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More Panel redraws, we are getting closer to the more recent chapters here. This is a wild ride. And this time I am more satisfied with the overall drawings, somehow the week prior noses weren't my friends but the flow is back, I'm glad!

#dgm #d.gray-man #fanart #traditional art #allen walker #mana d campbell #Timcampy #Howard Link #bookman jr

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My fav Doll and then ..... a thing happened.

A very ... different Hobby Meta Blog Entry.

So after drowning myself in another doll project (aka I went and finished Kanda within 2 days, but that's for another day OTL) I am now ready to tackle this blog entry, I had another one started but I want this one to go online first as I need it to sort my thoughts. Hopefully the one after this will go into the depth of the appeal of Fandolls for me in general.

This Entry contains spoilers regarding D.Gray-man Ch. 251, I will try to avoid them as much as possible but I can tell it's not 100% possible as this entry addresses my fandoll/creative projects regarding a character here.

Warning to be told, here is the entry, yes we have drawings this time because I cope with being creative the best.

You might now I am super into D.Gray-man after my horrible Doll & OC Burnout in 2021, the series got me back into almost all my creative hobbies from Dolls, to drawing, to Cosplay and writing. I especially fell for the very vague idea of Allen's former life and built up a huge part of my Epos 'Warmth' (640k words including the Outtakes I never published) around my Head Canons and I made a doll variant for him and love my image of the character dearly. I knew the day would come that a lot of my HCs would be null and void but ...

CH. 251 and it's relevation that the character is not even existent and the one we thought Allen was was not him but someone else hit me ... hard. So in short we have Allen's former life and a secondary character now.

Which resulted in the fact that the Bookfair was most likely the last time for me cosplaying this specific character and my fic was crumbling away,

..... not to mention the fics I had started last year and now will most likely never finish.

It kinda washed over me like someone 'killed' the character out of nowhere. I know it's silly to get attached to a character this way, but writing about him helped me so much the past two years and I had never imagined that we all were so so wrong about everything.

This brought me to the point that it doesn't make sense to even imagine any photo ideas with the doll variant anymore.

The doll is my very fave among my D.Gray-man dolls, I love the face up, the waistcoat is the best I ever made, the wig is the most beautiful with the most luxurious fiber and the doll was a birthday present to myself. So the outlook that keep holding onto a character that is [nothing] bummed be out to put it into nice words.

I tried to drown the void that was left with drawing, everything that was somehow not related to him, I tried to forbid myself working on the current chapter of 'Warmth' as I felt like I would chop it off just because I was feeling down, which the whole work doesn't deserve.

(Hint: I wrote still, it was just a few sentences but I did).

I drew the new characters and put some thoughts into a blog entry. But I was still not sure what to do. Sure, getting more dolls was a thing I could to to give the both characters a place because yes of course they crawled into my heart and they are like the one character I love so dearly split in half.

I just knew I love my fic and that I want to give it the best ending I can come up with. There is a few things I can add to reference the series and some changes, not all bit tidbits here and there. The lore we got is also fitting to a current big part of the plot that hit me just yesterday ... aka there is trouble with one Clan and it causes confusion and pain and takes over 3 of the aftermath chapters, which is... a lot. I can deepen that, make it less vague.

And yeah I accepted the fact that I can always have more Cosplay Projects and plans and even new HCs and fic ideas, even when the small ones never get a true chance to be worked on again. Overall I am glad I had the opportunity to wear the cosplay one last time for the bookfair.

Overall I gained two more characters to fuss about, even when one is now only a "fanon" character.

But as you might see... there came another problem.

With the fandolls prior I changed the one doll I had to fit the new designs or outfits, new canon changes. I did that with Kaneki for example.

But this time it's ... different. As the doll I have still fits the AU I have created and I have other dolls from that AU, like tiny Allen Campbell, Abigail and Darjeeling, I am even working on my 'healed' variant of the Millennium Earl aka it would make sense to keep the doll as it is.

I also could just take it and remake it into the new revealed design and scrap it, it would save me the money to get another doll and just work with what I have. But I'm like... not only attached to the doll but ... to the whole custom. Like said the wig is one of my favorite works, I can vividly remember how I worked on it bc it's custom dyed suri Alpacca and took forever to make. I could, however, give the wig to the new character but we won't get a color reference of them that soon, and I ... doubt the color would be fitting. I want to use the wig.

I'm torn about this, i know no one rushes me upon the decision what to do, I can keep the doll, I can change it. I have over 200k words of story and lore about this AU variant... aka now more an OC than everything else ... he deserves a doll. Heck, majority of my OCs (I'm lying all, all of my OCs) have less lore and less written words.

So yeah, I have drowned myself into working on Kanda last weekend as I have been completely all over the place since the reveal it truly hit me hard because there is so many projects connected to that character I have no idea where to start.

#blog #ally #venting #hobby meta

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Weekly Photo 18/2024

Mana had a younger brother ...

.... Nea fought for Mana.

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I really hope we get some more details about these two one day. I imagine that Nea truly fought for Mana because one of them had to be strong as Mana was 'sick' for so long, Nea had no choice to overtake, to protect his brother.

#dgm #d.gray-man #nea d campbell #mana d campbell #bjd #ball jointed doll #withdoll #john #poupées de cirque #mana #nea

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Out for adventures together.

I like their dynamics and I am glad I have Bookman as well, I mean, yes, Lavi is cool but there has to be a Bookman as counterpart.

... I made a second small hammer for Lavi only for this photoshoot, because I like the idea of the dolls having different options.

#dgm #d.gray-man #lavi #bookman #bjd #ball jointed doll #the broken maiden #lunl #ling tai studio #zhu long #poupées de cirque

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An idea I needed to doodle, one day I want to make a big colored illustration with Allen's different stages of life.

Also... starting with the 200s chapters here :') still way to go.

#dgm #d.gray-man #allen walker #kanda yuu #fanart #alma karma #apocryphos

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One day it will be their last battle...

but not today.

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I had to split this photoshooting into two parts it was so hard to narrow down the photos but it got too long. Allen's battle head was the right choice for this special location.

#dgm #d.gray-man #allen walker #dgrayman #bjd #ball jointed doll #withdoll #ian #poupées de cirque #allen

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Boxopening - ImdollDoll Susu Head

Big shoutout to @izasbjdphoto for splitting her order with me, she bought the whole doll and I was able to take over the head.

This will be the head for my Level 4 Akuma doll. The body is ordered but Coral Reef has a quite long waiting time, so.. don't expect progress on this in the next 5-6 months :')

#bjd #ball jointed doll #impldoll #susu #boxopening #wip #level 4 #poupées de cirque

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Just reblogging this here for the art. I needed to get this out. A blog entry about the Doll Dilemma here to follow once I am through with digesting things (yep I started it but I need more time for it).

As I just hate it to sit on my hands regardings this... I vented on twitter already but here are a few thoughts on the current chapter (251).

Spoilers ahead, I only use old panels if referencing to something. Also i can't read japanese I only got bits here and there and I'm waiting on my copy from animate to get crushed by the chapter irl.

First of all I just came back to this panel not even 2 weeks ago as I was redrawing panels and I only then noticed this is Bookman. I was certain it is our Bookman but right now I am not sure if its truly him or someone else (but I am sure it's someone from Zeugle/Zoogle however you spell it, I would favor "Zeugle" btw as "Zeuge" is "Witness" in german, that would kinda make sense with the role of the clan in the history).

As we learn past!Allen and Bookman Jr. aren't the same person, nope. And the coat here is super similar to the one Bookman Jr. wears it even could be him just with beard, though I doubt that somehow.

What I am sure about is that we all fell for the fact we all tought the person in the flashback panels is ... past!Allen and we all thought the guy with the glasses is him. But it was Bookman Jr. all along. All the HCs we (and I mean ME) had are null and void as surprise surpise our PastA boy is someone completely different. I don't think the person asking Nea to use him is Allen. It's Junior.

Why? Because there are two key scenes Allen can remember and it's these two (both Volume 27) :

Being hold by someone who clearly 'loved' or 'cared' for him. With the current knowledge this is Allen who is embraced by Junior.

Then the second memory he still has is this one:

Which is Nea asking him what's his name is.

These are the true key elements from Allen's past with Nea/Junior we got until now, if I didn't miss a moment; as the other are clearly Junior/Nea and not Past!Allen/Nea.

To be honest I think by now that Past!Allen was indeed a random street rat with no manners, no future and nobody whom cared for him, exactly the person Mother described as she asked Cross if he would have prefered someone like that over the child he had found as host. Nea most likely found him and kind of befriended him ..? Something between them happened that Allen decided "Yes I want to host your memories" and I stay with my HC that pastA shared the same mindset as Red: he's nothing worth and better off dead/aka if his life can be of use he would go for it and if that means offering himself to keep Nea alive somehow then it's that.

And the scene between Junior/Allen .. I think it's Junior trying to protect Allen from Aprocryphos. I suspect it was him who killed Junior ... at one point he got Allen and infused him with Innocence. I think with the emotions Red still felt back then/the fact Allen remembers this as one of his ealiest memories means that he had a bond with Junior, something quite deep. There still could be the possibility that Allen forgot everything by himself because he was in denial, Amnesia after traumatic events is a thing... though we know Apocryphos likes to mess with memories.

Another thing: I don't think Bookman Jr. is Cross. Yes, Cross' mask has the same marking as Junior's scar, but why should the Bookman say the body was never to be found because ... the current Bookman knows Cross and he would have recognized his old apprentice, why should the Noah reference that and why should Bookman react to that at all? Sweating like they got his weak point as they target Lavi? And Cross would have known Allen as they have traveled together, at least partially. Also the others from Zeugle clearly implied that they were rescued last minute by Lavi being born, Cross is pretty much alive (or is he...? ) and their blood bond would have told them.

A very wild theory that came to my mind is that past!Junior = Lavi. Apocryphos fucked up Allen, why not Junior as well? Could be that - whatever happened - BOTH were regressed. I mean we don't know what's under Lavi's eyepatch and we know Bookman have a thing going on with blood/being related to each other. (Heck Lucia looks like Junior with a Haircut but she also looks similar to Allen ???)

I could be wrong with everything and I usually don't share any theories but damn I have so much about this in my head and I have to digest the fact we didn't get a crumb right about pastA not even what he looked like and my whole ass epos fic and the character I built up is just 100% wrong and urgh. I had started on two more fics last year I will completely scrap. Not to mention the Cosplay and the Fandoll I made of him... sigh, I don't think I will continue doing the Fanon Variant as Cosplay, about the doll... he's still a Character in my AU and he is my absolute fav among the dolls, it hurts my soul. I feel like my non existent fave got killed off.

This is more vent than anything else, just ignore me.

If you read this far, here is the two sketches I did yesterday after trying to digest the first impression:

Partially done without reference and during a super messed up day.

So eh. Do with this whatever you want I don't actually expect someone to even read this. I'm not truly in for discussing stuff I just want to scream into the void.

#bookman jr #allen walker #my art #fanart #past!allen

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WiP - Crown Clown Cosplay - Painting the mask

Sculpting work was done by now ... up to one part I really like: painting the whole thing!

After the whole progress being indredible frustrating in before painting the mask was pure joy as the clay foam took the acrylic paint without issues! In the first pic I already had applied a layer of white paint. I added the blue next and then went on with the adhesive for the metal parts.

Gold applied :D and added white paint with shimmer. The gold leaf doesn't stay as shiny when you gloss it but it's a used look I really like and I think its fitting for the mask.

So here it is! The finished mask. I reshaped it a bit as I was done with the color.

Compared to the mask I made for doll Allen back in the day :')

I learned a lot (again) and I will have to add some magnets but that's not much effort, consider it done by 17/02/24.

#wip #cosplay #crown clown #mask making #dgm #dgrayman #d.gray-man

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Happy Chapter release day, Chapter 251 is released today in Japan.

Please consider supporting the series by buying the Magazine <3

#dgm #d.gray-man #allen walker #mana walker #fanart

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Double Box Opening - Gem of Doll Body & DollyZone Body

Here they are, it was a bit hard to get hold of the parcels as my street isn't reachable rn due a construction site and I had to reroute the parcel to my coworker as FedEx failed to deliver yesterday.

But she brought the parcels with her today and I was able to unbox and turn Kanda and Maple into full dolls.

Finally. Kanda's head arrived in December 2022... it was about time. But the body is really wonderful, I only knew the YoSD bodies from Gem of Doll but the MSD body seems to be equally sturdy and I like the scales of the dolls next to each other.

The DollyZone is just so adorable. I will need some research to figure out what kind of shoes she can wear (my guess would be Blythe sized?), we will see =)

Both need clothes sewn. Kanda has.. boots at least.

#bjd #ball jointed doll #gem of doll #dollyzone #boxopening #poupées de cirque #maple #kanda

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Feature for Darjeeling <3 Mom borrowed me her fancy old can for the pics ;w; I have fancy cups and dishes but no ... can.

Darjeeling truly is a very cute doll, I would love to take photo with her at a real tea party, bet that would look amazing.

#bjd #ball jointed doll #abingbing #empty #poupées de cirque #darjeeling

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Actually I kinda had that happen?

I made a doll of Kaneki (Tokyo Ghoul) with a head from Immortality of Soul. And IOS released a Kaneki Doll (official release) a bit later on but I didn't buy it. It looked like the character yes, but it was lacking the personality and my vision of the character. It's more like... a more expensive collectors figure and less like a personal doll project for me.

Mine:

just some photos I did more ofc

IOS Release:

I think you can see the difference. It's different outfits (I'm too lazy to dig up that specific outfit without any additions) but the same character. Especially the mask they included threw me off as it's out of scale for the doll's face.

Genuine question: assuming money is no object, if your favorite doll company made a doll of your absolute FAVORITE character, would you want to buy it because of the character alone?

(This doesn't include original characters created by the same company like a monster high draculaura being made by mattel)

For me, I don't think I would if I didn't also find the doll pretty and accurate to their appearance, but then again none of my fav characters have gotten dolls made of them. I know this is a big point of contention for Dollfie Dream fans feeling like the dolls don't resemble their favs at all, like Frieren and Miku.

Alternatively, would you be willing to buy a doll of a character that you don't know, or even dislike, if you thought it looked good?

I'm interested in seeing what other people think, so feel free to tag or relpy!

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Weekly Photo 17/2024

A long hard battle upon Allen... this time this might be one of the hardest.

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Allen got the honor to be featured at this photospot again, this is where our local Easterfire was burned down, the ashes were still hot, partially burning. No location is more fitting than this one, the ashes of everything that was, destroyed by the flame, by the war... and the Earl arrived.

#dgm #d.gray-man #allen walker #millennium earl #dgrayman #bjd #ball jointed doll #withdoll #ian #earl #poupées de cirque

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Happy Birthday, Hoshino-sensei <3

Take some time to thank this wonderful artist for keep on walking for us to read her story. I can't thank her enough. The series inspires me so much and helped me in the past years more in my teens and creating a bit of fanart is the only way (aside buying the Magazine and Manga) I can do.

#dgm #d.gray-man #allen walker #fanart #traditional art

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WiP - Big Timcampy Plush

After a very frustrating other project (aka the Crown Clown Mask/Glove issue) I decided I wanted to do something for the soul and cut out parts for the big Tim plush.

At first it went quite okay, a bit of trouble when turning parts but that was it.

Until I stuffed the body and it was just... the complete wrong shape. More like a Pumpkin. I tried to fix it but it got worse and worse... until I decided "fuck it" and stuffed the whole thing in a bag and went to bed.

Next day I fixed the shape a bit, it's still not as round as I would have liked but okay enough to continue.

Adding details here.

Tim. And Tim. And Tim. The Tim-Tower.

He's not as perfect as the official one but cuddly and still friend shaped.

#dgm #d.gray-man #timcampy #sewing #plush #plushy #wip

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Bookfair.

Whatever we will learn in the future we all currently agree past!Allen loves to read and inhales books, right? Therefore perfect for him.

My plan was to revisit that convention bookstore for Good Omens (Ein gutes Omen) but somehow I didn't manage, the time passed too fast.

photos by @adragonstale :3

#dgm #d.gray-man #allen walker #past!allen walker #cosplay