notesofyouandme

[notesofyouandme]

I almost saw you today...

I look up and my heart skips for I believe its you.

I look left and I swear it’s you.

I look right hoping it’s you.

I look forward to it being you.

I look back only to see the memory of you.

I never told you goodbye.

I didn’t believe I would have to.

I never prepped.

I look up - I hope it’s you.

I look left wanting to apologize.

I look right believing maybe we were wrong .

I look forward to make things right.

I look back only to see the we are no more.

I’m sorry - we drifted, my intention was to become a better person not a different person from you. But time has come and gone and I can’t tell you that anymore. All I’ll hold will be our laughs and memories. You were my best friend.

Today, I almost saw you.

Fun FACT: Can’t watch our show w/o thinking how we walked those streets.

#imissyou #writing #english #bffl #z&p #canttellyou #write #movingon #missyou #looking #today #nc

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You were here. Here is where you aren’t. Aren’t you curious? You left an opening. Opening the door. A door that has been locked. A lock which was sealed. Sealed is what I want to be. Be better. Better happens when you open a door. A door is now open. A lock is broken. Fun FACTS: I looked you up today. #writing #sharing #doors #vulnerability #growing

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Superman, Why?

Why did you step into my life?

Why are you understanding?

Why do you get me?

Why can I talk to you?

Why do I feel this for you?

Why does this feel right?

Why must we behave this way?

Why is this unfair?

Why must we have bad timing?

Why must I make the choice I don’t want to?

Why Superman?

Fun fact:  The way you speak to her - “Hey sweetie..” she’s lucky to have you 31717 

#dog #peom #doggie #beautiful #writing #write #english #why #superman #lust #smitten #thinking out loud #understanding #life #time #feel

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For Me

I have done my dream.

I have started my career.

I have gotten back on my feet.

I have created my own world.

I have started dreaming for me.

A dream became my reality.

Career is how I fit into this world.

My feet got me here.

World, I thank you.

This is for me.

FACT: Been living for me for 6months.

#world #path #dreaming #dreams #peom #thankyou #english #writing #author #notes #thoughtsofthe day. #woods #trees #water #rivers #midwest #nature

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Eventually is now.

Eventually were always just words that would come out. I never thought I’d be standing in NY.  Graduation, family, London, Wisconsin, New York, Dreams, and Stress - is what my month has consisted of. My stomach is in a knot. It’s hard to relax in a place where I’ve hold so much dreams to. I have my sister barking at me to visit me for a week, a friend visiting the same week, and another making plans too. I want to stand on my own two feet before I invite others to visit. I feel all anyone sees now is a cheap way to visit NY. Where were you when I was in WI - alone and cold. Nope you weren’t there. But while you were missing I was converting my eventually to a reality - what have you done?

FACT: Moved to New York - I made MY dreams come true. 

#movedtony #writing #poem #english #thoughtsoftheday #thoughts #words #gettingitout #NY #life #beginning #now #used #cold #alone #dreams

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X-M-A-S

Santa,

My family is not a family at all.

All I wanted was to be loved.

Loved by many I am but where are they now.

Now I sit here in the snow alone.

Alone is what I am and feel.

Feel nothing than numbness.

Numbness from the snow and cold.

Cold is what my heart it is.

Is this what I get Santa?

FACT: The past two days I also had two accidents.

#xmas #writing #english #poem #saddness #tree #lights #santa #alone #feeling #heart #family

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UnknowN

I sit here.

Here is no longer there.

There was a part of me gone.

Gone to the unknown.

Unknown used to be scary.

Scary is not there.

There is just unknown.

Unknown is what is here.

Here is where I stand now.

Now i’m in the Unknown.

Unknown is okay now.

Now I am in the Unknown.

FACT: I looked up and there is a full moon outside my moon, now she - the moon- knowns love.

#unknown #poem #writing #english #writer #scary #okaynow #moon #lake #gone #stand

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Sit, Drove, Run...

I sit here.

Coffeeshop decides to play our song.

I drove far.

Radio decides to play the song that makes me think of you.

I run.

iTunes plays our song.

I sit here.

You are married.

I drove far.

You are happy.

I run.

You got the happily ever after.

I can run away as I sit and drive, but you will always creep up. 

FACT: I sang that song about you and cried and cried. But you will never know it.

#writing #reading #writer #youngwriter #miss you #driving #poem #love #love poem #english #ran #loved #him #i love him

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FeirG dna Tsol

Grief and lost I thought was only people.

People I’ve lost mean more?

More of something I want.

Want more of something that I have no idea of what.

What does this empty space need?

Need is what I’m looking for.

For how long has it been missing?

Missing things that have left.

Left is what I did.

Did it work?

Work to fix this lost.

Lost of words, for I can’t keep repeating this.

This needs to end soon, I don’t have time anymore.

Anymore of this and I don’t know what will be.

Be strong for it’s only for a while.

While I can’t only grief anymore, because I’ve lost so much.

Much of this grief and lost.

FACT: When I think of lost I think of you in the field of sunflowers.

#poem #write #writer #youngwriter #lost #grief #read

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It Is Best...

You're getting married. Married is what you will be. Be with her. Her is what you decided on. On going sadness is what this brings. Brings just every memory we had. Had feelings for you. You is what I can't have. Have a great life. Life without you will be fine. Fine is what I'll be. Be happy. Happy is what I wish for you. You will always be in my heart. Heart you. You're getting married. FACTS: "Thanks, that means a lot. She means the world to me. I hope all is well with you and I think it would be best if this be the last time we talk." the last thing you will ever say to me.

#married #lost #decision #love #without #life #happy #heart #world #reading #writing #poem #writer #best #fine #sad #lasttime #heartbreaks #talks #realtalk #loveyou

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Stop...

I just found out... stop... what happened... stop... I can't believe it... stop... You said "I love you"... stop... I stand here alone without you... stop... You wanted me... stop... I did what was best for you... stop... You had a place in my heart... stop... I think everything just stop for me... stop... FACT: You said you couldn't be without me, yet you got engaged 4 days ago.

#love #engaged #found #iloveyou #stop #heart #reading #writing #writer #alone #fact #days

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Speak...

Why can't I speak? What can't come out? When will it come out? Where can't I have a say? How can I not say this? Are you mute? Can I say it? Did I ever say it? FACT: When I want to say it I just say empty words. So eventually you'll be another letter. I hope not.

#speak #mute #ever #poem #writing #thoughts #reading #english #scared #trust #like #trapped

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Proven Wrong...

Prove me wrong. Prove to me that you are the right one. Prove to me that we are something. Prove to me that it's different. Prove to me that they don't matter. Prove to me that I can trust. For once I don't want to be right. I'm giving it up to you. FACT: You tell me you really want to see me, yet you're talking to two other girls.

#prove #crushing #writing #poem #wrong #different #want #wish #english #write #notes #thoughts #pain #hurt #you

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Bird...

Do you want to fly away? Do you know where you have swayed? Do you know what you left on? Do you know where you've gone? Do you want to give up? Do you want to be closeup? Fact: I’m 1,229 miles away from where you both left me.

#left #fly #swayed #gone #miles #write #writer #reading #love #both

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Remix of the story...

I tell the story. I tell my story. I tell what story? The thing is gone. The feeling is gone. The hope is gone? My heart is free. My hair is free. My love is free? I tell what story, where the hope is gone and my love is free. Fact: I haven't said your name in a while or shared our story in my new home. Your name is silent, but not in my dreams.

#Remix #story #poem #writing #reading #hope #love #free #miles #left #youngwriter #writer #write

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Letter Sealed...

I wrote you today. Wrote you because I can't say it. Can't see you. You are what is missing. Missing is what is gone. Gone for the better. For you or for me. Or do you even remember now. You is who I wrote today. FACT: The letter for you is sitting on my desk. Will I ever send it?

#wrote #today #can't #missing #gone #remember #poem #letter #share #writing #Thoughts