#so i love to fuck up in your favor!

[docholligay]

FINALLY FINISHED FLOWERS SPRING JFC

#love the series! #boy did i undersell the time #iscah! don't feel bad! #a) i set the terms #b) i was glad it was you because you've always been great #so i love to fuck up in your favor! #the whole last hour after the vfeast #i was yelling END END END #pacing has improved SO MUCH in later games #been at this game 15 hours talking about fucking pancakes and nicknames #The VEIL HAS BEEN RETURNED DISAPPEAR MAYURI AND ROLL CREDITS #Anyway this makes it sound like I hated the game which isn't true #full review in the next few days

[heynhay]

perchance, klance as a crimefighting cowboy-esque gunslinging duo?

well since you asked so nicely

#klance #voltron #vld #i gotta be honest i almost never draw au. #i respect au. i love au. i partake in au. but i do not create for it #like if youre gonna come in my inbox with an AU just know the odds are....not in your favor #but honestly? it was the cursive for me #and the font change #blearily as i awoke i registered the weirdest fucking way to send an ask. and it tickled me so. so here we are. #art #my art #i think in the wild west here everyone would be like 'ooooo its those guys!! keith is so scary!!' #bc keith would have a Reputation for being. well. his usual self #but lest we not forget who the sharpshooter is. #woe be upon criminals who focus too much on keith and then get fucking dinged with millimeter precision from a mile away by lance #anyway i put on one of my cowboy hats to take a reference pic and just ended up drawing like half of this while wearing it #do with that what you will

[chr0n1c-ag0ny]

Kunidazai reunion sparking them finally, actually, truly getting together (cause they're idiots who have essentially been and old married couple for years and were the last to notice)? I think yes.

kunikida offering his apartment to Dazai, as his partners was in no shape to be lived in, after all the time that had passed with no upkeep and the time it spent in police custody, being milled through for any potential evidence. there was no way he could let him go back to it, not now, not tonight. Kunikida needs him close tonight.

Dazai takes him up on his offer. he doesn't want to be alone. he won't admit it, but he can't be alone, he doesn't know what it would do to him, what he would do to himself if he was left unattended. so he gratefully, while making jabs and cracking jokes at his partner, follows him home.

their night proceeds as normal, as it had for years of Dazai crashing with him. Kunikida cooks while Dazai sits up on his counter, rambling on and on about anything he can think of. Kunikida never realized how much he missed Dazai's voice until the relief of not cooking in silence hit him.

when they eat Dazai drags his partner to sit on the couch, even though Kunikida hates eating on the couch, knowing he would make an exception for him, just for tonight. they sit too close to just be friends, coworkers, partners even. their arms touch, their knees lean into one another.

when Dazai's finished with his dinner he lays a head in Kunikida's lap, turning on the TV, flipping through all of his partners recorded media until he finds the show they had been watch together, every episode that aired since he was arrested is recorded and unwatched. with blurry eyes he hits play. Kunikida's hand is in his hair and it doesn't leave.

they don't talk, they don't have to, they've talked enough. for now they just want to sit and feel each other's touch and hear each other's breathing. it's all they need.

its nearly 3 in the morning when Dazai finally starts to doze, he'd curled up into a ball, halfway in Kunikida's lap at that point, holding onto one of his partner's hands. Kunikida knows he should get them both to bed, he should offer Dazai the room and take the couch, that he should have the man some space after all he'd been through. but he aches at the thought of leaving his side, at being separated again.

but he doesn't even have to say anything, should have known he never had to, Dazai's always been sharp as a tack, his intuition, almost terrifyingly, even sharper.

His partner turned lazily in his arms, looking up at him with tired but knowing eyes. let's go to bed, they say. you don't have to go, you can stay, they assure. please don't go, they beg.

Kunikida breathes a long, heavy, sigh of relief.

"ok," he answers, before finally getting up after hours laid up on the couch, watching as Dazai continues to doze.

his heart aches with feverish heat. he'd missed him so much he had begun to go mad, had gone mad really, and now his partner was back, he was back and alive and mostly well, and now he was so relieved it ached in its own right.

he went about making up his bed for two, for Dazai, knowing he needed enough pillows and blankets for half a dozen people, but kept stopping to look over the back of the couch to make sure he was still there, still with him, that he hadn't been taken away again. by the time he's done he's probably crossed his apartment two to three dozen times, from his room to the couch again and again, before he's finally decided the room was good enough, there were enough blankets for Dazai to cover himself with and pillows to hide in.

when he goes to Dazai this time around, he kneels in front of him, carding a hand through his hair, tracing a thumb over his brow, to his nose, and then his cheek. his partner's eyes flutter open, a smile graces his lips.

"come on," he whispers, worried too loud a voice would shatter the delicate air of safety and comfort around them, "time for bed."

Dazai hums, getting up with a stretch and a yawn, much like a cat, before gingerly hopping off the couch and into Kunikida's arms, a false smile and air of cheekiness to him, hiding the ache Kunikida knew all too well resided in his partner's heart as much as it did his own, if not more. he holds him for a moment, savoring the feeling of him in his arms, before taking his hand and leading him to their room.

Dazai knows the drill. he goes to the other man's dresser and picks out a pair of his own sweatpants, ones he kept here for nights like these, and as per usual, one of Kunikida's shirts, gliding across the room, out into the hall, and into the bathroom.

Kunikida crawls into bed, feeling like he's been hit by a bus by the days events, and ends up half asleep by the time he feels Dazai crawling into bed next to him.

he expects to see bandages peeking from the borrowed nightshirt, to watch Dazai shield himself from the world, from his partner's touch, with a swarm of blankets, for Dazai to lay on his back, staring up at the ceiling, waiting for him to fall asleep first.

but tonight's different, so different.

Dazai's skin is bare where the shirt doesn't cover, his scars on display, each and every one of them, the burns, the cuts, the bullet wounds, the ones Kunikida has never one been able to decipher the story of. they're all bared to him, with no visible hesitation on Dazai's end.

when his partner climbs into bed he neglects the pile of blankets laid out for him, the pillows too. instead he lifts the comforter that's draped over the entirety of the bed, Kunikida included, sliding beneath it like it's natural to him, like he'd done it every night for months, years even.

he looks at Kunikida for a moment, silently asking for permission, which Kunikida cannot give fast enough, and then Dazai's in his arms, his own wrapped around his neck, nothing between them but the clothes on their backs.

Dazai pulls away, just a bit, Kunikida almost cries out, almost pulls him back in, but knows better. he lets dazai go, but he never leaves. he's moved just far back enough so they could both look each other in the face.

"I missed you," he spoke softly, his hands shifting to hold the blonde's face.

"I missed you too,"

there's a moment of silence.

"I love you." the words are hesitant, skittish even, like he's unsure of how Kunikida would take it.

"I love you too," he replies without a second thought. he loves his partner, he loves him, more than he knows what to do with, so much it drives him mad and makes him ache.

Dazai nods. he's thinking, Kunikida can see it on his face, his mind is going a million miles a second. worry flashes on Dazai's face, and Kunikida panics, goes to pull away, goes to give Dazai space, even if his own skin burns at the thought of parting with Dazai's.

but Dazai doesn't let him, he clings to him, "Don't go, please don't go, please," he begs.

his voice is desperate, so Kunikida doesn't. he watches his partners face twist and turn, watches as fear spreads across his brow and tears gather in his eyes, and he doesn't know what to do because this has never happened.

but than Dazai leans in, slowly, tugging Kunikida closer so they can meet in the middle. Kunikida feels his partners lips on his. he kisses him back. he can't decide if that was a foolish decision or not. It's soft, softer than either of them knew they were capable of, it's gentle and earnest and good.

Dazai stops after a moment, lingers in Kunikida's space before looking him in the eye once more, he doesn't speak, they don't need to. Dazai looks at him, tears running down his face, but he's smiling, he's ok. his thumbs wipe away tears Kunikida hadn't realized he'd shed. they're ok.

"I love you," Dazai mutter's again, speaking again before the other man can answer "Kunikida?"

"yes, Dazai?"

"don't go."

"I won't."

"promise?"

"I promise." its a foolish thing to say, but Dazai needs to hear it, hell, he needs to hear it, "I'm not going anywhere, so long as you promise me the same."

he hesitates, his eyes avoid Kunikida's for a moment, before returning from their shared gaze, "I'll try, I promise, I'll really try this time"

Kunikida nods, slowly moving to kiss Dazai's forehead, the brunette leans into it.

"I know you will," he whispers into Dazai's skin, "and I'll always be here when it's too hard to manage on your own."

there's silence again, but it doesn't feel wrong or heavy, its soft and warm and it feels right.

"I love you," Kunikida finally returns.

there's more silence, Dazai just looks at him, just watches, fingers playing with Kunikida's hair and drifting over his face until something clicks into place in the other man's mind, something nobody but Dazai could ever understand.

he leans in once more to kiss his cheek before he settles against Kunikida's chest, letting out a pleased huff as he curls himself into a ball, "goodnight," he muttered, almost instantly going still with sleep.

"goodnight," Kunikida replied, knowing Dazai wasn't going to hear him, pressing his own goodnight kiss to the top of Dazai's head before burying his face in the other man's hair (Dazai doesn't smell like his shampoo anymore. it makes something in him cringe. he tries and fails to ignore it).

it takes Kunikida a while to fall asleep, he's too busy running the night over and over and over again in his mind. he holds Dazai close and lets his fingers trace over scars, feeling over his too-thin frame, feeling each bone beneath his skin. there's so many thoughts rushing through his mind, to many fears, worries, anxieties, what ifs. what if I hurt him? what if I break him? what if I ruin this?

his thoughts are only stopped when Dazai gently nudges his head into his jaw, hands pulling Kunikida's off of him, holding them gently in his own (he should have known sleep wouldn't come that easy to Dazai).

he takes a deep breath, steadying himself and his mind, his partner's hands squeeze his gently, good, they seem to say, and sleep finally starts to pull at him once more.

he lets it happen, let's his eyes close and his mind go blank, knowing Dazai is safe, he's safe in his arms, he won't be taken away again. he sleeps knowing Dazai loves him, that he kissed him, that tomorrow they'll wake up like this, and maybe, just fucking maybe they can finally have this one happy ending.

#I love when two emotionally constipated men find ways to be indirectly vulnerable and soft with one another. it matters so much to me. #they don't know how to talk about it or what they mean to one another or what they need from the other but they make it work #but after so long of dancing around each other only to be ripped apart for so long something just gives way and for once its in their favor #I hc that Dazai can be quite graceful in a ghostly and/or feline sort of way when he wants to be. he hops to his toes instead of standing- #glides instead of walking. stares into your soul with these big old eyes instead of just look. so thats just sprinkled in here. #on another note. these men are idiots. I said getting together but for christ sake they've been together for years they just never noticed. #I cringed at their stupidity multiple times while writing this. #dazai is scared of loving kunikida. he's scared his love will damn the man he loves. he's scared he'll leave too #but he can only run from his feelings so long #kunikida is scared to love dazai. he's scared he will find a way to break him. that he won't be careful enough. that he'll screw it all up. #they're so fucking messy and I love them your honor #I have so much to say about them #kunikida bsd #kunikida doppo #bsd kunikida #dazai osamu #bsd dazai #dazai bsd #kunikidazai #kunidazai #if you see typo's no you don't

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ghost!toji x reader ….. hmmmm hm hm hm

#THINKING MANY THOUGHTS #one thing abt me is i fucking LOVE ghosts easily the best supernatural creatures ill forever die on this hill #anyway my idea for it is cliche but im weak for it ok 😔😔 #reader can see ghosts obviously. and ghosts need to settle their scores to move on properly #but toji is jaded and cynical and refuses to. he meets reader and is surprised they can see him but also doesnt really give a shit #but reader wants to help ghosts ichigo kurosaki style and ends up persuading toji to let them … #just. putting flowers on mamagumi’s grave… making sure gumi has a proper support system . checking up on shiu. etc etc #and obviously toji grows fond of reader because he hadnt realized how lonely he was #so maybe he asks for one final favor — for them to let him stay by their side for a bit longer .. #im also very much imagining this as a roomate au . toji crashes on your couch and you have to listen to his snoring from the bedroom <3333 #I JUST THINK GHOST!TOJI IS SO GOODDDDD HE’S SO SAD :(((( but also such a prick #also 100% the type to spook anyone who tries to flirt w reader and theyre like ??? wtf was that for. 🤨🤨 he ignores them . #scary dog priviliege except the scary dog is incorporeal <3333 protects you but like . transparently #need to write this someday #i have a lotttt of trouble imagining toji romantically though like that’s my whole father … #IM GONNA TRY THO !! #ari noises ✩

[bijoumikhawal]

"Biden is the best choice and he's actually really empathetic and reasonable but also you can't wait for a candidate that won't do genocide and war crimes because to become a presidential candidate you have to be willing to do that" see what you fundamentally don't understand is I'm not waiting for a candidate that won't do war crimes, because I know that. I cannot morally stomach this system, it's a joke to claim its democratic, and AMERICA DELENDA EST. this country is a plague on this Earth

#cipher talk #It's baffling because okay so you know how fucked up this is but you're behaving in a way that clearly indicates you want that this shambli #Disgusting empire to cling to life until after you're dead because it'd make /you/ uncomfortable and inconvenienced #To live through its destruction (the wealthier classes and more privileged experience lesser material changes in state collapse so long as #They aren't too highly ranked/involved in politics. A Sri Lankan wrote an article specifically addressing Americans about this) #It's so dehumanizing! People's blood is so cheap to you! You've just accepted its inevitable that genocide will happen! #Because of how the US operates! You can see no other future! It hardly matters to you! #You say this like the death of Palestinians of Yemenis of Syrians is someone else's dropped ice cream cone #You understand why people hate this country and you understand we deserve it but it just. Hardly matters to you #It feels like madness to watch this. It's disgusting #I keep thinking- it'd be so easy for you to justify my people being killed if violence broke out and it was in your favor #It's unlikely because. Well. America loves 'the church of the martyrs' #But you'd do it if that was favorable. You wouldn't think twice. You might feel a twinge in your heart but that's all #Because we aren't people to you! #We aren't all that important! Not important enough for you do anything more than 'well let's vote a blue in and do some protests' #What's a protest worth if you perpetuate the system and can't see a way out and don't try for a way out? #That's killing a man then putting flowers on his casket. It's /perverse/. #You get used to the idea that Africans die that West Asians die and that's just the way of the world. My g-d do you understand anything?? #I watch necrosis take hold my parts of my culture and I watch every good person I know be ground to dust under a military regime #I talk to my friend who got drafted and is trans and may never come out because if they do they can get arrested as a 'prostitute' #I watch the wild hope for the future I was introduced to over radio at 9 years old wither #I watch people risk it anyway because just past the fence they can see they know there are people there #I watch my neighbor to the south crumble and weep because our hands are bloody and it's in part because we bloodied them for the west #And you just think that's how things are. #Fascist white death cult mindset

[mcybree]

Ok ok ok I'm not Tryna start discourse but bluestars prophecy was my first ever warriors book and bluestar will always be my favourite so I'm gonna make some counterpoints to you about her being a Smajor character

bluestar has always been led by an intense loyalty and dedication to those she loves and cares for - this includes her mum, her sister, her clan, eventually Firepaw when he joins the clan, and she has a VERY strong moral compass when it comes to doing the right thing - when she sees thistleclaw teaching tigerpaw to hurt a then baby scourge she very much discourages it and is against it

Afaik scott is Not like that, he doesn't have an emotional or love-driven moral code, he does things because they're smart decisions in the long term or because he wants to. Granted I havent seen a ton of his stuff but I have seen his limited life and 3rd life perspectives and he is very much a singular team player there, there to look after himself and well if people align with him that's great he's got allies (jimmy and Martyn) but he won't go out of his way to care for them

Bluestars defiance of starclan in the first series is BECAUSE she gave herself to them and what the warrior code demanded so much - yes she broke clan rules by having kids with crookedstar but she did everything in her power to make sure they'd have a happy life and felt terrible that thrushpelt was willing to say they were his to save her reputation. She didn't do it out of a selfish want, she only ever wanted to help her clan and those she loved, and her becoming clan leader is emblematic of that want. When she rejects starclan so wholeheartedly in the first series it's because THINGS KEEP GOING WRONG WHEN SHES TRIED SO HARD TO STOP THEM FROM DOING THAT - starclan has never cared about the sacrifices she made to keep her loved ones and clan safe, she lost her mother, her sister, her kits, her mate, literally everything, and things STILL KEEP GETTING WORSE. it's not a demand that she deserves to have everything good, it's a cry for help that shouldn't something go right after she's tried so hard???

C!Scott isn't like that. He puts himself above others and inherently believes he will get the best if he just plays his cards right, and he is good at it, he's very competent at lasting a long time in life series and getting what he wants - the ruthlessness of gem driven by desperation kills him in secret life, Martyn's complete fucking about face kills him in limited life, and I'm pretty sure it's etho who gets him out in 3rd life by luck. He doesn't plan to look after the ones he cares about, because he cares about himself first and foremost. Yeah you can argue when he doesn't get what he wants he gets annoyed, but his is less of a 'why don't I get this don't I deserve it' and more of a 'oh fuck this didn't work. Ok new plan double down on getting what I want by appeasing to people cos they're easy to read and therefore account for'

I don't doubt Scott would make a bluestar adjacent character if he made a warrior cats oc BUT his character would honestly be closer to darktail or ashfur than bluestar and that's that on that.

(sorry you activated 13 year old me's unskippable cutscene sjdjsjsjja this isnt meant to be a serious argument I just love bluestar a lot and love talking about her)

OKAY 1. this is fucking awesome thank you 2. i am going to do something new and exciting (advocate for scott instead of beating him to death with sticks) because unfortunately this bluestar info has only made me believe she is a smajor character even more.

As a general note when I talk about smajor characters as a collective here I’m referring to characters more in the realm of esmp/traffic/rats/pirates/etc, less vampire scott or necromancer scott who are intended to be villainous.

Scott characters tend to operate under a “If I am not a Good Person I may as well die” rule, and consequently abide by a strict moral code to keep themselves feeling clean. For instance: traffic Scott will never go back on his word, he will avoid dishonesty, and he won’t take from others unless he is sure that he can repay them. He will never betray his seasonal primary ally (even when they betray him first), and will often give people things just because they asked him nicely. He stakes a lot of his own identity on this, because it is through being a “good person” that he justifies his superiority (and, by extension, his own existence); in his mind he deserves the best and *is* the best because he is such a good person. When things don’t go his way, he thinks he doesn’t deserve it because he has been nothing but good, so he tries to place a reason. He often assumes that somebody must “have a vendetta” against him, even if this somebody is the world (see: him asking if limlife episode 1 boogeyman is some kind of joke played on him for not giving in to the boogey curse in Last Life.) which is very Bluestar to me, convinced that her misfortunes are a divine punishment.

This is all to say that Scott does have a strict moral code and deep sense of loyalty. Being a “good person” and devoted partner in the ways he understands it are so ingrained into what he is that I think he definitely has the capacity to be a Bluestar if he were raised being taught clan values, even if his internal systems are often built around never letting gross emotions be fully felt rather than what those emotions compel him to do.

#ive always wanted to partake in pointless character debate on tumblr #considered maintagging this but didnt want people looking at your ask weird. sorry yall we serve fucked up scott here #“But bree” you might ask “what about pearl? He wasnt a very devoted partner then!” #and to that I say: pearl isnt a person to him. and neither is jimmy. Scott fucked up with both of them and unfortunately if he is not good- #and justified 100% of the time he loses his entire identity so convincing himself that they are incompetent or crazy so that he #doesnt have to self reflect is how he gets by. he would literally rather kill himself than earnestly admit fault for anything #… huh. about the above tags I dont remember the lore but is there any parallel there with the whole bright heart thing #genuine question bc I do not remember why blue star did that and I dont trust the wiki #(Trying to space out names so they dont tag) #I really hope this makes sense btw bc I feel like I usually list a lot more examples… but im tired #I can elaborate on any point here if need be ig. I dont talk about this aspect of him often because the literal entire fandom does already #Every scott analysis post out there is about his damn loyalty… anyways yeah scotts loyalty is transactional more often than emotional but #It’s still loyalty and also. hard to draw the line between where the emotions stop sometimes because he can stop giving a fuck about— #most things on a whim. How much scott genuinely cares about something is a forever undefinable concept #asks #he is genuinely a very good ally to have usually. like jimmy was very much the exception there #he does like helping people out he does. he’s just also emotionally detached so he tallies his favors and good deeds to bring up later if— #someone he’s helped decides to go against him. If that makes sense #sorry man I just keep talking. I love this blue animal……. #thanks for the ask genuinely I love when paragraphs about characters #anyways im gonna pass out and. Shakes myself STOP ADDING MORE TAGSSS i think im so tired man

[j-esbian]

i am once again begging people to learn how to recommend things. i’ve been seeing a couple posts lately about a league of their own that have honestly done a really poor job of selling it, not least because none of them actually say what it’s about

one essentially said “you guys need to watch it because it’s got queer woc, and if you don’t watch it, we’ll never get a season 2” which is coming at it backwards. why do i care about getting another season of a show i haven’t watched yet?

another said “if you liked our flag means death you should watch this, because they’re both gay and about real-life historical figures” which, while technically true, is missing the point of both shows. ofmd is a comedy about pirates in the early 16th century. a league of our own, from what i can tell (i had to google it, because none of those posts mention any of this) seems to be a drama about baseball in the early 20th century. what about those is similar

do we really need to keep having this discussion about not tokenizing stories?? because it does it a disservice to boil it down to “it’s good and you should watch it because it’s Diverse”

it’s like if i said, “hmm, i want to go clothes shopping, my closet feels stale,” and you told me, “i have just the thing,” and tried to give me a blank cardboard box with something inside. “what is it?” i ask, and you tell me, “it’s purple.”

but is it a top? pants? i don’t really wear skirts so i wouldn’t be interested. is it a turtleneck? i like those sometimes, but it’s really hard to pull them off. what material is it? i have sensory issues and i don’t like polyester. what if we’re not the same size and it doesn’t fit?

“it’s purple” you tell me. “you like purple. you’ll like it, trust me.”

#also the fact that everyone says to watch it but no one has said where #which i realize is probably because they have 🏴‍☠️ and expect other people will also #but it’s a bad habit to get into. if you’re recommending something you need to let people know how to get it #spoiler culture definitely contributes to this too. people don’t want to tell you anything that happens in case it Ruins the Surprise #i’m going to be generous and say that maybe these posts were written for a small circle of people and i am not in that conversation #but it’s something i see all the fucking time from like. everyone i know #i don’t taken reccs from my sibling or their gf anymore lol #like. boiling something down to ‘it’s gay so it’s your duty to watch it’ makes it feel like a chore #the last time i listened to that argument was years ago bc everyone was talking about steven universe #which like. was mediocre imo. i don’t think i’d ever have watched it otherwise but i didn’t hate it #i never really felt a spark of ‘oh i like this’ but i kept making myself keep up with it because I Had To #like don’t get me wrong. i will probably watch this show bc i love the 40s aesthetic #but y’all are doing it and yourselves no favors by talking about things in this way #i very much DO like purple but i’m gonna need a little more information first #mine

[batri-jopa]

Found on facebook today

I hate that it looks like some "list of shame"

#okey so it feels a bit too much like blaming self blaming or otherwise negative emotions here... #I think I grown out of 'chasing' and 'obsessive' and... 'overtalking' (though my internet friends would not agree lol) #but why 'making up stories and worlds' is put into this list like another negative trait? like 'something that proves you're a loser'? #and not a wonderful alternative to any other boring life cliche? #okey I am excessively helpful indeed... I can't say 'no' even when I'm really pissed off by the amount of asking-for-help-or-a-favor around #and when I spend another hour after hour of my free time to help them they say: 'oh you are always so kind and helpful!' #to only keep on asking for more next time... oh f*ck off already all you excessively-asking-for-help!😫 #if you liked me you'd let me rest!!! and you wouldn't give me 5 minutes of YOUR fucking precious time if I was more assertive😣 #I so love to spend my time with people not knowing I'm a doctor. Or knowing and not using it. Then I know they like me for me❤ #and not seeing me as their wish-granting machine #aroace #aro #ace #aromantic #asexual #aromantic asexual #aspec #a spec #a spectrum #not too positive this time... more a vent... #but whenever someone tries to put me into a 'loser' labeled box in their narrow mind - I want to make their mind explode!!!

[swordmaid]

am getting a lot of character inspo for shri’iia from amy gone girl. I don’t think she’s as smart nor calculated but she is similar to some degree in that she’s hyper aware of the current persona she’s presenting and how she’s appealing to the people. the masks and the mjndgames, that’s basically how shri’iia operated while she was still serving under her matriarch in menzoberranzan. she needed to play the roles the matriarch required of her and it was only when she was with her matriarch that she can be ‘Real Shri’iia’, and that’s how I imagined shri’iia to be esp in act 1 when she is so new and scared in the surface. she needed to work out who these people are (her companions) and what they liked, so her first persona - her blank one - the charming helpful paladin who got tadpoled and wants to go back home just like the rest of them (which was half true). she didn’t really argue and she generally agreed to what the group wanted. she was helpful and co-operative, ask her about her past and she will tell you something bland and generic- interesting enough to be ooh-ing about but not too interesting that they’ll delve deeper into it. then, when she got to know them a little more, she started crafting little personas adjacent to her first one ; she’s the girl who’s curious about magic but never had the chance to learn with gale, she’s a cool girl who likes mischief as debauchery with astarion, she’s the one who likes to take risks and live in the moment with karlach, the knight in silver armor who’s willing to help the tieflings with wyll, a disciplined fighter with lae’zel, someone who understands the depths of devotion with shadowheart - but none are really her, not really. ofc her own personality might slip in here and there but for the most part she’s appealing to them and what they’d like her to be but none of it is really genuine. shri’iia just needs to be on their good side to minimise the chances of them turning on her, and if they let her guard down it’ll be easier for her to get rid of them should the need arise. taking up all these different masks, collecting all these intel abt them to be used for later, slithering and making a place in their minds - it’s really how she operated back in menzoberranzan. I think the only one who catches on to her game is astarion but that’s bc he’s doing the same thing too, so it’s very game recognises game lmfao

it’s only when she breaks her oath and goes through her existential crisis that all of her masks drop and her real self comes out. she was never that kind of person lmfao ^, she’s greedy, selfish, paranoid and rather obsessive. she doesn’t care about a lot of things that doesn’t concern her, she has a cruel streak that she hasn’t shown before, and she hates doing anything that won’t really benefit her. but she’s fiercely loyal to anyone she likes, like a dog. and severely she craves validation and approval - also like a dog.

#like if shri’iia was smarter and wiser it’s really over for you hoes 😔 but she’s not lol #the matriarch also taught her how to deceive so she had good training lool like that’s coming from the master liar herself #and in game Shri’iia’s deception is p high so it tracks 👯‍♀️ #but anyway I finished reading gone girl and shri’iia would’ve turned out like amy in her vengeance ending #I think if her paranoia consumed her and an outside figure validated her way of faking herself #and generally moulded her back to being that overly obsessive paladin who lives to serve - which is what her matriarch made her to be #but obv she can’t be that girl in the surface .. they can’t know abt the Lolth worship! they’ll kill her! so she makes a new one … a #completely different one that’s so detached from her previous self … someone new and charming and fun and harmless and the kind of person #you’ll feel safe around and happy to travel with. she is that girl! and more! and she’s down for anything! and she loves to help! #but she forgets the goddess she worships is fickle and vengeful and proud so her favor drops and suddenly her real self is left #with nothing .. so she doesn’t know what to do anymore … she doesn’t know if she should keep up this fake one I mean what’s the point does #she even have it in her anymore?? how can she go back home when they don’t want you back #like who is SHE without lolth even … bc the girl that she has been playing is nothing but a blank image #and that’s NOT her .. never been her… so shri’iia is left bewildered confused and even more scared #like what do you do if you’ve been left behind in this new world?? and the purpose of your existence doesn’t want you anymore but the #thing is she knows where she went wrong.. but she didn’t have a choice - or did she?? shri’iia doesn’t know .. she’s not a planner #you don’t need to plan when your matriarch does all the thinking for you and you just do what ur told bc there is nothing better than to #serve and fulfill your oath …!!! so she ends up getting wasted in a party with the people she didn’t even care to save lmfao #and then she gets drunk and ends up fucking this one guy just bc she asked and she’s already hit rock bottom #lolth always says fuck elves anyway so she goes off and do just that 🤷‍♀️ #shut up abt bg3.

[weird-life-of-a-closet-fangirl]

"you are worthy of love no matter what it is that you do in this world and there are those that love you. and i hope you know that i love you" CATHILDA BEST MAMA I LOVE HER

#'YOU ARE BILL'S SON AND YOU ARE MINE AS WELL AND THAT SQUID WILL PAY' OKAYYYYY CATHILDA GO OFF!!!! #fabian must feel so protected and loved he has a mama who loves him and friends who love him #and they're gonna fuck captain james' shit up hell yeah #i dont know enough about hallariel to have a favorable opinion of her #also 'we're not your friends bc of your dad we're your friends bc of you' MADE ME SO EMOTIONAL #I LOVE THESE KIDS #fantasy high #fantasy high sophomore year

[deadlylittlemiho]

So I'm genuinely concerned

Are we really all gonna just pretend not to like Harry Potter anymore? Because of one terf with a million bad ideas and a superiority complex?

When the fandom has long since denounced her and started making their own fan works and headcanons? The existence of Harriet Porber makes me feel like ???? We don't need to destroy the series just because the creator is a bigoted moron???? Stop me where I'm wrong but I thought the point was to separate art from the artist, and as long as we're not supporting HER, where is the harm?

#harry potter #jk rowling #seriously we all know she's a fucking idiot #but we can't deny that she created something that got so big and touched so many hearts it grew BEYOND her #she doesn't even need to be involved #as evidenced by everyone ignoring her shitty tweets in favor of world building that actually makes sense #and active forms of protest like publishing a story with trans Harry #harry potter is on level with things like star wars in terms of cultural influence and popularity #and George Lucas eventually stepped down #can't we want the same thing for this series??? do we have to dig its grave???? #or can we continue to love it and protest its creator until it transforms into something we can all get behind? #seriously I'm asking what do you all think #because i love harry potter #i grew up with it #i always wanted that acceptance letter to come in the mail #but i also DON'T support any of her hateful bigoted viewpoints #and i don't think she should have the final say on what is or isn't since she clearly can't be trusted with that either #anyways i love all my trans and enby buds and I'm sorry because i know this topic is especially hard for some of y'all #your voices are incredibly important in this discussion so if it pleases you I'd like to know what you think

[fuwaprince]

Hey loser how were you going to talk about ocean man and accidentally say tumblr when you don't want me to know you still lurk my blog like fuck offffff already thanks .-.

#this is for one creep and one creep only ps eat dog shit #i will never fucking date you get over it #sorry not sorry btw stop fucking touching me and stop stalking i will grate your dick over a salad and make you eat it as an appetizer #you are ugly and stupid and i hate golf #your taste in music sucks #stop playing the same stupid love songs whenever we carpool #also do me a favor and stick your dick outside the car window before rolling it up thanks #you disgust me #I'd rather date a headless cockroach #at least i know the headless cockroach won't jerk off while scrolling my blog like a fuckin freak #PATHETIC #cross my boundaries and i will bully the shit out of you publicly #honey badger don't care #i hope you're crying #:') fuck off #you are a joke and your words don't mean shit to me #i wish you were a crunchy leaf so that i could stomp you out of existence #i wish spontaneous combustion upon you #when you talk about shit on an atomic level i roll my eyes #your political views make you even uglier #you're a bad pet owner for not even making posters for your missing cat it has been months and you don't care #toby ran away and i would too #your care is conditional and shallow #you have a boring personality #i will make you need an iv #your mother doesn't trust your irresponsible ass that's why your younger brother is her and your dad'sfavorite son #your car is fucking weak and you chew through your brake pads driving it like a moron #if you were a responsible car owner you'd replace them by now #you will never be a fucking Jake 💓 #if this hurts your feelings GOOD maybe stop fucking stalking me on some no name ass blog

[sarcasmchandlerbing]

The Walking Dead seasons from best to worst (in my opinion):

1. Season 5

2. Season 3

3. Season 4

4. Season 1

5. Season 2

6. Season 6

7. Season 9

8. Season 11

9. Season 10

10. Season 7

11. Season 8

#my personal favorites and not-so-favorites ✌ wanna see yours rankings too #but many could be swapped and my mind might change #not sure if 3 or 4 is better #i think 5 is still best... even if it had slow and/or boring episodes too #season 1 is too short that's why it's 'only' in number four #season 2 is iconic and boring at the same time #season 6 had some great episodes so i was also thinking if it's better than two.. #i would want 11 and 9 to be higher on the list actually! i liked them. but i don't know where to put them? #they can't be better than season 6 and 2 right? but i might favor them over others... idk 6 and 2 are iconic so.. #season 10 had some fucking boring or useless episodes like carol with dog and daryl and also daryl/leah episode #also when they all were in cave. that was boring too. but is it still better than 7?? maybe? #season 8 is the season i don't even remember... mostly i just love the characters in it... that's why i didn't give up on watching it #why season 7 had so many one group episodes? #all seasons had their great and boring episodes #the walking dead #twd #this is hard #tv show #tv shows #sarcasmchandlerbing

[baltears]

ruminating on the inherent fuckedupness of t/ddy’s existence today

#westworld #like. imagine that you are literally built. designed. to be dominated by your all consuming love and loyalty and devotion to one person #and this is so deeply embedded in the core of who you are that it is actually physically impossible for you to change that #now imagine feeling all that while knowing it is impossible for them to ever feel the same way about you. #they will never prioritize you the way you do them. they will never be unconditionally and totally in your corner the way you are for them #they will only be able to place your needs above their own occasionally whereas you do it 100% of the time 24/7 without fail #because you have to. because that's how you're built that's who you are. but it's not who they are #you are designed for them to take advantage of and so even if they try not to they literally cannot help but do it #because allowing you to act in the way that feels most natural to you inherently means enabling your total lack of any boundaries #and letting you constantly ignore your own interests in favor of theirs even if you know you're being harmed by it #you desperately want to be with them. you desperately love them and feel overwhelming joy when they are near. #but you also know that being with them is inseparable from being dominated and exploited just by dint of how you relate to them #they might not mean to. they might not want to. they might bitterly regret it. they might try their hardest not to. but they always will #whenever they are with you you become a planet orbiting a sun. and they can't help it and neither can you. #yeah like. actually i love teddy. 😔 #and i love this relationship too. but i find it so confusing that people portray it as wholesome when it's literally the opposite of that #low key i think it's actually one of the darkest and most fucked up relationships in the show #i love the tragic duality of it like the way they can't help but vibe and get along and love each other but also being together is. #just honestly unsustainable after they've left their loops because trying to be their own sentient beings is not compatible w that #i was getting a little emotional when teddy was tearing up just being around xtina in 4x04 because like. #she's essentially his master. she dominates him at all times in all ways literally without even wanting to or meaning to. and he knows that #but he Still Loves Her and he can't help it....... baby boy...... #and she's just instantly charmed by him because he's Built to be charming specifically For Her and To Her...... #it's so fucked up. it's so fucked up and sad but also their dynamic can be so sweet and touching and that's what makes it even more brutal #i actually like it so much. #like if we're picking sports teams it would not be my team. but i do rly love & appreciate it and find it interesting & crunchy & complex #my least favorite thing about it is probably evan and james' chemistry which idk... it just rings a little artificial to me and always has #(more on her end than his tbh. idk why and i won't speculate but it feels like he carries their scenes a little bit to me) #(and im not calling evan a bad actress either bc she's incredible but that kind of thing is just hard to force) #but anyway. the text of the relationship and how it's written is amazing and crunchy and delicious <3

[sketchy-scribs-n-doods]

reminder for st fans that treat ships as a competition to get their asses out of my notes and off my posts, esp salty ha/rrin/groves and self righteous ste/ddi/es, your jokes aren't funny and your stubborn us vs them bullshit is irritating. i ship both and yet somehow some of y'all manage to be mad annoying across both lines, learn to shut up and mind your business

#i ship both but my god are some of yall mad annoying on both sides of it #steds tend to be the loudest toxic bitches #but harrings have such an edgy complex about steds being the 'mainstream popular annoying ship' #steds acts like they figured out how rewrite evangelical talking points for fandom use #while harrings act like those people who refuse to play undertale because 'the fandom is cringe' #lot of steds are dickheads that think their ship makes them morally superior somehow but my god the bitterness is not a good look harrings #anyway reminder that idc how much you love either ship #i will block your ass for being snide and shitty about the other one #steve is holding both billy AND eddie's hands actually fuck you #they share him and swap on saturdays and have group dates on fridays #im gonna start hanging out with only the mung/roves at this rate honest to god #they have taste and aint ever ticked me off over this nonsense #fandom wank #sketchy speaks #side note that this is because of alot of things but modt recently specifically bc of a harring that was being annoying in my notes #and another that was being snide and obnoxious about joe k being generally favorable toward harring #while joe q is tired to death of being asked about steds #like theres a funny joke to be made there sure but god this dude was being annoying about it 'we stay winning losers uwu' style #anyway shut up about ships u dont like thats what i do and wow its so easy fr and its free

[maxellminidisc]

Genuinely kinda miss music production. In general making music was my most cathartic form of expression and used to make me feel so whole and I think I've been trying to get that feeling back since I put it down with no success

#its just real really hard when the thing you love breaks your heart #like how fucked is it that i could never afford to record or mix professionally #but people would call in favors asking me to mix for them when they could #or call me asking me what was wrong with a mix or what was missing #and multiple people have my songs on their debut albums and yeah granted theyre not like very big records #or well sold ones lol but i never got credit or even a lil shout out despite being consistently in multiple peoples lives #giving them a lift its fucked #and then i had my family on my ass constantly telling me how much they saw me making music as something so unserious and worthless #and when people fucked me up they shoved it in my face as proof that it had all been a waste of time #i just lost my grip on that special lil thread..