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ambreiiigns · 7 months

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Ok spit it out, what's with these doubleblack yaoi boys you've been posting. um spill? don't worry about spoilers, i don't want to watch anime i just want to know

doubleblack yaoi boys. ok so first of all sorry for answering Days later i hope u still see this i'm so sorry i don't even know how to explain myself i don't remember what i've been doing. yesterday i was watching a bunch of friday the 13th movies but besides that i have no excuses. secondly i love the energy bc this is exactly how i ended up watching bsd i just cared about them a lot and learned everything i could until i decided i got this far i might as well just watch the damn thing. and i will say w the experience i have. it's not worth it babe just look at them they're the best part you're not missing out. anyway. i don't KNOW WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY UMMMMM the source material is this thing called bungo stray dogs it Is funny bc they decided the way to go abt this was make anime boys out of famous authors and like put half of them in the mafia so you have to sit there and nod when they call edgar allan poe a famous criminal or whatever. like 👍 and then they have powers based on one of their most famous books or whatever. and they're faggy. you will have to see people talk abt fyodor dostoevsky getting hole.

but besides all the Sillies. the doubleblack boys you ask about have genuinely honest to fucking god become like. one of my favorite pairing like. thematically or whatever. their dynamic is insane they are so cool. uhhhh hang on i'm embarassed let me hide

idk they're. they meet at 15 years of age teenagers by my chemical romance blasting. dazai is a member of the local /mafia/ and he's like a pathetic wet cat. he's sad and weird. he feels bored w life and finds it to be, frankly, Not Worth It so he's like passively suicidal but he won't straight up DO IT bc he doesn't like to be in pain bc he's a little baby. he joined the mafia thinking that maybe if he exposes himself to death and violence he'll change his mind but it hasn't worked yet it just made him Fucked Up. his special ability is called no longer human and he can switch off anyone's powers by touching them and it kinda gives him brainworms (will elaborate later). he's the one w the dark hair and wrapped in bandages and the most beautiful boy in the world. chuuya is a street punk baby gang (they're called The Sheep. smh) member ajfjakfiisg he Hates the mafia Hates authority is so so loyal to his little friends and he seems to be just Amiable and likable cause everyone's immediately fond of him to some extent and he's always surrounded by friends or making small talk. and he's like so fuckin bold and brave and arrogant cause he's got according to the author Thee strongest powers in this universe so he never has to like. stop and think. his ability is called upon the tainted sorrow and controls gravity. he's so kickass and liddol. he only fights using his liddol leggies to kinda rein himself in. he's got the red hair and always wears a choker bc he's so sexy and not like other girls.

so they meet bc chuuya's gang has been getting Big thanks to his powers to the point where the mafia's concerned and also they're investigating on some rumors abt arahabaki which is like an old god. chuuya gets dragged to the mafia hq, ends up having to work w dazai to solve this arahabaki stuff, and they. boohoo they DON'T like each other they DON'T wanna work together >:((( they're little enemies to ????? but the thing is To Me they don't even. hate each other that much. like they clash personality-wise sure and they get on each other's nerves on purpose Sure but also they're kids. it's not that big of a deal. they still take time to play arcade games together and make stupid bets during their mission. they're so endearing actually. anyway the catch Is. that arahabaki is actually this thing called a singularity which is when you put together two abilities that have kinda opposite effects and the Government had been doing experiments to create that power so they can use it and CHUUYA's one of the experiments wahh!!! the result is that chuuya has Another cool power called corruption where he just goes batshit and like throws black holes around and stuff and he's unstoppable but the catch is that once he activates this power he can't stop it he just has to wait until it consumes him and he Dies. here's where dazai's nullification ability comes in. more on that later. (it's as if they can only truly Work together. it's as if they were made to be together. haha 🤪) a member of the mafia (Arthur Rimbaud) reveals that he was There when chuuya blew up bc he actually wanted to keep chuuya as a little meat puppet and use that power for himself and YET! even after hearing this! chuuya gets attached to him. like yea the two of them kill him (through the power of Holding Hands mind you) but then he visits his grave and shit. bc this was the first person to tell chuuya that he's human. coming from a place of having seen first hand what makes him feel like he isn't. so he cherishes that a lot. after that the sheep Betray chuuya after some Dazai Manipulation Of Everyone™ bc he does that yk he's a little shithead he's a little evil. BUT he kinda had good intentions bc he's Clever and Observant and noticed so easily how much the sheep were using chuuya for his abilities and he has a Thing where he doesn't. love people using chuuya like that. so he wanted to cut him out of the gang and have him join the mafia with Hiiiiim instead :) and chuuya's mad at him. cause he still took his friends away from him.

but he does join the mafia he Does kinda like it there and him and dazai are assigned to be full time Partners and they get the nickname soukoku, or double black, The Most Feared Duo in the city, thanks to their little corruption-no longer human trick that just wipes out any enemy like it's nothing. then they uhh there's a bit where chuuya is like actually pissed of at dazai unironically for Once and dazai's so mopey that he actually like behaves like a good person so chuuya forgives him. my girl is mad at me i hope i die fr. i'm not familiar enough w this Piece of Lore so i can't elaborate further but like i'm obsessed w it.

anyway THEN jump to when they're about 18 dazai makes another friend named oda who like. sure he's soul-tied to chuuya forever but oda (and Another guy who i don't even wanna Think about) are the only people he'd Call friends. (also they're like a few years older than dazai and i'm Obsessed w the fact that he's such a miserable weirdo that the only people besides chuuya that he can make genuine friends with are some. adults.) and then oda DIES and the fault lies both in the mafia and the third friend and his final words are something about how he wishes he could have gotten out of the mafia to be a good person and he hopes dazai gets to do that. and it kinda Shapes the rest of dazai's life. he switches his perspective around and decides that if exposing himself to death and violence didn't Fix him maybe now he can try being Nice and Helping People and maybe that will make him feel like it's worth being alive. so he disappears from the mafia and a while later joins a local detective agency which is where we find him when the story actually starts. the night he leaves chuuya gets drunk. because he's soo happy. (i think he lied. abt being happy)

the first time chuuya and dazai meet again after this is in some fuckin Dungeon and dazai's chained to the wall and chuuya says it looks Hot and then they talk shit and bicker until they end up collaborating and chuuya lets him go (aka dazai talks his way out of it) and then they pull some fucking cringy ass Joke and they Laugh abt it and it's like. oh wow they're still the same. after all this time apart. we're still Like That and we haven't changed. :) after That they reunite in an episode named after them where they have to babysit some creepy enby kid w a spooky evil doll and fight H. P. Lovecraft during which chuuya has to use corruption and it's Glorious. it had been said that dazai is like speechless and completely fascinated by chuuya when he uses corruption. lol.

then there's the fucking MOVIE. oh my GOD. the main thing w them from the movie is. oh man. dazai 1. joins the Bad Guys but actually he's just Infiltrating to Defeat Them From Within 2. gets found out bc he's not that smooth and stabbed w a poisoned knife 3. gets trapped in a fuckin Dragon or smth and is realistically and understandably presumed dead. and then chuuya gets called in to kill this Dragon (i will not give more context on the Dragon bc i for one just barely understand what the hell is going on) and the only choice is to use corruption even tho he gets advised to not do that since dazai's probably dead and without him chuuya WILL die too. but he's like nah no way. that cockroach would NEVER die. (i trust him) so he uses corruption smashes the dragon to bits and even in the fucking. fugue state that he gets into. he spots dazai manages to recognize him calls out his name and fucking. punches him in the face. making him swallow some antidote he had hidden in his mouth all along. bc somehow dazai ALWAYS knows (remember he's clever) and he's ALWAYS one step ahead. but chuuya always knows HIM. they hadn't discussed this they just. trusted each other to have their back no matter what. dazai trusted chuuya to make him take the antidote and chuuya trusted dazai to snap him out of corruption even when it made no sense. it's about the TRUST!!! like yea no matter the circumstances the relationships the affiliations. this is him. he's got me. hey. of course. this is insane. chuuya punches him. technically upon contact corruption is now switched off. and then dazai reaches up to touch his cheek so softly. and says "you used corruption believing in me? how beautiful" people died tbh. oh you used your super insane deadly powers? even if as far as you were concerned i was as good as dead? you trust me that much? and You trust me enough to sit around this whole movie w a pill in your teeth knowing i'd make you swallow it just at the right moment? how did he even KNOW they're so insane. (then chuuya says "yeah i believed in your disgusting vitality and craftiness" and dazai answers "that was a somewhat violent way of waking snow white" shut the fuck up tbh) this is the highest moment. i will be forever insane. and then dazai like shoved chuuya's head in his crotch but i don't fucking CARE STOP BEING HORNY

and then we get to the latest season and chapters. oh man. ok so. dazai's in superjail w his actual archnemesis Fyodor Dostoevsky. people are becoming vampires. stick w me. fyodor brings chuuya Into superjail to help him kill dazai. chuuya is now a vampire and YES he is serving cunt. dazai almost drowns fyodor and chuuya to death and does a sad gay little speech abt how it's sad that it had to end this way and "there were moments where our hearts reached out to each other" girl WHAT???? "like…" and he THINKS abt them doing the corruption trick and holding hands to defeat rimbaud and just Existing next to each other BUT WHAT HE SAYS IS NOTHING. he just waves it off like he ~actually~ can't think of anything bc he doesn't even care haha bye die!! he is so PATHETIC. he is so if i loved you less i might be able to talk about it more -core tbh. he's such a liar. and THEN fyodor has chuuya shoot him in the head. lol. and what dazai has to say about THIS is like oooo maybe if i say something sweet chuuya will come back to normal. and so he says "chuuya our fate will not end in a place like this because you and i are destined to" and then he gets SHOT. IN THE HEAD!!! AND I LAUGHED ABOUT IT!!!! personally this was very "you know i… i…" "i don't know" "but he knew well enough" book reddie of them to be h. anyway. dazai's not dead. and you know what's funnier. chuuya was never even a vampire. he put on fake teeth and contacts and Lied. Pretended. Successfully. to like one of the smartest characters in this universe. hello. now i don't KNOW if i'm meant to read this as in it was always planned or if chuuya had this plan and dazai had to catch up w it like i don't know at what point does dazai know that chuuya was faking it. any theory on this is Hilarious to me. but he said the corniest shit to this man's face. good lird. yk before this season people argued that it was chuuya who cared abt dazai more and i can understand where you'd get that from considering how cold and distant and Fake dazai is (you'd be wrong and stupid) but like i feel like after this dazai's lookin pretty down bad ngl. i don't think there's any imbalance between them but if i had to pick. yk. anyway. chuuya Did actually shoot him but then he used his gravity powers to slow the bullet down Inside of the gun so that it wouldn't kill him and fyodor wouldn't see it. and dazai's like. oh yeah this trick? this little game? we used to do this all the time :) HELLO!!!!!! obsessed w THEM!!!! THEY FUCKED AROUND LIKE THIS? OF COURSE THEY DID. i KNOW they sat around age 16 and crafted the most RIDICULOUS convoluted plans Just In Case and then they give them little code names that they STILL remember YEARS after their partnership fucking ENDED this was insane. and then just walk it off? THEY ARE UNPARALLELED. PERIODT.

so. the girls who don't get it will say they hate each other or whatever. me personally i think it's bullshit. i think they just have That type of vibe. obviously they care. obviously they trust each other more than anyone else w everything they have at all times. and maybe they just also find each other fucking annoying and that's All. when they're 15 dazai finds him obnoxious bc he's too impulsive and never bothers to strategize bc he can rely on his powers being soooo fuckin strong and that's All. i think he's just jealous bc he wishes he could be as lazy as chuuya can afford to be. like he has lichrally Nothing to hate chuuya for he's perfect. chuuya on the other hand,,, besides just personality differences where he finds dazai depressing and offputting JAJDJAKFKAKG like dazai takes his friends away from him. his family the only place he feels he belongs to. i get being mad at dazai after that. but not even for long bc he ends up liking the mafia more anyway and agrees w dazai that the sheep were trash to him so what's left. i don't KNOW if dazai ever commits other significant crimes to him like 😭😭 don't get me wrong he might. i mean it when i say he's kinda evil. he might have done some other shit and i'm forgetting. but i don't think there's anything major that causes genuine hate. the closest thing i can imagine is that dazai, again, dragged him away from his friends, into the mafia, and then leaves him there alone. chuuya's loyal to a fault and can't stand betrayal so i'm sure he's pissed. but dazai also says at some point (not to him ofc) that he regrets not bringing chuuya w him when he left the mafia. sigh. so i think it's just mostly silly bickering.

on a Deeper sense i have some Thoughts abt. ugh. i sort of briefly mentioned that chuuya has some issues w feeling human, and dazai has some issues w his ability (no longer human) and like. besides the trust. this is becoming my favorite thing abt them. at their Core they have the same Thing they just go abt it in the opposite way. neither of them feels like a real human being. chuuya has this very artificial power inside of him so strong that it has a will of its own and dazai has a power that deletes if momentarily other powers. they're both a fuckin. affront to nature in their own ways. and when dazai doesn't feel human he just responds w apathy and like whatever ok i'm not then i wanna die and get it over with what's the point. but when CHUUYA doesn't feel human he's fuckin upset abt it and he wants to idk fight to be human anyway and prove himself wrong. and i feel like. they meet and chuuya sees this perfectly human boy who doesn't appreciate having what he's always struggling for. and dazai sees someone who's justified in feeling separated from humanity and yet he wants to force himself into it ? like man i WISH i had an excuse for feeling like this. and chuuya's like man i wish i hadn't had anything done to me that makes me feel like this. and so they're like,,, so fundamentally mad at each other but then they're also the only other bitch they know w this specific problem so even if they go abt it so differently there's comfort there too that they can't get anywhere else like. they are functionally stuck together bc who else is ever gonna Get It. and chuuya always wants proof that he's just as human as anyone else but then dazai !! he knows perfectly well !!! that chuuya IS like def more human than he'll ever be at the very least bc he knows !! better than chuuya ever will !! what it's actually like to be separated from humanity !! and dazai sees all this passion and energy into this little guy and like how could you ever doubt how could you ever wonder. what else would all this come from if you're not human. i don't even have an ounce of this and technically i Am human so what. dazai takes HIMSELF out of humanity chuuya was TAKEN out of it. and then their power. the fact that dazai's powers that he doesn't even like actively take away what makes chuuya feel less human ?!! there is some kind of mutual aid going on. dazai's ability CAN'T be that bad if it's at least fixing chuuya and it's in fact the ONLY thing that can save chuuya's life. and the irony of it being called no longer human when it does the opposite for chuuya. they're the only thing that sort of justifies themselves to Themselves. the place where the inherent anger for each other comes from is also where the inherent trust comes from. so even if they piss each other off and even if they'd never admit to any positive feelings like they'd do for their other friends they're just. tied. red string or whatever. i think the reason why they Keep finding their way to each other even when they work for enemy factions is Well They Have No Choice for better or worse they'll always be stuck together ! for worse probably. i don't think they're thrilled by that. but no one else is ever gonna Get Me like this bitch !!! so we're sticking together. can you believe i'm chuuya nakahara and the only time i can use the full extent of my powers is when This Guy is around. i can never be 100% myself w anyone else. and can you believe i'm osamu dazai and the only time that i feel like my powers aren't an offense to nature itself is when i use them to keep This Guy from blowing up. so my Burden isn't that bad it's actually Good sometimes. probably just for him but that will do. they're like i can never use all of my powers/i can never use my powers in a way that makes me feel ok except when he's involved. no they're fucking insane tbh it's fascinating.

dazai SAYS MULTIPLE TIMES that he thinks abt chuuya every moment of every day (specifically on how to piss him off but Still) (it's their love language) dazai stopped wishing he could die when he was 15 bc he met chuuya and he was the only exciting surprising thing that he'd seen so far and he wanted to stay alive to figure him out. chuuya keeps using corruption over and over and he puts his life in dazai's hands over and over and he never misses. dazai's the only one who's immune to chuuya - his stupidly strong powers sure but also his stupidly strong physical combat skills bc he knows him well enough to dodge. chuuya's the only one who can understand where dazai's going w his plans and meet him there. dazai calls him slug and chuuya calls him mackerel. once someone close to chuuya saw them stand side by side and said they were surprisingly perfect together. you know. so on so forth. do you Get It

also they're like in love and fucking i guess but that's collateral. i'm not gonna pretend to be strictly intellectual abt them. yas we ship them in a silly sexy way. but also they're incredibly fascinating just the way they are in the text. yk what i mean ?

here look at them as a treat. manga collage in chronological order anime reunion and official art for the movy. what on earth i say

#ask #pls lmk if u see this i'd hate to like. leave u hanging. i'm so sorry i like them so much that i overwhelmed myself at the chance to #fuckin talk abt them sjdkskcksf #i busted out Google Docs for this. it's LONG. i'm insane. sorry

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the-valiant-valkyrie · 1 year

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ok ummm ummmmmmm ummmmm. im going to try to arrange this in a way that makes sense umm umm

-Starting this off with the concept that They are like. cosmic eldritch entities that live in the very depths of the sea. like, mind-melting sea creatures that lurk at the very bottom of the oceans

-And if you ever get down there and ARENT crushed by the weight of the ocean completely tearing you asunder. you will probably be turned INTO one of those cosmic eldritch mind-melting sea creatures. because your Mind got Melted

-to keep up with the performer motif (bc. i like it its one of my favorite motifs). and also as a nod to summoning sea beasts in sea of thieves (my main inspiration for any pirate au and i'm not even ashamed to say it), i like to think that They- whatever they are- have an affinity to song and worship through such, due to the ancient people who worshiped them before in a similar manner. while not placated by it, they're attracted to it and they think its kind of funny

-um ok now picture this. Creature Seeker maxwell carter going out in search of Powerful Beasts to harness the ability of. with, of course, the aid of his musically talented assistant, charlie whatsherface. the two of them sailing off like "oh no charlie dw abt it i've had sooo many encounters with fucked up sea beasts. if you just lure it in through. song or something like that. then i'll handle the rest and it'll be fine"

-it wasn't fine

-while Maxwell didn't suffer enough damage to permanently doom himself to the fate of being a Complete and Utter Sea Freak, charlie absolutely could not say the same. she's a Sea Freak now. what type? oh i'm not sure. though i've been considering either a squid type creature (darkening the waters with jet black ink and having many tendrils for grabbing and clawing would fit in with a lot of her motifs) or maybe a lurefish like creature (bc lurefish are freaking based)

-max, caught horrifyingly somewhere between being half a sea beast and half a man, spent who knows HOW long just kind of. being stuck down there in The Deep- desperately trying both to evade Them (+ charlie) as well as actually make it up to the surface

-though i don't know much of where i plan to shoehorn him in outside the fact, i think it only makes sense that wilson is the one to 'find' him- probably on accident while trying to dredge up other, lesser (but still dangerous) sea beasts and kinda. catching him in the crossfire. not like max is going to complain though he's been stuck in The Deep for like. years. getting dragged back up by the neck is a small price to pay to get sunlight and surface air again

-this is where things fall apart a little bit bc the parts i've added the most sustenance to in regards to this hypothetical are the parts where my favs are involved. but i was kind of thinking something along the lines of a steadily building ragtag group of criminals totally regular and cool and NOT criminal pirates coming together for one common goal

-said common goal actually just. an excuse for max to try to get charlie out of the deep. but he doesn't tell them that, or that she's down there, or that he's been down there (ignore the fact he looks abnormally pale and has slits on his throat stop asking a man about the slits on his throat don't you know that's fucking impolite)

-the only person who probably KNOWS max's angle is. winona. who probably knew max at least a little bit before he went gallivanting off with her little sister and nearly got the both of them freaking murdered. she kind of reluctantly has to keep everything under wraps a little bit, if only because the two of them need the others to see this plan through to the end, and if the rest knew the stakes they were dealing with they might bail out

-but like. idk the rest of them are there probably for reasons that loosely align with their standard reasons for coming into the constant to begin with (wilson desiring the recognition of capturing an evolutionary marvel, willow getting to spend the rest of her life in peace knowing the shores of her home won't be haunted by Sea Beasts anymore (chat nobody tell her they're not actually planning on killing the 'sea beast'), and um. ect ect.

-also wagstaff in the bg maybe trying to tame said Sea Beasts to obey his every whim? who knows

-and theres sea shanties also :)

#theres other stuff too. mainly wigfried related obviously #but. nobody cares abt wigfried except for me and everyone else on earth so #idk im going off the wall. i need to start playing so/t again. for my health.#i need one hour of saltwater a day for my health i think

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bionic-penis · 4 months

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Proof [but probably not the kind u were asking for]

Hi sorry that people are sending u messages abt sk8 again, he had a breakup and banned his ex from his room on a site. Shes been rlly upset that they have a lot of moots. And that he wont let her into his room on the site The least longwinded proof i can give u is this cdn[.]discordapp[.]com/attachments/964599660671041636/1199906816096739408/image[.]png

I got more proof I can send u of things shes told in the past and her taking them back. I blocked out my name bc I dont want this being used against me

She's been on a campaign against him for months and sent the stuff a lot of accusations out. He told her about the og callout post years ago and im pretty sure shes been the one spreading it around bc she sent it to me soon as he did. Im done with my friendship with her after this so im sending some proof in. If u got sent any extra asks that included his medical info thats probably her, too. She never sends actual pic proof and only ever links I dont like sk8 either bc he never revenged me but idk i think this is too far and im tired :/

It is very refreshing to see a different "take" popping up, especially one with at least a modicum of proof (which I say due to the nature of screenshots, lack of context, lack of additional proof provided, and whatnot).

First of all I will say thanksieeeeees. Although I will only be taking this with a grain of salt, I do appreciate your effort to include SOMETHING other than he-said-she-said. I would definitely love to see more proof and confirmation of parties involved.

Second of all, I have not received any asks involved medical info, that is crazy. If she's actually doing that, ummmmm??

Third of all, funniest reason to dislike someone ever, but I respect it.

#only posting bc i feel like it'd be unfair to post all those other asks. otherwise i'm donnnnnneeeee. no proof no post #CADA Drama #can't believe that tag just keeps growing :neutral_face:#i do think it's a lil funny that this is happening on my blog. i got 0 bitches and i am never commenting on anything ever again #the revenge thing is funnier out of context too #sorry if i sound short anon u were actually sweet it's just been months of this i hope u understand #ask

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minnesotanaccent · 3 years

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strahm 4 the character thing bc its strahm severed sunday

How I feel about this character

I really really like him. I feel like that’s weird but I genuinely like him so much. He’s kind of an asshole and he kinda sucks but like. I love that

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Hoffman . That’s it . I think they were made for each other in a gross toxic way ♥️♥️ I’m so invested in it. And like I think every variation has its merits I live every au of them. I think it works just how it is in canon, I think it worlds if strahm lives and joins Hoffman, I think it works if they kill each other I think it works if Hoffman stops killing people and they run away toegtehr like I think it’s one of those things where whatever you beleive happens to them can work

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Strahm + Perez mlm wlw solidarity best friends. They’ve been besties forever and they love each other and they like to hang out and watch movies together and they are besties

My unpopular opinion about this character

Ummmmm idk if I really have any unpopular opinions on him. I think he’s an old annoying mean gay and I love him and why would anyone disagree w that. Actually wait ok a little nsfw here but I think he’s a top lol. That seems to be unpopular bc everyone but like 3 people write him as a bottom. Open your eyes people if you’re writing hoffstrahm then Hoffman is the bottom in that relationship. Ok. Ok.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon

I wish he would have lived LMAO….. Sometimes I’m like yay Peter strahm I want 2 watch a movie w him and he’s only in 4&5 (which are two of my top faves so don’t get it twisted I like them) but like I hate to see him die lol I want him to live and become conflicted morally bc he now has 2 help Hoffman and kinda be an apprentice but he wouldn’t feel good abt right away (like all of them) but also I think he would be so bad at it… like worlds shittiest murderer. So then it would be funny

#TY FOR ASKING …… HAPPY STRAHMS SEVERED HAND SATURDAY

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freezeriafan · 3 years

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please tell me more abt how allan is nonbinary... i wanna know everything - amii

YOUVE INVOKED MY WRATH .... PREPARE FOR PARAGRAPHS ...

omgggggggggg ummmmmmm uh uh uh uh . idk i just know . one time i was in the car with my brother and he said smth to the effect of "but i mean obviously allan is nonbinary like we can all see that." and i was like "oh ya of course" but make no mistake my wig was snatched . it made perfect sense of course it was like finding a missing puzzle piece .

ummmmm . lol . k . So . uuuumm . Definitely think that this is related to his autism somehow . Not implying that being autistic makes u nonbinary but in this specific case it's related . like ok this is my interpretation of allan so it fits in line w my way of character creation or whatever . and ive been encountering this lately w ocs , autism and gender shit and the way they intersect . So ive just been thinking of that a lot lately .

HONESTLY I know it's bc i saw a tumblr post a year ago of someone saying how they feel that their autism directly affects their gender identity, or even is their gender identity. Of course someone else came up like "Thats stupid and not how things work," but the original poster held their ground. And you know me i have libra in certain places and so that evidently esoteric interpretation of the self really stuck out to me.

And so like here's my brainspace on this one this is where i am ... I have this one character who's autistic and completely soundly binary male and would honestly say that in no way is his gender influenced by his autism what is wrong w you why would you even imply that ? Like that just makes no sense. amd i have another character who is nonbinary and autistic and the latter technically affects the former in the way that it's all related to his own unique feeling of detachment from society, but trying to say that would be the same as saying "he's himself bc he's himself"; it's a moot point. Yet another oc is nobinary and autistic and those truly are unrelated points, only related in the way that they are both her . YET ANOTHER oc is nonbinary and autistc and he will honestly let you know that he very much feels like those two things are connected, in a very specific way that only has meaning to him but is relevant nonetheless . not mentioned here is the combination of being strictly binary and also feeling like your autism is related to that somehow , i just dont have an oc example of that .

K ysee what im playing w here ? You see my hand of cards . That's like where my brain is rn that's how im thinking .

allan is noninary bc I know this . I know this bc look at him .

i dont think he takes any issue w being referred to as a man however , i think that if it were a different time he'd be 99% comfortable with living his whole life taking possession and ownership of the male label bc he's allan and he loves to have a little fun . He'd never take issue w it . You could argue that at that point it doesn't matter and trying to call him nonbinary isn't worth the effort, but that's just no fun ... he's allan and i wanna talk abt him.

You know wat i mean .. he's allan he walks around as a self-actualized hollywood greaser with a reservoir of real and tough oniontown street skills , famous hockey player , always trying to be kind and always looking for a laugh and smth worth a thought . He's proud to call himself a man, proud to honor the distinction bt him and women when it's relevant and respectful, never thinking twice about it ; but he and i and you cannot deny that his idea of a man is not himself . There is a a layer of detachment like the layer of air on a hydrophobic surface submerged in water . It's not "off" or "crooked" as much as it is like taking a step backwards in linear space. And it's not a big deal .

It's not a big deal and could easily be read by you or me or him as an imposter syndrome type feeling , wrought by prominent childhood bullying and being made to feel that he is just weird or different , true. But now im gonna suggest something: does that distinction actually matter w this ? Sometimes more introspection and action is needed, but other times there's nothing you can do and this is just how a mf feels. I mean I am just so sure that he's nonbinary, fuck w labels if u want idgaf ... demiboy idc . Whatever it is it's not fluid . Whatever it is it's not cis and it's not binary in any preconceived direction .

I think Allan hanging w the right crowd would find the language and attitude to be proud and open abt his autism and to let it color his self-image, let it be relevant when he chooses and let it be relevant bc he is relevant; and in a similarly right crowd he would be able to do the same w not being cis.

Again you could argue that it's hardly worth mentioning bc it hardly affects his life it seems, but i mean . It's Allan . Lookat him

he's nonbinary i dont care <3 i dont caare . Thanks for sending this ask in . Thus concludes freezeriafan's weekly rant . make sure to like and subscribe . stay safe guys

#You know it's a legit headcanon when someone asks you ''why'' and you just respond by talking abt the character in general #Oh he's a greaser. Oh look at him. Oh I just know . yeah #allan

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brookswackermanfeetcam · 3 years

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11 crushes/ or exes

Ummmmm back when my ex gf “A” and I were still talking (post breakups yes multiple I am a softie cancer venus, pre me cutting contact) we started to collab on a story abt like vampires or something it was mostly her deal but I was adding things making characters etc. and we never really got it past an idea before it fizzled out BUT I did make this character (a couple actually but this one in particular I’m attached to) her name was Inka and she had been a fighter in like some kinda ancient clan and she died in battle but this demon guy shows up and she thinks he’s a god and he says “hey if you wanna come back to life I’ll help you, you can save your brothers in arms but you have to do whatever I say” and inka thinking she’s doing the honorable thing says yeah we’re losing I’m dead I gotta do something so he brings her back and in the process turns her into like this fucked up unkillable super warrior and then forces her to kill everyone, the enemy, her entire army, everyone on the battlefield and then forces her to fight for him for the next several centuries until the time that the story takes place and honestly I think she is one of my favorite characters I’ve created and I had a lot planned for my contribution to the story and now that I don’t talk to her I feel like idk. I could reasonably just yank my storyline and characters out of the project and carry on with a different story using them but I feel conflicted like this is something I created with her I should leave it in the past.

#askies #anonymous #hope this helps 😋#sorry I’m not. I’m not readddyyyy

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ask-a-hopscotch · 4 years

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ooc post bc twilight wings happened and it was amazing

i want to scream about all my favorite things so apologies in advance if this is a bit annoying agshdjdj (heads up for spoilers and cursing)

-KABU MY KING

-i love opal i like that they included her theories (?) abt leon. we know in the game it’s said that she thinks he’s difficult to read and i rlly liked how that translated over

-PIERS

-WHY DID HE GRAB THE CAMERA LIKE THAT BRO CHILLLLL

-i loved that john noticed leon wasn’t really smiling on tv like he noticed it was fake that was a nice touch

-i want to know what the letter says 😭 pls

-ty taxi man for stopping when john saw leon

-UM I HAVENT SEEN ANYONE ELSE TALK ABOUT THIS BUT LEONS REAL SMILE LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE HOP I LIKE THAT THEY ADDED THAT BC IT SHOWS HOW MUCH THEYRE BROTHERS!!! THEY ARE BROTHERS IDK WHY THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY ANSHDJSJ (i talked abt this on my twitter so if u saw that it was prolly me in which case if you saw that no u didn’t)

-leon literally get a compass, a gps, something so u don’t end up on a cliff in the middle of the wild area

-leon is a himbo confirmed

-leon oversleeps confirmed ahshjdhd

-“just call me leon” ahhhhh he’s so kind. love him stop it

-also leon, why r u taking a child who’s been in the hospital on a corviknight ride like bro that’s dangerous

-LEON DONT CALL KIDS STRANGE OMG

-ummm the animation in twilight wings is amazing i’ll talk about it more but i just want to say how much i love it

-wait,,,,rose snapping when lee and john arrived on the corviknight did kinda scare me and idk why

-rose do be intimidating doe 😳 he has so much power it’s scary okay

-leon why did u grab john so aggressively chill bro we get it u wanna battle but he’s literally like eight years old just go battle raihan

-speaking of raihan, YOU SEXY MAN!! MARRY ME PLEASE

-I HAVENT MENTIONED THE VOICE ACTING YET IT SO GOOD I CANT BELIEVE IT

-BOTH JAPANESE AND ENGLISH IS SO GOOD I CANT ALL THE ACTORS ARE SO GOOD 😭

-the animation for the battle scene was so beautiful

-how is this battle so much more epic than the battle scene in journeys (don’t answer that i know, twilight wings had more creative freedom than journeys and allowed the artists to be more involved in the story)

-DRAGAPULT!!! i am a dragapult stan first, a human second

-HOPS WATVHING THE MATCH MY HEART HE AND WOOLOO ARE SUPPORTING HIS BIG BRO WE LOVE TO SEE IT

-bede u look pretty, u asshole

-marnie has a morpeko phone case

-y’all piers is totally watching the battle with marnie he’s just trying to look like he doesn’t care. he does✨

-leon’s so fucking pretty dude 🥺💕

-the animation is immaculate i so proud of every animator that’s worked on this series because they worked so hard and the end result beautifully captures that

-ummmmm gloria and victor have voices but no heads

-ppl on twitter were freaking out bc they exist in the same a universe??? idk why bc all the other protags exist in the same universe??? why wouldn’t vic and glo???

-theres prolly more that i’m missing OH THE SCORE IS AMAZING

-YES THE POWER OF MUSIC IS SHOWN SO WELL HERE

-the orchestral sound really fit well with everything else

anyways i’m prolly missing something but i didn’t write this while watching it so this is the important stuff. i love twilight wings, i wish it wasn’t a mini series. i wish we had a full galar series bc it’s what we deserve. i love how big they made galar bc since the game is so linear it’s hard to grasp that it’s a big region. they rlly succeeded there and in most other aspects. i don’t think i have any complaints other than i wish it was longer. anyway that was me screaming, back to your regularly scheduled hop 😌✨

#ooc #out of character #mod post #twilight wings

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strvwberryblcnde · 4 years

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👫 lana & dom

send a 👫 and I’ll write four headcanons i have about our muses’ relationship.

lana buys lots of things on random whims n i feel like smthn she wld have bought the summer her n dom started properly seeing each other is a polaroid camera. probably one of those fujifilm mini ones in pink w stickers on of holographic mermaids n butterflies. n all her friends wld be subject to hving their photos taken on this at 447294734 parties but fr the most part like 50% of the film wld be spent on dom esp considering how often they’d see each other. i cn imagine her being annoying abt it e.g. bursting in unannounced when he ws showering n flinging the curtain bk n shrieking in delight as she tkes a pic of him in there. penis NOT in shot (lana ws very disappointed when she realised altho inevitably dom ws relieved). it ws probably rly blurry too from her springing out of nowhere n running away after she’d dazed him w the flash bt lana wld never dream of throwing it away she’s probably like ugh cole sprouse WISHES he ws me tht stupid i’m weird i’m a weirdo bitch i’m taking his photographer crown n i’m loving it..... another time if she ws wearing his tshirt or smthn jst to laze around in she wld have tried to convince dom to wear her cropped bowie t-shirt she usually lounges in she’d b like OUTFIT SWAP!!!! like it ws a reality show segment. she’d do his hair w her strawberry clips n everything n wna take a polaroid of tht as well. a majority of these polaroids wld b taken w her sat on top of him in bed peeping thru the viewfinder n grinning sickeningly wide after. she’s bad at organisation bt she wld keep very close track of these polaroids n treasure them a lot bc they’d document a summer where she was rly rly happy. probably took them with her to la too she jst has them hidden somewhere.... idk if she’d ever b able to bring herself to throw them away to b honest

i jst had this vision of lana n dom taking franklin to the park n i already told u abt how she’d tell franklin tht she gives the flowers all their own names n say he shld come up w his own names fr them too bc it’s more fun tht way bt. i cn imagine if they saw two bees trying to pollinate the same flower n like buzzing close to each other if franklin pointed it out lana wld gasp n be like OMG they’re in love. they’re married bees. u can tell frm how bright their stripes r they’re extra yellow n glowing like the sun tht’s what happens. tht means they’re in love franklin. n idk if franklin wld say this or not bt if he asked what loves like lana wld b like hmMMM well. love’s kind of like being first in the queue fr the best rollercoaster. or licking the sugar off ur fingers when they’re all sticky frm candy floss. going to the zoo n getting to see all ur favourite animals on a day tht’s sunny but not TOO hot. enough to give ur nose freckles bt not burn ur shoulders. make u feel toasty like ur inside a cocoon. n love’s like........ she’d pause here. she’s crouched dwn on his lvl as she says this mayb dom hs walked off to get them ice creams n she briefly lks at him in the distance as he’s paying before lking bk at franklin. scrunching her nose playfully as she tries to stall. when she hesitantly continues she’s like. n love’s like getting home after tht perfect day at the zoo n finally getting into bed w fresh sheets when ur sleepy n ur eyes r all droopy n heavy. the pillows r fluffy n it’s safe n warm n all of the gd in the world at once. i think love’s like tht. it’s jst.... nice n stuff. n she’d jst be like :) afterwards realising she’d rambled on n change the subject like hey lk at that BUTTERFLY franklin............. bt i jst think this is. particularly heartwarming to me bc not only wld she have been basing tht on hw she feels abt dom bt. in the past love ws always a thing w barbs tht hurt her whenever she tried to hold it n.... he jst rly transformed her idea of being loved by someone into smthn safe n reliable n consistent......... smthn she cld actually make a home out of instead of constantly hving an eye on the door in case they leave / she needs an escape route..... a relationship isn’t a scary concept w him

lana n dom r like. opposites when it comes to social media esp instagram...... dom jst nt even knowing hw to use it n lana posting so regularly hving a small following fr her fashion n whtever.......... i feel like lana wld try to teach him how to use it bt it wld consist of a lot of her being like no that’s--.... dom that’s--.... that’s not ri--.... n jst throwing her head bk n cackling so much she wld b rly endeared by him being clueless abt it she’d be like ommmmmmmmmg it’s ok i’ll b steve jobs n u can be my sexy assistant tht just has to strut besides me like a car dealership model whenever i go on stage to debut the nxt technological advancement. dom wld have to be like... isn’t he dead? lana wld gasp so suddenly n be like omfggggggggg tht explains why me calling this tech nerd wearing a turtleneck steve jobs lst week bombed so hard mayb he thought i ws telling him to die..... dom’s probably like... i doubt he thought tht lana..... she wld laugh at the thought of this anyway n change topics jst the worst attention span already over it. ALSO this is instagram related bt.... bev.kingston wld rly centralise her hate crusade onto dom when it became clear they were dating / things gt mre official n serious. mostly lana wld b like this is so funny n dumb bt.... i think she wld dm bev.kingston one time being like. ok all jokes aside can u cool it a little on the dom hate not to b gross bt he makes me rly happy n i dnt want him to b sad if he ever advances beyond a technological grandpa n sees all this stuff. bev.kingston wld literally screenshot this n post it on her insta like LANA AND I HAVE BEEN IN CLOSE CONTACT I HAVE DECIDED EVANS BOY IS ON TRIAL BASIS EVEN IF I HATE IN MY HEART AND KNOW FREYA IS ONE FOR HER n she’d update her page like 21/08/2020 LANA DM’D ME ABOUT EVANS BOY (or whtever the date ws) n it’d be sm. lana wld b embarrassed she’d try to get her to delete it she’d b like fk my fking life ur sick bev ur lit rally sick.....

lana treats halloween as a week long celebration she goes to sm parties tht she literally hs to have like..... 482759872 costumes planned each yr. n fr one of them. she’d b like let’s go as each other :) n she’d dress as an angel n he’d dress as a devil. she’d put on red lipstick before they went purely to “help w his costume” n it’d jst consist of her leaving lipstick prints on his cheek n neck n hip even if. his hip wsnt visible w the top he ws wearing she’d b like dom listen.... listen. it’s literally part of the vision n it’s necessary......... it doesn’t matter if ppl can’t see it we’ll both kno it’s there n it’ll elevate the look so mch...... w that attention to detail u cld even b in the running fr winning a prize...... then she wld take the lipstick off like it wldnt even be part of her outfit she only put it on to do this specifically. she’d insist on them getting a photo tgether n it’d b a bit gross it’d b a whole thing she jst.... wld b very proud to b seen w him she’d show him off a lot.... if anyone complimented her outfit she’d b like ya n have u seen dom he’s a devil we match :) n if there ws another pair tht had worn the same which i mean there probably might it isn’t a hugely original concept bt lana wld be like......... ummmmm tht guy is the most pathetic devil i hv literally ever seen..... if she ws drunk she might even b like ummm.... hw does it feel fr dom to be a sexier devil than u............... does it sting? jealous i bet....... n dom wld have to b like lana please.... im sry abt her.... u lk gd haha...... cushioning the blow. taking her hand n leading her away. n lana is jst tittering n murmurs in his ear like. he knew it ws true u cld see it in his eyes. he knew u lkd better than him.

#lana jameson | dominic evans #meme #this is so beefy too god.... dabs forehead #hallcween

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addoration · 7 years

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Hey there. Good luck for your work. I just ate pizza and it was delicious! I was wondering, how do you know if you have a crush??? I'm trying to sort myself out but feelings are HARD. Do you think love at first conversation exists?

thanks audrey but nothing can save me now (im being pessimistic im actually getting stuff done albeit slowly). also i wish i could have pizza!! i got braces two weeks ago and my teeth still hurt when i eat so ive been struggling recently :(

umMMmm this is hard. i didnt think i got crushes. they didnt bother me much, anyways, but what i did get was fascination with people. idk id get curious about someone and id start spending as much time as i could with them (without being creepy or weird abt it) and id talk to them and eventually i stopped being curious. except that with one person i didnt stop being curious and every time i saw him i got more curious and i kept going back to find out even more and the curiosity never ended, like it did with other people. and we became friends and we met each other a couple of times like friends do and then he admitted that he liked me and honestly? i might never have had a crush in the conventional sense but i knew i liked him too and well. we’re together now.

feelings ARE hard. but i do think that if you know, you know, if that makes sense. sometimes you realise that you know a little late, but thats the way of things. i think that curiosity about a person can lead to so much more, and if that first conversation sparks that curiosity then theres no reason why it cant be love at first conversation. i would just say talk to the person as much as you can, find out as much as you can, see them as much as you can, and i think eventually you’ll know.

idk. i hope this is good advice but i also realise that its probably not. i dont get the conventional crushes, with butterflies in my stomach etc, so idk.

#dust-asterisms #asks #basil talks

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callmeminseok · 7 years

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i wasnt around for ot12, and i wanna know more about luhan so i figured why not come to you, LuhanStan69, for information????

ok well first of all, the name luhanstan69 is…. .…. .. . . horrific and i want it tattooed on my ass .. .. . and second of all …. i was also not around for ot12….. but i can still show u the world (im so sorry just…….click on the bold links,,,,i didnt mean for this 2 happen)

ok so : my man… first name han last name lu and it means dawn deer and he really fucking looks like a deer?? his eyes are so big and sparkly and his features are really delicate and soft but don’t be fooled he really takes no prisoners and will fight literally anyone (here is him yelling at a saesang driver who was recklessly driving, like he really doesn’t take any shit one time at the airport he showed the fancameras that a saesang was calling his phone also the song Roleplay exists in which he basically tells his saesang fans that he will Fuck Them Up if they keep trying him,,,…,.,. a legend if u will) he was born april 20, 1990 and technically he’s a taurus by some calendars and aries by others but he said fuck it im an aries and whatever he says is law so he’s an aries.

mmmm he’s an extremely talented vocalist and dancer (he was main vocal for m and their lead dancer also the visual). im not sure how familiar you are with exo m but I will recommend moonlight and what is love as songs that really show off luhan’s vocals from his exo era. as far as dance goes this is a classic mmm also his solo from the lost planet for the star is a treasure that must be preserved tbh. um anyways ya luhan was the bomb in exo m but he’s also the bomb solo!! his last exo concert was the 140921 tlp in beijing and he left exo in october of 2014 due to lack of support for luhan’s career and obvious health issues (if u watch fancams from his last stage u can see his face is swollen on one side and pictures of his eye being fucked up and he was having really bad chronic headaches i think i dont remember exactly also he fell down during let out the beast and is clearly in pain sorry im not trying 2 write a defend luhan leaving piece but this info isn’t really circulated now so it’s easy to write off him leaving as for just money or whatever)

and then luhan took a break!! he recovered his health in his home beijing and came back with : That Good Good say what u will abt the song either it’s ur style or not idc but the choreo is nice and his face is….stellar.. from there luhan worked toward releasing his album Reloaded which sold like hotcakes :( my baby :( The Star™️ and he started to truly become The Star™️ once he became a member of Running Man China (now titled Keep Running due to S Korean/Chinese political issues) and began to take on movies like The Witness (he also did the ost for the witness titled Medals which blew tf up and was used for the Rio 2016 Olympics) and Time Raiders. he then held his first !! solo !! concert !! in early 2016 aka the Reloaded series ft. three absolutely beautiful hair colors: mint/blue/green pink purple and some ridiculous wardrobe changes and he kicked ass :( and his fame in china rly skyrocketed like this man….endorses the entire planet (off the top of my head he is/was the spokesperson/endorser for: kfc, crest, lenovo, some bike company thing, puma, cartier, coke, sony, gap, lancome, l’occitane en provence, canon, kung fu panda, star wars (he got his own star wars song like exo has lightsaber but lu got the inner force….iconic), ummmmm what else idk i can’t remember anymore oh wait ADIDAS he literally was just announced for adidas today….an icon mayhaps?) anyways ya hims the Shit in china and he’s like the king of weibo?? like he holds a guinness world record for weibo….amazing

ok moving on to my :( favorite part …. when he put out catch me when i fall in oct 2016. This is it. This is That Song tbh. This is when he became the King of Aesthetics and Music. The MV is beautiful and so are the lyrics (i really encourage you to read the lyrics for the song bc they really show a lot about luhan and i fell absolutely undeniably in love with him when i read them). And from there he litralee cannot be stopped im not gonna make u read my opinion on all of them but his absolute best releases since then (keep in mind im talking abt in the like 7 months….he has put out so many songs AND mv’s for all of them plus teasers it’s really insane) are skin to skin , what if i said , and on call . truly … the mf king of aesthetics. i expect his next full album will come out probably around july/august…he’s really been building up to it with his mini albums so it will probably be more or less a repackage of all of those minis but ya !! keep ur eyes peeled!!

beyond his performance stuff he’s really the most passionate, dedicated, hardworking, and talented guy. He works so hard like it is astounding. He is so incredibly inspirational and i really just think he’s a good person and frankly i would trust him with my life. He really cares for his lufans and wants them to be safe and happy even international lufans like he puts english subtitles on all of his mv’s and now his bts videos also have eng subs like…..he doesn’t have to and yet? he’s there….doing it all. he also has fan events for his bday like one year he had a soccer event on his bday and made it livestreamed so that fans at home could watch too :( he’s just v thoughtful :(

TL;DR: luhan is the sweetest boy on the planet and he just wants to make aesthetic bops and play w cats and live his life happily and freely. he is the most precious thing to me and he deserves all the love in the world. also he is a human meme and Lu is his magnum opus if u want to see more of lu i highly recommend Running Man (this is his first ep, and these two are my favorites) and episodes 2, 5, and 9 of exo showtime are my favorite lu episodes. u can catch him in the movie The Great Wall w matt damon and a bunch of v famous chinese actors and singers lmfao i just got it from redbox the other day lu is so cute um also he’s in a cdrama rn called Fighter of the Destiny which is all eng subbed on youtube the cgi is like ridiculously cheesy kinda power rangers feel but his face and sweet acting…..it’s enough 4 me….anything luhan does is enough 4 me

#luhan #IM PISINFKSDNF #YALL WOULD NOT BELIEVE HOW LONG I SPENT ON THIS #should it be on a read more?? absolutely #im laughing #i spent an 1.5 hours on this #if yall let me gush abt luhan....im going 2 gush abt luhan #rip #this anon........im so sorry #u didnt ask 4 this.....u didnt want this...........#im sorry

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taeboos · 7 years

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baby daddy! taehyung

okay so like i was gonna work on my prince!taehyung oneshot but i kept thinking about tae being a dad and i just got so emo and here are my ramblings

let me just start off saying that tae would be like the best husband in the entire world like he’d love and care for you with his entire being

he’d spoon hug you at night time and hold your hand and whisper how much he loves you in that deep voice by your ear until u fall into a deep sleep while being caressed in his arms

hes like that kind of guy who would just love to wake you up in the moring tho

and your like

tae

its like 7:30 wyd

and he’s just like the sunshine himself like he shines so bright in the morning and literally he wants to get up early bc he wants to cherish every moment of you being beside him

jfdklsfjlksdfjls and like!!!!! you’d complain bc like.....ur not the moring type yah know sleep is gr8 and he’d ultimately win bc he has this puppy face and would take ur hands and play with them and swing them to wake you up

he’s basically a grown child

okAY and so like why do i not see him being the type to romanticize the whole doing the ‘boom-boom’

i feel like he’d be the type to just like rush into it like ‘bAbE I WANT kIDS liKE ASAP’

but then again he wouldn’t rush you or pressure you or anything he’d wait for you

and like one night you did it ok you did the boom-boom alright and like it was great obvs

ill let u be dirty by yourselves im not going to go into that rn this is a fluff post

quench ur thirst elsewhere

anywhoo a few weeks pass and like you are getting that morning sickness yeah? I mean i never been preggers but im going off basic knowledge??

so okay like you wake up in the middle of the night like 3 in the morning and like tae wakes up of course and you are like in the bathroom spilling your guts out and at first ur like super confused and tae is worried as hell

but then his eyes just light up out of no where and ur like ???

“ARE YOU PREGNANT”??? like the question just busts out of him like a popped balloon ok he’s like half excited and half anxious and worried for you and he starts pacing the bathroom

and ur like babe??? calm down idk if im pregnant ok i might just be sick??

and he looks at you and gets on his knees alright and looks you in the eyes and he just like “im going to walmart” and ur like

wAIT

that boy is already out the door with his pajamas still on ok like he gives zero fucks like he needs to know noW

he slams that pregnancy test on the conveyor belt and he’s legit jumping up and down bc he wants to get back to his wiFE

and the cashier lady is tired asf and like “whats dis mofo doing here kjdsklgjls” and then she smiles and says “good luck~”

sO tae gets back home ok and he hands u the thing and ur like alright alrigHT

and that boy will not leave ur side ok u better know it and ur like tae??? ummmmm can i please pee on this thing in peace thx

and hes like oh shit sorry

so u pee on the stick and guess whattttt

ur preggers

u kinda just exit the bathroom with a sly smile on your face

and tae has bulging eyes waiting for a response

“im pregnant”

you better bet your sweet little ass he’s gonna be all over you he’s gonna be swinging u around and kissing your face and crying

and seeing him crying makes u cry and next thing you know the next morning your letting the fam know

everyone is just like congrats!!!!!

and now comes the nine months where tae is legit your body gaurd like he is so protective

he was protective to begin with but now its like he took some super dad power pills and he is always attached to u like everywhere you look tae is there like a leech attached to your back

like “thATS mY BABY in YOU I GOTTA BE ABLE TO PROTECT TWO AT ONCE NOW”

hed be feeding you breakfast every morning and go throughout your day eating healthy meals

gotta make sure that baby is nourished!!!!!!

im crying ok omg breAK

back ok liSTEN

you would get that baby bump and he’d rub your belly all the time and he’d jump out of his skin when the baby moves or kicks and he’s just “!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

and your lauging and he wants to cry again bc he is so in awe like ?? thats his baby moving around in there

and he’d want to sing to the baby all the time like

youd be lying in bed and hed start singing little nursery rhymes and your heart just swells and the baby can detect that sort of thing??? and it starts to move around around and you tell tae that the baby likes his singing and that makes him do it even more often

also not to mention being pregnant is effing painful so he’d always be there to rub your aching back and give you butterfly kisses all the time to ease your pain

okay and then you go and u find out the sex of your baby and like you think its gonna be a boy but tae thinks its gonna be a girl idk why i just feel like tae would want a girl

so u go and you find out that it’s a girl!!!!!!!!! and tae won’t leave u alone abt how he was right

and u decide on a name and no doubt its cute ofc

okay so your whole pregnancy goes like this and so then

ur water breaks

oh shit amiright

tae freaks the fuck out but like not as much as you were

like your in pain and hoLY FuCK they baby iS coMING nOW

and yout screaming and tae is trying to be calm but he’s runnning around and trying to get you into the car and he’s freaking out while driving like

moVE biTCHES mY bABY and WiFE ARE IN THIS CAR

he’s like speeding down the highway to get to the hospital ok

this boy has got zero chill

he half carries you into the hospital and everything happens to fast

hes sitting beside you holding your hand tight as your screaming your lungs out giving birth

and tae is half-way feeling guilty that you’re going through this pain

but fAST foRWARD and your healthy baby girl is born!!!!

and like at first tae was about to bounce on the doctors like he wants his kid now but they had to go clean her up

and when they finish tae holds her little body in his arms and he’s crying

“look at her”

“she’s so beautiful”

“it’s my baby”

he looks at you then with tears gleaming in his eyes

and he brings her over to you and your holding her and you can’t believe you did it

as ur baby girl grows up like tae is such a protective father

he’d proababy want to cry if she ever got hurt

and you notice that as she grew that she had tae’s sparking eyes and gleaming box smile that you always adored you

she had your cute nose

and face shape

Tae would try so hard to make her look so cute like braid her hair and pick out cute clothes and you’d just smile and let him be

him being happy with your child was enough to make your insides melt

he’d be that dad who’d volunteer to change the diapers and get up in the morning and your just like babe!!! i got it its fine!!!! im ok i can do it!!!!

and after seeing you go through that pain for 9 months he wants to repay you back and in turn he also gets to spend time with his kid and he is happy doing it

youd both play with that baby all the time and be all over the floor with that baby ok and the squeal of joy that erupts from that childs mouth is what fuels tae and you to keep living in this beautiful world

when it comes time for her to go to school hed be so scared like hes letting his baby girl go off alone??? nO

and ur like tae its alright babe its ok its good for her and he gets that but still???

also your daughter would have that same laugh that tae does and every time she does it your stomach gets butterflies

and whenever she cried tae would be like the first one at the scene

and whenever she had her temper tantrums he’d be the one to baby her

and your like tae we cant do that we gotta have disipline

and hes not having it

that baby is gonna be so spoiled rotten omg

lord help us all

but the thing is that baby will have the best parents in the entire universe like nothing can change that fact at all

that baby is gonna grow up living a happiness filled life ok

i really hope ya’ll enjoyed it!!!!

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