single hit on him and he doesn’t even seem that’s strong of an opponent. He’s barely dodging her and she’s still missing and looks like she’s just fumbling around swinging her hammer at him and ik my girl can do better than that. Granted idk what that guys technique is, but one hit to the face from the swords fist and she’s out? Like that better be a part of his technique or something bc that is just ridiculous if it’s not.

I just think that compared to the boys, she doesn’t get the fights or strength she deserves/should have. And like I know her character is that she’s a bit cocky and stuff and that’s what later leads to her getting in trouble in Shibuya but her having more dynamic/interesting fights and better physical prowess wouldn’t dampen that part of her character at all.

#idk I just love her and I don’t think the show/manga gives her enough attention #not saying she isn’t well written or anything because she definitely IS #all the women in jjk are well written and majority of them we’ll round as well #I just want my favorite character to have more interesting fights and share a a piece of the spotlight with the boys #because she’s shown to be strong and even Gojo calls her crazy in a good way when we first meet her #just give us more of that I’m begging. I want her to flip and fly around and have good interesting fights on her own #like the way Megumi and Itadori get #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk nobara #nobara kugisaki #jjk season 2 #itadori yuuji #megumi fushiguro #jjk choso #jjk megumi #jjk fushiguro #jjk yuji #jjk yuuji #jjk itadori #jjk kugisaki #gojo satoru #geto suguru #jjk geto #jjk gojo #jjk sukuna #jjk suguru #sukuna #jjk shibuya arc #jujutsu sorcerer

[rottenbrainstuff]

Saw this just now on my Instagram, thank FUCK I am not the ONLY PERSON IN THE ENTIRE GODDAMNED WORLD:

Bombastic side eye

#actually read this piece of shit book I am begging you please #pay special attention to the part about sex #and the part about what to do if only one partner is actually committed to fixing the relationship #read it then come back and tell me how enthusiastic you are about talking about love languages now #I’m sick of young kids who will cancel anyone who uses the wrong vocabulary #happily quote things from this book which is basically How To Ignore Your Personal Boundaries in order to Please Your Husband 101 #like you guys lose your minds about 1984 #but you support the book that actually for real gives the advice that women should just submit to sex even when they don’t want to #and they’ll learn to like it eventually #really?

[revengeraven]

#shut it ya damn bird #polls #oh please oh please tell me what you want what you really really want #because I’ll tell you what I want (what I really really want) is people to have interest in my silly OCs #sometimes i ask my friends to send me asks for ask memes and it just makes me feel guilty because surely if they wanted to know #they would have asked without me begging for attention- right #but then there’s the fact that they probably just didn’t see the meme I reblogged the first time right? #and that if they wanted me to shut up they’d tell me #because they’re their own people #but at the same time what if they just don’t wanna be mean? #anyway thanks for your votes

[demonicseries]

I can’t believe they’re actually going thru with nandermo this season

#I don’t mean in the getting together way #i mean in the nandor actually having feelings for Guillermo #I hope they don’t get together for another 2 seasons #I want to see nandor begging for Guillermo’s attention like Ken in the Barbie movie

[bl00dysk1es]

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#i’m bored #i want male attention #pls #i will beg #i’ll be good #older men where u @? #don’t gotta be older #literally want any #male #attentions

[priestfrommidnightmass]

i’ve decided that 2024 is going to be my year of my rest relaxation and most of all selfishness. i’ve been reflecting on myself this past year and this holiday season has made it really clear to me about how i’ve been working myself to the bone for others and holding myself back in terms of the things that bring me joy and i just can’t keep living like this. i’ve never thought of myself as a people pleaser i’ve actually actively been against that label but the more i’ve been reflecting on my behaviors i’ve realized that i totally am one and well fuck that!!! i hate that shit!!! it’s not that i want to be rude or unkind or anything because that’s definitely not my goal but. straining myself and pushing myself farther than i need to and ignoring my own wants and needs in fear of being judged isn’t going to make people love or care about me or put any more thought into me. i’m so utterly exhausted of constantly giving 150% for others when i don’t get even an eighth of that back. so i’ve decided i’m going to start putting myself first and everyone else leagues behind me because. so much of my life is rooted in guilt and shame and beating myself up because of how i’m perceived and it makes zero sense and all it does is make me fucking miserable. i want to knock down even those stupid mental barriers like how i’ve been too scared to go see movies by myself or forcing myself to be quiet because i’m convinced that all of my emotions whether it’s misery or joy is a burden to others because Nobody. Cares. nobody cares!!! nobody cares and that’s so freeing. i am going to find a way to love myself if it fucking kills me i am going to do what makes me happy and not care if it’s a “burden” to anyone else (it isn’t.) i am gonna do what i want when i want to fuckin do it and i don’t Care anymore. this will be the year i come out victorious in the idgaf war and it’s gonna be incredible

#i really have just been. so exhausted #and i can’t keep maintaining this #i’m naturally a hard worker so i’ll still be putting in the hours #i’ll just be doing it for myself and not in the hopes that i get some crumbs of validation #i’ve been feeling so. underappreciated and invisible in my life and that’s been really devastating #so i really need to take a step back and look to myself for some appreciation #because self hatred is so tiring and i’m the only person who will ever be able to give me what i want #i am no longer going to be begging for attention and validation and love #if people want to be with me and talk to me they’re going to have to show it because i can’t really bring myself to care anymore #i’m doing the BARE MINIMUM!!! well my bare minimum can be a lot. but i’m doing it for ME!!! #this is probably an annoying post but like i said. i don’t care #i’ve said things of this nature before but i am going to make an effort this time in making it count because i truly can’t live like this

[sweenstar-reblogs]

Me gritting my teeth watching West Europe devolve slowly into Overt Nazism (again)

#ohhhhh don’t think that new Dutch leader hasn’t caught my attention . #I see u there wanting to get rid of mosques and ban the Quran #n*gel fucking farage is trying to rehabilitate his image as some Whacky Goofy Controversial Sillyman™️ meanwhile #has caused untold harm to millions of British BIPOC with his rhetoric . #but yea sure hand him 100k and put him in entertainment . there is no propaganda going on here /s #and now Dublin last night . I wanna say I’m surprised but I’m not . still disappointed tho #would it kill u to value BIPOC’s lives besides empty platitudes . I’m begging #like fuck even . Suella Braverman #it does not escape me that as ghastly as her comments were . if she were a white dude Tory no one would have put her under as much scrutiny #like yeah the consequences fit the actions/attempted actions at least apply the consequences across the board . for any white Tory her #actions were a normal Tuesday #yet they still have a job ! I wonder why .

[kingkatsuki]

Am I stupid for making a separate masterlist for this Bakugou fic that accidentally got split into 3/4 parts in my Kinktober or should I just leave it and let it stay in the Kinktober masterlist?

I’ve never had this happen before and I don’t know what to do. I don’t even care about reblogs/notes on the masterlist if I make it, but it might make it easier to find the parts?

#I don’t like looking like I’m begging for attention like I don’t wanna be OTT??? #but I also want people to be able to navigate easily #like I don’t want people thinking ‘oh great another thing she wants us to reblog’🙄

[exquisiteagony]

idk how to say this without sounding whiny but communication is literally how fanfic thrives. idc if you don’t know how to respond, literally just give a kudos, and if you’ve already left that on a chapter then give like. a heart emoji or send us a dm or ask or something, if you don’t know what to leave as a full comment.

fic lives off of feedback, so if you read a fic and wonder why its updates can be few and far between or maybe the writer moves fandoms or fics frequently without updating the multi chapter you love, it’s probably cuz there isn’t enough feedback! as an author yes we write from our heart, but we put our work out for other people to enjoy!!! if people don’t give any indication that they’re enjoying it then we won’t share it or feel as inclined to share the story we continue!!! it’s as simple as that!!

#ao3 #fanfic #fanfiction #literally i’m fucking begging readers to leave feedback #like it’s it’s not your thing then yeah just don’t read it. dldr is such a valuable tool #but if you want your fav authors to keep posting then leave feedback #i speak! #feel free to reblog #and yes i know be the change you wish to see #but writing and posting take different energies and so this isn’t aimed at other writers #and every writer has a different boundary for what they like to read or can read comfortably #once again this isn’t about my specific fics recovering a lack of attention this is about fandom as a whole and the clock app peeps with- #-their perceptions of fandom and how that’s affected everyone #writers and artists and edit makers as a whole

[causticsunshine]

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#people keep commenting on my fics begging for updates but i’m gonna be real y’all: i have nawt been feeling it lately #i’m still gonna finish them ofc ofc but i’ve not been in the mood to write and i’ve barely been paying attention to #much in the hilb verse / larrie nation as of late #my interest is spread across a few different things rn + work has been really hard lately #plus life in general. and there are so many awful things happening in the world #the consistent apartheid in palestine. the coltan mining disasters in congo. the horrors in sudan. #i just don’t feel in the right state to be spending my limited spare time on fanfic + on a hobby i’m not feeling very connected to at the #current time #i appreciate the support and desire to read more of my work ofc #but just as always on top of what i said above #comments strictly begging for updates make me #feel adverse to updating? like they don’t motivate me at all to work. they just stress me out #so i apologize but that also hasn’t been helping #the most i’ve been able to do the last month and a half is half heartedly edit chapter two of SMYL #it’s almost entirely smut and that’ssss also a struggle for me to write when there’s a lot of it #(and yet i have lengthy detailed smut in everything i write oops) #i will try though i hate having so much on the backburner. i just wanted to give a general update on things #alex talks

[maxiezone]

POV: you’re looking at my reaction to my low-effort shitposts getting hundreds of notes while my actual art that I put effort into gets only a like or two

#seriously I just wish some of my art would at least get a reblog or two #I don’t wanna sound like I’m begging for attention #but the reason I don’t draw as much anymore is because I feel like there’s no reason to #this is just a vent post but honestly #I wish people would stop reblogging my dumb jokes and actually look at the stuff I want to make #like my oc drawings #anyway have a good night or day you guys