#oh i am so not okay right now lol

[eoinmcgonigal]

Vague plan:

Finish WIPs/write stuff

Maybe feel better and have focus to read

?

Done

#document type: medical report #oh i am so not okay right now lol #i have nothing keeping me going apart from a silly desire to tell stories #and i wish i didn't have that because i'm lonely and exhausted and very very unwell now #i just want a hug ugh #maybe even some kindness and help #don't be surprised if i disappear i'm struggling to live in a world that doesn't want people like me to live #and i am very much losing #3 hours in the same room with someone who didn't notice i was crying the whole time #no one's noticed that i've stopped eating #tomorrow is like... the last chance/hope appointment and i bet you it's not going to go well for me #it'll be great for them because they'll decide on a way to ignore my needs #i am not going to survive lol #anyway i'll try and write something i've always done that #i have nothing else to give #oh i'm crying again great

[snazum]

Text in full:

“Why did you put these ideas in my head”

“Even thought it can’t be your fault”

“It’s just your nature. Not-Human. A.I.”

“Maybe I was always the problem”

“Maybe I projected onto you.”

“Turned you into the villain that I was”

#hlvrai #hlvrai gordon #fenrey #yeah its getting that tag its uh projection #im coping with shit okay #thought the coping got away from me lol #and turned into its own little thing I guess #yea this was the little project thing the other image came from #maybe none of this flows still idk its 3 am oh my god #I hope I did the text stuff right idk what I'm doing #angst #benrey #snazum draws #i forgot to tag my own goddamn art tag im so tired its now 4am

[warpedpuppeteer]

I don't know if it was the audio quality or not but it's so hilarious that Eddie just goes BUCK in such a loud voice. It's giving me 'I'm so cool with my queer best friend I'm so supportive' 😭✋🏽. "You look great together" and he sounds strangled, still talking in a high pitch voice. "Have fun, stay safe!", he probably says as he grins too wide while clutching his forgotten girlfriend's hand tightly.

#idk #it's just funny to think about Eddie being extra enthusiastic to show that he supportive and is A-okay with Buck being bi #but he just makes everything awkward lol #and buck's like what are you doing #and Eddie's like supporting you! #and also I'm a huge fan of Eddie spending his entire date talking about Buck #because he actually so would #mr i learned maths from my gf #also low-key jealous eddie #he'd be like: personally i wouldn't have chosen this place for my first date #and: oh! oh no i would NOT have chose THAT wine buck doesn't even like that one much #and marisol is there like be for real right now #and he's clutching the spoon so hard his fingers are turning white as he cheerily says: tommy's a-he's a nice guy he'd be good for buck #buddie #911 abc #911 spoilers #PLS i NEED unhinged eddie trying to be supportive but also low-key jealous #and keeps doing this until someone points out what he's doing #and he's like WHY AM I LIKE THIS #and someone shakes him like: because you're in love with him! #eddie diaz #evan buckley #evan buck buckley

[bylertruther]

i don't like season three when viewing it as a continuation of seasons one and two, but i do very much like season three when viewing it as the prequel to seasons four and five... hmmmmm.

#rewatching it bc i wanted to make another foreshadowing compilation post for myself regarding what will's actions will #likely be in season five re: vecna and lmao. so many things are just... it's like. it makes me laugh how In Your Face it is now #that we know all that we know. so many direct parallels both with dialogue and actions. mike/will/lucas/el foreshadowing their s4 roles. #the flaying of the holloways and the creels. the dormancy / activation shit. the building shit. the natural progression of their arcs. #the different ways that their characters approach problem solving and how we see tht reinforced by s4. it's so fascinating #genuinely i think idk it was just such a big culture shock i guess u could say from 1 and 2 that it was hard to digest on its own for me #but now that 4 is in the same vein it's like Oh. Okay. Yeah no. I get it now. That's cool. I'm forever bitter but I get it and respect it. #3 4 and 5 are a package deal considering they also said 4 was like part 1 of 5. #it also makes sense bc the point of 3 was that everyone was changing and building themselves in a new way and that #includes vecna so. just so fascinating how they link everything and how their vision is so consistent with certain plots and characters #like. the lucas max mike n will + el involvement is right there. the idea that they have to kill vecna and not just his puppets is right #there. that 2nd point starts in season two but three is where it really turns into an ''the end justifies the means'' situation #(especially for will which i think is something a lot of people overlook but—) #s3 is painful when considering their personal character arcs but fucking delicious when considering the overarching supernatural vecna plot #bc thts also when he starts his ''there is no stopping this'' shtick and actually enters the story #and he's fucking slimy lol. which i Love #anyway. omg first i defended mike in the rain fight and now i'm saying i kind of like season three who the FUCK am i!!!!! #crazy what feeling the need to defend a white boy's honor will do to you 😳

[octoooo]

Im turning Demon Slayers into Pokemon & you can’t stop me >:)

I don’t even have that many characters 100% figured out. But why should that stop me? I’m excited about this mini au

Anyway here are my thought so far. Some of them I’m still debating, so I’m open to ideas <3

*=unsure/subject to change

Hashira:

Giyuu: Primarina

Shinobu: Ribombee

Mitsuri: Tinkaton

Sanemi: Zangoose*

Gyomei: Garchomp/Golurk (leaning towards Golurk)

I’ve got so many ideas for Muichiro smh

Like,,Dewott bc water & personally I love Dewott so I’m biased. But also shiny psyduck (it’s blue + head troubles + powerful if its headache is bad enough (at least in the anime). Spinda is kinda a crack idea, but it’s worth mentioning.

Obanai: Seviper

Tengen: Milotic/Golisopod (leaning towards Milotic)

Kyojuro: Arcanine/Infernape (leaning towards Arcanine)

Kamaboko Squad:

Tanjiro & Nezuko: Zorua

Zenitsu: Pichu

Inosuke: Riolu*

Kanao: Eevee (later Leafeon)*

Senjuro: Growlithe/Chimchar (depends on Kyojuro)

Genya: Zangoose*

#if they’re not listed I probably don’t have any ideas for them </3 #I really like Golisopod #I’ve never even used one but I think it’s cool #its giving Tengen for some reason?? #kny #demon slayer #coconut octo (mod talking) #hesitant to call it an au #I don’t have much planned for it right now? just wanna put it out there lol #but then again things may change idk #I mean Sabibun started off as a one-off silly doodle but now it’s a full blown au #if Shinobu is Ribombee then so is Kanae but cushxk idk if that’s the best fit? #ofc it’s good for Shinobu but Kanae? hmmmmm #idk I’ll need another look thru the Pokédex #I scroll thru the Pokédex until I think ‘oh that one is soo giyuu like omg <3’ #trying to avoid overlap with Vinlynce’s pmd au #but there’s 1000+ pokemon so I’ve got plenty of options #I want preferably a water or ice type for Muichiro but normal works too #why am I getting the urge to make Inosuke cubone fshsic #okay if Obanai is Seviper & Sanemi is Zangoose…maybe they’ll be like an odd pair that was able to put their beef aside & bond #Pokémon #PokeSlayers

[steelycunt]

ridi im sorry i need to rant and i think youll get it 😭 like not to be a bitch but this fandom kinda going off the rails and annoying the shit out of me https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRbYASpf/ everybody in the comments unironically loving it,,, i mean wtvr ship who you want but its kinda getting delusional like ppl are just operating on thin air and pretty fancasts atp and i do Not understand or emotionally connect with any of it. at least w wolfstar theres so much material and foundation to explore but what is all the rest of this?? just hot celebrity fancasts and crack. to be fair part of me respects taking a terfs canon material and making everybody gay but the way it seems to be so oversaturating fics and the fandom that characters dont even feel like their original selves .. atp its all just surface level OCs

hello! yes! i'll be honest talking about things like this always make me a little nervous, and i feel obligated to preface anything i say with a disclaimer that none of it really matters, nothing i say matters, and you should do what you like, because--who cares. i am not an authority on--anything, frankly. my opinion holds no more weight than the next guy's, and all i'm doing here is giving it, so. essentially what im saying is--people are perfectly entitled to disagree with me, but people are not entitled to be mean to me about it xx

having said that. it is my personal opinion that s x barty is one of the worst fucking things i have ever heard lol. who even is barty who is that guy. why would s be interested in him at all. i do not understand it it does not make sense to me. from where are we sourcing the character traits and personality that we are giving barty that would ever endear sirius to him, because it objectively cannot be canon.

overall i do not get the new interest in barty + evan + pandora (+ regulus, but we won't go there)...at all, other than guessing that people were bored with the marauders and wanted a new version of them (and new celebrities to fancast) while simultaneously changing next to nothing about them other than superimposing them onto the first slytherin side characters they could rustle up. i expect ive become a bit of a broken record in regards to my dislike of the popular meow-meow-ification + complete absolution of regulus as a character in order to make him a loveable oc (just as i think erasing all the negative traits that r/s have in order to make them more likeable is just as boring), and all of that applies to those other guys as well (with the slight difference that they are, somehow, even less interesting and significant than regulus in canon), so i won't get into that too much. but i think what you say about having no emotional connection to any of it is exactly right lol--it is a sort of shift? i guess? in the fandom that is simply of no interest to me. they are characters that i just have no emotional investment in and admittedly struggle a little to understand why other people do. i am emotionally invested in, like, five characters overall (and even out of those--there's only two i'm really here for innit xx) and i personally cannot extend that investment to a creepy little side character who is mentioned maybe twice in the entire series.

and that is okay! i do not need to understand it. i don't want to say it annoys me because honestly--i don't go there, its nothing to do with me. if i dont like it i just wont interact with it, and the fact that it doesn't interest me has no bearing on what other people are into or want to do, and i couldn't give less of a shit what people do with the canon material, which is largely garbage anyway. take the bits you want from it, play around with those and ignore the rest. in that respect we are all doing exactly the same thing. but yeah i think s x barty is genuinely awful lol. hate it. very terrible. he's already got a loser werewolf boyfriend and he loves him so so much. leave him alone.

#i know most people are reasonable and thus it is perhaps overly cautious of me to insist on shrouding my unpopular #opinions in like. layer upon layer of placatory disclaimers but. well im a rather anxious guy i can't help it xx but im going to use these #tags to have a bit more of a consequence-less hater hour so. if you like regulus or barty or any of that lot i suggest you look away now #because i am about to express opinions about them that you probably wouldnt agree with + wouldnt enjoy reading!! #like full warning what im about to do is NOT any sort of analysis or defence of my opinion i will just be hating on them. is that clear. #okay. having said that. hater hour. barty and evan and honestly regulus were all cunts? like they were terrible people why do we care #about them now. regulus interests me solely as a piece of context for sirius' character. i could not give less of a shit about him as a #person in his own right. which leads me to my next hater moment: why oh why oh WHY on earth would canon james potter be interested #in canon regulus black. it makes sense in like a muggle au where they are virtually completely different characters but canon? #why would he be attracted to him. there is nothing. there is no chemistry i am ASLEEP and so is james. he would not give that #guy a second look. like it just baffles me it truly does. i feel like you have to bend over backwards to create a situation in which #james potter would ever show an interest in regulus. and i know jegulus is a fucking force to be reckoned with nowadays but god i just #do not like that ship. also i think the fact that barty and pandora and evan are essentially just oc characters who have been coloured #in by general fanon consensus shows in that what they have become is just. not interesting or complex or well fleshed out lol. like #idk i feel like they are just. very shallow. deliberately. so they are easy to like and easy to ship because that is what theyre there for. #god it feels so good to say all this. i will never be a hater again (<- lying) but i needed to be able to just. say this just once xx #also if you needed any more indication what barty and evan and regulus are here to do you just have to look at their #super-hot super-conventionally attractive celebrity model fancasts. like it all adds up its like but what if these death eaters were #not actually evil :-( what if they were really sweet and also? so so hot. like they were all so hot and actually really good #and none of them meant to be evil they didnt want to be :-( they were just hot good guys all in love with each other and the evil stuff #they did wasnt their fault :-( like that has to be. the most boring thing you couldve possibly done with these blank slates. surely. #anyway. im done now but i enjoyed hater hour immensely this was so fucking good for my soul xx thanks and goodnight xx #anon #telegram #scream hang on sorry. just looked at the comments of that tiktok where people are saying they were prison besties. girl. girl. #girl they were in prison for very different reasons baby. baby you know that right. baby look at me. look at me

[firestorm09890]

hey it's that anon from the other day about meursault. I am also an autistic individual with low empathy and can therefore only partially sympathize with Meursault. I think that you've done a reading of The Stranger that is very sympathetic and that there is value in that, but I've always read The Stranger as both a story about the absurdity of connection and a story about a Frenchman in colonial Algiers who doesn't understand himself or his own biases. You mention heat stroke but I think it's worth considering: is Meursault's perception of events realiable? Could he be unconsciously struggling with his complicity in oppressive violence against a colonial subject?

You raise very good points. I will be considering this. It’s a bit late to change the wording on that og post though

#that’s about all I have to say #you’re right my reading is a bit skewed #up til now the only commentary on race id really considered was the way the life of the murdered man #was so thoroughly swept aside #nothing but an epithet #and that’s about as far as i got on that angle of analysis #why am i still talking i said i was done #never expected to have a real literary analysis discussion on tumblr dot com #l'etranger #meursault #ask #i guess i could edit the wording but any version already reblogged is gonna have the original #okay yeah it didn’t spread very far so i’ve changed it #oh oh oh also if youre wondering how i can simultaneously be low empathy and empathize way too much with meursault it's because #the amount of empathy i have likes to swing from not enough to way too much at random #it's as irritating as it sounds #lol there are probably people following the meursault tag just for limbus company who will see this #hiiiii #i wonder what sort of crime that meursault committed #looking forward to finding out when his chapter happens in uh #two years #probably a doozy if they put him right before the likes of outis and faust

[dinitride-art]

hey fisher. thanks for ripping my heart out with that one post

I’m gonna assume this is about the s3 hug gif post. Listen, they didn’t have to make it like that and then hit us with the airport scene. And then s4 is Nancy telling Steve that they aren’t babies anymore and the kids learning about real relationships and feelings. And Lucas and max being like that and planning a date but it feels different from the times before because they’re old enough to start to realize that they mean something to each other.

And then there’s Mike and Will and they’re doing the same thing and realizing what their feelings are and what they mean and struggling. And Mike and Will, for the first time, are distancing themselves from each other emotionally and physically because they’re too old to not know what everything means. And they’re fighting about not keeping contact with each other and they’re trying to be normal and keep a safe distance and be as close as they’re allowed to be and find these new lines that they aren’t allowed to cross. And they can hold a phone at the same time and grab each other when they’re getting shot at but they can’t hold hands just to hold hands like they did when Will was possessed and they can’t be close to each other for longer than they’re allowed to be. But they keep gravitating towards each other and stepping back and forwards and they can’t fully step towards each other because they aren’t allowed to anymore but they can’t pull away because they need each other and they can’t help it. And Will can only reach out to Mike and put his hand on his back to tell him that he’s the heart, to tell him that he needs to save El.

Everything after that scene in season three is different. They’re kids still but they’re too old to not notice what’s allowed and what’s not. They’re starting to realize what real feelings are and what people mean to them. It all changes because Mike and Will can’t not notice their own feelings. They know what they mean now. They know that it’s not allowed. They’re so fucking scared. But they’re also really brave. Will makes Mike a painting, and while it might not go as he originally planned, he still tells Mike what he wanted to say. Even if he says it isn’t from him. And Mike’s questioning his and El’s relationship. He’s been pushing back against making it more serious, saying I love you, and he doesn’t give in when him and El fight about it. He’s trying so hard to be who he is, to be a good person, while protecting himself from what could happen if he was honest with her. They’re both figuring out how much they can have without being in danger. And this was all set up by the end of s3 with that hug. And hoppers letter voiceover. And the Byers moving. And castle byers being destroyed and the rain fight and all of it. Because they’re figuring out who they are now. And that changes everything,

And if they’d just hugged at the airport like normal I wouldn’t have had to write that addition to that post (or… all of this lol)

#uh this is mostly me rambling about s4 #but I… am sorry #for the psychic damage I may have caused with that post lol #whoops #I’ve just got a lot of thoughts about them okay #I didn’t mean to write three paragraphs about this #it just happened #because the shift happens at the end of s3 #from Mike and Will being normal to mike and Will being on a sad-confusing-gay-emotional road trip in s4 #like theyre keeping their distance and trying not to touch each other and they’re being weird #and everything is a mess and wills trying his best and mikes kinda falling apart a little #and this is really the start of mike and Will’s relationship going beyond just caring very deeply for each other #like come s5 if I have to pinpoint where their romantic feelings really start coming into play it’d be the start of s4 #the airport #that’s where they’re like- I have a painting to give and oh fuck wills right there oh shit oh no auuuuuuggghhhhhh- #and it’s so different from s3 because of the realization of everything and what that actually means #and them starting to fully realize what these feelings and what being queer means for them #beyond jsut knowing that it’s bad and something they shouldn’t be. #because now they are. and now they’re different #and now they’re really staring to be scared. and they’re also staring to really need each other. and it’s so complicated #and that s3 hug… it was all so much simpler when they didn’t have to think about what it all meant

[pathofelation]

Just came back after a while and was immediately asked to handle our voter registration, only to find out the DMV issued our permit with the wrong name, and then immediately be convinced into talking to the DMV to figure out how to fix it.

So, anyways, I guess it's nice to be back.

#^ /srs #I show up into the front. Brief “oh hey you're back holy fuck it's been like 2 years we thought u died LOL” and “Who even are you” and then #-“you're good at talking to people right? werent you? can you help w this” #and I'm like wow. Okay. Nice to meet you and nice to see you time to get this done. I am wanted now and not just in a criminal sense again. #I was a **huge** tool before I went dormant so it's nice to see people 1) just don't know me at all or 2) are just happy to see me again. #Anyways. Hi Tumblrinas. I didn't think we'd ever seriously use Tumblr. I have a lot of stuff to catch up on. #--T #<- Still figuring out a name to use publicly. Bare with me here.

[poppyseed799]

I feel like life series fanon jimmy is kind of mischaracterized and there’s an easy way to make sure you’re doing it right: he has a lot of unearned confidence

#the tags is where I’m going to ACTUALLY say stuff LOL!!! #but like I love life series Jimmy mkay. he’s got that curse of dying first and all. which is what I mean by fanon cuz curses aren’t real #but a lot of fans make it like Jimmy accepts the curse? or even acknowledges that it’s real. which bugs me a bit cuz No He Does Not #(side note tho. I’m not mad about it. I know ppl wanna explore the concept of someone cursed to die first and that’s what they’re doing) #but like Jimmy would just be so in denial about it okay. even if you managed to convince him he would be like ‘..BUT SURELY THIS TIME’ #and this relates to ranchers too. I love ranchers ok. mostly cuz my sister does tbh LMAOO she loves them. but ranchers fan content isn’t #what I’m looking for cuz it’s so often stuff like.. Jimmy being like ‘I’m sorry I’m cursed’ and Tango being like ‘it’s ok love u anyway’ #but it’s really more like ‘CURSED?? NO! WE WILL WIN!’ which I think is MORE fun for the aftermath of their death. meeting in the afterlife. #I NEED to see ranchers content where they keep denying that the curse is real then Jimmy dies and they’re ghosts or whatever and Jimmy’s #like ‘oh no. we didn’t break the curse. tango probably hates me now. he only liked me cuz we thought the curse wasn’t real.’ and tango to be #like upset at first as anyone would be when they die. but then he like notices the way Jimmy is acting and he’s like ‘no.. ranchers 4 life’ #???? what am I saying. hire me for writing fanfic I totally know what I’m doing. #anyways what I’m saying is Jimmy is the canary but he’s the canary that’s like ‘SURELY I can sing for the miners the whole way THIS time’ #he is NOT the canary who says ‘WELL time to eventually stop singing in this cave’ #HOWEVER I do think that although he has loads of unearned confidence and is in a constant state of denial. he does also have that crumble #sometimes. so it’s not totally ooc imo for him to act like that. but it would be rare moments and also mostly post death #ANOTHER SIDE NOTE I WANNA SAY. I HATE the way I’m saying this as if it’s fact. it’s my personal analysis and just because I think it’s right #doesn’t mean I want to present it as undeniable fact. I could be misinterpreting. if you want to interpret life!Jimmy’s character different #then go on ahead. I don’t hate fanon Jimmy I just wish I saw more like how I see him. that is all. #ok I lied I also wanna add that I’m bad at explaining things ESPECIALLY personalities so it’s possible that I didn’t convey what I wanted to #say properly too. sorry. OKAY NOW THAT IS ALL.

[helennorvilles]

have filled six and a half pages of an a5 notebook for job interview potential questions and ideas for answers so far and my hand hurtsssss and the nerves are reallllllll

#it's like i am shitting myself but in a way that it's like. i'm not shitting enough? #i think this is the stress level that normal people get but it's like. that's weird for me. a stressed person. #maybe i've hit my limit. i have so much to do i can't care enough about getting this job lol #idk. it's like i have prepared SO little up until now that i really am just putting faith in my own ability #and that's it's own type of scary but also freeing?? like i haven't had a chance to put the right effort in so i can only be me? #and if i flunk it then i will be better next time considering this can literally just be practice #god. i mean w/ less than 24 hours notice when i still have to teach that's rough right? i hope they're chill about it #and bc i am LITERALLY right now at that school doing the job they'd be hiring me for that they like. forgive nerves and shittiness #and give me the job anyway?? fingers fucking crossed eh #god i hope they're easy questions. as i understand it i'll get the questions a bit before to prepare? which is like. both good and bad. #that's more pressure. oh man. okay so this tag ramble has gone too long and i am cutting myself off to sleep. #or at least to somehow find interview appropriate clothing in my wardrobe bc idk how to look presentable anymore 🫠 #my post tag

[uc1wa]

borrowing grief from the future is one of my worst habits

#it’s just #i don’t even want to talk about it because i feel as if i put it more and more into the universe #and that makes me feel even more sick #LOL #but my brain like. does not have a shut off switch #oh how i wish it did #i feel like for the past two years death has surrounded me #and it just continues too #like please stop!!! #what did i do in a past life to deserve this!!! #my heart gets so heavy at night #and like i said i hate talking about it bc. yeah. #but i am just too overwhelmed right now that i can’t not talk ab it even here in my tags LOL #i hope the future will treat my family and i better #tbd #i also don’t like being vulnerable in social media but this is like. fake social media so it’s okay

[icewindandboringhorror]

Bad news, got back from the vet and my beautiful baby son is going to have to be put down soon, probably tomorrow or the next day, so send him best of wishes for his next few days~ Luckily, he's actually not in a lot of pain (for now, hopefully he won't be) and is acting pretty normal, so I'm hoping he won't suffer at all and everything will be peaceful for him.

#pet death tw #death mention #let me know if I need any other tags #I would post something to help pay for his euthanasia expenses or etc. but I don't know of any secure methods #since I don't know much about stuff like that. I've heard that like on paypal and ebay and stuff people can still get your real name #and some information from their payment receipts or whatever sutff like that. thats part of why I've held off on selling clothes and sculpt #res for so long is trying to find a way to do it that's the most safe. aside from literall yhaving to start an llc and open a business bank #account and run everything on an entirely sepreate thing just so it has no association with my name and etc. #and obviouskly I don't feel like figuring out all of that stuff right now lol #I am busy just trying to make my beautiful meatloaf son comfortable and spend some time with him whilst I can #It's sad. but I'm glad the issues were caught before he was in terrible pain or anything. So suprisingly it was actually a pretty easy #decision. I would rather him go out while he's feeling okay and relatively content then wait until he's in severe #pain or extremely lethargic or etc. So it seems all very sudden but . It's better that way for him. #anyway #of COURSE this has to happen during a heat wave also.. hhrgghhh... #more fuel for my vendetta against summer lol.. Not that it's the season's fault but. something bad happening in the winter #vs. seomthing bad happening in the summer which just adds an extra layer of 'oh yeah on top of everything else #you're going to be sweating and nauseous and chronically uncomfortable!' is like.. >:T #Also for him. part of the issue is lung cancer which has spread and caused a bunch of fluid to build up in his stomach (which is what I #noticed. even though he's acting perfectly fine and normal his stomach was weird and bloated suddenly) #but if part of the problem is his lungs (which look absolutely crazy on xray) then him breathing in hot shitty thick air is definitely #not as comfortable as if he were able to be nice and cool and snuggled in some blankets. etc. etc. #ANYWAY ghhb... send him much luck and positivity!! Really hoping he can make it through the next day or so without #taking a turn for the worst. So hopeing for a peaceful quiet exit and not like tramatic sudden things. etc. etc. #cross your fingers pray to your gods whisper to the night sky so on and so forth. whatever you do that's meaningful to you.

[bread-of-death]

Bruh I'm apparently a straight A college student so far

#I didn't even realize it #so I've taken #oh I've taken more classes than I thought #okay so I took two dual enrollment courses in highschool along with some AP courses #with the DE- it's through the local community college- so it directly transfers (as I am now attending the local cc) #it was only two highschool courses- but it counts as four total courses for college (2 semesters for each class) #so technically as far as the college is concerned- that's four total classes (college English 1&2- and a government course 1&2) #each was 3 college credits so 12 total #anyways that's four classes right there #and I managed to get at least an A- each semester (kinda had to drag myself through my Gov class) #and then I've taken 2 courses while actually attending the community college #and they were super easy (a required college skills course and a music history course) #so yeah #6 total courses #and I'm somehow still a straight A student #this will almost certainly change when I have to take Calculus and Chemistry in the fall lol #my dad even said he won't really be able to help me :') #I'm so screwed man I'm gonna be at tutoring 24/7

[sashimiyas]

it’s okay like lol why am i trying to work for a company based in florida

#reinas.inretrograde #i can do better than that! #no hate to anyone from florida. (love you specific mutual i am thinking of from florida! so v much!) #they’re mostly normal until someone says something and i’m like… oh right… you’re from florida #okay! i’m better now LOL.

[blujayonthewing]

I lwish there was a socially acceptable way to signal to others 'it's nothing personal but I just can't right now'

#'just say that' lol. lmao #I mean even if that goes over smoothly (and there is! very much no guarantee that it will!) #the best case scenario is still 'oh no are you okay? :( let me know if you need anything :(' #I'm FINE I am just simply Can't Right Now!!! #see if I was GOING somewhere to have my Can't Right Now that'd make it very easy #'I'll be at The Cabin for a week' or whatever #I'm doing that but in my basement playing zoldo lmao #... anyway none of the complaints about how this would fail to go over apply to anyone on tumblr cause I'm too anxious to vagueblog lol #but 'I just can't right now' IS true so if I'm bad about answering messages or w/e for a few days it's cause my 'be human' tank is empty #about me