Hi? Is it okay to ask for Ganondorf's possible anxieties involving having a son?
I mean, it's highly unlikely that Ganon even saw another male until at least 18. Imagine what that would do to someone. No father, no male role model, no male friends, no male associates. No male contact at all.
Like, I can't even imagine what it would've been like to have had no female contact at all until 18.
Just not having a good father in one's life is known to stunt a person substantially. I can't even fathom how othered Ganon must've felt growing up. How utterly pressured he felt to become a pillar of masculinity without any real example to follow. No one to teach him what it actually means to be a good man. No one to explain things to him. No one to show him the subtle little things that seems to almost be universal among men no matter the culture. Especially in how they interact amongst each other. No one to teach him about comradery between men. About the unspoken rules that men seem to have.
And, not to mention the almost commodifying perspective the Gerudo have towards men. One even mentioned that she'd believed that all men were useless except for Ganondorf.
I can't help but think he might've internalized some of that.
So, would Ganon be anxious about setting a good example for his son seeing as he likely didn't have that himself?
Ganondorf had to admit he was still in shock over looking at his children. But the longer he stared at them, the more a new feeling settled into his heart.
Watching his daughter was a blessing; a strong feeling of protectiveness overcame him, and he wondered how such a delicate looking child could grow into a warrior like her mother. But his son…
Ganondorf could fathom having a daughter, could handle raising a girl. But a son…
He’d never felt so simultaneously out-of-depth and excited.
It wasn’t particularly a feeling he enjoyed. Ganondorf despised being out of control. But looking at the little boy made him feel so utterly alone and adrift, wondering how in the world he could possibly raise this child correctly. Yet at the same time, it filled him with eagerness, an excitement to give the boy guidance that he had been sorely lacking in his life.
Growing up as a Gerudo male had been so incredibly isolating. Ganondorf had been treated as a king and as some Other, his childhood filled with voids and gaps in understanding, in confusion that had left him stumbling when he’d first entered Hyrule. He’d never felt unwelcome by his fellow Gerudo, but he’d also never felt welcome. His presence was a blessing, a symbol of leadership with no understanding of what that even meant. Somehow it was his responsibility to lead his band of thieves, and the best way he knew how was to be the strongest. His physicality lent to it naturally, so it only seemed the correct path. But when he’d first entered Hyrule, when he’d first seen another man, he had felt wholly inadequate. It had been a group of Hylian soldiers, all strong in their own right, laughing amongst each other, at ease, normal.
He wasn’t normal. He’d never been normal. His body had been strange and cursed, developing in ways no other Gerudo’s had, lacking the gift of life that the women bore, making up for it in sheer power and aggression. It had been his goddess-given right to be a protector, and that had developed into a greater desire when he’d seen Hyrule.
He didn’t have to defend. He could just take as his sisters did, but with greater results. He could live in a land that prospered, he could rule it, as was his birthright.
But all of those thoughts felt empty when looking at his son, because here he held a new gift and opportunity. He could be a father. He could raise a boy to be a man, could show him what that meant when he’d never had that chance.
But what could he possibly do in this role? He knew nothing of fathers, even in his journeys to Hyrule. The closest he’d gotten to interacting with a father was seeing the king, who occasionally was present with the princess, but mostly the girl was elsewhere in the palace. Was being a father not that involved, then, or was it simply because the king of Hyrule had other duties? Ganondorf surely wouldn’t abandon his children nearly so much. They could attend duties with him. How else could they learn to fulfill their roles, anyway?
Was that the correct course of action? Twinrova had done as much with Ganondorf, so it seemed reasonable. He’d been involved in the care and leadership of his people since he was a teenager, perhaps even a little younger.
The worst part of this was that he had no one to turn to for this. Ganondorf hated relying on anything or anyone else but himself, but in this matter… he… almost wished he did have someone. Nabooru, as much as he loved her, was not going to be helpful in this matter. However, in this land that Din had taken him to, the Gerudo here did have a very small amount of men present in their ranks – only those who joined with Gerudo women were allowed. Men from a nearby settlement occasionally interacted with Gerudo, and those who chose to embrace the culture and marry one of the women were allowed. But they were foreigners, and Ganondorf was their ruler through his own birthright and his marriage to Nabooru. He refused to look to them for an example.
Ganondorf took a steadying breath, lifting the child into his arms. It didn’t matter if he had an example or not. He’d forged his own way his entire life, and that wasn’t changing now. He would be a father to these children whether he was ready or not, and so he would strive to be the best father he could be, whatever that meant.
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mike having a small crush on el in s1 that just went too far is my favorite fruity mike hc.
like, in the beginning, he had a tiny crush on her because she's pretty and cool and powerful and so a small crush developed. but then she (allegedly) reciprocated these feelings and suddenly this went from a tiny crush to an actual relationship.
and mike gets will back, and no matter his crush on el, he loves will. but he's in a 'proper hetero relationship' so we get repress repress repress and comphet comphet comphet.
mike does the relationship things. he tried to appear cool so el finds him attractive by giving up dnd. he told her he loved her. he did all the proper relationship things. this is what 'proper' relationship things are, so this is what i'm going to do.
and in the process he's losing will, his best friend, the person who he's always been the most attached to. he's losing will who was the best thing that happened to him.
but hey! that's what relationships are, right? they matter most, so mike is doing the normal thing.
el tells him she (allegedly) loves him too, and it makes him uncomfy, but he pushes it away. why didn't he like it when she kissed him? why did he like it so much more when wills said he wont join another party?
doesn't matter. they've moved away. and mike pushes it down more.
he's going to visit them in california. will apparently has a crush on some girl, which he's very normal and not awkward about.
before he leaves the plane, he puts his sunglasses on. there's no specific reason he doesnt want her to see his eyes when they kiss, just like there's no reason he puts the flowers in between them which makes them separate faster. that's just a side effect. he goes to hug will, but it feels too weird, even though he can hug lucas and dustin without problems. there's no reason for that, don't think about it.
will has a painting. maybe the painting wasn't for a girl, but instead a gift for mike, will's best friend! or apparently not.
oh, angela? angela is probably whoever the painting goes to. not that mike cares or anything.
he's not avoiding will for a specific reason, it just feels too weird.
he cant tell el he loves her, but that's not for a specific reason either.
oh my god, the painting was for him!
nevermind, this was something el commissioned.
oh, el needs him? he has to stay with her. she matters a lot to him, he cant lose her because of whatever he's feeling. he's in love with her. he has to be.
mike has to save el. she wanted him to tell her he loved her. love at first sight is a good relationship thing to say, right?
el isn't talking to him since the love confession. he misses her. they're probably going to break up. why doesn't that bother him?
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Peter Tork onstage in New York City on July 22, 1986. Photo by Ebet Roberts/Getty Images.
“A while ago, an ad appeared in a newspaper here offering music lessons for $30 an hour. Peter Tork placed that ad and, yes, he gives music lessons. He is a genuine talent: a multi-instrumentalist; and a heck of a nice chap. […]
Peter Tork is a VERY serious man heavily into spirituality and humanity. And he can be a happy-go-lucky, joking, laugh-a-minute fellow. […]
So, you’re 44 now, is that good?
‘It’s OK. Sure my knees aren’t as wonderful as they used to be. But the other day I pounded down the pavement after a bus, and it felt like I was flying. Like I was eight. Um. My back’s going. My hair’s falling out. I don’t have any teeth left. My head fell off last night, which was kind of annoying. I left my spleen on a train last week. Basically, I’m falling to pieces but I feel simply wonderful.’ […] I started getting the idea that this guy is kind of genuine; sincere, the real thing.” - article by John Elder, Countdown, April 1987
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this isn't the first time they found themselves like this , wrapped around each other in a forceful , needy display , getting out whatever it is they needed out of their system. ever since the cruise that changed everything , they've been rather awkward about the status of their ❛ relationship. ❜ they're not publicly out to anyone ﹙ well , save for the people in their inner circle ﹚ or together really by any means , often ignoring or bugging the hell out of each other whenever they cross each other's paths at parties & events. tonight is a night mason finds himself in @eulogier's place & being kissed to damn near breathless , barely exchanging any words the moment he cross the threshold. usually it's better this way than dealing with his stupid budding feelings , but something is clearly off here & maybe for once , mason doesn't feel like entirely ignoring everything.
❝ slow down there , tiger , ❞ mason mumbles against his lips , a wheezy laugh leaving him as hands press against his chest. ❝ not that i didn't come here knowing this was going to happen , but . . . you know , maybe a ❛ hi ❜ would be good before we start sucking face ? clearly you got something on your mind if you called me & just wanna jump to . . . this. ❞ it's his gentle way of saying ❛ you wanna talk ? ❜ without actually saying so. if he did ask him that , he'd probably get thrown out , so he's treading lightly as best he can , both not to upset him & also because maybe . . . maybe he wants to stay with him tonight , as fucked up as that sounds.
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WHERE DO YOU HOLD YOUR LOVE ??
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On your shoulders
You hold your love on your shoulders; A weight to bear but one you're not crumbling under. Love for you is heavy, big- it makes up everything, the world is comprised entirely of love and you know it. This can make you feel smaller than you'd like to, like you have an obligation to be a part of it, or maybe an obligation to create a love so massive it marks itself as different- greater, a task to take upon yourself. But doesn't all love feel different? And isn't all love great?
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Ani Reviews: A Step-by-Step Guide to a Florida Native Yard
I promised you guys a review and here it is. I've never really done a book review before but I'm doing my best to make this Coherent and Helpful.
[Photo ID: a book, titled A Step-by-Step Guide to a Florida Native Yard by Ginny Stibolt and Marjorie Shropshire.]
Out of all the books I checked out from the library this round, I started with this one because it was the shortest out of all of them--if we don't count the appendix and index, its 101 pages long. You can read where I sort of live blogged a portion of this read here.
I think its a pretty good read! It's definitely a lot more relevant if you are the home owner and most directly in charge of landscaping decisions and such. It gives a bit of advice on how to handle making similar changes in an HOA neighborhood, and provides pointers and resources to other books that can also be helpful in the journey to make your landscape a wildlife-friendly habitat. It focuses on Florida specifically, as denoted by the title, and will frequently remind the reader that gardening in Florida is vastly different from gardening anywhere else. So whether you've been a Florida resident all your life, or are planning on making a move on down here, this book can be a helpful resource if you want to transform some or even all of your yard into a habitat.
After the introduction, the book is separated into seven major sections referred to as Steps. There's Assess Your Property, Plan for Drainage and Stormwater Sequestration, Install Trees, Plant Shrubs, Working with Herbaceous Plants, Build a Wild or Natural Area, and Create Spaces for Human Use. If you're more interested in one part than the others, you can definitely skip around to find what you're looking for. I will say, the Drainage and Stormwater section made my head spin a bit.
I will say this: I don't know if the writers ever fully decided if they wanted this book to be targeted towards those who are already gung-ho about native plants and itching to transform their landscape, or to people who are just beginning to dip their toe into the idea. Overall though, it was a nice and informative read, and the illustrations inside are lovely.
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Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Rogue One: A Star Wars Story (2016)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Cassian Andor/Jyn Erso, Cassian Andor & Jyn Erso & Bodhi Rook
Characters: Cassian Andor, Jyn Erso, Bodhi Rook, Original Characters
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Somebody Lives/Not Everyone Dies, Unplanned Pregnancy, Parenthood, Established Relationship, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Team as Family, Domestic, Guilt
Series: Part 2 of my love's a giant welt
Summary:
“I’m pregnant.” Jyn announces unceremoniously one morning. In Cassian’s arms, Kay wiggles insistently, squirms and kicks in his continued efforts to break free and slither onto the floor and away from the spoonful of mashed purple yam Cassian has been unsuccessfully trying to feed him all morning. His mother’s announcement does not deter him in the slightest.
Cassian can’t say the same for himself, his attention fracturing in two before it splinters further, doubles, quadruples, unravels into a loose tangle all over their morning meal.
from @the-space-narwhal
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