#this literally hurts me to look through

[saturnskyline]

temptation tuesday

rules: share something about an idea you have/something that's speaking to you/an au you'd like to see and are considering writing/etc. etc. Basically anything that is tempting you away from your current wips!

tagged by @lu-sn, thank you so much!! still in awe that we're mutuals tbh, you're the coolest <3

well.... the question is, what is NOT tempting me away from my current wips 🥲 apologies to anyone who has kept up with my snippet posting bc none of those are remotely close to done yet fjdkskfjs. for starters, my main wips from before were the vegaspete oneshot ("when i look deep down") and lita polycule shenanigans (as yet untitled). now, i have several more ideas that are circulating and i have no idea where i'm going with ANY of them, let alone the actual wips 😭 😭 anyway here's the shortlist eh oh el

vegaspete watersports of all things ??? i'm surprised too, this coming from a person who literally has never attempted smut ever and now i'm suddenly tempted to try THIS 💀 no title yet, but i do know that if this gets finished, there will be sexy gaslighting involved (both a threat and a promise)

drugged vegaspete sex where pete gets drugged as part of an earlier negotiation. SMUT AGAIN I KNOW. LITERALLY WHERE DID THIS COME FROM. anyway, if that even goes well, the working title is "i put your love on and sank into the glow" from a very lovely vegaspete coded song <3

had a thought recently (which i think i've read in fics before) about vegas having a garden and i just MAY have to write it smh. anywayyy most important part is he feeds pete with it and i think that's beautiful

toddblack something. very vague but i want biting and kissing for them so that's the starting point 🥰

3 will be free brainrot. consuming me always, to the point of me wanting to not only try smut but write sex for three people 😶 although i guess if i actually go through with lita there's four involved there sooooo. basically i guess i'm looking to try writing new things hehe

winteam !!!! who knows lol but they are certainly speaking to me and i have a google doc open there so that's something

so yeah, those are the current brain worms! hopefully i can finish at least one of them in the near future, or i may be in danger of losing my mind :D enough from me though, better tag some other folks @pitchercries @mandaloresson @m-a-w-a @lady-guts @shubaka in case you're interested ❤️❤️

#this literally hurts me to look through #the strength of my aspirations will be my ultimate demise 😔 #n e ways here you go #tag game

[mooifyourecows]

me and the metric paper wasp building a nest on my front door have a deep, emotional bond built from making eye contact multiple times a day through the glass and so naturally i wanted to express my love for him by way of little treat and looked up if paper wasps like sugar water but the search results were all "HERE'S HOW TO LURE WASPS INTO A TRAP TO KILL THEM AS HORRIFICALLY AS POSSIBLE TO ENSURE THEIR LAST MOMENTS ARE PURE TORTURE AND AGONY" and like no, sir, you do not understand, we are in love

#its seriously so cute #he sits on the window and is like totally chill and stuff #and then ill stand on the other side and look at him #and i can see him notice me #like his little antennae start moving #and he turns his head and moves to get a better look at me #and we just observe each other #it looks like hes literally having the same thoughts as me #which are 'look at this cute and interesting creature' #we are soulmates #anyway i'm a wasp lover front and center #my partner is like scared of them and always does evasive maneuvers when theyre around #and im always like wading through them like moses through the red sea like no they would not hurt me we are in love #and its true ive only ever been stung as a child #and only on accident #ie accidentally stepping on one when playing outside #they would not hurt me because i love them and they love me

[woulddieforperrytheplatypus]

*"favorite" is to be used loosely because it's really hard to pick a top nine

incentive to reblog: this link to a google drive folder of 137 Phineas and Ferb songs (a few are from MML ngl) cut and downloaded by yours truly years ago for your listening pleasure. download and listen to your heart's content.

#I picked a few and spaced them out through the top nine options and then I scrolled through the folder to fill in the rest #and the number of songs i added and then took away to put in a better one is embarassing #imagine having a solid top nine list could literally never be me #Weaponry babie you're here in spirit #the fact that i had to take out Evil For Extra Credit hurts me #the number of times I've sung 'don't you know that you're handsome! you're so good-looking! easy on the eyes!' to my cat is embarassing #and the fact that I'm Handsome didn't make the cut is even more so #ANYWAYS #here's a poll #and a link #enjoy #poll #polls

[abirddogmoment]

some thoughts about the pressures of trialing in dog sports and the emotional environment of trials, partially inspired by this post by the beautiful @mongrelization

this post happened to come at a time when I was at a decision point in my trial career with mav. he had just started refusing jumps (i thought it was a training issue at the time, i now know he was in pain) and he wasn't having fun. we were disconnected in the ring, with him choosing to go visit friends or just blow past obstacles without attempting them. it was frustrating and it was such a stark contrast from our training runs (not flawless but immeasurably better than our performances in the ring) and i was making jokes (as everyone does!) about mav being the worst, etc, etc.

except they weren't jokes.

they sounded like jokes and they even felt like jokes in the moment, but looking back i can confidently see that i was frustrated and resentful and the "lighthearted jokes" from other competitors and from myself were just fueling the fire. i saw darcies post shortly after a particularly frustrating trial where we just couldn't connect, i was trying to decide whether to push through and fix our issues or give up completely on agility.

her post wasn't an epiphany, i probably would've gotten there eventually, but her post that said, essentially hey its fucked up to make those jokes about your dog and its fucked up for people to make those jokes about your dog and thats not how a trial should be - something clicked. its NOT how it should be.

i took a break from trialing in everything and cut training way back and just took all the pressure off of mav while i got my internal emotional environment back on track. im a really competitive person and its hard to consciously dial that back, but more than that, it's legitimately embarrassing when things go wrong with people watching you. if your default is humor about it (like mine), its a hard shift to not make jokes about your dog when things go wrong. but its an important and necessary shift.

i started trialing him again after about 3 months off, very lightly. i stopped entering full weekends and opted to do half-days or only saturdays and he fucking THRIVED. i made time to meet all his needs before trials, i prioritized his happiness over technically correct courses, and i got over the embarrassment of excusing myself from a run if it was going downhill. i fixed my internal emotional environment and that fixed our disconnect and made every win more meaningful.

the thing is, i am 100% sure i would not have fixed my emotional environment if i was actively competing and practicing the same patterns. i absolutely had to take that step back to fix myself. you can't make meaningful change if youre still in the middle of it acting it out.

i lost out on trials with mav and that sucked so much in the moment. i had awful FOMO watching my friends compete and finish titles while we did little low-pressure walks at home. but ultimately i gained something so much more important, and looking back i can't bring myself to regret that at all.

#anyway here are some thoughts #its vulnerable dont look at me #i guess the tldr is: if youre stuck in the same pattern and things arent working #take a meaningful and legitimate break #(not a 'oh ill stop trialing and drill these skills' NO) #(an actual break where you take the pressure off you and your dog) #mav hurt himself from a freak accident that could happen to literally any dog that runs #if i had kept the pressure on i wouldve ruined the relationship we had built through training #take the break and take it for the right reasons (your and your dogs' emotional wellbeing) #you cant make meaningful change if you're actively practing your same patterns #i am so so so so so done with dogs lookjng miserable in the ring #if you are not having fun #of your dog is not having fun #if the vibe is 'frantic stressful manic' then i dont want to see it #(if you come at me about DrIvE i will block is2g this is not the post) #i want to see CONFIDENCE i want to see CONNECTION i want to see DELIGHT i want to see actual goodnatured HUMOR #i want to compliment you on the fsct that your dog looked happy #if (dog forbid) you lose your dog tomorrow #will looking back on your trial history bring you comfort? or will it make you sad because #you were always hoping that 'the next one will be better'? #and its okay if the answer is no #but if the answer is no - fix your shit #disclaimer this is not at anyone #this is a reflection of my personal Trauma #if you feel you must roast me about this consider: do not

[8rujaa]

my therapist really saved me….

#tw abuse // tw sa #i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this. #like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her #i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling #literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her #i was so dissociated during our first few sessions #thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out #i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking #i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session #she’s truly incredible. #i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’ #i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong #and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’ #she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be #best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’ #i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply #doing what’s best for me was an option… l #ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress #when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength. #yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D #me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress #im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help. #the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened. #my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’ #LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said #’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’ #she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point #she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help) #im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it #my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.

[aritany]

i’m beginning to think there’s a kind of indestructibility that comes with the territory of your first heartbreak being from your parents.

like, what are you going to do to hurt me? my superheroes chose religion over me. good try though

#alex talks #not writing #idk how to tag this #parental trauma #toxic family #no contact #if anyone has suggestions for how to better tag this lmk #i was just thinking about how i am relatively unbothered by people hurting me like yes it sucks but is it Worse? #i’ve literally been divorced because the idea of me post Hypothetical top surgery was not worth staying married to #and that was like. ok damn ouch. and it really hurt for a while #but nothing will touch the og hurt!! #(i am thinking about this because i had two facetime calls with my parents in the span of a month #in which it was reiterated that i am an Unreasonable Child for asking that my sexuality and gender id be Acknowledged let alone respected #and that the Love Of God is our example and we can love each other through differences of opinion #finally got to vocalize how hurt i’ve been over the last decade by their bigotry and got Literally ignored) #🙂 (heartbroken) #i’ve been trying to decide whether to even post about this where anybody could see it because it feels very real and raw and scary #but you know what i have no qualms about my own side of this story being public #and i think that if my parents didn’t want to look like villains they should have behaved less villainously #thank u for coming to my ted talk that is all #wait no it isn’t #if you’re reading this and your parents have ever made you feel like who you are is not important: they are NOT always right #you deserve to exist as you are #and that isn’t possible for everyone but it doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to take up space #ok that’s it for real

[starlooove]

Not the stop clogging the Duke tag page getting ppl mad

#don’t clog the tag then idk what to tell u #I don’t even post that much on there it’s literally just the shit that bothers me scrolling through the Duke tag #it shouldn’t be that much #plus I’m being nice I’m not counting shit that’s wildly outta character equality #well I did once and the person was like but I DID mention Duke #it was a throwaway line about him teaching tim slang. let that sink in fr #and another person was like I post about Duke all the time #and I’ll admit my heart did hurt a lil #which actually all the time was like four posts so #but anyways I’m not looking at usernames #u used the Duke AND Oliver queen tags and all they did was ask questions about how crazy the rest of the fam is #questions as in two as one question each to start and end the hijinks #like I didn’t scroll through ur page and decide u were a Duke hater #I scrolled through the tag saw some bs and posted it #im not even saying ur racist I’m just saying don’t clog the tag #if Voltron was still big I’d be doing this for allura #and this is about Duke but Justice for Oliver in that post too #like being a non batfam dc fan is hard enough #at least Duke gets bat proximity #stanning ​CONNOR HAWKE? NATASHA IRONS? forget it 😭😭😭😭😭 #oh in case I didn’t make it clear I finally did a draft dump from that blog 🤭

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

:(

#cw animal injury #i turned on the lights and our dog is covered in blood like??? hello??? #since when were you doing that and why didn't you tell me??? *cue frantic searching for gauze* #there's a big cut where his ankle meets his leg (inside of the hind right leg) #i have no idea how that happened #our dogs play rough but have never drawn blood #and he was outside alone and he was acting normally and not whining or anything? like speak up man i need to know this shit #his name is bunny btw and he's a big dog. purebred great pyrenees(?) if the ppl we got him from are to be trusted #i don't know how he got hurt #its way too big/deep for a cat to have done it and even if they're really upset they just paw at his face #my only guess is that there's something sharp in the yard? but it's too dark to look #idfk but we found the gauze and stuff and he did Not like that process good thing there were 3 ppl awake to hold him down safely #he still didn't whine through all of that though like. pls speak up man. we gotta know if ur in pain so we can fix it #i'm hoping it doesn't get infected. we don't have money to go to the vet but he's my sister's dog and she might actually kill someone if #he isn't fine #she has a theory that he may have gotten cut on smth our brother threw out there and like. she may literally kill him if this #was his fault and bunny isn't fine #so far he seems fine there wasn't too much blood and there seems to just be the one cut #but i didn't hear him yelp or whine or anything #and he didn't seem to be limping but the lights were off #idk man but we have cleaned him up as best we can for now but it is the middle of the night so we'll see what we can do in the morning

[corpsoir]

when all the stars are falling down into the sea and on the ground

#closeup under the cut because please look at bruno being in absolute agony in HD #this file is literally called agony.clip in my computer #im literally so sorry for this okay i dont even know why i made this #it made me very sad and upset! not worth it! okay yes maybe a little #yeah it was worth it. its pretty art but it hurts like a punch through your chest :) haha :) #this is fine. #corps kind of proper background debut of 2022 #cw blood #tw blood #cw gore #jjba spoilers #vento aureo spoilers #golden wind spoilers #jojo's bizarre adventure #jjba #vento aureo #golden wind #leone abbacchio #bruno bucciarati #bruno buccellati #bruabba #corps art

[akiraal]

there's just something about Lance's POV that makes a person want to see him go through the worst emotional turmoil imaginable before he can even consider being happy

#i might just be projecting but #the short lance pov chapter im writing in the keith centered fic? #yeah. its 10k+ and longer than any of the previous chapters #idk how yall write nice short little chapters. it feels literally impossible for me #and there are so many feelings somehow?? idk where that couldve come from #sorry. we put your blorbo through 9 circles of hell. what? no. it wasnt planned. he was just looking particularly hurt/comfort-able. #yeah i know. he has a lot bottled up. nothing a little more angst wont fix right? but the good new is: hes getting hugs and caring friends! #uh huh. so thats something to look out for while hes torturing himself mentally. #voltron #vld #lance mcclain #fanfic

[chromotps]

hi hello i had another acelu supernatural AU thought while I was working... I know Original Anon said it wouldn't get into the angels/demons storyline, BUT

what if there was still the doomed-brother plotline? Like, if it's Luffy who's like Sam, destined to be the vessel of a Lucifer-figure... maybe Nika (who I haven't gotten to in my OP read, so I'm just going on vibes) has chosen Luffy as its host. And it's mostly a creature of chaos/not purely evil, but it's so powerful that the longer it inhabits Luffy, the more likely it is that he'll be lost/"taken over"

meanwhile Ace is still the son of Roger, famed demon hunter and has taken on all his skills and tricks... but it's the way Ace is different from Roger—that he still sees Luffy as his brother, someone he knows and loves and has learned to trust—that allows him to save him

#ehh? eh? #i'm picturing like... at some point nika!luffy goes off on some kind of chaos rampage #but it's still kind of seeing things through Luffy's eyes so #the path of destruction across the country follows important places in Luffy's life #and as Ace is trying to track them down he learns about how luffy spent the time that they grew up apart #and meets luffy's friends (the strawhats!!) to ask them for help #but also learns that in little ways luffy was always thinking of him #anyway #big scene where they finally corner nika but he's like overloading with power #and it's that trope you know #where ace's choices are 1. strike nika down #or 2. let him live but it'll cause the destruction of like a whole state or whatever #and it's not that ace can't hurt luffy but he believes in luffy's strength to overcome this #look i LOVE the trope!! where he makes a speech and it gets through to luffy through all the chaos #and ace is like 'it may have looked like i was the one taking care of you all these years... but you were the one that saved me' #'and i need you to do it one more time. i know you can' #ahhhhhhh #acelu #headcanons #there's also the alternative where ace is the doomed one/maybe roger was a literal demon so now ace is on the angels' hitlist #it would be very similar to canon.... except if i have anything to say about it #he'd fucking live lmao 😂

[emometalhead]

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#having a day full of mixed feelings #I suppose this is how life goes #I'm officially done with my Bachelor's degree as of today #obviously I'm proud of myself for the accomplishment and I was excited to be celebrated today #it was a long and difficult road and there were many times where I didn't think I'd live to see it through but I made it #I'm the first person in my family to get this degree and I was really looking forward to having today be my day #I had a really lovely morning and then things kind of waned #there were a few arguments. someone I spent the day with repeatedly made negative comments about something I care about #it felt awful. I know it was intended as more of a playful jab than anything but I directly asked for the comments to stop and they didn't #it especially hurt that it was a fandom thing and the person is so invested in their own fandoms yet they felt it fair to step on mine #even though I've never done that to them #then people kept talking over me and acted like I was wrong for trying to interject to finish my own sentences #also as I said in the last post I was deeply upset by how my family members spoke of my 12 year old cousin #she's just a kid and some of our close family members have such a nasty opinion of her. she's so young and she's had a rough few years #but it seems like no one except my brother and I are willing to give her any grace #I think everyone else has forgotten what it feels like to be a kid and feel as if the world is against you #on a more positive note. I had a decadent slice of chocolate cake. it was heavenly #unfortunately I was really too in my head to fully enjoy it #literally every day for 3 weeks I've been talking about the lunch I planned to have today #I knew exactly what meal and dessert I wanted from the restaurant. it's my absolute fave and isn't available at any other local restaurant #I was totally starving by time we got to the restaurant. we were out all morning and I ate a tiny breakfast in anticipation of this meal #when we got there we found out they removed what I planned to order from the menu. I was devastated. #I know it's stupid but like this was the one part of my day that I've had planned for MONTHS and I've been thinking about it for weeks #we had a 40 minute car ride where I mentioned my excitement for the food no less than 10 times so this crushed me #also I'm just really picky in general and typically restaurants only have one or two things I'm able to eat #I offered to just eat the dessert while everyone else ordered food because they were all really hungry too but they wouldn't allow it #we left the restaurant and I still feel horrible for walking out. if I had known the item was removed we wouldn't have even gone there #it happened so recently though and I feel dumb for not even thinking to check the menu online beforehand #so we went to another restaurant and I barely ate anything and now I have no appetite for dinner and I feel bad for ruining the afternoon #even though it's my day and my celebration and I feel like I'm entitled to a slight amount of unreasonableness

[ennard-is-near]

*Jigsaw voice* Hello Scott. You make games for people to play, impossible games. Games requiring hours of rewatching cutscenes and listening to the same music. So now you’re going to play a game of mine.

In front of you is a Nintendo switch, set to an open copy of the Circus Baby 8-bit mini game, a game you made. If you’ll look down, you can also see that your balls are in a minutare springlock suit, another one of your creations. Your job is to keep all the springlocks on the suit wound up, while beating the 8-bit mini game. If you succeed, you will have learned the value of life, making games playable on all consoles, and how it’s not right to force people to torture themselves. If you fail, your balls will explode. You have 5 minutes. Good luck.

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf sister location #this is specifically about that game #I just beat the fifth night (it was hell) and now I have to beat the mini game to unlock the secret ending #I’m so mad at this man #circus baby #god I hate her #honestly it was fun to watch Michael get scooped through #that fucking idiot why didn’t he just dodge #she was literally sitting there going ‘we have to look like you dw the scooper doesn’t hurt that bad even’ #also the Rick Astley shot is bad and it makes me angry #but anyway back to trying to beat this mini game #I’m too stubborn to look up a tutorial

[icewindandboringhorror]

I love all of these goofy product photos where the water bottle is extremely obviously just photoshopped onto a stock image of someone pretending to hold something or whatever.. very convincing..

#the last one where the water bottle is like nearly the size of the woman's entire leg ghbjbjhh #ALSO I know.. gross.. nasty.. amazon.. I was only looking there because I was trying to find an exact replica of an old water bottle #I bought like 6 years ago in a store and I just wanted another one of those and it seemed like the only place the old manufacturer #still sold was through amazon but.. alas.. I think they just don't make them anymore. so I have abandoned my hunt #I didn't actually buy anything. but I did get distracted clicking through product images for a few of them #it's bizarre how like............... idk.. WHY is this done??? Isn't this offputting to basically ANY potential customer?? or do people #not look at every photo/read the entire page/all product information before buying?? #all of these are from like front page ''top sellers'' or whatever like........... how does this not hurt the brand???? #If the company can't even bother to take a single photo of a real life person using their real life product then... that to me #is kind of red flaggy..?? even if you're an indie start up small business with hardly any funds.. still #A real photo of the product you are selling in a real actual non-photo shopped environment does not seem that inacessible #Maybe it's because everyone does everything on phones now?? So it's harder to see the pictures when they're smaller? #Kind of the same thing with ai art and also hair color photoshops lol.. On my full comptuer screen it is SOOO easy to spot ai art #like IMMEDIATELy from the little tells and ways certain details morph into each other etc. I dont even mean obvious dalle mini stuff but #like the Fancy High Quality Photorealistic AI art is still pretty blatant 98% of the time if you know what to look for. But I still catch #people sharing it a lot like 'omg where can I buy this pair of shoes!! :O <3' .. erm you cannot.. that is the most balatantly fake looking #pair of shoes I have seen in my life hhjbj.. the heels are both different heights. there's a different number of straps on each one. etc. #AND that phase back before colored hair was Mainstream and people would post photos like 'omg going to bring this to the salon!! dream hair #and it's like.. you can LITERALLY see the parts where it's 'colored outside of the lines' and is so clearly just a person with blond hair #that someone drew over with a tint brush or something not even very neatly. etc. etc. ANYWAY.. Maybe with phones it's harder to tell these #things?? To me so much of it is instantly recognizable and it's suprising to me that people either don't notice or don't care and will #interact with it anyway by buying the product or acting like some ai art fake furniture is real or etc. etc. ..hewwoo #Aslo sidenote - I think I've become soo cynical and tired of constantly being advertised to that I literally cannot shop without getting #exhausted. I do not see how marketing is anything but obnoxious and transparent. Every item description having stuff like ''Our company is #commited to bringing you the highest quality water products! we set out with a mission to bring high quality products to people all over #the world and we believe in spreading health and happiness and'' just like SHUT THE HELL UP!! youre a fucking company #you don't ''beleive'' in anything you are here to sell a product. stop trying to talk like you're my bff who cares deeply about my health #or something just tell me the materials and product specifications of your stupid fucking water bottle and move on. Idont need to hear your #whole bullshit spiel about what ~your company stands for~ that is SO much MORE offputting. you make me want to buy the item LESS.. #longing for the type of ads from my 1800s magazines that are just like 'this product is good. please buy it. okay thank you much. bye'

[fellhellion]

This is literally nothing that I wasn’t trying to draw connection between in that one web weave post but god. Perceiving the threads connecting these characters.

Gwen for whom fatherhood and authority figure was conflated into one man, a man who at first chooses the role of authority over father. Miguel who fulfils the role of authority figure after this / “I tried to wear [this mask] the way you would want me to. And I didn’t!” <- paraphrased. Miguel who protects Gwen from her father’s choice to prioritise his role as an authority, only to fail to uphold the responsibility he has to her as an adult and mentor by reasserting his power as an authority, grappling for control over himself and how helpless he feels. Gwen’s father knowing what is asked of him as an authority is inherently incompatible with what is asked of him as a father, and upon reflection, unreservedly choosing fatherhood.

#there’s a whole different conversation to be had about how Miguel’s conception of fatherhood and authority figures intersects w this #+ his personal relationship to fatherhood w Gabriella (howeverrrrrr complicated that is) AS WELL AS analysing the power dynamics within the #nuclear family unit and how power traditionally operates and is taught to operate through fathers #the roles they occupy #is this ANYTHING lmao <- is literally just me saying what I was thinking in that web weave #tunes talks spiderverse #‘tunes what do u think of dad figure to Gwen miguel?’ OH BOY. do I think about what this relationship gestures at in the direction of that #idea or more so what we understand about Gwen’s relationship w her father in the brief snippets we have of her relationship w miguel #also. father IS a role of authority. I’m just using authority figure in terms of like. trying to describe other power dynamics abshdhjd #words fail me 😔 #but yeah to expand on Miguel a little more THE ENTIRE CONFLATION IN HIS LIFE BETWEEN FATHERHOOD AND AUTHORITY FIGURE #your father who helps maintains the surveillance state AND who has the familial authority to hurt you #who demands respect BECAUSE he occupies the role of father and your role as a child is to comply #killing George O’Hara w my bare hands for the look at me boy comments and what they represent

[pawphin]

long ramble in tags tldr: kindness rules

#was it genocide that got them to the human world or was it her kindness and promise at the expense of her past #who was ultimately the reason the goldy pond kids were able to survive and escape #who got stabbed by a demon and was in a coma for four weeks trying to protect her newfound family #ultimately shifting his perspective on humans and hunting in general and becoming a driving force in their efforts for freedom #who became best friends with the literal ''evil blooded girl'' and was able to come up with a sound solution to demons needing human meat #in order to maintain their forms #do you think norman would be happier knowing he had to be the sacrificial lamb killing children with his bare hands and fully executing it #do you think ray would be happier if emma had simply let him die instead of giving him a firm dose of reality and helping him to #live a life full of love and support and kindness #of course she isnt perfect and i most definitely would change a lot of things if i could but this is just one of the many comments i see #when youre blinded by hatred you cant think objectively #i understand that norman went through freakish amounts of hell but to put it in my perspective: if i were a demon #i highly doubt that i would fully understand how intelligent humans truly are #you know those videos of people boiling crabs alive and saying ''it doesnt hurt them'' #there would probably be a lot of rhetoric around that nature and all i would know is eat human fingertip = go play tag #so why would my parents deserve to die? what difference is there between cattle like pigs and cows in our world to humans in theirs? #anyways. im sorry for liking stories where kindness prevails and opens doors to opportunities previously thought imaginable #i hate constantly seeing this stuff when looking up tpn and it irks me it really does