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graedari · 2 months
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2-for-1 deal of Jess Lives and Gets Marked AU
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skyloftian-nutcase · 27 days
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Hi? Is it okay to ask for Ganondorf's possible anxieties involving having a son?
I mean, it's highly unlikely that Ganon even saw another male until at least 18. Imagine what that would do to someone. No father, no male role model, no male friends, no male associates. No male contact at all.
Like, I can't even imagine what it would've been like to have had no female contact at all until 18.
Just not having a good father in one's life is known to stunt a person substantially. I can't even fathom how othered Ganon must've felt growing up. How utterly pressured he felt to become a pillar of masculinity without any real example to follow. No one to teach him what it actually means to be a good man. No one to explain things to him. No one to show him the subtle little things that seems to almost be universal among men no matter the culture. Especially in how they interact amongst each other. No one to teach him about comradery between men. About the unspoken rules that men seem to have.
And, not to mention the almost commodifying perspective the Gerudo have towards men. One even mentioned that she'd believed that all men were useless except for Ganondorf.
I can't help but think he might've internalized some of that.
So, would Ganon be anxious about setting a good example for his son seeing as he likely didn't have that himself?
Ganondorf had to admit he was still in shock over looking at his children. But the longer he stared at them, the more a new feeling settled into his heart.
Watching his daughter was a blessing; a strong feeling of protectiveness overcame him, and he wondered how such a delicate looking child could grow into a warrior like her mother. But his son…
Ganondorf could fathom having a daughter, could handle raising a girl. But a son…
He’d never felt so simultaneously out-of-depth and excited.
It wasn’t particularly a feeling he enjoyed. Ganondorf despised being out of control. But looking at the little boy made him feel so utterly alone and adrift, wondering how in the world he could possibly raise this child correctly. Yet at the same time, it filled him with eagerness, an excitement to give the boy guidance that he had been sorely lacking in his life.
Growing up as a Gerudo male had been so incredibly isolating. Ganondorf had been treated as a king and as some Other, his childhood filled with voids and gaps in understanding, in confusion that had left him stumbling when he’d first entered Hyrule. He’d never felt unwelcome by his fellow Gerudo, but he’d also never felt welcome. His presence was a blessing, a symbol of leadership with no understanding of what that even meant. Somehow it was his responsibility to lead his band of thieves, and the best way he knew how was to be the strongest. His physicality lent to it naturally, so it only seemed the correct path. But when he’d first entered Hyrule, when he’d first seen another man, he had felt wholly inadequate. It had been a group of Hylian soldiers, all strong in their own right, laughing amongst each other, at ease, normal.
He wasn’t normal. He’d never been normal. His body had been strange and cursed, developing in ways no other Gerudo’s had, lacking the gift of life that the women bore, making up for it in sheer power and aggression. It had been his goddess-given right to be a protector, and that had developed into a greater desire when he’d seen Hyrule.
He didn’t have to defend. He could just take as his sisters did, but with greater results. He could live in a land that prospered, he could rule it, as was his birthright.
But all of those thoughts felt empty when looking at his son, because here he held a new gift and opportunity. He could be a father. He could raise a boy to be a man, could show him what that meant when he’d never had that chance.
But what could he possibly do in this role? He knew nothing of fathers, even in his journeys to Hyrule. The closest he’d gotten to interacting with a father was seeing the king, who occasionally was present with the princess, but mostly the girl was elsewhere in the palace. Was being a father not that involved, then, or was it simply because the king of Hyrule had other duties? Ganondorf surely wouldn’t abandon his children nearly so much. They could attend duties with him. How else could they learn to fulfill their roles, anyway?
Was that the correct course of action? Twinrova had done as much with Ganondorf, so it seemed reasonable. He’d been involved in the care and leadership of his people since he was a teenager, perhaps even a little younger.
The worst part of this was that he had no one to turn to for this. Ganondorf hated relying on anything or anyone else but himself, but in this matter… he… almost wished he did have someone. Nabooru, as much as he loved her, was not going to be helpful in this matter. However, in this land that Din had taken him to, the Gerudo here did have a very small amount of men present in their ranks – only those who joined with Gerudo women were allowed. Men from a nearby settlement occasionally interacted with Gerudo, and those who chose to embrace the culture and marry one of the women were allowed. But they were foreigners, and Ganondorf was their ruler through his own birthright and his marriage to Nabooru. He refused to look to them for an example.
Ganondorf took a steadying breath, lifting the child into his arms. It didn’t matter if he had an example or not. He’d forged his own way his entire life, and that wasn’t changing now. He would be a father to these children whether he was ready or not, and so he would strive to be the best father he could be, whatever that meant.
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mushroombo · 10 months
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God, you’re pretty More’s the pity, since you need a man-- --What? Who’s brainy Or witty--
Day 1 // Lies and Secrets Fool’s Mate // The Chess Game
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luck-of-the-drawings · 7 months
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TRAINING ARC: START!! BOTHER YOUR GUARDIAN AND EXHIBIT ISSUES. NOW SOLVE THOSE ISSUES BY BOTHERING GUARDIANS. I HAVE FULL FAITH IN OUR HEROS!
#jrwi fanart#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi pd spoilers#jrwi show#cw blood#okayokay tryin out this queue thing for the first time despite usin this webbed site since 2013. if all goes accordin to plan this should#post at noon tomorrow. in the mEANT TIME CAN I TAAALLK ABOUT THIS EPISODE PRETTY PLESe??? THIS SHOW IS SO FUCKIN FUNNY...#SO MANY BITS I WISH I COULDVE DRAWN.. THIS WHOLE SHOW IS SUCH A PERFECT CARTOON IN MY BRRAAIAIINN. VYNS whole deal with talkin to himself#wasnt his dealio like. he had like NO complications for most o the show before this. wats that one gravity falls scene with soos goin like#i knew it. im literally the perfect man. and then he raises his arms for a heavenly choir and a dove lands on him. thats vyncent. BUT NOOW#MY BOY COMPLICATED!!! THE OVERTHINKING THING IS SO FUCKIN GOOD AND FUNNY. MY BABY BOY CAN DO ANYTHING. HES SO GOOD AT BREAKING ROCKS#Oh and this doodle page also includes the winebago shenanigens after reuniting with tide. the DARTS remember the darts#remember when tide actually snapped at william for driving like a FOOL!!! LOVE THAT SO MUCH. i gotta draw tide more aauuughghghuhh#ohh my GOODD WILLIAMS BEEF WITH THE RABBIT N THE BOAR WAS SO FUNNY... THESE CHARACTERS ARE ALL SOO FLAWED#WILLIAM IS SUCH A LITTLE ASSHOLEE. VYNCENT IS STUBBORN BEYOND BELIEF AND REASON. DAKOTA IS PERFECT HES A LIL DUMB BUT HES SO SWEET AND KIND#AND OH MY GOD ONE MORE THING CAN I JUST SAY. bizly is such a magnifiscent dm. i remember sayin months ago that#he finds ways to stack impossible odds against our heroes while still leaving room for them to succeed. the pd hasnt taken a single W but!#theyre surviving!! theyre keeping it together! from meat planets to cartoons to other dimensions to fighting the GODS!!! pd is genuinely#such a delight to listen to. a comedy and a tragedy. a story of ragtag heroes doing their best to do good despite their own failings.
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robertdownerjunior · 8 months
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mike having a small crush on el in s1 that just went too far is my favorite fruity mike hc.
like, in the beginning, he had a tiny crush on her because she's pretty and cool and powerful and so a small crush developed. but then she (allegedly) reciprocated these feelings and suddenly this went from a tiny crush to an actual relationship.
and mike gets will back, and no matter his crush on el, he loves will. but he's in a 'proper hetero relationship' so we get repress repress repress and comphet comphet comphet.
mike does the relationship things. he tried to appear cool so el finds him attractive by giving up dnd. he told her he loved her. he did all the proper relationship things. this is what 'proper' relationship things are, so this is what i'm going to do.
and in the process he's losing will, his best friend, the person who he's always been the most attached to. he's losing will who was the best thing that happened to him.
but hey! that's what relationships are, right? they matter most, so mike is doing the normal thing.
el tells him she (allegedly) loves him too, and it makes him uncomfy, but he pushes it away. why didn't he like it when she kissed him? why did he like it so much more when wills said he wont join another party?
doesn't matter. they've moved away. and mike pushes it down more.
he's going to visit them in california. will apparently has a crush on some girl, which he's very normal and not awkward about.
before he leaves the plane, he puts his sunglasses on. there's no specific reason he doesnt want her to see his eyes when they kiss, just like there's no reason he puts the flowers in between them which makes them separate faster. that's just a side effect. he goes to hug will, but it feels too weird, even though he can hug lucas and dustin without problems. there's no reason for that, don't think about it.
will has a painting. maybe the painting wasn't for a girl, but instead a gift for mike, will's best friend! or apparently not.
oh, angela? angela is probably whoever the painting goes to. not that mike cares or anything.
he's not avoiding will for a specific reason, it just feels too weird.
he cant tell el he loves her, but that's not for a specific reason either.
oh my god, the painting was for him!
nevermind, this was something el commissioned.
oh, el needs him? he has to stay with her. she matters a lot to him, he cant lose her because of whatever he's feeling. he's in love with her. he has to be.
mike has to save el. she wanted him to tell her he loved her. love at first sight is a good relationship thing to say, right?
el isn't talking to him since the love confession. he misses her. they're probably going to break up. why doesn't that bother him?
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My side of an Art Trade I did with _indigo.blues_ on Insta of their LOVELY bb Cooper!
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gatalentan · 1 year
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thislovintime · 1 year
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Peter Tork onstage in New York City on July 22, 1986. Photo by Ebet Roberts/Getty Images.
“A while ago, an ad appeared in a newspaper here offering music lessons for $30 an hour. Peter Tork placed that ad and, yes, he gives music lessons. He is a genuine talent: a multi-instrumentalist; and a heck of a nice chap. […] Peter Tork is a VERY serious man heavily into spirituality and humanity. And he can be a happy-go-lucky, joking, laugh-a-minute fellow. […] So, you’re 44 now, is that good? ‘It’s OK. Sure my knees aren’t as wonderful as they used to be. But the other day I pounded down the pavement after a bus, and it felt like I was flying. Like I was eight. Um. My back’s going. My hair’s falling out. I don’t have any teeth left. My head fell off last night, which was kind of annoying. I left my spleen on a train last week. Basically, I’m falling to pieces but I feel simply wonderful.’ […] I started getting the idea that this guy is kind of genuine; sincere, the real thing.” - article by John Elder, Countdown, April 1987
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greenelight · 2 months
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this   isn't   the   first   time   they   found   themselves   like   this   ,   wrapped   around   each   other   in   a   forceful   ,   needy   display   ,   getting   out   whatever   it   is   they   needed   out   of   their   system.   ever   since   the   cruise   that   changed   everything   ,   they've   been   rather   awkward   about   the   status   of   their   ❛   relationship.   ❜   they're   not   publicly   out   to   anyone   ﹙ well , save for the people in their inner circle ﹚ or   together   really   by   any   means   ,   often   ignoring   or   bugging   the   hell   out   of   each   other   whenever   they   cross   each   other's   paths   at   parties   &   events.   tonight   is   a   night   mason   finds   himself   in   @eulogier's   place   &   being   kissed   to   damn   near   breathless   ,   barely   exchanging   any   words   the   moment   he   cross   the   threshold.   usually   it's   better   this   way   than   dealing   with   his stupid budding feelings   ,   but   something   is   clearly   off   here   &   maybe   for   once   ,   mason   doesn't   feel   like   entirely   ignoring   everything.
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❝   slow   down   there   ,   tiger   ,   ❞   mason   mumbles   against   his   lips   ,   a   wheezy   laugh   leaving   him as hands press against his chest.   ❝   not   that   i   didn't   come   here   knowing   this   was   going   to   happen   ,   but   .   .   .   you   know   ,   maybe   a   ❛   hi   ❜   would   be   good   before   we   start   sucking   face   ?   clearly   you   got   something   on   your   mind   if   you   called   me   &   just   wanna   jump   to   .   .   .   this.   ❞   it's   his   gentle   way   of   saying   ❛   you   wanna   talk   ?   ❜   without   actually   saying   so.   if   he   did   ask   him   that   ,   he'd   probably   get   thrown   out   ,   so   he's   treading   lightly   as   best   he   can   ,   both   not   to   upset   him   &   also   because   maybe   .   .   .   maybe   he   wants   to   stay   with   him   tonight   ,   as   fucked   up   as   that   sounds.
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amarriageoftrueminds · 8 months
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more fics pls about post-WS Bucky discovering ballet;
a passtime where he gets to be dancing, badass, wearing tights like Steve, and work through his 'getting yelled at in Russian' trauma without consequences!
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banglatown · 11 months
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i am the literal example of being attracted to tht which repels me
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WHERE DO YOU HOLD YOUR LOVE ??
TAGGED BY:@heartxshaped-bruises ( Thank you! ) TAGGING: @fangsandmagic @wehavefoundthestars @v1ctimplagued
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•:•:•☾ 𝕬𝖇𝖘𝖎𝖓𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝕸𝖔𝖔𝖓
On your shoulders
You hold your love on your shoulders; A weight to bear but one you're not crumbling under. Love for you is heavy, big- it makes up everything, the world is comprised entirely of love and you know it. This can make you feel smaller than you'd like to, like you have an obligation to be a part of it, or maybe an obligation to create a love so massive it marks itself as different- greater, a task to take upon yourself. But doesn't all love feel different? And isn't all love great?
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skyloftian-nutcase · 1 year
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I'm in an Ocarina of Time angst/bittersweetness/learning to live with the pain mood, so have one of my more obscure fics
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anipgarden · 7 months
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Ani Reviews: A Step-by-Step Guide to a Florida Native Yard
I promised you guys a review and here it is. I've never really done a book review before but I'm doing my best to make this Coherent and Helpful.
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[Photo ID: a book, titled A Step-by-Step Guide to a Florida Native Yard by Ginny Stibolt and Marjorie Shropshire.]
Out of all the books I checked out from the library this round, I started with this one because it was the shortest out of all of them--if we don't count the appendix and index, its 101 pages long. You can read where I sort of live blogged a portion of this read here.
I think its a pretty good read! It's definitely a lot more relevant if you are the home owner and most directly in charge of landscaping decisions and such. It gives a bit of advice on how to handle making similar changes in an HOA neighborhood, and provides pointers and resources to other books that can also be helpful in the journey to make your landscape a wildlife-friendly habitat. It focuses on Florida specifically, as denoted by the title, and will frequently remind the reader that gardening in Florida is vastly different from gardening anywhere else. So whether you've been a Florida resident all your life, or are planning on making a move on down here, this book can be a helpful resource if you want to transform some or even all of your yard into a habitat.
After the introduction, the book is separated into seven major sections referred to as Steps. There's Assess Your Property, Plan for Drainage and Stormwater Sequestration, Install Trees, Plant Shrubs, Working with Herbaceous Plants, Build a Wild or Natural Area, and Create Spaces for Human Use. If you're more interested in one part than the others, you can definitely skip around to find what you're looking for. I will say, the Drainage and Stormwater section made my head spin a bit.
I will say this: I don't know if the writers ever fully decided if they wanted this book to be targeted towards those who are already gung-ho about native plants and itching to transform their landscape, or to people who are just beginning to dip their toe into the idea. Overall though, it was a nice and informative read, and the illustrations inside are lovely.
#ani reviews#ani rambles#out of queue#honestly like this book was a nice source of inspo that would inspire a transformed yard FOR ME#however if someone isn't already interested in native gardening I don't think its gonna push them into it#if all the talk about complicated drainage systems doesn't scare them off then honestly like#the alternative solutions they offer for lawns aren't... detailed on much#i would really love to find a book that focused on alternative lawn groundcovers for Florida specifically that targeted the concerns#i find that most people have#like 'can this hold up to kids playing soccer? to dog activities? if I roll my trashcan over it to get it to the curb is it gonna die on me#because like this book recommends dune sunflower as an altenrative to turf grass but even in the appendix section it doesn't mention if it#can handle being stepped on at all#it does say frogfruit is a good turf grass substitute but also like#frogfruit sunshine mimosa and twinflower are the other 3 it suggests forth and theyre ALL butterfly hostplants#and while the possibility of there being bugs in a turf lawn is far from an impossibility idk the idea of stepping on caterpillars icks me#*out. like even if ur not barefoot#and i know my mom and one of my other friends' first concerns would be 'would snakes hide in it' and idk if thats like#a Fringe Concern that most people don't worry about but I've never seen anyone address it when talking about alternative lawns#i am getting off topic#im ending the tags here byebye
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mosylufanfic · 1 year
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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Rogue One: A Star Wars Story (2016) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Cassian Andor/Jyn Erso, Cassian Andor & Jyn Erso & Bodhi Rook Characters: Cassian Andor, Jyn Erso, Bodhi Rook, Original Characters Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Somebody Lives/Not Everyone Dies, Unplanned Pregnancy, Parenthood, Established Relationship, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Team as Family, Domestic, Guilt Series: Part 2 of my love's a giant welt Summary:
“I’m pregnant.” Jyn announces unceremoniously one morning. In Cassian’s arms, Kay wiggles insistently, squirms and kicks in his continued efforts to break free and slither onto the floor and away from the spoonful of mashed purple yam Cassian has been unsuccessfully trying to feed him all morning. His mother’s announcement does not deter him in the slightest.
Cassian can’t say the same for himself, his attention fracturing in two before it splinters further, doubles, quadruples, unravels into a loose tangle all over their morning meal.
from @the-space-narwhal
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damnation-if · 2 years
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cyberpunk organised crime ring espionage with sexy demons
lmao... something tells me they wouldn't quite fit together.
#what does the chaos mirror see#anon#time flows differently in the queue#forgive me for rambling in the tags here but. the rot Consumes me#when i say cyberpunk i guess it's technically scifi since it takes place on another planet#but in addition to loving d&d and vampire the masquerade i'm also a big fan of shadowrun#the premise is that mc is a corporate espionage agent who has to seduce their way into a gang of criminals annoying your corpo masters#the planet has a wild orbit that takes it far away from the sun and through an asteroid belt for roughly the half the year#it's a miserable time; there's no sunlight and transports can't land because of the asteroids so the planet is basically on its own#so all the rich people leave during that period and it basically becomes anarchy and chaos as everything turns to lawlessness when they go#until they clear the asteroid belt and the corps send in their private armies to re-establish order via gunfire#both the corps and the gangs know that you can make a hell of a lot of money during this period by doing standard shadowrun crime stuff#but one gang has really been cheesing your corp's onions and they don't know How so they send you to seduce your way in and find out#you pick one of the ROs as a likely mark in the prologue and then it skips forward almost a year to just before the planet goes dark again#so it's like. you still haven't figured it out but also you've been fake-dating this person for nearly a year#i just wanted to write something with. that kind of more complicated relationship dynamic of a longer-term relationship already in place#anyway naturally you get to decide in the end if you destroy the gang or betray your corporate masters lmfao#shadowrun *jazzhands*#i know i said i was keeping myself from pitching RO ideas but. one of them i already decided on is a butch lesbian with a shotgun#she's their driver and is covered in tattoos lmao#also there's a guy who's a spy from a Different corp#anyway yes. Sorry about this
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