#4n4 rant

[vxm1tcxre]

This is your friendly reminder that starting pvrging is never worth it

You might think it will help you restrict/be in control, but it won’t. There’s a good chance you’ll just end up developing bul1m14 like I did, and you can pretty much kiss any sense of control over food goodbye.

Beyond that you’ll feel like utter shit all the time. You could get tonsil stones (if you don’t know what that is, look it up, but be warned they’re pretty gross), constantly have cuts, sores, and rippage inside your mouth and on your tongue, you’ll bloat like crazy anytime you eat anything, you’ll get awful gas, your lips will chap so bad they bleed, you have a good chance of getting acne on the skin around your lips, and so much more. It also increases the likelihood that you’ll develop esophageal cancer and gastrointestinal disorders.

I can’t tell you what to do, but I can tell you with full honesty from my firsthand experience- it is not worth it.

#@n@ thoughts #anna rex #m14 rant #4n4 rant #tw eedee descussion #trans ana #m14blr #bullemya #pro bullemia #actually bul1m1c #pvrging #b1ng3 purg3 #b1ng3 #st4rv1ng #💡as a 🪶 #im fat and disgusting #i want to lose weight #eedee descussion #tw eedee

[analanaisdying]

I’m kind of tempted to try recovery. With everything. I just feel like I’m going down a hole and I feel worse than I ever have before in my life. I can’t picture the future, I can’t do anything. I’m flunking out of school. I can’t picture myself ever getting married or having kids anymore. I feel like the only thing my future holds is complete destruction. I can see myself becoming homeless even. Mental illness isn’t fun. I fucking hate everything about myself. I would give anything to be normal.

But I’m so scared of antipsychotics because they’re notorious for causing weight gain. I don’t even know how I’d exist if I gained weight.

#th1n #th1nsp1ration #ana d13t #th1nspi #sk1nny #mia diet #weight loss #r3x1e #r3xie #rex1e #chronic mental illness #mental illness #mental health #actually mentally ill #schitzoaffective #schitzospec #schizophrenia #bipolar #bipolar 1 #4n4 #4n4 d1et #4n0r3xia #4norexi4 #4n4 rant #Ed #3d #anti psychotics #psychotic #psychosis #bpd

[cantdoana]

I HATE WORKING OUT!!!!!!! dont go "f4t behaviour!" I barely go over 500 cals but i just HATE working out!!!!!!

#ed rant #ana routine #im crying #pro for me #ed relapse #ed vent #tw selfhate #ana jokes #mealspo #ana rant #4n4 rant #aaaaah

[strwbrrylover]

eds are so weird. its like rn, my brain is SO kind to me. its all like yes baby, you don't need food it's ok, you're going to be so pretty and dainty. no hunni don't eat that, it's okay i got you girl lots of love xx <3 <3 and then the thing i know its like, you're a fat fucking pig why don't you just die, you're so ugly. you're never gonna be perfect. LIKE ???? it feels like i have two friends living in my head and they keep CLASHING with each other. PLS just let me be a skeleton 😩🤧

#4n4 rant

[failinghuman101]

i treat my ed like a competition, even with people who I KNOW dont have eds.

ffs when im out with my friends or on a family dinner i will make a mental spreadsheet of everything other people ate and track THEIR calories as well to make sure my cals are the lowest in the room.

if any of my ed-having friends are present i WILL go insane trying to encourage them to eat, tracking their cals and then mine, analyzing every single move, etc etc

hence the reason i dont step out of the house

#rant #4n4 rant #tw 4n4 diary #im doing it for attention #i hate it i hate it i hate it #its kinda funny but i realized normal people dont do this

[gumchewiie]

Im gonna cry some girls I hang out with called me fat basically by saying my butt was big (as a clear insult)i hate school and I hate this.

#ed not ed sheeran #tw ana diary #4n4blr #4n4rexia #4n0r3xia #3dn0s #3dblrr #4n4 rant

[cyberblight]

My heart goes out to all the p0rn bots on here who have 3atingdi$0rd3r$ 💔

#i wanna be small #model thin #ana trigger #3dblr #proanni #low cal restriction #4n0r3x14 #4n4 rant #3d f4st #n0t pr0 #cbposts #ed🦋 #4n4 blog #ed but not sheeran

[fearofheights9]

This is just how it’s gonna be I guess. I’ll recover for a while but then I’ll relapse, just not long enough to actually get skinny and then I’ll binge and that makes me wanna recover again and then it’ll all happen again. I’ll never get out

#means I’ll be fat forever basically #anarecja #anarekcia #i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4nami4 #4norexia #4n0rexic #4n4 rant #4n4 relapse

[porcelainchurch]

ok Hi im triggered ! my mum just described one of her friend's daughter as being super skinny and looking like she has an ed and now i'm just so competitive and feel like utter shitand i wanna kms . i looked up her ig and Yeah she def has an ed and now with my mum saying that i feel like i have to be skinnier than her to even consider myself sick and i HATE how my mum keeps pointing out emaciated people in public saying 'look they have anorexia' which enforces the idea that i have to look a certain way to be valid and i feel like my bmi of under 14 was bs and not even that serious at all !!!!!!! wtf am i on about i was never fucking sick in the first place i don't have a problem and never did i fucking hate myself AND i'm losing weight i'm just not that skinny yet because it's been Five Days (and even in these five days i've gotten noticably thinner bc i just Can't Eat more than one meal a day) i hate my mother sometimes even though i know she doesn't do it on purpose

she also had anorexia when she was in her twenties and i feel like she's belittling me even though i know that's not true and she just wants to help and 'scare me out of it' but it feels so fucking invalidating !

seriously i feel like utter fucking garbage i wanna die and just Starve even more i will go to extreme fucking lengths to prove to her that i'm just as fucking sick as all these other people i won't fucking quit until i have a heart attack and drop dead .

i just need someone to tell me i'm sick and valid. that my suffering hasn't been for nothing.

#tw ana thoughts #4n0r3x1c #4na tw #4n0r3x14 #4na vent #4na blog #4n4 blog #4na rant #4n4 rant #an0r3x14 #an0r3xi4 #mai's diary 2022 ୨♡୧

[whelveny]

my toxic trait is getting inspired that im back on my ed again but choosing to give myself 1 more day to binge like i haven't been doing that already 🙄

#4norex1c #pr0m1a #restrictive ed #an0rex1a #4n4 blog #tw 4n4 #4n4 thoughts #4n4 rant #4n4r3x1c #4n4 log #ed diet #ed ana #ed

[tinyyypleaseee]

i need so badly to lose weight because then maybe someone will actually want me! like, i am not good at anything so if i can’t have a personality might as well be pretty, unfortunately, i am SHIT at self control

#4n4 rant #pro recovery #block don’t report #i wanna be pretty

[mightgetsomewhere]

I honestly can’t wait to go start college. I’m going to be living on my own, studying so hard i forget to eat, getting my steps in at the national park right near it, and best of all, no one will have known me when I was at my highest weight.

Everyone saw me when I was borderline overweight, when I wore the same pair of sweatpants all winter because I had eaten myself out of all the others, when I wore a crop top and showed off (as if I was proud of it) my muffin top and giant stretch marks on my hips, when I cried over the skinny girls in my swimming lessons, when my only gym partner was the teacher, when I was so bad at everything we did in that class that I was put together with the girl who never tried and the mentally disabled girl.

I was always the weird kid. I was the ‘ugly lesbian’ who cried at everything and the girl that the popular girls warned each other not to be like. I came in senior year with the ugliest haircut of my life, and at the highest weight I’d ever been.

i graduated at the lowest weight I’d been since I stopped puberty; the weight I had been when I was 13 and doing musical rehearsals all day. i didn’t change anyone’s opinions of me. I was and always would be the weird kid to them.

but now at least I’m pretty.

and no one at college will know i was ever different.

#Here’s to praying against the freshman fifteen #tw ed sheeran #4narex1a #4n4 rant #4n4 things #ed vent #th1n$po #sweetsp0

[xxb0rderline-kitt3nxx]

Desperately need to get back on track— I’m never fasting again. That shit doesn’t work for me it just makes me go into endless hunger. High res works so much better

#ana rant #4n4 rant

[gumchewiie]

Why does costco food have so much c4ls.. My mom forced me to eat and got costco sandwiches and im not a purge girlie but...

#ed not ed sheeran #4n0r3xia #3dn0s #i wanna be weightless #tw ana diary #tw ana shit #ana dairy #4n4 rant #4n0rexic #4n4blr #4n4rexia #4norexla #4n0r3x14

[cyberblight]

How do I keep forgetting that the worst part about restriction is restarting it after months of binging 

#I have such big headaches #and I can't sleep #sk1n and b0nes #4n4 rant #3d f4st #4n0r3x14 #3dblr #I wanna be small #ana trigger #ed but not sheeran #sk11ny #an4mia #cbposts

[my-r3lapse-is-here-to-stay]

I haven't eaten in 16hrs and now I feel like stuffing my face because I have the utmost shitty "friends". I'm fucking 25 and people still be acting like infants.

And then they fucking try to gaslight you and make it seem like YOU are the problem. Nah bitch, you can fuck right off mkay.

#4n4 diet #b1ng3 #4n4 diary #4n4re$ick #4n4r3x1c #4n4 rant #4n4 vent #tw ed out loud #tw ed vent #tw ed relapse