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bluebuckstallion · 3 years

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the sun will rise again - mlp fic p2

part one contents: aj and big mac are like. 13 and 15. big mac realizes she is a trans woman, and is guided by applejack, but there is much more to it than just that lol. its also a little hard for her. sappy, feel-good, tough internal conflict but overall happy fic. paragraph one is previewed here, the rest is below the cut! disclaimer: there is no transphobia in this fic lmao im not gonna write abt horse transphobia. this is a feel good. but cw for fear of outing (note: i am aware my blog makes posts a little hard to read bc of a glitch, i am trying to fix it at the moment, i apologize D: i rec reading it on tumblr mobile or highlighting the words as you read, im sorry!) paragraph one: The wind whispered lovingly, cooling little Big Mac and Applejack's drowsy heads. A time like this in a young pony's life can be very confusing, something the two of them had grown to be very familiar with. Applejack rested his backside against the trunk of one of his family's old apple trees, if they had no where else to take solace, at least they had the orchard and each other's company, he thought. It felt nice, having this little secret kept safe by somepony you knew would protect it, and who still cared about you just the same. "If nopony accepts us, at least we have each other. I don't care if it's just you and me, Big Mac, we'll be jus' fine." Applejack stated in a soft voice, breaking the silence. He was accepting of his circumstances, no matter how they turned out. As long as him and his sister ended up okay. And again, he was sure they would. Big Mac smiled and folded her hooves neatly, "Eeyup."

Applejack worked his fluffy hooves through Big Mac's mane, doing his absolute best to make the fine ginger hair into a braid. He wanted to do something nice for his sister, something to celebrate her bravery and courage in realizing - and telling - Applejack, and he wanted her to feel nice in her own body, even if she couldn't change much right now, or for a while. No matter how small the act, Big Mac was especially grateful. Nobody had ever treated her like this, on purpose at least, like she was a mare. And every chance Applejack could sieze he would do just that, remind her that was what, *who* she was. "So, Big Mac, what do you reckon I call you now?" With that her eyes widened, and her brows furrowed, it caught her off guard. "Like...my name? I didn't know I could change my name..." she let out, slightly confused, a tender hoof raising to her chin as she thought hard. "Yeah!" AJ beamed, not straying from his tedious work. Big Mac, still lying down, started shuffling her hooves again. "Well... I always thought if I were a girl my name would be something pretty, which I mean, I am a girl and all, but I don't feel very pretty ever," she admitted disheartened. "You're plenty pretty! You're an Apple! You wouldn't say Ma or Granny wasn't pretty, would you?" Applejack pointed out, gesturing absentmindedly in the air with his hooves, then promptly returning back to his work, being sure to keep a steady hoof. "Well... Nope." Big Mac blurted awkwardly, pursing her lips. "But-" she began. "No 'but's'!" Applejack interjected, "You're an Apple, and a dang pretty one!" Applejack closed his eyes and lifted his head proudly, putting his non-dominant hoof against his puffed chest, "Look at me, I'm an Apple and I'd say I'm awful handsome, just like Pa!" he said with an endearing foal-like passion and certainty. He chuckled, his cheeks growing slightly cherry as he let out a tiny chuckle, and got back to his work, about a quarter way down the locks. Big Mac grinned slightly, "I suppose," and tapped her hooves together shyly, playing with the grass falling between them. "You know, I always did think my mane was a little long for a stallion," she laughed playfully, diverting from the subject and trying to reassure herself. She went to touch her mane, and was swiftly batted away by Applejack's quick hoof, "Nuh-uh Big Mac, I'm workin' here. Don't go touchin' it now," he said sternly but still non-maliciously. He just wanted it to look perfect for his big sister, he wanted her to be proud, and feel as pretty as she could. Applejack wanted to know how it felt to look pretty, too, but in the way he'd always dreamed of. He wondered often if he'd ever get the blessing of such a wonderful feeling. "Applejack, do you ever wish you were born a colt?" Big mac asked genuinely, still a little unsure of what Applejack was feeling, but knowing there was solidarity in it somewhere, she just had to understand it a little more. "Well - not really," Applejack spat out, his eyes looking away from his busy hooves, and quickly darting back to them before he drifted off in fantasy. He thought about it for a second, and still felt strange. "I wasn't really born a filly or a colt... or anything, I think, I was just born me. And I wouldn't really have it any other way. Sure, I mean, maybe I'd like shorter hair or somethin', or a uh," he struggled to find the words in his young foal vocabulary, "maybe if my nose was a little more colt-ish I'd be happy. But I think I'm pretty happy with me now. I do hope when I'm older my voice is a little better, though. I can't really do much though," he sighed dismissively. He continued, "I don't ever really feel too bad about who I am... I think I just feel happy about who I am. When I see myself as not a colt and not a filly, just a foal, a pony, it makes me real happy-like. But, I don't get too sad unless people are real serious about calling me a filly. I do get sad sometimes though, when I look too much like a filly to other people..." As Applejack placed an orchard blossom in Big Mac's hair, tucked snug and safe behind her ear, a thought went through Big Mac's head. "Applejack!" she jumped up, the rush of movement startling him, who was so concentrated seconds prior. "Let's give you a haircut! It'll be like how you braided my hair for me, we can cut yours!" Applejack nervously rubbed his elbow, then raising his hoof lightly beneath his muzzle, and he began to sweat. "Well, I, what if Ma and Pa don't like it?" Big Mac thought hard as Applejack grimaced, "Well, we can hide it with one of Pa's hats, an' I'm sure they won't mind," she suggested happily. Applejack considered briefly, just for a moment, the downsides of it all. He then immediately turned them all away and smiled so hard his eyes shut, stomping his front hooves against the ground up and down, "Okay, let's do it Big Mac!" As they galloped back to the barn, Applejack had suddenly realized he was so surprised with how much Big Mac had been talking, she never seemed so excited to talk about anything, and he realized how much this all meant to her. It meant a lot to him, too. Especially that his sister was so supportive while still knowing so little, but in her defense, he didn't know much either. It was a very special feeling, he thought to himself, very pleased. They skidded to a halt clumsily as they reached the doors to the barn. Foal-ishly peeking through the front windows, they realized it was only Granny and baby Bloom home, their parents must be out. They looked at each other, grinning, and cantered to the back, sneaking inside through the back door. When they made it to the bathroom, Applejack noted Big Mac looked a little worn out, wearing a tired look on her face. She figured all this chattiness probably made her sister a little exhausted. He shot a reassuring patended Sibling glance at her telling her all she needed to know, not needing words. Big Mac let out a gentle smile. She helped her little brother reach the cabinet above the sink, reaching the scissors that were so high up it took them both working together to reach. Applejack had a slight doubt in his mind, his parents probably didn't want him touching the scissors by himself, did they? But he had his big sister with him, and it had to be done! Nopony else would, and only they understood. Applejack balanced shakily with two hooves on Big Mac's back, warily reaching one back hoof up onto the sink, as he balanced with his two front hooves against the edge of the cabinet. He grasped the scissors between his teeth, and brashly jumped down, just barely missing a potential accident, even though they both knew better than to jump around with scissors, they threw caution to the wind regardless. Applejack happily put his front hooves on the rim of the sink, tapping them and bopping his little head, he looked at his big sister, who began working at his hair. Big Mac chopped with a great lack of care, playfully snipping one strand then the next. Applejack beamed the whole time, simply happy to have it happen, plan or not. Big Mac frequently spun around him, balancing on three hooves and sometimes getting in so close that she held his face with one hoof, his hair with another, and cut with the scissors firm in her mouth. Applejack's body relaxed completely and was kicking and rearing with every cut, wiggling and happily holding his front hooves together and constantly swishing his head from side to side to check how it looked, one side fell to his muzzle, and the other to his chin. He smiled bigger than ever before. With the final snip, Big Mac dropped the scissors carelessly to the tile below. She gently grasped Applejack's chin and turned her sibling's head forward to face the mirror, and his mouth immediately fell agape, his jaw slack, and his eyes slowly widening with the purest joy there ever was. He cupped his hooves to his mouth, removing them, turning his head to the side, and then fixing himself and putting his hooves to his open mouth once again. He felt a soft tug in his throat and his chest, and he couldn't control the watering in his eyes, "Big Mac!!" his voice cracked. "Yes Applejack?" the filly said apprehensively, fearing that she had done something wrong. "Oh Big Mac, oh my gosh I love it so so much!!" He bucked and whinnied, spinning in circles, his once-flowing tail too short to trip over now, and the euphoria of it all was the most overwhelming emotion little Applejack had ever felt. The tugging became so immense he couldn't ignore it, and he acknowledged it by leaping onto Big Mac with a hearty hug, squeezing her tight as his little arms could, and he rubbed his muzzle into her neck. Big Mac politely pushed her hoof between her neck and AJ's hoof, making sure he didn't squeeze too tight, struggling slightly to breathe. This foal was definitely a strong one. "Thank you so much big sis!!! I feel so great!!" he neighed, stepping back, one hoof raised wiping his immense wave of tears. The feeling of euphoria shot through his body in a rush, showing itself in the form of a tiny but powerful hop, as he lifted his legs into the air and threw them around. Applejack rushed back to the mirror, urging Big Mac to come look as well, as she didn't quite see herself yet with her hair "done all proper-like." Big Mac's face became pale, as she felt the rush of a thousand different emotions. The paranoia became astounding again, what if she didn't like how she looked as a filly? What if she still didn't feel right? What if it wasn't - Her thoughts were abruptly cut short by Applejack tugging her over, knowing her sister just sometimes needed a push in the right direction. "Lookie Big Mac!!" he placed his arm cheerfully around her, wrapping it over her back. Big Mac's eyes were glued shut, and she only bashfully peeked one eye open because curiosity would've ate her alive otherwise, and deep down she knew she had to see herself eventually. She uncovered her hoof from her eye, and opened both of them slowly. Her mouth opened ever so slightly, and she wasn't even aware she had stopped breathing, her eyes fluttered up and down the braided locks, along with her heart, and her eyes landed on the blossom in her ear. She couldn't speak, her throat clogged up from such elation. She felt the choking once again, but it wasn't like before, this feeling was quite welcoming actually. It rushed from her throat up to her head, and took her breath away. The sobbing ebbed at her cheeks right away, and she turned to look at her brother. As they spoke with lack of words, they stared with inordinate graditude. As Big Mac smoothly turned back to the mirror, Applejack stomped all his hooves again, one after the other with no apparent order or care, shaking his head in a frenzy as his ears twitched and he smiled a mile wide. He finally felt *pretty.* Big Mac watched herself adoringly, for the first time ever, and felt this acceptance and understanding of herself coursing through her veins with a confidence she'd never had. She blushed, and her ears fell downward, a small smile creeping onto her face. "Applejack," she whispered softly, as if she were too worried the world would hear her secrets. Applejack peered closer with wide, curious eyes, "Yeah Big Mac?" he whispered back. "My name.." she mumbled. Applejack raised his eyebrows, captivated, as Big Mac slowly lifted her hoof to the blossom behind her ear. "Blossom?" Applejack stated inquisitively, before Big Mac could shake her head AJ corrected himself, "Orchard Blossom!" he exlaimed, leaning back and jumping in the air, "Oh big sis, that's so pretty!! I love it so much!!" Orchard Blossom nervously gestured for him to keep it down, as he was prone to being unaware of his volume control. Applejack embarassedly covered his mouth with a shy smile, "Oops, sorry big sis." he cleared his throat, "Orchard Blossom!!" he yell-whispered, the excitement shining through him, he stamped his tiny hooves and clapped them together in celebration. "That's so pretty, Orchard Blossom!" Applejack told her earnestly, loving the new name. "I don't think I want a new name, but I'm really happy ya found one you like!" "Orchard Blossom, Orchard Blossom, Orchard Blossom!" Applejack repeated, playfully prancing in circles, excited by the sight of his short tail, he spun even faster. "What's all that commotion in there? Applejack? Big Mac? Are ya in there?" they heard through the shut door, hoofsteps gradually approaching, painstakingly slow but steady. Both of them felt their hearts drop from their chest as they froze, unable to even fathom moving. How would they explain any of this? Applejack hurried to clean up desperately, brushing the hair together with his hooves, coldly sweating from his brow as he frantically hurried to remove any evidence. He stopped mid-sweep to quickly shove his father's hat on his head, which slumped immediately and blocked his vision. "Oh dangit Blossom, Pa's hat's too big! I can't see!!" Orchard Blossom was still unmoving, sheer panic stopping her very breaths. Applejack felt the tugging in his throat rise up again as he began whimpering.

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once-upon-a-scenario · 4 years

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The Pillars with Pets; Part 2 of the Modern AU

:D __ Mitsuri -so Mitsuri actually wanted a dog of her own so bad and took the first opportunity to get one -she adopted her bab from a shelter -originally, she was thinking more along the lines of a small, floofy dog -like a Pomeranian, maybe, or a poodle -but -b u t -look. The huge, ambiguously mixed dog was. Right there. And she had such big, sweet eyes. -‘twas love at first sight -Aki-chan is an older dog and has a limp, but she shares her owner’s zest for life -together, they’re so full of energy that it’s downright terrifying -but in the best possible way! -Aki-chan gives the best slobbery kisses. Aki-chan is always there to wake Mitsuri up with happy barking in the morning. They cuddle together at night. -Aki-chan is an absolute sweetheart but considering her sheer size, she acts as a very effective deterrent for folks who are just plain Not Nice to Mitsuri -it’s like…the dog has a sixth sense for when her owner is uncomfortable or sad -Mitsuri likes to knit sweaters for Aki in the wintertime -they don’t always fit quite right but it’s fun! -also bakes Aki dog treats at home -tends to want to share food with her; has to remind herself that feeding dogs human stuff isn’t generally that good of an idea -(however, Aki will inevitably end up getting a few tidbits when Mitsuri’s cooking/baking) -(only the stuff that’s ok for her to eat, though!) -also also Aki is exactly That Kind of dog, the type that you’d think only appears in animated movies -the type that matchmakes -she does that 101 Dalmatian thing to Mitsuri and this cute brunette dude they met at the park -(y’know, the whole “lol hoomans I am apparently the only one smart enough to notice the chemistry between you so I shall tie you together with my leash until one of you breaks”) Obanai: -I mean he canonically has a snek -Kaburamaru is a pure boy -Iguro first got his snake as a teenager, when he was still living with his family -it was the only true gift he was ever allowed from them -his home life…was not the best -he hated his parents and siblings and used to dream of the day he’d be able to leave -moved out as soon as he could afford it with Kaburamaru in tow -he loves his noodle all the more because snakes live long lives; Kaburamaru’s been with him through thick and thin, through all the bad times in his life -and Iguro moved out, he really was Iguro’s only friend -at this point, Iguro treats him more like a person than anything -he’ll sit next to Kaburamaru’s enclosure with a book in hand and chat to him about how ridiculous the plot is -will sometimes just let the snek boi out and let him wiggle around his neck while he does other stuff -hates social media but will post pics of the noodle -it’s all his Instagram has: -Aesthetic pics or cute videos of Kaburamaru just chilling -hates his neighbors and will answer the door with Kaburamaru on his shoulders + talking to the snake just to freak them out -kids in the neighborhood spread rumors that he’s a ~witch~ -he literally doesn’t give a damn as long as they leave him alone lmao -the reptilian equivalent of “Crazy Old Cat Lady” -funny thing is that he isn’t particularly fond of animals in general -Kaburamaru is, he’s decided, his first and last snake/pet -has heart attacks on the daily once he starts dating this really wonderful woman who owns a heckin dog, and a huge one at that. Iguro is not used to animals that shed. -also dog-proofed his house at first out of paranoia that Aki would eat his snek -(though he later warmed up to her and decided to trust that she probably wouldn’t lol) Uzui: -has two ferrets -one is cinnamon, the other is white -white bab is named Momo -cinnamon bab is named…Chanel -(can you guess who got naming rights on Chanel) -(hint: it was not one of Tengen’s wives) -the ferrets were bought because everybody in the household wanted a pet but nobody could agree on what animal they were going to get -(Tengen wanted a bird, Makio wanted a dog, Suma wanted a bunny and Hinatsuru wanted them all to shut up and actually do some research) -eventually, they somehow came up with a combination of the desired pet traits and decided that ferrets were the best fit -anyway Momo & Chanel are spoilt rotten -they live the most Expensive, most flamboyant lives a pair of ferrets could possibly live -Suma thinks they’re adorable and babies them -Makio loves how energetic and spunky they are -Hinatsuru is just quietly affectionate. It’s so cute to watch the rest of the family coo over them -Tengen considers them his children -he is the pet owner who dresses up for Halloween with them -(once he and the other three went as pirates with the ferrets as their parrots ack I hate that that rhymes lol) -and makes them Instagram famous -is probably considering dedicating a Youtube channel to them as well -it’s like -bruh -how obsessed could you possibly be with a pair of small furry slinkies -(very obsessed, apparently) -Chanel & Momo: *exist* -Tengen: fucking superb, you flamboyant little goblins :D -shows them off constantly to his friends -it was especially bad for the first couple of months after he got them -not that the showing off has died down over the years, the others have just…gotten used to his dramatics by now -tbh usually somebody (probably Hinatsuru) would stop him, but the other three are also too obsessed with their babies to be Mature about it Sanemi: -“Maybe I’ll get a dog,” Sanemi said to himself -“Other animals are kinda stupid and not my thing” -“Hi,” said Fate, dumping a betta fish in a plastic cup on his doorstep. “Will it work if I try to appeal to your soft side?” -Sanemi is r a g e -what kind of bastard just dumps a living fISH on a stranger’s doorstep -bro -wtf -he’s so angry -hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh -well, he keeps it in that plastic cup on his kitchen table, because he has *no clue* what to do with it -tries to call a few people and make them take it -fails -he stares furiously at the fish a little more before starting to feel uneasy because…can it…really survive in such a tiny cup -buys a cheap secondhand fish tank and some fish food that’s apparently for bettas -(Genya: no, see, this one’s specially for betta fish Sanemi: wtf is the difference) -posts stuff on social media “is there any sad shithead out there willing to take a stupid blue fish” -some people answer, Sanemi makes it clear that they have to chat with him first before coming to pick up the fish because he’s not a *monster,* he’s not gonna send the creature to a neglectful owner -turns out, he hates every single candidate. Or maybe he’s just…getting really knowledgeable about betta fish. Maybe he’s joined a group for first-time betta owners. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe he bought a new tank and new food and the betta is actually starting to look kinda perky and flashy -(Siamese fighting fish. It’s a fighting fish. It’s Fierce. Sanemi…does not dislike it. It’s kinda rad.) -Come to think of it. He did own stag beetles as a kid. Maybe dogs aren’t the only pets worth owning…? -the betta is eventually named Dragon, he gets a big tank, balanced diet, and a Marimo mossball friend, and Sanemi becomes a fish expert despite the fact that he swears this is “temporary” -(Shinobu, dropping by for lunch/to antagonize him: lmao right a ‘’’temporary’’’ tank that you decorated yourself and ‘’’temporary’’’ bloodworms in your freezer and ‘’’temporary’’’ smiling when you come home and your fish swims out to greet you) Himejima (warning: a little sad compared to the others. Some brief mentions of death/loss and grief) -has a seeing eye dog -she’s a black Labrador named Nana, and has been living with him for a few years now -they’re honestly a perfect match -Nana’s a sweet, steady dog and is good company for her owner -when she isn’t working, she’s pretty content to amble around the house and/or snuggle up to Gyoumei -having her has had a huge positive influence on him -he wasn’t exactly in the best state, emotionally, after losing his kids all those years ago -it took him a while to heal -and Nana’s presence grounded him throughout -she kept him from kind of shrinking into himself -at his darkest moments, Gyoumei might have preferred to reject help, even when his friends came to call -but Nana always barked happily and ran up to the door to welcome visitors -she’d whine and wake him up in the mornings -offer a ton of slobbery doggy kisses -it helped him open up again, little by little -Gyoumei is of the opinion that Nana was his main teacher in relearning how to trust people -he occasionally organizes playdates for her with Aki and Mitsuri -Mitsuri also knits matching sweaters for Aki and Nana -she sometimes throws in a sweater for Gyoumei, too -Nana is often bamboozled by Gyoumei when he prays or works out -hooman -hooman what are these strange and repetitive movements that you do -hooman why do you sit still with your hands together and ignore me -it’s kinda funny how she gets confused and starts sniffing Gyoumei or nudging him with her nose -though Gyoumei no longer truly requires encouragement to get out of bed in the mornings, Nana still makes a point of waking him up with kisses -and nuzzles -and doing this weird thing where she puts her paws on his cheeks like she’s trying to cup his face in her ‘‘‘hands’‘‘ lol -it coaxes a rare smile out of Gyoumei -Nana’s existence in general makes him smile

#Kimetsu no yaiba #Demon Slayer #kanroji mitsuri #himejima gyoumei #iguro obanai #uzui tengen #shinazugawa sanemi #headcanons #imagines #pets #modern AU #obamitsu #I have no first hand experience with seeing eye dogs #so please let me know if there's anything inaccurate!#Mod Eve

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allforhader · 4 years

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Perfect

Dave McLean x (F) Reader

Warnings: Langauge

“DAVE JUST DO IT”

“No!”

“Dude. The lady is here every day. Grow a pair and say hi”

“It’s easier said than done Rod!”

“Plus you’re one to talk Rod”

“Rico. Shut up. This isn’t about me and Denise”

“It can be”

“KEVIN—-Okay...just. Fuck. Dave. You literally don’t shut up about this girl that always sits at the corner table in the coffee shop. Now just walk over and say hi. Literally just do that”

“Now that’s easier done than said” Rico smiles thinking that sounded smart but Kevin thought otherwise.

Rod rolls his eyes before pushing Dave into the coffee shop and directing the rest of them back to the van but close to the window so they can watch this train wreck—special occasion. All Dave had to do was introduce himself to the girl, invite him to a stunt maybe, and that’s it.

“Come on Dave. Let’s do this” Dave tells himself making his way over to Y/N.

Y/N was fixated on what she was doing but the strange feeling of someone staring at her got the best of her. She looks up seeing Dave staring at her and she gave him a worried look since he hasn’t said anything.

“He’s freezing”

“SHUT UP KEVIN”

“What! He’s just staring at her and from her body language she’s tensing up”

“No she’s not” Rico elbows Kevin as him and Rod immediately look back at the two.

“Hi”

“Hey” Y/N smiles laughing away the awkwardness. “Need something?”

“I uh. Was gonna ask you out but damn you make me nervous” Fuck. Too honest.

Y/N looks at him feeling her face flush at the thought before smiling even more.

“Well?”

“Huh?”

“Are you going to ask?”

“Oh! Shit yeah. Um. Would you like to go on a date with me?”

“I’d love to” Y/N smiles. “Just give me your hand” she states as Dave held his hand out watching her take her pen writing down her number. “Call me?”

“Yeah” Dave smiles before remembering. “Oh. I’m Dave by the way”

“Y/N” Y/N continues to smile before going back to what she was doing as Dave went to get congratulated by his friends.

The man did it lol

Two weeks went by and Y/N found herself walking toward the ice rink after hours. This confused her until Dave stepped out with the biggest smile on his face. The confusion left her as she happily returns the smile before approaching him being lead inside.

“I’ve never been ice skating I hope you know”

“Well I do now, and that won’t stop me from helping you” Dave smiles as she couldn’t help it. She hasn’t stopped smiling since he asked her out.

“Okay but if I fall-“

“I’ll catch you” He instantly said before she could finish as Y/N felt her cheeks hurt from smiling so much.

Once they got their skates on, Dave held his hand out for her as Y/N happily took it carefully getting on the ice already slipping up. He instantly wrapped his arms around her waist keeping her up as Y/N re-balances herself.

“So...you work here” Y/N smiles hugging the wall as Dave skated through to show off.

“Yeah, it’s pretty nice. I’m usually one giving the skates out and doing the night routine before closing but it’s still pretty nice”

“You understand having kids around then. Do they do a lot of crazy things?”

“Well, kids do like screaming on the rink whenever they fall. And I don’t mean in pain. I mean when they are about to...but don’t actually fall” Dave laughs skating over holding his hand out. “Do you work with kids?”

“I’m a kindergarten teacher, so I handle a handful of little ones on the daily” Y/N smiles taking his hand slowly being pulled away from the wall.

“They must keep you on your toes huh? That must be fun”

“It’s fun when they don’t make a mess but that happens a lot.” Y/N laughs before slipping on the ice.

When Y/N opened her eyes thinking she hit the ice directly, but no. She landed on top of Dave and he broke her fall. The two looked at each other in shock before laughing at the fact that happened.

“Thanks for breaking my fall��

“Happy to do it” Dave smiles as the two stayed there for a little while longer.

Y/N smiles at Dave as he held her close when she presses her lips against his.

After getting off the ice and out of their skates, Dave locked up before walking Y/N home. As they got close to her house, Dave stops before they reached her door and Y/N happily looked at him.

“So, my friend Rod has a stunt later next week...will I...see you there?” Dave smiles as Y/N steps closer to him kissing his cheek.

“Of course” Y/N smiles before entering her home as Dave couldn’t believe he was this lucky. Y/N is perfect.

Before the day of the stunt, Y/N got a call from Dave that worried her from where it was from. When she parked her car, Y/N saw Dave step out of the ER looking around for her making her instantly get out of the car waving him over. The closer Dave got, the more she frowned. She carefully held his face in her hands to get a better look before locking eyes with him.

“Are you okay?”

“Mmm...Yeah. I’m good” Dave smiles as Y/N couldn’t help but return it. She froze when Dave wrapped his arms around her embracing her as she returns the hug. “I was stupid, this wasn’t the first tims”

“Don’t beat yourself up Dave. We all do stupid things” Y/N states holding him close to her as Dave sighs happily.

When they parted Y/N kept him close for a moment to worry as she looked at the bandage on his head.

“You wanna stay the night? Head over to the stunt together tomorrow?”

“You wouldn’t mind?”

“Of course not, that’s why I offered silly” Y/N smiles and that’s the thing Dave was waiting for. Her to smile.

As the moments went by...

Dave found himself in Y/N’s bed being held by her and it was the most comforting thing he’s experienced. He truly found the perfect girl.

#bill hader #bill hader gifs #bill hader x reader #dave mclean #dave hot rod #hot rod #dave mclean x reader #can we talk about how i forgot most of the characters names from this movie except Bill and Andy’s characters...

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ohwhatamessiam · 4 years

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Self Control - Chapter 11

Summary: Thanksgiving break comes and goes. And it leaves you angry, wondering how much Chris really cares about you. Will he prove that he wants this, or will he let your spark burn out?

Pairing: Professor!Chris Evans X TA!Reader

Word Count: 4.1k

Warnings: Language, angst, lots of pain (the tweets from Brandon outlined this turn of events), I’m really sorry but y’all are gonna hate me for this one.

A/N: Hi everyone! I made it back for an update under 9 months this time (barely lol). There’s only 2 more chapters left in Self Control, and you guys will probably hate me for them, but this is the path we’re on together! Thank you all for your patience, and thank you to @fangirlisms-22. I have started on the next chapter but knowing me, it’ll be a while before it’s done. I’m going to ask y’all to be patient again. I tried to tag everyone, but some blogs have deactivated, changed urls, or won’t let me tag them. Let me know if you need me to change your url on my list. Here’s the Spotify playlist for the entire fic.

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Self Control | Masterlist

A week of radio silence goes by and you’re left alone with your thoughts. And lonely, desperate thoughts are not your friends.

You try to stay in for the weekend, telling yourself that the distance is for the best. It’s giving you time to work on your story. You tear that piece to shreds and stitch it back together 10 times over. Your heart is starting to feel that same way.

Wednesday afternoon you realize you’ve run completely out of your grad student food staples: mac and cheese, tortillas, shredded cheese, peanut butter, and milk. And there’s only one box of cereal left on top of your fridge. Corn flakes. The bland cereal Chris loved so much.

You can’t bring yourself to touch it.

Forcing your body into a pair of sweatpants and shoes, you leave the apartment. The sun feels too bright for your sensitized eyes, and the temperature is much colder than you planned for, but you know better than to turn back. If you go back, you won’t come out until you have to see him after break.

As you pull into the grocery store it finally hits you. It’s already Thanksgiving eve. That much time had slipped away from you.

You trudge through the throngs of people scrambling for last minute items. No one pays any attention to your state of disarray.

Luckily, your basic needs are in stock and you’re able to get what you need without too much difficulty. You’re about to head to the registers when you stop at the liquor aisle. The thought only has to enter your mind before your feet immediately pivot toward the wine section.

You find 3 of the cheapest, most tolerable bottles and are stuffing them in your cart when you hear glass clanking behind you. You turn to find two of the last people you wanted to see.

Sebastian and Dr. Mackie.

“Oh shit,” Sebastian yelps as he tries to balance three separate bottles of liquor in one arm. Dr. Mackie snickers at him as he adds another bottle to their collection.

You shift quickly, trying to keep your back to them. There’s no need for a conversation on a day like today.

“(Y/N),” Sebastian calls out.

Your whole body tenses, fingers clenching the cart handle. How did he even know it was you in your chaotic state?

Footsteps approach you and you try to muster the strength to face them. At your best, you gather a forced smile.

“Hi (Y/N),” he grins as he slides up to your cart, Dr. Mackie in tow.

“Hi guys,” you manage. You catch how Dr. Mackie’s eyes flash to your hair, and then your clothes. You try not to get caught up on how that makes you want to crawl home, with or without groceries.

“What are you doing in town? It’s Thanksgiving,” Sebastian asks as he tries to pay more attention to his assortment of alcohol instead of your appearance.

“I’m staying here for break. My family’s a little spread out, so it’s hard to pick a side.” You glance over at Dr. Mackie, hoping that answer seems somewhat believable.

He seems to buy it as he nods, “I get that.”

You’d never seen these men outside of an academic environment, and when you finally notice their current clothing, you feel the tiniest bit better about running into them. Dr. Mackie’s wearing a navy polo and a pair of gray chinos, while Sebastian’s in a pair of black jeans and a red henley.

Something about seeing even your colleagues out of business casual, made you feel a little special. Like you were welcomed into Chris’s friend group with open arms. Like the relationship you and Chris have could exist both inside and outside of school safely.

Or had.

“If you’re staying in town, why didn’t you answer our email?” Sebastian asks.

“What email?” Your mind is already trying to remember the last time you glanced at your school account. It must have been nearly a week. But why would you check it when clearly staring at your text messages and voicemails from Chris had been filling your weaker moments?

“The one where we reached out to every grad student and faculty member whom had nowhere to go for Thanksgiving, and invited them to a potluck in the Webster hall student lounge?”

Your eyes shift between the men nervously, “Oh, uh, I must have missed that one.”

“That’s okay,” Dr. Mackie answers.

“Well look,” Sebastian continues, “we’re going to have a lot of food, and just need people to eat it now.”

“You could absolutely just bring a bottle of wine and load up a plate.” Dr. Mackie adds as he notices the bottles in your cart. Unfortunately, he doesn’t realize you already have plans to finish those bottles by yourself, and maybe even before Thanksgiving.

“I don’t think I’ll be able to make it.” More like you really hope you never have to leave your apartment again.

“Ah, you already have plans.”

You don’t, but you nod like you do in hopes they’ll back off.

“Well I’m sure we’ll have leftovers,” Sebastian’s eyes become too sharp as the words leave his mouth, “so if you wanna stop by after you’re done doing whatever you have to do, you’re welcome to.” His tone of voice leaves you surprised he didn’t just outright wink at you.

But apparently he didn’t know yet. Chris hadn’t told him about your “distance.”

“I don’t know if I’ll be able to, but I’ll try.”

“Good,” Dr. Mackie nods, his eyes cutting to Sebastian, clearly trying to get his friend to leave you alone. You know the only time you’ve spent with him was at the faculty dinner, but inside you quietly thank him.

“Yeah, great. And you can bring anyone if you want. Thanksgiving is about sharing.” Sebastian’s eyes stay on yours, still unsubtly trying to communicate that Chris is welcome. Under his gaze, you feel a bubble of tension build in your chest, the precursor to more tears.

“I won’t bring anyone, but thank you for offering.” You need to get out of here. You will not cry in front of Chris’s friends and colleagues. You drop your focus back onto your grocery cart, trying to stave off the warmth behind your eyes.

“You are very welcome. Seb, we should probably get going now,” Dr. Mackie swoops in for the save. “Whether we see you or not, have a good Thanksgiving (Y/N).” And he’s already guiding Sebastian away from you.

“Thanks, you too,” you call out. They don’t answer, and fortunately they round the corner before the first tear drops.

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You finish your last bottle of wine late on Thanksgiving. You pick up your phone and nearly dial his number, but just as you reach his name in your contact list, you picture it in your mind.

Him, sitting at a large table covered in all the traditional Thanksgiving dishes. On his right is Jennifer, and she’s beaming. This is her in her element. She’s getting what she wants because Chris won’t tell his family yet that they’re getting divorced. But your mind focuses on the space between them, their joined hands sitting on the table.

You can’t help but throw your phone across the room.

You don’t need confirmation that you’re right, that your fear isn’t imaginary. But you also don’t need to sit around calling him, embarrassing yourself with desperate voice messages that ultimately won’t help your relationship.

You know there has to be something else to fill this void.

And then pull out your laptop and start writing. And it’s a very different story than the one you’ve been working on.

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The rest of break comes and goes, and somehow you manage to honor the “distance.” Maybe it’s that your sadness has started becoming little pockets of anger, or maybe it’s that you’ve already cried and moped enough.

But the first day back to classes, you go in with your head held high.

You made it this long without caving and calling, or going to see him. It’ll hurt, but you’ll make it through a class together. You end up being one of the first people in a seat, the students seem to have gotten slower since Thanksgiving break. Lethargic and ready for winter break already.

Winter break was supposed to be when you and Chris could end your distance, your weird work power dynamics would be over and neither of you could lose their job. But what used to feel like a hopeful promise felt like a drawn out execution now. If Thanksgiving had gone even vaguely how you imagined it had for him, you were sure the end was coming.

Part of what made you love Chris was his heart, his empathy, his willingness to try to see the best in people. And while those traits hadn’t been applied to Jennifer in a while, you were nearly positive they could be again.

Tom comes in at his usual time, but sits at the end of the row behind you. You find that odd, but barely have a moment to dwell on it before Chris arrives. And his face is clean shaven.

A piece of your heart sinks, and you slip further into your chair.

He avoids eye contact with you until after he has the presentation pulled up on the projector and the rest of the class has filed in. He takes a deep breath, his hands gripping the sides of the podium, and he looks out at the room. But his eyes seem to gloss over the break-hungover students and fall on you.

You feel yourself gulp, but you don’t look away. Not yet. His clothes are nicer, less rumpled than before break. His hair is shorter and slicked back, like it had been at the beginning of the semester. And his wedding ring seems to just catch the fluorescent lights perfectly.

Everything but his gaze feels foreign. Almost too different than your Chris.

And that’s when you drop your gaze back to your laptop. Of course he’d been home long enough to do laundry and look like his old self again. Maybe it was for his family over break, but maybe it was for Jennifer.

He watches you for one more moment, and then focuses back on the students. “Good afternoon, class. I hope everyone had a good break.”

Hearing his voice hurts worse than seeing him, but you straighten your spine and get through class. He does not hang his attention on you again, and the only one who seems to notice besides you, is Tom.

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Your office hours feel like slow torture since you’re left alone with your thoughts about Chris again. And how he looked. And how he barely looked at you.

You wish for a distraction. A student, Robert to come in, or even Tom to show up even though he’d been icy towards you recently. But you get nothing.

So instead, you work on the new piece you started over break. That piece about cycles, and circumstances. About love given, and love lost. About power dynamics and the risks you take when you ignore them.

Office hours nearly end before you look up.

And Chris is standing on the other side of your open door, not knocking, but not walking away. You’re not sure what to make of that.

Is he stopping himself from rushing up to you? Or is he forcing himself to stay there until you say something, until you force him to admit what’s really happening here?

He finally meets your eyes and your heart drops. Just like it had during that awful phone call. And you knew what that meant then, and what that says now.

But you try to fight it. You tell yourself it is just paranoia.

“Hi,” you say, your voice coming out short, trying to hide its shakiness.

“Hi.” Just one word from his lips and your very marrow wants to crawl to him, pleading to forget Thanksgiving break. Forget whatever transpired then. Remember what you had before. What you could have next.

But you stay in your seat and watch him step into your office gingerly. His eyes take in the room, either looking for new evidence in support of your relationship, or looking for a distraction so he doesn’t have to say it. Or at least that’s what it looks like.

His hands are shoved in his pockets, his shoulders hunched. And it makes this feel even sadder. He’s resigned to this. Whatever’s coming, he doesn’t really want it. Not fully.

You can’t take it anymore, you have to end this pointless staring. His at your office, yours waiting for him.

“So, what do you need?”

His face changes, the slightest furrow of his brows, the gentlest sigh. As if you wounded him, rushing him through this moment. A moment you were starting to want over.

He closes your office door, leaving you two alone in a room with so many memories. A room that just a couple weeks ago held what you hoped was the promise of a future.

“We need to talk,” he says, sitting on the edge of the seat across from you. You nod, but don’t say anything. Not until you know what kind of talk this is.

He stares at you for a moment, watching your face, waiting for it to change, shift into something else. But you keep your emotions away from the surface. You’ve had enough time to think about this during your distance.

He finally continues, “This Thanksgiving was tense. A lot happened. A lot was said. But the time apart helped me figure somethings out.”

“Like what?” You watch as his fingers twitch, his eyes roaming you for clues on what you want to hear.

“Like, I’m not the only one who’s been seeing someone else. She wouldn’t tell me who, but I can’t help but feel like it was her way of throwing us in my face.” He pauses, but you don’t break, don’t reach for his hand or tell him he’s right. You wait for the rest.

“And I learned that our families aren’t ready for a divorce yet.” His eyes focus on the edge of your desk. He still won’t stand up to them yet.

He knows this isn’t fair to you. And he won’t even look you in the eye as he admits it.

“So, where does that leave me?” A fire fuels in your belly, you want to scream at him. You can’t keep living in this state of distance. That he needs to figure out whether he wants you more than he wants to avoid conflict with her and his family.

“As someone I want a future with.” He’s watching your chest now, the way your breath fills your lungs, and you hold it in, praying that he’ll just drop the other shoe. “As someone I could see myself growing old with, living a full, creative life together.”

“But?”

He hesitates and you try to keep the air moving in and out of your body. You do not have any new breath-held wishes, everything you could ever hope for from this moment has already found a home in your mind. And it is accompanied by all your fears about this relationship, and its end.

But the way his shoulders slump, and his elbows dig into his knees as he leans on them. The way his head now hangs in his hands. You feel that your fears are unfortunately, closer to this reality.

“But not someone I can have a now with.”

Your heart felt it coming, and it hurts worse than you ever would have expected.

That fire is in your chest now, beating your lungs, eating the oxygen from them. Like a hit to the gut. There’s no more breath to hold.

Was this relationship always going to be a waiting game? Or just a dalliance to fill the time?

“This time apart, this distance has already been painful enough, Chris. But I was doing it to protect both of us.”

He raises his head, and his watery eyes catch on your own, “It’s been terrible not seeing you, not talking to you. It’s been painful for me too. But it’s been for the best.”

“Best as in it protects us for our future? Or best as in it allows you to give your marriage another shot?” Will he stop trying to dance his way around this, stop softening this? You need a clear answer on where you stand, and where you are going to be moving forward.

“I- I’m afraid to say both.”

And that hits you with an overwhelming force. Your heart has sunk so far, you are not even sure you have one anymore. You just want to curl into a ball and cry. But instead, you let that fire from before crawl its way into your mouth. “So do you want me to wait around for you? Let you test the waters with Jennifer again until you're sure you want to be with me? Because that’s not what I signed up for with us.”

“I know that, and that’s not what I wanted for us either.”

“And if I wait any longer, I’m not protecting us anymore. I’m protecting you, and your life, while mine gets boxed away. But what I want should matter too.”

“Y/N, it does,” he whispers, but it doesn’t slow you down.

“Should we still even try to be together? If you’re not sure that this is it, that I am who you should be with, what’s the point? What are we holding out for?”

All the air from the room feels like it has been sucked out. Chris is staring at you like you’ve wrecked his whole world. And inside, it absolutely feels like you’ve just ripped apart your own. But you know it had to be said.

“Because I love you. And you love me.”

“Is that enough Chris? Because it’s starting to seem like it isn’t anymore.”

He looks at you, eyes wide as his lower lip trembles softly, but you remind yourself to hold your ground. He was the one who’d come in there to tell you he might go back to his wife. He was the one who had already planned on doing this.

“It was, it is. We just need to wait it out. See if Jennifer and Robert will leave us alone.”

“They already know, and so does probably half of the department.” You hope your words aren’t actually true, but between all the conversations you had before break, it sure as hell feels like it. “I’m not staying your secret affair. I’m not your office hours hook up because you can’t tolerate your wife. You either tell me right now that you will fully work on what we have, or you tell me it’s over.”

His eyes are searching your office again, looking for courage, or maybe an excuse. He doesn’t seem to find it, and his focus settles on your joined hands. You clench them together, a silent prayer for the truth.

“I can’t do either of those things.”

Your breath catches in your throat. You just want a straight goddamn answer. “Chris…”

“I can’t. Because I don’t want to lose you, it hurts so much to be apart from you. But I can’t gamble with the rest of my life, my job, my family. I can’t just ignore them and run away again. It’s not working out for any of us that way.”

You want to snap that it was working out fine for you, but you try not to be more selfish than you already feel. And as well as you were making out, he is right, these last few months hadn’t been perfect. Except you don’t want perfect, you just want a promise to try. A whole-hearted attempt.

Instead, you stay quiet for a moment, watching him, taking him in. His clearly upset features, his body perched on the edge of his seat. His words are telling you that the one fear you had grown so very close to this entire break, is real. His already established, semi-comfortable life is more important than you, or your happiness. And you had really wanted to be wrong.

“That is my answer.” Your mouth finally moves, saying what you were thinking all along. “Your inability to make a decision is everything I need to know.”

“I didn’t want this to happen (Y/N). I don’t want this to be over.” His hands reach out for yours, searching for a physical connection, a spark. Something that will help him soften this, or make you change your mind.

But it won’t. And you pull your fingers from your desk.

“Then you should have thought about that earlier, Chris. You should have considered whether kissing me in this hallway could ruin your life. That sleeping with me in your office could demolish everything. You should have decided then, if this last 3 months was worth it, to risk it all? Because I decided that then. I decided I wanted you, and this, but I knew I might regret it one day. And you’ve probably proven me right.”

Chris’s eyes latch onto your own, shock lifting his brows so gently. Like you’ve landed the final blow, you knocked him out. But this wasn’t a match for you to win. No, this was a mercy kill. You know now this relationship had to end before it sacrificed what was left of your control, and your sanity.

“I always wanted this. There’s not a single second I’ve regretted it.” His tone comes out rough, as if the anger you’ve let out finally reaches his own gut. And you hope it burns as much for him as it does for you.

“Good for you. But if you really wanted this, why didn’t you tell me about Jennifer’s sudden interest in getting back together earlier? Why didn’t you tell your family that you guys are over? That there’s no hope for your marriage, and that you’re ready to move on? Would you rather have a second chance with her instead of a first, real chance with me?”

You look down at your own hands in your lap, your fingers twisted together. And for a moment you second guess this whole conversation. Is this really how this has to go? “Or at least that’s what I asked myself over and over again during break.”

He stays quiet, his eyes shifting down, settling on his knees. They bounce as his heels tap the floor. His nerves are so raw, that he might just be finally admitting to himself, that this has reached its conclusion. That maybe this was never going to end any differently.

The words leave his mouth so quietly, you almost miss them. “So this is the end then?”

As much as this already feels like slicing a part of yourself off, you were staying strong. But his tone, its soft resignation, it builds a heat behind your eyes. And your tears threaten to let loose.

“I’ll finish the semester as your TA, but yes. I-” the crack in your voice gives away more than you’ve shown this entire conversation. And his baby blues latch on to it, to you. A final, silent pleading. But you gulp, “I think it is.”

Inside you are begging for him to say no, it’s not. That he won’t let this be the end. That you are more important than Jennifer, than his family, than anyone’s opinion.

He nods to himself, his eyes squeezing shut. He takes a moment to make himself accept it, and then he pushes himself up.

“I’m sorry this is how we’re ending, (Y/N). I never meant to compromise your feelings or your wants. I didn’t mean to hurt you. But I understand how my intentions have gotten lost in our situation.” He moves to your door, turning his back to you.

You feel your bottom lip quiver as the tears in your eyes start to bleed out.

“I’m sorry too, Chris.” He hesitates, looking back at you as his hand reaches the door knob. “Goodbye.”

One more quick nod as his gaze drops, attempting to ignore your quiet sob. His fingers push open the door and he whispers, “Goodbye.”

And then he’s gone, and your office hours are over, and you want to be anywhere but here. But as you try to stand, you can’t move yet. This loss feels paralyzing. Your limbs lock in denial, your mind wants to bargain now. But you know it’s too late.

So you sit there, and cry every tear out you can, waiting for the pain to subside. Waiting for your breath to stop shaking. Waiting for you to feel confident in your choices.

And eventually, it does. And you do.

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Reveling in Richonne

120: The Staying (8x14)

Y’all this was the episode that had me most excited to return to these revelings and I know y’all know why lol. 😋 So this is legit me walking into these 8x14 posts rn...

There’s a very special scene to celebrate and break down in this episode and I can’t wait, but before that, there’s definitely some notable moments beforehand to talk about too.

And this first one is the really beautiful scene we get with Rick and Michonne and the letters. 🙌🏾

And y’all my extra self of course wrote a dissertation on this one scene cuz there’s so much to analyze. 🙈😂 This moment between them is that meaningful and layered, so you know we gotta break it all the way down.

So the scene starts with Michonne getting emotional as she stands alone in the room and reads Carl’s letter. And y’all, it breaks my whole heart. 😭

But there is something heartwarming about it too cuz Michonne so clearly wants to honor Carl’s memory and hold on to the last little piece of her best friend she has left through this letter.

As sad as it makes her, she continues to turn to his words and connect to Carl in this way, which I’m glad cuz the last thing they should do is suppress Carl and his memory.

Also this moment made me even more annoyed with Enid because her trifling self was all up in Michonne’s face about Carl dying, and at that time Michonne had to be composed and cordial even tho you know it hurt to hear that. And so here in 8x14 we see that in the quiet of her room she’s now able to let all the pain of the loss fully hit her.

And it’s a big deal that she’s letting herself grieve and let out this emotion cuz there was a time when the old Michonne would have likely suppressed and shut down after a loss like this.

But luckily her best friend knew just what to say to keep that from happening, cuz Carl deliberately advised her to not carry this part. So I really feel like she’s been able to find this balance since losing him, of addressing the loss without carrying the loss in an unhealthy way. 👌🏽

So then Rick walks in and sees Michonne. They make eye contact but he looks away cuz again at this point he’s shielding himself from anything that could heal him.

Rick sees her holding the letter and you can see the anxiety he feels cuz this is something he’s been running from and he’s clearly dreading having to face his own letter.

Michonne doesn’t say anything and I feel like to see her in this vulnerable spot is a wake up call for Rick to see just how much she’s hurting since she lost Carl too. He knew they were both in pain but I think to visibly see her emotional like this, whereas most every other time post-Carl the focus has been on her reaching out for him and letting him be the emotional one, helps Rick to understand just how much she’s in need of comforting too.

And I think Rick knows that even in this time of grief for him, the responsibility he still has is to be there for Michonne because she’s been by his side every step of the way in all of this.

So as much as Rick might feel the temptation to just run from this, what I love is that we get to see him decide that Michonne is more worth it than his own fears.

Despite the pain and suppression he feels, he still musters the strength to comfort her and acknowledge her pain. And he does this through going to her and doing the immensely intimate act of gently wiping her tears. Cuz soul mates. 😊🙌🏾

Y’all this is legit too beautiful. 😭 I love that this really highlights how close they’ve become to do something so personal like this.

Like this just feel so natural for both of them and it really is evident that there’s something out of this world that connects them, cuz finally having this form of contact seems to just give both of them a real sense of relief and comfort. Being together like this is the way they’re meant to be.

Rick might not have the words yet to really speak with her but that’s not going to stop him from trying to offer comfort through his actions.👌🏽 And seeing him finally be at a point of acknowledging her pain and consoling her had me like...

It’s so nice to see Rick finally look at her fully and you can just feel the deep love he has for her as he looks at her. She truly is something special to him, y’all. ☺️

It’s also significant that his act of comfort is wiping away the tears cuz I think it symbolizes both his care and also his desire to just wipe away the pain for both of them if only it were that simple. R&M are both people who always want to be useful so he wants so badly to take this pain away for her.

This act is even more precious when I think about the fact that this is Rick Grimes, who to most people is the baddest of the bunch and nothing to play with, but with Michonne he’s so loving and tender.

And he has shown throughout the seasons that Michonne being happy is a priority to him, so you know it breaks him to see her like this.

This moment really solidifies how they love each other more than their own feelings and he’s pushing past what he feels in order to be there for her cuz he not only sees her hurting but he feels it too cuz they’re so interconnected.

So as they look into each other’s eyes and have this long awaited moment of connecting it’s really sweet that Michonne asks Rick if he wants to read the letter Carl gave her.

It’s deep cuz it shows that in this relationship what’s hers is his and what’s his is hers, so of course she’s open to share. And allowing Rick to read the letter Carl wrote to her would give Rick one more piece of Carl to take in. Cuz once they read those letters it’ll be the last new thing they have from him. 😢

I love that she poses it as a question because she’s giving him the choice. And I also appreciate that she offers cuz she knows that he could find comfort in it even if he doesn’t see it like that just yet.

(Side note: I hope this show knows it’s important we eventually hear what was in Michonne’s letter. I so badly want to know what he would’ve wrote her cuz I bet it’d be precious. And I also am really hoping there could be some mention of how she became his mom. That’s part of why I was fine with the best friends thing cuz I was like the mom mention better be in the letter. So when it comes to showing us her letter, TWD...

But like I said, these letters weigh heavy on Rick so this triggers him to push away again. The fear of the letters initially is trumping his need to be with her and this stands out cuz usually nothing trumps his need to be with her.

What’s cool is that even though he’s not ready to face the letters yet and he’s essentially saying no, he’s still holding her hand and connected with her. So it’s not a rejection of her or even her offer, it’s more so him being real that he feels he can’t read these letters yet.

I love that there’s almost this dance done as he slowly backs away and she moves closer to him. It legit feels magnetic. 💯

So Rick starts to physically pull away and he goes over to the closet. And that’s how you know this isn’t a healthy Rick cuz for a moment his fear overpowered her presence and led him to pull away, which never happens with a healthy Rick who would have easily stayed in that moment with her for a long time.

When Rick walks to the closet you can see him having a moment of feeling off and dazed and I really think part of this is because he knows he shouldn’t be pushing away from her. He knows walking away from her doesn’t feel right cuz y’all that’s not how magnets are designed. But again, the unstable Rick is drowning out his true self.

(Side note: I love knowing that the two of them picked a room to make their own together at Hilltop. ☺️)

Rick grabs the murder coat and that coat is a clear indicator that whatever Rick’s about to do is not going to be some kumbaya activity. 😂

Michonne turns and sees him and she immediately knows that he’s going out there (probably to do something wildin), and Rick gives his explanation about how they need food so he’s going to get some. He tries to say it casually but he can’t completely look at her here cuz he knows he’s not being honest with the one person he’s meant to be honest with.

It’s deep that throughout this moment Michonne is able to stay looking at Rick, even despite the fact that he is a constant reminder of Carl for her too. And Rick knows he needs to look at her and speak with her cuz she’s the cure and the one person who can reach him but again, he doesn’t feel he deserves that right now.

It reminds me of how he told her in Season 5 that she could’ve talked him out of their whole secret gun thing. Rick knows that if he’s around Michonne long enough she can talk him out of this wrathful self-sabotage state he seems to be in, so in an act of further self sabotage he’s pushing away.

After hearing Rick’s reasoning for going out, Michonne doesn’t address that, but instead she gets to the heart of the issue and asks Rick, “What did he write you.”

Again, I love that she is unafraid to deal with the real stuff with her man as tough as it is. Addressing the root will help him and all she wants is to help him through even if it’s doing hard things like having hard conversations.

So Michonne gets straight to the deeper issue cuz she knows they’ve built a mature relationship where they let it out and talk about everything with vulnerable honest communication. 💯

(Side note: Another reason these other characters need to put some respek on Michonne’s name is cuz she is the one to save their leader and pull him out of the darkness so many times. It’s a big responsibility that she does effortlessly and continuously and the whole community is better off because of it. So these characters have to realize there isn’t exactly a healthy leader Rick if not for Michonne being the one to lift him up. 💯)

Rick admits he doesn’t know what Carl wrote him cuz he can’t bring himself to read it and while he’s trying to run from this subject, I think you can also see the real Rick trying to come through and be vulnerable here too.

And I love that Michonne stops him and says “Wait.” There’s something about her saying wait that feels so loving cuz it’s not demanding, it’s more like she’s saying I know you’re about to walk out and away from this and from me and it’s urging him to give them this moment to not run but finally talk. She knows walking away and leaving this room can be damaging so she needs him to wait and hear her out.

When she says wait Rick does finally stop and face her and they’re standing closer now cuz magnets. He says he can’t with more vulnerability in his voice and you can see how fragile he feels.

And then She tells him “You have to.” In a way that feels completely like she’s speaking from experience.

As always it’s not demanding or pushy, it’s coming from a place of knowing the longer he puts this off the harder the journey will be and the more his mental state will deteriorate, and she’s determined to keep that from happening to him.

They both have an immensely strong desire to protect each other and that’s why she stresses that he has to, because she wants to protect him from the dark places she went to when she experienced this kind of loss.

You can hear the plea in her voice because she knows it’s important and she wants him to me be okay. Like since season four they’ve established their you’re okay/I’m okay connection. And they’re both not okay right now so they have to go on this healing path together in order for both of them to ever truly heal individually, cuz they’re just one like that. Grieving together will help them get better. 👌🏽

Michonne then says “I did it too. When it happened to me.” And cue my internal and eternal tears. 😭

I’m so here for the fact that Michonne brings up losing her first son, cuz I thought surely this would have to be brought up between her and Rick in this new arc of losing Carl. If I’m not mistaken, this is the first time since season 4 that Michonne gets to reference her son.

I would’ve loved if they let her expand on it even more in their conversation but I am glad that this at least implies that Michonne having a son isn’t news to Rick. He seems to know all about her son cuz he definitely should by this point in their relationship. (It would’ve been great to see that initial conversation when she first told him tho.)

I adore that she levels with him through vulnerability and opens up about something personal. It’s their consistent thing, and it really is one of my favorite aspects of their relationship. 🙌🏾

Once she starts talking about this, Rick finally looks at her and then of course it’s like he can’t stop. We see him be entranced yet again and it finally seems like he’s letting himself hear and see her which is the way it’s meant to be.

His look just makes it so clear that she makes so much sense to him, not just what she says, but who she is.

Like I said, all versions of Rick love Michonne so even this deflecting and vulnerable Rick can’t help but look at her like she’s his light.

And I feel like he understands she’s giving him another piece of her heart in this moment too. This has to resonate with Rick and help him to just fully grasp that his woman can help him through this, both cuz she lost Carl but also cuz she’s gone through losing a son in her past as well.

This can almost provide a sense of hope for Rick too in knowing that someone he loves has gone through this and came out on the other side. It was a reminder that he can get better and that she really does get this cuz she’s lost a son twice now.

And it really is so meaningful that she’s willing to bring up something so deep cuz it’s such a tough and emotional topic already, but then add to it that losing Carl has probably caused all those past feelings to resurface it’s probably heavier than ever for her, but she is willing to address her personal wound if it means helping her man. She loves him, y’all. 😊👌🏽

And as usual, Sis always knows what to say to communicate with him because when she says “You keep moving to move away from it.” it’s spot on.👏🏽👏🏽

Like it’s such a true statement cuz it’s what Michonne did when she was first introduced and it also perfectly encapsulates what Rick is doing right now.

The thing is when you move from the pain and don’t address it, that pain will follow you around more than a Morgan Hallucination. And Michonne knows that until you address it, it’ll haunt you.

I think this line of moving to move away from it also speaks to why Michonne’s been able to be so patient and compassionate with Rick during this time. Cuz she knows he’s not trying to move away from her but rather the pain.

And the way Rick looks at her here, I really feel like his heart breaks not just for him but for her and knowing she’s had to go through this twice and also that his state of mind isn’t allowing him to be there for her the way he knows he should be and wants to be.

I’m glad that Rick becomes more present with her upon hearing this. He can’t help but be. I’m telling you if she’s in front of him for longer than a second, he can’t help but be locked into her (that’s why it seems like there’s a lot of energy exerted when he pushes away cuz it’s just not natural for them).

She then she tells Rick, “Andrea stopped me” And it’s always nice to hear characters recall past characters (even if Andrea irked me to no end lol)

Hearing Michonne bring up Andrea reminded me of the one good thing Andrea did which is helped Michonne to stay in one place and care about someone again. And that led Michonne to find her Grimes 2.0 family and fall in love with the man in front of her, so if Michonne credits Andrea for that then I guess I gotta say thanks Andrea. (just for that one thing tho 😂)

I really love that Michonne then tells Rick, “And now I’m stopping you.” It shows that she knows she can and does play that big of a role in his life.

And she’s willing to stop him while he doesn’t have the clarity to stop himself yet. And it’s admirable cuz that’s something everyone needs from time to time. She’s his North Star that’s capable of both guiding him where to go and also when to stop 👌🏽

In saying that she’s stopping him it’s her saying; I see you’re losing it and I know what that’s like, so I need to stop you before you head off and push this further down and make this harder to come back from.

Honestly, Michonne for president of this TWD universe cuz she really does have the most wisdom and balance. 👸🏾🙌🏾

She knows how to lay down the law in the most loving and compassionate way possible and she’s selfless and puts others first which is something so few characters do on this show lately.

She then reminds Rick of something very important when she tells him, “Carl wrote that because he wanted you to read it”😭

It seems straightforward enough that he wrote it to be read, but this is actually really significant because it’s shifting the perspective for Rick. He hasn’t been able to read the letter for himself but this is showing him if he can’t read the letter for himself, then he should read it for Carl. She’s helping him to see that this is how they honor and respect him and let him live on.

Michonne passionately tells him, “It’s one of the last things he ever did.” 😭😭😭

It’s heartbreaking and true. Carl had a few precious hours left of his life and he used that time to write these letters so clearly it was super important to him. So they can’t shut it out cuz they can’t let Carl’s last day and decisions be in vain.

I love that Michonne fought for Carl as he lived and we’re seeing that even now as he’s no longer with them, she’s still fighting for him and making sure his voice is heard.

And Michonne looks at Rick with such a loving intensity because this is not big bad Rick to her, this is a man who needs his rock and she is 100% his rock.

Idk what was in Michonne’s letter (but I better know eventually, I’m just saying lol) but whatever it is, she clearly feels Carl’s spirit with her and is deriving a lot of strength from him.

It makes me feel like Carl might’ve expressed to her in the letter how crucial she is to helping, not just Rick, but everyone see the light. 💯 And it’s giving her motivation amongst her pain. 😌

Rick’s teary eyed face as he lets those words hit him, just really hits my heart because he’s letting it sink in. 😭 Only she could get him to let that sink in. And he looks at her cuz, as much as it hurts, he sees that she’s right.

And in all the pain, it seems there’s this moment of clarity where he realizes not just that Carl’s really gone, but that Carl still has one more thing for him and he knows it’s going to require a lot of strength for him to receive it, especially cuz it’ll be the last thing he ever hears from his son. 😢

You can tell, even before they cut to it, that as Michonne is talking to him she’s holding his hand. And I love this closeness between them. 😊

She knows how immensely hard this is for him so while she’s rightfully challenging him to not run from the crucial healing process, she’s also connecting with him and taking his hand and communicating that he doesn’t have to do this alone. She’s suggesting this for his own good and to ease the pain, not increase the pain. 👌🏽

Another thing I love about this scene is that not once does it feel like the two are annoyed or frustrated with each other. They’re in different head spaces but there is still this love and respect and passion that’s so evident between them. 🙏🏽

So then you already know that I love that she tells Rick, “You’re staying.” Wifey vibes all day. 😋🙌🏾

And y’all, that wasn’t a request or a suggestion. That was a point blank period statement. And I’m here for it cuz it really does feel like a husband and wife moment.

In saying that he’s staying, she’s essentially telling him…

And I just gotta reiterate how again, it’s not said demanding or controlling but in a way that’s genuinely loving and sincere. Rick doesn’t know what’s best for him right now, but his other half does so she makes the call cuz Sis is his leader.

She knows he needs this and she knows she’s his wife so she can tell him he’s staying here, and (at least for a little bit) he’ll listen.

I really appreciate that this is all done out of love and this show could actually use more characters stepping in like she did and making the final call for others when they’re unhinged and at risk to themselves and others.

I love that the next wider shot is her gently holding his arm and taking the murder coat. Symbolism on ten. She’s taking the killer crazy in him and telling him to let that go to embrace the healthier approach of coping rather than killing. 💯

And sure enough, Homeboy lets her take the coat. ☺️He knows she’s right about this, it’s just a matter of being ready to embrace it.

The way Rick stays looking down and just doesn’t even know how to regroup is so telling of how understandably disoriented he is inside. And it’s clear there’s this internal conflict within him of acting on impulse or doing what’s right and following his woman’s lead.

So then Michonne walks out of the room and I was like Sis please stay cuz I think Homeboy needs some supervision right now lol. 😂 (and it ended up being quite true that he did 👀)

But I appreciate that she looks at him one last time before leaving and her look conveys that she knows this part of the healing process is going to hurt but it’s necessary and he’ll be better because of it.

When she walks out, you can see Rick really start to feel everything and you can tell he just doesn’t want to cry anymore. So far every time we’ve seen him allow himself to come to grips with the loss for even a second it visibly breaks him (and it also emotionally breaks me might I add.)

So he has this emotional moment of breaking down for a split second and then taking a deep breath and going to the drawer and he takes the letter addressed to him. And can I tell y’all how deep this is even tho I know you already know? 😋

It is so deep that he’s able to do this cuz we’re literally seeing him attempt to do the hardest thing in the world for him...because Michonne wants him to. That’s love. 💛

Like y’all Homeboy has been putting his letter off for a minute and it’s been weighing on him, but now that Michonne’s had a heart to heart with him and let the message of honoring Carl’s last wish seep in, it’s given him at least enough strength to open the drawer and hold the letter and consider it and that’s a big deal.

Her words and getting him to focus back on Carl was enough to help him at least muster up the strength to hold the letter.

So as much as he wants to push this away, he can’t because she’s told him what she would want from him and you know he can’t resist giving her what she wants cuz soul mates.

Michonne expressed wanting him to read it so he’s going to try for her. And that’s what I really appreciate about Rick; he’s always willing to try for Michonne. Every time she’s had a heart to heart with him we’ve seen him come around to her ways because he trusts her that much. 🙌🏾

Rick acknowledged the way Michonne leads him in 7x12, and I love that he’s still letting her do that now. ☺️

This time it’s going to take a little more time tho, so he doesn’t read the letter just yet, but it won’t be long before he does in fact come around.

This whole scene was such a loud and clear “I love you” between them, and also illustrated the strength of this couple, that she can have this heart to heart with him and it resonates with him despite everything else.

So I really appreciate this scene because, once again, we got to witness how nothing can change the love and respect Richonne has for each other cuz their love is a powerful thing. 😊🙌🏾👌🏽

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#richonne #richonne fandom #richonne family #michonne grimes #rick grimes #carl grimes #twd #s8 #8.14

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"Turf Wars: Part One" - a review

I am a very happy girl tonight.. My 7-months-preordered comic book FINALLY arrived, yay! I read the first part of "Turf Wars" around 1 am and I absolutely loved-loved-loved it! It really gave me the familiar feeling of TLOK (I haven't watched it since last year *sob* and now I miss it but I'm busy rewatching ATLA currently, will have to continue with TLOK after that). Okay, I'm still shaking a little because I'm so excited, but I'll try to write down some of my favourite things about this part:

First off, in general it was so gay, there's so much happening, but it's all sort of related and balanced out rather well imo, the illustrations are pretty *bows to Irene Koh*, the colour palette is soft and it all left me with such a nice impression! I'm very pleased that this is the first TLOK comic book ever to be released (almost forgot "Friends for Life", but "Turf Wars" is the first trilogy). I have no idea why I've seen so much critique about these kinds of things, but none of it bothered me at all. I think some people are only focused on (pointing out) the negative sides that they've forgotten why they're reading these comics in the first place - to enjoy reading them, to notice every positive little detail instead, to appreciate the fact that life goes on in the Avatar world and we've been blessed by Bryke to see it through these beloved characters.

Secondly, I think I'll mention some great moments I enjoyed very much. Obviously I can't get around the way Korra and Asami interacted - the loving gazes, the kisses, the hand holding, worrying about each other, talking about their feelings, fighting alongside Team Avatar, putting arrogant businessmen and the President in their place. It was so precious to see them doing everything together (and NO, it wasn't too much for me)!

Korra coming out to her parents - their reactions were realistic. I especially liked that Senna hugged both Korra AND Asami, too. To anyone who wasn't too happy with Tonraq's reaction - it was resolved later when Kya talked to Korra that it's Water Tribe tradition to keep very personal matters to yourself (I love that it's special in the Water Tribes and how Korra's face softened when Kya said it). This is such an important lesson and it's one my family has propagated as well (my parents taught me). Not everybody has to know about everything private that goes on at my home, if only my closest friends and family members. This is why I related to Tonraq, even Senna said what he meant - that not everyone won't be as accepting. And do people blatantly ignore the fact that as Korra was rushing out of the palace (with Asami's hand in hers, demonstratively) Tonraq apologized?

So they're now heading back to Republic City.. D'aawwww!!! Aang and Katara's children welcoming Korra and Asami back. Enough said. One of the most heartwarming moments. Poki for President! Meelo, you little nugget, I love you. And Korra stroking Poki's head, so cuuuute! Asami being a little shy about going with Korra to give a speech (because she's just the Avatar's lover.. Oh c'mon, Asami! Do it like Katara did when Aang had to thank everybody after the invasion failed, am I right?). I understand her and Korra was understandably disappointed. I love that Kya noticed it and later went to talk to them about it. Her smirk when Tenzin said that those two make a good team together. Kya, you lesbian goddess, stop stealing my heart, I'm straight! Also, I loved that Korra quoted Tenzin during her speech, that was touching.

Air Temple Island is such a beautiful place.. Aang and Katara had it good over there. I mean, that pretty bi-flag-coloured sunset, I'm in love! Kya's conversation with Korra and Asami meant so much to me (one of my favourite scenes EVER in this comic, if not in the entire series concerning Kya) and I can't wait to see more of her. If not, then I'm actually satisfied this time since we learned a lot more about her from these little moments where she was in. The most important being that AANG LOVED HER AND WAS FULLY SUPPORTIVE WHEN SHE CAME OUT TO HIM! Take notes, fandom! Aang and Katara loved all of their children, they only wanted the best for them and they tried to be the best parents they could be *drops mic*.. Also, yeah, when's Bumi's turn to interrupt his father's reincarnation's private moment with her girlfriend during that sunset? Ha-ha!

Did anyone even notice that the police headquarters is now temporary? Did that building with Toph's statue get wiped out during Korra and Kuvira's battle? Aww, I'm sad if it's so, I loved that statue because Toph was in her police uniform there.. *remembers that Toph has 2 other statues in Zaofu* Never mind, moving on! *lol* Then again, can I say how happy I am that Kya was in the evacuee camp helping the healers!? This gives me hope that maybe we'll get a peek at the hospital (and KATARA'S STATUE in front of it) if someone gets injured in the following parts!!! Also, even as a little girl, Kya totally went to work with her mother at the hospital (Katara would let her daughter play with the medical instruments or practise her waterbending and healing in her office, she might've gotten annoyed by it a bunch of times but eventually she'd always end up playing along to take a break from her paperwork). This is my headcanon and ain't no one stealing it from me now. Help, I NEED to draw this!..

Zhu Li taking command at the evacuee camp, damn yes! She's got my support for the election! Korra smirking when she sees President Raiko's campaign poster.. *lmfao* Same, Korra, same... His support is NEGATIVE 3%, pffft.. I can't breathe, this entire meeting was hilarious!

Wonyong Keum (note: this guy has a surname, a rich type) - it took me two pages and I already knew I hated that guy. Asami's right, she doesn't need his condolences. I giggled when Korra scared him and his workers away by going into the Avatar State and ever-so-gracefully airbending herself back down. Omg that smile, she was so pleased with herself (and so was I)!

Can we talk about the fact that Tokuga took out Viper by using his hook swords (the same weapon of choice by Jet) and can hold his own even as a nonbender? Just a reminder that nonbenders can be just as powerful as benders.

BOLIN!!! Bolin is such a precious gem throughout the book and I can't even.. Still talking to the captives and Mako being annoyed af (seriously, the changes in his expression in each panel are on point). Two-Toed Ping is a hoot, I really like him. Also, Bolin calling the first double date - my son, you are too sweet! Mako's.. god.. damn.. face. Mako.exe stopped working. *lol*

Ugh, I just adored that sweet Masami hug! Also, the radio frequencies have been screwy ever since the spirit portal appeared - I think this might play an important role in a future part. They wouldn't have put it in there otherwise (unless it was just meant to show that during this battle they were in trouble because they couldn't call for help). And the fact that the spirits' darker side appeared due to negative energy coming off from the battle - I didn't expect that, neither did I expect that bird spirit to be the one to charge at Tokuga. Since he saw Korra talking to it before it came for him, I don't blame him for thinking the Avatar sent the spirit to do that to him. Also, Korra having to choose between protecting Asami or stopping the dark spirit - this might turn some of the townspeople against her when they find out (if they think she was playing favourites and Tokuga tells them she ordered the spirits to attack humans).

In conclusion, I really miss TLOK, but this comic made me experience so many emotions, the familiarity of the characters and the breathtaking locations, the plot and the pace of action - everything made me feel like I was actually watching a brand new episode of the show and wow, I'm crying as I type this.. *rubs eyes* It made me feel at home, welcomed in a world I fell in love with back in 2012. I couldn't be happier.

#personal #shards of Kristal #Turf Wars

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Coffee Stains pt.5

Ship: Feysand Type: College AU Word Count: 2,021

Hey everyone! Sorry this part took so long I really wasn’t sure where I was going with this.....OKAY lets me honest I still don’t lol. I got a little discouraged, so feedback is greatly appreciated! A special thank you to all the anons encouraging me and expressing their interest<3 Enjoy!

Fifteen.

Fifteen minutes.

That’s how long she’s been standing outside his door.

Feyre took a deep breath, in the nose-out the mouth.

All she had to do was knock. It was that simple.

If it’s that simple then how come she couldn’t do it?

Feyre ran her hands through her hair in frustration.

He’s not Tamlin, he’s not Tamlin, he’s NOT Tamlin.

She knocks on the door.

Rhys swings open his apartment door as an instant smile spreads across his face.

“Come on in! The Chinese food got here about 30 min ago, so I put it in the oven to keep warm.”

“Thank goodness I’m starving!” She hadn’t noticed how hungry she was until the scent of sweet and spicy chicken with fried rice wafted in the air.

Rhys pulled the food out of the oven and handed her a pair of chop sticks. Feyre eyed him with caution.

“Something wrong?”

“Giving me a pair of chopsticks is a very dangerous idea….”

“And why is that exactly?”

“Do you LIKE noodles on your ceiling?”

Rhys barked a laugh

“You can’t possibly be that bad….”

“Whatever, it’s your apartment.” She stated simply grabbing the chopsticks from him. “I hope you access to a cleaning service.”

“What if I show you how to use them instead of turning my apartment into some dramatic reality tv show?” Rhys handed her a white container filled to the top with rice, then changed his mind and switched the rice for noodles.

“Hey!”

“What? Noodles are easier to clean up.”

She gaped at him in playful offence and launched a fortune cookie at his head.

Rhys’s warm laugh filled the air.

“I wouldn’t be mean to the fortune cookies if I were you….they decide your fate!”

Rhys made his way to where Feyre was sitting at the bar and stood directly behind her.

She could feel the heat radiating off his body pouring over her as he inched closer. Rhys reached around, arms on either side of her.

“So, you hold them like this.” His hand dwarfed hers as he tried to morph her hand around the chopsticks the correct way.

“Make sure your thumb stays on the inside so you don’t lose balance….there you go! Now see if you can pick up a noodle…..”

They were close enough now that she could feel his breath caress her neck.

How was she supposed to concentrate on the noodles when chills covered her entire body?

She took a deep breathe feeling his eyes on her hands as she dove for the noodles with false confidence. Noodles slipped from her chopsticks twice when she finally managed to snatch one up and bring it to her lips with a slurp.

She could feel Rhys chuckle against her back.

“Only you could manage to make slurping cute…”

Feyre felt a blush rise on her cheeks.

“If you think that’s cute you should see me eat ice cream…”

As Feyre turned to look into his deep violet eyes….was that lust behind his stare? Suddenly words became difficult.

*Rhys coughed*

“Why don’t we move to the couch?”

She nodded slipping off the bar stool and made her way to the plush smoky blue couch.

Oh gods where should she sit……

After a moments hesitation she sat in the middle of the couch at the perfect angel for watching tv.

The couch was deep enough to sit crisscross apple sauce, noodles placed comfortably in her lap.

She could hear the crinkle of paper bags and the slight shuffle of Chinese boxes. She felt more than heard his approach.

Somehow she had forgotten how well built his body was. When he sat down next to her body sunk into his, arms touching as a result.

“S-sorry…” he mumbled

He started to inch away before Feyre realized how much she enjoyed being this close to him.

“It’s actually convenient….It’s a little chilly in here.” She murmured edging closer.

Rhys clicked the TV on, but not before Feyre caught his smug smile.

So they just sat there. Eating their food, bodies close enough to provide warmth.

Feyre couldn’t remember the last time she was this comfortable with someone who wasn’t Mor….

Gods she missed Mor.

She missed the way Mor smiled when she watched cat videos on her phone, the way she always brought home chocolate ice cream when she went to the market because she knew it was Feyre’s favorite, and the way that she made every bad situation seem not so bad anymore.

“Feyre?...”

“Hmm?” she mumbled through the noodles in her mouth

“Is everything alright? I felt like I lost you there for a second.”

“I was just thinking about my best friend who moved away recently…”

“That sucks, does she visit?”

“She hasn’t had the opportunity yet, but hopefully she’ll visit soon.”

“If you don’t mind me asking…why did she move away?”

“She got an amazing internship opportunity in New York at a big fashion industry which has been a dream of hers forever, so she had to go.”

“Yeah I understand how those things go, my cousin is into fashion also and she barely has enough time for weekly phone calls.”

“Yeah it’s just hard not having a best friend to talk to 24/7”

“I know I may not be as pretty, or have her high fashion sense, but maybe I could be her substitute while she’s away…the benefits would be mutual since my best friend is currently pinning after some woman who can barely stand to breathe the same air as him.…”

Feyre laughed “Poor thing doesn’t know when to quit huh?”

“Yeah, something we have in common….”

Feyre leaned her head back laughing “I suppose you’ll do for the time being”

“You know….” Rhys dramatically whispered leaned his entire body forward stopping merely inches from her face.

“Since we’re best friends now, I think it’s only right I know all your deepest secrets.”

Feyre chuckled “Oh do you now…” she whispered back not moving an inch forward or backwards

“Whenever you’re ready.” He softly whispered, eyes darting from hers to her mouth.

Her whole body became aware of his eyes on her lips.

Feyre swallowed and whispered back “I think you should go first…”

Rhys’s half smile lit up the room as he leaned closer and angled his head to whisper in her ear. His lips grazed her lobe making sending a shiver up her spine.

“One of my secrets is….” His nose lightly skimmed her jaw “I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you since the day we ran into each other….you’re incredibly cute when you’re flustered Feyre Darling….”

Feyre’s whole body blushed remembering the incident.

He lightly kissed her cheek

“Your turn Darling….” His lips remained close to her ear while his hand ran up her knee.

How was she supposed to respond when she wasn’t even sure she could breathe?

“One of my secrets is…” his hand ran from her knee up her thigh, and she planted a hand on his chest feeling each of his breathes as they become heavier. “I’m not sure what I want anymore, but I enjoy being with you….and that’s all I’m sure of…”

Rhys leaned back slightly to look into her eyes. “Nothing will ever happen here that you don’t want to happen; I hope you know that you’re safe here…with me.”

So much promise and security dwelled between those words that she couldn’t stand it any longer.

She leaned forward pressing her lips to his. Rhys’s hand found her neck and threaded into her hair. She deepened the kiss at the sweet sensation and leaned forward so that they were chest to chest.

The pressure against her breasts was enough to take her breath away. She couldn’t remember a time when she felt more alive.

She moved her arms to wrap around his neck and pushed him back against the sofa effectively straddling him.

He moaned what might’ve been her name in the back of his throat as his hands rose up her thighs to rest on her backside and lightly squeezed.

She pressed her chest even harder into his as their tongues danced against each other. His hands moved up to her back and dug into the fabric of her shirt, when he suddenly flipped their positions.

Her back rested against the plush coach, hair splayed out against the blue cushions, lips slightly red, and cheeks flushed.

“You’re breath taking…” Rhys whispered as he dipped his neck to suck on her neck.

Oh he was definitely going to leave a mark, but Feyre was so breathless she didn’t care.

Her nails scratched his scalp as he continued to make his mark.

When he was satisfied with his work he claimed her lips once again. Warmth filled her entire being.

His hands ventured up her waist and rested just beneath her shirt. The skin on skin contact was almost enough to send her through the roof.

Her thighs gripped his sides and his hands moved higher and higher, when a cold sweat began to break out and she was not longer laying against the plush couch of Rhys’s living room.

She was sitting on the edge of his bed, her chest bare, his tongue playing with hers. Her hands we frozen in place at his sides as he began to take what he thought was his. He started to unbutton her jeans when she finally broke out of her trance.

“Tamlin…”

“Hm?” lips moving to her shoulder

“I’m not ready”

“Sure you are baby…why else would you be panting my name?”

“This has been nice, but I think we should stop.”

“But we’re so close…” he unzipped her pants

“Tamlin, stop.” She breathed gently pushing him away

“You lied to me.” He answered angrily

“Wh-at?” Feyre stammered

“You said you loved me.” He stated as he leaned further away

“Tamlin I-“

“SAVE IT FEYRE!”

“Feyre!” a voice yelled her name

“Huh?!” she huffed a breath taking in her surroundings.

The couch beneath her trembling body

Her hands clenched into fists of his shirt

Not Tamlin

Rhys

“Hey, what’s wrong? Why are you crying?” Rhys spoke softly as if he was whispering to a frightened animal.

He softly wiped hot tears from her cheeks

“I’m sorry if I did something wrong….please talk to me…”

“I’m sorry I-“

And more tears came like some damn in her body finally broke

“Oh Feyre, will you let me hold you?”

Feyre could only nod out of fear that a strangled cry might escape.

Rhys cradled her to his body

Her head between his shoulder and neck, as she sat between his legs, both legs slung over his knee, and wept

“Shhhhh, everything will be ok Feyre Darling….”

Eventually the tears stopped and she looked up at him

“Feyre, what was that?”

“I had a uh ummm flashback…”

“Would you feel comfortable elaborating?”

She played with a button on his shirt as a temporary distraction

“It was of my ex-boyfriend….Tamlin.”

“What happened?” He asked slowly

“We were at his house and…we were…fooling around when I wanted to stop, but he didn’t and then he got mad, so I almost let him- and then he tried to…….I barely got out.”

“Oh gods Feyre…..”

He hugged her tight and she let him- wanted him to

“I’m sorry if I was moving too fast. We should’ve had a conversation before we went in that direction…”

“It’s not your fault! I wanted to- I enjoyed- I was happy until I had that flashback….it’s my fault.”

“Feyre look at me…”

She lifted her head to look into his eyes

“None of this is your fault.”

And she believed him

“Can I stay here tonight?”

“Anything you want Darling, is yours.” Softly kissing her forehead

They watched movies all night until she fell asleep on top of his chest

Her hand clenched in his shirt just as it was a few hours ago…

He lightly tucked a strand of hair behind her ear

Simply hearing her heavy peaceful breathes was music to his ears

And he silently wished that they could stay this way forever

Then someone knocked on the door.

*TAP TAP TAP*

Thanks for reading! Let me know what you think, and constructive criticism is always welcome!

(Also my Nessian side fic is under construction! YAY)

#me #coffee stains #coffee stains pt5 #college au #feysand #feyre #rhysand #sjm #fanfiction #feysand fanfiction

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focsle · 7 years

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Bloob oc meme

Tagged by @thesaint-jimmy to do @princeofmorley‘s lovely bloobloo meme. I’m copy and pasting some things from the brief thing I already wrote about him but HEYY.

Name: Obediah Mercy Nickname(s): I call him Obi. No one else would call him Obi. Age: 62 Gender: Male Sexuality: Straight but...the coldest of fish. Height/Build: 6 ft stickbug

Personality description: He has an air of arrogance about him because of his thread-like associations to aristocracy, but ultimately is a subservient person. If he respects someone, he’s an incredibly stalwart ally. To those he thinks are beneath him however (of which there are many), he has a talent for being both polite and vaguely disdainful at the same time. He can be vain when it comes to his abilities and background, but there’s a bit of weariness to him too. He’s fairly taciturn. He rarely shows any outward displays of strong emotion, but has a tendency to hold lifelong grudges. He’s a stickler for propriety and ritual. While he’s usually a very dry fellow, he does appreciate irony and has a bit of a gallows humor on the rare occasions when it strikes him.

Physical description: He’s tall and slight, though his movements are very graceful and nimble in a way that belies his age. He dresses in the unnecessarily extravagant livery of a cainhurst servant, but is a bit ratty as far as personal grooming is concerned. His hair is relatively long and lank, and though he tries to be clean shaven he usually has a couple days of beard growth due to having other things to be concerned about. He tends to have a drawn, disinterested expression, and his facial expressions are very reserved in general so it’s hard to sense what he’s feeling. Bit haggard and hollow looking. Vocally, he’s got this Brummie-esque drone, and like his facial expressions, his inflection rarely betrays any kind of strong emotion.

BACKSTORY

Introduce your hunter and their backstory. Obediah was a servant at Castle Cainhurst, operating as, essentially, a footman for a noble family. A flashy murder-butler. He dealt largely in a pest control capacity, quietly dispatching beasts (and cainhurst’s strange fauna) for the benefit of his masters. It was an occupation passed down his family line, held by his father, his father’s father, stretching all the way back. It wasn’t a job of high rank in any respect, but he carried himself as though it was. I technically have him pulled into an EARLIER iteration of the dream before Cainhurst falls...and its when he wakes up that he finds the place in ruin...so I’m gonna be…FUDGIN WITH QUESTIONS HERE. It’s not like time has ANY meaning whatsoever in bloodborne ahaha.

Which class/origin did you choose for your hunter? Does this tie into their backstory? I chose the Professional just cos I wanted to start my skill build off easy. I suppose it does tie a bit into that backstory in that he has training and experience.

Where is your hunter from? What brought them to Yharnam?Cainhurst. He was quite ill, fatally so, and came to Yharnam for a blood ministration to hopefully cure him. IT WORKED in the sense that he got dragged into the weird-dream-horrid-immortality-until-further-notice instead.

Did your hunter know any of the characters from the game before they entered the Hunter’s Dream? He knew of Annalise but never personally met her prior to becoming a vileblood after the fall of Cainhurst. The family he served was on speaking terms with her though...which gave him an ego by-proxy.

Had they fought beasts before entering the Dream, or is this their first experience as a hunter? Yep, he’d fought them before. That was his job. Pest control.

CHARACTER DETAILS

How do they react to first waking up in the Hunter’s Dream? Do they remember anything about their life before the Dream? He doesn’t remember anything about his life before the dream. He’s disoriented and frustrated at his circumstances but he takes to it quickly. Even if he doesn’t recall his background for quite some time, the skilled murdering thing is all muscle memory.

Do they align themselves with any Covenants or other factions (the Healing Church, the Choir, the Old Hunters, the Unseen Village, etc) Vilebloods.

Do they befriend any NPCs in particular? Make enemies of any NPCs? I think he’d be quite fond of Arianna. He’d probably get along decently with Eileen too. Strongly dislikes Adella. He’d WANT TO WRECK ALFRED but I think Alfred would probably wreck him.

Are they in a relationship? If so, with whom? No lol. HE’S A BRICK WALL.

How does your hunter feel about the Healing Church? About blood ministration? He thinks blood ministration is practical, and he’s familiar enough with it since Cainhurst had their own blood shit going on. He is, predictably, very venomous about the Church though.

Do they fear the scourge? Are they afraid of turning into a beast? Afraid of becoming blood-addled? Of the unknown Cosmos? What are they afraid of? He doesn’t fear the scourge, and doesn’t think about the possibility of becoming blood-addled, though that’s what happens to him eventually once he’s out of the dream. He’d be very afraid of kin though. Great ones. All that. He doesn’t have a strong fortitude when it comes to the unknown.

Does your hunter relish in the Hunt or revile their bloody work? He enjoys the hunt. Gives him a sense of purpose. And it’s familiar to him.

What is your hunter’s attitude towards Gehrman? Do they resent being trapped in the Hunter’s Dream? He finds him irritatingly cryptic at first, but comes to respect him well enough. Mostly because Obediah does best when he’s in service to someone, and Gehrman is the only someone around.

Does your hunter sympathize and associate with fellow hunters, or are they more of a loner who avoids other hunters? Do they leave notes for other hunters? He’s a loner, and also very opportunistic. He hunts other hunters. Not very sociable. He wouldn’t leave notes. Though if he met a hunter presently in the dream he would be sympathetic to them and not fight them--partly because he doesn’t want to possibly add another death to the list, but more practically, he could never outpace someone immortal.

Does your hunter worship the Great Ones? Do they worship blood? Or do they have a different belief system? If they’re not devout, what do they value or prioritize in life? Obediah is loyal to both the people he respects and the ideologies they hold. He’s very comfortable being in service to someone and in fact, absolutely needs to be for his own validation. His sense of worth comes from what he does for other people. And if he is serving someone, his viewpoints are quite malleable under the influence of that person.

Do they have a special place where they feel safe or “at home”? Is there a place they’re afraid of or that they avoid? I don’t think he feels at home anywhere. Cainhurst definitely doesn’t feel like a home anymore, given the state that it’s in, but he does have a small part of the castle he holes up in. Still spends time in its intensely drafty library from time to time. If he knew about the shit that went down in Upper Cathedral Ward he’d definitely avoid it, but he doesn’t know.

Are there any particular items your hunter holds onto for sentimental reasons, or items that serve to comfort them? He gets some comfort from a hand lantern. It just makes him feel more grounded. Also just...his weapon and occupational garb since, again, it’s something normal and familiar in the face of the life that he knew being uprooted and destroyed by the Executioners.

Do any of the discoveries in the game (about the old blood, the Healing Church, the Great Ones, etc) shock them? How do they react to these revelations? He’d…almost come undone when it comes to great ones. Yahargul would fuck him up. He’d feel like he was treading incredibly dangerous ground concerning the mensis ritual, and also the church’s activities in upper cathedral ward. But I don’t think, when he’s in the dream, he comes to that understanding about Great Ones.

Does your hunter want to discover the secrets of the Healing Church and the origins of the scourge, or do they just want to kill some beasts and escape the Dream? What motivates them? I think when he’s in the Hunter’s Dream he DOES want to find meaning in it. He wants to know why he’s there, and what his tasks are leading him to.

How does your hunter feel about being effectively immortal? How do the unending deaths affect them over the course of their time in the Dream? So tired. He’s so tired. Every time he dies he hopes it’s the last time. The dream ages him significantly.

COMBAT AND STATS

Which primary stat does your hunter most rely on (Strength, Skill, Bloodtinge, Arcane)? Do they prioritize Vitality or Endurance? Skill, and he prioritizes endurance. Can’t hit him if he keeps moving.

What are your hunter’s trick weapon and firearm of choice? Why? In the dream he initially uses the threaded cane, but once he reconnects with cainhurst and becomes a vileblood, he uses reiterpallasch. It’s a familiar weapon he’s at ease with. (tho I personally love rakuyo so that’s what I use with him)

Do they make use of any hunter tools? Old Hunter Bone. He’d use numbing mist too. He fights dirty.

What type of armor do they wear? Why? In the dream he wore decorative old hunter’s garb, because the dream ends up making him quite superstitious. Again, once he reconnects with Cainhurst he wears the knight’s garb because he remembers that’s what he used to be. It’s only PROPER AND FITTING.

Describe their fighting style. Obediah’s fighting style is brutal, but efficient, though in his age he’s not as adept as he used to be. He prefers to fight with finesse, and favors swift and lighter hitting weapons over slow, harder hitting ones. While he’s still quite nimble, his balance is easily thrown. His aim is to not let a foe touch him, because it’s not hard to knock him down. He tends to rely on sneaky visceral attacks instead, because his aim is to deal as much damage as quickly as possible so the opponent doesn’t have the opportunity to get the upper hand of him.

Which Caryll runes does your hunter keep equipped? Anti-clockwise metamorphosis because he needs his stamina, and blood rapture and clawmark because he tends to eviscerate things and likes to get REWARDED for it.

How much Insight does your hunter have? How does this affect them? Mercifully, Obediah would not have much of it. If he was seeing amygdalas everywhere he’d like…lose it.

Does your hunter take advantage of Beasthood to fuel their attacks? How does it affect them? Nope, not at all.

Is there a beast or type of enemy your hunter likes to fight? An enemy they avoid? He likes fighting other hunters because it’s a challenge to his skill but also quite satisfying to his ego when he defeats them. Kin terrify him. Especially winter lanterns and brain suckers.

Do they often summon the Old Hunters or hunters from other worlds to aid them? I DO SOMETIMES but Obediah wouldn’t, again, loner factor. He will handle things on his OWN.

PLOT DECISIONS

Does your hunter’s story deviate from the central plot of Bloodborne? In what ways? Yes, in that I imagine he was in the dream prior, and in the events of bloodborne he’s just a mortal vileblood. Does your hunter try to rescue any of the civilians of Yharnam? Are they successful? This would not be his concern at all.

Does your hunter kill the Impostor Iosefka or let her continue her work? He would kill Imposter Iosefka due to her link to the church.

Do they fight Djura or befriend him? What about Eileen the Crow? He thinks Djura is a FOOLISH BLEEDING HEART of course he would fight him. He likes Eileen, but he’d take issue with fighting the Crow of Cainhurst. Though when he realized he was blood addled, he’d be less bothered by it.

Do they choose to side with Alfred or Queen Annalise? Annalise. Naturally.

Does your hunter enter the Chalice Dungeons? Yes, again in trying to understand what would be going on in the dream.

Does your hunter enter the Hunter’s Nightmare? Do they defeat the Orphan of Kos? If he goes to the Hunter’s Nightmare, it would probably be because he’s blood addled himself, and would be in no state to even reach the Orphan of Kos.

What is your hunter’s final choice at the end of the game? He lets Gehrman chop his head off. Doesn’t even matter if he wakes up or not. He just wants to be DONE.

If they accept Gehrman’s offer, what does your hunter do once they’re free of the Hunter’s Dream? After he wakes up he has a bit of amnesia to work through. But he ultimately goes back to Cainhurst despite its ruin and serves Annalise. He’s inwardly unenthusiastic about her motivations, and wishes the castle and its population could be revitalized again but that is NOT ON THE AGENDA.

If applicable, how does your hunter die? He ends up becoming blood-addled and is killed by a fellow hunter.

#dainty ol man #bloodborne oc meme

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badcowboy69 · 7 years

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1 through 52 for the fallout oc meme for Travis

Gosh anon you don’t know what it is you’re asking lol Ok my dear Anon get yourself a snack or a drink (or both) because you got yourself a LOT of reading to do ;) Thanks for asking, this was a serious challenge and a lot of fun actually!!! I put the answers under the Read More thing just because it’s super long and I don’t want to annoy people with such a long thing on their dash. So here you are....ALL 52 Fallout prompts!!!

1. Which Fallout game are they from?Fallout New Vegas2. Which faction(s) did they join and which did they destroy? Why?Travis went Independent. He originally was going to join up with Mister House, but once the man asked the courier to destroy the Brotherhood of Steel, Travis balked and said no fucking way. You don’t go against your allies like that. They trusted him and called him brother. He wasn’t about to be a backstabbing betrayer. As for what he destroyed it was most certainly Caesar’s Legion. Although the man did have a few good ideas, Travis couldn’t sit by and allow slavery, mistreatment of women, destruction of the remaining Tribals, and many other things. Their ideals were too extreme and too dangerous to allow to be left alone.3. What is their S.P.E.C.I.A.L.?Strength 10Perception 9Endurance 6Charisma 5Intelligence 8Agility 8Luck 64. Give us a summary of their backstory.Travis was born the son of brahmin/bighorner ranchers. He was home schooled and taught the proper cowboy code of the west. In his mid-teen years he joined a brahmin round up in the Big Circle. He realized ranching wasn’t really for him so he went off to join the Mojave Express and become a courier.5. What’s their full name and does it have a meaning? Do they have any nicknames and how did they get em?My courier’s full name is Travis Blackfox. His last name stems on the fact that his father is a Tribal. The name no doubt had to have come from the quiet, stealthy, and cunning traits his father has. As for a nickname, he doesn’t have any he’d normally go by. However, he will answer to Courier Six or simply Six as he was the sixth messenger in a task set up years ago to deliver a special package to the mysterious Mister House on the New Vegas strip.6. What’s their sexual, romantic, and gender orientation? Do they feel comfortable telling other people?Travis is a confirmed bachelor (gay). He is male and loves males. He has no problem with telling anyone because fortunately in the Fallout universe people aren’t homophobes like they are in ours.. His parents knew he was from childhood when he took a strong liking to the male couriers or traders that passed by their ranch almost on a daily basis7. Do they have any mental illnesses? How do they cope?Nope not at all8. Do they have any medical conditions? Is medicine/ treatment available for them?Memory loss from being shot in the head. He can only remember what he did from joining the Mojave Express and onwards. Everything else in his past is gone except for maybe a few scant memories. He also gets occasional headaches, but that's easily remedied. 9. How much do they care about their outer appearance? What’s their “beauty routine”? How often do they shower/ bathe?Travis LOVES his facial hair and will always make sure it’s trimmed to the length he likes. If you ever see him with it longer than normal it's wise to ask him if he's alright as that's a sign something is seriously wrong. As for showering or bathing he does that almost every day he’s able to either at home or in any non-radiated water source he can find.10. What do they fear the most?Being betrayed by someone he loves is something that he’s the most afraid of happening to him. In a relationship Travis puts his entire heart and soul into it. He loves pampering his partner and does all he can to make them happy even if it might cost him his own happiness. To know that person truly didn’t love him and was only using him all along or waiting for someone better is something that occasionally lurks in the back of his mind and terrifies the hell out of him.11. They’re biggest flaw? Do they recognize it as a flaw?Travis’ biggest flaw is that he’s very insecure and he knows this. He gets worried what he does isn’t good enough or even enough. He also feels that his significant other doesn’t really love him as much as he claims, if at all, or will leave him. He feels if he states a complaint on something or disagrees the other person involved will get angry with him12. What are they most insecure about?Being loved or liked. He feels that people are generally only around him because they feel bad for him or don't want to hurt his feelings.13. What Wasteland threat do they fear the most? (ex. Deathclaws, super mutants, raiders)Cazadores. 14. What’s their zodiac sign or which one do you think they relate to the most? What are their placements (if you know them)? (ex. Aries sun, Taurus moon, Aquarius Venus) Gemini15. What’s their Myers–Briggs Type? (ex. ENTP, ISFJ)Travis is an INFJ Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Judging.16. What Harry Potter house would they be in? (ex. Gryffindor, Ravenclaw)Hufflepuff17. Which Pokemon Go team would they choose? (ex. Instinct, Valor, Mystic)Valor as he loves all things pertaining to fire as well as the color red.18. Out of the nine forms of intelligence (rhythmic, spatial, linguistic, mathematical, kinesthetic, interpersonal, intrapersonal, naturalistic, and existential) which one(s) are they really good at and which one(s) is(are) their weakest?Travis most certainly is interpersonal as well as intra-personal are his strong points. He can easily read people and knows how to interact with them depending on the situation. His weakest would be existential as he doesn’t care why things are. He simply accepts them as such. Mathematical would also be another weakness. Even though he’s good at balancing budgets, numbers give him a headache.19. What natural alignment are they? (ex. Lawful Good, Chaotic Evil)Travis has been told more often than not he’s too good for his own good. He won’t knowingly harm an innocent nor steal from someone unless it can’t be helped. He doesn’t even particularly care for killing bad guys, but he most certainly will not hesitate when it comes down to it. He does his best to uphold any laws and morals, but sometimes out in the wasteland things like that have to be ignored. Still, he’s not totally “good” per say and will do things considered bad, especially if it means his own survival. If it means saving his ass, or someone he cares about, Travis will lie, cheat, steal, kill, etc…anything to assure he lives to see another day.20. Do they have any hobbies? What are they?Travis loves collecting anything related to Nuka Cola. He also loves to collect as many pre-war books as he can to add to his already massive collection. However, his most favorite thing to do is repairing things and trying to get junk in the Mojave re-purposed. He already made himself a running motorcycle which operates on the fuel cores from Mister Handy robots. Currently he’s building himself a life sized horse based on the smaller toy models of Giddy-up Buttercup. He’s not exactly sure how he’s going to get it to function or work right now, but he’s not giving up and has high hopes for his latest creation.21. Do they have a favorite holiday? How do they celebrate it?Up until recently Travis had no clue what holidays were all about. His partner introduced him to Christmas so of course that's his favorite holiday. They celebrated by getting a small pine tree from the woods, decorated it with paper cutouts and shot gun shell casings topped off with a glowing bottle of Nuka Cola Quartz. This was all followed by a small gift exchange and a nice meal with close friends.22. What’s their favorite season?Being in the desert there really aren't seasons. However, he does love when he's on the east coast and spring arrives.23. Do they have a temper or are they level headed?For the most part Travis is quite level headed and it takes a lot to really piss him off, but once that happens look out.24. Do they express their emotions freely or hide their true feelings?Angry he always tries to hide because it can be a very destructive emotion from him if given the chance. Sad can be considered weak and weakness isn’t anything a person wants to have shown out in the Mojave. Those are the two main ones he’d try and keep hid if possible. Fear he most certainly hides. You never let an enemy know what gets to you and sometimes not even your closest friends. Fear can always be used against you. For the more positive emotions like joy and love, Travis certainly has no problem expressing those.25. Are they a leader or a follower?Even though Travis has led people into battle and is currently co-ruling New Vegas, he hardly feels he's a leader at all. He would much rather take orders and do things for someone else instead of having sole responsibility for something.26. How do they come off to others? What first impression do they usually make?People generally see Travis as friendly and helpful and sometimes a push-over. The latter is something he’s certainly not, but people tend to see him that way because he is so caring and generous. Generally those are the people that try and take advantage of him and his good nature.27. Do they prefer to travel alone or with company? Who have they traveled with if any? Current companion if any?Although he does enjoy solitude more often than not, Travis does enjoy being with his cyberdog Rex and eyebot ED-E. He’s traveled quite a lot with Craig Boone and did enjoy his company to more than just a companion. Currently he has his cyberdog and eyebot and bonded partner from the Boston Commonwealth.28. Would you describe them as selfless or selfish? Does it depend on the situation?Travis is very generous and always tries to make other people happy or comfortable before doing so for himself. Even if he tries to be selfish that feeling doesn’t last for long and he still ends up helping someone anyway.29. What do they find most attractive in others? Name at least one psychological and physical trait. (doesn’t have to be romantic attraction)For psychological trait Travis loves intelligent conversation. Nothing irritates him more than talking to someone who’s so dense it’s a miracle they even know how to tie their own shoes let alone survive in the world. He likes someone that’s at least close enough to his own intelligence, but a little over he doesn’t mind either. Travis loves learning new things. However, the person in question should not so intellectual where it makes everything spoken become a task to listen to and understand. Physical he’d have to go for the cliche feature of a smile. A true and genuine smile is one way to certainly get Travis’ attention. He’ll know if you can be trusted or if you’re a faker depending on how you smile. Like the eyes, one can read a lot through a smile and fortunately for Travis he’s learned to read them pretty good.30. Do they flirt often? How easily do they fall in love?He is a smooth talker and can use this ability to get what he wants even if it means flirting, but that's as far as anything would go. He also doesn't fall in love easily either. He might develop a crush, but for actual love to show it would have to be something groomed and tended to in order for it to blossom. He’s only been in love three times in his entire life and the third is most certainly the last as he loves him more than anything.31. What’s their love life like? Are they interested in anyone or in a relationship?His love life is fantastic as he's with the most amazing man in the world. He's very happy, content, and deeply satisfied in both the mental and physical.32. Do they prefer to solve things diplomatically or using violence?Travis is peaceful by nature so he would much rather try and talk out a situation rather than blasting everything away. Sometimes folks can't listen to reason so of course he'd have to get physical.33. What is their combat style? What range do they prefer? Do they sneak?He's very calculating and thinks about a situation before rushing in with guns blazing. He can and will sneak for the most part as that's part of his being calculating. As for range, that's what his sniper rifle is for. He'll pick off the most dangerous enemies first or at least lure them in closer so he can blast them with explosives or his powerful rifle.34. What weapon(s) do they always carry with them?His rifle named Medicine Stick. He also has his scoped, silenced sniper rifle. One can also always find any sort of explosive with him IE dynamite, mines, or grenades.35. Their most prized possession?His rifle Medicine Stick. It’s very powerful and it’s the one gun he’ll use above all else at all times. He likes the feel it has in his hands and he loves the sound it makes when fired. Most of all, he loves the leather cover hand-stitched on the stock that is adorned with a sewn Tribal Medicine Wheel with beads and feathers.36. Their thoughts on power armor?He honestly has no use for it. He was trained to operate it, but doesn't like it in the least bit. He feels it's too big and bulky to do much good. Granted you might be protected more, but you really aren't as you have no agility or way to get out of a bad situation quickly.37. Favorite armor/ outfit?Armor wise Travis loves his elite riot gear as it's quite sturdy and offers great protection as well as making him look good. His regular outfit is a red plaid shirt, blue jeans, black cowboy boots, and a black cowboy hat.38. How’s their aim? Do their hands shake while pointing a gun?When Travis rejoined the world of the living after being shot in the head, his aim and gun skills literally were pathetic. Thankfully as his time in the Mojave went on, Travis’ aim became more true. It wasn’t until he spent a lot of time with an NCR 1st Recon man named Craig Boone that his shooting skills became honed and seriously deadly. He now nails headshots more often than not and sometimes at a full run. His aim is true and he generally uses one bullet to kill someone these days. As for hands shaking, only when he’s truly upset about a situation IE friend being harmed or going to be harmed in close proximity. When that happens he’ll generally use the gun as a striking weapon instead and bash the enemy upside the head with the stock and continue to beat on them until they’re no more.39. What are their thoughts on having to kill on a daily bases in order to survive? Does it take a toll on them? Or do they shake it off rather easily?Fortunately not too many people or critters harassed Travis to the point where he had to kill them on a daily basis. Powder Gangers flee in terror when they see him and for the most part Fiends are all but non-existent these days. Legion was the only folks he had to constantly be on the look out for and even then it wasn’t daily. In their case it was always self-defense on Travis’ part, it wasn’t like he was seeking them out to kill them. Travis is very passive for the most part. He doesn’t enjoy having to kill anything, self-defense or not, but it also doesn’t bother him. He’s not jaded, just a realist and knows it’s a cold hard fact of life in the Mojave.40. Thoughts on death if any? (ex. Fear it, accept it)Since Travis has already been considered dead once already, he doesn’t think much of death anymore. He’s not afraid to die now and almost feels invincible as a result of what happened to him. He was lucky the first time in cheating death and he knows he might not be so lucky again, but he does accept it as a harsh reality. These days, however, he’s more afraid of death happening to the one he loves as opposed to himself. In that aspect he truly does fear death. 41. Do they move around a lot or prefer to have a place to call home?His home will always be out in the Mojave. He does travel back and forth every six months to the Boston Commonwealth. 42. What’s their favorite location?Anywhere that his partner may be....but mostly in the desert of the Mojave. 43. Their opinions on ghouls, feral and not feral?Travis has sympathy for all ghouls in all honesty. He does what he can to help those with their wits still about them. He also has no problem in putting a bullet in the head of those ferals as it comes down to being a “kill or be killed” in most situations upon meeting them. However, some time ago, he had a horrible nightmare which involved a ghoul and currently he has a very different attitude towards them. He’ll help if need be, but mostly now he’d much rather avoid them. He doesn’t want to resurrect the images from his nightmare because he knows it’ll set him off on some kind of angry rage and he’ll end up slaughtering the hapless beings.44. Do they scavenge for their supplies or simply buy them?Travis likes to nose around looking for things overlooked or left behind. However, he knows that people do need to make a living out in the wasteland so he tries to buy from local merchants as much as possible to give them support.45. Are they the type to get distracted and go off to an unknown nearby location or do they stay on track?For the most part Travis tries his best to stay on track with what he’s supposed to be doing. However, he’s quite curious and a little bit nosy and can and will drift off to check out something or explore a cave he discovers. Sometimes these distractions prove to be pointless, but a lot of times he ends up unwittingly helping someone as a result or even finding things to help himself like piles of forgotten caps, ammunition, or even on occasion weapons and armor that he can sell to traders for what he really needs.46. How do they sleep? Are they picky about where and how or can they sleep basically anywhere?Travis can sleep anywhere at any time. His only nit-pick would be sheets. They have to be clean and he does keep a set with him in his pack just in case clean sheets somewhere is not an option.47. What’s their favorite radio station and song? (post-apocalypse)Travis loves the Mojave Music Radio station. He used to like Radio New Vegas, but once his deeds started to get well known and he became the headline in the news given by Mister New Vegas more often than not, well, Travis couldn’t stand it so he stopped listening. The Mojave station provides some great tunes including a lot of great western/country songs. His favorite being “Big Iron” performed by the pre-war star Marty Robbins. 48. What’s their favorite post-apocalyptic food? Are they a picky eater? Do they know how to cook?Travis loves brahmin steak and gecko stew. He's not picky at all as one can't afford that trait being out in the desert. He does know how to cook and really well. He makes a great stew and a great omelette.49. What’s their favorite beverage? Do they drink alcohol?He does love Nuka Cola and has a small liking for Sunset Sarsaparilla. He does drink alcohol and prefers beer above all else. He will drink whiskey, but sparingly as the first time he really celebrated he got really sick and doesn't want to feel that again...but that won't stop him from getting drunk from time to time.50. Do they have any tag skills?Guns, melee, and sneak51. Anything they like to collect? (ex. Unique weapons, Bobbleheads)He loves pre-war toys and especially anything pertaining to Nuka Cola.52. Are they good at disarming traps or do they constantly miss them?For the most part he does very well at disarming any traps, but that's if he discovers them first. Lots of times he plows into a location only to set off grenade traps or even get hit with metal beams put in doorways. He also got his leg snapped in a bear trap a few times, but fortunately those few times the items were seriously rusted so they didn't cause him too much damage.

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September 16th-September 22nd, 2019 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party week long chat that occurred from September 16th, 2019 to September 22nd, 2019. The chat focused on Ordinary Freaks by Urbanjawdust.

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RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB START!

Hello and welcome everyone to Comic Tea Party’s Week Long Book Club~! This week we’ll be focusing on Ordinary Freaks by Urbanjawdust~! (https://tapas.io/series/OrdinaryFreaks)

You are free to read and comment about the comic all week at your own pace, so stop on by whenever it suits your schedule! Remember, though, that while we allow constructive criticism, our focus is to have fun and appreciate the comic. Below you will find four questions to get you started on the discussion. However, a new question will be posted and pinned everyday (between 12:01AM and 6AM PDT), so keep checking back for more! You have until September 22nd to tell us all your wonderful thoughts! With that established, let’s get going on the reading and the chatting!

QUESTION 1. What has been your favorite scene in the comic so far? What specifically did you like about it?

QUESTION 2. What do you think is the significance of the scenes with the child and headless person to the whole story? What do they have to do with Nell, and what do you think happened to the child to cause their wound at the beginning?

FeatherNotes

Q1: Most definitely pages 14-16. The composition is beautiful with the way the vines wrap around the space and Nell-- Also the use of green for the first time! Q2: I'm going to say that it probably has something to do with either a relative of Nells, or a different version of herself from before? She claims it an odd dream, so she's most certainly not fully aware of its significance--Her injury could be a power bestowed upon her as a kid perhaps?

Urbanjawdust

Love the speculation! And the panels with the vines were definitely really rewarding to draw so it's wonderful to hear you enjoyed them.

RebelVampire

QUESTION 3. At the moment, who is your favorite character? What about that character earns them this favor?

QUESTION 4. How do you think medical assistants like Henry and Henrietta have shaped and changed the world of the comic? In other words, what sort of benefits do you think they bring to everyone? Also, how do you think Henry and Henrietta will help Nell in the future?

RebelVampire

QUESTION 5. What has been your favorite illustration in the comic so far? What specifically about it do you like?

QUESTION 6. Given what’s been shown so far, what do you think Nell’s home life is like? How do you think this ties into how she interacts with others? Further, what do you think is the cause of Nell’s episodes of passing out?

RebelVampire

1) My favorite scene is the depressing one where Nell's mom says whoops, can't come home. It was just a really well executed scene emotionally speaking and really reminded me of times when I've had similar disappointing things happen. I really felt that ton of bricks that hit Nell, so just all around, it was super impactful for me. 2) I feel like the small child is Nell? I mean it'd make sense to me. Just Nell can't remember being that child because too traumatizing both physically and mentally. Like maybe it was some form of purgatory. Given Nell's anxiety, I would not doubt there was physical abuse at play at some point, hence the wound. But of course, this only works if the child is Nell.

3) My favorite characters are Henry and Henrietta. They are the best medical assistants. I also love the balance between them kind of having their own personalities while also still having clearly AI qualities. It makes them very interesting when they're interacting with Nell. 4) I feel like Nell's world must have a greater understand and tolerance for a lot of stigmatized medical issues. That being said, though, it might have some drawbacks in the realm of reliance on technology. Like imagine some old lady who can't remember to take her pills on time without the assistants reminding her. That could lead to some bad things. On the other hand, they definitely do seem to allow people like Nell cope with their world. As for helping in the future, Henry and Henrietta will definitely be emotional pillars for Nell as weird stuff happens. And I definitely think that's something Nell needs in order to deal with the situation at hand. And remind Nell that people do care even if Nell's mom is kind of garbage as shown so far.

5) https://tapas.io/episode/1286954 My fave illustration is definitely that page. I love the contrast of the colors and the desperate, emotional expression. Pulls at the heart strings while also being creepy af. 6) Nell's home life is probably shit. I doubt this is the first time Nell has been left alone, and neglect probably has a lot to do with how Nell socializes. In that I don't think Nell was nurtured and taught certain social conventions, thus making Nell awkward, thus further isolating Nell. The whole downward spiral. As for the episodes of passing out, I actually think that's more a supernatural cause that has a lot to do with why the weird monster things are after Nell.

spacerocketbunny

1. Favourite scene is probably this one https://tapas.io/episode/1142512, it's so creepy and unnerving with the naked headless body, it really gives me the willies LOL And with the kid touching where the head would be........ That's exactly what an unassuming kid would do and some how that makes it even CREEPIER ;;;;;;;;;

2. I'm going to guess that the kid is Nell (she could have died her hair later on, who's to say) and maybe the headless lady is actually a distorted vision of her mom? Maybe her mom's already gone and that's why she never comes home?? idk I'm terrible at speculating but that's my guess ahah

3. Favourite character is probably Vespa, I'm always weak for stoic cool ladies, her listlessness is definitely part of her charm!

4. Henry and Henrietta provide this kind of caring little bubble around Nell---As long as they're active that is-- They're so sweet and charming, like, two little snails on the sides of your head that remind you to go to social events and make sure you're hydrated? That's the cutest shit ever. But I do see them as a crutch for Nell, as soon as they're offline, disaster ensues, whether it be in social situations or actual danger. Their presence is kind of coddling and as useful as they are for someone like Nell who has loads of anxiety, I hope that later on she'll be able to depend on them less.

5. https://tapas.io/episode/1286954 This one! Super cool creepy figure with a nice use of texture

spacerocketbunny

6. Related to my previous speculation, I really think she lives on her own with the two snails. I don't think that she interacts with virtually anyone aside from her AI's so her outreach in social situations is extremely limited. She lives in isolation in this small bubble with the two that take care of her, that's definitely a recipe for tons of social anxiety and fear of going out. If I'm wrong about her mom being dead (or a walking corpse for that matter) I think that her mom is just mostly absent enough to make generally the same state of isolation.

FeatherNotes

Q3: Def Henri and Henrietta. I love the simple concept of cute AI robo snails that take care of Nell, and that lil boat they sailed on in the bath was too cute. Q4: it seems like these personal attendants are a thing in Nells world, so i assume other people use them, making their use versitile with search engines, besr route options for travel, and over all helpfulness for the users well being. Henry amd Henrietta are most likely the pair that will try to keep Nells health in check. She def seems to need them for stability, however, may need to break free from that dependence in the future...!

FeatherNotes

Q5: https://m.tapas.io/episode/1286954 this segment is my fave due to the drama and intensity. Always love those colour drops! Q6:Nell is clearly an isolated person, living with little interaction save for when she goes to run errands. She's naiive but not totally unaware of how and who to talk to, but comes off as such because of her situation she's in (she seems adjusted enough to be going to the library and getting groceries on her own). I think the mystery that surrounds her is what holds her back from being with more people-- I think her episodes have something to do with her past self trying to come back, and that maybe the two snails know more than they let on!

RebelVampire

QUESTION 7. Which characters do you enjoy seeing interact the most? What about their dynamic interests you?

QUESTION 8. Why do you think the mysterious and dark creature said Nell’s name? Why was the creature so intent on getting Nell specifically? What other elements of the story might have significance to this situation?

spacerocketbunny

7. So far seeing E and Nell interact is my favourite, it's a sweet dynamic so far! 8. I'm guessing they're somehow drawn to her and if we're still on the assumption that the kid in the dream is Nell, then maybe it has something to do with the headless woman? The other creature that E and her group dealt with was also headless so maybe these beings are all connected, and there's something special about the one we see in Nell's dream.

RebelVampire

QUESTION 9. What sorts of art or story details have you noticed in the way the comic is crafted that you think deserves attention?

QUESTION 10. Who exactly are the fighters who saved Nell? Why are they so secretive and fighting in the first place? In general, what do you think their backstories are? Also, do you think Nell will be able to find common ground with them?

RebelVampire

7) I like seeing Nell and Henry and Henrietta interact the most. I just love those little snails and they have such a warm relationship with Nell I enjoy every moment they're all talking together. My feel good moment of the month. 8) I assume the creatures are attracted to some magical voodoo that Nell possesses that causes her episodes. And that of course the creatures want this magical energy, cause it will give them infinite power. Or probably more like finite power that just makes them a lot tougher. Again, back to other theories, I really think this ties into the dream thing and that child. And that dream is not a dream but the root cause of everything.

9) A detail I really like in this comic is how the red contrast colors are used. This comic pulls it off super well to the point a lot of time you don't even notice it's there. But when you do notice it, holy crap is it really super impactful to the scene's mood and atmosphere. 10) The fighters are gather are some secret organization probably formed of outcasts who didn't quite fit into society. Maybe they all have some magical voodoo issues like Nell (and Nell just got voodoo with really bad downsides). I assume their secretive nature is just one of those can't let the normal humans find out sort of thing cause everyone will panic and freak. And like legit, nobody likes vigilantes going around killing mysterious, dangerous creatures in reality. I don't really have opinions on back stories yet, though I get the impression its all gonna be tragic and we're going to find out how each basically had crap families and thus had to become their own family.

spacerocketbunny

9. I think the character designs are pretty noteworthy! Cute shapes and clothing design choices with distinguishable silhouettes! My favourite design is probably E's, I love the shape of her boots and her cute puffy shorts. She's also ripped so it's a fun contrast with her cutesy demeanor 10. I'm guessing this lot are a bunch of outcasts, it's a pretty motley crew with obvious loss of focus and teamwork when it comes down to it. Their contrasting dynamic is interesting to see how they stick together (especially with Mads, what the heck girl you are a loose canon) but they must have a common understanding so that they don't split up. Probably a common ailment or condition, probably similar to what Nell's got going on that they all share? They seem pretty determined to protect people from those creatures so I'm wondering if other people can even see them?

Perhaps there's only certain people who can see and fight these monsters?

Attila Polyák

1, The end of the bath scene. The raw excitement of the new book is just nice and relatable. A book you want is always worth being excited about. 2, That's definitely Nell. Some alter version, forgotten past, magical parallel version or I donno, but the child is definitely her. 3, Nell. What could you not love about a book-loving young girl? She's relatable I think, at least for me. 4, Medical AI? It's probably what we're actually headed towards in real life. Personalized assistant AIs that help us not just in their specialized field, but generally in everyday life as well. I also find it really acceptable as a concept for these AIs to be mainly medical (even though they also do a lot of not medical stuff) as being healthy is kinda important and it's a point in our life where AI could actually support us in a great way. It's both important and a good start off point for AI so, to me at least, it makes sense that that's the place where AI took ground. Ultimately I feel like they generally make life easier. However... I also feel like the baseline concept of these AIs are linked into much larger systems... wink wink surveillance. Just like as it will most probably be in real life in the future (and it already kinda is in the present).

FeatherNotes

Q7: Nell and E for sure-! Some nice variants in characters to play with there Q8: Methinks mysterious dark creature has something to do with Nells supposed past. Perhaps it wants her to remember who she was? Nells name was mentioned previously from the other group, so there's definitely some past interactions we have yet to see revealed between the two parties

Q9: the drops of red in the black and white have significance and are a wonderful style choice. I'm always fond of any new ways to play with traditional black and white comics Q10: I notice this group doesn't have wee robot AI assistance, so maybe they're trying to fight for that independence in humanity from it? Though they do fight big monsters, it does raise the question of how normal those encounters are too, so perhaps they are self proclaimed local heroes? Nell will find her place, though I can see some altercations arise when they discover more about her

snuffysam

One possibility I thought of for (8) - what if the dark creatures aren't hunting Nell for mystical reasons/through mystical means? What if there's something strange/rare going on in Nell's biology, and someone hacked the snails to track her down?

RebelVampire

QUESTION 11. What do you think are this particular comic’s strengths? What do you think makes this comic unique? Please elaborate.

QUESTION 12. Who exactly do you think Asha is, and what do you think she’ll have to say to Nell and E? How does this tie into the story’s description about Nell being used as live bait? Further, do you think Nell would even be able to go home at this point?

spacerocketbunny

11. Like I said for the previous question, I think the character design us it's biggest strength! 12. I think Asha is the leader of their group maybe? If not a leader maybe just a superior. I'm guessing they're going to show Nell that she's no longer safe now that she's made contact with one of the creatures. So I imagine she's now going to join their group and continue to be bait for the monsters, poor Nell ;___; I'm sure there'll be some kind of incentive for Nell, they don't seem to be bad guys so maybe there'll be a link to her past or her dreams that she has? That's my guess!

RebelVampire

QUESTION 13. What are you most looking forward to in the comic? Also, do you have any final thoughts to share overall?

QUESTION 14. Overall, where do you see the story going from here? How do you think Nell’s experiences will change her, and how will Nell’s presence change the other characters, especially E? Lastly, how do you think the comic’s title ties into all this?

Attila Polyák

5, Page 14. The use of color, well... the general lack of it except for red, and on this page green, is an awesome feature. When color does show up it's really impactful. This page was really well done even without the sudden inclusion of colors but the sudden surge of red and green elevated it for me. 6, I'm a bit torn on this. On one hand she is alone, that's really bad, especialy for someone of her condition. Oh the other hand in terms of material things (and now I'm purely speaking of those) she seems to be very well off. All things considered I don't think her life is good, at all, it's bad, but there's a lots of ways it could go still worse, which, considering the events in the library, might just be what's going to happen in the future. 7, Nell and her snail AIs. It was clearly stated tat the AI basically have personality, but they are just, I donno. Feels genuinely friendly, something Nell really needs. 8, I'm really unsure, but for some reason I feel like the situation with the dark creature is some way connected to the kid and the headless person, but I seriously have no idea how (or why).

Attila Polyák

9, First of all as I already mentioned, color use is very strong in my opinion. I just cant praise that enough! Another very well crafted bit imo are the character expressions, they really convey emotion well. 10, Again a bit I'm not really sure what to think about. I do think that they are secretive, because whatever mystical thing is happening, is not a common occurrence and is definitely not something that's supposed to happen to everyday people, thus the secrecy. 11, Can I mention color again? Please? Pretty please? Never stop using those wonderful reds the way you do! 12, Although it was claimed that Asha is their supervisor I feel like some form of leader role fits more. Not sure why, maybe because we only saw a crew/team leader so far and not someone who could actually coordinate an entire operation of fighting shadow creatures? One way or another, I don't feel like Nell will be just simply released or if they just let her go they'll still keep an eye on her. She has seen a lot of things, probably too much.

RebelVampire

11) I'm going to second that I think the comic's strengths is its character design and use of color. The color component I feel I've mentioned enough but I also really like the designs. They're simple enough that there's not too many details, but have that right amount of uniqueness to them that makes each character stand out while also revealing bits about their personality. It's a hard balance to master, so it's great to see a comic like this where the mark is hit. 12) Asha is definitely, ,at the very least, E's boss. I get the impression that for the most part, Asha is in charge of the whole operation, except for maybe some mysterious benefactor who gives them money. As for what Asha will have to say, I def think it will be about how Nell can't go and they need Nell's help. And also probably that Nell is doomed if she goes it alone, so even if Asha could let her go, it's not in Nell's best interests to go

13) I am looking forward to seeing Nell being exposed to more social situations than it feels she has been in. Cause I'm interested to see her journey and how she reacts to these sorts of situations in general. It'll be an interesting experience, whether it turns out good or bad for Nell. 14) Besides Nell becoming bait as is implied, I feel like Nell is gonna start to explore her episodes more and realize that, perhaps, she doesn't know her own self as well as she thinks she does. And that there are pieces of herself missing and she'll have to go on a journey of self discovery in a manner of speaking. Overall, though, I think the experiences will probably make Nell at least a bit more socially adjusted and less dependent on medical ai assistants. As for Nell's affect on the others, I think Nell will sort of become the glue that binds them and enables them to overcome so interpersonal obstacles that made their teamwork perhaps a bit lackluster.

RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- WEEK LONG BOOK CLUB END!

Thank you everyone so much for reading and chatting about Ordinary Freaks this week! Please also give a special thank you to Urbanjawdust for volunteering the comic and creating it! If you liked Ordinary Freaks, make sure to continue to support it via some of the links below!

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I know that it depends on the make and model of the car, but I just want to know the average price.""

I've been taken off my parent's car insurance policy. What do I do now?

I am 17 and I recently got into a serious car accident where my car was totaled. I got kicked out of my parent's car insurance policy because of this. My parents said that no insurance company is going to sell to me because I was in a serious accident while I was a minor. What should I do if I want to drive again? I can't drive a car without insurance.

Car insurance with dwi?

I went to a bar in upstate ny to see a friend's band play. I was drinking at the bar, so I decided to stay at a friend's house down the road (walk there obviously). Someone I thought was my friend took my car to go home ( I left the keys in the ignition ). I know I'm a dumb *** for leaving the keys in the car, don't flame me for that please. Anyways this guy got pulled over by the cops and got a dwi. The car was legally parked when they pulled him over so it didn't get impounded. My question is will my insurance go up? I wasn't driving the car and this guy had no license or any kind of insurance whatsoever. He was also under 21 if that helps and no I didn't report the car stolen. But when the cops questioned him he just told them he took the car.""

What is the cost of liability insurance on a small business (general/averaged)?

best insurance provider for a learner driver?

im a 17 years old what is the best insurance provider

""Buying used car, no insurance, 18 yr old 2 year driver?""

I just need to know the process before buying a used car, i found a good deal on a car, and it's an 80 mile drive to san diego. I have a nevada license which i'll be changing to a ca license by tomorrow and I'll be getting a temporary license until they mail me the card. What is the process of buying a used car. title and all of those things. Because i'll be driving back with no insurance, and i can't get one until i bring it back to my side of town. Can i get a temp one? or i can use the one that is with the car? do i have to do this process at dmv in san deigo? complicated process""

I need to provide health insurance for my daughter.?

I live in Colorado and she lives in New Mexico. I only need to provide health insurance for her (not myself). Anyone know of a good insurance deal in New Mexico?

How much could I expect to pay for motorcycle insurance?

I am going to take motorcycle lessons, and once I obtain my license, I plan on buying a new Kawasaki Ninja 250R. Either a 2009 or 2008 model (cost is 4000 or 3500 dollars, respectively). I am 19 years old, and have a car, which I am the primary driver of, which cost a little bit over $20k. Insurance is a little under $3000n annually. I have heard that this might reduce my motorcycle insurance costs (if I get it with the same company?), but I am not sure. I have never been any type of accident, or speeding or any involvement with the police. Only one parking ticket for my entire time of driving (since 2008 July). And I live in Massachusetts. Any type of idea of the cost would greatly help, before I commit myself to the lessons and purchases and the costs. Thanks!""

Receive workers comp benefits disabled age 62 can i received medicare or any supplement to health insurance?

Car insurance for a new driver?

So for my first car I am trying to convince my parents to let me get a used '03 infiniti g35 the price isn't a problem. What would the insurance be for an infiniti? Also what would insurance be for a car like a subaru or something like that just so I can compare...BTW new driver

Insurance premium?

i live in California and got my license in sept 2007 then within two months of getting my car insurance(state farm) i got into a at-fault accident, my current policy runs till april 2008 and i currently pay 1022 every 6 months with a good student discount, also the damage on my car was worth 6,000 and i have a 1,000 deductible the other cars damage was worth 5,000 how much will my premium rise when it is time to renew?""

""I need a cheap, reliable and economical car. Any recommendations?

it would help if it could be all round cheap such as... insurance group etc.

What Insurance companies will cover a pizza delivery driver?

Ok, so I've been trying to find Work as a pizza delivery driver---I was able to find one job delivering pizza--but when I had called my insurance company and told them about the situation--they immediately said We will not cover any accidents you have while on the job delivering pizzas. Have a good day. So, my question is: What insurance policies do cover you for delivering pizzas?""

Car insurance for 17 year old HELP please!!?

Hi, I'm looking to take car insurance out for a 1.0L Vauxhall Corsa Ecoflex 2006 or a 1.2L Ford KA 2009.I will be the policy holder and the main driver, however my parents will be a named driver.Car won't be driven more than 3000 miles a year and quotes are coming up at 2800++! I have heard some people are able to get it in the 1000s, but how is this possible? I have tried some many providers and I think I'm running out of luck. Plus these are the cheapest cars to insure too! I'm in the West Midlands to, if location has anything to do with it Any suitable answers will be greatly appreciated, thanks""

Car insurance?

Ok so i just passed my driving test so now im gonna get a car soon, what car insurance is the best for someone whos my age (21)?""

Who has the best & affordable dental and medical insurance?

I need a lot of work on my teeth and I will know it will be expensive. I'm trying to find a good and affordable insurance for dental and medical. I would like my copay to be no more than 20% and my deductible to be no more than $3,000 & doctor visits no more than $30. Can anyone help me out? I'm also looking for not only me but my child as well.""

How much does the average person have in their checking account?

NOT including 401ks, etc. Just cash you can touch and spend. And how much should you have if you have like 1,000rent +utilities +car insurance +credit cards + cell phone, etc.""

What shold I do if I get into a car accident whith no one else involved but I totaled my car with no insurance?

I got into a car accident during a rainstorm, lost control and totaled my car. I still owe money on it and to make matters worse I found out my insurance lapsed. No one else was involved in it and I went to the hospital and didn't file a claim with the lien holder on the car yet. When I came back to the car it was gone. Don't know what to do next. Any answers out there for my predictament?""

Who offers cheapest auto insurance for 25 year old males in la?

give insurance estimates

How Much is insurance on a fox body mustang?

I really want a fox body mustang and i want to see how much it would cost. It will be my first car and i really want to know before i go car shopping.

Am i paying too much for car insurance?

I am in my early 30s. A single male, no kids. I have a pretty much spotless driving record. The only ticket i have had in the past 10 years that i can think of off hand was for not using a turn signal, that was over a year ago. Other than that, nothing in around 10 years. No claims on my insurance in over 10 years either. I drive a 2001 Ford ZX2, its a compact car-for those not familiar with it , it would be similar to a Chevy Cavalier or Dodge Neon. Oh, im paying $700 every 6 months for full coverage car insurance through Nationwide. I have been with them ever since i started driving. This seems like alot. Is it? My friends tell me im overpaying, yet when i call around other places to get quotes i never find anything cheaper. In fact several places have told me to stay where im at. I dont have a problem paying it, but im just trying to find out if this sounds about right and fair as far as the price goes. Anyone out there a insurance agent?""

""Generally speaking, what's the cheapest auto insurance you could get?""

Generally speaking, what's the cheapest auto insurance you could get?""

Cheap full coverage insurence?

where to find cheap full coverage car insurance

Health insurance for low income college student?

I was just wondering if anyone had some suggestions for reasonably priced health insurance in Minnesota. I am very physically active, do a lot of running and weight lifting; so my primary concerns are coverage for treatments involving possible breaks, fractures, muscle and tendon tears/breaks, and other things of that nature common with active individuals. Preferably something under $100/month because I am in school and with my current income I am lucky to average $800/month take home. Any help/direction would be greatly appreciated because I have not had health insurance for 9 years since I was no longer eligible for my mothers health insurance.""

What happens if you only have an expired Auto Insurance card on you while you drive?

Hi. I currently live in San Francisco to go to school, and in a few days, I'd leave to drive home to Los Angeles for my winter break. So my car's insurance card expired a few days ago, and there isn't enough time for my father to send me the new (valid) insurance card and for me to receive it before I leave. (So when I drive the 400+ miles home, I won't have a valid auto insurance card on me, though my coverage would be active & paid for.) (For some reason) I know that in other states, if you get pulled over and don't have a valid proof of car insurance when asked by the law enforcer, that you can get your license revoked/suspended and/or car impounded & it's a nasty hole in your wallet. Is there any way I can temporarily get around the California law?""

Where can I get low insurance quotes for a first time driver?

The driver in question is 24 years of age and has been passed for just over a week, we found a ridiculous qoute of 5500 pounds, and a more reasonable one of 2400 pounds, just wondering if theres possibly a company who can beat the latter quote.""

Car insurance?

Do you know how much the car insurance will increase the insurance premium for an accident which involves no claim, no injury, no police?""

What is a reasonable cost estimate of business insurance for a cottage rental?

Looking to estimate small business insurance for a single unit cottage rental we are purchasing.

Anyone ever in a car accident & break a bone? Wrist? How much did the insurance compnay pay you?

I broke my scaphoid bone in my wrist due to a car accident. I would like to be prepared when it comes down to the settlement. I was wondering if anyone else had the same thing happen. I am right handed and it's my left wrist. the accident was not my fault. other party's company is accepting fault too.

What is the cost of liability insurance on a small business (general/averaged)?

20 years old - Can I get a months Car Insurance?

I am 20 years old and want a months car insurance for the christmas holidays - is there any company that will let me do this? Every one I have looked at appears to have a minimum age requirement of at least 21, does anyone know of any that would allow me to take out a months policy at the age of 20?""

Military Motorcycle insurance for an 18 year old?

Im 17 now and want to get a yamaha v star just to cruise around on but i dont kno how much the insurance will be, knowing that insurance for a teenager is horrible. I am going to basic training this novemeber so ill mostlikely do all of this after i finish so i have more money. Ill be 18 by then and just was wondering how much the insurance will be? Also if there are any military discounts for this? Thanks for your help""

""My parents are above 65 ,suggest any insurance plan?

suggest any insurance plan

I got into a car accident like 2 weeks ago and i havent recieved a rent a car from the insurance company??????

I havent recieved a rentacar from the insurance company i didnt have insurance since the car was no more that 3 hours new to me i had just bought it. It was cansidered a total lose from the insurance what should i do.

How much is insurance for a single male under 25 on a DODGE CHARGER?

I need as much help and info about mopeds (UK) as possible please!?

What are the best types/ names of mopeds suitable for a girl? Do you have to take a test or lessons to drive a moped? If so how much does this cost? How much on average would insurance be for an 18 year old first time driver for a moped? How fast can mopeds go, and can you drive them on motorways? Any other useful information would be appreciated, thanks if you can help!""

""Who has taken the Florida 2-15 Life, Health, Ann, Insurance exam... How is this exam?

I would like to know is this a very difficult exam? Do this exam requires mathematics? Is this exam 100% Multiple choice? I know that the Real Estate exam for me was a little difficult so I am hoping that this would be a little easier.... Please tell what ever you know about this test... Thanks I appreciate it...

Car insurance so unfair?

I am 18 and I know the prices are a joke, all I want is a 1.6 astra 2007 and I have to pay 10 k to get insured.Over in the US and over countries kids get massive jeeps, why is it over here, most people can't even afford a 1 litre corsa. Pisses me off that I get tied in with the same brush because of my age, surely can they charge a ridiculous price such as 5k and give you half back if you don't crash? they will still be profiting massively, as my dad pays 280 a year. If i want to suceed in life, I think i'm best leaving the UK, they just want everyone to use public transport and don't want people to have the luxury of driving a car. Anyone else agree ?""

Insurance For first time driver?

So like i wanna get a car, and i live in the uk , how much would i be paying monthly for insurance?""

Car insurance extremely high?

i am 17 i haven't bought i car yet, and i have not passed my test, but i have tried to check how much my insurance will be once i have passed my test, i have done checks on small cars e.g vw polo, corsa, Nissan micra's etc but i have not found a quote under 1,700 i cannot afford this price, is there any cheaper insurance companies, or am i just going to have to save up 4 a long time.""

I need to start saving up for a car..how much will it cost me?

I'm 16 and just got my drivers license a few months ago. I need a car, so that I can get a regular job instead of babysitting. My budget is $1000-1500. I would drive about 40 miles a day. Some of the ads that I'm showing you let you make monthly payments, which is great. Are they nice enough cars? Which one would be the better buy? How much will insurance cost me? How long will one of these cars last me? 1997 Saturn 1997 Saturn 4dr auto, AC, 4cyl, very clean, solid, 120, 116 miles, runs great, asking $1500, can finance w/$400 down and $150/mo 1995 Toyota 1995 Toyota Tercel, blue 2dr auto, 4 cyl, runs & looks great (rust on rocker, I have the panel), 206K, doesn't need any mechanics, great on gas 34-37 mpg, asking $1400 obo, can finance with $400 down @$100/mo. 1995 Nissan 1995 Nissan Altima 4 dr auto silver 117K, new brakes and rotors. Asking $1400, can finance with $500 down. $225 a month. 1993 Toyota 1993 Toyota Corolla 4cyl 5spd, silver, 212,171 miles, needs nothing, runs great $1400, can finance for $600.""

Can I get my motorcycle registered with no title?

I just brought a bike for really cheap and I can get it insured so I think it isnt stiolen but if so how can I get it registered in the state of texas with no title

What should I do about my 19 year old sons car insurance?

I have a son who is nearly 19 years old. He may be putting in for his test soon. The problem is I am worried about the cost of car insurance. He is nagging me to go on my insurance but I don't really like that idea because I am worried if he has an accident I will lose my no claims and my insurance will go up considerably. The other option is that I buy him a really cheap car with a small engion, but only cover third party. That way he can build up his own no claims. I was wondering if anyone knows how much he would be expected to pay if he decided to do this?""

What would my Allstate car insurance be? If i buy a sports car..?

I'm 19 years old and never had an accident record or traffic record before; I'm currently a member of Allstate insurance company under my dad's insurance. I have a 2005 Honda Accord EX and paying $2400 a year... is that alot?? IF! i sell my car and get myself a 2003-2004 G35 coupe, how much would my car insurance be??""

If i lease a car do I pay insurance?

I am thinking about leasing a car, do I have to pay insurance?""

Can someone else put insurance on my car?

I have two cars and one of them is parked right now due to gas prices. So I took insurance off of it for the time being. One of my friends car is messed up and she does not have a ride, I am thinking of letting her borrow my car until she can get hers fixed. So can she put insurance on it and drive it?""

No claim bonus on previous car insurance?

HI I WOULD BE GRATEFUL IF YOU COULD ANSWER ABOUT CAR INSURANCE CLAIM BONUS DID 2 YEARS INSURE WITH FIRST CENTRAL INSURANCE FROM DECEMBER 2010 TO DECEMBER 2012 THEN STOP DRIVING AND NOT DRIVE FOR 13 MONTHS DO I STILL HAVE CLAIM BONUS I WAS TOLD YES IT EXPIRE AFTER 2 YEARS IS THIS TRUE? I TRY CONTACT MY PREVIOUS INSURANCE ABOUT THIS BUT NO REPLY YET THANK YOU

Should I change the deductible on my auto insurance?

I own a car that is 12 years old with only 81,000 miles on it. The car is worth somewhere between $3000 and $4000, depending on if I sell it outright or trade it in. My plan is to drive it for as long as I am able. I have a $500 deductible right now but am wondering if I should change it to $1000 to reduce expenses. I live on a fixed disability income and money is tight. I have no savings. With that said, what would be the best thing to do at this point.""

""Help! looking for affordable health care insurance in atlanta, ga?

i am a single mom recently laid off from work. i have asthma and take a prescribed drug every day. i am running out and just to see my dr. for a new rx is $125 and then for a 30day ...show more

""Car insurance sent me SR-1 form, What to do on SR-1?""

I got into a solo or at-fault accident cause i skidded off the road due to the road being wet after the heavy downpour. Nothing major and my first ever accident so i decided to report it to the insurance for a claim but decided to disregard the claim since nothing needed to be repaired except an alignment because i work on cars so nothing seemed broken. Now that it's been disregarded, mercury insurance sent me an sr-1 form stating i must fill it out or my license will be suspended within 10 days. If i fill it out and since there was no damages over $750, will there be an inspection to my vehicle?""

Need Advise On Car Insurance?

On Friday Fed. 12th I bought Me a good Used car. I had to park on the side of the street cause my neighbors from downstairs had company and were in my spot. when I woke up on Saturday morning my car was wrecked in the front and the other vehicle no where in site well except for the trail of car fluids that led to his car three blocks away. the police came got his info and mine, towed his vehicle, advised me what I needed to do and left. I found out on my own that the insurance that the police had was false info. I was pissed. Well low and behold the owner of the car came to my house that same evening and was like my car was stolen and all this other bs. He gave me his correct insurance papers and said he would report it to claims. He never did I had to on Tuesday. His insurance knew nothing of the matter. I filed my claim with them and they said it would be 24 to 48 hours and they would get in contact with me. Nothing yet.. Im still waiting for them to call me. What should I do now???????????""

Should I change car insurance?

So here how it goes. I want to get a new insurance for my Mom's car. She is 52 years old women who drives a Honda civic 2002 Sendan that was totaled and repair before. She is paying 1,600 a year and I think that's a lot for liability . She used to have a car before that was in an accident(my brother hit somebody else car) and we had to drop that insurance(progressive). Two years after my brother broke another car that my mother bought but this time the insurance company(state farm) did not find out. Right now we are back to progressive and a car hit me while driving and I did call the insurance. It was not my fault and I don't think anything changed because we are still paying 1,600 but I still think its a lot. It is the best I can explain the situation , so should I go out and try to find a better deal? Any advice is appreciated""

Cheapest and reliable car insurace company?

how has the lowest quote out under normal circumstances? i know they categorize it based on age,sex, etc. just tell me who has the cheapest insurance.is it really GEICO?""

I am in need of health insurance. Is there any kind out there affordable to a spouse of a D.A.V.?

My husband is rated 100% disabled with the U.S. government.

Is there anyway we can boycott all the 'LOOKING FOR CHEAPER CAR INSURANCE ADS'?!?!?

They are so annoying!!

What is the cost of liability insurance on a small business (general/averaged)?

Car Insurance...DUI.

does anyone have a 2002 poniac sunfire? with DUI? esimate of might that might cost?

Where can i get tip for cheap auto insurance?

Cheap cars to insure at 21?

ok so i am looking for a cheap car that will not cost me for insurance the cheaper the better the car does not need to be a top of the range brand spanking new thing for all i care it can be from 1970 as long as the insurance for them are cheap

Car insurance question?

Im currently a proposed driver on an car insurance policy(FULLY COMP) on a Fiat Punto and im 19. My elder brother is getting a Vauxhall VXR and said if he is insured on the car (fully comp) and said if i drive his car, i am legally allowed to drive it but i will only be covered under Third Party. Can someone outline the Rights and Wrongs? Is it actually legal? any problems which may arise?""

How do I know which insurance is primary?

I'm a full time student and I'm nineteen. I have insurance through my mother, empire blue cross blue shield. But I also work part-time at a hospital and receive local 1199 health insurance from them. Which one is primary?""

How much do you think my insurance will go up?

I got a ticket about a month ago for exhibition of speed and i have court soon but i need to know how much my insurance will go up after our next policy. it wasnt a serious ticket it was just me and my buddy racing from one stop light to the next one. we didnt even go over the limit. i might even get off with nothing because its my first ticket i dunno. but ya, i have alstate and its insured under my parents name and we have our cars, 4 wheelers, snowmobiles, cabin, house, life, and pretty much everything with allstate. its about 600 every 6 months currently for my car. about how much do you think it will go up? thank you.""

Illegal car insurance?

My EX boyfriend went behind mine and my moms back and illegal put insurance on his car in my mothers name. I guess he knows a employee at a insurance automotive and illegally put it in her name without her consent. His friend who was driving the car hit some car today and called my mom and told her everything and now she wants to claim fraud. Who gets in trouble? My ex boyfriend for doing it illegally? The employee who let it happen? His friend who hit the car? Or my mom because they may not believe he did it illegally? BTW; my ex boyfriend owes money to his insurance thats why he couldnt put it in his name

Do I use car insurance or health insurance in a car accident?

I had a car accident (three cars)last week, my car was the fist car ( third car hit second car's back and second car hit my car's back). Although the second car had serious damage and my car's bumper had minor damage, but we didn't call the police. I felt my neck, shoulder and back painful in the first day when I woke up. after 5 days, i don't feel any back pain, but i still feel painful from my neck and shoulder. Do I consider about hire a lawyer (minor car damage)? If I don't find a lawyer, how can I ask the driver to pay my med bills? Do I use my health insurance first then claim the driver's car insurance company? or pay by cash first? what kind of doctor I need to see? Thanks""

Looking for car insurance?

Im 18 and Ive only been driving for a year. No accidents or mishaps and Im looking to buy a car. However, I have to pay for my own insurance and was wondering around how much that would cost a month? And is it possible for me to be under my parents insurance (I still live at home) but with my own car? Would that be cheaper? p.s. I live in California""

Car insurance can be annoying.?

heres the situation... my boyfriend and i recently broken up.we are having our first child together,im 20 hes 23.we both decided to go in an get a new car for me,but since his credit was a lil better then i.his name was first as in the car belonged to him,and i became cosigner.i make the car payments,and pay half insurance.his responsibility was to pay for the other half insurance,and now that were not together,hes not willing to pay.well at first he said he wasnt willing to.now he is.BUT...am i able to refinance the car and put it in my name,and insurance.i dont want him to think he can pay when he wants or not,becuse were not together anymore.so im trying to find ways,so that car is mine,and he has no way of taking it or what not.i need it not just for me,but for our child.any advice?""

Will a DUI in MA 5 years ago affect my insurance rates in CA?

I was arrested for DUI in January 2008. This was my first and only DUI charge. I am planning to move to California later this year and I was wondering if this conviction will still affect my rates? I read something about the interstate driver's compact and about how Mass. is not a member so it might not share driving history with another state especially since so much time has passed and I have kept a clean record since then. Any info would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Where I can get best auto insurance rates ?

Please find me a good web site to get some details about best auto insurance rates . For my research this data will be useful to me. thank you

How does car insurance work?

I got my driver's license last January when I turned 16. Our family only drives one car. My dad has insurance for our car under his name. Do I need insurance under MY name to drive the car too?

Car insurance for Fiat?

Hi, guys i was just wondering how much will it cost me for full coverage car insurance for 2013/2014 Fiat Arbath in State of California. Im 24 years old? I'm just wondering how much will it cost in California.""

What kind of car details will lower the cost of insurance?

I have to buy a car and the insurance will be costing more than the actual car. Some factors I can't change like the fact it will be my first year with a full GB licence, my gender, age, where I park it, etc. But when considering the car I will buy, what factors might lower my insurance costs? Keeping in mind my price range for the car is 450-900 pounds, - what makes/models are hardest/easiest to break into? - what security devices would make a difference to the cost of my insurance, and how much would they cost? - what year of car is considered to be built more securely than in the past? (harder to break into...I understand older cars are easier to break into, but what is the general cut-off line of old ?) - style or colour of car? - any other factors?""

Car insurance in massachusetts?

how much does it cost??? i hav a project where i have to buy car insurance for a Mercedes Benz 2010 C300 Sport Sedan...... help.......??

I'm planning on getting affordable coverage for my dog. what would be best recommended?

okay well the question explains most of it. I'm currently doing some research on what company has the most afforable coverage for my dog. But there is so many to chose from: ...show more

""Will will my insurance rate increase, if my parked and unoccupied car got hit?""

-MY CAR WAS HIT WHILE PARKED, ANOTHER CAR WHILE REVERSE PARKING DAMAGED MY RIGHT SIDE FRONT DOOR (675.00 ESIMATE) -I HAVE A POLICE REPORT AND INSURANCE HAS BEEN CALLED (HAPPENED SEPT 16) -HAVE ALL INFO ABOUT ANOTHER DRIVER, I DID NOT GIVE HIM MY I""

Car insurance for short locations (2-4 days)?

I usually rent a car at Rent a Car service companies once or twice per month. The insurance they offer are somewhat expensive (im 26, never got pull-over, never had an accident). I would like to know if anyone knows of an insurance company who offers rent-a-car insurance? Thank you.""

What would the premiums cost for government health insurance?

How much will people have to pay to be covered by Obama care? Are there estimates? Do many people believe it will be free? It's good to know the price of things before you buy them.

What is the cheapest auto insurance for college students?

There are so many companies I can't check them all. I should mention that I live in Michigan. I'm not a full time student so I generally don't apply for those discounts. But I have a clean driving record and have had my license for almost six years. So far I have found the esurance is the cheapest. But I was wondering if there is anything cheaper out there?

What is a reasonable price for health insurance?

My employer is offering a group plan, but it doesn't seem affordable for me. $320/month to insure 3 people (2 parents and a child). That is a seriously huge chunk of my monthly income! Or 2 people cost $160/month. This is with a $250 individual deductible or $500 for family. Do I just have a skewed idea of what should be affordable? This is the first time I've been offered insurance through an employer. What does your health insurance cost you per month?""

I'm driving uninsured. We can't afford our vehicle insurance. Is it nuts to drive out of town?

Please settle an argument between my husband and I. We drive in our town back and forth to work, and I feel ok with that. I want to rent a car tonight because we have to go to an interview. It's about 2 hours away, down a highway strewn with police. I think it's crazy to try to drive in our vehicle, uninsured. He doesn't want to waste the money on a rental. It's a $5000 fine if we're caught - plus I'd likely lose my job (can't have a police record). How far would you drive uninsured? I don't even like driving in town - but we're a few months away from being able to afford insurance. Opinions please.""

What can I do about car insurance from another state? Please help!?

Okay basically here's the story. I'm 19, I live with my parents in Wisconsin but I'm trying to move back to Pennsylvania with my aunt and uncle. However I'm not in school at the moment. Apparently if I moved to PA, I'd have to pay 278 dollars more a month through Geico because I'd be living in a different state. I already have a job set up there and all so they could obviously see my paycheck is not from Wisconsin so I can't just lie or something lol. I really know nothing about insurance and how I can work this out without paying that much more. Can anyone help me with other options I could have?""

I need cheap motorcycle insurance. Cant afford the ridiculous $1500 insurance for a $3000 bike.?

And I need full coverage. Any idea? I'm getting the new 2008 ninja. I'm an experienced rider, but I have no record of motorcycling at all. I used to ride in my country. But here, nope. no record. All i can do to reduce my insurance cost is take the MSF course. Dont even have an american driver's/motorcycler's license yet.""

What is the cost of liability insurance on a small business (general/averaged)?

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I hope you know you’re the best and this kept me entertained for a while 100 questions1. Is a kiss considered cheating?On the lips 100% yes. On the cheek in a familial way, no. 2. Have you ever faked orgasm?Nope I’m very straight forward and if I’m not enjoying it then I’m not gonna fake it to save someone’s feelings 3. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?Time travel! 4. Do you think you are going to be rich in 7-8-9 years?Hahahahahaha probably not. I’m already drowning in debt probably will be drowning in more student debt by then 5. Tell us some funny drunk story.I swear I have good ones but like I can’t think of any6. Why are you no longer together with your ex?He dumped me 🤷🏼‍♀️ His loss 7. If you had to choose one way to die, what would it be? Gun shot to the head. Instant. Painless. 8. What are your current goals?I’m actually going back on my whole30 diet again so weight loss and I really want to get back to school at some point. Happiness is a goal too. 9. Do you like someone?I love someone if that counts 10. Who was the last person to disappoint you?Myself 11. Do you like your body?It’s a love hate relationship, some days it’s good some days it’s bad12. Can you keep a diet?I’ve had really good luck with whole30 so yes! 13. If the whole world listened to you right now, what would you say?Stop. Just stop. Listen to what you are saying to each other, look at the way we are treating our underprivileged brothers and sisters. How can we not decide to work collaboratively? We would all benefit if there was equal give and take and the world would be more peaceful. Stop trying to be the strongest, stop trying to out do another country. We need peace more than we need nukes. 14. Do you work?Don’t think that’s even a question anymore 15. If you could choose only one food to eat to the rest of your life, what would it be?Probs salad cause it’s really diverse or maybe pizza 16. Would you get a tattoo?I already have 3 and I’m dyin for more 17. Something you don’t mind spending all your money on?Tattoos 😂18. Can you drive?Yes and no. My license is expired right now19. When was the last time someone told you you were beautiful?Uhhh I honestly can’t recall 20. What was the last thing you cried for?Something dumb on tv tbh 21. Do you keep a journal?I try to actually! 22. Is life fun?Debatable.....23. Is farting in front of people irrelevant?Older you get the less you care 24. What’s your dream car?Something from the 50s or 60s muscle car25. Are grades in school important?In college and uni absolutely 26. Describe your crush.Tattoo artist. He’s a cutie. But I’m committed. He’ll tattoo me though! 27. What was the last book/movie that really impressed you?WONDER WOMANNNNNNNN28. What was your last lie?That I was okay 29. Dumbest lie you ever told? I don’t really lie a lot so I don’t really know honestly 30. Is crying in front of people embarrassing?To me it’s become a weekly ritual soooooo31. Something you did and you are proud of?I’m proud of graduating and moving somewhere I knew no one and still being okay on my own. 32. What’s your favourite cocktail?Don’t really drink em to be honest 33. Something you are good at?Weird knowledge on an assortment of topics 34. Do you like small kids?I think they are the most adorable creatures till they can talk then they are devils 35. How are you feeling right now?Tired, sad, frustrated, anxious 36. What would you name your daughter/son?Son: JamesDaughter: haven’t put much thought honestly, always thought I’d have a boy first 37. What do you need to be happy?Comfort, attention, love, food38. Is there some you want to punch in the face right now?Yeah most definitely 39. What was the last gift you received?My mom bought me a bunch of stuff lol 40. What was the last gift you gave?Probably Christmas and an A7X mug and slippers and something else to my partner 41. What was the last concert you went to?Sawyer Brown but before that it’d be Slipknot 42. Favourite place to shop at?Walmart as weird as that sounds 43. Who inspires you?My dad actually 44. How old were you when you first got drunk?Like 14 45. How old were you when you first got high?14 46. How old were you when you first had sex?1547. When was your first kiss?When I was like 12 48. Something you want to do until the end of this year?Keep my damn diet 49. Is there something in the past you wish you hadn’t done?self harmed.... tried to kill myself... 50. Post a selfie.51. Who are you most comfortable around?My best friends 52. Name one thing that terrifies you.Being cheated on again53. What kind of books do you read?Anything from classics to erotic lol 54. What would you tell your 12 year old self?Its gonna get worse but don’t be afraid to get help55. What is your favourite flower?Roses and orchids 56. Any bad habits you have?I overthink a lot 57. What kind of people are you attracted to?Girls who can dominate preferably alternative and burly tattooed guys. All have to be animal lovers and like to be fit. 58. What was the last thing you cried for?A movie on tv 59. Is there something you don’t eat? Some food that truly disgust you?I love all food honestly 60. Are you in love?Yes, I think so still anyways, I just don’t know if he feels the same anymore 61. Something you find romantic?Genuine interest and eye contact 62. How long was your longest relationship? Almost 3 years 63. What are 3 things that irritate you about the same sex?How bitchy and catty girls can be, periods and girls who pretend to be ditzy to get men’s attention64. What are 3 things that irritate you about the opposite sex? Men who think they need to prove their manliness, overtly sexual and can’t keep conversations normal (maybe just my age range though) guys who think being jerks is the way to girls pants. 65. What are you saving money for?Tattoos, paying people back. Traveling. School. 66. How would you describe your bad side?A raging psychotic bitch67. Are you actually a good person? Why?Debatable lmao 68. What are you living for?I don’t really know anymore, for myself and my cat I think69. Have you ever done anything illegal?Definitely.... 70. Do you like your body?Most definitely love and hate 71. Have you ever made someone feel bad about themselves intentionally?Yes but they deserved it72. Ever sent nudes?So many omg 73. Have you ever cheated on someone?Nope and never will74. Favourite candy?I love twizzlers and kit kats 75. Is there a blog you visit every day, or almost every day? Tag it!No not really... 76. Do you play any computer games? What is your favourite game?I play sudoku but that’s it lol77. Favourite TV series?Ayuh that’s really hard to pick.... right now it’s greys anatomy 78. Are you religious? Does God exist?Spiritual. I put myself under the pagan category. A single god in my eyes does not exist but many gods and goddesses do 79. What was the last book you read? Did it impress you and why?The secret garden. It was a reread but it’s always good 80. What do you think about vegetarianism/veganism?Great for you if you can do it but I definitely can’t 81. How long have you been on Tumblr?I believe my blog turned 4 or 5 this year 82. Do you like Chineese food?Love it. I grew up in a predominantly Asian city and region and it was a way of life lol83. McDonalds or Subway?Depends if I’m drunk or not or on my period. But usually McDonald’s 84. Vodka or whiskey?Why not both? But I prefer whisky for its flavour 85. Alcohol or drugs?Drugs. Weed is a drug right? 86. Ever been out of your province/state/country?Numerous times87. Meaning behind your blog name?I was like 14 at the time and edgy but the moi part is for my francophone early life 88. What are you scared of?Change. Lots of change89. Last time you were insulted?I don’t get insulted very easily so probably a while ago cause I don’t remember 90. Most traumatic experience ?Having someone die under my hands as they bled out as I was performing CPR after a horrendous car accident that my dad and I were the first responders for. We helped as the ambulances were on their way. Unfortunately the deceased lost too much blood to be revived. 91. Perfect date idea?Nice dinner, walks and long talks. Or getting tattooed and making out. 92. Favourite app on your phone?Probably Facebook. I use it a lot 93. What colour are the walls in your room?At my moms they were white and gray, here they are off white which I hate. 94. Do you watch Youtube? Who is your favourite youtuber?A little. I love Joe Santagato and The Try Guys and Ladylike 95. Share your favourite quote.“You are my sunshine my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray, you’ll never know dear how much I love you, please don’t take my sunshine away” 96. What is the meaning of life?In biological terms it’s to reproduce and balance ecosystems, in bigger terms.... I’ll let you know when I figure it out 97. Do you like horror movies?Love them! 98. Have you ever made your mum cry? What happened?Yes, when I left to Alberta99. Do you feel lucky or special in a way?Not really. I feel pretty ordinary to be honest 100. Can you keep a secret?Yes I definitely can. I am a hella reliable friend.

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Long semester, even longer nights. Staying up till 2AM is the new norm for me, and it's so weird since usually I crash around 12 or 1. I think that the amount of new relationships was a lot to balance altogether. I liked they way they started out at first and developed for awhile.

Let's start at Spring break. I was planning on a trip on my own to go pretty far for the first time in my life. There's always a first for everything. The place I wanted to go for the longest time? Seattle. Obviously if I'm going all the way to Seattle, I'll definitely check out all of Washington too! I didn't have many friends who could spend that much time away from home Tuesday - Friday was the plan. Mega road trip. I asked my friend Leslie and she was totally down to go. I thought she would be like, nahh I've already been there and done that considerring how much she's travelled on her own and with her friends. I don't know, ever since my parents have let up on surveilance of me, I've been able to get away with doing a lot more things. Sleeping over at a friends without telling anyone being the biggest risk I've taken in a long time. I thought I could also pull off this trip and so she tells me that she'll take care of housing and what not, but the days leading up to the date were going by quickly and before I knew it, we only had 1 week left to plan and reserve, so I ask her what's going on. She ends up telling me, "hey, do you want to go to Utah instead? I have a friend who's willing to drive." Granted I never have any expectations at all because they usually all lead me into getting disappointed and so I've learned it's better to just not have any at all. Life Hack :D Number 1 thing wrong with her response was that she already assumed it was just going to be me and her going to Seattle so that would be bad if I had other friends I also invited. But luckily I didn't spread the word yet and so I was like yeah, I'm still down. It wasn't Washington but at least it's somewhere that wasn't home. And that's all I wanted, a getaway with my friends that weren't from school. Then like 2 days before, I find out her friend hurts his ankle and that ruins the plans of hiking in Utah which is basically all you can really do there. So the plans change to Vegas and it gets better. We'd be sleeping out of his car. HA nah. Not for 4 days like that, not me. What the last straw really was, was the fact that I asked him what the itinerary was and he just linked me "20 things to do in Las Vegas if you are Under Age" and said,"Here's something for you underage putos LOL" and that's where I drew the line, holy shit. He didn't have to be so condescending and a dick about it. Vegas wasn't the original plan anyways and neither was he. I thought this guy was chill but holy shit, I was triggered so I was like, nope I'm pulling out, this is shit. Sorry Leslie, I can't hang with that.

So I ended up working on hw and projects on Monday and then I hit up my friend Allen and I ask him to see when he's available to go and chill because I hadn't seen that chigga since Winter Break. He said, he was down for good laughs with me and he asked me to pick the place as long as it was near. I asked him, How about SGV? We didn't really have a plan at all and when we were inviting people to come with us, they'd ask, "What are we doing over there?" and I just said,"Whatever we want." That alone was chill enough to say yes and the group of 2 evolved into a group of 7. Planning was difficult, now with that large of a crowd we were like, dang where we going to eat? Where we going to meet up and sight see. There were a lot of things to go do but most of the stuff would be closed after we finish eating and such. We went to go eat at Phoenix Cafe. I brought my friend Jenny along and I hope she had a good time with my friends. It would've been her first time hanging out with my friends that I've hyped up through my stories. We went to parks and plazas, and had photoshoots, Opticoon style. It was pretty fun, had a lot of decent conversations but I think I could've planned a little better. I didn't know the group was going to be so large.

After that day, I chill on Thursday and I ended up saying yes to go on a retreat with my school Organization: IEEE. I didn't know what to expect. Everything was so last minute for me, but I was just a little angry still at how my plans got cancelled. So anything spontaneous was good enough for me. I agreed to go and packed and we headed out Friday and reached there roughly 2pm. The people in the car couldn't have been better: my best friend James and Steven and Brandon. That night, we ate noodles and eggs. It was still a Friday during lent so I couldn't/didn't want to eat meat that day. That night I'm not sure why but something about what Tiffany said to James. "It's okay James, you can do whatever you want, you're safe here." And that just rubbed me the wrong way. In my opinion, that reassurance wasn't necessary and when someone has to tell you it's a safe place, it probably isn't as what they make it seem. So that night, I wasn't drinking at all. I went to my bed underneath the stairs and chilled on my laptop while everyone was doing their own thing upstairs. I was having a blast too, talking to myself and my friends online, letting them know I was okay. I wasn't sure of what we were going to do the next day but after like 30 mins of solitude, James and more people started migrating looking for me and seeing what I was up to. I obviously wasn't drinking and that made me happy. I loved spending evenings with my friends and just straight up chilling, looking at memes or having chats about life. It was special to me and I enjoyed every second of it.

The next day, James and I woke up at the same time and we went to go cook breakfast together for everyone. Pancakes, eggs and bacon. One Punch Man playing on the radio and then I went on a hike to the Pinnacles with a lot of people and it was going to be my first hike in awhile. I was excited because my friend James was going to "lead" the hike and we travelled pretty deep into the mountains and just the novelty of the adventure was what kept me going the entire time and just being surrounded by great company. After we returned I was TIRED. I was sitting in the living room square and tried talking to Kayla who was also there. It was really hard to find a topic to talk about without her just teasing me or offending her. I would hate to be on her bad side and so after a little bit of superficial talking, I gave up and knocked out. I awoke to James waking me up because we were going to set out for another hike to the hotsprings we talked about earlier that day. I was kind of excited and since it was only "2 miles" I was like sure. We set out and parked our cars near the entrance. the path was narrow, like 1 1/2 feet wide. I was like wow, this is really hard, harder than I thought it would be. After a long hour of up hills and slippery downhills, we did a rest and checked to see how far we traversed. We were barely half way there. Turns out the 2 miles was only if we travelled straight from point A to point B but it wasn't like that at all. We travelled up a mountain, down a hill and around another and then finally after another hour. We finally made it. We found a hot spring for ourselves too and it was bliss. After a relatively scary hike with blistering feet and worn out shoes, I was just relaxing peacefully in the spring and I just didn't want to leave but the thought of having to hike all the way back up and around to our original starting point, was looming in the back of my head. After like 20 minutes, we had to set out again because it was getting dark and lack of water was a real problem. Not a lot of us were experienced hikers and so the incline back up was tiring and exhausting. I was taking care of the people in the back that had trouble keeping up and made sure the group in the front weren't taking off without us. Luckily we had flashlights and a little bit of the moonlight to see the ledges to climb back up the slopes. 8pm, after 5 hours, I was so glad to see flat road and land. We got home to find dinner was already ready and we all took showers and went out to eat some good KBBQ with rice. This night I was feeling different and a lot closer to a majority of the people there and so, Let the drinking begin. After some hour later of chugging shots and alcohol, I started to feel dizzy. I wanted to prove a point. Early on in the trip, some of them underestimated me and only thought of me as a little bitch ass nigga. I wasn't about to let them think that tonight, nothing was stopping me. Until I started texting and messaging my friends, and then showing my friends the responses. I'm not sure why I didn't keep track of my phone more but when I got up to get another drink, I couldn't find it. I was for sure they were hiding it from me, and they straight up lied to my face about it. So I went ballistic. My phone was the most important thing to me and I didn't want to lose it. After awhile, I gave up and just took out my laptop and continued doing just the same thing. They thought they were protecting me, but instead they just made me even more insecure. By this time, I wasn't feeling all too well. My head started spinning and hurting everytime I moved or changed direction. I went around the house and then decided that maybe I did need to throw up. I didn't want anyone to see me in that state, so I sat in the dark in the restroom next to the toilet. They eventually found me and tried to keep me company and be my friend. I was completely cognizant of what was going on and I just didn't want to be around the same people who thought less of me. So I said a shit ton of mean things to them, hoping that it would drive them away and leave me alone. It didn't work and they just attributed my behavior to being an angry drunk. I was obviously angry and triggered but I didn't have the strength to keep going and after vommitting, I felt a ton better (my throat didn't though). I fell asleep at 2:04 AM, the youge.

I woke up at 7:30 and right again, James sat up in his sleeping bag, the same time as me and he told me stories of what happened last night even though I already remember every detail. It was nice to hear the exaggerations of the stories about me and what I did. I was glad I had friends I could trust, but last night was still not enough for their standards. I needed to do something more. I told myself, if I get a girlfriend and start dating, they definitely cannot make fun of me then. That was it. THey can't call me creepy and belittle me for being my weird and dorky self. If I found someone who liked me for who I was, that would shut them up and then I'd have a relationship with someone I care about. It's a win-win. That Sunday I was exhausted and we cleaned up and went home where I slept practically the whole ride home and then some. Definitely an eventful weekend with some interesting people. It was definitely a wild Spring Break.

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