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ranidspace · 3 months

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So, this is a scary headline so we're gonna read it closely.

TechCrunch managed to get an internal company memo that details a few "strategic corrections" for the myriad Mozilla products. Mozilla has a "mozilla.social" Mastodon instance that the memo says originally intended to "effectively shape the future of social media," but the company now says the social group will get a "much smaller team." Mozilla says it will also "reduce our investments" in Mozilla VPN, Firefox Relay, and something the memo calls "Online Footprint Scrubber" (that sounds like Mozilla Monitor?). It's also shutting down "Mozilla Hubs," which was a 3D virtual world it launched in 2018—that's right, there was also a metaverse project! The memo says that "demand has moved away from 3D virtual worlds" and that "this is impacting all industry players." The company is also cutting jobs at "MozProd," its infrastructure team.

This is specifically saying that they're just downsizing teams which are focused on things which are NOT the main firefox browser. quote "It now looks like Mozilla may refocus on Firefox once more". layoffs suck, yeah, but firefox doesnt seem to be affected. Mozilla's a small company and firefox is getting bigger, and it looks like this is just a move to shift focus away from the side projects

As for the AI thing, the AI company they bought about was simply one that used machine learning to detect fake product reviews. (what i would say is a good use of machine learning.). "Generative AI" is said thought, and that concerns me a bit, but there's one thing about Firefox that's makes me think it's gonna be fine:

no matter what it is, you can turn it off.

"Pocket" is the weird mozilla thing about saving news articles for later and it recommends you news. you can just turn that off. The home page has sponsored links. you can turn them off. nearly everything about firefox you can just turn it off and ignore forever. if it is some awful AI bullshit, an annoying feature, something whatever it is, you can turn it off. I think firefox would STILL be the best option even if it's worst case. for a private browser, the only other option really is Brave, which is LOADED with web3 and cryptocurrency features and we're at the same problem here, but you cant turn those off completely, you can only just ignore them.

Also it might not even be part of the browser itself, just rather a single website or an extra service that you'll forget exists and then like 2 months later you hear it shuts down. idk.

Let's wait until firefox makes an actual public statement about this shit before anything becuase we literally know nothing. it's likely they're already getting some awful feedback and this may not even make the light of day.

Mozilla is a non-profit organization. i highly doubt they're firing people to replace them with AI. but again. wait and see what they say publically because it's hard to tell

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mikeylivesattheend · 4 months

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SO I finally read the first Unwind book by Neal Shusterman and wowowowow people were not lying it's so genuinely incredible. Like no joke, even if you read this goofy post read the first book. It's not perfect (looking at you 2007 era feminism) but it's haunting my thoughts. I don't think it will ever fade. And you know the one scene. You know.

What I'm saying is, even after reading (and starting the 2nd book) of this very grounded, fleshed out world, I had to look it up on a03. With Jason Todd 💀💀💀

It doesn't seem to exist so here's some AU ideas/HCs

Note: This is for fun, and I do not know the ending to the series. This post will spoil general plot points of the first and second books.

-Bruce is a moderate on unwinding. He would, of course, never unwind HIS kids but he trusts s c i e n c e and it follows logic

-just for fun, maybe the person who killed his parents was an awol unwind, and hes grateful that person was able to live on in a better form

-bruce wayne has great security, and the family is intense about preventing storked babies. But if a mother does try, they usually send at least 1k to help, and a lot of mothers go to his house to get some financial assistance

- dick traveled a lot, met a lot of different people. I think he met a lot of unwinds, and his parents were pro not murdering teens, but they couldn't house them for more than a day or two. The law pays more attention to transient spaces they can track after all

-all of this to say dick loved meeting and showing off to new people, and doesnt like the cops, and doesnt like that they get so scared. His parents/troupe influenced him a lot but no one has really said any of this aloud to him since he's so young. Hes never feared being unwound, not seriously.

-my ideal fic wouldnt be dick focused, so his character progression might be depressing here.

-he thinks unwinding is immoral, says it feels wrong, doesn't use words like soul. He is passionate about this issue when directly confronted, but he believes temporary help is the best he can provide.

-dick feels secure he wont be unwound for two reasons. Bruce knows hes too capable to be detained by cops. And dick knows that bruce couldn't live with himself if he condemned dick to a divided existence, no matter what his logic says.

-Unwinding is a huge blur of grey for batman in chaotic, unpredictable Gotham. For brucie wayne, clinking champagne glasses with a teenager's hands, complimenting an elderly investors washboard abs, unwinding is a fact of life. But for bruce wayne, the father, the son, unwinding would always be a prolonged muder. Bruce does not ponder those feelings deeply. He does all he can (he doesnt)

-Dick doesn't like that they rat on violent runaways/unwinding awols, but he knows they fill in lower gaps as goons. He hates it at first, and bruce does learn to ignore more. But dick learns the dangers of desperation. He meets nore people who agree with unwinding, tithes, and as he grows into larger scale problems/hero teams, he loses sight of the bigger government issue.

-all this to say, as an adult, dick does what all his parents did in a way (money, hidden spots he knows, advice he's picked up on) but his morals match bruces more than his parents. He thinks that tithing is okay if the kid is 17 and consents, understands that religion is personal, despises the state homes doing it the most (bruce has given so much to those leeches).

-i dont know enough about the teen titans to know how theyd feel, how that would impact dick, if he'd even /have/ the entire team or if some became unwound

-oh my god unrelated note clark as a teen, despite being very loved, was glad he was indestructible. Docs dont use kryptonite

-jason jason jason my boy jason. So yes unwind awols are pretty natural to him, working girls, hes against the process bc he knows a lot of families who do that to kids & he gets it

-in this au he could keep the canon backstory. It still hurts bc he especially feels then he was a burden, storked by one of willis' exes. Or he could be fully storked from the jump. His bio dad is dead, shelia is the only one alive. Bruce is more anti-shelia initially bc she storked him but he knows some people do want to see their kids later in life? This also impacts his early social clout, since storks are looked down on. Maybe especially so where he's a 'real' burden.

-hes a lot more intense than dick abt unwinds, is deeply paranoid bruce will unwind him and has to be reassured bruce would never personally do that. Jason doesnt want to use unwind body parts, but bruce will always choose jays life over his 'moral high ground.'

-honestly most of death with the family will feel the same, the main difference is Jay will have a guilty thought, wonder if it would have been better to let bruce unwind him, if robin should have served everyone (bruce did not threaten this, but kids have been unwound for a whole lot less).

- THE CRUX IS THAT JAY WAKES UP WHOLE BRAIN IN NEW BODY HORRIFIED HEHEHEGED

- this au uses the movie version of utrh with talua stuff, but add in that the brain cannot automatically connect to the body, this is very untested, and it takes like a year to make it work at all. No laz pit, the body is a military buff 16 year old but not excessively violent yaknow

-he still loses it bc "oh my god I was unwound, how did this happen? did bruce do it? no no? he couldnt. i died. where am i? talias oh shit - gotta go fast yeet"

- he goes to gotham, doesn't try to kill bruce but does realize how fucked he is. He can barely open doors, has to think constantly to walk. After moping for a while talia finds him, offers to train him, explains he was meant to be a gift. Jay says he doesnt want to go back to bruce, talia fucked him over, she seems guilty so the training still happens, mainly as an urge to finish what she started, and maybe fulfill that initial goal someday

- im the most torn on this bc i think jason would never want to risk being their guinea pig again.

-he does not kill anyone until its a parts pirate. Talia sent him to increasingly pro unwinding people to force his hand for sure. Either to have a reason to cut him off, or to make their moral worldviews align more.

-Jay is def vaguely suicidal, self disgust. So this is punishment for him + scumbags. It also puts the body to a purposeful use, in honor of the kid.

-body dysmorphia duh btw. After this im extra fuzzy on details for jay

- i want him to be part of the anti divisional group, I want him to be a more community driven hero. But is that really in character for him? How would the unwinding world impact his priorities? Would he operate in gothan as the red hood, work as a human trafficker to save those kids?

- this is also the reason I'm not focusing on characters that come after jason much. His impact would need to be felt in some way in the stories, but I dont know where yet

-i think tim is part of a much, much larger family here and he didnt go to a fancy school. In canon his grades are mid, and even tho his parents love him, he has a lot of competition.

- him being robin makes his life a lot harder. Maybe after jack +janet die the gov actually orders most of the kids to be unwound bc state ho budgets etc. The uncle thing is very legitimately needed lmao

- steph storks her baby yes, but now she's able to keep track of their life in a really unhealthy way.

-i don't know enough about babs to know how she'd feel. I think she might be for it, she might even heal her spine with it. But I'm not sold on that fully

-cass is radically anti unwind. She does go to bruce, but honestly in this au she might leave because he does condone it through his inaction

- the justice league must be pro unwinding for conflict in this world to work, and finding out the reasons for that would be so interesting. Hell maybe the justice league wouldn't really be a thing at all, with such clashing morals.

-and idk how unwind ends so no fuckin clue on resolving the conflict AND adding superheroes

Sorry this was so long, and for at least 5 typos. Please steal my ideas and write a better fic than i can ty 😘😘😘

I'll probably end up adding more jason details to this if/when I find a game plan for jay or finish the unwind dystology

#unwind #neal shusterman #jason todd #batfam #au #random ideas #red hood #unwind dystology #my ideas in this post are in a pretty immature state #but still its facintating #my post

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hikari-ni-naritai · 10 months

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something that genuinely worries me about running the campaign ive been planning is like. its likely that my players wont be able to get into the world's mindset about gods (and i similarly feel like i'll have this problem too, but ill be playing mostly npcs so if they say something weird it doesnt matter much). like i know this is a likely issue bc of the way theyve reacted to characters in my current game, where like theyve assumed the sociopolitical atmosphere of the world is Basically The Same as in the real world, which causes problems when there are like. characters who are members of the nobility. and this'll be a bigger problem with the future campaign bc like. it really limits my ability to characterize npcs with how they talk about gods, which are extremely important in the setting. like, if an npc says "what've gods ever done for us?", like thats a reasonable thing to say in the real world! but in the game's setting, that's more akin to like. looking at a museum of agricultural progress and saying 'what has Fruit ever done for us?' yknow? bc in the setting, 'gods' are given power by people by virtue of the thing being important in and of itself. theyre not propped up to be worshipped because theyve Done Something, they're something that's proven indispensable to life as experienced, and that indispensability grants it power that can be drawn upon. idk. i just hope the difference is something that my players can grasp, and that i can get it across well enough to be understood properly.

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I have a genuine question. What do you think it will take for Harry to see she's a shit person and end the circus show? I mean being a racist and homophobe isn't enough even though HE doesn't support it. Wanting to work with an abuser also wasn't enough for him. I'm just trying to wonder what it will take for him to stop being blind and digging a bigger hole for himself by asdociatong with her.

I think Harry realized that in 2021 after their Italy trip. We are jason confirmed that Olivia and Jason split in November 2020. We know because the day after that article was released Olivia was leaving Italy. We all know that she left early. We all know that Harry was the one who told her to leave. And then he went into hiding for three weeks. I think that’s what he realized that Olivia wasn’t a really good person and at that point it was too late. I have been saying this for a while I truly believe that Harry and Jeff put in some of their own money and are all financially invested in the film. Warner Bros. only gave Olivia $20 million where she got the other 15 million will never know. I think at this point hair he realizes that he needed to stay in the stunt because he had money that he invested in this movie. It wasn’t Just do the stunt and leave. Hairy needed to secure and make sure that he got his money back plus more that he was promised. I think that’s when we all saw that Harry started to distance himself from her a lot more. And that’s where I think Harry’s genuine dislike of her really started. She’s messy, rushed the stunt way too much and look where it’s gotten them. Harry has genuine issues with Florence. He lost a really good friend in Florence. Here it looks like the bad guy and Jason and Olivia split, he was subjected to a lot of rumours of the fact that he only got this role because of the fact that he was sleeping with Olivia and people genuinely think that the only reason why he got this movie was because of her and not to mention a lot of issues on sat stemmed from him. He looked unprofessional and now a lot of studios don’t wanna work with him. A lot of producers are pulling back on their interest in him. He needs to continue the stunt until the contract is over and then we will never hear from Harry and Olivia ever again in the same sentence. Needs to make sure that he gets his money and if being seen with her once a week biweekly needs to be done and that’s what he’s going to do. Member a lot of the stuff about Olivia, Shia and Florence all came out after the stunt started. A lot of things really started to go downhill just a couple months ago. Which is why Olivia wasn’t seen with Harry after the Shia receipts came out. When Olivia has a genuine problems happening to her hair he starts to distance himself from her, when he kicked her out of Italy after the Jason interview, when Jason served her in front of the entire world, when the receipts came out about Florence and Shia LaBeouf. After every single one of those accidents Olivia was not seen with Harry for weeks. Instead of being there for her like a normal“Boyfriend” would be he distance himself from her and leaves her to fend for herself. I think it’s too late for Harry and his team to pull out. There is not much time left and the more hairy continues to separate himself from her the less the blowback will be once the break up is announced. At the end of the day Harry is getting paid, and that’s all that he really cares about. In every single interview that he ever does where she has brought up he works zones her and said publicly that he’s never been in a public relationship before. It doesn’t matter if they kiss in public or a holding hands Harry will never claim her. So when the relationship is over and the stunt is done she’s not even a name on his list. Harry and his team realize the truth about Olivia a little too late and are now paying the consequences with Harries reputation taking a little bit of a hit. Doesnt matter if he still Harry Styles the acting world isn’t taking him seriously. He was the main cause allegedly of a lot of the issues that happened on the don’t worry darling sat and a lot of people don’t wanna work with problematic people anymore. This isnt gonna work for him. At the end of the day he has nobody to blame but himself but Also remember that he’s getting a check out of this. He’s getting paid and that’s all he and his team care about. They want the money They invested and more back. That’s it

#fauxlivia #holivia is fake #holivia stunt #pr stunt #publicitystunt #holivia #pr relationships #holivia pr stunt #olivia wilde #publicity stunt

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megashadowdragon · 2 years

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GOP Prosecutor FOLDS To WOKE Mob! Charges Police Officer With 2nd Degree Murder Of Patrick Loyola!!

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Noticing that one guy that "says" he is innocent until proven guilty, but then advocates for a guilty until proven innocent style pressure.

the problem here is even if the officer isn't convicted his law enforcement career is over. he is done as a cop.

They have been "calling for accountability".......you know....not for the criminal who fkkn RAN AWAY, RESISTED ARREST, FOUGHT THE OFFICER and TRIED TO GRAB THE OFFICER'S WEAPON, but for the police officer who was trying to do his JOB.

I'll agree, him getting shot in the head was horrific. It was so disturbing it made me cry, but that man put HIMSELF in that position with all his fuckery.

What kind of message does this send to these criminals that consistently resist arrest and fight the officers….These people wanting this officer charged are part of the bigger problem….teach these broken individuals accountability instead of victimhood.

This is going to ruin this country, what person in their right mind would want to be a police officer when you will likely be charged with murder for defending your own life!

This is unbelieveable. Look, if you grab an officers taser while struggling with him on the ground and that officer fears that you may gain control of that taser he MUST move to lethal means to ensure that the combatant doesn't tase him and then take his gun off him and kill him with it. The people making these decision for the police officers that are put in these extraordinary situations have a COLOSSOL lack of understanding of why they make the decisions they do while under pressure. If we don't start standing up for these officers we're going to find ourselves without a police force and the beginning of an even more lawless society than we already have. This is mission critical!!Show less

its only a matter of time before cops stop responding to black callers

The prosecutor is a coward but more importantly we have lost our moral compass, now once again police are going to say it's not worth it and crime increases even more!!

As a life long grand rapids resident who went to 8 different schools I can tell you the liberal white guilt is crazy. So much racism towards whites. I was jumped several times simply for being white in the wrong neighborhood. Or the only white kid on the 8th grade youth center basketball team . Told the cops who run it the next day and they didn't care at all so I quit and said you can tell the coach why I'm not at practice and threw my I.D. in his face and never went back... I was never so proud to have made a team and looking back feel sick about it.Show less

Lets hope this doesnt go the Floyd route where a innocent man in convicted of a crime he didnt commit. Lets instead hope this goes the Rittenhouse route and he is found innocent and sues EVERYONE who lied about the case. I believe he deserves a early retirement for making the world a better place.

anyone who tries to claim that the cop shouldnt have chased after the perp o that the cop chasing the perp means he loses the self defense argument has no respect or value of life if the perp manages to escape it would lead to them committing another crime and hurting someone else

he is an officer of the law he is supposed to chase after the perp who runs away to arrest them he isnt responsible if the perp escalates

#black conservative perspective #patrick loyola #patrick lyoya

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nahalism · 7 months

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Your answer where you mentioned perversion of pornography only existing because we sort of put it in this place collectively as society made me want to ask. Do you believe age of consent is fundamentally rooted in something universal (and needed?) or do you think there is not as big of a need for it as societies made it to be and sometimes, some younger individuals can and do consent despite what we grew to believe (that they are unable to)

same for big age gaps, what do you think about them

(i know this is a big question and i didnt mean to provoke-maybe thought provoke at best-in good or a bad way)

no worries im always open to questions cause i just like to think about/consider things lol idk. anywayyyy. ill preface this with a trigger warning given the topic matter.

to answer ur question :: just cause something is a social construct doesnt mean its a fabrication altogether. there are ultimate truths and relative truths. ultimately, sex, nudity, and erotic interactions between people, are nothing more than human acts. there is nothing inherently perverse about them. howeverrr, relative to the society we currently live in, pornography/social norms around who should consume it and how, exist as a consequence to the perversion and hyper-sexualisation of people, that exists, and is generally around us. its a preventative safe guarding measure. & that perversion isnt always sexual. it is all pervasive & woven into the fabric of society. — since constructs are usually formed in reaction to what currently exists around us, denying them is dangerous (its the actual definition of gaslighting) and cant be progressive because it only serves to warp peoples perception of their lived experience. whilst continuing to alter our perception and definition of the ultimate truth based on relative truths is also dangerous, (it would be much better to detangle a mess than add more tangles), only perceiving ultimate truths in the face of relative truths is just as harmful because it only serves to purposefully misunderstand the problem and task at hand. to find solutions, a more nuanced view needs to be had.

howeverrr, age is not the same as that (imo). and answering these kinds of questions tends to fill me with dread, because i see people asking these kinds of questions in order to create confusion, blur lines, and consequently warp the reality of ultimate truths by making them bend to present day (changeable) relative truths. do i believe children should have agency and autonomy? i do. do i believe they should be respected, and allowed to make their own decisions? i do. however. do i also acknowledge the perverse nature of the world and the system of conditioning we live under? i do. — a child is a child, an adult is an adult, and an elder is an elder for a reason. — there are stages to life. e.g, a butterfly begins as an egg, then becomes larva, then a pupa, then a butterfly. its the same for humans. trying to blur the lines between an egg and a pupa is to purposefully and fundamentally misunderstand natural law and order. so, in that same vein, children (who should be made aware of their sexual/creative energy in much different ways than our society currently allows for), should be free to explore themselves. whether that be mentally/physically/emotionally/spiritually/sexually. but it should be with a trusted adult or elder who will inform them and not take advantage of their naïvety, or with other children their age. this distinction is important because it clearly demarcates the difference between an adult educating a child and demystifying adult concepts for them, versus abusing that child and taking advantage of them, their lack of knowledge, and lack of experience.

aside from the matter of children, i dont judge any consenting adult that decides to participate in a relationship where theres an age gap. the age of consent is a bigger question than i am qualified to answer, but what is do know is not every 20 year old is an adult despite having 'come of age'. i think the age of consent is more so an advisory that states, after 'this' age, a person can be made responsible for what they choose to do, and bare the consequences whether good or bad. — however, personally, i always question what business someone who is 60 has with someone who is 20. even 40. when people find it easier to partner with individuals who arent in their age class, it usually reeks of them being emotionally/mentally stunted. ive seen that as time comes to pass, the younger individual continues to grow and mature, whilst the older individual who has already peaked stays stagnant, and in the worse case scenario begins to resist, resent, and thus restrict the growth of that person. i also see how the older individual imparts their own lived experience on to the younger individual under the guise of 'having the answers due to experience'. which only serves to frame the younger individuals experience of life and often times cause them to miss steps that are formative for them, because, they end up doing what their older partner does under the pretence that it makes them more mature or that they can 'tag along' because they are more mature. in truth, everything has its time, and whilst some people are more mature, there are things to be learned from immaturity. (ask any child star, or child who was a genius and went to uni whilst they should have been at primary school. they may be glad for the path they took, yet fundamentally miss the experiences of youth that other children had, and their experience deprived them from). in addition to that it condemns one person (usually the younger more naïve party) to a prematurely partnerless future, and any children that come from the union, to losing a parent early.

again. if your a consenting adult, do what you want. we all have different paths, neither is right or wrong so long as we are arriving at the decision to do what we do without being coerced or without it being a reaction to unresolved trauma. even then, perhaps the 'wrong' choice is the right choice because even if a decision is reached as a consequence of something perceived 2 be negative, it may be the very thing that helps resolve the unresolved issue. but when it comes to children (individuals still dependent on adults, elders and community in any capacity) its not an age gap, its predatory.

would love 2 kno ur thoughts & opinions too 😌

#ask

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mariailoveyou-guerin · 7 months

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the way I have never once in my life liked Maeve I hate her so much, every season she’s just gets worse and worse! first she treats everyone like garbage especially did Jackson, then the whole Isaac thing even ruby by kissing otis like 3s after they ended it,so much sh*t I forgot

And now this season they way she always thinks she’s all that the smartest greatest kindest person, she really thought that internship was hers just like that then started crying and left school when she didn’t get it and she wasn’t the smartest there bc she always has to be #1

don’t even get me started on how she always gatekeepes everything everyone, Otis from Eric bc she always needs someone the fact she had Otis Aimee just waiting for hours until she was ready how she’s always expecting them Otis to do everything and be there for in drop of hat

fcvk what anyone around Otis (his mom Eric) needs only her needs matter, her problems are biggest in world she just has to have everything everyone for herself even Isaac imagine saying to her bestie u cant date/like a guy she didn’t even like and was only using to get over Otis

like what age is she 5, don’t even get me started on how she acted over Otis sleeping at rubys like she didn’t kiss him 3s after they ended it(fcvk Otis for that too) an then theres her literally having Otis for herself for a whole week without carrying for his future or his life

and now she has the audacity to talk to ruby like that and be so rude about Otis mum for inviting her for dinner, she’s so fcvking annoying why did she come back to ruin everything for everyone every time she’s on screen I wanna claw my eyes out her obnoxious rude wannabe mean

girl a88, still shocked over how she thought she was gonna get that internship over the guy she’s friends with in Wallace, now she just stalks Otis and follows him around like a puppy bc she cousins hack it and she wasn’t the best smartest at that school,who does she think she is

how is she so annoying obnoxious rude mean cruel even and still gets away with it plays on everyone feelings, is super fake and Otis becomes a whole new person when she is around like he don’t know anyone else exist like his family or friends his whole world is just Maeve thx to

Her making it that way! I’m so done I can’t believe I’m saying but thank god it’s the last season bc I couldn’t handle seeing her again ever I genuinely never dislike any character this much but my god do I hate her and yes hate is strong word but that’s exactly it haven’t hated

a character since Elena Stefan Caroline, Mary sue character who think they are the main character and the whole world revolves around them and everyone should drop everything and everyone for them and be there exists breathe just for them god I hate characters like that and now

Her, haven’t hated a character this much since 10s so for me to hate Maeve like this she has to be so awful for me to even dislike a female character she has to be the devil himself yet I hate Maeve that much not saying she would have d worded instead of her mom but exactly that

Even in🇺🇸she was so annoying obnoxious meh, ever since she said that I like complex female characters I’ve just rolled my eyed at her like who doesnt like a character like that in the mf 21th century u arent special😎for saying that having the same exact feeling as the rest of us

not only was it the most cringiest sh*t ever like it genuinely made me wanna throw up and I couldnt even look at her for that whole s1 but the way she was so proud of herself for saying that, She really acts like she’s this feminist baddie but uses that feminism to her own agenda

acts like she’s the only one with problems trauma like the rest has this perfect easy happy life she makes me so sick to my stomach, she’s so T.S it makes me 🤮 probably why I can’t stand her bc I can’t stand Taylor either! both using yt feminism for their own benefit/agenda!

sorry what exactly made her problem her dh*t bigger and more important then everyone else the way she acts like everyone in the universe has to be there for her and do everything for her, as if she’s the center of the world even then her way or it’s all wrong and she acts up cries?

2 more eps and I’m never seeing her again thank god for that! Can’t believe my hatred her is stronger then my love for the whole show the characters I love so deeply and dearly that I want it gone forever if it means I ain’t never need to see her or hear her speak ever again!

#maeve wiley #sex education #sex ed s4 #sex ed #otis milburn #eric effiong #ruby matthews #jackson marchetti #vivienne odusanya #cal sex ed

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Bnha is a fine series for what it is but i just can't understand my problem with it - like, having read from the beginning it feels like it lost some aspects that i enjoyed or moved away from things i thought it was setting up.

On some level i attribute it to my 'the hundred chapter shounen curse" where around a hundred chapters in most shounen just dip in quality. But it's not quite like that.

I do agree with some people's complaints about setting deku up as hyper analytical character but then providing him a 'punch harder' flying brick powerset.

I do wonder how the series could have handled it if they had just let deku be op from the beginning, as i feel exploring the quirk have vs havenot stuff couldve been more explicit if they did that.

Also Bakugo is such a genius addition for the story. His 'no i want to be a hero moment' was great

And i know this complaint is just all shounen but i wish the women characters could have more to do / more focus without having to deal with the shounen enforced gender roles death trap.

I should read through it again and actually analyze some of the themes, might help me learn what i disliked about the transition to longer running

i dont think the solution or the problem is like what if the characters were x and y and z instead tho that is a fun thought exercise! i was rolling this ask over in my head a bunch because i feel much the same, i think where the Problem arises happens in pretty much everything the seams are just more noticeable in a shounen cause theyre unfortunately expected to follow a set of stuff to be publishable and marketable as that, this happens in usamerican comics too so i think ill use that to talk about it like, what we get introduced to is an intimate story in a world like our own but not exactly, much of the mystery of the world is concealed to us, the conflicts are close to the protagonist our window into the world, the antagonist feel so much bigger theyre a huge unknown, as the story progresses the intimacy is often lost , all things have these growing pains of course, i think for bnha in order to like have stretch marks instead of tearing the antagonists would have had to get more complicated and the protagonists interactions with that would have had to get more in depth and serious and there would have had to been bigger and bigger consequences while there are eventually it ends up feeling just like expected beats so with that loss and familiarity the charge of the story is lost?

to talk about something like, power and story creep, like superhero stuff often starts intimate does it? like you learn about the protagonist and youre close to the inner struggles, the antagonists are larger than life and often pale behind The Real Big Bad but you dont even know yet! its mysterious and scary! but then the world opens up and its like with batman in the greater dcu, doesnt that ruin the sort of intimacy knowing someone with god like powers is a phone call away? thinking about how the animated series teen titans handles that by keeping the stories really close and interpersonal and the characters' antagonists always these figures just one step away from being understood its like theyre scary!

but bnha let the air out real fast on a lot of stuff while never moving them beyond, what are we suppose to feel about all for one or about tomura or about any over them, like we'd get a lore dump and the status quo would remain! i think about like the who is the traitor arc and how that doesnt matter after everything cause of how big a jump the comic made in that, while that happens and sometimes it happens real good, it sort of becomes plug in play doesnt it like did the overhaul stuff really serve the narrative where it was in the story? was that really the best way to handle dabi's narrative? like it feels like a list of check off marks!!! and of course its in some part because its a serialized comic series

but teal deer its like Pacing and Plot economy, what you lose in intimacy and being on the ground floor at the start you make up for with like overwhelming your other senses as the series becomes ungrounded and seemingly further away from like, the opening wound but it has to be there in secret the whole time so that by the time it ends you feel that it was there the entire time! of course thats just for stories like this, its like theres also a lack of examination and exploring that was found in earlier chapters but maybe thatll get coaxed out more, its a bit of that like naruto problem or star wars problem even like not much point in being like The Good Guys Are Actually Not But The Other side Is Morally Ambitious and Not Evil if youre like side evil eats babies and the good guys are heroes periodt like, well, whatever! waste my time

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ohleander · 2 years

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9.8.22

Another morning of skim writing. There doesnt seem to be as much in my brain as there was yesterday but I'm still going to write. Yesterday I gave myself a really great pep talk on the way to work in the car. Its kinda nice to talk to myself and reassure myself. The place where I want to be and the place I'm at now really might not be so far apart but more than anything I just want a giant gift of money to help boost me where I want to be. Its definitely kinda.. frowned upon to wish for money so much, but I really just want to work at home, create a great homestead and make art all day.. maybe travel.. treat all my loved ones.. invest in young folks, send the kiddos in the family to college. I really dont feel like my desire to get a huge chunk of money is rooted in laziness or greed. I want it so I can do good things with it. I want it so I can use it, not have it, hoard it or take advantage of others. I'm working on healing my relationship with money. I've always had the feeling that liking and enjoying money was taboo or that it might spark the greed-monster or the frivolous monster but I really dont think so. I think it would help spark comfort and creativity in me. I spend so much time working, and I am grateful for that, but its hard to create in the patterns I'm currently in.

The messages I keep getting all around me tell me I'm in the right place at the right time. I would just love to manifest a great cushion for me and my dad and my family. I dont believe what I want is extravagance, I simply want freedom and peace and I'm so willing to share that. I want to have enough money to be a giver. I suppose I should go ahead and be a giver so that giving big is easier. I'm always trying to be in alignment with what I want and its amazing how unclear I've been so far. Its amazing how hard it is to feel clear and be clear with my intentions. I guess my imagination is so big, my mind travels from one thing to the next. I'd love to manifest some focus, if thats the case.

I realized that a lot lot loooottt of my problems come from my very own self sabotaging tendencies. I really cant seem to recognize when things are good. I guess because I've been in survival mode for years and have really only just climbed out of it. I dont trust things yet but I really really want to. I realize that a lot of things I feel and think still rest within my body. I need to break these bodily cycles of anxiety. I never realize im in them, mentally, until my body is shaking and uncomfortable. I've thought my separation between mind and body is one of my autistic traits and I cant help but feel exercise will help. Exercise to get all the extra energy out of my body. Exercise as a stim instead of a routine or a method to get 'fit'.

More bodily things I'd like to start doing even though I'm afraid are taking cold showers and stimulating the vagus nerve with ice water and ice packs. I realize that while my brain wants to chill out, its my nervous system thats been having a hard time handling things.

I just want to reach a point of comfort and peace and stability. I will always be working and doing things no matter what, but the ends must be more beneficial to me. Its easy to be scared in this world, with all thats going on and the impending recession.

Another thing, at the end of the day, no matter who I'm talking to, its so great just to level with people. Information should be shared, the truth should be worked out and worked through.

I fully believe everything I've been through in the past 12 years has been practice and work for something 'bigger' and I'm always waiting on the 'BIG suprirse' but perhaps growth is slow.. perhaps im in the big and cant even see it.

Its the full moon and mercury retrograde time.. Its definitely a big time to hang back and reflect and integrate old things that come back for a second chance. Its a time to slow down but I do have a hard time slowing down.

I'm still always working so hard.. I'd love to have my house bought, no strings attached, debts paid, family with me and regular money coming in without my extra work. I want my work to be fun and what I choose it to be. So many people in this world have so much without having done as much (but thats awfully judgemental of me isnt it, I cant compare, I dont know them) BUT it sure seems like if some folks can have it all, then so can I. Without the guilt.

I will no longer sabotage the good things going on for me. I am ready to receive all of the good and great surprises that are coming my way. I'm willing to trust that things are going to be good, whatever opportunity I take. My distrust in things creates a shadow, a fog thats hard to see through. My distrust in things creates NO clarity.. I'm still working hard and I'd like to work less and receive more. Perhaps thats the key.. work smarter not harder. The divine balance isnt something thats mine to understand, I should just accept and receive whats meant for me and whats mine. My human perception of give and take and whats 'deserved' is so limited. The universe knows whats coming to me.

I am a co-creator with the universe, she is my partner in life and I love her.

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[Timari idea with a side of Batfam salt, only a tiny bit] Tim leaves Gotham and the Batfam after a bad/dumb argument. No matter where they look Tim has covered his tracks and doesnt want to be found. They never give up hope of finding him though, at least to apologize. Years later they are in Paris looking into the famous MDC for outfits for an upcoming event (she couldn't go to Gotham due to recent 'health' issues) and stopped at a barkery on their way. They just weren't expecting to find Tim behind the counter kneeding dough with his celebrating in-laws, gorgeous three month pregnant wife and his three year old daughter giggling as she sprinkled flour on him.

Ditched and Hitched

It was very hard to make this light, so I made it medium.

“None of you understand what the problem is!”

Tim screamed at his family as they all gathered in the Batcave. All he wanted was time off, he needed the time off, but they said ‘no’!

“And tell us Drake,”

Damian replied snidely as he glared at the man in front of him.

“What is this problem that you have encountered that not even you and your worthless mind need a year away from protecting your city?”

Tim glared at the child, glared at his whole family. He fiddled with the silver band that he always wore under his glove, he wore it in the open too. ‘World’s Greatest Detectives’ his butt. There was a reason they did everything small and behind the scenes. The only people that knew were Cassandra, Alfred, and Jason since they were the only ones he could trust. Unfortunately, neither were here at the moment, Cass being in Hong Kong and Jason was on a mission with the Outlaws. He knew he should have waited for one of them to be here to back him up, but he couldn’t! He needed to leave by tomorrow, the day was getting closer and he had to be there!

“Look, I can still help with cases, but I won’t be here in person to do them. All I need is some time, why is that so bad?!”

“You know exactly why Tim.”

Batman all but growled, his lenses narrowing into small slits that would intimidate anyone that didn’t know who he was. Tim growled and pulled at his hair in frustration,

“I’m not like you Bruce! The mission doesn’t always come first for me! I’m not trying to end up miserable like you are!”

Tim yelled, regret immediately coursing through him. The cave was silent, but no, Tim had the right to be angry, he deserved to be able to finally gre himself if this!

“I’ve done so much for all of you! I’ve done every task, followed every rule, I’ve done nothing wrong! When Damian tried to kill me continuously and all I did was defend myself, I’m the one who got lectured to ‘be the bigger person’! When Bruce was presumed dead and I had proof that he was still alive you said I was insane and threatened to send me to Arkham! And when I proved that I was right and brought him back I didn’t even get a single apology! I run your d* business every single day with no complaints, I help you with last minute cases even though I’m already in the middle of other important things! I’ve done so much, and when I ask for one simple thing, I’m denied!”

Tim panted for breath, face flushed scarlet with rage. It was dead silence, a silence where even the small minuscule drops of water that dripped from the stalactites could be heard as if amplified by some kind of speaker.

Dick’s face was pale in horror, regret, and surprise. Like the man didn’t know that Tim still remembered what happened, still held onto the hurt and pain that he caused. Damian looked up indignantly, but he could see the traces of sorrow and regret. Damian had grown so much in the past years, changed for the better. It was obvious he regretted his younger-self's decisions. Bruce though, his face was as unreadable as ever. But Tim had spent literal years reading the man, first through a camera lense on rooftops, then by his side. Bruce felt hurt by his son's words, but he wasn’t going to change his decision, the stubborn and obstinate fool he was.

Tim took in a deep breath and slowly released it. He didn’t have time for this, she was waiting for him and he needed to go.

“Alright, I resign as a superhero.”

Tim stated in a voice void of all emotion. His face a neutral façade that he had mastered long before he ever met Bruce.

“WHAT?!”

Dick yelled in shocked alarm. Tim quickly turned toward the changing rooms and began to remove the uniform for the last time. There was an insistent knocking on the door, Dick telling him to stop and that they could work this out. But they couldn’t, Tim couldn’t do this anymore. This family was no longer his first priority, not anymore, not for a long time now. It was painful, thinking this would be the last time in this uniform, last time using the name that he carved for himself.

He folded the uniform with a quiet reverence, even as the frantic voice outside the door grew louder. A single tear slipped down his cheek, landing on the firm fabric that had protected him for so many years. Stealing himself and gathering up all of his courage to finally do this. To finally walk away and be free from the toxic expectations that surrounded him. He opened the door and before Dick could try to stop him he shoved the suit into his arms and quickly left upstairs to say goodbye to Alfred and leave. He didn’t need anything here, all of his valuables had moved far away from here long ago.

“He’ll come back.”

Dick frantically said to himself as he hugged his little brother's suit to his chest. Tears of hurt and regret burned down his cheeks like a waterfall of acid.

“Tim always comes back. He just needs some time…..he’ll come back”

Dick whispered to himself, willing himself to believe his own words. Because he can’t lose another little brother. He loved his little brothers. Tim would come back. Dick believed that his statement was true.

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4 Years Later

Tim hadn’t come back, and no matter what they did or where they looked not even Oracle could find him. Tim was good like that, if he didn’t want to be found, no one would ever be able to see him again unless he wanted you too. The lack of the scent of coffee and the lack of tired mumbling made a hole in the family that could never be filled no matter what they did. It felt…..wrong not having to tell a little caffeine gremlin to go to sleep, or having to carry said gremlin to their bed after he collapsed from exhaustion. But even though it felt like a grievous mistake, life went on, and there was nothing that they could do about it.

It was almost time for the annual Wayne Gala, and they had finally been able to get an audience with the famous and mysterious MDC. They were supposed to come to Gotham, but because of sudden “health issues” they requested that they come to Paris, France to meet them. They were supposed to meet the designer tomorrow, but until then they would wander the city just to tour it for once instead of being on some kind of mission.

“Hey Bruce, let’s go get a treat!”

Dick yelled out while pointing to a small quaint bakery at the corner of the street. Bruce sighed at his hyperactive son who was most definitely a sugar addict.

“Alright, come on Damian. Let’s go see what there is.”

Damian simply nodded and followed his father and older brother. Damian had rarely ever spoken since the night Tim had left fearing he would say something terribly and irrevocably wrong. He didn’t want anyone else to suffer from his words again.

They walked into the bakery and were greeted with loud giggles and a small fake offended gasp.

“Luna! How could you do that to me?”

Asked a very familiar voice in dramatic betrayal. There were 5 people at the back of the store, everyone except the man with black hair giggling softly to themselves. Suddenly a cloud of white shot up into the face of the man followed by a high pitched,

“Smoke bomb!”

The near silent giggles turned into fits of laughter. As the man wiped the flour from his face, a small smirk on his lips. Dick held his breath while tears began to well up in Bruce’s eyes as the familiar face of his son came into view. Damian stared blankly in shock, fists clenched in hope and fear. Deep steely blue eyes shown when the man opened his eyes and they all knew exactly who he was. Dick quietly gasped out,

“Tim?”

And the man turned to them with a bright smile that quickly faded to shock, and then guilt. Tim gulped, his body tightening up anxiously until a women with dark black hair gently grabbed his hand in reassurance.

“Daddy! Who are they?”

The little girl asked. Bruce’s eyes widened completely as all of the bar’s jaws dropped in surprise at what the little girl had just called him. Their gazes turned to the girl, black hairs just like the woman who held Tim’s hands, eyes the shade of Tim’s if not a bit lighter. She had the face of the woman, but the nose of Tim.

Tim carefully picked up his daughter, sitting her against his hip as the older couple that was also there stood behind the two in a protective manner. Tim took a deep breath before he said,

“Hey, it’s been awhile. I’m….I’m sorry about that. I’d like you to meet my wife and children.”

He said with false courage as he stepped out from behind the counter.

“This is Marinette, our daughter Luna Cassandra Dupain-Cheng, and our little surprise on the way.”

Tim said with a content smile as he placed a gentle hand on Marinette’s slightly round stomach. The Bat’s were speechless as they stared at the family, the family that no one had even known about. Tim could feel his nerves spike at the silence, but Marinette and his daughter clinging to his side kept him grounded. Damian was the first to move, his steps slow and even. Tim felt his heart rate spike bracing for words of hatred and malice, but instead was met with…..a hug?

Yep, it was definitely a hug, and oh. His shirt was getting wet we’re Damian’s head lay against his shoulder. Tears of his own welled up as he removed his hand from Marinette’s and hugged his younger brother. He could feel his daughter try to wiggle out of his grip and broke the hug to set her down. She quickly ran up to Dick and pointed at him with a bright smile and glowing eyes.

“Daddy! Daddy! Is he the acrobat that can fly?!”

She practically squealed. Tim, once again hugging Damian smiled at his daughter as tears ran down his face,

“Yes Sweetheart, that’s Uncle Richard. This is Uncle Damian, and say hi to Grandpa Bruce.”

Luna was like a flash of lightning, quickly attached to Bruce’s leg with a wide smile.

“Hi Grandpa! It’s nice to finally meet you!”

She said cheerily with a high pitched voice filled with wonder. Bruce looked up from where his little granddaughter—oh gosh, he had granddaughter—and saw Dick hugging both of his brothers, his sons. Carefully bending down he picked up the small child and quickly pulled all of his children into the tightest embrace.

Ding

“Hey Pixie! What going-“

Damian, Dick, and Bruce turned their heads towards the very familiar voice and saw Jason standing there stock still, obvious panic in his tense form.

“Uncie Jay-Jay!”

Luna cried with pure joy from the middle of the hug pile. The recognition and excitement in her voice, a clear indication that this was not Jason’s first time here. Needless to say he turned right out while he yelled,

“I’ll come back later.”

Dick was going to give the lecture of a lifetime when he was finished cuddling his baby brother. After the hug the three of them turned to where Marinette was standing off to the side, a smile on her lips and tear tracks on her cheeks. Tim cupped her cheeks while rubbing the tracks away with his thumb while he whispered comforts and questions to her that she responded to just as quietly. When he was done fretting Marinette approached them giving all of them cheek kisses.

“It’s nice to finally meet you all. I know this must be a shock to all of you.”

“Understatement of the century.”

Damian mumbled as he crossed his arms.

“But I want you to know that Tim has been nothing but kind and loyal. He has spoken many things to me about you, and I know that even if you have made some terrible choices with him, that you are good people at heart. We welcome you to our home.”

“Thank you.”

Bruce whispered before he pulled Marinette into a gentle embrace that she quickly returned.

“Thank you for looking after him for us.”

Marinette let out a small giggle and smiled at her husband. They looked after each other, neither would have been able to survive if they hadn’t stuck together. Things were rough at first due to distance and so many other variables. But now things are good. A new family formed, and the family reunited. Paris really is the city of love and surprises.

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thesolotomyhan · 3 years

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being pregnant with miguel angel felix gallardo’s kid but leaving him would include

a/n: the way i went full 180 and wrote this because i LIVE for angst and im here to share my pain with you all,, also! this came out as a preggo hc but it follows up with the angst- um i hope you all enjoy my mess

Taglist: @ fandomnerd16 @visintaes @sheeshgivemeabreak @artemiseamoon @ all-tings-diego

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tODO POR TU CULPA ANON IM CRYING BEFORE I EVEN BEGIN-

i just need to say this to mend my broken heart but,, can you imagine miguel angel being so fucking elated the day you tell him you’re pregnant-

like im imagining you surprising him with this neatly wrapped box you give him once he comes home,,

your nervous form standing there when he gives you that stupid laugh when he picks up the box like, “whats this, amor?”

just- his smile getting bigger as he starts to unwrap the box,, pulling out this onesie you put in there-

and there’s this shine in his eyes as he holds it up,, looking at you with so much adoration,,

“estas- embarazada, tesoro?” I SOB because i know nothing feels better than to hear from you,, his dama, is pregnant with his kid, :((

and just him walking up to you,, kissing your forehead as his hands caress your stomach, lightly laughing into your hair- i :(

ok but i can feel it in me that since day one,, he would have you never leave the house no matter what because he doesnt want you out and about without him there cuidandote,,

he just gets low key worried because he doesn’t want you to get hurt while he’s working, and not be there for you right away,, so i know he would have someone with you at all times

like personal maids to do anything you ever need because he doesnt want you touching one plate or moving one foot-

he just w o r r i e s about you putting strength in anything that could harm the baby even if youve only been pregnant for a month-

se preocupa el cabron

and also him doubling security just for the sake of something ever happening,, i just- he doesn’t want absolutamente NADA que te pase ok :(

i cant- hes always telling you that you can call him whenever you need to if you want from the littlest problem to the biggest-

“por cualquier cosa, no importa la hora, you call me first, mi amor, tu eres lo mas importante para mi” -

hes just trying his hardest to be as supportive as he can for you,, im tearing up

also someone PLEASE tell me im not the only one that imagines him sitting down on a couch and having you either sitting on his lap or curled into him-

him caressing your hair and kissing the top of your head,, his hand intertwined with yours thats sitting on your stomach-

like its such a soft fucking moment that he cherishes and just looks forward to the day when he imagines holding your baby in his arms- i :((

and i can see him being the type to bring you all and every snack/food he sees on the street on his way home for you to have,,

just the way he’ll come home to you,, fresh pan dulce in his hand or ice cream as he walks up to you,, smile on his face when he leans down to kiss you-

“te traje algo para ti y el niño, amor” and his hand rubbing your stomach -i cannot handle this right now,,

god, he would also be the one to always have you sleeping on his chest,, wanting to be as close to you and his bebe when he falls asleep,,

but also him staring at the ceiling,, thinking of names he likes for your baby,, and just him blurting them out randomly when he really likes one,

i cant-and the little smile on his face when he hears you softly giggle into his chest,, sleepily telling him if you like that name or not- im crying i wow-

ok now listen,, -i want you to imagine with me somewhere at the point of your pregnancy where you find out the gender of your baby ok-

i can imagine you wouldnt have told miguel about you going to the doctors maybe because you wanted to surprise him or maybe it just crossed your mind and you forgot to tell him-

but whatever the reason,, you wouldve wanted to give him the news at his office at hotel americas because youre too excited to wait until later to tell him,,

and i just imagine you carrying this first ever picture in your hand of your baby, this smile on your face as you head up,, i

but right when you round the corner down to his office, you bump into this lady, still trying to button her shirt up, adjusting her outfit and not even acknowledging you as she walks all giggly away from you-

and from this point,, you already know something isnt right even tho you want to so badly brush it off, you cant,

not when you look down the hall where miguels office door was left open-

god, just the nagging tension pulling on your shoulder every time you take a step closer to his door,,

and the moment you push the door open,, its like a weight was dropped on your heart because there miguel stands, right behind his desk, adjusting the collar of his shirt, his hair all messed up and sticking out everywhere-

just- the whole world feeling like it stopped when he looks up at you, standing there in the doorway,, looking at him with so much resentment in your eyes because you fucking know what happen ed when everything clicked for you- i

“mija, que haces aqui? you should be at home, resting-” and like just the way hes trying to play it off like you didnt just catch him angers you even more, your tense form looking at him and teeth gritting-

“who was that vieja, miguel?”

and just woW him giving you that fucking scoff he does as he smiles at you, moving to start walking up to you,,

“que vieja, mijita?”

i- and the way you give him this dry laugh,, not even noticing your hand starting to crumble the picture in your hand- “no soy pendeja miguel, diME quien era esa mujer” your voice starting to slowly crack,, your eyes filling with angry tears as you back away from him-

i fucking CRY at the thought of desperate miguel trying to hold your arms and calm you down,, and just holding your body against his when you start to struggle out of his hold,, his voice rising to get you to calm down when you start to hit his chest like- como pudiste? after everything we’ve been through, me enganas, como nada-?”

i just- his hands trying to stop you from pushing him away and get ahold of you- “BASTA mija, ella no es nada para mi, let me fix this, tu eres la mejor cosa para mi” i- and him looking at you todo perdido when you push him away angrily,, wanting to get as much space away from him

and theres this tense ass moment where you can barely even look at him through your eyes,, taking a shaky breath like- “cuantas mas hay,,,, dime la verdad-”

but- ,just him looking down, silent becasue he cant bring himself to lie to you again,, not with they way he can feel his heart in his throat if he even tries to- “dejame arreglar esto, profavor mi amor, i never wanted to hurt you”

i cant- just the way he can see your heart break further when he looks at you,, hurting the one person he promised to never destroy,,

and his own feeling like it fucking shatters as he watches you toss your ring at him,, your words further crushing him - “nunca pense que llegaria el dia en que te dijera that i dont love you anymore after what you did”-

and just, your muffled cries struggling to leave your mouth as you turn around,, not even noticing when the crumpled picture of your baby falls to the floor-

your legs moving without even thinking towards his door,, not once glancing back at him when he tries to call out your name as you slam the door behind you- i

THIS IS YOUR FAULT ANON

#narcos mexico imagine #narcos mexico imagines #miguel angel felix gallardo x reader #miguel angel felix gallardo #narcos mexico #narcos: mexico

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tbh i think one of the biggest issues in mdzs is false neutrality. standing aside while other sects get eaten, looking away when someone is dragged to be sacrificed, giving the reigns of post-war handling of prisoners aside entirely. equating a broken arm to a pierced gut, saying an impulsive, regretted moment of self sacrifice is the same as one deliberated upon. sect loyalty to innocent lives. looking away when xy was pardoned to not create any rifts. i think a lot of the time 1/6

theres reasonings! understandable but not excusable reasonings as to why inaction or insistence on compromise/peace/”neutrality” was preferable than picking a stance. but inaction doesnt make things inexcusable, ignorance is not innocence, and to be neutral is to be complicit, even if the outcome wasnt what they chose. a lot of the time theyre not to blame for the outcomes but that doesnt mean theyre not at fault. imo the ones who get it the harshest are the most neutral characters no matter 2/6

how good their intentions are. jyl, jzx, lxc i feel got it the worst? jzx looked away and ignored the problem until it blew up in his face. jyl stood aside and tried to be “neutral” for so long that her actions devolved the situation. lxc worked to compromise between 3zun when instead a better course of action mightve been to firmly get them to separate instead (even tho nmj nd jgy did choose to go for the brotherhood too). like its not like any are to /blame/ for their choices, but its 3/6

something to think about ig. lost my train of thought but mostly i was just thinking about how “staying out of it” or “not favoring any side or the other” inevitably favors one side. irl when someone says “i stay out of politics/buzzword issues” its bc they can afford to, their inaction favoring the oppressing side. when someone is ignorant of issues that doesnt mean theyre to blame for that but that they need to dig deeper into the world around them. 4/6

tho like ngl i kinda :/ a little at jyl and lxc because i get what they were trying to do but man… jzx has the excuse of just being really out of the loop for things but jyl is there to see with her own eyes the imbalance between what wwx and jc says, lxc probably couldve been more concerned about Clan Decimater xy getting into jgs’s graces over causing trouble for jgy. not his own sect but, idk, i keep thinking about it to pre ssc when the bigger sects all looked away from the smaller sects 5/6

this is a really long chain of asks, sorry about that, but yeah i meant to point out earlier how its not just an in-universe problem but also from a fandom perspective. never gonna get over how ppl are like “jc and wwx have equal love bc they made equal sacrifices!” when its clear that its not equal, that jc once loved and then regretted while wwx loved and refused to regret or think on it further. jyl choosing wwx once doesnt absolve her choosing jc every other time :/ 6/6

Yeah, I think a good chunk of MDZS revolves around how there comes a point where you can’t be neutral, because even trying to be is in and of itself favouring one side or the other. In MDZS attempted neutrality ranges from sympathetic (the other sects not fighting the Wens straight away because they didn’t think they could win a fight and hoped that if they stayed out of it the Wens would leave them alone) to considerably less so (the sects letting JGS keep XY alive and active even after everything he did so that they didn’t rock the boat, JYL enabling JC’s abuse because he might get annoyed at her if she stepped in on WWX’s behalf), but it’s always... a problem. People very much simplify everything that happens down to equal conflicts and equal relationships, but I don’t think there’s a single truly equal conflict in this entire novel; they’re all the sort of conflict where staying neutral is taking the side of the more powerful party, because the weaker party can’t win without help.

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botheredbuck · 3 years

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difficulty with adoption (because of ben’s record) hcs

okay yes absolutely bc i desperately want them to have this convo (as much as im aware they couldn't adopt and like they both probably know that)

i think it's something that they've both thought about, definitely. i think they both want more kids, partly because they both come from fairly big families (yes i count the carters for callum) and partly because i think they'd want lexi to have siblings. because like, as much as they both find their families annoying like most of the time, they both have seen the benefits of having siblings (because stuart protecting callum, and ben is clearly close to people like louise, denny etc) so i think they definitely would want lexi to experience that. also like they know how badly lexi wants a sibling because she literally never shuts up about it lmao

and okay so for whatever reason in this scenario they don't know that bens record will be a problem (callum does know about his record and shit, they've definitely had that conversation) but when kids get brought up it's kind of something they talk about because they both like the idea of adopting, because they both know what it's like to have a shitty childhood. they both know the kind of effect that that can have on a person, and both of them want to do something to protect a kid (or a few kids) from that.

i can see callum really loving the idea of fostering. like mainly because he just wants to help people, and even if these kids are only with them for a week or a month he'd want to take care of them, make sure that they know they're loved. because thats what hes good at, taking care of people, and because i think he thinks about his own childhood with that, and the kind of difference it would have made for him if someone had just been there when he needed them, if he'd just had that reminder. obviously he partly had that with stuart but i think there's a lot about him leaving for sometimes days on end when callum was older and stuff. and i think that plays into it too - callum understood what it felt like to have that care ripped away like that. so really he just wants to be some kind of temporary stability for these kids, and do whatever he can to make sure that they feel loved.

(also i just,,, adore the idea of callum making their house like a perfect place for foster kids, like them moving a little more out of central london and getting a bigger place with a few spare bedrooms which he and ben and lexi decorate, and like whenever there's new kids coming he always makes them these little like care packages, and like they have movie nights and aaaaaaa)

i think ben would possibly lean more towards adopting, while also definitely understanding why callum wants to foster. i think he'd be more enclined to be able to offer some stability for a kid, a safe and permanent home because that's something he didn't really have (with phil getting married and remarried, kathy leaving etc) and he definitely understands the importance of that for a kid. and i think there's also some guilt from lexis upbringing that plays into that. just because of like, not being there when she was a baby, and being like in and out of her life. and of course now he's in her life for good but i think it's something he still kinda feels guilty about sometimes, so i think he'd kinda be more tempted to adopt to kind of 'make up' for that if that makes sense? but like he'd definitely be up for fostering if only because he can see just how happy the idea makes callum

(they have a convo about it and callum just lights up at the idea of fostering and like talking about all the nice things he'd do for the kids and stuff like that and ben is just,,, ridiculously in love)

so it's devastating when they get told they can't, especially for ben

they don't sit down and talk about it for a while, because they're both avoiding it. they're both obviously devastated, ben's blaming himself and callum doesnt know what to do because theres no taking away ben's record.

they don't sit down until callums had enough, clears out the house and tells ben that they're having date night and ambushes him with nice food and about a thousand pamphlets of surrogacy and stuff

and ben tries to run away because he's convinced himself that this is it for callum, that it's the final nail in the coffin that he's just been waiting for because it feels like life with a man like callum could never have lasted forever for him.

but the first thing callum says is i don't blame you and ben just stops still where he's stood because of all the things he'd been expecting callum to say that wasn't one of them

so he turns around and just says callum don't-

no, ben. it ain't your fault, and i don't blame you. it's just the way things are. i love you, and that's all that matters to me, more than anything else. cause its me and you, ain't it? against the world.

ben's crying already but he's trying to hold it back and he just says why? why, when you could have so much better?

there is no one better for me than you, ben

and ben's just gone

they end up crying together just in the middle of the dining room, and when kathy brings lexi back home they find them both curled up together on the sofa, asleep

(thank u so so much for the ask lovely, and my apologies it took a while!!)

if you fancy, you're still more than welcome to ask me about hcs! they just might take me a little while to get to

#answered asks #ballum #leo writes hcs #okay this one's gonna be a fic #i got a little too into it #I'll do it at some point tho cause... yes

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sanchoyo · 3 years

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danny phantom 8-13 thoughts! again, under the cut bc I blew through 6 episodes in one go...

-LOVE THE WAY THE GHOST ZONE LOOKS. but theres fucking ghost cops??? ghost jail??? that SUCKS imagine dying and going to jail in your AFTERLIFE. danny going to JAIL WAS NOT something I expected. but seeing all the enemies together and work with danny to bust out. SO ICONIC I love that actually. and the thing about real world stuff acting as ghosts in the ghost zone is very cool.

-'there are some things more important that hunting ghosts!' mrs fenton says, about her husband forgetting their anaversary (FOR THE 18TH YEAR IN A ROW?? CHRIST) and not about, idk, their son clearly freaked out. she didnt even notice he was gone into the ghost zone!!! he might be a bad husband BUT shes not the best mom. they suck and I don't care about their relationship problems I care about these kids. danny doing his best to clean the house to keep his mom from getting mad at his dad?? hes such a good boy I want to cry, this is not his place, his dad should be cleaning his own shit up!!!

-maddie's butch lesbian sister is living my best life in her lil cabin. also being a snarky bitch to jack. queen. and her getting a 10th anniversary of her divorce. LOVE IT.

-mr. lancer being a cheerleader in his younger years makes perfect sense to me. king shit.

-dr. spectra's cat ears/mullet hairstyle?? sooo cute. I also just love the concept of a ghost just. sucking out people's positivity and feeding on emotions. a great villain. she put danny in a fucking diaper what the FUCK. and keeping it cold so no one would suspect shes a ghost??? INCREDIBLE. and her gay little blob sidekick. wlw mlm evil solidarity.

-JAZZ FOCUSED EP. YEAAAH!!! her first thought when she saw the ghosts was like 'omg i gotta tell danny :)' and her going to the teacher and also councilor trying to get help for him...shes just 16 but shes trying so hard to help him out :( watching this when youre younger I can imagine ppl are like omg annoying!! but watching this when im older im just like :( jazz baby im SO sorry </3 SHE BODIED THAT GHOST THOUGH. and the fact she didnt tell danny she knew surprised me. like, shes patient and waiting on him to tell her when hes ready!! thats so so sweet.

-christ the parents talking about 'PEELING IT LIKE AN ONION. AND EXAMINING REMAINS' of ghosts RIGHT INFRONT OF DANNY.

-'why am i so depressed and angry all the time!!' DANNY YOURE 14. i mean it IS a ghost this time, but...

-579$ top?? VALERIE NO ITS NOT EVEN CUTE IT DOESNT EVEN GO WITH THAT OUTFIT AAAA. tho this ep is called shades of gray..VALERIE FOCUSED EP FINALLY????! *THUNDEROUS APPLAUSE* I already knew about red huntress from my redesigns, but I didn't exactly know what that entails or how/why, so, it's fun to see the Origins.

-ghost pubby! ghost pubby!!!!! why is the dog a ghost?? the implication that the company had guard dogs and got rid of them...what did they DO. is it just the unfinished business?? of not having that toy it was looking for?? god I hope so.

I feel SOOO bad for valerie tho, my god. her friends are shunning her for what, because her dad lost her job and she had to move??? horrible. (and the fact the dog wrecked the moving van too...) I also love how 'from wisconsin' on the package was an IMMEDIATE RED FLAG FOR ME. WISCONSIN=EVIL NOW. vlads so petty.

-it took valerie like 5 mins to get the hang of hunting ghosts and shes already a much bigger threat than his parents tbh. who've been trying and studying this for years. and a more valid reason <3 love her shes so cute and cool. new daughter alert.

-'i should do SOMETHING to help valerie' no shit danny???

-'who is that, awesome outfit!' -top gay sam moments. i was going to say. before it immediately cuts to sam kissing danny LMFAOOO. don't think I like that, it puts tucker in a weird third wheel position... the next ep involves them holding hands and blushing when danny's cold...URGH No. not a fan ngl. the trope of 'if theres a girl in a trio she has to end up with one of the two guys!!'

-right as I say that they take it to extremes!! and ember shoots him with a love ray gun that makes him OBSESSIVE OVER SAM. AND SHE TAKES HIS HANDS AND SAYS 'YOU DONT FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT ME, I DONT FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT YOU' and her saying she doesnt want to be together like this. and tucker saying 'i always knew you two would get together!!' dont manifest it tucker please. the show pushing for it so hard makes me not want it KSHKJKJD I KNOW its probably canon. it sucks though. im a hater.

-vlad just LURKING AROUND THE SCHOOL GIVING VALERIE GIFTS ASJKDHKJ YOU WEIRD PETTY OLD MAN GO HOME!!!

-EMBERRRRR YOU WILL REMEMBERRRRRR . this is the one thing I kinda remember from when I was a kid EMBERRRRR ilu. top 10 cartoon bops. sams being a hater. popular things are popular for a reason. mr. lancer also being a hater. also everyone wearing her color scheme ..its a really good look, the purple, black, and minty color...

-penguins exist in the ghost zone. confirmed.

-EMBER JUST SHOWING UP AT A RANDOM HIGHSCHOOL TO PLAY?? UNANNOUNCED, MID DAY??? girl get a tour schedule. make some money or smth damn. I know shes probably doing it for the power boost but. lord. anyway if your show doesnt have a concert scene/ep, is it even valid.

-fellas is this gay. (she uses a GRAPPLING HOOK TO SHOOT OUT THE WINDOW AFTER SEEING AN EMBER VAN GO BY RIGHT AFTER THIS SHOT)

-hey, she had an undercut at some point!! my redesign!!! was accurate!! in..a way

-I feel like danny has a lot of pent up aggression ngl, him being heartbroken about sam and immediately going IM GONNA GO TAKE IT OUT ON EMBER. I mean she needs to be stopped I guess But. jazz has the right idea he needs therapy and a HEALTHY outlet.

-tucker singing > my singing

-girls cant be gamers -tucker and danny sexist moments. her being chaos in the game OWNED.

-TUCKERS HAT IS A BERET??? I THOUGHT IT WAS A BEANIE. SAM CALLED IT A BERET. WH.

-it was actually nice of lancer to let danny retake the test, and he go to play games again. smh. epic cringe gamer moments compilation. and driving him home!!! I actually like him as a character. anyway teachers like lancer are SO appreciated. I was failing middle school because of mental problems, and felt so dumb and got embarrassed by teachers who would just get onto me instead of bothering to ask what the real problem was, but when I was taking my ged classes I had a wonderful teacher who kept reassuring me that I was smart, and I got honors!! danny is SUCH a little shit to him (understandable, 14, but) but seeing them getting along better and danny putting in effort. SO CUTE. THATS MY SON, STUDYING HARD!!!! and being so PROUD OF HIMSELF!!! 91!!! BITCH!!! A- is STILL AN A!!!

-'why dont they ever realize thats me in a dress' mr lancer i am CRYING. i realized.

-technus being my ghost grandpa who cant game asking tucker for help. bless his heart. his out of date old ppl lingo circles back to being endearing <3 tucker not recognizing him despite the like, lack of any kind of serious disguise...I do love their lil in-game outfits....sam being the tank rules. I like technus' spider design also. more characters need to be giant freaky spiders, imo.

-finding your gf a new host because she cant maintain her ghost body outside the zone? amazing. using jazz as the host? ILL KILL YOU. jazz immediately accepting a ride home from a guy she just met and letting him know where she lives. letting him IN THE HOUSE??? nooo girl no lets use common sense </3

-sooo cringe the parents were like 'good job for spying on your sister' tho wtffff. doesnt matter if hes a bad guy, thats fucked. everytime these parents BREATHE im like. these are MY kids now <3

-BAD LUCK BEING A THEME OF THE 13TH EPISODE. thats super fun. johnny 13 being his name is so. iconic. your last name is a NUMBER? also goth tucker. I actually love the look. everyone looks good goth. 'the ladies love the eyeliner and onyx nail polish' sam you are sooo right every man needs to at least try those two things. im a lesbian and I agree. same, danny, your bff is gnc af

-LOVE kitty's design. and just, the concept of a ghost with a bike. couple goals, except yes stay away from jazz.

#danny phantom #sanchoyorambles #s1 is only 20 eps?#i can probably #finish within a week #i like binging shows asdf #ive been watching it all night #gonna work out now #dp thoughts

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gingeraleluke · 3 years

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🍈Cantaloupe Pink Grapefruit question for miss Y/N hehe :)

i’m doing these for ‘y/n havok’ from the boxer series :)

is there one particular character trait that your OC embodies?

➪ so i based y/n off of myself on a lot of different aspects, mostly emotional ones. i have read a lot of fics were the reader or main character isnt emotional until something drastic happens, or they act like they’ve never really been hurt before, and while some people are like that, most of them aren’t.

i try my absolute hardest to make everyone feel included when they read my stories. sometimes you just start crying for no reason, or you act out of line. no one is perfect. it’s breaking that stigma of perfection. when you read a reader insert fic, you aren’t supposed to just see the surface, you’re supposed be picturing yourself in it. you know yourself better than anyone. you know you don’t wake up everyday at 8:30 and put your hair up in a messy bun before going to school. you know you don’t say whatever pops into your head. we all filter ourselves but when you read a reader insert fic, it breaks the wall down. there is no filter. no flat character with a perfectly written story. it sucks because you will read a fic and see a bunch of comments complaining shit like “is she really crying over him” or “why is she so rude tf” as if we have 100% control over how others view us.

for example, in the boxer part three, when y/n has a breakdown on the bathroom floor, i can 100% see someone commenting some shit like “ew wtf” as if they were in their shoes, yes, you are supposed to visualize yourself as them, but no matter how hard you try, you won’t be able to feel exactly what they are feeling. no matter how descriptive i am, you won’t truly know just how good vinnie looked under those lights or just how scary those men at the door were. it’s important that you don’t judge y/n for small moments like that, because if that was actually you and you were reading a story of your own life, you probably wouldn’t even fucking notice how rude you were being or how annoying you were being until you read some comments about it. fics are supposed to be based on real fucking life, not just the highlights and i think it’s important to show that.

i wanted to make a character that people could see themselves in while still being an OC. i structured y/n in a super messy and intricate way because that’s how the real world works. i wanted someone as emotional and caring as i am. i wanted someone who was fragile yet strong. sensitive but not weak. someone who cares so much that sometimes they forget to care about themselves. but also someone who fucks up. no one is perfect and i think that y/n does a beautiful job at showing that.

anyways, back to the main question, y/n embodies comfort the most out of anything. she has a mothering type of nature where she wants to take care of everyone and make sure everyone is happy. she’s a huge mediator and just wants everything to work out in the end. you may see her personality flip flop, sometimes she’ll be too scared to walk in a room and the next minute she’ll be a total badass, but that’s the reality of it. she’s a round character with so many layers, and you guys have only seen the surface so far.

what is a trait that they value the most in others?

➪ okay so i 100% copied this from my own personality, but y/n is very big on people’s energies. she needs to be able to feel safe around someone and if she doesn’t feel safe with them, she will cut them out of her life, no question. she’s a super curious person and loves guys that are intimidatingly perfect. she likes to get close to them and pick apart their imperfections. a guy who looks like he’s got his life together, but in reality doesnt. she loves being able to help people and as cringy as it sounds, she loves ‘fixing’ people, especially the ones that she loves. (not saying that anyone needs fixing lol)

if a person can trust her, and she has their attention without begging for it, it’s a super big turn on. she doesn’t fuck with secrets and craves loyalty. she’s looking for ride or dies only.

what is one trait that they share with another character?

➪ i’m gonna do a few characters for this because this is a really good question.

drake: her and drake are really fucking sensitive. that’s honestly the only thing they have in common probably. they both have a hard time trusting people, but other than that, they are pretty much opposites

mo: y/n has a bigger heart and a much bigger imagination than mo does, but they are both very vocal and open about their feelings. if they have an opinion, they will speak it. although, moriah doesn’t like to talk about her problems and will try and push it down, from absolutely anyone. y/n will open up to you if she trusts you. y/n is a lot easier to manipulate than mo is.

quinn: they both appreciate the small things and can see through people really easily.

zach: they are both emotional asf and are people pleasers.

katie: nothing 🤢🖕🏻

roman: they both can be super closed off but other than that, nothing. y/n hates his guts LMAO.

flloyd: they would both take a bullet for a dog. they are super optimistic towards friends but then get down on themselves.

vinnie: they both just want to be loved. they have a lot in common and think the same way. they both try to do whatever they think they should do as opposed to whatever society might deem right. they care for other people before they care for themselves and they both sleep on the right side of the bed. oh and they love affection and physical touch.

#the boxer fic #vinnie hacker #vinnie hacker fanfic

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