#i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this.

[pandalexoxo]

OKAY BEAR WITH ME Y’ALL. I HAVEN’T PLAYED THE GAME SO I’M JUST GOING OFF OF SOME TIRED OLD MAN TROPES.

FRANCIS MOSES x READER

also, i haven’t written down any of my rules, but i don’t have any limits! i’ll write whatever requests people send me! whatever your dark mind can think of will be my pleasure to create!

i don’t mind if you’re not 18+, since, if i ever do make smut i’ll just label it as 18+ and TRUST that 18+ ONLY will read. you all have probably seen, but i’ve just written about my thoughts of different fandoms so far so there’s no 18+ posts YET. (maybe i’ll make this account SFW and do another for NSFW? idk, i normally post on other platforms but randomly decided to give tumblr a try lol)

as a NM/trans man myself, i TRY to keep my readers gender neutral by not really describing the characters features. hard on TRY bc i know the last blurb fic i made of dead plate was Rody x Male Reader lol, oopsies! anywhooo, enjoy~!

WARNINGS! doppleganger mention, possible unconsciousness, possible death, possible unfunny dialogue (bc sometimes i’m the only one who finds me hilarious lmfao), you’re kinda a baddie ngl, you and Francis are besties, Francis is a cat lover?! Francis is a tired old man who hates technology. phone mentioned despite the first wireless phone being made 23 years after the story takes place (use your imagination) uhhh, anything else i forget? comment below!

Francis let out a long sigh of relief, taking his cap off with one hand, using the other to dab away at his sweaty forehead with a handkerchief. Upon seeing the exhausted man, you can’t help but smile softly, shaking your head as you get ready to scold him, once again. You cross your arms, looking at him through the window with a playful disappointed glare.

“mhm mhm, what do we have here? you really should be getting more sleep, mr. milkman, your eyes are starting to sport their own eye bags.”

with this comment, Francis shakes his head but is unable to stop the small, yet tired smile on his face. he bends down to place the crate of milk jugs onto the floor before handing over his ID card. you hum, narrowing your eyes when Francis doesn’t give into your whims. you eye his card, glancing at it a few times before slipping it back to him with a chuckle.

Francis’s eyebrow raises in confusion at your reaction but ends up shaking his head, rolling his eyes playfully and sighing softly. he places his cap back on his head and huffs, deeming your reaction as a go ahead inside.

“now… what if i was a doppelganger? you aren’t even going to call my room to check if someone is there? such a reliable doorman we have.”

despite Francis’s playful tone, your grin slips into a frown as you study Francis from behind the glass. this causes him to tense up, suddenly feeling nervous, like he did something wrong. you hum, tilting your head into your palm as you seemingly analyze Francis for a little while before deciding to speak.

“what’s up brother?”

Francis blinks a few times in surprise, his head tilting in confusion at your question. His eyes narrow as he thinks about the question you asked.

“what’s… up… brother…?”

Francis looks up at the ceiling, taking your question to heart. upon seeing nothing on the ceiling, Francis can only shake his head and sigh at your antics.

“are you done with your tomfoolery, (Y/n)? i’m quite exhausted and would like to go up to my room and rest.”

you can only shake your head, clasping your hands together like a disappointed father getting ready to discuss their kids grades at the dinner table. you begin to explain.

“when Francis first walks in here, he always forgets one of three things… his keys, his hate or the crate of milk. you came in here, although exhausted, you seemed put together, unlike Francis, who is clearly going through a midlife crisis. Francis will then ask me about my cat, well, because he’s a cat person, though he insists no one knows. oh, and, Francis’s home phone has been broken for the past few days and is actually at the store, right now. so, Francis being here so soon, isn’t possible. that, and, well, Francis never understands my references, but indulges me anyway… anything else i forgot, doppelganger?”

you bat your eyelashes, smirking from behind the window like you just cracked down the traitor in your group. with each statement, Francis’s doppelgänger’s face becomes visibly more and more angry until the doppelganger begins to completely change: black eyes with white pupils, a wide and eerie black mouth, adorned with long and sharp claws on the end of the doppleganger’s elongated limbs.

“you… you’ll regret this… i will get in one day and get my feast, starting with you. i’ll gut you, keep you alive so you can watch your organs fall out of your body and your blood splatter against-! *CLANK! BAM! PLINK!*”

before the doppelganger could finish his fantasy, much to your amusement, the doppleganger’s body tenses upon being struck before crumpling to the floor after becoming unconscious. you look up from the doppleganger’s body to see the real Francis hovering above the possibly dead doppelganger. you shrug, knowing that you wouldn’t have to call DDD services to take care of the mess, now you just have to clean up the body.

“mmm… tuesday… tuesday…? did i get that right?”

you hold back a chuckle at Francis’s response to your last question. you can only nod, letting Francis have the win this time. pinching the bridge of your nose and sighing, a loud laugh bubbles up from your throat as the two of you realized what Francis had hit the doppelganger with.

“ngh… i just bought this phone, damnit… his hard head must have broken it.”

#tnmn #tnmn milkman #tnmn fanfic #tnmn francis mosses #tnmn x reader #tnmn x male reader #that’s not my neighbor x male reader #that’s not my neighbor x reader #francis mosses x male reader #francis mosses x reader #doppleganger #d.d.d

[8rujaa]

my therapist really saved me….

#tw abuse // tw sa #i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this. #like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her #i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling #literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her #i was so dissociated during our first few sessions #thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out #i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking #i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session #she’s truly incredible. #i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’ #i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong #and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’ #she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be #best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’ #i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply #doing what’s best for me was an option… l #ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress #when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength. #yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D #me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress #im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help. #the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened. #my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’ #LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said #’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’ #she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point #she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help) #im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it #my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.

[mrsdulac]

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#a wonderful day turned into a horrific night #i am freaking out #i was staying with a friend #a really good friend and i love them so much #i truly do but their home is infested and I don’t do well with bugs #i tried my hardest to spend the night but there were bugs all over me and i just couldn’t take it #and it was freaking me out #to the point where i think i had a panic attack #so i ordered a uber to go home #in the middle of the night #and i can still feel the fucking roaches on my skin #and I’m breathing real hard in my uber trying to keep it together #and i feel so awful about it #bc i didn’t wake them up to tell them i was leaving #i was honestly just thinking about escape #but i know it’s gonna hurt their feelings which i don’t want to do #but i just can’t sleep in a place where bugs are gonna crawl all over me like #one of my biggest fears is a bug crawling inside my body via my ears or nostrils or whatever #so i just ran #and i feel like that makes me a bad person… #i’m just having a really bad night rn #and could use a hug or three

[the-travelling-witch]

hi hollyyyy im just dropping in to provide some additional info regarding kingdom hearts/FF to the non FF/KH players 🏃‍♀️

sora (the lil guy u posted) is actually a brunette 14-16 (depending on game) years old kid

the reason why some might confuse cloud w him/KH is bc cloud (and other well known FF characters such as tidus(x), selphie(viii), aerith(vii), squall(viii),etcetc) also appear in the KH games as characters :) FF/KH have the same publisher and designer (most ff games) and its not a disney game but rather a collab. sorry for rambling, youn out 🏃‍♀️

hiii youuuuuun!! it’s definitely nice to have someone around who’s knowledgeable on ff if i ever do wanna pick it up

(lmao i actually know who sora is and that he’s brunette despite having not much interest in kingdom hearts, i think i watched some content for it when i was younger, i was just trying to pass him as dirty blond for the joke jsjsh /silly; i was not informed on his age though, so i partially retract my twink statement)

i didn’t know that they had the same designer since they never really felt similar to me, but now that you mention it i do vaguely recall seeing sora and cloud next to one another some time

(but honestly i might have passed it off as being from smash bros since i think both of them are in there? or at least cloud and shulk are, i think, idk i didn’t keep up with who they added lol)

anyway, don’t worry about rambling, i really don’t mind <3

#┊✩彡 divine correspondence ♡ #┊✩彡 cherished guests ♡ #┊✩彡 letter from — youn ♡ #i keep seeing ffviir vids on my fyp #and the game looks really good #but i can’t shell out 70€ for a game i don’t have time to play ㅠㅠ #‘i really don’t mind’ from the person who went on a 1.5k ramblepage (a ramble rampage) about one silly hc #┊⩇⩇:⩇⩇ ✧˖° #<— might as well put this here #i’m far from coherent and should be sleeping already #i think i need to mark better when i’m joking #the people i talk to regularly know that i’m not serious most of the time #but i forget that not everyone can read my mind hshsh my bad #this also made me realise that i use their names (cloud sora shulk) too little bc i just expect everyone to know who they are atp

[roses-and-tears]

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#I have spent. 8 almost 9 hours resetting my laptop. I chose the option to keep all my files but uninstall apps. and it has been restarting #and installing for almost 9 hours. yeah I get that the process will be long. but ffs #I have been bored the past few hours so I watched the smile movie bc I got reminded of it yesterday #it was pretty bad. the couple gorey scenes towards the end were nice but some of the acting and writing was just terrible #I was also hoping the movie would’ve taken a different turn. I think it would’ve made it more.. idk. I can’t think of the right term.- #-it just would’ve made it better I think. #I’ve also eaten a lot today. more than I usually do. more than I have in months and years and im upset about that. im already bloated. #I hope I don’t work tomorrow. I have to call in in the morning to check. and I don’t mind working but rn I just kind of want to spend the #day relaxing #I’ve spent almost 9 hours on this resetting part. and 4 extra hours trying to simply repair it in restarts #I also need to clean up my room. a lot of it. and clean my pets cage. it’s ant season now and im really stressed about that #the smell of sharpie returns and I am just. overwhelmed. I have 3 days to prepare for my special week long activity and im not happy about- #-that. #I also had some feelings earlier that im stressed over too. #im being vague about that bc i just don’t want to go off about that to everyone #im tired and overwhelmed i just want my laptop to finish resetting so i can stop fretting about this. i want to sleep #im tired. of so much #to delete later

[terriblelizbians]

whenever im really really stressed and too scared to open my computer bc there’s deadlines in there, and then i finally peek at my email and there’s something saying the deadline has been pushed back. oh it does something bad to my brain. but good to my heart...

#like thank fuck bc i was procrastinating and about to be Fucked #but also this is absolutely enabling my procrastinatory tendencies #but also it would have been. Bad if i didn’t have more time #i think i would have been able to get it done but then i would definitely skip my early morning class tomorrow #which ive already missed too much of because i can’t exist in the morning #not to start crying about a different issue on this post about one issue but. #it sucks in general the whole ‘you only get our minimal meager accommodations if you give us proof from a hundred doctors’ bs #but my sleep-tired-whatever problems is especially frustrating for me personally #like i know it’s not my fault or my choice and i know it’s literally just how my body works #but it feels like. impossible to convey to people who demand that sort of proof #’sorry i keep missing your class. um well it’s because im too tired. yes i know everyone is but it’s different for me. it’s like a Thing.’ #i know technically i can go get like. specific sleep related tests all done or whatever. #i just don’t like talking to doctors about my problems lol

[pepprs]

not doing good. at all

#purrs #today and yesterday ive been unspeakably depressed. and no one knows what to do with me and i don’t know what to do with me. but ivs been ge #getting absolutely SHIT sleep bc of my siblings staying up late and my sisters ocd stuff which is probably part of it. I now im wide awake a #and it’s 2 and im miseravle and can’t sleep and already did sleep for 2 hours and it didn’t help and im hungry and weak #i truly don’t n kw what’s wro ng with me. i want to be happy and normal but every day i have long moments where im trying so hard not to cry #and i think most ppl would excuse themselves to go cry or take a break or like. speak up and ask for help if they’re miserable but i don’t d #do any of that. i just hold it all in until i get so tired it disappears. and then when i do snap im too miserable and ashamed to actually b #be honest about how anyone can help me which only makes me cry more. atp idk what will help. im in therapy now im about to have some time of #km eating food i like even though it’s not the healthiest ive tried resting and getting sleep and whatever. maybe im just not cut out for #any of what im doing and i just need to detach myself from reality even harder than i am already doing apparently. idk nothing im typing is #making sense i just can’t fall asleep now and im so pissed at my siblings and im pissed at my whole family for not giving a shit that im mis #miserable and easily overstimulated by noise bc i could’ve had ghe room downstairs and im still being held hostage by redacted and being #shaken awake to redacted like last night and work is killing me for the dumbest reasons. i literally cannot keep living like this #delete later

[hellfireeddiemunson]

i should really just go to sleep but i don’t want toooooo i don’t want to wake up and go to work 😭😭😭😭😭

#i wish i could have a month off of work no consequences and i still got money for it i just wanna be able to do whatever i want and have #free time and i don’t want to have to work this kuchhhhh i’m sick of it and i’m SO TIRED IN THE MORNING it makes it absolute HELL to try to #get to work on time i’m late every single day and have been for MONTHS bc my schedule is exhausting for someone who can’t keep a consistent #and GOOD sleep schedule i just wanna stay up late sometimes and sleep early other times but i work the same time all of the time so i’m just #running off not enough sleep EVER and have to take naps if i even CAN and then that in turn fucks up the time i’ll sleep after that #like i literally CANNOT win here i don’t get what i’m supposed to do i don’t want to do it anymore dude #i wish at. LEAST i could go in like a half an hour later i genuinely think i wouldn’t be late everday but waking up between 6-7 is HARD and #the earlier i wake up the more time i need to try to be awake but the later i wake up the more i scramble and fight to try and get ready #fast enough like even THAT i can’t get down right !!!!!! i just want to be able to go to work on time and not have anxiety about it everyday #my boss clearly doesn’t care enough and that’s fine i should be relieved to know she just cares that i show up and do my shift but like i #just don’t know dude i’m just going on and on and i need to shut up #i’m going to smoke and go to bed soon i guess???? idk i’ll be on here til i do tho

[justinefrischmanngf]

going through it.

#i literally thought to myself i need to be 6 again which is how you know things are Not Good!!!!!!!!!! #i don’t know what i Want and it’s driving me CRAZY and every option feels so scary but i don’t think in actuality it is #i’m so fucking tired but i can’t sleep bc i was stupid and slept at 6pm and fucked it up #i have two classes tomorrow and i havent done the work for either of fjem #* them which is embarrassing and i need to make a decision that is quite significant and i thought i knew what i was going to do about it #but now i’m not sure and every minute is getting closer to when i do have to decide #and i’ve got a roommate again so i cant even just. like. idk. #and physically i feel like shit and i have to see my dad tomorrow night and i just wish i wasnt attached to anyone ever #but clearly i dont bc i keep doing things that make me attached to things/people so i need to get over myself #and i’m really worried abt something happening at home like idk it’s set off alarm bells in my head #all of this will be absolutely fine i just wish there wasnt an all of this in the first place #and i wish i could fault something other than my bad decisions but at the end of the day these are consequences of my actions so like. #that’s that and now i have to deal with it

[tyrianlynch]

I started watching Suits today and have been playing the sims nonstop and have been reading nothing but fanfiction about gay firefighters and articles about how the CIA started a domino effect that created al qaeda and the taliban so yes I’m doing super well mentally

#I’m honestly like doing okay in a lot of aspects like I feel like I’m taking steps towards having a life I enjoy #but taking small steps over a long period of time gets so exhausting #and I keep saying ‘I just need to keep going and keep trying to add things into my life that bring me joy and then life will be better’ #but it’s taking so fucking long and I’m tired of the ‘just keep going’ part and wanna get to the ‘every waking moment isnt a nightmare’ part #like can that happen now please #and I keep getting too cocky and thinking I’m there and universe does its best to push me down and put me in my place #I have a great day with a new friend at a beautiful location? cool but ur gonna be in such bad pain u can’t stand for at least 3 days after #i go out to eat with my family? sick but ur gonna get nauseous no matter what u eat and ur gonna be so exhausted ur gonna sleep for 2 days #and it’s just never gonna end is it? bc that’s the chronic part of chronic illness #this is the life I’ll be subjected to until the day I die #anyways not even my deep mental anguish can stop me from obsessively reading about the Soviet-Afghan war #and the main guy of suits is such a pathetic babygirl and I’m obsessed with him #and my sims are about to graduate college #and I’ve been writing and I made new friends and was invited to an event with them and am going to a dance party in a week #and I’m trying really hard to remember that things aren’t always awful

[obitohno]

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#i am so ill #i’ve been bedridden since saturday #n it’s the worst bc i am getting no sleep #i am constantly wide awake but i feel like death #n i can’t even sleep the pain away #my throat is swollen too n i’ve been getting migraines #my eyes ache so badly n my fever keeps coming n going #i think i have blown my nose more times in the last two days than i have in my whole twenty six years of living #i’ve literally gone through three loo rolls #THREE LOO ROLLS #doctors got back to me about my bloods n they were all clear so they’re referring me for an ecg #idk when i’ll be well enough to be back #but just wanted to say that i’m not dead yet

[8rujaa]

to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?

#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened #i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close #and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way #i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao #now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest #and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell #i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop #but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again #i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier #it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men #and i find myself unable to connect with anyone… #i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed #i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it #i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly. #i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad #i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so #i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized… #when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was #like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u #i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function. #plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized #how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone… #i went thru all that for nothing… #and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why #brain vomit

[ko-eko-ev-go-ms]

I really really wish dreams were easier to understand/interpret

#thoughts #oni talks #oni vents #I keep having dreams/nightmares about repressed memories &/or memories in general or like investigations or smth #like my dreams will be point blank referencing something going so far as to literally tell me that in dream but either I don’t know what or #I don’t fully understand why? like some stuff is obvious and easy & usually I figure it out in dream or right after #but other times it’s just like ???? or it’s like I have some of the pieces but not all of them and I have no idea what picture I’m supposed #to be trying to put together for the puzzle either? sometimes dreams are just cool adventures with like messaging or processing #other times it’s memories and I can tell I’m in a memory but I either can’t tell which one or why or it’s like a hazy remix of several ? or #sometimes it’s like there’s someone else there with me guiding me through it? sometimes it’s like another me or a demon or a ghost or a god #I’ve also noticed a huge uptick in dreams/nightmares where it’s like I can tell the time period they come from and it’s been getting #like progressively younger? like I had some post grad then high school then middle #and then last sleeps one was elementary or younger maybe bits & pieces where I was slightly older? #I remember going through different places i lived in order to figure out my ideal living area but there was a memory block on one area #& I remember exploring like my childhood home & I know I was a kid because I was short and everything looked like it did when I was little #everything was bigger & I remember there was I think parties? & AU versions of my family some supernatural #ik there was an investigation w/ me & an Alt ver of my sis bc smth happened to both of us & it was like a whodunnit while a cooking comp was #sort of in the back ground? think iron chef but supernatural it went between that and parties where I was the only kid there so if I go #based on that there’s at least 2 maybe 3 hazy memories of parties my siblings had? 1 was in upstairs bathroom which was hazy but I remember #I was alone with this one girl in the bathroom at some point who I think later died if it’s the same girl & then the other one there’s hazy #memories of I think me showing one of my sisters friends around the basement? around the same area as the dream too #I also keep having dreams/nightmares of the same house ik I had one before where it was abt how me+siblings have ties there that will keep #leading us back & I think my dad was trying to sever it or fix it from the afterlife? I’ve had a lot of dreams about him & the house #he’s usually either dealing w/ smth there or stuck or needs my help or it’s just memories/easier there but occasionally he gets really creep #like I had a nightmare a while ago where he was this scary shadow man at the end of the basement hall I didn’t actually know if it was him #but bc dream logic I wanted it to be him so I ran towards him & it turned into an older version that wouldn’t have been there normally #also weird coz it’s normal to have nightmares abt certain members of my family but the recent one was very different than they normally are #I’m not usually as young like I’m often younger (sometimes older) but not usually that same feeling and time period #I think the last time I rmemeber having nightmares like that was when I WAS that age back when I used to have nightmares every night #+ ofc occasional sleep paralysis (thanks tonsils) it’s like my brain is trying to remember all the stuff I’ve blocked out over the years

[firewoodfigs]

#me this fine thursday morning 🤠 #honestly I’ve been really enjoying my new job because I get to specialise in what I want and my boss is a literal angel #like i would do anything for her bcs she is such a kind soul who is constantly looking out for the people under her charge #and she’s so down to earth and easy to work with #BUT. my mom has been throwing all kinds of shade and subtext at me #and I keep telling myself it’s a small thing I’m used to it it shouldn’t grate on my nerves so much #but it does??? and I can’t keep gaslighting myself??? #tldr she lowkey thinks I got ‘let off’ my previous job bcs I was lazy and left a bad impression due to my coming in late #but what about all the 3am nights?????? girl’s gotta sleep???? #also I literally told my previous job ‘give me disputes or nothing’ and they couldn’t give me what I wanted bcs it was a bad time #and just recession vibes #so they offered for me to go to Dubai instead #which my mom just INSISTS was a dumping ground bcs I wasn’t good enough or smt wtf #meanwhile she gets so defensive of my sister who hasn’t worked for nearly 4 years #I tried to tell her FACTS and she literally told me not to accuse my sister and that she’s working part time and I’m like??? she’s not??? #and my sister is being so miserly and insufferably calculative over every penny #while JETTING OFF EVERYWHERE ON BUSINESS CLASS. I JUST. ?!?-&:&/!:!:!:$: #anyway the subtext is just that my mom is concerned her only source of income aka me will be cut off lol #but I was still??? giving her an allowance while travelling??? meanwhile my sister is just asking us to cough up $$ for her share of the #mortgage?????!????!!!!? #what a morning. I’m so mad I could punch a wall lol #Spotify

[kuiinncedes]

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#not me on my phone in the dark when i kinda have a lowkey headache 🤡 good decisions lol #we love this cold and we love getting my period along w this cold 🥳 #i keep coughing and spurting out blood so fun lmao #and i do be coughing a lot today 😌 #bro i need to stop lmfao i think it’ll be so funny if someone asks what everyone got for chrismas in whatever context #bc we don’t rly celebrate anymore (i mean rly like not at all anymore lol) #so this yr i’ll just be like i got a cold from my brother 🥰🥳 #i am not making it better by staying on my phone rn when most of my days are on a screen anyway lol #anddbdhjedsjsjn i feel like i had something else i wanted to complain i mean talk about but idk 🤪 #i have design/ated survivor just like stuck in my head but it’s a tv show lmfao but anyway #it’s rly distracting from trying to go to slee :[ )8 #idk what happened there i’m on my phone lol *(i’ve been going to sleep so early is crazy lmfao) #hehe a friend texting me merry crisis at 11:47 pm slay #jeanne talks #i also just like can’t breathe thru my nose at all today :[ which is helping me sleep lmao #or maybe i actuallly got too much sleep and i’m not sick enough to be tired anymore lmfao

[nightly-ruse]

I swear I’m working on art it’s just taking a long ass time bc I have A LOT OF SHIT to catch up on. Um also it’s another hypoparents things sorry

#also mega gay um not so sorry about that #I want to finish it so bad but every time I do I am put back to work on my actual important things #which is good so I’m not even more behind but incredibly frustrating #all I want to do is finish these cats but nooooooo #anyways I also only want to draw mothwing so um that’s what’s happening #can feel a little bit of a breakdown teetering on the edge of my mind but I’m avoiding it #would rather not breakdown. if it does happen atleast I knew beforehand #ruse rambles #I am very rambley bc I don’t want to go to sleep I hate sleep it is very stressful for me #having to wait for it to take over is the worst but also waking up paralyzed from nightmares sucks #it’s not like sleep paralysis it’s my brain thinking someone is behind me and if I move one bit they’ll attack #so Im stuck there willing myself to jsut swing around and get up #also can’t sleep facing the other way bc I roll and throw shit at night #then I wake up bc my blanket and pillow are gone #also also think my mom might be uh in bad health atm her coughing is getting really bad and she keeps #puking form the coughing. little sister is not helping with her constant fighting and trying to get out of school #moms on the edge of sending her off to therapy lol kinda funny but also not bc she’s causing so much stress on everyone #I’m going to shut up before I cap out on tags also need to write my daily report tjing so I’m going to do that bye sorry for the tags :)