Cas’s whole speech about how everyone Dean loves and cares about except him will be gone by the time Dean gives in to the Mark of Cain kills me. His whole thing about how he will have to be the one to watch Dean burn the world? It implies two things that I will need 6-8 weeks to recover from.
1. That he will still be at Dean’s side, no matter how many decades or centuries or millennia pass. It’s just such a casual thing, too, the way he says it. He’s so sure, so certain that there is no amount of time or event that could make it so he wouldn’t still be at Dean’s side.
2. He wouldn’t stop Dean from burning the world down. Just like he doesn’t lift a finger to stop Dean when Dean beats him and nearly kills him, he wouldn’t lift a finger then, either. There is literally no way to predict what could transpire between them in all those years and Cas is so goddamn sure that no matter what happens, he would just stand there and support Dean, no matter how misguided Dean is being.
And an honorable mention to how casually he states his knowledge of the fact that he’s important to Dean. Like he’s questioned it so many times but here he knows he’s one of the people Dean loves and cares about.
I’m so sick over this. I hate them so much this ruins my life. I need like 6 months of staring at the ceiling to even begin to cope with this. Forget touching grass, I need to gnaw on some glass or something.
excuse me while i go lie face down in the mud about how ceret worried the book wilbur gave her would be damning and just a final "fuck you" despite the fact their reconciliation ended as well as it did. she still cant let herself believe she'll truly be forgiven