bee-the-whovian

[bee-the-whovian]

"Everyone go"

"I'll stay"

"You have to go. We did all this so you could rule"

"That's not why I did all this"

#so #sooooooo #just finished my first campaign #not the first i joined #but my first to reach its end #they're a cute couple #Septimus and Annaleise #they will rule well #and he loves her #storytelling #writing #dnd #love #rpg #ttrpg #story

[bee-the-whovian]

"All questions are good questions when you don't know the answer yet"

-Mr U

#quotes #teacher #questions #answers #no dumb questions #learning #growing #theology

[bee-the-whovian]

#juststageproductionthings

Doing Pride and Prejudice on stage

Needed some books for characters to carry on

The drama department's collection of vintage books is nowhere to be found

I grabbed a couple old books from my collection

I noticed my Mr Bennet would carry on the small copy of Much Ado About Nothing

When I mentioned it, he goes "Oh yes! I like to read Dogberry and Verges while waiting to go on."

Well...

That's adorable as heck

I love my kids

#pride & prejudice #theater #theatre #much ado about nothing #jane austen #shakespeare #books #theater kids

[bee-the-whovian]

As much as, of course, one aspires to the romance of Darcy and Elizabeth, main character energy and all that....

But given my current circumstances, I can't help but envy the Bingley/Jane dynamic... head over heels from the get-go, and no doubts whatsoever that they'll be very happy.

I've always had more supporting character energy... not Jane energy, but supporting character nonetheless. It would suffice.

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Not that my author needs critic notes, but... I offer them anyway.

#pride and prejudice #pride & prejudice #darcy and lizzy #mr darcy #bingley #bingley and jane #stories #writing #romance #love #troubles in love

[bee-the-whovian]

😭😭😭😭

What an oddly specific circumstance, I can't imagine... ahhhhhh

pov: your imagination is running wild and you want to write all all all the scenes but they haven't happened yet so you don't know what happens and it's not your story and they're not even all your characters so you can't just decide you have to wait wait wait agonizing agonizing agonizing weeks

#life with rpgs #rpg #ttrpg #writing #dnd

[bee-the-whovian]

"And if you knew that you are the one who gives me strength, if you saw yourself like I do...

If there's shadows in your heart when you're weak, I'll light the road in neon...

So give me a reason to lighten the dark, why would you hide when I love every part of you?"

#the absolute death grip this song has had on me #“I think he sings this to her” #from my storyteller #*cries* #I said I was desperate to see how they perceive me #how they perceive her #this is how he sees her #livingston #neon #neon song #songwriter #lyrics #storytelling #dnd #rpg #ttrpg #story #writing #love #I am not okay #but in a good way #I love this song #i love this for her #and i love this for me

[bee-the-whovian]

"What if I... just... give it right back? With a little extra ✨️something✨️"

-my characters, every time

#storytelling #dnd #love #rpg #ttrpg #writing #story #trauma #you were supposed to be an outlet #and yeah #but also #what the heck

[bee-the-whovian]

*spends 5+ hours cleaning my room. Puts on new bedding. Showered. All nice and clean ah yeahh*

.....

*but what if I slept on the bathroom floor? Waking up every hour or so to throw up? That sounds fun. Imma do that instead*

#flu #or something #not my plan for the evening #sick #lol so sick #I feel like I've had worse flu's #doesn't mean this doesn't freaking suck #a little bit proud of my system here though #the worst might be past? #maybe? #legit not fun

[bee-the-whovian]

"Time doesn't heal all wounds. Time only leaves scars. Only Jesus can heal our wounds."

#to quote a friend #time #wounds #scars #jesus #Christian #faith #heart break #healing

[bee-the-whovian]

Public Service Announcement

Gentlemen, if you are ever wooing/pursuing/courting/dating a young lady, and she happens to be the executive producer for a small theater company which happens to be less than a week out from their opening night....

Please refrain from breaking up with her/ breaking off communications/breaking her heart until after the end of the production, or at least tech week.

Please and thank you.

#scarcasm #relationships #break up #broken heart #but like seriously bro #I can respect not drawing it out #and honestly #yes it is better to get it over with sooner #but a WEEK BEFORE WE OPEN?! #I've moved past sad #(thank the Lord) #but now I'm just so mentally exausted #it's been 4 days #theatre #theater #director #producer

[bee-the-whovian]

The boy I loved broke my heart...

It isn't anyone's responsibility to care, and he didn't mean to, but I can't not say it.

Those words don't do it justice.

Love.

Broken hearted.

Whatever.

I need more words.

#heartbreak #love #heart #loss #words #lost for words #sad #poetry #I'm not a poet

[bee-the-whovian]

What do you do with inside jokes when the person you shared them with decides they don't want to be a part of your life anymore?

What... what am I supposed to do? These jokes that are precious to me, because I shared them with him... but I am not precious enough to keep... where do they go? What am I supposed to do with these? Why should I have to throw away all these things because of him? Why should I abandon these few remaining joys too, when he took away so many already?

#relationship #relationship ends #distance #end #heartbreak #sad #inside jokes #relationship struggles

[bee-the-whovian]

Did he really break my heart or is it because I haven't had a proper meal in 24 hours?

#it's both #both is good #well #not good #but ya know #I've been sad since 5:30 last night #and last ate yesterday at 10.30am #didn't get lunch today until 2pm #that makes sense #perhaps life isn't so dismal #or maybe it is #I needed to eat anyway

[bee-the-whovian]

"Lord, please put my out of my misery"

*ends that misery*

*new misery*

"I.... okay"

#He did as I asked #alas #put me out of my misery #sad #anxiety #relationships

[bee-the-whovian]

Hello, hello, hello

Are you ever eating food and then you come across a *bad texture* ™️ and for the next several days every couple hours you will just remember that bad texture and want to throw up?

#food #texture #texture aversion #food issues #what is this

[bee-the-whovian]

The bittersweetness of listening to love songs when you're not quite in love

#i think it has to be two sided to be “In love” #I can love #you can love #but it takes two to be in love #and listening to these songs hurts more than it did when i was undisputedly single #it's not nothing #but it's not that #I'm tired of this uncertainty #God give me something #and that something can be supernatural patience #but mine alone is crumbling

[bee-the-whovian]

"Ok, in the nicest, kindest way possible, you do have very bully-able vibes..."

#friendship #bully #is this love #it is #bully-able vibes #quotes #friends