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Tell me about that book you read as a kid that made a strange and specific impression on your psyche?

(Sorry I didn't answer this sooner!! I was Stuck on it and then forgot 😭 )

(Edit: FUCKER GOT HIDDEN IN MY DRAFTS BASED ON WHEN I GOT THE ASK, NOT WHEN I SAVED IT SO I THOUGHT I LOST IT, SORRY IT'S EVEN LATER...)

I came up with a few books that might've qualified for this - "Freedom" by Angela Dorsey (one of many horse girl books, of the ghost horse variety) or "The Fire Within" by Chris D'Lacey (one of many dragon books - and I think my selection alone speaks volumes about me lmao)...

I think I've decided to talk about "House of Stairs" instead, by William Sleator. It might be an easy answer because it WAS strange and specific as books go, but it's one that's always consciously stuck with me whereas the other two books I think informed me on a creative subconscious level more than anything.

Full disclaimer - everything written from here on is based on dim recollection. I read it just once in middle school, a time I barely recall at all, and some elements are probably distorted/wrong based on how I envisioned things. But I'm writing it as is because it is SUCH a strong memory even if it's off in places, and I think that more precisely answers the heart of this question than if I pulled up a summary online and described it from that.

I'm also hoping to find a physical copy to own at some point, so part of this is because I'll be interested to come back to this and see how much I described poorly or entirely wrongly.

So that said. House of Stairs.

"House of Stairs" is, in essence, a story about sociological experimentation - the focus of the book is on several teens who get trapped in a labyrinthine space that lives up to the book's title, a reference to the M.C. Escher painting of the same name:

You can already see how this is the "easy" answer for a strange, specific impression.

The building they're trapped in is all white, stairs going up and down no matter how far you look - or go. They're trapped with no discernable exits and no resources, for unknown reasons and an indeterminable amount of time.

So then comes the actual experiments.

Aside from stairs, stairs, and more stairs, there ARE landings, here and there - and some of those landings have little stations with buttons on them. As the kids discover, if you push the button, you get food.

...Until suddenly, you don't.

Then the kids have to sort out, is it broken? Can they wait until it gets fixed? Should they try to fix it themselves or go elsewhere in search of the exit?

This leads to many things - heightened emotions, thoughts and theories, tension, arguments - until suddenly they're rewarded with food again.

Well. No one pushed the button, what happened this time?

And so it goes on, until it becomes clear - the stations are conditioning them, training them with rewards to silent tasks fulfilled. And as the book goes, the kids divide into camps - those who want to listen implicitly to the station, and those who don't. The station starts rewarding harmful behaviors to boot, to see just how far they're willing to go, so the focus of the book narrows to the protagonists who search for a way out.

The book is a YA novel so it ends with them finding the way out of course, being recognized for staying strong and finding a way out, and of course the innate reward of getting out despite the adversity. But the premise of this book itself stuck the strongest with me.

It raises questions like, what if that were to happen to me? What would it take? It's easy to claim you'd be strong-willed and find a way out, only because by knowing the book you know a way out exists. But in practice it's much harder, especially without that knowledge. How long would I last, would I immediately fall into the camp that follows the prompts? Would I resist but fall to its sway? Or, would I fall to the enemy camp, once it became clear they wouldn't get rewarded otherwise?

Sad thing is, as fantastical as the space itself sounds with its descriptions - almost akin to a white void with stairs stretching forever - the overall concept of a space being created for such a purpose doesn't even strike me as all that out there, and I think that suggests it's definitely left an impact on how I view the world.

It's just outlandish enough, and yet there's people all the time who would do such a horrendous thing, in the name of research... or perhaps even just their own amusement.

Honestly I barely remember the ending - how they got out, life after. In a manner of speaking, I think I too got trapped in the house of stairs - only unlike the characters I'm still stuck there, poking around the place and contemplating just how much - or little - it'd take for someone to create such a thing in reality.

Hopefully that answers the question in a satisfying way ^^; I was stuck on this for a bit since, as mentioned before, a lot of my childhood has been lost to memory issues - it was hard determining what books impacted me how, when I barely recall what I was like before reading it, you know?

#blablablah #long post #house of stairs #william sleator #damage-ko #ask games #this was such a fun game! if you ever want to do smth like this again id love to play again #again sorry for the delay - i wanted to answer faster I just got stuck on How to do so in a fulfilling waysnfjdjfjdjcjscj

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Anyways. I don't think I can get into Dungeon Meshi (I strongly suspect a trigger of mine will be just prominent enough to make it a task to read/watch) but if I could I would do so in an instant just to get Falin's whole situation.

She's got a cute design. She gets resurrected(?) into a cuter/visually appealing design. She's got a fun balance of human and dragon but Also she's fluffy with feathers now??? And she may or may not go apeshit at some point after the resurrection. Idk she's hitting all the right buttons for me sjfjsjcjdcn

#i love when weird monster elements are combined in new ways and she Definitely does that #and she manages to have a unique design combo while Also retaining a partially human form which is smth i sometimes struggle with #so both appealing design and also inspiring bc it introduces ways for me to reconsider how i combine things #idk! i like falin #she's my blorbo in law now. i may never know her source or family beyond what mutuals post but ive adopted her regardless sjfjdgjjd #blablablah

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I've heard a lot of mixed reviews about the way Falin is portrayed here and am curious about where people actually stand on the subject.

For people attracted to women (not necessarily attracted to Falin, just in general):

#im neutral + dont go here but like. from the gifs ive seen girl is NOT wearing a bra or any support #so of course they're gonna bounce with that motion??????? #my chest is smaller and does this shit so like. what are people expecting here #i saw someone in the comments say the bounce itself is off and maybe thats it but like #visually it feels in line enough with the rest of the flow of motion that i feel like you dont need Precise Boob Physics to fix anything #so. trans guy who likes women romantically half the time (arospec) and doesnt pay attention much to sensual body aspects #doesnt watch dungeon meshi #i think it's fine its aesthetically not horrendous and it makes sense bc thanks to her later ripping her shirt you Know she's unsupported #she's pretty and doing a bouncy motion that fluffs her hair and feathers and this motion adds to the Fluff so to me it works #cant say i love or hate the boob bounce itself but since its not Offensive I don't hate it and thats the best review itll get lol #polls

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[ID: An excerpt from Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint which reads:

I just couldn't understand something about the novel no matter how hard I thought about it, so I end up arguing with the author through the comment section.

– Author-nim. Was that a typo? How can Joonghyuk-ie smile brightly? End ID]

Kim Dokja, CEO of "he would not fucking say that"

#DOKJA-NIM PLEASE... #orv #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #image described #qbey

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A pleasant surprise.

#video #animals #armadillos #qbey

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Painted my favourite sky noodle again

#art #original #dragons #butt-berry #art2

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Annoying kid from Pokémon Sword & Shield

#art #pkmn #hop #wooloo #art2

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#art #bulbasaur #pkmn #butt-berry #art2

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Green lizards vs Rayquaza

#art #rayquaza #tyranitar #haxorus #flygon #sceptile #kommo-o #kecleon #pkmn #butt-berry #art2

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#WOW. #art #fav #rayquaza #pkmn #art2

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Serpent eating the horizon.

#art #zinnia #pkmn #rayquaza #art2

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#art #rayquaza #pkmn #art2

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happy new year of the dragon!!! 🐲🖤✨

#art #rayquaza #pkmn #art2

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hey so um i. like this character haha;; a lot

#assassination classroom #korosensei #art #qbey

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I was inspired to watch Assassination Classroom from your drawings. After finishing it, I have no regrets...though my tears might make that hard to believe.

#art #assassination classroom #korosensei #soothedcerberus #qbey

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I Need to Go on Break… 📈 

#thomas sanders #video #anxiety #qbey