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hollowwrites · 9 months

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HC part 2! HC part 2!

(Only if you want to!)

HC part 2! HC part 2!

Loving super tall Ominis. I'll always love a good height difference 🥵

Ominis Headcanons Pt. 2

So when I said I thought about a little more, I lied I went a tad mad

I’ll refer to MC as Evelyn throughout this cause she’s my ship with Omi. This is basically my notes page. Things may conflict. Who cares? If anything grabs you please ask about it. You guys inspire me for way too much of my stuff 💚

🔞 MINORS DNI 🔞

Family (Angsty…)

Some waffle about Ominis can’t be alive past 50 because of Tom Riddles family tree? No. He separates from his family after he’s 18. He uses his Aunts notes to prove that she has passed away and because of this he learns she left everything she owned to Ominis. He uses her money (I like to think it’s the majority of the Gaunt fortune because she’s not a blood purist therefore is sensible with her money not spending it on trinkets and Slytherin heirlooms) to legally separate from his family so they scorch him from the records.

I think the developers gave Ominis blonde hair to win Malfoy points but I also think it symbolises his separation from his family. Tom Riddle and Art of the Gaunt Family all have dark hair so our boi Omi is physically different compared to them not just mentally. It also might help him later to disassociate from his family because he doesn’t look like them.

I genuinely can’t remember if this was mentioned in game or not (I stop playing after Beasts Class and pretend that nothing bad happens to any of our bois) but I imagine he’s suffered Crucio quite a few times. If his family are cruel enough to do it once, they’d do it multiple times.

I mention this in my Blindsided fic but I feel like Crucio would leave a scar behind. Avada Kedavra does so why not Crucio huh? Is it because I wanted Eve to tend to his wounds and try to remove the scarring?…maybe. Do I care if it makes any sense at all? No!

Obviously because of this I feel like Ominis is covered in scars. Always hidden so no one can see how horrible a family they are…even though everyone already knows.

Patronus

His Patronus is a difficult one. I was Googling animals that have some of Ominis traits so I’ve narrowed it down to three:

Spider - I read an article ages ago debating whether or not spiders or insects in general feel pain or not. They either don’t or have a high tolerance for pain. So I feel like with how often Ominis gets tortured he’d have grown a tolerance for it like a Spider.

Vampire Bat - …I like Vampire Ominis what can I say? No obviously they use echolocation like his wand and they sleep in the day…need I say more?

A Blind Basilisk - THE UNINTENDED FORESHADOWING. Plus a basilisk is a dangerous snake, blind or not blind, like Ominis. People would maybe underestimate a blind basilisk thinking it would be easier to take down with its main weapon taken from it but I would still not want mess with one. JUST LIKE OMI

Either way I think once he falls in love with Eve his Patronus would change to Dove (I headcanon that Eves Mom used to call her a dove and her wand is a bird skull)

Speaking of Patronus’ he wouldn’t be able to cast one until he met Sebastian.

His first memory he could use to conjure a Patronus would be when Sebastian asks him to stay with him over the holidays. The mixture of guilt, relief, happiness and sadness he feels is powerful enough to cast one.

Second would be looking after Eve after she got Crucio’d in the Scriptorium. Despite the horrible origin of the day he looks back at it fondly. It’s where him and Eve truly started to bond and probably where his feelings for her originated.

General HCs

He snaps his wand a lot. It’s constantly in his hand and Sebastian is a trying person to be around so I imagine he just grips it too hard and snap. Learns to fix it himself after one too many visits to Ollivanders.

Maybe he completely snaps it one day after he separates from his family and has to get a completely new wand. Evelyn points out that it’s a lighter wood than before. I know the wood has nothing to do with anything like that but I like the though that he’s free of his dark past and his wand becomes lighter because of it

His boggart is just an amalgamation or screams and torture he’s pretty used to it. I go in detail here

He definitely grows up to be the next Defence Against the Dark Arts teacher just to rub it in his families face. Plus I think he’s close with Hecat she would put him forward for the position. Maybe he quits before Dumbledores era to travel with Eve finding ancient magic spots.

Thinking about the mirror of Erised is tricky with the boi cause blind BUT I think his deepest desire is just peace so maybe when he ‘looks’ into the mirror he can hear the wind blowing through grass and can smell roses, the distant sound of Eve and Sebastian laughing. I think he gets to live that anyway…he deserves it.

Relationshipy stuff (NSFW 🔞)

I don’t think he wants kids… I just can’t see him with them. I know people like Dadimis but…no. Maybe I’m projecting but kids take so much patience which he clearly does not have.

Contrary to everyone else’s opinion but I think he like public signs of affection he’s just a touchy person. He’s always had something in his hands whether it was a stick when he was younger or his wand he’s ALWAYS touching SOMETHING. It grounds him. So he’s touchy when he knows the person doesn’t mind.

I think he’d shamelessly hold Sebastian’s hand everywhere. I don’t think Seb would care either. If it’s comforting then whatever

(NSFW 🔞) So I’m expanding on the choking thing from last time 👀 I don’t think he’d do it in a dominating way, I think it’s more of a feeling thing? I imagine the first time it happened was an accident. He just slid his hand up her chest and went a bit too far up. He felt the vibrations of her moaning against his hand, yeah he can hear it but feeling it is better. After that it’s almost a certainty that his hand will find its way around her neck. Maybe it becomes a dom thing but not originally.

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fierceawakening · 8 months

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It’s funny. I’m thinking about what drove me back to religion when so many people leave and stay out. I still don’t think gods exist and always kind of wonder if the other people around me think they’re sure when I’m pretty open that I don’t.

And I think some of it is mom stuff.

She had this thing about what religion is about. It’s not the fundie thing, in fact she hates fundies and rants endlessly about them. Which is why I think I was so militantly antitheist then in ways I’m not now. If she wasn’t a fundie but her religion was still bad, religion must be bad inherently. Where now I think it’s not the religion, I went back to that same church, did it my way, and really liked it. It’s her, for me, what she puts on it.

For a long time I never would’ve even asked if she might be kind of narcissistic. She’s always, always, always talking about how horrible selfishness is and how the key to happiness is letting go of your ego. When I was very severely traumatized, the way to cure me was to get me to stop focusing on myself and live for others, because your ego is what gets you, and that’s why you need religion. All mental illness is selfishness, and that’s why you need god.

(No! I needed to be able to express what I was thinking and feeling to prevent further dissociation. I wasn’t self-absorbed, I was *literally injured.*)

It’s a bitter irony to me now that I’ve realized I think she IS selfish. That her endless focus on how she gives and gives and gives and no one ever gives back and it’s not fair is the problem. If you’d told me as recently as a couple years ago I’d say I think maybe she’s got some narcissistic traits I would have laughed in your face.

But it’s right there: Ego causes suffering. Ego is the source of all despair. The Great Battle of life is discovering how to kill your Ego.

BECAUSE SHE CAN’T KILL HERS, AND DOESN’T KNOW WHY.

So she religions, harder and harder. She volunteers until she can’t stand it and snaps at and is cruel to everyone. She takes on the shit jobs no one else will and whines about it endlessly.

Because she thinks the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, when it’s finally hers, will allow her to let go.

I never wanted to kill my ego. Not like she did. I didn’t want to be arrogant, but I wasn’t sure that was the key to being nice.

And the Christianity I practice now reflects that. I see Jesus as a probably-fictional example of Maximal Compassion, and I want to be more like that myself, so I listen to the stories with an ear toward how I can use them as reminders.

I no longer care whether any of it’s true, and I no longer feel weird that I think it’s clearly *not* literally true, because it’s useful. I’m no longer measuring it by whether I know how to kill my ego. Whether I have enough “faith” to believe that will happen for or to me someday. (I don’t know what the fuck faith is. That hasn’t changed either.)

I measure it by whether I strive to “be the hands and feet of Jesus,” to “show his love to the world.” I want to be kind, and I want my kindness to be a blessing to others, whatever they or I believe.

That part I can do. The “let’s all rely on this to take away our personality flaws even though that’s not how anything works” is the part I couldn’t, and I’m not surprised that led me to “wow, this is bunk.”

Because that way? What she desperately wants to fix her?

Is bunk.

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creepylittlelady · 6 months

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I am so desperate to share these so, Slenderman Headcanons [PUPPET STRINGS LORE DUMP]

Okay so I wanted to wait until the day someone asked about Slenderman and Zalgo's characterisation in my AU, but I don't know when that time will come and I seriously NEED to share this with all of you.

This AU has been in the works since 2016 and has been my number 1 hyperfixation, and Slenderman is one characters that I had the most fun making. I love love LOVE every rendition of him, from Your Dad Slenderman to EVIL MANIPULATIVE ELDRITCH MONSTER. I want to give homage to both of these renditions by bringing in my own Slender to the mix! I hope you like it, because Zalgo will get his own post very soon ;)

I'm currently writing his backstory on AO3! Chapter 5 should be up soon ;)

As I've said previously, Slenderman and Zalgo are my favourite characters! I just wanna lore dump about him right now because BRAINROT BRAINROT BRAINROT

So without further ado...

The "Slenderman"

-He's not actually one being or entity, although he'd like you to believe otherwise. He's actually a hivemind of two consciousnesses; Lord Operator, and the Vengeful Spirit Charles.

-Slenderman is actually just the body that's basically holding these two entities hostage, technically. Neither of them can escape, although they've definitely tried. Multiple times. Slenderman doesn't have a consciousness of his own and is just a horrifying mixture of the two of them combined into one.

-NEITHER OF THEM ARE HAVING A FUN TIME. They hate it and will go to great lengths to get out. His brain is just the two of them arguing about who gets to control the body at any given moment, and they both have ulterior motives of their own.

-A little backstory: Charles, the Vengeful Spirit, was sacrificed to the Operator and made a deal with him that he would allow himself to be used a Vessel in exchange for his lifespan to be elongated. However over the years Operator began to use Charles' body for more and more depraved purposes. Eventually this drove him insane and caused him to kill himself. However at that point the Operator was so co-dependant on his soul that it basically killed it too, and it had to use some of its remaining abilities to create a new body so that neither of them would really die.

-When Charles is fully in control, he is a 'decently' humane being and can sometimes even be a Father Figure to some of the residents of the Mansion. However he still retains some of his negative traits from life, such as being nihilistic and at times selfish. He's sociopathic as a joke and mainly spends his days trying desperately to fix whatever things he did when the Operator took over.

-When it's Charles, he actually has a good relationship with all of the Residents, and has more of a sit-com Boss-Employee relationship with the Proxies, often laughing at their misfortune. Although he and Sally argue a lot Sally is very close to him when he's Charles.

The same thing cannot be said for when its the Operator.

-The Operator first and foremost is a former God. Although it wasn't a very well-known God, it still said a web of loyal worshippers. However ever since its power was (mostly) stripped away and had to unwillingly transport itself into this new body, its hated every second of it there. The reasons why the Proxies exist in the first place is to create new followers for it so it can gain more power.

-It's absolutely HORRIBLE to everyone else when it takes over. He's mentally and physically abusive, lashing out at everyone who dares disobey it. Its manipulative as well, and the Pastas who are sensitive to that thing, like Toby, Natalie etc often lock themselves away when its taken over.

-Several rooms that Charles doesn't know the purpose of are usually used by the Operator to torture the residents into submission. There are multiple Basements and secret rooms that its locked people inside to get them to 'obey' its command.

-Several of the Slenderverse stories, like Marble Hornets happened when the Operator took over. It often goes unconscious again and leaves Slenderman to deal with the consequences.

(Okay to explain, when I talk about the Operator specifically I'll refer to it as 'Operator', but when its Charles I'll refer to him as Slenderman, Slender, Slendy etc).

-Slenderman is not having a fun time. Random people keep on confronting him and coming up to him when he has no idea who they are and why they're here. He has NO idea on who Toby, Masky or Hoodie are nor how they ended up here. However he's apathetic to it and decided to be decent to them for as long as he's the one in charge of the Slenderman body.

-Whenever the Operator becomes too violent, Zalgo has to come and knock it out. Yep, Zalgo has to beat the shit out of it and basically chain Slender up to get it out, or at least sedate it enough so that it doesn't do anything violent.

-Remember how I mentioned how they've both desperately tried to leave? Yeah, the Slenderman body is fucking terrifying to look at naked. Its severely malnourished, with bruises, shock wounds, stab wounds, slash wounds, cilice wounds and just open wounds EVERYWHERE. They've both tried to leave by any means necessary, and are slowly killing the vessel to try and escape.

-More lore important characters such as Zalgo, Lazari, EJ and Ben sort deal with problems like this as well. But Jesus fucking Christ is Slenderman having a horrible time. He has to basically deal with his own Slender Sickness (Slender Sickness actually comes from the Operator, since most mortals can't perceive Gods without their bodies basically shutting down).

-If Masky and Hoodie are slowly going insane from Slender Sickness, Slender is basically killing himself from it. He's always on the verge of psychosis, suffering from some kind of really disgusting illness, or otherwise just not having a great time. The body is a-okay when its the Operator, but when its Slenderman he's just not having fun.

-Its basically eternal damnation being stuck in that body. Its like an eternal punishment of lies and deceit, waking up every day not knowing that tortures you'll suffer through. However since this has been going on for about 123 years now, they're both used to it at this point.

-Due to being used as vessel and basically being trapped in an endless cycle of torment since the ripe age of 11, Slender's a bit apathetic to the Proxies' situation.

For Example:

Masky: You do realise that we're all suffering because of you, right? Slender: It's not even that deep Timothy we all get mentally and physically imprisoned by a nonhuman Entity at times you just have to deal with it. Masky: Slender, are you okay? Slender: *vomits out a dead corpse* yes why wouldn't I be.

Although he does feel remorse for the fact that Masky, Hoodie and Toby's situation will probably never improve due to the Operator basically holding them captive at the Labrinth, he just doesn't feel that much sympathy for them, as that idea of being used for an upper beings entertainment is just normalised to him.

-Despite the fact that some of the Pastas call him dad are nice to him, a lot of them hate him. Some of the ghost kids refuse to go near him due to the Operator's actions, and his brothers are all scared of him, although Operator cut contact with them years ago.

-One bittersweet tidbit: Slenderman has tentacles because it represents Charles' favourite animal; Octopi.

Okay that's like the only sweet headcanon I have for this guy.

-Slender isn't a good person even though he's a lot better than Operator, although he is actively trying to be a better person for the Pastas' benefit, due to being a vengeful spirit he's definitely prone to violent fits. He can and will hurt you if you agitate him enough, even though it doesn't happen often.

-The Slenderman Vessel is incredibly unstable, so neither of them know their own strength. Because of this, Slender has accidentally flung Toby out of a window more times than he would care to admit.

Also sometimes it just doesn't do what it's told? There's like a 5% chance that it just doesn't teleport where you want it to at any given point, which is very inconvenient.

-Often times when Slender knows the Operator is about to take over (he doesnt' really have a choice on when it happens), he just leaves the Labrinth. He usually stays in Zalgo's castle for months, even a year on end. Yes, the Operator can stay for THAT long.

Do any of the other Residents know?

-As a general rule of thumb; no, they don't. Neither Charles nor the Operator will tell, and even when Charles tries to explain whats happening the Operator will ALWAYS stop him by any means necessary.

Once, he tried to explain what happened after disappearing for half a year, but the Operator had forcibly forced his body to shut down, so he was just sitting there unconscious.

Slender: It all started when I was 11 years o- *starts choking* Hoodie: Oh my god is he having a stroke Slender: *is just unconscious sitting in his chair* Masky: Does this mean Payday is getting delayed or do I still get a raise? Toby: Man wtf

-Due to this unpredictability on whether they'll get 'Nice Slender' or 'Mean Slender' at any given moment, most of the Pastas are dead terrified of him. Although they won't show it sometimes when they see him ominously walking the halls at night or if he doesn't show up for breakfast that morning they all subconsciously start worrying that the Mean Slender's back.

-Sally is especially terrified of him. Slender brought her to the Mansion out of the Operator's wishes, which he HATES. Everytime the Operator comes out he tries to actively harm Sally, which is why she hides in her room for months on end or runs to the back end of the forest.

-Ben, EJ and Lazari all kind of understand whats happening, at least they have a semblance of an idea. Toby knows for the most part due to doing some snooping. However nobody else has a clue and it will probably stay like that for a long time.

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sanrielle · 1 year

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Let's talk about Azula and redemption arcs...

There's a lot of discussion in the fandom regarding this topic—much of it argumentative and even toxic at times.

But what I don't see talked about is how—whether Azula is redeemed or remains a villain—both options are valid storytelling choices that are entirely dependent on the circumstances the storytellers inflict on her.

I'm referring mainly to fanfiction here, but let's talk for a moment about the upcoming Azula comic, which has promised 'a chance at redemption' for her. That's no guarantee, but it's a tantalizing hint that the creators wish this fate for her.

If I'm being honest, I don't have a whole lot of faith in it, and not because I'm too firmly in one camp or the other. It's because the bar is SO high already. Zuko's redemption arc is widely considered The Best Ever, and that's largely because of how much time and attention it was given, spanning three seasons and nearly a year in-universe. He had triumphs and failures, baby steps forward and backslides. He had a mentor that truly cared, and he had empathetic enemies. But most importantly, he was given an actual desire to become a better person and fix his mistakes.

I really don't believe that kind of depth is possible in a single comic. While I've enjoyed most of the comics for what they are, they generally lack the length to really dig deep. If Azula's possible comic redemption is anything like Kuvira's—which was rushed, painfully shallow, and didn't give nearly enough attention to the horrors and betrayal she inflicted on those that cared about her—I think it will disappoint most fans.

[But Ruins of the Empire is a topic for another day.]

Really, this isn't about whether or not Azula gets a redemption arc in canon. It's not even about whether or not she deserves one. It's about the fact that there are two opposing sides who can't seem to shake hands and say, 'Your take is valid and I respect it.'

The fact is that she is a deliciously complex character with traits that allow for incredible stories on either path.

She's a bloodthirsty, remorseless killer who is ALMOST entirely lacking in empathy. (I say 'almost' because there are a few hints that there's a spark of that in there somewhere, though it's overruled by other things). She also displays narcissistic tendencies and is skilled at manipulating the people around her to her own benefit.

But...it's pretty clear that she was groomed by her father to be the way she is, including her belief that her mother didn't love her. She also seems quite capable of forming bonds with people, and displays agitation when she is abandoned by them.

So. All of this tells me that what Azula needs is a reason to change—some kind of catalyst that will break her down to the point at which she surrenders and has a real, honest desire to atone for her many, many atrocities. It would be cool to see a complex, well-thought-out story that does this.

On the other hand, Azula is an awesome villain. We (sort of) know why she is the way she is and we know that she delights in causing others pain. Realistically, many 'bad' people never mend their ways. They go their whole lives seeing themselves as the victim, refusing to take accountability for their actions, and continuing down a path of self-destruction. It's horribly tragic and it's life, and I think writers have every right to tell that story with her.

This diatribe was longer than expected. TLDR: Azula could have a cool redemption. Or not. Fanfic writers, do what you want and don't let the naysayers bring you down.

#atla #avatar the last airbender #azula #I have opinions

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titaniasthings · 2 years

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Rick Riordian has honestly surprised me over the past couple of years … however that won’t stop me from tearing him up.

Over my many rereads of the riordianverse, i’ve come to a conclusion on how the books are so well received.

1. Rick is really good at stringing together themes and narratives. The way he’s able to convey larger issues in his writing is very special and a reason why these books are long-lasting. There’s always something to think about. The way he portrays the oppression of children in these mythical settings that mirror our own allows for children and adults of may read the books to digest the ideas in a non-confrontational way. He also deals with topics like child abuse, war, and neglect really well. The special emphasis that rick puts on children in his stories and how adults fail them makes pjo one of a kind in my opinion.

2. Rick got really good at writing certain characters. Percy Jackson is probably the most widely beloved character to exist. I’ve never met a person who’s read pjo and not absolutely fallen in love with Percy. That is all due to Rick great writing of Percy. He’s lovable, dynamic, flawed, and so damn precious. Along with Sally (World’s Best Mother) Jackson, Nico (Everyone’s Favorite Emo) di angelo, and even Luke (the devilishly handsome and traumatized) castellan, rick’s ability to write these interesting and complex characters that near everyone can relate to. Hell! Annabeth who is arguably the most discoursed about character in the fandom is indisputably top ten girls in children’s media.

Now all of this is great and reasons why you and I love the Riordianverse but that shouldn’t stop us from recognizing where rick falls short and how the screen adaptations and be fixed.

1. I am not the first to say how bad rick’s world building is. It was barely good enough for 8yo me. It’s almost embarrassing how much rick has either forgotten or changed. Even more embarrassing how much of it is incredibly problematic. Like integrating the myths with history. Making Camp Jupiter Confederates, making H*tler a demigod, and ignoring the real life consequences that stem from these conflicts and making it seems like it’s just gods being silly at best horribly offensive. Im just gonna list the way ricks world building is 💩

Trying to make annabeth face misogyny due to her hair color while having a whole cabin of people who look just like her while also being the smartest.

Then making all children of Aphrodite seem dumb because they’re good looking

god’s don’t have DNA yet somehow all share physical traits with their children.

giving almost every kid of the seven powers even though earlier there was a whole camp of kids who didn’t have them

Camp Jupiter and New Rome as a whole

Time as a whole

The hunters are not just a place you put possible lesbians, rick

omg how the hell does the mist work

and so much more

It’s so frustrating cuz obviously rick wants to be flexible with his characters stories but like some structure would be great dude. It almost just takes away from characterization sometimes ( i could get into plot armored Percy but thats for another post(Justice for Jason and Hazel)). In conclusion, the show needs someone to definitively write down some rules and don’t break them!

#percy jackson #pjo fandom #pjo series #hoo #heroes of olympus #annabeth chase #riordianverse #rick riordan #world building #percy jackon and the olympians #childrens books

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woman-child91 · 2 years

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I hope this doesn't sound offensive, but can you list everything you hate about Boruto both the character himself and the series??(I wanted to ask you since I wanted to get as much information as possible to imagine a re-write or arc to fix the problems)

The way the original cast is drawn as adults. Naruto, Sasuke, Gaara, Mizukage Mei, Kiba, Hinata, Anko, Yamato, etc. They were made sooo ugly! Ugh!

How they completely ruined Hinata and NaruHina. Because, all Hinata does is act like those abusive wives who were all sweet and nice when they were dating. But, after they get married? They turn into horrible women with their husbands.

How Sasuke is so lame, docile and OOC as hell! It’s just like Vegeta from Dragon Ball Super. I prefer the original ones that I saw at the beginning.

Boruto is just so dislikable. He’s crap! He’s so annoying. He’s just like Sailor Mini Moon. They think they’re so much stronger and cooler than their parents. But, they’re not. They think they’re so perfect, powerful and mature. They’re not!

How Boruto was basically, befriending and changing his enemies like Naruto used to in Naruto and Naruto Shippuden. That’s blasphemy!!! I HATE BORUTO! That kid isn’t his dad! He’s not charismatic at all and I don’t believe he’s able to change people. I don’t buy it. The stupid creator (whose name I wrote down in my Death Note) of Boruto just did it. Because, Boruto is the main character.

How they made ALL of Naruto’s Semes/Tops completely forget about the love and how gay they were for him.

How they brainwashed Sai and erased ALL of his memories of Naruto and him. Then, they replaced them with fake ones of Ino.

Okay, the whole Mitsuki x Boruto ship. I ABHOR IT! Mitsuki was forced to love Boruto! It’s something that was implanted into his brain since he was born. The only sun & moon ship i acknowledge is, SasuNaru.

How they nerfed Sasuke and Naruto.

How they made Orochimaru all young and pretty. But, made Yamato old and ugly.

How Kakashi’s infatuation with Minato-sensei is completely gone. SERIOUSLY! What the hell?! Even Homophobic guys liked how much he idolized Minato in Shippuden.

How they took away all of Naruto‘a cool moves. Wind Shuriken? He doesn’t know it. How many thousands of shadow clones he could make? Nope. He can only make 7 or 8 now.

How some episodes are just cheap and crappy remakes of ones that we’ve already seen in Naruto and Naruto Shippuden.

They made Tsunade flat-chested. Why? That was her trait.

They cured Konohamaru of his Narutosexuality by, making him fall in love with a 99¢ store version of Tsunade in a freaking filler arc!!!

Naruto!!! Poor Naruto is no longer the cheerful boy he once was. Before anyone says something stupid about how he’s an adult now and HAD to change. That is BS! I’m 32 years old and I’ve had the exact same personality since the day I was born. My Dad too!! And like, what about Minato and Kushina? They kept the exact same personality they had as children! I mean, I understand that a person’s personality SOME TIMES changes with time or from childhood > adolescence > adulthood. OR if they had a traumatic experience. Which is what I think could be the case here. Naruto was forced to marry and have children with Hinata. Who he didn’t feel anything towards! He HAD to have an entire movie made so that he would be forced to love her. Please!!! Give me a freaking break!!! You wanna know what Naruto and Sasuke (including their American Voice Actors) wanted? They wanted to be together! Naruto wanted to “restore” Sasuke’s clan. If Sasuke would’ve asked? Well, Naruto would have transformed into Naruko/Sexy Jutsu to have children or something. They both would’ve been so happy together.

I’m probably leaving out a lot of other issues. But, I’m busy right now. I’m playing Dragon Age Inquisition on my PS5. I’m leveling up and talking to characters in the game to grind points. Bye.

#anti boruto next generations

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fallingdarknesswarrior · 1 year

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The Invisible Man and The Phantom of the Opera

prompt: universal classic monster headcanon

The Invisible Man:

does your muse feel unseen by the people around them? do they find it difficult to make others take notice of them? how does being ignored / unnoticed make them feel?

"Why doesn't anyone notice me!?"

A trait that long ago attracted Cherubimon to Kouichi... the feeling of horrible loneliness, and consequent anger. Abandoned by his father to raise his brother, left to watch his mother work herself to the bone by his grandmother's passing away - the spirits of darkness were given to Kouichi because he felt lonely, and was angry about it.

Darkness as an element is concealing and hides knowing, and not knowing is scary. And since I love writing about the effects of the elements as themes, I like to headcanon that Kouichi is very 'fade-in-the-background' and easy to miss. I like to think that Kouichi makes himself unseen so as not to be a burden (especially for his mother), and the spirits of darkness fuel this ability. But the consequence is that Kouichi feels left behind, abandoned, lonely, and angry...

The kicker being that Kouichi can only blame himself.

The Phantom of the Opera:

what aspect of your muse do they think is hardest for people to accept? do they try to keep it secret / are they afraid of being ostracized if it’s found out?

"Why don't they hate me? Even I hate me."

The intensity of emotion Kouichi experiences.

Kouichi wanted so badly to fix his family that he stalked and chased after his brother to the point of landing himself in the hospital. He hated Kouji to the point of trying to kill him. Then when they finally met, Kouichi was willing to die rather than to betray his twin. And when told he was just a spirit, Kouichi was so despondent that he sacrificed himself thinking that he wouldn't get to live anyway.

Such deep feelings and the dramatic actions Kouichi takes based upon them - I don't think he would be surprised if he was not accepted based on those aspects. He tries to hide it - doesn't tell Kouji about what's bothering him, but probably for more complicated reason than just fear of being ostracized. Surely he would be afraid to be abandoned based on his trauma with his father - and though Kouichi might try to hide his true self, the emotions he feels are so strong that they shine through.

#catcall #code

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TYLER AND ESME

Who’s the first one to quit a new hobby because they’re not great at it on the first try?

Who secretly knows all the lyrics to the other’s favorite songs but refuses to expose themselves?

Who gets the most invested in their hyperfixations?

Who’s the first to apologize?

Which of the two is more artistic?

Who’s the cheapest?

Who whines the most when they get sick?

Who makes their bed in the morning and who's more of a slob?

Who’ll be the first to snap if someone makes a bad comment about the other person?

Who’s the most likely to hurt the other’s feelings unintentionally?

The first one to quit a new hobby if not good at it: Esme. That woman's patience is not the best, and she's extremely hard on herself. Which is a direct result of being raised by her mother. Tyler will encourage her to keep trying and sometimes she does, but for the most part her confidence isn't that great and she just ends up frustrated and in tears.

The one who knows all the word to the others' fave song but won't 'out' themselves: Tyler. Mostly because the stuff she really loves is cheesy pop or even some country and he doesn't want to be connected to that stuff. But he does know the words. Bless his heart.

Most invested in hyperfixations: Tyler. Right now (well for a couple years now) it's about watches. Fixing them, refurbishing really old pieces. he's able to intently focus on them and pretty much drown out everything else around him.

First to apologize: Tyler. Which is the result of a lot of couples therapy revolving around the things they do to unintentionally hurt each other, and their own toxic behaviour. He knows is able to recognize what he said/did and why it was hurtful to her. Esme normally doesn't get personal and mean during a fight, but he lashes out unfortunately.

Most artistic: This is a tough one, as they each excel at something artsy in their own way. Esme is very good at home decor and she can sew and knit and crochet and makes baby blankets, little dresses, bunting bags. crib sets. Tyler is very artistic in drawing, painting etc. He's even created free hand murals on the kids' walls. I am going to give him a slight victory. I think.

Cheapest: Esme. I don't think she means to be. Considering they have so much money and more and more just keeps rolling in. But I think she remembers when they had nothing and it is sort of engrained in her. And perhaps part of her believes she doesn't deserve more.

Who whines the most when sick?: Tyler LOL. She has to hand the kids off to someone else when he gets sick because she has to devote nearly every waking moment to him. lol.

Who makes their bed in the morning and who is more of a slob?: Believe it or not, neither make the bed. LOL. I know that sounds horrible, but they don't. It's left the way it is and whoever goes to bed first will straighten shit out and make it presentable lol

Who will be the first to snap if someone makes a bad comment about the other?: No one dares say anything to Tyler LOL. He has a resting b*tch face and people are scared of him by default. Still, even if they weren't, it would be Esme. That woman defends her man from anyone.

Who is the first to hurt feelings unintentionally?: Tyler. It's a horrible, toxic trait of his. When he feels threatened or offended, he lashes out. And unfortunately she's always on the receiving end.

#Tyler and Esme series #Esme Rake #tyler rake

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spicypepperohni · 2 years

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My overthinking

So, overthinking is common for almost everyone, all over the world, it can even be used as an art form in movies and acts and stories to invoke conflict within the self, or within the situation that will become the conflict.

I have been someone who overthinks a lot, and then ends up thinking about some none sense, and now going back on it, it was the silliest conclusion I have ever come to. Overthinking can infest my life if I let it, usually thinking more on the positive side helps and it helps to distract me. Overthinking is quite horrible and it just ruins everything. Right now I am overthinking certain stuff within my relationship with my partner. Sometimes if I fall for it and go to my partner about it, I can stress him out as well, and it can just lead to a whole mess. He usually is the embodiment of "if it's not in my control, then there is nothing I can do", so when I come to him, almost everything is not in his control so he can't always help appease my worries and anxiety. Sometimes I can stress him out about it and it doesn't help because I feel like I can look crazy to him which really just hurts me.

I don't express that to him because I feel like I express enough riducloudness to him of myself already and I feel like he deserves peace and stability after me throwing off the balance with my overthinking. I feel like my overthinking can break apart my relationship sometimes, or even just trash all my efforts in a second because it just feels so chaotic. I sometimes overthink certain stuff such as our family, because we have differences in our family such as religious standings, or I am someone who desires no kids, but I am worried that my lover's mind would change on wanting kids and thus leading to a breakup.

I have so much to overthink about, and even doubt myself and make myself go crazy, and sometimes that thought persists to me like crazy and I just want that thoughtfully gone and try and be forgetful about it. I feel very frustrated with this trait of mine because it really overtakes me and it really puts me to my knees. Maybe it comes from my gaslighting mother? In all honestly, I wish I didn't think at all and I just accept everything as everything, ya know? I just wish I can just not think and just be like "Okay." and just see it as having nothing to do with me.

"Hey, I am going to be gone for a month." = "Alright, nice"

"Hey, I am going to change jobs and have a lower income" = "Alright, good luck"

"Hey, I don't like this thing of you, it makes me uncomfortable." = "Alright, my apologies"

Just simple responses and move on with my life and just continue on and just forget about these dumb interactions that would plague my mind with misery. I feel like I want to have control over these things, but I feel like if I don't have control over these things, only bad things will happen and I will only expect the bad things to happen. I feel so frustrated.

I know I need to maybe up my self-care, or maybe more time for myself instead of investing myself in so many imaginary issues. I feel like I have big emotions, and sometimes those big emotions get the better of me so much that it makes my overthinking worse. I wish I can separate them sometimes, but sometimes it can be difficult to get them out of my way to think logically. When it comes to people I love, I think my heart is on my sleeve. Sometimes it would be hard to understand why they won't want, what I want, such as spending more time with each other than doing certain things. Okay, well maybe I do but I guess I wished they'd want the same and validate my feelings on it.

Overthinking is just a spiral of nothingness and graspless air that refuse to let you take a full breath so you are always out of breath. I wish people in my life would understand that because to them you'll look crazy and they would just say something that was the opposite of what you needed. Sometimes If the overthinking gets bad, I just sink and find quick fixes to cope such as a nice junk food meal or fast food, or listen to things that would just give me ridiculous fast advice. Like sometimes I refuse to process my emotions and how much certain thoughts can badly affect me. Sometimes, I wish I didn't care but I hate it so much that I have to care because I know I care and If I show that I don't, I know it's regretful. It's so painful, and I don't want to deal with it, but the pain didn't have to be so suffocating. sigh

#Overthinking #Personal #rants #vents #Mental health #Fustration #Being human

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what were your thoughts on the episode! i can't wait to hear them

Okay so.... let's unpack this episode.

Euphoria meta under the cut. This is old and I never posted it but, its interesting how deep I dove into these characters.

I will say Rue and Nate have had the best development this season and were the only two who really saw some resolve in this finale. Rue, with her drug addiction and Nate with his dad.

This whole season for Rue was a roller coaster. She finally came to terms with her father's death and is recognizing her toxic traits and behaviors and making an effort to fix them. Not just for her sake but for her family's. I think Rue is finally gearing toward redemption. As a drug addict, she's still got a long way to go but it was nice to see her take a step back at her life and recognize what needs to change in order for her to live a happier, healthier life. She looked much more happy this episode. I loved her scenes with Lexi and their heart to heart. I think she's realizing she needs to grieve in order to get sober and stay sober. In ep 6, Ali said Rue needed to find hope and it was up to her to do it and it seems like she's found it (through watching Lexi's play). She's much closer to it than she was a couple episodes ago. The season ended with her voiceover saying she stayed clean the rest of the school year so I'm guessing season 3 will pick up in the new year and carry on from there.

I really, really, REALLY loved Nate's scene with Cal this episode. Listen, everyone can say what they want about Nate. That he's a horrible person, he should go to hell, etc. He's done some terrible things but what I like and can respect about his character is... at least, he owns them. He doesn't play the victim and accepts that he's a bad person, he has anger issues, etc. He says to his dad what his mom pointed out in 2x06 that he got all of his father's worst traits and what the two of them share in common is that they get off on when they hurt other people. I don't know if that's necessarily true since Nate does show remorse at times for his actions but he is very toxic and he acknowledges that. Tbh I wasn't expecting him to turn Cal in and after talking about him with @tommaden, it makes a lot of sense. Between, the last two seasons and Nate's nightmare last episode, all these factors triggered this climax. It was nice to see Nate acknowledge the tapes and how badly they fucked him up to the point he OPENLY admits he has night terrors about his father fucking him the way he's fucked everyone on those tapes. It really goes to show how discovering those tapes at such a young age has messed with Nate's psyche and his perception/view of sex. But not only that, his relationships. He doesn't know what a healthy relationship looks like considering the whole time he's kept his father's secrets. He explains his motivation for everything he's ever done by stating all he wanted was to protect his dad and his family since he kept it from his mom and Aaron and instead of his father loving him for that, he hated him. But Cal says he does love Nate, he regrets not being the father he should've been. Nate, however feels as though it's too late and in a way, it's easy to feel that way? Because it's like... why apologize now? Why blow up their lives, put Nate through all that trauma and doubt only to leave and admit he's happier now than he's ever been? Idk if I would believe him either after all of that. To Nate, it feels unfair. That they were subjected to Cal's mistakes and left to pick up the pieces while his dad gets to go off and live his life meanwhile they're all damaged. It's why he says he wants revenge. To him, Cal doesn't get to be happy while they're all miserable and so he turns his father in. Obviously, Nate's emotional about it. He too, wishes things could've been different but since they can't... this is his way of finally liberating himself from his father, the dark shadow he cast over Nate's life and everyone else's. This is Nate trying, imo, to break the cycle. Now will he be a bigger person? Idk, probably not. Those toxic traits don't just go away. However like Rue, I think this is Nate's turning point. This is his shot at redemption and we'll just have to see what he does with it.

In terms of Cal's arrest though... Idk what was on the usb. Nate says everything and Jules was the only one (we know of) that was underage so, it's unclear if there was a point to giving Jules the tape when another copy exists. As for the Maddy scene and traumatizing her for the disc back. I think regardless, Nate probably would've done that to prevent Maddy from being the one to out his dad. As nice of a moment as it would've been for Maddy to give the tape to Jules, for Nate's development... it had to work out that way. The symmetry of finding the tapes and Nate being the one to finally put this contest between him and his dad to rest is really interesting. I liked it. It is unfortunate though, how it had to happen.

Sadly, we didn't get much Maddy, Kat, Jules, Ethan, or Elliot this episode so I don't have much to say about them. (Maddy a little bit when I get to Cassie's part)

Lexi also experienced some growth this season and this episode. Not just with the play and taking control of the narrative through her eyes but her convo with Rue shed more light onto how Lexi copes with her father leaving. How, she feels like she has to step up and be the responsible one because that's just who she is despite being the youngest and the one that should be protected by her mom and her older sister. It's nice to see Lexi come into herself and find a voice and an outlet for her feelings since too often being quiet means she's overlooked and her feelings aren't as valid when they are.

She didn't have to do Cassie like that tho lol. Not with the carousel scene. Like there's a lot of elements in the play that weren't necessary and did seem like digs towards Cassie. Especially when Cassie is already going through it and suicidal. One thing I didn't like about that whole ordeal is that no one took her seriously. Cassie was really about to stab herself with a corkscrew and people just shrugged it off and laughed about it. It's kinda gross imo. That's not something that should be treated lightly or glossed over. If someone you love is expressing those kind of erratic behaviors and stuff, get them help! My god.

That aside.... in terms of Cassie, I kind of wished after the blowout with Maddy we would've gotten a bit more from her. I was hoping for Cassie to show some remorse. She seemed more concerned with Nate breaking up with her than her long standing friendship with Maddy ending as they're both cut up and bleeding. It was very anti-climatic imo. I started doing a deeper dive into Cassie's psyche and she went through being sad/lonely/pathetic in s1 to full fledged villain/antagonist in s2. That transition sort of needed to happen for storytelling purposes. Cassie needs to spiral in order to find her redemption and resolution. I think what bothers people so much about her this season is... they think Cassie uses her daddy issues as an excuse for her behavior. When that's not the case. The fans might but, Cassie has never said "I did this because my dad left" she hasn't even acknowledged her trauma outright. She did a little bit when she squared off with Lexi saying that Lexi judges everyone but she hasn't lived. Cassie has put herself out there. She's been used, abused, manipulated, taken advantage of, been hurt, etc. And all of that and all of her insecurities were being mocked. Its very exposing. Sydney says that Cassie's super insecure. But people look at her and see a body or label her the "hot sister" and don't let her become anything but that. I think deep down Lexi and Cassie admire and wish they had qualities of the other. Lexi wishes she was "hot" while still having all of her other qualities and Cassie wishes she was respected and loved and accepted the way Lexi is now after the play. I think this is common between siblings and teenage girls in general. You always tend to compare yourself to others and want what qualities you seem to lack.

Cassie was wrong for hooking up with Nate the way that she did. Saying they weren't together isn't an excuse for her behavior either. I feel like more people would respect Cassie if she admitted she was wrong. She did betray Maddy by sneaking around with Nate behind her back. I feel like Maddy still would've been pissed but she seems more mad about the fact that Cassie did what she did and lied to her about it. Maddy gave Cassie a chance to come clean when Rue let it slip, and again after Cassie locked herself in the bathroom. Maddy never intended to get violent with Cassie. She only did after Cassie called her a cunt and kept on with that "they weren't together" excuse. Cassie's wrong, point blank. We can still root for her and love her and acknowledge that. Sam makes a very good point at the end of the season saying that his only hope for viewers watching is for them to love and root for these characters despite their flaws and mistakes. Rue says it many times throughout the season, that people shouldn't be reduced to a mistake they'd made because it's not the mistake that makes or breaks a person, it's how they grow and learn from it and we have to give them the benefit of the doubt. We can like them and still not agree with the decisions they make.

I think thats a strong point for everyone this season. So many of the characters have done terrible things this season. But they aren't defined by that. And a lot of them are growing. While others were set back this season and have a longer way to go.

I'm sad about Ashtray and Fez. But, I get why Ashtray did what he did. I think he knew no matter what he wasn't getting out of this life alive. Fez, on the otherhand has hope for that. I knew it was going to happen and I'm still fucking upset about it.

#THIS IS NOT A DEBATE. DO NOT REBLOG TO OFFER YOUR OPINIONS PLEASE.

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translationandbetrayals · 6 months

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Reviewing: Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge

This is an anime which was aired in 2006 and is one of my favorites from that time. It is a shojo anime that is more centered on the comedy. I would say it didn’t age well, since from the design, animation, and some weird transition elements choice, it’s kind of stiff and questionable. It shows it’s old, and you could even say that its main topic nowadays would not be well received by the public.

The start point of the story is a mansion that a very rich woman owns. She is always travelling and searching for new entertaining things, so she is never at home and decided to rent her house. The tenants are four rich and handsome highschoolers (one of them is not rich but that’s not important to the plot, so don’t mind it). It happened that, the rich woman has a niece, and that girl’s parents followed her example and also decided to travel around the world, leaving their daughter alone. This girl has… an abnormal personality. The woman (her aunt), being aware of it, decided it would be a marvelous idea to let her live on the mansion too, and also, offer the guys living there to have three years of free rent if they could actually manage to educate her and make her be more “like a lady”. Living there for free was so tempting they didn’t think much about it and accepted, just to immediately regret it when they got to meet her: she was a shut-in that loves obscure weird things like occultism, gory movies, and that has a pretty neglected appearance.

Four handsome flower-boys trying to “fix” a girl that looks like “The Ring” girl, enjoys bloody movies and whose best friends are anatomy models and human skeletons.

The story is mostly a slice of life full of stand-alone episodes. It has some romance hints between the girl (the protagonist) and one of the boys who would be like a co-protagonist, but it’s not focused on it and even on the manga it doesn’t conclude as a canon pairing. Most of the cast’s interactions are about the guys being scared of her while also trying to help her (and win that free rent!).

Then, why would I recommend watching it? It is pretty weird in various aspects, and the main topic itself is a bit repelling since it’s difficult to see in a good light something that revolves around trying to make someone change their personality for money-related motivations. The thing about this show is that, even though it’s bizarre and has a lot of old clichés, it also has a message of self-acceptation. Even if the protagonist doesn’t really change her gloomy traits, the people around her are really nice. They try to understand her, and always try to encourage her to become better, to do an effort.

As a summary, I would say that everything about this series is weird, but it’s part of the charm it holds. You just don’t see such a strange protagonist every day, and even less a cast that slowly starts to accept her and end being friends with her just the way she is. Most animes tend to show “ugly” characters that are actually the best persons of the world, or that weren’t ugly at all from the beginning, and that in some way or another end up being perfect and loved by everyone. This is not the case.

This is a 2006 anime that allows a girl to be silly, dramatic, and a gloomy introvert without forcing her to become something that she doesn't want to. And also, without being too serious about it, since its main focus is being funny and showing the characters overreacting to everything.

The last thing I want to say about this series. If you want to watch it, be prepared to see one of the worst animations and unusual character designs. You can get used to it easily after a couple of chapters, but at first it looks horrible and discouraging. Just give it a chance, it might be a refreshing experience (or an horrible one if it's not of your taste).

Thank you for reading!

-SBMC.

#Anime #Manga

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Hi, if it’s okay for you, I’d like to ask for someone’s advice about my current relationship. I don’t have any close friends or acquaintances that I trust with this issue or that would care enough to talk it through with me.

So, basically, I’m in a very imbalanced relationship with my boyfriend, who is my literal everything. I’ve never had any feelings for anyone before, and I doubt that I’ll ever feel the way about someone as I feel about him. I’ll try to put it short; he’s the most fascinating, intelligent and capable person I’ve ever met, and as a sapiosexual person, he’s a literal dream come true. My love for him is no rushed or „just a crush“ kind of love, it took me a long time to actually like him and develop feelings for him, but eventually, the feelings I have for him now, are unbelievably strong and I can hardly think of anything I wouldn’t do for him. We have a really intense and strong connection, and he’s actually not the one to hold affections for anyone easily. Being with him taught me how to love someone with completely different opinions and personality traits, and still get along well. I know, what I’m about to say is the bare minimum, but I still find it important to mention that he’s never outright abusive. He never gets loud, he never gets physical, or insulting, he’s not controlling or jealous, he respects me as a person.

Anyways, as much as I love him, I’m often quite unhappy; I’m very affectionate and I need to feel my partner’s appreciation for me, need to feel their love and need their support and emotional safety. I am quite independent but I still need him. Not to fix my shit and do stuff for me, but because my heart needs him.

However, he’s not particularly affectionate, and if he is, it’s not as intense as I am. If it weren’t for our connection/bond (that shows in conversations, etc.), I could think he doesn’t care about me or sees me as inferior. And I don’t even blame him, since he really is an outstanding and impressive person when it comes to his mind/skills (and I’m not saying that because I’m in love with him) and I know that I can’t keep up with him. I’m not his equal, I know that, and therefore, as much as it hurts, I understand why he doesn’t bother to pamper me or shower me with affection. This deprivation and denial of love and affection however, hits really close to home for me because that’s pretty much what my parents did as a punishment when I was little: ignore me, deny me love, made me beg and grovel for mercy to the point where I was willing to hurt myself if only that would make them love me again.

I’m so confused, and I know I have major self-esteem issues. But someone telling me that „I deserve better“ does nothing for me. I don’t think I deserve good things. Also, he is the absolute perfect and ideal guy for me (except for the lack of affection and his superiority). I want nobody else but him. I tried taking a break from our relationship for a week, and I felt like I was dying. I’ve never felt so horrible in a long time before, so I came back. I can’t help but feel that despite our connection and his love for me (which must exist somehow, otherwise he wouldn’t even bother to be in a relationship with me), he doesn’t care whether I’m by his side or not. It’s so confusing and I know that everything I just said screams „leave him“, but I just can’t, and part of me doesn’t want to. I feel awful, but sometimes, being with him feels like heaven, a sort of connection and understanding that nobody has ever been able to provide me with. He’s everything I want, if only he’d love me properly. I don’t know what to do.

~Kat

you know, a lot of times people enter relationships to satisfy their egos and he might be one of those people. I wouldn't say this if you didn't mention his superiority complex which is a huge issue and a huge red flag

Sure, he isn't textbook abusive, nor him acting superior is outright abusive, but ruining one's self esteem, confidence, trust in oneself, etc etc etc., are huge issues. If he isn't affectionate with you and you are the only one who praises him, who shows him love in many different ways and forms and if you have to beg for the same thing, can you truly tell me he loves you?

There is a difference between loving somebody and keeping them on the hook. Think of a dog who is chained up against the wall and you are holding a treat and waving it around a dog's face. Dog sees it and wants it, but can't reach it. And then you give dog a treat that one time and deny it again for quite some time. Dog will do everything, roll around and give you affection, be dependent on you in that sense because you are the one holding the treat. I think you are aware who is who here.

That's not love, that's conditioning.

I will even assume he might have issues with expressing love and affection and if you haven't talked to him about it yet - do it. I am assuming he will either say or already said that he isn't good with emotions, he can't express them, etc etc etc

That's bullshit lol, you need to learn how to show affection in order to be in a relationship. Or to have a friendship. To me it seems like you are more amazed by him and you built in a belief you will never have somebody like that again which is silly, quite frankly. He isn't the most unique person, nor is your heart limited to be able to love only one person. Given everything you've said, I highly recommend you go to therapy because there is a chance you may have developed bpd from growing up with parents like that. This isn't me diagnosing you by any means, but I think there are things you need to work through in therapy so you could understand yourself better and keep yourself safe.

As for your relationship, I can't tell you anything that would make you want to break up. You crave his attention and affection and unless you cut it off within yourself and realize that he isn't good for you mentally or emotionally, nobody can do anything. You are responsible for yourself and you are responsible to make a choice. I can give you an advice and tell you to run before this relationship strips you away from everything you are and leaves you to be a shell of a human. He is either actively or passively manipulating you, but whatever the case may be, it's unhealthy. You are maybe not dependent on him as much, but that's for now. If this keeps going you will turn into a human shell as I've said before. You will be nothing without him and everything you do and think about will be related to him only. I would suggest you break this off and work on yourself and find that fascination within yourself and learn your own desires and standards. Focus on yourself and yes, it will be hard for a while because you do have feelings for him, but feelings you have for someone shouldn't be absolute when somebody is hurting you and slowly ruining everything that you are, so do it for yourself and your own good :)

#stinkyanswers #my sweet kat <3 #i hope you will be okay :)#take your time and sit down with yourself for a while #you are unhappy and that's what matters #not who he is or what he could be or that you love him #but the fact that you are unhappy and unsatisfied and mistreated #you need to find yourself again and move on from a person who isn't good for you

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redhairedlesbians · 2 years

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you took away the mystery of knowing you.

pieces of your being that are meant to be inferred, not demanded

you brazenly shown of your personality

because you are not sure of it yourself.

you don’t know who you are, and so you must convince everyone who you are, desperate for them to believe the show, because if they can believe it, you can believe it too.

some part of me feels like you sucked a piece of my being out when you were around. you look at me, searching for some piece of my soul that you can devour and feed off of. another trait you can dust off, try on, and then take off as you please.

you care about pleasure, want, ego. you care about your own selfish persona without mind to those around you. they’re used to it. your soul sucking tendencies have less of an affect to those you’ve been nursing on for years.

you’re an energetic mind-fuck. you came into my life and stole from me like some little fantasy creature that movies swiftly through their thievery and scurries away with a quickness.

(and fuck you, and your fantasy creatures, by the way. i really don’t understand how you have the capacity to be the way you are and have such. BORING INTERESTS. and don’t get me wrong, i love fantasy. but god, i never have to hear you mansplain another fantasy game to me again. i get to learn without your demanding)

and god, i know you intend no harm. i think that’s what makes it worse of all: you cannot fix someone who doesn’t believe that their actions are their own when intention is to play. the most insufferable type of human. because the reality is, most people are not horrible people by heart. many people try their best and abide by their own set of morals that can change based on circumstance. people do not want to be the bad guy ever, because it feels terrible, and so they avoid it at all costs.

because, see for you, your ego is built on such a fragile foundation that an ounce of self reflection is simply too daunting of a task. you feel so deeply insecure that anything that slightly threatens your amazing person facade must. be. terminated. because if that threat makes it’s way through your fragile walls, your entire esteem comes crashing down. so when you don’t do something to hurt someone intentionally, because god why would you, you don’t feel the need to address your actions and how to fix them. to accept responsibility is to acknowledge defeat, and if you accept defeat then this entire facade is exposed. the walls you so rapidly built around the gaping wound in your soul will come crashing down and everyone will know you for what you are: a fraud. weak.

and i know that this is not your fault, but it does highlight a flaw in your being: resistance to change. you have a hard time changing because the shallow pit you grew up in has seeped so far into your bones that it seems more comfortable in the toxic wasteland than in the world i tried to show you. i tried to pull you out. i couldn’t. i wanted you to grow with me, alongside me. but as i grew larger you stayed stagnant, feet stuck in the gunk of the world you grew up in. i wanted to save you. i wish i could have. sometimes i wonder how you’re doing and for a split second i wish you well. i feel sad for you and sometimes i wish to pray on your behalf, share even more of me and send more of my energy in your direction. this urge is fleeting. i’m sick of giving to you. maybe one day this will change. but right now i am feeling much too angry to care. i stayed for so long because i felt bad for you. i loved you. you were part of my life for so long and i wish you had stayed alongside with me. but unfortunately, my friend. you’re going to be stuck in that gunk for a really long time. i wish i could take you with me. however i needed to let you go before you sunk me in with you. sometimes i hope you’re doing well. i felt bad for you. and i punished myself for so long knowing i should leave but understanding why i didn’t.

understanding you didn’t mean i deserved to be subjected to you. you’re a black hole, a energy sucking monster who made me feel horrible.

you took away my confidence and then returned it in increments. you drove me away from resources so that when you replenished them sparsely i would worship the ground you walk on. and it worked. i did. but i also hated you for how you made me feel, and i could never put a finger on it before.

i love who i am without you. i feel so free. i feel… happy on most days. i feel a joy in your absence and that’s so freeing. i fight so hard for myself and myself only.

thank you, but i’d like to be done now

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Hope I didn't ask for another request too soon, but I saw that you write for Genshin Impact? Could you maybe do the dorm leaders from twisted wonderland reacting to mc with a vision?(Sorry I really love the dorm leaders.) Maybe Mc has a different vision for each dorm? And how would they react to what happens when someone loses their vision and how people get visions in the first place? (If you didn't know you lose your ambition and sometimes memories.)

Genshin!Reader with TWST Dorm Leaders

Note: Hi!! And it's alright haha; I'm sorry this took a LONG TIME to answer and post-

And yes, I do wrote for Genshin! And of course I can do that!! It took a bit of a while for me to choose an element per dorm, but all's well!! And yes, I know what happens when you lose a vision-

While I haven't been playing Genshin so much recently (experiencing burn-out), I do know majority of the storyline! I'm AR 53 in my main acc so I know a lot!

And my first Genshin request!! Yey!! I hope you all like this!! 💙💙

Also, please note that the personality/ies of each MC for each dorm will be based on what I think are the common traits for each vision. And for each Mc, I made it that they're used to fighting, like they have enough experience in a battle. But their backgrounds woun't be shown or mentioned, so you can fill those parts in however you want!

And since no one can have all visions at once, I'm going to assume that it's a different MC for each dorm or something, so yeah-

Heartslabyul - Hydro:

Riddle Rosehearts:

🥀 What do you think the world was thinking, putting a Hydro Vision with Grim?

🥀 There's just a bunch of "Vaporize" effects EVERYWHERE!!

🥀 The Welcoming Ceremony? "Vaporize"'d!!

🥀 And didn't the Dark Mirror say that MC has no magic?

🥀 Then WHY ARE THEY USING MAGIC RIGHT THERE, IN FRONT OF HIM?!?!

🥀 Yeah... the welcoming ceremony was full of mist.

🥀 Riddle also doesn't understand why or how this supposed "magicless" student can use magic

🥀 When the headmage had asked MC, they said "this isn't magic... this is my Vision.", gesturing to the strange blue gem on their person.

🥀 What do you mean "vision", that blue gem is where and how they see???

🥀 In the end, Riddle's questions end up ananswered, and a bunch of new questions pop up.

🥀 Someone pls help this boy 🤣🤣

🥀 He's just really confused now 🤣

🥀 Anyway, nothing much really happens.

🥀 I personally believe that most Hydro vision havers have some sort of sense of justice or have a certain TYPE of virtue with them or something similar (even Childe doesn't pick fights for fun; he just fights who he thinks is strong enough; though his mental stability is very questionable-)

🥀 So when Riddle gets mad at Ace because of the Mont Blanc incident, MC's "virtue senses" started tingling.

🥀 So, like the original MC, Hydro!MC also revolts against Riddle.

🥀 But, unlike the original MC, Hydro!MC would add in more comments about Riddle's horrible behaviour, which angers Riddle even further.

🥀 So yeah, plot goes on.

🥀 When MC finds out about Riddle's past, they feel rather... sympathetic... towards Riddle, but still believes that it doesn't necessarily fully justify his actions, nor does it put him in the right.

🥀 So yeah.

🥀 I headcanon that most Hydro-vision weilders are great thinkers or strategizers most of the time; like they can think pretty quickly and sharply. And most of them also do pretty good at playing in the background (similar to Kokomi, who doesn't exactly do much of the fighting (from the fighting) as she does more strategizing and healing in the beckground; and Xingqiu, who literally made an entire plan for the traveler and Paimon to fix the conflict of Chang the Ninth, and didn't ask or receive any credit, due to the fact that he did everything behind the scenes)

🥀 Or I might be overanalyzing-

🥀 But anyway, MC helps the ADeuce combo think of a plan and strategy for the duel.

🥀 It depends to you whether or not you want MC to think that ADeuce would win or lose against Riddle.

🥀 But anyway, plot goes on.

🥀 Again, Hydro!MC also revomts against Riddle, but this time, may have accidentally let it slip that they know about Riddle's past.

🥀 They also insult Riddle's mom.

🥀 ...and Riddle.

🥀 Yeahh....

🥀 That causes Riddle to ALSO insult MC and their parents/guardians.

🥀 Their reaction depends on you.

🥀 Riddle overblots and MC is actually the first one to start fighting it.

🥀 Because of their sense of justice and/or virtue, they just feel the need to get Riddle out of that horrible mindset he has.

🥀 So yeah! Also, since Riddle's Overblot's main attacks are mostly fire and/or grass, Hydro!MC does have a bit of an advantage.

🥀 Also a disadvantage, because there's mist all around now.

🥀 It's also probably flooding a bit-

🥀 Riddle VS Hydro!MC literally looks like 🌊🌊🔥🔥🌫🌊🌳🌳🌊🌊🌊

🥀 MC doesn't have to worry about accumulating blot, so they deal the most punches to Riddle's overblot.

🥀 MC is also the most experienced with fighting a bunch of strange stuff (like regisvines, hilichurls, mitachurls, lawachurls, etc), so they recover quite quickly when seeing an Overblot phantom or something pretty out of the ordinary.

🥀 So yeah! MC does help comfort Riddle.

🥀 They also apologize for insulting him and his mom, though they truly do mean what they said.

🥀 They admit that they may have gone too far with their insults and snide comments, though.

🥀 They also try help fix the dorm.

🥀 The hydro stuff they summoned during the battle also disappear, along with whatever weapon they were using.

🥀 Riddle (and the rest of Heartslabyul) are pretty fascinated by how the water and the weapon simply disappear to those pretty gold sparkles.

🥀 So during the Revenge Unbirthday Party, after the other Heartslabyul students run to chase Chen'ya out, they decide to ask MC about their world.

🥀 MC talks about their world, the visions, the 7 Archons, basically everything that they know.

🥀 They also explain that a person's vision represents their ambition; so when a person's vision is taken away, they also lose their ambition.

🥀 Riddle asks what happens to a person who loses their ambition/vision.

🥀 When he finds out about it, he's horrified. People lose their memories, and sometimes even get mental disorders?

🥀 When MC tells them about the Vision Hunt Decree in Inazuma, Riddle is reminded of what he did as a 'tyrant'.

🥀 MC mentions that the people here are very lucky that getting your magic disabled doesn't have much circumstances or go through any bad effects in this world.

🥀 And Riddle wholeheartedly agrees with that.

🥀 If MC is from Inazuma; and have been affected by the Vision Hunt Decree, be it by seeing a close one go through the consequences of losing their vision, or from seeing someone d*e at the hands of the Shogun or the Tenryou Commission, Riddle apologizes if his actions have caused any bad memories to pop up.

🥀 Afterwards, Riddle and MC often hang out.

🥀 MC also shows Riddle some cool and fun tricks using their Hydro Vision.

Savanaclaw - Dendro:

Leona Kingscholar:

🦁 Another disaster during the Welcoming Ceremony

🦁 Because Grim's flames keep burning MC's dendro attacks.

🦁 This causes a burning smell that Leona does NOT like.

🦁 It's too much for his nose.

🦁 And from my speculation (as we have NO released playable Dendro characters at the moment), Dendro-vision weilders would most likely be quite knowledgeable and possibly wise. Because the Dendro Archon is the God of Wisdom. So, for this, I will be saying that Dendro!MC is pretty smart and thoughful and pretty witty.

🦁 So luckily, for both MC AND Leona, they stop trying to help stop Grim.

🦁 How the hell does this herbivore have magic, when the Dark Mirror said that they DON'T have magic??

🦁 Another confused person.

🦁 But Leona's pretty quick to shrug it off and go about his life, thinking that the herbivore wouldn't be such a bother in the future.

🦁 HAH! BISH YOU THOUGHT!!!!

🦁 Anyway, when MC meets Leona in the Bitanical Garden, Leona (like he does with the original MC) sniffs them.

🦁 He notices that they smell a lot like plants. Their scent is very... nature-y. Not necessarily earthy, but close.

🦁 When he found out that MC was on the case of all the incidents and accidents going on, Leona also didn't think much of it.

🦁 What he didn't expect was for MC to LITERALLY walk up to him and CASUALLY ask him if he knew why no one from his dorm was getting injured.

🦁 Sh*t

🦁 Dendro!MC would definitely wonder why no one from Savanclaw was getting injured.

🦁 Plus, Jack mentioned that, "he probably won't get targeted".

🦁 So MC, being the smart@ss they are, goes to investigate Savanaclaw.

🦁 Leona replies that he doesn't know, and that the culprit might be too scared to mess with Savanaclaw.

🦁 MC refutes this, by saying that the culprit should have also been cautious of Diasomnia, Scarabia, and Octavinelle students too, as they are the most... calculating and most likely to get revenge.

🦁 Leona is now intrigued and interested in this herbivore; he thinks that they seem really sharp.

🦁 Leona then replies, "How would I know? I'm not the culprit."

🦁 MC is now absolutely sure that Leona is a suspect.

🦁 Before they could ask him to come with them (to interrogate him further), Leona adds, "What? If you really suspect that I'M the culprit, where's your evidence?"

🦁 This leaves MC quiet, and they leave Leona, frustrated.

🦁 After that, Leona makes sure that Ruggie is more careful with his "work".

🦁 But this does cause Leona to be a bit more daring at the same time.

🦁 As usual, plot continues, but MC is a lot more thoughtful; they even closely inspect the "crime scenes".

🦁 Plot goes on again.

🦁 Now, MC and Riddle's plan definitely OBVIOUSLY worked.

🦁 Also, MC definitely talks and critically criticizes Leona.

🦁 They mostly criticize his way of responding to a situation where he knows that someone is better than him.

🦁 They also comment on how f*cked up his life is, but the way he acts towards his life is probably even more problematic.

🦁 They don't talk about how he's the second-in-line; they know not to play with that part of his life.

🦁 Also because they don't know about his background yet.

🦁 Leona overblots

🦁 Again, Dendro!MC is quick to go up to Leona and fight his overblot.

🦁 The fight is normal, to be honest.

🦁 Except MC is in a bit of a disadvantage.

🦁 Since I see MC using their Dendro to capture people, like trap them, Leona would simply turn their attacks to dust.

🦁 So they're left with trying to affect him through making plants/flowers with strong pollen to disorient him.

🦁 It works; since Leona's a lion, his nose is quite sensitive.

🦁 Plot goes on.

🦁 I don't see Leona being someone who would willingly acceot comfort, and MC acknowledges that.

🦁 So they don't comfort Leona.

🦁 Instead, they ask him why he wants to be king so bad.

🦁 They also give him a bunch of questions to ponder over.

🦁 Like, "don't you want to be something else?", or tell him that there are other better options than being a king.

🦁 After that, Leona is a bit less hostile to MC; he is STILL wary, though.

🦁 He asks questions about MC world, though.

🦁 When he finds out about what hapoens to a person when they lose their vision, he's a bit more nonchalant.

🦁 Don't get him wrong, though.

🦁 He's pretty terrified at the thought of all those side effects.

🦁 He's also pretty glad that he isn't in MC's world.

🦁 But other than that, he's pretty chill!

🦁 He also plays Chess with MC a lot!

🦁 He thinks that they're a great opponent to go against.

🦁 Their scent is also pretty relaxing sometimes-

🦁 So he steals them away from whatever task to use them as his pillow.

Octavinelle - Geo:

Azul Ashengrotto:

🐙 Now, for Geo Vision wielders, I see them as people with a specific sense of duty and and perseverance; and are often great/recognized in what they do.

🐙 So I’ll be basing that on this MC.

🐙 Azul easily notices that this supposed magicless student has a very... calm and mentor-like aura/vibe to them.

🐙 When Grim causes fire everywhere, Geo!MC doesn’t stop Grim; but they create shields to protects everyone from the fire.

🐙 Azul also notices that the magicless student made certain... constructs? around the place.

🐙 What these constructs do is up to you-

🐙 Azul is now curious.

🐙 The supposed magicless student actually has magic..

🐙 Perhaps the Dark Mirror was unable to detect magic from them?

🐙 However... shield magic and creating constructs are quite useful...

🐙 Perhaps they would be willing to make a contract with him?

🐙 *insert Azul's capitalism thoughts*

🐙 They could have other abilities that he could take advantage of too...

🐙 Coming back to the Octavinelle Dorm, Azul's thoughts were full of how he could possibly get MC and the new students into a contract with him.

🐙 MC seems like a very respectable person, so they might know what he's trying to do...

🐙 Or not...

🐙 Azul knows not to judge someone based on their cover or outward appearance, so he has Jade and Floyd observe spy on MC.

🐙 Before the Octavinelle Arc, Azul has always been trying to get them in a contract with him.

🐙 However, MC has a feeling that Azul's intentions aren't as nice as they seem.

🐙 So they're quite cautious and wary of him, and often dodge his attempts to capitalize on their talents and abilities.

🐙 They also can't help but think that there's more to this shady b@stard than meets the eye...

🐙 They volunteer to teach him how to use their weapon, though!

🐙 Unless MC uses a catalyst-

🐙 But other than that, they're alert around him.

🐙 When MC FINALLY appraches Azul about the jerk anemones, Azul is celebrating on the inside.

🐙 F*CKING FINALLY!!

🐙 Ahem!

🐙 Anyway, Azul puts in the contract, "The Ramshackle Prefect's Powers, Abilities, and Knowledge"

🐙 He put it in a small font.

🐙 He was half expecting, half not expecting that MC would fully read the contract.

🐙 MC does read the contract; it takes a while to do, though.

🐙 And SOMEHOW, MC finds the small fine print, and explains to Azul that it's impossible for someone to use someone else's Vision.

🐙 They also tell him that they CAN give him knowledge abouy their world, though.

🐙 Azul begrudgingly accepts and acknowledge this and takes off the part where it takes Mc's powers away, should they break the contract.

🐙 MC accepts the contract, after going over it a couple more times to check for any other rigged prints.

🐙 Azul fully expects that MC won't be able to complete the contract.

🐙 However, what he doesn't know, is that Geo!MC is very dedicated.

🐙 Once they start something, they WILL end it.

🐙 So, the plot goes on as usual.

🐙 When Azul realizes MC's plan, he's surpirised, but a small part of him was a bit satisfied.

🐙 Finally, a worthy opponent.

🐙 MC might have commented a bit on Azul's unfair scamming.

🐙 Azul interprets this as MC bullying him, which further brings him to overblot.

🐙 During Azul's overblot, MC was easily able to shield everyone from his attacks.

🐙 They also dealt quite a lot of damage to the Overblot phantom thing

🐙 When Azul wakes up, MC already has a few herbs or a potion to make him feel better from the pain.

🐙 When they confront Azul, they also comfort him a bit.

🐙 MC tells him that he doesn't have to prove anything; and that those bullies were kids.

🐙 Besides, people dislike or are afraid of anything/anyone they aren't familiar with.

🐙 This doesn't exactly comfort Azul, but it does help him be more open-minded

🐙 MC also tells him about their world; and gives him some knowledge about common things in their world, as well as what they're really good at.

🐙 When Azul finds out about what happens to someone who loses their Vision, he's also pretty scared and horrified.

🐙 He is aware that the side effects are NO joke.

🐙 If you are from Inazuma & have been affected by the Vision Hunt Decree, he has a lot more respect for you.

🐙 Azul is also very interested in the Geo Archon; the God of Contracts, you say? 👀

🐙 But other than that, Azul admires MC for MC perseverance and dedication to what they do.

🐙 And MC admires Azul for his business and his hardworking-ness. Even though sometimes, his intentions aren't as positive.

🐙 Basically, both admire and look up to the other and better themselves to be like the other.

🐙 Great friendship, all-in-all.

🐙 MC also works as a guard or a bouncer for Monstro Lounge.

Scarabia - Cryo:

Kalim Al-Asim:

☀️ Oh dear...

☀️ Another disaster during the welcoming ceremony-

☀️ When Kalim's butt was on fire, MC probably froze it for a while.

☀️ The ice was controlled, and wasn't numbingly cold, don't worry.

☀️ MC also probably tried stopping Grim by freezing the fire, aka cancelling it.

☀️ Another mist combo-

☀️ MC also froze Grim too.

☀️ Again, the ice was controlled and not too cold either.

☀️ Kalim was AMAZED by the supposed magicless prefect's powers.

☀️ He probably forgot that the Dark Mirror said that they were magicless.

☀️ He thought that there was a small misunderstanding.

☀️ Now, my headcanon/s for Cryo Vision wielders is that they've mostly lost something, or longing for something that they can't have (like Qiqi, who lost her life and memories; Ayaka, who lives a very rich life, but longs to be treated as a normal person, etc). And most of them have quite ironic circumstances. (For example, Chongyun is an exorcist, but he hasn't seen a spirit; Diona is a bartender, but hates alchohol; Ayaka is a very famous and loved person, but has very few trusted friends)

☀️ So MC has some characteristics there.

☀️ I also imagine MC's attitude to be a bit closed off and reserved; quite the opposite to Kalim.

☀️ Polar Opposites Become Besties trope?? 👀👀

☀️ Anyway!

☀️ Kalim was VERY excited about becoming friends with the person who helped him!

☀️ Actually, I think he already does consider them friends-

☀️ But when he sees them in the Scarabia Dorm, he's absolutely excited to get to know MC better!

☀️ He shows them his favorite food and has them dance/sing with him (if they're comfortable).

☀️ Basically, it's all fun and games until Jamil mind-controls him-

☀️ MC, who doesn't understand what's going on, feels a bit betrayed; because one moment Kalim is all sunshines and sparkles, and the next, Kalim's really scary and demanding.

☀️ They also get very concerned about Kalim.

☀️ That is, until they notice a pattern.

☀️ Before Kalim goes all strict and tyrant-y, Jamil is with Kalim.

☀️ Most Cryo users are a bit analytical, and observational; so I do think this will apply to Cryo!MC.

☀️ This makes MC pretty suspicious of Jamil.

☀️ Kalim still isn't off the hook, though.

☀️ Whenever Jamil stops his Snake Whisper on Kalim, Kalim is always confused as to why MC and the others avoid him, or act a bit distasteful to him.

☀️ When it's revealed that Jamil did what he did, Kalim is betrayed, and MC is quite mad and upset at Jamil on behalf of Kalim.

☀️ When Kalim is still feeling sad, after getting thrown to the "ends of the world", Mc comforts Kalim; saying that while Jamil's feelings is pretty justifiable, his actions aren't.

☀️ Basically, MC comforts Kalim.

☀️ Unfortunately, they can't do anything about the freezing temperatures.

☀️ MC is also probably used to the cold, as they do have a Cryo vision.

☀️ Tbh, I'm torn on how I want the scene where Kalim uses Oasis Maker to go, so you have a choice in this:

☀️ The first choice is that everything goes on normally; the Tweels turn into their eel form and swim everyone else back to Scarabia.

☀️ Or after Kalim uses Oasis Maker to fill up to oasis, MC freezes the river so everyone could simply skate or slide back to Scarabia (ka(e)yaking)

☀️ Or MC summons a Cryo summon that brings everyone to Scarabia.

☀️ Your pick, really.

☀️ When they go confront and fight Jamil's Overblot, Kalim is amazed at MC's talent and ability with their weapon.

☀️ They have him use Oasis Maker so they could freeze the water.

☀️ This makes the mind-controlled people to slip or freeze.

☀️ After all that, Kalim and MC continue to be close friends!

☀️ MC also makes sure Kalim doesn't do anything TOO extreme.

☀️ Jamil sighing in relief in the background.

☀️ Kalim and MC are definitely Freeze combo besties!

☀️ When Kalim asks about MC's world, he's amazed at the Vision stuff.

☀️ But when he finds out about what happens to people when they lose their vision, he's crying.

☀️ If you have a close one who's went through these side effects, he definitely feels sorry for you and cries for you.

☀️ Other than that, you're both amazing besties!!

Pomefiore - Electro:

Vil Schoenheit:

👑 Probably the BIGGEST disaster for the Welcoming Ceremony-

👑 Grim's fire and your Electro do NOT work well together-

👑 Overload reactions make explosions, right?

👑 Yeah... not a great idea.

👑 I think that most Electro Vision wielders are people who are very clear and honest with their identity; and are often loners. They also often reject or contradict what society often think is "normal", so they're often considered "strange" or "abnormal".

👑 So I'll be basing Electro!MC off that.

👑 Also, Electro people are GORGEOUS, or cute-

👑 Anyway, Vil absolutely LOVES MC's appearance; it very much suits them.

👑 Also, that lightning magic they create is very aesthetically pleasing; especially with the prevailent purple and black surroundings.

👑 What Vil DOESN'T like is that the lightning and fire create explosions.

👑 It's very dangerous!

👑 Luckily, the creature is stopped.

👑 When Vil sees MC's friends and that creature are auditioning for the VDC, he's intruiged, and sorta expects that MC would also audition.

👑 Surprise, surprise! They didn't audition!

👑 Anyway, he surprised that MC is just there for moral support; but shrugs it off.

👑 When he gets to Ramshackle, it's honestly even more of a mess because MC has had to stop Grim's shenanigans often.

👑 So Vil is disgusted and concerned cuz HOW THE HECK DO YOU LIVE HERE?!?!

👑 Anyway, plot ensues normally.

👑 Vil overblots, etc.

👑 You absolutely DESTROY his overblot.

👑 Like, he barely stood a chance, since Electro does very well in long-ranged.

👑 So MC's able to deal great amounts of damage while staying pretty far away from him to not get so affected by the poison.

👑 After all that, MC comfort everyone when NRC loses.

👑 After the overblot, Vil approaches you (or you approach Vil, either is fine), and you both talk.

👑 I don't think that acting is a thing, outside of plays and operas, etc; since there isn't a TV in Teyvat-

👑 So MC asks Vil about them.

👑 In return, he asks about MC's world.

👑 When he finds out about what happens to a person when they lose their vision, Vil is also pretty horrified.

👑 There aren't any side effects to losing your magic in Twisted Wonderland, unless it was specifically from someone else's Unique Magic; so this is all foreign to Vil.

👑 Afterwards, he's pretty chill honestly.

👑 He also has MC sometimes model in his room, or do some skin care or hair care together.

👑 MC and Vil also have salon/spa hang outs; he pays.

👑 Vil likes the sort of collected, yet powerful presence MC has, and respect that.

👑 He gives MC clothes to further accentuate that aura they have too!

Ignihyde - Pyro:

Idia Shroud:

(Note: This might be pretty short compared to the others as I don't know much about this character. I might edit this soon when I do know more about the character, though.)

💀 Oh dear...

💀 Pyro!MC using their Pyro to stop Grim's fire doesn't fix anything-

💀 Plus...

💀 Idia is freaking out at the background cuz the heat might melt his tablet-

💀 HOW IS THIS HEAT WORSE THAN THE NORMAL FIRE SPELL!??!

💀 AND WHY THE HECK DOES THIS SUPPOSED MAGICLESS STUDENT HAVE MAGIC?!!?

💀 Plus, being so skilled at it too-

💀 Idia solemnly swears to himself never to go near MC.

💀 He sees MC as this deadly character in a game that saves you, but is really scary-

💀 He also notes that Mc's origins of being from another world is like the generic normal isekai anime/game story.

💀 He now also sees MC as an Isekai Main Character

💀 Now, most Pyro characters are very passionatw about a certain skill, thing, or goal they have. Like Xiangling and cooking; or Diluc and keeping Mondstadt safe; etc.

💀 So Idia sort of sees MC's passion as something to be careful about.

💀 He wouldn't want to be on the wrong side of their weapon and their vision.

💀 Since idk what happens during and after Idia's overblot, I'll be keeping this short-

💀 Sorry-

💀 When he finds out about what happens to people when they lose their vision, Idia is pretty horrified...

💀 He's pretty curious as to how people handle it, but is probably too scared to ask-

Diasomnia - Anemo:

Malleus Draconia:

(Note: This might be pretty short compared to the others as I don't know much about this character. I might edit this soon when I do know more about the character, though.)

🐉 As he wasn't invited, Malleus doesn't know what happened during the Welcoming Cermony.

🐉 He does hear Lilia (who heard from Sebek and other first years) tell him about a supposed magicless prefect who apparently had wind magic, had helped save the students from a fire cat monster.

🐉 Only thing is, it doesn't help much-

🐉 In fact, the wind/Anemo that Anemo!MC uses only fans the flames higher-

🐉 So they had to stop unless they wanted NRC to burn down.

🐉 He found a great interest in this child of man.

🐉 So when he finds out that they are the now-Prefect of Ramshackle Dorm, he's quite satisfied.

🐉 He IS quite sad that he won't be abke to go to Ramshackle for hsi nightly expeditions/walks, but he's still content with being able to learn more about the prefect.

🐉 Now, in my opinion, Anemo Users are often people who also have a sort of sense duty, while still advocating (or longing) for a sense of freedom in some way (For example, Jean and her sense of duty as the Acting Grandmaster, while advocating for freedom for Mondstadt; Xiao and his role as the only Yaksha, longing for freedom from his perpetual agony; Sayu's a hard nut, but perhaps her role in the Shuumatsuban and her wanting to sleep more to be taller, perhaps??). Some Anemo users also have some type of role model or leader or something similar (like Sucrose has an admiration and looks up to Albedo very much; Jean who looks up to Lady Vanessa, and the Anemo Archon). I also see that some Anemo vision wielders prefer to work alone rather than in a big group; or they carry a burden that they keep alone (like Jean and the burden of all the work being the Acting Grandmaster; Xiao and the burden of his karmic debt; Sayu and her burden of being small and often underestimated)

🐉 So I'll be modelling Anemo!MC based on that.

🐉 So, when Malleus and MC become close, MC is a lot more open to Malleus, and treats him like how they would anyone else.

🐉 They admire how Malleus is very strong and efficient in magic too.

🐉 Both Malleus and MC often show off a bit of tricks using their vision or magic.

🐉 MC also tells Malleus about their homeworld, all the adventures they've gone through, all the hardships, etc.

🐉 In return, Malleus also shares some of his own knowledge about Twisted Wonderland; and gargoyles!

🐉 Especially gargoyles!!

🐉 When he finds out about what happens to a person who loses their Vision, he's quite taken aback.

🐉 He's not exactly downright HORRIFIED, but he is pretty surprised that there would be such consequences to losing that.

🐉 Other than that, he's also quite chill about it.

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Hey, it’s me again :3

My birthday is soon(next week on the Friday)

So I wondered if you could write headcanons for the Slasher with an Birthday S/O.

Like what would they give her, what would they do on her birthday. You probably get what I mean.

But only if it’s alright and you got time, if not it’s also fine^^

I already say thank you :3💕💕(btw I really love your writing <3)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE, I HOPE YOU HAVE AN AMAZING DAY!! I did see the other little tidbit you sent in and yes, ofc, anything for you. Especially since it’s your birthday and you asked so nicely<3

(Going ahead and posting this a lil early… i think? I can’t remember when you sent this in sorry :/)

-Fern🌿

Slashers on their S/O’s Birthday

Warnings: NSFW content, 18+

Michael Myers

Michael has always been pretty indifferent towards birthdays. So what, you’re getting older big whoop. He doesn’t see them as important and doesn’t understand the point of celebrating them.

However, as you keep mentioning to him that your birthday is coming up, he gets the hint. Michael isn’t stupid and he knows you well enough to be able to tell what you want.

Still, Michael isn’t going to throw you a party or decorate or anything like that. Instead he makes a statement just by spending the entire day with you.

During your time spent together you find out Michael did actually buy a cake for you. Although it was also partially for his own benefit as well seeing as he has a major sweet tooth. He even got “Happy Birthday y/n” written on the top in your favorite color. When you bite into it, you realize that it’s also your favorite flavor.

After the cake, Michael brings you a small box with a horribly tied ribbon wrapped around it. Don’t look at him funny, he tried okay. So what the gift inside was most likely stolen from a victims, you got a present that you loved. Isn’t that all that really matters?

Michael isn’t much of a giver in bed, he prefers to take. He mainly focuses on achieving his own end and whatever pleasure you get during that is what you get. But tonight he’ll make a point of not only making you finish first once, but numerous times throughout the night. Today is about you after all, why not try and set a new record in bed to mark the start of a new age.

Bo Sinclair

Morning sex, congratulations, this morning you become breakfast for Bo. No need to get up early to cook for him when he can simply devour you.

Surprise! He won’t be an ass to anyone for one whole day. Just for you darlin’. If some people happen to stumble into town, Bo won’t let anyone ruin your day, and quickly has Vincent take care of them. Even Lester will help out if need be, even though Les hates participating in the “family company”.

Sneaks away in the middle of the night to decorate the house. Luckily, Vincent pitches in and helps him make everything look nice. Bo goes all out with streamers, balloons, banners, he even got you a cake!

He’s more than eager to give you your presents as well. Of course he had to buy you a lingerie set, it’s a surprise that’ll help the two of you later that night…

Bo is a simple man, he just wants everyone to know that you belong to him. So he also got you a dainty little necklace of his name. Sure it may be cute to you, but secretly he’s laying his claim to you.

Usually he’s busy with keeping up the town but just this once he spends the entire day with you. Bo spending so much quality time with you doing whatever you want really says a lot.

He may even take you to the next town over for a nice dinner. After all, no one should have to cook on their own birthday and it’ll make good use of the cute little sundress he got you and gives you the opportunity to dress up. You better wear the lingerie he got you under it though. Good luck making it to the bedroom when the two of you get back from the restaurant.

Vincent Sinclair

You’re not sure who is more excited, him or you. Vincent makes sure that you have the best time ever and makes the whole day about you. It’s the perfect chance for him to spend the whole day with you and show you how much he loves you.

When you wake up he’ll be missing. He woke up early to make you your favorite breakfast. He had hoped to bring it to you in bed but sadly you’ve always been the early riser. Luckily for you, unlike Bo, Vincent is a good cook. How do you think the three boys survived before you showed up?

Vincent has always been a more private person so while there’s not any decorations all over the house and he can’t take you out to a fancy dinner you can still expect plenty of sweet surprises. He made you a bouquet of wildflowers that he picked, got you the new books you had been telling him you wanted, managed to snag one of the vinyls for the new album your favorite artist had recently released, and even got you some new outfits that he thought would look cute on you.

Vincent would be the one to put on music and dance around the living room with you. He enjoys personal time with you and uses the day to really express to you just how much he cares for you.

At the end of the day he runs you a hot bath. While you soak in the tub he throws around the rose petals and gets the ribbons and candles ready. Before you have time to get dressed Vincent will be scooping you up, tossing you on the bed, and tying you up. Be ready for a long night!

Thomas Hewitt

There’s not really much he can do for you seeing as the town is running low on supplies. Still, he’ll do his best to still make your birthday special for you. Mainly he’s just going to kick Hoyt and Monty out for the day so that you can have one peaceful day together. Luda gets to stay seeing as she’s also happy to celebrate with you.

Thomas lets Luda Mae know he wants to surprise you with something. So while he works on the surprise she’ll make sure to keep you occupied. Luda Mae will fix your hair for you and go ahead and give you the gift that she had made you, a sundress made from floral print fabric. She’s so happy her son found someone, especially someone as beautiful as you.

Thomas will have handmade you a small necklace. Since you didn’t tell him about your birthday until shortly before the day, you left him with little time to make it. He’s lucky that your comfortable with Luda Mae and he can get her to keep you distracted,

When Tommy sees you with the dress his momma made you and your hair fixed up he almost forgets about the small piece of jewelry in his pocket.

After hearing you squeal with delight when you open his gift he’s ecstatic! He loves nothing more than making you happy. when you eagerly get him to help you put it on he thinks he’s going to spontaneously combust with his love for you.

Luda Mae will bake you a cake. You’re basically her daughter in law at this point and she’s going to make sure that you have a good day. She enjoys having another woman in the house and enjoys seeing you and Thomas happy together. You’ve given her the complete family that she’s always wanted.

Brahms Heelshire

Brahms is very good at being sneaky. At this point, Malcolm already knows that Brahms is a real person. So Brahms has no issue with getting Malcolm to bring him everything he needs and giving him the extra money for the week. He makes sure to cover all the bases, he got you presents, a small cake, and of course stuff to decorate the living room.

The decorations in the living room aren’t necessarily the best. Brahms hasn’t been responsible for doing anything like this in his whole life. But he still does his best to try and impress you and make you happy. Just don’t expect for his best to be very good. After all, it is the thought that counts.

Honestly Brahms not being self centered for once should be enough of a surprise. It’s your birthday so he’ll make sure to be on his best behavior just for you! No tantrums or arguing, he promises! He even makes sure to hide the schedule for the day to make sure you know that today you get to relax.

Of course, you’ll still have to cook since Brahms is only capable of making sandwiches. His peanut butter to jelly ratio may be perfect but that’s not exactly the type of meal he thinks you would want on your birthday. So he does make sure to get the ingredients for all of your favorite foods!

Your presents include expensive jewelry, pretty clothes, and of course lingerie although that’s more of a gift for Brahms than it is for you. He’ll have you model all of the dresses and clothes that he got you. The big finale is the lace bra and underwear that you won’t be wearing for much longer.

Brahms is a switch and usually ends up being the more submissive one in bed. Tonight however, he’ll co for a change of pace and be more dominant. For once, he was the one spoiling you instead of the other way around and that brings out the more mature and dominant side of him. Expect o be sore the next day though, Brahms isn’t exactly good with holding back.

Billy Loomis

Billy has a tendency to be narcissistic and obviously an ass. But he can also be great at hiding those traits. On your birthday he makes sure to do exactly that, really playing up the bad boy/boy next door front he’s capable of. Tatum did believe that he was practically perfect, and on your special day, he’ll do his best to do exactly that.

He may not have the same money as Stu, but he still manages to spoil you. You’ll have his full attention for the day and he let you decide almost everything. Billy even lets you pick out the movies that you watch together on your birthday, which is something he’s never allowed to happen before.

Seeing you be happy gives him a funny feeling that he’s not used to which can cause him to act a little awkward. You throw him off a little bit. He didn’t expect to care so much about someone until you fell into his lap. He’s a simp for you and he knows it. If he wasn’t then he wouldn’t be making reservations for that fancy restaurant you loved and buying you a new outfit just for said reservation. Yeah he’s down bad.

Makes sure that you order whatever you want, today cost doesn’t matter. But if he knows your favorite, he orders for you in an attempt to impress you. See, he remembers your favorite food, isn’t he just the best. Also gets your favorite over priced dessert even if you have to take it to go. He can’t bake and he knows that store bought cake just doesn’t compare to the fancy restaurants.

He bought you lingerie for under that cute little outfit and he expects to see it by the end of night. Expect to pinned against the front door before either of you has the chance to unlock it. Billy has been imagining you in nothing but your birthday suit all night and he simply cannot wait any longer.

There’s nothing he enjoys more than seeing you fall apart underneath him. He loves seeing you look absolutely cock drunk with your makeup smeared on your face. Your moans and begs eventually begin to melt together and you just become and incoherent mess as he makes you cum again and again. It’s still not enough for him though, he’s going to make you scream.

Stu Macher

He is very determined to make you have the best day over. Expect breakfast in bed! It may not be great but eat it anyways, Stu is not a morning person and he managed to drag his ass out of bed early just for you. So even if the scrambled eggs have the occasional crunch to them it’s best to just grin and bear it.

Is very determined to take you shopping. Expect for him to buy you anything that you touch or pick up. Like the amazing boyfriend he is he will also carry the many bags that you end up with. You’ll have a brand new wardrobe by the end of the day. Of course he made you pick out a few lingerie sets. He even pointed out the ones he liked and made you find your size.

Of course, Stu will still take you out to a fancy restaurant and do the whole traditional night out thing. After dinner though the two of you will end up on the roof of his house that he made sure to help you out on. Stu is secretly a hopeless romantic deep down and will spend time looking at the stars with you because he thinks it’s something that you would like. Will listen to you as you ramble on about planets and watch as you point out constellations if that’s something you do.

Stu is very clingy at all times so he will be hanging over you all day. That’s nothing really out of the ordinary though. But usually those touches include grabbing your boobs, smacking your ass, and rubbing your hips. On your birthday the touches turn more gentle. Expect him to gently tuck your hair behind your ear so he can see your face, gently caressing your cheek, rubbing your knuckles while he holds your hand, all soft and sweet gestures to convey he truly does care.

He’s usually very fast paced with everything including talking, movements, and of course that includes in bed. But tonight he’ll be slow and gentle, drawing everything out. Also makes sure to focus on your pleasure instead of his own for once.

Asa Emory

Asa never thought he would celebrate anyone’s birthday. He certainly never celebrated his own and doesn’t see the point in doing so. To him, birthdays are just another day and there’s no point in celebrating ageing. So he went about most of his life ignoring birthdays, until you came along.

Asa adored you and your enthusiasm for life and all the good things in the world. You were a bright person, especially when compared to him, and he loved the innocence about it. So when you began to mention your birthday coming up with excitement in your voice he knew that you had expectations for your special day.

He may not be a person who celebrates but he’ll be damned if he disappoints. You’re the one good thing life has given him and he’s not letting you get away from him. If that means getting you a small cupcake and sticking a candle in it and a present then so be it. He can manage doing a little something for you.

When he’s not in his collector persona he is much more awkward and an absolute dork in your eyes. So when he takes you out for a nice dinner you’ll notice his slightly off behavior. Asa doesn’t like crowded public spaces and you’ll be able to pick up on his fidgeting. Luckily your good at carrying the conversation for him.

Asa appreciates that you understand it’s hard for him. So when you begin to do most of the talking and don’t pressure him to contribute much to the conversation besides the occasional nod he’s able to relax.

On the way home he gets nervous once more. What if you hate the present he got for you or expected more. He had only gotten you one thing and it wasn’t much. But when you finally open it and you light up like a kid on Christmas morning he lets out a heavy sigh and finally relaxes. It was only a simple necklace but you acted like he had just handed you the stars.

Asa will be surprisingly gentle with you for one night. Of course, he’ll still tie you up and absolutely wreck you but he makes sure to leave out the cutting and biting out for once. The only bruises you have will be on your hips from his harsh grip. It’s the closest thing you’re going to get to love making from him, but you know him well enough to get the meaning behind it.

Jesse Cromeans

Anything you want and it’s yours, he can make anything happen for you. He makes sure to tie up any loose ends with his business well before your birthday so that nothing can interrupt his time spent with you. Of course he makes sure to spoil you even more than he normally does.

Would love to take you on some fancy vacation and stay in one of the finest hotels there. Go ahead, pick any place you want to travel to and he’ll make the arrangements. He makes sure that anywhere he takes you is more private and remote rather than tourist-y though. Both so that he feels more comfortable and so that you can feel special and not have to deal with crowds.

Does the whole flower petals on the bed, candles, flowers, ice bucket with champagne kind of ordeal back at the hotel. Did you really expect him not to though? He has the money to so why not and he knows that even though you claim it’s cheesy that you absolutely love it. Th blush on your face and look in your eyes give away your love of cheesy things and he pays attention to every little thing you do.

Of course you get new jewelry, designer clothes, and lingerie but you get other gifts as well. Pretty much anything you’ve mentioned to him recently he makes sure to get you. Rambling on about that new book your favorite author just released? It’s yours! Been needing new materials for any of your hobbies? You got them!

Expect rough sex. Jesse rarely does gentle and with how much smaller you are than him he can sometimes accidentally hurt you. Your just so small and fragile compared to him kitten, he can’t help it. Of course he always makes sure to take care of you afterwards with a hot bath and will gently massage the knots out of your muscles. Jesse always makes sure that you’re taken care of.

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