#Actually did

[antiendofictives]

for people who are pissed that simplyplural is pro endo, theres a new app being developed called @atlas-duo!! Super cool and anti endo :))

^^^

#anti endo #did #actually did #did system #endos dni #system #endos fuck off

[lorelei-system]

Nobody seems to talk about being a little in a system who has to pretend to be a grown-up a lot. I know this may not apply to all systems, but at least for us, our child alters are a lot more like permanently age regressed adults than actual children. We can mask as adults when necessary, but that can also make us feel bad.

Sometimes I wish I was a real kid without all these responsibilities. Something as small as being praised for something that most adults take for granted makes my day. I wish I could act, and be treated, like an actual child all the time, but part of us having to stay covert and function as an adult, with an adult life, is that I have to pretend to be an adult even though I’m not.

But when I see people on here say that littles shouldn’t be on the internet at all, it confuses me. Maybe there’s some sys kids out there who aren’t mature enough to protect themselves, and take care of themselves. But for us, our littles tend to be the toughest alters. We’re the ones that have been around the longest, that had to endure some of our worst trauma. Our innocence was already stolen, so treating us like innocent children doesn’t make much sense in my opinion.

But of course, every system is different. I just find it patronizing to see random people on the internet say that it’s not good to let littles on here. Sys kids are a lot more complex than you think. We’re different because of what we’ve been through, and how much we’ve already seen.

-Sophie (she/her, little)

#did osdd #did alter #did system #osddid #actually did #osdd system #system little #sophie speaks

[pluralcultureis]

plural culture is being a fictive, and feeling intense amounts of shame because youre completely debilitated by pseudomemories. and you feel like they shouldnt effect you because it “didnt really happen”

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#endos dni #osdd #pdid #did #did system #pdid system #osddid #actually did #traumagenic #actually dissociative #plural culture is

[moonlitmeadowsys]

shoutout to systems without innerworlds and systems whose innerworlds function differently than the “norm”.

you aren’t any less of a system because of your innerworld, or lack thereof.

#system #did #osdd #osddid #did system #osdd system #dissociative system #traumagenic system #traumagenic #innerworld #sysblr #actually osdd #actually did #actually dissociative #plural system #endos dni

[lefluoritesys]

Yet another thing I don't see talked about in the DID community: the host anxiety of letting go of front.

Obviously it doesn't happen to every system, as some systems don't even have a host; but can we talk about the fear and anxiety about potentially never coming back to front if you fully let go, as a host? I dealt with it for a year and a half until I was able to actually start letting go and sitting off front for long periods of time. But there were times when 5 minutes off front fully caused me panic attacks.

This fear especially comes when you are a baby (newly discovered) system. This feeling that you built a life for yourself, and suddenly, you feel like you'll lose it to other people. And it's not that you want it all for yourself, but losing it entirely is what's scary. And there is usually a whole inner world behind you... who knows what happens inside of it, what it can do, who lives there? As well as, it's scary to let go of control of events IRL. Who knows how others would handle it, even if you know them well already?

And that's just our reasons.

Moral of the story: y'all are not alone, and it gets better.

-host

#looking at one specific system #you know who you are #did system #did #osdd #osdd system #dissociative identity disorder #did osdd #system #other specified dissociative disorder #system stuff #system things #osdd 1a #osdd 1b #actually did #actually osdd #median system #actually median #cdid system #cdid #hc did #hc did system #highly complex did #complex dissociative identity disorder #complex did #highly complex dissociative identity disorder

[zero-templates]

I made lgbt and disabled pixels for my simply plural, all the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, and disabled sets are out rn ! (though that's just the sets, I'll still be making more pixels)

( read my pinned before interacting )

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[antiendovents]

Honest the god(s) questuon

How can yoy tell if you are an endo or not?

Because I honestly feel like I don't have enough truama to be a system. But like I know im a part of one. But others have said I do have enough truama. I just need help i think

Trauma is trauma. No trauma is too little or too much. You are valid, trust me. You have enough trauma, do not worry. you're not an endo, you have trauma

#anti endo #did #did system #endos dni #plural #actually did #alters #system #endos fuck off #did osdd #Hope this doesn't sound mean 😭 #I'm really tired #But don't worry anon #You're valid #You have enough trauma #There is no such thing as not enough #Trauma is trauma

[reimeichan]

I'm a little. Biologically, I'm in my late 20s. And... I had the realization hit me last night that even though I'm a little and feel like I'm still a child, with all my childish wants and needs and fears and stuff, it doesn't change the fact that I've lived through 20-something years of my life. I have adult responsibilities and adult experiences and adult memories.

But more than that, I can't go back to being a child anymore.

My past, my childhood, I can't change any of that. The pain and traumas are real, the memories I have still haunting me. And even the moments of nostalgia I have, when I reminisce on my past... well, that's all they can be anymore. They're not my present.

And in spite of all this history I have inside of me, I still feel like a kid who didn't get the love and affection I needed. I feel stuck in time, but time always keeps marching forward even if I don't. The grass grows and the meat rots and the rocks weather. I can honor these feelings of being a kid, and give myself the things I didn't get back then. But... I'm still an adult. And I think it's also important for me to acknowledge that.

Integration is so hard. I've fused and gotten closer to so many of the other littles that now we're all sharing those moments from our childhood: happy times and sad times and even just times that existed. But I'm also closer to the adult parts, and with that comes... I dunno. I guess I'm less dissociated from my current reality and I'm more grounded now. And it feels so scary and confusing trying to navigate this new reality that I'm not used to. But I know I have people around me who can help me, from my friends and partners to the other parts of me I share a life with. It'll be okay, I think.

But for now I'm gonna mourn my past.

#did #dissociative identity disorder #actually did #actuallydid #did osdd #osddid #cdd #did little #trauma #trauma processing #by azure #with a little bit of help from gray and green

[irlminion]

So one of our alters who really struggles with doing things without commands made a pizza without any prompt to do so and then ate like a slice!

Making a pizza and eating a singular slice doesn’t seem like much but for us it’s incredibly lovely to see.

#actually did #did #did alter #did osdd #did system #dissociative identity disorder #ramcoa #traumagenic did #traumagenic system #cdd system

[rustybutterknife]

Microdosing polyamory by dating a system

#my bf does not have DID but I like to tell him that he’s microdosing polyamory #system tag #did system #plural system #osdd system #traumagenic system #sysblr #dissociative system #system stuff #dissociation #dissociative identity disorder #actually dissociative #other specified dissociative disorder #complex dissociative disorder #dissociative amnesia #dissociative alters #dissociative identities #did memes #did #did osdd #did alter #did community #actually did #hc did #plurality #pluralgang #plural community #plural stuff #plural memes

[the-messy-artist]

Has this been done yet

#actually autistic #disabled #disability #neurological problems #actually adhd #actually did #im just fucked #rambling from the berry bush

[thattheater-kid]

Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.

Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.

Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.

Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?

Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.

Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.

Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.

There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.

This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.

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[pluralcultureis]

Plural culture is just refusing to speak IRL because you hate the body's voice and how it isn't your own. A handful of us struggle with this issue.

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#endos dni #osdd #pdid #did #did system #pdid system #osddid #actually did #traumagenic #actually dissociative #plural culture is

[powerrangersystem]

#actually did #system things #osddid #dissociative identity disorder #actually mentally ill #system memes #did #mental ill meme #actually bipolar #actually bpd

[evilsystem]

being immortal and having DID must be crazy. yeah our boy Carlos hasn't fronted in 300 years and just woke up to the sound of Uptown Funk and started screaming

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[lorelei-system]

It’s interesting how there are at least 2 types of “I don’t remember that.”

1. Not remembering until the memory gets triggered/ you are confronted with evidence, and then you do remember.

2. Absolutely no evidence will bring back the memory. The memory does not exist anymore. That wasn’t me. Nope. Didn’t happen.

And then there’s “I have been told about this, and while I do not remember it, I know that it is factually correct. How do I know? I don’t know.”

I don’t even know what my point is, it’s just interesting to think about. Memories are weird, dissociation is weird. The way the highly traumatized young mind deals with memories is weird.

#did alter #did osdd #did system #osddid #actually did #osdd system