#man I never even watched supernatural I blame tumblr for real for this one I hate you all

[persephonaae]

So guess who misread this Turkey logo and almost had a fucking fit

#man I never even watched supernatural I blame tumblr for real for this one I hate you all

[googledocsdyke]

Do you have any thoughts/recommended texts for Cas analysis? I genuinely love the dean gender studies and I just wanna know what people might apply to Cas.

yes absolutely!! while dean studies is my first love i also deeply love cas analysis (casnalysis?) and wanna strive to do more of it. here’s some stuff off the top of my head:

1. gender, sexuality, heavenly embodiment

this is much more theological and less psychological than dean’s whole Deal because there’s so much fascinating stuff around how the angels in general experience express and conceptualise gender (@autisticandroids has a good post about angel gender & lily sunder has some regrets) but for cas in particular there’s this fascinating kind of collective fandom agreement (which i DO also agree with) that cas’ own gender kind of is gay man, that he actively chose gay manhood, but also that he’s kind of..... lacking the Insane Genderishness that dean exhibits at all times, even though he actively chose to engage in male gendering and became so comfortable housed Within Jimmy that he, as some post i saw the other day that i can’t find anymore said, “became his own body” when jimmy died. 

like on the one hand there’s an almost-canonical transness to the whole process but it also never feels fully written-into because 1) the supernatural writers for all their insanity are sometimes very boring and *most* of the time only feel interested in narratively expressing angels As Their Vessels anyways and just like leaving convenient spaces around these questions (boldest thing they ever did was hot girl cas which i WISH i had the range to unpack) 2) there’s a vague inevitabilist shrug to the whole thing since they obviously weren’t gonna recast misha collins (though they HAVE tried to get rid of him) and 3) something amorphous about cas’ entire..... personhood? makes him Empty Of Gender as a contrast to dean’s Full Of Gender (i believe it was @deanwinchestergender who said this) and like is it just the juxtaposition to dean/jensen’s whole insane Deal? or something else? 

like he actively chooses the terms of his own embodiment and yet narratively it feels like a shrug. and we’re all like “well obviously even though he’s a celestial being he was always a gay man” and like WHY. i love it idk idk much to think about! and yeah just in general the theological questions of possession and cas genuinely Becoming a man as he iterates himself consciously towards humanity it almost feels like. by doing the most boring things possible with his gender they made it interesting? idk if that makes sense.

2. discipline, free will, metanarratives

cas is like a tool (“i am not a hammer, as you say”) held in constant discipline and surveillance by the system that enmeshes him and it’s really, really fascinating to watch the way the angels hold each other to conformity. especially pre-god they kind of produce each other as foucauldian disciplinary subjects (which i posted about here) in perpetual visibility through angel radio, generating their own and each other’s conformity rather than being directly ruled through like a single centralised source of power. only the spectre of a god. and obviously cas’ whole thing is that he has ALWAYS disobeyed and the narrative affords him this psychological interiority never given to the foucauldian subject, an internal will and desire for freedom in a way that fits more with the liberal subject (super roughly and not with the same pro-capitalist implications but he has this internal drive for self-liberation. 

and that’s also where the metanarrative comes in ofc! i think it was @dykecas who said that cas is a real person written by people who hate him, and there’s this crack in the narrative (mirroring the crack in his chassis) where cas gets in, over and over, despite all the order imposed by the show’s authorfathergod. like we’ve all seen the analysis about how it was Never supposed to be this way they DID try to fire misha collins in 2012 and yet this gay man literally cannot be stopped! i think actually his appearance in scoobynatural is a neat little distillation of this — he drops into this animated world originally with a singular purpose (Save Sam And Dean) the same way he dropped into lazarus rising with a single 3-episode arc (Save Dean). huge hammer behaviour. his “utility” diminishes within the narrative (he finds that he can’t fly in the scooby doo universe) and so he is no longer a tool/means to an end that salvation moves Through. and in the process (and huge creds to @lesbianyuugi for this) he does something ENTIRELY unrelated to his original cas-as-tool aim, and learns, like, the meaning of laughter from shaggy and scooby. WHICH brings me onto the third point

3. love, queer kinship, family-making

HE’S GAY AND HE’S A DAD! i feel like a lot of tumblr throws around the term “found family” in a very flat and tropey way (which is fine it’s cute and fun no matter what!) but like . GOD there’s so much specific stuff going on here. like the way that cas (unintentionally) obliterates the midwestern white christian nuclear family (made incarnate in the novaks) which like could be uniformly portrayed as an act of deep malice and villainy but instead grows to serve as a surrogate (if imperfect/complex, but DEEPLY loving) father figure for the gay daughter who has now escaped that nuclear family/seen it destroyed depending on how you read it? like he remasters the entire concept of fatherhood and it’s a very interesting (if DEEPLY) unintentional subversion of the homewrecking non-nuclear gay trope. cas is so good because his character arc doesn’t say “look, gay people can be normal and have perfect settled families just like you” it says “gay people DON’T have normal settled families actually and they are full of love anyways! or Because of the abnormalcy itself!) 

to cite ziz lesbianyuugi again he DOES queer fatherhood in his parenting of jack particularly because it really is one of the ONLY parent-child relationships in the show that breaks the incessant cycle of abuse and control and cold indifference perpetuated by the authorfathergod (a cycle reified in 15x20 lol). like god’s treatment of cas and his siblings mirrors john’s treatment of sam and dean (particularly dean) mirrors victor’s treatment of krissy and her crew mirrors dean’s later treatment of jack. there is a CONSTANT reiteration of the story of authorfathergod (often a father tightly entwined in biological kinship) treating a child as a mechanism or a tool or a means to an end. and cas looks at ALL that he has suffered and all that he is ever known and chooses constantly to reject it with every piece of love he expresses for his child. and not to sound like the kind of academic people make fun of on twitter but there is an INHERENT queerness to that. gay love will pierce through [the veil of death/the thick silence of abuse/the mechanism of godly control/hegemonic american masculinity] and save the day

anyways here are some very haphazard recs on everything above for further reading:

angels in america (tony kushner)

histrionics of the pulpit: trans tonalities of religious enthusiasm

the public universal friend: religious enthusiasm in revolutionary america

discipline and punish (michel foucault)

friendship as a way of life (michel foucault)

the genesis of blame (recommended by @pietacastiel who has GREAT theology content in general

all about love (bell hooks)

the chapter “when hated characters talk back” in anti-fandom: dislike and hate in the digital age (is actually explicitly about cas)

also cannot recommend enough following the ppl i tagged above!! most of the unlinked stuff is available through http://libgen.li/ and bookshop is a good alternative to amazon if ur american and want physical copies

#thank you so much for this ask it was a delight to answer #spn #casnalysis #making a tag officially #gendernatural #long post

[thebigoblin]

Sterek Fic Recs Part 3

[You can find the first two lists here: Fluffy Sterek Recs & Sterek Fic Recs. Also here's a special fic, check it out]

First off, thank you all for a 100 followers!! As of September 7, 2021 you've made me feel really, really good about my obsession with two oblivious idiots (with sprinkles of the hale pack and other fandoms), and this is my way of thanking you ♥️

If you're on PC, you can see that there is a page dedicated solely to fic recs, which caters to other ships & fandoms too. So don't feel left out if you're looking for something other than Sterek!

Without further ado, let's get to it then!

an awful curse

Isaac is asleep in a chair. The angle of his neck makes Derek wince in sympathy.

"Isaac," Derek says.

Isaac snaps awake immediately.

"You're-"

"Where's Stiles?"

"Stiles?" Isaac asks.

Jesus. It's not like they know more than one.

AU - Canon Divergence | 6.3k | By blinkiesays

Throw Away The Key

Stiles knew it was stupid to go to the hunters’ headquarters all by himself, so when he finds himself caught, he can really only blame himself.

It shouldn't surprise Stiles when the situation quickly goes from bad to worse as the hunters throw him to a feral werewolf waiting to tear him apart.

Sucks that it's Derek, though.

AU - Canon Divergence | 5.9k | By mommymuffin

Whatever Happened Last Night, Why Did Glitter Have to Be Involved?

Derek rolled out of bed in search of his phone - quickly finding it in the pair of jeans that had evidently been tossed aside haphazardly on the way to the bed. Seeing the pants sparked flashes of memories - wolfsbane-laced alcohol, loud music, multicolored lights.

Peter’s new supernatural-friendly club - the pack had gone to the opening night party.

He unlocked his phone and opened the pack group chat, which Erica had affectionately named ‘Moon Sluts’.

>>Derek: What the fuck happened last night

[or: Derek wakes up with three things on his mind: he feels like he was punched by a troll, his mate is missing, and there's glitter covering his bed. Oh, and the pack group chat is mildly helpful]

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Prompt #159 - “Also, my bed has glitter in it for reasons I do not recall.”

Crack Vibes | 1.2k | By ash_mcj

Good to Eat

So if Stiles married Derek Hale, he could become Jewish too? Perfect. It was settled. Stiles gleefully shoveled a forkful of cheesy shells into his mouth.

"Uh oh. I know that look.” Claudia shook her head.

"Don’t worry, Mom, ” Stiles said, reaching for his plastic Batman cup.

"I’ve got a plan.”

"Good luck, Derek Hale,” his mother muttered.

Rude.

AU - Childhood Friends | 1.7k | By Jmeelee

Murder Brows and Avoidance Tactics

Derek gets the wrong end of the stick.

Written for prompt: "You're jealous, aren't you?"

AU - Everybody Lives | 2k | By Dragonink13

Double Vision (only registered users can read this one)

"So what caused my hearing and sense of smell to dull?"

Deaton's brow furrowed, all amusement vanishing from his face. "What do you mean?"

Derek snapped, letting loose all of his anger and fear at the man before him. "I mean I can't hear your heartbeat or the cars down below or the birds in the attic! I can't smell the flowers in Mrs. Everett's apartment, I can't smell the rotting burger in the fridge that Isaac left in there a month ago, I can't smell or hear anything like I normally can!" Deaton mouth was pressed into a thin line. "Can you explain that?!"

 Tumblr Prompt: Derek jealous of himself.

AU - Everyone Lives | 6.1k | By Novkat21

Kiss?

Derek likes kissing Stiles, honestly he does. Until he doesn't.

Fluff | 3.6k | By clotpolesonly

Oblivious Misadventures, and Other Such Tales

Going to college was exciting and new, a chance for new friends and a fresh start, and the best part was, there was a supernatural fraternity on campus, meaning Scott finally had the freedom to be himself.

Then he met the resident human who came with a stalker alpha. What was the point of a supernatural fraternity if he still had to pretend to be human. And seriously, did Stiles ever fall asleep somewhere normal?

--

(aka - Five TImes Scott Found Derek and Stiles Sleeping, and the One Time He Didn't)

AU, Supernatural is real but not known by everyone, Alive Hale Family | 11.2k | By Little Spoon

Call Me (Cliché)

When the sheriff's sister ends up in a wheelchair for the duration of summer, Stiles' dreams of three months full of pack bonding, late-night video games and bro-time with Scott come crashing down. He's temporarily relocated to Redford, a three hour drive away, and he can already tell he won't be getting many visitors.

Sure the pack will forget about him while he's gone, Stiles is determined to make the most of his summer of isolation, training his body and mind - and his magic - so he can come back with a bang, and maybe catch a certain Sourwolf's eye.

Then Derek shows up at his window one night with a flimsy excuse about needing research done. Suddenly, his summer away is looking a whole lot more interesting.

AU - Canon Divergence | 84.6k | By Orphan_Account aka the author has dissociated themselves from the fic

Shiver

Stiles has really, really cold hands. Luckily, Derek knows just what to do about that.

Established Relationship | 1.7k | By canistakahari

Derek Hale's Possible Heart

An anon sent me a sterek prompt for Laura teasing Derek and Stiles joining in, then somehow sharing their feelings for each other in the mess of things.

AU - Canon Divergence | 4.3k | By loserchildhotpants

What's a Secret Identity?

Stiles sipped at a mug of coffee, absently watching the news play in the break room. Because of course a news station couldn't play anything other than its own content, even in the one part of the office that was supposed to be a safe space from work. His interview with Superman was making a rerun and Stiles glanced at Derek before commenting absently, “I’d totally let Superman fuck me.”

Derek, who had been in the middle of a swig of coffee, choked violently, “That’s not something I needed to know at nine in the morning, Stiles.”

Stiles raised an eyebrow. “What time would you prefer I tell you about all of the things I would let Superman do to my body?”

AU, Derek is Superman | 7k | By Chrystie, imabignerd and kate882

i see that you've come so far [just like them old stars]

But her big brother’s unwillingness to touch anyone, like he thinks he doesn’t deserve it isn’t the only thing she notices. She also notices how Stiles doesn’t touch him.

Everyone reaches for Derek in some form or another, but Stiles- Stiles is something different altogether because he reaches for Derek but he never makes contact.

He’ll be trying to shimmy past Derek and instead of putting a hand on his arm like most of them do, he’ll reach out with a hand and stop it scant centimeters away from Derek’s skin.

Or they’ll be walking alongside each other and Stiles will hover a hand on Derek’s lower back.

It’s both fascinating and tragic to watch, like NASA lost control of one of their robots and instead of it landing on the moon it’s fated to gravitate around it.

AU - Canon Divergence | 2.3k | By crossroadswrite

Déjà Vu

There’s a shop in Beacon Hills that no one knows anything about except that the mysterious proprietor, a witch in whispered circles, knows what you need before you do and that the things given are always just what you need.

Derek, lost after a breakup, heads into the shop to see if he can find something to help him forget his ex. The witch gives him a potion to drink, and when Derek wakes up, he finds he’s sixteen again and there’s a new student at his school, Stiles Stilinski.

Everything is familiar and yet not, and Derek finds he’s strangely drawn to Stiles in a way that is entirely supernatural.

AU, Supernatural is Real | 8.8k | By gremlins-came-and-got-me and StaciNadia

Start Small, Like Oak Trees

The months following Allison's death have passed Stiles by in a haze of monotony. He sleepwalks through days that seem to lose their color, an unwilling passenger in a body he no longer trusts. Eventually, he thinks, he'll just fade away. He isn't sure anyone would notice. Then, during a spur of the moment grocery run, he stumbles upon Derek Hale attempting to console a lost child, and for the first time in recent memory the world doesn't seem so awful.

He's not sure what he'd been expecting when he eventually convinces Derek to move into the Stilinski's spare bedroom, but a newfound passion for weeding and topsoil certainly isn't it.

AU - Canon Divergence | 24.2k | By SmallBirds

Undercover K9

As it usually goes, Derek acts before he thinks. This time he has a good reason, though-it's all Stiles' fault. Mostly.

Or, that time when Derek volunteered to spend all his spare time as a wolf with the Beacon Hills Sheriff's Office K9 Unit, just to protect Stiles' dumb ass.

Future Fic | 17.9k | By Cobrilee

Rose Colored Glasses

“Obviou—um, what? Derek?” Stiles managed. “What? You’re not colorblind. You’re colorblind?”

“Yes.” Derek said gruffly. “And?”

“And? What do you mean and? You can’t see colors?” Stiles demanded, thrown. “Does it—what kind is it? Red-green? Blue-yellow? Why doesn’t—oh my god, is this why your entire freaking wardrobe was completely black until like two years ago? Oh my god!”

“There’s nothing wrong with having a favorite color, Stiles.”

Established Relationship | 2.2k | By SassyStarboard

1,460 Days (gotta clean my slate)

Two years after Scott becomes Alpha and Derek gives it up for Cora, Stiles gets hurt during a fight and ends up in a coma for two weeks. According to the nurse, a guy has been visiting him every day and, as much as he wishes it were Derek, it sounds a lot like Scott. Except he and Scott aren't even friends anymore.

AU - Canon Divergence | 10k | By army_of_angels

This is it for now. Happy reading y'all! ♥️

#sterek #my sterek fic recs #sterek fic recs #derek hale #stiles stilinski

[remythologise]

Hello! I found your blog via you amazingly summarizing all that's going on with the spn drama. Due to my schedules, rl stuff, some of the arcs that didn't vibe with me, my availability to find a place to watch...the rollercoaster I was used to with this fandom was more me binging it in a weekend to going months to over a year without watching it. I still haven't watched the last season(but with a fandom this big it's pretty impossible not be spoiled so I more or less know what happened) BUT oh great one I ask of thee for more information if you have it...other than being busy and whatnot, I'm not really one to keep up with the actors as well. So could you also maybe do a summary of all the stans? I'im seeing terms I haven't seen before. Who is Kelios(sp?)? Hellions?? probably messed it up but like...I guess what are the name of each legion? Who do they have alliance towards? What was their desires? Que paso?!?!?!?

Hi there! 'Some of the arcs that didn't vibe with me' me emotionally quitting Supernatural in Season 7 after they killed Castiel 😂 Anyway I totally get it, I went through the same culture shock mid-last year when I got back into SPN and tried to find where fandom was at! There's really a LOT of lore and content after 15 years though so I'll just do the broad brushstrokes based on my impressions and personal stereotypes PLEASE remember this is oversimplifying groups and individuals to tendencies and I'm very biased! Also important that there are sub-factions within sub-factions - again, I'm simplifying here!

I've also linked to the 'Super-wiki' in terms of some definitions because the Super-wiki has pages for them where the Fandom-wiki does not. Great introduction actually - only in the Supernatural fandom. There are two Supernatural wikis. One, through curation and twitter activity, supports BiBro/Wincest factions and does not support Destiel users. One is more neutral or Destiel-friendly (I don't know that the Fandom wiki has a personality/social media presence per se). You cannot make this up. There is a factional war... within use of fandom wikis.

Destiel faction

People who primarily ship Dean/Cas, love Castiel and (often, although not always) Jack, and the 'found family' of Supernatural as well as the brothers, and like the post s3 seasons too. Hated 15.19 and 15.20 for killing Dean and ignoring the other characters/narrative arc of the show. Nicknamed 'Destihellers' by the Wincest faction as a derogatory term, 'reclaimed' and shortened as 'Hellers', a nickname they use affectionately to describe each other. See more info on nicknames here.

Sometimes also ship ‘Cockles’ (the ship between Misha Collins and Jensen Ackles) although generally speaking they're more respectful of the wives of the actors than J2 shippers, who are notoriously responsible for... a vast series of insane-fan misdemeanours. Historically most were also good at keeping RPF to themselves and not harassing celebrities with it directly, although recently, particularly with younger twitter fans, that has not been the case.

Sub-factions:

The ‘Desticule’ or ‘Destiel tumblr’ - general grouping of Destiel-shipping tumblr users around 20-30 years old, usually LGBT+, most who came back to the show post-15.18 after leaving it for various reasons including getting sick of the queerbaiting. Funniest bitches alive etc. and responsible for the best text posts you’ve ever seen. Can also start stupid discourse and in-group drama when they’re bored.

'POLOL' - People of Lots of Letters, a discord group (of tumblr and twitter users) that ran on the assumption Andrew Dabb was playing a hugely intricate game of 3D chess to do with gnostic symbolism among other things, and would make Destiel canon. Have since had their own factional sub-wars and fallen apart a bit. Some of their meta was and is good and interesting! Some of it was wildly off the mark. Now generally insist that Dabb/the writers were all pushing for Destiel canon and the network is entirely to blame.

Twitter fans (TikTok edition) - younger fans around 18 and younger who (FOR REASONS BEYOND ME) started watching the show around 2018-2020. Definition of 'stans'. Tend to be very loud and aggressive on twitter when Events Happen, which like. I do get, because they've grown up in a completely different media environment and this kind of Dinosaur Politicking around LGBT+ issues is beyond them. Fancam central. Anyway stream #CASTIEL for clear skin!

Twitter fans (AO3 edition) - older fans around 30+ who kept going with the show but either don't have a large tumblr presence or just prefer twitter. A lot of fic writers, GISH-ers, and BNFs in this group. Some of them are very cool and reasonable in their opinions, some of them act like the younger stans. Some of them too accepting of what happened wrt 15.19-20 in my opinion, because, in contrast to the younger twitter stans, they grew up expecting Destiel to NEVER be canon or respected. 'Can't believe we got this far' etc.

Multiship faction

Multishippers or shippers of things not as large as the two main behemoths . Sub-factions based on shipping, e.g. Megstiel and Sastiel. I don't think these groups are very large though, and seem to have very little influence in the Discourse.

Wincest faction

LARGE overlap with the 'BiBro' faction and their opinions, which I'll get to. Ship Sam and Dean romantically. Often pretend to be BiBros on places like twitter and reddit in order for outside groups to take their opinions more seriously. 'Wincesties' etc. are derogatory nicknames given by the Destiel faction.

Sub-factions:

Multiship fans - ship Sam and Dean but respect Castiel/the 'found family'. Politically overlap with the faction of multishippers, I think. I don't have a lot of insight on this group of people honestly, but I know they exist.

Bronlies - the typical BiBro and 'Wincest' shippers most people think of, twitter user 'Kelios' is one of the would-be ringleaders of this faction - typically tend to be older white midwestern women. Historically have been pretty nasty on twitter (leading to Robert Berens, writer who made Destiel canon, occasionally subtweeting Kelios). Also tend to ship 'J2' - and take it very seriously as a legitimate thing that is really real. This is called 'tinhatting'.

BiBro faction

People who think the show should JUST be about the brothers, love Supernatural s1-3 and everything after it should have been just like Supernatural s1-3. Hate Castiel, Jack, and the 'found family'. Largely loved 15.20. Go to literally any comments section on any Supernatural article and You Will Find Them complaining about how the show should just be about the Brothers. Tend to be older, straighter, and more conservative/Republican (and male) fans. (I am aware that the definition of 'BiBro' used to refer to people who just liked the brothers but there's no definitional difference now in the discourse.) The Wincest and BiBro faction are generally much more wealthy than the Destiel faction (they being younger and more diverse/queer/left-leaning in general) and would be the biggest revenue generators at conventions etc.

Sub-factions:

Reddit bros - literally anyone who visits r/supernatural. Well, that's not fair - there are people who post reasonable opinions on there, but it's pretty rare and they get downvoted a lot. Like to talk about 'toxic Destiel fans' 'ruining the show' and how Dean is a straight man who is straight and could never possibly be gay. Might even think the confession was platonic despite all evidence to the contrary. I'm Not Homophobic I Have Gay Friends, But No Gays on MY Show!

Old Guard - group of older fans who overlap strongly with the Wincest faction, but might not necessarily ship Wincest.

GA faction

'General Audience' - These are the group of audience members that aren't 'online' so to speak; most watch the show on TV as a Casual Viewing Experience (are therefore also sometimes referred to as 'casuals'. Mostly their opinions tend towards BiBros, but they have a vast range of baffling views thanks to being Not Online and usually Not caring about Supernatural that much or thinking that deeply about it.

Sub-factions:

People who simply watch Supernatural on TV and then don't think about it very much after that.

I said they weren't 'online' but that's not entirely true; I'd probably classify people on Supernatural Facebook Groups as GA, along with friends of friends who post statuses about how 15.20 was a neat finale that wrapped up the series.

Conclusion

Supernatural is famously the show that appeals to both Republicans and Democrats, literally All Orientations, so there's a WIDE range of factions. However, most warring online boils down to Destiel vs. Wincest/BiBro - the war that started in Season 4 and has simply never ended. In terms of the 'actors' and their stans, in general, Wincest/BiBro fans love Jared, like Jensen, and dislike Misha. Destiel fans love Misha, like Jensen, and dislike Jared. Of course as with everything, there are variations and this is just a generalisation. But that's the summary of it, from my perspective!

This didn't even get into Sam girls, Dean girls and Cas girls. God. Anyway.

Hope that answered your question, anon!

#for some reason read more does not work on my blog main page now? you'll have to click the permalink #season 17 time for a theme change tumblr has broken this one too much sigh #ask #anonymous #this might be the most controversial thing I've ever posted or I might escape with nobody noticing it. Only Two Outcomes #didn't mention any other factional ringleaders because well #I value my life etc. #unironically who will fund me writing the PhD on supernatural fandom etc. etc. #the graphs. the statistics. the sociological insights #kira for ts #supernatural spoilers #spn spoilers

[1strongindependentcatwoman1]

Since it’s basically 2014 tumblr again, in the year of our lord 2020, I have a few thoughts about Supernatural that I need to just get out of my head.

Before I start my rant, I want to say that I haven’t kept up with supernatural for some time but I watch it from time to time. And I did watch the Destiel scene that has now sent us back to the dark times. So, what this post is not going to to is harass the actors, especially Jensen, for doing their jobs. And I am going to call out how the writers are actually the homophobic ones because Hollywood can’t write gay characters for shit without killing them off.

We have to remember that the actors are actual people with feelings and are perfectly valid in not wanting to answer certain questions at con’s. Especially from people that have threatened to harm their families. They are not there for you to harass and demand answers from. They are just doing their jobs. They don’t owe you anything.

Without further stalling let’s begin:

My thoughts on Destiel:

1. The fandom: the supernatural fandom has been a complicated one since 2010. I feel like many of the fandom has projected themselves onto the characters without regards to what the characters might be feeling and thinking based on how they are written.

2. Hollywood writers: the writers of supernatural have been there for at least 10-15 years. Characters change as they are being written. That being said, most Hollywood writers are straight white men and don’t know how to write a good LGBTQ+ story line in a show that was primarily aimed at a male audience and was adopted by a young female audience. Writers tend to use gays for one trope, the “bury the gays” trope in which one character confesses their love for a same sex character and then dies. Or the only character to die in a show is gay. This has become a clique. The fandom is tied down with Destiel becoming cannon that that accept this as an outcome and don’t demand better writing from the show. They just accept it because the got a small taste. Destiel is not full Canon, it’s only half Canon. Absolutely not, writers. Do better.

3. Cas: though I haven’t kept up with the show, I know that characters go through a lot of inner conflict and change throughout the series. Cas in this episode used his love for Dean to save him. His goal has always been to save Dean, even at the expense of himself. He knows that Dean might not feel the same about him, but he tells him he loves him anyways because it will save him and that makes Cas happy. Knowing Dean is going to be alright was enough.

4. Cas as a reflection on unrequited love: something many young viewers of supernatural in the LGBTQ+ community might not take away from this scene is that in life, confessing your feelings for a person might not work out with a relationship. Especially if someone of the same sex is straight. This is a real thing that happens to people in the LGBTQ+ community and I personally felt it when watching his scene because I understand what both Cas and Dean were feeling at this moment in time.

5. Cas’s love language: cas’s love language is reassurance. He uses words of encouragement and care to Dean to show his affections. “Your more than what our enemies see.” “Your more than ‘daddy’s blunt instrument” “everything you do is out of love” “you are loved”. He gives Dean something he’s never gotten before, reassurance that he’s a good person and what he’s doing is for good.

6. Dean’s reaction to Cas: I think Dean’s reaction to Cas is justified because he has absolutely no time to process the information that he is given. Dean has never thought he could be loved by anyone in the way that Cas loved him. And the fact that Cas immediately dies after confessing his love just leaves Dean more confused and in an emotional mess. Imagine your best friend gives you a death bed confession of love to you and then fucks off and dies. The questions that are going through this man’s head. He was just told he’s more than a weapon, more than a solider. That he deserves to love and be loved back. If Dean doesn’t go through a mental breakdown in the next two episodes, I would honestly be shocked. He’s losing everyone and he doesn’t know how to cope. Someone help this man.

7. The fandom’s complete disregard for Dean’s feelings: once again the fandom accepts the scraps of gay writing that we are given and have no love for characters going through trauma because they are ✨projecting✨. Dean is not homophobic, he’s confused and traumatized. If I see another bitch say that again, their gonna see these hands.

8. Dean’s love language: dean’s love language is acts. He saves people out of love. He raised sam out of love. He cares for his family out of love. He has already shown Cas that he loves him without having to say it out loud. And I think Cas understands that and that’s why he didn’t wait for Dean to respond. Love doesn’t have to be spoken aloud. It might not be romantic love that Dean has for Cas but it’s love none the less.

AND THIS TOXIC FANDOM DOESNT GET IT BECAUSE THEY’RE ALL YOUNG AND DONT KNOW WHAT REAL LOVE IS YET. ESPECIALLY YOUNG LGBTQ+ VIEWERS THAT ARE BLAMING THE CAST FOR THE TERRIBLE GAY WRITING! DO FUCKING BETTER. DEAN/JENSEN IS NOT HOMOPHOBIC. BUT THE FUCKING WRITERS MIGHT BE.

#supernatural #destiel #jensen ackles #misha collins #hollywoodstopkillingthegays #the writers are cowards #lqbtqia #rant

[caranfindel]

Initial reaction 15.14: Last Holiday

Well, friends, here we go. Are you ready?

(I'm not. But here we go anyway.)

THEN: Cuthbert Sinclair. (Really? That's a deep cut.) Abbadon. Larry Ganem. (And S8 Sam, who is fucking gorgeous.) Oh, and God and Jack and all that stuff, in case you forgot.

NOW: Sam's in the library, doing research, and is distracted by some ominous noises. Ominous in a machinery-breaking-down kind of way, not in a monstery kind of way. Enter Dean, wearing an apron. "What's with the apron," asks Sam, "because it's only protecting your jeans, not the Red Shirt of Bad Decisions." At least that's how it sounded in my head. I mean, who only gets dirty from the waist down when they're cooking? (Well, that lends itself to all kinds of double entendres, doesn't it?) Or maybe Sam doesn't say that because he hopes the RSoBD will be destroyed in a tragic burger accident.

Seriously, Dean, that shirt is precious and you need to protect it, no matter what Sam thinks.

Dean complains that the pilot light keeps going out, and the hot water is unsatisfactory (and we know how he feels about his showers), and Sam reminds him that if the bunker was ever state-of-the-art, it was in the 50s. They exposition for us that Jack is hiding in his room. "Can you blame him?" Sam says. "His soul is back. Everything is hitting him. Everything he's done..." And Sam continues, but I'm sorry, I'm stuck here, thinking about re-souled Sam with everything hitting him. {sob} However, neither of the Winchesters seem to be thinking about this, so. Carry on.

The guys remind us that if Jack kills God, he'll have to kill Amara as well. Which I assume means Amara isn't going to get killed? Just saying. As much as I talk about foreshadowing (too much, please stop!) this show teases us with anti-foreshadowing with equal fervor. And Cas is apparently looking for Amara? What does he hope to accomplish? "Excuse me, but we're killing your brother, so you have to die too. Condolences. But if we follow canon - not that there's any reason to assume we will - you have to die at about the same time. So I need you to come with me while we figure out where he is and how to kill him."

There's another ominous noise, and Dean says "Oh, come on. Now the air?" I hope he means the air conditioning, and not the air purifying/exchange/whatever that Ketch shut off when he locked them in the bunker back in... whatever the BMoL season was. Hey, remember when the guys were locked in the bunker and they were running out of air and they wore single layers and goggles and got all sweaty and depressed? Because I've kind of never gotten over it. But I digress.

Sam is surprised that Dean expects them to fix it. "We've fought the devil," Dean says. "I've killed Hitler. I think we can handle a few old pipes." Surely this isn't the first time they've had to do some repairs around the place.

Deep within the bowels of the bunker, Sam reads some ancient instructions and complains that they can't just call a plumber. Dean refers to the bunker as the most "secretive, secure supernatural hideout in the world," which makes me laugh, because remember when Larry Ganem told Sam it was secure against all manner of evil? What a joke. Is there anything or anyone evil who hasn't been able to get into the bunker? My house is more secure against evil than the bunker, and all I have for protection is a circle of termite bait and a couple of ancient dogs.

They locate the "bunker grid control center thing thingy" (oh Sam, I adore you), complete with reset and standby buttons. Standby is glowing. Dean hypothesizes that it will work just like his computer, which needs to be shut down when it gets too many popups (I suspect you need some virus protection, dear boy), and slams down the reset button before Sam can stop him. Everything goes dark, but then starts up again, so Dean considers it a success. He calls himself "Meat Man" again and heads upstairs to finish cooking his burgers.

Time jump. Dean goes into his room, carrying a burger and a beer, and is astonished to find a middle-aged woman there. She's wearing a plaid wool skirt I owned in the 80s and is folding his underwear. "Oh, hello dear!" she says cheerfully. Dean yells for Sam.

Gosh, Dean, it's like this place isn't secretive or secure at all.

The horrified Shaggy and Scooby boxers are ~chef's kiss.~ Well done, someone.

Title card!

Library. The woman tuts at dust and wonders how they've lived in "this filth," which reminds me of an awesome Tumblr post which theorizes that faeries actually keep the bunker clean, and only first-born son Dean can see them. "Lady, who the hell are you," Dean demands, and is chastized for his language. He calls for Sam again, and gives him the story of how he walked into his room and found her "folding my underthings."

She explains that her actual name is indecipherable in "your tongue," but "Mr. Ganem called me _Mrs. Butters."_She's a wood nymph. And she's not in the woods, nymphing (thank you Dean) because she has more important things to do - she lives in the bunker and takes care of the Men of Letters. I.e., "my boys. My family."

Dean invites her to leave, but this is her home, and she's been here since "before the war." And she thinks it's 1958. "Well, I hate to tell you," Dean says, "but it's 2020." YES, DEAN, WE ALL FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT 2020. Mrs. Butters is horrified to learn all her boys are dead. And for some reason Dean tells her they were murdered by a demon instead of saying old age, or they went to a farm upstate, or whatever. She spots a photo of the last group of MoL, which we've never noticed before, and realizes that this is why they never came back from that last ceremony. When they didn't return, she decided to put the bunker - and herself - in standby mode.

But she also realizes that if these boys are like those boys, it's been a while since they had a home-cooked meal or celebrated a holiday. Or washed their clothes, as she makes a face. That's uncalled for, lady. We all know that Sam Winchester smells like rosemary and mint no matter how long it's been since he did laundry. Sam explains that they're not really "holiday people," which rings true coming from the guy who didn't want to celebrate Christmas and hates Halloween. (And only had one real Thanksgiving in his life and his brother still holds that against him but NO I'M NOT BITTER.)

Dean is more interested in what "standby mode" is. Mrs. Butters says the MoL used her magic to give the bunker "extra oomph," and snaps her fingers. Voila, extra oomph! There's some humming noises, the telescope alcove lights up (!), and an alarm sounds. Because the map table is actually a monster radar, and it indicates a nest of vampires 50 miles away. And gives the address. WELL.

{Sidebar: Why didn't the BMoL know the AMoL had this capability? Why was their focus on "you're not as good as us" instead of "you used to be as good as us; what happened?" Discuss.}

Do I care? No. Because look at these precious perplexed faces.

Dean's ready to go (and it earns him another stern warning about his language), but Sam wonders if they can trust her. "Look at her," Dean says. And I agree. She's a dumpy middle aged woman in a brown plaid wool skirt. She's basically me. And who could be more trustworthy, more concerned with the Winchesters' health and safety, than me?

Um. Anyway.

Not to change the subject or anything, but the pretty is strong tonight, y'all.

Dean suggests they give her the benefit of the doubt, and if it turns out she's not what she says she is, "then we deal with it." The music turns ominous. "What about Jack?" Sam asks.

Oh, Jack is actually in this episode? I thought maybe they were explaining his absence earlier, like they always do with Cas. (Because I always cover the guest star credits on first watch. Spoilers.) But it turns out Jack is actually with us tonight. Sitting on his bed, looking depressed. Dean knocks on his door and tells him they're going out, and there's a "probably harmless" guest making snickerdoodles. This sparks Jack's interest. It would work on me, too. I love snickerdoodles.

Impala. Sam's not sure it's a good idea to keep Mrs. Butters around, even if she is legit. He's concerned about Jack, but Dean brushes him off.

He'll be fine. I mean, I've been through worse and look at me. I'm the picture of health.

Ignoring your trauma doesn't make you healthy.

Sure it does.

Oh, Sam. Just listen to yourself. No, I mean, please. Listen to yourself.

Sam feels like Jack is hiding something, and I wish there were someone around who had also done awful things while un-souled, and remembered what it felt like to deal with that afterward. Someone sympathetic and empathetic. With soft puppy dog eyes and beautiful hair. Oh well. I guess Jack will just have to go unburden himself onto whoever he comes across.

Bunker. Mrs. Butters brings Jack a sandwich. He doesn't open the door, but she leaves it for him.

Vampire nest. A couple of vampires are watching Dark Shadows (so meta!) and drinking blood stolen from a blood bank. So, are these, like, maybe not bad vampires? Maybe they don't kill people? We'll never know, because Sam and Dean walk in and cut off their heads. And come home to... Christmas. Lights are strung all over, jazzy Christmas music is playing, there's a huge decorated tree and gifts, and Mrs. Butters has a tray of homemade cookies. "We are so keeping her," Dean says. Sam looks unsure.

Kitchen. Mrs. Butters tells Sam that since he and Dean have been so busy killing monsters, they haven't had a chance to celebrate anything. But I can barely pay attention to a single word that comes out of the woman's mouth because LOOK AT SAM IN THIS T-SHIRT. LOOK AT IT.

Single-layer Sam is something to celebrate.

She insists that Sam "enjoy the world you're fighting for" (which is never gonna happen, lady) and excitedly talks about all the holidays she wants to make up for. Then Jack enters, and her mood changes instantly. Even Jack's adorable little dorky wave doesn't melt her. "What are you?" she asks coldly.

Enter Dean, wearing a real-life version of the purple "sleeping robe" and nightcap he wore in "Scoobynatural." OH MY GAWD. I really hope this was a surprise for the rest of the cast.

And I also hope he's not really going commando underneath... or do I?

Mrs. Butters is distracted enough to decide that if the boys vouch for Jack, he must be okay. She hands Jack a smoothie but tells Dean he must have tomato juice due to his cholesterol. And she pronounces it the Patrick Stewart way, not the Mark Hammil way.

Before Dean can drink his to-mah-toh juice, the monster radar alarm goes off, and the guys rush off to prepare for a hunt. For future reference, when you leave the kitchen, Sam's room is to the right and Dean's is to the left. We next see the guys fully dressed, receiving sack lunches from Mrs. Butters. Dean's sandwich has the crusts cut off. {Sidebar: Sam never had someone to cut the crusts off his sandwich. Hold me. And also, how many reminders am I going to have of "Dark Side of the Moon" tonight?} She tells Sam the monster is a lamia, the blessed knives are in the trunk, and she just waxed the car so Dean needs to take it easy.

As the guys rush off, she turns to Jack and his smoothie mustache. "Well. What shall we do with you?"

NOTHING GOOD, I'M SURE.

As Jack helps wash dishes, he fills her in. Lucifer was his father, Mary was his family and his friend but he killed her. Mrs. Butters is very supportive, telling him "life gives us second chances and it's our obligation to hold onto them." And she presents him with another smoothie.

Montage! Thanksgiving dinner. More hunts. More sack lunches. Halloween (and even Sam seems to enjoy it). Fourth of July. (Yet another "Dark Side of the Moon" shoutout). A hunt requiring the grenade launcher and Thor's hammer from that episode whose title I can't remember! Sam's birthday! By the way, none of these holiday celebrations include Cas.

Mmmm. So worthy.

Time jump. Jack catches Mrs. Butters looking at something in a file cabinet and being very sneaky about it. He requests another smoothie to get her out of the room, and then finds what she was looking at. It's her MoL file, including a reel of film. The film shows Cuthbert Sinclar talking about File 5150 (aw, RIP Eddie Van Halen). The subject was actually recovered from the Thule (aw, "Everybody Hates Hitler") and we learn that wood nymphs "react violently when home or family are threatened." Sinclair says he "conducted a series of experiments designed to show this strange and magical being of our mission" and convinced her to join the MoL family. Huh. Wonder how he did that. Then Mrs. Butters demonstrates her devotion by literally ripping the head off a Thule. "Son of a bitch," says Jack, because he's been spending a lot of time with Dean.

Jack runs into the war room looking for Sam (and yes, I'm petty enough to love that he looks to Sam first), who is off getting ready for a "big date." Huh. Okay. Mrs. Butters offers him soup, but then Sam walks in, giving off some pretty strong Hot Professor Sam vibes (hello again, "Everybody Hates Hitler") with a sweater vest and tie, and I am thrilled with this development.

Thrilled, I tell you.

Mrs. Butters tells him he looks wonderful but offers to trim his hair (back off, lady, I will cut you) and Dean enters in time to make a weak Abercrombie and Bitch joke. Sam tells him Eileen's in town, and he's taking her out to dinner and "some privacy, something."

"Heavy on the something," Dean says, and we're going to talk about that later, I promise. But for now, Mrs. Butters tells Sam to take one of the old cars from the garage. Finally. Can we just make this permanent? Can Sam have his own fucking car, please? She produces a bouquet of roses from nowhere and sends him on his adorably anxious way. Then she tells Dean she found a broken TV in one of the rooms and fixed it. "The Dean Cave?" Dean is off like a shot. I wonder if that's the TV he smashed with a hammer, and if so, how did she fix it? (Also, hello again, "Scoobynatural.")

Jack is still unsettled. He follows her into the dungeon and tells her he saw the film. {Sidebar: The film showed her killing one of their enemies because she's protective of the MoL. Is it really that awful? Discuss.} "And how did that make you feel?" she asks. "You relished his pain, didn't you, Jack?" Oh, turns out that was a setup - she wanted Jack to see the video, so she could confirm that he was a bloodthirsty little monster. And do the Winchesters know how powerful he has become?

They should be scared of you!

I would never hurt them.

You have before, haven't you? Have you ever thought that Sam and Dean keep you in here, closed in, secure, because they're scared you'll do to someone else what you did to their mother?

Well, I mean. Now he has. She flings Jack into the wall. He tries to use the glowy eyes on her, but he finds himself powerless. She snaps the magic handcuffs on him. "You didn't think those smoothies were for your health, did you? Oh, I've learned a few things while I was doing the dusting around here. A little yarrow root, some ground jawbone for texture, and voila! You are as weak as a puppy."

Wait. That's all it took? To power down a nephilim, who is canonically more powerful than his archangel parent? So when the Winchesters were trying to take down Lucifer and AU Michael, all they needed was some yarrow root and ground jawbone? And the answers were all right here in the bunker?

(Sigh. Don't think about it. That way lies madness.)

(Also, canon! Ha ha ha ha.)

She tells Jack she's making the bunker safe again and getting rid of all the monsters. Like you, sweetness. Aw. Sad Jack.

Kitchen. Dean comes in looking for a snack and is immediately presented with some kind of grilled sandwich. She tells him to eat it, because he'll need his strength when they go kill Jack. Aw, that's the sound of a heart breaking.

Dean is disappointed that their good thing has gone "full Nurse Ratchet," and glances longingly at the sandwich he has to leave behind. He takes Mrs. B's knife and suggests they let Jack go and pretend this never happened. The only logical conclusion is that Dean is under Jack's spell, so he gets tossed into the dungeon too. Oh, cool. Does that mean Sam gets to be the hero and save them?

Spoiler alert: Ha ha ha ha no.

Hello, Demon Dean. That's the only other time we've seen this expression, isn't it? {Or is it simply the only one branded onto my brain? Discuss.)

Map table room. Sam comes in and is met by Mrs. B. "Bit past your curfew, Samuel," she says curtly. He's no longer wearing his tie. Hmm. So, let's talk about the Eileen situation. Isn't it weird that (1) Dean didn't know she was in town, and (b) she's not spending the night at the bunker? Wouldn't you think she'd be a house guest? I mean, she's not "in town" for the heck of it. The only thing that would bring her to Lebanon would be Sam. So why isn't she here seeing Sam? Is she just driving through on her way somewhere else? She can't even spend one night in the bunker? And the tie? If Sam removed his tie, doesn't that strongly suggest Dean was right about the "something" going on? Did they do it in the back of the old car? At a hotel? I have questions, friends.

Anyway. Sam asks where Jack and Dean are, since it's late and they should be sitting around the map table waiting for him to come home and not, like, in bed or anything. "Well, I have some good news, and some bad news."

HERE IS SOME GOOD NEWS INDEED.

Honestly, I like this look better without the tie.

Time jump.

So, Jack has taken over Dean's mind. And they're both downstairs, right now, ready to be killed by us.

You were always the smart one, yes.

Sam, who is the smart one, says he's going to go to his room and get his gun, and he'll meet her in the dungeon. "And we can... get to the killing." I LOVE HIM. {Sidebar: I have watched his fake relieved sigh several times and it makes me smile every time.} Once he’s safe in his room, Sam calls Dean and starts to tell him about Mrs. Butters.

Went psycho, we know.

Why didn't you call me?

Well, I mean I, you know, I figured you were "practicing your sign language."

And that's more important than coming to save you?

...

Dean?

It's been a while for you, man, you know?

Aw. Always the supportive big brother. {Sidebar: As long as Sam is doing something Dean thinks Sam should be doing. But I digress.}

{Sidebar: I love Dean, y'all know I do. Warts and all. He'd be boring if he were perfect.}

Dean suggests Sam shoot her, although they don't know if a gun will kill her because neither of them got around to researching it because they were distracted by Christmas and Thanksgiving and breakfast on Boxing Day. That's how you get killed, guys. {Sidebar: How much do I love that Sam calls it Boxing Day? For my Brit friends, that's not really a thing in the U.S., although it's gradually starting to become one. And I love it.}

Dean then suggests that putting the bunker in standby mode might put Mrs. B in suspended animation again. Meanwhile, Jack and Dean are stuck in the dungeon. Jack suggests using his power to remove the cuffs, but Dean points out that the power surge would catch Chuck's attention. But what power surge? Jack already tried to use his power against Mrs. B and it turned out he didn't have any.

Jack suspects there are other reasons Dean doesn't want him to use his power, and suddenly decides it's time for a deep conversation.

Do you still think I'm a monster? Okay, I'm just gonna say this, okay? Just get it out there. Jack, I'm trying, okay? I really am. But what you did, that's not easy to forget. Now, I was angry with you. For a while. And maybe I still am a little bit, okay? But I'm not gonna let some evil Mary Poppins take you out. You understand?

Okay. Good talk.

Sam shows up in the library looking for Mrs. B, and trying to hide his gun, as if he hadn't told her he was going to his room specifically to retrieve said gun. But Mrs. B realizes he's trying to kill her, and freezes him. She's not mad, she's just disappointed. She tosses him into a chair and keeps him there with the power of her mind, not with rope or anything, in case you were wondering. {Oh, hello, "Funeralia" and "The Trap."} She tells him that when the MoL first found her, she didn't realize how important they were. But Mr. Cuthbert explained it to her. And since Sam is her favorite, she's not going to give up on him. Yet. She's going help Sam the same way Mr. Cuthbert helped her understand. Well, that doesn't sound ominous at all.

He's my favorite too! And I also think he needs to be hurt! See, she's basically me!

Dungeon. Dean is going to try to chop Jack's handcuffs off.

You're sure this is gonna work?

Let's say yes.

Aw. That was a perfect opportunity to bring back "maybe 90% sure." And it doesn't work - Jack is sent flying into a glassed-in cabinet that I've never seen in the dungeon before. Dean says "dang it" before remembering that he can use his big boy words, which is adorable. And then he gets an idea.

Upstairs. Mrs. B tries to convince Sam that Jack is a monster because he's Lucifer's son. Sam, of course, takes the opposite side of this debate. "Now, Mr. Cuthbert taught me that pain can be a wonderful teacher. Let's see if it can't correct your ways."

I SWEAR, Y'ALL, SHE IS ME.

Sam could sneer at her and say "I've been tortured by the devil himself; what can you do to me?" but we don't have that version of Sam any more. Mrs. B, without tools, yanks off one of his fingernails. {Oh, hello "A Very Supernatural Christmas!"}

Meanwhile, downstairs, Dean has a different theory on pain. It's just "weakness leaving the body," he tells Jack. We get a little "on three" bit, where he actually does the thing on one. And the thing is that he tries to cut Jack's handcuffs again, but this time Jack is strategically placed in front of the dungeon door. So when he's thrown back by the blast, he ends up breaking the door down.

Upstairs. Sam's been relieved of even more fingernails.

Downstairs. Dean takes a hammer (!) and smashes the reset button. Why doesn't he just push it with his hand? I mean, sure, we get the hammer, and the red lights and warning klaxon, and all of that turns me into Pavlov's dog {Hello, "Soul Survivor"}. But still. Seems unnecessary.

Upstairs. Mrs. B seems to be gone, and Dean bends over like he's untying Sam's wrist. But Sam's wrists aren't tied to anything, so. I got nothin'.

Downstairs. The runes that seem to hold Mrs. B in stasis light up, but do not stay lit. Well, that can't be good. And then the bunker grid control center thing thingy starts shaking and springs a leak. Ooops. Here she comes, complete with glowy green eyes.

Upstairs. Dean finishes untying Sam from the chair he wasn't tied to, and remarks on how gross his tortured hand is. Mrs. B shows up, yells that they've all been very bad, and flings them across the room. She's sure Sam will thank her someday for killing Jack, because it's so important to kill monsters and keep the MoL safe. It's why she couldn't go back to her forest. Sam explains to her that Mr. Cuthbert tortured her and used her, and Dean tells her Jack is going to save the world. Oh, okay then. The regular lights turn back on and Mrs. B tearfully says she misses the MoL so much.

Aftermath. Mrs. B heals Sam's hand and apologizes and all is immediately forgotten and once again, Sam gets to forgive his torturer and turn the other cheek. Yay! Sam, what was it you said earlier?

Gif stolen from @michaeldean

The guys send Mrs. B back to the woods, but first they have this conversation:

Sadly, without my magic, the bunker will revert to standby mode, so. Ah well, things were getting too easy anyway, you know? Who needs a monster radar? Or whatever that telescope thing is? It's an interdimensional geoscope. It's a what? I looked in it earlier; I didn't see anything. Oh. Well that's not good.

Holy crap, you guys. Interdimensional. It let the MoL look at the alternate worlds. And now you can't see anything because all of the alternate worlds have been destroyed. Gotta admit, this is an excellent little twist.

Jack presents Mrs. B with the photo of the MoL. "Oh look," she says. "The man who tortured me and kept me from my home, right here, front and center." Well, no, she doesn't. But I do.

Mrs. Butters gives them some last instruction. "Dean, eat your vegetables. And Sam, cut your hair. And Jack, go save the world." Well, I'm in favor of one or two of those things.

Try to tell me I'm wrong. Just try.

After-aftermath. Jack tells Sam that he doesn't know if he can kill God, since he was sidelined by a wood nymph "because I was stupid." He asks if Sam thinks he can do it.

"Jack, you're the only who can." No pressure.

Dean shows up with a truly awful-looking birthday cake for Jack. "I made it myself. Obviously." But Jack is thrilled because it's from Dean, and it means Dean loves him and has forgiven him, until the plot requires otherwise. He makes a wish and blows out his single candle. Fade to black.

So! There were parts of this that were simply marvelous. There were parts that were kind of dumb. There were parts that would have made me very angry if I weren't so tired and jaded. But the good parts were darn good, and the pretty was dialed up to 11, and we all know I'm a sucker for a pretty episode. And there was NO B PLOT. AT ALL. Thank you baby Jesus.

And let’s just refuse to consider the possibility that these were, in fact, their last holidays. Thanks.

Now I get to see what you thought about it. And, as always, please help me stay unspoiled for future episodes, including episode titles and casting info. {smooches}

#spn #15.14 #initial reaction #recap #tv recaps #spoilers

[stusbunker]

Lie to Me in Melody Challenge

Stu’s Masterlist’s 2nd Birthday Writing Extravaganza

When: May 22 - July 30th 2020

Where: Tumblr (or a Tumblr post with a link to AO3)

What: A Supernatural Song Lyric Writing Prompt Challenge with a Twist!

Last year I asked you all to Break My Heart, well this year, I am asking you to lie to me. But make it convincing. I need you to weave something so well that I won’t know where the lie is coming from until it is too late. It could be a big lie, it could be a little lie, good or bad, but there must be a lie!

How: Please send me an ASK if you would like to participate.

Include the prompt you’d like and a back up. There will be a two blog limit per prompt this year.

Write your masterpiece! Use the lyric as best you see fit (theme, dialogue, description, etc), but please list it in your A/N so I know what to look for.

Post your fic and tag me!

Include ‘#I lied to Stu’ in the first five tags so I can organize things later.

I will reblog your fic once I’ve had the chance to read it. Likes come from my mainblog @stunudo. 

Interested? Okay, well, there’s still the nitty gritty to worry about!

RULES:

NO WINCEST, incest, or underaged shenanigans. Bobby and Jack are both related to the Winchesters, don’t @ me.

No real people, please and thank you.

Any pairing is acceptable (beyond the above).

Tag your fics! I don’t care what your kinks are, but tag them! (I am not going to shame you. I just may gloss over certain parts.)

Minimum 300 words. No Max.

OCs/ series/ AUs are all welcome!

Deadline: July 30 (My actual birthday)

I would love a follow if you’re joining, but I doubt I am everyone’s cup of tea.

Keep Reading link on anything longer than 500 words. Seriously, don’t be a savage.

Song Lyric Prompts:

Jewel

1. And you try to find yourself In the abstractions of religion And the cruelty of everyone else And you wake up to realize Your standard of living somehow got stuck on survive

2. There is this hunger This restlessness inside of me And it knows that you're no stranger You're my gravity @thewhiterabbit42​

3. Some are walking, some are talking, some are stalking their kill You got social security, but that doesn't pay your bills 

4. I feel your tongue Telling me I'm dirty And licking my bones A surge against silence A knife across a plate Makes the sound Of need on hate @thoughtslikeaminefield​

Train

5. You're hopeless 'cause you tell the truth The stars are jealous of your shine @67midnightwriter​

6. There's nothing in between us knowing where we're going is inside. Every letter that I wrote, every dress you never wore under your coat

7. Together can never be close enough for me To feel like I am close enough to you You wear white and I'll wear out the words "I love you"

8. These bruises make for better conversation Loses the vibe that separates It's good to let you in again

Billy Joel

9. I believe I've passed the age of consciousness and righteous rage I found that just surviving was a noble fight I once believed in causes too I had my pointless point of view And life went on no matter who was wrong or right @a-winchester-fairytale​

10. They showed you a statue and told you to pray They built you a temple and locked you away But they never told you the price that you pay @awesomesusiebstuff​

11. You had to be a big shot, didn't you All your friends were so knocked out You had to have the last word, last night @idabbleincrazy​

12. For the promises our teachers gave If we worked hard If we behaved So the graduations hang on the wall But they never really helped us at all

13. I know I'm searching for something Something so undefined That it can only be seen By the eyes of the blind In the middle of the night @deanwanddamons​

Carole King

14. Sometimes I think I'm a prisoner of fate Doomed to find out things a little too late And so I must play this broken man's role

15. I feel the earth move under my feet I feel the sky tumbling down I just lose control Down to my very soul @fangirlxwritesx67​

16. Tonight you're mine completely You give your love so sweetly Tonight the light of love is in your eyes But will you love me tomorrow @phantomwarrior12​

17. As I watched in sorrow, there suddenly appeared A figure gray and ghostly beneath a flowing beard In times of deepest darkness, I've seen him dressed in black

Now my tapestry's unraveling - he's come to take me back @dontshootmespence​

Modest Mouse

18. Talking shit about a pretty sunset Blanketing opinions that I'll probably regret soon I've changed my mind so much I cant even trust it My mind changed me so much I cant even trust myself

19. Working real hard to make internet cash Work your fingers to the bone sitting on your ass I know now what I knew then But I didn't know then what I know now

20. When you’re living your life, well, that's the price you pay Whenever I breath out, you're breathing it in Whenever I speak out, you're speaking out

21. Blame it on the weekends. God I need a cola now. Oh we mumble loudly, wear our shame so proudly. Wore our blank expressions, trying to look interesting. Blame it all on me cuz God I need a cold one now.

22. Well you were spitting venom at most everyone you know If you truly knew the gravity you'd know just where to go Well let it drop @there-must-be-a-lock​

^*^*^*^

Tagging: @dontshootmespence​

Slackers: @mskathywriteswords​ @fangirlxwritesx67 @itmighthavebeenintentional​ @there-must-be-a-lock

Shout out to MJ @thoughtslikeaminefield​ for the banner!

#I lied to Stu #Stu's Lie to Me Challenge #Song Fic #Spn Fanfic #Writing Challenge #Stu's Blog is 2

[theteablogger]

Oh, FFS...

I’m not going to post the CR fanart that Andy shared on Facebook, but now that I realize the significance of it, I will tell you that the character he chose to represent himself and his feelings was Mollymauk, Taliesin’s character for the second campaign. Of fucking course. For non-CR fans, Taliesin also played Percy, the character that Andy latched onto during the first campaign.

Here’s some information from the CR wiki:

Molly’s appearance is ostentatious and flamboyant, with several tattoos (including one of a peacock). He’s also pretty badass in combat and has a lot of scarring, most of it presumably self-inflicted because he uses his own blood to activate his enchanted swords. 

I don’t know how Andy actually dresses on a daily basis, but during the first year or so that he was on tumblr, he presented himself as a fashionista who was always well put together, always dressed to impress, loved eye-catching accessories, dyed his hair in bright colors, and enjoyed experimenting with makeup. He talked a lot about how pretty he was, to the point that he called himself a bishonen several times. He toned this down somewhat after discovering Supernatural and becoming fixated on Dean, but still made quite a few posts along those lines. Andy also has a number of meaningful tattoos, and I wouldn’t be surprised if he sees Molly’s scarring as analogous to the many ways that he says his harmful actions toward others (which he blames entirely on mental illness) have also damaged him.

The wiki also says:

Molly is described as a "literal and figurative peacock". He frequently tells extravagant lies with little mind for whether or not his audience believes them. He does not seem visibly affected by insults, as shown by his lack of reaction when the old man in Ye Olde Mudhole called him a devil and told him to leave town.

In Andy’s own words: “...I am a weaver of word-magic to a degree that verges on dangerous in my understanding of exactly what I’m doing as a storyteller and rhetorician. I can get inside people’s heads. I can sell you realities.” See also: his many “fuck the haters” posts about how he doesn’t care what we think of him because we don’t really know him, and besides, people even come up with negative things to say about Gandhi, right?

Molly's [sic] acts as a promoter for the carnival and as a "fortune-teller" within it. His "abilities" in the latter area are the result of the application of cold-reading techniques and sleight of hand, not actual magic.

As far as I know, Andy has never had a fortune-telling shtick. But he has claimed at various times to be clairvoyant, to be telepathic, to be a medium, to be able to influence the natural world in ways such as reversing the flow of a river, to have a psychic connection to an alternate universe in which the events of his DAYD series were real, to have roughly 160 “Others” from alternate timelines who communicated through him... And I’m not sure whether anyone has actually said this, but based on things that Abbey, Little Sam, and some former DAYDians have written about their early interactions with Andy, I think he’s probably pretty good at cold reading. Even the promoter angle fits, as Andy has written many times over the years about how good he is at marketing and promoting himself and his work.

Elsewhere, I’ve seen mentions of Molly having a “mysterious past” about which he's been dishonest with the group. Apparently he seems to know an awful lot about some of the creatures that they encounter, for reasons that he can’t explain. He is a master of disguise. This is all very similar to the way Andy has portrayed himself--having a dark and mysterious past, “just knowing” things about a wide variety of subjects, being able to blend in anywhere in an Abagnalesque manner...

There may be even more there for Andy to identify with, but I’m not sure, as I don’t watch CR. Anyway, in Mollymauk, the above traits make him a fascinating character who’s probably a lot of fun to interact with as a party member. In Andy, these traits have led to a lot of people being hurt. I don’t know for sure that he was planning to start another “channeling” thing with Molly, or another fandom cult based on CR, but I am not inclined to give Andy the benefit of the doubt.

#critical role #andythanfiction #thanfiction #andrew blake #andy blake

[himbowelsh]

What's your first thoughts when you hear every bob character name? What are your feelings towards them?

okay, let’s give this a try.

Richard Winters

actual team dad

lowkey i love richard winters so much?? mostly because he was just this KID. he was a guy, still in college. he wasn’t particularly special or talented, he wasn’t wealthy but wasn’t poor, he wasn’t all that driven… he wasn’t even a leader in school. he was just this generic guy who happened to be a good dude with some good principles, and then the war happened.

that’s when dick really grew up. he came into his own, became the man he was meant to be. he grew into himself as a leader and figured out who he was. 

and it turns out, he’s a really great guy.

he’s the sort of person not built for war or violence. he just does his duty. that’s what he’s good at, and he still goes above and beyond for the people he’s leading. that’s what makes dick winters stand out more than anything else.

he’s such a noble guy, and so humble. he deserves all the credit he gets.

Lewis Nixon

the thing about nix is that he has a lot of issues?? and i really feel like the fandom both pays too much and too little attention to them. or pays attention to them in the wrong ways. i dont know.

nix is an alcoholic. this is a disease, and he struggles as it worsens throughout the series. he also probably suffers from PTSD, or at least some pretty heavily guilt, and i think he lays a lot of that blame on himself.

overall, nix is a very interesting, very HUMAN character. he was portrayed in the show masterfully – i think the real lewis nixon would have been proud to see himself on screen.

i love nix at his best – witty, charming, and happy. at his worst (see: why we fight) he’s a lot harder to love, but through it all he’s very human and very vulnerable. i think he’s an exceptional and interesting character.

Carwood Lipton

okay, first, why is his name what it is (is that?? a thing??? what the hell is a carwood??? like, what does it mean??)

besides that, carwood lipton is a fantastic dude

lip bears the responsibility for a lot of other guys. that’s just the sort of guy he is. he’s willing to lead, but mostly he protects others, and is willing to put his own wellbeing on the line to do it.

lip is a team player, but he’s also very shrewd. he knows how to talk to people. he’s able to tell them what they want to hear, and make himself seem nonoffensive while trying to get his men what they need. the way he handles himself in the ardennes with dike is so careful, but he advocates for them masterfully.

lip is also not afraid to speak up if he feels he can make a difference. he’s not afraid of a lot of things, but he’s far from a reckless man.

he’s also??? such a great guy?? so levelheaded and good.

i really appreciate carwood lipton, okay

Ronald Speirs

my first thought about speris was, “hmm, his name sounds stabby.” lo and behold, he was.

i’m so interested in speirs. i think he’s an incredibly complex character and it’s hard not to be fascinated by him. he just kind of draws you in.

he’s... unnerving. a little scary. weird, intelligent, startling, clever, and so, so fascinating. no matter what, he’s an enigma, and i feel like no one can ever truly figure out ron speirs.

that said, he’s a hell of a fun puzzle to try to solve.

Harry Welsh

i fell in love with harry the moment he did his little “thunder” thing, and flashed that smirk which send me head-over-heels. 

there’s just… something about him, okay?? he’s a shamelss romantic, he’s a tease, he’s so dedicated and sharp and funny, and i… i love him.

he’s a crazy bastard, has got the luck of the irish, and is almost as short as me. harry is my guy and i’d kill someone for him.

Eugene Roe

i just knew roe as the medic at first, and i read a lot about him before i actually started to know him. i knew he was cajun, was sort of serious, and that bastogne was his episode

i actually find gene really interesting because of everything he keeps locked away. he’s the definition of “still waters run deep” and i find his internal struggle between saving lives and having blood on his hands fascinating.

he’s also so humble, and clever, and will put himself on the line for the men it’s his job to save. he takes his job seriously, and is the best medic easy could ask for.

he’s so... compassionate?? so great?? he’s fantastic.

Babe Heffron

i’ll admit when i first heard babe’s name i laughed out loud, because??? “babe?? his name’s BABE?? tell me that’s not his actual name”

it wasn’t. i was a little relieved.

aside from that

he’s so great!! so great! 

he’s such a good guy, and so genuine. there’s nothing artificial about him. he’s true to himself and to others, and maybe that’s what i love most about him. 

he’s very upfront, very loyal to his own feelings and motivations – esp to his people. babe is fiercely devoted to his people.

he’s also such a nice guy. he actively goes around trying to encourage other people, to make them feel better, and he’s not afraid to show his own emotions. he’s tough, he’s firey, but he’s also very genuine and that’s why i think he’s such a cool guy. (also he’s a dork, so that helps.)

Bill Guarnere

i actually couldn’t recognize him by face for a while. all i pinned him with was “squeaky voice guy” because he does have… a very distinctive… voice. (babe is just as bad, though. those south philly boys, i swear…)

aside from my first impression, i really didn’t like bill for most of the first episode. the whole “he’s a jew” incident left a horrible taste in my mouth, and i thought, “well, this guy’s gonna be a jerk.”

bill surprised me, however. he could be a jerk, but he was also a great guy when it counted. he’s a good man in a storm, and it was around episode four that he really started to grow on me.

bill is loyal to a fault, he’s fearless, he cares so much. he’s a tough guy, but when something matters to him, he doesn’t give up on it.

if it wasn’t for bill, easy company’s camaraderie would not have lasted over the years. bill did so much, he was such an amazing guy, and i really appreciate him a lot.

bill guarnere rocks, okay

Frank Perconte

he’s so small, petty, and bitchy. he’s literally me.

i have such a soft spot for frank, okay? i don’t talk about him much but i’d go ride-or-die for him, because i RELATE, okay? i’m that friend who’s always worried about how i look, who complains a little too much, but who’s always there when his friends need him. sometimes i overreact, sometimes i’m stubborn, but i’ll do my best for my friends

(i’m like a really weird hybrid of web and perco. i don’t know.)

George Luz

i actually barely noticed him until i started scrolling through tumblr after watching the first episode. the first BoB blog i found was devoted to george, so i got a crash course in how great he was. i developed a healthy appreciation for my boy.

now, what would i do without george luz?

george is the heart of easy co, and keeps up their spirit in the darkest times. he’s supportive, he’s witty, and he boosted the morale of the entire company. without them, things would have been a whole lot darker.

he’s also not afraid to get sassy, which i appreciate. he tells it like it is.

he would shoot a chicken for biting him. while i do not condone this, i respect him for it. i, too, might try to kill someone if they bit me.

how much do i love george luz??? a hell of a lot.

Skip Muck

long before i knew his name i recognized him as the guy from supernatural, so i was like, “holy shit, it’s THAT guy!” then i read his name was skip, thought about the character, and was like, “yeah, sounds about right.”

i love skip, okay? he’s just the best guy. he’s the best friend, the most caring parson -- he’s heroic, he’s charming, he’s optimistic and funny.

skip never lost his faith in a brighter future. he loved his friends and family more than anything else. he died trying to bring his friend to safety, and if there’s an honorable sort of death, that would be it.

i would do anything for skip muck. he deserves so much better.

Donald Malarkey

my first thought when the show introduced us to malarkey was, “well, someone got the short end of the naming stick.”

i don’t feel as strongly about malarkey as i do about the other characters. i like him, to be sure, i just... he never stood out to me as much.

he’s a really great guy, and the emotional journey he goes on is shocking. he starts the war as one man, and ends it as another. seeing all that malarkey loses is terrible.

Joe Toye

it actually took me a long time to recognize joe in the show! i remembered him as “puppy dog eyes” for a little while tbh

i thought of joe as a tough, gruff, sort of stoic guy from the beginning, and that’s not too far off. he is tough as nails, that’s for sure.

but i find joe most interesting because of the softer side that he isn’t as willing to show. joe is a guy who’s deeply affected by things. his loyalty to his comrades is his strongest trait, but he also has an intense emotional side.

joe struggled with self-esteem issues. he cared for others with all his might. he took the events of the war hard enough that it took him years to recover.

joe’s emotional side is the most fascinating thing about him, in my opinion, and i love him for it.

Joseph Liebgott

the first ever clip i watched from BoB was the concentration camp scene, ft. winters shouting liebgott’s name very loudly, multiple times. “well,” i thought, “that sounds like a german name. this guy must speak german.” then i saw liebgott’s face, and it all spiralled from there.

joe liebgott is a complicated guy, okay

he’s so angry, and has every right to be. liebgott’s rage manifests itself in the most gut-wrenching, heartbreaking ways. the scene in the concentration camp is the most powerful of the series, and ross plays it so well. liebgott’s range of emotions in that scene is awful to watch.

aside from that, liebgott is an angry guy in general. he’s a little cruel, and he takes his emotions out on others. he’s by no means perfect, but he’s also sarcastic and charming and kind of a brat.

i think you learn the most about liebgott by seeing his interactions with others -- with winters, with webster, even when he offers to blow up sobel. he’s a conflicted, complex character who stands out because of the shades of grey in his own morality.

(he’s also gorgeous. superficial, but true.)

David Webster

the show (and ambrose’s book) were really kind to webster, okay? he wasn’t actually as important as he’s portrayed in the show -- he didn’t play a role in the patrol, he wasn’t on the drive with liebgott -- but i am very fond of the character we were given.

webster is a bit too relatable, okay??

he’s a writer, a little socially awkward, with obsessive interests. he likes thinking he’s smarter than he really is. he’s lazy, but he tells himself he’s following his own morals. he’s also a gifted writer with a strong set of principles and beliefs, who isn’t afraid to speak his mind.

i empathize with webster a bit too much, to be honest.

#Anonymous

[semirahrose]

In the past few days I've read posts claiming that Sam is a psychopath who turns his empathy on and off so easily that it's disturbing, that Sam never cries (lol what?), that Dean is more emotionally mature than Sam, that Sam is egotistical and only cares/thinks about himself, and that Sam demonstrates more toxic masculinity than any other character on the show... I've been in hell basically and I was hoping you could cheer me up by disputing these "claims" with cold hard canon facts.

I’m so sorry you’ve experienced that, Anon!  I fear… you ventured into a truly dark corner of fandom. I have a fair few items on my blacklist to keep me away from that sort of “meta”, because honestly… it’s emotionally exhausting and endlessly frustrating running into such patent drivel.

I don’t know what these people were using to support their claims, so I can’t really refute them. Heck, I don’t know if they brought up solid points or were just angry and baseless. For many of the things you mentioned, I don’t even know where to start, because I can’t imagine what could have given anyone such an impression, but I’ll try to share some thoughts.

Sam is a psychopath without empathy? If anything, Sam’s empathy is always on. It’s always at max, and what these people might be seeing as “turning on and off” is likely Sam trying to redirect his attention elsewhere or deal with/compartmentalize his feelings. It could also just be a gross misinterpretation of introverted emotional expression. But also, let’s be real: the Winchester boys are soldiers. They’re fighting to keep people safe. They have to make choices that we can’t even fathom. A lot of times, these choices are not clear-cut and smelling of roses. Either way, someone will die. People will hurt. And these two, without the benefit of a hierarchy or large support group or court of law–in the heat of the moment–have to make decisions. People who find Sam “cold” or—God forbid, psychopathic? What the ever-living heck?—may simply not understand the magnitude of the decisions these boys must make.

Sam never cries? WHAT EVEN. What the hell even. First of all, crying is not the be-all-end-all of emotional expression. Some people cry regularly. Some people don’t cry for years at a time. And you know what? The former don’t feel things more strongly than the latter. People express grief and sadness and frustration differently. Some people feel numb. Some people get angry. Some people feel miserable but can’t cry. Some people drown it in drink. Some people blame themselves. Some people simply haven’t been taught that it’s okay to give vent to negative emotions, or grew up in an environment where expressing them was weakness and subject to mockery (*raises hand*) And… for the people who said that, may I kindly direct them to my crying Sam tag, because I have like seven pages of misty-eyed canon Sam for them to feast their eyes on. (Um. Geez. I swear there’s an explanation for the fact that I–that I have a tag for that. Uh.) ANYWAY. *clears throat* What even. 

Sam is not as emotionally mature as Dean? I can’t even dignify that one with an answer. Well. Actually. I believe Sam is, in many ways, more emotionally mature than Dean. Where Dean resorts to blame-shifting, violence, anger, and denial when it comes to things he doesn’t like, Sam acknowledges his mistakes and is aware of his unhealthy coping mechanisms (…while still  using them). THAT SAID, I don’t think I can state that Sam is more mature in general, because, well… Dean vents. He gets angry, he finds ways to release it, and he generally finds ways to settle into a sort of balance and keep going. On the other hand, Sam represses to the extent that it drives him to his breaking point. See Mystery Spot. See s4, where he was literally suicidal after Dean’s death. See any number of other times. At any point, I think Sam is a hairsbreadth away from breaking, and while there are a ton of things I love and respect about Sam, a lot of them are rooted in some really unhealthy habits. So… in many ways, Sam deals with things more maturely, understanding all angles. But he also truly just needs decades of hugs and therapy because wow.

Sam is an egotistical bastard? I would advise people who think Sam only cares about himself to watch Swan Song, then The Man Who Knew Too Much, and then Sacrifice, and then Nightmare, and then… the whole freaking show, actually. How Sam regularly puts the safety of others above his own welfare. How, even while grieving Jessica, in the beginning of the very first season, he threw himself bodily between two strangers and a Wendigo. How he was broken to pieces by his visions of death but unable to save the victims. How, later, Ruby’s perfectly calculated way to make him start drinking demon blood again was to imply that he might, by inaction, cause the deaths of innocents if he didn’t suck it up, drink the blood, and save the world. And Ruby knew Sam, played him masterfully. If anyone in the world knew how to get to Sam, she did. And she did so not by appealing to a desire for personal gain, but by implying that Sam’s desire to stop drinking blood might be selfish. And if that’s not enough, I’d like them to take a look at Soulless!Sam, who could have done anything but chose to continue hunting. Soulless!Sam, the single most stable and consistent soulless person in the entire show, whose admitted motivation for remaining soulless despite knowing he was “wrong” was that things didn’t hurt as much. Seriously. Come at me. Anyone who thinks Sam is egotistical has not seen the show or is picking events out of context and trying to apply some isolated events to the entire show.

Sam displays more toxic masculinity than any other character? What the…what even? What the heck? I would love to see the support for this argument, I really would. While both brothers display some unhealthy habits undoubtedly adopted thanks to their impossibly tough life and their upbringing… claiming that Sam is the poster child for toxic masculinity is just laughable. I could talk about why, but first let’s just look at a quick definition: 

Toxic masculinity is a narrow and repressive description of manhood, designating manhood as defined by violence, sex, status and aggression. [… S]upposedly “feminine” traits – which can range from emotional vulnerability to simply not being hypersexual – are the means by which your status as “man” can be taken away. Sex, in particular, is an important part of “being a man”. […] The need to “get” sex is all-encompassing because the more of it you have, the higher “status” you have as a man.You’ll notice how often sex and sexlessness comes up as an insult when a man wants to insult another man. (x)

Let’s just take a moment and ask ourselves. For which of our leads are sexual conquests important? Which character looked at cheerleaders and leered that he could tell which ones were legal? Which one finds peace in violence and resorts to violent ways of expressing himself before any other? Which one calls the other “bitch” and uses feminine terms as a way to demean someone? Which one pushes the other to have sex or act aggressive/sexual? Which one regularly calls women opponents “bitch” without any real evidence or reason? Spoiler: it’s not Sam.

And here’s the thing: toxic masculinity isn’t something where we can point out someone who displays the traits of it and call that person awful. It’s not quite as simple as that. Toxic masculinity isn’t a person. It’s an unhealthy, pervasive set of expectations. Heck, yeah, it’s terrifying and harmful to women and anyone who doesn’t conform or accept it. But it’s not the people we need to fight, but the overwhelming pressure and the media portrayals and the way it’s freaking exalted as the “right” way to “be a man.” On some level, there is an element of choice in adopting these beliefs and a certain amount of personal responsibility to… I dunno, not be an asshole, but in a lot of ways, it’s like showing commercials about grapes and making movies about grapes and rewriting history to feature grapes and then expecting no one to eat grapes. The hunting community in Supernatural, I’m afraid, is full of said grape-glorification. There’s no excuse for what some of them do, but they have ample reasoning for acting that way. (And if we’re talking levels of grape-hood on SPN, then I’m gonna have to say that Dean displays the highest levels of grapeliness, objectively.)

Haha, I hope this helped, Anon! I hope you’re able to blacklist the types of people who are saying those things. Personally, I’ve found it’s just unpleasant and ultimately fruitless (pun not intended) to engage cruel and baseless claims like that. I hope you’re able to make your Tumblr experience a more enjoyable one. Sending hugs and hopes that this made even a bit of sense.

#asdlkdjlkj WHY with some of these? It's like they just looked at the facts and were like 1+1=TWENTY #wank for ts #bittersamgirlclub #sam winchester #sam hate not welcome #anonymous #semirah replies #for safety gonna tag #dean negative #fandom wank

[accioharry]

i was tagged by @flying-toes​ who is my best friend forever and ever so i feel obligated to actually do this one lol

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

the last

1. drink: water

2. phone call: lmao sarah aka the one who tagged me in this. i forgot why, probably to annoy her

3. text message: my cousin bc she’s spending the night

4. song you listened to: alive - one direction. because i am trash™

5. time you cried: last night, i had a complete meltdown and i texted the boy who broke my heart which ended up being a good thing? maybe? idk?

6. dated someone twice: HA what a joke.

7. kissed someone and regretted it: never kissed anyone wooo

8. been cheated on: no thank god

9. lost someone special: literally everyone special to me is gone so ya

10. been depressed: shoutout to that clinical depression™ that i’ve been living with since i was 10

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

3 favourite colours

12. seafoam green

13. pastel pink

14. light blue

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yes!

16. fallen out of love: yes

17. laughed until you cried: oh my god yes it was at vidcon and my friends and i were in a hotel room trying to film and it ended up being the funniest night of my life

18. found out someone was talking about you: i want to say yes because i know i have i just cant think of an example

19. met someone who changed you: yes, definitely. 

20. found out who your friends are: most definitely. 

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: nope

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them? some just go to my university lol

23. do you have any pets: 2 cats and 2 fish, though im babysitting a 3rd fish!

24. do you want to change your name: as a kid i did but not so much now

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i had to work my old dance studio’s recital which was a living nightmare that i never want to relive and then i went to disneyland. 

26. what time did you wake up: 12:30 pm bc my meltdown lasted until the wee hours of the night

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sobbing my eyes out

28. name something you can’t wait for: to go back to school so i can have a distraction

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 10 minutes ago 

31. what are you listening to right now: friends! i’m watching the episode where chandler finds out ross blamed him when his parents caught him doing weed in college, aka one of the funniest ones

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: I WISH I KNEW TOM HOLLAND

33. something that is getting on your nerves: oh man, a friend. actually a few different onces

34. most visited website: tumblr or netflix

35. hair colour: auburn

36. long or short hair: my hair is medium? 

37. do you have a crush on someone: nope thank god

38. what do you like about yourself: oi vey. nothing 

39. piercings: my ears! 

40. blood type: i literally have no idea

41. nickname: one of my best friends calls me “roomie” because we were roommates last year, also my godfather calls me Mag.

42. relationship status: single, too much drama and also im too ugly

43. zodiac: gemini!!!

44. pronouns: she/her

45. favourite tv show: supernatural has my heart but im watching b99 right now and its HILARIOUS

46. tattoos: none yet

47. right or left handed: left

48. surgery: none

50. sport: i dance! 

51. vacation: i went to anaheim for vidcon for like 5 days and it was fun even though i basically live at disney

52. pair of trainers: its summer all i wear is the same pair of sandals 

GENERAL

53. eating: im not hungry but my mom got pizza

54. drinking: water

55. I’m about to: burst from how annoyed some people make me and also probably stretch 

56. waiting for: my cousins

57. want: to go back to school so i have more friends around 

58. get married: definitely 

59. career: an author and a dance teacher

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: hugs

61. lips or eyes: oof. eyes

62. shorter or taller: taller 

63. older or younger: older

64. nice arms or nice stomach: arms aka tom holland’s arms

65. hookup or relationship: definitely relationship because i dont understand the idea of hookups, idk i think they’re a waste of time and also reckless, but thats just me lol 

66. troublemaker or hesitant: im definitely hesitant/cautious 

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: nope

68. drank hard liquor: nope

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: every day of my life 

70. turned someone down: nope

71. sex on the first date: well im demisexual so....no

73. had your heart broken: yes. 

74. been arrested: no

75. cried when someone died: yes

76. fallen for a friend: lets just not talk about it lmao

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: not really no

78. miracles: also not really

79. love at first sight: nope

80. santa claus: i believed until i was 14 lol 

81. kiss on the first date: uh...depends

82. angels: yes

OTHER:

84. eye colour: brow

85. favourite movie: the parent trap! 

im supposed to tag people but like...nah. 

#maggie.txt #me #tag games

[kimthwariru]

Finding you

Words: 5992

Genre: Angst, fluff, smut

It has pretty much everything but there is a point where there will be smut so if you don’t fancy something like that you can just skip the part.

Description: Your cousin gave you a gift. It’s a pen, a pen that whatever you write upon your skin with it will also appear on your soulmate’s. Silly stuff, how can what you write with a stupid pen appear on your soulmate’s skin?

Whatever the teacher was saying seemed like such a bore compared to what you were thinking. And what were you thinking? This stupid little gadget that your cousin –who’s into supernatural stuff- gave you. To be honest you had no clue why you thought of it so much. It was a pointless thing. Your cousin said that whatever you scramble upon your skin with this pen it would appear on your soulmate’s. Your soulmate’s, what the fuck. You didn’t even believe in the whole soul mate kind of thing, so you even thinking about this pen made no sense. The fact that somebody could have a person that completes him just lacks. If you know what completes you why wouldn’t you acquire it yourself instead of dragging another person in your life so you would feel complete. Make yourself feel happy and complete without having to wait for others. That’s what my grandmother always used to say to me and her words were wise. I understand that you might click with a person but don’t call him a soul mate. Your soul never asked you for a mate so stop trying to convince your own soul for the opposite. God that’s just stupid, you sight and snap out of your thought not wanting to analyze it more.

School ends and you find yourself at home lying in bed thinking of that damn pen again. That thought got under your skin-just like you wanted that pen to do-

“Fuck it” you curse out loud following with a sight, finally ready to give in to your childish thought.

You touch the cold metal as you think of what to write. You knew this wouldn’t work- this couldn’t work, it just doesn’t make sense- but you just wanted a nice quote inked into your skin, people are going to see it after all.

“Maybe the wolf is in love with the moon, and each month it cries for a love it will never touch”

Yes, that seems nice. The ink blends in perfectly with your skin making it look like a professional tattoo. Even though the whole idea about the pen is stupid, it at least leaves a beautiful finish on your flesh.

A couple of weeks have passed and you finally have plans for a change. You hadn’t had much time these past weeks because it was exam period. But finally, tonight you and your friends would go watch the biggest full moon off all. It was a nice and quiet place, not too many people, perfect for you because you weren’t really a people’s or a party’s person for that say. Your quote was still on your hand. You started to wander if it was a henna pen because the quote wouldn’t smudge or fade, it was like a real tattoo but you didn’t mind since you knew it was just a pen and it would eventually go away…

You get to the place and you see groups of friends sitting down in plane grass waiting for the moon. Cameras capturing the dawn and fairy lights decorating the trees making the whole night even more magical than it already was. One of your friends Sumi stopped to greet a group of boys –that were particularly good looking-. Why haven’t you met them before? You literally knew everyone Sumi knows yet these boys looked everything but familiar. They looked like Asian super models and you couldn’t help but wonder to yourself how the fuck did Sumi knew such people.

Your eye catches a handsome tall young man that was sitting next to a boy Sumi was talking to. He was tall with brown hair and sparkling expressive eyes. Suddenly he lightly feathers those eyes and looks at you. You were surprised but you didn’t look away. His eyes wondered around your face and his lips now formed a semi-smile. You finally look away but you could still feel stares. And they felt pleasing, like they were caressing your face. Sumi finally walks away from the guys and you find an excuse to look at him again only to see that he was, still staring.

You were sitting on the grass with your group of friends while he was sitting with his. You could still see him and he could still see you. The moon finally makes its appearance and it was surreal. The light it provided wasn’t your usual moonlight, it was something like a retro filter and the whole scenery looked like a professional picture you would see on a magazine or a very famous instagram/ tumblr account. A couple of minutes later you walk over to the wooden bar that the camp had set up. It was decorated with fairy lights too and it didn’t serve strong alcohol because the night wasn’t about that. You wanted to get some whine before going back to your friends but then. You see him walking towards the bar-like he was waiting for you to be alone- and you feel your legs go numb.

“Hey there” he said with a boxy smile.

“Hey” you smiled back.

“So” he paused “You know Sumi?” he asked as if you weren’t her best friend

“We are best friends actually, how do you know Sumi?” Finally getting the question out. You didn’t ask Sumi, she would think you’re noisy and shit like that.

“Her mom is close friends with my hyung’s mother. She and Hobi hang out sometimes so I see her around.” He paused and created a smug face. “She never mentioned that she had friends like you though, I mean you know, I didn’t know she was friends with supermodels” he chuckled.

You chuckled too at the ridiculous pick up line. “Not so smooth, are you?”

“I wasn’t trying to be” he smiled “I love horrible pick-up lines, forgive me”

You laughed “I like them too, they are amusing” and it was true. There is nothing better than a cheesy, bad pick-up line, to make fun of with your friends afterwards.

“Do you fancy full moons?” he asked obviously trying to keep the conversation going.

“Well as in matter of fact yes, I love listening to the howls that wolfs make. I personally think it’s the best part. The way they all feel the need to cry out under the complete moon, it’s kind of impressive” you said and he seemed to focus in every last drop of word you had to say. His eyes widened a little.

“You know, I have this tattoo…” he said and pulled up his sleeve revealing his tanned and toned skin that looked so soft. “Actually, I think I was drunk when I tattooed it because I don’t really remember getting it. I got into big trouble with my parents but at least it is really nice and not a dick or a butt.” He chuckled

You saw the tattoo but you couldn’t trust your eyes. The quote he had tattooed. It was, It was…

“Maybe the wolf is in love with the moon, and each month it cries for a love it will never touch, Impressive isn’t it?” he read his tattoo out loud and you couldn’t believe your ears.

This wasn’t happening. No, maybe it was a coincidence, a cruel play by the world. This could not be real. -A because the pen is just a play, not real. And -B because soulmates are not real either. Not real, not real

“When-when did you get this tattoo?” you asked while your voice was trembling a little bit.

“Ah about a couple of weeks ago, why?”

God that’s a very specific coincidence.  

“Ugh No-nothing” this couldn’t be it. No that’s just a coincidence, stupid universe.

“I like the idea of the wolf and the moon as lovers, when you hear the howls it creates a story. Just like Romeo and Juliet. I never thought of that before”

“I know it” the words barely escaping your mouth

“Know what?” he asked

“I- the quote, I know the quote you have tattooed”

“Oh really?” he said now smiling at you looking impressed just because you knew this stupid quote, stupid universe, stupid pen, stupid cousin, stupid freaking soulmates.

“Yes I actually-“

“Y/N-AHHHHHHH” You hear your group catting you of

“Y/N-ah we are going, uhm” Sumi took a look at him before turning her eyes back at you “So, will you be coming home with us or…?”

“Oh yes, yes ” you turn to look at him “Goodbye.. uhh what’s your name again?”

“I’m Kim Taehyung” he said giving you an eye smile “Goodbye to you too uuhh”

“Y/N, I’m Y/N”

“Goodbye Y/N, hope we meet again”

Its 5am and he keeps messing with your mind. What the fuck was that tonight? The quote, this stupid pen ugh. No, It’s defenelty not it. Coincidence coincidence coincidence. As if this is the only word you knew. It has to be. It can’t- Oh for fuck sakes.

You stand up grabbing the pen again.

“If you read this then tomorrow night come meet me where the wolves were crying out yesterday”

Here, I’ll just go there tomorrow and talk to nobody. Why did you even do this? Maybe to just to prove to yourself that it is indeed a coincidence and nothing else.

You put on your favorite earrings not even knowing why you put so much effort since you’re not going to see anyone, you can’t, because as you said to yourself a million times already, this is just a coincidence.

You sit on a rock that is at the end of the hill. The moon seems much smaller than yesterday but at least it provides enough light. ‘God why am I even here?’ you think to yourself. This is stupid…I don’t even know how many times I said the word ‘stupid’ these past days. You can’t blame yourself though, this situation is stupid after all.

It’s been about 1 and a half hour and at this point you don’t even know why you waited for so long. Fuck this, you’re going home it was dumb of you to even come here in the first pla-.

As you turn around you see the outline of his figure. With one step forward the moonlight in now showering him and his eyes look better than ever. He is staring at you and you are staring at him just like you did yesterday. Damn these butterflies hurt, flying around your belly like they’re drunk. What-what is he doing here? Even though you knew the answer you didn’t believe it- you couldn’t believe it-. How could he…

“What are you doing here?” he asked. A confused look on his attractive face.

“I- I you know,” I paused. What the fuck do I tell him? You couldn’t believe this shit yourself. You wouldn’t expect him to make sense out of it.

“How the fuck…The tattoo, when did you- Did you do this tattoo on me? H-How?” he shook his head in disbelief.

“Look I can explain, I think…”

“You think?” He came forward “What do you mean you think? How did you manage to do that?” he sighted.

“You-you wouldn’t believe me even if I told you. I wouldn’t believe me either”

“Try me” he came even closer now, softly grabbing your arm while looking at you.

You gulp and look down “My cousin, she gave me this pen” You get the pen out of your pocket. Something inside of you kept yelling at you to get it with you before you left. Thank god you did. “This pen, whatever you write with this pen upon your skin it will also appear” you stopped talking. Hating to say what’s next out loud. “It will appear on your soulmate’s.” You finally turn your gaze up, he was looking at you. Deeply looking at you.

He slides down his hand from your arm letting you go of his grip and it was more like a pet rather than him just simply taking his hands off of you. He sat at the rock where you were sitting before. There was a long silence until he finally let his voice fill your ears.  “But there is no such thing as soul mates” he paused “How did you even know what to write, how- How do I know you’re not making this up?”

You went to sit next to him. You pulled up your sleeve revealing the quote that was at the exact place as his. You put your hand next to his letting him see how they match.

He took his hand back and scoffed “Look Y/N, I’m nobody’s soul mate. Sorry to break it to you but I don’t believe in love, or soul mates for that say”

“Well that makes two of us” you say more to yourself than him. He obviously heard it thought.

“You don’t either?” He smiled at you “Well that’s a relief, I don’t have to ruin any dreams for tonight at least” he chuckles. ”Hey kid, how do I know this pen even works?”

You roll your eyes. “Here…” you draw a moon on the back of your hand and after a couple of seconds it appears on the same spot on Taehyung’s hand.

“That’s…crazy, creepy but crazy”

“It’s stupid, and I want these off” You indeed wanted the quotes off, they reminded you of the fact that you share them with his skin. You felt marked.

“How do we take them off?”

Good point. How the fuck do we take these off?

“I don’t know… I’ll ask my cousin, she gave it to me.”

“Okay lets go” he stands up

“Woah wait there. I’ll go by myself tomorrow, there’s no need to go together”

“Hey, this concerns me too, we’re going right now. I don’t want my parents to ask any more questions about this tattoo. They forbitted me from going to that big festival next weekend. We are getting these off right now.”

“Okay, okay I get it lets just make it quick”

You finally arrive to your cousin’s place. The ride wasn’t awkward, it was actually pretty fan. The festival he was going to was a music one and he told you that he sang. He was a bit shy at first –he doesn’t look like a person who’s shy- but he eventually sang for you and it was… amazing.

“Y/N, hey” your cousin says as she opens the door, carefully inspecting Taehyung.

“Yonge hey, the pen you gave me. How do I take what I write back?” going to the question right away.

“Why do you need to know that for? You told me you wouldn’t use it because you don’t” she paused “Let me quote you ehm ‘Believe in that shit’ ” she mocked the way you said it. Taehyung chuckled and you elbowed him on his stomach.

“Well all I wanted to do was write a freaking quote and now I can’t get it off”

“Same here” Taehyung said

Your cousin’s eyes got 100 times bigger “Wait” she said looking at Taehyung again “You guys, YOU ARE REAL SOUL MATES” god she’s loud.

“Whatever, how can we get them off?” I said

“Y/N-ah why would you want them off? This is exciting you guys are-“

Taehyung interrupted “We are two people who just met each other yesterday and want these fucking things off. How do you even believe in such nonsense”

Your cousin now had a smug look on her face “Wow you two are indeed made for each other”

“Yonge, for real please… mom is going to kill me if she begins to notice that these are permanent”

“Okay okay fine” she paused taking one of her books out “Y/N I don’t think you’re going to like it thought”

“Whatever just tell us”

“Are you sure?” Taehyung whispered in your ear

“You want to go to that music festival next weekend? Be quite then” you whispered back

“Things would be different if…” She made a long pause “If Y/N wasn’t a virgin”

Godfuckingdamnit why should he hear about this? He looked at me with a smirk on his face

“What do you mean different?” you asked trying hard to ignore his smirk.

“Well, since you haven’t had sex before, if your first time is with the mate of your soul you could get these things off without actually being with him. I mean you know in a relationship. Normally soul mates that used this pen spent their whole lifetime together and didn’t necessarily wanted the quotes off because they reminded them of their true love. But in your guys’ case… if Taehyung is the first one to make love to you, the quotes are off”

“That’s not a problem” Taehyung kept his smirk.

“I emphasized on the word love guys. You need to make love not sex”

Taehyung drove you home and this time the ride was awkward. Electricity was floating through the air and a word wasn’t spoken.

He finally dropped you off. He opened the door for you and you two where now standing in front of your house.

“Look, you don’t have to do this” he said

“There’s no other fucking way okay? You want to be marked like this for the rest of your life? Getting married with these quotes on? Making love to your wife while you have these tattoos on your arm? And when your kids ask you ‘Daddy where did you get these?’ You say ‘Oh kids they’re just a mark that I share with my soul mate, it’s not your mum but she’s somewhere out there’” you spoke your thoughts.

“Okay damn, I just didn’t want your first time to be with someone who you will not see again. I need to clear to you that I don’t do relationships. Moreover I don’t ‘love’ or have been in love with anyone. One night stands yes. But I don’t-“

“Got it.” You cut him off. “I don’t want a relationship, I want these off of my skin”

“Great”

“Great”

There is a silence again.

“So, do you have anything tomorrow?” he asked

“No I don’t.”

“Should I come pick you up at 6?”

“Sounds fine, goodnight” you said and unlocked your door

As you entered you heard him saying goodnight to you but you didn’t bother to even turn around and look at him.

6 o’clock he is right outside your house. Not a minute late. He gets out and opens the door of his car for you.

“Hey..” he says with a smile on his face

“Hello” you say back

While he was driving you saw him struggling not to look at you. You were wearing your favorite red dress and your favorite pearl earrings. Your dress not too long nor too short. It revealed just enough and let the mind wander. So yes, not to be cocky or anything but you did know why he wanted to look at you even more.

As you enter the restaurant he had booked your jaw dropped. It seemed like these kind of restaurants where the plates are nearly enough to feed an aunt yet they cost a fortune.

When you sat down and the waiter that put you two in your seats left you whispered to him.

“Hey, how did you even manage to book this place?”

“Relax, let’s just say that my parents make enough money to buy you two boats as a birthday gift”. He practically bragged about his wealth and you didn’t like it at all. You actually disliked –if not hated- such people.

“Why would I need two boats?”

“For fun” he simply said and opened the menu “So what are you getting?”

“Choose for me”

He smirked and lifted his gaze up from the menu to look at you “You have never been to a place like this have you?”

“No I haven’t, and it was never on my bucket list either”

“What do you mean? Every girl wants to be at a restaurant like this, with a guy like me”

“A guy like you? Please…” I chuckled. Who the fuck does he think he is?

“A guy with money and a face.” he said

“Well I don’t want that, I don’t know what girls you hang out with but most of us don’t want that. Trust me.”

He didn’t reply, he just quietly went back on looking at the menu  

The waiter came in and got our order.

“So what do you like to do for fun?”

“I don’t know. I guess hang out with my friends drink a couple of beers, watch the moon, listen to music…How about you? What do you like to do for fun?”

“Go to clubs, find chicks, bang” he laughed proudly but you didn’t find it funny. A life like this seems a miserable life. He can’t have only this, he would go mad. You know you would

“No” you paused and looked at him deep in the eyes “What do you really do for fun”

“I told you” he sat back and had a sip of his drink “That’s all I do”

The waiter came and brought our plates interrupting the conversation.

The food looked just as you expected. You faked a smile at the waiter as he placed your plate in front of you and you could see Taehyung having a good time watching you put up an act.

The waiter finally left allowing you to put your real face on. You could see Taehyung laughing.

“Well, Bon apetit” he chuckled and digged in to his food.

You exited the restaurant. He hold your hand and dragged you somewhere

“Hey where are we going the car is that way”

“I’m taking you somewhere to eat” he said and he confused you.

“Didn’t we just do that?”

“Oh so you’re full right? Okay then let’s go” full? Full? I just ate cat food how am I supposed to be full?

“No, no wait. Let’s go.”

He laughed and led the way.

You went at a burger place and got takeout. You asked him why didn’t you two sit at the fast food place and he said he had a better idea. What kind of better idea is that?

“You asked me what I do for fun” he said

“And your answer was full filing enough thanks”

“And then you asked me what I really did for fun” he paused as you turned around the corner. Your eye catching fairy lights and flowers. A lake cutting the grass in two and a huge fountain in the middle with fish inside. This seemed like paradise. It was a garden but it was an open one. You could see the whole city because it was on a heel. This place looked magical.

“What- what is this? Where am I? Is this paradise?”

He chuckled “No, this is my private garden. I love it here. I come to draw and take pictures. I-“ he paused “ I have never brought anyone here before.”

“Wait really? Why? This place looks amazing”

He just smiled. He didn’t answer. You walked around trying to take in all of the beauty of this place.

“So are we going to eat or not?” he said and you ran towards the food finally ready to fill your belly because it hurt. Unfortunately it didn’t hurt because you hadn’t eaten properly but because of the butterflies.

 “It would be better if it was a full moon don’t you think?” he asked

“Nothing beats a full moon. You’re right”

He sighted. “I hate this” he said

You got confused “Hate what?” you ask

“I hate being me. I hate having the parents I have. The life that I have. It’s not even my life, everything is preorganized. My wife, the name that my kids will have, the life that my kids will have. I just want to live my life, not the life someone else made for me”

“I didn’t know you felt like this. I’m sorry”

“Don’t be, you have nothing to be sorry about.” He turned his head now looking at you “Thanks for listening. Nobody cared enough to listen”

You moved closer to him “Hey, hey” you said and tucked his hair behind his ear “You can talk to me okay? I know we just met but you can tell me anyth-“

He placing his lips on top of yours stopped you from talking. He went in very soft, coaming your hair with his fingers. A soft moan left your mouth as he bit your lower lip. He started moving towards the neck, kissing the soft spot making you feel like heaven. He went up again this time behind and under your ear. It made you feel goosebumps all over your body. He went back to your lips using tongue this time. You felt him even closer to you and you grabbed his hair ruffling it softly earning a groan from him.

He pulls away slowly while not braking eye contact. His thumb pecked your lips and continued towards your cheek. You closed your eyes allowing yourself to feel his touch.

“Do you want to go home?” he asked

“I love it here but if going home means what I think it means then yes”

He smiled. A sincere smile this time –a beautiful one-.

You get to his apartment. He has his own. Isn’t he in school? You didn’t even ask him how old he was but it didn’t matter because you aren’t going to see him again anyway. And you’re fine with that. It’s not like you have started to fall for him. No, you haven’t. But its very hard to convince yourself because right now you are enjoying his kisses way too much.

 “Y/N” he suddenly breaks the kiss. “I-I need to tell you something.”

“What is it?”

“Please want this” his words caught you off guard

“What do you mean? You were the one to tell me that-“

“Please want this as much as I do right now. I don’t want you to do this because of that fucking tattoo.” He paused and you didn’t say anything because you knew he was going to continue. He sighted “I don’t want to be the only one who is felling th-“

Your kiss interrupted him “I want this, I want you”

He didn’t reply. But he also kind of did. Cause the rough kiss and his nails digging on your back seemed like a pretty good reply to you.

He lied you in bed. And what a bed it was. Soft but not too soft, warm but not too worm. You could get used to this.-And you hoped he would let you get use to this-.

He turned you so your belly was laying in the bed. He started unzipping your dress and you could feel the zipper go down your skin. It felt cold and it sent shivers down your spine. He gets you out of your dress very softly, like you were a princess. You stand up. Even though you were only on your underwear you didn’t feel naked in front of him. You felt confident and warm -even if they were practically no clothes on you-. You went to him, start unbuttoning his white shirt that made his skin tone look even prettier and his collarbones-damn those collarbones- were finally exposed. You kiss them very lightly making sure your lips barely touched skin so he could feel the goosebumps. He had some abs but that is the last thing you look at because holy fuck you’re not a V line kind of girl but his truly looked like it was sculpted by ancient Greeks. You look at him while you zip down his pants and he seems to love it because you may or may not ‘accidentally’ touch or very much touch his length as you do it. And it feels rock hard. You never thought you could make a man feel like that, then again you never really cared about it, but you wanted him to feel like that. You wanted him to shiver under your touch like you did in his.

His pants are now off and oh my god his erection is big. He grabs you by the waist pulling your body into his while kissing you. After a while you slowly get down on your feet ready to make him feel good. Because at this point you forget this is about you and all you want is to make him reach cloud 9.

You start of slow at the tip trying your best to look experienced. He knows you haven’t done this before but he seems to love it, and so do you. He kicks his head back as you go a bit deeper. You touch his balls with your free hand while the other is jerking him off accompanied with your mouth of course.

“Are you sure this is your first?” He asks while coaming your hair.

You get your mouth out making a loud sound while saliva is currently everywhere and he seems to enjoy the sight.

“Yes” you simply say to him and you continue.

He lets out a loud groan as you go a bit faster.

“Slow down baby” he says in between moans “ I want to come inside of you, that’s where good girls take it”

Fuck you weren’t a dirty talk kind of girl but him just saying anything revolving sex made you so ready for him.

“Then stop wanting and do it” you stand up planting kisses into his neck around the soft spot. Maybe a couple of hickeys here and there, not to mark him so other bitches would know that he is yours or anything, because is he? The thing he said before, did he say that to make you feel comfortable?

You snap out of your thoughts as you feel two fingers playing with your folds. Slowly going in and out.

“God you are very tight” he said. Honestly what did he expect? You are after all a virgin. He is the first one. Of fucking course you’re tight.

He starts moving his fingers faster and oh my god if his fingers feel this then how does his dick feel?  

Him thrusting his two -oh shit now three- fingers in and out of you made you almost reach your climax

“Babe” you say grabbing his arm. “I want to come on your dick, not your fingers” you swear you could feel his belly tense up at your words. Does he like what I said?

“Fuck” he technically moans as he kisses your collarbones now moving towards your chest.

He licks his lips “As expected, you taste too good to be true” he continues kissing you.

Suddenly he throws you in bed removing your bra feeling your breasts leaving some hickeys and it makes you wonder if he had the same reason you had.

“Are you ready?” he says softly and very –very- sexy. A voice that only he could do.

“Mhm” you say while your head was buried in his shoulder grabbing for safety.

You feel the head going in and you feel like you can already come. But you don’t. Because as before, you wanted him to enjoy it too. The night wasn’t about the tattoos anymore. Fuck that. The night was about feeling him. Smelling him. And god even coming all over him.

You let a huge moan out as his whole length goes inside. He sits there for a while, letting you adjust to the size. You’re happy he is the first, he knows what he is doing –and he is doing it good-.

“Fuck, fuck fuck” you practically yell because it’s been a while and he is fucking you hard. Very hard.

“God you feel so good” he groans “I’ve never felt like this baby” He kisses you. How can he make you feel like that? How can another human being make you feel so good?

You finally come, and so does he. Your climaxes seconds apart. Fuck this was the best night ever.  

He throws himself next to you. Suddenly you feel a tingling sensation on your arm. And you think that he does too because both of you bring out your hands. Everything slowly wears off from both of your skins. You look at him and he does the same. You will never get enough of his stares, ever. The tattoos are off, that’s what you wanted right? Yes that’s what you wanted. You are not marked anymore, you do not share something with his skin anymore. But why does that make you sad now? Before it was annoying at first but now that they are off you feel empty.

“They are off” he says. No expression on his face. Did he feel the same as you?

“Yeah” you say “Listen Taehyung I-“

“Be with me”

“W-what?”

He gets closer, noses touching foreheads too. He closes his eyes and moves his chin a bit upwards like he was enjoying feeling your face. “Be with me” you could feel his breath winding on your cheek and there is nothing you wanted more.

“Are you sure you want to put up with me? I’m a pain in the ass you know, I will eat all of your food-“

He kisses you.

You love him kissing you.

“Do you want us to take a shower?” uh how do I put this? Hell freaking yeeeees. You don’t say that though…

“Yes, I would love that”  See Kim Taehyung, I can be normal.

He chuckled.

The next morning you wake up, but you don’t feel him. Where the hell is he?

You hear a noise. It’s a text. It’s Taehyung.

{Good morning sleepy head. Don’t be mad that I’m not there, come see me at the garden}

You raise an eyebrow

{Sleeping beauty*. What are you doing in the garden? Can’t we just wake up like normal people do?}

{Alright I guess I’ll just eat this breakfast alone}

{Hold your filthy hands away from my food I’m coming}

You get to the garden, Taehyung looks amazing, what a garden smells nice, Taehyung smells incredible, oh look at these pretty flowers, Taehyung is the most beautiful among them.

“When you asked me why haven’t I brought anyone to this garden before since it was amazing.”

“Yes”

“No one was amazing enough to be brought here. But then I got to know you…”

These butterflies seriously need to stop. You feel your cheeks burning, is it hot in here?

“Y/N” he says

“Yes?”

He takes the pen out of his pocket. The pen? What does he want the pen for?

“I know you wanted the quotes off but I was wondering…”

“Yes.”

“You- you don’t mind if I?”

“No, Taehyung.”

Years later

“Muuuuum Jullie says stupid things again”

“Shush Michael you know nothing”

“Whoah what is going on here?” you say

“Mum please tell Jullie that there is no such thing as ‘soul mates’ because she thinks she is in love again”

“Michael I’m telling you-“

“Sush both of you” you interrupt.

You could see Taehyung looking at you from the corner chuckling. He hasn’t changed one bit.

“You know what my grandmother used to say? She used to say that If you know what completes you why wouldn’t you get it yourself instead of dragging another person in your life so you would feel complete. Make yourself feel happy and complete without having to wait for others.” You paused “Now every time I read this quote on my hand I remember just how unwise her words were. Its not about feeling complete. It’s about finding someone that completes what you want to be” You read the quote out loud.

“Maybe the wolf is in love with the moon, and each month it cries for a love it will never touch.”

❤

#kim taehyung #taehyung smut #taehyung fluff #taehyung scenarios #bts smut #bts fanfic #taehyung fanfic #bts fluff #taehyung angst #bts angst #bts scenarios

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fic: Meet Me Under the Spotlight

Rating: PG-13 Word Count: ~3200 Characters: Steve/Natasha, mentions of the ensemble Summary: The celebrity social media au no one asked for.

A/N: This started off as just an article I was writing that was supposed to be a snippet in a fic I’ve wanted to write for a while, but I had so much fun that I expanded upon it. I’ve always been a fan of those social media edits circulating Tumblr, and after I’d read a few fics that incorporated texting and social media, I’ve always wanted to try it out. So, here it is! You can also consider it a preview for the celebrity au I’m probably still planning to write.

(Also, this is very raw; as in, I sort of skimmed it for errors, because I'm leaving in a bit. But I'll come back to it for editing when I can take my time.)

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‘Marvelous’ Cast Talks Shocking Season Finale and What Next Season Could Hold

June 1, 2017. 11:32 AM PST

It’s been a week since the Season 3 finale of ‘Marvelous’ aired and fans are still in hysterics over the state of their beloved heroes.

(Spoiler alerts below!)

Season 3′s Episode 22, “How the Mighty Fall” left Scarlet Witch held captive and under experimentation at the hands of a mysterious scientist, with Winter Soldier and Falcon quite literally at each other’s throats on how to find her. Hulk has disappeared, Thor’s powers have been seemingly sealed away for good. And just as the Captain has come to realize that Black Widow’s betrayal had ultimately been for his protection, he’s too late: Hawkeye is in a coma, and Widow’s memories have been erased.

And you’ll have to wait three whole months to see what happens next.

Upset? Yeah, so are we.

And we made sure that ‘Marvelous’ co-stars Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanoff were aware of this when Access Entertainment! caught up with them in the AE! lounge.

“He cried [when we did the table read],” Natasha had dished about Steve, who didn’t try to downplay the claim as he almost doubled over in laughter at the recollection. “We all did,” Natasha went on to admit with a laugh of her own. “With ‘Marvelous’ being supernatural, you just never know anyone’s fate and it’s fun. Fun and scary. And it’s as emotional to us as it is the fans. When we read the scene where Wanda [Maximoff, playing Scarlet Witch] is experimented on, it was already a lot to handle. Then to see her crying on the floor like that? It was tough. Such a good performance, though.”

“Wanda blows us away every day,” agreed Steve with a fond smile. Steve has always been quick to praise the talent of Wanda, whom he starred alongside in the romantic comedy Brother of the Bride that premiered the same day Wanda received the news about being cast in ‘Marvelous’. Wanda had shared with AE! before that Steve had been a big reason for her auditioning for the role in the first place. The fact that landing it could mean working alongside Natasha, one of her childhood idols, also helped.

(Related: Wanda Maximoff Posts a #TBT with Steve Rogers to Announce Being Cast as Scarlet Witch on ‘Marvelous’)

After the emotional turmoil that the season finale put us through, it seems like they’re setting up Season 4 to be bigger and better than ever! But if the cast has a clue as to what is happening next, they’re keeping it under lock and key.

“He wants us all dead,” Natasha had joked when asked if the show’s writer/producer Nick Fury had shared some insight on where he wants to take Season 4. “No, seriously. We’re all so close and we all have a lot of fun, and yeah, we get the work done. But there’s some serious teeth-pulling and bribing on Nick’s part to get us to behave. If he had hair, he would’ve torn it all out. So he’d just kill us all off as punishment, one by one.”

“I think he’d spare you,” Steve had said in response to Natasha’s teasing. “She’s his favorite. Which isn’t an issue, because she’s everyone’s favorite!”

The Official Twitter of Access Entertainment @accessentertainment -- May 31       Steve Rogers and his shrinking shirts. You’re welcome, Twitter... pic.twitter.com/sGR1mW...

Natasha A. Romanoff @therussianprincessnat -- May 31     @stevefrombrooklyn can’t blame Marvelous Wardrobe anymore. you suck at doing laundry and @accessentertainment has the proof

Steve Rogers @stevefrombrooklyn -- May 31       @therussianprincessnat you mean they’re not supposed to be skin tight? then what does Captain America draw his power from?

Natasha A. Romanoff @therussianprincessnat -- May 31       @stevefrombrooklyn those big baby blues... seriously rogers, who’d you sell your soul to?

Steve Rogers @stevefrombrooklyn -- May 31       @therussianprincessnat aww thanks nat, i always knew you loved my eyes

Steve Rogers @stevefrombrooklyn -- May 31       @therussianprincessnat you’re still in trouble for eating my pudding, though

Natasha A. Romanoff @therussianprincessnat -- May 31       @stevefrombrooklyn oh god, get over that, grumpy old man. i’ll buy you another one. geez

Steve Rogers @stevefrombrooklyn -- May 31       @therussianprincessnat thanks love :)

Just In: ‘Marvelous’ co-Stars Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanoff send fans into a frenzy over flirty banter on Twitter during AE! visit; fellow co-star Sam Wilson laughs over the reception, shares “that’s just how they’ve always been” (June 2, 2017)

‘Marvelous’ Cast Talks Shocking Season Finale ... (continued)

June 1, 2017. 11:32 AM PST

Speaking of sparing the Widow... with her memories gone, fans are already speculating on what Captain’s next move is going to be.

“It’s a funny one, you know? It’s a funny situation,” Steve shared when asked about how he thinks Captain and Black Widow’s dynamic will progress in the next season. “He’s always been the first person to vouch for her. He knows what she’s done, what she’s had to do, and he trusts her anyway. He’s always valued her where others haven’t. What’s funny -- well, in a bittersweet kind of way, what’s funny is that he’s also the first person to take her for granted. He doesn’t realize how much she’s come to mean to him until she can’t remember who he is, and I’m sure it’s going to be a real hard hit to be around her when she’s like this. He’ll raise hell to get her memories back.”

That’s how Steve thinks it will go, at least. And we’re sure that fans will be totally on board for that.

As for Widow? We've come to realize that maybe her lack of memories could be for the best. Sort of. “Nick and I talked about it early on,” Natasha confessed. “Widow is who she is, and acts how she acts, because of her past. She doesn’t want to get involved with anyone because she’s scared. But with Captain, she’s also curious. She feels that connection, and what’s stopping her is herself, and ultimately that’s what’s stopping him, too. Because he can read her in a way that no one else ever could, and so of course he senses her hesitation and he steps back like the gentleman he is. So without her memories, she’s going to see him frantic and desperate to help her and that’s going to open her up in a way that wouldn’t have been possible if she’d still had her memories. So that’ll be fun to play off of. It’ll, hopefully, become a ‘blessing in disguise’ sort of thing for them.”

“They need it,” Steve added as he nudged Natasha’s shoulder. “They’re both stubborn, and it’s been a long time coming.”

Yeah, we know, Steve.

Captain and Black Widow have captured the hearts of fans since Day One, and that probably has a lot to do with the natural chemistry between these co-stars off-screen. Though Steve and Natasha had yet to have worked together before both being cast in ‘Marvelous’, they’ve always acknowledged each other’s talent. Steve has said on multiple occasions that he’s been a fan of Natasha since her acting debut in The Russian Princess, and often posted his praise and support for her on social media following the premieres of her movies. When Steve landed his first leading role on HBO’s historical fiction drama “Howling Commandos”, Natasha had posted a glowing review of the show’s pilot on Instagram and paid particular attention to Steve, saying that she looked forward to seeing him “take Hollywood by storm.” Though the show came to an early conclusion just three seasons in, Steve hadn’t had any trouble getting back on his feet.

(Related: ‘Marvelous’ Announces Breakout Actor Peter Parker to be Newest Hero to Join the Fray)

WATCH: ‘Marvelous’ Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanoff Get Cozy on Social Media During Flight to Hawaii

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Natasha A. Romanoff @therussianprincessnat -- June 5       Christmas pajamas in June? #trendsetters @stevefrombrooklyn   pic.twitter.com/cA4sBW...

[Image Caption: Steve and Natasha seated together in first class, wearing matching gingerbread men pajamas and Rudolph socks.]

Natasha A. Romanoff @therussianprincessnat -- June 5       @stevefrombrooklyn but let’s get this straight, mine are cuter and I wear them better

Steve Rogers @stevefrombrooklyn -- June 5       @therussianprincessnat you’re right, I don’t think I can top those Rudolph socks. you must really love whoever bought them for you

Natasha A. Romanoff @therussianprincessnat -- June 5       @stevefrombrooklyn you bought yourself the matching pair, you ass

Steve Rogers @stevefrombrooklyn -- June 5       write this down: the quickest way to @therussianprincessnat’s heart is through fuzzy socks #shelovesmeforthem

Just In: Steve and Natasha are all cuddles on Instagram during flight to Hawaii; fellow ‘Marvelous’ co-star Clint Barton snuffs dating rumors... or not? “It was supposed to be a cast vacation, but it didn’t pan out. But it’s fine. They won’t even notice that we’re gone.” (June 6, 2017)

‘Marvelous’ Spoilers: Cast Teases Fans With Finale on Instagram

May 19, 2017. 9:45 AM PST

[Image Caption: A candid photo of the cast and crew of ‘Marvelous’ drinking hot chocolate, eating cupcakes, and chatting while taking a break from filming.]

Last night’s episodes left fans reeling, wondering how things could get darker and more dangerous than ever in next week’s season finale. The icing on the heartache cake? This morning, the cast and crew teased fans on Instagram with photos of their on-set shenanigans while filming the finale. While it was nice to see some silliness and smiles after all of the arguing and tears from last night’s episode, fans were quick to catch on some of the ominous implications of these pictures. Such as: Tony Stark (Iron Man) decked out in fake blood and gore; the strange and daunting backdrop of a laboratory, not unlike the lab that Quicksilver had been tortured in the second half of season 2; fake ligature marks on Wanda Maximoff’s (Scarlet Witch) wrists, which can be seen as she poses with her arms around Jane Foster (head costume designer) and Darcy Lewis (head makeup artist); and Natasha Romanoff (Black Widow) in a hospital gown, laughing with Steve Rogers (Captain) as he wipes away staged tears.

[Image Caption: Tony Stark, bloodied and bruised, carrying Pepper Potts on his back while she wears his prototype Iron Man helmet.]

[Image Caption: Clint Barton taking a nap in the Tower infirmary set, while Sharon Carter and Maria Hill hook him to the medical machine props.]

[Image Caption: Wanda Maximoff, Jane Foster, and Darcy Lewis hugging in front of a laboratory set.]

[Image Caption: Natasha Romanoff sporting a hospital gown and fake stitches while laughing with Steve Rogers and Nick Fury between takes.]

Nick Fury also tweeted for the first time since teasingly responding to a few fans’ reactions to the Season 3 mid-season finale back in December. After the cast made a Twitter and Instagram account in Nick’s name at the beginning of filming the first season, Nick Fury became infamous for his cryptic responses and vague tweets that end up tying to major plot points and revelations in later episodes. This morning had been another opportunity to strike:

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(screen captures from Nick Fury’s official Twitter account)

Nick Fury @nickfurry -- May 19       @therussianprincessnat @stevefrombrooklyn I’ll never forget how exhausting you two are to work with   pic.twitter.com/bW13sCA...

[Image Caption: Nick Fury giving direction to Natasha Romanoff and Steve Rogers while filming a scene in the Tower infirmary set. Natasha is laying on a bed in a hospital gown while Steve holds her close.]

Nick Fury @nickfurry -- May 19       @iambuckybarnes @snapwilson friendly fire   pic.twitter.com/wS17jB...

[Image Caption: Bucky Barnes and Sam Wilson in costume while filming a fight scene in the snowy mountains. They have their hands around each other’s throats as fight choreographer Helen Cho gives them direction.]

Nick Fury @nickfurry -- May 19       @littlewandamaximoff @theothermaximoff that’s one way to help your sister out   pic.twitter.com/qS0sW...

[Image Caption: Wanda Maximoff laughing as Pietro Maximoff helps her drink from a bottled water with a silly straw. They’re sitting cross-legged on the floor, with Wanda’s hands seemingly bound together and tied to something out of frame.]

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Fans are already scrambling to figure out what surprises are in store for us in the finale. Caught something that we haven’t? Don’t forget to share it with your fellow Marvels in a comment below.

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[Image Caption: Natasha in a bikini, stretched out on a beach towel, smiling at the camera with half of her face hidden behind a straw hat.]

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[Image Caption: Photo of a Polaroid of Steve and Natasha taken at a luau, the two of them laughing as he places a flower crown on her head.]

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[Image Caption: Natasha sitting on a lounge chair with a plate of breakfast in her lap, peering over her sunglasses at the camera as she sips orange juice.]

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[Image Caption: Steve sitting with his back to the camera, busied with his sketching, with the sun setting over the ocean in the horizon.]

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Spotted: ‘Marvelous’ Co-Stars Practically Glowing During Hawaiian Vacation

June 9, 2017. 1:16 PM PST

[Image Caption: Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanoff laying close together on the sand, both smiling at each other as they talk.]

It seems like these stars are following in their characters’ footsteps!

Well, if you don’t count the superpowers.

Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanoff landed in Hawaii on Tuesday for a well deserved break after filming finished for their most intense season yet. After plans for the whole cast to vacation together fell through the cracks, Steve and Natasha -- in true Steve and Natasha fashion -- decided to do their own thing and go anyway.

Fans will probably already know that this isn’t the first time that the two ever have vacationed together. After they wrapped up a spectacular first season together, the pair joined fellow co-stars Tony Stark and Pepper Potts on a cruise along the Mediterranean, which both Tony and Pepper later revealed to have been a “spur of the moment” trip, and were pleasantly surprised when the pair agreed. Steve and Natasha then came back to the States, where Natasha would spend a week in Brooklyn with Steve to visit his parents and other fellow co-star Bucky Barnes, who has been best friends with Steve since childhood.

Though scheduling conflicts prevented the pair from spending the following summer together, it seems like they’re back at it again this year. And they seem cozier than ever! In addition to posting their personal photos together on their social media, pictures have been circulating of the two seen out and about around the Hawaiian islands, looking friendlier than ever. Which has always been the case, considering the explosive chemistry we’ve seen between them on and off screen since the beginning. But is it just us, or do things seem to be far more personal between them than before? They certainly seem to have the “honeymoon phase” glow, and lately the pair has noticeably avoided or outright ignored inquiries about a romantic relationship between them as of late. Though, that could just because they’re tired of repeating themselves. It’s been three years now.

Either way, it’s always heartwarming to see these two having so much fun whenever they’re together! Hopefully it’s forever.

[Image Caption: Natasha feeding Steve a spoonful of shaved ice at a cafe along the beach.]

[Image Caption: Steve and Natasha standing close together in the aisle of a supermarket, Steve smiling as Natasha whispers into his ear.]

[Image Caption: Steve with his arms around Natasha, the both of them laughing as he tries to drag her deeper into the ocean.]

Just In: ‘Marvelous’ cast barraged with questions on the relationship status between Steve Rogers and Natasha Romanoff as their vacation get cozier; Wanda giggles when shown the photos during Phil Coulson radio interview, but simply responds with “it’s cute” when asked her opinion. (June 10, 2017)

‘Marvelous’ Cast Talks Shocking Season Finale ... (continued)

June 1, 2017. 11:32 AM PST

Nick Fury will have one direction he’ll want to take Captain and Widow in the next season, and fans will want a dozen others. But what do Steve and Natasha hope the future will have in store for their characters?

“Wherever they are, however things may be, I hope they just stay together,” Natasha shared. “They have such a beautiful thing going on because they’ve been the one constant piece to each other amidst the chaos. And they’ve come to really depend on each other for comfort and supports, even just company. I would hate for anything to happen to that. And I personally don’t believe that anything exists for Widow that would be more important to her than remaining right by the Captain’s side. That feeling, I feel, will resonate with her even with her memories gone. She’s so tied to him that her body and her heart are going to remember what her mind can’t. That’s my prediction.”

“I agree,” Steve added. “I think that’s why Cap was just so devastated when he thought Black Widow betrayed him. It hurt him down to his very core and she knew that it would, which is why she said the things she said. To make sure he was so blindsided that he wouldn’t go near her and then wouldn’t end up in the crossfire. And that’s what makes it another huge punch to the gut when he figures out the truth. Because I think he had to have known deep down inside that Widow was looking out for him, just as she’s always been, and he held onto that sliver of hope. So I really hope this teaches him that life is too damn short and you’ve got to fight for what you love. You’ve got to.”

Now if that didn’t move you to a few tears, we don’t know what would.

And we feel a little better knowing that Natasha and Steve are hopeful for their characters’ future, as well as the future of all our beloved heroes. Nick Fury has always taken his cast and crew’s opinion into consideration before taking these characters into the next chapter, and it makes the show bigger and better than ever.

What do you hope to see in the next season? Share it with your fellow Marvels in a comment below!

Steve Rogers @stevefrombrooklyn -- June 12       @therussianprincessnat are you going to tell them or should i?   pic.twitter.com/nAR4o1... 

[Image Caption: Natasha cuddled with Steve on a beach towel, hiding her face in his chest as he kisses her hair.]

Natasha A. Romanoff @therussianprincessnat -- June 12       @stevefrombrooklyn you impatient ass. you’re lucky you’re cute

Steve Rogers @stevefrombrooklyn -- June 12       @therussianprincessnat thanks love (:

#romanogers #romanogersday #steve rogers #natasha romanoff #chanty writes #seriously tho i had to much fun writing this sjfhak #marvelous 'verse