mysticmsmatrix

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elemental.

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who will ?

my mind ponders your lovely face

my heart craves your nature , your presence

my body screams for your strong embrace , your desirable scent

my words aloud are none to thin as I’ve become choked up on what to say

my inner feelings wants to speak with you everyday yet don’t want to force a thing

my eyes search for the notification of your name to pop up on my phone

questioning often if your thinking about me the way I think about you

do you wish things could play out differently too

how are we scared of true commitment but wanting to have each others last names

how can we be so scared to give deep emotion to someone of interest

deep interest of love

maybe because we’re on a weight scaled with the same baggage on each side

wanting the same results even when neither of us is truly trying , forever playing it safe

both of us not knowing who will make the first step into letting love in

who will let down their fear of thinking opening is a mistake

as much we both may want to our feelings doesn’t want to meet demise

in the eyes of someone who creates sparks in our hearts & tenderness in our lives .- themysticmatrix

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heavy days feeling lengthier than the last

present situations intertwining with the past

so I always question what’s to come & vanish in a flash

the beacon of light that’s been saving me from going mad

is slowly crumbling at last

the great efforts to retrieve it to only to be repeatedly defeated

never have I been the one to give up so easily

yet the war between the world & self have never been something I could easily put to rest

no amount of lust or money could heal me

no amount of fake support or temporary care could console me

because no amount of deflecting or distracting can truly make this pain go away

this healing may take a century if I am granted to live long enough for one

& if not so be it until my next transcending.

-themysticmatrix

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liars & lies 🤥

feather weight promises

& heavy weighted lies

I wish to believe the warming words spoken upon the ones who are so advent to convince me otherwise

this heart has been brutalized

theses ears have heard it all

& theses eyes can see past what people thought I saw

to see the false expressions of the one you care for, hoping you believe there deception as their words sound so caring, helping

when all you prayed for was the truth

the opposite is what they give you

the constant battle between should I expose or just let there lie be told .

should I pretend or should I just give in

cause maybe they really believe it’s true

every part of me is tired of lies

especially when truth is all I try my best to provide

I say try for the reasoning that I sugar coat at times & often choose to just bite my tongue to not hurt someone’s pride

but I’d rather not say anything at all or put something harsh to say more politely

than to simply just lie

in a world full of liars & masks

I am fighting to never do such or see it as a normal task

my full trust is something that given rarer than seeing rainbows in december

I would say my goal is to fully trust others like the little girl I once was but that would be a lie

little me only trusted so carefree, because she wasn’t damaged by misleads

yet, through time I do hope I can build the true sense of trust with someone I care for & love

without always having my guard so up

I am tired of being to tense , to be so suspicious towards the world that surrounds me

I just don’t know how else to protect this heart that’s been so beat on yet still not touched.-themysticmatrix

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hopeless romantic 🩶

I hope my heart soothes the tensions of your soul

i hope the love in my nature brings massages to what’s been hard & cold

I hope my attentiveness can make a nest for your words to be remembered & heard

I hope my soft touch’s can heal what’s been hurt

I hope the support I give will be enough for you to keep pushing forward

I hope my honesty does nothing but help & nurture

I hope my well hearted intentions can not only be seen but felt

I hope you know I wouldn’t choose anyone else

I hope I give you reasons to not compare me with your last

I hope I can give you something more special than you’ve never had

I hope I can inspire you to be better & better

I hope you know I would still love even if we weren’t together

I hope that one day whoever you are, could read me this same letter

& even though I am the writer of this poem

I hope that one day someone could match my same efforts.-themysticmatrix

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grief 🪦

sometimes the breaths I take I wish they could’ve been yours

that yours would’ve been worth more

I’ve taken this life for granted at times I know I shouldn’t

I could have lovely things in front of me but I still miss & think of the things that I couldn’t

couldn’t hold on to & couldn’t keep forever , you

I use to tell myself that I would’ve been the one to pass away if I could chose

but then I began to realize that wouldn’t make anything better

you would miss me in the same ways I miss you & you would grieve me in the same ways I grieve you

& Id rather deal with the pain rather than you

sadness rises within me when I think of all your angel like attributes & how I couldn’t experience them longer

yet I’m so grateful that at least I got to

they don’t know how my heart aches for you

but you know how my heart was so open with you

since then it’s been closed off more than ever before

I apologized to you a thousand times that I don’t even recognize the girl I used to be with you anymore

so lost in the grief I became a confused soul & a shattered heart is all that I’m used too

9 years later & I’m still in distraught at the thought of you

this grief won’t subside because I will always believe that you are the only glue

to piece me back together like before

you were the only person to understand my words with no sounds or letters

you heard my soul , my heart & I heard yours too

soul sisters but I miss the touch of your skin

I miss the days we would play in the sand & skip in the wind

kites in the sky & our bikes running around the blocks

the times I would replay over & over again

your presence is worth more than anything in this world to me

but I know that is no longer an option for me to pick

so I choose to believe the embrace of your spirt & the love our souls share will keep us closer than the skin ever can

I love you so deep & no matter the years that pass

I still tend to equally grief like the first day the tragic news came to me

I miss you my sweet pea.-themysticmatrix

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Lone 🧍🏾‍♀️

the lonely i live in is to

persevere the energy people tend to steal from the efforts I naturally give

to be ssurrounded by many feel even less seen

to be in someone’s presence & crave emotional embracing not just words

lonely I’ll be if it’s safest for me to catch my breath , finally breathe

lonely I’ll be if it means no one will keep purposely

hurting me

I have to protect the last thing standing & I don’t just mean my two feet

protecting my peace of mind when I’m not allowing another to disrespect my rights or dim down my inner light

a sense of wholeness when I realize I can be just as okay on my own especially at night

as when the rain falls a night do my cries… t

yet a sense of deep loneliness arrives , wanting to be alone to save wasting my time but also wishing that someone could truly be by my side

when doors close the sweet & understanding words are also gone

a façade many give me to keep my belief that I am understood alive

they don’t know that I can see & feel through lies

so alone I’ll be if it what I need to do to heal theses blinded or hurting parts of me

alone I’ll be if that’s the only way I understand what true love & understanding of myself means

alone I’ll be if I follow my passions & dreams

as the whole world may choose to form against me

alone I’ll be if I can truly define & live in my own

version of being me fully

alone I’ll be if that’s what the universe needs me to be .-themysticmatrix

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she’s never been the kind of girl to ask for help yet will surely give her all to help someone else

she doesn’t express in the times she needs too

positive & mentally strong is what there used to

they can’t tell the times she’s standing on the edge of herself

catering to the ones she loves most even when most don’t think twice about her emotional health

breakdowns & shutdowns is when they see & maybe that’s her fault because she doesn’t speak

she wishes people can know how she feels like

she knows what someone is feels what they don’t show

she believed, asking for help with self-pity & foolish to her accomplishment of being strong

Sometimes the strongest needs an arm to hold a shoulder to lean or a floaty to keep them from sinking

Sinking in their demise that being strong is the only reason to be alive

she is i & the will to be so strong all the times sometimes grows stronger than iron & also shrinks into thin melting ice

I’ll see how far I can go with time.-themysticmatrix

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𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘥𝘢𝘺 💔

𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘐𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘺 𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨

𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯’𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘤𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘐 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰𝘰

𝘳𝘦𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘰𝘳 𝘢 𝘥𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘸𝘰 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘐 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶

𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘐’𝘷𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘧 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶

𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘴𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘢 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵’𝘴 𝘥𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦

𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯’𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯

𝘣𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘸𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦

𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘭 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘯𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘥

𝘢 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘐 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘢𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘦𝘹𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵

𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦’𝘴 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦 , 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘯’𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 .

𝘐𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥

𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘥 & 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯, & 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘬 & 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘣𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺 , 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦

𝘐𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘰𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘢𝘴 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘭 𝘰𝘯 𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘯 & 𝘐 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘩𝘦𝘳 …

𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 & 𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘸 , 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘶𝘱 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘬

𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 , 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘦𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘭𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺

𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 , 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘳𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘐’𝘷𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸𝘯

9 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 & 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘴𝘯’𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘱𝘦

𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘨𝘰 & 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 & 𝘴𝘰 𝘧𝘰𝘳

𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘢 𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 & 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭 𝘐 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘰 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱𝘭𝘺 & 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘰𝘦𝘴.-𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘹

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[mysticmsmatrix]

the one who you let getaway

was also the one who used to look at you as their escape

their emotional escape from this scary world

you were their safe place

until they found out the scariest thing was residing in front of their face, a liar

a monster who gives false projections & temporary affection with long term words

why manipulate the one who’s intentions was for you to never hurt

a blossoming flower you tried to shove back in the dirt

the one you took for granted instead of embracing

the one you had to loose to understand your never replacing ..

-themysticmatrix

[mysticmsmatrix]

quiet lovers 📨

you glance , you stare , you always make sure I know that you are there

I wondered I swayed I gathered my thoughts & still didn’t know what to say

nervous aromas fill in every room we stay

I tend to feel more put together when I hide or walk away

It’s not you , it is me how could I ever tell you It feels like world peace when my eyes are on you & your eyes are on me

dark brown & green colliding into dark green

the colors reminds me of trees , mines is the color of the bark & yours are the color of the leaves

replaying every little moment we share vividly

some call it daydreaming or even crushing

though I may not know you fully yet

If I get the chance to, I want to know more than just a kiss or touch

I wanna know how is your heart is doing & how did you grow up

I see more than the physical that resides

what made you also feel so emotionally trapped inside , just like me & in other words , shy

I’m sure you’d want to know the same about me too

yet we’re both equally interested as much as were both scared to speak too

when our energies collide the air is tense & we seem to each other to be intimidating

the “what if they” has us deeply contemplating

do they feel the way I feel or am I overthinking

both delaying the possible connection of love in the making …

we both seem to be engulfed in our anxieties

questioning all the possibilities of what could be while avoiding the reality

which tells us that we need to commute for a clearer point of view

divine pushes us towards each other for reasons we may feel we currently don’t suit

yet if we can’t pursuit & overcome our fears of communicating

we will simply miss this opportunity to grow out of our comfort zones

I would know as it’s hardest to be done than to be said

but one day hopefully we breakaway from our troubled & shy ways in real life & not just in our heads

I no longer want to be strangers with interest even if that’s lovers or friends.-themysticmatrix

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[mysticmsmatrix]

I miss the times when I didn’t how to reflect about the “used to be’s”

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[mysticmsmatrix]

my leaks

my skin is beautiful & my complexion is smooth but the inside of my exterior in deeper ways than the physical, shows wounds

scars , holes & bruises that I never wanted , don’t show & tried to avoid

never intending to be so fragile inside, emotionally scarred to the things I deeply actually want

my bleeding leaks in ways I never knew , it leaks into the deep feelings of abandonment of one’s who are right next to me

it leaks into the way into the way I perceive others with my mind & my heart

it leaks into the way I builds metal walls over the things that have left me in distraught

it leaks into the way I naturally seem to not trust anyone , questioning everyone & thing

my bleed has been leaking for years & the only thing that has helped heal them is music & poetry

writing about the scars helped me acknowledge how they began to start & how they’ve effected me over time

listening to music helped me see how I really conceal them so easily ,

my bleed shows in ways like yin & yang , positive & negative ways , I unintentionally tend to love & hurt myself equally

my bleeds show that I am perfectly imperfect in every way

my bleed shows that regardless of the beauty of my heart that feels the need to heal everyone

I first must understand what it means to heal , how to mend to me & heal the parts of me that negatively leak in order to feel loved & free.-themysticmatrix



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[mysticmsmatrix]

the one you let getaway can never be replaced

from the looks of my soft face , to the way my kisses taste

from the electric in my touch , to the sweet aroma I have when I walk away

yet you’ll remember me far more than just the physical things

you’ll remember me through the sentimental words I used to say

to the way I helped you through the times you wanted to go hide & astray

to the way I always made sure you were okay

you’ll remember me from the light in my eyes even through they are dark brown

the comfort of my soul & the deepness of my heart for

you even when I was feeling down

from the sound of my voice, to the calling of my name

through the songs we shared & the memories we created

the one you let getaway never really wanted to leave

I believed in you and wanted you to believe in “us”

friends or lovers I just wanted to be near but you couldn’t maintain neither

I let the idea of what could be blind me from what it really was , it was until after I realized I needed to be let go by you to see you weren’t supposed to have me

you only kept me around because of the efforts & energy I gave

as jn your heart you never held a place for “us” but physically you always stayed in touched which is why letting me go so harshly & foul never felt that tough

during that time the one you let get away had to realize regardless of your cold actions & your lack of empathy , that they are still enough.-themysticmatrix

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[mysticmsmatrix]

I like you better from a distance

from a distance I can see through the structure , the image you tend to hold

you portray to be genuine , sympathetic, lovable

yet you are emotionally untouchable , egotistical & cold

the true colors of you become more vivid & bold

the colors I’m seeing now hurt my eyes , my heart & my soul

damaging my ideal perception of you the more I try to understand your flaws

I didn’t understand why you lied bout everything not just the little things

lied about the way you moved , lied about the things you do

i love you but I liked you better when I didn’t know you…

-themysticmatrix

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