#why is it different bc it’s gay

[myrandom-fandomlife]

genuinely don’t get why people are acting like the rwrb movie cant be a little cringe

like it’s a romcom??? that’s what they do??

queer romance doesn’t always have to be serious and artful and sad

just let them be happy and in love and cutie and YES, CRINGEY

#like y’all would eat it up if it was a cringe heterosexual romcom #why is it different bc it’s gay #like can we please actually normalize just fun cutsie queer romcoms instead of them always being a terribly devastating and angsty ‘film’ #rwrb #rwrb movie #red white and royal blue #henry wales #henry fox mountchristen windsor #alex claremont diaz

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[tansypaws]

mmmmothwing and 15??? if no one has asked that yet

baby, though I've closed my eyes i know who you pretend i am i know who you pretend i am

washing machine heart ; mitski

#its ur lucky day anon bc u got in just before the other 15 #which was old mothwing anon who should send me a new number <3 pease #i wanna draw the characters u suggested but perhaps...to a different jam #mothwing #leafpool #crowfeather #begrudging tag #warriors #warrior cats #riverclan #be gay draw cats #anyeay please you know me as a leafmoth truther #they are to me so in love forever #but you know in canon. mothwing maybe was like damn. why the fuck did she run away with that scrawny rat when im right here?????

[lunarharp]

pretty & cute witch men

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i'm not drawing as much or as well as i'd like to be doing. i'm trying to get through a comic i've been really wanting to do #but i'm just finding it so hard. disheartening. btw the 2nd one relates to some official art of qif wearing a dress like the girls #and the 4th one relates to how i've been drawing EXTREMELY SMALL for years. idk how to explain it but i always clicked 'fit to screen' #and so all my art EVER has looked bad when you zoom in bc it's already like size 1 zoomed in to the MAX pfhgguguhfpfhGHAHHHHH #i was so confused allll this time why brushes always look different for me than what they're supposed to #'wow this brush is so jaggedy..really rather jaggedy...calling it the Jagged Cai Special..bringing it out for those jaggedy moments.. #really quite jaggedy i must say...' and it's literally not jaggedy #but now i have to get used to how all those brushes that i'd gotten used to indeed look how they're supposed to finally. Alarming #I have simply been working out absolutely everything by myself for years and that's why my technical progress is slow #ppl say my progress is fast and i certainly have improved much since i began doing all this but #like..it took me a year and half to start using a program where i could Colour In The Lines aka the..whatever it's called. whatever.. #just on my lonely confused solemn journey to express gay love better than yesterday.. -_- *picks up my pack n continues through the snow* #btw thank you sm for people's kind words enjoying my narumitsu art & fic over the christmas & new year period <3

[voguewoozi]

can't believe people are still out here accusing real ass people of queerbaiting. at this point just admit you like forcing people to come out before they're ready because that's what the result of this continues to be. coming out to anyone isn't an obligation for any queer person and people shouldn't have to alter their behavior or personality or presentation just because you personally think they're cishet. that is literally your own personal problem to work on. keep it to yourself

#anyway i can't believe i actually saw - in my pride month - someone accusing onlyoneof of queerbaiting #and using gayness for 'clout' like. 1) if any of them actually came out it would probably end their careers. casually #like why do kpop fans constantly forget that queerness isnt a globally accepted thing #2) the fact that they even do these gay storylines in their mvs is insane to me and they already got so much hate for it #like literally what clout are you talking about. this was honestly a risky thing for them to do #and the only reason it paid off at all is bc they have a pretty big supportive international fan base #but otherwise libido literally could've been the end of it for all of them #3) despite getting straight-up hate instead of pretending like it didnt happen and trying to just move on they doubled down #like idk how ooo of all groups is getting ridiculed by gay people like you are sooo online like #meet a gay person from a different cultural background than yours im begging you #you can't say that gay people have to come out without compromising our autonomy #you literally sound like a homophobe forcing us to be categorized and this is why this mindset is not fucking safe #im talking again

[hoffmanstits-enjoyer]

There's just something so fucking great about the concept of characters like Zeke Banks and Peter Strahm having this complicated relationship to serial killers while having such a strong urge for justice and finding the truth???

Specifically, I love to think about how in the middle of their games of cat and mouse, or at those moments they inevitably share as they sharpen their knowledge on each other and get close enough to bump, when their intentions get a lot more nuanced as they insist on combing through them later again and again... that connection and obsession shoves everything else to second place. Seeing one another tunnels their vision, and their actions will follow rules made on the spot.

But then the world keeps on turning around them when they leave the crime scene with blood on their shirts and a gun that may or may not have been pointed but never used, piles of mangled bodies from 'collaborative traps' and distorted audios calling the remains of another horror story a chance for 'redemption' never stop being found; survivors slam doors in their faces when they come for statements and sob their hearts out at their closed off support meetings— suddenly, it's their place to show remorse, perform the respect and compassion that's lacking in their lovers... and how it impacts them to carry that burden they, against their own better judgement and all good reasoning, carry because they only give this much of a tangible fuck when they're put face to face with that damage.

It's just breathtaking, to wonder how ignorance is bliss and they cover themselves in it for the sake of something they want so badly. The guilt that comes when the blanket slips right off, yanked back by their lovers. Maybe even by themselves, punishment for their own broken vows. Weakness.

#parallels between saw gays go brrrrrrr #i just think that it's so good that u see this exact dynamic in fics with different intonation #a little more self hatred in one a little less commitment to justice for the other but both so similar #especially the 'you want me? well you got me' coming from mark and william #how tempting it is to give in to the interest shown or to curiosity #the need to be the Good One between them two exhausting them but they do it either bc its nature or bc its what they expect of themselves #their moral compasses cracking and pointing at confusing directions as they see the 'why' but are disgusted at the 'how' #how being exposed time and time again makes it not so urgent not so physically sickening but still so warped so twisted #uGHHHH i love it #love all of it #never being in the same terms but staying still by the threads they wrapped around themselves #peter strahm #ezekiel banks #mark hoffman #william schenk #coffinshipping #spiralshipping #hoffstrahm #sawposting #saw franchise #the horror gays are fucking killing me #serial killers and their pet detective/agent <3

[benetnvsch]

I want to see them having more casual interactions please-

#Lil sketch for tonight bc I feel Bad for Not Drawing them for a bit #(it's been?? like 2 weeks if you don't count the gay cat drawings oh geez im sorry-) #also I have no idea why this looks so different than my normal art I think ?? it's the faces??? #I really only have been drawing humans seriously since getting into BSD (woof) and so in still feeling out my style #this felt good though I liked doing this silly sketch #also I am a huge kunikida dyes his hair believer thats so fun #every time I draw him im like mmm darker roots and then I forget - #so this is my apology (kinda) #kunikida doppo #Dazai osamu #kunikidazai #knkdz #bungou stray dogs #bsd #kite draws #this originally had some dialogue to it but it would not make sense without a paragraph full of content and im too tired for that rn #so u can make up what Dazai is saying #funniest answer gets a thumbs up #I HAD SO MUCH ART INSPIRATION TODAT BTW finished like 2 drawing and started and finished 2 more #hopefully I can continue this steak for the rest of artfight at least :Flex:

[dennisboobs]

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#the reason cisswap lesbian macden does nothing for me is bc i get my dose of lesbianism from canon charden <3 #i say it (jokingly) all the time but i think if the sunny fandom was more open to charden y'all would have more fun #everything ppl do with macden to make it ~more fun~ is literally. already there with charden #macden is a lot of fun in its own way but if i want butch/femme lesbians i have charden already-- #this is literally why i ship both. if i want to fuck around with gender i can throw charden together #if i want to fuck around with weird codependent loser roommates i can throw macden together #they have different dynamics and both bring different shit to the table #also idk such a massive part of dennis is his (often unapologetic but still stifled) more 'feminine' gender expression #so making him a cis woman who likes being feminine is like. yea. that sure is. cis woman dennis. #as someone who has an extremely complicated history w expressing femininity or anything that is even seen as being remotely femme #it doesn't grab me #the genderfuckery is not there #but TRANSBIAN CHARDEN???? YEAAAAAH #i think mac being so focused on upholding traditional mascilinity IS a very interesting dynamic to have next to. you know. dennis. #wheras charlie could not give less of a fuck #i think gender exploration with macden would take a completely different form but still be extremely interesting for both of them #but there's a lot less initial acceptance and a lot more hiding on den's part #especially if the two are in a relationship #because mac coming to terms with being gay took so long so dennis being at all feminine or even transfem is like #mac needs to do. more introspection #which is an entirely different set of issues to charden gender exploration where like #charlie being nonconforming. not shaving. not caring abt using she/her pronouns. being nontraditional in every way and not giving a fuck #would be absolutely fucking absurd to dennis who is very conformist after she comes out #and would probably be content to conform to whats expected of her as a woman with mac IF she did manage to come out at all #bc dennis would have to actually manage to come out. instead of hiding the fact she's trans > looking at carmen and the way mac treated her #i think both paths have additional challenges and that's. you know. whats interesting. #is cisswap den butchy? does she hide her masculine interests? is denise transmasc...?? #cisswap mac being butch is like. you know. nonconforming so it doesn't quite do the same thing as canon mac either #mac being Traditional and catholic and having to push past homophobia (internalized and externalized) to be himself is. pretty huge #would cisswap mac be a tradwife. like. thats sort of the equivalent

[distraughtlesbian]

literally the best part of this whole stupid book iwlove weird obsessed horndogs thee villain archetype of all time. he’s so silly. “we could’ve had a life together”, he says to his lesbian ex-neighbour who he’s just shot with a crossbow bolt meanwhile her girlfriend who he’s also just shot is half dead across the room. god i love it here he said me and the bad bitch im going to fumble

#WHAT A FUCKING FREAK IJBOL!!!!!! #MORE PSYCHOSEXUALLY OBSESSED WEIRDO VILLAINS PIXELBERRY I KNOW YOU HAVE IT IN U. #their villains are usually so cringe and one note at least this one is memorable #mind you this could have used more buildup. up until like chapter 19 he still had the benefit of the doubt #his ass was NOT beating the twist villain allegations but the fucking freak allegations were a whole separate beast #and he could be presumed innocent in those. like sure i guess these are just average fanatic werewolf hunter antics. #like EYE had my suspicions. him sending that frat bro to sexually harass mc was a fucking freak move #but like in general he was coming off as someone who was just a normal amount of concerned about a friend of theirs falling in w a cult #like girl why am i following my cringe fwb into the pool house to be all ‘babe this isnt u :(’ #i dont CARE i wanna go engage with the twist antagonist who at this point my mc still thinks is kind of normal/their friend!!! #but alas that’s just pb for you. we WILL NOT stick a landing ever. they make all the new writers swear to never write a villain that makes #sense or is well foreshadowed. ONLY side characters who you would never suspect bc they have like 5 lines in the whole book. #like you’ll never be duffy veilofsecrets you’ll never recapture that magic. #anyway. markus choicesalpha the fucking weirdo cringefail stalker incel loser you could have been…kermit looking out rainy window dot png #maeve speaks #playchoices #choices #pixelberry #choices alpha #channing lowe #markus barnes #side note this whole thing probably has a Much different vibe with a male mc #but as it is it’s like ijbol. channing is cringe and emotionally unavailable but how could you POSSIBLY compare to a buff werewolf bitch #he is so completely not a contender that its comedic to me. you think WE could have had a LIFE TOGETHER? #even if my mc had never ever met channing SHE IS A LESBIAN!!!! SHES GAY DUDE STOP IT LOL #and with a female mc and male channing its like yeah whatever average incel number 10 billion. wow youre going to kill me bc some other guy #is hotter than you? eyeroll. at least channing canonically gives great head.

[darcyolsson]

shut up you're telling me the reason that blond man from the rwrb movie looks familiar is because he was in HANDSOME DEVIL???? !!???? well thank god he finally got to violently make out with another man. long overdue

#also explains why handsome devil is suddenly getting more attention i thought it was just bc it also has rugby gay people #and yes it took 6 fan edits on my tiktok feed to recognise him and yes i watched the rwrb movie in full. #in my defence hes wearing a different outfit. how was i supposed to recognise him? thats impossible #(as for my opinion on rwrb well its the same as the opinion i had on the book pretty much) (not favourable) #personal

[allthepresidentsmen1976]

have been thinking about this a lot lately and i do just want to say that i think a lot of people Online™ really don't realise how genuinely dangerous being gay offline is. and even when it isn't physically dangerous, how profoundly uncomfortable being gay makes straight people. i need you to understand that though the online world is part of real life, it is not the whole scope of things and i do believe that to forget that can be very very unwise both for yourself and for other people.

i'm not saying the world isn't getting better or that being gay is something you need to be aware of at all times, i'm just saying it is absolutely a disservice to yourself and everyone else by refusing to acknowledge that at this point in time, society even in more progressive spaces has not moved past cold hard homophobia. and even if you haven't experienced it yourself, you need to know that your experiences aren't universal. if you assume that they are, it will harm people in one way or another. i'm not saying be scared, i'm saying know that there are still many, many significant steps to take even in more progressive places wrt to lgbt rights, let alone places where that's not so much a thing. i just think it's essential to understanding the world you're living in as a gay person, to understand this.

#not any mutuals afaik but just the Online folks in general i think really need to know this #bc i KNOW why i'm stared at on the bus sometimes and i KNOW what the guy who says "oh. i thought i was p good at knowing who was a f- gay #but i didn't clock im ' mean s #*him' #and it means !!!! this isn't acceptable !!!!! #and this is minor minor minor stuff not even getting into physical violence and proper slurs and ESPECIALLY what ppl #outside of liberal-enough cities experience #idk i've been thinking about Some Things and idk to ME being a gay woman esp the more gnc i get is like being a Woman in the sense #that it IS something ur aware of when out in public bc it IS smth that is going to get different and potentially negative responses yk #hmm idk if i'm wording this right but whatever come chat 2 me abt it if ur interested i'd be curious to hear ur thoughts !!! #also this is okay 2 rb but someone else has prob written it nicer somewhere alkdnjskfhg

[welcometoteyvat]

jing yuan and yanqing are giving zhongli and xiao if the latter’s canon relationship was Actually fanon’s made up father figure/adopted child dynamic

#idkkkkkkkkkkkkk who looks at zx and is like 'you know what. this is a healthy parent child relationship' #like girl by fitting them into father son boxes you are actively making their relationship imbalance Worse #if you do that and dont shy away from it i respect that but if you say dad/son makes their relationship more wholesome or whatever like WHY #now i wont deny shippers might do that too but i see the dad son version so much i think im just averse to it by default #also because i think father son makes people actively Try to make their relationship something that its not and it erases a bunch of subtlet #subtleties in it. it's the nuanced r/ship -> entirely unproblematic and flavorless r/ship that i hate #also the number of people who'll block if you ship zx. like damn thats crazy you guys really think theyre father son (fake)??? #at their peak they're like. 4000 year old guys who have too much history and repression and some weird entanglement of 'nah im bothering him #too much' and 'gotta protect him w my life' complexes. and then this devolves into theyre never gonna kiss until 3000 more years have passed #listen they just Contain Multitudes idc if you dont ship it just dont make it into dad and son and we will be so gucci #jing.yuan and yanqing are like different i think mostly bc yanqing is actually like a minor and jing yuan is also a normal ish person #plus the light cone and the abouts?? yeah this is an actual like adopted parent/child thing #also good or bad news i caved and am now playing hsr. the plan is to pull yanqing and then go on infinite hiatus in the game 👍 #JWKFLJWEK i dont think theres really any draws for me besides him. personally neutral on turn based combat and the open world isn't giving #the only saving grace i have rn is 1) ive gotten to the part where bron.seele is real and man theyre gay 2) trailblazer trio 3) tall female #mc 4) everyone has way better emoting abilities than genshin 5) su.shang's really cute <3 #the story doesnt really interest me though its like cool but not mindgrippingly interesting #tbf i think genshin is the same way storyline wise (at the beginning) but the difference is that turn based combat isnt really my thing LMAO #ramblings! #zhongxiao #if you want to filter it out ??

[p4nishers]

"so is your son really the reason you don't date?" "it's like he's having an affair with his own wife, you don't think that's weird?" "seems like she's already back in yours" "christopher's pretty english teacher" "eddie, what would you say ana's love language is?" "hey, how was the big date?" "i thought i'd been single too long" "sounds pretty serious" "so what are you going to do?" "that's not how you talk about someone you're in love with" "is that enough?" "you could always ghost her" "okay so that's what this is, you suck at [dating]".

u see where i'm going with this?

#why is bro so fucking involved in his platonic bsf's love life like i get it they're BEST FRIENDS but also it's so painfully different from #how chim and hen react to and talk about eddie's love life cause yeah sure they care ofc but there are like FEELINGS involved yk??? like in #SEASON FUCKING 2 buck was literally obsessing over eddie and shannon's marriage and the others would like genuinely indifferent towards the #topic while my dude was going around airing his shit out to ppl who admittedly didn't care that much bc it WASN'T THEIR BUSINESS and it #wasn't buck's either until eddie decided to let him completely in. anyway most of these aren't really like in ur face jealousy things but #that man cannot hide a single emotion involving eddie diaz to save his life and his jealousy's been loud and clear since s2 or more like #possessiveness bc that sure fits more but its also just petty shit like 'outing' the eddieana relationship 'accidentally' w an 'innocent' #question. like my dude is NOT subtle at ALL and he needs to seriously stop being so fucking happy everytime eddie's relationships/attempts #fail like it's actually sickening to watch at this point the gay is too much even for me #911 fox #evan buckley #buddie #eddie diaz #buddie 911 #911 6b #buck x eddie #911 show #911 abc

[scaredofmyocs]

Why was the doctor shocked he said Isaac newton was hot he has litterally kissed men (plural) on the mouth before

#Has he never called an important figure hot before I'm sure he has #Or said that they fancy him no bc the queen #Litterally why was he shocked. He knew he was like that #Liking women as a woman could be viewed as different maybe he's shocked he likes men after that??? #Did the doctor like yaz as 13. I haven't gotten there yet don't tell me #talk post #i love this blog i want to live here #I litterally have no idea #Also his weird toxic yuri with the master only specifying because they didn't kiss #Doctor who #What episode did he say that I forgot praying it's #wild blue yonder #9th doctor #10th doctor #11th doctor #12th doctor #13th doctor #14th doctor #15th doctor #ALL OF THE NEW WHO DOCTORS ARE GAY #I'm insane I'm never writing this post again

[cleromancy]

i absolutely do not vibe at all with any red hood steph concept ive ever seen because fucking nobody engages with it in any depth its just 🤔🤔 steph is basically the same as jason right? people who dont like jason online say so so it must be true~

like i need you first of all to walk back several steps and understand two major things about utrh and stephanie brown here. the first is that steph got into crime fighting in the first place bc she wanted to ~spoil~ the crimes of her c-list supervillain father. the second is that the core of the tragedy of the red hood is that batman is supposed to be his fucking dad.

so if you do want to do a red hood stephie concept here which. to be clear is not something i am INHERENTLY opposed to. you have a couple options to make it potentially coherent but you need to actually be deliberate and clear about what youre trying to do with that concept. you need to step away from jasons tragedy and look at hers and figure out where exactly her anger and hurt are coming from and who exactly theyre directed at, as well as what specifically in your au concept it would be so different than the canon one where when she comes back she wants to do pretty much the opposite of what jason wanted when *he* came back.

and. crucially. if the difference is the relationship she has to bruce being different you actually do need to show not tell that dude. im sorry but if you just *tell* me that in your universe that steph has a more deep and meaningful relationship to bruce i 100% always am like "ill believe it when i fucking see it". like, she has parents of her own and while that doesnt preclude having a more signficant relationship with bruce (see: timmy)... you really do have to do the legwork or it looks like youre just writing them out and asking us to take your word for it that Of Course steph wants bruce to adopt her, hes batman! gag, retch, spew. do notdo this.

FRANKLY in a reverse robins concept i vibe way more with steph as red robin than anything specifically her getting the dumpster costume from whoever you do put in the red hood role. (frankly x2 i still think if they really truly had to do the storyline they did in canon where shes still trying to do bruces dirty work for him and hires assassins to kill tim to ~make him better~ lmao she should have been the one who wore the Bad Robin uniform before tim got it instead of fuckin ulysses i just think it would have been more coherent and also funner for me personally)

anyway if you link me a red hood steph concept here and it sucks or does any of the things i Just finished critiquing i will be very irritated and i will not be polite to you about it. just as a fair warning.

#still kind of mad about this one time the topic came up and someone linked me a rh steph bc 'shes so sexy in it' #i was like bestie does the term gay man mean anything to you. and they were like #'oh sorry im asexual so i forgot that when some people say sexy it means they want to Fuck them' #... #like can you walk me through any of your logic here. why sexy was the adjective you used in the first place instead of like #'interesting'. 'compelling.' 'charismatic' even #why are you acting like im the weird one for assuming you meant attractive or swoonworthy being the main draw of the character. #why am i supposdly the one who made it about whether or not *either of us* wants to fuckthe fictional character. i wasnt even thinking that! #i truly madly deeply did not assume anything more than that you meant attractive when you said attractive #lmfao. #this wasnt even the only time that shit has happened to me. please do not do this. #i would love to say with confidence 'you wouldnt say shit like that to a lesbian about sexy men' but frankly i do have a sinking feeling+ #that they would #whatever. none of that was the fucking point #the point is jasons evil era doesnt work if u just copypaste it on steph shes a totally different character the context is totally different #text #dc

[kyuala]

SOOOOOO hard to go through everyday life trying to ignore the never-ending feeling that im just irreparably fucked up and therefore should just give up on everything

#this aint exactly s******* but it aint exactly not s******* either #anyways it gets even harder when i have to live under the same roof as my brother who is so much better than me in every single conceivable #and imaginable way possible like #and i knowwww a LOT of it comes down to us having relatively similar yet wildly different lives despite being 1.5y apart and having the sam #family our entire lives like he has gone through NOTHING and i mean not a single societal issue ive had to face and endure my entire life #he's a man im a woman. he's white im black. he's straight im gay. he's skinny ive always been 'overweight'. he's always been the good #christian kid ive always had issues w faith and religion. he's never been mentally ill i was clinically depressed for nearly 8yrs of my lif #we both lost the same parent and im the only one who got pathological grief and a personality disorder out of it. he's had a great job for #the last 7yrs that now pays him 20k+ every month ive only had 3 odd jobs my entire life and 2 of those my MOTHER had to give me so i would #have SOMETHING and ive never made over 1.6k monthly n my last job was minimum wage only #he's had like 4 relationships and is nearly engaged im so traumatized + emotionally unavailable ive only ever been on 1 date my entire life #he has a good relationship w every family member we have i have Issues w like half the family. he's always been an active member of our #church i can barely listen to like 4 traditional hymns before i start losing my mind and spiraling. i think the only two ways we're pretty #much equal like socially is that we're both able bodied cis and christians but still the cis and christian thing is debatable for previousl #stated reasons so like. do yall see how much better he is doing than me in every little last area in life and how he's always gotten the #long straw when it comes to Not having to deal w certain obstacles in life. n i know its like yea idk what it actually is like to be him an #he could not be doing all that well first of all shut up. second of all if it was 1 or 2 things i'd get it but it's literally EVERYTHING #and i know bc of said things n our v different lives it's unfair to me to compare the two of us but then it begs the question: WHY #WHY did i have to go through these things. WHY do i have to deal w this. WHY did i get the short straw literally every goddamn time #WHY did i have to get THIS life like WHYYYYY why ME GOD. why have I had to put up w all this bullshit for 24 fucking years!!!!!!!!! im TIRE #and this is not me hating or resenting him i know it's not his fault and he is so good to me #but still. why was i left with these things? to live like this? #so yes i guess i do envy him a little bit. who wouldn't #mari.txt #personal #tw negative #dl #btw i do NOT mean some identities are better than others. i mean he is better and is doing better than me in life partially bc he's never #had to deal w certain social issues and obstacles that come w oppressed identities.