#so like no pressure at all seriously if you dont do it its okay hope you have a good day<3 sending good vibes<3

[ballad-of-death]

Kissing the boo boo away

;;PAIRING : Jake Peralta x cop!reader

;;SUMMARY : after getting shot, the last thing you expect is a confession from your colleague.

;;NOTES : HEHEHHEHEHHEHE JAKE BRAINROT ENSUES. Also yes very cliche blah blah blah. Anyways! First fic to post on here i hope you guys like it :)

Gettig shot is not like in the movies. You dont just calmly lay and hold the wound. Its loud. It pierces trough you. It makes you gasp for air and yelp in pain. Then there's the force of the blow throwing you back onto the floor and the warm feeling of the bullet going through your skin. The smell of burnt cloth and skin. The ringing in your ears after the shot.

The worried yells of your partners.

You try holding on to the wound but even the smallest bit of pressure makes you want to throw up.

The sound of steps and shots ringing in the background as a habd on your shoulder brings you back to reality.

"Hey! Hey! Dont close your eyes stay with me now! Its me Jake! Hey look at me!" The detective held your shoulder and tried keeping you awake as much as he could. He tried to put pressure on your wound but you just winced and groaned in pain. The bullet shot you theough the abdomen and you couldn't sit upright without immense pain.

"Dont worry everything will be okay just look at me. The medics are on their way just hold on a little longer!"

Jake said with obvious worry in his tone. You tried your best to open your eyes but the heavy feeling of tiredness washed over you. The warmth of your bosy as the blood pumped more and more seemed... comforting in a sense... just closing your eyes to rest wouldn't hurt right? The pain would still keep you awake right?

"No, No, No, No, No! Hey he look at me Hey! Dont "

The bliss of rest entwred your mind and all you could think about was... nothing. Just nothing. Pure nothingness. If it were a movie it would be a black screen, yet not in a bad ending way but a break between plots.

----

You woke up to the beeps of the ECG next to your bed. You look arounf the room but your eyes are still adjusting.

Yet, you can clearly make out the sillouette of a person to your right. They are holding your hand and seem to be sleeping. As your eyes finally adjust you see who it is. Jake.

You tap his hand a few times to try and wake him up and it works.

Hes gasps and jotls closer to you his eyes still slightly closed.

"Hm? What? Wait. Y/N! You're awake! Oh i thought you were going to sleep for like three days like in the movies oh my god you scared me to death!" He rambles on as you chuckled to yourself.

"Thanks Peralta, you know how to make someone feel better" you smile at him letting him know you were joking.

"Yes sorry. But are you okay? Should i call the nurse? Does it hurt? Are you okay? Do you need anything? Anything at all?" He seemed distressed, worried even. You never saw him like this. He wasnt his goofy self anymore. He was more serious.

"'M fine Jake. But you sound more worried the I am. Is everything okay with you?"

"Yes...no... maybe? I dont know but i doesnt matter. You cant do this to me! You cant be so brave ! When you got shot you worried me so so so so much Y/N! I thought i lost you! Like actually. This isnt like a monologue i put on because i had to. You actually scared me. I care about you so much and you just get shot like that." He held your hand tighter and looked you in the eyes. His voice was really serious.

Your hand reached for his head and cupped his face lightly.

"Jake... I'm sorry, although its not my fault i got shot but...im sorry. Dont be so worried about me though. No matter what i will be fine" you smile at him.

"No Y/N i will worry about you. I will. You mean so much to me and now when i thought i lost you... Y/N you seriously dont know how much you mean to me. I was so shit scared about you and it made me realize that... that i care about you. More than anything actually.... what im trying to say is—

When i thought you were gone i realized that a life without you would be hard. I love you Y/N. So so so sod so fucking much." He sighed, his eyes were glossy as if he was about to cry.

Your heart ached at this sight. He also meant much to you. The sight of him sad and worried was very rare. Infact you haven't seen him cry ever.

"Jake—"

"No i know its stupid we're coworkers and like it wouldn't work out and you think im saying this because of your state. But im serious Y/N."

"I know you are, but let me finish. I care about you too Jake. And I think i care about you in the same way you do abiut me. I think i might love you too Peralta."

"You know how to ruin a moment using my last name dont you?" You both luaghed. You were relieved he was already back to his normal self.

"Also, the nurse asked me to ask you if you need someone to kiss your booboo away?"

"Not very smooth Peralta, if you want to kiss me just do it."

"Cool, cool cool cool cool cool cool cool"

#jake peralta x reader #b99 x reader #brooklyn 99 x reader #jake peralta #brooklyn 99 #brooklyn 99 fanfiction #jake peralta fanfic #fluff

[lovedazai]

do you have any tips for writing? i wanna write for dazai but im scared of not getting his character right or writing badly bc i was never good at english in school and were told my writing skills weren’t good, and i’ll cry if someone tells me they hate my writing or it’s bad on here so do you have any tips ? bc i love your writing sm

my sweet nonnie im hugging u so tightly !! before i start i want to tell u that out of all the x reader fandoms ive interacted w on here, i think bsd is the nicest one. i rlly dont think anyone here would tell u they hate ur writing !! but if they do, u can let me know & i’ll take care of them ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ

dazai can be hard to write for so dont beat urself up nonnie :< i feel like i only have an okay time doing it bc ive been daydreaming ab him for so long. when i struggle writing other characters, i usually go back to the manga / anime & try to observe anything i can ab the way they talk, etc. u can also read other fics & see what they do w the character that u think feels right !! obvi dont copy anyone, but incorporate those characteristics into ur version of the character

dont be afraid to use ur personal experiences !! i know x readers should generally appeal to a broad audience, but making it too “one size fits all” makes it a little boring. for me, domestic moments (like waking up together, cooking together), playing with each others hair, being physically affectionate, etc are all things i associate with romance. its fun to include things like that in my fics, even if they don’t necessarily appeal to everyone

lean into details !! im a rlly visual person & i picture things in my head while i write. in the past it was rlly hard for me to expand my ideas & i found myself skipping over the little details to keep the general plot going. ive been trying to get more descriptive & include those little things & i rlly think it helps make everything feel more immersive, even if its something that isnt necessarily important to the fic

proofread !! i reread my fics probably a little too much before i post them but sometimes i think of something i didnt before & it just helps shape the fic better. also, run ur fics thru something like grammarly before u post it !! i catch a lot of silly typos that way >:/

im still kinda learning how to write too, i must have the most disjointed writing process ever omg. but something thats helped me is not to take it too seriously bc this is all just for fun !! when u start to put pressure on urself, it becomes a chore & thats when i know i need a little break.

i hope this helped at least a little bit !! if u need anything else pls don’t hesitate to come back <33 i wish u the best of luck w ur writing & i hope it becomes something u can find comfort in !!

#valentines

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

I didnt know who to say this and i really need to tell someone, so ill drop i here hoping its okay.

Okay so. Im aroace and i thought i was totally alloplatonic but lately ive realized that that might not be the case. Like, i have always tooken friendships seriously. For me, friends are this carefully selected group of ppl i care about deeply and that the feeling is reciprocal. I didnt think i was any different from the rest until a few months ago i started to see some things i didnt believe were a strange behavior until now.

First, when was eight i found out my best friend had made new friends and i was like ??? Why do you want more??

Then, that discoverment took me to realize i didnt want more friends. And not just that, but that i didnt know how to make friends. Every friend i had, was because they tried to be friends with me. And that, apparently, was weird. I was eight, i didnt wanted to be weird.

After that, it literally became my life mission to discover how to make friends by my own. Im talking about years of observation and analysis and hypothesis and try and fail. Like if making friends were my science proyect.

The thing is, i wasnt very consious i was putting so much effort on this. In my mind, it was totally normal. Kind of. The way i saw it was like if everyone else had an instict to make friends and i had broken mine by overthinking. So i had to repair it.

At thirteen, i did have a few friends that i got to love really really deeply. I just felt so comfortable around them and i didnt feel out of place. Like, it was easy to just *be* with them. But again, it was them who became friends with me, and at the beggining i was absolutely awkward.

Then i found out i was aroace and learning to make friends became my priority.

A while after that, I lost those friends cuz they didnt believe frienships were that important and i have dignity, so i walked away from the ppl who didnt appreciate the only kind of relationship i wanted.

But at fifteen i made new ones. And this time was different cuz we fit instantly. Listen to me, i had made a group of friends, and it felt like a big achivement. And in that friendgroup were the two ppl that today are my someones (id say qpr but we havent discussed about it a lot yet)

So, a few months ago i heard about the aplatonic spectrum and i thought yeah there's no way that could be me, cuz friendships always have been an important part of my life. Like, all the meaningful relationships ive had, were platonic. I mean, yes. I was weird with making new friends, but that's how it is for introverts, right?

BUT then i started to go to language classes and my someones arent there, and for the first time in a decade, i had gone to a place and didnt pressure myself to make new friends. And i notice things i didnt before. Most ppl do have an instict to make new friends. Most ppl dont need a deep emotional conection to call someone a friend. Most ppl dont look for a life-long friendship, or expect them to be.

So, yeah. I think i might be demiplatonic or smth and i dont know what to do with that information.

Yeah, definitely you can use that label if you want to. Your experiences don't sound that off from the way I've see other people describe feeling like they're on the aplatonic spectrum, including the AVEN thread where it was coined.

It's up to you what you want to do with this. All labels are optional, it's up to you to decide if you feel like it'd be useful for you, if you feel a connection to it, etc. It's also OK to decide if you don't feel like you need it. Sometime too it can be nice to figure out something about ourselves, but we don't do much with it.

Basically, don't be afraid to do what feels right for you, Anon.

All the best!

[compassionatereminders]

Do you mind if I get an opinion on an ex? She keeps coming back into my life to be friends. She says it is all she wants. When we were together, it was not under admirable or respectable circumstances. It was wrong, to say the least. After all of that, she still ended up with someone else. Leaving me in the wreckage of shitty decisions and feelings of worthlessness. Anyways, I have turned her away multiple times, but she keeps coming back. Its been over a year since we were actually together. The reason I am having a hard time with being friends is because I did not/have not dated during this time. I have not even seriously entertained the idea. In other words, I was not fully over her and her continuing to come back into my life was not helping, because Id try to be friends and then ultimately decide against it either because I learn more of how she lied to me or more recently bc I know how I feel about her. Even after everything. Im shit at turning her away and she is good at pulling at my heart strings. Most recently, when I told her I didnt think being friends will work out for us, she says I can leave because I keep saying her friendship isnt good enough. This is frustrsting, because my instinct is to say that isnt true and remain her friend even while knowing it will hurt me and I will not be happy, but the thing is, I feel like she knows this. I feel like she is choosing to say it with the hope it works well enough to get me to stay. I have expressed on multiple occassions that I dont feel we can be friends so she will disappear then come back with the same suggestion. Saying she needs a friend and misses me and etc. etc. Im just upset bc it does not feel nice to be framed as a guy that does not want to be her friend because her friendship isnt enough. I would have loved to be her friend, the first time around, when I first met her. Before everything turned out the way it did. I just dont think friends is something we can get back to and unfortunately I still have feelings. These feelings make me put my health on the back burner. These feelings have a proven track record of making me make the worst decisons for myself. A lot of crying. Too much crying. For one lifetime. I care about her. I love her. I always will, but I just dont believe friendship can work for us. Even if she said she wanted to try again, I would be happy, but know deep down that it wouldnt be likely to work. I just wish she would let me go. Let me move on. Because I will always care. And she doesnt seem to want to stop using it against me. Should I just ignore her the next time she looks for me? I dont want to hurt her or for her to hurt herself, but I matter too here. And I cant live my life putting everything I feel to the side just to prioritize my friendship with her. I want to move on. I want to be happy without feeling guilty or unloved.

Actually you should block her cause it sounds like you have tried to establish a boundary several times and that she has repeatedly disregarded that just to continue to pressure you to sacrifice your own needs for hers and that's not okay! It's time to end this pattern and since she's not respecting your boundaries, that will be on you

#chat with kat #manipulation tw

[lunarifie]

Rewatching Ninjago:

(With no context other than the episode)

Rebooted episode 6-7

Broooo this is the episode where they get all their powers back!!! The exact moment Lloyds no longer the golden ninja.

Why is Garmadon against it??? His son was targeted for his golden power and he himself was teaching Lloyd how to NOT depend on his golden power. Seems kinda hypocritical.

I cant take the overlord seriously anymore after he was puked out by Pythor-

Nooooo. Whos idea was it for all three of them to go to the movies with the tension they had 😭

Lloyd and Jay both like Fritz donnegan, the comic book guy which is absolutely amazing and i think we should talk about it more

Im sorry who tf throws popcorn at ppl being disruptive thats even worse.

Kai flirting is so funny. NFHSNFJSJBR PIXAL KNEW WHAT SHE WAS DOING She just wanted to embarrass him and i find that hilarious

Kai: Relaaaaax every car works differently

Pixal: Yes, but this car is worth far more than you so i’d advise you to be cafeful

I dont remember Pixal having this much personality 💀

Pixal wasn’t even there and she still accomplished more

Pythor: YOU

Kai: me? (Gets fucking totaled)

IS HE KIDNAPPED?!?!?

Nya towards Jole the robot: I can fix him.

They’re really putting pressure on her like damn, I get that it can be frustrating but give her time. She’s not TRYING to string you two along.

OH RIGHT THEY WENT BACK IN TIME.

Ooooo the golden weapons are back

The ancient city of oroboros!!!!

They really brought everything full circle huh

Wu: and how do you know nindroids will be there.

Garmadon, menacingly as lightning crackles: Faith.

HFISNFJSBRUS

Thats not a very solid answer my guy

JESUS CHRIST

Did they HAVE to tie Kai up like that that looks so painful 😭 that is probably the worst way to dislocate a shoulder

ARE THEY GOING TO SPACE????

They’re going to fucking space.

The elevator music. Their done with this shit faces. Their bodies just bopping and floating around. Im dead.

Hilarious hows everyones serious or freaking out and Jays having the time of his life

Jay: I thought this was stuff only Fritz donnegan gets to enjoy!

Lloyd: Fritz is from a comic book! THIS IS REAL.

Jay: Well you got me hooked on the character! Lighten up a little!

I feel like an arc where Jay teaches Lloyd that growing up doesn’t mean you have to stop having fun, being childish, and indulging in kid stuff would be nice

Jay: hehe, his wisdom usually takes a while to set in.

Jay (shaking the camera): BUT WE DONT HAVE A WHILE-

Oh damn I forgot Zane was a robot

Weird how he doesn’t need air

The way Zane slowly started drifting and frantically breathing was so similar to a panic attack it made me concerned

I just noticed, the ninja aren’t really great at being the main thing a ninjas supposed to be. Stealthy. I get that it moves the plot forward but still.

I love how, yes, the ninja bash on each other as a joke, but if one of them does something cool they all become that persons cheerleader

(Rips a part of the ship and throws it at a nindroid) Cole: hope we didnt need that :)

Cole: I owe you one.

Jay: okay! Stay away from Nya.

Cole: uhhh, a different one.

Istg Cole is just doing this to mess with him I don't believe he has any romantic feelings towards her 💀

I bet theres bloopers where the voice-actors werent able to say ‘cockpit’ without breaking down

Nindroids: (scared)

Jay: HA! They do have expressions!!!

Nindroids: (get fucking obliterated)

Jay: nevermind…..

Seeing the overlords body and form is kinda disappointing ngl

I liked the veil of mystery

Jay: Would you look at that!!! Its an extraterrestrial life form!

Cole: ….

Cole: Its a bug.

Jay: im gonna call him glowy :) oh look! Glowy can fly :D

Oh shit its a parasite

Love when the ninja work as a team

Damn.

I don’t even remember how they get out of this one

Holy shit, Kais voice sounds so pained when he informed Pixal, Nya, Wu and Garmadon that they failed. Like it was so raw, props to the voice actor.

#ninjago #lego ninjago #Rewatching Ninjago

[madasrabbits]

hey kc do u have advice about being embarrassed about my writing? i have like five published pieces but im having major imposter syndrome and feeling like all my stuff is so horrible that i don't even deserve to be considered a writer. im so deeply embarrassed of what i write and feel like i should just give up. this is seriously taking a toll on me mentally and i think its also what's preventing me from writing recently. anyways i love ur work and am just hoping u have some insight. thank you!

YESS i absolutely do have advice. im sure ive mentioned on here before that i used to be steadfast sure id never publish anything for numerous reasons, but one especially being my fear of being average and talentless.

first of all, anyone can be a writer. you dont have to be good at writing to be a writer. at all. you literally just have to write and you’re a writer. i urge you to & hope you can realize your talent or success is not what gives you permission to create. if you swim, you’re a swimmer. if you sing, you’re a singer. if you write, you’re a writer. it’s not the talent that gives the act meaning, its the act itself. you are a writer, and a good one at that, because you create.

one thing i have to tell you is that no matter how much you write & how good you are of a writer, you’re gonna make stuff that isnt that great. youre gonna make stuff that sucks. and thats okay, because those ideas have to go somewhere, and getting them down allows you to move past and create Good Stuff. writing “bad” stuff doesnt make you a good writer, it makes you a healthy creative with a healthy creative process.

but i understand being embarrassed about what you write. i think a lot of times we do write stuff that can feel embarrassing either in topic or execution. like in my case — recently i had a nonstarter crush that hurt my feelings really bad and for a few weeks (probably more) most of the stuff i was writing was just… not good. even if i liked the craft of a sentence, it felt embarrassing and clunky and awkward. it made me feel deeply untalented and Stuck. while writing helps me emotionally process, sometimes you need to recognize that you need to step back from that and find other ways to get out feelings and move through moments of creative or emotional block. i took a while without really writing as much and i worked on editing old stuff and polishing stuff im proud of as a personal reminder that you can do that & you will do that again. i also learned to do other things (skating has helped me with that immensely.)

it also helps to just put it down. you dont need to force yourself to write. i think of it as like a muscle and if if you are using a strained and exhausted muscle, you’re more likely to damage it and then have even a harder time getting back to it. id recommend taking a break or at least putting less pressure on yourself to create. you can work on stream of conciousness writing to continue evolving a practice but then work on not taking that writing as something to be good. sometimes it just helps to sit down and put down Whatever. it sort of helps “unclog” your brain, in my opinion.

in terms of embarrassment ive also worked through a great deal of self criticism (i still do), and it helps me personally to try and investigate those thoughts. i can usually catch myself in the negative thought (im making bad art/this sounds stupid/im talentless/fill in the blank) and then find ways to counteract it. it helps me to remind myself you have to make bad art to make good art, im not put on this earth to create stuff to satisfy anyone else but me, etc. you have to investigate the negative thought at the source and find ways to counteract it by disproving that logic (at least thats how it works for me.) it might also help to talk about the negativity with a friend or someone else (ive even used my therapist to break through some of those thoughts, but i know not everyone is helped by therapy or doesnt have access to it.) in general, i think the most important thing is finding the root of a thought and then working to curb or work around it — and it takes patience and time. its hard. but you’ll get past it. i promise.

altogether, i think id recommend being gentler with yourself. patience is the hallmark of creating art and your mind is a very gentle machine that needs care and time. allow yourself to rest & do things that bring your brain calm and new inspiration. i always seek out new music when im feeling blocked or i go for a walk/skate/drive/etc. but its not a bad thing to put it down, to take a break. ive gone months and months without writing literally anything, and there’s nothing inherently bad about that. you might be cyclical like me, or perhaps you need rest and to find your starting point again. perhaps focus less on publishing for a while and work on creating stuff that satisfies you, or maybe find other ways to be creative that isnt writing. its easy to get caught up in our own fears, but you’ll get past this. just have patience and do what feels best for you & what brings you creative fulfillment, even if that means taking a break. allow yourself to create bad art, too.

i hope this helps. i wish you the best.

#asks #sorry this got so long #if you need clarification or have further questions im happy to answer that too— i tried to offer some approaches to various angles of your #feelings but what it really comes down to is you feeling out whats best for you.

[jeonqkooks]

Hey i dont even remember my tag anymore, its been that long. I think it's #officiallywhipped?

I just want to let you know how happy i am to read those drabbles, not gonna lie, i miss OBS so much, but i hope this dont come across as some kind of pressure. Thats the least thing i want, because I respect you, and as much as i like your story, i'm not gonna make it about me and pressure you to write something if you dont feel like it. I think the magic of the story is coming from how passionate you are about it. Just want to let you know that i love it so much, and thank you so much for the updates. Please take your time, and if its not gonna be finished, it's okay, i'm glad i came across a magnificent story.

hiiii, it's been a while indeed. i hope you've been doing well 🥺

this wasn't pressuring at all. it was really sweet, and i really appreciate you taking the time to send me this. i personally agree with you and it's something that i've been told before. i do think that readers can tell when my heart is in the story vs when i'm writing smth just for the sake of finishing it. but seriously i really do appreciate this ask a lot. i'm a much slower writer than i'd like to be so i feel pretty bad about not being able to give you guys frequent updates when i know there are a lot of writers out there who produce like tens of thousands of words on a weekly/monthly basis. but i will do my best to not you hanging! everything that's ongoing will hopefully be finished sooner or later, particularly obs bc i do want to see that through and i want to give you guys an ending too. gahhhhh again, this was really nice :( i'm glad that obs is a memorable story for you 🤍

#💌 #re: our beloved summer #officiallywhippedanon #answered

[iwannabeastarstarrockmann]

i dont fucking know if my thoughts are my own or if ive just been so emotionally and verbally abused each day that im starting to internalize someone elses idea of me. idk what to think lately. im so fucking depressed and anxious and sad like every single day, it hurtsso much, and it fucking sucks that there are people in my life who just view me as a sad sack of shit with no aspirations or value. i never get more than a day to get better from anything before someone in my life is pressuring me to get off my ass and do something productive. dont you know tht there is something seriously wrong with me. idk why i cant do things, i just cant. i wan to be so productive and social, i just cant bring myself to do it right now. i feel so trapped and overwhelmed. do you realize how exhausting it is to wake up everyday with a mind attacking itself, with a body that aches, with a hope that this will be your last day of suffering, with no sense of what it is you need in order for the suffering to stop. i want to scream but i have no energy to. i want to die one minute and then hope to save my own life the next, contradicting every word or thought with an action that is not my own. theres days where my health anxiety is practically non existant and then something will happen, it could be something so nonsensical and somehow ill get triggered or worried and there i go absolutely obsessed with some strange pain or weird tension, or god forbid i actually get infected with something. thats all i could focus on 24/7 until i find some way to make it better, but the worry from the thing that im feeling and wondering about my health, this shit brain decides its so stressful and scary that i should just starve myself, cause if i were skinny, these prooblems wouldnt feel so big, or maybe id be able to go to the doctor if im 2 sizes smaller. that doesnt make any sense. i know it doesnt so why do i do what i do. and then theres the cutting that i feel i have to do or else i wont learn from my mistakes but if i cut myself whenever i impulsively feel like it, then that makes my immune system too weak to fight off whatever i think i have this week so im trying to recover from that as its only making everything more complicated, but its all i can think about, especially in this self loathing state im in now. im such an idiot, im just a sick fuck who cant stop thinking to herself that maybe im faking all this and im actually okay. i think its all my fault for being this way, i dont remember what started all these unhealthy coping mechanisms but it has to have started with a thought right? i feel so ashamed for being this way, it was stupid of me to ever adopt such habits restriction makes me more confident but the constant exercise makes me too weak to go anywhere to show that confidence, and great! now i actually am sick, and my immune system is shit, and my emotional state and self hatred is making it worse, and im too overwhelmed to see anyone in my life who thinks they love me, because i dont want them to see me like this. they wouldnt believe me if i tried to explain that im struggling and need help. ive tried. they dont listen. they dont realize whats important. i know i put em through hell, im selfish, im self centered and dramatic and lazy and gross and undeserving of any love they think they have for me. i dont trust it. dont tell me you love me, you barely know me, the real me, the one i keep locked behind a closed door each night, to contemplate what im going to do about this shit life ive curated for myself. im so tired, im so fucking tired all of the time. i dont know how to keep going. i dont know how to do anything for that matter. im not even going to revise this shit post, im too tired, i just need to announce somewhere, somehow, that im so fucking lost that i dont even know if my thoughts are my own, or what it means to be a person. everyday with this bullshit, now im getting into existential dread territory, im just so sick of my own shit! im sick of myself. why cant i function like everyone else???

i want it to be over, i wish my problems could just be solved without any external help. i just want to wake up tomorrow and for everything to just be okay. i want to feel okay again. i dont need anything fancy, please let me wake up tomorrow with hope of brighter days. its so hard to see the beauty in my life when im being suffocated and pinned down by something invisible. i dont have the capacity to love or care for anyone or anything, and no one can see that i just need a break?? how can you not see me? no one can see, ill show them and they still wont see! they refuse, simply because, they cannot see inside my head and dont care enough to want to. they think they do. i tried to tell them time and time again but i think its just that when i am feeling okay, they dont like the choices i make. when im okay, i make sure i make the most of that time by prioritizing my own happiness over everyone elses, and that really pisses people off! to the point where they want to tear me down and take that light away from me. i didnt ask to be here, now, with all this pressure on my shoulders to be more than what i am. im simply existing. i can feel it. tomorrows gonna be so shit. i can always sense the storm before it comes, i wish i could prevent it, or ease my pain in some way. these substances are nice in the moment but eventually the buzz will wear off and ill just be me again, with nothing to offer. i dont have anything to offer. life is too hard, i gave up so long ago and didnt even realize that is what was happening at the time. i just go through it day by day without fully processing that ill have to wake up the next day. i wish my life was a dream i could wake up from. my brain isnt working right. i dont recognize myself. i hate how alone we all are. every sensation, thought, visual, sound, and taste. you are completely isolated from everyone around you.

[1111jenx]

random astro placements &

their culture 🍧🍥🍧

(part 2)

Check out my part 1 here • part 3 here • part 4 here

🍧scorpio moon culture is telling people "nO i dOnT hOlD gRuDgEs wdym"

🍧mars-jupiter culture is full on burning someones house down and they'd still laugh it off cuz no one takes your anger seriously 😐

🍧cancer mars culture is literally having a panic attack because you can't locate your purse just to turn around and see it tucked behind your fatass.

🍧cancer rising culture is keeping up a hard face as you tell people: " i dont care." but you do and you care so fucking much its starting to hurt a lil okay

🍧taurus venus culture is going to the new restaurant downtown with your friends and you already know the menu by heart. also a love for elegant people.

🍧leo sun culture is staring at people as they make jokes about leo being self-centered but you can't give a f because at the end of the day, they are still talking about YOU😘

🍧9H Venus culture is falling for people who's drastically different from you. people who are simply so educated and have a sense of unique childishness got your heart.

🍧gemini mercury culture is laughing out loud when someone told you something traumatic and you just went: "oh no sorry i was just thinking about that one tiktok"

🍧libra rising culture is filtering the entire argument you just had with your partner to PG because you know your friends and any normal person would tell you it's not normal to call your s/o a "lil dumbf*ck" and a "c^nt" and you don't know how to explain to them you guys say shits like that to one another but you still love each other deeply.

🍧moon in taurus culture is browsing engagement ring casually hoping your s/o would notice and cuff you asap.

🍧sagittarius venus culture is laughing it off when people pressure you to talk about your love life. you either have 2 jacks, 1 ethan and 4 evans on the line or you're just working your ass off, no in between.

🍧1H lilith culture is hiding your curves and beauty under layers of clothes or getting extra worried to go out by yourself cause you know the attention is always on you, and it doesn't matter if you like it or not, its there.

🍧4H lilith culture is getting suspicious when a family member become extra affectionate towards you.

🍧taurus venus culture is falling for people who "smell good" or dress well without knowingly and you secretly LOVE it when people compliment your style.

🍧libra mars culture is making a dirty joke to your s/o and getting embarrassed by it yourself💀

🍧jupiter in the 10H culture is reading up on astro blogs and seeing people telling you jupiter grants you great lucks in career but you're pretty sure you deadass got into college purely by accident or something while in reality you always lucked out as small things last minute just happens to work in your benefits ✨ so shuddupppp stop complaining

🍧aries rising culture is getting so drunk and either get hella emotional crying about your daddy issues or being the life of the party on the dance floor. strictly no in between<3

🍧libra rising culture is having the ability to bullshit your way out of stuff anytime you want. but the moment you start caring a lil too much then 💀💀

🍧but libra rising culture is lowkey enjoying it a lil too much when astrology call you "the prettiest rising" or "aesthetically pleasing" but people don't know underneath you have a heart thats not at all trusting and you go through life searching for your perfect half, your flirty and flighty nature is just a front.

🍧sagittarius rising culture is having the nicest shiniest smile in the room and are the true brat tamers underneath, fix your crown baddies.

🍧aqua moon culture is loving aggressive people.

🍧venus in 11H culture is worrying you're giving people the wrong sign because you're too nice and touchy like. keep it up people thats just how you roll👍🏼

🍧pisces placements culture is being able to cry whenever you want. literally cry on cue dawg. one word and these eyes are filled with water.

🍧aquarius mercury culture is staring at your friend as they try to sugarcoat what you just said so it doesn't come out bad and lowkey wanting to say no i meant exactly that💀

🍧aries mars culture is getting a lil too excited to talk about people's love life but get FLUSTERED talking about your own.

🍧gemini moon culture is people not knowing a thing about your life and getting hella intimidated by you until they get to know you better.

🍧mercury-pluto culture is making the NASTIEST DARKEST MOST INAPPROPRIATE joke ever and innocently smile afterwards like nothing happened

🍧venus-ascendant culture is getting a lil salty when people don't put you on a pedestal and admire your beauty like no lets not talk about my resume, just look at me thats enough achievements

🍧mercury sextile venus culture is pleasing the shit out of people and realising hours later it wasn't reciprocated so now you wish you acted meaner like control your golden retriever energy cowboy

🍧taurus moon culture is retail therapy. you seriously feel some sense of sick achievement when you successfully convince your friend to buy that sauna yoga pants.

🍧libra moon culture is forcing yourself to like someone because everyone likes them so much so something must be deep down that empty shell of a person💀💀

🍧cancer moon culture is going through your old convos w people and realize how shitty of a person you are so you did some self-reflection on the spot😃

🍧10H saturn culture is literally greying at 18. breath y'all.

🍧virgo rising culture is holding back the need to slap your dumbass friend who can barely spell retrograde right because they forget to do something and now they want you to do it and you know after hours of complaining you gonna end up doing it anyways💀

🍧7H stellium culture is people owning you ✨FAVOURS✨

🍧10H moon/venus culture is being told your mom is hella attractive and you're just like yeah i know what about it😐

🍧leo moon culture is having negative chequing account but confidently ask your friend if they need an uber ride home because its late and you're worried

🍧virgo mars culture is absolutely loving home interiors and you freaking hate it when people come inside your home and touch things that they shouldn't be touching

🍧gemini venus culture is not even passing the talking stage but astro people keep accusing you of being the whore of the zodiac like bro, your local gemini venus is texting 10 people right now how can they cheat on someone if they can't even get into a relationship 💀

🍧scorpio venus culture is bonding through doing dr@gs with someone. apparently sharing blow is hella intimate guys.. but for real it does mean something for them and can literally be seen as a defining point of your relationship with them 😄👍🏼

🍧venus conjunct saturn culture is falling for the rich jocks. literally just spoil the shit outta you and you're ready to elope

🍧DC in air sign culture is falling for people who are emotionally unavailable. like oh a challenge? i LOVE to be challenged yay bRiNg it oN

🍧venus in fire sign culture is disappearing at 1AM every girls night out and people genuinely thought you're dead in a ditch somewhere but you're actually tiptoeing out of your hookup's place the next morning

🍧air mars culture is blocking someone during an argument and unblocking them a second later just to say "okok im better now that was irrational what were you saying again?"

🍧leo mars culture is winking to your reflection in the mirror opposite as you're getting railed by someone. self love comes first✨

yayyy i made it to the end,, whoever that made it here can i get a OWA OWA in the comment??🥳 i'm in love w this new series y'all

love,

saint jenx🪐

#astrojenx #astrology observations #astro notes #astrology #astrology notes #libra rising #leo venus #astrotips #moon in scorpio #libra sun #venus conjunct saturn #air signs #aquariusvenus #moon in aquarius #jupiter 10h #lilith ascendant #cancer mars #cancer rising

[relaxxattack]

hi im asking u this bc u seem to be bee duo enthusiast so

ive been calling c! beeduos relationship platonic because i thought that was what their cc’s said, and i thought they had said that they were uncomfortable with ppl shipping the characters. But ive seen a lot of posts that say their relationship is canonically romantic? and i absolutely do not want to come across as homophobic by watering down a mlm relationship to just friends because that happens so much in media so.

what is the canon state of their relationship / ur opinions on the platonic thibg

dont worry abt answering if u dont want to!! i see a lot of differing opinions and i trust yours :)

aw it’s totally fine, im flattered you asked me about this!

let me put it simply: it’s a whole mess, lol.

first im going to talk about what’s happened fandom-wide that caused differing opinions, and then i’ll explain my own opinion/interpretation. :]

(this got really fucking long im so sorry)

ranboo and tubbo initially proclaimed the relationship was romantic, specifically in argument with the wiki editors who had set it as platonic by default. (you can see this in the vod where they decide they’re canonically married— it’s very funny. chat tells them the marriage is already on the wiki, they check, tubbo is jokingly offended that it says platonic and asks if he needs to up the romance).

tubbo also makes jokes about adultry, which sort of implies the relationship is not necessarily a platonic one.

(theres definetly more in that stream alone but it’s been a long time since i watched it so i don’t remember a lot of it.)

the wiki, because of this, suffers from going back and forth on platonic and romantic, seemingly unsure where the joke ends and the canon begins, or if its canonically a joke! a mess, as you can already tell.

this gets more complicated as the marriage bit goes on: outsiders, such as phil and scott, both at one point say “platonic marriage”, which then ranboo and tubbo agree with. however, when chat asks them if they’re platonic, they say the opposite. so there is a lot of confusion there.

there’s also the difficulty of being able to tell streamers and characters apart. ranboo and tubbo both don’t like being shipped irl, and that’s their boundaries that shouldn’t be crossed. (they’re also minors, but tbh when they’re 18 in a year i will still be following their boundaries regardless of their legal age).

due to people not wanting to be accused of minor shipping, they started adding the platonic tone indicator to most of their drawings— basically a way of saying “no homo”. meanwhile, tubbo frequently on stream flirts with ranboo and makes quite a bit of nsfw comments towards him that are frankly hilarious.

this goes on for a while with nobody really sure what’s canon, but a lot of people assuming it’s probably platonic, until: the drama of the mods night. a few mods dmed all the wiki editors telling them ranboo wanted his canon character relationship officially set to platonic.

unfortunately for those mods; the very same day, a few hours later, ranboo on stream makes fun of puffy delivering him and tubbo “friendship flowers”. because, and i quote, “bruh. we’re literally married. this must be how the ancient greeks felt.”

in case you don’t know, the internet often jokes about how historians will call ancient greeks ‘very good friends’ when they are quite obviously gay. so in this context, ranboo is joking that people will call him and c!tubbo, who are married, “close friends”, when he doesn’t think they are.

basically, ranboo canonized romantic bee duo, the very same day the mods told everyone he’d wanted a platonic one.

chaos and drama immediately erupted everywhere. on tumblr, we were talking about how weird it was of his mods to do something like that without asking him first. we ALSO talked about how weird it was of them to assume that ranboo can’t make his own decisions, or assume teenagers cannot be in relationships without it being sexual. twitter did the same thing but in the opposite direction: called ranboo mods homophobic, or said they were mad ranboo felt pressured into making a romantic relationship canon ‘just so people could have mlm rep.’

i dont want to go into detail about the drama that happened that night because apparently official people follow me and i dont want to stir it up or have them come “clarify” things. im just saying what we talked about.

ranboo in typical ranboo fashion apologized quickly and seriously. he was deeply sorry for possibly offending anyone with how he’d portrayed his rp relationship with tubbo, and he also assured everyone the mod thing was just a miscommunication.

he said he would talk to tubbo and they’d decide once and for all whether it was platonic or romantic, and then announce so everyone would know.

it’s now been a few months and we've had no word from them on that development. we still have no clue.

-

now, here’s my opinion:

i want to take ranboos word for it that it was a miscommunication with his mods, but... we had it on good authority from people on the wiki team and people in the discord with the mods that (while it was happening) they were really going after the wiki admins, and also made some weird comments about it. that combined with the way ranboo seemingly had no clue (considering he canonized their romance that very same day).... it’s very. sus of the mods.

then there’s the canon we’ve got since then. although occasionally adults in the room have called it a “platonic marriage” and tubbo once (back when it first started) called it a “plankton tectonic” marriage, in roleplay it’s been... kind of not that. tubbo and ranboo make nsfw jokes about each other in character, and their characters also share a master bedroom and bed in the mansion. there's also the way c!tommy really thinks it’s a romance between them as well, and they agree with and play off that— for instance confirming that they “fell in love” when he asked, or ranboo confirming that they “make out on occasion”.

people will still put platonic on their art and posts, imo, because they’re worried about breaking ranboo and tubbo’s irl boundaries by looking like they ship them. or even just being accused of shipping real life minors. and that’s a valid fear to have.

the thing is though: c!bee duo are not cc!bee duo. they’re roleplay characters. cc!bee duo are not okay with being shipped, but they made their characters get canonically married, and call each other “husbands”. so it’s okay to write the word “husband” in your comic without adding “platonic” to it, i promise.

telling the ccs that their characters have to be platonic is... weird. it comes off as not only babying them, but also as saying teens can’t date without it being gross. which isn’t true.

(this is why seeing people overuse “platonic husband” so much bothers me. like, they ARE husbands. you can just say it. what are you trying to hide...?)

-

do i think they’re canonically romantic? ehh, its likely. it’s still okay to interpret them as platonic, because again, it’s hard to tell where jokes end and roleplay begins. like, maybe it’s jokes in the rp too, and c!bee duo are just friends. friends can and should be allowed to make jokes like that with each other! aro & ace marriages exist!

or, maybe it’s actually part of the rp, and they’re very much romantic. we don’t know!

some people say they could be a qpr (queerplatonic romance), which i could see. (a qpr is a relationship that fluctuates between, or can’t quite be sorted into, “romantic” and “platonic”. people in a qpr can do romantic things while having platonic feelings for each other). in my opinion this is a very valid interpretation as well!

-

CONCLUSION (sorry this got so long omfg):

are c!bee duo romantic?

its likely, but you can still interpret them however you like!

should i put /p on bee duo content?

ehhh? i find it annoying when it’s overused (as do others), but if you’re worried you can. its up to preference. putting it too much is weird though

should i put /p on things cc! bee duo do?

no. you’re not the one saying it so you can’t decide the tone tags for that. imagine you said something to your friend and a random stranger came up and was like “haha but that was /p right...?”

can i ship c!bee duo?

mmm. i’m not sure on this one. they are canonically married and very flirtatious, but the ccs don’t like being shipped and they’re close enough to being the ccs that actively shipping might be against boundaries.

can i treat c!bee duo as romantic?

yes. literally just don’t be weird about it. it’s not that hard! you can understand that two characters are husbands without making it weird

here’s the most important thing: boundaries. cc bee duo still haven’t told us what their preferences and canon is about this whole thing.

right now, i am assuming based on what they already show us they’re comfortable with, but! the second they give us any more info! all these opinions will change!

i am only going off what they do. i would never want to cross boundaries at all. i just wish they would make theirs a little more clear.

..... i hope that helped anon, i went way off the rails... i need to go to sleep.

#it’s late im so sorry for how much i rambled and wrote #i hope this helps you #bee duo #og post #there’s probably so many spelling errors i need to go to bed #i tried to fix some spelling so reblog this one ig #and not the old one

[wizkiddx]

If your request are open, vouldd you then make something where reader is thicc and is scared to sit on Tom's lap, but Tom doesn't mind at all, he just adores you no matter what.

a/n just a friendly remind EVERYONE is the best version of themselves no matter what, you do you, for you <33

I hope this is okay anon, sorry don't feel like this is v good so im sorry x

warnings: body image/weight issues / low self esteem / implied SMUT

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Awkward. That’s what it was. You didn’t intend for it to be this way… god you hated it so much and even if you somewhat blamed yourself- nothing could diffuse the awkward air in the room. It was stupid too, you had been with Tom for a month now. And it wasn’t like your whole evening had been this awkward and hellish, in fact, quite the opposite.

Date night had consisted of Tom cooking attempting a fancy steak and homemade fries meal for you both. While it had looked a lot less impressive than Tom’s plans (a sad looking lump of meat)- it had still been the perfect evening. Especially since given Tom’s public persona, neither of you dared to go out for dinner together - arguably a shitty attempt at cooking was more fun though.

You’d honestly never felt more special, more free or at ease than this evening. Until you and Tom had both moved to the sitting room (which he’d forced a stubborn Harry out of) for a movie night. He had gone to the loo whilst you prepared for the movie, only re-entering the room when your back was turned to read the back of the old DVD case. Seizing his opportunity with a mischievous smirk, Tom crept up behind you, wrapping his arms round your waist and then pulling the two of you down to the sofa- both your bodies spinning in an uncoordinated manner as your shrieked.

You’d landed on top of him, your chest and belly pressed up against his and you instantly hated it.

Your relationship with your own body image was possibly the most complicated and toxic relationship you’d had in your life. To be honest, you’d never felt super comfortable in his own skin; but last year after you’d put on a little extra weight, the nagging voice in your head became impossible to ignore. And it made everything more difficult. It ruled out half the fashionable high street shops- who seem to only cater to people of a certain build. It meant you would much rather sweat your ass off in boiling heat, than dare to take your jacket off and expose what you thought to be ‘far from the ideal’ body type.

But worst off it made intimacy impossible.

Just like now, as you felt your were crushing Tom’s chest, quickly scrambling upwards and landing on the opposite side of the sofa. Tom wasn’t blind or ignorant, he’d seen the flash of fear as you’d desperately climbed away from him; he saw the defeated look as you sat dead ahead, refusing to look at him and awaiting him to start the movie. What he was less sure on though, was how to handle it. The last thing he wanted to do was make you feel uncomfortable and question you. Which is why he quickly leaned over and grabbed the remote to hit play.

Thats how the opening scenes of ‘Crazy, stupid, love’ started. Both of you sitting awkwardly upright, like you were in school, eyes solely looking straight ahead. The atmosphere was tense to say the least, your breath hitching at the slightest movement Tom made- from what you could see out the corner of your eye. Which of course, he noticed.

So, without much pre-planning in his head, Tom hit pause on the remote and instantly turned to you, seeing your confused gaze. He neeeded to say this.

“You know you’re so beautiful.” He said it so astutely, so point-blanc and so seriously you had a harder time than normal brushing it off.

“Tom no I-“

“No I’m serious. You are so beautiful and it hurts me that you don’t see what I see. Alright?”

“no I-“ You were gulping like a fish, stammering between the two words before Tom cut you off again, voicce louder this time.

“I said alright? As in do you understand?” He sighed, tone softening as the confusion and embarrassment on your face said it all. “I’m serious Y/n. I get that you have issues with some parts of yourself and I’m not going to cure that in one night but… I want, no, I need you to know how beautiful I think you are.”

“It’s not your fault.” Rather you answered a different question entirely, one you had made up in your head.

“But I want it to be my business to help you fix. I know its your journey but I want to be there. Will you let me?”

“You’re getting all this because of one rugby tackle awkward moment?”

“No, but I do want you to feel comfortable with me, okay?”

“Okay.” Your voice was barely above a whisper but Tom heard and replied with a breathy laugh, which made you pull your gaze up from picking at your fingers. And sure enough, he was sporting the warmest and kindest smile, the type that gave you no choice but to return, like it was infectious.

“How about we start…” He held his hands out which you took, eyebrows furrowing as he pulled you further and further towards him. “-with me showing you just how beautiful you are.” His voice was intoxicating, almost distracting you from the fact he kept pulling you over him on the sofa, to the point you had to move your knees and kneel eitherside of his legs to keep balance. Once your face was barely centimetres from his, both your eyes flitting between eyes and lips - Tom shifted his hands to your waist and slowly applied a downward pressure.

Your breath hitched because you knew what he was asking you to do. He wanted you to sit completely on his lap, which terrified you.

But then he whispered a ‘dont worry’ and hooked his lips against yours. The movements slow and sensual, as you got lost in the moment, lost in the warmth that radiated from the boy.

Too lost to notice, to care, or to be conscious of your weight against his legs. Because really… did it matter? When you had a boy in front of you who liked loved every single part of you.

Your worth wasn’t defined by Tom, but he did do a hell of a lot to see you for what you really were.

~~~~~~~let me know what u think <33 ~~~~~~~~~

tag ist: @thefernandasantana @lovehollandy12 @hallecarey1 @crossyourpeter @hollandfanficlove

#tom holland x reader #tom holland fluff #tom holland smut #tom holland #tom holland blurb #tom holland x you #tom holland imagine #tomholland #peter parker

[fem-dom-roze]

Sub!Lucifer X Dom!Reader

(Switch relationship)

Lucifer and you have been dating for 2 years and almost everyone in the devildom knows. He is a soft Dom but can go hard too as a punishment! But... You wanna know how whiny can he be as a sub, how fucking beautiful would be look, edged or overstimulated, would he just let you Dom him or would he go down with a fight? Just imagining this shit turns you on. You're gonna try this tonight, and just hope that things dont go around on you.

!SMUT ALERT!

Contains: Sub!Luciferrrr, chains, Mommy kink~, Mentions of chastity and moreee

You hear the door click shut, you know it's Lucifer and he's planning on domming you again tonight (lol he had no fucking Idea). You act like you heard nothing, face away from the door and you have chains in your hands. He comes from behind, sensually holding your waist and pulling you back. You turn around keeping your hands out of his view and put them on his back and look up at him with a soft grin. He lowers his head kissing you which turns in a heated make out session. You know what you're doing and this make out session ends with him being tied up with chains laying on the bed helpless.

"What are you trying to do princess?"

"Nothing, just me and my fantasies~"

"What do you mean?"

You ignore his question and start taking off his shirt while kissing him. He doesn't seem so fierce at all! Turns out you were wrong, once you move down to his jaw and mark him on a certain spot, he growls.

"Oh did I find your weak spot?"

"No y-you didn't"

"So what about the growl there?~"

"It was nothing just untie me"

You kiss him suddenly and start taking off his pants. He wasn't expecting this tonight, was that subby girl just an act of yours? He was the one supposed to make you feel good! You take off his boxers, cold air hitting his hard-on which makes him snap back into reality. You kiss him, swallowing his groan as you slowly drag your finger from his neck to the head of his cock. You slowly start stroking his cock and applying pressure to the base making him groan and his body jerk in pleasure. A little "fuck.." from under his breath finds its way to your ears. You increase your pace suddenly as his head is thrown back, and a small quiet moan is earned from him. But you remove your hand from his cock.

"Choose a number between 1-5" you say

"What for?"

"I said choose sweety"

"Are seriously trying to-"

You land a small careful slap on his cock making him yelp.

"Sooo, are ya gonna choose or~"

"3"

"Okay, then that's how many times you're getting edged tonight!"

"WHAT?! N-No, you're gonna let me cum!"

"Shush. You'll be lucky if I even let you cum tonight~" you say quietly making shivers run down his spine.

"S-so, trying to break me through Chastity are you? You can't b-break me!"

"Is that a challenge?" You say while kissing the corner of his lips. He doesn't reply, still trying to figure out what the fuck is happening and who you've suddenly become.

You lower your mouth over his cock, blow over it and smirk at him, seeing his nervous expression. You kiss the tip and the envelope his cock with your mouth causing a groan to come out of his mouth. You fit as much as you can in your mouth while rubbing the part that doesn't fit. You teasingly lick his cockhead while rubbing his balls. You deep-throat him twice after that, its quite Delightful hearing him trying to bite his lip to quiet his moans but still not being able to stop himself from calling out your name.

His cock twitched in your mouth, which was enough indication for you to take your mouth off him. An irritated growl erupts from his mouth.

"Let m-me cum Princess please, c'mon!"

"Begging right now isn't gonna help though~"

You insert the tip of his cock in you and sit on it, not engulfing it entirely but enough to fill you a little bit. He moans a bit but bites his already swollen lip just enough to make it bleed. You kiss him and lick the blood off his lip and start grinding in every direction possible. Trust me! The moans you hear are just- FUCKING HOT!

"FUCK, PLEASE PRINCESS! DONT D-DO THIS TO ME!"

"Aw, but I wanna see if I can cum, just like this! I might even leave you alone with your orgasm."

His eyes widen, trying to figure out if you'd actually do that.

"You w-wouldnt do that, would you? P-princess?"

You smile, but the dominant look on your face says something different, and to be honest? It fucking turns him on. He never saw you like this. He never imagined you like this. He was quite enjoying this but still painfully waiting for you to let him release.

You start grinding harder while yours and his moaning fills the place. This is too much, tears start pricking his eyes. He is getting close but can't cum, not like this!

You, on the other hand, are chasing your own high rapidly. It feels so good breaking him! Lucifer, all teary and a moaning mess.

The sight is enough to tip you off the edge and you cum on his cock with a loud moan of his name.

The warmth of your cum, your expression, body, the pleasure and pain, FUCK it's too much for him and a loud moan erupts from him, he is shaking, tears rolling down his cheeks! Who even is the fucking demon here?! Him or you?!

"Did you like it?" you say in his ear, giving it a lick.

"Just let me cum already!!!!"

"Quiet! Is this a way to talk to your mommy?"

His expression changes. He is now redder than a tomato, shocked and his dick, gets even harder which you thought was humanly impossible.

You lower yourself down on his cock completely enveloping it in one bounce. He throws his head back and moans loudly, you're pretty sure all of his brothers heard that but who cares?

You start bouncing on him, fast and deep thrusts. He moans with every thrust and so do you.

"FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK YEAH IF YOU FUCKING DO THAT- YES YES!!!"

You both cum together. It's blissful for him. He enjoyed that so fucking much. He loved it.

It was all lovely until you start moving again, this time slow thrusts but clamping down on him. All he knows is screaming now. Youre pretty sure he is gonna lose his voice. Well he did the same to you, so... Payback I guess?

Once you both cum again and you ride out your highs, you take off his chains and lay him on the bed. You get a towel and clean him while he is babbling.

How did you do that damn-

#smut #obey me #obey me! #obey me smut #I simp #lucifer x reader #lucifer x mc #switch reader #switch lucifer #switch!reader #switch!Lucifer

[gale-gentlepenguin]

Gale Reviews: ML season 4 episode 12 Crocoduel

(Spoilers below)

-So Kitty Section is playing. I gotta say... the outfits do not look as good as they did in the dark. I cant take them seriously with the little cat gesture. Im chuckling

-Oh look Zoe is there.

-That JULROSE HUG IS GOOD S***

-But Marinette isnt there for some reason.

-Luka thinks its his fault.

-Rose sweetie, I love you but no.

-Luka looks so sad... Okay no cap. This is kind of relatable. Look at them developing Luka.

-"I cant tell him Marinette is super embarrassed." Well yea, those outfits do not look good in the daylight. Except Ivans. THAT BOY IS STYLING

-Okay so Zoe being there is nice but it just reminds us that MARINETTE WAS FINE SEEING LUKA EARLIER! (Im sorry this plot hole really f***ing annoys me) (not gonna impact the score. Just need it to be known.

-So They plotting to have marinette and Luka talking again. by throwing Luka and Juleka a party. Cause their birthdays

-Out of context, them being happy adrien isnt there sounds REALLY bad.

-Juleka doesnt seemed sold on the idea...but JULROSE CHEEK KISS.

-Marinette Figured that out in like 20 seconds.

-"Luka loves me but I love Adrien!" just gonna memorize that line

-But Alya is right, they do need to talk

-Marinette does have a point tho. She doesnt want to hurt his feelings. You know, Marinette does care about his feelings and doesnt want to hurt him but she avoids actually talking with the person because she believes she is sparing their feelings.... HOLY S*** THE PARALLELS TO LADYNOIR.

-Marinette stealthed in a garbage can... HOW CAN PEOPLE HATE HER?!

-Marinette is putting a lot of unintentional pressure on Juleka.

-Okay so I really like this scene with Juleka and Luka. it is a good brother sister moment. Luka knows she was hiding something and cared to ask.

-JAGGED JUST SHOWED UP!

-And Jagged not noticing his daughter... dude not cool.

-And Anarke is here! Time for PARENTAL SMACK DOWN

-Jagged is not subtle

-Jagged dove out the window! The man is trying to be a decent dad now. So I will give him points for trying. and 3 points for that landing

-Poor juleka. She has so much pressure on her. And Luka looks so giddy. (or as giddy as his character model will allow)

-Juleka is standing there... the guilt... poor girl. Marinette why did you make her go through that.

-And the plan obviously backfired. SO LUKA IS GONNA GET TARGETED NUMBER 3!

-What akuma would he have he had anyway? I wonder if its like tear drops on my guitar

-Wow... Um that was touching. The group showing they care about Luka. That is sweet and prevents an akuma. NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO SALT ON THEM TODAY.

-Shadowmoth just like "They are teens.. SOMEONE WILL BE DEPRESSED"

-Now Shadowmoth focused on Juleka.

-Wait... doesnt Juleka have a charm at this point?! THE AKUMA WOULDNT HAVE WORKED? Yeesh the plotholes in this.

- Marinette comforted Juleka. It is still cute

- Jagged stone showing up to his kids party.

-Shadowmoth mothblocked twice.

-Everyone is shocked that Jagged stone is their dad. And Hawkmoth is going for attempt number 3

-AND FAILURE. Shadowmoth keeps getting dunked on. Even shadowmoth realizes it

-"Why do you think your dad loves luka more" Sees Dad give son gift and not to tell Juleka. NOT EVEN 10 SECONDS

-And Jagged proves he is an awful dad... And I got my hopes up.

-Shadowmoth you tried that already

-Marinette channeling her angry gremlin energy to yell at him. I love it

-plot twist HE ISNT A BAD DAD! The gift was for Juleka! And he was trying to be subtle. WELL PLAYED JAGGED. you escape my wrath for now. BUT SO HELP ME... I WILL BREAK YOUR FACE IF YOU MAKE HER CRY.

-Shadowmoth's consistent failure makes me laugh

-The album that caused their seperation? Oh damn

-Shadowmoth is like "FINALLY A DIVORCE!"

- Wait... the item broke as it was getting akumatized?! HOW DOES THAT WORK?!

-guitar villain vs CAPTAIN HARDROCK! AKUMA FIGHT! PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING. PLEASE DONT MAKE THIS BORING!?

-I love this already. Also Alya is acting to get a distraction.

-Ladybug arrives. And they are fighting...

-Adrien is make up first and safety second.... I love him so much

-Oh wow CANON is not nice to Ladybug. (thank you I will be here all week)

-CHIMNEY CHAN!

-Chat noir saving Ladybug... a nice change of pace.

-Ladybug doesnt even know she is already in love with him. (Ladynoir banter at its finest.)

-Chat noir... you have a jetpack power up.

-SKY FIGHT!!!!

- oH MAN THIS FIGHT Looks fun

-Shadowmoth is so done already.

-And ladybug learns the lesson of the day... Talk it out.

-Well that was suspect. (so help me if Luka figures it out...)

-JULEKA HERO DEBUT TIME!

-ROARR!

-I love the purple tiger. He really brings out the wild side

- The transformation is great. I love it

- Chat noir happy to meet another cat hero.

-THEY HAVE A SPACE POWER UP! WHY DID HE NEED TO LAUNCH THEM?!

-Oh.. that is interesting. It has to be put together for the akuma to come out. Interesting.

-Chat noir is clutch today.

-Thats where the tape comes in.

-OH HER POWER IS Collision?

-So its like... a Super punch? Neat.

-And now that it was all together it could be destroyed.

-They almost died in the air.

-So many people almost died.

-Oh neat two charms in one!

-Juleka spoke up! Oh no. I LOVE HER EVEN MORE NOW!

-And father daughter moment is cute.

-Now for Luka and Marinette finally talk.

-And they both agree to be friends

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Overall 8 out of 10. (Not including the Plot holes. with plot holes included. 7 out of 10)

I will say this, Great episode for the Couffaine family. All of them got some Development. (well anarke was a bit lacking but still)

Juleka was MVP. And I am glad Marinette and Luka are friends.

It was cute and the fight wasnt boring. I think they could have done a bit more with it. But it was fine. The comedy was on point.

#ml #ml spoilers #miraculous ladybug #tigress pourpre #crocoduel

[alukaforyou]

im like 2? 3? weeks into practicing tattooing on fake skin and dam.... i have v mild eczema on the top of my hands its just a little dry & shiny(?) usually, but after hrs of wearing latex gloves it gets p sweaty in there & also the supply shop was out of size s so i just bought xs for now and they are a bit snug so idk what it is but the whole situation is irritating my hands 😂 its like... super red & scary looking ouch it stings 😂😂😂 i dont think im allergic to latex cuz its just irritating the eczema part which i already had before so hmmmm fck me ig 😂🤪😭 also i have a ton of beef w """fake skin silicone pad ass b*tch""" cuz its firmer / denser (?) than real skin, i've seen my bf work and you dont need to push in the needle deep at all, ur almost just scratching the surface of the skin and the ink goes in rly well, but when i use the appropriate pressure on the silicone, it doesnt take the ink well & the line just looks extra shaky and shitty, i have to go over it like 3-4 times 🙄 for it to look "solid" which is so annoying and also every time i have to retrace it, it just looks kind of messy and weird like it would look so much better and clean if it worked in one pass but then i'd have to push the needle in wayyy too much which leads to blowout on the silicone so im like really what da fack :) im practicing but i feel like it's just so different than how working on real skin would be like but i cant practice on real skin wtf? im not gonna start tattooing my friends / clients until im good but like.... i cant even tell if im getting good cuz working on fake skin is so frustrating and weird it all looks like shit to me :( and i cant practice on myself cuz if my parents see tats theyre gonna disown me which is not smth i wanna deal w until im working & financially stable :( here r some pics tho

the shitty ones r the earlier ones lol and nvm the pink on two of my kitties we were just testing how the pad takes color. and just when i was getting a hang on my own designs, i tried doing text (my bf's design for a client that day) it looked soooo ass i was abt to jump out of da window lmfao im still practicing the "choose growth" one, pls dont look @ the top flower part that was supposed to be done w shading not lining but im not learning shading yet & also my lines dont even look that good anyways so its just all around horrible for now LMFAO

"choose growth" girl, no human on earth is choosing to regress, i guarantee u that. the diego brando one was text from that one kyary pamyu pamyu parody drawing i made, and the greek text is from... tg LMFAO if u kno, u kno. somehow my linework looks like dogsh*t but the greek serif text came out p okay, idk maybe its the line weight or smth. i just cant do fine lines ig idk or maybe its just the pad :( i s2g i need to calm down im not even a month into learning ofc i cant be good LOL my drawing hand is straight up losing circulation in that tight glove + deathgrip on the heavy ass tat machine, and my other hand is stinging from the irritation, cool cool 😎 idec abt that tho i just wanna make progress already. 2022 is the yr of the tiger aka MY YR!! 2022 will Be Different :) if im still in this same shitty place by the end of 2022 im seriously gonna give up so 2022 is do or die for me, im rly gonna try hard! i cant do another yr like 2020 & 2021 again i just cant anymore guys. sry for the long post. hope u r all well.

#that mf 0803rls.... #makes the thinnest lines ever but if u shake at all it SHOWS #im a normal ass person my hands shake a normal amount i have a PULSE in my fingers and hand.... #how tf is my bfs hand so steady wtf #sry i didnt kno i had to be a higher life form to tattoo ugh did not get the memo #.txt

[dickwheelie]

I dont know if you're still doing requests but.., space pirates or just pirates au jmart 👉👈 i lov ur writing i think i might melt every time i read you

ohhh this was a fun prompt! it ended up being a little more space than pirates, but at least the jmart is there! thank you for the kind words and I hope you enjoy :))

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Jon didn't consider himself much of a hero. He had none of the necessary prerequisites, such as physical prowess, quick thinking under pressure, bravery, or a charming personality. He didn't even have the functionally useless but favorable bonus of dashing good looks. He may have been the captain on board a stolen spaceship, but that didn't mean he was particularly pirate-like himself. He entrusted the majority of the pirating to his small crew, who he privately considered much more capable than he was.

Tim and Sasha, he thought, now those two were hero types. They had the charisma, the skill, the bravery--they even had the good looks. Jon was perfectly fine with letting them take the wheel, as it were, in a crisis situation.

Such as the situation they were in right now.

The SS Magnus had been tearing across space, scanning for large, cushy vessels to pillage, when the mayday alert had sounded. Sasha, who worked communications, said that the mayday had come from an even smaller ship that was hurtling, out of control, through open space. The Magnus was the nearest vessel.

Tim took the pilot's seat and rushed to follow the downed ship's signal, but by the time he'd reached it, the ship had broken itself apart, leaving nothing but shredded metal in its wake. There were no signs of survivors in the wreckage.

Jon, Tim and Sasha shared a collective sigh of regret. They all knew the risks of space travel when they'd decided to become pirates, but it was never pleasant to be reminded of what could happen if a certain combination of things went wrong. Jon stared bleakly out of the cockpit window, then told Tim and Sasha that they might as well start scanning the wreckage for what they could find.

And then something bounced off the cockpit window.

"Was that--?" Jon said, dumbfounded.

"I think so," said Tim.

"Someone in a suit," Sasha said. "From the crash!"

And suddenly, Jon was the captain of a rescue mission.

Jon rushed towards the airlock at the aft of the ship, Tim and Sasha close behind him. When he reached it he could see outside the window the lone survivor, in their spacesuit, clinging for dear life to a handle on the side of the ship's hull.

Jon didn't pause to think. By the time Tim and Sasha arrived at the airlock, Jon was already suited up, and was about to open the innermost door.

"Jon!" Sasha called. "What are you doing?"

"They can't hold on forever," Jon said, "I have to grab them now!"

Once more he looked out the window at the survivor, trying to see beyond their blacked out visor, and caught a glimpse of a pair of wide, frightened eyes.

"It's okay!" Jon said, knowing the survivor couldn't hear him, but hoping they could read his lips. "I'm coming to rescue you! Don't, er, go anywhere!"

Jon put on his helmet and stepped into the airlock, hooking a long tether to his spacesuit. He let the airlock depressurize before opening the outermost door, floating out into the vacuum of space. Holding fast to the tether, he dragged himself out onto the hull, and found himself practically visor-to-visor with the lone astronaut.

Jon reached out his hand, and hoping they could see through his visor, said, "Take my hand! It'll be okay, I'm tethered to the ship!"

He couldn't be sure if the survivor had understood, but they did reach out their free hand, and for a moment their gloves strained towards one another until finally Jon caught hold of theirs, gripping it securely across the palm and wrist. He used the tether to pull them both backwards, towards the open airlock, and after a moment the survivor let go of the hull and clasped their other hand onto Jon's, letting him guide them safely back into the ship.

As soon as they were both inside and the airlock had pressurized again, Jon removed his helmet, breathing heavily with adrenaline, and watched as the survivor did the same.

Their hands moved shakily to detach their helmet, revealing dark curls and a brown face, covered in freckles and with a flushed, elated expression. The survivor looked to be a man, and a handsome one at that, though Jon refused to linger on that particular thought. At once he was at the survivor's side, checking for injuries, though with his suit on there wasn't much to see.

"Are you alright?" Jon asked him, though the question seemed silly considering how the man's day had been going so far.

"You . . . you saved me," the lone survivor said breathlessly, his eyes landing on Jon's. He had a nice voice, Jon thought absentmindedly.

"Yes," Jon said, not knowing what else to say.

The survivor gave Jon a beaming smile. "My hero."

"Um," said Jon. His stomach did something weird, and fluttery.

"I thought for sure I was dead. I'm pretty strong, but I wasn't sure how long I'd be able to hold on before spinning off into empty space. But you rescued me. Just like you said you would."

"I . . . try to keep my promises, yes," Jon said, hoping he wasn't blushing. "Who are you? What happened to your ship? Could there be anyone else alive out there?"

"Oh, right, of course. Sorry, my manners are a little rusty," said the survivor, with an awkward little laugh. "My name's Martin. Martin K Blackwood. It was just me on the ship. I was on a solo delivery run. The company I work for, Solus, they've been cutting down on personnel lately, so most shipping runs are solo now. Which means twenty-four-hour shifts at the wheel, minimum. It sucks, but it pays the bills. Or . . . it did." The survivor--Martin--stared out the window at the remains of his ship. "I'm still not sure what caused the engine to overheat and blow like that. I wouldn't be surprised if Solus weren't up to date on their safety checks. I managed to get my suit on and eject just in time, but then I was sure I was just gonna drift through space forever and die alone anyway."

Martin looked back at Jon, gratitude in his eyes. "But then you rescued me."

Jon wasn't going to be able to keep withstanding Martin's adoring looks if he kept this up. "I'm Jon," he said, trying to change the subject. "Captain of the SS Magnus. Illicit captain, rather. We're pirates."

"Pirates?" Martin's eyebrows shot up, and he looked Jon up and down. "You don't . . . seem like a pirate to me."

"We're basically only pirates by a technicality," Jon said. "We pillage the ships of the rich to give to those in need. Food, medical supplies, power sources, anything useful, really. Occasionally we'll steal a vessel, like this one, but that doesn't happen very often. There's only three of us, at the moment, so we make do however we can."

"Wow," Martin said. "So you're telling me--"

"I know," said Jon, "it's not all that impressive when you--"

"--I was rescued by actual pirates? And their swashbuckling captain is my hero?"

"O-Oh, well, um, that's not--" Jon was definitely blushing now.

Martin laughed. "Do you know how many romance novels I've read the back covers of that I'm putting to shame right now? Twenty-year-old me would be so jealous."

"I--I am not swashbuckling," Jon said, at a loss for anything else to say.

"Of course not." Martin grinned at him before his expression grew more somber. "Seriously, though, thank you. For saving me. I really had given up hope, for a moment there."

Jon nodded. "Of course. You're, ah, very welcome."

They shook hands, and Jon turned to the inner airlock door. "My crew are in there, waiting for us. Tim and Sasha. They're very good. We wouldn't have even found you and your ship without them."

"Then I'd better thank them, too," said Martin. "And--you said it was just the three of you right now, yeah?"

Jon tilted his head at him, unsure where Martin was going with this. "Yes, it is. But I assure you, we're a good team, we'll get you back to your home, or anywhere you'd like to go, safe and sound."

"That's sort of the problem," Martin said. "I . . . don't really have anywhere to go back to. If I go back to the company, they'll find out their ship was destroyed, and my insurance definitely doesn't cover that. If I go home, they'll find me just as easily and chase me down until I've paid. So . . ." Martin gave Jon a meaningful look. "Right about now would be a pretty good time for a career change."

Something clicked in Jon's head. He smiled at Martin, nodding sagely. "Yes, I see. I think we may be able to help you out with that, Martin." He thought for a moment. "You said you flew deliveries for Solus . . . how are you as a pilot?"

Martin grinned at him. "Good. Very good."

"Any moral qualms about stealing from the rich and giving to the poor?"

"None whatsoever."

"Then I don't see why we shouldn't bring you on board," Jon said, returning Martin's smile. "The SS Magnus has been looking for a new pirate to join her crew, and I think you'd fit right in."

Jon might not have been much of a hero, but he had managed to pull a man out of the way of certain death that day, and then bring him onto his crew, which had to count for something. At the very least, Jon thought as he introduced Tim and Sasha to their new pilot, the way Martin looked at him made him feel like the sort of person who really had done something extraordinary.

#tma #the magnus archives #jonmartin #martin blackwood #jonathan sims #gwyneth writes

[coldlobbiesofmarble]

trying so many new things these days, i promise to mutuals i’m STILL here

#i still want to use this blog. can we talk about something though? i love how i`m in a THIS IS A abusive- 'well its good enough now what ab #about me think how hard your **pression has been on me me me what do you have to complain for'-FREE ZONE stage of my life now. i wont lie it #it’s really doubtful moment to moment and i have to be kind myself and rewire how much i tend to think im ``deserving of this ): / pff i’m s #strong enough``(plus i know im still in danger ; things aren’t guaranteed) but i looove this new mindset i looove being more aware #honestly like looking back on how much i was SO UNAWARE of is crazy. we stan growth lol. i know in a year ill be like. yeah okay FOETUS asdk #and i hate seing people spit dust and air at me and be so self-important and unaware and narcissistic about it cause i don’t need to give a #fuck! ! like it’s party city it’s amazing #im extrapolating off a short thread of twitter. lmao honestly. in terms of its place in my life twitter has failed upwards (same w insta too #i felt like coming here to make sure im like. not neglecting to remember how twitter is a mess too and im still 100% a clown about town ALL #over the internets kjasjdaskjdjk #but no like. seriously. seriously like i hate and love where i am at right now and i cannoooooot wait to just be out of here. i feel so ugly #half the time but i know i cant attack myself and after even INTNERACTING with certain abusers just standing up straight deserves both #claps and some analysis - because what if i'm missing something or what if i'm excusing myself / repressing a more violent (justified) react #ion ? i dont want to keep the peace anymore lol. i want to honor the new me and also be doing what emotional labour i need to survive #so this is my blog to try to balance that out.... i hope that im still being true to myself Nthat the pressure im under doesnt make regressi #regression happen ...... /: PSA abusive parents are a big no from me. lol.