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vxm1tcxre · 2 months

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Me when those ED’ed people lecture me about how “unhealthy” I am because I eat junk food sometimes,,,

be so for real, we’re all actively shortening our life expectancy by like 20 years by doing this shit. In the long term, you’re not gonna end up much better than someone who eats 5 value meals from McDonald’s every day.

It’s all disordered and the fact that you have 500 c4ls of strawberries and rice cakes every day doesn’t make you better than anyone else. Get off your high horse and stop deluding yourself into thinking you’re the Regina George of 3ds.

Plus I pvrge, abuse medication, and sm0ke almost every day lmao. I promise, my 290 c4l lil treat from Dairy Queen to keep me sane is not what’s gonna wreck my health.

Anyway! this is your reminder that if someone didn’t ask for it, take your nutrition “advice” and/or m34nsp0 and shove it up your dainty self-righteous anus. Xoxo I’ll be praying on your downfall and laughing when the honeymoon phase is over and your wrecked metabolism bites you in the ass /hj

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vxm1tcxre · 3 months

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My toxic trait is that every time I see a m34lsp0 pic on Pinterest that has a comment saying “not a meal 🥺🥺🥺” or “I hope you get better plz fuel your body uwu” I make double sure to save it to my board and aspire to make my meals more like it

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vxm1tcxre · 3 months

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Hot take but liquid c4ls > solid food

Sugary coffee drinks and hot chocolate are the only good parts of being alive imo

#@n@ thoughts #anna rex #m14blr #trans ana #tw eedee descussion #💡as a 🪶#st4rv1ng #trans ed #ana meal #3d c4ls #mia cals #4n4 cals #eating discord #d1s0rd3r3d 34t1ng #food problems #im fat and disgusting #anna rexya #actually bul1m1c #bullemya

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vxm1tcxre · 3 months

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This is your friendly reminder that starting pvrging is never worth it

You might think it will help you restrict/be in control, but it won’t. There’s a good chance you’ll just end up developing bul1m14 like I did, and you can pretty much kiss any sense of control over food goodbye.

Beyond that you’ll feel like utter shit all the time. You could get tonsil stones (if you don’t know what that is, look it up, but be warned they’re pretty gross), constantly have cuts, sores, and rippage inside your mouth and on your tongue, you’ll bloat like crazy anytime you eat anything, you’ll get awful gas, your lips will chap so bad they bleed, you have a good chance of getting acne on the skin around your lips, and so much more. It also increases the likelihood that you’ll develop esophageal cancer and gastrointestinal disorders.

I can’t tell you what to do, but I can tell you with full honesty from my firsthand experience- it is not worth it.

#@n@ thoughts #anna rex #m14 rant #4n4 rant #tw eedee descussion #trans ana #m14blr #bullemya #pro bullemia #actually bul1m1c #pvrging #b1ng3 purg3 #b1ng3 #st4rv1ng #💡as a 🪶#im fat and disgusting #i want to lose weight #eedee descussion #tw eedee

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vxm1tcxre · 21 days

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“Guys don’t like f4t girls 🤭🤭🤭🥰🥰🥰🧸🧸🧸🧸🎀🎀🎀🎀👹👹👹👹🥀🥀🥀🥀 st4rv3 2 be dainty and feminine and petite so he’ll love you!!!!”

My reaction (I am aggressively ace+arospec, a whole ass trans man, and actively fantasizing about looking like a repulsive skeleton):

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vxm1tcxre · 9 days

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Lemme take a moment to deromanticize 3ds, if you don’t mind.

I have severe bul1m14. for years now, I have been trying to quit bping, only to get progressively worse as time has gone on- to the point where I get lucky if I make it through a single day without binging and pvrging once. On bad days, I will do so up to 5 times. Hell, I even have ever-so-slight bruising on my knees from spending so much time kneeling in front of bags and toilets, among countless other symptoms and places where my 3d has left it’s ugly mark.

Today was my birthday party. A celebration of my life. I had friends over. We visited a fun place in my city. They gave me gifts and we played games.

And did I get to enjoy it? Did I get to have fun with my friends and appreciate spending time with the people I love? Was it a good day? Will I remember it as such?

Of course not.

Like clockwork, I b1ng3d on the pizza and cupcakes my mom bought for me and my friends. I have consumed approximately 4800+ c4lories in a single day.

I have spent the last three hours after my friends went home locked in my room, trying to pvrge, but since I have abused my body so much, my gag reflex barely works. All I managed was to cough and choke up thick, viscous mucus and tiny chunks of pizza crust.

I am so full I can’t move without excruciating pain. I swear I can feel my bloated stomach pressing against my ribs, pushing them out. It feels like I’m about to explode. I want nothing more than to v0m1t- not only because I fear the weight gain, barely at this point. But because I am in such excruciating, unbearable pain and I just want this alien invader of carbs and sugar out of my damn body.

I have shoved an extension cord, the eraser end of a pencil, and the dirty toothbrush with bite marks on the handle from exclusively using it as my tool to pvrge because my fingers no longer suffice as far as they can possibly go down my throat to try and get some relief. Nothing.

I swallowed 3 heaping spoonfuls of baking soda and chugged seltzer water to try and give myself sodium poisoning.

I swallowed about 8 of my adhd pills and whatever antidepressants I had left, hoping they’d make me sick and push the food out of my stomach.

Nothing has worked. I am sitting in my bathroom, because I can’t lie down without acid flooding my esophagus, and praying that my stomach doesn’t burst open from the sheer volume of food I’ve shoved inside myself, begging the universe to not let me die.

I don’t want to die curled on the bathroom floor around my horrendously distended stomach, next to the scale I’m terrified to have to step on tomorrow morning. I don’t want my heartbroken parents to look through my things after I’m gone and find the bags of cold, rotten v0m1t hidden around my room.

Today was my fucking birthday party.

And instead of looking back fondly at this day, looking forward for things to come, I’m crying on my bathroom floor because I’m so fucking f4t and in so much pain I wish I could just sl1c3 my stomach open to remove a single ounce of the pressure against my insides.

But I can’t.

It will never stop.

I will never be able to enjoy days like these.

#skinandbonesfightback #skin&🩻#m14blr #anna rex #trans ana #tw eedee descussion #bullemya #im fat and disgusting #💡as a 🪶#actually bul1m1c #m34n$p0 #th11n$p0 #skin&bones #skinand🩻fightback #sk1n&🩻#skin&🦴fightback #trans ed #bully mia #th1np0

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vxm1tcxre · 13 days

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Testing today at school. I ate 900 c4ls. not one of my friends bothered to wait, or even ask when I’d be done, and they all went off to celebrate without me. So for the next two hours, instead of having a little treat at a restaurant with them, im gonna walk around the track until I feel like v0m1t1ng and can’t summon the strength to think about it anymore. :)

#skinandbonesfightback #skin&🦴fightback #skin&🩻#🦴#🩻#sk1n&🩻#sk1n4ndb0n3 #anna rex #m14blr #trans ana #actually bul1m1c #skin&🦴#skin&🩻fightback #skin&bones #bullemya #im fat and disgusting #💡as a 🪶#trans ed

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vxm1tcxre · 11 days

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CAN THIS FUCKING BITCH GET OUT OF YHE FUCKING BATHROOM I NEED TO PVRGE JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WHATS TAKING SO DAMN LONG OH MY GOD GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT ALREADY I CAN FEEL IT DIGESTING EHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU EVEN DOING IN THERE

#skin&🩻fightback #skin&🩻#skin&🦴fightback #m14blr #trans ana #bully mia #tw eedee descussion #@n@ thoughts #bullemya #im fat and disgusting #skin&🦴#💡as a 🪶#🩻#actually bul1m1c #trans ed #anna rex

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vxm1tcxre · 2 months

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Not much compared to what other people do but I’ve been liquid f4sting for 23 hours and plan on going longer. 34 hrs at least if not more.

I consumed a little under 200 c4ls from coffee, monster, and protein hot chocolate but have burned all of that and then some, so I’m in the negatives, and hoping to get some more steps in before bed :)

I’ve been so off track for so long with constant b1ng1ng and pvrg1ng that this feels like a huge step.

(Even tho I’m at a higher w31ght than I’ve been for a while, but I prefer not to think about that)

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