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rearranging-deck-chairs · 1 year

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imagining an alternate eotd where when asked about her confusing gay crush under threat of daleks one neuron in yazs brain fired differently and instead of going with "i dont know what you mean" she said "yes". same but opposite energy of when the doctor asks if shes a bad date and yaz super boldly just says "no". same but opposite.

because like imagine youre dan. he probably already had a good guess about what the situation was but his assumption being wrong is not out of the realm of possibilities. the idea that they could have talked about is not out of the realm of possibilities! if youre dan! if you just got here. if you didnt see all of s12.

like just imagine that scene! yaz just baldfaced lying as a way to like, bounce the idea off of him plus double duty to affirm her own beliefs that like the doctor never would plus triple duty paralleling 11x4 for 13 to ensure dan is never gonna ask about this again.

and WE'D KNOW. WE'D FUCKING KNOW. it'd be such a doctor move.

"have you ever told her?" "told her what?" "how you feel about her" "...yes." "well what did she say?" "i think you can guess" yaz snaps because she thinks she can. she has guessed or assumed or sort of correctly inferred a while ago that like, nothing is going to happen here, theres no point in her saying anything because the doctor isnt interested. and dan is like "i find her kind of hard to judge actually" because he still wants to hear an actual answer from yaz but yaz just laughs and goes "tell me about it" and then shes saved by a dalek.

of course we still want dan forcing their hand but thats easy to arrange by instead of him going all battering ram with "she likes you" in the next scene he just has to mention it. and i dont really know how he'd mention it because im not really sure how this would look to him.

so particulars to be determined but he does mention it In Some Way and now theres the doctor in a situation yaz indirectly accidentally put her in where shes suddenly having a Lot to process and also shes gonna lie about :) shes gonna lie about it so hard :)

maybe dan's guess is that whatever the doctor said was less-than-definitive ie vague as fuck because hes known her for like a week and has already seen how good she is at explaining herself and also because of yazs bitter "tell me about it" so maybe what he says is like "you better not be stringing her along"

and the doctor, in her perfectly inscrutable grey area between true What The Fuck Are The Humans Talking About This Time and a carefully crafted mask of obliviousness, goes "string her along what"

"i just mean that you gotta make sure your intentions are clear because it's really not fair to keep her guessing, and hoping"

and the doctor says "i dont understand what youre saying dan" because she really doesnt <3

and dan can still say his canon line "i think that you do, but you pretend that you dont" and in this case hes wrong, but he still hits the mark, wrong calculation right answer because the doctor is still like Fuck.

because she does know, of course. she does know about yaz and shes knows about herself and she knows what shes avoiding. and she will still do the same thing in sea devils. and this weird little lie yaz told will probably never come out. the doctor and her talk, dan isnt there, never sees how New this all is. the doctor has no reason to find out what yaz said to dan.

but we know. we know!!! we get to see this whole comedy of errors play out and still somehow arrive at the same answer. we have to live with how clearly none of them correctly assume each other's understanding of the situation. it'd be frustrating as fuck and such a nice encapsulation of what thasmin has been since the beginning. these half-communications that bounce off each other kind of painfully like billiard balls.

they would never find out. sea devils and potd play out exactly as they did and nobody would ever know. except us. it's a portrait of their shared fatal flaw finally laid out for us in broad daylight at the exact moment they come together. and only we can see it.

#thasmin #rewrite notes #now that ive imagined it i like this more than canon fhkjghjkg #it adds something and takes nothing away #and also it doesnt give dan like. perfect insight #bc like. idk i just like it if their neuroses are like all so tangled up together that they cant really see it #but also theyre right?#like theyre not right but like. both 13 and yazs choices in their relationship make total sense!!#it's not like oh haha they cant talk to each other lesbian sheep syndrome it's #a fucking tragedy #the decisions theyve made the ways theyve responded to circumstances and each other make sense you can totally see the reasoning #you can see how they got here #like this accidental hole they dug #and it's BECAUSE of this shared flaw of Im Just Gonna Keep It All Right Here In My Chest And Then One Day I Die #anyway #not that dan just like. intuiting the situation and moving it along Necessarily implies all that #just that i like it more when he Cant actually intuit the entirety of whats going on here bc it's like 5 years of Complicated #in so many ways #so he still moves things along but his assumptions are wrong and he gets lied to by yaz just as hard!#you know!#bc yaz is the doctor and the doctor lies and hes his companion so. she lies to him

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pinkliker69 · 1 year

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ranwan office au drabble, but it's got - mo twins concept but mwy is mr's older brother, which is fun - doubleteam endgame - mr and cwn catfighting for an oblivious cwn

i cant stop thinking abt txj + cwn + mr but in an office setting where txj is the ceo, cwn is a manager and mr is cwn’s subordinate, and mr+txj are brothers catfighting for cwn’s attention ^q^ txj (mo weiyu) here very much has history w cwn, they probably were schoolmates and cwn thinks he hates him still but txj is just a moment away from proposing to him at any given second!!! (this is going off how he’s like 32 when he dies in ch1 so HEHHE. thank u trip for the brainworm)

mr is mwy’s little brother who he gave a job in his company bc their uncle xzy told him to be nice for once 🙄 and mwy was like fine 🙄 but mr has been doing well and ends up cwn’s subordinate WHICH MAKES MWY SOO BITTER LMFAO

mwy would be such a condescending older brother lol but he’s probably bragged to mr abt the hot guy hes pursuing (cwn) so mr now can shoot back that HES the one cwn spends all his time with since they work together :) which mwy is SO jealous of lol.

mwy also tried to offer cwn a promotion to be his secretary so he can have him around him at all times but cwn rejected him incredulously bc “absolutely not???? im overqualified for that what nonsense are you spouting” so hes still pissed he doesnt get to usually see cwn cuz cwn isnt in the board of directors and just a lower rung manager.

so mwy will go down to the floor cwn and mr work at as a barely disguised way to be around him more, but it mostly results in him and mr making faces at each other and bickering and fighting to get cwn pastries from the break room.

the rest of the workers are absolutely ????? at how NOT intimidating their scary ceo mwy is on their floor and get used to seeing him scolded by cwn to stop disturbing them and sulking in a corner with metaphorical dog ears drooping.

meanwhile mr is cwn’s super eager subordinate, think smth like 0.25 mr who thinks cwn is super cool and pretty and loves him totally 💗 and he keeps trying to ask out cwn and get his attention but cwn always thinks its just for work (which mr finds super cute… hes right)

cwn on the other hand 💗💗💗 he was into mwy when they were students but mwy hated his guts (think 0.5-1.0 mo ran) and was always quite mean to him bc he was so cold towards him (to cover up his crush) and they had a lot of friction so he still thinks mwy hates him now… lmfao.

cwn always admired mwy’s natural charisma and confidence so when he found out he was the ceo of the company he ended up working at (that xzy recommended) he was like.. Oh… well that checks out tbh.

what he didnt expect tho was for mwy to come down to his office so often…??? and always ask him things??? so cwn thought mwy was trying to size him up and catch him being bad at his job/ distracted and use it to fire him so he would often ignore mwy (much to mwy’s chagrin)

and then in comes mr… cwn’s crush’s younger brother who looks just like him and who’s so nice to him and respectful, it makes his heart flutter 😭 cue cwn’s self loathing for being so greedy and shameful he starts to like them BOTH ‼️

(BTW for the ages.. im not sure abt the exacts but mwy and cwn are like the same age at their early thirties ig (31? 32?) and are bachelors. and mr is like, somewhere in his twenties lol. i havent rly decided. but hes not like intern-level, hes a fulltimer. also i have NOT decided abt their family situation and how dyh and (spoiler) managed to fuck twice so she has both mwy and mr at different times... but dont worry abt it hahaha... i just want older brother mwy and younger brother mr catfighting)

mwy and mr eventually relent and confess to cwn together and are like “who do u choose!!!!” and cwn gets so flustered and disbelieving he just runs away lol.

mo bros take it as a rejection and are very dejected and go off to drink together, but there they also find cwn 👀 who is also getting drunk bc hes so confused and just wanted to not think for the night, and they try to take him home but hes like NO!!! I can get home myself!!!! while slurring his words and stumbling over his feet.

txj who has been to drinking events w him and has seen how totally stonefaced he continues to be even after several bottles is kinda amazed at the sight. “so this is what drunk wanning looks like.. hes kinda cute..”

out of concern tho they take him home tgt (to keep an eye on e/o so nothing happens between cwn and the other LMAOO) and idk where to go from here too much but maybe cwn thinks theyre figments of his imagination and confesses that he likes them both and doesnt know what to do.

the two of them r like ‼️ u know what. if we can get cwn so cute and it makes him happy. we can share. meanwhile cwn passes out on his bed and the two of them, despite wanting to try and sleep in his bed too, have to relent to the couch bc the bed is too full for either of them 🤣

i actually have some ideas for if the night ends in something steamier tho but im not sure 😭 maybe that can happen too idk.. but itd be smth where cwn ends up sleeping w them cuz he thinks theyre made up anyway and wakes up to them on either side of him like. What the fuck

actually wait yeah ill go w that instead tho the idea of them relegating e/o to the couch is still very funny LOL.. but cwn wakes up and sees them to their horror and kicks them out immediately and theyre like 🥺🥺🥺 not even a thanks for getting u home safe? wanning? chu-ge?

(if they had gone on the couch though, they 100% kicked each other down because its too small for both of them, stacked as they are)

#2ha #ranwan #mo twins #chu wanning #mo ran #office au #au drabble #yuepost

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extremelyblackandwhite · 2 years

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can you write something where maybe steve and yn are attending one of daisy's math competitions and maybe someone is mean to her and her boyfriend defends her and then steve finally sorta gives in and sees that maybe her boyfriend isnt as bad as he thought?

pairing:steve kemp x dark!reader

warnings: 18+ (under 18 year olds do NOT interact/reader)

part of toxic

Steve used to think that life was easy with seven kids and it truly was until half those children grew into teenagers. In his defense, his first born had done such a perfect job of being the perfect child that he wasn't expecting it when the remaining of his children started to rebel - specially Ivy.

- Ivy, we are all gonna support your sister. We discussed this! - he followed after the fourteen year old back to her bedroom where she was still wearing her pyjamas.

- You go, you’re her dad. - she rolled her eyes. - I don’t want the school to see me support the Math Geek.

- I don’t care, I’m your father and I’ve decided the whole family is going.

- Her boyfriend is gonna be there, dad. He’s a knucklehead and he’s gonna sit next to us so he can ogle the Math Geek.

- Stop calling your sister the Math Geek. Be in the mini van or I swear to God Ivy, no space camp for you.

- GOD! You’re so annoying.

- That’s right.

He went downstairs, victorious he outwitted a child which couldn’t be more similar to him if she tried. Of course the whole family was gonna go support Daisy. He was so proud of her, she’d been accepted to Pre-Med at his Alma Mater pretty much as soon as she applied, she was class valedictorian and now she was competing in her very last Math Leagues. Steve couldn’t be prouder to be her father and he’d be damned if the whole family wasn’t there - even if her shit faced boyfriend was there as well.

Steve did not like Billy the moment he heard his name. He had to admit he’d been happy Daisy had told them and not dated in secret - but he wasn’t particularly happy. She was 17 and Y/N had warned him that Daisy one day would start dating. He just thought it would’ve been when she was in college - but no, now the annoying kid with a birds’ nest for hair was having dinner with them every Friday. He didn’t have to like him, he was dating his little girl.

- Steve. - Y/N put her hand on his shoulder just as they were about to enter the auditory, her other hand holding the baby comfort where Aaron was asleep, thankfully. - Play nice, please.

- Of course, love. I’ll play nice.

- I mean it, Steve. You say anything rude or you try anything funny and I swear you won’t see me naked until she graduates college. Are we clear?

- I love it when you’re bossy and threatening. - he leaned down to kiss her before leading the kids to her seat. His good mood was interrupted as he saw Billy approach them, sitting next to Y/N.

- Hello, Dr. Kemp. - he smiled at his wife. He knew his brain shouldn’t jump to the conclusion that he was flirting with his wife, because he definitely wasn’t. - Other Dr. Kemp.

- Hi William. - he rolled his eyes. - Can you please sit down so I could see my kid? Thank you.

Y/N rolled her eyes, focusing on the stage at the Math league begun. As per usual, their girl made them proud, answering each question with ease - that typical giddy smile not leaving her face. That giddy smile always made him nostalgic, it hadn’t changed one bit since she was a baby. It soon came to an end and that sense of pride was mixed with bittersweetness - the bitter part of this being her last Math league, of him not driving her to band practice or extra classes every day. She was growing up and he was now realising how empty the house was gonna be once she left.

- Rosie, can you watch over Aaron while me and mum go congratulate your sister backstage?

- Sure. Come here, peanut. - Rosie picked up Aaron, cooing at him while Y/N and Steve went backstage.

There were people everywhere - he guessed the school was really into school spirit and after winning yet another championship, they should be proud. As per usual, the two split to find their daughter in the middle of the crowd. Y/N moved to one side while Steve moved to the other; yet as he found her - he wished he hadn’t.

- You guys should totally come to my party tonight. - one of the guys loudly announced.

- I don’t know. - he recognised his daughter’s shy tone. - My mum and dad always take me out to celebrate.

- Wasn’t talking to you, Math Freak.

The boy almost spat those words in her face and that wide smile she had been sporting turned into an apologetic one as she pulled on the hem of her varsity jacket. Steve’s blood boiled - he was gonna give that little prick a piece of his mind. Yet before he could even get closer to them, her boyfriend grabbed the boy by the collar, punching him in the stomach harder enough to drain the boy’s face of any colour. He fell to the ground, pathetically.

- Apologise!

- Sorry, Daisy.

- That’s better, now scram.

The boy couldn’t have gotten away faster and perhaps it’s better that he did before Steve got his hands on him. He approached his daughter and that smile was back again.

- You did so good, Daisy love. - he wrapped her arms around her. - I’m so proud of you.

- Did you watch it?

- Are you kidding? I wouldn’t miss it for the world. My little genius.

- Dad ... - she rolled her eyes, playfully.

- Alright, alright. My very grown up genius, just like dad.

- Should we go find mum? Go get some dinner?

- Uh ... - he couldn’t believe he was actually considering this. He should be going inside. - Daise, do you wanna go have dinner with Billy instead?

- No, dad, it’s okay. I wanna ...

- I don’t mind if you want to have lunch with your boyfriend. - he did mind but that’s not what mattered at the moment. - Besides, you can always have dinner with me and mum ... you can bring the shit hair if you want.

- Dad!

- Okay, okay. Go find your mum and let her know okay.

She nodded her head, putting herself on her tiptoes to kiss her dad’s cheek before running to find her mum.

- William. - he called out. - Next time punch him in the face.

- Yes, Dr. Kemp.

- And take her to a nice restaurant. - he pulled out some money from his wallet handing it to the kid. - She’s home at 5PM. Are we clear?

- Yes, sir, Dr. Kemp.

- Good.

He went after to find his girlfriend while Steve sighed. He guessed he had to start understanding that no matter how much he wanted it not to happen, his daughter was gonna grow up. He shrugged to himself, moving to find his wife who once he did, gave her a funny look.

- Daisy and Billy are going out for lunch. Apparently your suggestion?

- You said play nice.

- Wanna explain why?

- You know our kids. Rose doesn’t really want a boyfriend and I think every single living breathing thing is attracted to the triplets. William looks like me so that’s a plus for him but Daisy ... she’s always been too grown for her own good. She’s done really well but she ... well, Y/N, she never had any sleepovers or was invited to many dinners so I suppose ... I suppose she deserves to be with a guy that likes her. I’d rather it be that shit head than anyone else, I guess.

- Steve Kemp. - she smirked. - How about we leave the kids with their grandparents for a while?

- I told Daisy to be home by 5PM so we can all go to dinner.

- It’s 11AM, Steve. - she walked closer to him, her lips almost touching his ear as she whispered. - You have until 5PM to do whatever you want to do with me.

#steve kemp

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doberbutts · 2 years

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hey, so a lot of the stuff you said about insurance hoops to jump through resonated with me as a UK trans man - the NHS system for medical transition is utter bullshit. off the top of my head - wait 4+ years to see a therapist to diagnose you with gender dysphoria, wait again to see an endocrinologist, be on hormones for minimum 2 years before you can wait AGAIN to get top surgery - im 21, and i will probably be about 30 when i get to where i want to be transitionwise if i start now. lord help you if you’re mentally ill as well, because gender clinics wont accept you if you have active mental health issues and trying to get those treated by the NHS is another load of bollocks on its own. all this to say that i can definitely see where youre coming from with your views on transmedicalism, and how it isnt such a cut and dry issue that many people make it out to be.

Ah yes, I've heard the UK system is very bad which doesn't surprise me considering its current nickname as "TERF island" when it comes to trans healthcare. Good luck to you, as you see I've been in that situation before and it was not great.

It's not to say that I "support" transmeds, I don't like a lot of the deliberate meanness and cruelty I see within transmed circles when they pop up. But I do understand the world they used to live in, the world that produced their ideology, because I lived in that world and I see the frustration for what it is. I just think that bitterness and anger and despair has turned onto the wrong target, instead of making it cis people's fault for gatekeeping us from our own medical decisions and autonomy they've decided it's other trans people's fault, which is not fair to anyone, and the means of which they go about advocating for themselves is. Well. Frankly bad.

We see more transmeds in places that experienced this medical nightmare. I think we're looking at cause and effect.

Only sort of related but there's this lesbian I know whose wife sat on the Supreme Court decision for same sex marriage, she is in her late 40s, and I very starkly remember her texting me one day basically going "what the FUCK is with all these kids calling themselves queer?!?!? don't they KNOW!?!?!" And I think... it's a bit like that. That word isn't nice for her. It's not something she can reclaim. She has only hurt associated with that word, from the world she lived in, a very visibly obvious lesbian living in the rural south of the US. On a surface level, it sounds like the completely batshit "queer is a slur" discourse that happens on this site.

But digging deeper, the difference is that when she had her kneejerk reaction, she reached out to someone closer to that generation and tried to understand. It's difficult for her to accept. I honestly don't think she will ever be comfortable being called queer or attending some even that calls itself queer. At the end of our discussion, she thanked me for explaining, said she understood a little better, but would probably still have no better reaction than punching someone in the mouth if they tried to call her that word. Based on her experiences, yeah, fair. I have a similar reaction to the word "nigger" even though my nephew a generation younger has no problem being called that by his friends.

Maybe I am just naive and I want to see good in everybody. But I think a lot of this at heart is just evidence of people who are hurting and traumatized, taking it out unfairly on the closest targets rather than the actual problem. That's all.

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reirain · 2 years

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I'm Obviously Better—

Carlos Madrigal and Gender Neutral Reader are frenemies

Note: Lots of Carlos slander, I'm sorry. And this is my first Encanto fic. I've written before but I've gotten rusty since then so please bear with me. There isnt much romance here but I'm planning to make a next part.

-Unedited

Warning: None really but reader is very confident, competitive, and sarcastic.

Ever since you've moved into the village of Encanto, Carlos Madrigal has managed to annoy you every time. Well, the first time you went to Casito to greet the Madrigals, he tripped you with his foot while walking to the dinner table. You awkwardly laughed it off with the others but that little incident was enough for you to hold a little grudge towards that Madrigal who has managed to give you an instant bad first impression.

You were able to talk to him when the rest of the family were doing something else. He was leaning on the staircase with his arms folded. The first time you talked to him, he talked to you as if you were some kind of peasant and you sure as hell did not like that. But, he said something that has triggered your side to prove idiots wrong and to mess with them big time.

"Why the hell did you do that?"

"Right, you're new here." You were confused. Did he have some kind of tradition? Does he usually do this?

"Excuse me?"

"I, Carlos Madrigal humiliate and mess with those whom I find annoying," he said it with a small prideful smirk.

"You find me annoying?"

"Uhm, didn't I just say earlier I mess with those who annoy me? So yes. Geez you're quite slow," he rolled his eyes at you.

"Why are you acting as if you're better than me?"

"Because I am."

That. That sentence made you laugh. He did not expect that reaction coming from you.

You found it funny that this scrunny boy found himself better than you. Looking at the way he dresses himself is enough of a statement.

"I can assure that's not true because I don't think someone like you could be better than me," you crossed your arms and cocked your head to the left, lightly mocking him.

He scoffed with a smile. But it wasn't a happy smile. It was an amused and an 'who-does-this-idiot-think-they-are' kind of smile.

Ever since that time, both of you have been in childish competitions like who could finish their chores earlier or who could make it to the Casita faster.

Currently, it's Valentines day. It wasn't really a holiday but many villagers took the time and effort to decorate some stalls and even give those whom the like a gift. Some weren't bothered to do anything at all.

You were walking through the busy streets, trying to get your day started when a boy slightly taller than you blocked your way. You stopped for a moment looking at him in confusion.

"Well, uh, here you go," he handed you a small box of sweets. You smiled. You didn't really know him but getting a gift sure is nice.

"Thanks! You really didn't have to you know," you smiled at him. He smiled back, "It was nothing really. Anyway enjoy those! I'll get going." He waved goodbye and walked away.

"So cheesy," you heard someone mutter loud enough behind you. You turned around to find Carlos leaning against a wall. You rolled your eyes at his statement.

"Bitter much? Or are you jealous?" You asked him with a teasing smile.

"Tch, what? Of him? No wa—" You cut him off.

"What? No not him. I mean me. You're probably jealous of me," you shrugged at him. Carlos walks towards you. You both walk together throught the street.

"Just because you got a gift? I'm not a corny idiot like you."

"Suuure. If it makes you feel better, I'm just like you."

"Gross," he scrunched his nose.

"But more likeable, smarter, more good looking," you added. You looked over to him who stopped. You stopped walking and you raised an eyebrow at Carlos.

"Okay, not true. Especially the last one," he slightly laughed which made you do the same.

While continuing walking down the same street, a girl stopped Carlos. She revealed a gift she was hiding behind her and gave it to the boy beside you. You raised your brows and looked at him to see his reaction.

He was slightly shocked but a small smirk replaced it as he took the gift. "Thanks," he winked at her and it seemed like that girl was about to faint. She quickly nodded and ran off to who knows where.

Carlos raised his gift at you, a smug look on his face, "Well, I got a gift too (Last Name)."

"You sure you didn't threaten the girl into giving you a gift?" He scoffed offendedly by your statement. You knew he didn't. You were just messing with his big head.

But you both knew what this meant. You aren't going to lose and neither is he.

#carlos madrigal #encanto #camilo madrigal #encanto fanfic #carlos x reader #camilo x reader

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bunbun206 · 2 years

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more mlp au ideas bc im thinking of them:

so sunburst moves to ponyville and hes staying in twilight's castle. hes a little disoriented at first, but he gets to spend more time with twilight and starlight so that's nice. starlight especially is REALLY happy to have him there bc shes just obsessed with him lmao. anyway, its all fun and games, but sunburst is there for a reason and that is to learn about friendship.

hes REALLY shy and socially anxious, so initially he kinda avoids Actually doing the lessons? mostly he just hangs around with starlight or even twilight herself, until twi kinda calls him out on it and is like "hey shouldnt we get started on your lessons?"

he kinda tries to use the excuse that hanging out with those hes already friends with counts as him learning abt friendship but twilight retorts by going "nice fucking try but you still need to get out of your comfort zone." so he has no choice.

SO here are some things i think sunburst could do while hes twis student!

-for starters, having twilight acknowledge his insecurities and show him support would be really cute. i think having a conversation between them where he confesses how self conscious he feels and twilight kindly reassures him would be neat. those little moments of support are the sweetest to me.

-sunburst actually starts hanging out with both trixie and maud individually! i think those could be some of the first friendships he forms, since theyre already fond of each other. specifically, i can imagine a moment where sunburst and trixie have a convo abt feeling kinda selfconscious about not being all that magically skilled. like PRETEND this is an episode: sunburst lives with twilight and starlight, two of the most magically skilled individuals out there. that has to make him feel a little strange, right? it probably makes him feel a little jealous. so imagine a moment where he sees them both practicing magic and it makes him feel kinda shitty, maybe he even snaps at them out of bitterness and then he leaves and runs into trixie. wanting to forget what happened, he spends the day with her and they just go around being dorks. eventually it comes up in conversation what happened and trixie's like "yea i get it, i also feel kinda shitty about that." i think it would be a good way for sunburst to explore his feelings on magic and bond with someone over that. its about relating to others <3 ofc he'd eventually apologize to twi and star for being rude to them, but to get to that point he'd need to spend time with trixie first to feel better about himself.

-UM him and fluttershy. i have no idea how a meeting between them would go but i think having them interact would be really fun since theyre both introverted and again, having someone he can relate to would probably mean a lot to him since a big part of his issue is that he feels like he doesnt have much in common with others. i can see those two specifically bonding over their anxieties and liking each other bc they help each other feel calm. and i think it would be cool of fluttershy to help sunburst through some social anxiety he has to show how much shes grown from her own history with that! imagine an episode of sunburst feeling anxious abt something and flutters being the one to help him out of his shell.

-ok. here me out. stygian and him. kinda like trixie, stygian is another unicorn whos not all that magically capable, but unlike her he was more similar to sunburst in the sense that his longing for it was stronger. and i think it would be cool to revisit him since he legit just disappeared! maybe hes visiting twilight for some reason and then he meets sunburst and they click. pretending this is the actual show, i imagine an episode with those two would revolve mostly around learning about stygian himself and sunburst showing him that he isnt judgemental and instead relates to him. sunburst being the one to extend his friendship to someone else would be such a huge step.

-MOONDANCER!!! so lets imagine twilight is going to canterlot for some reason and sunburst joins her. twilight encourages him to go out and try and interact with others and so hes all alone and its kinda intimidating. but he eventually goes to the library and stumbles into moondancer, they have a small conversation over something nerdy or whatever and they IMMEDIATELY click. anyway, i think sunburst bonding with someone who was once as lonely as he was would be really cool and those two would just have great chemistry. and maybe seeing how moondancer managed to overcome her own social issues encourages him even more.

-DISCORD BABEY!! this is based on nothing other than me thinking that they would have a fun dynamic, but i do see it working out in terms of sunburst's "arc" or whatever. since we've already established that he befriends fluttershy, he would OF COURSE have to meet discord. i can see sunburst being very curious by discord's magic and discord would of course just LOVE the attention. they start to spend more time together, and maybe theres some conflict eventually because theyre both VERY different but they work it out. other than me thinking the idea of the nerdy wizard befriending a chaotic entity is kinda cool, i also think this would serve the purpose of teaching sunburst that he doesnt need to have much in common with others to befriend them, even if thats really nice. sometimes your bestie can be a chaos noodle and thats fine!

-him and starlight go on a lot of silly little adventures because now they get to spend more time together. i was always sad sunburst and starlight didnt get to hang out as much as trixie and starlight did, so lets fix that!! they go do stuff, and they have arguments and theyre BESTIES. and bc we've already established him and trixie are also friends lets just make them a whole fucking friend group!! i always wanted an episode that was just those three goofing around and was so sad we didnt get one.

also i think it would be cool if we kinda go back to The Old Ways and we bring back Sunburst reporting to Twilight whatever lesson he learned that day. Both because I miss when Twilight would do that, but also because I think its a neat little way to show shes slowly becoming more and more like Celestia in terms of her role, which is important because she will literally take over equestria in the future.

Awww these are all such good ideas! You should definitely write something based on these ideas!

#oh look it’s an ask #I love this 💜#debating weather I should give you a tag #neromia

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mikrokyla · 3 years

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if only you knew

CHAPTER 6: happy?

kiyoomi knows what makes you happy, but does he himself make you happy?

‘You’d like this coffee.’

Kiyoomi quietly stirs his coffee while the rest of his friends chat with a lot of energy. Immediately when he took a sip of the coffee that he ordered, he thought about the taste of your coffee from last night and knew you’d probably like this better than he would.

The large amount of sweetness from the coffee was burning his throat. He really doesn’t want to drink anymore, but he also doesn’t want to waste this sugary coffee that someone took the time to make.

‘I’ll just give this to Y/n.’

Then, Kiyoomi wonders if he should add more sugar. The coffee was sweet enough to burn his throat, but was it sweet enough for your liking?

He eyes the sugar packets, tapping his fingers on the table as he decides whether to add more or not. He finally decides to just add about half. He grabs a sugar packet then starts carefully pouring half of it in.

His friends watch him, confused as to why the bitter-loving-coffee boy added more sugar to his coffee.

“Omi, you’re adding more sugar?” Hinata asks.

Kiyoomi simply nods his head.

Atsumu, Bokuto, and Hinata all look at each other, most likely thinking the same thing: The coffee isn’t for him anymore.

Atsumu uses this as a chance to begin the operation he started. “I’m guessing it’s for Y/n?”

Kiyoomi nods his head again, but this time he looks at Atsumu with caution—knowing Atsumu is probably gonna start teasing him again.

Bokuto decides to say something too. Noticing that Kiyoomi is already getting annoyed just by the mention of your name from Atsumu’s mouth, he thought maybe if he said something too, it’d be normal. “Are you gonna give it to her then?”

Kiyoomi nods his head.

“Ah, okay.” Bokuto replies. “You should’ve just invited Y/n to come with us if you’re gonna give her that coffee, it would’ve been nice to have breakfast with her.”

Kiyoomi looks at Bokuto. “She’s working today and I wasn’t planning on giving her this coffee until I tasted it. It’s too sweet for me.”

“Ah, does Y/n like sweets?” Hinata says.

“Yes.” Kiyoomi nods. “She enjoys baking sweets when she’s happy.”

Atsumu smiles. “Really now?”

Kiyoomi stares at Atsumu. Atsumu continues to smile, taking sips of his drink. “What is it?” Kiyoomi asks Atsumu.

“What’s what?”

“Why are you smiling like that?”

“Nothing. It’s just nice to know that Y/n likes baking when she’s happy.” Atsumu smiles even more.

Kiyoomi crosses his arms and frowns. “Do you like Y/n?”

Atsumu nearly drops his drink. “Me? Like Y/n? You’ve got it all wrong, Omi!”

“Then why do you keep asking about her?”

“You’re being really defensive about Y/n, huh?” Atsumu grins mischievously.

“Well so are you!”

“I am not! I don’t like Y/n, you do!”

“No I don’t!”

“You’re acting like a little kid right now, did ya know that, Omi?”

“You are too!” Kiyoomi says back, continuing to keep his arms crossed angrily. “If you like Y/n then just admit it.”

“Alright, I like Y/n, you happy?”

Kiyoomi doesn’t reply, simply just staring at Atsumu.

“I admitted it and now you’re quiet? Why? Were you expecting me to say I don’t like her?”

“I mean.. I didn’t think…” Kiyoomi starts off but his words slowly become incoherent.

“You didn’t think what?” Bokuto asks, trying to hide his smirk. Maybe they’ll actually get Kiyoomi to admit something.

“It’s nothing.” Kiyoomi stands up, holding the coffee in his hands. “I’ll leave now so I can give this to her.”

Kiyoomi sees Atsumu eye the coffee and for some reason, Kiyoomi would rather give you the coffee himself than give Atsumu a chance to do it. As everyone says goodbye to Kiyoomi, Atsumu says to him “I actually don’t like Y/n, Omi. I was just joking. Don’t go and tell her false info now.”

Kiyoomi nods his head and turns around to leave quickly, hoping none of them saw the way his eyes brightened up when Atsumu told him he was joking.

Oh, and Kiyoomi was never planning on telling you the fake news anyways—even if it were true. Cause it’s not like he was jealous or anything…

‘Right?’ Omi thinks to himself as his fingers tap nonstop on the table, waiting for you to finish dealing with customers. He watches you talk to the other customers, teach your coworkers some things, and even mess around with Osamu for a bit.

And Kiyoomi does admit that maybe he would be a little bit jealous if someone were able to make you happier than he ever could.

if only you knew • happy? (6)

note: if this sucks then 😔💔 also you guys should like totally interact more cause yeah it’s lonely out here 🚶🏻‍♂️

<- plan a • you make me happy ->

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#if only you knew smau #if only you knew #sakusa fluff #haikyuu!!#haikyuu #haikyuu sakusa #haikyuu smau #sakusa x reader #kiyoomi sakusa x reader #sakusa kiyoomi #sakusa smau

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juviaafullbuster · 4 years

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If u can, can u make a gruvia oneshot just before gray leaves to 100 years quest? And Juvia isnt really happy about it because it felt like when he left her for 6 months

You guys really have a thing for angst, don't you? You're killing me over here. But ask and you shall receive! Hope you like it 💙

Repeating mistakes

The moment he left his place, he knew something was wrong. Not that it was hard to figure out. The rain that was drenching him from head to toe was a pretty good indicator.

Usually it wouldn't bother him much. He wasn't a fan of hot weather anyways. This rain however, this one was different. Because it wasn't the normal kind. No, he was certain this was her rain, produced by feelings that she would describe as gloomy.

Gray hurried to the guild hall. The sooner he got there, the better. It had been a while since she last made it rain like that. The only time he experienced it himself was when they first fought against each other, back when she was still with Phantom. After that, there was only one more time he was aware of. And that was when he had left her to go on an undercover mission, joining a dark guild, without any notice. It had been for her own safety however it turned out hurting her more deeply than the dark guild could have ever done. Gray didn't like to remember that. Not what he had done, not how she had felt. It was something he wasn't very proud of and there was still deep regret. If Natsu hadn't found her in time..

He shook the thought away, focusing on the building in front of him. The rain was falling harder here, dark clouds looming over the guild hall, an indicator that she was inside.

Somehow that worried him more. Everyone else was most likely in there too, so she wasn't alone. What could have happened that would lead her to produce such a rain? And why couldn't anyone else in there do something about it? He took a deep breath before entering the guild hall. Mira was in front of him in an instant, a sympathetic smile on her face, holding out a towel for him.

"You're not the first one to come in drenched. The others are using Natsu as a human heater."

Gray took the towel, not really focusing on what Mira was saying. Instead he found himself glancing around, holding an eye out for a certain blunette. He felt a hard slap on his back, before Cana throw her arm over his shoulders.

"I don't know what you did to the little cutie, but you better fix it fast. I planned to use the pool today so you better hurry up lover boy. She's in the back."

Ignoring the comment as well as the nickname, he looked over to Mira, silently asking if she was actually in there. Not that he didn't trust Cana, but, to noones surprise, the girl was pretty drunk once again, and had pointed in several different directions with the bottle in her hand already. Mira just giggled before pointing to the first door on the left. Shaking Cana off, he made his way over there. He knocked on the door, before holding his ear to it, waiting for any reaction.

"Juvia, are you in here?"

Another knock, yet no reaction. Gray sighed before deciding to just go in. She would have to talk to him, whether she wanted to or not. Although it was hard to imagine her not wanting to talk to him. Boosting his confidence with that, he took a deep breath before opening the door slowly. Luckily it was unlocked. He looked around before spotting her, sitting near the window and looking outside. If she knew he entered, she didn't show.

"Juvia?" He walked up to her, awaiting her reaction. Any moment now she would turn around, smile, call his name or jump him. Or do all of that. At least she usually would.

Instead she just glanced over her shoulder, informing him that she registered his presence, before focusing back on whatever it was she was looking at outside. Maybe this wasn't going to be as easy as Gray had hoped.

"Hey.. can I sit?" He waited a moment before he received a mumbled reply.

"Sure."

At least she was talking now. He plopped down next to her, following her line of sight. Of course she was staring at the rain droplets, following their way down the window with her eyes.

"Want to tell me what this is about? Did something happen?"

"No."

"Then what is it? What's wrong?"

She kept quiet, pulling her knees closer to her body and draping her arms around them.

"Juvia, talk to me."

He heard her sigh before she finally looked at him. There were unshead tears in her eyes, threatening to roll down any moment. She didn't look angry, no, instead the look on her face showed pain. She was clearly hurt. Gray thought back to Canas words. I don't know what you did.. Was that really his doing? What did he do?

Gray tried to remember anything that had happened in the past weeks, anything he did or said that might have hurt her but he couldn't put his mind on anything. He was sure that he had been nice lately, especially to her. Sure, he did avoid her a lot of times but that's only because he had yet to figure out how to act around her. He was just coming clear with his feelings himself. Is it possible she misunderstood his actions for rejection? It would certainly explain the look of hurt.

"Juvia.. did I do something wrong?"

Juvia huffed and suddenly she was glaring at him.

"It's more about what Gray didn't do."

Gray. Just Gray. No Graysama. Wow, he must have really messed up.

"Alright, help me out please.. what is it that I didn't do?"

"You didn't tell Juvia!"

"Tell you what?"

Gray was seriously lost at this point. What was he supposed to tell her? Was she talking about his feelings? He thought she understood that he was getting there. She always seemed so understanding before. Was she out of patience? Gray was afraid she'd reach that point eventually and give up on him.

"You didn't tell Juvia about your new mission. The so called 100 years quest?"

Gray couldn't help the sigh of relief. She wasn't giving up on him after all.

"Oh, that. What about it?"

"I can't believe you."

Juvia scoffed, turning her head away from him. That didn't stop him from seeing how the look of disbelief turned into a look of betrayal.

"Juvia, it's just a mission. What's the big deal?"

"You really don't see the issue?"

There was a moment of silence. Juvia was looking at him now, waiting for his reply. He scratched his neck awkwardly, not sure how to respond to her. What was the issue? It's not like it was unusual for him to go on missions. It was literally their job. Sure, this was a bigger one but it wasn't like he was going alone. Was that it? Did she want to join?

"Is it about me going without you? I didn't think it'd be an issue. I always go along with Natsu and the others. I didn't consider that you'd want to join us so badly. Besides, didn't you already agree to go on a mission with Gajeel?"

"It's not that."

"It's not?"

"No, of course not! Juvia doesn't care that you're going without her. Juvia is fine with you going on missions with others. Juvia is even fine with you going on missions with love rival. Sure, she would prefer it otherwise but she would never make a fuss over that."

"Then what is it you're making a fuss over?"

Juvia glared at him, anger now clearly visible in her eyes. Alright, maybe he could have phrased that differently. But he was seriously getting lost here. And can you blame him? Juvia had switched between several emotions, just in the last five minutes.

"Juvia is hurt because she forgave Graysama once, in the firm believe that it wouldn't happen again. Graysama is going to leave in less than a week and he has yet to tell Juvia about it."

"I was going to tell you, I just-"

"When? Before you got on the train? Juvia had to find out through Natsu, because he was declaring it all proudly, saying that he was going to be the one finishing this quest after all those years. It wasn't until Juvia asked Lucy out of all people, that she learned about the details!"

"I didn't think it was going to be such a big issue."

"Of course you didn't.."

"What is that supposed to mean?"

Juvia was standing now, looking down at him, anger and hurt clearly visible. She didn't seem to want to hide it either. No, it was clear Juvia wanted Gray to know exactly how she was feeling. She was glaring down at him and Gray couldn't help but feel small. He wanted to get up, be able to face her properly, but somehow he was sure that would anger her just more.

"You left Juvia once without notice. Six months. Six months filled with pain, worry, doubt, sadness, anger. Juvia was a mess. Emotionally, mentally, physically, she was in a bad shape in every aspect. But you know that. You know how sick Juvia got. They told you about the fever, the waiting in the rain, the state Natsu and the others found her in. Juvia was so hurt, sad and angry. But also so worried."

At this point there were tears rolling down her cheeks. Gray wanted to hold her, to apologize, to wipe the tears away, but he didn't dare to move. The rain was getting louder, falling harder.

"But Juvia forgave you. Juvia forgave you for leaving her, for not telling her about your whereabouts, for making her worry so much. Juvia forgave you, even without you apologizing. Because Juvia understood. She understood why you did what you did."

She wiped her tears away, taking a moment to regain her posture before taking a deep breath and continuing.

"Juvia forgave you once. She forgave you in the belief that it wouldn't happen again. That Graysama learned from it. But here we are. Watching it all repeat itself. You're leaving on a mission, one that will take longer, a few months at least, and you have yet to tell Juvia. Everyone else was informed, but Juvia had to find out by accident, because she happened to be there when Natsu mentioned it. And why? Because Graysama didn't learn. Graysama didn't understand. Because Graysama didn't bother. Maybe Juvia forgave to fast back then, maybe it's her own fault.."

"Juvia-"

"No, don't. Just-"

A bitter laugh escaped her lips. Something so unusual for her.

"Juvia is a fool. She believed it, that we were making progress. That she just needed to be more patient. But Juvia was wrong. Because no matter what, Juvia will never be as important to Gray as he is to her."

With that she turned around, making her way out of the room and slamming the door behind her. Gray was left sitting on the floor, Juvias words echoing through his head. He had messed up. He had truly messed up and he wasn't sure how and if he was able to fix this. Minutes passed, minutes that felt like hours, but Gray didn't dare to move.

When he finally got up, he could hear the rain still falling, but it was slowing down. An indication that she was getting further away, the more time passed. And Gray was afraid that if he didn't find a way to fix things fast, he wouldn't be able to reach her anymore.

#gruvia #gray fullbuster #juvia lockser #gray x juvia #fairy tail

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kimikaami · 4 years

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back with the hadestown au heyooooo

(can you tell where i lost steam? lol)

brief plot synopsis and some explanations for who’s who and why below

ok so plot first

short version: Hadestown is a musical retelling of the tragedy of orpheus and eurydice, but set in something closer to the great depression. Hades and Persephone also play pretty big roles. If this interests you at all, I’d reccomend listening to the original cast recording of Epic III, and the song Wait For Me (reprise) from the Broadway version. If you can, find a video recording of that one; I think the spectacle of it all is a big reason for why it’s a favorite.

Long version: Act I opens with Hermes, the narrator, introducing all the characters. He owns a... bar? restaurant? thingy? and Eurydice enters, taking a seat. Orpheus is immediately in love. He introduces himself, and Eurydice’s skeptical, but when Orpheus is able to make a plant grow just by singing, she’s won over. They sing a song together about planning for their wedding and promise to stay together forever uwu.

Persephone arrives on a train from the underground (underworld) for spring. There’s a big party, and Orpheus is hopeful for the future. You should know that it’s very hard to survive in this world during winter. It’s near impossible to find food.

so eventually Hades comes to get Persephone for winter and things get Bad. Instead of ya know, working, Orpheus becomes fixated on finishing his song to make spring come again, to the point of ignoring Eurydice, who is struggling. While Orpheus has part of his song to sustain him, Eurydice needs to actually eat and is barely holding on. After a fight with Persephone about how she hates seeing the underground so industrialized and unnatural, Hades appears and offers Eurydice a job working on his wall. Eurydice, desperate, accepts and gives her soul to Hades. He gives her the 2 drachma she needs to cross the river styx. The fates sing a song that boils down to them telling you to not be so judgey since you’ve never starved to death.

Act II starts with Orpheus asking Hermes about Eurydice, and when he tells him, Orpheus pledges to come for her. He follows the train tracks to Hadestown (the underground). Orpheus sings his way past the wall (i think he makes the stones cry or smth?) into Hadestown. He gets beat up a little but finds Eurydice, who isn’t doing great. She’s gradually been losing her sense of self as she works constantly for almost nothing (capitalism, everybody!) Hades tells Orpheus he can’t take Eurydice because he owns her soul. Orpheus almost loses hope, but. doesnt. He also starts a revolution with the people working on the wall.

Persephone manages to get Hades to give Orpheus a chance. Orpheus finally finishes his song as he’s singing it (Epic III) and it moves Hades. He and Persephone dance which is a Big moment. But now Hades has a problem. If he doesn’t let them go, the workers will revolt. If he does, he looks weak. So he gives them the test: they can leave together, but if orpheus looks back to see if eurydice is following, she gets taken back to hadestown.

They leave together (Wait for Me Reprise). The inevitable happens; Orpheus starts to doubt himself and looks back at the very last moment and Eurydice is taken back.

Hermes sings a song about how the story is a tragedy, but they sing it anyway in the hopes that it’ll turn out better next time. The play starts again, with Eurydice entering Hermes’ bar.

Character Notes I guess

Ahiru as Orpheus is the most obvious. She’s the protag, the one full of hope. Orpheus is described as the one who sees the world as it could be, and i think that’s rather fitting. Not much else to say here.

Fakir as Eurydice. The skeptical one, the one who sees the world as it is. Fakir’s a realist. There’s also a line about how Eurydice falls in spite of herself and ugh. My heart. It’s a puddle. I also just like the idea of Fakir being the one that needs saving this time around.

Rue as Hades. So Hades’ whole deal is that he still loves Persephone and he tries really hard to make their relationship work, but he goes about it in all the wrong ways. Persephone is the goddess of spring ffs, but he keeps her down in the stuffy underground with the neon lights and coal fumes and wall construction etc etc etc. And that’s what Rue spends much of her time doing, isnt it? Pretending that Mytho loves her when he simply doesn’t have the capacity for it (yet), trying desperately to make him love her, and going about it all wrong. It’s all very tragic and. very fitting.

Mytho as Persephone is probably the most awkward tbh. Persephone is full of life. On top she’s a party girl, and in the down below she’s bitter. Ofc Mytho is numb for much of the show but I think that sort of relates to Persephone using alcohol to numb things. I think they’re both really earnest and honest though, and Persephone is the one responsible for getting Orpheus and Eurydice a chance in the first place. Tbh that’s kind of the only rationale i have for him. If you’ve got something better I’d love to hear it, and I don’t mean that sarcastically.

A quick note about Hermes and The Fates. So Hermes is the narrator, which sounds perfect for Drossylmeyer on a surface level. The thing is, Hermes is like. A nice guy, and I like to think of him as a sort of surrogate father to Orpheus. I don’t wanna do that to poor Ahiru. I suppose you could bend the story a bit, but I don’t really wanna do that either. The other option would be Edel, but again, personality. Hermes is a really loud character with lots of personality. So no really great choices. As for the fates... well tbh it just feels icky to adapt their roles as POC with a lot of culture represented in the clothes they wear and the type of songs they sing for white characters. I suppose I could humanize some of the animal characters but that feels kind of cheap. I don’t know. If you’re more educated that me on this I’d love to hear it.

#princess tutu #fakiru #ruetho #hadestown #hadestown au #princess tutu au #my art #sorry for the MASSIVE read more oof

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thatonegirljessy99 · 3 years

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Loving Myself and You (pt.1)

Work Count: 1,600+

Warnings: none

Summery: Tsukishima and Y/N have been something for a little while how. What were they exactly, definitely more then friends, but not even close to being together. You finally have had it with whatever this is and decide it is time to move on and put yourself first. So with Tsukishima out of the way, how will you progress with the friendships you never really got to form?

A/N: It is 4 in the bloody morning, and yes this is exactly when I got the idea to start a series. Have mercy on me cause I haven't written in a hot minute and I should definitely be asleep by now 😅

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“You guys have been doing great in the tournament!”

“Yeah, the team is actually doing really good for once! Hinata looks like he never seems to run out of energy!”

There were a few laughs and giggles coming from around the corner. It has been happening for the team from time to time now. Other students were starting to realize that the Crows were starting to fly once more. The volleyball club was no longer just some random sports club at Karasuno and it was amazing!

Kinda.

You laughed a little thinking it could be Daichi getting noticed by the underclass girls again. Last time it caught him off guard as he was coming back from the restroom when a group of girls came up to him in aw.

“Yeah, I’m glad he is on our team because it would be a pain to try and block him,” you heard a voice laugh making your stomach drop.

All you could do was keep your head down as you walked by Tsukishima, not wanting to make eye contact. It isn’t like you could do anything even if you were jealous. What you two had was a secret, unknown to the world or anyone at the school. These days you also didn’t know exactly what you and Tsukishima had to begin with.

You were so caught up in your own thoughts that you didn’t even hear when the group dispersed, only snapping out of your thoughts when you felt someone pull you into an empty classroom causing you to sigh as you fixed your blazer. You didn’t have to look at Tsukishima to know it was him.

“Can I help you, Tsukishima?” you said glancing up at him before turning to face him.

“You haven’t talked to me recently. I tried talking to you when we came back from out last game-”

“At training camp, I know. I’ve been busy. School and stuff,” you rolled your eyes a little before looking up at the tall blonde,"I see that you've been busy too. I shouldn't keep Karasuno's great blocker for too long."

"Y/N, come on. You really believe I care for any of the fan stuff," Tsukishima smirked moving closer to hold you hand but you took a step back while crossing your arms.

"It doesn't matter what I think. I don't have time for this right now. I have to get to class and finish my work if I want to make it to dance on time after school. My recital went fine by the way," you huffed before opening the door to the class room and walking out as if nothing had happened.

In all truth, it really annoyed you the fact that he hadn't even bothered to text you good luck while away at the training camp. Volleyball was everything to him even when he said he didn't care for the game. And it was nice to see him actually getting into it finally but it was a bitter feeling since you were the only one getting excited about things.

He's such an idiot… all he's good at is blocking. Volleyballs, people….

You couldn't stop thinking about how Tsukishima seemed to be getting more attention. Not as much as the upper class men but enough to light a fire in your soul. There is really no way of knowing how you were even able to get anything done at school as you avoided Tsukishima for the rest of the day until it was time for you to go to dance. You went quickly into the girls bathroom to change into your leotard, putting on your gym sweatpants and a hoodie on top before starting your jog three blocks down the street.

Once you were practicing however, all you could focus on was the music. Even though you had just finished your recitals, your school was holding their next show in two months. Your role, Princess Aurora in Sleeping Beauty. You had already been practicing your part for a little over a month so the moves came easily to you, your movements flowing swiftly as you practiced Aurora's Act I variation. It was a relief to be able to just rely on things that were set in stone, your feet moving on there own at this point from the hours you spent practicing.

"Don't have your arms so tensed Y/N, remember to keep them light throughout the performance," your teacher called out to you midway though your practice, only earning a smile from you as acknowledgement.

"Watch that transition into the chaînés!"

Miss Nakamura, one of the best ballet instructors you could find in Miyagi. She had known you since you were 3 and your mom put you into ballet. Her love for dance led her to stay single for her whole life, saying she never needed a partner to feel happy when she had her children to teach everyday. She truly looked out for her students and thought of each of them as her own kid from how long they were under her care. She was now in her mid sixties, still with all the energy of a thirty something. Her hair having turned white in her late forties, she wore it down with a beautiful gold hair clip holding it back during class.

"You have improved a lot since we last practiced this in class. I'm glad to see all of you have been practicing the Sleeping Beauty pieces even with your recitals keeping you busy. I want to see the fairy variations next and I want you all to be going over act one while I focus on this group. As per usual, the studio across the hall is open and I expect all of you to practice. Tomorrow we start working on act I."

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After practice all you could feel was sore, the warm night only making you wish you could rest in the grass before making it home. But as you got closer to your home you saw a familiar shadow standing under the streetlight waiting for you. The closer you got the clearer Tsukishima's features got. He looked irritated, probably due to the fact you had shut off your phone for most of the day to avoid contact.

"Y/N."

"Tsukishima."

"We need to talk," he spoke in a cool tone, letting you know that no wasn't an answer right now.

"Tsukishima, I am tired. I just got out of a four hour practice and just want to get home, take a hot shower, and eat some soba my mom made," you sighed adjusting your dance bag while keeping eye contact with the tall man child," plus I have nothing to talk to you about."

"Really? Cause I think you do. What was this morning about in the hall?" He questioned starting to let his temper show in his voice as he adjusted his glasses.

"What is literally anything about?!" You snapped at him," you say you care for me and are sweet to me when it is just the two of us but literally the second a bird flies into our immediate area you turn into all this!"

As you gestured at him you dropped your dance and school bag before taking a step closer to him, your high difference meaning nothing to you since your attitude made up for it. You had been holding back since this thing started a few months back but now your damn was finally breaking.

"I talk to another guy and they get daggers glared at them. Some girls compliment you and it goes straight into your ego! I can't even hang out with any of YOUR teammates because you don't want them to know about us! But, I mean, is there even an us?! What are we?! You kiss me goodnight and then you act like I don't exist in school or anywhere that isnt under this stupid light post!"

What happened next only put the final nail in the coffin as you watched Tsukishima scoff and smirk at your remarks as if they were a child's complaint. He leaned down to get to eye level with you before speaking, watching as your eyes never left his for a second.

"You knew I didn't do commitments since we were kids. You and I were never anything serious. You wanted affection and I provided it while getting some myself," he explained in the most matter of fact tone ever, almost as if he expected you to simply accept that answer and just continue with things as they were," my studies and myself are my first priority. And if I glare at some guys trying to talk to you it's because I know they aren't convenient for you."

"Yeah, well guess what. You don't get to decide what is convenient for me. And from now on I will make myself my priority as well as my happiness," your voice seethed with anger, catching Tsukishima off guard as you had never talked like this to him before.

Normally you two would fight, you would give in and apologize, and then Tsukishima would buy you food to make you happy. This however, was not how this conversation seemed to be going. You ran your fingers through your hair before smirking and picking up your bags without looking at him.

"This, whatever it is, is over. Interfere with my life and you will regret it Kei. I don't need your affection, and I don't need you. From here on out, I will talk to whomever I want, regardless of what you want," you spoke in a confident voice as you stood up straight before walking past him, only stopping for a second before walking by him,"let's see if this shows you how your priorities are what make you so miserable in life."

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Part 2

A/N: Oh look at that, a part 2! Maybe you should click on it.... just maybe...

#haikyu x y/n #haikyuu!!#haikyu x reader #haikyu #haikyuu tsukki #tsukishima #kageyama #hinata #Loving Myself and You

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thegalaxysyst3m · 3 years

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A System Fic because Times are Rough

letting you know ahead of time this isnt edited worth a damn. have fun reading, friends.

It was all the boy could do to walk his feet up the stairs. It brought him to his knees. A place he hadnt been in a while. The floor. Crying. The floor. Why are you in the floor. You're better than this. He could almost hear him saying it to him. But the Doctor was kinder than that. Kinder than cruel words and bitter thoughts.

His doctor was always kind. old and angry sometimes, sure, but always kind to him. he was pretty sure, that if he'd asked, The Doctor would stop the world for him. And he loved it. Appreciated it more than the timelord probably knew.

and here he was crying on his hands and knees sobbing like a little girl. he wasnt a girl. he wasnt little. he was 16. stronger than this. god he hated this. none of the events were even that big of a deal. he knew that, truly. it just sidnt seem to matter to his idiot dumb brain.

a sigh escaped his lips as silent tears streaked and salted his cheeks. "Adam?"

fuck. great. just what he wanted. the one and only person he couldnt yell at had walked in. at the worst possible time. god why couldnt he just learn to shut up and keep his mouth shut. why couldnt the peoplw in his head just stop taking over his life and acting for him. why did they have to keep reacting like this at irrational dangers that didnt really exist. so what if he was throwing up because he ate too much popcorn. thats no reason for someone to get angry and start a stupid arguement about wallmart and their dumb glasses policies with a stupid stubborn adult who hasnt been to get glasses at walmart since 20018. fuck. now he was basically tLKING out loud. even worse.

it took a great weight for the system to sigh as the doctors footsteps got ever closer and ever quieter as they crossed the metal and glass floor of the orangy lit up console room. he quietly sat down showing his hands like he'd learned to over the years before making any effort to touch the boy during emotional times.

"hey... I'm here"

"i'm sorry, doc. I'm really not worth your time. I think you should just take me home. take us home. It'd save you a bother."

"save me a bother? take you lot home? the ever famed Galaxy System wants to go home?"

"yeah..."

"okay..." he had that face on again. the sad one. the lonely one. "are you sure? I mean, I will if thats what you all want. but, please, listen to me. I promise. I will not ever think of you as a burden, Adam. Not you. or any of you for that matter. So if you're just saying you want to leave because you think you're too broken or too wrong to stay, then stop- please- stop thinking like that."

"why?"

"because you're not. you will always be worth myu time. I will *make* time for you. I will make time out of thin air for you if I had to.... Do you really want to go?"

"..." I shook my head. "no. I wanna stay, Doc. I really do."

"good..." He lightly put a warm, calm, hand to my face, gently catching the running tears with his thumb. "now let's dry those tears and get you some nice chamomile tea, okay? Who wants tea? how many cups am I making tonight? Just us or one for Jessie and you? maybe one for jenna? I know she loves tea."

He was making us laugh again as he held our face with his hands, wiping the rest of the tears.

"just me is fine, doc. Thank you."

"no need to thank me, Adam. Please just know- I *need* you to know- that even if no one else you know cared about you, you will *always* *always* have me. I will always care. no matter what. SO stay for me, okay? Stay here. Stay alive. Stay strong for me. Because I know just how hard it is to think you're worth nothing to anybody. But you are worth so much to me. SO much to people you've never even met. and So much to people who might never even say it aloud to you."

"I know today has been rough. Hell. Just the last couple hours have been horrible. But please, please, know that I will always be here when you need me. All you have to do if I'm not there is ask for me and I will show up faster than you can say 'hello'."

"thank you, doc. Really."

he let out a hum as I finally sat my head down on his shoulder. peaceful. quiet. calm.

God it really was my favorite thing. I don't think I could ever have enough. I'd fallen asleeo like this many times before. and he had let me every time... "I love you..."

*"I love you too... get some rest, starlight"*

#platonic #11th doctor #fluff #slight angst #gender neutral #oneshot #mental health awareness

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zontiky · 3 years

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au where lila is adopted imto the umbrella academy

*rubs my gay little hands together* heehee hoohoo

first off im gonna say sorry diego :/

KJRWKESFDHK JOKING IM JOKING SORRY

so lila grows up to be less of a manipulative shit bc she doesnt need it to survive or gain love from her parent

no thats not right

she receives real/”real” love from grace and reggie doesnt even pretend to give them love so unlike the handler who used love as leverage

so while lila is still cunning and sly and shit she also doesn’t try so hard to manipulate the hargreeves, bc, theyre her family

controversial take but i think lila and five would be close

this take is also hilarious but maybe only to me

both of them are good at getting things done and getting their way and also maybe it has smth to do with lila really liking how fives powers work?

it would really hit her hard when five leaves. bc that was her friend right there. maybe she and ben and/or vanya form a bond based on being bitter five left them behind

lila and ben would be a good friendship i would like to see it

six seven eight hanging out... hhh

OOOH MAYBE VANYA WOULD BE 8? because she’s powerless now? no no the number system existed before their powers came in nvm

its arbitrary so w/e lila’s #8 kjshssd

i think it’d once again be harder to blank slate vanya because,, lila can use vanyas powers. she knows vanya has powers. maybe im not making any sense but also i just think it’d be nice for vanya to catch a break

maybe when little allie tries to rumour lila into forgetting lila pulls out that uno reverse card

or uno DEFLECT card lmao

but assuming vanya is still powerless, i still think vanya would have a bit of a better upbringing than canon

1) vanya has TWO other girls in the house who hang out with her and do girl things and yay sisters! 2) lila... gets it. her powers are reliant on the other’s powers. without them using their powers first, she basically has nothing. she gets it! vanya may be completely powerless but lila doesn’t have powers unless they’re training or they’re fighting and so vanya and lila would be close too

maybe vanya still gets some training bc of that! because if lila, part-time powerless, trains, and doesn’t use powers for half of battles, maybe vanya, “powerless,” can train and fight too

and i know this isnt a good thing bc like. hellooo child soldiers lmao?? but also vanya would feel like shes more of a part of the family and would have a friend by her side and maybe wouldnt even want to write the book in the first place

but also at the end of s1, when it’s discovered vanya DOES have powers, and they’re the most powerful of them all, actually, maybe lila grows bitter

i mean wouldnt you? the one person who was “less” than you, who you were better than in even the slightest way, is suddenly the baddest bitch around

so that sets up some interesting stuff for s2 haha

maybe ben doesn’t die

with another person on the mission, maybe somebody has his back. maybe ben doesn’t die

that’s assuming ben’s death was accidental tho bc we’ve all seen the death-by-horror-suicide theories

but anyway maybe lila stops ben’s death just by being there and fighting other people so ben has one more person covering him. maybe she’s there and it doesn’t matter and ben dies anyway. idk

if ben dies anyway then i think lila would be Extra Bitter but also really sad

five left her and now ben too? the people she cares most about keep getting torn away from her

and that’s not a good way to think because obviously her other siblings are hurting too, and theyre there with her too, and theyre there to do their best to support her in their own shitty way, and lila cares about them too...

but still.

also tho lila and diego friendship... this is jumping back up a couple bullets back to before or right after five left

in s2 lila and diego both being in the asylum together would still be funny. lila pulls the bacon out of her sock and diego rolls his eyes and takes it, not even phased, because she’s been doing this for yearsss

ok if five doesnt leave and ben doesn’t die i think they might have a bit of a better life post-academy? but also if five does and ben does then i have no idea what lila would be

maybe she opens a shop

yeah i think that would be nice. lila’s store au JHSFKJHKSD

i think she might follow one of the siblings (diego or vanya) in their career paths bc its been drilled into her from the beginning that shes nothing without someone else to copy

maybe diego bc he still has powers... maybe she’d want to keep at least some powers

but if vanya didnt get suppressed or still got trained at least i think she’d go with vanya because they just do better together and diego is a bootlicker anyway /j but no seriously i get why he chose the police academy but also why not a fucking firefighter bitch?

FIREFIGHTER LILA. I LIKE THAT

maybe vanya plays in the orchestra and lila plays in a band

OK BUT IF BEN DOES DIE. maybe she follows klaus around for a bit because she cant bear to let ben go and when she copies klaus’ powers she can see him... even if just for a bit

that would impact ben’s arc a lot too because he’s not completely alone with only klaus, who is high out of his mind most of the time to keep him company, but also lila too, who i dont think would mess with drugs

so basically lila being added to the mix would mean everyone is just a little less alone i think

maybe luther is also less... mm idk how to put this

maybe he’s disillusioned a bit earlier regarding reggie? because he’s supposed to be #1 and the best but lila can do just what he can too. she can lift cars and throw people from buildings too. so how special is he really?

GOD i love thinking abt this. lila would impact all of their stories, in major or minor ways, and its really cool to explore how that would transpire

i think allison might also be a bit humbler before stepping into marriage in regards to using her powers

because if someone uses her own power on her as she’s growing up i feel like she’d learn that doing that has big consequences faster? maybe she’d still rumour her way into some roles or some classy interviews or just in general use her powers to help her career a bit... but i think with her knowing what its like to be rumoured she wouldn’t use it in personal situations. so maybe she wouldnt rumour claire.

maybe claire doesn’t exist at all bc it’s implied she rumoured patrick into falling in love with her :bonk: or maybe she still married patrick but later on because their relationship needs to develop first

oh also maybe pogo would be less of a BITCH in s1 because lila is persuasive tm

yeah um thats all ive got alsfkds

THIS IS A FUN GOOD AU. i hope u like my Thoughts

#asks #ftag #even eight au #aus #lila pitts #team zero #misc #tua #the umbrella academy

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snow-wind-and-all-we-will-find · 3 years

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Hi! My names arthur and im working on improving my word and building my story, which currently has no name haha! I have a myriad of characters who ill try to list out and give brief descriptions of, aether is technically my main character and some of the characters who are up for question are dead in canon. But you can still ask them stuff, itll just be set before death.

When asking characters questions, rememeber to include the name, their age if theres diffrent ages, i dont mind repeated questions, but if you see the question try not to ask it again lol. If you cant find it with a quick scroll just ask it, although i dont know if this blog will even get that big.

Aether

He comes in three evolutions lol, technically, theres four but idk if i would count 7 year old aether.

Ages: 13 yo - colder, hasnt gotten used to emotions, there are two to this as well, pre-rev and then post-rev 13 yo aether, remember to specify lol.

16 yo- a bit more out there, still kinda disconnected and figuring things out, a bit more defensive

22 yo- lax, hes sorta figured shit out, hes not going to go grazy, hes just gonna be chill lol.

!The gaggle Ghosts!

Yurei

Her personality is very, ehhh, becuase i havnt done work with her, and i havnt completly figured out who she is fully yet, shes 18 yo when aether is 22 yo

18 yo- pretty oblivious, somehow still a bit cynical, very nice and sometimes motherly

Kakoku

Few thousand- mean, likes to bully yurei as he huants her, lowkey a simp for yurei but he wont admit that. Kinda cynical and likes to bring others down, generally a bully

Tamashi

19- emotionless, has to be a really strong emotion to make her emote, tends to stray away from other people, likes to be alone, blunt

Gunnar

A few thousand- sweet, warm and welcoming, tries to be very fatherly and a trusted figure, is very busy most of the tiime unfortunatly though.

!The greek gang!

Argus agapov

16- unstable, pretty baby, protective over friends and family

Mythos agapov

23- whore. He also loves his family, lowkey, hes a trad wife

Perceus

15/16- timid, intrested in posiosn and acids, generally quiet, likes to eat leaves, scaredy cat

Diogenes

14- germ of phobe, kind of a brat, more just a bitch, will yell at you if he sees your hands were dirty from gardening or something while you’re walking to the sink, other than that hes fine, picky eater

Herodotus

15- disorginized, trys his best, likes to write stuff down, helps plato with his writing and grammar in general, gullible, likes record data, has a nice typewriter with tha good clicky clack

Plato

8- sweet baby boi, loves his older brother (socrates), idolizes him even, not a good idea though. He writes down everything socrates does, sometimes he imitates his brother as well.

Socrates

17- dumb of ass, also just dumb, held back a grade, feral child, bites alot of people, soft aestechic but hed stab as a warning

Heracles

30- also dumb of ass, loves cars in that ‘mah babeh’ kinda way. Hates motorcycles, he thinks they’re ugly. Chaotic but he utilizes it to be the weird and cool uncle/cousin thing

Zeus

46- too tired for this shit, is a dad, went out to get milk, jk jk, dissapeared for a hot few years, probably got captured by some gang dunno, it happens. Very serious, would make the dumbest jokes with his brothers with a straight face

Hades

50- lowkey the neglected middle child, soft goth lookin ass, loves his kid, tries his best to raise his kid, sometimes gets help from esme

Poseidon

57- proud stay at home dad, buff but does the typically wifely duties, makes sure his children get enough love, nutrience and care

Lillith

54- very active, the money maker, kinda soft, both her and her husband poseidon are so just in love with their kids, dote on them constantly, very extroverted, always makes time for her kids

Esme

51- tired of zeus’ shit, does her best to make sure no one dies, still treats mythos as her ‘little baby boy, tired mom vibes.

!the Eden gang!

Eden is a fictional country that i slapped onto the globe. It is where aether is from, technically aether is apart of the eden gang as well. Everyone here, if they have an age option, the first age option is the age they are when aether is 13, and the second will be when aether is 16 unless stated otherwise

General kyelli

49- fatherly, thinks of most of the gang as his children, calls everyone ‘son’, as a general rule. If you ask for another nickname, he will do his best. Has a bad knee, and is kinda of bad at existing physically

52+- fatherly still, loves almonds, always has a bag of almonds, dont test him. Enjoys travel, might adopt people he meets along the way, still has pains but now he sees doctors, wants to stay active

Indigo

13- sweet, optimistic, always looks on the brightside and tries to see the good in others. Little heater, understands that sometimes fighting is the only option

Akrano

16- lively, very loose and relax, can get serious when needed though, always making jokes and trying to lighten up the mood

19- a bit more, mellow. Still quite lively and childish, but with two signifigant-others you have to settle down sometimes

Ekrano

16- lively, more stern than akrano and kinda worried, but ultimatly also very loose and bright

Lilliana

16- serious, seemingly colder towards everyone, gets along great with psycho-lops, makes him new eye-patches to pass time, actually just very monotone and blank most of the time, although she does care

19- she doesnt change much, she got a bit more expressive, likes babysitting howl

Psycho-lops

16 1/2- always looks determined, actually kinda scared of conflict, likes to help out with healing though, very proficient in it as well, sounds intimidating while talking about how cute puppies and kittens are

19/20- still the same, is considering studying medicine and medical practices to become a doctor.

Bark

17- bright, incredibly lively, loves to joke around and tease and sometimes bully the others, targets aether primarily, hangs out with his brother most of the time, he can fight for himself but he likes the backup, especcially since he is kinda glass-jawed, being that hes a twig

Bite

17- quiet, intense eyes, always sounds vaugly confused when he speaks, deep voice lol, likes to train, doesnt understand barks need to tease others, likes to read to the children

20- quiet, intense eyes still, more so nervous sounding, slightly paranoid, cluastrophobic and cant stand dusty places, usually in his house or at the docks, doesnt really go anywhere else

Hanelle

17- loud, headstrong, adamant about her opinions, gets along well with bark, she tries alot to be intimidating, not a twig, but not very big, pretty friendly and sociable

!the band of pirates!

Aklea

A few hundreds of years- kinda bored seeming, loves blood, technically cannibal, but not really since he isnt human, to an extent. Despite being fine on the ocean, he gets very car sick very easily. Actually quite nice, very easily triggerd into violence, especcially by something that could be used as a good murder weapon, blood makes him jittery and more lively

Nerone

21- calm, too calm, deals with akleas bullshit wonerfully, he just stands there, blank smile on his face as aklea beats the shit outta someone, unintrested in most anything, likes to draw, but hes a much better pastry chef.

!the shakespears!

Midem(pink boi)

33- lively, loves to work with kids, very creative, likes to make things, mainly art, mainly carvings. Often make little minitures of scenes from midens writing, loves his twin, does anything it takes to fund midens intrests. Very loving to those hes close to

Miden

33- calmer by alot lmao, pretty introverted but he can hold a long conversation without becoming too drained, enjoys writing and making stories, also makes plays for fun, runs off little sleep cuase he stays up so late to write, and gets up early to write.

!gods!

Gideon

9 billion- confused boomer, loves his ‘children’, hates to be hated, always tries to help in anyway he can, despite making them, always curious into what mortals are doing, loves the universe he created and does anything he can to protect it

Merik

7 million- sore loser, does get a little salty, ultimatly bounces back and becomes a very good sport, always will adopt tactics, whatever it takes to win within the rules, keeps most all of his trophies from random feats hes done

Ventus

5 billion - calm, straightforward, tends to disregard others and do things himself, likes to sit on cliffs and watch the ocean

Kyle

Hes been around since 776 bc- very loud, lively, bright, tries his best to educate people on proper form, workout regime i intesne, doesnt allow others to take it, makes custom workout regimes for free, owns a gym, dude bro but hes nice, baby

Horo-sha

Her age technicaly is not accurate, shes like, 2 billion? Since dima was made right after her death. But since her history still lives, ima count it

5 billion but older than ventus- bitter, violent, former god of justice, fucking dead haha, hates mortals, primarily humans

Dima

Also not super accurate, hed only be a few centuries of being an active god before being sealed, but since hes technically, concious and has cognitive function hes counted

3 billion- mean lol, likes blood and gets even more violent when it starts getting messy, ‘new’ god of justice, uh, pretty bad at it like the last one, but worse, will kill over slight misdeameanors, everythings a crime smh

!misc!

Ivan

24- softspoken, from imperial russia, died young, he no longer feels his face is his own, has a mask that he likes better, has the sickness, but since he was human it killed him, can control it post mortem, is strong enough to be seen, but weak enough he can go invisible and go through solid objects.

More ocs will be added when i remember them, or create new ones, characters i dont really have built at all are not included

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haikyuuscreaming · 4 years

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hi um so no one requested this but like i went through something basically like this and cried a whole lot about it and i dont think its even that angsty or makes sense but i just barfed it up as a vent fic so haha funny imi’s stupid and writes about her emotional exhaustion as an x reader

heres an unrequited iwaizumi x reader :D (SORRY THIS ISNT FDSKFJ this isnt really a tumblr drabbles its more of an ao3 oneshot so)

(also sorry if none of the fic makes sense or flows well,,, i just wanted to get this out)

Ever since your first day at Kitagawa Daiichi, you found yourself with a crush on Iwaizumi Hajime.

You couldn’t help it. As soon as you saw him in your school-orientation group the week before school started, you couldn’t help but feel something more than a friendly glow. You were already sitting with your orientation group, but once you saw him join the group (albeit sort of late), your stomach practically flipped with butterflies.

He even sat down next to you.

The rest of the orientation went more than fine. Your delight when Iwaizumi started conversations with you was absolutely immeasurable. Even when your group was performing normal get-to-know-you activities, your heart seemed to race every time he made eye contact with you.

“Your name’s [Surname] [Name], right?” Iwaizumi asked, tapping his pencil against his desk. The orientation paper had asked for the names of three people in your group.

“Yeah.. and you’re Iwaizumi Hajime…?” You didn’t really need to question it, but you did so anyway to be polite.

“Mhm. Uh-- sorry, how do you spell your name?” Your heart picked up its pace once you heard him attempt to spell it out. To your feeble, gleeful surprise, he spelled it right.

“Oh! Um, that’s actually how you spell it. Thanks.”

“No problem.” He smiles at you and your seventh grade self felt like beaming brighter.

His impression on you had lasted.

In fact, that first impression on you had made your school year much better somehow.

Initially, you wanted to go to Yukigaoka with your best friends, but you ended up getting into Kitagawa Daiichi. You were miserable at the prospect of going into a school without your best friends that had been with you through thick and thin, but you lit up once you saw your schedule and found you had quite a few classes with Iwaizumi.

Throughout middle school, you made new friends and became close with Iwaizumi and his friend Oikawa Tooru. They eventually became one of your primary friend groups: you and them. Your number one best friend though, you found, was a new friend you made, Hanae.

Maybe the first mistake you made was telling her that you had a crush on Iwaizumi.

Okay, well, you didn’t tell her- she found out? Forced it out of you? Either way, not a big deal, you two are basically sisters now. But you did kind of wish she would stop mentioning it so much.

“Look, [Name]-chan~” she would always laugh and point at him discreetly whenever he was in the vicinity. “It’s your future boyfriend.”

It was always the same, every time.

“Would you shut up,” you complain, smacking her shoulder lightly which earned a laugh from her. “He could be listening!”

“Just telling the truth~” Hanae would always flash a smile back.

Things changed, though.

On a hang-out with Iwaizumi and Oikawa, you noticed their glances at each other-- Iwaizumi's being weary, while Oikawa’s was cheeky and sly.

“Hey, what are you two smiling about now?” you laugh lightly. The varied stares they gave you made you quiet down. “No, seriously, are you keeping secrets?”

“Of course not,” Oikawa chimes in. “Iwa-chan has big news though!”

Your heart rate spikes a little bit and you feel sweat beading on the back of your neck. And you're blushing too. Under Iwaizumi's warm, sharp gaze, you feel like melting under his radiance. “Eh? Haji, spit it out!!” Your anxiety falsely passes off as intrigue and excitement.

Flushing a little bit, Iwaizumi scratches his neck and smiles at you, “I wanted you to be the second to know, I have a girlfriend.”

…

You're shell-shocked.

If Oikawa picks up on it, he doesn't say so. “Seeee, [Name]-chan, I know we didn't believe it, but Iwa-chan finally snatched himself a girl!” Iwaizumi responds with a swift punch to the gut.

“I….” you can't find the words. You force yourself to smile like it's the only thing you can do. “Haji, that’s amazing!! Who is it? I didn't even know you had a crush…” Your voice falters but you push your words out as if your life depended on it. How did you manage to sound so genuinely happy when it felt like your entire world was about to crash?

Iwaizumi flushes again and you feel jealousy seep in. You so wish it was you that he blushes for. “Haha, yeah. Oikawa didn't know either for once; I didn't tell anyone, you know? Wasn't really sure yet. But it’s Aika-chan.” The way his face lights up burns a hole in your heart.

He even uses -chan for her. How special. The bitter envy feels like acid rising in your throat, and you feel queasy. Like you could keel over, cry, and puke out your guts.

“Ohhh, Aika-san is cute,” you make yourself say.

(Honestly, you're so good at lying and saying this wrong but right bullshit, you’d think you're a sociopathic robot or something.)

“Mmm… don't get jealous though, [Name]-chan, you're cuter!” Oikawa hums and you laugh loudly, hoping that you'll fake it till you make it. “Tell her how it happened, Iwa-chan. It was hilaaarious.”

The poison in you burns harsher but you nod along.

“Don't tell me what to do, Shittykawa,” Iwaizumi bites almost playfully, before meeting your blank gaze with his kind, gently blazing eyes that always made you weak. Right now, you were not weak in the good way. “Aika-chan confessed to me yesterday near the sakura tree after we had class together… and I don't know, I guess it really clued me in that the feelings I had were real.”

(Iwaizumi looks so happy and content that it makes you want to be happy too, but you honestly feel like doing nothing but crying.)

“Aww, that's so sweet~” Your voice gets softer and you hate yourself so much for sounding weak.

But before either boy can reply, the panic and agony sets in. You feel your eyes glass up and your body tense, and your mind is begging you not to break down.

Unfortunately, they both notice.

“[Name]-chan? Are you okay?? You look kinda sick~” Oikawa sounds cheery and playful but his eyes convey an undercurrent of worry.

And bless Iwaizumi’s stupidly handsome oblivion, he blinks at your worriedly and puts a hand on your shoulder to steady you. “Do you need to go to the nurse? School’s still open I think, and it's right around the corner-”

Fuck him and his mind-meltingly handsome everything. Just his voice and his sharp gaze makes you want to cry harder and collapse to him.

“I-I have to go, sorry guys,” You fucking despise how cracked your voice is becoming as your facade slips. “I promised Hanae that I'd go get bubble tea with her. See you Monday.”

Eyes stinging, you turn as quick as you can and ignore their confused voices.

(The tears flow like acid and you feel like dissolving from the inside out.)

Months pass and you deny your horrifyingly strong yet compressed feelings.

You greet Aika and Iwaizumi in the hallways, and you know that you're happy because Iwaizumi is, and that's honestly all you could ask for your long-time crush (turned bitter love). You even talk to Aika freely during shared classes, just to disguise your depressing jealousy.

Every time you see them share a discreet kiss or grip each other's hands, you genuinely wish you were dying. It sure feels like you are.

(Like you're drowning, like your lungs are burning up and you're begging for oxygen, begging to breathe in Iwaizumi's love that's reserved for someone else. It hurts a lot but he's happy.)

(So you have to be happy.)

Hanae spares you sympathetic looks. “Come on, wifey-chan, you're married to meee. Get over him, he doesn't deserve you if he chose Aika the troll over you.”

“That's mean,” you sigh and crumble onto Hanae. “Aika-san’s nice. And pretty. And talented. It's no wonder Haji would choose her.”

“Stopppp! You’re so much more than Troll-chan, okay?!?” Hanae’s pep talk is brash, but you appreciate the charm. “If Iwaizumi-kun doesn’t see that, I’ll punch him.”

You laugh lightly at the fact that Hanae had talked to Iwaizumi enough to be calling him kun, but your voice is still heavy despite the sentiment. “You're so weird. But that's why I love you.”

“Of course you do~”

On another innocent hang-out with Iwaizumi and Oikawa, you’re met with abrupt news.

“Aika and I broke up.” Iwaizumi mutters softly.

“Eeeeh?!” You’re shell-shocked again, but you'd be lying if you said you were crushed like last time. “But-- but you guys were doing so well! You were the cutest couple!”

“She broke up with him over text,” Oikawa chimes in and you gape as Iwaizumi punches him again. “Two days ago.”

“She what-”

“She said she wasn't ready for a relationship,” is all Iwaizumi says.

You feel heartbreak and burning pity boil inside of you. “I-I’m so sorry, Haji… you didn't deserve that. You'll find someone better.”

Me. It's me, I promise I won't break your heart the way she did, because you're all I ever wanted.

He nods and for the first time in a while, he hugs you tight. “Yeah..”

It breaks you because it feels so good, his embrace warming you.

But it breaks you more to hear him whisper, “I can’t get over her though.”

(You just wanted him to be happy but he can’t. You can’t fix it.)

“You will,” you breathe out, trying not to let the tears slip. “You’re gonna be okay.”

(You know you’re not.)

But you don’t say that when you feel Iwaizumi’s shaky breath and him muttering, “Thanks.”

“Oh my god, [Name], did you hear about Hajime-kun?” Hanae’s alarmed voice three days later makes you concerned.

First of all, Hajime-kun-- “W-What? What happened now??” Nonetheless, panic still seeps into you.

“Aika broke up with him!!” Hanae seems so worked up over this and you wonder, how close is she to him? “Can you believe it?? She really threw away one of the best people in school!”

Shouldn’t I be saying that…? “Yeah, I know…” you try not to sound too bitter. “But like, it’s not really her fault she wasn’t ready for a relationship..”

Hanae huffs and crosses her arms, leaning onto you. “Well, I mean you’re right, but she shouldn’t have signed herself up for it if this was gonna happen. I feel so bad for him.” You’re about to layer on your argument, but Hanae straightens up and smirks. “See, your man’s single. Shoot your shot!”

“Right after a break-up?? Hanae, you’re batshit crazy-”

“Uh, well, make him like you, then shoot your shot!”

Your head and heart kind of hurts from all this talk about Iwaizumi, no matter how smitten you are for him, so you just blindly nod and agree.

It works for the rest of the day until you get home and cry into your pillow, wondering what to do.

Hope is re-kindled into you.

Over the past two-ish months, post-breakup, you find that comforting Iwaizumi makes you feel much better than wallowing in your self-pity. It’s a win-win: you’re putting even more of his trust into you, you two are getting even closer, and this could quite possibly end up in a great situation.

You melt at the sight of Iwaizumi, and every day you can see happiness soak back into him. Every time he laughs at one of your stupid jokes or grins at you while you rant and complain, you feel like your heart stops out of complete adoration of how stunning he is in every way you can think of.

He isn't perfect, but you think he's the perfect match for you.

And one day, at a study “date” (you try very hard not to take that term to heart!!) at a café, Iwaizumi peers up from laptop and gives you his signature, gruff yet content smile and says, “You know, I don't think I need Aika anymore.”

(You want to kiss him.)

It’s honestly been a shitty time for you and your friends, you realize.

Hanae broke up with her boyfriend, as you would have figured over the past few weeks she’s been ranting to you about how annoying and clingy and overprotective he is, but you found that she broke up with him over text. Oikawa went through three girlfriends in a month, to which he pouted and whined about but you knew he was secretly relieved that he didn’t have to carry more burden. And there’s the whole heartache Iwaizumi thing, even though things have been getting relatively better.

(You also realize amongst all your friends, you’re the only one who’s stayed very, very very single. You hope that’ll change soon.)

Things are going absolutely amazing with Iwaizumi. Even Oikawa’s been smirking at you and teasing you about your “true love” (to which you frustratedly deny but you honestly know that it’s just the truth when you consider your feelings for him). The two of you have felt confident enough to spend time with each other at your respective homes without feeling awkward or the need to have Oikawa there to provide a third wheel. You couldn’t wish for anything more.

So now you’re at a family-friend’s party, lounging on the couch away from the scene, on your phone. It’s so loud, but you’re content and refreshed on all the snacks you’ve practically been inhaling. Your phone pings in your hand and you glance up at the notification you’ve just received.

Oh, a text~

It’s from Hanae.

poopy hanae >:)): [name] are you busyyy

YOU: no not really

YOU: just at a party

poopy hanae >:)): OH okay so um can i tell you something but

poopy hanae >:)): i dont want you to get mad or sad ...so please let me just finish my texts

YOU: ?? yea go ahead , ill wait for you to finish :)

You feel kind of nervous once she puts it like that, but you let her continue.

poopy hanae >:)): remember how after my break up i promised i wouldn’t fall for anyone else, not for a while yk? i promised that to me and him: i wouldn’t let my heart get broken or whatever. but i found out that i don’t think i’ve ever really fallen for my ex. i think i just dated him because i felt bad and felt like i had to date him because i didn’t wanna reject him… but it happened still. but i think i’m in love now. honestly.

poopy hanae >:)): i’ve never felt this way around any guy before, not my ex, not anyone. everytime i see him my heart goes crazy, and i want to talk to him all the time. he’s just so perfect in every way. he’s so smart, he’s handsome as hell, he’s strong and caring… and i promised both of you i wouldn’t fall for anyone else but i broke that promise to him, you, and me. and i think you’ve figured out who he is now.

poopy hanae >:((: i’m sorry i can’t help it. i didn’t want to tell you because that would make our friendship weird but i hope now we’re at the stage where we will still be best friends regardless of him. i’m truly in love with iwaizumi hajime and i’m gonna confess to him on monday (tmr). i love him so much but i want you to know i love you more so he won’t ever get in the way of us. ily <3

The more you read the message, the more it makes you want to cry. Your hand starts trembling around your milk tea and you feel your face warm up, your eyes glassing over and your vision blurring. Stumbling your way into the bathroom, you lock yourself inside, staring at yourself in the mirror. You watch your delicate, shaking features in the mirror as the first bitter tear rolls down your cheek. More tears follow.

Sobs wrack your body and hot tears glide down your face, constantly, like a river. Whimpers escape you, and your lips are cracked and dry, and you keep thinking, Why would she do this to me?

YOU: ahaha it’s okay!!!

YOU: a boy shouldn’t get between us, ly :) make him happy

YOU: you desrvee him mroe than anbyody else

You cover your mouth with your shaking fingers in hopes that the others can’t hear you outside over the music.

You pretend it’s fine the next day at school.

Hanae doesn’t even mention it, but she hugs you a lot more and keeps whispering, “I love you”. The bitterness has sunken in a little bit and you resist the urge to tell her, It doesn’t change the fact that you broke me, but you figure that it’ll be okay.

You’ll just lose your feelings for Iwaizumi so she doesn’t have “competition”.

(It turns out to be harder than you think.)

When you see Iwaizumi at lunch, his smile never fails to make you flush a little bit and make you feel so warm and comfy. When he sits down next to you (!! ahhh!) since Hanae was in line for lunch, he makes a sigh-grunt noise as he nestles his chin into the crook of his palm. Oikawa, bless his dumb ass, sidles down next to you, making a dramatic sigh.

“Did you know Hanae-chan confessed to Iwa-chan today?”

You try so, so SO hard not to tense. “Yeah. She told me a few days ago that she- she was in love with him.”

(The way your voice cracks at “in love” is pathetic, you think.)

You don’t miss the way Oikawa’s face briefly flashes a frown at you before morphing back into his signature pretty-boy smile. Iwaizumi looks a little embarrassed to be talking about this but he nods. “Yeah, she pulled me aside right before lunch and… yeah. It was so embarrassing…” You’re in fucking awe of how cute he is even when he’s distressed, but you remind yourself (with a pang of bitterness) that you aren’t supposed to think that anymore.

“And I turned her down,” Iwaizumi continues, and your ears almost fucking pop at the noise. He- how, what? Why? “‘Cause I don’t know, I never really felt that way about her. I guess that’s why she’s been talking to me more and more lately. She said she understood if I wasn’t ready to move on ‘cause of Aika and stuff, but.. she said something like she’ll change my mind.” He snorts and murmurs, “I don’t think that’ll happen, honestly.”

Oikawa laughs, a peppery laugh accompanied with a side-eyed glance towards you. “Iwa-chan, you’re such a brute~ You sure that’s the only reason you turned her down?”

Iwaizumi lets out a snort again. “Yeah.. I’m over Aika now, but I don’t think I’m ready for a relationship. Plus, there isn’t anyone that I like like now. Hanae doesn’t stand out.”

The statement makes you crumble on the inside.

You idiot of a best friend. What good are you if you don’t stand up for Hanae?

But it doesn’t matter! He said he has no interest in anyone, including you. Or her. It’s pointless, futile. He never even considered you.

You’re so stupid, so worthless sometimes. You’re the worst. It doesn’t matter if you would go to the end of the world for Hajime. You have to give this up for her. Fight for her because he would never settle for someone like you.

You fight back the sob crawling in your throat, as your self-loathe and intrusive thoughts rain in. You try so hard not to let it get to you, but still-

It’s what Hanae deserves for putting up with you.

“You should give her a chance,” you force a small smile. “I mean, she’s pretty and smart, you know?”

Oikawa gives you a pitying gaze before Iwaizumi shakes his head, his cheek now pressing against his palm. “Nah. I don’t like anyone in that way now, and it’s gonna stay like that for a while, I’d think.”

He doesn’t like anyone in that way.

You shrug and nod, “Fair enough,” but your voice is so much smaller. You love Iwaizumi Hajime so much, and he’s always been your everything. From his habits to his comforting demeanor and his entire profile, he’s always infatuated you and you know that no matter how hard you deny it for anyone, you will never let go of the feelings that shackle you to him like chains.

You love him so much.

But I guess I’ll never win.

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She Listens to You ... Kind of

Pairing - Ethan Ramsey x Charity Middleton (Open Heart)

Note - This was a story that took pretty much most the day

Rating - Teen

Prompts - Beach @choicesjunechallenge

Taglist - @drakewalkerfantasy @ao719 @princess-geek @polishchoicesfan @binny1985 @desireepow-1986 @i-bloody-love-drake-walker @hatescapsicum @itscassandral @heauxplesslydevoted @thequeenofcronuts @gardeningourmet @kaavyaethanramsey @choicesolivia @regencylady1810 @dailydoseofchoices @storyofmychoices @choicesficwriterscreations

Ethan Tag - @ramseysno1rookie

Summary - Charity refuses to join her friends at the beach but can Ethan get her to stop sulking?

Word Count - 1042

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It had been a few tough days at the hospital for Charity. With the amount of crashes and accidents there had been in Boston that ended up being directed to Edenbrook and it was a day off for her and her housemates and she had been refusing to come out her room.

“Charity Carina Victoria Middleton, you have to get out of bed get in a nice summer dress, put a swim suit on, get sunscreen, sunglasses, and a towel and anything else you want to be at the beach, as we are going to go to the beach today” Sienna called, knocking on her friends door and there was no response, and Sienna groaned.

“Or we will call, Ethan” Elijah threatens and there was a groan from her room that was heard a groan.

“Ethan isn’t my father” she shouts back and Elijah smirks slightly.

“Then why is he Daddy in your phone?” He challenges and hears rummaging as Charity bolts out of bed, putting on her dressing gown and comes to the door, pushing it open.

“Why do you have my phone?’ She interrogates her friend and he just chuckles, oh she was very amusing at times.

“Charity, I don’t, but I’ve seen when he rang you and it flashed as Daddy in brackets for Ethan Ramsey” Elijah defends himself whilst winking at his friend and she flops back down on her bad, over-dramatically, groaning.

“I want to lay in bed and mope all day” she declares, oh these times called for desperate measures, Sienna grabbed her phone and she dialled Ethan’s number.

At his house, Ethan Ramsey had just gotten showered and planned to spend his day off just doing what he usually did, which was very little when his phone rang, and he frowned, he was sure Sienna had the day off, he picked his phone up anyway.

“Doctor Ethan Ramsey speaking” He utters as he sips his coffee he made himself.

“Dr Ramsey, its Sienna, Charity is very down after dealing with the accident the past few days and well, to put a lightly, shes a very very moody cow and won’t get out of bed” Sienna speaks bluntly.

“And this is my problem, why?” Ethan questions.

“Well its Charity, she only listens to you in these situations” Sienna explains and Ethan pinches the bridge of his nose.

“Well, I wouldn’t say she only listens to me, her father is very persuasive with her” Ethan suggests and Sienna rolls her eyes.

“We all know she listens better to what you have to say” Sienna insists and he sighs.

“Fine, I shall come speak to Dr Middleton” He gives in.

“Awesome, pack all the things you need for the beach too” Sienna hangs up and messages Bryce and Rafael to come too.

Ethan got all the things he would need for the beach, knowing it would make Sienna happy and goes across to their apartment in car, in his green jacket and he knocked on the door and Sienna opened it.

“Where is she?” Ethan asked.

“In her room, she has not moved” Sienna answers and Ethan goes to Charity’s room and knocks softly.

“Rookie, its Ethan” He says softly and Charity sighs, and she walks to the door opening it.

“You are not going to convince me to go to the beach” she says, looking absolutely exhausted and he stepped into her room.

“Whats the matter, Rookie?” He asks softly and Charity just looked down.

“I just want to be moody and not have to go to the beach, thats all” she muttered and Ethan sighed.

“And your friends want to take you to the beach” He responded and she nodded, groaning.

“I just want to be moody, and just be on my own” she admitted and he took her hand in his, squeezing it.

“Maybe you need to go to the beach with your friends, it will do you good, Rookie” Ethan speaks softly, stroking her hand with his thumb and Charity looks away, and he sighs before continuing, “the last couple of days have been hard on you, and you deserve a break, you work so hard”

Charity looked up to him, not seeing the professional side he always kept up but seeing her Ethan, the Ethan who was happy to be himself around her. “I don’t want to go to the beach, thats what these guys aren’t getting” she complained but Ethan saw what her friends were saying, not just as someone who cares deeply for her but as a mentor.

“But you can’t spend the day wallowing over the patients that you couldn’t save, Charity. Believe me, it does you no good” the sadness on his face as he spoke made her look down.

“I just-“ she starts but Ethan puts a finger over her lips.

“Would you like me to come to the beach with you?” He questions and Charity looked at him, unsure if he was serious.

“I mean, isnt it unprofessional for you to be seen with me, because you don’t want anyone to know about us?” She asked and he looked at her, feeling a bit sad at the hint of bitterness in her voice.

“Charity” he says softly, and he looks at her.

“What? You keep telling me how you don’t want to risk my career so you push me away” Charity says and Ethan cups her cheeks and presses a passionate but longing kiss to her lips which she returns reluctantly.

“Don’t. We will talk about this later, come on.... you don’t need to go swimming or anything, just sit on a towel and relax, take a book” Ethan suggests softly and Charity finally sighs.

“Get out, I’m getting changed” she mutters and Ethan rushes out the room, his face going flush red with embarrassment and Charity gets in a pair of shorts and a strapless top and puts her sandals on, putting sunscreen on before putting some things in a bag and she finally admits defeat and goes to the beach with her friends and Ethan.

At the beach she went for a swim with Ethan, enjoying the small bit of time she got him, but she always wondered why everyone thought she listened to him

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