#otherwise it was... humiliating.

[hakugreenfinch]

sorry im being silly tonight. im just thinking about how. i was placed 3rd at a cosplay competition at japanexpo paris this year. and its one of my biggest achievements as a cosplayer and i cant really brag about it. like i told my parents. i guess. my friends congratulated me. thats nice. like. really nice. but idk its like. when people go to cons abroad and get placements, even when they dont, mondo posts about it and they get two pages in the next mondo issue. and i guess you have to let them know for them to report it but. it just feels like something thats cool if youre a big cosplay name and trashy if youre not and with 13 years like literally half my lifetime and a long history of competing i know im still not someone anyone would name their favourite cosplayer. im just some guy whos too broke and depressed to be able to make a big name and so my shitty little third place at the biggest anime con in europe feels like no big deal.

#hakuna matata #i won a prize at mondocon this april and the only reason im proud of that is a cosplayer i really love judged me #i was really happy i could show myself off to her and that she liked me this much bc shes the reason i started doing skits #otherwise it was... humiliating. #a pat on the head. #every other craft category got cosplay supplies. i got a big led keyboard for a computer i dont have because it was from a sponsor. #im conflicted too bc if i were to tell mondo about it they would post about it like 'representing hungary' #i didnt represent shit. i represented myself and an anime i love. i entered because my mondo prize felt like a sick joke #and i wanted to know if im worth anything as a craftsman besides being a funny clown #its like i do cool shit but barely anyone sees it. #something something tree falling in a forest #its also hurting because just this year i was told by someone that i cant cosplay seriously without expensive tools #this was someone with less experience than me too #like... what do i have to do? i compete abroad #i get prizes abroad i win mondo prizes ive been doing it for more than a decade i learned entirely new skills trying to cut costs #what do i have to do to be like. more than a clown in funny costumes. #(running a facebook page is not an option. i deleted the old one in a depressive episode and im not making another one) #argh idk. i published a fanbook this year. about to open preorders for my first collaborative charity fanzine. #it feels like the only people i can brag about these to are the people who already know about everything i do and support me #which!!! really!!! im super glad to have friends like this!!! #its just. sigh i wish i could tell more people about the things i do and get a reaction other than 'ok but who are you' #or 'idk what this means but congrats' #like. more than a pat on the head. #idk. idk im sad again and i feel like nothing matters and i dont want to bore my friends with this. #they deserve better than me making them feel like their love and support doesnt mean as much as they want to.

[cemeterything]

i can't believe there's a most annoying tumblr users poll and nobody nominated me when there are literally posts about how i'm the worst tumblr user out there with more notes than the population of some people's hometowns, but i'm glad nobody did considering how much harassment i've dealt with because of those posts to the point that i wouldn't wish the experience on my worst enemies. what a stupid, cruel idea. i hope whoever came up with it is ashamed of themselves.

#🐉 #i dont believe public shaming and humiliation and bullying tactics are an effective way of changing anyones behavior #and i think its pointlessly cruel and wilfully ignorant to insist otherwise #not to mention loaded with projection and frequently most harmful to the very people you claim youre trying to protect #anyway this post is unrebloggable because 1. i dont want to invite people to dig up my past again #and 2. i dont want to give whoever made that poll any widespread attention and gratification from 'causing drama' or whatever

[uncanny-tranny]

I sincerely believe that institutionalization is a deterrent for healing. The state of many institutions is incapable of handling people in acute need, and more often than not, we are traumatized from institutionalization because of this reality.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #institution tw #mental hospital tw #like i was not able to heal when i was being treated like a prisoner plus being aware that the hospital could NOT handle a trans patient #it was humiliating and i am not and won't be the only one with this experience #i may have spoken about this before but i was reminded of this so. and i'm not digging through 1000+ posts to find it #because searching for posts on a blog is so hard and i wish staff would finally fix it #i anticipate this being probably a controversial take... but i just don't think i can be convinced otherwise #before i was in a hospital i thought they were good. after i was in one i realized that that wasn't necessarily reality

[god-of-this-new-blog]

“For a master of deception and subterfuge, You’ve made yourself quite the bed to lie in”

#soooo hiiiii Im back and making full color art work again! #you know the drill #death note #lawlight #light yagami #l lawliet #my art #death note fanart #deathnote #any wyayyyy time to ramble in the tags which is the real reason why I make art anyway #shout out to Monica for putting me on to the song Body Paint #that is where the lil caption is from #felt classy to use a lyric #otherwise it would have been uhhh #Foot Man #or ummmmm #L kissin feet #anywayyyyy I know we are always joking about the feet thing #but im trying to get real with it #like! it is a weird level of submission to Light… right? or idk it is possible that Light finds it humiliating #OHHH the dynamic of L trying to worship and Light finding it humbling? #anyway I will find a way to double down on the feet thing in an artsy way. #oh yeah also L smokes and thats cannon everyone hush #also what if he ever burned Light with a cig durring [redacted] and [redacted] the burn and [redacted] [redacted] [redacted] #Paris is a bad influence #bonus points to anyone who knows the movies these poses reference!

[skunkes]

the way I've been raised has shown itself in a recent awful experience I had and the realization won't leave me because I'm not sure what to do about it.

I don't like feeling anger/upset and it's rare for me to feel it anyway but it's led to me being unable to tell what's worth getting upset over anymore. If my wants upset somebody, then, well, maybe I shouldn't have them? What is so serious that I need it to go completely my way...? What desires am I allowed to have. It's not that serious, it's okay if not, you can't always get what you want....

every time I feel Upset I am later wracked with guilt because it wasn't a big deal and I was just being selfish... What IS a big deal then? How can I tell? Its admittedly never a big deal... But I keep being upset. And stepped on....

#talkys #this is what led to me Staying for as long as i did #there would be issues but if I brought them up i wld then be made to feel guilty for feeling that way #but i cant reverse that bc well!! its true like is it really a big deal? life isnt that serious I dont need to get upset... #i get upset at something my parents do and in the end i feel ungrateful and selfish #i really cant tell anymore which is why i Stayed as mentioned above #in the sense of well yeah the way im being treated doesnt make me feel good but why do i need to feel good? #isnt that selfish...isnt that asking too much...isnt that making yourself out to be Better Than... #i really dont know. i get so ready to give up my position on anything because I dont want to be selfish #and because im no better than anyone else #my mom caused some drama on my birthday wrt my sister's family and it led to me not being able to go to the duck #pond on my birthday... which is the only thing i really wanted to do on an otherwise uneventful day #i was meant to feel shame abt it because well we can always go any other day!!! relax!!! #and it is true....! #we can go any other day why did i get upset? its not that serious...nothing is that serious...i feel so guilty + spoiled + selfish #i just felt humiliated for wanting to go in the first place. and for getting upset that we couldnt go. like a toddler. #*not that i actually get Toddler Level upset...but it always Feels like i did...ykwim #i just dont understand......idk if i can Repair this....

[drowninginredink]

I'm picturing Tommy Bowe and Grant O'Brian in the same room together. And I don't think the world would survive. I need it and it's never going to happen. Just. You see the vision, right?

#tommy bowe #grant o'brien #smosh #dropout #college humor #two gangly ass mfs - Nort #but also two raging queers who flirt with everyone #i mean Grant is more awkward and loves to be humiliated but otherwise what's the difference #Tommy is my favorite smosh person but i think i love Grant even more

[en-bitch]

Misbehaving as someone's personal computer so they take you to a 'repair specialist'

"Hmm you've got a problem with your computer?"

"Yes, it takes way too long to respond to any input command"

"Hmm well let's take the shell off and hook it up to the diagnostics"

Your owner strips you naked and 'hooks you up' tying your hands together above your head, locking your legs in a spreader bar and putting an anal hook inside you

"So what have you tried so far?"

"Well I've tried blowing on it, turning it off and on again but it hasn't made much of an impact"

"Ok let's turn it on and see what we're working with"

Your head is lifted up and the blindfold is removed. The specialist asks you calculation questions a computer should be able to get instantly and shakes disapprovingly when you are unable to answer within the time limit. They 'calibrate' you, pinching your nipples and turning them as they continue to ask questions

"Sometimes it's just that something has clogged the internal fans and it needs to be removed, you can fix that with some percussive maintenance around the rear of the computer if you wouldn't mind."

Your owner gets behind and starts spanking you, making it so difficult to answer that you can't even say words properly.

"Well that's no good, the audio port is on the fritz" The specialist says, thrusting their fingers down your throat. "Ah ha! The audio driver is out of date. I'll need to install the newest version, but we'll have to keep your PC fully charged for the duration. Firstly we'll need to turn it off," they explain, putting the blindfold back on. "And second, the diagnostics machine won't apply enough power, so you'll need to keep filling it with power the entire time."

Like that you are taken off the hook and put on the 'operating' bed. The specialist takes your mouth whilst your owner pounds your ass, spitroasting you relentlessly. The specialist gives updates on what percent of the updates are downloaded and it spends an awfully long time at 69% downloaded. When they've both had enough fun you are finally released and booted up, only asking 'what is 2+2?' and 'who is your owner?' Satisfied, your owner turns you off and begins to take you out of the store

"Now you'll want to keep those drivers up to date, maybe next time I'll give you the update so you can try installing the driver whilst I supply the power eh?"

"That would be wonderful, I'm always terrible at installing updates so please let me know when there is a new driver available <3"

If you liked this maybe tell me I'm a good bot 👉👈

#I guess this is one of my kinks now #seriously tumblr you can't keep giving me new kinks #It's a good thing I already have a tentacle kink otherwise I'd probably be given that too at some point #I actually need an irl software update to process this #hornyposting #hornyasf #an@l wh0re #sub posting #submisive and breedable #free use slvt #degrade and humiliate me #spank me pls #an@l slvt #roboposting #robophilia

[chirpsythismorning]

People keep posting in the tag like WHERE ARE THE LEAKS bc we keep talking about it.

To be clear, there are no leaks. And I feel like it’s disingenuous to keep humoring stuff that we know for a fact is false. Like it’s 100% false and there is no room for speculation.

And then on top of that not giving the full context of the situation that led us here, because a lot of fans just popping in obviously don’t have that context. They hear the word leak and they get excited and then it just spirals to something that complicates things even more.

To be clear, there was one account on Twitter that is known for having sources and getting leaks. This one account said they got a spoiler in their inbox. They did not share that source nor the spoiler. That’s where the supposed leak ends. That’s it.

Since that happened, fans have been unhinged making claims they have a source too.

I understand being misinformed because you don’t have all the information. And that’s why it’s harmful to humor stuff as if it has an ounce of validity when we know it doesn’t, creating confusion.

If there was ever a leak, it’ll come from a source directly, and it’ll likely end up on the Hawkins AV Club on Reddit. IF you want leaks, join that sub and wait it out. THEN if and when something happens, there will likely be a list of leaks based on what comes from that. THIS is when there will be fans saying they have a leak, when really all they have is the leak the sub has. If fans said they had leaks in the past and they ended up being accurate, it came from that sub, not from their personal source. And so that’s my issue with taking claims fans have sources seriously rn, bc there are no leaks for them to even claim they have. They’re just trolling and using the past of having leaks that weren’t even theirs in the first place, as an excuse for why they magically have some now. But they don’t.

And seeing fans take these claims seriously, when its coming from people very intentionally mocking bylers, like it’s hard to watch.

It’s not a matter of maybe it’s true maybe it’s not. It’s not true. And spending time confusing people over it as if there’s a chance it could be true, is going to make this hiatus miserable bc we are clearly struggling to think critically about what’s worth our time, as if it’s worth confusing other fans over, based simply on just wanting stuff to talk about.

Of course we’re bored and lacking content. There is still plenty of stuff we can do that doesn’t involve falling for stuff specifically made to mock us by antis.

And now people elsewhere are saying the leaks came from byler tumblr, which isn’t even true, and we’re getting shit on for something that wasn’t our doing in the first place. We get enough hate as it is for simply shipping byler, and now we have to deal with claims that we are making up stuff. People are going to think and say what they want about us, but I dread that we’re giving them ammo to criticize us even more for stuff that we never started in the first place.

#byler #pls pls pls do not spread stuff unless you are certain it’s true #you’re creating a paradox of confusion #if you have a source and you’re very confident in it #by all means share #but otherwise refrain from starting a game of telephone #where now we have to explain the context to every person that comes on #bc they’re misinformed based on that false speculation #like idc if ppl hate us bc we ship byler #but I do not see why we have to add liars to the list #like it just looks so bad and embarrassing for us when that’s the last thing we need #and the thought of this reaching important people from the show… #that bylers are making shit up… #like it would be humiliating that if the first time they acknowledge byler tumblr it’s to say that we’re lying and creating fake leaks… #worst nightmare actually #we are smart over here and we deserve credit for the good shot we’re doing #not for creating and spreading fake leaks

[dykesynthezoid]

The thing is when people are for once not passing around misinfo is the way it’s presented or the language used is very often still antisemitic. People make those “slips,” so easily, “accidentally” saying “Jews” instead of “Israelis” or “IDF” in certain places. I’m just tired. I wish the bulk of tumblr cared about actually being vigilant about those things.

#or the original post isn’t misinfo but people will add misinfo onto it #like the thing about the idf stripping palestianian men and parading them around a square previously used in Hamas demonstrations #that appears to be true. #but the additions about a ‘mass grave’ or that we know those men were murdered? we don’t have any evidence of that. at least not yet #these were men who allegedly surrendered and therefore were being taken into custody #difficult to know how many of them might’ve actually been involved w Hamas or otherwise #idf said they were stripped to be searched for weapons but it’s still an act of callous humiliation #I think people see stuff like that and genuinely don’t care which parts are true or not. #bc they’re going oh well israel/the idf are evil anyways; so it MIGHT AS WELL all be true #and like. not how that works actually. facts do matter #it should be obvious but none of this is a defense of the idf. it’s just about caring about the truth. #people don’t care about facts though; they care about rhetoric. about the narrative in their heads #that much is clear #antisemitism #Israel

[thatoneweirdo14]

Breaking news: I am a massive simp for hua cheng

#everything this man does makes me scream #he single handedly raised my expectations for men #like i need a guy who lights 3000 lanterns for me and humiliates at least 33 heavenly officials bc they hurt me and fills a cave with pic #ture perfect statues of me and treats me with more love in one day than most people receive in their entire life and kills anyone who even #slightly annoys me #otherwise whats the point yk #“wdym you can only defeat 22 heavenly officials and arent the ghost king” #“and you think youre good enough for me?” #i say whilst binging tgcf for the third time in the jp dub having done nothing productive during my summer break #with my most important career deciding exams next year #not even joking im rewatching all of tgcf in the english dub and im kver halfway through #once im done jp dub is next #👍👍👍👍👍 #mxtx tgcf #tgcf #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #hua cheng #tgcf hua cheng #i am down bad #a

[tamagotchikgs]

i try my best not to think of it and i havent in years but the fact the only people who were ever supposed to be my friends irl would always dump their love on me and then to leave me & say they dont like me over and over and over again only so they could watch my reaction n make fun of me together maybe did affect me huh

#i am normal i am not affected ii do not see ◡_◡ #[distant sounds of me crying & screaming && gasping for air &&& ripping myself to shreds like a bear] #i was always an autistic lil freak who didnt speak so i guess i shouldnt be surprised #but like. i always just wanted them to like me #i always just wanted the chance to like them back and let be allowed. always just wanted someone to be pals with. someone i could trust to #have my back for once vs everything else #i remember such a specific moment right #and we were going on a roadtrip w her and one i already had #and they ended up talking before we left #the worst part is i had to keep seeing them. i had to just keep reliving the humiliation over n over again n it got so deep in me #& the og one had a plan that we would sit together in the back n n we had like. tons of stuff brought we could do n snacks n all this #n then at the very last second literally as i had just sat down she was like . actually. i dont want you back here. i want her she's way be #better #and i remember so specifically she was like. LOL look at ur face.......... #and so i had to sit up front alone w nothing to do the entire ride but listen to them make fun of me for it #i feel like it would be better if they had left it at that but then they always came back n treated me so sweetly so i was like . ok i have #a chance #maybe they do like me #like the same girl went on to share cookies she had bought w me and we sat on the lawn for hours hanging out n eating them #and then she did it again #and again #but i was so alone in the world otherwise that i stayed #for years n years #my therapist always talks about how because of how long ive had anxiety means itll take either equally as long or longer to recover #and all i can think ab is how i lived with everything horrible at home #always just wanting to escape #to living through bad things outside of it too #just piling on top #from 6-16 #and i kept going back

[maschotch]

A Taste Beyond Comprehension

day six: sweet treats

part two of my “hotch is good at everything” hc. penelope’s a little jealous, but it’s outweighed (and outnumbered) by the team’s bewilderment. i tried actually writing fucking dialogue since i realized i hadn’t done that yet, so it was kind of a last minute addition. anyway. pretend this isn’t a day late

Hotch was a good baker.

Not a lot of people would’ve guessed that about him, but if you thought about it a little bit, it’s really not that much of a surprise.

It’s meticulous. Precise. Everything is about following every rule to the letter. It requires patience.

It’s right up Hotch’s alley.

Penelope was the one known for bringing tasty treats to the BAU. She enjoyed cooking for others; she would recipe test weekly, and whatever passed inspection would get mass produced and left on the break table or communal fridge. It was an irregular, but common, tradition.

Common enough that no one questioned it when a platter piled with cookies showed up one day in the kitchenette. Or the next week when a dozen pounds of fudge appeared on the counter. Or the following week when there were stacks of tupperware filled with cupcakes.

Penelope was a little confused when a passing agent would compliment her on her latest creation, but quickly brushed it aside. It wasn’t until the third week of undue praise that she asked Derek if he knew what they were talking about.

She didn’t leave the batcave often—especially when the others were out on a case—and even when she did she was either in the round table room or hovering around her friends’ desks. She rarely had reason to be in the break area, other than the times she dropped off food.

So it came as a bit of a shock to them all when she admitted she hadn’t brought anything recently. Curious, with nothing better to do and a laughable social life, they decided to attempt to ferret out the resident baker.

It took a few days of arriving hours early and staking out the breakroom (they had duos on a daily rotation: Penelope and Derek were today’s) until they finally saw Hotch walk in with a tin of brownies.

They thought they were delirious at first. The others definitely did when they broke the news. They sat on their desks in a circle, uncharacteristically silent, lost in thought as they imagined Aaron Hotchner baking. It was painfully domestic; certainly not unreasonable—they knew he had a family, after all—but such a stark contrast to their mental image of their powerful leader. It took nearly an hour for each of them to shake off their stupor and they resumed the huddle to determine their next move.

The confrontation was as boisterous as expected: not by Hotch, mind you, but by the gaggle of excitable agents tripping over each other to get into his office like crabs trying to get out of a bucket. The small room was suddenly very crowded.

“…Can I help you?” Hotch asked warily, raising an eyebrow as the commotion settled.

For once they were quiet, eyeing each other waiting for someone else to say something first. JJ was ultimately the one to muster the courage and blurt out, “Do you bake?”

It was more of an accusation than a question, and Hotch’s face remained impassive, though he felt a hint of a tug on his lips. So that’s what this was about. “Yes.”

They all knew better than to expect him to elaborate on his own. Emily shouldered her way through Reid and Morgan to stand in front. “And you’ve been bringing stuff here? To the BAU?”

Another question that wasn’t a question. Hotch simply nodded.

Penelope huffed, growing a little impatient and admittedly a little peeved that someone else—their unit chief, no less—had been providing food for the rest of the team. Good food. She’d always been better at cooking than baking, and it was a little embarrassing to be outdone by someone she forgot even ate food. “Any particular reason?” Morgan asked, smartly phrasing it in a way that would garner an actual response.

Hotch shrugged noncommittally, acting as if nothing was out of the ordinary. If they squinted hard enough, it almost seemed like he was smug. The nerve.  “Jack’s been wanting to bake more often. He’s trying to figure out what to bring for the class party. It’s too much for just the two of us.”

“Why didn’t you say anything?” He could hear Emily smile more than he could see it, which should’ve been enough of an answer in itself. He knew he would be teased no matter what he said, and he wasn’t interested in encouraging them. He remained silent.

Reid, practically married to the coffee machine therefore in the break room constantly, ran through his recollections of food available in recent months. “Did you bring the sugar cookies last June?”

Hotch nodded curtly, growing tired of questions they knew the answers to. If it was possible for five people to collectively wince, they would have. They knew they would wear down his patience eventually. They probably had about a handful of questions left before he sent them away.

“How long have you been baking?”

He stared at the ceiling for a moment, silently counting. “About 25 years.”

“Oh shit,” Emily hissed quietly, earning an elbow in the gut from JJ. Though none of them could really fault her for voicing their surprise.

The interrogation continued. “Have you brought food before?”

“Yes.”

“How long have you been bringing food?”

Hotch jutted his chin towards Rossi’s office. “More in the early days. Didn’t have much time when I was adjusting to the unit chief workload. But I still do every once and a while.”

Reid was making a mental note of all the times there had been baked goods waiting in the breakroom. He locked eyes with Penelope and they silently agreed to go over the list later to check what she had/hadn’t brought and figure out what exactly their esteemed leader fed them.  

“What else can you make?”  

Another shrug, but this one was laced with barely perceivable exasperation. Their time was running out.

An energy sizzled in the air as they all feverishly whittled down their curiosities, trying to decide what to prioritize. It was only a handful of seconds, but with their minds were working overdrive, it might as well have been hours.

Morgan ultimately made the final request. “Will you make something for us?”

A pause. The other silently approved the question, but they feared all they’d receive in return would be a blank glare. But it was worth a shot. It opened the door for future discussions, which they knew wouldn’t go unnoticed by the senior profiler.

The next few seconds were excruciating before he finally replied. “What would you like?”

If the room was buzzing before, it was positively electric now. They turned to each other and whispered in a hushed deliberation. They hadn’t really considered the possibility that they would have options. Seemingly endless options if his vague responses were anything to go by—a known indicator of Hotch’s humility. He was likely more skilled than they previously thought. It was impossible to decide.

“Can we ask later?” They were all wide eyed, brimming with hope and practically pouting. It wasn’t dissimilar to Jack’s kindergarten class.

Hotch hummed and waved them off with one hand as he returned to the paperwork on his desk, taking care not to smile until the door closed behind them.

#cm fic #cm fics #cm writing #cm writings #once again too lazy to look up my own tagging system #curse these fall days #aaron hotchner #penelope garcia #derek morgan #emily prentiss #jennifer jareau #spencer reid #(normally i wouldn't bother tagging them all since they're barely in it but they do ACTUALLy say words so :///) #akjahglajksdf i've been reading other fics lately for ~inspiration~ and boy howdy all its doin is reminding me how bad of a writer i am lmao #i'm trying not to reread these otherwise i'll delete them #i want to COMMIT who CARES if theyre bad >>>>:( #its already humiliating enough having a dedicated cm blog. might as well post shitty fic

[tyrannuspitch]

👻

👻 What is your wildest headcanon?

oh god. okay. so. last year i learnt the term ergi, which for the uninitiated is defined as follows: unmanly dishonour in an old norse (*inspired) context, especially being penetrated during sex (but also other things like cowardice, servility, and practicing women's magic.)

and i started trying to Extrapolate a whole hypothetical culture from this.

like, it's easy to say that that's straightforwardly "it's okay if you're on top". but if the predominate attitude is that it's always acceptable to be the top and never acceptable to be the bottom, AND honourable = masc = strong while dishonourable = fem = weak, AND m/m sex is frequently framed in terms of domination, conquest, or even punishment... then you're probably going to end up with a society with an absolutely awful attitude towards consent. a society with basically no distinction, in the common understanding, between gay sex and rape.

so. i take this framing. i take mcu thor, who embodies a lot of his society's worst ideas but always in the most noble, well-intentioned way... and we end up with a guy who thinks gay sex is wrong because it's always homophobic rape.

like. the ambient cultural attitude is. topping a guy is an act of violence, but it's fine, because if you "let" it happen you, you must deserve it.

while thor's personal attitude is. topping a guy is an act of violence, so no-one can possibly genuinely want it to happen to him, so it's always just about taking advantage of someone weaker than you, so it's always wrong.

and, vitally, the category of weakness in thor's mind includes queerness. (and he doesn't think of tops as queer!) so if anyone says some queer guys DO want it, he dismisses that as a mocking / victim-blaming myth. and if a queer guy looks him in the eye and says no i promise you i really do want it, his brain short circuits and then he goes. oh no this man is full of self-loathing or perhaps insanity :( and it would still be terribly wrong of anyone to exploit that :(

(what does he think queer guys do want? idfk. non-penetrative sex, probably, but also, being queer is a tragic misfortune and not necessarily functional, so maybe they are just all self-destructive and crazy. also don't ask his opinion on grey areas of penetrative-ness because he just has not thought that hard about it.)

(also, thor's definition of queerness-as-identity being less tied to penetration means it's more tied to generalised femininity. which also means he is not allowed to desire men, because he's not fem, so obviously he wouldn't be The Victim, so that would be evil of him. (does he like men? idfk. but if he did he'd be having a truly awful time with it!))

basically: thor is deranged <3

to be clear, i don't think thor's attitude necessarily stays here. i think this is his attitude as quite a young adult (up to ~18-20?) but eventually one way or another he is confronted with the real world and it has to crumble. but. god it's fun in its bizarre way. what's wrong with that man <3

also. not a historian. no idea if this is how anyone in the real world has ever actually thought. but i'm dealing with a hypothetical society here so their attitudes can be literally anything i find interesting.

fanfic writer ask game 💕

#space viking tag #rape mention #homophobia mention #i had to think about this weirdly long i was like 'oh i don't have any weird headcanons really :-)' and then i remembered. This. #this idea was developed in a fic i tried writing once #wherein thor accidentally walked in on loki and another guy and obviously. freaked out. like almost murderous levels of freaking out #(kind of riffing on a common wish fulfilment thing of someone doing everything they can to persuade the mc their rape rlly was rape) #(but like. What If It Really Wasn't. that would be terrifying right) #and it was the most viscerally uncomfortable thing i've ever written lmao #no idea if i'll ever return to it. it is interesting but also. [winces] #like the exploration of queerness is somewhat unique but. otherwise? #there are less Humiliating ways to explore thor being sinisterly overprotective. idk #meta #ch: thor #r: loki + thor #th: gender + sexuality #th: ergi #th: worldbuilding #s: myth + history #highlights

[ozlices]

im like sincerely so sorry bc my most shameful flaw is that envy is one of my favorite characters in the entirety of fma which is like. listen it's genuinely irredeemable but she knew exactly what she was doing when she made envy the pinnacle of gender envy bc my non-binary ass is NOT immune to feeling the gender envy to the highest degree for that little freak

#mine #i feel less ashamed for being hornee abt shin tsukimi do u understand. how humiliating that is. #literally dont even perceive me this is my greatest sin ok AT LEAST IM SELF AWARE #THEY LITERALLY DO ALL THE MOST HEINOUS SHIT IN THE ENTIRE SERIES NEXT TO KIMBLEE #AND THEY /BOTH/ GET OFF ON IT TOO WHICH MAKES IT WORSE #BUT THEYRE JUST SO PAINFULLY GENDER IM TOO WEAK TO RESIST #i want their voice. i want it so bad it's so painful i hate them so much. but i also adore them. and hate myself for that #she was targeting ME SPECIFICALLY when she made them frfrfrfr #fma #i hesitate to even put this in a tag but i feel like other trans ppl will get it. right. u get it right or am i just a lonesome fool #also. js. i hate kimblee. i fucking DESPISE kimblee actually. worst piece of shit ever in the whole series. #i actually got mad bc i forgot just how long he lasts in the series. FAR TOO LONG IF U ASK ME. #& also. i. feel like. i should get points too bc envy is rly the only absolute irredeemable piece of shit i actually enjoy #bc usually. i am a sheep. & i HATE them. but. i am also a sheep. to gender envy. sooooo. unsurprising exception. #but like otherwise unless u wanna count like my man dracula from castlevania which i feel like is not comparable bc he was VALID #envy is the only villain i actually truly like. any other 'villain' i like is more... morally grey. or. understandable. u know. u get it. #anyway. dont ever perceive me for this im ashamed #& also no the irony of having the mention of jealousy/envy as a my most strict boundary & yet having the literal embodiment of envy #as one of my fav characters in my favorite anime of all time is not lost on me. i am a walking contradiction we all know this #at least they're not THE favorite. u can take a very predictable guess on who that title goes to

[sheilaerinniperonista]

being poor sucks sometimes I wanna have expendable income but rent is due.

#fugo.txt #this isnt even about some of my most unrealistic material wants either #like the one giorno figure that i cried over never being able to own #this is about not being able to buy MINECRAFT bc it's over 10k #I'm actually so upset i know its dumb but it makes so so upset to know im gonna be a slave to the machine #im gonna start working abroad online for yankis. its fucking humiliating to do it but im tired of having to choose between food or rent #and not having a single peso to spend on things i actually love doing #this is why people who cry about piracy should kts btw. aw i should buy it?? the thing worth 11.300 pesos?? bc its immoral otherwise? die

[chirpsythismorning]

Mike being the OG protagonist + Will having some girl crushing on him almost every season, tells me everything I need to know...

#byler #the protagonist's love interest is almost always framed as being wanted by everyone #they're framed as unattainable basically #bc they could literally have anyone #and so why you? #you could make the argument that its meant to hint at will not liking girls... #but the first mention we get of a girl liking will... #will isn't even present for it? and the boys assume he would be excited about it...? #the boys are all reacting to it including mike #s2 girl incident heavily involved mike.. #this is what I was thinking about the other day too #bc lucas tries to call out mike by saying he's just blind bc he likes that a girl isn't grossed out by him... #mike is seen as weird and a nerd by girls in his hometown #no girl was going to walk up to him to dance that night at the snowball #even dustin had to get humiliated trying to ask a girl #lucas was fortunate enough to have met max and now they were getting together #otherwise #the only one in their group to get asked to dance by a girl casually #was will #WILL PULLS bitches! #and mike is there to witness it half the time #in s4 mike isn't there and so i think that moment was meant for us to start to fully realize will wasn't attracted to girls #but then she just so happens to have the same hair as mike and be in the same pose as him in the junkward during the triple take #like the madness never really ends #will is the love interest!!! #why do you think he's glowing all the time!?!!?!?!? #why introduce him from the beginning as liked by the most popular girl in school like it's just such a weird choice #but not if he's the protagonists love interest... #mike being jealous of max and her friendship bond with el in s3 #i've connected the dots