#...im just gonna read junior high now

[levmada]

aot before the fall review in no particular order(mostly cuz im mad)

SPOILERS

xavi was introduced in the story as nothing but an antagonist that wanted to kill kuklo and basically saw him as an annoying bug. then when the wallists came and killed most of his family + kuklo left with sharle, he LOATHED him. in total xavi came at kuklo meaning to kill him 3 or 4 times?? THEN ALL THE SUDDEN in one of the last arcs (the training one) xavi suddenly is working together with him?? yeah he said it was for sharle, but it'd be just as easy to whisk her away during the expedition or something. why suddenly did he start caring so much about the future of humanity, the survey corps, and the odm gear?? because his boss liked him? bffr. BOOO. in the final confrontation, youre telling me xavi and kuklo happened to kill a titan together and suddenly xavi likes and approves of him WHEN JUST A MOMENT BEFORE he was determined to kill him???????? THEN X A V I of all people tore down MP corruption? XAVI? CHARACTER ASSASSINATION I TELL YOU. what a fucking disappointment.

NOW IM THINKING ABOUT THE FINAL CHAPTER.

the second half of the final chapter is nothing but an exposition dump in the form of a letter from sharle to a friend. major shit happens (like the major plot point with gloria being murdered) just GLOSSED OVER in a brief explanation. so annoying

goddamn the training arc went on for foreverrrr. SUCH A DRAG!!!!!!! it was like a lot was happening while nothing was happening. after the underground arc, the pacing went from say 80 to -999999. god i was so bored. i glossed these two volumes at parts because i was so bored. it was supposed to be a time to get to know the characters and figure out who was working against the survey corps, and while that twist was very smart, i wasn't happy. i expected this resolution BECAUSE OF COURSE the survey corps never gets dissolved. OF COURSE the odm gear would work. there was absolutely no tension.

for two volumes, i couldnt find myself caring about these new characters (like rosa, kurz, ivo...).

like when felix almost got eaten. like okay? he fell into that same category of cadets that werent fleshed out enough at all and i felt ambivilent when he sacrificed himself for rosa

ROSA. the plot wanted her to be important and interesting sooooo bad. suggesting a love triangle for the main pair, her importance as maria and sorum's daughter, the multiple times it was insisted she was discriminated against for being a woman (despite that NEVER having come up in all of the 50 chapters before that. if this was consistent, i'd feel differently. it's the best conflict that has to do with her character though).

i really didn't care what her motivations were for killing the titans because i didn't care about her. she's just... uninteresting. so broody. and why? because she got bullied by the boys? for several chapters until she became friends with sharle she did nothing but disappear and feel sorry for herself. maybe it's me, but it was just annoying.

yeah maria (her mom) disapproved of her joining the scouts, and it was interesting to see what maria would think after losing her husband to the titans too, but i kind of figured that would work out (and it did - in just one scene).

why the hell was she made a squad leader right off the bat????? her performance was NOT great, i mean failing at the odm tests multiple times, passing out during one of the training runs... it seems like the plot wanted her to be important (due to her parents) so she was made a squad leader.

shallow and boring. my least favorite character.

the lore is BY FAR THE GREATEST PART OF BEFORE THE FALL. it could be partly because aot is my biggest hyperfixation so i was super super interested by default, but the way btf expanded on the lore - the process of the odm invention, where the iceburst stone and ultra hard metal comes from, what the underground is like, etc - was superb and i loved every crumb.

angel is my favorite character. im not going to complain that btf wasnt referenced in canon more because i dont think thats fair to isayama and his editors, as all isayama did was approve what the writer and artists did. angel is a genius who contributed the most to the odm gear. i wanted so badly for him to leave the underground, overcome his guilt over corina and sorum's deaths, and work together with the main characters to advance the survey corps. he suffered so damn much and he overcame it. he's extremely interesting, well-written, and blorbo worthy.

im glad kuklo was also written extremely well since he was the main character. i only wish that he struggled MORE to adjust what life is like outside of a cage being treated as a freakshow act for being known as the son of a titan. it seemed like as soon as he and sharle escaped, he was the conventional shonen boy. which was pretty disappointing. you'd think kuklo would be awkward and unsocialized or distrusting of people for the abuse and isolation he went through, but he was perfectly fine. near the end, he had no more development and it seemed he blended way into the background, but thats not necessarily a complaint. it was rewarding to see him finally become a scout along with cardina.

loveeee cardina. he's just great. i don't have any complaints about him. despite not going in-depth about his past or who he is - i still cared about him, while i CANT say the same about rosa and the cadets introduced much later.

i have so much to say about the uprising arc. it was underwhelming it seriously came WAY out of nowhere. characters were introduced way too fast, appearing in one chapter and in the next one dying. the same can definitely be said of main aot, but the difference is i CARED about what happened to characters like nifa, willy, and pastor nick. the writing for these characters just ISNT there. i didn't care what the dissidents wanted because i never saw them struggle, or find out WHO THEY WERE. they werent fleshed out. i simply didnt care. they failed. boo hoo. mortiz was entertaining, but to me, mostly because it was like a trainwreck i couldnt look away from. his downfall was entertaining and i liked it.

the first arc with kuklo being imprisoned, meeting sharle, and escaping was my favorite next to the underground arc. it was sooo fun to see sharle try to navigate the underground and finding allies. even though her intentions were pretty naive (i guess?) i was rooting for her and cared that she survived.

carlo, his dad pikale - GREAT characters. was always super interesting to learn more about pikale since he's known as this legendary figure who killed a titan first, and as that was expanded upon and we learned that it was actually sorum and angel was super fun. carlo is a great commander and i liked him a lot too.

i thought sharle was annoyingly useless early on, but when she went against xavi after being captured and braving the underground was where her character rly started to grow and that was fun. she went from cowering at the sight of a titan she saw from the wall to resourceful and independent which felt natural. also seeing her become a craftsman and become her own person outside being from nobility.

maybe this is also just me, but the romance in this story WASNT for me. i wish it wasnt shoved in my face so much how much tension there was between kuklo and sharle to get together. like... we knew that was going to happen. also she was the damsel in distress so many times it felt contrived to me. but they were cute at times (especially with the side stories) and their romance was believable.

the problem came in when rosa was introduced and she took a liking to kuklo. MAYBE also just me... but love triangles are so boring and my least favorite romance trope. i didnt care about this subplot whatsoever and had me rolling my eyes at most points. it was nice to see rosa and sharle become friends instead, and having rosa realize she just wanted to BE kuklo instead of wanting to be with him. that was great.

the art? WOW amazing!!!!! its not that the art style compared to isayama was refreshing so much as super fun and creative. my favorite was how more horrifying the titans were portrayed than even in main aot. i have 0 complaints about it. i loved it

before the fall definitely started out extremely strong, dipped down during the uprising arc, and shined again after that UP UNTIL the training arc after kuklo got majorly injured. from there it was a TOTAL fall from grace. the final chapter was rushed, glossed over, and it sucked.

overall... i enjoyed it, but i wouldn't read it again. i can definitely reccomend it to aot fans who are interested in the lore most of all, but if youre a casual fan who wants a story like main aot or even no regrets (which was mainly character centered), you will be incredibly disappointed.

6/10

#aot before the fall #the end #...im just gonna read junior high now #or the school caste #im glad i read it but wouldnt do it again #aot kuklo #aot sharle #aot angel #aot

[t3ag3rs]

g e n s o - 1 0.

you lift your hands up to gaurd your face as you get into a fighting stance.

lets hope those years of taekwondo come in handy now.. you nod to show bakugou your ready and wait for his confirmation as well.

not soon after he gives you a curt nod, signaling the start. you pace yourself around quietly, moving side to side ocassionally. 

if im not wrong izuku always says he starts off with a right hook so i can move to the left and land a side kick at his open side... just as you had predicted, he came in with a right hook.

you duck to the left and lift your front leg up to land a quick blow as his ribs. you put your foot down repositioning yourself as he regains balance. you smile a bit at the fact you landed your kick.

okay.. now if he thinks competitively hes gonna wanna take back that point by coming in with a kick..

just as you had suspected he came in with a roundhouse kick to your ribs. you push his leg down and throw a punch at his torso quickly before snapping back into defensive position. "hm. youre quite easy to read bakugou" you grin as he seethes.

"shut it genso!" he growls before lunging at you. you quickly side step trying to avoid him, but he grabs on to your left wrist with his left arm pulling you towards him. you widen ur eyes before flipping ur wrist upward and placing ur right forearm on his now twisted arm. you push down and get him down on a knee as his arm is against your thigh. quickly you shove him off before placing his arms behind his back and placing your body weight on top of him to secure him in place. 

"got you.." you say catching your breath, "happy now that we've fought?" you say looking down at him for his response.

"get off me dammit!" he yells, "since when did you even know all of this?!" he asks agitated.

you climb off him wiping the sweat off your cheek, "we didnt see each other during junior high- theres a lot you dont know." you spit still sour on how he didnt meet with you after all those years. 

"i achieved my black belt in taekwondo and learned some other forms of martial arts to pass my test; including jiu-jitsu.." you motion to his position before lending a hand only for it to be slapped away.

"i dont need your petty help" he grunts before sitting up and looking away face slightly red.

"damn did i reslly make you that frustrated that your turning red??" you ask looking at him grinning a bit. he rolls his eyes, "dont give yourself any credit- im just hot.." he says wiping some sweat off his brow.

"yeah ill agree with you about that.." you say before grabbing your water and chugging some quickly, "i suggest you get off your tiny ass and start getting changed, lunch is about to end.." you pick up your bag and walk to the locker room waving him off.

"you little-" he starts but you slam the door behind you before he can finish, grinning to yourself.

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───

you sigh happily as class ends getting ready to walk out before you hear uraraka, "um.. why the heck are you all here??" she exclaims as you walk over to see what was happening. you widen your eyes at the sight of the hoard of students in front of you. "um.. can we help you..?" u ask questioningly.

"theyre scouting us you idiots.." bakugou grunts walking towards the door. "they wanna see the students who survived a real villain attack-" he pauses as he stops in front of them. "take a good look at what a future hero looks like!"

you grumble at his commentary before walking up and placing a hand on his shoulder smiling at the crowd a bit, "we're very sorry for his comments.. anything he says is his own opinion and not what the rest of class 1-a thinks.."

"so this is class 1-a.. i heard you guys were impressive but this guy is an ass.." a guy with purple walks up, "is everyone in the hero course delusional or just you?" you slap your forehead, and bakugou growls. 

"how sad to see all of you are ego-maniacs.. I wanted to be in the hero course; like many students here. i didnt cut it the first time, but now i have a second chance. if i do well in the sports festival the teachers can have the option to exchange me to a different class, maybe others are scouting you all but im here to remind you all to do your very best or ill steal your spot from under you. consider this a declaration of war.." he finishes as the rest of the students behind him agree.

bakugou just turns and walks away, "bakugou apologize to them! because of you all of them hate us!" you exclaim frustrated, "these people dont matter.. the only thing that is important is that i beat them." he states before finally walking away.

you sigh before letting out another apology and finding your way thought the crowd.

─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───

you started your training during the several days before the sports festival. everyday was spent trying to elongate your time spent using each element without facing the drawbacks. by the end of the week you could use your water bending for almost hour, you air bending for 45 minutes, and your earth and fire bending for 30 minutes before feeling the drawbacks. 

but of course that wouldnt really matter if you used your fire or earth to an extensive amount in blasts. i just have to be wise and not impulsive when using those two elements... this is my time to show heroes that im capable of being a hero...

next thing you knew it was the day of the sports festival. 

you quickly grab your bag and start putting on your shoes, "im off..!" you exclaim to your parents. "wait!" called your mother before running over to you with your dad right behind. 

"y/n.. show em what l/n blood is made of." says your dad as he gives you a proud smile, "and whatever you do.. just know we're proud of you.." whispers your mom as she hugs you.

"i wont disappoint you two... be sure to record the festival so i can see it when im back." u add before opening the door and turning a last time to wave before walking out.

you walk to ua with only one thing in mind,

i will show these heroes who i am and what i can do- whether or not that means me or someone else has to struggle in the process..!

previous parts: pt. 0 0 / pt. 0 1 / pt. 02 / pt. 03 / pt. 04 / pt. 05 / pt. 06 / pt. 07 / pt. 08 / pt. 09 next part: pt. 11 / pt. 12 / pt. 13

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[chrissfawn]

ꨄ MAKE IT UP . 𓂃 ㅤ۫ ㅤ⊹

— c.s. series | part 1 . .

pairing :: chris sturniolo x fem!oc

summary :: in which isabella decantis has to share a dorm room with her high school enemy, chris sturniolo.

word count :: 1,390 k

warnings :: swearing, angst (??), lowercase intentioned, 3rd person, chris is a dick, drinking, throwing up, fluff if u squint, n thats it

a/n :: yall r crazy for getting tense to 800 notes 😭😭 i love u guys all dearly. also the story line is js smth i ended up doing on c.ai and i thought it was realy good so 😁 also credits to maxine for the name she said she wouldnt read this if i didnt give her credits

COLD was what amber-eyed isabella decantis felt while walking down the long hallway. after waiting for weeks and even months, she had finally gotten accepted into her dream college. the brunette girl looked down at the small folded paper to know which dorm was hers. to her surprise, the hallway was empty on move in day. she knew how hard had been working and how much money she paid to get one of the dorms that have a private bathroom. she knew she deserved this.

‘ROOM 617’ was said on the small sign on the door. isabella put her boxes down after struggling to carry them for almost 10 minutes. she excitedly took out the key to unlock the door, but it was already open. bella raised her eyebrow slightly, a bit shocked that her dorm mate would already be here. she opened the door slowly while letting out a soft, “hello?”

her amber eyes met with blue eyes. “uhm.. what the fuck are you doing here?” chris mumbled, getting up from his bed. isabella’s jaw clenched as she looked back down at the folded paper. “this is room 617?” she spoke with anxiety laced into her tone. “are ya’ blind?” the brunette boy spoke coldly. “no because if i was, i wouldn’t already know that im gonna have to be with you.” she spat as she kicked her boxes filled with clothes and other things into the room.

bella picked up the few boxes and placed them on top of her bed. the room now completely silent, she took a box knife that she had in her purse and started to open the boxes up. “cant fucking believe im gonna have to be stuck with you for the entire year.” chris mumbled under his breath, thinking that isabella couldn’t hear him when in reality she did. “well we both wouldn’t be pissed off if you didn’t bully me through all of high school, wouldn’t we sturniolo?” isabella snapped.

“well thats what you deserve for being all slutty n shit when you fucked every guy in school decantis.” he argued back, not even looking up from his phone. bella paused from packing to turn to chris. her hands rested on her love handles. “excuse you! your the one who played every girl in bell borne! remember lizzy? yeah, you fucked around with her for a bit and then you cheated on her with her sister.” she retorted with frustration laced into her words. “but ohhh, no remember that one time when you cheated on her sister with her bestfriend?” bella continued, pissed off that chris was probably not even listening.

“oh please bella! you sent nudes to basically all of the guys during junior and senior year. dont act all innocent and act like you didn’t do anything.” chris finally snapped as he put his phone down. “jesus christ and you fucked how many guys in the bathroom?” he didn’t stop there. “don’t be coming after me sayin shit like im a player when you were a slut too.” he finally stopped. isabella rolled her eyes, turning her back to chris. “oh so now what? when i finally say the truth you stay quiet? is that what hurts you to know bella?” he taunted.

“that’s because its all a shitty humor chris! i didn’t fuck anybody in any bathroom, i didn’t send nu— well i sent nudes to my boyfriend.. i didnt send nudes to any other guy but him!” she defended herself while throwing her hands up with mercy. “for fucks sake chris you’re just like your ex girlfriend. she was such a fucking dick. you know you were nicer in eighth grade but when you started to date her during the summer you became a prick. guessing you also played her then?” bella added, tilting her head to the side slightly while crossing her arms. after a few seconds of awkwardness, isabella knew chris was finally silenced, atleast for now.

bella turned back to her things and continued to unpack everything. she carefully placed things on top of the shelfs next to her bed. her dainty crystals, her box of tarot cards, her little jewelry box, everything that she had loved. but it wasn’t too soon until the silence started to kill her. she then remembered that he had brought her vinyl player along with two or three records. the brunette girl carefully opened the book that held them, then taking them out. happily, isabella plugged in the vinyl player and putting on a mac demarco record on to play. chris groaned quietly as the music started to fill the room. “jesus what is this shit?” he asked while getting up from his bed to turn off the music.

“its music…” bella mumbled, quickly turning it back on. “well yeah it sounds depressing, who listens to that kinda stuff.” chris argued as he turned it back off. the girl pouted slightly. “people who listen to mac demarco?? if its bothering you so much then get out while i finish unpacking.” she shrugged. chris didn’t give her an audible reply, instead just simply putting his shoes on and leaving the room. isabella let out a small sigh of relief, thankful she had the room to herself now for a while.

. . . .

isabella was now in her nicely made bed comfortably. her wired earbuds connected to her phone which played music softly into her pierced ears. she hummed to herself quietly once she noticed the time. 1:03am. the brunette girl couldn’t actually help but feel a little bit worried about where he was. but of course, she quickly brushed it off and enjoyed how cozy she was currently. soon enough, a loud thud hit the door. isabella’s eyebrow raised slightly while lazily getting out of bed.

the brunette walked over to the door, taking out one earbud while opening it. her eyes met chris’ eyes. his hair stook out everywhere and some of it stuck to his forehead, his hand holding a bottle of something, his eyelids droopy, and his scent reeking of alcohol and his cheap cologne. “jesus what did you do?” bella asked while moving to the side to let chris in. “mmmhh” he rather giggled. he belly-flopped onto his bed and wiggled around on it for a while, bella assuming he was trying to get comfortable. “are you.. drunk?” she asked, crossing her arms. “don’t be ridicu-lush.. ‘m not that drunk.” he slurred while continuing to giggle like a baby.

isabella hesitated, but she grabbed the bottle that was in his grasp. “jesus! vodka chris?” she groaned in annoyance. he let out a small hiccup in reply that kinda made her laugh. isabella just watched him wriggle around in his bed before his body shot up. “what now?” she mumbled. “im gonna throw up.” chris groaned as he quickly ran to the bathroom that was connected to the dorm. the brunette girl ran after the boy as he kneeled down in-front of the toilet to throw up. isabella who had emetophobia, was also not doing well. her fingers lightly held chris’ front pieces of hair back with one hand patting his back gently, trying not to look at the throw up.

“there ya go..” she whispered quietly. after he was done doing his thing, isabella grabbed a plastic cup and filled it up with tap water. “here, drink some water.” the brunette said, then flushing the toilet. chris gladly took the cup of water and took little sips. “feel better?” she asked as she leaned against the sink counter, looking down at chris on the floor. “hm, i think ‘m still drunk.” he admitted, putting the cup down. isabella hummed quietly, nodding her head as she stuck out a hand to help chris up. “get some sleep.” she suggested while walking chris back into the room. “m’kay..” he babbled while quickly flopping back on his bed.

the amber-eyed girl turned off the bathroom lights then walked over to her bed. she had also decided to go to sleep. isabella turned off her lamp and put her phone to charge. her body slid underneath her sheets and blankets. she heard chris snore like a truck, “great.” she thought. honestly though, she didn’t mind it that much. after staring at the ceiling for a few minutes, she quickly fell asleep.

a/n ;; STARTING MY FIRST SERIES 🙀🙀🙀 this might be a bit messy for the first part but i do hope u guys enjoyed it!!

taglist :: @espressomads @mattsluttywaist @sturniol0s @luverboychris

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[soggywert]

Top Gun: Maverick hcs that live in my head rent free (based off of imos and me and my life) Pt 4

you heard it here and now folks, it’s part 4! I have more commitment to this series than to my homework. yall are lucky af

- mav can and will flirt with anyone in any given situation; he will give petnames out the more the other reacts (cyclone getting pressed being called honey)

- maverick has a favourite spoon he always uses to eat  breakfast with. it is patterned, and is from the last set he received from his parents before they passed. it means a lot to him, so if you use it, he’ll state: ‘that’s my spoon’ and then proceed to stare at you for the rest of the day. only ice knows this. everyone else just comments on not to use that spoon or else.

- the spoon has made him superstitious, so if he cannot use it for breakfast (when he does have breakfast...) it instantly means that he will have a shit day.

- maverick is usually a black coffee guy. straight black coffee. most mornings? just that. sometimes a proper meal if ice or roos nags enough, but mainly just coffee. ice has either an iced coffee (wow aren’t i original) or a latte.

- maverick, after showers, uses his towel to do his hair up to dry it quicker. his hair is too short for that, but he’s been doing to long enough that it’s too awkward to tell him that it won’t work it’s also just funny to see him walk out of a door with a towel wrapped around his head like if he had just come from a salon

- phoenix is everyone's best friend. if you don’t like her; you’re a walking target and that one is on you. she’s a fucking queen and y’all can’t tell me different.

- phoenix is also a great therapist friend, though, sometimes you gotta just give her a hug so she’s reminded that you’re just as there for her as she is you.

- hangman has dyslexia, but is too good at masking it until it comes to writing reports on paper. it’s his worst nightmare, so he usually gets help from rooster by saying what he is thinking and rooster helps write down the important parts for hangman to write on his own

- iceman is a sucker for romance novels and picks up random quotes in them to write on a piece of paper for mav to find, read and collect (based off of a hc @justmiilo made with our ocs)

- mav loves animals; he will be at a party and only hang out with the pet there; he will be dragged around by ice or goose to meet people, before departing back to the pet - loves dogs frfr

- ice is a cat person ice has said: “honestly i am more of a cat boy” the rest of the juniors trying not to cackle: youre a cat boy??

- rooster got mav high once and gave him a flipping heart attack (not actually) mav: bradley is this how im supposed to be feeling i dont know if ive hit right rooster: chill man just relax, youre gonna give yourself a heart attack mav, now really panicking: im gonna have a heart attack???? rooster: no thats not what i- mav: UN-HIGH ME RIGHT NOW BRADLEY PLEA-

- Mav is banned from most public spaces especially train stations. very specific, but he’s made it a thing that he has to get banned from as many stations as possible

- ice and mav cuddling includes mav squaring up to be the big spoon but then melting in ice’s arms when he gets to be little spoon

- mav loves captain jack harkness from doctor who/ torchwood

- hangman complains about when he kisses rooster, his moustache gets in the way, but secretly, he doesnt mind it

- ice took mav to a wine couple art class (based off of the idea that ice can draw from my other hcs) and mav drank the wine while ice did the art

- mav helped bob get out of his comfort zone, to start not wearing a shirt around the beach (based off of the trans!mav and trans!bob hcs) so now they go visit the beach together sometimes to help grow each others confidence (like if mav needs anymore). theyve both had top surgery so

- goose has had a soccer phase, and would make the crew go into teams of two after volleyball to kick the ball around. he loved playing attack, so he could be in the front seat of the action for once.

- mav joined in, but was soon told to just stay in his teams box, because he would run all the way across the field to tackle the ball off of someone yes, soccer doesn’t allow tackling, but mav never got the message in his head, so they just added it to their games. mav then proceeded to become the most tackled person there.

- slider and ice are the biggest supporters of one anothers careers; they see each other like brothers so much it is crazy.

- mav and slider ride their bikes together (slider has a harley)

- ice usually goes out collecting either a drunk slider or a drunk mav off the side of the road

- THIS IS A POPULAR ONE BUT HC THAT ICE RARELY EVER GETS SICK, SO WHEN HE DOES IT TAKES EVERYONE BY SURPRISE - MAV ALSO GETS SICK OFTEN, BUT ITS NEVER THAT BIG. WHEN ITS MORE SERIOUS, EVERYONE IS ONTO HIM TO TRY LOOKING AFTER HIMSELF

- mav teaches the team MA fighting. he dared cyclone to go into a match with him; ends up cyclone is a secret MA fighting genius and mav got his ass beat. the whole team watched.

- cyclone and mav are close from just having to deal with each other. mav giving cyclone headaches, while cyclone gives mavs lectures brought them together. they share a beer here and there at a local bar when they can

- mav hates the city. like, really hates it. over stimulates from it hard.

- mav has ocd; those instrusive thoughts can sometimes be hard for him to control, which can sometimes explain why he does some erratic moves. he never got diagnosed about it till later in life.

- mav and commitment issues follow him everywhere for everything

- when hangman and rooster are exploring areas to carve their initials into around the base, they find mavs and ices old ones (yes, multiple) hidden behind a few desks

- ice dyes his hair to be bleach blonde; it’s actually a golden blonde but he hates it, so he makes it bleach blonde. mav likes his hair either way, but makes fun of ice when he dyes his hair. ice doesnt take kindly to this one day, mav was asleep and woke up with bleached highlights to his hair from ice. he wore a cap everywhere for months

(Part 4/?)

hope you enjoyed these head cannons! i want to do some more when i have the time, but for now, i might try drawing some of these out :)

got any suggestions? leave them down in the comments below! thank you for supporting the series so far!

start here at part 1!: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/hangman-puzzlesolver/692152151697473536?source=share 

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[safety-pin-punk]

Hi!

I’m sort of still getting into punk and learning about everything. You’re blog has been really helpful with resources and everything. Plus your cool.

Okayyy, now my question. I’m a junior in high school and I want to go to college. Pursue further education and all of that stuff. Learn more about the world and critical thinking. But I don’t want to pay a ton of money to a bunch of old ivy dudes.

What’s the right direction to go in for this? Is college a good option if I want to learn? What schools are good places? Where do I learn more about this stuff?

Sorry if this is a lot. Thank you though!

Hey! Thank you for your kindness!!

First off, Im going to stress that you are a junior and you have PLENTY of time to think about this. So dont stress too much right now.

Secondly, I want to preface this with the simple fact of college isnt for everyone. There are SO many ways to survive and thrive in life without it. And thats okay, good even! That being said, this post is just gonna be me talking about college. Under the cut of course

OKAY! So, is college a good option if you want to learn? My answer is yes! I learned a lot at college, both inside and outside my classes. I learned a lot of life lessons, I met people from all over the country (and a few international students). And I learned how to challenge my own beliefs and try to see things from perspectives that I didnt even know could exist prior to college.

But Im sure you were referring to the educational aspect. And truth be told, this heavily depends on both your school and you. Some examples: My school had a phenomenal chemistry program. You couldnt walk out of that program without having learned things if you made it through. But my school also had a very poor fine arts program. And to be quite blunt, I often wondered why any art student chose to stay. But going even further, it depends a lot on the individual as well. I was admittedly not the best student. I wasnt that interested in lab or research compared to some of my classmates, nor did I apply myself as much. And the difference is clear to see when others could rattle off different solvents and what reactions would occur from memory and I would be sitting there dumbfounded.

Next question, what schools are good places? Again, that fully depends on what you want to go to school for. But I’ll tell you what I did and how I chose my school. When I was a junior in high school, I found a list of every 4 year university in my state (I knew I wanted to stay in state, but you can do this for wherever you want to go). I then went through and gave each school a ranking out of 5 (based on vibes, chemistry program, education program, cost, and surrounding area). Once I had it narrowed down to only a few schools, those were the ones I toured. And I chose where to send applications from there.

Though, I cant stress enough how beneficial community college can be. A lot of people get all their gen eds out of the way either before they enroll in a university or over summers. Doing this will save you money and time. Literally not a single person on a university campus would look down on you for this. If anything, they will praise you for being smart. I took a few classes over the summers between semesters just to get them out of the way (and also avoid certain professors).

Where to learn more? Google. Google schools near you. Google schools where you want to go. Google schools ranked nationally in xyz. Google affordable universities. Google universities that have good financial aid programs. Just google so many things. From there, spend time exploring university websites. Read about their community and their academic programs. See if they have virtual tours uploaded. Check out their student activity board social medias to see what it would be like to be there as a student. Sign up for tours. Do an overnight visit if you can!! Or even, just walk around the campus without a tour guide

Best of luck to you on your academic journey! Hope I was a little helpful here

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[alixident]

high school sweethearts

☂️ genre: romance, fluff (?)

☂️ bg: felix has been a friend to you since middle school. ever since you got to high school, you’ve been told left and right that you guys are the cutest couple in the school. although you two arnt dating, you wanna give the audience a bit of entertainment. until on that day that everything changed.

☂️ time spent: close to 1h

☂️ word count: 1.2k

—— “Honey come on!!” I hear my mom yell from downstairs. “Your gonna miss the bus!”. “Ok mom! I just gotta finish brushing my hair first!” I yell back as I finally set my hairbrush down on the counter, it making a thud as it hits the ground. I grab my backpack as I give my mom a little peck on the cheek before running out the door only to find that my bus left 5 minutes ago. I run back in the house and grab my car keys. My mom looks at me with a uneven look. “Did you miss the bus?” She says before following me to the garage. “Yea! And thanks to my dumbass i’m gonna be late to school!!” I say in a hurry. I slam my car door shut, wave my mom goodbye and then I’m out of sight. Hi. My name is Mira. I’m 17 years old and I’m a Junior in high school. Yes, this is me every morning. I wake up about 30 mins after my clock goes off and I panic as I get ready. If I'm lucky I’ll catch the bus on time. But normally I drive to school. Im friends with a group of people, there names being Melissa, Felix, Aidan, and Cassidy. Everyone in the group says that me and Felix would make a great couple. Will that ever happen? No. But I wish I would. I pull into the schools parking lot and put my car in park in my parking spot. I see that my friends are outside the school building. All on there phones, Scrolling through TikTok. I walk up and tap on Cassidy’s shoulder. She jumps and instantly turns around. I find it amusing of how she jumps every time I do this to her. I do it every morning, How is she still not use to it? That’s a question I’ll leave unanswered. For now at least. “Mira you scared the living shit out of me..” She says as she puts her phone in her back pocket, I’m still laughing but it soon trails off as I look up and everyone is staring at me. “What? Are y’all not happy for my arrival?” I say, still snickering. “Y’know what I’m not even surprised. You do this all the time. One of them being that you always late to school.” Melissa bursts out. Everyone starts laughing a bit. It stops after awhile and then we head into the school building.

Felix walks over to me and interlocks his fingers with mine. I look up at him and I give him a soft smile, blowing him a kiss that seems to make him blush. I chuckle at the sight. I wave everyone goodbye as they all walk off to there classes, I smile as I walk with Felix to class, we enter the classroom and all eyes are fixed on us. Mr. Herman, our math teacher, looks up from his computer and gives Felix and I both a frown.

“You two do realize that your late.” He finally says. I look at him with a ‘does it look like I give a fuck’ face and sit down. “There will be con-”. “Yea yea. There will be consequences if this ever happens again. We get it.” I say as I cut in and roll my eyes.

This seems to make him fuming as his eyebrows furrow and his head jerks back to his computer. I see that there is a test Infront of me. My eyes grow wide as I start to sweat. “There was a test today?!” I whisper to Aiden beside me. “Yea. You didn’t know that?” He says as he acts like he’s still taking the test. “Obviously!” I scowl, still whispering.

I take in a big sigh as I pull out a pencil from my backpack, taking a deep breath as I start circling random answers and hoping that there correct.

I finish a couple minutes later and I turn in my paper, I take in another big sigh as I put my pencil back in my backpack and I lay my head down on the desk, I feel a peck on my arm as pick up my head, finding a piece of paper in its place. I pick up the paper, unravel it, and read it. “Meet me in the bathroom in 5. - Felix” I smile at the note. At least I’ll have someone to talk to. Or to have some entertainment. I feel a head lean against my shoulder, I turn and I see Aiden looking at the note. I jerk away and shove the note In a pocket of my jacket. He chuckles and lifts his head off. “I smell love in the air.” He says as he continues to chuckle. I give him a shove as I raise my hand. “Can I use the restroom?” I ask. Mr. Herman nods and I get up, I feel a tug at my shirt, and then I hear: “Make a move while your at it.” Aiden says with a sly smirk. I walk to the bathroom and I feel like someone is looking at me. I turn and I see Felix, I sigh In relief as I look at him with a smile on my face. I look up at him. “You needed me?” I ask with a soft smile on my face. He thinks about his response for a moment before murmuring something and suddenly leaning in, planting a soft kiss on my lips. My eyes grow wide as I blush intensely, my eyes slowly closing as he brings me closer. He breaks the kiss and my eyes flutter open. I look up at him with a crackhead smile on my face. “I.. D-Does this mean something..?” I say as I stutter a little and struggle to look at him fully. “Mira.. I.. I’ve been wanting to tell you for awhile but I never had the guts to tell you before.. I’ve liked you for the longest time.. Mira.. I love you.. I understand if you don’t feel the same way b-”. His message was stopped by my kiss that I put on his lips, soon pulling away as I look at him again.

I smile back at him. “Does that answer your question?” I say as I chuckle “I love you more Felix.. I always will..” I blush and slowly intertwine my fingers with his. ☂️ it’s the end of the day and I gather my stuff from my locker. I meet my friends at the entrance of the school and look at them with a smile. “Well.. I guess I’ll see y’all Monday!” I say as my smile grows. “Someone’s happy.” Melissa says as she smiles back. I give her a ‘shut your mouth before I’ll shut it for you’ look as I walk out of the building. “Bye guys! Bye My love!” I blush as I look at them and then at Felix, turning away before I hear Cassidy yell something at Felix and I laugh. I’m sure it’s something about me calling him “my love”. I open my car door and I throw my stuff In the back before starting the car up. I guess my wish really did come true after all.. ——

#lee felix #felix lee #felix stray kids #lee yongbok #stray kids #stray kids felix #felix imagines #skz #imagine #skz felix #felix x reader

[xevanescentxx]

do you have any William Grossman hcs?

i do! im not sure if anon was asking for nsfw or normal (considering i got this in my inbox after posting my frankie nsfw hcs), so ill just do my regular hc’s for now!

usual disclaimer, if you don’t like/agree with my hcs i don’t give a fuck and you have all the free will to either block me or not read this post! k let’s get into it 😚

William Grossman HC’s

William Grossman is 19 years old

Before being brought to the underworld, William lived in Georgia with his mother. his father’s whereabouts are still unknown.

will is an only child with no distant relatives of his age (who he knows of)

has add and anxiety

is pansexual

dresses a lot like a ‘grunge’ teenager from the 90s.

has a lot of energy, likes to go on walks at night (in the underworld he has to have jack with him or else that kid is gonna get jumped 😭😭)

will has natural strawberry blonde hair but dyes his hair to be a dirty blonde

has freckles

used to wear braces

has an underlying fear of jack but can’t confront nor think about it

introverted, has only two friends (frankie is not one of them)

speaking of frankie, will is very weary of him. he dislikes frankie, but his attitude towards frank isn’t nearly as bad as jacks. jack teases frankie with a smile on his face sure, but jack does NOT like frank. will doesn’t know why.

is a playstation boy atw

will does really enjoy the horror genre. he especially likes the physiological horror subgenre.

he loves avenged sevenfold and muse

will loves photography. his favorite things to photograph are nature, people/the beings of the underworld, and the victims jack murders after he drags will along with him! :D

will hasn’t always admired serial killers, he genuinely used to be a well rounded christian child. obviously all of that was ruined by the internet.

as a child, will accidentally stumbled across an address which was located on the dark web. it was a site where you would be able to watch and comment on livestreams of people being murdered. so essentially just snuff livestreams.

he saw himself not being afraid of these. he enjoyed the thrill, the adrenaline. he was scared for the victim, but also excited. he was able to continue going back to the website. he did this constantly up until junior year where his laptop was destroyed and burned by one of his classmates.

on graduation night, will got into a altercation with his mother and he ended up running away to which he was then found by the clown.

will is jobless

doesn’t shower normally (this is literally canon LMFAO)

he doesn’t smoke weed but gets high on edibles constantly

#creepypasta #laughing jack #creeps comic #william grossman #will grossman #headcanon #headcanons

[youngbanana84]

My Senior Prom

Yeah it was really good... people love going especially back in my day... it isn't the same any more but we loved it. My Mom... bless her ha... she wanted me to have the "whole experience" ...

In all my years in High School I hung out with Brandy. She was a total sweetheart... normal cute girl. Yeah I said it... she WAS... We ate together... spent the nights together... rode to school together... family events together... Halloween at her house was always fun... we were and always was friends... most Christmas mornings (she lived two doors down) Id go by her house for a little while...

I didnt go to my junior prom... I was too busy having my sexual experimentation jacking off a lot with my friend behind the scenes... He had a girl friend the whole time... it was funny... she was a prude and all he got was a kiss of two... that same year he started getting blow jobs from... yeah...

So when Senior Prom came... Brandy said... will you go with me... I said yeah.... I wore red converse tennis shoes black tux and red bow tie... I was lit... she had on a red dress that was gorgeous... we planned the eating and hang time... it was fun... it really was... I still have pictures... we ate at the Spaghetti Warehouse in Memphis... its what our crew wanted to do... its gone now...

We left the prom ... she wanted to go to her uncles... we all changed... there was a bon-fire... snacks... drinks nothing heavy... s'mores ... music from a truck sitting near by... a little cold... Brandy held my hand a lot that night... ran her fingers up my fore arms... Id smile at her... we were friends...

She said let me show you something... her uncles place... I had been there before... the guest house was amazing... right by a pool which wasnt open yet... one big room ... kitchen... bedroom... bathroom... I knew what was happening... I did... we went in... she never asked... I never said anything... yeah we had kissed before... she had well had hands in all the right places before...

Into the bedroom... it just all happened... the kisses... the clothes being undone... I mean it was prom... this was supposed to happen... I thought... am I doing this... with BRANDY>>> maybe Id find that I actually liked sex with a girl... I had to find out... but... I mean I didnt love her love her... I loved her .... cared about her but I wasnt in love... she didnt ask... it wasnt the first time and it wouldnt be the last that a prom couple just did it cause of the emotions of the night...

It was the first time... yeah... the first time I had sex with a girl... I had done things before... but never this... yeah this human event happened... I mean it did... we laid there in the moment... talked briefly... laughed at ourselves cause it had been a little awkward... she said I knew we always would... she kissed me... i kissed her back... we did it... 30 mins later we were back at the fire... others were missing... it had been a nice night...

I finally left.... she stayed at her uncles... thoughts filled my mind... MY GOD I just fucked a girl... and... and .... I mean it was sex... I orgasmed ... but I was like... not for me... I didnt come away thinking I want her again... or I want THAT again...

It was the era of the old Nokia phones.. I can still hear that tone from the text messages... Mom text if I was ok... yeah I said.. where you gonna be... I said I left Brandy at her uncles that was the plan... she said ok... I said Im going to Eric's... ok she said... so Im going to Eric's apparently.... he was a year younger... he didnt do the prom... I text him... hey... hang in the loft????? ...he said yeah...

I took him straight up to the loft (did you read my other story on my page...???... you should...) he was like what the fuck... ha...I pulled off his shirt un zipped his pants and fished out his dick... pushed him onto the cat couch as we called it... and sucked him off... yeah... that's what I wanted on my prom night... he had the fastest load lift in his life that night ... when he went he said dude where did that come from... I had got so hard sucking him... i sat by him and jacked myself off... he laughed...

What happened he said... I said I fucked Brandy in her uncles pool house... he died laughing ... and now your here he said... yeah... this is what I wanted... we drank a beer... we fell asleep... it was my Prom Night...

#mygaystory #lgbt pride #lgbtlove #guylove #lgbtq community #lgb alliance #guysex

[architectual--bloom]

bro, a broken kneecap sounds terrifying 😳😳 If I may ask, how did it happen???

yeah!! i never talk about it alot but like. it was the time of my life /s

gonna put it under a read more and i tagged it but! Warning that I am talking about a graphic and traumatic injury and its aftermath (including infection) beyond this point!

so like. on the last day of my junior year of high school we were at field day (for those who dont know, its literally just a day were theres no classes yall just get to do outdoor games in a giant field all day). there was a relay race which i enjoy doing so i was fine with it!

Well at the end of each persons turn there was a bit where you spin around to purposely throw off your balance. I already dont have great balance, so after i did it i basically was stumbling badly back to the next person. I fell past the line for the next person, but when i stumbled and fell on the field, i basically cracked my kneecap vertically. it wasn't completely broken yet at this point but i couldn't stand and i was screaming and crying the whole time until i got to the hospital (which was hours later btw. The school didnt bother to get an ambulance for me, just bring me back to the school (further distance than to the hospital) and call for my mom to get me).

flash forward a couple weeks, and the orthopedic doctor said that i could start putting weight on it again bc it was starting to heal nicely. THAT was the mistake that snapped my kneecap directly in half.

I had to have surgery to screw the two pieces together. I still have those screws in bc my bone basically bonded to them, but eventually I have to have my whole knee replaced. It's overdue but as long as im not having severe problems arthritis wise they dont see the harm in keeping my original knee as long as i can.

My knee got infected a little bit after the surgery and I almost lost my leg from the knee down but bc it was caught I still have my leg (thank god) but instead I have a huge blown out scar from the surgery that will never heal nicely. All in all from fracture to full recovery it took about... I wanna say 6 months? it ruined my senior year bc I couldn't do my dance classes that gave me stress relief and an outlet for my mental health problems. Shortly after I healed I actually was admitted to a mental health facility because of how fucked my mental health got.

I have bad knee problems with both knees now (apparently i also have shallow knee sockets which means my other knee dislocates super easy) so who knows when I'm gonna have to get both knees replaced, but i get checked regularly and it doesn't seem to be an immediate problem ^^

But yeah! now you know about the most traumatic part of my life that has nothing to do with my family! Thanks for staying around and reading if you got this far i just kinda rambled about it all and wrote a mini essay trauma dump.

#cyn speaks #graphic tw #infection tw #injury tw

[johnhatesyou]

hello, tumblr

i heard about tumblr before, although i never really knew what it was about. i think it was around 2015-2016 when it was the peak of tumblr era. id like to think i was a part of it. mostly because i saw a lot of stuff shared over other social media platforms that actually came from tumblr. but i never really got onboard with it. mainly because i did not have a reliable device back then. i was struggling with junior high, which in itself will keep you occupied.

anyway, now im living on my own, have my own job, and i also have a reliable device! i was able to buy my very own phone and laptop! so i thought: "hey, why don't i give tumblr a try?". im not sure if im doing this right. i hope i am. please help me...anyone. tell me if im not doing it right. is that weird?

from my understanding, this is like a blog. so im gonna treat it as it is. im just gonna go ahead and write down the most random and mundane thoughts i have. maybe share a little bit of my deepest darkest thoughts and fantasies? who knows? im pretty sure the people here aren't judgmental.

a little bit about myself, im 22yrs and i have a corporate job. im not gonna dive into my work but just to give you some context, i work in training. basically we train new hires. its stressful, yeah. and i don't really like interacting with people, but i guess i have mixed feelings about that too. i love my job and the people i work with. i know it sounds cliche and cringe to say that my workmates are like family, but trust me they are. the culture of work that we have is amazing. its not toxic and its not draining. the people i work with actually makes work more bearable.

i love to read books and going to cafes, watching movies, music, going to the beach and up the hills. i live on an island so the beach is pretty much accessible. i get to cross a bridge to the main island to go to work.

don't really have much to write about for now. honestly this is much better than keeping stuff i write in my documents folder on my computer.

#new to tumblr #blog #what is tumblr #gen z

[tyonfs]

🎀’s pre ramadan update finally!!

okay lol i cant really remember what i talked abt in my last one but first of all ramadan mubarak!!! to preface this very very long update how are you alice? i saw u said that u fucked things up with that talking stage (?) i think that’s what u said IF HES A GOOD GUY GO FOR IT!!!

you probs can’t remember but i think i did mention things about my friend group. okay so basically im just gonna name drop it does nawt matter but my friend emily, we’ve been friends since high school and she goes to a college an hour ish away and lemme tell u she has been so fake. she got a boyfriend and she likes to act very differently when she has one she basically talks down to me because i have a bad track record so there’s that. because of that i’ve grown closer to my other friends from our same high school who go to my college and we’re really close!! one of the girls invited me to her sorority formal and even got me a date! overall im really excited 🙈 i wish we were insta moots or smth so i could show u but nonetheless. now with that friend group it was originally a trio BUT this one girl, gabbi, we’ve been friends since 1st grade and she felt like she was excluded so we became closer and the other girls basically said i was replacing them and it was this whole thing but gabbi isn’t friends with them anymore but they’re cool with me? gabbi doesn’t care bc she’s mature and i love that girly for that. so much!

ughhh relationships. literally nothing i’ve officially gotten the ick from arsal FINALLY GUYS IM OVER HIM LIKE ACTUALLY OVER HIM. so amazing. i feel a lil lighter and a lot better abt myself. i’m about to buy a whole new wardrobe for JUNIOR YEAR. omg literally the time went by so quick i just told u how nervous i was to be a sophomore and now im one step closer to graduating and getting my degree. NERVY.

besides that school is going great as always we been knew im literally a smarty pants. i’ve been into like sza and frank ocean lately, my summer artists luv em SPEAKING OF SUMMER im so excited 🙈🙈🙈 so so excited. in other words i listened to enhas new ish album IT WAS REALLY GOOD. i’m upset i didn’t listen earlier. honestly the only grp i can some how care about is enha because lesserafim keeps on supporting isnotreal and it’s really tiring.

because of the war, i see how palestinians are still connected with their faith and still praying all though all that’s happening and alhamdulillah although i had not strayed too far from my faith, i feel more connected especially ramadan starting. i’ve been praying more regularly and even starting the quran again. inshallah this ramadan will be good!

i’ve been reading ur smau on jayflrt and it’s GOOOOOD luv it so far. how was that spontaneous trip!! give me an update alice i miss u!!! - 🎀

OMG i can't remember if i wished you in my other blog but ramadan mubarak ml !! 💘💘 OH SHIT yes i did fuck things up.... i think hes a good guy but HMM i think we both have different goals for what our first date was gonna be so im on the fence :p

i do rememeber this yes !! this is the one from the last ask i answered right?? you can send your ig if you're comfortable and i'll follow (and delete the ask obv so i don't expose your ig to everyone HAHAH) 🥰🥰 but your other friends from high school sound so much better than emily and i hope things go well with the sorority formal guy!! omg idk why they would claim that you were replacing them :// but i'm glad gabbi took it well and is mature about the distancing !! that's so much easier for everyone involved :')

YESSS CONGRATS ON BEING FREE 🥳 no seriously it feels like divine intervention when you finally get the ick from a guy you like that turns you off him for good LOL also GOOD LUCK FOR JUNIOR YEAR you're so close to being one degree hotter <33 enjoy the last two years of undergrad it'll fly by so fast :') AND I FULLY SUPPORT THE NEW WARDROBE YOU SHOULD BALL OUT

omg i do remember you saying you're into enha more than nct now ! but orange blood was SOOO good 😩 wait i need to know your biases and when you got into them too 🙏 are you going to their concert too?? i went to the fate tour so i don't think i'm gonna commit to fate+ unfortunately 🤧 and omg yeah i keep seeing lesserafim with starbucks like ?? and especially yunjin too,, i wouldn't have expected it from her of all people :/ and the whole argument like "oh starbucks isn't on the bds list" like okay yeah well two of their major shareholders literally make the weapons that the us military is providing for israel and at the end of the day it's just a matter of morals too

ahh i hope you have a wonderful ramadan ml!! i hope it'll be a good month for you to be in tune with your faith more ! also i'm so glad you like the jay smau so far !! 🥹🥹 it's a little intimidating to write but i enjoy it HAHAH also the trip was really fun !! i picked up my friends and we drove to our other friend's place to spend the weekend there and we went to the beach and went clubbing :') tbh the weather wasn't the best unfortunately but we did the best we could 🥲 also i drank so much that i'm swearing off alcohol for like 3 months 😭

#asks #🎀 anon

[threephantomrey]

need to vent for a quick minute lol:

i’ve been having sleeping problems this whole year so far. the first two weeks especially were terrible. i had one night where i didn’t sleep at all and then the day after i did not sleep at all either like i was literally up for A WHOLE DAY AND DIDNT FALL ASLEEP AGAIN UNTIL 11:30 THE NEXT NIGHT. most nights this year i’ve woken up in the middle of the night at least once, with always a few sleepless nights during the month (the first two weeks were where i had the most sleepless nights which was literally almost every night) and there’s been a few days where i have woken up at 4:30-5 AM and could not get back to sleep so i was up the whole day after.

the night before last night i didn’t fall asleep until 2 AM and last night i went to bed at 9:30 PM and then woke up at either 12 or 12:30 AM and couldn’t get back to sleep until like 4 AM, and then i woke up at 5 and went back to sleep at 5:30 and woke up at 7.

and i’ve been having problems with sleeping because of my sleep anxiety, and i have that BECAUSE i’ve been having trouble sleeping. and it’s impossible to stop it. even though i have days where i worry less than others, i haven’t been able to go a day without any sort of sleep anxiety even though i try hard to not worry about it. and i’ve also been taking melatonin and magnesium since January and vitamin B8 alongside that since February. and i go to bed early every night like literally i go to bed at 9:30. i guess 9:30 might be too early for me like maybe i should try 9:45 or 10. also my wake up times are inconsistent and idk how im gonna fix that too.

and this is mostly why i’ve been feeling so miserable this year (there’s other reasons too but that’s the main one) like literally i’ve been having problems with this since midnight of January 1st. and this isn’t the first time i’ve had problems with sleeping for a period of time i had it when i was a sophomore in high school too, but that year i had trouble going back to sleep at all after waking up in the middle of the night for a good amount of nights in the first month i was having problems and also nights where i didn’t fall asleep until like 3 AM. the first was December of that year where i had 2 nights i couldn’t go back to sleep after waking up in the middle of the night and then for most of that month i just woke up in the middle of the night and went back to sleep until the last week where i either couldn’t get back to sleep after waking up at like 2 AM or couldn’t fall asleep until like 3 AM. and then when i started taking melatonin in the beginning of January i just had nights where i woke up in the middle of the night and went back to sleep every night or had some days where i would wake up from 3 AM-5 AM and not be able to go back to sleep for months after. and that’s where my sleep anxiety originally came from. like it took me until my Junior year of high school when i stopped taking melatonin for that to officially stop happening.

but even then after that i would wake up in the middle of the night or had sleepless nights more often than i used to before Sophomore year and tbh i still had sleep anxiety some nights before i would fall asleep. and i was kinda thinking about sophomore year back in December 2023 quite often so i guess that has something to do with what’s happening now.

and my sleeping problems are a big part of why i haven’t been in the correct state of mind to write fics or make videos this year so far and that’s why i’m on break from all that right now.

and i’ve really been trying to fix this. i get exercise daily and i try eating healthy and i try staying off my phone before bed and reading books instead and staying out of bed the whole day and writing down my thoughts in a notebook at night. idk what else to do. i’ve been to the doctor twice this year and he just said the cause of my sleeping problems is cause of my sleep anxiety both times. i just want to sleep a full night consistently again.

this year sucks so much for me like this is worse than sophomore year was. i think this year is the worst year of my life this is making my mental health bad. i miss 2023 so much. i want to be okay and happy again and to stop worrying about this forever but i don’t think i’m moving past this anytime soon :(

#a more personal post than most of the other posts i’ve made #sleeping problems #sleep anxiety #this post is very long oh my

[apiag]

Childhood makes us experience how beautiful life is without thinking any problems and just playing outside with so much fun. But life doesn't always like that, life is challenging and will challenge you how you will face life trials in life. The little me before is just sad when my mom don't allow me to play outside with my cousins.But now i used to think so many what if's.

Hello everyone my name is Jillian S. Cotimar. I was raised in Pajo Capricorn Lapu-lapu City. Before i like to go to my cousin's house because i want to play with her, i even cry if my cousin will go home because i play alone again. When i was around 7 yrs old i always think of what my life would be if my father is here with me. Whenever i look at other kids having fun with their father, i always think why didn't i experience this kind of life. I'm still a kid i also want to experience how does it feel to have a father. I can't help to feel jealous of them because I didn't even see what he looked like, I don't have a picture of him and I never saw him in person. I used to think so many what if's before like what if we look a like, what if he's still alive, what if he will come back. But i know now that would never gonna happen, life goes on, i still have my mother and i will always love her no matter what.

In elementary days i really love to play chinese garter after class i always told my classmates to play with me because my day is not complete if i don't play chinese garter after class. Hahaha i remember my shorts ripped off because im trying to reach the devel part of the chinese my mom scold me and i just said it's part of the game haha. When i was a child i used to dance all the time and then there's one time that we will have our practice in our school and then i see this one boy eating outside our room and i find him cute and i caught him staring at me, he's staring at me and im thinking what if he likes me but noo. He is staring at me because he also wants to dance he's staring because he is memorizing our dance steps because he's gay omygash he even dance better than me. Elementary days is so fun for me because i have a lot of bff's just a mix of plastic and pure hehe a black pink lover friends and a twice lover friends haha love playing with them and i love dancing with them because my circle of friends before loves dancing, we used to dance some of blackpink dancing video and i love jennie so much. I love to dance because my voice doesn't like me im not gifted in beautiful voice so if you don't want me to ruin your day just don't let me sing hehe.

During my junior high school days i have this one friend na i don't think he is gay or not because the way he talks he sounds different like gays, sometimes he moves like a boy sometimes he also moves like a gay like it's so confusing. And we became friends like almost everyday we talk we jam we're like bff because i also like his personality. And then one day after class he confess to me and give me flowers and that time im so nervous because i don't know what to say. He confess to me he said he likes me, he said he's confused because even him he doesn't know if he likes boy or girls, if he's gay or not. But he said he really likes me because of my jolly personality before, but i rejected him. I said i just see him as a friend and he accepted it he said it's okay as long as we're still friends. But its almost year na since our last talk and i found out that he's in a relationship with a guy and im just happy for him because he knows now the real him(he's gay). I really don't want to entertain any guy's like just no because i just want to read wattpad stories, reading wattpad makes my standard so high.

And during pandemic my comfort zone is reading, i just want to be alone and read some wattpad stories i even finished the story in just one day. During pandemic i just want to be alone all the time,like im scared talking to other people even my relatives i don't want to face them, i dont want to talk to them i just want to be alone in my room. And in my senior high year, this year is also so hard specially on my grade 11 days since im scared to talk to other people i dont even want to take off my mask because im used to it, im insecure and thinking what if they will find me ugly what if they won't like me. And then time passed by i adjust myself to make me feel comfortable in front of people so that i can communicate with my classmate. lm scared of public speaking like it makes me feel so nervous. It was hard for me but time passed i realized that this is our world, we need to face challenges to test our capabilities and what are the things we can do to survive in life. I'm happy because i meet new friends and i meet this guy, i will keep it nalang hehe.

I'm happy now, im contented of what i have. I have my mom who's very supportive, i have my friends who always makes me happy. Life is too short, we cant go back to change the beginning, so love the people around you. You are given this life because you are strong enough to live it. Whatever life gives you, live for it, because it gives us a chance to build something better.

[bitchybitched]

Hello everyone, so I basically made this account to read and look at animal memes and stuff but then I realized that no one knows who I am here and I can make it my own personal vent account. I can pour my sadness or my anger or any type of feeling I may have, of course some people may not like that but I know that there are some others that may be able to resonate with me. Some people may also be feeling the same as me and maybe I can help in some way. No one knows me here, it’s like I can be myself.

Im gonna tell you guys a little about me. I am in my junior year of high school, I am Puerto Rican, I can speak both Spanish and English but I am bad at both lol. My grammar sucks if you couldn’t already tell. Love reading and writing, I love singing, and I love animals. I have to dogs that I might post pictures of here and there. AND I LOVE MARVEL. I guess that’s all I can think about right now.

I know I don’t have many followers right now but to this who do follow me and to those who are just scrolling by;

hey, how are you?

#personal vent #first post #about moi #lots of love #follow #new post #bitchybitched #get to know me #venting

[dxefillz]

—— now joining the infinite k-tour is NAHM ‘DAY’ DAE ! the 25 year old is onboard as the DRUMMER of the group, TIDAL. she is known to be very MELLOW but secretly DISORGANIZED. also, doesn’t she kind of look like JUNG WHEEIN ?

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whats poppin’ new fam. i’m olive, but oli will do just fine! ✦ here is my new muse, day! now, im not gonna hold you, i actually can’t read and i literally type like a crunchy wrinkly GRANNY so please have some patience with me. lmao // i run on central time, i’ll mostly be online to do replies at night cause i work on a tv set (that i should be done with in may). but, i should be around to plot most of the time !! most of my links aren’t updated on my STATS page yet- but it should all be ready to snoop on by the end of the week!!

tw: mention of drugs !

✦ a lil’ backstory //

dae was born from a set of adults who were unstable, flakey and heavy users. around the age of five, she was dropped off at her grandparent's house one afternoon and hadn't seen her mother or father since. her uncle took her into his care since then.  

from there, she grew up in between two small neighborhoods in ulsan, and daejeon. under her uncle's care, she grew up to be a tomboy- or gamine-like child in nature since he never knew how to raise a lady. so, although she looked like a girl, most treated her like a boy; but more so because of her energy. this is where her aggressive and rebellious habits stemmed from.

throughout all of her schooling dae was often the child that came home with cuts and bruises because she didn't tolerate sticks and stones. this sentiment is kind of the base of who dae is today. however, that mentality wasn't as heroic when she'd started to make friends in crowds that were bad business. from middle school on dae, kind of fell into the shadow of her mother with no one's help but her own.

it took too many parent-teacher conferences for her uncle and grandfather to take it upon themselves to get dae into hobbies that helped blow off steam. first it was music. her grandfather taught her guitar, and her uncle the drums when she got tired of her fingers feeling like leather. once she got too big to sit on their lap they'd made her learn a cover to a whole song in one sitting as a punishment every time she'd come back home to the auto shop with more battle scars and a lie to pair with it.

it wasn't really an effective punishment in hindsight, because she feels the most at peace with a pair of drumsticks in her hand.    

dae fought often in high school as well, mostly for the sake of others- or whenever she was jumped at school; that was the least of her worries though. around that time, dae became friends with a bunch of kids who felt like they meant well, but had questionable actions. they lied about their age to sneak into places, stole from stores- stayed out all night... did drugs just because. she felt alive, but also dead for a while but it made her turmoil with herself seem nonexistent for a moment. until there was trouble in paradise.

her friend group had a giant falling out that led for her to have to remove herself, and within that time she'd started a youtube page that kind of acted as a diary. she'd anonymously post drum covers, under the english word 'day' until eventually, her page got unexpected attention. that hit got her an offer to be a trainee for the band infinite wanted to put together her junior year.

her uncle and grandfather convinced her to go for it, since she hadn't expressed any plans on what to do with her life other than staying to live at the auto shop and collect old rock vinyls.

✦ her impact & history in tidal

dae started tidal with a very rocky start. she’s had more than a few disagreements with almost all of the members. and her aggressive and tough disposition got in the way of properly meshing well with the group for a long time. dae probably didn’t mellow out until a few years into debut truthfully. dae’s knowledge of how a band line up works and all it’s moving pieces was the sole reason she was appointed the leader when not being the oldest. back then, it was safe to call dae the weakest link.

to netizens, because of dae’s ‘tomboyish’ personality and branding, it’s common they would describe her as their girl crush. she’s also known to be one of the most laid back and forgetful of the group. / ‘day’ is probably most known or remembered for being a cisfemale drummer that started from posting covers on social media. / it’s common knowledge that she excels with her drumming skills, and slightly lacks with her dancing skills. it wasn’t until she was put in a sub-unit, v!olet, did dae’s vocals get utilized. 

✦ personality & unnecessary facts //

exudes more ‘masculine’ energy than she does feminine. probably cause she was raised by her uncle and she just kind of took his mannerisms as her own. i like to think of dae to radiate the energy of a more feminine seeming boy? think, like how dudes into rock and and alternative music tend to have long hair, painted nails, chiseled features and chronically tired eyes but in girl form? wheein doesn’t quite give me that energy, but she fits the look and has enough recourses to use. so, help me and play pretend if she starts seeming too feminine to feel like dae.

day is hella unorganized, which leads to her also being forgetful. so sticky notes are her best friend. her band members probably have to peel off a couple a day from the practice rooms. (& lowkey they probably can barely read her handwriting cause homegirl is dyslexic like her mun. spelling errors and backwards sentences all around.)

can be very defensive when her patience is heavily tested. she looks passive, and pretty mellow but she’ll say shit that just might hit your insecurities with a lil’ grin on her face with no regrets. 

dae sometimes craves reverting back to who she once was when around things she quit using. she tries not to drink often, and feels fairly uncomfortable around needles and drugs in general. in the past year, she’s just allowed herself to start smoking weed again. 

hates mushy emotional stuff- she will walk tf away if you start with her. all that i love you stuff, and crying???- CUT IT OUT please, cause TRUST / she will panic trying to help. (god forbid her feeling some sappy shit herself.)

has tattoo’s all over her arms and a few on each hand & insists on leaving her hair messy. her aesthetic really reminds me of marceline sometimes. 

probably has more black leather jackets than she has underwear.

✦ fun little quirks & habits // 

can’t sleep without there being SOME type of sound. usually she sleeps with music on.

is a bit of an adrenaline junkie sometimes, whenever she gets a chance to ride her motorcycle, she’s gone with the wind like ghost rider. (she loves that movie) and me too

day is very sensitive to smells. potent stuff like pickle & olive juice, or overly sweet smells like vanilla make her super nauseous.

because she used to help out at a sketchy music pawn shop while being a proud collector of vinyl's, she knows quite a lot about older music, and vinyl's in general- even ones from genre’s she doesn’t even listen to.

actually had a minor, almost major, addiction to cigarettes and other things before her debut. 

#infinite:intro #i def loaded this up asdfg #this is all mostly for me tbh #this is honestly so much to read so i wont be mad if you don't read it all!

[halcyonstorm]

Hey! I hope you're well. I started watching AOT and realized that levihan was a ship. And after reading the manga Ive come to the conclusion that they were more than friends if not just friends. Mostly because I saw Levi act with Isabella, a friend and a sister of sorts even Farlan. But with Hange he was just different. And thats what made me feel maybe it really was something more. He was a different Levi with her. All the teasing and the overprotectiveness, the unnecessary sass and hostility sometimes, but that makes me wonder WHY? Why was he like this towards her? And when was the moment he fell for her or decided to befriend her that way that yes I will tease this person from now on. At first I thought its because of how they met maybe but their first meeting was so sweet. Hange seemed impressed by him and he even thanked her for her compliments. I didnt think their interaction would lead to something like this. So what are your thoughts because I wonder alot on this. Also can someon pls tell me why Levi looks at her that way in aot 4 when hange meets the kids with him and says if they dont understand us we'll meet them and teach them. Like. What happened? Thank you !

Hi! I am well, thanks! And thank you for leaving me an ask! I always appreciate hearing what people have to say. I’m gonna try my best to answer your question without going on any tangents lol (but I can’t promise I won’t). This is going to be long.

Mostly because I saw Levi act with Isabella, a friend and a sister of sorts even Farlan. But with Hange he was just different. And thats what made me feel maybe it really was something more.

I 100% agree with this. When I read the manga and watched the anime, I thought maybe Isabel was a love interest (AT FIRST). When I realized she would call him “aniki” (brother) and the way he acted around her (patting her head), I knew there was a different relationship between Isabel and Levi. He saw her as a little sister and was always trying to avoid his two friends from getting into trouble. That’s why he decided for all of them to join the SC after all.

But with Hange he was just different. And thats what made me feel maybe it really was something more. He was a different Levi with her. All the teasing and the overprotectiveness, the unnecessary sass and hostility sometimes, but that makes me wonder WHY? Why was he like this towards her?

I think that the reason Levi had always acted different with her than anyone else was because of their first interaction. It was not in the anime but it WAS in the manga where Hange approaches the trio saying “I was watching you at that crucial moment!��� (Not to mention the chapter Hange appears for the first time is called “Hearts” and in 139 we see “...hearts” over her head). At this point, Levi, Farlan, and Isabel were ready to kill Hange since they thought she found out about their plan to kill Erwin. What actually happened was she had seen how cool they all were and wanted to pay them a compliment. Ever since that trio left the underground, Hange was the first person to show them kindness. I don’t think this is something Levi would forget or take lightly. If it were me, I’d definitely remember that moment. I know there is a post somewhere comparing how Levi looked at Hange for the first time vs how he admired the nature outside the walls for the first time. After Farlan and Isabel died, who did he have? Practically no one. It’s my own HC but I’d like to think that Hange stuck by his side. Levi and Hange both have lost so many comrades that they found solace in each other. They bonded through grief I suppose. Also, I think Levi was intrigued by Hange’s personality. Their personalities complement each other: Hange is extroverted, loud, messy; Levi is introverted, quiet, reserved, clean.

When I first saw them, I definitely felt some romantic attraction of sorts. We eventually learn he is a clean freak, yet he has no issue grabbing her hair (which probably was greasy and unclean). Also, I believe that wasn’t in the manga and Isym requested it be added? I can be wrong with that, but I think that if there was nothing planned for their relationship, he wouldn’t have requested it. From the second I saw them, they reminded me of an old married couple. The way they bickered and how Hange never felt threatened by him.

One of my favorite scenes is when Hange enters the room that Levi’s squad is in at the castle.

E: Oh, I’m not sure if I have the authority to help you.

H: Levi, what is Eren doing tomorrow?

L: Cleaning the courtyard.

H: Okay! It’s settled!

See how she doesn’t ask permission? See how Levi doesn’t retaliate? If it were anyone else, I’m sure that 1) someone wouldn't ask that and 2) Levi wouldn’t have responded that way. We have seen all throughout the anime and manga that he usually goes along with whatever she wants to do. Remember in the OVA where Levi grabs her and yells at her? She doesn’t retaliate from his tone either. She SMILES at him. Why? Because he is expressing concern for her. He is showing he cares about her (also he’s grabbing her and bringing her close again). Eventually at the end of the OVA, we see how Levi tells Hange that Erwin agreed to capture titans for experimenting.

And when was the moment he fell for her or decided to befriend her that way that yes I will tease this person from now on… Also can someon pls tell me why Levi looks at her that way in aot 4 when hange meets the kids with him and says if they dont understand us we'll meet them and teach them. Like. What happened? Thank you !

I am not sure if there was a specific moment, but I do believe it definitely developed over time. One specific moment is the one you mentioned later on in your message, “If you don’t know something, go figure it out. Isn’t that what the Survey Corps is all about?” Levi looks at Hange almost in a surprised manner. In my biased LH eyes, it shows that Hange really is a brilliant and wonderful Commander, and Levi is appreciating her and her intelligence. In reality, it is most likely because it is something similar to what Erwin would have said as Commander. In all seriousness, her statement is entirely true. I think we can all learn from and use that statement in our everyday lives. But I think that in this moment, he possibly starts to realize how much he admires the Commander. We can also see Hange taking her own advice in chapter 126? 127? Where she forms the alliance with Pieck. She is not sure how to stop the Rumbling, so she goes to figure out how she can by talking with Pieck. As it turns out, she is successful in forming the alliance.

Overall, I think that Hange and Levi complement each other perfectly. Even if you aren’t looking too deep, I think their relationship is quite obvious. I mean… why would you ask someone to live with you if you didn’t care for them or even love them? I think that this is one of the points that other shippers bring up to break up LH (how L dislikes H or vice versa). Levi didn’t reject her. If Isym wanted him to reject her, he would’ve made him say something similar to Erwin’s “Give up on your dreams and die” statement when Erwin stated his selfish dream and was willing to sacrifice all of humanity for his selfish desire. Hange told him while he was unconscious and “not listening”, and he didn’t reject her. He says “if we run and hide, what will that get us?” and “I know you aren’t able to stay out of the action” when he sees her building the cart. We also see Levi “confess” or “respond” in 132 to Hange’s statement in 126. “Dedicate your heart”?? OMG Do not get me started on that lol.

Getting back on track, the pair is almost always together in the anime. They’re together in the manga panels when they don’t have to be. They don’t even need to speak actual words to communicate. They are the sun and moon, two wings of a bird. Levi is almost always looking at Hange in the official fanarts. We know from the smartpass AU’s that Hange says “he is a good guy” and “he doesn’t say what he means.” That’s why I think they use nicknames frequently. Four-eyes could be seen as an endearing comment coming from him. Also, Levi making Hange chocolates in the Junior High manga?!?!! Oh, yeah, its definitely to shut her up.

Im sorry for the huge tangent but I hope some of this answered your question. I enjoy reading the levihan analysis’ from other blogs. Thank you for reading if you did read this far. Have a good day/afternoon/night <3

#asks #levihan analysis #sorry this is way too long #but thanks for reading #levihan #aot analysis #aot #snk #shingeki no kyojin #attack on titan #levi ackerman #hanji zoe #hange zoe