#17. “i'd like to [be with you]. but i think that i can't be happy. nor can i make you happy.”

[inkskinned]

im having a particularly terrible night with urges and imagery that i dont know how to handle. i gave in to some things. held back on some others. but im barely holding on, dear internet stranger.

you do not owe me your time or your words.. but if you could write some hope into existence for me.. i would be unendingly grateful to you.

please. tell me how you do it. tell me how you survive. because im not so sure i can get through the fifteen days it'll take to get to my seventeenth birthday.

could you please give me something to place my faith in? i dont think the universe is watching out for me anymore.

i don't usually answer these, because i am not a professional, and you deserve professional help. when i was 17 i was terrified of the idea of professional help, because my household was extremely unsafe, and made it clear that if i ever chose to get help, i would be punished for it.

i hope this is not your case. i hope that you can call someone, and they can take you where you should go.

but i will give you the advice that i wish i got, when i couldn't get help at 17, when i was so bad that years later, i literally don't-know-how-i-survived it: what you want is peace, not death. your brain is sick. it has romanticized an ending where there are no consequences. where effort isn't necessary. where you can just... forget.

you want peace. that is a normal, human thing to want. maybe it feels more like you want quiet. or just... to take a break for a second.

here is what i will say: to end yourself means you never get to experience what it's like to actually be happy. i thought i knew what it was like, and i was bitter about it. i'd say - i've been happy, it's not worth it, because i didn't know what i was missing. i thought that happiness meant having a partner or having a job or money or a college degree. it sounded like effort. it sounded like something that had to happen to me.

for the first time in my life, just this week, i was able to go to a concert and just-enjoy-it. no liquor, no drugs. just stomping my feet and getting caught up in it. i didn't feel nervous or self-conscious or overwhelmed. i just had a good time. these days have a lot of these firsts for me - it is the first time i can eat cake without crying. it is the first time i can be around an exacto blade without supervision. it is the first time i have too many people to call when i am crying.

i can't tell you where you'll run into happiness, only that, for me, it started once i was out of that fucking house. it started once i figured out where the pain was coming from. once i figured out that i was not possessed, something medical was wrong with me. that i am not stupid or lazy, i have depression and adhd. the first few years were difficult. at 19, during my efforts to recover, i actually got worse by a considerable margin. and then, with time and patience - i got better.

happiness doesn't feel like what you think it will. in movies it's so golden and all-encompassing. but it doesn't fly into your hands when you buy your first car nor does it arrive in the arms of a partner nor does it require passing your classes. happiness came to me on a tuesday in the form of a red-winged blackbird, and i looked at her, and she looked at me, and i said - oh. the whole world suddenly filled itself in with color. like i had been forever-asleep. like every corner of every room was suddenly glistening.

it ended quickly, back then. it just stopped in to check in on me. but it was enough - this thing i had never experienced, but that i knew (logically) could happen. before that, i was only staying because it would make my mom sad if i died. that was my only reason. and then the happiness came, so strange and brilliant and lovely that for years i couldn't even look at it directly.

these days, things are so different. life is so much easier. i don't wish for death because so much of what i have is already at peace. my boss understands when i need a mental health day. people in general are less prone to high school drama. entire communities hold my hand and have my number. i have a car and a dog and a little apartment garden and candles on all available surfaces and today i bought myself a little cake just-to-celebrate-nothing. my body is my own and we are both dancing.

there are so many things i've gotten to taste in the last 10 years. i know, for you, that is an eon, because it's more than half of your life. but if it helps? in the 5 years between 17-21: i filled myself with laughter and love. i got to be a lead in a ballet and got my first tattoo and then my second and pierced my ears the way i'd wanted to (one of them professionally the other over a hot stove with a potato) and i discovered hozier is my favorite singer (i know. he was new back then) and i got my first real job and my first real paycheck and i hadn't ever been seen as smart but then i started to actually treat my adhd as a condition rather than a burden and people started saying you're like the smartest person in the room and my best friend met her husband who i will one day stand next to as maid of honor when he is her groom and i got to help people and make a stupid blog called "inkskinned" and find out that writing is actually my passion and that maybe i'm actually kind of good at it if i just practice and i got to meet my parents' dog (his name is kaiju) and i slept on couches and kissed people and tried new things and learned how to breathe without feeling my chest tighten and that peace is here, on this planet, that peace echoes everywhere, it is in my hair and my homework and my houseplants, it is quiet and divine and mine because i fought for it and i built it and yes i lost hair over it but holy shit the whole world feels like it is shifted through a sunbeam

recently someone asked me if i could go back in time to 6th grade, with all the knowledge i have now, would i? and without thinking, i barked absolutely not. i know i should say it's because i wouldn't want to risk losing any of this stuff - but really it's because i would never survive being a teenager again. it sounds incredibly lame and impossible, fake - but being a teenager was the hardest thing i ever did. i had no voice, no control, only fear and hatred.

but i did survive it. nothing about me is special. nothing about me is stronger than you or better prepared or more efficient. i didn't survive it perfectly. i made a lot of mistakes and lost a lot of friends and harmed myself in ways that i'm still recovering from. but i did survive it. and there is a part of me looking at you in the past and saying - i'm you in the future.

and holy shit. every day. every goddamn day i'm glad we survived to see the rest of it. because you hit 18 and everything changes. like, everything. and holy shit, it is infinitely worth it.

#i hope you are okay #i wish i could help more #i hope the pain eases soon #and i hope that you stay #ps . to those of you reading this thinking i should help you too: please just dm me #it makes me really #really really scared when it's anonymous #bc i cant check in with u #i am not a professional and i am not actually good at helping ppl through their troubles #this is an exception bc they are 16 #not the rule #ps if u misunderstand ''being a teenager is the hardest thing i ever did'' when i mention briefly that i was in unsafe housing... #trust me. it was worse there. by like A HUGE margin #every person raised in unsafe housing nodding their head like . oh yeah worse stuff TECHNICALLY happened after but leaving that home was #legit the hardest thing i ever did

[iinsertblognamee]

hi sam

summary ― sam and y/n throughout the years

pairing ― sam kerr x reader

warning/s ― fluff

2012

yn

liked by samanthakerr20, alannakennedy and 103 others yn hi sam

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alannakennedy so anti-social ⤷ yn she begs me to come over and then sits on her phone the whole time

caitlinfoord how much for you to slap her? ⤷ yn i'd do it for free ⤷ samanthakerr20 she slapped me

samanthakerr20 and i have not been ignoring you this whole time ⤷ yn sure sure

samanthakerr20

liked by caitlinfoord, yn and 132 others samanthakerr20 taken by yn

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yn you are most welcome

emilyvanegmond10 who's the animal next to indi? ⤷ samanthakerr20 ha ha

caitlinfoord what are you two doing up so late? ⤷ yn sorry mum

yn

liked by alannakennedy, samanthakerr20 and 129 others yn go team!

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mackenziearnold aww cuties ⤷ yn not as cute as us ⤷ mackenziearnold flirt

samanthakerr20 my favourite cheerleader

caitlinfoord send this through ⤷ yn no x ⤷ caitlinfoord samanthakerr20 fix this

alannakennedy she's my cheerleader samanthakerr20 ⤷ samanthakerr20 funny

samanthakerr20

liked by mackenziearnold, yn and 152 others samanthakerr20 lets gooo

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yn mackenziearnold my favourite ⤷ mackenziearnold hehe making me blush

samanthakerr20 what is this ? yn

caitlinfoord what is wrong with our faces? ⤷ yn what do you think I've been saying for months now?

emilyvanegmond10 proud

2013

yn

liked by caitlinfoord, samanthakerr20 and 142 others yn don't leave your phone unattended around these three

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emilyvanegmond10 im innocent ⤷ yn you're literally in the photo ⤷ yn can't get more hard-hitting evidence than this

samanthakerr20 who's the cute one in the middle? ⤷ yn where?

mackenziearnold i wouldn't do that to you yn ⤷ yn i love you ⤷ samanthakerr20 hey

samanthakerr20

liked by mackenziearnold, yn and 138 others samanthakerr20 i think she might be onto something

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yn i am a genius ⤷ samanthakerr20 i wouldn't go that far

alannakennedy hi pretty lady and samanthakerr20 ⤷ yn mwah ⤷ samanthakerr20 why does everyone flirt with you in my comments? ⤷ caitlinfoord she's hot

mackenziearnold take me next time ⤷ yn is that a date? ⤷ samanthakerr20 no

yn

liked by alannakennedy, samanthakerr20 and 105 others yn i met my celebrity crushes !!! (so jealous that sam got to stand next to them)

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alannakennedy love meeting our fans!

caitlinfoord i am so jealous ⤷ caitlinfoord how'd samanthakerr20 manage to get a photo with them? ⤷ yn she pushed me out of the way... ⤷ caitlinfoord brutal

mackenziearnold next time i want a photo with you ⤷ mackenziearnold maybe even your number ⤷ yn yes please

samanthakerr20 i hate you all ⤷ yn ouch

samanthakerr20

liked by yn, caitlinfoord and 142 others samanthakerr20 happy birthday lovie

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caitlinfoord HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTIE yn ⤷ yn I LOVE YOU

alannakennedy happy birthday cutie ⤷ yn hehe thanksss

emilyvanegmond10 happy birthday yn !! ⤷ yn hehe thankss em

mackenziearnold did sam force you into that shirt? ⤷ yn yes... ⤷ mackenziearnold i am so sorry ⤷ mackenziearnold i have your birthday gift in my room, if you wanna join me ⤷ samanthakerr20 stop flirting with my girlfriend

2014

yn

liked by emilyvanegmond10, caitlinfoord and 104 others yn maybe she'll this on her phone?

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caitlinfoord push her

mackenziearnold push her

emilyvanegmond10 push her

alannakennedy push her

yn LATE UPDATE ⤷ yn she saw the post ⤷ yn i pushed her ⤷ yn im now locked in the bathroom ⤷ yn someone help me

samanthakerr20 you can't hide in there forever yn ⤷ yn watch me

samanthakerr20

liked by yn, alannakennedy and 132 others samanthakerr20 why do i like you again?

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yn cause im pretty ⤷ yn duh

caitlinfoord become a tattoo artist yn ⤷ yn i should aye

alannakennedy do me next ⤷ yn hehe okayyyy ⤷ samanthakerr20 for a tattoo right ⤷ samanthakerr20 right ⤷ alannakennedy if that will make you feel better about it ⤷ alannakennedy than sure

samanthakerr20

liked by caitlinfoord, alannakennedy and 92 others samanthakerr20 just me

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caitlinfoord call when you can

alannakennedy ❤️

mackenziearnold text me x

2020

samanthakerr20

liked by emilyvanegmond10, caitlinfoord and 36,044 others samanthakerr20 keen

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mackenziearnold blue looks good on you ⤷ samanthakerr20 making me blush ⤷ caitlinfoord red would look so much better

emilyvanegmond10 cheering!

alannakennedy so excited for you sammy

yn liked your post

yn

liked by alannakennedy, samanthakerr20 and 293 others yn spent most of the game teaching her the rules of football

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yourfriend it's soccer ⤷ yn shutup

yourfriend plus i only went to watch hot girls ⤷ yourfriend sorry not sorry

samanthakerr20 hope you enjoyed the game x

alannakennedy pretty

samkerrnews

liked by 1,289 others samkerrnews "I had an old friend in the crowd today, so I wanted to give her a good show" - Sam to some fans when asked about her celebration after her goal in today's game

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fan12 old friend... her... okay sam

fan26 jealous knowing that sam has friends that isn't me

fan38 she's so pretty !!

fan57 guys i think i found the friend ⤷ fan57 she's following like half the matildas team and sam ⤷ fan57 and she was at the game today ⤷ fan57 and sam commented on her post ⤷ fan57 her account is yn

samkerrbiggestfan

like by 738 others samkerrbiggestfan guys, i think they used to date??

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fan12 wot

fan83 that is so cute!!

fan47 gold digger, she comes running back now that sam is getting big

fan39 they seem so cute together

fan31 can we appreciate how small sam is in all of these ??

2021

samanthakerr20

liked by yn, alannakennedy and 192,038 others samanthakerr20 hi yn

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caitlinfoord my parents ⤷ yn hello child ⤷ samanthakerr20 i didn't agree to this

alannakennedy look at you two! ⤷ yn mwah

mackenziearnold i thought you were gonna give us a go yn ⤷ samanthakerr20 never gonna happen ⤷ yn sam don't read this ⤷ yn I'll always be yours mackenziearnold

fan82 so frickin cute!

fan63 im literally in that photo! ⤷ fan63 yn is so sweet ⤷ fan63 she got sam to take a photo with me and my friend ⤷ fan63 and literally let us eat her snacks with her during the game

zeciramusovic but when i do that to yn i get in trouble? ⤷ yn she has such double standards

elliecarpenterr my mums ⤷ yn have you been eating your fruits and veggies? ⤷ samanthakerr20 call us when you get home xx

greiten let me get you one of my jerseys for the next game? ⤷ samanthakerr20 no ⤷ yn awe that would be amazing ⤷ samanthakerr20 no ⤷ yn i could collect the whole team samanthakerr20 ⤷ samanthakerr20 no ⤷ samanthakerr20 kerr is the only name allowed on your back ⤷ yn so possessive ⤷ yn go one further, get me a ring x

2022

yn instagram story

#sam kerr x reader #sam kerr imagines #sam kerr imagine #woso imagine #woso imagines #woso x reader

[andorerso]

INTRODUCING REBELCAPTAIN SMUT WEEKEND MONTH

I'd made a promise to make something smutty, and I'm here to keep that promise. In the legacy of the much beloved Rebelcaptain Smut Weekend, I'm organizing a Rebelcaptain Smut Weekend Month! Since I felt like a single weekend was just not enough time for all the smutty goodness, I thought why not do four weekends instead? This gives us more to look forward to and more time to create.

SCHEDULE: the event will run during May, every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday (so that means May 3-5, 10-12, 17-19, and 24-26)

RULES

✩ the obvious ones: your creation has to be about Jyn and Cassian, and since it's a smut themed month, it should be at least a little spicy!

✩ I'll be using the tag rcsmutmonth for organization. feel free to tag your creations with it too so we can all find each other's works!

✩ no sign-ups required, anyone can participate. if you see a prompt you like, and you want to make something for it, go ahead!

✩ any type of fanwork is welcome! fanfic, fanart, gifset, graphics, rec lists... you name it.

✩ I provided nine prompts for each weekend as inspiration, but don't feel constricted if you don't like them. the point of this event is to encourage more smutty content for our beloved ship, so if you have other ideas in mind, go for it! as for the prompts, use as many as you like and mix them up if you want to.

✩ generally, I encourage you guys to post on the weekend, but don't feel bad if you can't get it done on time. this is a low-commitment, low-pressure event. we're all busy irl so if you're lagging a little behind, post it anyway! we'll be happy to see it whenever it's ready <3

✩ tag appropriately! if triggers or kinks appear in your work, don't forget to list them.

✩ any other questions, thoughts, ideas? let me know! this is my first time organizing such an event, so I'm sure I'm forgetting something

PROMPTS UNDER THE CUT

✩ May 3-5

last night on earth sex ┃ distraction ┃ "Touch me already."

sex pollen ┃ aphrodisiac ┃ "Tell me how much you want me."

"we're alive" sex ┃ birthday ┃ "I want you to take whatever you need from me."

✩ May 10-12

wet dream ┃ forbidden┃ "Want me to stop?" "Don't you dare."

hate/angry sex ┃ favor ┃ "We can wait if you want-" "We've waited long enough."

praise kink ┃ possessive ┃ "Tell me I'm the one. Tell me there's no one else."

✩ May 17-19

orgasm denial ┃ strip ┃ "Do I need to tie you up?"

snowed in ┃ undercover ┃ "Convince me this is real."

under the stars ┃ uniform ┃ "Say my name. I want to hear you say it."

✩ May 24-26

make-up sex ┃ elevator ┃ "I can’t get off unless I’m thinking about you."

accidental voyeurism ┃ sparring ┃ "Think we'll get caught?"

reunion sex ┃ honeymoon ┃ "On your knees, Captain/Sergeant."

#rebelcaptain #therebelcaptainnetwork #dailyrebelcaptain #rcsmutmonth #swfandomevents #rogue one #jyn erso #reblogs appreciated even if you don't plan to participate #let's spread the word <3 #im weirdly nervous i've never done anything like this before #cassian andor

[barcalover86]

Unreal nightmare - Gavi

Summary: "How can I learn to live without you when you taught me how to be alive"

"Your relationship was a private one, and we didn't really get to see you two a lot. How was she?" one of the reporters asked.

Pablo chuckled a bit.

"She was so fearless." he started. "Energetic and chaotic kind of girl, you know. Wherever she was, she would bring the light after her. You couldn't feel sad or hopeless around her."

"She seemed like a really nice person."

"Yes, because she was."

Pablo had to stop because he knew that if he would say one more word, he was going to cry. He hated the tight feeling inside his neck.

The older man comforted the boy, putting one of his hands on Gavi's shoulder, while massaging it.

After a few seconds, Pablo continued.

"Before I met her, I only found happiness in winning. But she taught me to enjoy the process, to be thankful that I am healthy and that I have a house where I can sleep and that I have a really loving family that supports me."

"That's so kind of her."

"Yes, she was really kind. To everyone."

He smiled sadly while thinking about you.

"So tell us, Gavi. What happened? One day, she was out there cheering your name, and the next one, we found out that she had passed away? How come?"

The boy started to tear up. His hands reached his face, not wanting to let the world see his pain.

Everyone felt so sorry for him. They all knew how much he loved you and how happy you had made him.

"Just one day, she started scratching all over her body. We were all really confused especially when her eyes got yellow."

"Oh.."

"Yeah.. such a bad memory. Well, then we got her quickly to the hospital, and we stayed there for about 5-6 hours to get her a doctor. She then started to be in so much pain."

"She was having some allergy?"

"I hoped so, but she was not. We found out that she had liver cancer."

"I'm really sorry, Gavi-"

"We took her to the best doctor, but it was all too much for her and after only 1 month of being in the hospital, they let her home for the 'she better dies home with her family, rather than alone' kinda reason".

"But.. After only 1 month, it was that crucial??"

"Liver cancer is extremely dangerous and painful. It expands incredibly fast."

"And she was staying at your house while you just had to pretend that everything was fine... to not worry the people around you."

"Something like that, yes. But our families were there to help me out with her. As I said before, everyone loved her."

"How did she die?"

"She lived more than any doctor said she would. But God.. she looked so different and drained. Even at her worst, she was asking for everyone's health" Gavi laughed a bit.

The reporter smiled.

"I don't know if it was bad or if I'm thankful that she died in my arms.."

"Oh, Gavi-"

"Don't start, please," he once again teared up. "I just don't understand why she had to suffer like that when she was the most angelic person that I've met. She was so, so young.."

"How old was she?"

"17."

A loud silence acapared the room.

No one knew what to say in these situations.

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"Gavi, go to sleep! Tomorrow you have a big game and you have to be rested."

"Pedri, please leave me alone."

"Then I'd be a bad friend. C'mon, brother, go have a nap. I know you're tired."

"I can't sleep, Pedri! Ok? If I close my eyes I only see her dead in front of me!"

"Pablo-"

"Everyone is dreaming about the healthy version of her, and I'm the only one that can't even imagine my girlfriend being.. normal and real and-"

"Gavi! Stop!" Pedri began. "You saw her at her worst. It's normal to have that imagine painted in your brain for a period of time. But that definitely doesn't mean that you are not able to also dream about her when she was all healthy."

"I'm afraid that she forgot me and only looks out for her family and not me, Pedri."

"Don't say that! You know that's not true at all."

"How can you be so sure?"

"Because we both know that she loved you more than anyone. Now go to sleep and let's have a great game tomorrow so that you can win for her, alright?"

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"Gavira, do you want to play?" Xavi asked the footballer.

"Yes."

"Ok then, go change!"

Before the game, Pablo had promised himself to give his all for you.

And he did that.

He helped his team a lot.

He didn't see you along the crowd, but he somehow felt you in him. You made him stronger and he even scored. Just. For. You.

"She'd be so proud of you, boy."

And then Gavi looked into the sky and saw your shadow.

And then he smiled.

People were cheering his name, and he then promised himself that he would continue to fight for life, just like you did. You fought for every second of life because every moment matters. And by your absence, he learned to appreciate things more. He learned that to live is the most incredible gift that we, humans, have.

#fc barca #fc barcelona #football #pablo gavi #pablo gavira #pablo martín páez gavira #gavi #gavi imagine #gavi x reader #gavi x yn #pablo gavi x y/n #pablo gavi x reader #pablo gavi x you #gavi x you #gavi fluff #gavi fanfic #gavi angst #pablo gavi fluff #pablo gavi fanfic #pablo gavi angst

[shanastoryteller]

happy birthday! f!mxy au?

a continuation of 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32

Song Lan knows that Mo Xuanyu was a demonic cultivator. Wei Wuxian would give anything to know the details of how exactly that happened, but obviously he can't ask, since he's already supposed to know.

He'd worried he'd shown his hand when he'd greeted Song Lan. This is better, even if it leaves him on slightly less firm footing. Song Lan says their interaction had been brief so he hopes that's enough to cover for any differences between them.

It's a good thing that he hasn't had to deal with anyone who's known Mo Xuanyu for more than a couple days. It might be a little more difficult to pull of running around in her body undetected.

"You bought one?" Wei Wuxian demands, exasperated when Song Lan disappears for a couple minutes and the presents him with a perfectly functional and beautiful bone white flute. "I'm going to destroy it! You just wasted your money."

"If you find Xiao Xingchen, I'll buy you a thousand flutes and you can burn each one," he says bluntly.

Wei Wuxian's eyes widen before softening. "Hey, none of that. I said I'd help, didn't I?"

Song Lan nods, some of his tension easing, then he continues, "Yes. Thank you. No one else wanted to help." Wei Wuxian stares and his face spasms like he's trying to smile but can't quite force his face into the proper shape. "We're wandering cultivators, Lady Mo. There for the cultivation world to use, and there for them to discard. No one cares when we go missing."

"I care," he says, reaching out to squeeze Song Lan's forearm. "And call me Xuanyu. None of that Mo crap."

He hopes that it's not too out of character - he hasn't gotten a chance to adjust to being called Mo like he has Xuanyu - but Song Lan just nods. He can't imagine Mo Xuanyu had many warm feelings towards her family even as a teenager if she had already been driven to demonic cultivation.

He uses a talisman to burn the sigils he needs into the flute. He'd been planning to just carve them in, rough and good enough, but it's really a beautiful flute. He'd like to keep it beautiful if he can.

It's been a lifetime since he was able to direct his demonic cultivation with a song, but it comes back to him easily, the energy flowing immediately and powerfully. The warm glow of Mo Xuanyu's golden core means it doesn't even burn this time around.

He doesn't make mistakes, but he has to play the tune twice to be sure. He lowers it slowly, brow furrowed, and says, "Something's wrong. We should fly, it's not close."

Song Lan swallows. "Is he-"

"No," he says hastily, then corrects. "I don't think so. But I think he might have gotten a little over his head."

That's a lot of fierce corpses for no one to have noticed.

#prompt answers #prompts are closed #asks #anon #untamed

[bakubabes-tatakae]

Welcome to that special time of year, Fluffvember 2023. 💞 Your girl is gonna be doing both ends of the spectrum this year. These are going to be closer to drabbles just like last month to make sure I can get them all out. 🥰 If you want to be on the Fluffvember taglist then please let me know. I'd be happy to add anyone to it. 🥺

If you don’t want to see the Fluffvember fun then blacklist the tag: #bakubabes fluffvember

Now take a peek at what’s to come in a couple of weeks. 👇 If the date looks like this then that means that the piece is in the queue and waiting for your viewing pleasure. I’ll link them here as they release as well.

Day 1 - Ichigo Kurosaki || Bleach || "Your hands are warm."

Day 2 - Kai "Overhaul" Chisaki || Boku No Hero Academia || "Pinky promise?"

Day 3 - Kotarou Bokuto || Haikyuu || "You matter. A lot. You matter so much to me. Never think you don't."

Day 4 - Natsu Dragneel || Fairy Tail || "Don't say that. I love every second spent with you."

Day 5 - Asta || Black Clover || "Your heart is beating so fast right now."

Day 6 - Rin Okumura || Blue Exorcist || "Don't doubt yourself, honey."

Day 7 - Gaara || Naruto || "Your hugs are nice."

Day 8 - Luck Voltia || Black Clover || "You feel like home to me."

Day 9 - Shikamaru Nara || Naruto || "You'll be with me, right?"

Day 10 - Toya Todoroki "Dabi" || Boku No Hero Academia || "You're cute when you're jealous."

Day 11 - Yato || Noragami || "This is a good look for you."

Day 12 - Zuko || ATLA || "We'll always have each other."

Day 13 - Kazutora Hanemiya || Tokyo Revengers || "Come taste! Tell me if I need to add anything."

Day 14 - Katsuki Bakugou || Boku No Hero Academia || "I'm just glad you're okay."

Day 15 - Megumi Fushiguro || Jujutsu Kaisen || "I'd accept you any way you are."

Day 16 - Manjiro "Mikey" Sano || Tokyo Revengers || "You have a little ice cream on your nose."

Day 17 - Asuma Sarutobi || Naruto || "Is that my shirt?"

Day 18 - Naofumi Iwatani || Rising Of The Shield Hero || "I came as soon as I heard."

Day 19 - Shoto Todoroki || Boku No Hero Academia || "I'm sad and I demand cuddles."

Day 20 - Levi Ackerman || Attack On Titan || "Thanks for being here with me."

Day 21 - Nozel Silva || Black Clover || "I'll keep you safe."

Day 22 - Renji Abarai || Bleach || "I love you more than I did yesterday."

Day 23 - Satoru Gojo || Jujutsu Kaisen || "You're my family too."

Day 24 - Eren Yeager || Attack On Titan || "I'm not letting something as simple as that separate us."

Day 25 - Magna Swing || Black Clover || "Stay as long as you want."

Day 26 - Sasuke Uchiha || Naruto || "Wow, I really can't speak, huh? Must be because of how pretty you look."

Day 27 - Yuuji Itadori || Jujutsu Kaisen || "You're not obligated to do this you know?"

Day 28 - Zora Ideale || Black Clover || "I'd shout it from the roof if I could."

Day 29 - Tomura Shigaraki || Boku No Hero Academia || "You're welcome to stay if you want."

Day 30 - Ban The Undead || Seven Deadly Sins || "I'm not ever leaving you."

©️2023 bakubabes-tatakae, please do not repost/modify my works without my permission, please do not use my works as ASMR without my permission

#bleach x reader #ichigo kurosaki x reader #boku no hero academia x reader #overhaul x reader #bokuto x reader #haikyuu x reader #bakubabes fluffvember #natsu dragneel x reader #fairy tail x reader #asta x reader #black clover x reader #rin okumura x reader #blue exorcist x reader #gaara x reader #naruto x reader #luck voltia x reader #shikamaru nara x reader #shikamaru x reader #kotaro bokuto x reader #toya todoroki x reader #dabi x reader #yato x reader #zuko x reader #noragami x reader #avatar the last airbender x reader #atla x reader #kazutora hanemiya x reader #tokyo revengers x reader #kazutora x reader #katsuki bakugou x reader

[satureja13]

Vlad can't believe he's sitting here without his shirt in front of Leander again! He has to remind himself over and over again that he does all this to help Ji Ho, Saiwa and Jack. And that this is just a game. Just. A. Game. After a while (that already took much too long if you asked Vlad) Leander had banged the rock into a rough shape.

Time to take measurements. Leander: "So where is what..."

Hahaha Leander can be happy that Vlad already drifted off ^^'

Then he banged around a bit more...

Leander: "Let's see..."

Leander, after another while: "Hmmm..."

Leander: "Oh-oh. This part is a bit too long."

The Queen wants her statues accurate. Leander: "Let's shorten this part a bit..."

And then he was finally finished! Leander: "Come - take a look." Vlad finally drifted back. He just daydreamed about making a certain part of Leander a bit shorter!

Leander: "What do you think?"

The damn statue looked nothing like him! The head and the face even looked like all the other heads here on the pedestals! Leander: "Of course he does! He's made in the image and likeness of you!"

Leander is hurt. No one ever dared to criticize his work.

And Vlad is furious. Leander could have easily done this without him sitting here for hours in humiliation! Tch!

Vlad collected his money, bougt some food and called Diablo. Vlad: "Let's never look back." Diablo: 'Agreed.'

'We walked him to the station in the rain We kissed him as we put him on the train And we sang him a song of times long gone Though we knew that we'd be seeing him again (Far away!) I'm sad to say I must be on my way So buy me beer or whiskey, 'cause I'm going far away (Far away!) I'd like to think of me returning when I can To the greatest little boozer and to Sally MacLennane'

The Pogues - Sally MacLennane TMI: Sally MacLennane is an irish stout (beer) and not a girl ^^'

And this is how Vlad hastily left Goldshire (and soon after the Therapy Game). He'd seen enough. Time to report back to Saiwa. He surely won't come back here so he didn't care who saw him topless. He wonders how time had passed for the others. Ingame time often passes much faster than in reality and the Bond didn't complain or demanded to be charged. So his guess is he only spent here a few hours real time even though it had been ~ 24 hours in the Therapy Game. That should be enough for playtesting. It seems quite safe (minus the embarrassment) but the others can decide for themselves if they are stable enough to try it.

From the Beginning  🔱  Underwater Love 🔱  Latest 🕹️ 'Therapy Game' from the beginning ▶️ here 📚 Previous Chapters: Chapters: 1-6 📜 7-12 📜 13-16 📜 17-22 📜 23-28

#therapy game #underwater love #The One #vladimir tepesz #leander belgraves #the game #Spotify #ts4 #Goldshire #diablo #old new henford #simlit #sims 4 vanilla #sims 4 #sims #henford on bagley #simblr #sims 4 story

[buckybarnesss]

I'm thinking about how Eli is apparently living with Scott and an Argent. How Deaton moved to LA as well and Deaton never treated Derek that well.

It doesn't make sense that Scott would get custody over any of the living Hales or even Noah. How Derek supposedly never had any arrangements made up just in case. Especially since Derek lost his family when he was Eli's age.

there's no way in hell scott and allison have legal guardianship over eli. it's a laughable idea and it is the height of insult to even suggest that an argent should be involved with raising derek's son. derek and allison barely tolerated each other not to mention all the other history.

it begs the question why would he want to go with them anyway? if we're following what the movie was putting down than he doesn't know them. there is also no reason that eli should've been pushed to leave his home. his ancestral home at that. the place where so many hales had been born and died.

it also removes him from a stable environment with a support system after suffering a huge loss. the sheriff, malia and peter seem to have been around. noah stilinski was definitely heavily involved in eli's life plus he's the sheriff of the goddamned town. he'd be perfect for temporary guardianship at minimum.

malia and peter are directly related to him and are also shifters.

again, why the hell would eli go live with two people who aren't even remotely connected to him and he barely knows. he last met scott when he was three years old and allison has been dead his entire existence. these people are strangers.

it just gives you the idea that jeff wanted a "happy ending" for allison and scott while not addressing all the questions it brings up. like is scott even remotely prepared to take on a sixteen year old whose just gone through a very traumatic experience? what exactly is allison's mental status right now? she just came back from the dead. they want to handwave it away just like they did with malia's situation. homegirl was 17 when she died. wouldn't she want to like idk catch up on the world? spend time with her dad? her best friend lydia who really, deeply grieved her? figure things out before jumping into a relationship with her high school boyfriend who is now in his 30s? it's weird.

speaking of allison.

allison has been legally deceased for over a decade by the time of the movie.

even if they were to some how "lose" the investigation files surrounding her death and the autopsy report than they used isaac to do an off the books burial i'd imagine there's still a death certificate filed with the state. the social security administration would've been notified as well. there was also fbi presence in town on an active investigation at the time of her death and everyone in beacon hills knew she died.

this does bring up the matter of peter's legal status. is he considered legally dead too? i don't think so actually as everything was really shady about that situation and his nurse was in on the whole thing. i don't think he was declared missing let alone dead.

and also like the most obvious answer to all of this is cora hale. where the fuck is cora hale? she's derek's sister and eli's aunt. she would've stepped in. aggressively. the only answer is that jeff has her locked in the subplot basement.

you also can't convince me that derek hale wouldn't have his affairs in order.

not only did derek have the experience of going through the untimely death of his family at a young age but he also had to do it again with laura.

there's no way he didn't have a will and it'd likely have to go through the probate process so his estate could be executed. derek hale had assets.

the hales were loaded. they were rich. season 4 drove that point home. derek owned the building the loft was in. he also had a business at the time of his death too.

derek would've ensured eli's inheritance and stability in case something happened to him and none of it would've included scott mccall or an argent.

scott was never derek's alpha. derek was not part of the mccall pack.

this isn't to say scott couldn't mentor eli. that'd be fine. it'd bring things full circle in a way but it's dumb as hell for scott to take eli to LA and i do genuinely think it's out of character for scott. especially an adult scott but i've written about that somewhere on my blog i think.

jeff davis can meet me in hell is all i'm saying.

#my blog #thoughts on teen wolf #teen wolf #eli hale #the movie is questionable canon [throws it in the bin] #no one is in character

[loupy-mongoose]

Happy birthday ^^ I'm in my 30's so, glad to see some older peeps on tumblr.

(even if 29 aint old XD )

Don't worry, I know. I don't truly believe myself to be old, just relatively old. I could be wrong, but I feel like a majority of the people I interact with on Tumblr and Discord are younger than me. Sometimes not by much, and sometimes by a lot. One of my favorite artists is about a decade younger than me! (Which is admittedly wild to think about. XD)

I want to take a moment to be sappy, and hopefully not conceited. I don't want to sound or act like I have a big head; I just want to offer some advice as an older artist.

When I was a teenager, I dreamed of having what I've since gained through this blog. I wanted to tell a story, and have people interact with it and ask questions, primarily in the form of Nuzlocke comics. I only ever tried on DeviantArt and, in more recent years, Twitter (may it RIP), and never really gained any traction. I wonder if things would've been different if I'd tried Tumblr back then, but I kinda doubt it. I was a teenager. I was still a developing artist and storyteller with an underdeveloped sense of self-confidence. Now, that's not to say I don't think teenagers can do great things and tell great stories... But if you're trying and it's not working out, YOU. HAVE. TIME.

At some point I came across what I believe was an advice post from Tumblr, but I can't find it anywhere and don't truly know where it's from. It had some wonderful advice that I wish I could share verbatim!

The biggest thing I gleaned from it is, don't down-talk your own art! If you have trouble liking the art you make, look for the good in it! Find the parts you can be confident in, build on that, and love what you do!

Here, I'll get you started.

You are an artist, which is a wonderful thing! You have the ability to bring your ideas to life, and that will only get better with time! I'm way, WAY better of an artist now than when I was 16, 17, 18 when I first tried telling stories online. Your biggest hindrance will be yourself, so please don't let yourself get in the way. Perfection in art is impossible. Aim for loving what you do, and be patient with yourself.

Anyways, that's my random sappy spiel. Enjoy your art, lovely artists young, old, and in-between!

#hideoutfromreality #ask #but unconventional #A part of me wonders if I just happen to have a story premise people like. #But I'll never be able to know for sure. #Would the result have been different if I'd thought up this story with my teenage art skill? #I don't know. #I CAN'T know. #I'll just have to move forward with what I've got now. #info

[puffpastrycrimewatch]

I can't find it but this is my reply @kananri !↓

1.) Am I named after anyone? Nuh uh made my username myself

2.) I cried an hour ago <⁠(⁠￣⁠︶⁠￣⁠)⁠>

3.) No kids, it would be messed up if I did-

4.) I use sarcasm moderately..I think

5.) I don't and have never played sports..I'm boring _(:3」∠)_

6.) I notice people's hair first, hair is cool

7.) Dark brown eye balls

8.) I like happy movies but I like horror movies from time to time

9.) Special talents ermmmm drawing I guess _(:τ」∠)_

10.) I was born at the gates of hell, my siblings friends call me demon child

11.) My hobbies are playing video games, art stuff, exploring, and punching punch bag

12.) I have 4 four pets, one dog and three cats...my cats all tolerate each other there is no friendship...my dog acts like a cat (⁠・⁠–⁠・⁠;⁠)⁠ゞ

13.) I'm 5'3 which is average height!! I swear to god I searched it up one time and it said it w-

14.) Favorite subject would be science because it was the only thing I could understand, ha you'd thought I'd say art class, absolutely not

15.) My dream job would be to make a TV show, like an animated series but I don't know how to write so that's staying in purgatory.

I'm adding two more questions but artist addition

16.) Who was your first ever OC? Mine was panda girl, she was a super hero lol kinda looked like word girl but panda ears and a mask on the eyes

17.) Why did you start drawing? I started drawing because of cartoon shows and this card that has a super hero on it, lmao it inspired me

MUTUALS ASSEMBLE

...or don't it's okay to not do this (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)👍

I know I tagged too many but I'm just curious man

@thatotherman001 @rogdona @doyoureallyneedme @artsandstoriesandstuff @catfan1000 @sharkyy599 @hiimerick @shaibonbon @0m3n-0f-d3ath @mistysparks @vnmof @nightdustfallen @i-can-not-art @kobylkaaa @kasperplaneteclipse @dackychansworldofhoshinos @kindercelery

#mutals assemble #lmao now i want to draw us as the avengers #OMG WE SHOULD ALL DO A ART COLLAB AND DRAW OURSELVES AS AVENGERS #lemme know if yall are down _(:3」∠)_ #i'll probably make a post later about it-

[baronessblixen]

Twenty questions for fanfic writers

Tagged by the amazing @frogsmulder. Thank you!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

417 🤯

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

774,561 - I wanna get to a million now, wow

3. What fandoms do you write for?

The X-Files, Frasier. At least on AO3. I have way more fandoms on ff.net (where I used to post).

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Prompts & Drabbles

Fictober 2020

Fowl Play

Love is Not Blind

Some Things You Just Can't Fake

5. Do you respond to comments?

For a while I did and then I forgot again and I'm always afraid I will reply to someone but oversee someone else. In theory I want to respond to all of them! I just got two amazing ones in the last two days. So thoughtful and so plain kind. I definitely need to reply to these people.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I wrote one where Mulder dies (of old age, though) but I'm not even sure it's on AO3.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All of them have a happy ending! I don't think I have a story without a happy ending.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I have. Mostly in the distant past, but I think some more recent hate too. If I remember correctly, it wasn't directed at a fic in particular but rather at me as a writer in general.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I have written a few smut stories. I know it's a popular genre, but I gotta be honest and admit that it's just not my favorite. Neither writing nor reading it. I know that's a very unpopular opinion.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Again, not on tumblr, but I think I wrote a Frasier/Hot in Cleveland crossover once.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Hmmm. I think maybe one?

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I have! I co-wrote Eden with a bunch of others! I mean we each wrote chapters but that still counts, right? It was a lot of fun and I'd love to do it again.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Mulder and Scully

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

My Five Minutes Series. I think about it so often but I like the chapters I have written a lot and I'm afraid to screw it up by writing more.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I'm decent at writing dialogue.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Everything. I struggle with describing an environment or surroundings. I gotta admit I sometimes even skip reading those parts when other people write them. I don't see those things in my head.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Technically I always write dialogue in another language since English isn't my native language. I've written a few German fanfics and that was a lot of fun. Might do it again.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

It was either Friends or X-Files. Or if we count stories I only wrote for myself then it's Scarecrow and Mrs. King.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Can't choose between my babies!

Tagging @xxsksxxx @randomfoggytiger @agent-troi @numinousmysteries @oohnotvery @atths--twice (feel free to ignore if you don't wanna do it!)

#my fic #oof this took a moment #i miss writing!

[sublimecatgalaxy]

♥️ Criminal Minds Masterlist ♥️

Criminal Minds Masterlist: Below you will find a plethora of works dedicated to the one and only Criminal Minds. Please take a look at my Character List and Prompt List in my pinned Masterpost regarding who I write and some ideas of what to request.

Derek Morgan:

On Purpose:

Summary/Request: "heyyy bestie,,,trope 1 with Derek Morgan?"

★・・・・・・★・・・・・・★・・・・・・★・・・・・・★

Luke Alvez:

Too Much:

Summary/Request: "hi! could i get unresolved sexual tension with luke alvez? please and thank you!! :)"

By Myself:

Summary/Request: "could i pretty pls get some angst because of an argument having to do w him working too much"

Rivals:

Summary/Request: "would u mind doing some luke alvez, rivals to lovers (cant get that trope out of my head), or the whole one bed thing."

Insufferable:

Summary/Request: "How about prompt 16 “I won’t bite. Unless you’re into that sort of thing,” + Mutual pining?"

Luke Alvez Fluff Alphabet

★・・・・・・★・・・・・・★・・・・・・★・・・・・・★

Spencer Reid:

Nose In The Books: Part 2

Summary/Request: "spicy enemies-to-lovers type of flirting between Spencer and Reader but in a Christmas setting??"

Not Stalking:

Summary/Request: "Let’s get some Spencer Reid 😩😩 maybe like flirtatious bickering? Like reader’s doing something and Spencer’s like “you’re doing it wrong” and readers like “no” and he’s like “yeah” and they’re like “then show me how to do it right” : D love you!! AND THE NEW THEME OMG"

Just Ask:

Summary/Request: "pleaseee more spencer blurbs i loved the christmas one and id genuinely would love just any type of settling just make it very fluffy, i loveee how u write spencer so thank you"

Winging It:

Summary/Request: "You're being mean." and “Did I stutter?”

Be In Your Arms:

Summary/Request: "I also adore your prompt list so I'm here to request maybe prompts 18 and 21? Some soft!spencer with a lot of fluff. Poor guy just needs some affection lol."

Tension:

Summary/Request: "Today I’m thinking maybe a lil Spencer x reader, annoyance to lovers (to smut el oh el)!! Tension building with a case or maybe after a case, reader and Spence were butting heads the whole time and something just SNAPS!"

★・・・・・・★・・・・・・★・・・・・・★・・・・・・★

Aaron Hotchner:

My Agent:

Summary/Request: "6,7,8 with Hotch 😌 any genre!"

Kiss Up:

Summary/Request: "Maybe 12 and 17 with Aaron Hotchner? Happy end though, please 🥺 We can't hurt this man more than necessary.."

Skittish:

Summary/Request: "okay, bestie ily! I am back like a thirsty whore! but this time my daddy issues have brought forth the desire for Aaron hotchner :,) lmfao! I'd like some hurt comfort relating to my current neck issues (you know the drill)."

Take Out:

Summary/Request: "Can you write prompts 13 and 21 with Aaron Hotchner please?"

Pay Raise:

Summary/Request: "I wanted to challenge you to write a Hotch x nanny!reader!! Like he hires her to be on call to take care of Jack while he's away and he comes home late after a case and he's just beat the fuck up and tired and Jack's asleep???"

At Your Doorstep:

Summary/Request: "Please do quotes 13 and 25, maybe a bit steamy?"

Legs Wouldn't Let Me Go:

Summary/Request: "Hotch for 13 + 24. 🥰 congrats my love!"

Think Twice:

Summary/Request: "Can I request something angsty with the prompts 11 and 15 for Aaron Hotchner?"

Bloody Shirt:

Summary/Request: "can I pretty please request 2 and 8 for my og love Agent Hotchner?"

#derek morgan #derek morgan x reader #luke alvez #luke alvez x reader #spencer reid #spencer reid x reader #aaron hotchner #aaron hotchner x reader #criminal minds #criminal minds fic

[whentommymetalfie]

Tagged by @bouncydragon. Thank you for giving me a chance to ramble!

20 questions for fan fiction writers

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

53

2. What’s your total ao3 word count?

642 307 (!)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently only Peaky Blinders

4. Top five fics by kudos

Breathe again, Kiss with a fist, Family is family, Little talks, Shattered and hollow

5. Do you respond to comments?

I try to always do that for my WIPs but sometimes I forget to when I get a comment on an older fic. But that doesn't mean I don't read and appreciate them!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I was about to say that I never write angsty endings, because I can't handle them, but then I remembered about whumptober where I dabbled in that, sort of. I think it's a tie between Aversion and Confinement, and even those have a glimpse of hope at the end because I'm just like that.

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Oh that's a tough one, since happy endings are my jam, so I've got plenty. But I think that To live a life, an installment in my first AU has a very happy ending, considering the angst that comes before.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I recall getting like... one really nasty comment once, years ago, but I've completely forgotten what it said, because I just deleted it and was sad about it for a few days and now it's gone from my mind, I just remember it happening because it's so rare.

And I've gotten a comment or two where a reader has disapproved of something in a fic, or where it's clear that they've interpreted something an entirely different way than I intended, and where they've chosen to express that in a not entirely nice way. I think when that's happened, I've left the comment, but haven't responded to it, because I just don't feel like going into discussions or spending my energy of that. But mostly all my readers are incredibly kind, which is a huge reason why I keep posting my work.

9. Do you write smut?

I have on occasion written a fic or two mostly focused on smut, upon request, and I incorporate sex-scenes into fics when I feel they serve a purpose.

10. Craziest crossover?

I've never written one, but I'm not opposed to them

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes, a few!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope

14. All time favorite ship?

Well got to be Tommy/Alfie right? Just look at all my... stuff.

15. What’s a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I have plenty of shorter unpublished wips where I've just wanted to 'try' an idea, or get something out of my head. Or be especially self indulgent. Those never get past the draft stage. But anything I truly want to finish and post, I usually do finish. Eventually.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I honestly think that one of my writing strengths is keeping at it, even when everything feels impossible, because without that stubbornness, many of my fics would've gotten finished. Cheesy as it may sound.

On a more technical note, I think -hope- that I'm good finding a good pace in my stories, at least my latest ones. And... describing emotions maybe.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

The first thing that comes to mind, and that often feel the most limited by, is that English is my second language. That always adds a layer of insecurity. And I'm not great at writing action, or scenes with many characters (I always feel like I'm trying to juggle with way too many balls)

18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I think it can work great when it serves a purpose, but with my lacking language skills I just incorporate into the text that a character isn't speaking English, rather than typing the dialogue out in the actual language.

19. First fandom you wrote in?

My first ever fanfic I posted was for True Blood. Ten years ago now, which feels crazy.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Tough one... If I'm only allowed finished fics, I'd have to say Breathe Again, because it's my first truly long, multi-chaptered project and I grew a lot as a writer -I think- while writing that. But I do want to give Home to you it's own shoutout (even if I have yet to finish that last chapter that's haunting me because I'm so afraid to mess it up) because it's so intrinsically connected to Breathe again.

tagging (with no pressure of course, and apologies if you've already been tagged) @abusivelittlebunny @100dabbo @andtherewerefireworks @elskiee

#ask games #my writing

[nicoline1998enilocin]

Yours, Forever | Chapter 16

PAIRING | Boyfriend!Bucky Barnes x Girlfriend!Female!Reader

WORD COUNT | 3.2K

SUMMARY | Everyone gets invited to visit Sam's sister in Louisiana, and you and Bucky use this opportunity to get engaged. The road to the engagement goes smoothly and when you manage to catch your amazing super soldier off guard, your mood can't get any better.

WARNING(S) | This is your official trigger warning. Do not proceed if any of these topics upset you. Light angst, smut [ Lazy morning sex, unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it!, cum on stomach), some Dutch is spoken and translated, mention of a parent who passed away.

Likes, comments and reblogs will be very much appreciated 🩷

Divider is made by @firefly-graphics | Header & 18+ banner are made by yours truly

Main Masterlist | Bucky Barnes Masterlist | Series masterlist | Chapter 15 | Chapter 17

You still remember the invitation like yesterday, even though it has been a while. Since then, there is nothing else you could think about other than Bucky, and you plan on proposing to him in Louisiana.

The first thing you did at that moment? Turn to your best friend for help, of course. He's been supportive after seeing how happy Bucky makes you, so it was a no-brainer to help you.

''Tony?'' you ask as you walk into his lab, knowing that's where you would most likely find him, and you were right.

''I'm over here, Honey,'' he says, and when you spot him, you slowly walk over so as not to disturb him.

''How's my favorite person doing?'' you ask, earning yourself a chuckle.

''I thought Bucky was your favorite person now! But I'll take what I can get,'' Tony replies, turning to you for a hug. You gladly melt into his arms because his hugs are one of your favorite things.

''So, there's something I want to talk to you about, actually,'' you start, and immediately you're getting nervous.

''Alright, let me finish this up, and afterward, I'm all yours,'' he says as he turns back to his Iron Man helmet.

You walk around the lab for what feels like an eternity, and your palms are getting increasingly sweatier with the minute.

''Yes, I'm ready!'' he says, pulling out two chairs, one for himself and one for you to sit on. When you sit down, you immediately pull your knees to your chest to make yourself feel more comfortable.

''So, I, uh, I'm not sure how to ask this, but... I would like you to help me pick an engagement ring because I've been considering proposing to Bucky for a while. We've talked about it and would love to get married, so I thought I'd be the one to propose to him,'' you say with a deep blush on your cheeks.

''When do you plan on proposing?'' he asked, a big smile on his face.

''Well, we're all invited for a week at Sarah's in Louisiana, so I was planning on proposing that week, but I'd still have to talk about it to Sarah as well,'' you tell him, with an equally big smile.

''I can't believe it, I'm so happy for you! And, of course, I would be honored to help you pick something out, as long as you let me pay for the ring,'' Tony says.

''Really? You know I can pay for it myself, right?'' you tell him, knowing he won't let you do it.

''I know, but since you're asking for my help, I want to give it to you by paying for the start of the rest of your lives together,'' Tony says, and you jump up from your chair and pull him into a hug.

''Am I interrupting something?'' you hear Bucky say as he walks in looking for you.

''No, don't worry,'' you say as you let go of Tony and walk over to Bucky, and you capture his lips in a sweet kiss.

''I wasn't worried, but we do need to go now if we still want to make it to our reservation,'' he tells you, and you say goodbye to Tony before heading out.

About a week later, you find yourself in a jewelry store with Tony, looking at engagement rings for Bucky. It doesn't take long for you to spot the perfect ring, and the man behind the counter puts it in a gorgeous black velvet box.

Now, all there is to do is propose and hope he will say yes to spending the rest of your lives with each other.

About a week before you were going to Louisiana, you pulled Sam aside to get into contact with Sarah. ''Sam? Can I talk to you in private for a few minutes?'' you ask, and he hums in response.

You walk outside and make some small talk before getting to the topic as the two of you sit outside on a bench, enjoying the sun.

''So, I want you to contact Sarah because I need to run something past her. I'm planning on proposing to Bucky when we're there next week, and I want to make it perfect, so I need her help to do that,'' you tell him, and he looks at you with the proudest look you've ever seen.

''Are you for real right now? You're going to propose to him? It makes sense; nothing in your relationship has ever been conventional, and this would be perfect. I'll call her tonight and keep you posted, okay?'' he says before pulling you into a big hug, and the two of you walk inside, making some more small talk to not seem suspicious.

The rest of the week, you were getting increasingly nervous, and Tony and Sam kept telling you to calm down and that it would be okay, but it wasn't as easy as you thought.

Bucky is different than the type of person who likes surprises, so you plan to keep it small, which is more challenging than anticipated. You've run a thousand ideas through your head, and nothing seems right, so when you get the all-clear from Sam that Sarah's okay with it, you could start planning something.

A few days before the trip, you're already packing the suitcases for yourself and Bucky when you suddenly hear Bucky gasp in the other room, and your heart sinks to your stomach.

You quickly rush to the bedroom, ready to explain why there's a ring in your suitcase, when you see Bucky standing with a set of black and yellow lingerie you've bought especially for the trip. You let out a small sigh of relief when you see the fabric in his hands.

''How long were you going to keep this from me?'' he asks as he turns around, showing you the panties.

''Who knows, maybe I would have kept it until the last day to surprise you with it then,'' you tease him, and he smiles.

''Hm, I can't wait to see you wear this, but now I need to see what you're hiding from me at this moment,'' he says as he starts undressing you and placing small kisses all over your naked skin.

The morning of your proposal is here, and you're more nervous about this than you've ever been for anything in your entire life. However, you and Bucky are starting the day in the most fantastic way possible.

You've been in Louisiana for a few days, and you and Bucky have been slowly adjusting to a new routine here, which includes the most excellent, softest, and laziest morning sex that makes you feel so loved and cherished.

The sex between you and Bucky has never been near vanilla, but the soft, slow sex to wake up in the morning has to be one of your favorite things of this trip, and you are relishing every last second of it.

Right now, you're lying against Bucky, his chest tightly against your back as he softly kisses your neck and shoulders to wake you up.

You stretch out and wiggle your butt against Bucky, feeling exactly how hard he is, but you know you're practically soaking through your panties as he keeps kissing you.

''Morning, doll,'' Bucky says as you turn around, and Bucky climbs on top of you, locking his lips perfectly with yours before swiping his tongue across your bottom lip, asking for access.

''Bucky...'' you moan softly as he breaks apart enough to pull his underwear down and your panties.

He slides home in one smooth thrust and stays like that for a little while as the two of you keep kissing and enjoying each other's bodies by exploring with featherlight touches.

When he starts moving, you let out the softest moan, and Bucky can't help but smile against your lips as pleasure courses through your veins.

The slow, loving pace sets your entire insides on fire with pleasure, and in your mind, the missionary position has never felt this good. He changes his position and folds your leg further back while sitting on his heels so he can look precisely where he slides in and out of you, making Bucky even harder than he already was.

The slow pace has made way for a slightly faster pace, not enough to push you over the edge yet. He's made sure to keep you exactly where you are for as long as possible, and the smug look on his face shows you exactly that.

Soft moans tumble from your lips each time he thrusts into you, and you're suddenly very startled and quickly pulled from your bliss when you hear your bedroom opening and Steve walking in.

''Y/N? Bucky? Are you awake?'' Steve asks, but he quickly stops as he hears your shriek, unable to look away from the sight before him.

''STEVE! GET THE FUCK OUT!'' you scream; meanwhile, Bucky doesn't even think about stopping what he's doing as he's too wrapped up in his pleasure.

''I, uh- sorry!'' he says as he turns bright red and turns around, pulling the door shut behind him with a loud thud.

You can't help but laugh at him, which is quickly replaced with a few louder moans as his hands move to your nipples, which he squeezes and tugs in par with his thrusts.

Once your attention is fully back on Bucky, he continues his slow movements to get you right to the edge, and once he knows you're there, his fingers move to your very sensitive clit. With subtle motions, you fall over the border into one of the best orgasms he manages to drag out for several minutes.

When you're done, it doesn't take long for him to reach his orgasm, and he pulls out, stroking himself; his cum shoots over your mound and stomach before he leans over and captures your lips in a deep kiss.

You two stay like that for a little while longer before getting up to shower, and it is a shower filled with nothing but love and kisses everywhere.

''Come on, let's make some pancakes for everyone,'' you say as you walk down the stairs and into the kitchen. You slipped on a pair of panties and one of Bucky's shirts, not minding who sees since you're very comfortable around everyone nowadays.

Bucky grabs the ingredients for the pancakes, and while he's mixing the batter, you're setting the table with plates, cutlery, and every topping you can find.

Sam wolf-whistles as he walks down the stairs and sees you and Bucky in the kitchen standing close to each other, and you just let out a laugh.

''Morning', love birds! I heard the two of you got interrupted earlier,'' he says, and your cheeks turn a deep red color. Bucky laughs loudly.

''Yeah, you could say that. I don't think he'll look at us the same way ever again,'' Bucky jokes when Steve and his fiancée Lucas walk into the kitchen.

''Speak of the devil!'' Sam says, and as soon as Steve spots you and Bucky, his cheeks turn an even deeper shade of red, and he turns around to hide his face in Lucas' neck.

The rest of the morning is spent making jokes, feeding everyone pancakes, and enjoying time with each other.

When breakfast was over, you got dressed in a dark red floral maxi dress, and you went to the farmers market to pick up some plums for Bucky and some other groceries for Sarah and the others.

''Wow, you look gorgeous!'' Bucky says as you emerge from the bathroom where you finished your hair. You decided against wearing make-up since you plan to swim later.

In the afternoon, everyone is either swimming, sunbathing, or doing other fun stuff in or around the water, and you take the opportunity to show off your new mint green and orange bikini to Bucky, which you got just for this occasion.

''Jesus, doll, you're trying to kill me, aren't you?'' he says as he pulls you on top of him, getting caught up in a heavy make-out session not long after.

When it is time for dinner, you and Bucky run upstairs and lock yourself in your shared bedroom after the steamy make-out session, and he proceeds to fuck the living daylight out of you.

The moans and shouts carry throughout the house, but neither of you cares anymore; all you need is to be close to each other, filled by Bucky, and not think about anything else.

You almost let it slip at that moment that you will propose to him.

''Bucky, m-'' is all you get out before his lips capture yours as he pounds into you, coaxing you both into an orgasm, but this time he shoots thick ropes of cum deep inside you while he rides out both your orgasms.

''Fuck, I love you so much, doll,'' he says as he's catching his breath after your quickie.

Dinner went smoothly with all the Avengers, though you got some pointed looks and comments before going out.

''So, you two were having fun, huh?'' Tony whispers in your ear when you both walk out the door, and you smack his chest as a response.

You excuse yourself for a little while after asking Sam to keep Bucky busy for about 20 minutes, and he happily does, seeing how he knows what's coming.

In those 20 minutes, you put 20 candles in two neat rows on the side of the dock you're standing on, leading to the end, where you're planning to go on one knee for Bucky.

A small speaker is playing soft jazz music, and the ring is ready to be proposed, so you text Sam to please send Bucky outside to the dock.

Bucky walks out the door and walks over to the dock, exactly like Sam told him to do, and when he sees you standing at the end of the candles, he starts to tear up a little at the sight in front of him.

He walks over to you, and you step aside so he can stand before you, ready for you to take his hands on yours. You're barely holding it together, but you're trying your hardest.

''Bucky, sweet, amazing, adorable, handsome, gorgeous, loving Bucky. You're the best boyfriend I could have ever wished for, and even though we went through literal hell and back together, I would not have changed it for the life of me,'' you start off the proposal.

''You've changed me for the better, and I know you've changed too, and I can't begin to tell you how proud I am of how far we've gotten, individually and together. And I would love to continue this journey with you by my side.

''When I think of growing old with someone, all I picture is you by my side. Friends, kids, pets, the whole nine yards, but most of all, I see you by my side. Today, I want to mark as the beginning of the rest of our lives,'' you say, wiping away tears from your face, and Bucky does the same with his.

You sit down on one knee after getting the black velvet ring box. ''James Buchanan Barnes, will you do me the honor of sharing the rest of our lives and marry me?'' you say, and you open the ring box, showing him the ring that matches his Vibranium arm.

''Yes! I would love nothing more than growing old with you, doll,'' he says, and you get up, your lips clashing together as you hear the rest of them shouting and whistling on their fingers in congratulations. You slip the ring on Bucky's finger, and you're still in disbelief that you did it. You're going to be the future, Mrs. Barnes.

Bucky grabbed your hand and interlaced his fingers with yours as the two of you walked over to your friends, and before you knew it, Nat, Wanda, and Pepper were all hanging around your neck, crying after the beautiful proposal.

After that are all the guys, and Tony holds you just a little longer. ''I'm so proud of everything you've done to get to this point. You deserve nothing but the best. But there's one more surprise for you tonight,'' he says before stepping aside.

There's the one person you wished would have been there, and to see him stand in front of you is enough to have you sink on your knees, crying uncontrollably at the relief you're feeling. Your Dad witnessed your entire proposal, and you're nothing short of grateful.

''Papa! Ik kan niet geloven dat je er bent!'' (Dad! I can't believe you are here!) you say as you fall into his arms, still sobbing while he does the same.

''Je hebt het verdiend, Y/N. Na alles wat er is gebeurd is dit wat je hebt verdiend. En ik weet zeker dat Mama van boven mee heeft gekeken,'' (You have earned it, Y/N. After everything that has happened, this is what you deserve. And I'm sure Mom has watched from above.) he says, making you cry even harder.

Bucky walks up to you and softly rubs soothing circles on your lower back. He knows how much you miss your Mom; she would have moved heaven and earth to be here today.

When you've calmed down a little, your Dad congratulates Bucky by pulling him into a long hug, saying how proud he is of him and how happy he is for the two of you.

''Take good care of her, okay? I won't always be there for her, so you need to ensure she's doing well. She deserves nothing but the best, and I know you can give it to her,'' he says, and Bucky nods.

''I promise, Will. I promise I will treat her like the Queen she is,'' Bucky says, and with that, all of you are ready for a night of dancing, laughter, and love.

When it is time for the song Endlessly by Amaranthe, Bucky pulls you into the middle of the large circle everyone created, as they are all standing around the two of you holding hands.

You and Bucky dance like it's something you've always done like it's natural. And for the two of you, it is second nature. Bucky's hand moves up to your cheek, and you look into each other's eyes before closing the distance and sharing a soft kiss that feels like it lasts for an eternity.

''I love you, Bucky,'' you say when you pull away.

''I love you more, Y/N. More than I'll ever be able to tell you, but I promise to show you every single day from here on out how much I love you. And I want you to know that I'll be yours, forever,'' he says before locking lips again and slowly dancing with you.

Right now, nothing has ever felt more right. Life feels complete with all the people around you in the arms of the love of your life. This is a day never to forget, and you can't wait to tell your kids about it one day.

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OMG THIRST ASK YOU SAY? say no more, like just hear me out, I've been thinking of a reader who has unrequited feelings for diluc and so she's selling her soul to a devil which turns out to be none other than kaeya. Devil!kaeya agrees to help her get diluc but she doesn't know that part of the deal is to be kaeya's personal sex toy, so she tries to refuse him when he first tries to claim her.

(so basically non-con with devil!kaeya who promised to get reader together with diluc except the promise is just his excuse to claim reader for himself)

I hope you like the idea but also it's okay if you don't! Just know that there's no pressure at all, and I'd completely understand if you don't end up writing it ^^a

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CHARACTERS ; demon!kaeya alberich x fem!reader x diluc ragnvindr (one-sided)

CONTENT ; non-consensual smut, one-sided love, angst if you like Diluc, unrequited love (diluc), Kaeya makes a contract that isn't part of their deal, spitting, bondage, virginity taking, choking, non-consensual creampie, angst/no happy ending, kaeya is a sadist, praise/degradation, bit of blood (happens during first-times which is normal!), no aftercare, usage of "darling/cutie/princess/doll/bunny/baby"

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You can't help but feel a stab of pain in your chest. It's been months since you've tried to win Diluc's affection, and it's never goes as planned. What did he want in you that you didn't have? You made sure you didn't go too far, respecting his boundaries, praising him for his efforts, giving him gifts twice a week, and keeping his secret that he was the Dark Knight hero and you weren't even considered as his friend.

“Master Diluc, Miss [Y/N] has brought another gift for you-”

“Put it away.” he miffed, cleaning the last wine glass of the night.

“The mansion is overflowing with stuff I don’t even use. It’s better to throw out whatever she bought this time to save some space.” Adeline bites her lip. She notices your advances with Diluc and how hard you’ve worked to even gain a smile out of him but he doesn’t pay attention. Only thinking of you as a bother in his life.

You were desperate for him to love you back. Or even LIKE you back but he couldn’t. Well, better to rephrase that as “he did not want to”.

Though, Adeline didn’t throw it out. She instead walked to the exit of the mansion and gave the bag to you, you looked at her with a confused expression, “Did he not like it?”

“Darling, it’s not like he didn’t like it- It’s just that uhm…” she lengthens her statement, trying to think of an excuse to not hurt you in any way. “There wasn’t that much space to keep it.” It technically wasn’t a lie since you gave him lots of gifts that there was nowhere to keep it. But it still hurts you. You try to convince yourself that he does like you, love just takes time to match you together but it hurts when you know the truth.

Sighing, you gave Adeline a sad smile and took the bag into your arms. “I’m sorry, Miss [Y/N].” she apologizes but you shake your head. “No, it’s fine, Adeline.” you reassure her and pat her shoulder. “It’s about time I consider moving on from him but I can’t. I don’t know how.” you purse your lips in order for you not to let out a whimper.

She gulps, looking at you in a guilty manner before an idea pops up in her head. “I do have an idea for you. Though it’s most likely a bad idea for you to participate in it.”

You look up at her swiftly with wide eyes. “What is it?” you ask, rubbing your hands together. “Selling your soul to the Devil in exchange for what you want.” she says nervously but your expression didn’t falter one bit. Were you so in love with Diluc that you don’t even consider your own life on the line?

“Where can I find this devil? What do I do to meet him?”

“Wow, wow, there. Not so fast. You’re really considering this?” she inquired worryingly but you didn’t give her a response, only anticipating an answer that caused her to sweat. If everything goes wrong she’ll have herself to blame. All of this to fix your desire of having Diluc to like you back.

“Alright…” she sighs, grabbing a notepad from her dress as she starts writing on it and giving it to you. “Be careful.”

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“One last candle…” you muttered, lighting up the last candle. You waved your match stick around before throwing it away. You stepped back and waited for something to happen but nothing did. Not even the candles getting blown out. You sighed at the circle of red paint and sat down on the floor. “Ah, so you summoned me?”

You let out a surprised shriek as you looked around frantically. Who in the hell just whispered to you?

“Well, that would be me.” the voice cited. You looked at the source to find that he was behind your standing mirror. He stared at you with a grin, showing his sharp fangs that are stained with… You don’t wanna assume if it was Dandelion Wine or blood. “Who are you?” you crawled back with furrowed brows at the man. “Name’s Kaeya. Kaeya Alberich. And you?”

“[Y/N].”

“So, darling, is there any reason why you summoned me?” the horned man raised his brow with a smirk, you stood up and tried to look confident. Tried to look like you weren’t intimidated by his presence despite the large body that was tainted with scars. “I wanna make a deal.”

“And that is?”

“I want to make a particular someone to fall in love with me in exchange for my soul.”

You didn’t notice his smile faltering a bit but he still kept it up, “Tell me who this person is. Maybe I could help if I know him.”

“His name is Diluc Ragnvindr.'' That name is all so familiar to him. In fact, he did meet him when he was summoned by Adeline. He didn’t like him one bit but he did enjoy making him angry. Making furniture fall on their own and ‘accidentally’ burning his food whenever he cooks.

“Lucky for you, making people fall in love with each other isn’t that hard at all. I might even make it come true with a cheaper price to pay.”

“Really?” oh how cute it was seeing your eyes lighting up. You forgot that you were making a deal with a literal devil and each deal has a price to pay. But sometimes each deal can't be kept.

“Really.” Kaeya smiles devilishly, summoning a contract by his side along with a feather stained with ink. “Just sign right here and our deal will be sealed.” he points at the empty space on the bottom right of the paper.

You were a dumb innocent little lamb that he wanted to corrupt. You didn’t even read what was even stated in the contract, too focused on the idea of Diluc loving you back that your desperation got the best of you. “And… Done!” you sang out.

Instantaneously, the paper and the feather glows into a bright light before disappearing. “When will it begin?” you lilted but your smile quickly dissipated when you felt something around your neck upon snapping his fingers. “Now.”

“H-huh?!” you stuttered, touching the choker around your neck but it quickly burned your fingers. “Ouch!”

“That choker looks cute on you.” he coos, walking towards you and admiring the accessory.

“This isn’t part of our deal!”

“It was part of the contract though.” you look at him in disbelief, you try pushing him away when he picks you up by the choker and pins you to the wall which makes you stop struggling. “You should know that you should never trust a devil, darling.”

You whimpered as he pushed you even deeper. You swore you were gonna lose your breath when he smashed his lips against yours, taking in every possible sound you were giving out. “I was a bit thankful you were too obsessed with Diluc to even read it.” Kaeya chuckles at your horrified expression. “Do you wanna know what our contract was?”

You shook your head, not wanting to know what he had in mind for you. “Well, you’ll find out enough, my doll. So why don’t I just tell you?” Again, you refused. Basically throwing angry and unwilling words at him as he just smirked at you struggling.

“Here,” he made the paper reappear again right in front of your face. Your eyes widened as you read every word on the note. You gulped in regret as tears started swelling the corners of your eyes when he gripped your cheeks, tilting your head up to look at him.

“Why don’t I give you a trial on how it’s like to be my new plaything, cutie?”

“No!” you pushed his hands away but he was way stronger than you, he gripped your wrists and kissed the back of your hand. With a sadistic grin, he threw your leg around his waist, and the other one, to the point you can feel his hard-on grinding on you. “Not wet? Not surprised but I’m a bit disappointed.”

You closed your eyes shut, not daring to say a thing. You tried to muffle out the sounds he was making and imagined Diluc was doing this to you instead. You try to ignore the reality that it was someone else, someone far worse. By simply thinking of him, you grew wet and you brushed your thighs together for some friction.

“Oh? You’re getting wet now?” he smirked teasingly, “Never knew I had such an effect on you.”

You gulped, he doesn’t know you’ve been thinking of someone else while he was trying to be intimate with you. “Aww, come on. Don’t get silent on me now~” he coos but you still remained quiet. Not wanting to give in to his fucked up fantasies.

Kaeya’s eyes darkened when you pursed your lips. That’s when he realized you were thinking of someone else because he knows that you wouldn’t instantly fall in love with someone like him. A manipulative demon who is most likely to stab you in the back. Which is exactly what he did to you.

“You’re making it difficult for me, princess.”

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How many days has it passed? Adeline must’ve been worried about you when you didn’t visit the manor. Diluc could care less about your disappearance since he didn’t like you that much to be worried about you, right?

“There you are!” you hear a voice erupt from the hallway. That’s right, you’ve been living with this demon ever since the day you signed that contract. “I hope I wasn’t too rough last night, doll~” he hummed, admiring the dark bruises on your neck along with the new collar he made that fitted the dress you were wearing.

Last night was more than rough, it was torture having him be your first. The first to kiss you, the first to touch you suggestively, and the first to take your virginity. No matter how soft he cared for you after the session you still had a grudge against him for forcing himself into intimacy with you when you didn’t want to.

“S-Stop! It hurts, please!” you scream, trying to plead him to stop inserting himself inside of you. He only froze and laughed at your overwhelmed state. He only found it cute to see you deny him, it only had the blood rushing to his dick faster. “Too bad, you have to take it for me.” you whined as he kept forcing himself inside of you.

You sobbed, the chains around your wrists only serving more pain. You would’ve gone unconscious if it weren’t for Kaeya slapping you when he saw that your eyes started drooping down. “Don’t go sleeping on me, we barely even started!”

What the hell does he even mean? You’ve been in the same position for 30 minutes and he thinks this wasn’t long enough? How laughable. Though you shouldn’t act so cocky when you’re the one pinned down with restraints all over your body.

Before Kaeya could get inside of you, he rubbed your cunt before slamming himself in. He hugged your waist to keep you inside of him, taking his sweet time grinding before they turned into thrusts.

You tried to keep up with his pace to loosen the pain on your core but he was too fast for comfort. You feel yourself losing your breath with each ram of his cock inside of you. He was too big and he treated you like his personal slut in which you were.

The pain slowly switched into pleasure and your whimpers turned into loud moans. He used your waist to better maintain his propelling better, to hit the deepest spots and abuse it over and over. And fuck, you were so tight around him that he would’ve came there but he wanted it to last longer.

Kaeya teased your sensitive clit with the pad of his thumb, taking in your juices and licking them. “I wanna drink more of you.” he purrs, trapping you on the mattress as he rammed into you, wrapping your thighs around his waist to penetrate you even deeper. You kicked around your legs, tears already sliding down your cheeks. He’s hitting your cervix and it hurts so bad. The pleas

“What’s wrong, bunny?” he teases with a sly smirk, “Does it hurt? I hope it does. You look so cute when you’re in pain.” he caresses the bulge on your stomach, a symbol of how painfully deep he was inside of you. He was a sick bastard but you should’ve already expected that when he’s a demonic entity that supposedly made a deal to make your wish come true.

You let out a cry when he wrapped his hand around your throat, closing them into a fist to have you on a chokehold, stopping you from even breathing. “S–s–op i-” you were struggling to even say two words, your panting was getting uneven and you felt yourself about to come. “Ah, I can feel you tightening around me. I don’t know if it’s me choking you or if you’re getting close?”

You wanted to wipe off that stupid grin of his, he enjoyed it. Enjoyed every second of your suffering. He opens your mouth with his lengthy fingers and spits in it, forcing you to swallow as he takes his hands off your neck.

You were struggling to swallow and only coughed it out, making him tch in discontentment. “Isn’t it bratty of you to not take what I give?” he furrows his brows but doesn't advance any further. “I’ll punish you next time. I want you to feel good for your first time.”

Feel good? What a lie. It hasn’t been long and you’re feeling like absolute hell. Ironic to where you are now.

“I feel so close, baby. C’mon, come with me.” he whispers in your ear, his hand caressing your breasts before groping them, making you groan and squirm in his touch. You feel his cock twitch inside of you, meaning he was close to his release. “Pull out, please-” you pleaded but your pleas only fell on deaf ears.

Kaeya hugged your waist tightly, forcing you to take his seed and trapping you in his arms for you to not pull out. You sobbed silently, throwing your head to the side to hide your face but he only gripped your chin and forced you to look at him.

He was panting, sweat was visible and was dripping down his forehead. His tail was swinging from side-to-side from his release and he finally pulled out of you. His cock was still hard but he decided not to start another round yet. The velvet sheets were stained with blood and cum but he didn’t bother cleaning them up.

The demon picked up a nearby key and freed you from your restraints but you were back in his arms. “You’re not leaving yet.” he tuts, shoving you down on the mattress again. You whined and tried pushing him off again but he didn’t budge. “You should just give up already. We already made a deal you can never break.”

“You look beautiful as ever with my hickeys on your body.” he hums, touching the bruises on your neck softly, admiring it like it’s a piece of art. You responded with nothing, only sitting down with your hands intertwining on each other as you looked away from him. “Don’t be like that, doll.” he teases, poking your cheek but you didn’t even give him a glance.

Knowing he’d only get more satisfaction out of you when he sees you miserable and upset while also fanning out angry words at him on how much he’s ruined your life. Kaeya approaches you from behind and hugs you, pressing firm kisses that burn your skin, you were sure that it’ll leave a permanent mark on your face. “Why don’t we make another deal, hm?”

© notsodivininglover 2023. reposting, plagiarizing, translating or claiming my works are strictly forbiddened.

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[commander-krios]

Tagged by @aevallare, thank you my love <3 I did this before, but I can't remember how long ago? lol so I'll just do it again.

Not tagging anyone specific but feel free to use this and tag me in it so I can see your answers!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

228

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

446,245

3) What fandoms do you write for?

BG3, Mass Effect, Andromeda Six, edit: I can't believe I forgot KOTOR

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Better Judgement: Rolan/f!Tav, Mature

The Fall: Krem/f!Lavellan, General

Long Rest: Rolan/f!Tav, General

If It Pleases You: Krem/f!Lavellan, Teen

Nights Like This: Rolan/f!Tav, Teen

5) Do you respond to comments?

Yes! I love comments and try to respond to each one if I have time. I've been slacking lately, but I swear, if you leave one, I will most likely respond to you.

6) What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Ooof, that would be the fic where I wrote my Amell joining his wife, @caffeinatedrogue's Leda, on her Calling.

The Calling

7) What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

For a more recent fic (since I write quite a few happy fics), I'd say With Devotion And A Little Luck ended quite happily.

8) Do you get hate on fics?

Not directly. Not sure if anyone vagues about me, lol but no one has ever complained to me personally.

9) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes, occasionally. Usually it's M/F smut, but I've done M/M as well.

10) Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

No.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't believe so

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

I'm unsure if I have or not

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yup! I'm cowriting a fic with a friend that's an original work, not fanfiction, so it's secret. Also do Round Rugan with my friends over at the Zhent server.

14) What’s your all time favorite ship?

Nooo don't make me pick! I'm going to pick one per fandom, i don't care if it's cheating.

BG3- Rolan/Juniper Mass Effect- Charley/Thane Andromeda Six- Damon/Astrea KOTOR- Revan/Canderous Dragon Age (for the hell of it)- Elissa/Nathaniel

15) What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I have a FemShepley AU where Shepard gets turned into a husk like creature by the Illusive Man instead of the normal Shepard like ME2 and it's almost like a "Ashley tries like hell to help Shepard remember who she was before" fic. It's heavy, not sure if I'll ever manage to finish it, but I'm obsessed with the idea.

16) What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue, banter, characterization

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

Smut, world building

18) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I won't do it if I can help it, especially if I'm not fluent in it. If it's a made up language, like Mando'a, I will try to learn enough to get by, but I prefer to not butcher a language I don't know.

19) First fandom you wrote for?

Buffy, I believe, but that was a long time ago. As far as tumblr fic goes, probably Skyrim?

20) Favorite fic you’ve written?

Making me pick a favorite child?

I think I'm obsessed with the writing I did in Astrea/Damon's fic, A Shimmer of Gold. So I'll plug that fic today.

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