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A cheesecake that looks like a swiss cheese wheel

#i was just thinking of scooping out little holes but WOW that is so tasty looking!!!!!!! #and the yellow color looks so 🤌 #gimme 🧀

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A cheesecake that looks like a swiss cheese wheel

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don’t stop inviting your disabled friends to do things because they usually say no, don’t stop trying to hang out with us because you assume we’re not up for it, don’t avoid us once you know we’re sick. i’ve lost so many friends & missed out on so many opportunities this way. it means the world to us, to me, when people keep trying

#important

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I'm sorry I just need to sleep or I'm going to pass out. Fuck my housemates. Also I'm back home and very tired after not sleeping all night

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You are worth it and you matter even on the days that there are no gentle reminders given 🌷

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I'm hugging a nice stranger I met around Thanksgiving soon. Last time he came, we just talked while my ex gf and I were close to breaking up. We aren't super close because I shut myself out and withdraw too much but I'd like to try. He's real. He's driving all this way. It got me to take a little care of myself. Still gross but I hope it's decent enough. I feel like I've been dying for this... Just a hug from someone who might love me

#we fought all day and he finally won... i hope i don't regret opening up #i hope he doesn't think I'm gross #edit: it went really really really really really really really really well

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Do u ever just hear the calm of running water and the world suddenly becomes a beautiful place?

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:') I don't wanna be here anymore...

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Tons of strangers saying they'd pick me up and take me for a car ride. I would do it but I can't. I have plenty of times in the past because I didn't care what happened to me as long as it kept me alive. I could then. I can't get myself to now. People can park outside and wait for hours but I can't. I can't. I can't explain why I can't. My legs are attached. They're weak but they work enough to fucking leave. But I can't. You're asking me to run through a burning hallway with people who spit fire at me. I'm burned enough as is. Please, I need somebody to come in and actually physically tear me out of here. Knock me out like a dog before a stressful flight and then wake me up in a place I won't be shedding from being stressed out by abusers. I don't want this anymore. I have withdrawn to the point of self imprisoning please somebody actually give a shit? Not a tiny shit I mean like a BIG shit like it's your life on the fucking line because that's what's on the line for me :'(

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Please unfollow me if you don't think you can handle the stress of my posts. Y'all go through shit too and I have no idea what it is so I don't take it to heart or judge when you feel the need to leave. Maybe you come back, maybe you don't. I support you and send you off with a loving farewell. I hope I get out

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Vent

There's nothing that I myself or anyone I know could do to get me out of here and into better. It won't happen, not without the winning lottery ticket.

Not in the next week or month and I need it to happen in the next 24 hours. That's how urgent this shit is to me... that's just a feeling though. People in conditions that strip them of their basic civil liberties will feel like that and that's okay. They're just victims of their own decisions! People like me aren't the responsibility of the community but of the radically self-reliant individual and in this world we are aloneee. They're so right, I 100000% should've DECIDED to have a supportive family and DECIDED to not sexually abuse myself. I should have DECIDED that I actually enjoy being abused by my tormentors 🙄 I am so dumbbbb, why did I not make better decisions!?!!!!!! Why didn't I decide to be perfectly fine?

It was stupid asking my family for help. I should've just accepted that I don't matter and kept myself safe. Is deciding to die at the bottom of a well less cruel and less painful than being smacked back into the same hole after crawling all the way up the well walls to shout for help and being told "make it worth it"? I guess they DECIDED I wasn't worth it

At the same time thanks for everyone helping me survive with access to shit I need in the meantime like food and water that I literally cannot fetch myself. I am self imprisoning for my own protection. That's all I can do. Are prisoners supposed to feel good about surviving to be tormented the next day? Am I supposed to be grateful to wake up and do this all over again every single day? I need help. I need someone to free me. Pull me out. I'm stuck. I can't keep doing this. Can't keep this up. I have said that for so long. I used to follow blogs who would cry out to the void and then would disappear. Where are you people? Can I come with?

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At this point I've accepted that I'm going to need more than just myself to get out of it. It's not just 10% what happens to you and 90% your reaction. Just 100% whether or not the god in charge of your character rolls a 2. It truly feels like the luck of the draw and I am just very unlucky

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:') if I could just have a place to live

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Remember to smoke a lot of weed and blast music incredibly loud directly in your ears and not drink any water or eat any food today, okay?

#:'( i didn't smoke a lot of weed are you still proud of me

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by starparkdesigns

#poor babe... #felt