#my own friends don’t say hi..

[fandomsoda]

goddamnit I feel so lonely

#vent in tags #It feels like even my own goddamn friends can’t see me anymore. #I’ve not gotten a welcome back or anything in months #all the anons I’m familiar with have been silent.. #my own friends don’t say hi.. #been forever since I’ve had a proper normal-feeling ask in my inbox #the numbers are higher than ever so why do I feel more lonely than ever? #I don’t want to be whiny #I don’t want to beg for attention #but I also need attention to know that I’m still loved #I don’t know…

[theminecraftbee]

After forty-five minutes of no word, the three of them finally decide that someone should go check on Tango. Normally, Xisuma would have reluctantly advocated for just starting without him—it’s Tango, he’d probably gotten caught up in Decked Out work, he’d apologize and laugh it off later and wouldn’t change—but he’d seemed so genuinely excited this time. He’d rambled back at them the moment Etho had invited him to join in on the wither-mining. He’d promised he’d try to show up. He’d checked the time more than once.

It’s been a while since most of the hermits had seen Tango outside of his fortress. Or spoken to him for more than about twenty minutes if their name wasn’t “Zedaph”. Or—it’s been a while. That man is working himself to death, Xisuma swears.

(It’s… not Tango’s fault, Xisuma tells himself. He’d meant to have more done by now. The whole Empires fiasco had put a damper on that. Tango’s always been the sort to fixate a little on his latest project. Besides, all of the Hermits get caught up. It’s normal to occasionally go a week or two without talking to anyone else. It’s just that it’s starting to hurt a little, to reach out and get...)

(Xisuma will make up a better excuse. It’s why he volunteered to go check on him. Save Tango and Etho a little heartache.)

(Tango had been really excited—but so had Etho.)

It’s a short enough elytra flight to the Deep Frost Citadel. Xisuma takes a deep breath. He’ll probably have to locate Tango and convince him to come up from the outside. That place is a death trap already to half the server, and Tango’s normally in the maintenance tunnels instead of the main body of the cave, which are a death trap in a unique “largely unfit for habitation by anything breathing” way that Tango seems to be the only one who knows how to navigate. He’ll make sure he’s okay, and then…

Xisuma‘a thoughts come to a pause as he approaches. There’s someone else at the Citadel, standing near the base of the hill, just past where the borders of Tango’s snowy base fade into the grassland.

A few minutes of approach later, and it becomes clear it’s Tango. He’s standing oddly, his feet braced and arms unsteadily placed forward like he’s worried he might fall. When Xisuma lights another rocket, he looks up in Xisuma’s direction, but before really catching sight of Xisuma, he turns around and winces, rubbing his eyes repeatedly.

“Hello,” Xisuma says as he lands. Tango turns to—not quite look at him? Tango is looking in the direction of Xisuma, certainly, but isn’t quite looking at Xisuma’s face. Maybe there’s too much glare in Xisuma’s visor today?

“Oh, hey X! How’s it hangin’?” Tango says.

“Oh, you know, I was just here to check on you. You’re a bit late to our demonstration.”

“What?” Tango says. “It’s—of course it has.”

“Did you get caught up?” Xisuma asks. He tries very hard not to sound disappointed.

“I—yeah,” Tango says. “Sorry, I swear I set an alarm, but if you’re here I must be later than I thought.”

“Probably nearly an hour by now.”

“I’ve been—a whole hour? Feels like longer,” mumbles Tango.

“The others agreed to wait if you’re coming, and you’re already outside,” Xisuma says. “We can get over there in a few minutes. It’s not too late. Put on your elytra and—“

“No!” yelps Tango, stepping back, stumbling, and then, eyes wide, looking around like he’s trying to find something. “I mean, uh. Not used to open-air flying right now. I was planning on taking the nether but I ran out of fireproof potions and don’t have the blaze rods to make more, so here I am. I promise I didn’t mean to be late, I just…”

Xisuma has no idea where to start. But. “Tango, you built the nether hub? You know you don’t need fireproof potions to get to the Ancient City we’re using.”

“Haha, yeah,” Tango says, and doesn’t elaborate.

“So I guess you were going to the shopping district, to get more blaze rods and their portal?” Xisuma says.

“Yeah, uh, then I realized I, uh, don’t. Remember how to get there,” Tango says. “And, well, you know how it is. Even when you have permission to leave it’s still kind of daunting!”

His voice goes high and a little squeaky. His eyes, Xisuma realizes, have had a sort of wild fear to them since Xisuma first suggested stepping further than where he’s standing. If Tango had pupils, Xisuma imagines they’d probably be darting. The rest of his facial expression does the work well enough.

Xisuma really doesn’t know where to start.

“And you’ve been stuck here for… nearly an hour?” Xisuma says.

“Yeah. Man, I got permission to leave and everything,” Tango says again, which, okay, very concerning phrasing, Xisuma’s just going to put that away for the time being though, because there are a lot of other things to unpack here. “And like, I wanted to see the Withers and a Warden fight! Who would win, right?”

He still hasn’t moved. As Xisuma’s talked, he’s gotten closer to looking Xisuma in the eyes, but it’s more like he’s very confidently looking at Xisuma’s chin. He keeps squinting and blinking when his eyes aren’t wide with a wild, lost sort of panic.

He’s also still rambling.

“Probably for the best I don’t leave, though. I mean, I held you all up, I’d hate to hold it up further because I got caught up. I can just go back; best to keep doing my duty after all. Sorry about that!”

Tango turns back towards his base, as though making that excuse was the excuse he needed to go back towards safer ground. Maybe another time, Xisuma would have let that be, but the thing is, Tango and Etho had both been so excited, and Xisuma can hear the disappointment in Tango’s voice. He doesn’t want to be making this excuse either. Xisuma has no idea what, but something’s wrong.

(Well, Xisuma has some idea, but while he may be a derp, he’s pretty sure it’s rude to ask someone whether they’ve gone blind, developed agoraphobia, gotten possessed, or multiple of those things at the same time. If someone doesn’t bring it up it’s not Xisuma’s business, right? Right.)

(He’ll just…)

“…no, we want to do this with you,” Xisuma says. “Do you need help getting to the cave we’re doing it in?”

Xisuma can see Tango warring between the pride that stops him from asking for help and whatever it is that had paralyzed him the moment he’d tried to step past his base’s borders. He can see Tango war between how easy it would be to claim he didn’t have time and how much he’d wanted to see the wither mining.

“It’s all going to be underground?” he says.

Weird question. File that away. “Yep! Inside an ancient city!”

“And I got permission to leave,” mutters Tango. “So it’s going to be fine once I actually get there.”

“I can even grab some fireproof potions from Cub’s shop when we’re done,” wheedles Xisuma.

“…fine. Lead the way. Uh, and, if you could hold my hand. It’s… very hard to know where I am outside of my base when it’s so bright,” Tango says, voice a little small, and okay, so a mix of all three. Xisuma really should pry, but he’s got what he came here for, and it’s not really his business, is it? He’s sure Tango’ll work it out in the end. He’s a smart guy.

“Gladly, my friend. Let’s go die to withers sixty times.”

Tango laughs shakily. “Yes, let’s!”

Xisuma laces his fingers around Tango’s hand and, suddenly aware of just how many things there are to trip on, starts walking towards the Ancient City.

Gosh, but this is going to take an hour, isn’t it? He sighs and pulls out his messenger to tell the other two. A thought strikes him.

“You know, next time you have this problem, you should text ahead. You can use text-to-speech, you know.”

Tango barks a laugh, louder this time. “Yeah, sure, that’s going to be on my mind. Yeah. I’ll do that.”

Well, good enough for Xisuma!

They make their way to the Ancient City together.

#hermitcraft #tango tek #xisumavoid #a bee fic #had this idea stuck in my head since I watched this episode yesterday #anyway Xisuma’s right it’s a mix of ‘base is eating him so he normally can’t leave’ #’no longer has effective daylight vision and it’s kind of painful’ #and yeah a bit of agoraphobia #once he’s in the ancient city for the record he’s fine and has a grand old time and the other two don’t even know somethings wrong #xisuma meanwhile (king of minding his own business) just Says Nothing At All #and tango gets home through the nether with heat resistance for his little ice problem #sure THAT won’t continue to be a problem or anything! #also for the record zed is aware tango’s weird but also has No Room To Talk so is just being a supportive friend #anyway once again. At SOME POINT I go into more detail on ‘the base is eating him’ #but not today!

[to-the-starlit-west]

here he is , the writhing mollusk without any strategies or convictions. <3 i KNOW it doesn’t look like him i DONT CARE i will MYABE FIX IT TOMORROW. it’s based off that one photo where he’s got the sniper aimed at him or something but it really looks like a halo.

#i’m sorry for being obsessed with a british show from like ten years ago. what can i say i have no friends #ollie reeder #i can’t lie i don’t know how to fucking use tumblr #uhh #the thick of it #ttoi fanart #i Fucking Hate ollie but i also kinda l8ke him #he’s cute in his own special way #media: ttoi #my art

[falled-over]

#photos of my guitar my dad posted to his blog years back when he bought it #it’s the most beautiful guitar in the world. it feels warm and alive to play #as you can see in the first two pics it used to have a newer pickup installed on the bottom. luckily he found an era appropriate online #it’s from 82 if you were curious #it says squire on the headstock but it was made on the fender line. they bought squire out and swapped in the name soon after this #but he got it a little cheaper than it was worth at the time because people aren’t as autistic as him and don’t know about production lines #basically it wasn’t brand name #basswood body and dark rosewood on the neck 😋✌️ #it’s actually a replication of a ‘62 model! which was 20 years old at the time. mines now twice that. isn’t that incredible #i actually saw a modern fender replication of this exact model in an op shop yesterday #for more or less exactly how much this was bought for #dad finished his blog post by saying he thinks this is better made than the original. and despite not knowing the og i’m inclined to agree #people in the comments of his post are saying that this era was supposed to be something special. hehe. they’re right #i’ve played many guitars. i own this one because my dad collects them and he let me try them all out #and i have a lot of friends who play guitar and ive hung out with them to do so #and i’ve never felt one like mine before or since. it’s so obviously beautiful #when i picked it out i hadn’t played much but i knew right away how good it was. i prefer strat bodies because i can hug my torso around #them without getting poked like a tele and the necks are thinner than acoustics (small hands. bad) #unless we’re talking parlour #love a wee parlour. pa has a little one he got for 30 bucks that’s one of my favourites of his #he’s insanely good at finding deals #he fixes them all up #anyway. the body feels #how would you even describe it #heavy. and alive. warm and wet and still full of sap #i feel like it’s breathing #it’s sort of the only thing that motivates me to be better. i could cry just thinking about it. i want to be good enough to play it

[sheepie-self-ships]

The free love mod is wild in the best of ways… just imagine you’re like. Some guy in pelican town and you meet this farmer and they just absolutely sweep 7 of your neighbors off your feet by bringing them sunflowers and eggs sometimes. One of them is some war vet who lives in the clinic with Harvey. One is the girl who runs the vineyard. Ones a pirate who washed up on shore a few months ago out of nowhere like guliver animal crossing. One is the girl who works at Joja mart. Ones the god damn wizard that you kinda maybe know about… ones that rich kid who wants to build bridges. and then finally there’s the guy who moved in a few years ago into that cabin on the beach who writes stories or smth? He’s there too, and they’re all under whatever spell that dirty little farmers got going on. Something they put in the crops??

#I have. many mods… #anyways the bitches in order are uhhh #toshi bc he has his own mod :3c #Sophia from SDE #Zoro bc he has his own mod too :3c #Claire from SDE I’m still working on romancing her tho #she’s not my girlfriend YET… but babygirl I will save u from corporate hell you want to move onto my farm so bad #what was I saying again #OH #anyways. also magnus the wizard #uhhh victor from SDE too #and finally Elliott #I’m still romancing zoro and Claire and I’m not married to anyone yet #but I cannot wait for the chaos of how long that god damn bed will be #it’ll be ridiculous #maybe after I get married to all these ppl then maybe I’ll start catching the rest of the villagers like Pokémon #not Shane tho. never Shane #that guys like my best friend in sdv always I don’t think I could ever marry him #he’s got higher hearts than Sophia and she’s my girlfriend in this save 💀 #but toshi Elliott victor and magnus are above him in that order #no. 1 hero in my heart 🌻 #romantic at heart 📝 #sheepie talks #cut my life into pieces 🗡️⚔️

[designernishiki]

i rarely see people talking about the trans girl substory in y3 and like. yakuza may have its issues with iffy representation here and there but I’ll give them credit for that one, it was simple but it was sweet and kiryu was very in character. my only question is: where the hell did kiryu learn the word transgender

#he already knew it for some reason and I’m not saying that’s super unrealistic but like let’s be real #SOMEONE had to have told him what it means at some point #im gonna assume ako did but they never use the Word in her earlier appearances I don’t think #anyway this substory is funny to me and very sweet #my friends and I were saying it’s like. the follow-up to rina (the lesbian hostess in y1) telling him he can go out with a guy if he wants #to (because he just admitted he wants to) and him going silent and staring at the ceiling in deep contemplation #the follow-up being: he meets another queer person who’s confiding in him and he almost immediately asks ‘so you’re trans. that’s not the #same thing as being gay right’ #like he asks her that in game. and it just sounds like he’s been wondering about this for a WHILE like it’s been lingering in the back of #his head just waiting for the right situation #man’s figuring some of his own shit out #as dumb as it sounds I like to think that was him thinking to himself ‘okay… they’re not the same thing… so IF im gay… it doesn’t make me #any less of a man than I was before…hypothetically’ #hdjdjffjfjvn but anyway obviously hc/speculation but hey it’s fun #that substory was written for us queers anyway. we can do what we want with if #rambling #kiryu #y3

[forgetme-eternally-blissfully]

Me reading a cool new novel: hah wow this is cool it has a neat premise and a promising plot line let’s see our protagonist level up and learn how to use his new power in interesting and cool ways—

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and impresses her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and rescues her

*MC meets a beautiful powerful girl and defeats her PT 2

Me: Ah nvm it’s a harem novel god damn it

#it was cool at first but now I’m grinding my teeth like wtf #I was okay with it at first bc like. he defeats the beautiful cold hearted prodigy by a hairs breadth and we get this sad backstory for her #which could be better’d by the MC who doesn’t fear her and can teach her how to socialize and become a brighter happier person through their #developing friendship and potentially romantic relationship and it could have led to character development for both of them as they struggle #through the feeling of being cast aside as an ‘other’ by society and learning how to stumble through a relationship that involves #communication and admittance and honesty #something our MC and FL can’t get through their mentors #instead we get her genuine attempts at becoming friends being brushed off by him who assumes she’s going to eventually want a romantic #relationship by the end of it and ARGHHXHHD she’s a shy person!! she’s trying her best!!! you asshole!!!! and then the author has the #AUDACITY #to make her continue yearning after this guy who doesn’t give 2 shits about her and she’s only used as a support character for the #ensuing battle and then he promptly leaves her behind for his own adventure #and don’t even get me STARTED on the lack of compatibility with the other women in this story #they aren’t even being used as potential love interests they’re just there so the author can say he added strong female characters and then #IMMEDIATELY turns around and makes them fawn over this 19 yr guy who cAn pRoTeCt ThEM AnD HEs sO cOoL FUCK #I was holding out but now he just annoys me dude this is why I don’t like reading male lead perspectives if there’s a DROP of romance #it ruins it! romance is dead no one knows what chemistry is they only want to be fawned over by women to stroke their egos #not a reblog

[loveofastarvingdog]

king of deleting my snap story

#timothy's txts. #went into a whole thing #about the my friend who i am worried . well. i have suspicions he might like me based completely in my own fear #because he keeps bringing me out to dinner ? and waiting for me to get off of work #and i was like i don’t need to have this on snap actually #so i will say it here: i’ve seen him the past four days and gotten dinner….. three out of those four times with him #and he just had a messy breakup and is used to being around people and i’m a good friend of his #so maybe it’s nothing!!! #i hope it’s nothing because . well. i don’t want a cishet guy to like me be interested in me 👍 #also i just realised the biggest part of me being so worried #is that i’m afraid there’s an expectation for me to understand hints that i’m not getting #but it’s not my job to read between the lines so if he likes me then he can say it #and then i can say my bit and it’ll be fine #i hate being anxious and bad at social cues 😵‍💫 #i’m not even upset if he likes me i’m just terrified i’m expected to act one way or another because of secret rules that i don’t know about #OKAY. ENOUGH ABOUT STRAIGHT CIS BOYS !!!!!! #i have been thinking about transsexuals and kissing them…. #tw emoji

[liesyousoldme]

woof. i am calling my therapists office tomorrow!!!

#almost quit my job then had a panic attack then my mom dropped a ‘i think this thing from when you were a teenager gave you ptsd’ bomb #i fear she’s right though considering how i reacted to being told my 3rd shift would be alone #LUCKILY the person who hired me and does the schedules is none other than my little!!!! so she talked me off the ledge #and is going to schedule me only on shifts with other hosts until im comfortable enough to be on my own #can’t imagine if this had just been a job id applied for and gotten. like. #i would not be able to say ‘hi i think i need to quit because of that one time at old navy when i was 16’ #whereas lauren is one of the best friends ive ever had and knows how to maneuver my particular brand of neuroses #and was like ‘you don’t have to quit i can single-handedly solve this problem for you’

[greengrassandcyansea]

I want Colin Bridgerton to grovel and beg for Penelope’s attention and forgiveness I am so serious

#I’ll say it loud and clear he doesn’t deserve to suddenly love her and SEE her as a person the moment she has a ‘glow up’ #i think this is what infuriates me the most he didn’t really view her as her own person?? does this make sense? #she is just here .. and sometimes he talks to her! but he doesn’t see her as a whole #and I’m not saying he had to always view her as a potential match or whatever I’m saying he viewed her like she a houseplant #*she’s #‘you’re just Pen.. my friend’ is she tho??? is she your friend?? #please he never thought about her like she was his equal #anyway #i don’t know how the season will go but that other man was hot

[luckquartzed]

What type of Love are you according to the Ancient Greeks?

Agape [ love for everyone ]

This simply means ' love ' in Ancient Greek . However , according to Christian theology , this is the highest shape of love to possess . Agape is the most selfless form of the eight , offering sympathy & unconditional support to those around you . If I had to guess , you are a virtuous person who puts others before yourself .

tagged by : @gemkun

tagging : @prodigls @barxlupin @raytm @starspurn @vulpesly @spadilled @theladymuses

#{ DASH GAMES } NEVER TURN DOWN A CHALLENGE #I actually disagreed with this in the beginning & even when I changed my answers to the second most Aven-like I still got this result #but the more I think about it the more it fits #Sunday himself says that Aventurine is a generous person & even though he has his own motives behind the scenes it seems like it? #he gives his room to the TB he tries to throw money at anyone & everyone wants in an attempt to be their friend #he could be flirting when he calls Ratio or Sunday attractive but he could also just be the sort to give compliments freely #& based on how kind he was to Kakavasha before realizing who he was ? he also likes / is kind to children #I don’t really believe the idea that you HAVE to love yourself in order to be able to love other people #‘oh but he nearly dropped a coin massacre on Penacony’ he knew Acheron would stop him #I don’t think he ever intended to HURT anybody except himself #I also think about how he called his abuser ‘insane’ for wanting to pit him against the other slaves #& how he seems to view himself as a monster / still feel guilty for what he had to do to survive based on his thoughts while hallucinating #he only wanted to die if it meant he could be reunited with his family #he risked his own life as a child to get back a necklace that was important to his sister #fuck. he really is agape isn’t he? lmaoooo #well now I’m sad #the narcissistic egomaniac gambler is all just a mask

[daydreamerdrew]

Marvel Mystery Comics (1941) #2 and #4

#it’s cool to see that Jim’s actually made a lasting relationship #strange that it’s with his cellmate from when he was briefly imprisoned #who ended up being an informant/snitch turned undercover cop #I brushed over this the first time I read it but Jim is so funny for seeing him cellmate out and about after breaking out of jail #and immediately going did you also break out of jail? cause if so then I’ve got to take you back? #he’s really trying with him moral code but he’s just in the early stages of life rn #it’s interesting that it’s at his friend’s suggestion that Jim takes on a human name for the first time #that he never attempted to take on a human identity on his own #in the story in issue 4 Jim is falsely thought to have murdered someone #and when he tells the police that he’s the Human Torch they don’t believe him even though he’s a man on fire in front of them #and one of them says ‘the Torch isn’t a killer!’ #which is funny because the Torch very much does burn people to death but I guess that doesn’t count if they’re criminals #also I’m assuming that the car Jim was driving at the beginning of the story in issue 4 #was given to him by the Diane Carson lady from the story in issue 3 #anyway the important thing is that Jim is really trying to make his way in the world and do good things #marvel #timely publications #jim hammond #my posts #comic panels

[lastnightonthecyclone]

Another fucking wip on fnaf because inconsistency is my skill

#In my au the crying child kind of accidentally helped kill Charlie lol. He pushed her outside and locked her in the rain. Tee hee #And THEN. He went to go check on her because he felt a little bad since Sammy was going ballistic #and accidentally witnessed the last bits of his dad murdering Charlie. He then hides and was going to wait for his dad to leave but #Since OBVIOUSLY will needs to dispose of evidence he was going to stay there. So he kind of. Went over to his dad and they had a mutual agr #Will in return started treating him “better” and also stopped using him for experiments (as much) and instead tried doing remanent stuff #And then Mike and Elizabeth got kind of envious (this was also their father subconsciously pitting all three against eachother ) #so then they started to bully cc #Sammy comes into play because he also kind of helped cc push Charlie outside because Charlie was deemed “the favorite” and Henry truly #Never bothered to try and care for Sammy. This is not saying he treated Charlie good either #but. He treated her VISIBLY better than Sammy #and Sammy looked up to William (this is actually kind of relevant and is the reason why security breach and help wanted exist because… #Sammy saw William and his work as amazing and even when he figured out he used actual children for his stuff he continued it needlessly. #He usually spent more time in the Afton household than his own which is. Quite sad. William actually thought of him as the perfect nephew/ #Apprentice and taught him in his ways. He’s as old as Micheal #and also the Freddy bully. (I’m figuring out how to not make him white #Oh. Right #also cc was friends with sam #(the one u shouldn’t have killed) and she has two siblings #Why is this relevant. WELL. BUDDY. So the Bonnie bully is in fact Jeremy.F #he has an older sister named Ximena. She worked at Fredbear’s diner and then circus baby’s pizza world #and Jeremy was friends with Micheal AND SAMMY. eventually after Will murdered the og kids #Jeremy was tasked with distracting Mike. #Their younger half sibling is Sammy. Jeremy is also later tasked by William to distract Micheal in any means possible from what Will is doi #Ximena’s life was essentially theatened and in order for will to ensure the animatronics don’t target her Jeremy was forced to distract mik #Even though he was still grieving for his sister and grappling guilt over cc. Mike also was somewhat mean to him sometimes and Jeremy a #Babysat Elizabeth sometimes. By distraction William never clarified so Jeremy kind of went for a romantic ish approach. He’d constantly tak #There’s more but I don’t want to explain 😭 #Mike out from his house

[myglassesareinkansas]

I’ve never dogsat a puppy before, much less one that was only 16 weeks old, and I am. Very overwhelmed

#k speaks #i’m not kidding when i say i’m genuinely considering asking friends to help me for the first week #just like a revolving door of friends #i even asked my parents to come and stay with me for an extra week bc i’m already sleep deprived and overwhelmed #i don’t have time to myself anymore #and these are my last two weeks before i move and like #i won’t have any time to adjust to being on my own by then #he’s cute when he’s asleep but only then #and i feel really bad for saying it but i don’t like him #i’m now gonna have a scar on my leg bc he wouldn’t stop jumping and i couldn’t get him down and he ended up scratching me #he barked for an hour bc i put him in his crate for bedtime and then pouted bc i needed to take a shower #how am i supposed to make food or sleep or shower or go to church or any of these things #i need sleep but i also need my me time #he was SUPPOSED to be in the other room for bedtime but then he cried. for an hour #the thing is!!! the other dog is fine!!! i love that dog!!! he’s never given me problems before #but the puppy is. a lot #anyways i’ve decided i don’t want pets or kids lol can you believe it

[wellthebardsdead]

Honey: *a friendly drider cursed by the spider queen to be half drow and half spider for the rest of his life, and blessed by Pelor allowing him to live in the sunlight and heal his friends but now screaming up at the sky feeling like he’s been cursed all over again* TAKE IT BACK! TAKE IT AWAY! WHY HAVE YOU CONDEMNED MY HEART TO THIS PAIN?!

Scorn: *party’s adopted himbo orc dad* I don’t understand? I thought you wanted this? To live in the light, wh-why are you in pain?

Honey: *looking at everyone in our party and seeing a warm loving glow around us, he can see who literally lights up when they look at him* Because now I know whose going to break my h-heart when they get hurt or die! He’s cursed me with the pain knowing who loves me and I’ll never forgive him!!!

#we still don’t know much about honeys backstory but he’s suffered a lot of heart ache #his family rejected him after he shamed them by failing his trial #his best friend tried to kill him and failed his own trial by failing to do so and also got cursed #and the idea of us dying or hating him the same way was so heartbreaking he considered knowing we cared about him a curse 🥺 #needless to say my snail wizard gave him many many hugs #dnd #drider

[pepprs]

my mom isn’t letting my dad go back to his office bc him being out of the house stresses her out and makes her have a flare up and it’s like kind of insane. like i understand why the idea of him doing that would make her panicky and angry as someone who also struggles w separation anxiety and abandonment shit / has physical symptoms from that kind of stress (though not to the same degree ofc) but also he is a grown man. he should be allowed to go to his office and not have to shape his entire life around her needs. and she keeps guilt tripping him out of it and it’s impacting his quality of life a lot and the whole thing is kind of… hm

#purrs #delete later #also she’s guilt tripping me into coming to the stupid fucking potluck on sunday bc she needs the extra help and it’s like… what are you #gonna do when i move out. like i am a grown woman and i should be able to choose how i spend my two precious weekend days. and my dad is a #grown man and he should be able to choose where he works. like is that not a little bit insane. i get it but also….. i do think it s kind of #fucked ip that it’s her way or the highway and her needs take priority over all of ours and she’s asking us to bend to what she wants when #she wants it. like i get it bc she’s sick but it’s not fair for her to expect that from my dad especially. particularly when me and my #brother are back at work / school in more high risk environments than my dad who would be in a private office alll day. and the thing is no #one is brave enough to all her on it bc if we did it would be the END of the world. she even threw a fit on my dads bday and complained bc #the things he wanted to do were things she didn’t want to do like all the man wanted to do was go mini golfing and when that wasn’t good #enough he just wanted to go on a walk and my mom complained the whole time and also scoffed the movie he wanted to watch and said it was #boring and it’s like… wtf it’s HIS birthday??? but what do you expect from the woman who (and in fairness her friends got her these as gifts #but still) has TWO kitchen items that say some variation of ‘a marriage is when one is always right and the other is always the husband’ 💀 #i look at that little plaque every night bc it’s in front of the sink when im doing dishes and it makes me so fucking angry. like my dad is #a whole fucking person and he can be right too and he deserves to make choices and be happy and not have his wife put him down all the time. #idk. and she puts down his family all the time too and complains when he wants to do the most reasonable things for his own enjoyment that #don’t align with hers and criticizes his interests all the time and it just sucks to see. he never shows hurt or anything so idk how he #feels about it but it makes me so angry and sad and when i tell her to stop she just lashes out at me so. 🤪. like how do we get her to stop #making her needs more important than everyone else’s bc… she may be our mom / his wife / whateger but that doesn’t make her queen. no one is #(andalso this has only gotten worse bc of covid / her being sick. like this has been a lifelong thing it’s just it’s a lot worse now bc the #circumstances gave her room / forced her to have to take up more space. and it’s just so frustrating. i get it. but none of us are pawns or #dolls or subordinates or anything. there’s 5 adults here and we should all be able to make choices and not be guilt tripped by her. lol #)