#slow bc working on a third blog
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I saw this on a post about reheating pizza and immediately thought about your blog and your "random thots". I feel it would be a Noah thing, wouldn't it?
Hmm yes, yes indeed, but I offer a twist, may-haps.
This was meant to be a quick little thot, but it became a whole thing. It’s about 650 words.
(18+, mention of anal sex, anal sex, pegging)
also shameless promo for sing pretty since it’s almost basically the exact same as this
He comes up behind you and—softly bc he knows your sore—grabs your ass in an attempt to “soothe” and “massage”, but you know him too well. You know he’s trying to ask for more, but you’re quick to tell him no more anal and he deflates and pouts so pathetically it almost makes you cave. So you give him a proposition: if you can fuck him, you’ll let him have your ass again. Surprisingly, he said he’ll think abt it and then a week later, you’re both browsing online sex shops for straps.
Noah doesn’t want a big one, but you’re adamant about getting one as close to his size so he gets the full experience.
“It’s not gonna fit,” he keeps saying and you give him a look and he instantly shuts up and then adds it to the cart along with more than enough lube.
When the time comes, he’s nervous but soso eager. Noah can’t keep his hands or eyes off the strap and is trying to rush into it, but you have to remind him how slow you took it when the roles were reversed.
You slicked up your fingers and circled his hole, delighting on his squirming and little gasps. When you slip one inside, he whines, mouth hung open. You pump slowly to let him get used to the feeling and then slide a second in and are rewarded with more soft whining. Noah begs for more so you speed up and curl your fingers, finding his prostate the third time and a litany of whimpers and babbling erupt from him. He couldn’t form a coherent word if he tried.
You finger fuck him for a while, getting more and more worked up with each sound he makes. He calls your name weakly and you stop, suddenly worried it become too much or that’s he’s changed his mind. Instead, it’s to say:
“Please, I need your cock inside me.”
And how cruel would you be to deny him when he asked so politely?
His whole body shudders at the loss of your fingers and he whines so sweetly. It warms your heart. You slather the fake dick up and tease him with the tip at his hole. His face is scrunched and his breathing is heavy and god he just needs you inside him more than he needs oxygen.
You slide in slowly, watching as Noah’s mouth hangs open again, the veins in his neck popping as he holds in his moans. When you bottom out, he lets out a heavy breathy moan. His chest heaves as you both take a moment to bask in each other. You run your hands up and down his chest and stomach, his skin almost hot to the touch and damp with sweat.
You grip his hips delicately yet firmly and start moving. Noah moans your name and reaches for his cock, swiping his thumb over the precum dribbling from his tip. His hand matches the rhythm of your thrusts and he feels himself getting so close already, so he speeds up, which prompts you pick up your pace. His sounds become more desperate and whiny as tension builds in his abdomen.
You coax him along, praising him, telling him how proud you are and how well he’s taking you, how pretty he sounds, how pretty he looks all flushed and falling apart.
The sweet, gentle words were his undoing and he came hard, shooting thick ropes all over his stomach and choking on whimpers and whiny moans.
The next day, Noah is sososo clingy and affectionate. He will not let you out of his sight, he’s latched onto and is already asking for a repeat despite how sore he is. And from then on, anytime Noah asks for anal, you know he’s asking for himself and he railed within an inch of his life.
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Finally saw the SBS where Oda confirms what jobs the Straw Hats would have if they lived in the real world and I cannot take this seriously. Like is he aware that most of these character's jobs are things people do in the real world?? Archeologist, meteorologist/cartographer, doctor, chef, rock star, these are real jobs. Why wouldn't they have the same jobs?? Truly baffling on every level. I refuse to accept any of these as canon.
Anyway here's my objectively correct take:
Luffy: Urban explorer. He posts stuff online but it's all really sporadic and not polished at all. Despite that he still has a moderate yet dedicated following. Not that he cares about having a following. Has broken so many laws it's ridiculous but always manages to get away. Probably lives out of a van, but despite this he does not have a driver's license. Makes money in underground fighting tournaments, but it's not about the money. Spends his free time hanging out with his friends.
Nami: Meterologist and cartographer, like she has a degree, but her "job" is being a storm chaser who has a massive tiktok + youtube following. Zeus is her assistant. The rest of the Straw Hats feature in her videos or tag along sometimes. Probably also takes sponsorships but she does vet them pretty well, and gives a lot of money to charity. Works with her family on their tangerine farm in her off time.
Zoro: Master swordsman that hangs out at his old sensei's dojo giving weird advice to the noobs, but has a "side gig" as a vigilante bcs he gets into fights with creeps at the bars he hangs out at. Luffy, Nami, and the rest of their friends are often present for these asskicking sessions, though it's mostly Luffy. Sleeps in his free time, usually in the back of or on top of Luffy's van. No one knows where he lives or if he even has an apartment in the first place. Tags along when Luffy goes exploring bcs Luffy has no idea how to be safe and someone has to make sure he doesn't end up dead on the floor of some abandoned building or stranded at the top of a cellphone tower.
Sanji: Owns a food truck ever since Zeff fired him. Probably still parks near the Baratie most days(and gets into shouting matches with Zeff when he notices), but he travels around the city. He wants to open his own restaurant but it's slow going bcs he doesnt make anywhere near as much money as he could since he keeps giving free food to pretty ladies and people who are down on their luck. Still, he always manages to scrape by. Typical yelp review says the atmosphere is shit but the food is phenomenal. Doesn't have a lot of free time but spends what he does with his friends. Terminally bitchless.
Usopp: Mad scientist who spends a third of his time building wild shit in his garage, a third working in his garden, and the rest as a playing competitive Fortnite and Overwatch. Has a small but VERY dedicated twitch following. Also he def posts bs on reddit and no one can tell if he's lying or not bcs he really is just that out there.
Chopper: Med student. Doesn't get taken as seriously as he deserves but his teachers love him. He also spends a large portion of his time patching up his friends. And he's a furry. Also I could see him having a small blog where he reviews theme parks. Spends the rest of his time hanging out with his friends.
Robin: Professional archeologist and historian. Could be tenured but she's too much of a wild card for that. Def has a criminal past but doesn't talk about it that often. Absolutely can kill a person in like 10 different ways. No one has any idea why she hangs out with a bunch of weirdos but she seems happy so w/e. Follows SO many pet blogs and tags along with Chopper when he hits the parks. Also does yoga.
Franky: Automotive mechanic who specializes in absolutely absurd modifications. Like flamethrowers and shit. Probably wants to build some sort of car mecha but no one can tell if he's serious or not. Has been banned from most places of buisness bcs he refuses to wear pants. Can be found hanging around Sanji's food truck or with Luffy and his van, constantly begs them to let him do wild shit to both. Sanji says no. Luffy says yes.
Brooke: Lead of a popular local band. They sell out concerts and he has a respectable YouTube channel where he posts covers and original stuff(though he's old and the others have to help him with computer stuff). Is hardly ever seen without his massive dog Laboon, who also is the band's mascot.
Jimbe: Bro he's retired(used to be a union leader and an activist) and spends most of his time ferrying Luffy around in his van. Also helps Nami out and has def saved her life a few times. Her audience adores him, which he gets a kick out of, but he doesn't have any social media of his own. A bit of an adrenaline junkie but it comes and goes. Surfs and does martial arts in his free time, but his priority is to enjoy life and have fun with his friends.
Disagree if you want but you AND Oda can meet me on the pit about it <3
#long post#one piece#op#edit: okay I understand that these were alternate jobs now#but also I can't accept Zoro as a police officer he would never
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gifmaker / cc wrapped 2023!
thanks for tagging me my angel @jkvjimin 💜
i tried really hard not to choose all comp sets, but those take the most effort and therefore are what i'm prouder of than a standard set, but regardless...
here are my top 10 fave creations of the year:
bts chapter 1 insta feed // this was an insanely taxing project and is probably the most work i've ever put into anything, but i was really inspired to do it. it took about a week (one day for each panel) and was repetitive, i literally threw out my back by day 3 from sitting working on it that my body was in SO MUCH PAIN, but i wanted to get everything right and make it make sense which is why i wrote up a detail post breaking it down and explaining every decision that went into this. i still intend to make this a series and do one dedicated to their japanese discography (i actually started on one before i published this but didn't like the concept) and for their solo work, but it doesn't feel like the right time yet as things continue to release. but i look forward to it!
cheesy bts valentine cards // this was purposely corny, but the response was unbelievable! i had fun working on it and was so happy it made people laugh and smile. the tags were a joy to read on this post and it's my fourth most popular gifset ever. thank you!
bts guide to troubled birds // yet another corny idea, but i get a kick out of making silly comps and was inspired to make this. i started with jimin's as an experiment because his poem was the easiest to choose and built the rest of it from there, carefully deciding which poem to apply to each member and recreating them from scratch. i love celebrating their chaos in fun ways, so this was nice!
jungkook's sensitive tear ducts // sometimes i get really random comp ideas and spontaneously start making something with no plan. this was one of those times and it is now my third most popular gifset since making this blog in 2020 lol. ofc i'd never gif him upset about anything serious, so i only chose moments that didn't feel inappropriate to include to keep this set lighthearted and humorous.
long live bts (10th anniversary set) // i always knew i wanted to make something with the lyrics of that song because every word of it reminds me of their story. the 10th anniversary was perfect since it literally says "it was the end of a decade". i wanted the set to just be really simple so i went with a more desaturated look and focused more on choosing a scene from each year that fit the lyric per that gif.
love me again mv // this was my first time bothering to gif a music video in 4k. i usually avoid it bc it slows my computer down and takes a lot longer (i also have to reconvert the youtube download to a different file type to get it to play in my kmplayer, it's a whole process) but i waited a few days after it came out because i originially didn't think i could color it when it premiered so i just didn't gif it. but i gave it a try anyway when i didn't feel so pressured and i really like how crisp they came out.
jungkook's bday set // i didn't have a plan for this when i started, but i searched a lot for inspo and finally found something i felt like i could make something with so i came up with this very barbie-esque rendition for jungkook that i'm still very fond of. i purposely didn't write happy birthday on it anywhere so it could be shared year-round. it's probably my fave set i made all year and everyone seemed to like it too!
jimin's bday set // this was originally just going to include songs from FACE, but i decided it didn't celebrate jimin's work as a whole if i didn't include all his solo songs/endeavors so it turned into a big monster. i like how it came out though!
standing next to you mv // this year i was introduced to HD master files, so instead of rushing to download a new mv from youtube and giffing it fast, i'd wait for a higher quality rip from apple music to show up online. the difference is quite astounding. i made gifs with master files for all three of jk's music videos this year (seven, 3D), but i like how this one turned out the best.
vmin comp // just felt like giffing my two favorite people before they left and needed to channel my sad emotions into something before seeing them seperate for so long. i included moments i've giffed before and ones i've never had the chance to gif. i could have made this post so much longer but forced myself to stop lol. i like the pink and blue colors in it a lot <3 i miss them so much
thank for all your support on my work this year! i have lots of (old) new stuff in my drafts to share in the new year so please keep your love coming x
i'm going to tag @userjiminie @userjungkook97 @btsiu and @cordiallyfuturedwight to do this if they'd like to!
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This blog is about Michael Afton in a UCN scenario, except the animatronics aren't trying to kill him, he just finds them slightly annoying sometimes.
Michael (he/him) - Our favorite corpse guy. Likes jokes. Seems to have a decent relationship with Cass.
Cass (any) - Slightly mischievous. Appears as a small yellow bear cub, instead of an animatronic. For some reason.
"Purple Text" - an enigmatic voice that showed up shortly after Cass addressed that there's nothing stopping a third entity from entering the hellscape.
A silly blog, but one with a slow-moving plot. (Inbox: 3) (I'm working on a story update though)
rules
No nsfw lol
i hope you never expect quality from me because you're not gonna get it
Please don't like without reblogging. Likes mean **nothing** on this website, except as a bookmark.
you can ask me, the artist, questions. just mark the ask with something to signify that it's meant for me
(perpetually under construction bcs of the nature of this project, but otherwise functional)
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Here he is ....
... random funfact: he can't sit down his pants are too tight. Doll Lavi will never sit in a chair :'D this makes me laugh so much. Also I love how the sizes for him and Bookman turned out, it was such a good decision to get the small body for Bookman.
Still can't believe he is done. 1 1/2 years after I bought the first shell, a bit over a year after I got told he will not happen. I had given up on him to be honest.
For those who are interested, more insight babbling under the cut:
As I got the new head I was not sure if I could make it work for Lavi, the promotional photos were a bit blurred, I just hoped for the best. The arrival was not .. sparking much for me as he was just too tainted still. The thing I enjoy the most was making wigs and even that was kind of not working for him bc the fiber was weird to deal with. I decided to give him the body I originally bought for Kanda as the other one would mess up their heights, so he became a full doll earlier. As the body got shipped I painted the head and was still pretty bummed about it but I wanted to give it a try at least.
When I finally started working towards my emotional backlog regarding the dolls and wrote a blog entry about my 'tainted' dolls it somehow .. clicked for me? Like, I had painted the head short before I wrote the entry and I went the next day and repainted him, somehow I felt like the burden was gone and I started to bond with him???
January was a super intense doll month for me, I worked through more dolls than I did in the year prior, went down from overall 14 Work in Progress dolls to ... 6. That still baffles me a bit as majority was sewing and I don't even like sewing that much.
I got the first two days of February off and decided to give Lavi a try, he felt like a bottomless pit with all the details but somehow working on him, especially the harder parts, was ... okay? Like, yeah, it took forever bc it was so much hand stitching but as I went slow and had expierence from Lenalee & Bookman I was able to trust my skills.
On the third day as I cut the wig and put him next to my window for the almost final photos I just was in denial that he was done. I added the hammer then and ... I have a Lavi.
A doll I had given up upon, it feels like the "preorders of hell" are finally done, at least mentally, the whole situation, I feel like I am more free again. I enjoy having projects of course but it was a mental burden and it's almost gone.
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I have to say, now, 2 months after finishing him, getting in character photos of him done is hard as the face is limited and I kind of regret getting that body as it's just a brick. I'm glad though i swapped it as Kanda needs a body that allows more movement, Lavi in general is not the type for dynamic poses. Overall I still have to get used to him, but it's like that with a lot of dolls. The Storyteller needed 2 years :')
#dgm#d.gray-man#lavi#bjd#ball jointed doll#bookman#ling tai studio#zhu hong#the broken maiden#lunl#poupées de cirque
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@eliounora has been watching Merlin and blogging about it and it's been pretty delightful, and has helped remind of all the things that I liked about this show <3
I was pretty frustrated about the ending when I first watched it, and even though I've since made peace with it and even kinda appreciate the way the whole final season feels like a classic tragedy - the inescapable self-destructive path Merlin is on, and has been on since his very first meeting with the bloody dragon* - it's also really fun to remember all the things I loved about it.
Most notably I am reminded Gwaine exists, and Leon, and Percival, and that the knights were absolutely delightful and also that there's some extremely good gangbang fic out there uwu
But also especially how much I love MerGwaine they are so silly and so tragic and so hot and so sad and it's so damn fun. It's like a love triangle except everyone involved knows that it's not gonna work out and is determined to make the best of it while it lasts. Merlin for whom Arthur will always come first, even and especially at the expense of his own sanity. Gwaine who is Merlin's best friend and also his silly rabbit and also loyal to Arthur and who knows he will always come second.
The SPICE. The PINING (even though they bang), the SORROW of being third wheel in a doomed, unhealthy, self-destructive relationship you have no way to save. Watching Merlin's slow descent into obsessive madness and being unable to do anything about it.
Aaaaaaaaa fucking GWAINE man
*(I also desperately want to talk about the dragon and the way he is not anyone's friend but his own I have some FANTASTIC Kilgarah meta but I'm gonna wait until eliounora is done with the series bc it's hard to talk about him without getting pretty damn spoilery hahah)
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Sorry it turned into a depressing rant
Anon who asked about your fav studio ghibli movie here!
I love howls moving castle so much, I love the part when Sophie starts cleaning the house, I love how comforting it is
I love the sass from everyone, I love how kind Sophie is
I love howls line “I see no point in living if I can’t be beautiful” as much as it sucks I agree with him. I’m not smart so the only thing I can offer is my looks and personality to people I meet. If I’m not beautiful, then what’s the point? Sorry if it sounds shallow but when you have nothing to offer in this world, the only thing I can work on is how good I look and present myself. I know I shouldn’t think like that, it’s damaging
Beauty IS in the eye of the beholder, there will be people who find you attractive and there will be people who won’t. People you find attractive, others won’t, so sometimes I try not to think too much about it since we never know.
All my life I’ve been slow academically. My siblings are all smarter than me so I’m always the dumb one. I’m not skinny but I’m working on it, even tho it’s so hard, but I have to be skinny, my life will definitely turn around when I’m not too self conscious about my body. I know I’ll still have those negative thoughts and even after I’m skinny I won’t be happy but, as of now, I never leave the house, my anxiety about how I look keeps me from taking in person classes. I never want to leave the house unless I look good, because I don’t want anyone seeing me at my worst, I want everyone to see me as the best version of myself. So I never leave, my social skills have tanked since 2020 since that was the last time I took a in person class, and that was in high school 😭😭
I feel so immature and stupid, and people my age (19) are doing better than me. I just give up before I even try, and I’m so behind since I’m in my third year of college and I still don’t have an official major, I’m so behind, and last semester I didn’t take any classes cuz I was so depressed and embarrassed, since I failed two classes. It’s an horrible cycle of pity and dread and I’m scared I’ll never get rid of it. And I’m scared of talking to men, but I’m supposed to get married and have a kid before I’m 30 since you’re more fertile and it’s better to have kids young, and I’d love that but I’m scared my kids will turn out like me, disappointments. And I won’t know how to fix them.
So yeah… we veered off of howls moving castle.. my bad💀
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!! this got long im so sorry
first of: pls dont apologize! u are welcome to vent here in my blog, im happy to just be a bouncing wall to u guys (if my usually long responses arent what u guys wanted to see). thank u for trusting me (us) with this and im truly sorry for how late im responding
i do love those parts of howls moving castle! i never understood why howl was lamenting about his looks when i thought he looked beautiful w orange hair. orange used to be my favourite colour ^v^ it isnt one rn but i am still fond of it.
i loved orange even when howl didnt – u are correct that beauty in the eye of the beholder. beauty also goes a long way. it’s a horrible reality but when u grew up fat, u get told so many times about how much better life would be if u could just lose weight. i truly cant tell u when i stopped thinking so little of myself.
honestly love, its just so recent when i felt good enough in my own skin – blemishes n all. i never thought itd get better tbh; i thought itd stay this way but it got better. and im scared to promise to you a range of when it will get better, but i do know that it will.
u feel immature bc u are still young! 19 is so young so pls dont punish urself for feeling young, for thinking young, for not knowing anything past being young yet. as a younger sibling, ik for a fact im still so immature. it took me getting a job (during the weekdays) n going to uni for me to mature up, n i was 20 when that happened. so recent!
i also completed my associates slowly bc i was struggling in college! i once took a sem where i only had one class bc i was so overwhelmed that i had to slowly pace myself so i can keep going. high school babies u n then boom, u get hit w juggling responsibilities in college that kinda makes u wanna quit – but u didnt. u took a break and then bounced back!! my love, if that isnt resilience, then what is?
ive never wanted to settle down. i think its bc i thought id be gone by now that i just dont see myself having a family of my own so i apologize for not knowing how to empathize about the ‘deadline’ but u are just 19. before age 30 is so far away! u have sm to live for in between those years. sm to experience and to meet and to love!
also, not having a major yet is also fine! i declared a minor just this year – and im a fourth year already. pls dont worry. u have time – that is something i wanna keep emphasizing. u have time. it feels like the world is collapsing rn bc of fear and anxiety which, my old therapist told me, is a sign that u (and i) wanna keep going. that u wanna keep living.
and from what i could see, especially coming from me who wanted to just give it all up, that is enough. i know that the reasons behind u working on urself isnt a sustainable mentality, but hopefully one day u will wake up and own ur hard work for urself. not for others.
aaaa this got too long im so sorry, im being emotional on my end but i just want u to know: u are not a disappointment. u arent.
ur alive and ur making connections and ur trying ur best (even though it doesnt feel like that on ur end but u are!!) so how could u be a disappointment? and even if u dont wanna do anything, ur also not a disappointment. not even then.
ur future kids will be so lucky and happy to have u as their mom. and they too will be beautiful; they wont need any fixing bc there isnt anything broken to fix.
i love you. i dont know who u are but i love you. i love all of you.
#anon#ask#i am sorry for ranting. i dont know how to show u that i understand without ascribing life moments#thank u for trusting me#i hope this alleviates even a little of what youre carrying#take care <3
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Im watching a video on mmos and i wanted to talk about my experiences with the genre for the past like 2 decades
I first got into mmos with toontown back when it was all over tv
My parents paid for an account for me and my sibling to share and my dad had his own account
I played a whole bunch of toontown but i avoided a lot of things....i was barely in double digits....stuff like cog buildings and the factory (back when there was like...1) scared me...heck i still tend to avoid them when i go back to ttr (and bc i have zero social skills so i suffer in solo)
My first TRUE mmo was maplestory....i never got far tho i leveled up a few times and got to like the elf area and had someone try to trade me but again i was just a confused 11 year old at the time....idk how mmos work! I still played them!
Theres a bunch of mmos id get into during middle school and into hs but never for too long....i was like a grandma with a cell phone....idk what im doing im just hitting things and running around the first area
I have a friend who id play some of these with back then but even then i didnt know what i was doing
At this point in my life and its only been 28 years of being alive....most of these memories are fuzzy...
I remember always being magic classes until i got one with a gunner...i thought wow thats cool!
My friend always did way more in these games than i did....
And then there was one particular mmo....i had gotten into with a different friend in hs....
Tera
Now my first jump into tera was short lived (in 2013) bc i had a laptop not made to play such a demanding game and i barely saw past lumbertown for years. I shelved tera and had a small burst of playing mmos during this time from new to old
For....whatever reason i dont remember
My previous friend got me to hop back into tera in 2015
And that
Was the start of my true mmo years
Every other mmo i clueless played barely getting anywhere for a few months to playing talesrunner a few times to whatever mmo i wanted to try that gave me a virus once and i very shakily saved my computer from it (probably)
Didnt matter
Here we are back in tera 2 years later and its all different and would only get more different the more i played....i deleted the like 3 characters i had barely used bc their names were trash and i made a new archer named deed
And we had a blast (and i had a third friend join us for some time but we dont talk about him anymore ok ok)
I dont remember how or when
But i had found an mmo coming soon with a closed beta upcoming
Blade and soul
My first time playing blade and soul.....was awful
I was on yet another laptop that could not handle the game....i gave up at the first world boss area bc i had worn the pvp outfit not knowing it was a pvp outfit (whoops) and was basically stun locked into death by strangers bc my poor computer was too slow to handle it
Despite that i bought the founders pack and walked back into the earthern realm with my blade dancer magmia
Who i promptly disgarded to play with my friend on iksnanun
And seeliewood was born
And the rest they say
Is mostly recorded on this blog for your viewing pleasure
Blade and soul to this day is still one of the best experiences ive had in an mmo despite it all despite the games jank despite it taking me months to actually DO non story content bc i had new friends who dragged me with them besides doing the first two dungeons over ans over bc i was a scared baby of 20something despite the absolutely wild people ive met and friendships lost and stupid things ive said and done and times i got my butt kicked by mushin
Its about my friends still letting me try the scary raid with them after i have an embarrassing meltdown down in front of them and a bunch of strangers
Its sitting down for hours in a dungeon just to talk bc no one is gonna yell at us to get out
Its watching a whole raid stop and watch a rare item vanish bc one of u thinks its the ugliest outfit in the world and she paid us to throw it out
Its roping people in to farm pirate princess or black ice for months until they finally drop
Its not about reaching the best gear to do the newest raid that kills you for looking at it funny
Its about a game that introduced me to my gf @shironuri
And while i have had a lot of other mmos following some lasting longer than others including a third return to tera
Most are short lived
I don't stay as hooked on some mmos or i fall back into my rapid pick up and put down way of playing games in general
Many mmos are shutting down or mobile only or have specs past my nearly 10 year old pc that i do not have the money to replace
I'm back to staying away from socializing and many of my friends have moved on or have no time for these games anymore (or they're all in ff14 which i technically own but.... you know)
So many mmos i played only a few years ago are just gone or out of my computers power to play (id love to try and get pso2 to work again but i only played on jp and that takes a HUGE amount of time to set back up)
On that note i realize there's a lot of games i play that should go on this blog but i just haven't
Like other social sims
Yall want my vrchat screens??? Eh probably not theres like 2 active followers yall probably see this on my main enough
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it's 4 am and I'm feeling out of it enough to actually talk about myself on my blog (aka the intended use of a blog I think) instead of just shitposts and thoughts about fictional characters woohoooo
so I've been making this comic right. and it's a very personal project for me so I have no intention of posting it or getting any attention for it. maybe I'll think about posting it when it's finally done but for now it's just for me. and if I can finish this comic then I have other stories that I'd like to work on but this current one is the one that I really really want to create and finish before I die lmfao
anyway when I was dating my ex for almost all of last year my productivity with my comic slowed to a fucking crawl like normally im able to finish one uhh let's call it a story arc in like 8-10 months? but I'm on like month 15 of making this current arc and I'm still not done lmfao. and I kinda hate the idea of being in a relationship now bc it's already gonna take me like 20 years to finish this comic at the fastest pace I can manage and the thought of taking even longer or even not being able to finish at all bc of my relationship fucking kills me tbh
but also I kinda do want to be married and maybe even have kids and the thought of giving THAT up so I can focus on a comic that literally no one else on the planet knows or cares about seems kinda ridiculous too. if I was an actual famous and successful artist/writer then I feel like it would make more sense to choose my art over love but like I'm. not. lol. it's like that onion headline that goes "local woman not good enough artist to justify her eccentricities". as much as I care about this comic it just doesn't feel like big enough of a deal for me to give up on love and a family for it
but I don't wanna DATE. UGH. I can't DRAW if I'm spending all my time with my BOO. I wanna DRAW!!!!!
really I guess it all comes down to fucking capitalism fucking things up again. bc if I didn't have to spend a third of my day at my JOB then maybe I'd have enough time to date/be married AND draw wow IMAGINE THAT. hayao miyazaki has a wife and family AND tells all the stories he wants to tell and that's cause he doesn't have to also write python scripts to manage third party license usage data for 40 hrs a week just IMAGINE
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sneaks my way over to your blog yo hi uhh here to request a shufflemancy. bro strider here. probably something about rox or a non-canon guy i was with, either work and also required little yadda yadda if ya don't like bro then cool have a good day but if you do then i'm doin a lil dance of joy and thanking you
you got it man! i did both just for the fun of it :3 (under the cut!) obligatory reminder that these arent always fully accurate but i hope they help to at least jog some memories :]
rox - lone digger - caravan palace
Hey brother, what you thinkin'?
Leave that old record spinnin'
You feel the rhythm going
(They call it lonely diggin')
Legs ain't got time to lay low
Your knees are bending, so
It's time to get up and let go
(You're gonna come undone)
Hey Mama, how is it going?
Can't see your body movin'
Don't leave the party dyin'
(They call it lonely diggin')
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Baby, can you move around the rhythm
So we can get with 'em
Jump around, and get us a rock'n roll 'round
Just a downtown body-body
Comin' with a super hotty
Let's go, real slow, hell no
Baby, can you move around the rhythm
'Cause you know we're all livin' in the fast lane
Speed up, it ain't no game
Just turn up all the beams when I come up on the scene
personal interpretation: i ended up writing out a LOT of the lyrics because this one kind of keeps relevancy through most of it. the general jist i got was that a)the first section was about you, b)the third was about roxy, and c)the rest was more about how the two coped with loneliness & preparing for the game(?). the second bit refering to how you prepared for it, and the rest referring to roxy trying to ignore/forget it. ofc, thats just my take.
non-canon guy - e-girl - negative xp
She's an MKUltra victim
I can't get her out of my system
I wanna see her
Touch her, hug her
Kiss her, fuck her
Love her, be with her
Hey, I messaged you
Can you see what I said?
'Cause I can't get you out of my head
Hey, e-girl, e-girl, e-girl, e-girl
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See the pictures you post
See how pretty you are
So close to me but yet so far
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You're on my screen like a TV star
You're so close to me but yet so far
You're like a disease, poison in my system
You make me seem special, but I'm just another victim
personal interpretation: i get the vibes (and double checked with my pendulum lol) that this was more his feelings abt you than vice versa. uhh honestly this one seems kind of self explanatory. long distance relationship/crushing/e-dating type deal. fun fact! i redid this one bc i clicked on the wrong playlist at first, but it ended up popping up twice.
#☆pondering fate | divination#☆twirling my pen | my posts#☆perfectly generic | homestuck#homestuck kin#bro strider kin#shufflemancy
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THE POINT ABOUT SHIVER BEING A CASHGRAB THAT GOT DERAILED
i’m actually semi-qualified this time! i’ve done a lot of research into publishing, bc i want to Get Published, and i happen to have recently written a small essay on maggie stiefvater so i have info about how shiver came to be.
i also have a lot of anger. i will try to contain it. ahem. also i apologize to the person/people who made the cashgrab allegations originally, i am not mad at you so much as at the general world/attitude. patpat. we’re all good buddy
basically, i don’t think shiver was a cashgrab. i try not to have parasocial relationships with authors, but i do think maggie stiefvater is dedicated enough to authenticity to not, like, do that. specifically i remember reading this blog post about author-reader and reader-author responsibility.
everything i’m about to say, unless stated otherwise, comes from maggie’s interview on the First Draft podcast. i’m too lazy to track down links, but i’ll try to at least say where i got things from.
so, shiver is maggie’s third book. the first, she sold to a small publishing house for an advance that was around $2000 that’s small as fuck. the average advance is $25,000, the median is $50,000, and those numbers if memory serves come from a 2021 survey of debut authors.
(average and median, for people who are curious, are so far apart because most advances are on the smaller side, but big six and seven figure outliers affect the median. i think. i gave a speech on this but that was six months ago. i may be getting them backwards, the principle stands.)
so anyway, maggie sells her first book, ballad, buys a mattress, and keeps writing. she sells its sequel, lament, and also happens to have shiver ready at the same time. the house also wants shiver, so the two go together. ballad and lament both come out very quietly. shiver comes out about a year and a half later (i don’t know why, publishing is fickle), and immediately lands on the nyt bestseller list. this was august 2009. mstief couldve very well written it bc of the twilight paranormal romance boom, was probably writing it around 2005, 2006. lament was published january 2008, meaning both books had probably been bought in 2006 or 2007. but we don’t know what her thinking was.
small house, quiet releases, and none of the Peak twilight tropes. somehow i don’t think maggie was aiming for, or expecting, a cash grab.
and i hate this! i hate this assumption. not bc i think a very famous very successful author needs to be defended on tumblr, but because it’s such a common assumption that authors (especially ya, especially fantasy romance) are just out for money. it sucks.
first of all, publishing is almost impossible to make a living in. see those advances up there? they’re split into chunks. right now, usually quarters, each to be paid on a specific milestone of the publishing process. often, when the book comes out an author has not received all or even most of their advance payments. yes, that is stupid. we hate it too. and you can’t receive royalties until after the advance is paid, so that 25k or 50k or what-have-you may take two or three years to get to you. and then there’s taxes and a 15% cut for your agent. @xiranjayzhao (ohgod i’m so scared to tag you if you see this hii) has spoken before about how they could not live off the money from iron widow, despite it being a huge bestseller.
it’s very difficult to make a living off of books. it’s even more difficult to make a living off of books while being honest. people with ghostwriters or ai help or just a lot of determination can churn out dozens of crap romance novels and perhaps make that work. and that’s valid. yknow, i respect the hustle.
but quality and authenticity take time and this industry moves SO goddamn slow that even if you can write a sellable book in a month it’ll be two years before it comes out so what’s the point in writing to the current market?
i don’t care what you think privately about maggie stiefvater or shiver but i DO care that there’s this strange culture that if something is a little bit tropey or a little too much like something popular it has to be a cash grab. that authors are doing this for the money. some are. most aren’t.
maybe i’m just a bit sensitive bc i’m working towards hopefully the final round of edits on a book heavily inspired by six of crows and i agree wholeheartedly with the blog post i linked above. i’ve ranted before about how important authenticity in writing is to me and how much i hate the implication that i value quantity over quality or whatever the fuck.
so here’s a post that is probably too long with a whole lot of numbers to tell you that sometimes people are actually honest. and sometimes people do care about art for art’s sake. and if you don’t like a book, that’s okay, but at least dislike it for accurate reasons, thank you
#wren wrambles#idek how to tag anymore#shiver#sure why not#paranoid that i’m getting something wrong in here but like four people will see this it’s fine#i’m taking this too personally! that is fine
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Having had to Reboot my Legacy (Legacy IS Now In Progress)
The Chikamori Selfacy is now The Chikamori Legacy.
After multiple false starts of rebooting this legacy; meaning the desire to reboot it was there, the story-line just wasn't (when you don't feel the story-line...it just doesn't come out the way you want it to...so several of those storylines just got chucked in the garbage - or the delete bin) and it was a battle between starting them off as adults or throwing a long backstory in. I compromised. I went with River as a teen and Haruo just on the cusp of Young Adulthood. I went with a Prologue and then got into the story with Chapter One.
Current In-Progress Chapter
Yes, I know there's a block of text down at the bottom (screencaps will be joining it shortly...hopefully). I'm currently working on the screencaps for Chapter Two and writing Chapter Three. But it's currently slow going at the moment.
The story is heavily River/Haruo R and I'm doing a (homeworld) University World that was created by another Simmer - Google is no help trying to find out the name of the creator of this world - but it's essentially the University World as a starter world. Which means that I can make it seem like my sims are going realistically for three seasons in a university term and four full years rather than going to university for two weeks and getting their university degree (which is a tad...unrealistic...in my books). I'm looking forward to getting that particular save started but first of all, River has to age up from teen to young adult and then they're off to university.
Keep in mind that the designation of this blog may change with the addition of NSFW content. Right now it's mature, in that there are tough topics being talked about - psychological abuse and family relations, but as Haruo and River mature...their interactions will become...shall we say...a little more "intimate".
I'm debating whether to bring the "Supernatural" into it as well...as a sort of a side-journey and make this into an "Immortal Legacy" which means that the number of family members will grow enormously as each family member will have a choice - do they remain mortal or become immortal: that'll keep things lively.
I'm really glad for certain mods that bring some interesting aspects to this game. Some of Haruo's friends (his school-friends) end up going hunting and Spherefish's Wildlife and Minor Pet Hunting mod really does the trick insofar as making sure that you can get rid of those pesky Malayan krait snakes and other deleterious wildlife that seem to pervade these Sims worlds.
Also might I recommend Spherefish's One With Nature mod which is great for homeless challenges as you can go pee in the great outdoors as well as plunk yourself down anywhere in the world to sleep off your exhaustion. Just make sure that you're not so tired that you end up face down in the same place that you've just peed on.
I have to love Spherefish's mods because they definitely bring a good set of new actions to this game and I'm looking forward to seeing just what Spherefish comes up with next.
Each chapter of my legacy so far has been between 23-24 pages in length which means a wordy 17K-19K words per chapter and thus my legacy will probably be quite long with regards to what goes on in each chapter meaning that my screencap taking will be done in bits and pieces. I'm hoping that I can get to the point where they reach third year university by the time this Christmas rolls around. If not University Graduation - I'm hoping that some ideas hit that may make University at least two chapters in itself. Marriage for River and Haruo may not happen till NEXT year...let alone kids.
Legacies are a lot of work (thank you, Captain Obvious) and since I tend to be garrulous when it comes to writing - perhaps I need to trim a few adjectives and descriptive nouns and adverbs from my writing...or maybe not.
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hi! May I ask u if you watch kdramas and if u have any favs? I honestly love reading your thoughts on games/series so I was really curious. Hope u have a great day💕
hi hi! yes i do! mostly on netflix and not a whole lot bc kdramas are a hefty investment and im a creature of habit who rewatches my old shows until im sick and desensitized 😌 no particular order here…
crash landing on you: baby’s first kdrama during the pandemic that really started it all for me and my mom. which made me appreciate it less as a show and more as a great bonding experience as she swoons over hyun bin and i swoon over son ye jin. im in the minority who likes the ending. it was a nice realistic touch that grounded the usual third act melodrama level of heightened emotions in kdramas
it’s okay to not be okay: idk what else hasn’t been said but the style, the artistry, the performances, the soundtrack, the family dynamics, how well the fairy tales serve as a thematic basis for each episode 👌👌👌 i love love the individual character developments more than the romance. sometimes they infantilized the heroine at the second half but she’s still one of my favorite kdrama characters
vincenzo: i can take or leave the romance but regardless the leads’ “this is my worse half” dynamic makes the show. their rapport w their plaza neighbors is also hilarious. vincenzo as a character is fun but too cool for me to be attached. cha young though belongs to my list of favorite kdrama characters (you can see a common theme here that im partial to female characters who are assertive w varying levels of unhinged and/or moral grayness)
her private life: fake dating’s not my absolute favorite but no one has topped the chemistry of these actors. the first time they kissed i felt like i needed to turn off the tv to give them privacy lmao what really sells their relationship is how obviously they’re delighted by each other, how they establish intimacy based on their work, and the fact that he loves fangirling over her fangirling. i wasn’t a fan of the third act twist but they still reign as the best romance here
age of youth: technically my first kdrama (i just didn’t finish the second season) and i invested heavily into the narrative when i watched as a college student. i can take or leave the romances but the friend group is unmatched and the only reason to watch. season one >>>> season two all the way
run on: the second couple are EVERYTHING. i didn’t fully appreciate during my first watch until i finished and learned that this kind of slice of life, slow paced and character-driven stuff is my vibe exactly. any time im doing chores i pull up a random ep in the bg bc it feels like im just casually doing parallel play w a friend
hotel del luna: love the premise, love the ending except for the very last moment, didn’t love the romance or the hero necessarily, but i love the heroine so much i couldn’t leave it out. her backstory and relationship with the not!second lead compelled me to finish and tbh they’re the emotional core of the whole thing
my liberation notes: my friend calls this a depression simulator kdrama 😂 but this had as much heart as a ghibli film to me. best part was the ensemble who had very real flaws and emotional relatability supported by a script w depth more human than pretentious. this rly was a show that you had to earn but when you did, it was well worth it
hometown cha cha cha: small town slice of life basically the ultimate comfort food kdrama 💖 save for like two eps each one hits so well. has the second best romance and the best ensemble here although it does dip too much in sentimentality for my taste at times. but it wouldn’t be what it is without it
special mention to cheese in the trap…which i didn’t finish lol so i can’t speak on the quality of that but lil closelyknit lore facts the webtoon it was based on featured in my blog for a good number of tumblr years some time ago
#tumblr year = length of a main fandom phase#reply.#anon.#notes.#any other kdrama ive mentioned and recommended on this blog i probably didn’t include bc i haven’t finished it yet
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about me ||
hi there! you can call me Yama 😇
i’ve been roleplaying on and off for about 10 years or so, but am just recently getting back into the swing of things after a long hiatus. same with anime, so please bear with me as i catch up haha.
i started writing fanfics earlier this year also on my other blog @sweetanidreams, which began as SWSH inspired but my interests have quickly expanded to include Jujutsu Kaisen and Demon Slayer bc i recently finished both — and they each respectively have me in a chokehold.
storytelling has always had my heart, so finding my way back to writing in recent times has been super impactful.
anyway, here are my highlights:
— length: i can write anywhere from para to multi-para or semi to literate, however you want to put it – but i’m not going to be too picky about writing being consistently the same length as long as there’s something to work with!
— perspective: always third person; past tense
— themes: almost anything honestly? action/adventure, angst, hurt/comfort, slow burn romance (i’m a sap for it), slice of life, smut, etc.
> no’s: heavy battle RP, dark dark topics, and the usual cringe
— pairings: i’m pretty open to most MxM and MxF ships, with my preference being to write the female in the latter.
also nothing against FxF either i promise, just not my strong suit!
— ooc: let’s be friends! ooc chatter, headcanons, enabling each other’s brainrot – whatever, i’m in. i find RP tends to flow so much better when there’s more of a familiarity between the writers so pls gush all you want.
and… i think that’s it? lmk if you have any other questions, and i can’t wait to start writing some beautiful stories together!!
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Updates Tuesday (fics)
Heya, again!
Good news? My creativity is coming back!
Bad news? Some of my creative bad habits came back with them (story frogging - I'm incapable of focusing on only one story until it's completion for I am a story frog and must hop about from wip to wip at my whim)
So ... Let's break this down by story:
Supernatural Romance
I can't recall if I shared this last week (and I am too lazy to search for the post at the moment), but I have what I call my pre outline finished. I know what the Antagonist does in each of the 5 books of the series and I know what the generalized (as in 1 or 2 sentences) plot of each of the five books is. I'm still figuring out who is in each book and this is going slow?
Ok, remember back when I said I love fan fiction? My character creation process relies in part on other people's characters that I adore. (Not the actors that played them, when applicable, but the characters. Seriously, most of the time, the actors aren't even real to me.) I'll pick a "soul claim" and then think, ok, what would that character change if they had this backstory instead? Or this fear? Or this opportunity? I have to do this bc otherwise all my characters are vague copies of myself and each other. I only use characters I feel I know really well, but I don't always use their canon versions.
So, the first book in my series is called"Desert Wolf" for now and I know who the FMC is for this one (Hermione from Harry Potter), but I haven't fully figured out who the MMC is? (Maybe Ranger from the Stephanie Plum books?). The third one is lovingly called "Murder Bot Trash Panda" and will feature a version of Bucky Barnes as the MMC, but I'm still figuring out who the FMC will be. I'm not really sure who anyone else is yet... Also, the outlines are not really fleshed out besides this. And also-also, I had to set the novella aside for now bc my original idea doesn't fit there anymore. So, .... Yeah, I find myself avoiding these stories a lot because they feel like trying to find your way through a new friend's house in the dark. Like you know you're welcome there, but you still feel like a guest and you don't know where anything is.
Sanguine
I've only posted the first post/chapter of this on my side blog last week, and I'm planning to write alternating POVs, for the moment. Honestly, the story began as self indulgent, self insert Pitch Black fanfic, but I feel like it's firmly in my Supernatural Romance universe now. It's still for fun and self indulgence, though, so I'm not too worried with where it will fit with the other stories.
Anyone interested in this one should be aware that it will be based on a few of my fantasies, it will be spicy, and it will not depict healthy relationships or decisions. (nothing i would consider abuse, but some situations definitely in what I consider the "grey area") I'll be sure to tag as I post.
Scrawling Your Name On My Skin
This is another fic that won't feature the healthiest of relationships, but the characters will work on that as the story goes. This is a Hobbit AU fanfic that starts as a one sided Nori/Dwalin fic but will probably end up as an ot3 Dis/Nori/Dwalin. I'm not planning on anything too spicy, or at least not for a long while.
In the first fic, You're The One, Nori is the equivalent of 15 years old or so, and Dwalin is somewhere around 20 years old. There will be strong YA vibes, especially at first, and it will feature well intentioned obsession that gets called out as BS when those older and wiser realize what's happening.
Supers
This is a brand new one, as in still just vibes that I've found over the past week or so. I have some prompts that mesh well together, but i also have an older "mostly vibes" story that I could integrate with the prompts? Maybe?
The short version is that this universe has soul matches, which is someone who will majorly affect your life. Most people have only one, some will have multiple. A soul match might end up being romantic and/or sexual, but it certainly doesn't have to be. There's plenty of soul matches who can't stand each other - but each is the person who will affect the course of the life of the other one the most. Sometimes soul matches aren't reciprocated, too.
Anyways, this world also has some folks who have super powers, because why not?
The story is something along the lines of a young aspiring hero comes to the Big City to find a job and join the Hero's League, but ends up being the soul match of the most powerful (but not necessarily most well known) villain of the city. Hijinks ensue.
I have absolutely nothing written on this yet, but it's fun to play with the ideas.
Old Hobbit Retelling & Old Pitch Black Cross over
That's not what they're called, but that's what I'm calling them here, for now. These are two old fanfics, each of them sizable. I wrote them under a different handle, one of them was only posted in AO3, but the other was posted on here and AO3.
I've been feeling the urge to write on these, too, but... I'm not sure I could simply pick up where I left off? Like, I feel like I'd need to go back and potentialy rewrite the stories, which wouldn't be bad, but the Hobbit Retelling I'm thinking of changing up so I can treat it like original fic (which, there's enough that's different that once I change the names of people and places it won't be a problem), but it's HUGE and ... I don't know if I should?
They're both familiar and comfortable, but I don't know if I should go back to them.
I might just have to hold that thought in my head for a while until I figure out what to do with it.
And... Yeah, that about sums it up. Lots of ideas, not much progress this week. But now you know who all has been living rent free in my head, right?
Another progress report next week, hopefully with more progress!
If you're interested in reading anything I've got posted so far, THIS is the link to the master post on my fics sideblog, which I will keep updated as I continue to post.
Questions and comments welcome. I'll post again tomorrow, but you take care of yourself until then, ok?
(also, sorry for the weird song placement, i do most posting on my phone and my gremlin makes sure to keep the process interesting for me)
#jadeglas#updates Tuesday#writblr#oc#but also#fanfic#they're on my side blog#glasscribbles#story frogging#it's a thing#Spotify
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KENMA bc I been thinkin about him a lot lately!!!!!
u got it ley
18+ MINORS AND AGELESS BLOGS DO NOT INTERACT
tags: fingering, exhibitionism, public sex, sugar daddy kenma, daddy kink
word count: 511
"You're being noisy."
Kenma's right and you know it, but in your own defence it's entirely his fault.
Your hands grapple against the wallpaper in front of your face uselessly, your freshly painted nails leaving little red tracks of polish in their wake as you scrape them against the paper. The marks aren't particularly noticeable, the fine lines of crimson lost in the sumptuous swirl of the floral pattern: you can only see it because your face is so close, your cheek pressed against the wall of the expensive boutique's fitting room as Kenma crooks his fingers inside of you cruelly, your arousal dripping all the way down to his wrist.
You whimper again.
"It's almost like you want to get caught, you know."
You don't.
You aren't even sure how you ended up like this, if you were being honest. This was supposed to be an unremarkable afternoon shopping trip to find Kenma something to wear to a formal event he had coming up, but it had somehow devolved into this: being fucked open by Kenma's unfairly agile fingers in the dressing room of a store you couldn't dream of being able to afford to shop at yourself, wearing a dress more expensive than a month's worth of your own salary--though presently it's rucked up around your waist, Kenma pinning it up with the hand not busy between your twitching thighs.
'I'll buy it for you,' Kenma had said, only a few minutes earlier, sprawled across the chaise in the centre of the fitting room area while you examined the garment the salesperson had just presented you with. You'd looked at Kenma curiously when it was handed to you, only to find him smirking from his seat. You'd made every attempt to decline the offer, but he was insistent--a thank you, he'd said, for accompanying him out for the day. The dress was beautiful, finer than any you'd ever hoped to own, and he'd clearly seen you eying it wistfully as the two of you had been perusing around the shop. As though sensing your imminent agreement, he tacked on a single stipulation to the deal: 'But only if you try it on for me.'
"Is that what you want?" Kenma rasps, referencing his earlier accusation and pressing a little closer so he's whispering in your ear. "Do you want that nice attendant who picked this pretty dress out for you to see you in here like this?"
You shake your head weakly, tears prickling in your eyes. You're so close to coming undone that you can taste it, can feel the knot that's pulled unbearably taught in your tummy. Your hips rut back unconsciously against Kenma's hand, and he chuckles--his breath ghosting hot against the shell of your flushing ear. His pace endures: still infuriatingly slow and measured, never changing.
"Then what do you want?"
"Wanna cum," you say, the words strained and weak as you fight to choke back the moan you feel sitting in the back of your too-tight throat.
Kenma chuckles as he presses a fleeting kiss to the curve of your shoulder, his nose brushing softly along your throat as his lips trail back up to your ear.
"You know that's now how this works."
You tremble. At his nearness, at the thought of being caught, at the way you can hear how wet you are as Kenma forces a third finger inside of you to stuff you full, and at his words.
"Please,--" you whimper, your head dropping so your forehead rests against the fittingroom wall, the floral pattern swimming as tears pool in your eyes, "--can I cum, Daddy?"
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