Precious Weapon (6)
Pairing : Lloyd Hansen x F!OC (Elle) x Sierra Six.
Summary : Two weeks into their mission and everything's going peachy for them. But, the CIA wants her to do more now. She spirals, trying to make a decision as she tries to distract herself from reality — old habits die hard.
Warnings : Politics. Explosion. Fire. Mentions of drugs and murder. Anxiety. Hidden stress and depression. Arguing. More arguing with both men. Angst. Heavy smut. Threesome. Anal sex. P in V sex. Really rough smut. Pain kink. Lewd. Violence. Gore. Murder. Implied attempted suicide. Pills. Injuries. Guns. Death. Blood. More gore.
Word count : 14k words.
Author's note : This chapter has been on my mind for weeks. Personally, I loved this chapter and it only took me about a week to write. Let me know if you enjoyed it! My asks and comment sections are always open <;3.
***
Boom
The blast she created explodes the whole of the warehouse as she watches from in front of it. A smirk slowly grows on her lips.
She's busting one of the biggest and worst drug rings in her city that has manufactured and distributed it in other developing countries.
They have framed innocents, labored children and young women and murdered them once the job is done, stole from the poor, bribed and threatened anyone who saw them, tortured a whole lot of innocents, and forced teenagers to buy their drugs and end up dying of an overdose because of them. They have gotten away with everything until now.
In the past, she tried to get them after her parents left but she didn't have any resources for that so she failed. She witnessed the damage they did on the people around her and to everyone else in this city. No one did anything about it because they were too scared. So, she wanted to help.
Now, she is helping. The drugs and their money are all burned. The police will be here soon to arrest the people once they wake up from the impact of her knocking them down. They have enough evidence for them to rot in jail for life. The entire police force has been trying to catch them for years. And she did it in a day.
She could do all this now just because of help from the CIA. She got strong intel from them, extra protection, a getaway car and a safe place to get home. She would've never been able to do this without all that.
She's very damn resourceful now. She's a lot stronger now, too. Because of training and lessons. And she doesn't even need to protect herself because she has two very dangerous men for that. She knew that joining the CIA would eventually have a lot of benefits. And this is it.
She drifts her eyes away from the burning building, her fingers reaching out to her comms inside her ears. She presses it but she doesn't hear anything. Must've gone off when she exploded the place. Again.
She sighs, rolling her eyes. They really need to get more advanced comms that could withstand a blast. It's happened four times now. It is starting to get annoying for her.
Out of a sudden, she hears two heavy footsteps approaching from behind and she immediately startles, clenching her fists before turning around and—
Lloyd widens his eyes and raises his hands. "Woah, relax. It's just us. Your comms are off again. We really need to get better ones." he complains while walking towards her with Six by his side.
She relaxes her face and her whole body. It's just them. She's glad it's just them. She really doesn't want to hurt anyone else today. She's very tired.
They're both so calm and composed. They're clean too, in their usual formal clothes for missions. Meanwhile her clothes are all dirty and a little blood here and there. Her hair's all messy too. She tied into a ponytail earlier but it's slowly getting out of it. She didn't dress up so she only wore some black pair of jeans and a black shirt. She knew it would get all dirty anyway.
She scoffs, chuckling. "Yeah, you think? Mission's done. I need a bath and a lot of food." Elle demands.
Six smiles at her and this is probably the first time he's ever smiled in a mission. He's always taken all his missions seriously and never once has he ever had the time to even think to smile. Technically, he didn't do anything in this mission but knocked down a few guys at the back entrance and then hid nearby. For him, that isn't really considered a mission for her. She did all the work mostly.
"Mission accomplished, huh? You wanted this, right? For years. And in just a day, you destroyed everything they have. You ruined them, Elle. You're fucking amazing." Lloyd praises her in a proud tone as he smirks at her.
He's so proud of her. Never been prouder. He trained her right. She followed every single order from him and the chief. She even talked to all the field agents. She really wanted this mission to work and it did. When she's ambitious about something, she'll always get it. She works hard for anything she wants.
Her lips stretch into a smile and nod. "Yeah. All thanks to you. And the CIA. The best part is, this is only the beginning. I will destroy every single thing like this that corrupts the city. I'm going to clean it up." she affirms, glaring up at them with an innocent smile like she isn't talking about murder and worse.
"And we'll be right beside you." Lloyd adds with a sinister smile on his lips. He finally found his match.
"That's nice. Not to interrupt this rare and seemingly creepy moment…but we gotta go. Like, now. The cops are almost here." Six breaks the news in a hurried tone.
"Why, you got a timer for that or something?" Lloyd asks him, frowning.
Six nods. "Yeah, I do. I have it right here on my watch. And it says we only have about three minutes." he replies, showing the watch on his wrist to them.
She gulps, looking at both of them with wide eyes. "Okay, let's go." Elle declares, immediately walking away from the crime scene with both men following her.
She's right. It is just the beginning.
***
The clear water makes tiny bubbles as her whole body slowly sinks inside the bathtub, drowning herself in the freezing cold water.
She holds her breath but doesn't feel suffocated. She feels relaxed. Calm. Better. She feels good.
These past two weeks, she accomplished a lot of things. She did everything right. She helped the city. This has been her goal since the very beginning she knew about her powers. After seeing the heinous corruption in her own city, she wanted to fix it. Sure, it has never affected her personally. Because she has always been inside a bubble.
Now, that bubble has popped. And she finally sees reality the way everyone else sees it here. Horrible. Cruel. Terrifying. But it is all real.
"Elle? Shit. Elle! Please don't be dead. I can't do this shit without you—" Lloyd enters his bathroom and obviously panics when he sees her drowning herself in his bathtub. He immediately rushes to her and kneels down beside the tub. His voice is all muffled to her but she could already tell that it's him.
She just wanted some peace and quiet.
Finally, she lifts herself up from the water and breathes again, bracing her arms on both sides of the tub. He looks at her with a concerned and worried face like someone killed his dog. He doesn't even like dogs. She scowled at him for interrupting her relaxing moment.
"I'm not dead, you idiot. It's physically impossible for me to drown. I'm just relaxing." Elle tells him.
Lloyd frowns and shakes his head. "Don't call me an idiot. You'll regret it. And you can't blame me for worrying. It was a damn sight seeing you drowned like that." His voice almost cracks.
She tilts her head and pouts. "Aw. You were worried for me. I'm glad to know that you care about me enough to not want me dead." Elle calmly says, that innocent smile tugging on her lips as she brushes her hair away from her face.
"I don't want you dead. You should know that by now." Lloyd states in a harsh tone.
The only time he's completely honest about what he feels is when he's angry or panicking. But seeing her like that really made him…vulnerable. Even if it was just for a second. It really made him realize just how important and valuable she is to him. Not just to the mission. He can't imagine doing all these boring missions without her. She makes it so much better. He has someone to come home to. He would lose his damn mind and sanity if he ever loses her. He still doesn't even get why he cares so much. He's never cared this much. He's always one to not give a shit about anyone or anything.
She nods. "I do. Just needed a little reminder." she pauses, realizing that if he's here in his bathroom then he was going to do something. "Oh, right. What were you doing here?"
He exhales, regarding her with a relieved look. "Trying to find you. Figured you didn't go to Six's bathroom."
"Yours is bigger." she answers, with a smirk. She's not just talking about his bathroom. His eyes look down at her naked body under the clear water. He observes her pretty neck and there's that necklace that he gave her, still attached onto her skin. She's never taken it off at all.
Lloyd lifts his eyebrows and matches her smirk. He knows she's in a mood for that right now. These past few weeks, she has been very active with him after every successful mission she did. It's like her secret kink or something. They've been doing it a lot. Way too much. Almost everywhere in the penthouse. But all of them are quickies. And it's not even the actual sex. They haven't had the time to relax and take their time while doing it. They've been too busy with all these missions. And they're both so focused on it. He's very disciplined when it comes to work. And she's always obeying orders in order for her missions to succeed. They're very serious about it.
"Tomorrow's the weekend. So, it means we finally get to have time for ourselves right?" Elle asks him in a whining tone, her eyes practically pleading and begging at him.
He hums in response, nodding. He rests his hands against the sides of the cold marble of the bathtub. Leaning forward onto her and their faces are so close that they could hear each other's breathing. "We have time tonight, too. You know, it's been a while since we're all together. Now, we're just taking turns with you. And it feels weird. I kinda hate it." Lloyd admits truthfully.
Her lips curve into an easy and calm smile before she leans against the tub and relaxes her whole body. "It is weird. I missed that time. Our first time. That was the only time. There wasn't a second time. But, I'm sure we'll have the time tonight."
"How is Six? I mean, in bed. Not how he's doing. I know how he's doing." He ends up rambling.
She bites her bottom lip and giggles. "You're nervous." she accuses.
He frowns. "No, I'm not. It was just a question." he defends. He is nervous.
She nods, taking a second to think. "Well, he's gentle. You saw it during our first time. He has kinks, too. Just not as much as yours or mine. And…he's slightly bigger than you. He's quiet. Doesn't groan or moan a lot like you." Elle tells him with a teasing tone while she listens in on his heartbeat — it's pounding and throbbing.
Lloyd tilts his head, growing even more interested in the conversation. She really matches his energy. He likes to tease and she does too. She knows how to fuel him. He hums softly as his hand slips into the water and reaches for her thighs, gripping them tightly.
She gasps softly and he watches her, amused. "Hm. What else?" He continues to play along with her game as his hand slowly moves up to her inner thigh. "What is his favorite position?" he asks.
He doesn't even know why he's asking specific questions about him. This is not just about her anymore. Maybe—just maybe, he's grown intrigued with the man. They have a deep connection, too. They know each other so well already. They both have never had someone this close before. A friend, a companion. Someone they could trust, to tell everything with and share anything. They're only willing to share her because it's not anyone else. In missions, they secretly trust each other enough to put their lives at risk for the other. They work together so well.
Elle sighs softly. "We don't go wild. It's more of a comfort thing. To help us sleep better. So like, he puts in and then we go to sleep. Or, we do it slowly and gently and eventually fall asleep. That's why I always sleep with him every night. I find comfort in him." she admits.
No. This was supposed to be a passionate and hot moment. Not some painful realization for him. But somehow, anyhow, he still feels deflated by how she doesn't feel comfortable enough or trust him enough to seek comfort in him. So he's just for the fun and wild and kinky sex. While Six does almost everything with her like what a couple does. He knows they're definitely not a couple. But they're so inseparable and share a connection that no one would be able to understand. They know what each other needs all the time and what they're always feeling or thinking. They often communicate with their eyes and their faces.
He kinda feels like a third wheel or an extra in their so-called partnership. He doesn't even know why he's fussing so much that he's not included in them. He didn't even want a relationship. He hates it. Having to be with someone for a long time, sharing every single thing with them, sleeping in the same bed with them every night and showering with them everyday. He hated it. Now, he's finding himself caring so fucking much. About them. About how they exclude him a lot and he'd like it better if he could do the things that they do too. But he'd never admit it out loud.
She frowns, tipping her head to the side. "You good? You blanked out for a second there." she asks, grabbing his hand and dragging it onto her clit as she moans softly. "What are you thinking? Some fantasies I'd want to know about? Maybe another kink? We could try something new. You could tie me up. Oh, or we could try it somewhere else new—"
Lloyd cuts her off, removing his hand from her and taking it out of the water. "Fuck, I forgot to tell you. We're going out for dinner after this. Six wanted you to pick a nice place. But preferably not the mall." he seriously says before standing up. By his tone, she could tell that he's not teasing her. He's actually serious. Something must've snapped inside of him, she thinks.
She opens her mouth, blinking confusedly. "W–what? We were in the middle of something, Lloyd. What the hell is wrong with you? I thought you wanted this as much as I do." She snaps.
He rolls his eyes, ignoring her whining. "You don't have to be dramatic about it. We could do it later. It's already 6pm, Elle. It'd be hard to get a table on a Friday night if we don't hurry up." Lloyd coldly says, avoiding eye contact.
She hates being called dramatic. It's called feelings and emotions. It's completely normal to feel that. At least for her. Not him. He doesn't feel all that. He can't.
She rolls her eyes, getting out of the tub, still bare naked and he doesn't even bother to look down at her like he usually does. He just stares into her eyes and his gaze bores into her. He can't tell her what's actually going on or what he really wants. He doesn't even know if he wants what he thinks he does. Perhaps it's just a momentary desire that's only going to last for today and he'll forget about it tomorrow.
She shakes her head in disbelief. "See, this is why."
"Why what?" Lloyd argues, scowling.
"The reason why I don't depend on you for everything. Why I haven't slept in your bed. Why I don't fully trust you yet. Why haven't we done anything more than stupid silly sex. You're not being serious about this. You think it's just a fun little game. That's why I haven't done all that with you. You know, in case you were wondering." Elle finally snaps, her tone harsh.
He frowns deeper. It's like she read his mind — she didn't. She's just been burying the truth inside her this whole time. Waiting for him to give her a reason to finally tell him. And he did. But she thinks he doesn't care about all that. He's fine with not doing all that with her. He's just in it for the sex and he doesn't want to do it with anyone else in this damn city.
Lloyd shakes his head, clenching his jaw. "That's not true, no. I—I do want that. Maybe, but—" he stammers. He's having a hard time trying to tell her what he actually wants when he has no clue about it.
She scoffs loudly, already proving her point. "Yeah, see. You're not even sure what you want. I could see it. You don't care that much about me or this or us. Not unless it concerns yourself or the sex." Elle accuses, sharply.
He exhales. "What's with that anyway? You wanted this shit. You were the one who proposed this to me two weeks ago!" Lloyd yells at her.
She scowls, scoffing again. "Fuck you, Lloyd. Really. Go fuck yourself. I'm tired of being your little sex doll. I want more, don't you get it? Everything I've fucking been through—it's the only thing I've ever wanted. Not just sex. It's what Six has been able to give me." She clarifies, her voice cracks.
"Well, I didn't sign up for anything more." Lloyd harshly retorts, earning another scoff from her.
She widens her eyes in shock, shaking her head. "Yeah, let's go to fucking dinner. I'm starving." Elle retorts back, grabbing a towel from the rack beside the tub and wrapping it around her. She turns away from him and starts walking towards the exit.
Lloyd slightly flinches as she slams the bathroom door, hard. It's all his fault and he knows that. He needs to fix this.
***
The car ride has been completely silent.
She told their driver where they're going, a chill restaurant a little far from here but at least it's not going to be crowded and it's a good place.
Lloyd focuses on his phone, distracting himself to not mess things up more with her. He already knows he needs to fix it, he's just trying to find the right time and place for that. Definitely not here and not now.
She brought a book with her to keep her mind off of him too. She doesn't want to be the one to fix everything. It's always what she has been to everyone in her life and she's tired of it. She's so sick of it. She wants him to fix it himself so she'll know that he's trying to be better, at least. She knows that he would usually not apologize or even try to fix it. But she's putting her hope in him this time.
Suddenly, Six looks down at the title of the book she's reading and chuckles. "New one? We haven't even finished the last one." he comments casually and that made Lloyd side glance them.
Before bed, sometimes, they read a book together. They almost share the same interests. She likes to read about moral life values, tragic romance, murder mystery and history. They'd just lay in bed with her head resting on his chest while they took turns reading it out loud, sleepily until they fell asleep. It's not exactly romantic but it's something they've never done before with anyone and it makes it special for them.
She puts down the book on her lap and darts her eyes at him, smiling lightly. "Yeah, sorry. I just saw this one at the bookstore and had to read it immediately."
Six nods quietly. "It's okay. We could start reading this one tonight, if you want." he offers.
Her smile widens. "Sure. I'd love that."
Lloyd turns to them. "Book club, huh? Didn't know you were into all that, Six." he teases him.
Before Six could even answer, she looked at him with a tired face. "We really love reading. Plus, it comforts me. A lot." she answers, bitterly. It may not sound bitter but he knows exactly what she's talking about.
No. He can't fight back. He can't retort. He needs to control his rage. Contain it so he could change and be better. Be the bigger person. That's what she wants him to be. Not the old Lloyd who'd just keep on arguing back with her and never stop until she gives up. He wanted to change for long, just never had a big enough reason to. Now he does. It's just up to him how to become better. If he's even capable of it, that is.
"We should do that too. I mean, all three of us. I like books." Lloyd says, his tone trying to convince himself and them. So far going well. He does like books, he just hasn't had the time to actually read them and enjoy it.
She stares up at him confusedly like he has two heads or something. She leans closer onto him, her fingers touching his hand to make sure this is real and she isn't hallucinating anything. It is real because he touches her hand back before intertwining their fingers together. She knows it's not exactly an apology but at least it's a start. It's progress. He didn't make it worse by arguing back. She was right to put her hope in him.
Her lips slowly turn into a relieved smile. "Yeah? What books do you like, then?"
"Anything. I'm good with any." he quickly replies.
She relaxes her face. "Okay. Good. Well, just to be clear, I prefer books written and made by women. I meant that objectively, of course." she cutely argues.
Lloyd's lips smirks and smiles. "Good. You know what you like, sunshine."
Elle nods. "Hope you do too. You know, the books. It's important to know what you want to make a decision…to what books you want to read." she softly advises, definitely not hinting about the books.
She isn't talking about the books and he knows that. His smile still lingers on his lips for her. She's the only main reason why he smiles. She doesn't even know that. She has no idea how wrong she was when she told him that he doesn't care that much about her. So wrong. He'd burn this fucking city down if anything were to happen to her while she was trying to save this godforsaken city.
Six remains clueless. But he doesn't mind, as long as they're not fighting or arguing again. He likes to see them happy. It's so much better this way. They both deserve it.
He rests his hand on her thigh before scooting closer to her and planting a soft kiss on her cheek. "Love this side of both of you." Six whispers really softly but they could both hear it.
They quietly smile in the darkness of the car while the city lights luminate on them.
***
At the restaurant, it's nearly quiet. It's almost romantic.
It's outdoorsy. Candlelight. Western food. Wines are served. Everyone who is here are either couples or a nice little family. It's not even loud here or crowded. This is probably the only not shitty and less chaotic restaurant they've ever been to in this city.
The chilly air sinks into their skin and for the first time in weeks, it's finally not humid anymore at night. They're seated at a nice quiet table on the third floor, in the balcony. There's not one single person here. More people downstairs. And Lloyd may or may not have booked this little balcony just for them. He wanted a quiet and calm place to talk to her properly.
She took a seat across from Lloyd with Six is between them. She ordered for them because she knows what they like already and what they prefer more.
They settle into their seats while watching the view of the city from up here. There's not much traffic here. Not too chaotic too. They haven't heard a single honk from a car or motorcycle or even people. It's an almost quiet part of the city. The rich part, to be more precise. She's never gone here before, only passing by it. She picked this place because she knew how good the reviews were for the restaurant and that Lloyd would probably want to eat at someplace where he could actually spend his money. This is also their first time in two weeks finally dining in a restaurant.
Lloyd gazes at her openly, silently admiring how beautiful she looks tonight. She's in a white slim crop top that doesn't show her full stomach and a short, pink flowy skirt. She didn't have the time to dry her hair from the bath earlier so it's still wet. Her lips are a little dry. Her face is bare too. She didn't put anything on because she really was in a hurry to not get here too late so they could have a table.
Sometimes, she's a little carefree when she wants to be. She doesn't care what clothes she's wearing or if she's wearing makeup or not or if her hair is neat and curled. She used to care about those little things. But now, she only cares about what makes her comfortable and feel good. That's more important for her.
"Hey…we need to talk." Lloyd breaks their peace. But it needs to be done. She knew this moment would come tonight anyway.
She turns her head to him from the view and nods. "Yes. We do." she softly agrees.
Six frowns, looking at both of them. "Why? Did something happen?" he asks them.
Lloyd glances at him. "We had a little fight in my bathroom earlier," he explains to him.
She sighs, leaning forward onto her seat to get closer to him. "Look, Lloyd, it was wrong of me to expect you to offer me comfort. I mean, I haven't even asked you if you wanted it too. In order for something to work better, two parties have to agree on it. I'm sorry…for being stubborn." she apologizes.
"I do want it. But I just don't want to fuck it up." He finally tells her the truth. It felt good, for once in his life.
She shakes her head, regarding him with a soft look as her hands reach his that is on the table. "You won't. If we do it right. Slowly. Baby steps." Elle suggests and he gives her a short and understanding nod, completely agreeing with her. Something he thought he'd never do.
"I still don't know what's going on here." Six interjects, glancing at both of them confusedly.
She looks at him. "I want to trust him as much as I do to you. I want him to comfort me like you do. Not just some fun here and there. So, we fought and—" she tries to explain.
Lloyd cuts her off. "And now we're solving it. Making progress. This is good."
She nods at him, her lips slowly forming into a smile for him. "You're making progress too, you know."
"I know. It's all for you." Lloyd bluntly confesses, the words coming out of his mouth even surprises himself and his tone is so much softer than usual. She is changing him. Slowly.
He knows he can't exactly completely change. That's impossible. He has been who he is since the beginning of dawn. There is absolutely no miracle that would magically change him into a better man or a better person in general. But he doesn't want to change himself. Not fully, at least. He could still hide the dark parts in him and show the necessary ones only. Almost like what Six has been doing with her. Hiding the real him under all the comfort he's giving her. He doesn't really offer comfort, he just gives her what she needs when she needs it. But in truth, he has no idea what comfort even is. He's starting to learn from her, though.
"We'll take it slow. But…we could start by finally fucking on your bed, for one. And not just on the couch, or my bed or the kitchen counter or against the window or the bathroom—" Elle teases him out loud before he cuts her off.
Lloyd breaks into a laugh. "Okay, okay, I get it! To be fair, those weren't actually the real deal. It was…silly shit that we did. But you didn't fucking deserve that. You're too precious to be fucked against anything that's not a bed." he admits, quietly staring at her.
She giggles softly, leaning her hand on her chin. "Hm. Yeah, sure. Actually, not just us both on the bed. But with you too, Six. I missed us. All three of us." she tells him, her eyes focusing on him only now.
Six's lips slowly form into a small smile as he gazes at her openly. He nods his head and holds her hand on the table. "Of course. I miss it too." He bluntly confesses and it's so rare for him to do this. He looks over at Lloyd for a split second and he gives Six a relieved look.
"Great! Now that our problem has been solved, I can finally talk about work." Lloyd annoyingly declares. It's not like he wants to talk about work either in this nice and peaceful moment, but he has to. He'll forget to tell them if he waits until they get home or tomorrow morning.
She groans, rolling her eyes as she darts her eyes to him. "Are you kidding me?"
He nods. "I'll be quick. I promise."
Six and Elle subtly gesture their head for him to continue on what he was about to say. Probably some announcement that Denny told him to pass it on to them. He's only ever talked to Lloyd or Six. Never to Elle. She just takes the orders. The guys do all the debriefs for her after every mission. She's sort-of relieved because she's a little intimidated by him and still has no idea why.
Lloyd clears his throat and she removes her hand from his. His fingers hold each other together, placing his hands almost professionally. She frowns, trying to figure him out. He's always somehow a mystery for her to crack. There are some things about him that she'll never be able to crack.
He looks into her eyes seriously. "Alright so, based on all the missions you've successfully done these past few weeks, Denny thinks you're ready for the bigger fish. The high class criminals. The ones that no one suspects. Not even the police. The real roots of corruption in this city. This is what you wanted, right?" Lloyd informs them but mostly to her. This is big news for her, he knew that.
Her face is puzzled. She's confused, a little relieved, a little happy but also a teensy bit scared and nervous. If she fucks it up, it would be bad for her and them. This is the real deal now. The big mission. The one she's thought about for months and months.
She blinks curiously at him, leaning closer towards him as her body touches the table. "So…where do we start? Like, corrupt politicians and mayors? Or…the wealthier people who control everything or what? And how do we even catch them? We can't put them in jail because no one knows about their crimes and we can't just send them the evidence—" her voice turns anxious quickly.
She's spiraling. She does this when she's both confused and scared. He thought that she'd be ecstatic with this news. He was the one who mentioned this first to Denny, to fry the bigger fish and he immediately agreed. He won't tell her that, though. He prefers to do things for her in private and not flaunt about it to her. He doesn't want her praise or approval. He just wants her to be safe and content. Even if she doesn't know anything.
Six tries to calm her down by stroking her hand. "Elle, it's okay. We can slow down if you want." he suggests.
Lloyd and him exchange agreeing looks and nods. "Yeah, we don't have to do it right away. It's up to you when you want it."
Elle gulps, shaking her head as she massages her temples. She looks at him in the eyes. "No, no, it's not that. I do want it now. I've been wanting it for a long time. I'm just asking, how are we going to do it?" she asks, glancing at both of them for answers.
He tries his best to say this as slowly as possible. "Well…we don't exactly put them in jail. If you want to get rid of something…what do you do?" Lloyd asks back for her to figure it out herself. He doesn't want to say the word out loud. It'll make it sound like he's the bad guy here.
She frowns first, thinking about his riddle for a moment before raising her eyebrows in shock and widening her eyes as it finally dawns on her. Kill. You kill them if you want them gone.
She gasps softly, shaking her head in denial as she leans further from him. "No. I'm not—no. I can't. There has to be some other way, Lloyd. I definitely did not sign up to just go and kill some people. There's too many of them." Elle lowers her voice, even though there's no one else here. Her voice almost cracks. She is terrified but she's trying to hide it from them.
Lloyd clenches his jaw, leaning towards her. "Bad people, Elle. People who don't even care about other people's lives. Innocent lives. Don't you care about all that?" he asks her back.
She scoffs. "Of course, I do. But I'm—"
He cuts her off. "No, it's fine, we don't have to do it if you don't want it. I'll just tell Denny that we'll stick to low class criminals and drug dealers." Lloyd says to her, not in a sarcastic way. He genuinely means it if she wants it that way. He doesn't want to push her.
Elle sighs. "No, don't. I do…want to try. But I need a little time. And I need to examine all their files first. If they have family or—" she anxiously says before he cuts her off again.
She's thinking with her heart again. She can't keep doing that if she wants to actually clean the city like she wanted to. She needs to stop pretending like everything's still normal. It's not. She works for the CIA for a living now. That's nowhere near normal. She doesn't have a normal life anymore. She threw that away three weeks ago when she agreed to be the CIA's weapon.
He shakes his head. "Don't think about that. They don't think about their family when they're murdering innocents. They'll never stop. Not unless you stop them first. I'm not into all the politics but I know that this is what you meant by cleaning up the city. Get rid of the corruptors, right?"
She looks at him unsurely before slowly nodding shortly. "Yes…you're right. I just need some time." Elle tells him, softly.
Lloyd nods, understanding. "And we'll give you that. We have all the time in the world." he assures her.
Six glances at her and she quickly turns to him as he gives her a small smile. "We do." he agrees.
They don't exactly have all the time in the world. They only have a few months and while that's going to be the longest they've stayed in one place before, it's still a short amount of time. Denny didn't specify when he said a few months. It could only be three months or four or five. And after that, they'll go their own ways and never see each other again.
But they don't want to be reminded of that fact. They just want to keep living in the moment. Even if it won't last long.
***
They've finally arrived back at the penthouse after enduring hours of horrible traffic.
Once they took their shoes off, Elle had immediately dragged all of them into Lloyd's bedroom and stripped them naked for her. She took control tonight, for the first time ever. And they let her.
She's almost distressed. She needs to make a decision as soon as possible about wanting to start killing the corruptors or not. She knows it's about catching the bigger fish and cleaning up the city. But she didn't think it was going to turn out like this. She thought that she could do it her way. But she was wrong. She doesn't get a say in this. No free will or whatsoever.
It was all a blur for them. They didn't even have any preparations or foreplay. She just went right in. She needed to forget about it for tonight. She just wants to feel good.
She's on top of Six already, sunk deep inside his cock while she rides him a little faster than usual. They've never been in this position before. It's always sleepy or shower sex. He's laid down on the bed and leans his head against all the pillows as he holds both of her hands on each side of him.
Lloyd is behind her, buried deep inside her ass as he fists her hair and bites her neck, leaving blood trails all over. He likes marking her even if it won't last more than a few seconds because of how fast she heals. But he knows she likes the temporary feeling of it. The slight pain that turns into pleasure for her.
He lifts his mouth from her neck down to her ears. "I didn't get to taste you yet, sweetheart." Lloyd grumbles, whispering into her ears as she continues to slowly ride Six's cock.
She rolls her eyes. "I'm not in the mood for foreplay, Lloyd." Elle retorts. Even during this moment, she can still talk back.
He brushes her hair aside. "Yeah, none of us really ever know what you're in the mood for. You're so indecisive." Lloyd chose the worst moment to pick a fight with her right now.
Usually, she'd argue back or forcefully pull his dick out from her but this time, she doesn't. She just sighs softly. "I'm also not in the mood to argue." she tells him, sternly.
Lloyd tilts his head to the side and smirks at her even though she can't see him. "Hm. New Elle. I like this side of you. It's so fucking hot." He groans, his dick growing harder inside her. He liked it a little too much.
His words made her realize something and she immediately shakes her head. "No. I'm not new. I'll always be me." she clarifies.
Lloyd frowns, noticing the sudden weird tone in her voice. It's like she was trying to convince herself that she won't ever change. He knows she'll change. Maybe once she starts agreeing to kill. He doesn't exactly want her to change, he likes her this way — bubbly, full of light, a little dark side but it's not shown. Yet. He could see it in her eyes every time she's done these missions. She enjoyed burning things down. Destroying everything. Blowing people up. Bad people. She liked doing a little bad to achieve something good. But she won't admit that.
He gets it now. She's been anxious the whole night so she's using them as a distraction or a coping mechanism. He's not going to say anything back because he's not exactly complaining. He wants her to use them. He's always been the dominant one in bed, the one in charge and the one calling the shots. But for her, he'd be anything she wants. And he definitely won't admit that either.
Six pulls her down closer to him and cups her face, kissing her sweetly on the lips as she continues to intensify the kiss. She rides him while still deeply making out with him and she pulls away a little from Lloyd's dick because of how close she's getting to the other man. He watches her arch her back and roll her hips, focusing on her movements instead to keep him hard.
He doesn't want to pull her closer because he can't ruin their cute moment. Even though he feels a little deflated by how she's never giving him her full attention during these kinds of moments when it's all three of them. And again, he feels like the third wheel again. Perhaps, it is true. Six and her were technically together already before he dived in and included himself in their thing — that's just what he thinks. He didn't include himself though. They both wanted him.
But before his intrusive thoughts could take over him, she breaks the kiss with Six and leans back onto Lloyd's chest again. She fists his hair from behind, hard.
"Fuck me like you hate me, Hansen." she whispers, slowly turning her eyes around to him.
Their eyes finally meet and the tension is thicker than ever. Their eye contact is always so powerful and intense and full of meaning. He knows what she needs right now. A rough fuck to help her forget everything for the night. He can do that. Six can't. He refuses to ever be any slightly rough with her. That's what separates the two men. The two things that she needs in her life and balance.
"As you wish, sunshine." Lloyd drawls as he begins to thrust his hips against her, sinking his cock deep inside her hole again in a fast and rough pace.
***
Six watches Lloyd fuck their girl harshly and aggressively like he hates her. Just what she asked for. But he could still see the intimacy in it. A hint of it. A shade. Nonetheless, still a hint and a shade.
He always fucks like he hates them. But this is different. He's giving her exactly what she wants. He won't do anything more that she doesn't ask for. She's still calling the shots, technically.
To his eyes, she's the only thing Lloyd cares about in this world. The world can burn for all he cares. Except for her. The one and only exception. He’d do anything for her from the least worse to the worst of the worse. There is not a single thing that he won’t do for her.
Six would do the exact same. She doesn’t even know that. At least not the entirety of it. She has no single clue about all the nasty and terrible shit they’d both do just for her or the hell they’d go through for her. It’s already like an instinct for them etched inside of their mind and body.
He studies and observes every movement from them as her tits jiggle and her necklace dangles because of Lloyd’s cruel thrust against her while he has his hand wrapped around her stomach. They almost fuck in sync, but nothing compares to Six and her. Both men have a different but special connection with her. It’s unexplainable to anyone else but them. They both fuck her according to her needs. If she wants comfort and soft sex, she comes to Six. But if she wants rough and kinky sex, Lloyd is the one she goes to. They always give her whatever she needs and whenever.
“Six. Fuck her. Don’t just lay there and watch. She can take two of us at once.” Lloyd demands, but he also wants to watch her have both of them at once, overwhelmed and overstimulated by the hands of them. He knows exactly what she needs right now. She needs both of them at this moment. Not just one of them like usual.
Six sighs, before looking over at her eyes for approval but she has her eyes shut already, too focused on her own pleasure. Lloyd noticed that, so he tightens his grip on her and pulls her closer to his chest until their skins cling and adhere to each other. His calloused hand goes up to her face and cups her chin, forcefully.
“Elle, open your eyes. Look at us.” he sternly orders and she slowly opens her eyes, immediately meeting Six’s eyes. He has a relieved look on him and a relaxed one, too. He’s glad that she’s getting what she wants. He’s content for her.
“Do you want us to fuck you at the same time?” Six softly asks her in a soothing voice.
She frowns at his words, blinking confusedly at him. “But we are already doing that.” She reminds him.
Lloyd rolls his eyes, his cheek touching hers before he stares into her eyes. “He means actual fuck. Not just this. He's not doing anything. I know you want us both, fucking you, right sunshine?” he asks her, holding her chin rougher as she's forced to meet Six's eyes.
She nods eagerly. “Yeah. Sure. I want it.” she drowsily says.
Six offers her a small smile as his hands squeeze hers as they've been still holding their hands this whole time. It's a sign for comfort. To tell her that she's still cared for even in this vulnerable moment. Though, she already let herself feel vulnerable around them before all this. He just likes reminding her that he's always here for her.
Lloyd's lips curve into a smirk, releasing his grip on her even though she was really enjoying the pain of it. “Good girl.” he praises her and she moans softly after he harshly pushes her closer to the other man. She bumps into his chest and braces her hands on his muscular shoulders.
Six frowns, abruptly sitting up and holding her head carefully. "Be careful, Lloyd. You don't have to be rough with her every time." he scolds him in a stern tone as his frown turns into a scowl almost immediately.
He tilts his head to the side and frowns. "But she likes it. Fuck, she loves it." Lloyd taunts and teases her at the same time.
Elle lifts her head and looks up at Six with those desperate eyes that he knows so well already. She needs this really badly. "It's okay, I can't feel pain, remember?" she murmurs softly.
His face softens when he finally looks down at her. He doesn't say anything, he just gently strokes her cheek with his hand. She leans into his touch as usual before lunging forward and crashing her lips into his in a hurried pace. He presses deeper into her lips, changing her pace into a slower one. He likes kissing her slowly. He can enjoy her lips and her taste better.
Lloyd sighs impatiently while he has to watch both of them make out first. They kiss way too much. Lloyd and her don't even kiss a lot. Most of the time, they only kiss to shut each other up or to muffle their moans. Not in an affectionate way or an intimate way. In truth, he's never kissed any other woman he's slept with before. He didn't like it. He hated it. Kissing was way too clingy and touchy for him. But with her, it's just…different. He can't even explain it.
"Ride me." Six whispers against her lips but it's so quiet and is quickly met with her soft giggling that even Lloyd can't discern what he's saying. He only hears something muffled.
Her lips stretch into a smile against his and she cups his head, leaning her forehead into his. She doesn't even say anything. She's actually speechless.
It's so fucking rare for him to say that to her. He doesn't even do the whole dirty talk thing in bed. With her or anyone else before. He just fucks. Not much talking from him. It was more of a request than a demand. He's been pretty submissive with her. He does always let her do anything with him and only does whatever she asks of him. She's in charge of him.
She laughs gently before pulling her lips away from his. Her smile lingers. "Fuck, I think that just made me even wetter."
Lloyd frowns again. "What'd he say?"
She shakes his head, brushing off his question. "Not important." she pauses, her hands moving down to cup his face. He's just looking up at her with a small smile on his lips, waiting for her to ride him. It turns her on that he's submissive for her. "Now, where were we?" she asks.
Rolling her hips again against his while she sunks her soaked cunt into his cock even deeper, her ass slipping away from Lloyd. Before it could even fully pull away, he forces himself inside her hole and she lets out the loudest moan they've ever heard. Her mouth forms a big 'O' as she braces her hands against Six's shoulder while her fingers dig into his skin. She can feel both of their dicks inside of her touching each other through the small barrier and her walls clenched around both of their lengths. It's an overwhelming feeling but she loves it that she's so drunk on it. She can't even think anymore — in which she wanted.
Six can feel his shoulders start to bleed a
little as her fingernails sink deeper. He may not like hurting her or giving her pain in bed, but he sure loves it when she does it to him. He likes it when she's rough with him. Because again, he's obedient. For her, only. That and he has a small pain kink. It's reasonable seeing as he experiences pain in every mission.
She lets out another moan as Lloyd keeps thrusting even quicker, making a repetitive clapping sound that echoes through the whole room and probably through the whole penthouse. She hopes the field agents downstairs don't hear this. The walls are pretty thin here. It's ridiculous considering how much it costs.
Elle lets herself get closer to Six, leaning her cheek into his as she nibbles on his ear, softly. She moans softly into his ears, "I wish I could moan your real name, Six." she whispers, coming out as a breathy moan. She's too drunk on their dicks.
She has never said that before. Never even crossed her mind either. She knew it was off-limits. She's aware that he's a gray man. A sierra. He's a shadow. He can't be known to anyone else. Especially his real name. Even Lloyd has no idea about it. Because there is absolutely no intel on him. Everything about him had been erased and cleaned. He's no one now.
And as much as he leans onto her and trusts her with his life, he will never tell her his real name. He can't. He won't.
But, she actually expected an answer. She thought that he could trust her enough with this in this sort-of vulnerable and intimate moment. It's not like she'll tell anyone. She has no one else but them. She just wanted the assurance that he does trust her enough with his deepest secret.
She moved her head to look at him properly and his eyes met hers. He stares at her like nothing happened and she didn't ask him anything. But she did. She's sure that he heard her and he did. He just chose to not say anything. To not answer her. It's not about trust or vulnerability for him. It's about restricted and classified information that he strictly refuses to tell anyone at all. It's a rule from him. His old name meant his old life and old him. He isn't the same person anymore. He's a completely separate and different one.
"Did you hear me?" she asks in a whisper.
He frowns confusedly. "What'd you say?" Six asks in a whisper, pretending to be clueless. But he isn't.
He lied.
Reality snapped her back like a wind. She isn't drunk on them anymore or hazy or drowsy. She's completely aware and awake now. Of everything. It's all coming back to her due to him. The decision she has to make, the coping mechanism she's using and Six lying to her, for the very first time ever. She thinks that he doesn't trust her that much. She was wrong all this time. She feels so stupid to think that she was special to him since she's the first woman he's ever been so close with in a long period of time. But then she realized that it was all just for the god-damned mission. Everything is. She's just a weapon. That's all she is. And a sex doll, as of now. Has this been for the mission as well, fucking her? To ensure her focus on the mission? To take control of her?
Her mind spirals over and over again until her head spins around.
She feels sick. She can't even focus. She doesn't feel pleasure anymore. All she feels is hurt and disappointment and discomfort. She felt dissociated from reality. It all became vague and blurry and time became quicker for her as they continued to fuck her in different rhythms. Both men came inside her but she didn't. Not at all.
They pulled out quickly soon after and she didn't even bother to lay down on Lloyd's bed first. She immediately told them that she needed to clean up so she climbed out of the bed and exited his room, still naked.
She doesn't feel used but she just feels dumb for thinking that sex would ever help her forget or fix her problems in the first place. It never did. She always does this. Even with her previous boyfriends. She used them for sex to help her forget everything. She never actually felt good or satisfied or better.
It just made her realize how pathetic and stupid her coping mechanism was. This never was supposed to be one, it was supposed to be something special and intimate, for the first time in her life.
But she was completely wrong.
***
She'd been standing under her shower for hours as the cold water kept running through her.
She's been closing her eyes, holding her breath while the water drowns her like always. But this time, it's longer than she's ever held her breath before.
It's probably almost midnight. Earlier, she could distinctly hear Six's footsteps entering his own room after she left earlier. She's a little glad that they didn't come here to check up on her.
She's not blaming them, though. It's not their fault that she felt uncomfortable in the middle of it earlier. It's her fault. She was spiraling in her head. Overthinking every single thing by herself. She's the problem in everyone's lives. It would be so much better for them if she didn't exist.
She used to attempt to kill herself back then, after her parents abandoned her. She tried almost everything that she thought of. But she was invulnerable to literally anything. It was pointless. She could never die. Never end her suffering or herself.
Finally, she turns off the shower and steps out of it. She drys and wraps herself with the towel as she enters her room. She grabs an oversized thin, white shirt and her panties from her small couch in front of her bed.
After putting her clothes on, she immediately jumps on her bed and collapses. She just wants to sleep this off. Forget about all this. She doesn't want to feel discomfort around them, she just wants to feel normal.
That's all she ever wanted.
***
Sleep didn't really take her over like she thought it would.
She isn't used to sleeping alone anymore. There was always him beside her, comforting her to sleep. Sometimes, she didn't even need him to do anything, she just needed him to be there for her.
But now he isn't.
So she lays awake in her bed, staring at the midnight view of the city through her huge window next to her. It's extremely late already yet the city is still alive and wild. She could still see a damn traffic going on down there and a lot of people walking around.
Her mind starts to wonder about the sleeping pills that Lloyd offered her two weeks ago. She never took them. She's thinking about taking them now. However, that would mean coming into his room and interacting with him. He would definitely ask some questions and interrogate her on why she's not sleeping beside Six like usual.
Though, he didn't even go into her room earlier. Now she begins to wonder again. Maybe he wanted some space for himself after all that. But perhaps, it also could've been because of her question that he avoided and pretended not to hear. He just feels very confused on what to do with her. He thought that this question would've never popped up. Now that it has, he can't answer her even knowing that she wanted a real answer.
She gathers her courage before attempting to crawl out of her bed but stumbles her feet on the carpet on the floor. She curses softly, ignoring what just happened as she walks as slowly as possible to step out of her bedroom.
But right at the moment her hand was about to pull her door handle, she heard Six's bedroom gently open from across and then his footsteps approaching the kitchen.
Shit. Not now. Fuck.
She was trying to avoid him just like he was avoiding her question. She doesn't want to start an argument or a fight with him. He's not Lloyd. He won't fight back. It won't be much of an argument without the other one fighting back. And she just wants things to go back to normal with him. She likes having him with her. She could forget about all this and—
Yet, her mind is still itching for those answers. What is his real name? Why can't he tell her? Does he not trust her that much? Why doesn't she know anything about him until now? Why is he so closed off with her? Why did he pretend to not hear her before? Why can't he let himself fully trust her even though they've been together for three weeks? Does he prefer to just not say anything this whole time to avoid telling the truth so he's not exactly lying? Why would he do this to her knowing that she's scared of getting lied to and betrayed?
So many questions in her head. Too many of them. It gives her a headache. Her head almost hurts just thinking about all these unanswered questions. Maybe, this was the reason why she couldn't fall asleep.
Her hand finally pulls the door handle and exits her room without a thought. She needs answers or she's going to be crazy.
She stalks into the kitchen and sees Six in front of the fridge wide open. He's casually drinking a cold water bottle while leaning his ass on the countertop. He doesn't like to drink a lot of things except for water. He's very plain. She knew that.
He noticed her approaching and his face softened. "Hey. Why are you still up?"
Is that even a question? The main reason she can't sleep is because of him.
Elle stops to stand beside him, ignoring his question. She stares up at his eyes and just realizes how tall he is compared to herself. His eyes fall down to her body, trying really hard to not focus on the fact that she's only wearing her black panties and her thin shirt showing her nipples and her breast clearly. He's seen all of her but yet it still turns him on when he sees the slightest part of her like this. He never felt this way about anyone. He didn't used to like those things because he thought it was just a human body part
"What was that?" she asks him, simple and short. Didn't want to get too emotional.
Six frowns, confusedly. Now he's forced to think about what she's talking about when she's almost half naked like this in front of him. He can't focus, for the very first time in his life.
"What was what, Elle?" he asks, his eyes still wandering her body. He's attempting to fight the urge in him to just pull her in and fuck her again right here. He's not impulsive, though. He's calculative of his every action. But he's making her think about being astray from how he is.
She sighs. "I asked you a question. I know you heard me. I was whispering in your ear. There was no way that you did not hear me at all." Elle confronts him in a calm tone. She's trying to contain herself. She doesn't want to yell or get angry. Not with him. He doesn't deserve that.
Oh. She's talking about that now.
Six tips his head to the side, frowning. "You know I can't answer that question." he flatly replies.
"Why not? You don't trust me?" she quickly accuses.
He shakes his head in denial. "It's not that. It's really not. I swear." he swears but he still can't tell her why and it's bugging her. She can't walk away without a single answer from him.
She huffs frustratedly, already tried of this.
"Then what is it? Tell me, Six—oh my god, you realize how ridiculous that sounded? We've been together for three whole weeks yet I don't even know your real name. I call you by a fucking number code nane made by the CIA but that's not you. You're not Six." She doesn't raise her voice but her words are sharp.
He looks away from her before turning his eyes to her again. He subtly nods. "Yes, I am. I am Six." he coldly says.
She frowns, shaking her head. "No. Stop. You're not. You're so much more than just a nameless agent who isn't supposed to exist." she sternly states. "You're not a gray man to me." Elle whispers the last part, ending up being a confession to him.
He's really not. She doesn't see him as Sierra Six. She sees him for who he actually is inside because she got to know him these past weeks living with him. She doesn't judge him for what he does. She knew he didn't have much of a choice. She knows him better than anyone in this fucking world. That's why she's so confused as to why he doesn't trust her enough to know his real name.
Her confession leaves him speechless as his heartbeat starts to pick up, swallowing thickly as his eyes drowsily look up at her face with pure desire. He never even thought that there would be a possibility of having someone like her in his life one day. She has no idea how grateful and appreciative he is of her. He thought he didn't deserve someone like her or to have the life they have right now.
When he doesn't answer her at all, she scoffs gently and drifts her eyes from him to the living room beside them. She lets herself think for a moment. And she parts her lips as realization dawns on her. Her spiraling mind might just be right this time.
"Maybe, we went too fast. Maybe this was all a mistake." Elle softly said what it was on her mind just a second ago. Her eyes are still refusing to look at him so she could think clearly.
And there it is. That fucking doubtful mind of hers. The only toxic thing about her. She over analyzes everything and then stresses out about it. She's not always right. She could be wrong, sometimes. But what she's saying right now doesn't even make sense. She's just very anxious. Six lying to her earlier piled up the problems in her head that she had to think about. It triggered her. She wanted to forget but then he brought her back to reality.
Six furrows his brows, studying her as he takes a step forward to her while he closes the fridge door. "Don't say that. It's not true." he quietly says, shaking his head.
She finally looks at him again and scoffs softly, stepping forward. "But it is. I mean, we barely knew each other when we just decided to be…together or whatever this is." she waves her hand between them. "A day. One fucking day that it took us to make that instant decision. I didn't even know you, Six. I still don't." she snaps.
He shakes his head again. "No, you do. You know me better than anyone. I meant that, Elle." He does mean it. But it's not enough. Words are never enough.
She sighs. "You know everything about me but I know nothing about you. Just that you're a classified assassin for the CIA and how you were in prison before you got recruited. That's it. I don't know anything about yourself." she sharply says, still not raising her voice.
"You know enough." Six states, firmly.
She frowns, tilting her head to the side. "What? What does that mean?" she asks.
He lunges forward and closes the gap between them as he looks down at her with a soft look. "No one else knows this much about me but you. I wasn't supposed to do this. Not like this. Not with you. This was unexpected but I don't think it was a mistake." he explains, sincerely.
Elle looks down and he could tell that she's so tired. She looks exhausted and he's still not answering her question, not helping her at all. She knows he meant what he said but that still doesn't change anything. She just knows parts of him that he let her know. Small tiny parts. Not the whole of it.
"What's your name, Six?" she repeats her question, her eyes glaring back up at him.
Six gulps nervously, suddenly turning his eyes from her. He doesn't have an answer for her. There are also no other words that he could say to stop her from questioning him and forgetting this. She needs a direct answer. Not anything else. He knows that.
"I can't give it to you." he hardly says, his voice so low and his tone is soft.
She nods, scoffing while she steps away from him. "Yeah, okay. I'm gonna go to bed because I haven't slept since earlier. Also, I didn't come. I couldn't think at all after you ignored me. You may not lie to my face, but you just chose to not say anything, to be quiet. It's just the same, Six." Elle snaps, her voice still low but her disappointment is visible through her words.
She's hurt. Again. Not exactly surprised. She always gets hurt, no matter what. She was just stupid enough to think that this time would be different. It's not.
Six sighs softly, his eyes observing her. He's a little taken back by the fact that she didn't come. Because he's always made her come. Every single time. There is not a time when he didn't. Even when they fell asleep while doing it, she still came before she slept. They both did. He always made sure she did first. But this time, he didn't. He wasn't too focused on her earlier. He thought that she was enjoying it as much as he did. He usually checked up on her every second.
Now, he feels bad. He actually feels real pity and guilt. Something he's never actually felt before in his life. There's something else too in this emotion of his. He cares so much for her that he can't stand to see her like this, hurt. Because of him and there's nothing to do to help her.
"Elle, let me help you sleep. It's the least I can do—" Six tries to offer softly.
She cuts him off. "No, I'm good. The least you could do was tell me the truth." she retorts, harshly but at least she's honest.
He doesn't say anything. He has no words to say anymore to make her feel better, that isn't going to be a lie. She just wants the truth. Though it's really not that simple for him.
He lets her walk away from him and he watches her slowly disappear into the hallway. Meanwhile, he just stands there as he contemplates on what he's just done to her. He wasted the one thing good in his life that wouldn't come twice. He knew that sooner or later this would happen anyway. Nothing good ever lasts in his life.
While walking back to her room, her eyes turn to Lloyd's room. She knows there's no other way for her to sleep without someone beside her or without those sleeping pills he talked about. She needs him right now. Not Six anymore.
Without thinking twice, she turns around and steps towards his room. She doesn't knock. She just slowly but softly opened his door, making sure not to startle him. She can hear his stable heartbeat and his quiet snoring. He snores a lot. She knew that because of how many times she’s heard him snore distinctly from her room every night.
She let herself inside his bedroom, gently closing the door behind her. Walking to his bed, her eyes examine Lloyd asleep and comfortable as she just realizes that he’s sleeping naked. He’s covered in his cozy, white blanket. She crouched down on him and got near his face.
“Lloyd. It’s Elle.” she whispers to him, slowly sitting down on the extra space next to him.
She waits for him to wake up, but he doesn’t. She forgot that he isn’t a light sleeper like Six is. He’s different.
Her hands carefully reach out to his hair blocking his face as she brushes it aside. Her soft fingers caress his skin and she studies him. She's never been this closed up before. Not in a calm situation like this where he's asleep.
"Lloyd. I need you." she slightly increases her voice.
Finally, he stirs in his sleep and moves his body to her direction. He opens his eyes slowly and sleepily looks up at her. It takes a minute for him to register what's going on and to digest that she's in his room right now. He thought he was dreaming.
He frowns slightly. "What are you doing here?" Lloyd asks in a weak whisper.
She parts her lips and runs her hands through her hair. "I couldn't sleep. Um, where are those sleeping pills you told me about? I need them. And you, I guess." she demands softly.
He blinks confusedly. "What happened with Six? I mean, is he okay?" he genuinely asks her in a soft whisper.
She nods. "He is. We just had a little argument. Can I sleep here? With you?" she desperately asks in a begging tone.
Lloyd just weakly hums in response before gently pulling her into the bed while he scoots over to leave space for her and spreads his blanket on her too. She lays down with her back faced to his naked chest and his arms wrapped around her body.
Elle looks at him from behind. "Pills?"
"Drawer. Blue bottle. Take five." he answers, sleepily before closing his eyes again.
She reaches her arm out to the nightstand beside them and opens the drawer with her hand. Without even looking, she grabs the bottle of pills from it and takes it out before closing the drawer.
Slowly, she sits up from her position and manages to remove Lloyd's hands from her. Opening the cap, she pours five pills onto her hand and swallows it all without any water.
She puts down the bottle back on his nightstand. Laying back down on the bed, she takes his hands and places them around her body. She leans into his touch and slowly relaxes, already feeling the little effects of the pill. She'll take what she can get even if it's just a tiny amount.
"Feeling sleepy already?" he asks her, opening one of his eyes.
She gently shakes her head. "Not yet. A little bit more relaxed, though." she replies.
Lloyd hums. "Told you." he whispers.
She nods, moving down to kiss his hand. "Thank you. For this." she thanks him.
Lloyd fully opens both of his eyes. "What happened? With Six and you?" he softly asks.
"I'll tell you tomorrow morning. For now, I'd really just like to fall asleep." she tells him.
"Okay. Night." he murmurs faintly before closing his eyes again, shifting to sleep.
She closes her eyes, pushing herself closer onto him as their skins clung into each other again like earlier. She could feel all of him against her back. He's completely naked and vulnerable now. He let her sleep with him. He's never done this with anyone before because he liked his personal space. He didn't like sharing it. But with her, he doesn't mind.
This wasn't supposed to be like this tonight. They wanted to take things slow and not immediately jump right into sleeping on one bed together. But because of her small fight with Six, it brought both Lloyd and her closer. Somehow.
Apparently, their fight had a little benefit to it.
***
They've slept for what felt like a few hours.
Until Lloyd's phone had rang a million of times beside his nightstand and he had to eventually pick it up.
It was Denny, telling him that some of the dealers from the drug ring they had caught yesterday, escaped from prison and is currently robbing the nearest hospital while taking all of them hostage. Patients, nurses, doctors, surgeons, anyone who stayed the night in the hospital. The local police can't fix this. Only she could.
It is still four fucking am in the morning. This is complete torture. For all of them.
Elle groaned from the bed, not wanting to get up at all while he kept trying to wake her up and tell her what's going on.
"We need to do this. It's our mess. We need to fix it ourselves." Lloyd says responsibly as he quickly puts on his clothes beside the bed.
He had thrown her some of her clothes that he randomly grabbed from her closet earlier. It was some black leggings and her thin pink sweater which he knew was her usual favorite one. It's right beside her on the bed now.
He leans down on her face. "Elle, get up. There are hostages inside that damn hospital. You'll kill me if you find out that I let you sleep this off." he makes a point, raising his voice to wake her up more.
She shoots her eyes open and he sighs in relief. "What happened again?" she asks, their faces an inch apart.
"Those dealers that you caught yesterday, busted out of jail and they're robbing the hospital now. Holding a bunch of hostages. It's our job to fix it since we caught them in the first place." Lloyd explains to her.
"Wait. What hospital?" Elle asks, getting up from the bed as she starts to casually undress in front of him. She grabs the clothes next to her and quickly puts them on her.
He steps back from her to give her space. "The nearest one. You went there a few weeks ago with Six, I think." he tells her.
She nods before realizing something. "What? That's the hospital my best friend works at. She…she's still there. She always works until the morning." she realizes and she's all dressed now, facing him with anxious eyes. He saw that in her eyes almost immediately.
Lloyd sighs, stepping closer to her and her eyes look up at his. "Hey, don't let that compromise you, okay? We'll get there and you focus on catching them. Alive or not." he firmly tells her in a soft tone.
Her eyes widened. She just woke up and she's already panicking. "What? No. I haven't—" she nervously starts.
He cuts her off. "We don't have the time to wait for your decision, Elle. You need to do what you have to do right now. We'll get the hostages. Don't focus on them. Focus on those idiots." he sets it straight for her.
Six enters his bedroom hesitantly after he hears her voice but he had to come in anyway. "Hey. Are we going to go downstairs to prep?" he asks him casually.
She turns around to him and says nothing, just looks down. He does too. They don't have anything to say to each other anymore and their eyes refuse to look at the other. They need to focus on this mission instead.
Lloyd glances at both of them, knowing that they had a fight a few hours ago. He looks over at Six and nods. "Yeah. After that, we'll leave immediately. We're bringing the rest with us, too." he informs.
Elle turns to him. "Okay, then. Let's go." she announces and they all walk out of there.
***
They're all gathered together in the first floor of the penthouse, listening to Lloyd's instructions while the agents prep all of their weapons.
"Alright, listen up. Main priority is those fucking guys. Elle catches them while we get the hostages out there, safely. We need to be discreet as well. The local police are swarming the area." Lloyd orders everyone as they all nod their heads.
"And what if we get them before she does?" One of the field agents challenges her while giving her a bitter look.
She knows none of them have really liked her since the beginning. She's the most valuable weapon to the CIA and she gets to do anything she wants because of it. She gets a free pass while everyone else has to follow the rules. But that isn't true. She doesn't do whatever she wants. She still obeys every order she's given. They only think that way due to what happened in that lab and how her crimes were all just forgotten.
They only follow Lloyd and Six. Maybe because they're all men and those two men have quite a reputation in the agency. So they're scared of them and idolizes them, too.
Six looks over at the agent, giving him the side eye and so does Lloyd. They clench their jaws, not wanting to get violent on how this man talks about their girl. She could blow his head off in a second.
She frowns confusedly at him, tipping her head to the side. "Well, then good for you? This isn't a competition. This is an emergency mission. But saving the hostages has to be the main priority. They're just innocents. Mostly are sick people." Elle declares, looking over at Lloyd to tell them.
He turns to her and nods. "Yeah, she's right. Save the hostages first, no matter what. And if we weren't in such a hurry, I'd shoot you just for the way you talked about her. Mind your fucking mouth." Lloyd scolds the agent, his index finger pointing at me and he nods, looking down.
She glances at him and she wishes she could smile at him right for how he defends her. He usually doesn't. He heard a bunch of whispers about her but never did anything. She understands why. He can't make it seem too obvious about their relationship or whatsoever. It's not exactly allowed in the CIA. But they're not officers. They're both valuable assets. They could do whatever they like.
"Alright. Can we go now?" Elle asks him.
Lloyd nods at her. "Yeah. Let's move." he announces loudly to everyone before they all do what they're told.
All the agents left to go to the elevator first before Lloyd, Six and Elle take the next one. The guys bring their chosen weapon with them along with a bulletproof vest attached onto their body already. They're both behind her, like always. She anxiously stares up at the numbers of levels, impatiently.
As the three are all inside the elevator, waiting for it to go down as usual, Six suddenly reaches out to her arm. She turns around to him with a confused look.
"Hey, I know we haven't quite resolved our problem yet but…be careful out there. This mission seems risky. We didn't have a lot of time to prepare like usual. I have a bad feeling about it." Six softly admits to her.
She slowly nods. "I will. You too."
Lloyd shortly looks at both of them. They both care for each other even when they're still fighting. It's such a deep connection and bond that they have. It's so rare.
"I agree. Be safe. I know I said catching them was the main priority but if you saw something was off, get the fuck out of there immediately." he suggests.
She simply nods at them, thinking that this would be easy for her. Nothing will go wrong.
***
Perhaps, Six was a little right.
A mission this dangerous and haste is way too unpredictable to prevent anything that could go wrong. No preparations, no proper plans and no safe extractions. It was bound to fail.
Because it did fail.
She had made a quick plan to break one of the doors at the back entrance, leading to the emergency room which was completely empty already. Surprisingly.
She ordered the agents to save the hostages who were all held up in the lobby. They climbed through the window and went in. Yet, there was only one man who was with the hostages. They didn't know where the rest were. It was supposed to be three men.
Lloyd and Six cautiously followed her from behind but she stayed far ahead of them, making sure that the threat wouldn't attack them first. But she isn't as good as them, in terms of ambushing the enemy and staying alert.
It was a horrible mistake. A terrible error.
The armed dealers already had their guns in their hands, ready to shoot whoever was coming. She had heard them but she wasn't quick enough to attack first.
She was the first who got in front of them so they shot her. Continuously and non-stop. Until all their bullets had run out.
She collapsed on the floor. There were way too many bullets inside of her. She was in so much pain to the point that she couldn't even feel anything anymore. It began to be all muffled and distinct for her. The world suddenly felt unreal to her.
She closed her eyes. She didn't want to feel this kind of pain anymore. She just wanted it to all go away.
Six's first instinct was to shoot those two men, calculatively till they dropped dead. Lloyd's instinct was…well, he was completely frozen while watching her dying body on the ground.
There was no other hope for her. She was dying. She was unsalvageable.
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