‘til the last minute: month of five and day-11
MAY 10, 2021
I was already prepared to send my artwork and greet him. I thought I already polished everything. However, when I tried to have a second look to my drawing, “Ayy, ang galing mo talagang bata ka!”. It scared the hell out of me, jusme. Sa lahat-lahat ba naman, doon pa sa parteng ianbot ako ng ilang oras na pagninilay. I’m satisfied to my shadowing earlier eh. I’m already praising myself because I was finally finished the precious hand of my Macy. Fudge, may highlights pa ‘yon sa kuko tapos ma-de-delete ko lang ang layers na naka-clip sa kamay niya. I was left with no choice. I tried to draw again, draw and draw. Put another layers and add some highlights. I only have 10 minutes but, my fucking hands are trembling. Mga taksil. Gusto pa yata akong takasan ng sarili kong mga kamay. 11:56pm, hindi pa rin ako tapos at mukhang ayaw pa talaga ng tadhanang batiin ko si Macy ng exact 12:00am. Para akong nakikipaglaban sa kamatayan kagabi pero hindi ako pumayag na hindi ko ma-greet sya at exact 12am. I focused more to it and analyze what are the other details I putted last time. 11:59 when I finished it. Akala ko hindi na matatapos yon. I’m not professional that’s why hindi rin ako nag-e-expect ng magandang resulta.
MAY 11, 2021
I sent my short greeting to him with my drawing. I thought he knew that I have a gift for him but, hindi pala. Wala raw s’yang idea, pfft. LOL. Halos magkanda bali-baliko na ang mga excuses ko na kuno, “I’m busy, okay?” “Hindi pa ako tapos sa activities ko today e” “ Maya na lang tayo mag-usap”. I’m sorry if I made lies toward you. I just want to surprise you through this.
Happy 18th Birthday, Macy. I know we’re still not okay with the situation we have now. I’m sorry for breaking your trust. I’m sorry if I do still insisting the things you don’t want for me and being stubborn. I know it’s not easy to handle me. I’m sorry if I always make a reason to let go and push me away from you. I love you, Macy. I will try my best to get your trust again. Your love. Your kindness, and the Macy I had before.
Ugh, because of your age I can’t help to see myself as an immature but cutie girl. You are matanda na, ehem, baka naman send height. I wish you will have a great day ahead. Always, keep in your mind that you are lucky and special. Hoping for a good health for your and your family. Tita, Tito, Ate Yey, and Gerlvy love you so much, okay? Sometimes, try to open your arms and heart. Ayaw mo kasing papasukin ang mga taong na sa paligid. Someday you will learn it too- sana lang mapaaga na. By the way, huwag sasayangin ang talents mo huh? That’s the first thing I love about you. Mag-go-grow ka pa, don’t worry. If ano man ang plano mo sa career mo sa future as well as sa mga plano, I’ll support you, As long as tama, reasonable, and naayon.
So far, wala na akong ibang gusto kun’di ang mga ito at pagkakaayos mo sa pamilya mo. ‘yong sa atin alam kong maaayos ‘yon. Nagtitiwala akong maaayos din ang lahat. Mahirap at masakit, yes, but I know normal lang na maramdaman ang mga ito. Happy labingwalong taong gulang, Macy! Don’t forget to pray and praise Him, huh? God made you another life, chance, and hope so treasure it. Thank Him for everything He have done. I love you but, God loves you more than I do!
I do want to stay away from the acotar fandom but this is also something I want to bring address. Jess, a popular artist pretty well known for her acotar art specifically elriel, has been copying and plagiarizing other artists. She has stolen designs from small businesses, small businesses that use their profits to donate to organizations or even just profit of their talent. Instead of using her own talent she stole from others. This is not using references, references are perfectly fine, using art for inspiration is fine, it’s great that another artist has inspired you so much to create your piece. This is very different, she is not creating her own artwork, she’s just taking it from others.
This also isn’t about ship wars, you shouldn’t be angry cause she’s an elriel artist, you should be angry because of how she’s stolen from small businesses and artists and will continue to do so. You should be angry because she has yet to address this. It doesn’t matter what you ship in the acotar fandom you should support this.
I understand for elriel shippers Jess’ content was great but she’s not actually making content for you, she doesn’t even bother to put in the effort to create her own elriel arts but rather steals from other artists, put it in her artwork, and calls it her own. There are other content creators for so many ships, including elriel, that actually use their talent to create original pieces without needing to steal, please do not excuse what Jess has done but rather support actual artists.
Final message: support content creators who don’t plagiarize and small businesses and you should never condone popular pages stealing from smaller ones just because you like the content they put out. There are always other artists out there who could use your support.
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