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Matt sturniolo Little bean - first scan
Part 2 of the series
Word count -1.5k
Warnings - swearing, mentions of hospitals,fluff Matt ,crying,use of y/n ,3 months pregnant, not proof read that's all I think
Summary -Basically reader and Matt go for their baby's first scan and just a whole lot of fluff
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I stand at the kitchen sink watching the fresh morning sky through the window as I gusle down my second pint of cold water , hearing that it helps make the baby show easier on the sonogram.I look down to my stomach with a tiny bump forming .I remember the first time I noticed it and thinking that I was massive already but I just know that by the end of this pregnancy I'll be about 10 times the size but I can't wait .
I hear Matt's and I bedroom door open and close as I hear the quite sound of Matt's bare feet touching the laminate floor as he makes his way to the kitchen ." I wondered where you was missy" he exclaims and I smile at my nickname from him ,he leans into kiss me as he grabs a cup so he can make some coffee for himself ."I couldn't sleep any longer I'm just too excited" I respond."do you want a decaf coffee?" Matt asks me with a smile at my last sentence,"nah I'm good thanks babe , I'll stick to the water" I say to him pointing at my now empty glass ."but you hate water" He says to me with a confused look on his face "i know but i heard somewhere the more water you drink the clearer the baby is supposed to show up" i explain to matt as he nods his head still focusing on making his coffee.
*1 hour later*
"Remember to get that photo guys ... I wanna see a picture of my niece" I hear Chris shouting as I walk down the stairs following Matt ."we will do and it might not be a girl we won't find out yet tho" I hear Matt answering his younger brother .We hear a quick mutter of okay from Chris as we shut the door to the garage and make way to the car.I get in the passenger seat strapping the seat belt over my tiny bump .As matt straps himself in and starts reversing out onto the road .
As we start to park up at the hospital I begin to feel nervous , and I suddenly go quiet."you okay peach?" Matt asks me breaking the sudden silence."yeah just abit nervous now" I say honestly as we lock the car and make our way to the hospital."it'll be fine the baby will be fine " he says reassuring me as he holds my hand .We enter the hospital and after getting lost we finally make our way to the maternity unit .
We sit waiting in the waiting room with my hand still linked with Matt's as his thumb rubs comforting circles on the back of my hand.As I look around I noticed that Matt and I are by far the youngest parents to be and there is a older lady with her much further gone bump as she looks down to it so lovingly.I can't wait for that to be me .I'm taken out of my day dream state by a midwife calling my name "miss y/l/n ?" I stand up with Matt ."yes that's us" I respond walking over to her with a smile on my face and Matt following .
As we enter the little room with a small bed , a chair and a little machine with a screen on it .I suddenly feel like I have no idea what I'm doing ."so how do you preferred to be addressed?" The nurse asked me as she walks towards the machine ,"y/n" is just fine I say with a small smile ."please take a seat on the bed if you could lower your leggings just below your bump , and you're dad I'm assuming?" The nurse says the last part to Matt ."yeah I'm dad" he responds shyly ,"please take a seat" she says to matt in which he takes her up on this offer.
"now y/n I understand this is your first baby" the nurse asks as she starts preparing her equipment."yes it's first baby for both of us " I say nodding to Matt as I say that last part of my sentence."right I'm just going to put this jelly on your stomach so I can see baby it will be a little cold " the nurse says to me with a smile.'little cold' would be the biggest understatement I've ever heard as soon as the nurse put the jelly on my my abdomen is freezing, the nurse must notice the quick jump I make as she mutters a quick sorry .
She moves her wand looking thing over my stomach as she spreads the cold jelly across of it .She stares at the screen so insensitive as she makes notes while pressing buttons .After minutes of agonizing silence she moves the screen towards Matt and I ."so there's your baby" she says with a smile as she presses a button and a strong heartbeat fills the room .I can't take my eyes off the screen as I look at it in absolute awe ."hi baby" I whisper to the screen quietly.
"are you okay dad?" I hear the nurse as my gaze is turned from our little blob onto the screen to Matt ."yeah just alot isn't it" I hear Matt's response as he wipes his eyes " I just can't believe I'm going to be a dad" as his eyes water up again .The nurse nods her head understandingly "makes it all seem real now doesn't it" the nurse says to us both in which we respond with a chorus of "yeah's" ."so baby is measuring up perfectly for it's age and you're 13 weeks and 3 days .I understand that you would like some photos printed" the nurse says ."yes please, 4 if you can" I say to her ."that's fine I'll just get that sorted and get you booked in for your next scan that will be in 7 weeks and we'll also be able to see baby's gender by then aswell unless you chose for a private scan then you would find out earlier" The nurse says as she leaves the room to get out scan photos printed .
I turn my attention to Matt "are babe are you alright" I ask him as I reach my hand for him , he takes me hand "yeah just really happy" I wipe the jelly off my stomach and raise my trousers up over my bump .While I swing my legs around to sit on the bed facing Matt .The nurse come back into the room handing us out pictures of our baby ."right so thats you booked in for 7 weeks and congratulations" the nurse says as we leave the room .
*drive home*
"isn't it just the cutest blob " Matt says to me as he waits for me to walk to the door while he looks again at the scan photos in admiration."it really is " I say once I reach him , I lean in to give him a quick kiss as he opens the house door ."guys come down here we've got pictures of bean " Matt shouts up the stairs to his two brothers as we hear 2 sets of footsteps getting closer to the entrance "bean?" I say to Matt giving him a questionable look."yeah our little bean" he responds with a massive smile on his face .
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AHH i can't believe i came first in the category,well done to everyone involved
Challenge Results
First I'd like to start of with saying
Thanks to all those who participated in the writing challenge. Your creativity was truly amazing and to see all these people who made their first fic for this challenge. Every word you wrote mattered. The way you pushed your boundaries is remarkable. We're grateful for your creativity. Thanks for being part of this challenge.
So without another moment to waste lets see all the people and their works
"slut!" – @mbbsgf on Tumblr speed – @worldlxvlys on Tumblr I wanna be yours – @imwetforyourmom on Tumblr 𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐞 ෆ – @sturncakez on Tumblr Weakness- M. Sturniolo – @teapartyprincess4two on Tumblr ✯BUBBLE POP ELECTRIC✯ – @muwapsturniolo on Tumblr end game - M.S – @thecynthh on Tumblr LOW – @hoesformatt on Tumblr make you mine – @thesturniolos on Tumblr 𝐃𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲 𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐮𝐞𝐬 – @matts-k1tten on Tumblr ┈ Superman┈ – @y0urm4m on Tumblr Carnival – @certifiedmattl0ver on Tumblr STRANGERS – @sturnsssbow on Tumblr you belong with me – @pettydollie on Tumblr Agora hills – @iiheartstef on Tumblr Lavender Haze | Matt Sturniolo – @vanteguccir on Tumblr 22 – @lightningsturvn on Tumblr get him back! 💘 – @chrissv4mp on Tumblr -Summertime Sadness- – @h3arts4harry on Tumblr Cardigan– @sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover on Tumblr Vampire – @sturniclo on Tumblr FEATHER- Sabrina Carpenter – @venusxsturnio on Tumblr Our Song – @sturniololvrrr on Tumblr c’mere, dressed in black now… – @emomattagenda on Tumblr
And the winners are!!
⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚FLUFF⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚
3rd runner-up: Our Song – @sturniololvrrr on Tumblr
2nd runner-up: 22 – @lightningsturvn on Tumblr
And the winner is!!!!!
I wanna be yours – @imwetforyourmom on Tumblr
⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚SMUT⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚
3rd runner-up: 𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐞 ෆ – @sturncakez on Tumblr
2nd runner up: make you mine– @thesturniolos on Tumblr
And the winner is!!!!!
c’mere, dressed in black now… – @emomattagenda on Tumblr
⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚ANGST⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚
3rd runner-up: "slut!" – @mbbsgf on Tumblr
2nd runner-up: 𝐃𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐲 𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐮𝐞𝐬 – @matts-k1tten on Tumblr
And the winner is!!!!!
Lavender Haze | Matt Sturniolo – @vanteguccir on Tumblr
⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚SMUT/ANGST⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚
3rd runner-up: Weakness- M. Sturniolo – @teapartyprincess4two on Tumblr
2nd runner-up: end game - M.S – @thecynthh on Tumblr
And the winner is!!!!!
LOW – @hoesformatt on Tumblr
⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚FLUFF/ANGST⋆.˚ ᡣ𐭩 .𖥔˚
3rd runner-up: STRANGERS – @sturnsssbow on Tumblr
2nd runner-up: you belong with me -@pettydollie on Tumblr
And the winner is!!!!!
Cardigan – @sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover on Tumblr
Thank you so much to tall the writers for participating, this competition is the greatest thing I've ever done so thank you so much for being with me while this happens<3
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Chris sturniolo -focus
Pairing -domChris x British reader fem
Summary -When you decide to show your boyfriend you favourite British show , he gets bored and decides to test how good you can focus .
Warnings - smut , swearing , fingering, unprotected sex, p x v intercourse , slightly Dom Chris ,Dirty talking ,bulge kink , cream pie , praising,multiple orgasms.mentions of spanking , mentions of rough sex , mentions of masturbation. Thats all I think let me know guys if I've missed anything.
Author note -use of y/n , first person and not proofread .
Word count -2k
"Chrisss it's starting" I shout to my boyfriend of 1 year , dragging out his name while he leaves his bathroom and makes his way over to the bed."I don't get why you love this show so much ain't it just about people baking" he replies to me as he lifts the thick blue quilt up so he can get into bed , allowing the cold air to hit my side I'm instantly overwhelmed by warmth as Chris lays beside me ."oh no it's so much more then just people baking , it's a competition , it's entertaining and most importantly it's funny when things go wrong" I say with overenthusiastic excitement describing my favourite show ' the great British bake off' ."sounds like it's even more sterotypically British then you are , what are they going to do in the breaks eat fish and chips with the queen" he says with a awful fake British accent laughing "babe the queen is dead" I say shocked by his choice of words "oh shit yeah" he says linking an arm around my waist as i roll onto my side facing the laptop , I feel Chris make himself comfortable behind me spooning me from behind with my back against his chest .I press play on the screen.
The theme song starts to play and I do my basic girl thing ofo doing a happy little dance eating a deep chuckle from Chris ."you and this show I'm starting to think you love it more then you love me" he whispers in my ear giving me a quick kiss onto my neck."hmmm possibly" I say with a smirk on my face winding him up .*wack* "oh really" Chris says smug as he smacks my ass i can almost hear the smirk in his voice.Resulting in a squeal and laugh from me .We watch the first quarter of the show in a comfortable silence as the adverts start I hear a sigh from Chris as his deep breath hits the back of my neck causing me have instant goosebumps.
He shuffles behind me so that his head is higher up then mine , bits of his hair tickling my cheek "you know what" he says with his voice in a deep whisper I can't help but feel butterflies in my stomach ."you look so beautiful right now" he says kissing my forehead .I feel my face get hot as I blush at his compliment " good job it's dark in here or you'd see me looking more red then a embarrassed lobster but thank you , you look beautiful too" I move my head so that I can reach his lips and I meet them with a light kiss , that both Chris and I smile into .We hear the show begin again so we both draw our attention back to it .
*5 minutes later*
We're still silent as we continue to watch the show when I feel Chris hand move under the waistband of the grey joggers of his that Im wearing, I try to focus on his laptop but the feeling of Chris's rough hands against the peachy flesh of my ass is slightly distracting."hmmm you're so warm mama" Chris talks into my ear more to himself then me.He rubs my ass cheek with his hand and I get deja vu from last time his hand rubbed my ass was last week when he caught me touching myself, Chris decided to teach me a lesson by spanking me and rubbing my ass to sooth me ."I must be that hot " I joke to him pretending to flick my hair , earning a laugh from him .I feel his hand start to move over my hip and close to my exposed core , causing me to let a small whimper of anticipation earning yet another laugh from chris."what are you doing y/n?" He whispers into my ear so innocently as if he doesn't know what he's doing .I keep my mouth shut knowing that the next noise that falls out of my mouth would be a moan ."answer me baby girl" chris says in a demanding tone ."trying to focus" i say through a breath to him ."shall we see how good you can focus mama" he says seductively "what do you me-" im cut off when his hand lands on my pussy with a quick smack."keep focusing on the laptop baby girl and you can cum and if you dont well take a wild guess who isn't coming tonight" He says to me finishing his sentence with another wack to my pussy , I nod my head signaling to chris that i understand."good girl" i hear him say as his fingers move up and down my slit getting coated in my juices ."so wet for me already and ive barely touched you" chris says causing a moan to fall out of my mouth .
"Please Chris , please" I say between breathless moans ."awe what is it baby" he says to me in a mocking tone "please just so something" I respond "well since you asked so nicely" he says in the same mocking tone as his fingers find my clit rubbing in quick circles I throw my head back against his shoulder as the instant ecstacy builds with every move of Chris's fingers "remember focus baby else you're not cumming tonight" he reminds me as my legs start to quiver around his hand."fuck..." I moan out closing my eyes thankfully that Chris was still behind me else he would of reminded me again to focus ."you're so good Chris" I squeal out "look at you already on the brink of cumming and I've not even went inside of you yet" I hear Chris say , sounding distant as I feel my release coming fast "please Chris please I need to cum I'm gonna cum" I say throw pants and moans ."go on baby be a good girl and cum" he says into my ear as his fingers move faster then they was previous as I feel my release overwhelm my body as I'm left a shaking , moaning mess while Chris continues rubbing my clit as he helps me ride through my orgasm ."so good mama , you look so pretty when you cum" he says as he pauses his movements "you're so pretty you're going to do it again " he continues all the attempt of focus has gone out the window as one of Chris's arms reach over me slamming the laptop shop his fingers that are still rest on my clit dives straight into my pussy as he pushes one into earning a instant moan " so tight baby even after I've already made you cum once you're tight" he says to himself more then me as he pushes a second finger in , plowing me he starts of deep and slow as his pace speeds up .The sound of my pussy wetness filling the room , Chris's fingers move so fast and so deep I can hear him talk to me but no words make sense I can't even place words myself I just have moans and whispers falling from my mouth as my second orgasm of the night builds up faster then the first one did ."so wet baby I can feel you clenching around me , do you wanna cum girl" he asks me hypothetically "yes god yes please Chris can I cum" the words leave my mouth in a embarrassing whining sound.Chris uses his spare hand to spread my shaking thighs as they try to close around his fingers , "gotta stretch you out ready to take my cock" I hear him says as he places a third finger into my wet pussy .He fingers go deeper and faster curling to touch my gspot as i throw my head back again as swear words, moans and Chris's name repeatedly falls out of my mouth as i cum for the second time tonight .Again he doesn't stop his actions until my body goes limp against his .He pulls his fingers out of me as i hear him sucking my juices off , i move around in his arm so i could face him when im greeted with his lust filled blue eyes staring into my dazed ones as he sucks his fingers clean of my juices .
"You good baby girl" he asks me I nod my head in agreement to him ."good cus you're gonna do it one more time " he says as he rolls me over already taking my jogging bottoms off."Chris I don't know if I can" I say tiredly to him "you can baby just one more time , cum around my cock let me fill you up mama " he whisper to me grabbing my chin so he can move my head so that I look at him ."okay" I say to him "I wanna watch you cum again" he says as he holds me legs up and open and rest the head of his dick at my entrance before he thrusts in stretching me perfectly, we both let out moans , with our mouths open and staring into each others eyes. He starts thrusting into , fucking me mercilessly .I feel his cock go deeper inside of me I move my hand over to my stomach when I feel a bulge it's Chris dick he's so deep inside of me that he's actually made a bulge in me ."feel this" I say to him between moans as I grab Chris's hand and move it over to where he dick is making itself well known in me."fuck im so deep in you" he said still holding my face so our mouths are touching as we speak were that close .
Chris never slack in his movement as he continues to thrust into me at a inhumane speed , I'm left almost screaming against his mouth showing the Chris that I'm near my release."you're shaking baby" Chris states with a smirk as his hand that is still holding my leg up reaches further up and rubs my already over sensitive clit fast and nearly coming " keep your eyes on me baby , I wanna see your pretty face when you cum on my cock" he says and that's all that it takes for me to release myself over him "good girl such a good girl" he says to me as he helps me ride out my final orgasm ."please Chris" I say to him as my body is exhausted after my orgasms Chris shows no mercy and continues to fuck me relentlessly "what baby" he says in the same mocking tone from earlier "cum Chris please fill me up I want to feel your load" those last few dirty words are all that is needed as its chris time to moan into my mouth as i feel his long hot strings of cum coat my walls .He stills and pulls out of me leaving us both a panting mess as he kisses my now sweaty forehead "im so proud baby , you took me so well".are the last words i hear chris say before i fall asleep with my head against his chest .
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Hey guys I've got a case of writers block rn so any requests would be appreciated and I'll get around to them all when I can
Xoxo hj
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So guys I have another Chris smut fanfic coming along it's been in my head for days but now I've just gotta type it up so it'll be a few days .I tried my go at poetry tonight with it being my nephew's 3rd heavenly birthday, what do you think ?
Can I still be your auntie?
Can I still be your auntie although I didn't hold you in my arms,
Can I still be your auntie although I never kissed your beautiful face ,
Can I still be your auntie although your cross replaces your head and now I kiss that,
Can I still be your auntie although I don't play trains with you ,instead I place a toy train on your grave,
Can I still be your auntie although you dont get to make a wish on your birthday instead we wish we could see you again,
Can I still be your auntie ,yes of course because even skies apart can never stop my love for you
Xoxo hj
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So no hate to them but I kinda feel like Colby's new relationship might be a PR stunt thing idk what do you all think ?
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Matt sturniolo your first time together
Author note : guys I'm in the process of moving house so figured I'd just do a head cannon with this one also first attempt of a headcannon
Warnings:smut , swearing that's all I think just some fluffy matt .
Word count :358
*Dancing fingers* with Matt laying behind me with his chest to my back I turn my head so that my lips can meet his ,with his fingers making shapes on my exposed waist .He draws hearts on my skin leaving a trail of goosebumps behind it .
*Musty oak* With the kissing turning heated , we move so I'm underneath him .He rests his elbows by my head and my nostrils are filled with the scent of Matt's cologne a smell of oak and cinnamon reminding me of the time we stayed in a log cabin for our 1 year anniversary.
*Fingers lased in fluffy hair* with Matt's head between my legs , his tongue doing wonders and his stubble scratching my thighs .I search the bed in attempt to grab something when I find Matt's hair I run my fingers over his scalp and I pull the hair at the base of his neck earning him to groan against me .
*Sinful sounds* as Matt rests on top of me the sounds of strangled moans and skin slapping against each other filled the room with my wetness making it known of Matt's effects on me .
*Deep eyes*As the tightness in my core becomes unbearable, Matt places a hand under my chin making me look him in the eye as I feel myself release over his member
*Soft hands* Matt would be so gentle after we've finished he brushes the hair out of my face , caressing my soft cheek looking glistening with sweat from our actions .
*Whispering words* "are you with me baby" I would hear Matt whisper against my skin as I tremble with shakiness my body's reaction to what just happened
*Tickling skin* as Matt and I cuddle he runs his fingers up and down my exposed back in attempt to help me sleep
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Challenge for the writers update!
for all the writers participating in the challenge,
ALL PARTICIPATIONS ARE NOW CLOSED.
if you've already submitted your fic then congratulations, you're all good
BUT
If you have taken part in the competition but have not submitted your fic, please submit before 15th April, any publishing after that will not be accepted.
Writers who have published their fic:
@sturncakez @teapartyprincess4two @muwapsturniolo @thecynthh @hoesformatt @thesturniolos @matts-k1tten @y0urm4m @certifiedmattl0ver @sturnsssbow @pettydollie @iiheartstef @vanteguccir @lightningsturvn @chrissv4mp @h3arts4harry @sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover @sturniclo @venusxsturnio @sturniololvrrr @emomattagenda
these people have submitted their fic and it is absolutely amazing, go check out their work and spread some love on it
and as for the people who have not yet submitted their fic, im not going to call you out but please make sure of the time and submit your fic in time
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HIS LITTLE HUM OH MY GAWWDD
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💓💓💓 masterlist 💓💓💓
🧡🧡 Chris sturniolo 🧡🧡
https://www.tumblr.com/sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover/746147023983673344/chris-sturniolo-stressed-out-summary-when-your?source=share------ smut stressed out
https://www.tumblr.com/sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover/745147556966875137/chris-sturniolo-fanfiction-first-time-smut-18?source=share ---- smut first time
💙💙Matt sturniolo💙💙
https://www.tumblr.com/sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover/746858884551049216/matt-sturniolo-little-bean-warnings?source=share 💙💙little bean angst/fluff 💙💙series part 1💙💙
https://www.tumblr.com/sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover/746492545026162688/matt-sturniolo-cardigan-inspired-by-the-song?source=share 💙💙 cardigan angst/fluff💙💙
https://www.tumblr.com/sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover/745492154620706816/matt-sturniolo-x-colby-brock-x-reader-dreams-can?source=share 💙💙 Matt and Colby threesome dreams can come true smut💙💙🖤🖤
https://www.tumblr.com/sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover/744600643305701377/matt-sturniolo-enchanted-about-yn-and-her-best?source=share 💙💙 enchanted fluff💙💙
https://www.tumblr.com/sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover/747481384768143360/matt-sturniolo-your-first-time-together-author?source=share 💙💙 first time together 💙💙
💜💜nick sturniolo💜💜
https://www.tumblr.com/sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover/745777417140027392/nick-sturniolo-fan-of-a-fan-summary-you-a-well?source=share 💜💜fan or a fan💜💜
🖤🖤Colby Brock🖤🖤
https://www.tumblr.com/sturniolotrip-samandcolby-lover/745221619508805632/colby-brock-oh-baby-summary-you-have-you?source=share 🖤🖤 oh baby🖤🖤
💚💚Sam golbach💚💚
None so far
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Tara yummy everyone my woman crush also really want to try her makeup routine but idk if it would suit me 💓
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Hey so as a add on to one of my recent posts about masterlist (thanks @sturn777 I would of had no idea) how do i get the different fonts and colors ect really want to brighten up my page abit 😁
Xoxo hj
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Matt sturniolo -little bean
Warnings -swearing,mention of abortion, mention of sex , vomiting use of y/n, arguing .Small age gap (matt 20 and reader 22) silent treatment
Angst/fluff Matt
Author note -thinking of making this into a series so let me know what you all think
Part 1
Word count-2k
I brush the hair out of my face ,as I wake up to a empty house.The house was full of silence as my boyfriend Matt and his triplets brother had left the house already for some business meetings taking place at the ware house.I look at the clock on my phone 10:47am shit thats late for me and im still shattered i dont even feel like ive slept at all. Im awoken from my sleepy daze by my stomach rumbled ,I get up brush my hair quickly and head to the kitchen to get something to eat .
I raid the fridge and cupboards in search for something to eat , I decide to have chopped up lettuce,pickled gherkins and some jolly ranchers .I finish my breakfast and head to the couch to watch some TV ,as I sit down I see a note that's been left on the coffee table it said 'hey baby me Chris and nick have got a few more meetings today then what we thought might be abit later home will bring back some late lunch with us .Matt xxxx'. A smile is present on my face the whole time I read his quick note with my cheeks blushed , Matt's smallest actions can still have a massive effect on me even after being together for over a year now .
I flick through the channels as nothing can satisfy me , I decided to open the YouTube app and put some Sam and Colby on specifically the conjuring from last year's hell week .I'm half way through the video when all of a sudden I feel so nauseous I can feel it building in my stomach like a tornado swirling around inside of me , it starts of slow and the next thing I know I'm running to the nearest bathroom thankfully it's matt and i shared one .I throw the toilet seats up and fall to my knees and close my eyes as the first bit of vomit comes rushing up my throat and out of my mouth .I sit there for the next hour bringing up whats left of this mornings breakfast and last nights dinner.
After minutes of waiting for the sickness to come back .I decided to stand up and reach for my toothbrush and paste ,as I brush my teeth I start to think of anything that could of gave me a bug or if there was a stomach bug going around .After minutes I've came to know conclusion of my sickness when it hits me .....shit Matt and I are usually careful if we don't use a condom we pull out or we get the morning after pill but a while ago I joined the triplets on their 6 million subscribers video .During the night having all the huts to ourselves Matt and I decided to get the hut as far from nick and Chris as possible .It safe to say there was some very animalistic behaviour going on in our tent that night , in the heat of the moment no condom or pull out was used and I could exactly get plan b pill from the gift shop so we just left it and thought well it's not going to happen .
I decide that before I start to get myself worked up in a panic , I'll go to the shop and do a test before the boys get back .Once I feel like I won't be sick again I go and throw some leggings and a jumper on leaving my top to go bra-less as I'm reminded of some achiness in them .I throw some crocs on and grab my car keys as i head out .
*Arrives back from shop*
I walk back into the house and I'm thankful that it's still silent meaning I'm the only one here .This is my first ever pregnancy scare so I'm not expert , I end up buying 7 different tests and some mints to settle my stomach and yet some more gherkins.I wonder around the kitchen with my hands full of tests in search of a cup or container as i dont feel like peeing 6 different times .I decided to keep one unused so i can do it again with matt incase he doesn't believe me .After finding a disposable cup I drink 3 cups of water and walk around the house doing some cleaning while I wait for the water to hit my bladder .I feel a urge to pee and walk to the bathroom, I position the disposable cup where it's supposed to be and let me bladder do it's job I open all the tests and when I'm finished place the 6 sticks into the cup .I start pacing the bathroom but decided that wouldn't be the best thing to do in this situation .So I make my way to the kitchen and put a kettle on figuring that a hot drink may help my nerves while killing the time awaiting the tests.I walk back to the bathroom once then minutes are up and as I pull all the tests out I stand in shock as they all say the same ....I'm pregnant.
Fuck fuck fuck is the only word that is running in my head , what am I going to do ,what am I going to say , what's Matt going to say his career is at its prime right now what will a baby do with this .Fuck their triplets , twins run on my side of the family what if there's more then one baby in there .I hold onto one of the tests in my shaky hands as I pace the bathroom.After minutes of walking around the small white tiled room I decided to hide all the tests and put them in a draw in Matt and my bedroom and I decide to text matt.
Y/n: hey babe was just wondering do you know how long you're gonna be xx
My phone pings instantly telling me that most likely it woul be Matt had texted me back
Matt:yeah not long just grabbing some maccies won't be long everything okay at home ? Xx
Y/n: yeah just got something to talk to you about xx
I avoid my phone until he gets back .I'm startled as I hear the door fling open and just one set of foot steps ."y/n?" I hear his familiar voice Matt is calling after me ."in the living room" I shout back to him .Seconds later he appears looking as perfect as usual "where's Chris and nick?" I ask him "they was fucking around when we was supposed to be signing cards for merch getting sent out so they went back to the warehouse to do their signing , Laura is gonna drop them off later tho .What's this thing you wanna talk about?" I pause with words moving rapidly around my head trying to think of the right way to tell him that I'm now pregnant with his child .I decide that no words are the right words so I take him by the hand and lead him to the bathroom.
His body stills while his eyes move over what the tests all say .The room is silent , too silent."Matt says something " I say breaking the silence ."when did it happen" he says still not taking his eyes off the tests "at the safari , in the hut that night" I respond back to him "fuck" he mutters to himself as he storms out the door .I stand there in silence as my eyes well up with tears.I hear the jingle of Matt's car keys and the door slamming telling me that Matt had left again and gone in his car .I walk into the living room now numb with emotions my hand rests on my lower stomach now knowing that through the layers of skin and muscle is our baby ,my baby the size smaller then a bean in this moment I know that I've got to keep this baby wether Matt wants it or not .
Minutes pass and my nauseous feeling comes over me again as I run to the bathroom again.I spend all the best part of an hour again with my head in the toilet when I stand up again feeling weak at my knees I brush my teeth for the 3rd time today trying to get rid of the vile aftertaste left in my throat .I hear the door go again but i hear 3 set of footsteps this time ,and voices nick ,Chris and matts voice ."what are you gonna do bro?" I hear Chris ask Matt "I don't know"he responds "well you and y/n have gotta talk this out Matt you can't just leave her in the bathroom like you did last time " I hear nick snap at the boys .
"Y/n" I hear nick call out me ."I'm on the bathroom just about to come out" I shout back as I walk into the kitchen .Matt's angry stare softens as he seen my face , I'm now pale and clammy with my skin layered in a thin amount of sweat ."congratulations" Chris says breaking the tension in the room "thank you" I say with a half smile ."so I think you two have gotta talk about this" nick states ."I'm not getting rid of it" I say quickly that being the only thing I'm sure of right now ."I wasn't even going to suggest that" Matt says with anger in his voice .Nick ,places his hand up to Matt in a urge to shush him "calm Matt" he says to him."is it mine ?"matt asks me looking me in the eye "are you fucking kidding me" i say in the exact tone that matt has.Nick and chris take this as a hint and both excuse themselves to different rooms "yeah I'm being real" he says raising his voice , it being full with anger ."you're the only person I've slept with matt you know that" i say to him storming off into our shared room .
*Few hours later*
I hear a knock at the bedroom door hoping that it's Matt ."come in" I shout sounding optimistic.The door opens and nick strides in with a sorry smile on his face "so that was intense" he says as he sits down next to me on the bed "yeah" i agree with him ."so i dont know if this is the right thing to say but im really glad your'e keeping the baby" he says nudging my arm ."yeah i am too , i just hope that matt feels the same " i say smiling properly for the first time today ."alright its getting late so I'll leave you to sleep i heard creating a baby can be tiring "he says with a small laugh.
Just as nick leaves the room Matt enters it , he ignores me acting as if I'm not in the room as he goes to the wardrobe grabbing some spare pillows and duvet he walks back out of the room as I sit in bed listening to him getting comfortable on the sofa .I think to myself how much of a long night I'm in for I can never sleep properly when I'm not with Matt and even worse knowing that he's mad at me .As the thoughts come to my head added with the extra hormones that pregnancy has brought on my eyes start to fill with tears when they fall down my face .I have so many questions running over my head thinking how I'm going to bring up a baby by myself although nicks previous words bring some form of comfort to me .As the clock strike 4 am and im still wide awake and emotional i decide to head to the bathroom and take a calming bath .Im thankful that both nick and chris's rooms are on different levels as I run the tab the sound of water echos through the room .I rid of my clothes and get into the bath now full of bubbles I close my eyes in attempt to relax.
Suddenly my nauseousness creeps up on me again , who ever called morning sickness 'morning' has never experienced this cus it seems to be all throughout the day already .I jump up from the bath with my wet hair sticking to my body as I move quickly to the toilet I throw the lid up and sit on the floor as bile begins to leave my body .I startled as a soft towel is wrapped around my body ,I look up to see Matt crouching next to me with his eyes full of tears himself .His hand rubs circles on my back as I start gagging again ."let it out baby it's okay" he whispers I release bile 3 more times as I pull back and rest my head on Matt's shoulder as he pushes my hair out of my face ."come on let's go to bed and talk " he says so quietly careful not to wake his two brothers up .He stands up and picks me up bridal style still with the towel wrapped around me .He carries me to our bed and uses his foot to close the door as he places me gently on the bed .He goes to our wardrobe and fetches me some shorts and one of his tops , he helps me get dressed as my body is weak from the vomiting.Once I'm dressed I lay in bed as Matt walks over to the other side of the bed and jumps in to bed with me .I sit waiting for him to speak "y/n im sorry for what i said and done earlier i know that you would never cheat on me and id never ask you to get rid of it .Whatever you choose ill support you .Im sorry ive treated you like that when you needed me the most ..." I cut his speech off with a kiss "I know , I know babe and we're going to be fine I want to keep this baby tho" I say to him looking him in his eyes "we're going to be a mommy and daddy" he says to me smiling ."we best tell our parents" I say to him before falling asleep in his arms .
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Hey guys can anyone give me a hand please I'm on need of making a master list but have no idea how to 😅 thanks in advance
Xoxo hj
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Yessss always
Reblog if it's okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.
please, please and please.
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Hey guys so I always want to be very open on here and if I have times when I'm not going to be very active I want to explain my reasons why .Now as you all know I've got 3 nieces who are my world but I also have a nephew who is nearly 3 now the elephant in the room he's still born so every year near his birthday I get abit emotional and I suffer with anxiety and depression so around his special day everything tends to be more intense emotionally and since my new story involves a pregnancy and baby it's just a very sensitive topic at the moment therefore I can't say when my next story will be out but it's in the making hope you can all understand.
Hj xoxo
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Matt sturniolo -cardigan
Inspired by the song 'cardigan' from Taylor swift
As part as the writing challenge 2024 @annamcdonalds67
Angst/fluff
Author note -this took days to make guys so pleased go show some love it's my entry to this year's competition, I thought well with my favourite triplet and favourite Taylor swift song I best try my best on it.
Summary - when y/n and Matt start to get serious in the relationship one person isn't ready leading to a rollercoaster of emotions but will they be able to make amends in the end
Warnings- angst Matt , swearing, mentions of sex , arguing, mentions of self harm in the past.
Matt X fem reader
Word count- 5k (it's a long one guys)
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'Vintage tee, brand new phone
High heels on cobblestones'
I walk hand in hand with Matt as he is laughing at my struggle as my red high heels cause me to wobble like bambie on ice as we walk back from our date .At one point I slip and my heel gets stuck in the crack of the cobbles.The one hand linked in his tightens as my other arm reaches to grab the sleeve of his vintage tee.Next think i know im on floor as my shoes caused me to completely lose balance .I land on my bum in fits of laughter as matt is next to me laughing just as hard as i am .We both take a deep breath in attempt to compose ourself when my empty high heel catches Matt's eye over my shoulder to which he points at laughing again.People pass us by giving us weird stares seeing our state of laughter .After what feels like a life time matt is the first to stand up as he reaches his hand down to help me get up .I take off my remaining shoe before accepting his hand , i go back to my previous position of holding Matt's hand with my heels in the other hand , thankful in that moment as the car was a few minutes walk.
Y/N mind
*I've been dating Matt for 2 months yet , the first time I seen him I was instantly attracted to him .We was at a party when I seen him across the room .He smiled at me and I smiled back shyly and shortly after we was sat discussing in the kitchen how none of us both drunk alcohol while still enjoying the party just as much .We exchanged numbers and he messaged me the next day .Since then we have been going on a few dates every now and then , we hang out , have sex ,cuddle and watch films basically everything you do in a relationship.*
We get to his car and I sit in the passenger seat being a designated passenger Princess I connect my phone to Matt's car and start scrolling through Spotify looking for a playlist we can listen to on the short drive back to his house .I put on my swifty playlist and with a eye roll from Matt he starts to drive back to his house he shares with his two brothers who over the few months I've became friendly with .I sing along to all the songs as Matt looks at me occasionally in amusement then 'lover' comes on "oh i love this song" i say with a excited squeal .Matt chuckles to himself "i know you do , wht do you even like it so much?" He asks me , I pause for a second "because it just makes me feel so inlove " I say quietly as matt turns inti the garage of his house .He's quiet for a moment "dinner was nice wasnt it my burger was so good" he says ." I don't know how it could be a bad burger all you have is meat and cheese on it" I say back to him with a laugh.He fakes a deep sigh"true true how was yours?" He asks "honestly my pizza was kinda of ass did you see the amount of oil that came off it , it flopped like a sad dick" I say laughing .As we walk through the door we're greeted with 'hey's' from nick and Chris.
After a few hours chilling with his brothers Matt and I decided to call it for a night .He grabs a root beer from the fridge as I grab a iced tea "I'll meet you in your room" I say to him as I go to use his bathroom "okay" he says to me with a half smile as he walks through his bedroom door .I take off my makeup before putting my hair in a very loose plait , I brush my teeth and put on one of Matt's sweaters and some shorts .I walk through the living room quickly to say "goodnight" to his brothers , I'm greeted with 'night's' from the two blue eyes boys.I walk into Matt's bed to find family guy on the TV and Matt already in bed on his side .I get under the covers as i snuggle up so that my back is resting against his chest and his arms instantly wrap around me .As i watch the cartoon show play out infront of my eyes and the low laughs falling from matt's mouth falling into my ears I zone out in my head .I've loved every minute I've spent with Matt ,but it's been 2 months now so I'm just waiting for him to officially ask me out .
'Hand under my sweatshirt
Baby, kiss it better'
I feel Matt's long fingers lift the oversized sweatshirt up ever so slightly as they danced on my skin leaving shapes across my soft skin."penny for your thoughts" Matt breaks our comfortable silence "I'm just thinking of how nice tonight was" I respond with a smile."yeah it was" he replied "when you shoe was just standing there empty tho" he continued bursting into laughter at the memory of it , I joined in with his laughing closing my eyes as he pulled me closer to him when he laughed .I wish time would stop and we could just stay like this forever , just me in Matt's arms laughing at tonight's events . He'd be such a good boyfriend to me , he's kind , respectful amazing in bed and he understands my past he I stands my scars .As the laughter dies back down his fingers move from my waist to my hips as he pushes the hem of my shorts down slightly ."are you getting bored of this then?" I ask him refering to the show on the TV." Do you want to ?" He asks me I say yes and it's safe to safe that we thoroughly enjoy the next activities.
*Some time later*
I look at him in the eye while we're still connected and I know right now that I was falling in love with this man .we fall asleep in each others arms ,well matt is the first to fall asleep as i lay listening to his soft snores and sucked in by my own thoughts."What if he treats someone else the way he treats me ? What if I like him more then he likes me? What if the feelings aren't mutual at all?" i think to myself , after my mind running with these questions and more my body eventually gets tired and my eye lids are so heavy that they draw to a close and the next thing I know , I too am in a deep sleep along with Matt safe and warm in his arms .
"Tried to change the ending
Peter losing Wendy, I
I knew you
Leavin' like a father
Running like water,"
*Morning*
I'm woken up by the sunlight beaming into Matt's dark room , I can still feel his deep breaths against the skin on my neck telling me that he was still asleep.I lift the duvet up to see his now limp arm still resting around my waist with his jumper half risen up my torso.I move my hand gently on his arm as I try to escape his embrace .I'm successful and he stirs ever so slightly in his sleep ,when his body stills again .I walk through the living room towards the kitchen table when I'm greeted by nick who is sat editing this week's new video "morning y/n" he says cheerfully,"morning" I respond while I fix myself some breakfast and sit down next to him "so good night sleep?" Nick says to me with a smirk on his face ,"shut up" I says jokingly as I tap him on his arm ,"well you two aren't exactly quite" nick continues laughing. We sit in a comfortable silence as I watch nick doing his job of editing."so how are things going with you and Matt?" Nick asks , still looking at his laptop screen ."Good , I really like him if I'm being honest with you" I say to nick blushing slightly.He pauses for a second " good I'm glad" he says smiling at me . I put my dishes in the dishwasher " I'm gonna go see if Matt's awake " I say to nick "okay" he replies.
I open the door to see Matt awake on his phone , "morning " I say as he looks up to me "morning " he responds.I take of his jumper and my shorts , changing my underwear I put my dirty ones in my over night bag along with my shorts and put Matt's jumper into the washing basket ready for it to be washed .I put my bra on as i feel matt's eyes burn into my skin as he looks at my exposed flesh "you're so pretty y/n " he says to me , i blush at his comment "thank you" i say as i finish putting on my outfit for the day ( dark green cargo trousers, grey vest top and a cream cardigan)
I keep thinking about all my thoughts that ran through my head last night ,I have to bring it up to matt and see what he thinks ."matt?" I say to him quietly, "yeah?" He responds with curiosity obvious in his voice ."I've been thinking" I begin to say he turns his phone screen off giving me his full attention now "go on" he stares at me so intensely as the words fall from his mouth , encouraging me to continue with my speech ." Well I really like you , I've really enjoyed spending time together so far and the past 2 months have been great I was just wondering if we was going to take things further any time soon because I know I'm ready for it all and I just wondered if you felt the same " I speak faster then usual as I continue to look around and take in the details of his room , doing my best to do everything but look at Matt.
The room is quiet , too quiet for my liking.Matt pauses , let's out a sigh "y/n look" he says, "yeah?" I say with my voice riddled with confusion as my eyes meet his for the first time in minutes ."look I like you and I like spending time with you but I'm just not ready for a relationship." He says so calmly as he tries to reach my hand ."so if you're not ready for a relationship why did you let this go on for 2 months already .we do everything you should do in a relationship." I say with a shaky voice .Matt looks at me with no emotion in his eyes , he stands up trying to walk over to me as if he thinks that holding my hand will soften the blow he's made in my heart .I keep pacing the room every time Matt walks close to me I move further away from him ,"y/n let's talk about this" he says to me in a whisper I could barely hear ."no why not mention something sooner Matt ,if you wasn't ready for a relationship why take me on dates like you did , why fuck me the way you did and hold me the way you did" I shout as he tries to get closer to me , by now the tears are streaming down my face in a mixture of sadness and anger .I look at him again , the same bright blue eyes that I looked into as we was intimate, the hair still fluffy like how it was when I wrapped my fingers around when I was tired and the same hands reaching out for me that just only hours ago was wrapped around my waist so lovingly.
"I'm gonna go home" I say to him in a whisper."stop y/n let's just talk about it.atleast let me drive you home " I hear him shouting from his doorway as I'm already making my way across the living room ."y/n what's going on why are you crying" I hear nicks voice coming from the kitchen as I close the front door .I hear Matt's foot steps coming down the front stairs as he calls my name repeatedly.My fast walk turns into a small jog as I try to get away from Matt as fast as I can , I go around the corner on the pavement and I see bench .I sit down wiping the tears from my face and being internally thankful that I've not put mascara on now else I would of looked like a panda by now .
I sit and collect my thoughts , my breathing becomes steady now and my tears have now slowed down with small hiccups and sighs leaving my mouth .I hold my phone with my shaky hands and click the Uber drive app , I order one for as soon as possible wanting to get out of the triplets neighbourhood as fast as possible.While I wait for my ride , Matt's previous words run through my head as I try to make sense of it all .Was the past 2 months really mean nothing to him , and last night when we was intimate to me it was the time I realised I was starting to fall inlove with him but to him was it as good as a booty call.
'You drew stars around my scars
But now I'm bleedin'
I let out a sigh of relief I didn't know that I was holding in when my Uber arrives taking me to my safe space of home .I wipe the last few tears off my cheeks as I step inside the Uber "victoria street?" The driver asks me with sadness in his eyes as he sees my face in his rear view mirror."yes thanks" I say short but polite with a struggled smile on my face .He returns a smile and nods his head as he starts to drive off expecting that i wouldn't be a talkative passanger, I sit looking out the window to see that it had started raining the sky was crying now just as I had been minutes before .I zone out as i count the raindrops dripping down the outside of the window , so far im at 347 but with the dark clouds finally splitting the raindrops stop to nothingness..After a few minutes of boredom giving up on the counting raindrops to distract my mind , the Uber pulls up to my house .I thank the driver as I walk out of the car and up to my porch the smell of musk and previous rain filling my nostrils.I place the key into the lock as my hands still shake slightly .I open the door and I instantly feel slightly relief knowing that it's just me in this little house and Matt is blocks away from me right now .I take my shoes off and places some slippers on , I see my over the night bag that I had dumped near the door immediately I open it seeing my shoes and dress .I through the shoes away although this time yesterday they was my favourite heels they now just cause pain in my heart remember hours ago Matt and I was in fits of giggles over them.
I walk into my bedroom the wooden smell filling my lungs as I take a deep breath to take it all in I go into my wardrobe and see some of Matt's clothes he's left at mine , I can't help my actions when my arm is reaching for them I hold it close to my chest vowing to myself to never put my walls down again for a man .Anger takes over my body again and I grab his left over clothes start to frantically put them in a rubbish bag telling myself that ill put them in the bin when I leave this room .I choose to change the clothes I put on today and opt for my fluffiest , thickest pjs possible in a attempt to comfort my sad soul.I grab the bag of Matt's clothes moving swiftly to the bin when I lift the lid up , I can't bring myself to get rid of them as I close the lid again .I storm back to my room open my wardrobe and put the back of clothes that still smell like him at the bottom of it as something to deal with on a later date .
I go and make myself a hot chocolate with extra cream , as I light some candles around my house I sit down and place gossip girl on in attempt to distract the ache in my heart.
*Some time later*
I couldn't tell you what is going on in the show anymore , I could just tell you Matt's words that he spoke .I refuse to turn the telly off knowing that the silence would cut the wombs in my heart even deeper.As I reach to put my now empty hot chocolate down on a counter close by I watch my sleeve rise up and my scars reveal themselves like a small reminder of a date when I was feeling terrible with no other choice .Matt knew about that day , we met in the summer and I'd always wear long sleeved tops to hide them he noticed this .Matt noticed everything and he was never good at keeping his curiosity to himself when I remember him whispering to me once when we went to a cinema how he had never seen me in a vest top .I told him about my past and how low i was one night when i felt his eyes burning into my skin as the words left my mouth similar to how they did today .I remember the cinema being filled with loads of people all watching the big screen when his rough fingers tips brushed up my arms when my breath turned shallow he started to draw shapes around my scars , those shapes turned out to be stars and it was that night he watched my lips as I kept talking in nervousness when he kissed me for the first time in his car .My face is wet suddenly when I'm taken out of my day dream from the night we had our first kiss to see that im crying again at the thought of our memories .I pull down the sleeve of my top angrily and look at my phone to see messages from Matt, Chris and nick .I instantly turn off the phone and through it into a pillow on the other side of the sofa.I pull my throw over my body as i pull it up my chest and put on comedy to watch this time i choose sausage factory in hope that the humor would help with my heart.
'A friend to all is a friend to none
Chase two girls, lose the one'
Days have past now , I've still not turned my phone back on .I haven't gone out , I haven't opened my curtains I've sat in darkness most days with the only light coming from my TV .After the 4th morning home , I've decided I should really get my shit together so I brush out my days old hair and clean aways all my take out rubbish of pizza boxes and sushi containers.I brush and mop all of my floors , rearranging my ordiments and sofa I open my curtains for the first time in days when I notice a half deflated helium balloon attached to my porch with the word sorry printed very brightly across it .I open the door to grab it , I look at it for a minute while anger still riddles my body as I stare at the state of it , it must of been here for a few days .I see a little card at the bottom of it 'im sorry, Matt xx' is written on it .I shake my head as a visual representation of my disappointment as I put the half deflated balloon in the bin .I make my way back into my comforting home , turning on my phone bracing myself for the spam of notifications to appear .I never expected to see what I seen , well not so soon .After swiping away all of the notifications saying I've been contacted by the triplets , their manager , friends and my family.I see that matt has been pictured cozying up to a blonde girl the day after he told me he wasn't ready for a relationship.My hands was shaking again , not in sadness this time around but anger I'm furious as I feel my blood boiling looking at the picture while Matt's words run around my mind .
In a fit of rage I get my contacts up to see Matt's name I start to text him .
Y/N : I really can't believe you right now
Y/N: really 24 hours after and you're around another girl
Y/N: you say you're not ready for a relationship and you're doing that with another girl and getting pictured 😂
I sit in anger as I see the blue bubbles appear showing me that Matt was typing a response to my outburst .
Matt: well a hi would be nice to hear
Matt: it's not like that she was just a friend in fact she tried to make a move and I blew her off
Matt: these past few days have made me think of a few things y/n listen to me I swear I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry
I scoff at his response and close our chat leaving him on opened.I huff and turn my phone screen off again when I hear my notifications going off again ,I sigh and open it up to see Matt messaging me again
Matt: don't ignore me
Matt: say something after that please
Matt: fuck it I'm coming over
That got my attention
Y/n: come over and I'll ignore you it'll be a wasted journey
Matt: be there in ten
'And you'd be standin' in my front porch light
And I knew you'd come back to me......You put me on and said I was your favorite'
Minutes pass as I persuade my brain that he was bluffing and won't be on his way to mine .I try to sit and calm myself with my shaking hands and shaking leg going in sync with each others rhythm.'he won't be here , he won't be here ,he won't be here' I tell myself in my head almost convinced that he won't come and Im not sure if ill be devastated or relieved if matt doesn't show .I noticed all of a sudden that the room has got gloomy all of a sudden and the sound of rain suddenly hitting the windows and roof fills my ears when hear a 'ping' to inform me of yet another notification, it's Matt.
Matt: come outside.
I pause as I sit with my phone in my hand , my eyes moving from the screen and my door .I stand up now feeling almost nauseous as the butterflies flutter around in my stomach , I hate how Matt still has this affect on me .I make my way to my front door with shaking hands I turn the lock and open it .
There he is , with wet dark hair sticking to his forehead he's underneath my porch he looks like some kind of damaged angel with his skin being litghtened up by the porch light.The moment I lay my eyes on him the eyes instantly well up in tears ."y/n" he says so urgently "can I come in it's abit wet and cold here" he continues trying to receive a smile from me at his obvious statement.I pause still not sure how to put words together at the moment but I nod my head yes and move out of the way so that Matt can enter my home , I watch his every step .
"I'll get you a towel" I say quietly as I walk past him towards my bathroom coming out seconds later with a fresh blue towels for him to dry his hair with ."I've got some of your clothes here still if you want to put some dry ones on" I say to him , handing his towel to him ."thanks where abouts are they can I go change" he asks me "yeah they're in a rubbish back at the bottom of the wardrobe you can get changed in my room" I reply to him not looking him in the eye .He walks past me towards my room keeping the door open as I hear him rooting through the bag of clothes , a few minutes later he walks back in looking more fresh and a little more dry .He sits down in the sofa next to me, we sit in silence " so" he says , "so" I repeat after him .We both stare straight on at the blank TV both avoiding each others gaze , "look y/n" he starts talking "you don't have to speak just listen " he says touch my arm so that I look at him .His face is full of desperation and sadness, I nod my head in attempt to encourage him to keep talking ."I'm sorry for what I did , and I mean it she was just a friend I didn't know how much I liked you until I lost you .The past few days have been awful and you know what paparazzi is like they make a tiny thing into a massive thing . please y/n I'm in for everything now I just didn't realise it by then but please just give me one more chance." He says pleading me with his eyes as he looks at me , his breathing fast he scans my face for a response .I can't seem to put words together to form a sentence with so many thought and feelings going around my head , I think if the saying how actions speak louder then words and with that in my head I lean forward grabbing Matt's face feeling his slight stubble scratch my finger tips as I press my lips to his , he instantly grabs my waist to pull me closer and he deepens our kiss .After what feel like hours we pull apart only for Matt to start kissing my nose "I'm sorry " "be my girlfriend please " he says between kisses .I look him in the eyes and it's different his eyes look brighter"yes" I whisper to him as I kiss the tip of his nose.
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