#traumatized autistic

[clownrecess]

hey! i came across your blog and saw that you said pro-aba dni. i hope this is okay to ask but i was wondering if i could get your perspective on aba. if you need/want to stop reading now because the topic is upsetting/annoying/anything else, then i totally get it and you don’t need to go further or respond. i wanna start off by saying that i only know what i was taught, which is that aba is a good thing. anyways i worked as a special education teacher at an elementary school where a lot of my students had rbt’s with them for all/most of the day. in our case, a lot of those rbt’s were there to prevent students from harming themselves or others. i will say that i have certainly seen some questionable aba being done (there were several different companies providing services and their procedural differences could be glaringly frustrating). but none of my students were capable of articulating how they felt about their rbt and/or aba as a whole so i was looking to see why people are opposed to the practice. i mean i can see how making a child change their behavior as a way to fit into “normal” society (a stupid concept bc normal is bs) can be troubling, but i could also see that some good can come out of it, as far as harm reduction goes. coming from a psych background i can see how teaching kids to adjust their behavior in order to keep them safe is a good thing. but if the practice as a whole isn’t good then do you know of an alternative that is effective? (as far as reducing harm/injury goes.) i apologize if this seems extremely ignorant of me but i am genuinely curious to get an autistic kid’s point of view. especially if they have personal experience with it, but even if they don’t. since this is relevant to my career field, i don’t want to go about thinking that aba is effective if it actually is quite the opposite. i’m also not looking to glorify/make excuses for aba if it’s a bad thing. sorry for the novel of an ask. i appreciate you taking the time to read this. again, don’t feel like you have to answer if this is a stupid or pointless thing to talk about. i’m not looking to waste your time. thanks again.

(TW FOR ABA, ABUSE, TRAUMA, ETC.)

I was in ABA when I was 11 or so. The goal of the therapists was to make me suppress my emotions, and mask. I was forced into overstimulating environments and was not allowed to leave, I was yelled at, I was taught I am not allowed to say no to anything, etc.

The experience was traumatic, and I still struggle with a lot of panic attacks and nightmares related to it.

And no, I'm not quite sure of a way to reduce harmful stims. I have quite a few harmful stims too, but from my experience ABA made them a lot worse, whilst also making my mental health horrible. Sometimes finding alternatives to those stims are good. I tend to bite the insides of my mouth a really severe amount, and chewies don't fix the problem, but they are helpful for harm reduction sometimes.

#tw aba #tw abuse #tw ableism #tw ableist language #actually autistic #autistic trauma #tw trauma #neurodivergent #aac user #autism #nonspeaking autistic #nonspeaking #aac device #aac users #situationally nonspeaking #disabled #yes all aba #traumatized autistic #autistic experiences

[mollyfamous]

The more I learn about autism, and my own autistic traits, the more I see that almost all of the trauma I've endured happened specifically BECAUSE I am autistic, specifically because I experience situational mutism, specifically because I experience very slow processing speeds when I'm anxious or overwhelmed, specifically because I did not understand the situation I was in.

#actually autistic #actually autism #autism #autism awareness #autistic spectrum #autism and trauma #autism IS trauma #traumatized autistic #autism spectrum disorder #autistic experiences

[obscurestrauma]

A poem about a traumatized little girl who got validation

#actually autistic #actually did #actually plural #ventcore #traumacore #vent #vent poem #maybe it's more like a diary entry or a memo #actually traumatized #traumatized autistic #system vent

[notyrlapdog]

any traumatized autistics out there that know how to have fun and meet new people without collecting more trauma? what is the secret

#autistic #autism #actually autistic #my words #trauma #traumatized #traumatized autistic

[autizmoeddiemunson]

Current mood, being mentally suck at age 12 bc trauma

#🩺posts #traumatized autistic

[chaoticautie]

As someone who is somewhat of a “veteran” of the online ND community, I’m disappointed in the lack of positivity and love for lesser known diverse cognitive conditions, and the opposing abundance of posts about “cures” or outdated criteria or treatments for those conditions. So, without further ado, I want to say hello to anyone with any of the disorders I’m listing, and give them the love and support that hardly anyone else in our community has… Shoutout to:

People with Down syndrome

People with Fragile X

People with William’s syndrome

People with dyslexia

People with dyspraxia

People with dyscalculia

People with dysgraphia

People with Prader-Willi syndrome

People with PANS or PANDAS

People with aphasia

People with a TBI (traumatic brain injury)

People with chronic/early onset mental illnesses

People with cerebral palsy

People with FASD or were otherwise disabled via other substances in utero

And many, many more I may have forgotten to list (but still support and love, I will add more to my list)

You are all beautiful and wonderful, and you all deserve so more love, appreciation, acceptance and support. You are just as neurodiverse as the rest of us, and your voices deserve to be heard and amplified.

I love you all ❤️

#autism #autistic #actually autistic #neurodivergent #actually neurodiverse #audhd #sensory processing disorder #down syndrome #fragile x #fragile x syndrome #williams syndrome #dyslexia #dyspraxia #dyscalculia #prader willi #aphasia #tbi #traumatic brain injury #chronically ill #chronic mental illness #cerebral palsy #fasd #neurodivergent love #dysgraphia #pans #pandas

[matcha-goblin]

Neurodivergent people are never undiagnosed. We are misdiagnosed. Our symptoms don't go unnoticed, and people will always attribute them to some sort of cause. They'll just attribute them to personality and blame the individual for their symptoms.

For example. My autism is not undiagnosed, it's been misdiagnosed as "too sensitive," "awkward," "rude," "obsessive," and "too intense." My brother's adhd wasn't undiagnosed, it was misdiagnosed as "lazy," "impulsive," "annoying," and "can't seem to get any work done."

Growing up without a diagnosis is growing up believing that you are to blame for your differentness. Your symptoms are a personality flaw. You are diagnosed by everyone around you as "weird."

Edit: Some people have pointed out that I'm using the word misdiagnosis here rather loosely. I'm aware that it isn't quite correct definitionally, and I don't mean to say that medical misdiagnosis and the type of social misattribution I'm talking about are identical--just that they are related phenomena, and neurodivergent people are often victims of one or both. There isn't an exact term for what I'm talking about here, so I used the closest one I knew of. Terminology is important and some words need to be used with precision to retain their influence. At the same time, sometimes meanings change, and bending words to fit new circumstances is a natural way that language evolves. I'm not sure which situation this falls under, so while I don't want to change my post (not even sure what to change it to), I thought I'd edit and add clarification. Additional feedback on this is welcome.

#also i think that the self blame that usually comes with this experience is inherently traumatizing #but that's another story #anyway there's my lukewarm take of the day #autism #late diagnosed autistic #neurodivergent #adhd #actually autistic

[leftoverbrownies]

are there any autistic finspecs of any bodytype , race , gender , orientation , etc who want a soft spacecore dog girlfriend who is traumatized and also autistic who will bring you rocks and useless information and will sit on your lap and play with your hair because i know i want an autistic finspec friend /r :[[

#autistic #autistic girl #traumatized autistic #finspec #fin #feminine in nature #girls #wlw #nblw #i love women #softcore #spacecore #dog gf #dog girlfriend #autistic wlw #autistic nblw #autistic life #being autistic #actually autistic #ptsd #personality post #personality traits #personality #new personality #willogenic headmate #willogenic #headmate #headmate forming #pro endo #endo safe

[anexperimentallife]

#neurodivergent #audhd #autistic #adhd #actually autistic #actually adhd #tbi #traumatic brain injury

[vividstardustrevolution]

Disabled people (both people with physical disabilities and people with psychological disabilities) should be able to get housing, food, medical needs, etc met without having to work or stay in school. ...Okay, really, everyone deserves access to free or affordable housing, food, and medical care, but disabled people ESPECIALLY deserve it because if I, a law student with "low support needs" autism, depression, GAD, OCD, and ADHD, cannot afford to take a break from school and take a semester off because I'd have to start repaying my loans because I had to drop down to three credits last fall and because I would have to get a job, so it wouldn't really be a break (which, I have had one job in my life, and I'm not fully convinced it wasn't a fluke, and also, trying to maintain a job when you have disabilities is difficult), I can only imagine that disabled people with higher support needs are even more fucked than me when it comes to being able to get housing and food and medical care without much, if any, funding.

Yes, Medicaid, Medicare, Food Stamps, and housing programs exist in the US, but, uh, I hate to break it to y'all, but that doesn't fully fix the problem, at all. There are a lot of old apartment complexes that are straight up inaccessible if you use a wheelchair. I'm living in one now. Applying for Medicaid and other programs can be a pain in the ass, especially when you're disabled.

"Just live with your parents!" My parents were emotionally abusive and emotionally neglectful, transphobic, and they literally harassed me so much during my 1L year that I still have nightmares.

"Live with a roommate!" I tried to. It went fucking terribly.

"Are you really disabled if you're able to be in law school?" YES. YES I AM.

Actually, on that note, law schools and the law profession need to become more accommodating for disabled people ASAP. Buck v. Bell needs to be overturned. Courts should be wheelchair accessible. Having to get past seven plus different forms of ableism just to graduate and pass the bar is ridiculous. Seriously, can we get some resources for disabled people in law school and the law profession, please?

Disabled rights matter, and we have every right to be able to live in peace and get our needs met, regardless of our support needs, disabilities, or anything else.

#disability #disability rights #actually autistic #actually adhd #actually disabled #ocd #actually ocd #lawblr #disabled law student #US centric but it has to be said #In all seriousness though please I need a semester off #actually traumatized #cw abuse mention #accessibility #real lawblr

[genderqueerpond]

We don't talk enough about the fact that Amelia Pond, s5 Amelia Pond, before the timeline is reset, isn't just a normal orphan. Her parents didn't die, didn't abandon her, and didn't send her away. They never existed in the first place.

And if her parents never existed, then Amelia cannot exist. She is a causal impossibility.

"People fall out of the world sometimes, but they always leave traces." A photograph. A face carved into an apple. Yes. Sure.

A child.

Now that's too big, surely.

But that's what she is. She is exactly the same as these things. A trace. An echo of something that could never be, never was, never could have been.

And the universe should never allow it. A whole person, that's just too much. She could not have continued to exist indefinitely, in normal circumstances, after her parents never existed.

In normal circumstances.

Because the Doctor didn't just save her from things coming out of the crack in her wall. He saved her from going into it. And he didn't just save her from the threat of going into it simply because of its vicinity.

No, by arriving when he did, he interrupted a process that was probably already in motion. And then by arriving again only moments later on a cosmic relative timestream (too quickly for the process to complete) and yet in the local relative timestream, years later --- years of a potential future caught midway through the process of rewriting -- he solidified that existence. Amy is a creature from another timeline, caught in amber. The Doctor prevented her from never existing, but only after she could already never exist.

And so, no one around Amelia thinks about it. Neither does she. There's some kind of consciousness block, because if you thought about it, really thought about it, for two seconds you'd realize she cannot exist. And the human mind can't deal with that. So, to protect itself, everyone's brain simply slides off it before ever noticing. They just assume that her existence makes sense, and don't question it, and don't notice what they don't question, that is staring them in the face.

But of course, to some extent they do notice. They can't think it, but they notice subconsciously that there's something they can't think. They notice there's something wrong with her, something uncanny. And they don't like it, and they alienate her even more because of it.

"Does it ever bother you Pond that your life existence doesn't make any sense?"

#like!!!!!! why arent we talking about this!!!!!!! #amelia pond #amy pond #the ultimate autism metaphor on top of being autistic anyway #doctor who #dw #ndw #dw theory #lavender thoughts #SHE CAN'T EXIST SHE IS LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE #you called clara the impossible girl but that's amy #and THEN the fact that even after it's all set right #she remains shaped by -- remains deeply traumatized by -- a timeline that never happened; a reality that never was #AUGH !!!!! #some wounds just can't heal even if the thing that caused them never existed in the first place #some wounds remain as a TRACE of the other time just as you yourself were once #THE mental illness rep of all time #and in the big bang of course the doctor had to take the shortcut because if they'd all gone the long way round #she'd have been gone before he got there #as starless universe's little amelia disappeared.... it could be millienia but from another perspective it HAD to be moments #they made it only in the nick of time #and the doctor knew that #pond #the life and times of amy pond

[martyrbat]

rev up – batman: overdrive

[ID: a monochrome panel of Bruce Wayne as a toddler. Bruce is sitting in a booster seat in the backseat of a car as Alfred Pennyworth drives him. Bruce points out the window and giggles, '‘meow!’ as Alfred fondly smiles. He gently corrects him, “The cow says mooooooo, Master Bruce!” END ID]

#BABY BRUCIE #BABY BABY BABY #don't ask me how i know but this is an autistic child. #this lil guy got NO idea how traumatized hes gonna become <333 #this (bigger) lil guy got NO idea how traumatized his employer's son is gonna be and how he'll start to see him as his own son <333 #c: batman: overdrive | rev up #crypt's panels #bruce wayne #alfred pennyworth #alfred & bruce

[drrenfield]

Confession time

I blame myself for getting SAed as a kid because i let it happen for months before i understood what was happening and even after that it happened for another few months before i told anyone

#renfied #personal vent #csa survivor #trauma vent #vent #sa survivor #traumatized autistic #autism

[fumifooms]

Ok I’m actually kinda emotionally wrecked over chapter 123. The cat was her last shred of comfort and companionship and she cut it, because she put its happiness before her own, acting selflessly, and put her trust in another human. And all of it was ripped away from her so cruelly. Her mom died so she could save that cat, but at least she saved the cat… And now everyone’s dead. She made the mistake to trust and now she’s alone.

The more we see of her the more I think we can understand why Yuko was so important to Asa.

#chainsaw man #csm manga spoilers #csm chapter 123 #asa mitaka #let her be asocial with her cat pls she’s autistic and traumatized #quick analysis #i think there should be a full complex analysis of Yuko… Maybe once tha part’s over #csm part 2

[secretlykoishi]

It is officially my 21st birthday! I'm doing my best to enjoy the day, but my financial situation is still an urgent concern, since I now have only a week to move out. If everyone with the means could donate just $25, I believe my goal could be reached in time.

You can donate to my PayPal at https://paypal.me/secretlykoishi?country.x=US&locale.x=en_US or to my GoFundMe, whichever works best for you! Thank you all in advance! I'm going to try to enjoy the rest of today!

#birthday #my birthday #gofundme #emergency #financial help #financial assistance #financial aid #aid #help #help please #actually autistic #actually traumatized #actually disabled #actually mentally ill #fundraiser #go fund me #crowdfunding #please help #links #signal boost

[hell-hospital]

everybody wanna "help and support" traumatized folks, until the traumatized person starts acting traumatized .-.

#💉🩸;; my posts #im so sorry i cant blend with society easy karen thats literally the point #actually traumatized #actually mentally ill #actually obsessive #actually autistic #paraphile #autoassassinophilia #actually ptsd #actually did #intrusive thoughts #actually schizophrenic