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Just wanted to let everyone coming here for the memes know that I’ve recovered. I think for real this time.

I’m leaving this blog up bc it was certainly a moment in my life and you know what, venting isn’t a bad thing. Maybe I’ll get banned at some point, I don’t care.

Anyway, life is good. Fuck calories, I’m literally eating Easter eggs right now

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Me: I’m not gonna prioritize exercise this relapse bc eating less does a whole lot more than exercising

Also me as soon as I get a few days off: walks a casual 30.000 steps in a day on top of dancing with time to spare

#I feel great tho I love getting lost in my city #i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #4namia #4n0rexia #4n4 buddy #4n4rexia #4norexic #ed bllog #tw ed sheeran #ed but not sheeran #@na motivation #@n@ trigger #ed disorder #tw restrictive ed #4na relapse

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Okay so I don’t weigh myself and I avoid body checking bc I’m so fat I’ll just make myself upset but I couldn’t hold myself anymore and I checked my legs and IVE MADE SO MUCH PROGRESS??? IN TWO WEEKS???

I can’t believe this I’m so happy

I’m not quite there for a thigh gap yet but oh my god this is incredible

#I could cry #I had a really shitty day food wise so in my head I blew up like a balloon but THIS #i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #4n4 motivation #4na #a4a diary #4namia #ed but not sheeran #tw ed sheeran #Ed bllog #ed disorder #i hate my body #@n@ trigger #@na motivation #@nor3×14 #4n0rexia #skinnni

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No better th1nspo than the instagrams of the people I met during inpatient

#hits different #i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #ed bllog #ed but not sheeran #edblrr #4n0rexia #4namia #4n4m14 #@n@ trigger #@na motivation #@nor3×14 #skinnni #th1nsp1r4t10n #just ana things #thiinn #i need to lose this weight

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If people can live with chronic pain, you can live with hunger

#humans can get used to anything #i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #ed bllog #skinnni #skinnnyy #@n@ trigger #@na motivation #4namia #4n0rexia #4n4m14 #4norexic #ed but not sheeran #tw ed sheeran #ed disorder #pro for me not for thee #notprojustusingthetags

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rounding up calories vs rounding up weight

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I remembered purging exists I’m good now 😇

I ate a pastry (?) tonight and I baked it myself and I know all the calories but I still feel so bad about it I wasn’t even hungry.

Cravings are the worst, but remember!!! It’s better to plan it and have it and control it then to binge on it later

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I ate a pastry (?) tonight and I baked it myself and I know all the calories but I still feel so bad about it I wasn’t even hungry.

Cravings are the worst, but remember!!! It’s better to plan it and have it and control it then to binge on it later

#i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #ed but not sheeran #tw ed sheeran #4n4 buddy #4n0rexia #4na tips #4n0rexic #@n@ trigger #@na vent #i hate my body #skinnni #🦋tw

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Free th1nsp0 in the leg wear section of any alternative fashion site

#other categories too but legs really do it for me #i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #tw ed sheeran #ed but not sheeran #th1nsp1r4t10n #just ana things #thiinn #thinnspi #i need to lose this weight #i hate my body #th1gh gap #th11n$po #thinspi #th1n$pø #thin$po #i wanna be thinner #th1gh g@p #th11n$p0 #th1nnsp0 #i will be thinner #th1n$po #4namia #4n0rexia

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"omg i could never eat that much!!"

me having my only meal for the day:

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memes l made bc yeah idk

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I’m on holiday for a week and I finally get to do my hot girl walks again, just getting slightly lost in the city with good music and a black coffee it’s SUCH a vibe

#i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #ed but not sheeran #edd diet #ed blr #ed bllog #ed disorder #4n4 buddy #4n0rexia #@n@ trigger #@na motivation #4n4r3x1a

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I got a Snapchat reminder and it was just a pic of some scientific article and I underlined a bunch of pills and I was like what why but it’s all prescription pills that suppress your appetite

And the important context here is that at that time I was inpatient for my eating disorder I SCREAM

#I see what you were doing Jeremi you’re just an idiot for not deleting the pic #i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #anarecja #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #ed but not sheeran #ed disorder #ed bllog #@na motivation #@nor3×14 #4norexia #4n0rexia #4n0rexic #4na tips

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Wow my anemic under eye circles came back REAL fast

#i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #ed but not sheeran #ed bllog #ed disorder #i hate my body #i want to be slim #4n4rexia #4norexia #4n4m1a #@na trigger #@n@ trigger #@nor3xia

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reblog if you’re an active 3d blog oct. of 2023 18+

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4na math is writing down 210cals for 3 spoons of rice but just in case you do extra small scoops and whatever let’s make it two spoons anyway

#i want to be weightless #bul1m14 #bul1m1c #tw ana shit #st4rv1ng #ed not sheeren #ed not sherran #4n0r3xia #ed bllog #ed disorder #I hate my body #4norexic #4namia #4narex1a #notprojustusingthetags #@nor3×14 #@n0r3xia #@tw edd