#(if you come at me about DrIvE i will block is2g this is not the post)

[abirddogmoment]

some thoughts about the pressures of trialing in dog sports and the emotional environment of trials, partially inspired by this post by the beautiful @mongrelization

this post happened to come at a time when I was at a decision point in my trial career with mav. he had just started refusing jumps (i thought it was a training issue at the time, i now know he was in pain) and he wasn't having fun. we were disconnected in the ring, with him choosing to go visit friends or just blow past obstacles without attempting them. it was frustrating and it was such a stark contrast from our training runs (not flawless but immeasurably better than our performances in the ring) and i was making jokes (as everyone does!) about mav being the worst, etc, etc.

except they weren't jokes.

they sounded like jokes and they even felt like jokes in the moment, but looking back i can confidently see that i was frustrated and resentful and the "lighthearted jokes" from other competitors and from myself were just fueling the fire. i saw darcies post shortly after a particularly frustrating trial where we just couldn't connect, i was trying to decide whether to push through and fix our issues or give up completely on agility.

her post wasn't an epiphany, i probably would've gotten there eventually, but her post that said, essentially hey its fucked up to make those jokes about your dog and its fucked up for people to make those jokes about your dog and thats not how a trial should be - something clicked. its NOT how it should be.

i took a break from trialing in everything and cut training way back and just took all the pressure off of mav while i got my internal emotional environment back on track. im a really competitive person and its hard to consciously dial that back, but more than that, it's legitimately embarrassing when things go wrong with people watching you. if your default is humor about it (like mine), its a hard shift to not make jokes about your dog when things go wrong. but its an important and necessary shift.

i started trialing him again after about 3 months off, very lightly. i stopped entering full weekends and opted to do half-days or only saturdays and he fucking THRIVED. i made time to meet all his needs before trials, i prioritized his happiness over technically correct courses, and i got over the embarrassment of excusing myself from a run if it was going downhill. i fixed my internal emotional environment and that fixed our disconnect and made every win more meaningful.

the thing is, i am 100% sure i would not have fixed my emotional environment if i was actively competing and practicing the same patterns. i absolutely had to take that step back to fix myself. you can't make meaningful change if youre still in the middle of it acting it out.

i lost out on trials with mav and that sucked so much in the moment. i had awful FOMO watching my friends compete and finish titles while we did little low-pressure walks at home. but ultimately i gained something so much more important, and looking back i can't bring myself to regret that at all.

#anyway here are some thoughts #its vulnerable dont look at me #i guess the tldr is: if youre stuck in the same pattern and things arent working #take a meaningful and legitimate break #(not a 'oh ill stop trialing and drill these skills' NO) #(an actual break where you take the pressure off you and your dog) #mav hurt himself from a freak accident that could happen to literally any dog that runs #if i had kept the pressure on i wouldve ruined the relationship we had built through training #take the break and take it for the right reasons (your and your dogs' emotional wellbeing) #you cant make meaningful change if you're actively practing your same patterns #i am so so so so so done with dogs lookjng miserable in the ring #if you are not having fun #of your dog is not having fun #if the vibe is 'frantic stressful manic' then i dont want to see it #(if you come at me about DrIvE i will block is2g this is not the post) #i want to see CONFIDENCE i want to see CONNECTION i want to see DELIGHT i want to see actual goodnatured HUMOR #i want to compliment you on the fsct that your dog looked happy #if (dog forbid) you lose your dog tomorrow #will looking back on your trial history bring you comfort? or will it make you sad because #you were always hoping that 'the next one will be better'? #and its okay if the answer is no #but if the answer is no - fix your shit #disclaimer this is not at anyone #this is a reflection of my personal Trauma #if you feel you must roast me about this consider: do not

[kellykadesperate]

so a beautiful nonnie of mine asked for more underrated robron moments so here we go:

1)) let’s start with the LEGENDARY yet often forgotten dazzling look on robert’s face when he gets the text from aaron that he’ll meet him at the lodge. it’s INSANE. because if you really think about robert has been a massive dick for a good few months, he’s really fucked up and thinks he’s lost aaron and then suddenly things are going good again and NEWS JUST IN! FOR THE DORK! aaron still wants to rip his clothes off! so he’s ridiculously happy about the fact that he’s managed to get aaron by himself for a few days or whatever and he is radiating !! that single look just sums up everything he feels for aaron, everything he STILL feels for aaron and despite how disastrous the lodge was it still makes me feel all warm and gooey when i think about how EXCITED robert was about going to the lodge with his grumpy grump.

2)) RIGHT NEXT UP, the ridiculously hilarious moment where chas asks robert if he’s seen aaron because he didn’t come home the night before (too busy freezing to death in the woods #poor baby) and robert literally DROPS HIS HEAD and then TENSES HIS JAW before he manages to be all like “good for him” and make out like he’s not just been HAUNTED by pictures of some random having his hands all over HIS AARON. this is all after their ridiculously soft home farm week and robert has broken it all by announcing the immediate arrival of his #drop dead gorgeous wife, and you can see how it feels like a PUNCH IN HIS GUT out of nowhere?? because aaron is single, because aaron is able to do what the hell he likes and he CAN and SHOULD and that’s all he can think about and it’s written all over his face. it’s not worry until chas places it there in his mind, it’s jealousy there and even a little anger too and yeah it’s just everything and ryan kills it in a single look so let’s shout about it more pls.

3)) “YOU DON’T GET TO LIE ABOUT HIM AND WALK AWAY!!!!!” ~ SO … there’s so many ridiculously amazing moments in ssw which we all rant and rave about but this moment literally gives me shivers and it’s not talked about enough! aaron is WORKED UP, like screaming in lachlan’s face (danny kills it as per) and this part just shines through all of it to me. like it’s the crux of the whole thing! lachlan dared to lie about robert? he dared to make up something so horrendous, something so damaging just because — and aaron can’t handle it. he can’t handle the thought of robert being hurt and DESTROYED because of this lie and he CANNOT LET LACHLAN JUST GET AWAY WITH IT. so he does what? he kidnaps the brat and it’s wild and so unlike him in so many ways but it’s all because of the way he feels about robert. he literally doesn’t know what to do with how much he loves robert and so many people genuinely wonder if he does love robert as much as robert loves him and it’s just INSANE because yeah okay robert is more consistent with love declarations and whatever but aaron’s love for him can literally just EXPLODE into something messy and wild like kidnapping a teenager because he cannot risk losing robert. with robert, aaron has this strong sense of justice for the love he feels for him and the fact that it could be STRIPPED from him because of lachlan is not even an option so the creep cannot get to walk away from it all? he has to damn pay for not only trying to scare robert but also fucking up aaron’s heart and making him panic for a second. can we talk about this please? thanks.

4)) THE GIDDY HANDS IN POCKETS ALMOST JUMP THINGY ROBERT DOES IN THE WOOLPACK TOILETS AFTER BEING INTERRUPTED FROM KISSING AARON AND CONFIRMING THAT THEY ARE HAVING #HOME FARM WEEK ~ so like yeah it’s ridiculously soft and it was almost out of nowhere? the whole scene is just madness because aaron goes from this hard angry little dog who is legit fuming that robert is going away to spend the week with his wife because HOW THE FUCK DARE HE? and robert manages to soften him into this gooey marshmallow who just wants to keep kissing his ‘overly decorated in purple’ lover who is literally staying to BE WITH HIM. everything is soft until some random laughs too loudly and they break apart and it’s all this energy whizzing through the air, the chemistry literally sizzles and then robert walks towards the door, listens to aaron say “tomorrow then?” and he sucks in a breath, nods his head and SMILES before saying “tomorrow”!! it’s just wild, and they are just SO EXCITED and it’s mind blowing and yeah … Let’s talk about it Now.

5)) OKAY SO THE AMAZING DOMESTIC “OH HERE WE GO” followed by a roll eye by robert sugden to his soon to be fiancé who is trying to actually initiate deep level shit whilst driving ~ it’s hilarious full stop. it’s just the best and the way robert already KNOWS that aaron is going to get to the whole #deep level shit without even hearing it just literally sums up how well they know each other. it’s honestly sickening how comfortable they are in each other’s company? how rob is like ‘here we go, another lecture by my grumpy gorgeous hopefully fiancé in a few hours boyfriend who wants to discuss stuff i cannot deal with’ it’s just PERFECT and we need to shout about the level of domesticity in the moment!

6)) OKAY SO - the scene where aaron asks liv if she wants to go the theme park with him and robert and she turns him down and his face just drops as he asks “is this because of robert?” like … OH MY JESUS HE WAS SO SCARED THAT HIS SISTER WOULD NEVER LOVE SOMEONE HE LOVES!! he literally starts banging on about him wanting liv to get to know robert and how robert is nervous about it and he is literally rambling because it means so much to him and it’s insane. all my baby wants is a quiet little life with his sexy af little businessman boyfriend and his wayward sister and it isn’t working and he’s trying his damn hardest to just help everyone get along as best they can. like even when she still says no, aaron’s all like “can’t [liv’s plans] it not wait?” because believe it or not back then when it was in the midst of what many referred to as the cold stage, void of any romance, aaron was ATTEMPTING TO BUILD HIS FUTURE AND SET THE BUILDING BLOCKS TOGETHER IN A NEAT PILE, starting with his sister and his boyfriend being close. and it just makes me sob because it’s so soft and aaron is so family entered and has such focus and it’s all about robert and liv and his family and yeah … No one speaks about this moment as much as they should and it’s a crime because it sums up how desperate aaron was to include robert into his family/life.

7)) THE ADORABLE MOMENT OF DOUBT ROBERT FEELS BEFORE HE SHOWS VIC THE ENGAGEMENT RING FOR AARON AND HE SAYS: “WHAT IF HE FREAKS OUT?” - like ??? it’s just ridiculous soft and the way he slouches and looks all torn and almost regretful is so refreshing to see and nearly a little not exactly like robert j sugden. because in all honesty, this is robert, this is COCKY LITTLE 'everyone loves me eventually’ ROBERT SUGDEN and suddenly he’s all unsure and afraid and doubtful over something so big, something he has always deep down struggled to really grasp and that is AARON DINGLE’S LOVE FOR HIM. it manages to knock him down and make him feel small and unsure and it’s just this incredibly brief, incredibly important insight into his mindset and makes him appear so human and works with another layer of his character which isn’t always shown. and yeah, it needs to be shouted about more basically because it can be so easily overlooked but there’s so much behind it.

8)) THE TINEST LITTLE SMILE ON AARON’S FACE WHEN CHAS BASICALLY GIVES HER BLESSING ABOUT AARON GOING OUT FOR A DRINK WITH ROBERT TO “TAKE YOUR MINDS OFF THINGS” ~ like she’s obvs trying not to make it a big deal and failing in the typical mum way by shrugging her shoulders too much and aaron totally clocks onto it and he’s just FLAWED for a few seconds because this is his mum who hates robert flipping sugden with all her heart and soul and now – she’s giving her blessing and actually wanting robert to be around him and it’s wild for him, it’s insane for him to even try and get his head around. so he doesn’t even speak, he just has to nod his head slowly and it melts my whole heart because it means SO MUCH TO HIM and it shouldn’t because … they’re just Mates with a massive capital M but still … you can see the way it makes him feel, this mad blessing from his mum of all people and he allows himself to start believing that maybe this is all going to work out okay and yeah it’s just this soft glimmer of hope amongst such a shit load of drama and it’s perfecto. so let’s scream about it okay?

9)) OKAY SO IT ISN’T THAT BIG OF A DEAL BUT I GROW WEAK WHENEVER I SEE THE SCENE ON CHRISTMAS DAY WHERE THEY ARE GOING TO LEAVE AND ROBERT PASSES AARON HIS COAT BEFORE TAKING HIS OWN ~ shoot me if you think i am being dramatic but is2g there’s something so soft and sensitive and couplely about the moment and it just screams domestic bliss to me and helps add to the canon fact that robert is an absolute GENT and would so do that embarrassing thing where he pulls out aaron’s chair when they go to a restaurant or something like that and he has to then apologise for making aaron blush. anyways it’s just so cute, i can’t get over it and the way it’s just so charming and it’s just a regular occurrence within their relationship (rob does the same with food, like passing it to aaron before eating his own) and yeah … it’s the hight of domestic fiancé bliss and no one can tell me otherwise. let’s scream into the void about it pls.

10)) THE SCEEN AT THE SCRAP YARD AFTER VADAM HAVE GONE OFF TO GET MARRIED AND ROB AND ANDY COME LIKE LITTLE DETECTIVES DEMANDING ANSWERS AND AARON IS BEING HELLA DIFFICULT AND ROBERT LITERALLY SAYS “WELL WE CAN SEE WHERE YOUR LOYALTIES LIE CAN’T WE?” AND AARON IS LITERALLY LIKE … “YOU WHAT?” because holy cow he knows exactly what robert is attempting to talk about, he knows he’s trying to say that somehow because of their sexy time aaron shout rat adam out and he expects aaron to have his back despite treating him like shit, but that is their secret business and he’s hella confused about why robert is so boldly bringing it up in front of andy (who literally doesn’t flinch or question why even after robert looks back at him to almost check if he heard - it’s mad) like the whole thing is just HILARIOUS!!! robert is just so pissed off? because it’s adam who aaron has loyalty to not him, not the guy who he says he LOVES and he can’t get his head around the injustice of it all despite knowing full well it’s not that black and white. he’s just overwhelmed with things starting to get out of his control and the fact that aaron isn’t “dancing” to to his “little tune” and he’s just full on GONE by the whole encounter so has to switch up the game and change the convo real quick because shitttt a little bit of feelings spilled out over the scrapyard gravel and he looked needy and like a little boy who just wanted help with his project from his crush and wasn’t getting any at all and yeah it’s just Gold. the silence after he blurts it out … Gold, the squinty eyed reply from aaron … Gold, robert looking back towards andy to see if he’s even noticed anything … Gold, robert being all awkward and attempting to carry on the conversation … Gold. so can we talk about this a lot more?

there you go, just another ten underrated robron moments we need to scream about a lot more, hmu if you want more from my collection.

#robron underrated moments #robron

[wtfcami-blog1]

hmmm can i say all of them? and can phe be ❂? :) ily

☮ for an apologetic text

[ cami  → lido ] : i feel like i’ve been so fucking moody lately[ cami  → lido ] : it’s the stupid fucking baby hormones is2g[ cami  → lido ] : sorry for getting so emo all the time i dont mean to it just happens

⊙ for a reaction to your muse’s nudes text

[ cami  → lido ] : have u always been that crooked babe???[ cami  → lido ] : jk[ cami  → lido ] : but really i’d rather see it in person so make that happen 👅👅 

❋ for a hopeful text

[ cami  → lido ] : can you believe this?? [ cami  → lido ] : we both had such shit parents and now we’re gonna be parents[ cami  → lido ] : and we’re gonna make up for every single fuck up our parents made and we’re gonna be so much better[ cami  → lido ] : we have to be

☯ for an adoring text

[ cami  → lido ] : thank you for being with me through all of this shit[ cami  → lido ] : i kinda thought you were going to run or tell me you didn’t want it when i told you i was pregnant[ cami  → lido ] : but like you’ve been so great and almost fully sober and it means so much[ cami  → lido ] : i really care about you a lot

ღ for a friend-crush text

[ cami  → lido ] : i like u, do u like me??[ cami  → lido ] :  check yes or yes[ cami  → lido ] : [ ] yes   [ ] yes

❤ for an affectionate text

[ cami  → lido ] : the baby wants to cuddle[ cami  → lido ] : like idk i mean she has a mind of her own[ cami  → lido ] : i mean u know i don’t really like cuddling so much[ cami  → lido ] : but she told me she wants to and we can’t tell her no

✂ for a worried text about the receiver

[ cami  → lido ] : babe[ cami  → lido ] : babe??[ cami  → lido ] : i saw your dad talking to you[ cami  → lido ] : what’s going on?? is everything okay??

☺ for a complimentary text

[ cami  → lido ] : you legit have such a cute butt[ cami  → lido ] : it’s so nice and round[ cami  → lido ] : and then ur back dimples are adorable[ cami  → lido ] : but really i think ur butt is my fav part of u[ cami  → lido ] : and u’ve officially run out of cami compliments for the month 

❂ for a text about another character (hophelia)

[ cami  → lido ] : how could arlo treat her like this??[ cami  → lido ] : like she’s legit a queen and he just tosses her to the side??[ cami  → lido ] : he knows what he’s doing and he keeps doing it[ cami  → lido ] : and ophelia deserves so much more she’s been through so much[ cami  → lido ] : i swear i’m going to kill the next person that hurts her

✳ for a holiday text

[ cami  → lido ] : happy no socks day[ cami  → lido ] : i hope ur wearing socks just to stick it to the man

♆ for a sext

[ cami  → lido ] : this second trimester horniness was no joke[ cami  → lido ] : babe[ cami  → lido ] : i need u to drop whatever ur doing and come over rn[ cami  → lido ] : i might already be reaching for my toys…

☼ for a joking text

[ cami  → lido ] : youre gonna be the one to drive me to the hospital when im in labor right??[ cami  → lido ] : lol jk you’ll kill us both and a girl scout 

↔ for a bitching text

[ cami  → lido ] : my back is fucking killing me[ cami  → lido ] : and then this bitch grabbed a dress right out of my fucking hands at bendels and said ‘lol ur too fat for this bitch’[ cami  → lido ] : ok she didn’t say that but i swear her face did and i wanted to punch tf out of her for it

♣ for a gossipy text

[ cami  → lido ] : ok but like are reza and mariana going to happen??[ cami  → lido ] : bc he’s like a huge fucking dick and she deserves better[ cami  → lido ] : but like i saw them dancing and she seems super into him wtf

$ for a lying text

[ cami  → lido ] : shut up i hate you

☆ for a longing text

[ cami  → lido ] : i feel like i haven’t seen you in like 3 years[ cami  → lido ] : idc if ur busy come over rn[ cami  → lido ] : i have needs

♬ for a fangirl/boy gushing text

[ cami  → lido ] : why don’t you and matty hang out as much anymore??[ cami  → lido ] : you two were my otp[ cami  → lido ] : mattido

★ for a dumb meme or inside joke text

[ cami  → lido ] : youre such a heinous rat is2g[ cami  → lido ] : omfg[ cami  → lido ] : if you ever get back into the dj thing u should make that ur stage name heinous rat

♘ for a questioning text

[ cami  → lido ] : ok but like[ cami  → lido ] : who tf was that ugly ass brunette?? 👀👀

♬ for a music rec or lyric text

[ cami  → lido ] : but what’s somebody in a nobody town?

☽ for a sleepy text

[ cami  → lido ] : our little girl take all of my energy away[ cami  → lido ] : all i did was walk a few blocks and now i can barely keep my eyes open[ cami  → lido ] : she’s just a tiny thing and she’s already trying to take me for all that i have[ cami  → lido ] : and she’s winning, good night

☢ for a snarky text

[ cami  → lido ] : why the fuck is patience a virtue? [ cami  → lido ] : hurrying the fuck up should be one instead gdi

#lidcs

[meetmeatthecoda]

All right well...

... I didn’t think I’d be making any more posts about The Blacklist any time soon but hey, life has a way of surprising you that way (see: the current American political climate). So I have some feelings about tonight’s ep (WHAT ARE FEELINGS I BARELY REMEMBER) and, believe it or not, they’re mostly good! So, in case there’s anybody still out there who gives a shit about this show and/or my opinions about it, here’s a summation of my current state of mind.

Fair warning: This is a long-ass post.

Okay so last week’s ep was complete shit. The whole “WE HAVE A BIG SURPRISE CAUSE OH NO A MOLE WHO COULD IT POSSIBLY BE OH WHOOPS WE SPOILED IT IN THE PROMO BUT OH WELL WE’LL JUST PRETEND WE DIDN’T” fiasco with nary a scene with both Red and Liz in a room together because, what, like that works? Whatever, you get it, it was crap. But I’m gonna talk about THIS week because my sanity is important to me.

So. I actually thought it was really pretty good (I know, how are pigs not flying and meatballs not falling from the sky). As long as you ignore the vomit-inducing Keen2 playing house and “repairing their relationship” bullshit. (That was physically hard to type btw.) There was actually an interesting, if initially slightly creepy, blacklister story, no completely boring post office team shit, Red displaying some very interesting goals and behavior (ohhh, don’t worry, we’ll get back to that), and some actual Red/Liz interaction. Shocker. So, obviously, I’m gonna focus on Red & Liz because.... well, what the fuck else is there? Okay, so.

First of all, let this lizzington rant be prefaced by the fact that, yes, I know Tom still exists, unfortunately, but he is leaving for the blessed spin-off in February hopefully after a Jupiter-sized blow-up fight with Liz that will make him never come back. Ever. This hope is inspired by the stupid, god-forsaken promo that I accidently saw on NBC the other night where Tom says into a phone, “A second chance. That’s all I want.” Didn’t he already get this? You know, when Liz took back her abuser and started a family with him? Why would he need another (fifteenth) second chance? Did the whole “perfect family” thing with Liz fall through? Why, oh why, would that be? A discrepancy about parentage of one little girl perhaps? (second filming in the shipping container anyone?????? Pleaseijustreallywantthattocometosomethingcanyoublameme) Well whatever. I don’t care what drives Tom away so long as something does. So with the spin-off, I’d like to think we’re pretty much guaranteed that, at least for a little while (dare I type it?) So with that in mind, I’m just gritting my teeth through the Tom scenes for now. Okay, moving on. Also because I apparently have nothing better to do than watch this stupid show out of the corner of my eye while pretending to be on my computer and not let this shenanigans affect me at all

So. Back to where we all want to be: Red&Liz. Based on this ep, they seem to be on pretty interesting footing. Liz thanked Red. Maybe it was a bit of a backhanded compliment. Oh well. I think we’ve come to expect that from Liz. At least she mentioned it. I’ll take it. I was, however, surprised by Red’s rather frosty reception. He’s not groveling at her feet for scraps of attention as he once did. As @ihaveyoulizzington graciously reminded me, Red & Liz still haven’t really talked since Liz faked her death and Red was wrecked. So yeah. Some residual hard feelings are to be expected. Since being reminded of that, Liz’s cheerful, friendly attitude is a little ridiculous, per usual. But I think she is trying to be nice, with the whole Red asking to see her new place (CUTE BABY) and her kindly saying, “not yet, maybe someday” (some DAY?! Not some TIME?! Are you SHITTING me?!) and Red’s cute pouty lip and “welp, okay then, whatever” expression. In summary, I think they’re trying. (The puzzle piece was also very symbolic, I thought. As soon as Liz said “someday” and Red accepted that, the last puzzle piece fit right into place. Maybe with that promise from Liz, Red can start putting himself back together again, just like that puzzle. At least that’s what I got from it.)

And now back to Red’s behavior. From the beginning of this ep, I thought that it was a little strange. The first scene or so of the ep was depicting Tom and Liz’s “blissful home life” (a la the pilot) and then they went to Red in that weird all white apartment, freaking out the real estate lady, when he usually goes to such lengths to put innocent non-criminals, especially women, at ease around him. And for the whole ep, he was obsessed with the white carpet and how there was no stain. Red is usually not stuck on one topic for that long. But he just kept raving on about it with a weird look in his eye. I think he was trying to block out the guilt he still feels (and Dembe is still inflicting) over Kate’s “murder” (in quotes bc she’s still alive bc no one dies on this show). This manic, obsessive behavior coupled with trying to complete an all-white puzzle in an all-white apartment throughout the whole ep was, I though, really meant to represent his current mental state. Kind of shell-shocked, not processing everything that’s happened and affected him more than he’s willing to let on, in denial about a lot of his feelings, feeling distanced/never really reunited with Lizzie, and just his ever present mountain of guilt. Just call him Atlas, amiright? Sorry, I’ll stop. So yeah, I think Red is really lost and hurting and it looks like that’s gonna come to a head real soon and I couldn’t be more glad that they’re actually showing that. ALSO, DEMBE. THAT PRECIOUS CINNAMON ROLL. I HAVE MANY FEELINGS. Firstly, when that underling Red manipulated into betraying his boss asked Dembe, “Could you shoot your boss?” and Dembe said, “I don’t know.” WHAT. NO. DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE TPTB. DON’T YOU DARE RUIN THE MOST PRECIOUS, INNOCENT, HEALTHY, AND SOLID RELATIONSHIP ON THIS SHOW WITH YOUR BAD CHOICES. NO. DEMBE LOVES RED LIKE A FATHER AND RED LOVES DEMBE LIKE A SON. DON’T YOU DARE RUIN THAT. I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE YOU. IS2G. *ahem* Sorry. I mean I get that Dembe has some hard feelings about Red “killing” Kate, that’s only to be expected, cause I imagine Kate was the only mother Dembe ever really knew. So I get it. But Red is also the only father Dembe knows and Dembe would never hurt him. Never. It was much more in character and exponentially pleasing to me to see Dembe go to Liz about Red instead. Like yes. That is straight out of fanfic and I’m fucking here for it. And before Dembe mentioned the whole “Red ‘killed’ Mr. Kaplan btw I don’t think you knew g2g bye” I was ALL FOR Liz going to Red because SHE’S THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN HELP HIM and saying, “Red… I’m here. Come back to me. I need you to be here.” Etc. Don’t fucking get me started, I can reference a list of approximately 894 fanfics where this happens and I want to see every single one play out on screen. Anyway. In reality, it’s probably going to be an angry confrontation but I’m actually looking forward to it. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that there will be tension and anger between the two of them because of a NEW ISSUE. NO FATHER DRAMA OR “I WANT ANSWERS” BLAH BLAH this is a new thing that hasn’t been addressed before that has strong emotional connections for both of them and I’m here for that ensuing argument like

Liz: “Red, how could you?! She was only trying to help me! And she loved you! How could you not at least try to forgive her?!”

Red: “She took you from me! I almost died when I lost you and she was behind it all! I cannot forgive that, not even for her!”

Like yes. That’s some good-ass drama and some feelings may come to light and I’m here for that shit. Yes.

Anyhoo, before I get too carried away with that (even though restraint is kind of a lost cause at this point in this endless post), let’s just touch on that promo, shall we? Undercover-thief!Liz. Sign me up. That shit has potential. And with that above argument leading into Liz just snapping, “I’m going undercover. Don’t try to contact me. I think it’s best that we spent some time apart anyway. Goodbye Red.” And then Liz goes undercover to be a younger, hotter, more criminal Liz all while Red looks on with that anger and tension bubbling underneath and he can’t help but find himself even more hella attracted than usual to this especially sexy version of Liz that is all of a sudden a lot more like him. Yus. Gimme some of that, please and thank you. This is practically fanfiction writing itself. I have about 57 scenarios running around in my brain, half that I’ve read in fanfic already and half that I definitely want to read asap. Example: Red not listening to Liz and bursting in on the undercover scene and taking out his frustration with her by introducing himself as her bf or husband or some kind of sexual relation and they get rid of some of that tension by acting sexy for the others cause they gotta sell that fake relationship so Liz doesn’t get made, right? No I don’t have a favorite trope of course not why do you ask Anyway, what I’m saying is this could actually go somewhere, ya know? I’m kinda excited.

Sooooo believe it or not, I will watch next week and hopefully enjoy it. Here’s hoping for a good time. Also PLEASEEEEE for the love of god please let this spawn some undercover-thief!Liz and interfering-criminal!Red sexy fanfic. Please. Okay, thanks bye.

(Also, if you made it to the end of this shit-ass post, you deserve an award. K.)

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